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villainship · 1 year

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[Answering OC/creator Qs]

Questionnaire time -- from this post!

I don’t wait for asks I just Go.

Who was your first ever OC? Do you still “use” them? How have they evolved over time?

Arilla Raikari - my self-rep, “self-insert” (sort of). She’s my namesake/icon most places online. But when I originally invented the chara it was like. . . online self-larping in a chatroom. Ranieh (who is Arameis in SWTOR) was more of a “this is a /character/” OC who came soon after that.

I have not retired the RPing of him like I did with Arilla. She exists in the form of a story w/ all my own characters.

Who is your newest OC? Why did you make them?

ah Oh No. . . . the other day I invented a character for a SWTOR fic (that will never appear here). That hardly counts -- but I did name him. . . Well, /professionally/ his name’s Sivega Syrex. His identity is ‘Sexy Nautolan’ (& his profession is. . . essentially the same).

Biggest self-insert OC?

See again: Arilla

What kind of music do your OCs listen to?

I have playlists which--in some cases--reflect what they might listen to if they had “our world” songs.

What are some of your OCs biggest fears?

-- A question outside the scope of what I’m answering here (too many OCs)

Do you have any OCs without stories? Will you ever create one for them?

Usually no. Like--I wouldn’t call them my OC. . . If there’s an almost-character with a design & a name, they might be picked up & put into stories sometime. . . That’s when they reach character status. (Of course I do have some that have very /un-detailed/ stories, b/c story is hard.)

What are your favourite relationships between your OCs? (romantic or platonic!)

huehehehh. Soooo many. . Most of all it’s a combo of me & Dani’s OCs. The Villain Siths & their ENTIRE network of family/apprentices/nemesises/etc. Kallir&Keran shipping (waahhhh the boyfs). The Bounty Hunter Gang. Smuggler Squad. ~ their weird found families (that I want to see meet up and fight but in a fun way). Every relationship of my OCs to my friends charas. RP / hashing out chara stuff is so good. (Mheera--not my OC-- & Kallir. . . the AU where they are unhealthy Best Friends is a gr8 platonic one. Also with Vensys in there to make it extra codependent. . . Love that.)

Oldschool w/ my original classic OCs, one of the most essential & ~enriching~ relationship dynamics is Evil Wizard TD and his son who he tries to raise to be Evil. (Lukar KINDA doesn’t want to be evil, and /definitely/ doesn’t want to be TD’s son.) They’re a mess. But also there’s Ranieh & his fam. . . and my original classic OTP of Arilla & her love interest (Rani’s older bro). <333 All special to me.

Do you have any OC family trees?

Primarily: TD likes to get married and start a family (and load them with psychological baggage). But also Ranieh has got notable family members (esp in the original classic story).

Those ones are like ~3 layers deep~ and connect the most to other ‘main chara’-type OCs.

Favourite OC?

. . . for years I could easily say it was Lukar (still partly true) but of late I have been overtaken w/ feelings for his brother, thanks to this Star Wars AU. . . That is Kallir (Malith), who I still think of as his little brother, even tho they are completely unrelated in their SWTOR forms. (It’s about where/how they were Conceptually born, & the ‘brain smart/social development dumb; idiot brothers who do bad things but it’s not really their idea and all they really want /so badly/ is love from someone’ soul connection.)

but also: every OC is my favorite.

OC you most struggled to make?

Idk if I could say one on an overall level, but NAMING Zahied took me like two years. . . and I guess also his design took a while (well after I had decided he would exist) so. . I’ll point at him.

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When did you start considering yourself a writer/artist?

In highschool -- when I did nothing but draw in every spare moment at school, & did nothing but RP online in every spare moment at home.

What are all the “kinds” of writing/art you do? (short stories, poetry, screenplays, digital, painting, clay, etc.)

I sketch w/ pencil. Used to RP in a quick ‘n light format. . . Now I write short fics b/c I have no RP going on and I need an outlet.

Are you in any writer/artist groups? (Ex: discord server!)

Mostly keep my sharing among my friends. But there are art & fic channels on the SWTOR tumblr Discord I help mod. . . every so often I re-post what’s here (on tumblr). I may, at times, put a fic or two there that I wouldn’t put here.

Do you have/want a career in your medium? If not, what do you do/want to do instead?

I used to want to. I have made some money off of drawing. . . but too many brain problems to be self-sustaining as an artist.

What’s your favourite genre to write? Is it also your favourite genre to read?

Might be the same. I write relationship-centric and character-perspective stuff (In Space, right now--sometimes in other Fantasy settings) & I like it Complicated but with some humor and good moments of triumph & of people loving one another very intensely. (. . . Or sometimes loathing. That’s good too.)

What are your favourite books?

A couple of my fav series lately to read have been The Locked Tomb & the Imperial Radch books. I also have been a Lord of the Rings fan since I was young.

What are your favourite movies?

Recent fav: Everything Everywhere All At Once. thx for all that crying. That movie was so emotional. Characters in it: so precious. Other favs: The Princess Bride. The Mummy. (hello. I am a Bisexual.)

Favourite songs at the moment?

omg I HAVE listened to songs lately. uhh -

There’s The Anchor (Bastille), which I linked the other day for Zahied & Nathuur. 8′) . . . and Oblivion (Royal Blood) which is a Zahied & TD song. lmaoo.

Kallir’s 3.5 hr playlist summed up in two songs: Get Out Alive (Three Days Grace) & Free (Mother Mother)

And The Way You Used To Do (Queens of the Stone Age) is a new one I’m into b/c it’s for TD & Cianna.

What was your first fandom you were in? Did you make any art/fanfic for it?

Pokemon, basically. I have indeed drawn a bunch of Pokemons in my time--and humans of the Pokemon world (and a few furry-type characters in between). Arilla is technically a Pokemon fan character.

How are you doing? <3

Not suuuper great, but thanks for the Questions ~

#ask meme #about me: r #raikari post

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dendrochronologies · 3 months

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maya angelou saying the funniest thing anyone has ever said about editing, which i can never let myself forget EVER AGAIN [x]

#OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT? DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN. IF YOU DO I WILL NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN.#i used to think about this interview all the tiiiiime i can't believe i let myself lose track of it!!!!!!!#maya angelou #FAVE #editing #*r #god i've read this a thousand times and i still laugh every time it's so GOOD #'OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT. DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN'#notifications are off for this besties 💗#i will eventually turn reblogs back on but 20k notes overnight was a little too much pls slow down ✋️#also pls do not follow me unless you are desperately in love with me. i can't make silly little personal posts with so many of you here!!!!

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suiheisen · 5 months

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fascinated/horrified by this set of tweets…

#the thing about these tweets is the absolutely rancid entitlement in them and then the attempt to justify it #'keep up a charade that the floor is clean' do you... not clean your house? do you not mop the floors??????????#anyway. are you americans okay???#specifically…. are white americans ok????#is the right to keep your shoes on also written into your constitution?#also the getting sick is 99 per cent random tweet is giving me brain damage #anyway. nobody is coming into my home with their outside shoes on #and if the feel of your bare feet on the floors i clean almost every day is so revolting to you #we have inside shoes?????#polls #*r

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inkskinned · 7 months

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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.

three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.

two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.

their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.

one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.

i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.

i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.

and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?

you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.

a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.

someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.

#writeblr #warm up #this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru #but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist #ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work #part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just #like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r #ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week #this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism #imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY #''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''

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cath-lic · 2 months

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“god created them male and female” WRONG. CURSE OF GALATIANS 3:28 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️‼️‼️‼️‼️

#i’m always talking abt Galatians 3:28 #could not care less about what other biblical gender binary u wanna throw at me #we r all one in christ jesus amen.#trans christian

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caruliaa · 1 year

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staff still hasn't given me polls, what should i do?

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their moms 69%

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their dads 31%

grace image os i get to look at her

#edit: edited the og post to what i want but to set the record straight i edited to the post to be mathematically correct right after the #first person pointed it out which was like ten mins after i posted the og post. now fuck offf !!!!! the rest of the tags r from the og post #for some reason i feel very immature making your mom jokes about tumblr staff. which i shldnt !!#bc they suck nd they still havent given me polls. but i ig i feel imature bc it a your mom joke 😭 but still i tihnk its kinda funny #EDIT: edited the post to what i want bc yall were getting annoying . but to set the record straight i edited to post to be mathematically #also its *mum* not mom okay i am NOT !! an american . but if i say mum everyone will j be like 'omg british' like i dont know i am #anyway. i want polls please. give me the rigght to force my mutuals chose between the most inane things #also i tihnk it wld b cool for the cs weekly blog. like w each episode #i cld do a poll of like. out of five stars what do u think of this ep #and it wld b a cool thing of which eps r ppls faves #also i cld have like. whose ur fave in team red whos ur fave in acme etc #id prob just have to go with vile faculty bc theres more than 10 ppl in vile. and ppl wld kill me if i didnt include nel the ell or whoever #it wld b fun !!!#oh btw csweekly thats i thing i want to start. prob on uhhh the 11th of feb ill post abt it more but its basically #a tag/blog for watching cs one ep a time watching one ep every saturday #ya !! :3 #flappy rambles #inaccessible #ask to tag #(<- idk. just in case)

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pinkgibbon · 22 days

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anton chigurh goes to stardew valley

#every1 in the notes asking me why I made this 🙄 art isn’t about why! it’s about why not! why don’t you marry safe art if you love it so much #i got a better shirt for him eventually but i dont have a pic of it #roleplaying as him was the only way i was finally able to bring myself to do joja route #no country for old men #stardew valley #i like to think of him as being magically stuck there for an indeterminate amount of time and trying to survive w/o murdering the whole tow #anton chigurh #marnie stardew valley #i better not see ANY marnie slander!!!#how do u tag them #stardew valley marnie #sdv marnie #morris stardew valley #sdv morris #stardew valley morris #i was not gonna romance anyone obviously but i really enjoyed drawing that pic of him w morris so i got the marry morris mod and it is so #goddamn funny. just the idea of. anton chigurh x morris. me and friends r having the time of our life with it. i even made fanart.#which i may post later if i feel like it #my art #fanart #ncfom

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tmascfaggot · 7 months

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man. sometimes it seems like a lot of subs forget that being a dom/playing a dominant role is a lot of work. it's a lot of responsibility and takes a lot of energy, which can all take a mental toll on a dom, but some subs seem to just...glance right over that

anyway. appreciate and thank your local dom today

#this isn't a vague or anything just smth ive noticed #especially about the “i wanna hand over all my decisions and obligations to a dom who will think for me :(” type stuff #which trust me i get #and it's totally fine in fantasy w/e #but there r definitely some subs who uh. take it a bit too far #im also not trying to be a pickme or whatever. is that a thing. pickme subs #signal broadcast 📺

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crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington · 2 months

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multishipping

#wintersberg #mithan #winterfield #lethan #sorry lethan community #i made like 3 AUs and drew them for like a month straight and then never did again #i have no one to talk to about it im sorry 😭😭#the ship i draw depends on how much i think about it #heraxic makes me want to draw wintersberg so now im drawing them alot....#i ship ethan with everyone #sorry i just like it when he is loved #ethan is my barbie and all the other characters r kens #i switch them out every now and then but ethan is always the constant

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viveela · 2 months

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They'll always have a special place in my heart

#veearts #avatar the last airbender #avatar aang #katara #aang x katara #kataang #atla #atla fanart #fan art #they r very sweet to me idc #ill always root for em #to anyone wondering yes the awful remake got me thinking about atla again

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villainship · 1 year

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[Writing WIP Questionnaire]

Reflecting on my drafts folder w/ the previously-skipped section of the questions I was answering here.

If you read this: . . .don’t look @ me. LOL. (Exposing my secrets -- and also hiding from them.)

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Sum up one or more of your wips!

Most aren’t for tumblr-posting, mind u. But:

(Divided up by which character has narration rights)

-a Vette story I keep forgetting abt, where she is trying to figure out TD’s post-binge fate on Nar Shaddaa, having decided she’s actually invested in this weird Sith’s wellbeing.

-Quinn experiencing TD’s response to betrayal (TD: “I’m not mad, I just want you to acknowledge your life is in /my/ hands. Forever.”)

-like 4 separate WIPs of ‘joint midlife crisis’ Zahied & TD engaging in their unsanctioned fraternizing in early times/getting to know each other -- however eagerly (TD) or reluctantly (Zahied). -Alliance-era, mid-50s Zahied thinks hard abt where he is, tells TD he ready to dump him (probably. Soon. --For real, though. NO relapses. When it’s done it’s /done/, 100%. Swearing off this shit- . . . Yes, he’ll still teach ur damn kids their hand-to-hand fighting.)

-Alliance-era TD, fraught with relationship issues/feelings(???) beyond his comprehension (dumped by his boyfriend; wife still touchy that he is hot for his boss; boss ignoring him b/c 1. she has never considered him significant or attractive 2. she’s busy with the happiness of being reunited with her bug husband), takes a team (incl. his Apprentice) to Hoth for a mission, where they lose contact with home base & can’t send an update to confirm they’re still alive. --He thinks that’s fine he didn’t want to hear from anyone there for a While anyway-- (but something else Will go wrong.) -Agent Vensys is assigned as chaperone for traitor-on-probation Sith Lord Liio (going Where? idk) -- which may be AU content, or I might make it canon. . . or I might split off into 2 different versions (one where they potentially makeout a little, & one for sailing the crack ship onward to far-distant horizons that veer OOC for at least 1 of them). Lolll. -(?canon?) Kallir has a nice day. -Kallir runs afoul of a posse of Imperial troops privately harboring anti-Sith sentiments in a garrison on Taris (? question mark). (Visiting pumpkin Agent was witnessed holding hands with a Sith who recently came by) -- I’m evaluating how much violence I’ll include as canon. (Less than I wrote. . . but some. He definitely gets bullied. Punches someone in the throat. Maybe knifes a guy a little bit?? I wrote that scene, but I’m not sure it’ll fit.) -Kallir undergoing an entire ordeal living among space pirates & becoming slightly unhinged. -in AU: Kallir (the Minister of Intelligence), dragged away from the tail end of a formal ball, puts up with Vensys plying his charms at him (again)

-total shipping AU: Kallir, Liio, & Zahied, lonely hearts club, attempt to distract one another from mountains of baggage in the only way that comes to their minds when they recognize everyone else is hot and thirsty. (Fellas. . . you’re a mess. Sorry I’m so into that.)

Which story took the most research?

Well- the extent of research I’m willing to do is stuff like “what’s this place/object look like in SWTOR?”, or “what does the internet say about these star wars aliens?”

Which story has the most lore?

TD going to Hoth to blow up a Star Fortress maybe (regrettably, I don’t know the relevant lore & I’ve been incapable of doing the gameplay I want to do to get there).

Current word count of all your main wips?

I do Not track those stats. . . I think I know which are the longest, though.

-Part 1 of Liio/Kallir/Zahied AU is. . . 54 pages (for. . .3-4 scenes, essentially. dkfshgkjf). -Part 2 combined WIPs are 15 + 6 + 3 + .2 (a paragraph) (split up due to time-jumping mid-draft, starting a new file, & returning to unfinished business when I feel like it)

Fic that isn’t a total departure from character canon: -Part 1 (of the in-depth edition) of Kallir’s pirate story is a 32 page WIP, w/ an 18-page side chapter (which might not get any longer) -Part 2: 6 pages so far. -Aftermath follow-up: 7 so far.

How many projects do you have going on right now? Are there any that you doubt you’ll ever finish?

(My answer to question 1 is more-or-less my entire list) It’s hard to say I Won’t finish anything, but also--I don’t often finish writings.

What was you first major project? How far along is it?

And I wouldn’t necessarily call any of them ‘major’ projects (pirate fic got pretty big--but. idk). . .

My first SWTOR fic was for TD & Quinn, and I got lost on it. lol. It’s one of those drafts that feels convoluted to look at (there’s a lot of patchwork pieces), & I’m not sure exactly how much of it is worth having in there or what I actually Want to write into it. (Quinn is hilarious to write, though.)

What are some tropes and character dynamics found in your wips?

. . . gay little scene-slice stories of charged & intimate interactions--aggressive or/and soothing. Just people having their emotional problems in various Situations (sometimes amid danger/stress. . . sometimes when they are trying to enjoy themselves. . . Sometimes those mix).

So. . . tame (generally tame.) psychological whump (mainly psychological.) I Guess. H/C-aligned.

Describe the setting of one or more of your wips

All my stories are in settings of Convenience, and usually defined more by who is there than details of the place itself. (eg. I’m picturing “Kallir gets bullied for having a Sith bf” somewhere on Taris b/c it seems like the kind of place where the military doesn’t get a lot of oversight). Nothing too exciting (or original).

What are some things that inspired your stories? Real events? Maybe a dream?

Game events sometimes, of course. ehehh.

I also have. . . not uncommonly come up w/ concepts for scenarios based on outfits. (Pirate fic arose b/c I previewed the Belsavis zap collar on Kallir. Vensys’ formal outfit was the starting point for that AU fic with the formal event)

What story are you the proudest of? Why?

I dunnoooo-- I have. . . a weird relationship w/ my writings. I don’t have consistent feelings about them (whether I think anything is so good or absolutely Unbearably terrible/cringe changes based on my own moods), and. . . A lot of the time I’m ashamed even making some/most of them for various reasons.

. . .BUT. I was (and still am) pretty proud of how I wrote our charas in the pumpkin-meets-Severine mini-story from a While back (which I just re-blogged cuz of the improvement edits last night). hehe. On fire w/ that one, writing a couple of my favorite personalities--successfully (I’d say) channeling a character that’s not even mine.

And I don’t feel like I wasted my time if it’s a gift 4 a friend & I’ve been able to make their day with it. <3 We luv our charas. hell yeaaaaaaa

#about me: r #raikari writes

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serendippertyy · 9 months

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to be loved is to be changed 🖤💜