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tipsycad147 · 9 months

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Uses for Willow- Magic and Medicine

What do you think about when somebody says Willow? A tall tree draped with Spanish moss in the south. The sway and whisper of leaves as they rustle against each other? The quiet romantic scene out of a romance novel? You wouldn’t think much about the relevance of a tree in a cheesy romance other than to set the scene, but why does it set the scene? Willow trees have magic that plays heavily on feminine energy and romance, much like roses. But what else does willow do? Used for Medicine and Magic, willow trees are good for more than just being pretty.

The Willow Tree

Salix alba or the White Willow is a tree found across the United States and Europe. Several other varieties exist such as the Weeping Willow, the Pussy Willow, Black Willows, Golden Willows and the Curly Willow. Weeping and Pussy Willows are the most common types found especially in the U.S. When talking in terms of medicine and magic, most willow are interchangeable, albeit in smaller doses for medicines.

Willows thrive well in damp or wet areas. They are also very easy to regrow or re-root. In fact we actually use a willow infusion for rooting our other plants!

Most Willows only need dead branches removed. Pussy Willows are more of a shrub style and may need trimming depending on where you live. There are 3 types of Pussy Willows, pink, silver and black. We personally have the silver and black on our farm and they are some of my favorite plants that start budding as soon as it warms up for spring.

The main concern when you grow willow is if you don’t plant it in a wet enough area or you’re currently in a drought. Either of these will cause the tree to seek out water on its own. I’ve heard stories of willow trees puncturing pools and rooting into lakes or wells to have enough water.

But other than that, willow trees are beautiful and have many uses. Read on!

Using Willow for Medicine magic

White willow bark is one of the best natural pain relievers, the original technique used before aspirin became available to the public. Some people still choose to use white willow bark for headaches and fevers even today. This is because of willow’s unique chemical composition. Willow bark contains salicin or as its more commonly known, salicylic acid. Salicylic acid is used for acne treatments, headaches and other inflammatory ailments.

Using willow as part of your herbal apothecary can be done by making teas, infusions or powdered capsules. Most commonly, willow bark is used to make tea which is then drank several times a day until pain subsides.

Fair warning! Don’t use willow bark every single day as it can cause nausea or itchiness or allergy like symptoms. Also those who are allergic to aspirin should check with a doctor before using willow bark internally or externally in case of an allergic reaction.

Willow As Natural Medicine Magic

Natural Headache Remedy: Use as tea or capsule for a natural aspirin like result.

Soothe Heavy Periods: Help ease menstrual cramps and other feminine pains by using willow in tea or capsule form.

Lower a Fever: Soak a washcloth in tea or tincture and chill in the fridge. Willows cooling properties will help when combined with the chilly fabric.

Skin Ailments: Use Willow externally for ailments such as Psoriasis, Rosacea, Acne and Dandruff.

Head and Scalp treatment: Use willow tea to massage and soothe the scalp and moisturize the hair.

Acne and Anti-Aging: Infuse your favorite non-comodegenic oil with willow to make the most of its Salicylinic acid. It will help decrease oiliness in the skin, tighten wrinkles and soothe acne.

Make an easy Willow Bark Tea

Gather up willow bark and shred it into small a strips. Store in a jar in a cool dry place. When you are ready to use it you’ll need;

1-3 grams of willow bark 1 cup of cold water A pot, stove and cup

Put your willow bark into the cold water and place the pot on the stove. Bring to a boil and boil for 10 minutes on low heat. Use as a tea or infusion when cooled.

Drink 3x a day at each meal for general pain relief.(see the Fair Warning Above)

Making Magic with Willow

Willow trees are the epitome of feminine energy. They set the scene for romance books, many lovers have met beneath their branches and many a young girl has whispered her hopes and dreams into its leaves. So what does willow do for your magic?

Willow’s feminine energy helps with love spells, working with emotions,creativity,fertility, protection and healing. A herb that helps honor and soothe the female right of passage into womanhood.

Many traditional tools are made of willow. A wand made from the branch of a willow tree holds power in vivid dreaming, drawing down the moon and protection while traveling the underworld. The willow draws power from the moon and is associated with new moon magicks; which is why it is such a good tool for drawing down the moon, a ritual done in traditional Wiccan circles.

Traditionally a besom or witches broom is bound together with a length of willow.

In magic, the willow encourages the expression of deeply buried emotions, helping to ease sadness through tears or grieving. It also encourages us to learn the consequences of love and other matters of the heart.

Willow reminds us to let go and surrender completely to the world of emotions and our subconscious. When we reach a level of deeper understanding of our innermost thoughts and feelings, and our fears and desires, the world opens up in ways of new opportunities and lessons.

Combining the Mundane with the Magickal

You wouldn’t think it but the worlds of medicine and magick lay closely entwined. Part of willow’s lesson in both the magical and medical world is healing. Suppressed emotions can lead to causing major stress or illness.

Shadow work in witchcraft is a type of self therapy that acknowledges and works through your inner fears and demons. Using willow to embrace your flaws and reveal the root behind your fears and behaviors is a good way to boost your shadow work and allow yourself to let your emotions flow.

Stories about the Willow Tree

There are stories and myths surrounding the willow that feature in many countries. One of my favorites is the story of The Willow Wife, a Japanese folktale that was retold in English by Iyanaga Mitsuyo and quoted in Meinrad Craighead’s “The Sign of the Tree Meditations”.

In “The Fairy Bible” by Teresa Moorey, the Willow Fairy can be a fickle creature. The willow fairies like to leave their tree at night and follow around travelers, whispering and muttering, causing people to be frightened by the whispering in the trees.

In “Othello“, Shakespeare’s verse states: “The pour soul sat sighing by a sycamore tree, Sing all a green willow. Her hand on her bosom, her head on her knee, Sing willow, willow, willow.” This could lean towards Willow’s power behind emotion, especially those of the heart.

In Ogham the Celtic Oracle cards by Peter Praconwick and Andy Baggett, the willow card stands for endings, beginnings and new growth. The willow stands for teaching us the lessons of life in death.It helps us to integrate change into our lives and reminds us to allow inspiration even from the tiniest of sources to enter our lives.

Willow’s Myths and Legends

Willow’s connection with the moon and inspiration can prove useful when tying together your spiritual practices with the moon phases. Start new projects on the new moon and seek inspiration on how to further your goals and projects during the full moon. The dark moon is the best time to bring matters to a close, ending bad habits or moving on to new paths and journeys.

Ever hear or use the phrase “knock on wood”? In Europe, people believed that knocking on the wood of a willow tree helped send away bad luck. They also believed that if you whispered your dreams into the willow tree, the wood would trap that secret forever.

The Native Americans have a different belief for willow. Many believed that it was a strong symbol of protection. They used to tie branches around their wrists or boats to protect themselves from storms and lightening. The entries to their lodges were also graced with willow branches to grant protection from the Great Spirit.

Willow Magic, Spells and Crafts

As stated above, willows magic lies heavily in feminine and moon energy. A wand made from willow is useful for dream and moon magick. A traditional besom can be bound by a length of willow branch.

For magical or non magickal uses, willow can be soaked in water and then woven into baskets, bowls, fencing, even bee hives. Try making a willow basket or bowl to hold your ritual tools, or make an offering bowl for one of the moon goddesses such as Selene,Persephone or Artemis.

Use Willow for dream magick, by placing a length of branch under your pillows.

Burning willow bark or drinking willow tea are good ways to prepare yourself before meditating, helping to connect with divine feminine energy.

Use willow for a love knot spell. Take 3 branches of willow and braid them together. Tie the braid into a loose circlet and place on your beside table. Place the name or picture of the person you love inside the circle.

Dubbed the tree of immortality, willow embraces rebirth and growth. A willow branch when planted into the ground, will sprout roots and start to grow. Use willow bark in spell jars or make a sacred space surrounding a willow tree to help promote growth in yourself, your endeavors or your life in general.

Use willow for fertility magic. Again combining the magic of growth and fertility/feminine magics willow is a prime candidate for fertility magic.( Fertility magic can be used for more than just babies BTW. Use fertility magic to grow other “babies” in your life such as your business, pets, plants or projects you are coaxing to life.)

Willow Correspondences, Magic and Medicine

Name: Salix Alba

Other Names: Tree of Immortality, Tree of Witcheries, Tree of Enchantment

Planets: Moon

Element: Water

Symbolism: Resonance, Harmony

Crystals: Moonstone

Color: Silver

Animals: Hawks, Snowy Owl

Deities: Selene, Luna, Persephone, Hecate, Cerridwen, Artemis, Diana, Brigit

Sabbats: Beltane

Magical Properties: Dreaming, Love, Healing, Protection, Fertility, Growth and Rebirth, New Moon Magick

Medical Properties: Fever Reducing, Natural Pain relief,Relieves Headaches, Soothing Heavy Periods, Anti-Aging Properties, Soothing Skin ailments like Psoriasis, Rheumatism, Acne and Dandruff

Folk Names: Osien, Pussy Willow, Saille, Sailoyn Willow, Saugh Tree, White Willow, Witches Asprin, Withe, Withy

Will you call upon the Willow?

Using willow for natural medicine and magic spells is so very simple. From soothing headaches to vivid dreaming, this majestic tree has so many uses. Feel free to save this info for later use and don’t forget to check out all of our other Medical and Magical Plant posts.( With Spring coming, I highly recommend you check out the Dandelion and Violet Posts!) Will you add willow to your magic or medical practices?

Need advice on where to shop? Mountain Rose Herbs and Starwest Botanicals are the best places to order a large variety of herbs. You could also look for local willow trees, just make sure that you have permission before removing any part of the tree.( Also leave an offering for the tree, typically food, drink, a bit of ribbon or a silver coin work best.)

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jinpanman · 4 years

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Vampire’s Wine

pairing: vampire boyfriend!jungkook x fem human!reader

word count: 1.4k

genre: 18+, fluff, slightly nsfw, established relationship

warnings: this whole thing is a disgusting bloody mess and not in the way you think. menstruation talk - from the use of hygiene materials to the smell of period blood, jk loves period blood - oop., casual conversation about sex and genitals

summary: You decide to brave the mystery that is menstrual cups. Jungkook is intrigued to say the least.

a/n: i needed a break from all my long af fics. u can blame my brain. u can also blame Jess @shelive-shelove for telling me to write this. and for helping me pick a member to write about - but then again, she always picks jk. also @joonie-mono kept judging me so now that it exists she has to read it. :-)

The simple matte black box sits on the bathroom counter and it’s incredibly intimidating despite it just sitting there. You pick it up and open the case to reveal an equally black menstrual cup sitting on top of a black pouch. A slip of paper falls out when you open it and you pick it up.

Greetings Y/N! We’re so glad you’ve decided to become the owner of a BLAKD cup. We understand some people don’t want color stained cups so we went ahead and…

You toss the card to the side and pick up the cup and turn it around in both awe and trepidation. There’s a knock on the open door but you don’t bother to look up.

“What’s that you go there?”

“JK honey, tell me. How am I supposed to stick this up my nether region?”

Jungkook snorts and plucks the cup from your hand.

“Well, my dick is bigger than this and you do such a good job taking it all in so I know my baby can handle this small thing.” He pats your cheek lovingly

You squeak and swat his arm away in disbelief. “Jungkook! I swear! You—that’s different! I’m not horny when I’m trying to stick this-this monster inside of me.”

He laughs and quickly covers the little distance between you, pulling you flush against him.

“First of all, that’s an insult to my dick because this,” he waves the cup in front of you and you roll your eyes at him “is no monster. Secondly, maybe we should get you horny first so it won’t be an issue.” He wiggles his eyebrows and licks his bottom lip in anticipation.

You scoff and push him away, taking the cup back from him.

“I need to figure out how to stick this up my very unaroused vagina, so please go and do your vampy things and leave me alone for a few minutes.”

He merely shrugs but of course your boyfriend who must know everything about everything asks, “But babe, what’s wrong with what you usually use?”

Ah, now that’s a good question. You’ve used pads and tampons for so long and frankly you are so utterly fed up with the mess that is Aunt Flo.

“Jungkook, you won’t even understand even if I told you.”

“Try me.”

You raise a brow but proceed anyway. “Well they stink, for one.”

“False. I love the way you sme—okay, sorry. Go on.”

“Pads are so annoying especially when you’re sweaty and they stick to your butt and somehow you always end up bleeding everywhere except on the pad! And then tampons! Just the general scare that it’ll be stuck there for too long or it’ll poison you or that you’re actually not bleeding as much as you thought you were and you’re dry af and it gets so uncomfortable to take out!” you voice dies out, nearly out of breath because you failed to pause after each sentence. Jungkook watches you with amusement painted throughout his face and relaxed posture resting against the counter.

Your chest is heaving but you continue after taking a few short breaths, “Period panties are okay but I’d like some extra insurance y’know? Also everything is so fucking expensive! Tell me why we’re being paid to tend to something we absolutely cannot control? I fucking bet you if men had periods, they’d free bleed every month and expect everyone to be okay with it. But because we’re women we have to hide it because it makes—”

Jungkook breaks you off mid-tangent kisses you and grins. “Had to stop you before you start ranting for a whole 10 minutes and then forget why you were talking in the first place.”

You return the kiss and give him an appreciative smile. Most people aren’t into the “kiss someone to get them to shut up” but in your case, you appreciated the kisses because one, Jungkook gives the best kisses and two, you really would go off forever if he didn’t shut you up.

“Thanks, baby. Now please leave,” you say before shoving him out the bathroom and locking the door behind him.

After what felt like (and probably was) two hours you are finally out of the bathroom, feeling so utterly defeated and exhausted. You had gotten it in, but at what cost? Both your hands still reek of blood despite scrubbing thoroughly for several minutes with soap. Your thighs are aching from squatting for so long as well. You plop down on the couch beside your boyfriend who’s occupied playing some rando shooting game on the PlayStation. He inhales deeply and shoots you a quick glance. You give him a questioning look but he doesn’t say anything.

After his match, he leans in close to your stomach and takes another big whiff. You’ve long passed being surprised at how much Jungkook likes smelling you. You’d think he was a werewolf or something. Not that you’d tell him that because you were not in the mood to be dicked down just to “prove a point.”

“Hm? You don’t smell like you normally do?”

“Huh, I’m honestly shocked considering how much I bled all over my hands and thighs.”

“Careful, Y/N. You might make me horny,” he muses as he enters another match.

“You’re gross.”

“So, what does the blood just… sit there?”

“Mm, yeah. The cup keeps it all inside and when I take it out the blood will be there.”

“Tell me when you’re gonna take it out, okay?”

Without breaking eye contact with the television screen, he tilts his head to plop a quick kiss on your forehead. You pull a blanket over you and watch on as your endearing thousand year old boyfriend destroys the hundredth controller because he’s still very much a baby vampy and sometimes he forgets his own strength.

“Ohhh my goood this is so fucking weird,” you mutter in disgust.

Here you are, at the end of a full day of doing absolutely nothing, squatting in the tub once again. This time, instead of sticking a foreign object up your vagina, you’re trying to pull it out. You finally have a grip on the stem and your thighs are screaming at you but you fight through the burn because no way in hell are you gonna risk dropping your cup in the toilet bowl. The several guides you found on the internet said it helped to use your muscles to push it out.

“Okay, here goes nothing.”

You push and you eventually feel the suction giving way. A few drops of liquid spill out over your hand and you grimace at how warm it is. You finally pull it out from inside you and you lift it up to inspect the contents of the cup. God it was startling how warm the cup is. It was both disgusting and fascinating to see how much blood you can bleed within half a day. And the best thing—it doesn’t smell! You’re done being weirdly fascinated with your blood now. You’ve definitely been with Jungkook for too long. You hold the cup away from you and tilt it to pour down the—

“NNOOOO!!!! STOP Y/N!!!!”

Your boyfriend stumbles into the bathroom and you watch him with absolute befuddlement as he inches closer to you with crazed eyes.

“Baby,” he reaches out to you, “what were you just going to do?”

“Um, pour out my period blood?”

“Baby!!” he practically whines and kneels beside the tub.

“...Yes? Jungkook?” You’re at a complete loss for why he came bursting here in such a hurry.

“I thought I asked you to tell me when you were gonna take it out.”

“I’m sorry hun. I didn’t think it was that big of a deal. I’m just taking it out?”

“Babe.”

“Mhm?”

“I’m a vampire.”

“Mhm.”

“And I’m your boyfriend.”

“Okay.”

“Are you really going to make me say it?”

“Jungkook, I don’t even know what you’re talking about so if you could just tell me, that’d be great.”

He groans into his hands and peeks at you through his fingers.

“I wanna drink it.”

Oh, for god’s sake. You restrain yourself from rolling your eyes at him. You weren’t ignorant to his obsession with blood, especially during that time of the month. He was a vampire, after all. This was a whole new experience though with nearly an ounce of your blood right in your hand. Before you can second guess yourself, you hand the cup to your very pouty boyfriend who takes it with a now huge smile gracing his face.

He brings the cup directly under his nose and takes a quick whiff. You wrinkle your nose in distaste. And then he lets out a deep, guttural moan. He flicks his tongue in the pool of blood then promptly empties the blood into his mouth. A normal person would not shiver at the sight of their boyfriend drinking their blood, but you’ve long resigned the fact that you were not normal. Your eyes fixate on the trail of blood that missed his mouth and now fall down the side of his mouth to his chin. You swallow in sync with Jungkook who hands you back the empty cup.

His voice is hoarse when he speaks. “Please never stop using this cup. It is the greatest creation of the modern times… Next to the internet. Also don’t ever drain your blood anymore. Give it to me. Save the ocean.”

“You absolute dork,” you laugh and continue your downward gaze of his body. That’s when you see it.

“Oh my god. Jungkook. Did you… baby are you horny?”

#jungkook fanfic #btsghostie #vampire jungkook #jungkook fluff #bts fanfic #f:vampire's wine #i'm so sorry #also black menstrual cups do exist #omg you guys tell me to stop re-editing this every 10 minutes

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20dollarlolita · 4 years

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CW for menstruation

Someone asked me a question about wearing lolita on your period, so the answer is under a cut because that’s a pretty common trigger.

Anonymous asked: Could you give some tips on how to wear Lolita on your period? Lolita makes me more comfortable with my body image but I’m scared of getting blood stains on the beautiful dress/socks/anything that exists with a price tag attached no matter how small. Your blog has given me a lot of courage in how I chose to present myself, even outside of Lolita. I just wanna know if you have further tips to be more courageous.

Periods just plain fuckin’ suck, are obnoxious to live through, and society frequently tells you you can’t talk about it, so your nice coworker asks if something’s wrong and you’re expected to lie to him.

I’m heckin’ sick of it, m’dude.

Since I wore lolita five days a week for almost all of 2016, I’ve got some experience with this. I’m going to talk about my own experience with this, and that’s going to get personal, so if that’ll bother any readers, you want to skip this post.

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Part 1) finding stuff that doesn’t leak. I had a menstrual cup and it was really nice for not leaking at all, but took a lot of coordination to put in and then it was painful if I put it in wrong, which required more coordination to take it out and put it in right again.

If you use tampons, liners are good for backups. I’ve recently just switched to pads with wings, which have been catching everything and not leaking outside of my underwear. I use some obnoxiously expensive Always brand pads because they smell nice, they’re thin enough when folded that I can put them in my purse without feeling like I’m filling it all the way up, and the packaging is really well thought out and makes it easy to wrap up the gross one to throw away. (As a former janitor, please never ever put a pad with the sticky part exposed into one of those in-stall bathroom trash cans. They will stick to the can, and then someone armed only with a glove will have to reach in there and unstick it. Ew. Also, there should be a liner bag in the little metal can. PLEASE do your best to put things IN the bag, not in the gap between the can and the outside of the bag.)

I know a lot of people don’t like pads or liners because it feels like you’re adding a bunch of bulk into your crotch and sort of wearing a diaper, but the beauty of lolita is that there’s no visible panty lines to worry about. You might be able to feel it, but no one can see it.

Also, underwear that can withstand intense washing is good. I honestly just get one of those prepackaged cotton 6-packs where the price per panty is like $2, and if anything gets really gross beyond repair, I can throw it out without feeling guilty.

Part 2) don’t wear any tights that are super expensive. If you’re on your period, it’s a good time to break out the tights from Target or We Love Colors, and not the ones from Angelic Pretty. 80% of lolita coords will work with either black or white opaque tights. It won’t necessarily look as good as wearing the patterned ones that match the print in your dress, but if you destroy some $11 tights washing them too aggressively, it’s not the same disaster as destroying some $40 tights that were a limited run and might be irreplaceable.

You don’t need to worry too much about your dresses, because you’ve got your petticoat blocking them. If you’re concerned about your petticoat (because those things ARE annoying to wash), you can get a inexpensive half-slip to wear over your tights and under your petti. If you have cheap bloomers, and they go with your coord, that’s also an option. Expensive bloomers, much like tights, and best saved for another day.

Part 3) Cleanup. Don’t wash blood spots in warm or hot water. Cold water gets it out best. It surprises a lot of people, but you can remove dried blood stains pretty much all the way if you use the right products. If you’ve got small stains on your tights, you can use some hydrogen peroxide to get them out. Undiluted h2o2 can occasionally remove some of the color, so test in a unvisible area before you put it on any stains that would be visible when you’re wearing them. If they’re larger spots, soaking the tights in oxiclean (which itself is just modified peroxide) can remove pretty much all organic stains like blood and dirt. I actually oxiclean all my tights and socks on laundry day, because they’re the most likely to pick up dirt and I want to just get that all off in one go.

If I’ve learned anything in costume design, it’s that everything can be cleaned if you’re creative enough.

So my three part process sums up to: try to avoid leaks; if you leak, leak on something you can clean; then clean it. Remember, life is messy, even wearing lolita. If something bad happens to something you’re wearing, it’s not a reflection on you as a person or on how much respect you have for your clothing. My high school friend saved up all year to buy her prom dress, walked into a wall while wearing it, and had a nosebleed all over her dress. Did that nosebleed make her a bad person or in any way imply that she didn’t deserve or want the dress she was wearing? No. It was just a thing that happened. Life is full of crap that just happens, and sometimes we want to apply a sense of personal guilt to those things, even though they’re not our fault. While it’s important to be willing to accept responsibility for when our actions hurt other people, we do not need to feel responsible for actions that don’t hurt anyone but us and were only minimally within our control. Bad shit can happen to our lolita garments even when we’re loving and caring for them. That’s part of wearing clothes. That’s part of owning clothes. It happens to literally everything in our lives. Clothes exist to be worn, and if they get wear while they’re worn, it’s still fulfilling their purpose.

BTW, despite how it often feels when you’re talking online, lolita clothing items are NOT owned by the community. If you own it, it’s yours. If you sell it later, it’s not yours. You doing any kind of intentional or unintentional change to a dress that you own is not the business of anyone else who wants to own that dress. It’s yours.

Fun story, I once told my cis guy roommate that 99% of the women he talked to that day knew how to clean bloodstains out of clothes, and that convinced him for months that a bunch of his friends were involved in some secret fight club murder ring.

#menstruation cw #ask #lifestyle lolita #20dollarlolita quality posts

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littleredridingwolfmd · 6 years

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Summer Tag

1. Age?

20 years old

2. Birthplace?

Montgomery IL

3. Last drink?

Water, man. Gotta stay hydrated as fuck so I don’t sweat to death.

4. Easiest person to talk to?

Probably @uncoupdefil , my boyfriend, or my mom. It’s easier to go to each of them for certain issues/topics but they’re all so great at listening and helping.

5. Favorite song?

I have waaaaay too many. I do tend to listen to a lot of songs on repeat so the top few right now would probably be

KA-CHING by EXO-CBX

Sabor a Mi by Luis Miguel (and many other covers)

You and Me Flume Remix

Take Me by Sisyphus

Pennies from Heaven by Frank Sinatra

6. Grossest memory?

I think everytime I have to take out my menstrual cup is my grossest memory. One time I was so constipated I fainted and was convulsing and pouring sweat so I went to the ER and it was a nightmare. It happened once more but that time I just stayed on the toilet for hours.

7. Hogwarts house?

I’ve taken tests multiple times and I’m an equal split between hufflepuff and ravenclaw - but I think I’m more hufflepuff honestly.

8. In love?

Heck yeah!! Woooo!!! I honestly didn’t think I’d even find someone attracted to me until I was like 30. He’s like my counteracting force in life - I’m too worried and he’s really chill, I’m very shy and he’s not afraid to talk to whoever. I still get butterflies whenever I think about him or see him, but I do miss the sensation of when we were first dating. It was really fun and heart warming getting to know him for the first time. I’m glad he’s my boyfriend.

9. Jealous of people?

It depends on what the topic is. I don’t particularly feel jealous about possessions or status. I do get pretty jealous of people who are so smart and accomplished, but I know if I tried harder I could be at that level too. It’s pretty easy to keep it all in check.

10. Killed someone?

I had to crush an ant at work the other day and I cried in the bathroom because I felt it’s little body squish and it might have had a family. So no, I have not killed anyone yet.

11. Love at first sight or walk by again?

I’m not sure love at first sight exists, although I fell for my boyfriend pretty quickly. I also had a concussion though so I’m not sure that’s normal.

12. Middle name?

Linda - meaning beautiful in Spanish but also named for my grandma.

13. Number of siblings?

I mean one technically but I consider my two friends Victoria and Morgan to be my sisters. I introduce them and describe them to others as sisters.

14. One wish?

I wish I didn’t have any regrets in life. I’ve resolved quite a lot and gotten rid of a lot of regrets, but there’s some I can’t fix. I’m fine with that, since regrets are normal and my actions have made me into who I am today, but I think if I could, I would go back and resolve those things (assuming my present does not change). The feeling of regret is the worst.

15. Person you last called?

A blood donation center called me and I hung up and they called back and I said I would never be home and had already donated blood. I did donate though. They called like twenty times in one month.

16. Question you’re asked most often?

Probably “how are you”. Or “what would you like for lunch/dinner”. Both very deep questions.

17. Song you last sung?

I don’t really sing seriously, like to a song I like, but I Joke-sing a lot. I’m very horrible-good at the falsetto in No Tears Left to Cry by Ariana Grande so I sing it everytime I hear it.

18. Time you woke up?

I keep waking up everyday at like 5am and I can’t ever fall back asleep. I’m slowly decaying.

19. Underwear color?

They’re black - had to check that.

20. Vacation destination?

I’ve always wanted to go to Japan, especially when the Sakura are blossoming. It’s always appealed to me ever since I saw pictures in books as a little kid.

21. Worst habit?

I’m just horrible with food. Eating too much, eating too much at once, emotional eating, making bad food choices - so I gain weight or plateau. I’ve slowly been losing the FRESHMAN SIXTY I put on but I know if I was more diligent I’d be losing weight faster (and healthier).

22. X-rays?

My brother and I were fighting on a swively chair when we were like 5 and 4 and I got shoved over and dislocated my arm. We thought it was broken but when they went to position my arm for the scan they popped it back in place. I’m not sure if they actually did the scan at all.

23. Favorite food?

I eat a lot of salty foods. I just love salt. I’d say any type of rice or rice dish is my favorite.

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Two friends, Shailesh and Veerender, opened a retail store devoted to women hygiene needs. They named the store ‘Vayas Sakhi’ (वयस् सखी) It caters to the needs of women. The store has almost all the products for below neck and above thigh. The specialty of the store is that it has an all-women staff. The store is exclusive women range and offer privacy for a woman to shop her hygiene and intimate product requirements. The retail store provides a very comfortable environment to the customers.

To get a better understanding of their idea, aim, struggles, and vision behind opening this retail store, we interviewed founders of Vayas Sakhi – Mr. Shailesh and Mr. Veerender.

Question: Could you please share a bit about your background?

Mr. Veerender: I have worked over 20 years in the retail sector. During my professional journey I had been associated with brands like FoodWorld, Dabur NewU, Reliance, Metro Cash & Carry and Heritage Dairy. Coming from a hardcore retail background. I met Shailesh while working at Dabur. Later, I moved to a company known as Heritage in Hyderabad. After leaving my job at Heritage, Shailesh and I realized we wanted to start something of our own.

Mr. Shailesh: Coming from hardcore background with FMCG , Sales, Distribution, and Brand development. I have worked at various companies like Subiksha, Coca-Cola, Paras Pharmaceuticals, Parle Products, Banjaras, etc. Our experience made us realize that a combination of retail and FMCG would be an excellent combination for setting up a new business in retail.

Q: How did the idea of starting a Vayas Sakhi come to your mind?

Mr. Veerender: While working with Heritage, I was running a restaurant parallelly. During that period, Shailesh was working on his startup – Ishva Organics, since 2017, I resigned from Heritage as I wanted to take care of my restaurant. Unfortunately, during the lockdown period, it got closed. Initially, Shailesh and I worked dedicatedly for Ishva Organics. Later we realized it was already four years old venture and had a good presence across all retail chains. So, we thought to start something new which can address the needs and can also bring some change and awareness in society.

Inspiration of Vayas Sakhi

Prime Minister Modi’s campaign of becoming self-reliant “atmanirbhar” was quite popular during that time. Taking our inspiration from that, we decided to do something for societal welfare. Both of us thought of opening a retail store that would only cater to the needs of women. After various brainstorming sessions, we named our store ‘Vayas Sakhi.’ It is a Sanskrit word. Vayas means ‘age‘ and Sakhi means ‘friend.’ It would be a place that would be like a friend to the women.

Q: What was your idea behind opening a Vayas Sakhi only for women?

Mr. Shailesh: We call ourselves a mature and advanced society. But for addressing issues related to women, we have miles to cover. We observed women face so many problems while buying products for their menstrual needs.

Women feel anxious while asking for sanitary napkins directly. Many shopkeepers, while giving sanitary napkins, wrap them in black cover and then hand it over. Lack of knowledge and awareness leads to other kinds of health problems as well. For example, many womendevelop rashes while using these sanitary napkins. They don’t even feel comfortable enough to share their problems with their husbands. Most of the time, rashes heal up by themselves. In rare cases, they can cause infections that can also lead to death. We wanted to provide an environment that would provideprivacy and comfort to women. It is a safe space where women can openly talk about their needs and problems and then buy the right product.

Q: What all products are available at your store?

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Mr. Veerender: We focused on the range which address below neck and above thigh area with respect to hygiene and wellness. The range of products are – sanitary napkins, menstrual cups, tampons, bikini hair line remover, creams, roll-on, intimate wipes, products related to sexual pleasure, urinary devices, pre and post maternity care, nutritional supplements etc.

Usually, old age people use urinary devices. We felt it should be available for women as well. In amarket or mall, even if the washrooms are unhygienic, males can use them without facing many problems. The same is not the case for women. So, a urinary device can be helpful in such cases.

Q: What makes Vayas Sakhi different?

Mr. Shailesh: We have all Woman staff at our store. It is a store where a woman speak to a woman. Our staffs are well-trained to interact and answer the queries with respect to hygiene and health. They help the customers in finding the products. Even if a female comes with a male, the staff educates about the importance of privacy and hygiene. While other stores talk about the price and discounts on products. At Vayas Sakhi, we explain the features and benefits of the products. Women feel comfortable in asking questions and clearing their doubts. This kind of privacy isn’t available anywhere in the market.

Q: Where is your store located?

Mr. Shailesh: Currently we have two stores. Both the stores are in Hyderabad. The stores occupy an area of 200 square feet. One is in Malkangiri. It is more than a month old. The other store is in Yapral, which is an upcoming residential area. The second store is a franchise, and we are truly honored to share it’s the first franchise store and also our first step towards empowering women at entrepreneurship level also.

Q: How has the response been till now?

Mr. Veerender: Initially, people around us were hesitant of our idea. But women were happy with the concept. We try to advertise by sending out leaflets. We will soon use other mediums of advertising as well. At present , 20-30 women visit the store daily, and footfall is more at the weekends.

Q: What are your future plans?

Mr. Shailesh: We want to bring in more women entrepreneurs. In the current state even if a woman has a company or business in her name, a male handles it thus the women entrepreneurship remains on paper but not in reality. We want more women to get into mainstream business to change the existing perception. Also, after a lot of research, to our surprise, we could not find any store on the planet that only caters to women’s needs. We want to set up stores in towns all over India having a population of over a lakh. Currently, We are not into our own private label, we bring in wide range of brands with multiple options for the consumer to buy from. We wish to launch our product line as well in future. The aim is to make our products and services available to as many women as possible in India.

To know about Veerendernath Caringula, please check – LinkedIn.

To know about Shailesh. B Sharma, please check – LinkedIn.

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Hydra’s Child (part two)

Summary: being an experiment from birth meant you didn’t have free will. The only will you had was to please those who created you - Hydra. Your only object in life was to please them and make them happy. Until one day, you were given different orders. Orders you never expected to get.

Word count: 2K

Chapter warnings: reader being unable to reproduce, minimal violence

A/N: I’m still in shock of how many people actually liked this... goodness

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When your eyes fluttered open, everything was bright and burned. You shut them immediately and groaned, feeling groggy. It took you a few minutes but your eyes slowly adjusted to it. Glancing around you noticed that you were in a medical room. It was brighter and a lot more high-tech than Hydra's.

The beeping of a heart monitor caught your attention. You didn't understand any of the junk blinking on it, only the line that resembled your heart rate. Your eyes flickered down to your arm. Inserted in your arm was an IV. Beside your bed was a contraption that held clear bags of fluid. It was similar to what Hydra had done whenever you went to the med bay – pumped you with fluids, cleared your wounds and stitched you if necessary before sending you on your way.

It took you a moment for everything to come back. Your last memories of laying in the room, seeing the dust settle and two of the Avengers plus one Winter Soldier standing in the doorway.

They had taken you. Probably saved you from dehydration.

White hot anger filled you. You were so close to death and they saved you! You could have been free of all the pain you suffered in your life, you could have been free of it! How could they!?

Within moments you ripped the IV out of your arm. It was painful and you started to bleed but you couldn't care. You ripped the device off your finger, the monitor beeping wildly. Although you couldn't scream or speak yet, you made a low growling noise.

A woman entered the room, followed by two other people – both with dark hair. Only one of them had facial hair. The woman held her hands up in a surrendering gesture but you didn't care. You came at her, fists flying. Jaw connecting with your fists, you threw a second punch and she flew to the floor after a loud cry left her mouth. In moments the two other men had subdued you, arms wrapped around your neck and your arms held against your lower back.

You groaned feeling a needle being pushed into you. Black spots started filling your vision until eventually it consumed you entirely.

When you woke up again, you immediately noticed you were held down by thick straps and the IV was placed in the other arm. The way they placed your arm made it impossible for you to struggle free and remove the IV, no matter how hard you tried. Sighing you let your head rest against the soft pillows.

It wasn't long before someone came to check on you. It was the same woman as before, light blonde hair piled into a tight bun. It showed off her facial features well. She had a bright face with hazel eyes, high cheekbones and a sharp jawline. Dark bruises littered across her cheek. That was unmistakably from you.

The woman didn't say a word to you. She kept her gaze low as she checked your vitals, the IV bag and then your arm where the IV used to be. It wasn't bleeding anymore that was for sure. But it hurt like hell still.

Then, she scurried out of the room leaving you alone.

You sighed, eyes flickering to the white ceiling. You counted the black flecks the best you could, starting over when you began to miscount. You managed to get to a hundred and seventy five before someone walked into the room. It was one of the dark-haired men from before. The one without the goatee.

“Hello,” he greeted you as he glanced over a clipboard, flipping a sheet over. “You were pretty close to dying from dehydration when we managed to get some fluids in your body. You should be fine, now. While you were sedated we ran some tests on you to make sure you were healthy. And you are.”

You watched him closely. He sat down in the closest chair but kept some distance between the two of you. A wise decision on his part. It looked like he wanted to say more, though

And he did.

“We also tried to run some identification to see who you were and nothing came up,” he explained. The clipboard was shoved aside and now he had his arms crossed. He knew that you expected this. “Absolutely nothing. According to the system, you don't exist. Can you tell me about that?”

To make a point, you turned your head away from him and looked at the ceiling.

“Okay, how about I move onto the next concerning subject? Your reproductive system,” he spoke and you heard the shifting of papers. “The tests we ran-”

You never wanted those words repeated ever again out loud. Not after the first time you heard them, so you cut him off with a hiss. “I know! I know about my body. Don't say it.”

You felt his gaze on you.

“You know that...” his voice was considerably lower, not quite a whisper.

“Yes!” you shouted, turning to face him. You were beyond angry and trembling, wanting your fists to connect with something. “I know I can't reproduce! Don't bring it up!”

The silence was heavy and neither of you said anything. The man sat there and just stared at you as you glared at the ceiling. Eventually, he murmured out an apology, got up and left. The moment you were alone, you allowed the tears to fall. They settled uncomfortably in your ears so you turned your head to face the wall.

It was right before they shipped you out to train. Just barely eight years old, you were sitting in the medical bay waiting for one of the doctors to come talk to you. A physical to make sure everything checked out before you left. A woman walked up to you. There was a look in her eyes, you remembered, something you couldn't figure out. It was a mixture of sadness, regret and something else you could never decipher even to this day.

She had to sit you down and explain the ways a human female body worked. How a human baby grew inside a woman's uterus. How the menstrual cycle worked. She had to explain everything to you slowly and carefully so you understood her words. And then, she told you that your body would be unable to carry a baby like other females.

Because you were a clone and somehow, the doctors made a mistake in part of your DNA. You were completely and totally unable to reproduce. No periods. Nothing changing besides you growing into a woman over time.

It didn't hurt, not at first. But you understood better over the years what it meant. And it did hurt. The ache was deep and at one point, you really hated yourself for what you were. After months of dealing with this pain, this constant ache, you decided that it never mattered to begin with. You were Hydra's. The life you wanted to lead didn't allow you to have children. It was a weakness. And being unable to have them in the first place saved you time.

It didn't erase the ache, though. Nothing ever did.

Over the next few hours, the woman entered the woman twice to check your vitals and make sure you were okay still. She was as quiet as ever, not saying a word, and kept her head down and gaze averted. Seeing how intimidated and scared she was, you sort of felt bad for the bruises on her cheek. So you kept yourself as still as possible and compliant for her. You didn't want to give her much trouble.

Two more hours passed before she came into check your vitals again. You weren't sure why she had to check them so often. But you weren't about to question her on why. It was when she was glancing at the monitor that you opened your mouth.

“I'm sorry,” you croaked. Her gaze immediately fell on you, shock clearly evident on her face. “About your cheek… I'm sorry.”

The woman didn't say anything. You really didn't expect her to. After she finished scribbling down on the clipboard, she scurried out of there.

You sighed and glanced up at the ceiling again. Counting the black specks became one of the few things you were allowed to do in this tiny room, strapped down. It was mindless and didn't let you think of other things. You managed to count to three hundred and twelve before your eyelids got heavy and sleep overtook you.

The next time you woke up, you felt a presence nearby. Eyes fluttering open, you glanced around and noticed the woman from before. She was removing the IV from you, taping gauze to the small hole and wheeling it out. The device on your finger, connecting to the heart monitor, stayed on.

You swallowed, feeling your mouth slightly dry. A groan slipped as you tried to get your bearings. Everything felt heavy. How long have you slept?

After a few minutes, the woman came back empty handed. But she reached for a plastic cup filled with ice and headed towards you. For a moment she fumbled with a small remote and pressed a button. The bed you were lying in raised slightly so you were sitting up. She spooned some ice and held it out to you.

You understood well enough and wasn't about to argue about getting something in your stomach. Opening your mouth, you crunched on the ice and moaned slightly. It felt so good to have something again, anything besides the IV fluids.

The woman fed you crushed ice until half of it was gone. She murmured something about 'pacing yourself' and scurried out of the room again. You were left alone once more.

After a while, the same man from yesterday came in. The dark-haired man who questioned you. Immediately you tensed up and moved your gaze to the ceiling.

For a few minutes he didn't speak.

“I really am sorry for yesterday,” he whispered, the sound of a chair squealing reaching your ears. He must have sat down. “I didn't want to upset you. I had no idea it was a touchy subject. I am so sorry.”

Letting his words soak in, you turned your head to face him. There was a pained expression on his face, sorrow clear in his eyes. There was no doubt. He really meant his words and had been sorry for upsetting you. A small nod of your head was all he needed.

“Your identity,” he murmured. “Is there anything you can give us? Anything at all, it would help. We have nothing to go by. There were no files left in the Hydra base, nothing about you. Nothing in the system. Your word is everything.”

There was a certain genuine feeling that you felt from his words. This man was probably only trying to help you out. You trusted him more than anyone else in this building besides the doctor.

So you motioned to your arm. He was confused for a moment, eyebrows pulled together. Until you kept motioning to your right arm. He stood and helped you twist your arm around.

Right on your wrist was a tattoo. Your only tattoo. A series of numbers on your wrist.

86473-52-41089

“My identity,” you whispered.

The man glanced up at you after his fingers skimmed across your skin. His lips parted in horror and glanced up at you. Horror so clearly etched across his facial features, but beyond that… you noticed there was sorrow. He swallowed and left the room.

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Herbal Entry #1: Bee Balm

Hi, tumblr. I’m a witch and a gardener, and I often find that many of my favorite plants--North American natives that I try to opt for when making choices in my own garden, as well as common, popular garden plants aren’t included in many books of green witchcraft. As a teenager, I didn’t have internet access and lived in a small farming community, so I had to make do with what I (realistically, my mom--I just did the donkey work) could grow or find growing wild. So many of these did not have quick-and-dirty entries that I could copy into my BoS and required study. So I’m starting a series of entries from my garden and from my book. My information comes from a variety of sources: standard pagan books on the subject, mainstream books on gardening and herbalism, the Victorian flower languages (there were several guides by different authors), lots of web-based research, as well as trying to grow the damn things myself, with the occasional call to mom, dad and mother-in-law for their collective wealth of knowledge.

Feel free to reblog, print out for your BoS/grimoire/whatever. :)

**Disclaimer! Home remedies can be great, but they can’t take the place of care from a licensed medical professional! Always check with your physician for any possible drug interactions if you want to supplement with herbal remedies. Don’t use wildcrafted herbs unless you or someone you trust can identify them beyond a shadow of a doubt.**

Bee Balm

Monarda didyma

Element: Air Planet: Mercury, Moon, Venus Usage: solidarity, sympathy, independence (esp. financial), clarity Other Names and Varieties: oswego tea, red mint, horsemint, wild bergamot (M. fistulosa)

These tall, brilliant flowers attract bees, butterflies and hummingbirds, and are perennials typically blooming from June to August. It is native to North America, and hardy up to zone 4. Most frequently, it is seen in red, though pink, white and lavender varieties do exist. Being a member of the mint family, it’s easy to grow and spreads if left to its own devices, but can be susceptible to powdery mildew if it’s too moist or there isn’t sufficient air circulation. (You can see this in the above photo of the bee balm in my garden. It muggy right now. :P)

Bee balm tea is recommended as relief for sore throats, flatulence, menstrual cramps and as a sleep aid. (To 1 tsp. of dried herb, add 1 cup boiling water and steep 10 minutes.) The taste has a citrus-like quality with a more pungent, spicy note to it. Indeed, one of its common name of wild bergamot often leads to confusion with the actual citrus fruit used to flavor Earl Grey tea. Both flowers and leaves are edible, the latter being used in cuisine in a fashion similar to its other minty relatives--be sure to use young, soft leaves rather than large mature ones for the best flavor. The leaves contain a high level of thymol, giving it some antiseptic property. An infusion brewed at double strength to the above tea can be used as a gargle for sore throat, mouthwash, or a foot bath to relieve itching and inflammation from scrapes and small cuts. Alternatively, mashed leaves can be made into a poultice to treat sunburns.

There seems to be only sketchy folklore available for this sweet smelling flower, and it has a jumble of assigned meanings: sympathy, compassion, money and prosperity. Sources for flower language give the message, “your whims are intolerable.” However, this entry may be referring to lemon balm (Melissa spp.), considering the shared common name of “bee balm” and proximity to European writers. Even Cunningham gives this plant (specifying M. fistulosa) uncharacteristically short shrift in his Encyclopedia of Magical Herbs, only stating that wild bergamot can be used “to bring clarity and good working order to the surface of any situation.”

Early American colonists adopted this plant from their Native neighbors during the Revolution, to replace the imported black tea they were accustomed to. (Beer was always popular of course, and coffee eventually became the patriot’s drink of choice.) In a way, this can also be used to demonstrate solidarity—finding alternatives to supporting an unfair institution that taxes your neighbors as well as you. This idea of independence and solidarity with your fellows has the strongest personal resonance for me, perhaps especially if referring to financial or economic independence (throw that burdensome metaphorical tea overboard and make your own wealth). The fact that under certain growing conditions, bee balm can flop or lean and sometimes needs neighbors to hold it upright is interesting.

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Uterine fibroids natural cures - milk with blackstrap molasses

Fibroids are also known as uterine leiomyomas. They are very common non – cancerous muscular tumors of the uterus. It is known fact that about 80% of women develop it until the age of 50. The exact cause for uterine fibroids is not known. There are some factors which can play an important role in the development of fibroids such as abnormalities in the blood vessel or vascular system, genetics, hormones and other growth factors. It is known fact that uterine fibroids are more common in obese and African – American women. Also women who had their first menstrual cycle before age 10 or who have never given a birth to a child, have increased risk of developing uterine fibroids. Most women who have uterine fibroids do not have symptoms. There are some women who can experience symptoms such as lower back pain, rectal pressure, bladder problems, pelvic pressure and pain, prolonged menstrual periods and heavy menstrual bleeding. In the most cases uterine fibroids are not dangerous. They can cause immense discomfort and also they can lead to complications such as anemia from heavy blood loss. In some rare cases, uterine fibroids can cause complications which are affecting the pregnancy. In those cases where there are no symptoms, the treatment of it may not be necessary. If the symptoms are severe or they are causing complications, then it should be done proper diagnosis and treatment. Along with the conventional treatments, you can try some of the below mentioned home remedies. Most herbal remedies, including milk thistle and chasteberry are not recommended during the nursing and pregnancy, so always talk with your doctor before you start taking them. You need to talk with your doctor about the best natural treatment for your uterine fibroids. We do not guarantee you that they will help you for sure. You should exercise regularly and drink a lot of water throughout the day to flush out toxins. Exercising will help to regulate the ovulation.

Home remedies for uterine fibroids

Milk: There was one study in 2009 in which was found that black women who consumed 4 or more dairy servings per day, had a 30% reduced incidence of uterine fibroids compared to women who consumed less than one serving a day. The exact mechanism for this is not known but there are some researchers believe that the calcium in dairy products can help to reduce the cell proliferation. This is a reason why you need to include more dairy products and milk in your daily diet. Also you can combine milk with blackstrap molasses which is rich in iron and other nutrients and this combination can help to combat the anemia that is resulting from heavy bleeding caused by fibroids. It is not proven scientifically, but the blackstrap molasses can help to shrink fibroids. You should mix 1 or 2 tablespoons of blackstrap molasses in ¾ cup of warm milk. You should drink this home remedy once or twice a day on regular basis or at least for several months. Green tea: There are some studies in which are said that the green tea has a compound called EGCG (Epigallocatechin gallate) which can inhibit the growth of fibroid cells, eventually increasing their death rate. This compound has anti – inflammatory, antioxidant and antiproliferative effects. There are some studies in which is said that this home remedy can reduce the size of fibroids but also it can reduce the severity of fibroid symptoms. You should drink 2 or 3 cups of green tea or you can take 2 x 400 mg green tea capsules on daily basis in a period of several months. Avoid alcohol: When you are consuming too much alcohol, then it can lead to increased inflammation throughout your body. Also this can encourage hormonal imbalance, promote weight gain and reduce immune function. When you are reducing or eliminating the alcohol, then it can help to get your hormones back on track and this can also help to shrink existing uterine fibroids. Dandelion: There are many herbalists who believe that the poor live function can lead to poor elimination of excess hormones that contribute to uterine fibroids. This home remedy aids in liver detoxification and clearing the excess estrogen from the body. Boil 3 tablespoons of dandelion root in 3½ cups of water. You should let it simmer for fifteen minutes. Turn off the heat and then allow it to steep for another fifteen minutes before you strain it. You should drink this home remedy three times per day for at least 3 months.

Natural cures for uterine fibroids

Milk thistle: This home remedy can help metabolize and rid of the excess estrogen. We know that the estrogen is reproductive hormone which is stimulating cells to release growth factors, which in turn can contribute to fibroid growth. You should take ten to twenty – five drops of a tincture of milk thistle up to 3 times per day in a period of 3 – 4 months. Chasteberry: This home remedy is also known as Vitex agnus �� castus. It is native to southern Europe and the Mediterranean areas. It is very effective home remedy for reducing inflammation, lower estrogen levels and maintaining hormonal balance. You should take 25 – 30 drops of chasteberry tincture 2 – 4 times per day. This home remedy can help to regulate menstruation and bleeding between periods but also it can reduce the effectiveness of the birth control pills. Castor oil pack: When you apply castor oil pack on your abdomen, then it can help to stimulate the circulatory and lymphatic systems and it can increase lymphocytes (which are disease – fighting cells) to eliminate disease – causing toxins from your body. There are many holistic practitioners who believe that a buildup of these toxins has an important role in the fibroid development. Castor oil has ricinoleic acid that has anti – inflammatory properties. You should saturate a piece of wool flannel in castor oil. You should place it on your abdomen and cover it with a plastic wrap. You should place a heating pad or hot water bottle on it and cover this with an old towel. You should let it stay there for one hour and then remove it. You should repeat this natural treatment 3 or 4 times per week for at least one month or until you notice improvements in your condition. This home remedy can help to shrink fibroids and it can aid in pain relief. If you are trying to conceive or if you are pregnant, then you should not use this home remedy. Apple cider vinegar: This home remedy is very effective in reducing the symptoms of uterine fibroids because it can help to remove toxins from the body and it can promote fat loss. It is not scientifically proven but is believed that it can help to shrink uterine fibroids. You should add one teaspoon of organic apple cider vinegar to one glass of water. Also you can add some natural sweetener or one tablespoon of blackstrap molasses for taste. You should drink this home remedy daily on a regular basis. You should gradually increase the dosage of apple cider vinegar from one teaspoon to 1 or 2 tablespoons per glass. Burdock root tea: The burdock root can improve the ability of the liver to metabolize estrogen which can help to reduce uterine fibroids. Also it is rich in lignan arctigenin which can help to reduce the size of fibroids and it can inhibit new tumor growth. In one cup of hot water you need to add 1 teaspoon of dried burdock root. You should let it steep for ten to fifteen minutes and then strain it. You should drink this home remedy 3 times per day. Also you can take ten to twenty – five drops of burdock root tincture 3 times per day. You should continue either of these home remedies on daily basis in a period of 3 to 4 months. Indian Gooseberry: Amla is one of the best Ayurvedic remedies to reduce uterine fibroids and its symptoms because it is immunomodulator and antioxidant. You should mix together one teaspoon of honey and one teaspoon of Indian gooseberry powder. You should consume this home remedy on daily basis and this should be your first thing that you need to consume in the morning. You should continue using this home remedy at least a few months to get positive results. Garlic: This home remedy has anti – inflammatory and antioxidant properties which can discourage the growth of tumors and uterine fibroids. You should eat 3 to 5 garlic cloves on daily basis. If you think that the garlic taste and odor are too strong for you, then you should follow it with a glass of milk. Milk can help to reduce the incidence of fibroids.

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There is only one Thing sustaining me through this mess, My Thing. And he knows this; I don’t know what I would do without him; I really don’t.

He is not a rich mean, but only the best , man I know for everything , especially me. And I have only my favorite picture in the world to show “Us” together in our “US-ness, and I must insert that photo here, for it represents everything I have dreamed of; he really is the man of my dreams, and I am so glad he exists. \

You know what helps me get through this mess, just knowing that he exists, that he is part of my world.

This is the best moment of my Life!

and, of course, “No One in the World”

I can’t forget the Rapture:

Dear Dr. Chaudhary,

I am sure that you recall the surgery you performed on me in July 2011, the surgery that saved my life—I always thank you, and the University of Michigan demands that I repay all the money they overpaid me. The SSDI department acknowledges that this is their mistake. They do not celebrate my most unusual survival but expect me to repay every penny that why overpaid me. Their own mistake. I attach documents received from this very university.

If you would not mind lending me me some support, I would greatly appreciate it. It is nearly 2018, and they are hounding me even more.Perhaps I will have to send these documents to the Attorney General of Michigan, but I would like to have support form you before I gather the these documents to send. I would like have a document from you amount what I send. Being from 2011, this incident is very old. I will begin 2018 tying to eliminate, finally, and and for all, this incident from 2011.

This is what I have including some photos of how I was,

July 2011

and the move of my rover when I had to learn to walk again and talk again:

and you should still have the poem, “Aneurysm of the Firmament” that I wrote with my best friend. And this became the title poem of an entire chapbook we wrote together. The Cover is attached, and he rest of the content. This is an ebook available only on Amazon

and via my Amazon author page

a small gathering of poems in response to many things when the sky ruptured! (mostly through responses to writings of Thomas Higginson and Tardis Universes: the day I became a Whovian again)Thylias Moss ANEURYSM OF FIRMAMENT Piñata sky broken, ruptured! –what stick hit it? — what cosmic event cracked it open? (–good thing it did!–) –comets and more rain of treats light itself showers down BRIGHT beltsropes a boxing match light swirls into poles & other delights –such RUPTURE my brain the sun in the solar system I amRUPTURED! solar flaressolar winds & even more!the sun becomes a red giant,& I direct traffic!from the center of Botticelli’s paintingthe birth of brown Venus, sheer sparkling gauze over me as Gallifrey burnsBuckwheat’s hair on fire–fountains of luminous combustion!13 Doctors healthis blazing epidemiceach regeneration of the Doctor has himproduce spiky burning armsfountains of illuminated spikeseach a protrusion from the head of a hijacked Cameroonian stink ant! sparklers pinwheels kaboom, kaboom, kaboom moreandmoreDaleksfall no rupture, and no light!something has to break!Part 3comets have to fall, and fall hard, into Midnight Sun, 1961 Twilight Zone –optical illusion dimensions –sun enlarges and enlargesimminent end of Earth. At last… Poor Norma… Last one left in apartment building –blood is boiling –rupture is about to happen –I will bleed again, a crazed menstrual cycle (Norma was dreaming, sick and feverish –escaped the chill really going on –either way, Earth in atypical orbit):–post-menopausal now, so this blood comes from my head:this is the way the world endsall condemned by existencelightning illuminating those veins in the ceiling that is firmamentGallifrey all lightning; seems to exist only when there’s hocus pocus of fire … but this time, Gallifrey is saved, by Time Lords, who? Doctors, that’s who! all combining their strength, like streaks of light, deep freeze on Gallifrey, Gallifrey home! –there is no other!–light of battle breaks out –planet is surrounded by belts of illumination! –the brain that this salvation is breaks –writing is on the wall –that none of them want:NO MORE! NO MORE! left with guilt of responsibility of billions of deathsGallifrey protected by ice, cold but just as brilliant, scintillates away and away and awayThe most splendid rupture ever! Bring on rupturing aneurysms! –changed my life, just as they should!Shake up this firmament! -shake it to the east, shake it to the west, shake it to the one you love the best.Frozen with Gallifrey is also hope! –hope that sparkles down transfiguredlands in tea cups… a sweet prescription, full of inspiration, hope of inspiration and inspired healing! –sweetened by rays of light, spikes of rapturous (freebie) aneurysm, bulging veins, like thermometer bulb about to pop;healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure:Hello again, Norma: welcome to Midnight Sun salvation:my aneurysms, one repaired, and the other: ready to blowsky high(part 3a)Poor Amybroke, ruptured 23 July 2011 –crackedsame day one of my own cranial aneurysms ruptured, broke in (that burglar)my head… repaired! –I have the beautiful scars, staple holes, unintentional scarification; hair grown wild around them, cleats werestationed there. one more aneurysm: timebomb! ticktock ticktock, ticktock hickory dickory dock :Hickory, dickory, dock.The mouse ran up the clock.The clock struck one gleaming, glistening aneurysmrhythms of light;and then there was, you knowhow it is, how it’s always been, howit will bethe brilliant repetitionsky highGallifrey falls no more–

in response to: “If you See something, Say something” –Thomas Higginson “If you See something, Say SomethingBanana” white shadowcrescent moonWax (ing)Wax bananaWax grapes, applesin bowlsOn my mother’s dining room tablelunchkitchen sinkI see this alsomy father washing dishesscalding waterhis skindown the drainplates clean, heavenly,full of banana water spotswe eat the shadows.two of whichare my father’sdiseased lungsyet I float on cloudsinto such a clean, pure kingdomthat nothing else mattersjust a banana which I eat the moment I arrive.Buddhain suds.NAKED NIGHT: a eulogy (Thomas Higginson: STOP 3 with: italic origami by Thylias Moss)Not trying to impose, just trying to build structure, form, recipe for holding, folding holdstogether: we’re made of this –is that not a purpose of bones inside: give shape to this, bones even buried inside the planet, treasure, pre-history and present becoming “now”, elusive “now” elephants in rooms, closets, “protected avenues” –must plow right through, forceof Indian elephants, never forgettingorigami of whywe’re here: “you and I for-ever pur-pose of purpose maybe is foldingbuilding structure, training wheels for elephants who must sink and swimKronos armies, TV sets with legs on the Mexican beach (made in Mexico, you know) — the ghost sea is so great, origami ocean, crumples and wrinkles like skin ofelephants poached ivory, white as ghosts, Caspar –they cannot survivepur-pose for-everTo set in motion the secret boat so small, canbarely cut can barely poach (now you’re cookingwith gaschambers, now the alchemy)barely cut, dice and chopthe wave, wave me down, flag me down, I need some helpthis flat tire: get me to the church in time.The way is pretty durn milky universe, Kronos: destroyer of the universe, Shiva’shalf-brother, half sister, only half (circus freak) eats power stations, eats swords nuclear energy, appetite not deterred by radiation, prefersglowing food: the better to see it, better to taste itswallowed a journey throughglowing throat, such illumination; how beautifuldeath is when mandatorypur-poseIf you know what I’m saying –can’t be late for my own salvationin the darkpraying the Breton Fisherman’s prayer, fisherof men, half and 3/5ths, not choosy; they come from “Fisher Street”laundry hanging in the backyards, alleys,lynched men hanging cleanFels Naptha, water hot enough to dissolve skin”float on, chug on, chug, chug, chug… dark holesof memory dissolve into anothermeltdown, why not meltup sometimes?touch hems of angels? –unless they dissolve from justthe touch of dirt?lake of crocodile tearsfrom elephant eyes, such mergers: meaning of eulogy, thickcoming together just to come apart:gallons and gallons of bleach…enough to abort everyone, those old ways, tried and truepur-posecontamination of all water, evencrocodile tearsbible tells me so true blue, true mootill the cows come home – reactor corebreakdown pur-pose into cowing, kowtowing–those industrial farms where cows don’t know what it means to be cows, kowtowsjust elephants in these squeezed rooms, moo-ing and everything milked, Cause I don’t you maySing this one back to me –I sing back bones, structure, skin of these things dissolving, slipping away…elephants in the room dissolving into shadows, holes, Bonnie Raitt’s music to dissolve to, to technicolor to: “I Can’t Make You love me, only dissipate, tractor away, tractor back, trapeze effects all –house of trapeze, curtain rods, fuel rods in nuclear power plants, hungry Kronos on the rampage

–can’t make you love him –just like a man of pur-pose, scattering his power everywhere, meltdown after meltdown, pur-pose floats, black rain, mere Ivory soap, but this is dirty, pure dirty floating bombs, new Moses-types in baskets…–we build structure; as if that’s enough to hold everything together, sound of motor, motor-song, little speedboat, hurry, hurry the message, in case it’s all praise –not enough pur-pose for that anymore “The poem that floats Its message across The land that recedes –like memories, elephantized memories To the stars themselves glowing hot nuclear meltdown cores of The recipients” contaminated hothouses!” –hot in here! The poem curves a line to you –wormhole of 97 realities Floats a word back That’s the way we rock the world : jazzy funeral dying 97 elephant trumpetspur-poses (these like dolphins, elephants of the see pur-poses To sleep. In the naked night,The ocean wears a hat — hat; I wear your hat of fallout pur-pose too: 97th shadow of 97th elephant in the room:”I know I cannot live without you”so I don’t live; just dissolve and exist that way, 97 puddles singing giving everything back: reflection after reflection after reflectionof endless depth, a tophatto top off everything, make itpurty… purty, purty…contaminated, pur-ty pur-poseis as pur-ty does.Shadow Cycle: Shadow dance shadow dancer shadow kiss master shadow of ornette shadow sister mister shadow dark fraught fragile shadow canopy shadow of all power ambiguous shower shadow do be it you shadow in the moon shadow of eclipse shadow lips lapse shadow down shadow of shadow’s shadow Tap-dancing Response: Tap-dancing shadow tears inside always inside perpetuity ornette shadow lengthens connecting to so many other shadows so shadowy that there’s nothing but shadow to link everything linkable what is casting it ornette shadow so powerful that it casts most of existence balanced on a compassionate tear inside tear inside shadow tapdancing to get to them all, a hop here, a jump there, 5:01, a second of tapdance salute to irregularity of tears as dark as a shadow shadow of a tear falling falling rolling down shadow’s shadow inside a tear.Extended:Shadow tether, shadow lifeline, shadow attached, shadow traveling, shadow dropping, weight of shadow, shadow home eclipsed by shadow wanderer itinerant shadow adjusting fitting, shadow accommodating, shadow of world shadow drowning, shadow rescued, ornette shadow stretching, electric shadow, boomerang shadow inside boomerang tear, shadow going nowhere another shadow, shadow, shadow knows Caspar friendly ghost shadow just as dark, maybe not as long yet as ornette shadow, shadow sound, walking, walking, walking lips around a horn shadow lips shadow horn shadow sound shadow echoes, shadow echoes, walking the line…Lengthening Shadow Detached:Now the shadow slips loose of its tether; detached, seeking its own venture, separate from ornette yet still on journeys, lengthening into an infinty, black as all good nite, Caspar friendly ghost shadow even better friendly because of the split, multidirections, one of which leans towards sunshine, black sun, one tornadic, spinning, restless, friendly or not, ornette shadow or not, loose, loose that man and let him go, let him run free, run for his life, for every life, run prairie in darkness, sundial shadow, shadow time, hammer time, slip knot, curly shadow, curls of good nite, lurk, prey prays the shadow loose….Detached onthego Comets:Mix match Ukraine swatch batch mystry mischief art part never partsIllumination would be ill could be illest to the fullestMinistrations banister falling devoid of grit and gathered hem for paucity touch tough gone and back clippercomets have to fall, and forth.Alternative Ballast Ballet:Chernobyl shadows even sky, last hope of mischief power plants art of planting power, Pripyat breakfast of champion hems and has, fringe, rough edges woodpeckers, beaks touch remnants of doors, rush, stuck, xylophone methods, alternative ballast balletA First Response (there may be others) poem to Thomas Higginson’s poem: “How to Wake Up””How To Wake Up1. Go to sleep”2. Don’t die! –3. Hire an exorcist, root worker, witch doctor, gypsy, conjure person, hoodoo woman, also my local rocket scientess who blasts away all evidence of doubt4. Easier said than done, so much keeping me awakepillow under my headsleep mask –red one–bull!bulls charging the muletaover my eyesand now I see stars, red giants, and all otherhatseven better…So much glowing, so muchtickling of lifeAs soon as possibleall that caffeinehas other ideas…2:00 amI’m still awake!with my learner’s permit!I play an album of lullabiesbut I’m really listeningand really listeningkeeps me awake.I’m really touchingthe sheets, thinkingwhat a sarong5. for the Java man missing links6. sleep itselffor the Java man I have in the makingrememberingmy old singer sewing machine–never fell asleep on it, Tabanga nearbythat 1957 movie, “From Hell It Came”what my father and I called “tree monster” –not once falling asleep…5. certainly not in college6. where those all-nighters7. seemed to make differences8. passed those tests anyway.9. somehow10. screaming and screaming 11. of course12. Remembering and even becoming13. Frankenstein’s best monster:14. “I’m alive, I’m alive!”15. “Dough rises for meno matter how I treat it, how I punch it.Loaves line the counter like closed coffins,Something I never want is to wake from a long sleephungry” (chicken in)SIONON EPOCHpart 1great word of honorthy motherwith Popeye’s chickendelivered by wise persons300 miles away, only onesable to get exact Popeye’s mama wantslove those biscuits! –like mama used to makein her dreamsalthough extremeinsulin dependent diabetes, hyper-tension thyroid so out of control as ifshe no longer has onepoor baby poor baby no matter how old one becomes stillsomebody’s baby(though no longer a dreambaby)Dreams have not stopped, butno longer baby dreams –these dreamshave maturedas Popeye Doyle detectives, break dream rules,whatever’s necessary to catch drug smugglersdrunken Popeye’s chickentastes even betterand even fights God, a Cerullo godsomehow better than any other god cabinets of medicinediscarded, uselessprescriptions, a real Goddoesn’t need themyet everyone, dreaming or who stops relying on power of medicineto heal and stave offeffects of aneurysms and much worsediesome same night that Amy Winehouse goes back to blackbabies, no

ut think aboutis Jesus, dream man Jesus, three days in the tomb of impossibledreams, even the dream of dying someday, wet feetand all, cans of spinachin the store (aisles) frontof Towels from old boxes of Breeze detergentlaid downby none else than Jesus look out for wolves,the taste they have for succulent little lambsso willingto lay down at dream feetthat can walk on the lake of firethat burns even better when it’s cold, as crystals forma dream of my hand, heel as pure crystalsdream crystalcrystallizing 61 crystals so farcandles on a cakemy frozen feet seem to have flakes from Popeye’s”fried chicken all over them,roughest skin on my body–no one dreams of that;not dream-worthy skin at allgeometries of these crystals, each a stegosaurus plate

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-nosí o no?Siononstory of a dream kitchen with stegosaurus plates fine china–always yes to that, Popeyeson the sideburning, burning, burningupand burning downperfect, perfect burning….wisdom God gave me in a dream of giving me wisdomwise enoughto only dream only thatwhile Jesus laid her downwith wolves in Lake of Fire Amusement Park, Part 3:Little Pigshouse of straw, dream house of sticksbad dreams?síLittle Pig, Little Pig, a trinity of us, you knowwhat that means, Jesus will lay you down right at my feet,I just need something to eatfun times allLet me in,not by the hair of my chinny chin chinI’ll huff and I’ll puff thenbetter than any vacuumcleaner, till those houses come downwolf is still a windbag dream (coming true)when he goes to the third Pig’s dream houseof brickswasted, completely wasted huffing and puffing climbs down the chimney, inventsa form of Santa, Wolf in red suit from embers scrapinghis Frank Lucas-style fur coatthat he doesn’t have to removeto enter cauldron of boiling waterlid on untilBig Bad soup is as ready as a dream can ever be

Waking up againFirmament is still there.Sky is still there.(sorry Chicken Little sky fell up)Up isstill thereEven in the southern hemi-sphereupis still theresame up that I have (UPS is still there)Looking up

The bills from the University of Michigan itself:

Notice that payment for $100.00 –courtesy my Thing, but this by far not the only reason. He and I have been connected for 30 years, and like any other connection enduring so long, we have experience every emotion possible to experience, we have experienced, but we areaways together aaa=again, that palpable instant chemistry. I could say more

In your case, although retired, the obligation remained for you to follow through with your SSDI claim until a decision was rendered in order for us to properly calculate your past benefit entitlements under the UM LTD Plan.In addition to the reimbursement agreement you signed on 11/21/2013, you acknowledged, upon retirement and in writing, your responsibility to repay the LTD Plan if approved for SSDI. From January 2014 through January 2016, there were also numerous email communications and correspondence via U.S. mail to keep you informed of this responsibility.In January 2016, the Benefits Office learned of your approval for SSDI benefits – A closed period award beginning 3/1/2014 through 5/1/2015. As indicated in your SSDI Notice of Award letter, Social Security calculated your benefits due for this period as $36,276. However, they subtracted $6,000 to pay your attorney. Therefore, you received a lump sum payment from Social Security for $30,276.YOUR OVERPAYMENT & REPAYMENT TO THE UM LTD PLAN: A complete analysis of your UM LTD income payment history in combination with your monthly SSDI benefit reflects that you have been overpaid by the LTD Plan in the gross amount of $33,628 from 3/1/2014 through 4/30/2015. You may refer to the enclosed worksheet to see how this amount was calculated.Because you retained an attorney to pursue SSDI benefits, the UM LTD Plan will offset your gross overpayment by the amount that Social Security withheld from your lump sum SSDI award. In your case, Social Security deducted $6,000 out of your lump sum award to pay your attorney.The gross overpayment amount indicated above may be further reduced in your favor to offset for tax adjustments. The tax adjustment analysis to determine the net repayment amount is completed by the Payroll Office.In summary, you have been overpaid in the net amount of $27,292.56 as previously indicated in the letter dated 1/25/2016 from the Benefits Office. While the UM LTD Plan provisions state that lump sum repayments must be made within 30 days, we understand extenuating circumstances arise.Therefore, we can offer the following repayment options, which provide some flexibility, but also remain consistent with the LTD Plan provisions and what other LTD Participants have been provided.Repayment Option #1: Repay the amount owed to the university in one lump sum. In this case, you would have to repay $27,292.56. This amount can be honored as long as you repay the UM LTD Plan in lump sum by 12/1/2016.– OR –Repayment Option #2: Repay the full, gross amount owed to the UM LTD Plan over a 24-month period. In this case, you would have to submit monthly payments of $1,401.17 for 24 consecutive months resulting in a total repayment of $33,628 to the UM LTD Plan. By choosing this option, you will forfeit your right to receive the $6,000 credit for your attorney fees and applicable tax adjustments. We request your first monthly payment be made to the Benefits Office by 3/31/2016.You may make your lump sum payment by check, or your first monthly payment by check, payable to The University of Michigan. In the memo field of your check, please note “LTD Plan Repayment” and include your UMID number.Thank you in advance for your prompt response and attention to this matter. We ask you or your attorney to please confirm your selected repayment option via email to [email protected]. You may also use the enclosed pre-addressed envelope to confirm your repayment option and/or submit your LTD repayment.Sincerely,Meaghan HaasBenefits Manager, Long-Term Disability Program cc: William Crawforth—————I offer the entire content of the chapbook, “Aneurysm of the Firmament ” here, for saale on Amazon an an e-book here: ANEURYSM OF THE FIRMAMENTa small gathering of poems in response to many things when the sky ruptured! (mostly through responses to writings of Thomas Higginson and Tardis Universes: the day I became a Whovian again)Thylias Moss ANEURYSM OF FIRMAMENT Piñata sky broken, ruptured! –what stick hit it? — what cosmic event cracked it open? (–good thing it did!–) –comets and more rain of treats light itself showers down BRIGHT beltsropes a boxing match light swirls into poles & other delights –such RUPTUREmy brain the sun in the solar system I amRUPTURED! solar flaressolar winds & even more!the sun becomes a red giant,& I direct traffic!from the center of Botticelli’s paintingthe birth of brown Venus, sheer sparkling gauze over me as Gallifrey burnsBuckwheat’s hair on fire–fountains of luminous combustion!13 Doctors healthis blazing epidemiceach regeneration of the Doctor has himproduce spiky burning armsfountains of illuminated spikeseach a protrusion from the head of a hijacked Cameroonian stink ant! sparklers pinwheels kaboom, kaboom, kaboom moreandmoreDaleksfall no rupture, and no light!something has to break!Part 3comets have to fall, and fall hard, into Midnight Sun, 1961 Twilight Zone –optical illusion dimensions –sun enlarges and enlargesimminent end of Earth. At last… Poor Norma… Last one left in apartment building –blood is boiling –rupture is about to happen –I will bleed again, a crazed menstrual cycle (Norma was dreaming, sick and feverish –escaped the chill really going on –either way, Earth in atypical orbit):–post-menopausal now, so this blood comes from my head:this is the way the world endsall condemned by existencelightning illuminating those veins in the ceiling that is firmamentGallifrey all lightning; seems to exist only when there’s hocus pocus of fire … but this time, Gallifrey is saved, by Time Lords, who? Doctors, that’s who! all combining their strength, like streaks of light, deep freeze on Gallifrey, Gallifrey home! –there is no other!–light of battle breaks out –planet is surrounded by belts of illumination! –the brain that this salvation is breaks –writing is on the wall –that none of them want:NO MORE! NO MORE! left with guilt of responsibility of billions of deathsGallifrey protected by ice, cold but just as brilliant, scintillates away and away and awayThe most splendid rupture ever! Bring on rupturing aneurysms! –changed my life, just as they should!Shake up this firmament! -shake it to the east, shake it to the west, shake it to the one you love the best.Frozen with Gallifrey is also hope! –hope that sparkles down transfiguredlands in tea cups… a sweet prescription, full of inspiration, hope of inspiration and inspired healing! –sweetened by rays of light, spikes of rapturous (freebie) aneurysm, bulging veins, like thermometer bulb about to pop;healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure-healing-cure:Hello again, Norma: welcome to Midnight Sun salvation:my aneurysms, one repaired, and the other: ready to blowsky high(part 3a)Poor Amybroke, ruptured 23 July 2011 –crackedsame day one of my own cranial aneurysms ruptured, broke in (that burglar)my head… repaired! –I have the beautiful scars, staple holes, unintentional scarification; hair grown wild around them, cleats werestationed there. one more aneurysm: timebomb! ticktock ticktock, ticktock hickory dickory dock :Hickory, dickory, dock.The mouse ran up the clock.”

I DID NOT OVERPAY MYSELF!

I WAS DYING IN A HOSPITAL! HOW DARE THE UNIVERSITY OF MICHIGAN EXPECT ME TO PAY THEM BACK IN FULL FOR THEIR OWN MISTAKE!

Dr. Neeraj Chaudhary saved my life! It would have been better for the University if I had died, as I told Meaghan Hass, and Stacy Orban, of theUniversity’s Long-Term Disability which I refused to accept any more of once I was released on 9 October 2011

I did the right thing, but so what?

SSDI Debacle There is only one Thing sustaining me through this mess, My Thing. And he knows this; I don't know what I would do without him; I really don't.

#BUREACRACY #FAIRNESS #SSDI #TREATMENT OF RETIREES #UNIVERSITY OF MICHIGAN

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