#also im sorry if this is offensive i just genuinely feel pissed off about the whole thing. i regret getting the vaccine

[314]

when they bring all of these covid restrictions back are y'all gonna wear masks and get vaccinated again?

#i did all of that shit and got it so bad #i dont get the point even #the vaccine deadass made me sick #i was exhausted and nauseous and lost my period for 3 months after the second dose of the vaccine and then got covid lolz #im just curious like i feel like none of it worked anyway except actually getting covid and i havent had it since #even though i have issues with my taste and smell still a year later #also im sorry if this is offensive i just genuinely feel pissed off about the whole thing. i regret getting the vaccine

[maoam]

Hi I’m sorry i sent you an ask earlier about why would kishimoto intentionally put gay characters in a shonen manga and idk if your ask about condescending questions was about that? If it seemed that way to you I’m sorry, english isn’t my first language so I can’t express my thoughts the way I’d prefer to. I adore sns so I’m in no way implying that them being perceived as romantic is wrong but I just don’t understand the reason behind making your male characters intentionally seem gay. In my opinion it was unintentional and kishi probably had some unresolved lingering feelings towards some of his male friends and That’s why the bond between s and n is so intense. i just genuinely wonder why on heart would he, a dude who seems like a pretty big conservative guy in general, would put gay characters in his most popular work. that’s it. Very sorry if my previous ask pissed you off, Im just really interested in your opinions in general and I wanted to read your thoughts but if you’re not comfortable displaying them that’s fine! Just don’t feel like someone was trying to provoke you because I actually respect you a lot

Well like I said it wasn't your ask I was referring to. I didn't think it was condescending.

Do you think drawing a harem of pretty naked men is necessary and vital for a manga for teenage boys? Well looks like in Kishi's opinion it is considering he fought with his editors for 4 years in order to include it in the manga lol. HE's the one who wanted to draw it. But that's just one example. Also why do you think he only trashes two female characters, who happen to be N and S's wives in his interviews, while leaving the other female characters alone? Why in Boruto movie--- anyway you get the idea, I'm not going to explain the whole manga and the continuation to you in this post.

You sound pretty young no offense, if you think the things you mentioned makes it impossible.

#anon

[khuuya]

Bsd Dazai having an s/o who belongs to some kind of humanoid race, its not an ability but basically they fight like monsters because of super strength BUT they weaken to direct sunlight that could possibly kill them so usually they have to carry an umbrella which they use as a weapon (i stan you if you watched gintama and know that its basically the Yato race oml). IM SORRY IF THIS IS TOO MUCH SINCE ALL I DO IS READ AND YOU'RE THE FIRST PERSON I EVER REQUESTED TO

You can either do a scenario of their first meeting or a relationship headcannon, you con Google more about Yato if you're confused since this is too specific-

Dazai with reader whos of a humanoid race | headcanon

fandom -> Bungou Stray Dogs

character -> Dazai Osamu

note -> I THINK THIS WAS A REALLY COOL IDEA!!! AH!! I did have to research about yato, but I found it really interesting!! I hope you enjoy this and I did it justice!! i tried to mix in the first meeting and some relationship headcanons!

- you're first meeting was,,,, unexpected,,,,

- Dazai had found himself running into some trouble with ANOTHER enemy

- what's new?

- you had just been passing by, holding your umbrella over yourself so you can remain out of the sunlight since you weren’t really in the mood to collapse on the ground today.

- you decided to take a shortcut home and walk through a dark alleyway.

- being too busy with trying to close your umbrella you hadn’t noticed the man himself, Dazai Osamu, practically being two seconds away from getting knocked out.

- the second you noticed, instinct kicked in and you came to his rescue right away.

- considering you were a humanoid, you were exceedingly stronger than regular humans.

- the force of your kick was able to knock out the first enemy, while the swift strike of your umbrella hitting the skull of the second enemy was enough to keep him knocked out for the next day.

- when you finally looked over at Dazai he was just frozen

- dazai.exe has stopped working.

- you were?? so badass?? and so?? beautiful?? this was a fever dream??? it has to be??

- The first thing to escape his mouth was “do you wanna commit a double suicide?”, as he rushed to your side to take your hand in his.

- “what? no.” is your response as you let go of his hand and try to leave.

- you thought you could just leave that quickly? cute.

- “Wait! Let me at least ask you a couple questions!” he yells at you, before quickly following your lead.

- you sigh, before nodding in agreement.

- he asks you questions like how your ability works, which leads you to explain how you don’t have an “ability”. You were a humanoid, and unlike ability users, the pros and cons of your own body couldn’t be turned on and off.

- he was instantly fascinated at that and invited you to join the armed detective agency.

- you told him you’d think about it before leaving him and heading back to your home.

- you really weren't gonna think about it, the second he offered you knew you’d want to give it a shot.

- plus hello? Cute guy?

- fast forward and you now work at the ADA

- this man does NOT LEAVE YOU ALONE !!!

- he makes sure you guys are always paired for missions.

- he always brings an extra umbrella for you in case something happens to yours.

- when you mention it he plays it off by saying “I don’t want my bandages to get soggy if it rains!”

- s/o:  you sure that's the reason?

- dazai: please belladonna, don't make me feel the need to humble you.

- the more missions he joins you on the more he begins to develop feelings.

- he promises himself to never let you know though, he doesn’t want you getting hurt because of the people he's pissed off. (and he's pissed off a lot of people so-)

- until one mission...

- you were dealing with taking out the enemies from the shadows of inside a tall city building while Dazai worked on the outside of the building.

- You finished your duties quickly, as usual, it wasn't anything too challenging and you went to check on how Dazai was doing.

- The enemies had surrounded him and they didn’t plan on letting him leave alive.

- So instinct kicked in once again and you ran into the sun to help him out. You were able to take on a couple guys before you blacked out.

- Luckily, Dazai was able to take you back to the ADA before anything worse happened to you.

- when you woke up..... omg...

- he was PISSED.

- he gave you a whole speech on why you shouldn’t be throwing yourself in danger to help him and how he never wanted you to do it again.

- accidentally told you that he loved you during his little fit.

- he didn’t even realize.

- so when you called him out on it, he confessed.

- in which you told him you felt the same.

- because duh? dazai??

- thus the beginning of your relationship!!!!!

- Dazai makes sure to always lure the enemies into places without sunlight just in case he needs your assistance because he does not want you hurt again.

- he tried to bring up the idea of you wrapping yourself in bandages so the sunlight doesn't harm you.  To which you had to explain to him you would rather not have to walk around looking like a mummy.

- he found that lowkey offensive :(

- If you guys go on dates he will only take you out at night.

- which leads to some fun adventures!!

- even though they are usually very dangerous!!!

- he also dances with you in the rain a lot.

- which leads to you changing his bandages because you are NOT cuddling with some wet bandages.

- sometimes you guys will dress in all black and walk around in the sunlight with umbrellas just to freak people out.

- show up to the ADA with your outfits and kunikida will start yelling.

- he got you an umbrella hat for your first birthday with him.

- you almost drop kicked him for that one.

- whenever someone asks why you don’t come outside much he tells them you're a vampire.

- so now half the population genuinely believes you’re a vampire.

- fine by him!! he gets to keep you to himself!!!!!

© all headcanons/imagines belong to @khuuya​ ! please do not steal !

masterlist | bulletin board

#dazai osamu #dazai x reader #dazai osamu x reader #bungou stray dogs #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #akutagawa x reader #atsushi x reader #chuuya x reader #chuuya nakahara #atsushi nakajima

[roguesnezblog]

About Text Rp’s...

So I’m gonna go on a small rant for a second. And just get this off my chest cuz none of my friends are online <<

Plus I think this is an important thing to say as a person who has learning difficulties. (Dyslexia is what I know I have but need to prolly get diagnosed for other things too like ADHD/Autism. The doc basically was like HEY YOU COULD HAVE THESE THINGS BUT WE DUNNO WHICH ONE. Like hey gee thanks. Anyway)

So I basically just had a person text rp with me and say they weren’t enjoying it cuz my grammar and my typo’s were “ruining the flow of rp” and messing with their mojo I guess.

I tell em I got dyslexia and that shit can be hard for me to spot, even if I re-read what I’ve wrote or really try focus on what the word is. Sometimes I just never see a misspelling or a typo cuz my brain looks at it differently.

They say they understand and I say sorry but I don’t think my literacy can get much better than this because if I try super hard to focus and yanno write like a professional writer, I get stressed and I quickly get headaches and frustrated because I just...don’t enjoy writing as much as most people.

Im much more of an artist. Duh.

They brag about how they have a Master’s in english and just totally dismiss Everything I just said about how my stress levels get effected by too much writing/reading and that I do not think my mind can do much better than what I’m currently doing and just said:

“Nah, anything helps just read fanfiction more. I’d be happy to tutor you.”

So...FYI to anyone without a reading disability and reading this for my own opinion on it. It doesn’t just go away the more you read. Nor does it get better, the more you read. 

Yes, you can force your brain to learn to spell certain words normally it would have trouble with (Like patterns and rhyming tricks)

Yes, a dyslexic person can force themselves to write “well” and focus like for essays or schoolwork.

And yes a dyslexic person academically can excel in literacy.

But for me at least; it is never fun. And it is always stressful to force your brain to behave in a way it isn’t programmed to be normally. Specially when people like this, pressure you to get better and act like for your entire life you haven’t been combating these troubles.

So then, whats the solution? 

 The solution is simpler than you think. Just be patient. If someone says their dyslexic, expect mistakes in writing and don’t get pissed about it.

It’s really just that simple.

Don’t act high and mighty, don’t play teacher and don’t think it can be fixed by just reading more.

(Sorry for the rant I don’t normally do this but this person actually really annoyed me :U I also feel like sharing this experience I can help others like me feel less alone...Also I won’t say their name and I will say it was no-one from tumblr, so none of my rp mates from here have to panic. Haha! It was from another website I won’t name)

PS.

I enjoy text rp now and then, although I much prefer drawing. Writing I am not good at but I enjoy engaging with people who like my ocs and a lot more people text rp than image rp (like I do) but things like this put me off it so much...

I am sorry if anything here I said was offensive to anyone. As I’m not sure what other dyslexic people feel on this...since I don’t know many others like me, but this is just how I felt in this moment. I may delete this post later if I am wrong...but I would like to know what others think about it...

PSS.

This whole thing as said by the title is about text rp. As in text roleplay. As text roleplay is rarely a job or anything beyond a fun activity, I genuinely believe people shouldn’t be so uptight and forceful with grammar and/or spelling mistakes.It’s suppose to be for fun, not a job interview, this is a major reason why this made me so annoyed. It’s not the place I expected to see this behavior from.

#RANT #ew #look i'm sorry I just #gdi

[finding-the-daylight]

So, now that my finals are officially over, I am going to proceed to have a drink or two or three and rewatch Eclipse. Here’s (soberly) what I remembered from the film prior to starting this account (since starting this account, posts re:Eclipse have reminded me of things I’m not going to include in this introduction): 

1. Bella is basically playing tic-tac-toe with Edward and Jacob and her feelings for them. She can’t make up her mind. When I watched it the first time, my dad was in the living room half paying attention to it and said she was very selfish. 

2. Edward tries to control Bella, but it’s “out of genuine concern for her”.

3. Jacob tries to control Bella, but it’s “out of genuine concern for her”.

4. Both fight for her affection and even though she’s engaged to Edward, she won’t let go of Jacob.

5. When the newborn army shows up, Bella cuts her arm with a rock.

6. There’s awkward tension in the tent.

That’s literally all I remember of the movie while sober (aside from what I have relearned from posts about Eclipse on this blog). My drunken thoughts will be below the break:

Okay, so this dude I think his name is Riley is lowkey kinda dumb, no offense. Like he just stood there and screamed “WHAT DO YOU WANT?!?” This is how all horror movies end badly. You don’t talk back. You run or hide or esape.

THE MEADOW IS SO FUCKING PRETTY. IT’S THE PUREST THING WE HAVE IN THIS FANDOM OMG HE’S PLAYING WITH EHR HAIR AND I JUST WANT SOMEOEN TO PLAY WITH MY HAIR. DAMN BELLA, MY FINALS ARE OVER. SUCKS TO SUCK, DOESN’T IT?

I never noticed the CUllen cuff before, but now thanks to this blog it’s all I’m looking @ lmao. 

I FCKING LOVE CHARLIE TOO MUCH AND HE DESERVED BETTER THIS WHOLE TIME. HE IS SUCH A GOOD FATHER AND HE DESERVES THE BEST.

THERE’S A GLOWING RED LIGHT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW WTF I THINK IT’S THE REFLECTION OF A CAR LIGHT BUT I FUCKING SWEAR

NVM ITS GONE

WHAT THE FUCK EDWARD?? YOU MESSED WITH BELLA’S TRUCK SO SHE COULDN’T SEE HER FRIEND? FUCK. I WOULD’VE DUMPED YOU AND LEFT YOU IN THE WOODS BRO.

Edward sitting with Bella’s friends. We can’t help but stan. He’s still a bitch for the truck thing though. 

I love how Alice looks @ Edward and tells him the party will be fun because she knows nothing bad will happen. But then he reads her mind and looks conerned wtf is ognna happen?

Side note: I really like the lighting in this movie. Everyone has a healthly glow. They lokk happy.

The fucking Volturi always gotta ruin everything. Bitch ass hoes. Ol’ crusty asses acting like some outdated monarchy. Why don’t the vamprires start a democratic government?

Charlie really deserved better. Like I know they couldn’t tell him teh truth but they could’ve been slightly less untruthful prbabl.

I WANNA FIND SOMEONE WHERE MY MOM SAYS WE’RE LIKE MAGNETS WITH EACH OTHER. I WANT SOMEONE TO LOOK @ ME LIKE I’M THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE. DAMNIT EDWARD. DAMNIT STEPHENDW. 

Y’ALL ARE TELLING ME THE ENTIRE CULELN CLAM COMBINED COULDN’T TKAE OUT VICTORIA? THIS SHIT IS GETTING UNREALISTIC LMAO.

THE MUSIC THAT STARTS PLAYING WHEN JAKE TURNS AROUND IN THE PARKING LOT SENT ME LMAOOOOO. 

Leah is such a badass and I wnat to be best friends with ehr plase. 

ALSO FCK THIE IMPRINTING STORYLINE. 

SAM AND LEAH WERE HAPPY TOGETHER.

NO BELLA YOU DON’T FUCKING WANNA KNOW WHAT IMPRINTING IS. NONE OF US WANTD WTO KNWO. IT NEVER SHOULDVE BEEN WRITTEN.

Taylor and Kristen are such babies in this movie. They’re so young and precious. WHIH REMINDS ME WHY TF DID SPTHEJNFNWFNA MAKE THIS SEIRESO ABOUT CHIDLREN??!?! I STILL SAY IF THE CHARACTERS HAS BEWNNF MORE MATUEE AND IN LIKE THEIR MID OR LATE TWNETIEMS OR THIRTIS IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER. FIUCKUNG FIGHT ME.

INITING BELLA TO HEAR THE TRIBE’S HISTORIES? THE CULTURAL APPROPRIATION FUCK STEPHEN0AWFJQ. BITCHJ.

SETH IS SO PRECIOUS. AGAIN. THEY’RE ALL SUCH BABIES. THESE POOR CHILDREN.

this hwoel shite is sof ukcing offensie. bitch. listen. why tf did stpehwb fafb have to appropriate cultues like this? BITCH>> you do realize if the legnds are actually like this they’rel ike that because it’s aout defeating yo white as sright? like your’e aware stpehebe ? 

omg bree is so scare d poor baby. literally why did stephenjdbawfbi do this? she just wnated to be ok not hurt anywaon.

exuce me vut CARLISLE IS HOT AS FUCK BITCH

edward is saying some real romantic shit and i sill hate him for the turck thing but like he loves her so much btu he’s stil an asshoel in this smovie

I’M ABOUT TO HATE JACOB I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES I’VE SEEN THE GIFS HOE WE GONNA GIGHT. BITCH SHE JUST TOLD YOU SHE DOESN’T LIKE YOU DON’T PUSH HER LIKE THIS. DUMBAS S HOE BITCH. YOU’RE GONNA FIGHT FOR HER? I’M GONNA FUCKIN FIGHT YOU BTCH. I WISH SHE WAS ALREAYD A VAMPIRE SO RTHAT PUNCH WOULDA HURT BITCH YOU DESERVED IT.

THESE FUCKWITS ARE FIGHTING OVER HER AND NOT LISTNEING TO HER THEY ARE BOTCH CANCELLED. BELLA NEEDS TO LEAVE BOTH THESE HOES AND GET A NEW MAN WHO ACTUALLY KNOWS HOW TO LISTNE. BITCHES.

I love Emmett so much. BELLA SHOULD FINA A MAN LIKE HIM. IT’S WHAT SHE DESERVES.

ROSALIE IS ABOUT TO POP TF OFF. SHE IS A QUEEN AND I LVOE AND SUPPORT HER. the saddest thing about this is that she thought her life was perfect and then some fucking asshoes ruiend it. she was so happy. wtf im gonna cry. fuck. i hate sptehej n so much. these gross ass hoes i’m gonna cik all theyre assses. this is so gross i’m so angry literaluy setthing beithc. BUT THEN SHE GETS HER REVENGE AND IT’S BEAUTIFUL. FUCK THOSE BASTARS. but she;s so sad it breaks my heart. she wants to be human so bad. this scene is so sad and it’s theonly good scene in twilight and nikki reed deserves an ocsa like if you agree.

jane and alec more childrne who should’ve been able to be children fck the volturie

why the hel is jessica the fucking valedinact ion? it should’ve been bella they made her seem so damn smart but now she’s not theo ne? i don’ beliee it. but anna kendrick is a gift and now i wanna watch ptiche perfect. CHARLIE is so pure he deserved better and i’m gona kep saying it.

i love those fucking rose colored lamps hanging at the cullens house int he window at hte party scene can anyone link them to me i need? 

why the hell is the wolfpack athe cullesn hosue? this doesnt make sense and it doesn’t seem real am i too drunk and imabginf this?

jno wait it’s real. jake’s appolgoizng.

how fucking conventinet the woflpakc is there hwen alice realizes there abotu to be attacked. this aint realistc. bitc.

why are these kids being forces to act like audls? “I wans;t asking for permission” hoe you’re like 16 go home and go tib ed and odnt go to war.

these woflies gonan kick yo ass edward get tf out

i’m laughign nrow but nothigng funy is happening lmaoooo

fck carlisle is really hot as fuck his jawline kills me

i hate jasper’s hair here i’m sorry i know we all lovehim bt heis hair is a dam nmess

belal is so fuckign negative all the time no one is gonan get killed exceptsvictoris

THE COWBOOIIIII WHY DOES HE LOOKS LIKE OWNE WILSON IN THIS DAMN LIGHTIN? ALICE AND JASPER LOVE EACH TOHER SO MUCH MY APLOGIZKE MAAM FCK IT UP.

why thfe fuck is hake comparing his situaton with leah and sam and emily? We are nto the same hoe wae are not the same. bella is choosing edward sit yo ass down. but i still thin kyall are both problemastic as fuck in thos movie and hse deserves better.

CHARLIES DESEVRS  BTETER THEY KEEP LYIGN EVEN WHEN THEY DUCKGN DONT NEED TO

reblog if you thought edward and bella wre gona fuc, when she went over to his house in eclipse when yo ufirst read the book or saw the movue

he really oes love her a lot though fkcn i’m so alone 

 he looks si sad wgen he mentind ices tea on the porch poor edward

EVERY DANM MOMENR OF FOREVER BITCG I WANT  LOVE LIK THST 

LITERALLY THIS IS THE SUTPEIDEST PLOT EVER. A WHOLE FUCKIN ARMY TOO ATTACK ONE IGRL? BITCH. THIS AINT EVEM A THING. 

im gettign ral tired yall dik if i waill mke it to the end of this movie but i will tru

i hate the enrgey from jae and efard in this tent. ya’ll are both dumb hoes and she could do better than either ofy ou. 

WRHAT THE FUCK FASTER IF YOUR TOOK YORU CLOTHS OFF BITCH WHAT THE FUCK NOW I AM GONNA FUCKIN PUNCH YOU IB HOEP BELLA OUBCHES YOU WHEN SHES A VMAPRIE STUPID HOE 16 YEAR OLD SHOULD BE AT HOME IN BED INSTEAD OF IN A TENT TRYING TO FIGH A FCUKCN WAR

edward is such an emo boi in the tent and he thinsk she doesn;t lve him any more. yo ua stipiud hoe edearf but she still loves you anwyab ithc.

wheb edward said i’m not gonna force her into naythign ever agin i realized he was hte better man good for you eddie you fickun manned up you win

MY REASON FOR ESXITNST HOE I JST WNAT TO BE LOVED

now edwards bene a fuckboi again trying to hurt jake b ymaking sure he knew they were getting maried edward what the fuck iw was just starting to be on your side agian and you let me down like this

jacob is beign an emo boi now jake go be a child @ home and stop this nonsense you’re not a man go be a chid and take a nap and eat some grilled cheese youkk feel better

now she told him she wants to kiss him wtf bella don’t kead this bitch on he’s already in pain let hom gp home and eat a grilled cheese

mow bella’ supsetti spaghetti because edwards know she kissed jake

this shit is so unenecasialr dramtic wht the fuck yall  like a whole army ofver one girl and then its like all everyboyd trying kill everybody this is bulshittheyre all children who should eb at home eating grileld chesses not at war

victoria is a real bitch lying to this boy telling hin she lvoes him hoe bitch

og shit efward ifs pissed now he’s tauntign ab ithc

i acutaly kinda fel bad for riley he wnet through so mcuh and was manipulated i wish the cullens could have adopted him and bree

oshit is the volutire 

SAM DONT FUCKUGN TALK TO LEAH LIKE THAT EVER AGIAN YOU HOE

CARLISE AND I REPEAT AGAIB IS HOT AS FUCK FUCK CARLISRL

I LITERALLY AHTE THE VOLTURIE FOR KILLIGN VREE THEY WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN

JASPER KNOWS WHATS GOOD HE DOESN’T TURST THESE HOES

I’M SO PISEED THAT THE CULLENS NEVER FUCKING IFHT THE VOLTURIE LIKE CARLISLES IS SMART AS FUCK AND EHS TILL WONT START A DEMOCRAY LIKE YALL KNOW ROSLAIE WOULDVE FOGUHT FOR THAT SHIT TOO

 I LVOE YOUDADY CARLISLE

THIS 16 YEAR OLD LYING UP HERE BECAUSE OF TE DUMBASS WAR I TOLD YALL TO GO GOEN AND EA A GRILELD CHEDWE

poor jakie he knows hed better good for her but she reallys loves eward jake deserved better than what he got reblog is youf agree he jst said he’s even love her after she’s a vamprie bruh go eat a grilled chease and love yourself

WERE BACK IN THE FUCKING MEADOW ITS LIT AND ITS LOVELY I WANNA FALL IN LOVE IN A MEADOW WITH A HANDAOME MYSTERIOUS MAN WHO LOVES ME UNCODNITONATLY

KIRSTNE STEQARD IS THE WBEST AND SHE DESERVED AN OSCAR FOR THIS MOVIE HER AND NIKKI REED AND NODBOYD ELSE

fianlly this bitch is gonna beh onest with chalrie took you long enough

that was an anticlamtnc ending but i love love

#Twilight #Twilight renaissance #drunk twilight #drunken twilight #twilight while drunk #twilight review #eclipse #eclipse review #eclipse while drunk #drunken eclipse #simp ass hoes fandom #simp ass hoes

[charlyoddsox27]

its 6am, i havent slept, im bored, so im posting a list of the mercs in order of whom i like the most and reasons why, because thats something i should do i guess?

here goes

(spoilers for the comics down below but either way i think im the only person on earth who has never read them before now)

~~~

~~1. Medic~~

reasons for being my favourite:

• fucking. look. at. him. 👌

• 'mad german doctor' is one of my favourite tropes and he is a pretty bang-on satirical depiction of it

• cute-ass german accent

• he has pet pidgeons hE LOVES HIS PIDGEON PALS THEY KEEP HIM COMPANY

• healers are the most respectable class imo and since Medic pretty much started it he's automatically the best, thats how it works right?

• he sold some random persons soul to satan in exchange for a ***ballpoint pen*** and can i just say, fucking mood??? (he is literally the "i'd sell you to satan for one cornchip" meme)

• "yes, Archimedes...I couldn't agree more." *shudders* b oi .. .

• so many more reasons to love this gross old doctor so little room in Tumblrs posts.

~~2. Spy~~

reasons for being my second favourite:

• cranky, done with everyones shit, just wants to be left alone, fucking mood

• he's a spy i mean c'mon. look at the swanky-ass suit, look at the class radiating from this asshole.

• he may be a dick but he has a soft side he's just too jaded to show it most of the time (see: Scouts death in the comics?? real tears. honestly wish they'd panned that out more.)

• masks are hot tbFH--

• he enjoys a nice glass of whisky by the fireplace and so do i (fun fact: france is the biggest importer of scottish whisky in the world so its a nice touch)

• shapeshifting is fucking cool are you serious like he can just. do that. what a legend

• "i have a cyanide pill in one of my molars, if i break it then spit some in your mouth before i die, we can avoid being tortured." *'heavy' bursts in to save them* "PFFTHBTHF--"

• "SEDUCE ME."

• arrogant frenchman is one of my other favourite tropes and this is the most arrogant frenchman ive ever seen

• he's the only fully sane Merc, maybe apart from Engie.

• people love to hate him bc he's an asshole but...come on. after working with all those other weirdos for years, you'd be pretty jaded too.

• as a gross shipper, he's the easiest and the most fun (imo) to ship with Medic (rip me)

~~3. Pyro~~

reasons for being my third favourite:

• would have tied with Soldier if it werent for that one picture of them in the comics holding a puppy over their head with the most adoring expression on their mask??? good Pyro. goodest Pyro.

• doesn't do much in the comics but makes up for it in pure charm. look at that soulless face and tell me you dont love it.

• ambiguous gender ambiguous gender amBIGUOUS GENDER AMBIGUOUS GENDER. she/he/they? trans? nb? whatever you headcanon, it'll never be confirmed so its literally up to your own imagination. fucking ace, Valve 👌👌👌

• likes to burn things. god damnit. they like to burn things, guys. but they enjoy it so much, you just cant hate them, you can only feel a sympathetic joy that this precious lunatic is having fun in their own little world.

• canonically mentally ill (schizoprenia? it could be hallucinogenic drugs but i like to think its schizophrenia.)

• pretty sure they burned a pair of pedophiles in the comics. at least i think thats what those panels were insinuating. "lets open an orphanage and have an endless supply of kids to--" sounds pretty red-flaggy to me tbh. plus they were the villains so, eh?

• bludgeoned a bear to death until its skull was pulp because it insulted their special interest. you go, Pyro.

• for a few bits in the comics they have a really cute family dynamic going on with other Mercs, Soldier for example."Miss Pauling, Pyros on my side of the car." "Miss Pauling, Pyro cut off my hand." fuckin' cuties.

• when they start putting on like 50 shirts to keep warm in the Russian mountains. chubby.

• a gas mask that can function as both badass, and completely adorable.

• just. everything about them. how could you not love them. they're not in the wrong, you are. stay away from my misunderstood child and let them burn things god damnit.

~~4. Soldier~~

look I'm sorry, I love Soldier and he was gonna be tied with Pyro but that fucking puppy drawing sold me.

• absolute gold every second he speaks. he could sneeze and i'll laugh.

• such a dumbass you cant get annoyed at him for it. like. just agree with him and move on. no point reasoning with a boulder. "haha! silly Miss Pauling, thinking theres different types of blood." Medic: "haha yes! indeed, silly."

• HUTTAH *NECK SNAP*

• i'm not American and even i can see how blatantly his character mocks stereotypical Patriotic Americans™. but its so dumb and laughable, its adorable.

• EVERYTHING ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH ZHANNA IS A BLESSING. EVERYTHING.

• the first "meet the Mercs" video i ever saw was "meet the Soldier" so he holds a special place in my heart

• (preaches about experiencing the horrors of war; has never actually been to war. shh dont tell anyone though--) *neck gets snapped*

~~5. Demoman~~

• I'm Scottish. even though his accent is absolute garbage (no offense to the VA), any representation is very nice.

• Black AND Scottish?? i mean has a character like that even existed before TF2??? amazing example of representation right there. there are barely even any black people in Scotland, how did this happen. I love it. more of this, please.

• he's a drunk guy who blows shit up for shits and giggles and god I wish I could too, sounds like a miracle stress-reliever.

• his sassy black scottish mother. combining the stereotypical black mother with the stereotypical scottish mother is literally the best thing that ever happened.

• the bit in the comic where Medic explains that Demo can't remember what happened to his eye bc he scooped out part of his brain, and the look on Demo's face. just. the look.

• again, he's scottish, he's stereotypical, and he's awesome.

~~6. Sniper~~

• underrated

• piss jars. piss jars everywhere.

• "no dad, im not a crazed murdering lunatic, I'm an assassin. ...well one's a job and the other's mental sickness!!"

• "meet the Sniper" has kickass music

• ruffled gross old man who isn't actually old, he's just seen some SHIT

• actually given development in the comics + some really good scenes with Spy.

• so suave...so...handsome. handsome ruffled bushman. me like.

• he dies first in the comics but gets brought back and gets a cool-ass scar. and then he's just walking around naked everywhere for the rest of the comic. Medic, where the fuck did you put his clothes.

• isn't actually Australian. thats like one of the biggest twists in the comic. "no wonder i was never inhumanly strong and my chest hair didn't grow into the shape of Australia!!" Classic.

• says "bugger" a lot and i love that word

• he needs a hug, let me hug him. and give him a bath.

~~7. Heavy~~

I'm gonna be crucified for putting the big lad so low but i promise i dont dislike any of the Mercs. he'd be higher up but...ive never really liked big huge tank-men tbh :/

• loveable as fuck

• will murder you if you bully his puny little Medic

• i looove Russian accents omfg

• he like big gun. i can respect that.

• when Medic was killed and he went APESHIT on Classic!Heavy and I lost my fuckin' mind over that shit

• he probably has a soft spot for small cute animals. i love imagining him being swarmed by Medics flock of doves and petting them like "good bird...so many good bird..."

• actually smarter than people give him credit for???

• i really really wish his character was a lil more fleshed out but. that's just me. i love him but he doesn't have the same appeal to me as Medic or Spy.

• his entire relationship with Medic...ugh. yes. best friends and/or boyfriends. all good to me 👌

• he named his gun Sasha and that's adorable

~~8. Engineer~~

• gOD, FUCK, I REALLY WISH HE DID MORE IN THE COMICS. i barely know anything about his character. i like him a lot but...god, he...he doesn't...do.....anything.......

• he built a cool robot arm for himself and AI turrets and teleporter machines and guns that fire magic healing powers and immortality machines, in the 1960s. what. some kind of wizard fuckery is this.

• smoothest voice in the west

• "y'all"

~~9. Scout~~

oh god i really am gonna be crucified. i dont hate him i just. like him the least.

• shitboy

• reminds me of a shitty ex but also kinda relateable in a way

• some genuinely funny bits in the shorts.

• gross horny hetero teen boy with a god complex and serious daddy issues. also, he can't read. the "sex bom" tattoo on his chest will be an eternal testament to that. nice job, Spy. you raised him good.

~~~

hoo boy there we go theres all the boys, all the beautiful boys (and Scout) in order of how much i love them. if i made any errors in my info about the canon, feel free to send me death threats 💙 (no seriously tell me though, being a newbie is embarrassing)

so uh. yeah. that took two hours to write. its now 8am. im still bored lol. bye i guess.

#long post #charlyspeaks #charlys cesspool of interests #team fortress 2 #team fortress #medic #pyro #heavy #engineer #scout #spy #demoman #sniper #soldier #zhenna #tf2 #drabble #my opinions #ooooo

[moved-to--mysticandskepticmuses]

pennys wordsplosion 2k18

                           --- // intro // summary // part one

                                                                     --- // long post for ts

So I’ve been thinking on it over the last few days as I have seen these posts roll by on my dash about things that we’re saying goodbye to from 2017 and goals and hopes for 2018 etc. and I am not sure what it is, exactly, about all of these posts that have made me think about all of the different aspects of my blog and my writing and my rules and my psas as a whole – maybe it’s just that whole spirit of getting everything in order for the new year? – but I have decided that I am going to be writing up and posting a number of things over the next few days that expound on and clarify on certain things from my rules; from my general psas; about my blogs in terms of content and activity and in general just a lot of (and I do mean a lot of) words about what you can expect from me.  Some of you know all of this already – some of you have just figured it out over trial and error over the last … I don’t know, five or six years – hell, now that I think about it I think I’ve been on tumblr for a good… seven or eight years in various roles?   And yes, it’s going to be a lot of things that you might not find relevant, or hey, you might not even pay attention to and that’s cool, honestly, you do what you do, that’s literally the entire purpose of this forum of interaction, but I think that if you really want to know how best to interact with me and how to make the most out of any interactions between my characters and yours – or even how best to interact with me in terms of OOC – that all of these rambles could be pretty darn informative.

They might also piss you off entirely.  I am going to be pretty up front about the way things work for me; what I like and what I don’t; what ways are best to keep me interested and involved etc and I am WELL aware that there are a lot of things that I am happy to write about in terms of content that a lot of people aren’t and that some people might find absolutely offensive and that’s fine.  You don’t have to agree with me and honestly? I don’t need you to.  I’m here to enjoy myself.  I’m here to find an outlet for creative energies, for frustrations and demons that I’ve dealt with throughout my life, and if you find that content offensive, I am sorry, but the solution is very simple: unfollow me.  Block me.  Seriously, I want you to do whatever it is that you need to do for you to be comfortable and to feel safe on your dash.  If you want to talk to me about something, if you really want to know the reasons why I write certain things, absolutely feel free to approach me.  I have no problem being candid with you.  But if you want to tell me how horrible I am, how disgusting I am, if you want to say how dare I – just don’t waste your energies, please. I’m not here to make other people happy, save the obvious of nothing makes me happier when the creative juices are flowing and plots explode and threads take off and epic story arcs develop and so on; my blogs are my blogs for a reason – they’re mine.  Not yours.  Please don’t tell me how I should act, what I should or shouldn’t write; don’t tell me I’m insensitive to phobias, to prejudices, to traumas.  I’m not here to be judged.  I’m here to enjoy myself, and to express myself and develop character stories and arcs with other writer that we can both relish.  All of that said – I absolutely respect your right to block me or to unfollow me etc. and I absolutely do my best to tag anything / everything that might be triggering to someone else with ‘CONTENT tw’ so that people can soft block anything that they need to.  If I forget to tag something, or if I don’t make a habit of tagging something that you are uncomfortable with, for any reason, absolutely feel fee to poke me via ask / im etc. and ask me to tag something.  

If you want to write with me, if you want a plot that includes nine out of ten potential triggers, types of violence or sexual content, but there’s that ONE THING that you just can’t write, or aren’t comfortable with, or just really really NEED to avoid for whatever reason, PLEASE TELL ME.  I have zero problems tailoring specific threads / story arcs etc. to fit comfort zones of my partners.  If for some reason, I can’t find a way to work around any issue without entirely having to cull out focal points of my character, you know what?  I’ve got like… fifty more that I’m absolutely positive we can find at least one of them that will work for that or a similar plotline without detracting from the makeup of that character!  

SO … now that I went off on an unexpected tangent (okay but really is anyone surprised?!) I’m going to take a minute to list a few of the areas that I plan on talking about / expounding on over the next couple days:  obviously, content on my blog, including sexual content, violence, plot lines, triggers (or lack thereof), things I will roleplay that might be triggering to other people including non-consensual and dubiously-consensual sexual interactions, gaslighting, emotional and mental manipulation, molestation, incest, extreme violence, psychological, emotional, physical and sexual manipulation and torture, brainwashing, mental / magical / other forms of direct control (hypnosis, telepathy, mind control, so on and so forth), my roleplay speed and general expectations in terms of my activity, exclusivity and mains, muse and the fickleness of such things, blog-hopping, character development, ooc interactions & forms of communication, generals do’s & don’ts for keeping me involved/focused, information about my ooc life that affects my mood, muse, time & availability, information about my commissions (and speed etc. on those), story arcs and wishlist items including verses and aus, information about my many characters and which ones are likely to be more active etc….   basically, I’m just going to be dragging together all the various thoughts and musings that I’ve had about my roleplay and my time here on tumblr and everything that has sort of culminated in this huge outpouring of words.  Why?  Because I can?  Sure, but also because I think that being forthright about the way my thought processes work and about how, what, why I / my blogs are the way they are might help in terms of coalescing and meshing with all the fantastic writers out there that have reached out to me over the last few years that might feel unwanted or otherwise neglected when really, honestly, 110% it isn’t you, it’s definitely me.  

And again … it’s going to be a lot of words, and they might all go entirely unread and that’s fine.  I just feel compelled to get all this out of my head and down on paper, as it were so…  

If you don’t want to see all of these, please block the tag ‘pennys wordsplosion 2k18’.  I will be surmising all of the incredibly important parts and pieces after the fact and consolidating them into a revamped rules for my blogs, but that might be a little bit later down the line as I work on actually getting my blogs in order / try and make some order out of the mess of posts and tags and everything else that needs looking after!  

Everything else aside, I genuinely hope that you all have a fantastic new years and I will be around for plotting, scheming, general chatting etc. fairly consistently until at least my birthday on the fifth, and probably a couple days after, until around the eighth when my daughter’s home school picks up again when my activity will diminish somewhat, but I should always be lurking at least some point during any given day if you need to plot or talk.  Much love, always, Penny.

#pennys wordsplosion 2k18 #RULES / PSAs. #DECEMBER 2017.

[onghwangs]

now i'm curious! who's your personal top 11 vs what you want the top 11 to be?

Wow okay…my personal top 11 is comprised of ppl I foundenjoyable to watch and have fun cheering for, I’m a sucker for dumb fools and hiddenstorylines so yeah. 

But, man if they put this group together I would screambecause noooomg it would mostly be a comedy troupe than an idol group. theymight as well be called 10gagmen1straightman (10G1S)

(edited for guys in the top 59, in no particular order) 

yoon jisung- I likedhim ever since ep 1. I think that most, if not all of the trainees were chatteringaway during the auditions but I find that he seems to not really censor hismouth. I think a lot of the trainees are very and tense image conscious (theyshould be due to mnet) and Jisung (and the other MMO guys) were more relaxed. He’s funny but not offensive funny…Iremember like when Daehwi was explaining his avengers team, Jisung was likeyeah, go ahead and eat up all the popular members, Dahewi and JKKSJDKSJKJKSTHAT MAN. He seems like a genuinely fun and nice person to be a round, judgingby how he seems close to both his label-mates and his 10/10 group-mates….anyways📢📢📢I LVOETHIS MAN AND THAT ANTI WHO DM’D HIM TO GET HIM IN TROUBLE CAN SRSLY FCUK OFF!!!📢📢📢

kim taemin -  he was so cute in his intro vid but he was sonervous his voice was shaking so much lmao poor thing…. But im fucking….ifthere’s really a meme in this show, it’s taemin…everything they show of him, he’smaking a damn fool of himself. Him screaming in the hiddenbox thing, himfailing to do headstands, him dancing to nayana…yeah I lof the fool!! What reallymade me like him was him acting so surprised and happy when someone called hisname wayyyy back during the first nayana perf. Like….he seemed so amazed to have fans lmao what a gem. He’salso quite photogenic too.

Ong seongwu – THEBEST ALL ROUNDER IMO???????????? He’s a good singer ( hE WAS ONE OF THE 6TRAINEES THAT SANG PICK ME! WITHOUT HIM THERE WOULD BE NO NAYA NA), a great dancer, already has charisma and is hotwhile being complete dork? Amazing. I really adore him and his three moles and I’msuper worried for when the 1-pick voting comes because he doesn’t seem to havea lot of individual fans (someone prove me wrong pls)

Park Jihoon –yeah that wink got me shook. But yeah, srsly speaking, his wink did catch myeye but I thought he was going to be wayyyyyy to cute-ish for my tastes. I wassurprised by the way he carried himself (cute, but not too much, he seems to bevery calm too).  I think he’s skilled butcan improve much more (esp his singing) so I look forward to his improvement!! @mnetI’m still waiting for his angry clip L I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I WOULD BUY ALL THELIPBALM HE NEEDS, JUST TELL ME WHAT BRAND U WANT BOY, I”LL GET U A SUPPLY SOBIG THEY’LL OFFER U AN ENDORSEMENT DEAL

Kim Yehyeon – He seemslike a really sweet guy and this story is what basically made me stan him (andgave him that 39+ rank rise) my boy is a fuckin saint he went to the emergencyroom because he was too overworked and he had to perform Be Mine will injured..T_T He did not almost die for no screentime and continuous repeats and zoom-insof ppl gulping….anyways he’s also dumb, you should support 

Lee Junwoo – an actualbaby!!!!!!!! He caught my eye in episode 0 but I totally forgot who he wasuntil I saw his famous TATATA dance. What I liked about him was that he didn’t completelygive up after messing up and he kept on going hard @ the dance (he even made itto a C despite those mistakes!) he’s an awesome dancer and has good expressions!I really look forward to seeing his Shape of You stage (I think) I heard it wassupposed to be real good. I’m also screaming because he looks like a baby is ashuge as an elephant IRL 184CM HOOOLLLLLY

kim yongguk – I gotto know him because of that pann post and I support and adore him so much butnot as much as kim sihyun does!!!!! He’s a pretty nice vocalist and pretty goodsinger..but I think because baekho stole the entire stage, it’s hard to judgehis stage presence,  I really do lookforward to seeing his stage and seeing him be more of a savage!

Ahn hyungseop – Ilove him, he’s such a textbook slyth, he even expressed disappointment ingetting a lower rank than before. I can see why ppl don’t like him (similar todaehwi) but I really do adore him and his quirky ways. While I think he’s agood performer, I do think he would be more a B-rank rather than A. I’m stillnot quite convinced of his singing just yet….

Joo Haknyeon – tbh,I feel like he was born to be an idol with a face like that, I think it has amore idol-ish feel than Jihoon’s. I find that he’s a really decent dancer too!I do wish he had a better audition song…like why’d u choose that song and b-boyto it omf. He seems to be a total sweetheart as well! Hanywayz…..i wanna seemore of his friendship with ong, they seem to be good friends as well Y_Y @mnetGIV EHIM MORE SCREENTIME.

Yoo Seonho – it’sa surprised to me how much I like him?? He’s so cute and harmless lmao. I can totallysee why he was casted, along with guanlin, and sent out despite being only trainees for 6 months. they will super popular in thefuture (if cube doesn’t fuck up). I’m not really expecting much from him, beinga 6 month trainee, but he did surprisingly ok in sorry sorry compared to hisexperience, I’m looking forward to seeing his next stage. He also seems to be agreat guy, judging by his fanaccs and activities.

Yeo Hwanung – he’sa great dancer and stable vocalist, why is he being slepton?????????????????????? He seems super sweet and patient with Justin too likegoing through the notes together…

Notable mentions: everyone else, I fucking love and support all of them!!!!!! I just find these 11 really interesting at the moment.

—

 hennyways……here’s my top final 11 AKA B.O.I. …sorta. I thinkit’ll probably change after the next eps as people come to prove themselvesmore!! But this group, I’ll be pretty comfortable with them debuting and confident that they will be able to handle different concepts, all can carry their weight, etc. (in noparticular order)

Ong Sungwoo – HAHAHAHA iLL SERIOUSLY QUIT THIS GROUP IF ONGDOESN’T GET IN LIKE SRSLY HE’S GOT IT ALL I’m SO FUKCING SCARED OF HIS FUTURE THAT’SHOW MUCH I LOVE HIM???

Kang Daniel – He’s another well rounder. So he seems like areal sweet person but he ( along with Ong ) don’t really seem to take shit fromppl and I like that they speak there mind, though I want him to be careful ofhis actions as well LMAO. He’s also a fuckn miracle worker, my friend went fromdisliking him in ep2 to being a full stan by ep5 so I think he seems to be aperson that would keep fans engaged for a long time.

 Park Jihoon – Yeah, I’m kinda being biased, but he’d doreal well as a stan attractor! He dancing is good and I feel like he’ll improveon his singing soon….okay enough…

Kim Jaehwan – holyyy shit his voice is sooo good. All theguys in sorry sorry team 2 were good, but the dude carried the vocals for histeam, lbr. Im sincerely hoping he pulls up into the final 11, the vocals would get a huge upgrade holy shit son.

 Im Youngmin – alpacaaaaa aaaaaa!! He’s growing on me somuch and seems to be a very kind person, teaching the be mine moves foreveryone. I love that group so much, they seem genuinely close to each other !!  His rapping is good and he seems to be quitecharismatic on stage

Kim Taedong – His jump from F to A holyyyy shit whattaman!!!  His moves are sharp and he’s astable singer, I’m really liking what I’m seeing from him so far. I think he’s real idol material and he seems likea complete dork too, I loff!!!!!!

Yoon Heeseok, lmaoooo he’s also another living meme. He’san excellent singer, I really want him to work on his dancing a bit though but heseems to be improving quite nicely, from F-B. his shoulders are also killer.

Lee Daehwi – Another all-rounder. He doesn’t deserve thehate he gets, I honestly hope he makes it, he has the skills and personality tomake it into the idol world. He’s a sweet boy.

-(wildcards) x 3

 lmao okay I cheated, it’s because I haven’t fully decidedyet….i still wanna see more perfs Lbut here are a list of guys I would love to see in the final line up as well.

Wildcards:

from my personal top 11: jisung, yongguk, hyungseob, hwanung,anyone that shows they’ve got what it takes/improves immensely

vocals: sewoon, hoeseung, woodam, gwanghyun(???), donghyun,dongsu, kiwon, keonhee, seonglee. youjin

rap: woo jinyoung, namhyung, big woojin

dance: hyunmin, eunki, kenta, samuel, kim donghan

nu’est, hotshot members: I’m reallllllllly conflicted inthis. In a perfect world, they don’t make it in the top 11 but their companiesgive them comebacks they need and the make it big and win awards and it’s the perfectcomeback story lmao…but I’ll still be happy with any of them in the line up aswell

wow i’m sorry i wrote too long jdksajd

#asks #anon #this is truly too long im sorry i shortened it lmao #im sorry for typos i'll come back and edit later #produce 101

[isaktangis]

I love your skam verse. It is so well done and I hope you will write more. I kinda have two submissions, I hope they may inspire you. 1) I'd like to see a serious fight and how they eventually reconcile. 2) my dirty mind wants to see isak taking charge and riding even into oblivion 🙈🙈🙈. I hope you like my ideas. Have a good day and I am looking forward to your future fics (no matter the content) 🤗

hi! and THANK YOU SO MUCH! (im very sorry for the late reply because i was too busy writing my veela au fic) and he is you isak x even, fighting scene, hahaha. (enjoy! lolll) 

“I can’tbelieve you would say such thing” Even’s voice is icy, glaring at Isak as ifhis boyfriend just committed murder. “You should never comment things on thatever again”

“I can’t-you can’t tell me what to do!” Isak recoils, his glare is just as hard as Even’s.

“Oh, yes Ican.” Even states, “I can, if what you said is hurtful and damaging”

“It’s myopinion, Even!” Isak defends angrily, feet stomping on to the ground, littledoes Even knows Isak is secretly hoping that the floor under his shoes is him.

“It’s notan opinion if it’s offensive!”

“It’s not offensive!”

“It is!” Even exclaims and his voice drops amillion octaves lower than before, an ultimate sign that he’s ultimatelypissed. “It’s so very offensive.”

Isak rollshis eyes and scoffs, “You’re being so dra-“

“You hurtme, Isak” Even cuts him off plainly, he doesn’t sound angry anymore, just…upset. “What you said broke me deep to the core of my heart”

“Please” Isak sneers, “It’s nothing likewhat you said to me yesterday.”

Even looksat him in disbelief, like he can’t understand why his boyfriend would lie intohis face so easily. “You said that you’ve made peace with it” he trails offsolemnly, “I’ve apologize to you for twenty one times”

“Exactly”Isak says pointedly, “and since I’ve made my peace with it and you should dothe same thing”

Evenfrowns, suddenly angry again and sends daggers through his eyes, he’s loomingover Isak, trying to use his height to intimidate the shorter man. Pfft, Isak internally jeers, like thatwould ever work. “What I told you is a fact, something that’s been supported byso many parties and sources and I still had the guts to said that I was sorryto you because I love you and I wanted to spare your feelings-“

“A fact?”Isak interrupts outrageously, “That’s not a fact, that’s a vile insult with no basis at all-“

“You canlook it up on the internet, Isak” Even snaps, “What you said to me is a totally different case, yourwords have no supporting evidences, it’s totally based on pure opi-“

“The wholeevidences that oppose my opinions are also based on other people’s thoughts! Andit is not offensive, Even!”

“It is! Andit hurts me!”

“Oh, stopbeing so dramatic, what you said was more painful!”

“How wasthat more painful?! It was based on various actual sources, yours was acomplete bullshitting lie!”

“Jason Mrazis NOT irrelevant!” Isak finallyscreeches, he really wants to shake Even until this shitty man explodes so thathe can finally see sense.

“And the2013 version of Romeo and Juliet is better than Baz Luhrmann’s?” Even tauntsbitterly, “Yeah, not a chance, bro”

“I amentitled on my own opinion!” Isak stomps on his feet, glaring up at hisboyfriend so hard he wonders how the fuck his eyes haven’t fall off yet. “And itwas a fair criticism, while what you said was simply based on irrationalhatred!”

“I have abillboard article to prove my words!”

“Billboardis bullshit!”

“Your 2013trash has twenty percent ratings on rotten tomatoes!”

“Whichbased on other people’s opinions, itwould be hypocritical to ban me from having positive response about it!”

“Yeah, butnot to compare it with the 1996masterpiece!” Even finishes indignantly, crossing his arms to tell Isak thatwhat he says is final.

“Look” Isakstarts, calmer than he was before. “Lurhmann’s version is nice and I loved it,but the 2013 movie is set on the real renaissance-elizabethan era or whateveryou called it, and they even had the actors speaking in British accent, and Ijust felt like it was more real, you know?”

Even staresat him intently for a minute, and then he sighs, all traces of anger seepingout of his body. “It’s just-” he mumbles quietly, walking closer to Isak,crouching down a bit until they’re resting their foreheads against each other. “Ourfirst kiss was underwater and we’re in a pool”

Isakfrowns, not following through. “Huh?”

“You know”Even says a little bit shyly, “like in the ’96 version”

There’s athirty worth of silence before Isak wheezes, “Oh my God”, he turns away from Even, face palming and trying sohard not to burst out laughing. “That’s what all this about?” He asks incredulously,shoulders are shaking as laughter helplessly rack through him, “Even, you fucking nerd”

“Hey” Evenwhines pathetically, “it’s a coincidence that I would cherish until the day I die,okay?”

“Oh my god”Isak says again, rolling his eyes. “You are such a dramatic loser.”

“I’m not adramatic loser” Even pouts, taking Isak’s hands into his, “I’m your dramatic loser”

“Oh, fuckoff” Isak slaps his chest, chuckling. Then his face shifts, brown-green eyesstaring up at the blue ones sharply. “And you still owe me an apology”

Even tiltshis eyebrows, silently asking Isak if he’s serious, are you really doing this?

Oh yes, heis. Isak raises his brow back, crossing his arms and keeps eyeing himpointedly.

Even’sshoulders slump, defeated. “I’m sorry. Jason Mraz is still relevant” he weaklysays awful lie.

Isak purseshis lips, narrowing his gaze at Even, trying to make sure if he’s being genuineor not. Thankfully, Even is a good actor, so he beams, obviously buying to hisboyfriend’s words. “Okay” he chimes, “apology accepted”

Even biteshis lower lip, it takes every bone in his body (dick included) to refrain fromlaughing at how cute and ridiculous his boyfriend is. Of all sappy musiciansthere is, Isak has to be Jason Mraz’s number one fanboy.

“Thank you”Even smiles, he’s so going to use the fanboy!Isak card near in the future. Atleast Even’s not a whipped and obsessed worshipper over an overnight guitarplayer-sappy singer sensation. He has better music taste, thank you very much.

Well, Gabrielleis excluded,  her song is a nationalanthem after all.

#isak x even #even bech næsheim #isak valtersen #evak #evak fic #fic rec #mine #skam #skam fic #im so sorry #hahah #isaknkardemomme

[dazedsapphic]

its like lets break down my revelation from the beginning of our falling out to the end i realise now, when i didnt before, that he was having a mental breakdown. he told me. and i did not realise. they can happen anywhere at any time, but i did not realise. because this had never happened before. because he had yelled at me before like that, over the same thing - my buddhist practice. it was my fault that i did not realise, but those words he said to me were still said, and they still had emotional impact that i could not handle. he knows i am not good with death. anyone who knows me knows i am not good with death. i have had death - suicide - threatened and attempted in my presence too many times to be okay with it. he was having a mental breakdown. but that does not change a thing that was said or done. it does not change what he threatened. it does not change the names he called me. it does not change that i now understand his feelings. i had a mental breakdown that night because i did not realise he was having one. i was terrified because the one thing that quickly sends me into relapse, into panic, that really triggers me - is death and suicide. he was having a mental breakdown. that does not change the fact that i did, too. our relationship was that of a dependent and their codependent. i realise that i could have done things differently. i could have done what he told me to do - not take care of him constantly, not cater to him. he told me not to, because it would not help things. but i did it anyways, because that is what i thought needed to be done. i hid my feelings. "you're not overbearing. you're not doing anything wrong. it's okay. i'm not overwhelmed." because i knew. i had told him once before that i was overwhelmed and stressed because of him - because of our financial situation, and he was sent into turmoil. every time he did something and i expressed distaste, that is what would happen. he would say things like "i know im shit. i know im overwhelming. i hate myself too. sorry im such a burden" etc. he may genuinely have felt that way. but also, those were guilting statements. which made me continuously want to reassure him that he had nothing to feel bad over, even if i was hurting or exhausted. he told me to tell him when my feelings are hurt by him. i did once. he made a joke, as he always does, and i looked at him, and i frowned, and i told him he had been a little rude to me. he got pissed. he called me a "sensitive asshole" who "couldn't take a joke." he refused to admit that he might have been offensive. i let it go. whenever i didn't want to do something with him, he would get upset, talk about how i'm not doing a certain thing with him constantly, and then bring it up over and over again after he came back, as if i was obligated to him. he would bicker with me about it. when i went to temple on sundays is when he seemed most displeased. i know he hates the idea of religion, but one should remain respectful all the same, as it is helping me and has allowed me to establish strong connections. i wonder if he disliked it less for its practice and more for the fact that it took my time away from him. i would drop plans for him. come home for him. make breakfast for him. pay for everything without a second thought. make sure he had what he needed. make sure he had what he wanted. ruined most of my relationships with other people for his sake, yet it wasn't enough. and i recognise some of this is my fault. i let him do this to me by coddling him. i let him depend on me so much that it drained me. neither of us wanted this. he did not want to depend on me and i did not want to get so tired. but that is what happened. and i let it happen because i felt obligated for it to be that way. as soon as i started to pull back from him and take a second for myself is when things became troublesome. i decided to leave the day he made that threat towards me, because that was my final limit. i recognised that inadvertably, the situation had become abusive. it shouldn't have, and i know he did not intend for it to resemble such. but when you are stick in a codependent relationship, that is what it becomes. abuse. mental and emotional. that is almost never the intention. he told me i triggered him for calling him an abuser, but i my eyes, that is what he did to me even if he does not see it. his jokes were cruel and he would not apologise even if i appeares upset. he would yell at me for practicing buddhism. he continuously badgered the idea that our friends were not good into my head (they're fine, by the way.) he would fight me whenever i wanted time to myself. he would sometimes guilt me for it. he would guilt me for other reasons to. he would sometimes gaslight me if we were arguing. all of this is due to his mental illness and myself being his codependant. but that does not change the fact that it happened. i could be his friend. spend time with him. take care of him. be with him. but i could not live with him, and i realised that too late. i am not emotionally capable currently to take care of someone else. let us talk about how i "screwed him over." our deposit was $624. i paid $400 of it, his parents paid the rest. june rent was $799. i paid all of it. july rent was $799. i paid $450. august rent is (i think?) $300 or around there. august is what i did not pay. just the other day when we had gone to kelley's island, before i decided to move out, he told me he "didn't care about credit card debt anymore" but the moment he is left to pay $300 by himself, it suddenly becomes an issue. he did not seek a job until june, and he did not get that job without my help. he "put in applications" over spring semester. if i remember correctly, he only put in four. the entire semester and put it off. he did not search. he did not put in the effort. he did not work to save what money he made at work, despite having made less than i had. i had money to spend and he did not. it is not "my fault" and i did not "screw him over" wheb by this logic, making $180 every two weeks at his (our) workplace, or more, he would have enough for rent. he is only staying 10 days into august. if he was so concerned with rent, he should have moved in with his parents. they wanted him to and stated such in front of me. i moved out because i could not handle it. everything that was done to me may have been unintentional. it may have been due to his mental state. it may not have been. but regardless, it does not change the emotional toll ot took upon myself as well. he agreed with me that this is the best decision for both of us, yet he continues to say cruel things. he told me to leave and threw all of my things into the living room, yet he is surprised that i left. he threatened to "show me crazy" yet didn't understand why i did not speak to him and spent all of my time outside of the apartment. he told me he had apologised for what he had done. but he never said "i'm sorry." he told me he had done it in his own way, i just didnt see it. tell me, if you do not perceive an apology as such, was it even given? attacking me and telling me how i am wrong, and then using words to guilt me is not an apology. "im not using my mental illness as an excuse," he says, then going on to say that his mental illness makes him do it. he sent his friends after me on social media, when i simply made an observstion. "everyone blocked me." i wasnt pissed off or sad. there was simply no need to go to those lengths. subtweeting me, sending people after me - acts of pettiness. threatening to throw all of my shit out, to remove me from the lease, to "show me crazy" and "make my life hell" - even pettier. yet he called my silence and refusal to speak to him "passive aggressive" and "mean." i did not want to start more conflict and it was the easiest solution. i am not mad. i do not regret our friendship. i do not hate him. no one hates him. i wish i had done things differently. i wish he did not have to suffer. i am just shaken, and i am a little sad. it was not just my fault. it was not just his fault. both of us were in the wrong.

#personal

[black-tiger-of-evil]

did u even read their tweets lmao, holly LITERALLY SAID that what he said was wrong. however; that doesnt make him a shitty person. the people replying to them have no valid points whatsoever and there's no reason to try and defend them for being wrong

sigh this is going nowhere, best to just utterly shut you down and dismiss you instead of acknowledging your viewpoint.

… not so cute ain’t it.

i did read holly’s tweet and it’s [the 2nd one] not as annoying as some of the other big name youtuber’s pulling their white-knight act. however i personally think it is in very poor taste to try and tack on ‘but he ain’t a nazi tho’. that person who replied to the tweets never said he was, all they mentioned was that even if pdp thought he was ‘joking’ (still banking on that kill all white people sign, see if everyone’s all peachy about that kind of ‘joke’) nazis and nazis supporters would take it as a sign of support and acceptance. seems like a valid concern for me.

 there’s already a massive spike in hate crimes in us today and the last thing we need is for that to continue. the last thing we need is for the genocide of jewish people to be treated like some trivial joke. bc hey i don’t care if anyone thought it was ‘funny’ (not even someone who is into ‘offensive’ humor would’ve found it funny, it was just a horrible statement end of story, there was no punchline no irony… nothing y’all) , still treated an entire group of people as less than human bc you wanted to trivialize their lives and let them know their suffering and lives meant nothing to you.  and it seems like she’s aware of that… after people started talking to her about why pdp pissed them off. keep in mind her first tweet in the photos is spent coddling pdp and pulling the ‘nice guy’ bullshit. like i said before a simple ‘his joke was in very poor taste’ would’ve been enough to start with. 

what makes someone a shitty person is how they treat others, what they do to others, what they think of others. im not clear if we’re talking about ross here or mister ‘kill all jews’ himself, so i’ll start with ross i guess. also i’d like to make sure you’re aware that being a shitty person is a temporary state, you don’t have to be one if you don’t want to. hell even i act like a shitty person sometimes but it’s not permanent.  

what makes ross a shitty person here is how he treats the person trying to discuss with him. again he opens up with the ‘nice guy’ bullshit. like i said before, everyone is ‘nice’. this is also a bad sign because of bias. he’s already putting himself on pdp’s “side”. he seems to think that just bc HE thought pdp’s “apology” was acceptable everyone else should. he also tries to push blame on the person who was replying to him for not being satisfied (nice people ‘except’ apologies too). how’d you feel if i called you a shithole and grade-f scum for disagreeing with what i said, despite not knowing you or what you stand for? especially since you took a calmish tone towards me.. you wouldn’t feel too chipper i bet. you also wouldn’t take kindly to it i just forced a ‘bully’ and ‘not nice’ label on you for disagreeing with me. 

so there’s that and how he bemoans that ‘this is going nowhere’. as if this was some petty game he wanted to win instead of a discussion with a human being who was upset and offered him good counterpoints. a ‘well i can see how you’d think that way but i respectfully do not agree’ would’ve sufficed here. this person already does not give a damn how “NICE” pdp was, nor do they care if ross thinks it was genuine. but like i said before, it does not matter if he does think it was genuine and bringing it up as the be all end all is not a valid point. if the bully on the playground shoves your ass down in the mud and the teacher makes him apologize to you… do you care if the teacher thinks he meant it or not? hell no you don’t, she’s not the one the bully is apologizing to. of course not everyone was going to be happy with some youtube video and expecting everyone. and i do mean 100% of everyone who watched it, to be satisfied is ludicrous. you do not make yourself or your friend look good when in the midst of “defending” them you spend the whole time trying to decide how everyone else should feel, and pushing the blame on the person your friend hurt. so yeah he acted like a shithead to that person and pulled the ‘ol shutdown once he couldn’t get the other person to go ‘oh im soooo sorrry ross i seeee the liiiight now i was being a mean buullllly.’

pdp is a shitty person bc he consistently acts like one. he’s said shit like this before and never got any consequences for his actions so he figured he might as well keep saying it despite the fact it wasn’t humorous in any sense of the word. he wasn’t doing it to be funny, he was doing it bc he could. well now he faced consequences this one time and now he backpedals to all hell claiming it was a joke and he didn’t mean it. too bad so sad get a filter. how he treats his friends isn’t a valid point accounting for how ‘nice’ he is, bc it’s the bare minimum to treat your friends nicely if you want to keep them. how he treats people he doesn’t know or have personal care for is a better indicator. consensus also says it’s pretty poorly since he just sees people like you and i as screenames and subscriber counts and youtube views. otherwise he would’ve accepted the criticism he’s been getting for years about his shitty taste in humor (you do not see mark or jack saying stuff like ‘kill all jews’ in their content no matter how explicit they get) instead of just ignoring it. he can say terrible stuff like that on his own time, not when he provides entertainment and a service to people under a company like disney. if everytime someone tells you ‘don’t say that it’s not nice’ or ‘don’t push kids it’s mean’ you pick up your ball and go home you’re an asshole, sorry buddy it’s the way it is. 

“the people replying to them have no valid points whatsoever and there’s no reason to try and defend them for being wrong”

well im sorry you feel that way, but that’s your opinion. if you don’t think their concerns or points or valid i sure hope nothing similar ever happens to you. that you get hurt or stepped on by someone and everyone else becomes more concerned with coddling your aggressor instead of making sure they apologize for what they did (and making sure they don’t do it again either once their backs are turned). 

the validity of the repliers is it’s own beast and i know i can’t change your mind, but the main thing to take away is that gee.. they were human beings upset and hurt by what pdp did. they were hurt and upset that these people were more concerned about white-knighting for pdp than addressing their concerns bc it’s indirectly saying that “bc you didn’t agree with me you don’t matter now” or “pdp’s reputation matters more than making sure he pays consequences for his actions”. what i wanted to come across in that post is not “defending” (again with the picking sides thing…). all i want is the white-knighting bullshit to stop. no more ‘but he was a nice guy’. no more ‘you guys are bullying him so you must all be wrong!’. no more ‘i don’t think your points are valid so you’re not worthy of defense’. just no more.

let pdp take responsibility for what he did. he can’t do that if he starts thinking everyone who reacts negatively to him is some monster who can’t take a (poor not really a ) joke. he can’t do that if he thinks that just bc he does the bare minimum he can get out of any consequences. he can’t do that if he continues thinking that people are trivial and don’t matter just bc he doesn’t know them personally. 

hope that clears it up for you. hope that you also refrain from assuming that just bc i don’t agree with you that means i just reacted without reading or thinking. what, did you think i would look again and ~~~~seee the light~~~ and start agreeing with you? it doesn’t work like that. if you were worried about how i might’ve misunderstood something or lost some context, then that’s fair, but a simple: i’m worried you misunderstood or lost some context in the tweets. would’ve been fine.

my annoyance stems from repeated exposure to this story bc pdp and his friends won’t let it go. 

#someone plz tell me how to make answer privately work #i don't see the option so...

[floralkittygambler]

Reposting for reasons

Response to Honest’s post here: Doing this to spread this awareness more as I know theres a bit of a rift in the critical community - plus I really fucking go on. Im PISSED and I do apologise however it NEEDS urgent addressing. I know people will hate me for it but Im used to hate and honestly? Hating rather than helping to solve the issue only furthers my fucking point here. So yeah this is so more people are aware (no offense to any of those involved in said rift either, but this is an important message. Thank you for understanding and if I can do anything to make all sides comfortable, then please message me and I’ll do my upmost.) “ More awareness of this is needed. Even if it’s your favourite, you can’t justify their shit but rally against another’s shit. Have people tell you you’re experiences arent real or invalid because, like Husk, people have - in real life - shipped you with someone you are far from comfortable with but you still treat them like a person. Because you have basic respect. And people force you to accept harassment, touching, stalking, advances for THEIR satisfaction. People use you for their fantasies. But you’re just a ‘tsundere’ for it. Or you have addiction issues but people think being with another addict will ‘save’ you because you’re apparently too incompetent to save yourself. Love isnt some magic fuckin cure so stop romanticising it as a fuckin saviour. It’s gross and fuckin creepy. Get stalked and have someone NEVER accept your no just because you show youre still decent enough to not treat them shitty or any different from anyone else. Try having someone way older or way younger (both in morally fucked up ways) advance on you and people encourage that. People you’re supposed to feel safe around.

People touch you when you pull away or show discomfort. Follow you home. Have pictures of you and wont accept you dont like them like that and it’s not ‘playing hard to get’ or ‘the thrill of the chase’. Fuck. OFF. In fact, Im not only disappointed in the fandom. Im disappointed in the entire team who some should know better from their OWN personal experiences - or at least the bare minimal of being a fucking adult. Im disappointed in especially females (sorry idk whether girl or woman is more appropriate here-) who statistically are more likely to have experienced something similar at some point in their lives think this is a cute gay moment. No. Angel is made out as a fucking predator - Im not saying he is, Im saying that his persistence is very fucking unwelcome like one. People like Husk dont need that fucking invasiveness. They/We need patience and someone on our level. Angel’s I know are the fuckin polar opposite - and some of them I know are very sexually harassing, including unwanted touching. It’s a shitty way to present gay people. Gays are fuckin people. Some are cunts and some arent. It’s a HUMAN thing. But considering the shit theyve been subjected to, presenting a gay as a victim only to also show them as a perpetrator is insulting! And for those Ive seen argue this about how people like AD wouldnt know how to express their love normally and whatnot? His pig. His best friend. He’s in his fucking 30s. There are literal real life criminals who get molested as kids and then go on to molest kids. Not all who grow up like that turn into nonces. Stop just fucking STOP justifying and romanticising this bullshit! I used to see the good in AD but now he makes me fucking sick. Especially with my verrrrrry fucking real traumas and connections. But fuck me, eh? Because this fictional guy matters so much more. Fuck real victims. And whilst we’re at it, fuck AD too when it suits your fetishes! Sarcasm aside, the fans and the team need to straighten up their abhorrent behaviour. Stolas. Fucking clearly having an affair, knowingly fucking up his daughter’s mental health and bribing a guy into sex who only wants the book and nothing more. He even has a fucking warning button over Stolas- Guys, how do you think any of this is cute? Even the team gross me out- I genuinely see potential and talent and it’s all gone to shit to satisfy horny teens, horny adults, and literally everyone who doesnt for the life of them understand being an adult is more than sex, drugs, violence and swears! I REALLY want to keep enjoying HB/HH but it’s getting harder and harder with such ignorant and bordering lazy creators (note: lazy as in wont do the fucking research or actually listen to real criticism and victims), such despicable fans (yeah, some HDers fuckin mocked that they triggered my ED, yet they had the fucking NERVE to support Angel’s potential ED AND laugh and blame me for me getting treated so badly for actually having the balls to call Angel and the teams hypocrisy. I got told to kill myself, that my problems arent real - oh but Angels apparently is! Which... They *are* but AD isnt real so technically only onlookers will suffer and not a drawing  - and they just excused their toxic behaviours. These people are like “aww poor angie babey!” yet fuckin INSULT sex workers. All this red in Hazbin yet it feels everyone and they mama colour blind. The issues are getting worse and fans are outright becoming EVIL, VILE, Vindictive little bullies - from kids to adults. You SHOULD be ashamed of yourself if you conduct yourself in such a manner. And you need to readjust your attitudes and behaviours because the only fuckers getting hurt are actual fucking victims. Ever been violated and been gaslit so much you STILL fucking question it’s reality? So you drown that shit out yet somehow it’s effects still hit you? Fetishise it. Make it your uwu gae couple goals, you’re no better than people believing Harley and the Joker werent toxic af. If this shit happened to you, most of you would actually SEE where we’re all coming from. Also, stop making gay a fetish - you’re like those creepy old men in the alley heckling lesbians to make out so they can wank off. Gays, no ALL the LGBT+ are fucking people too. So dont give me that bullshit then start turning everything just gay or just straight to mentally wank off to. It’s degrading and dehumanising. And yes, fiction does effect reality. You crush on a fictional character? Mourn one? Support one? Hell, fuckin jerk off to one - that’s affecting reality. Remember how in fiction all blacks were treated as villians? Look how theyre treated IRL. JAWS, great classic unfortunately their was a spike in shark killings over a fucking movie - the shark in the movie wasnt even real for the most part because they dont behave like that! (Also the animatronic was so shit they genuinely had so many issues - I think they even took to naming each one! Some fun trivia there!). Tiger sharks are more nasty than great whites as tiger sharks will hunt and eat a human. Great whites prefer seals and dislike human flesh, they just mistake us for seals. Hell, theres the toothless basking shark - theyre often SWAM WITH by divers for being so friendly. Yet Jaws made people think all sharks are bloodlusting over humans. Slenderman was created for a fucking contest and that influenced a stabbing (NOT Victor’s fault). Watch a horror movie that isnt based on a real life event and tell me that at least ONE has left you peaking over your shoulder. Stella may be a bitch - we dont know for certain - but try getting cheated on. Y’know what? Try growing up in such a broken home like Octavia. Yeah reaaaaaal fucking cute now, huh? Funny how as well y’all petition for male victims to be taken seriously then laugh when fictional males experience this abuse, further adding to stigma. You can be hit on by the hottest mf on the planet but if you arent interested, that should be respected! Also we’ve all been inspired by at least one fictional character so yeah. Yknow, since I was little Ive been fighting for sex worker and homeless rights. But HH/HB treatment of both leave a bitter taste in my mouth. I’ll still fully support sex workers and the homeless, but that’s the fucking effect this show is having. Bearing in mind I wont ever share everything Ive been through - and I shouldnt fucking have to in order to be believed and validated (obvs proof is required in a legal case but that’s a whole other topic). Why should I share MY fucking pain especially when you fuckers have belittled and triggered it more so? We have our rights to our secrets but fuck ME you lot NEED to start acting appropriately and like decent fucking humans. ‘iTs HeLl’ yeah and welcome to Earth- the team and yourselves live HERE. You obide by THESE rules. And as someone with beliefs (and a LOT of ancient fucking texts and studies on this shit) their Hell isnt even a proper Hell! It’s closer to purgatory and even then it’s not. Regardless, it’s a poorly built world with the lore consistently changing per episode and tweet, with many plot holes, and is apparently easy to get into - even via accidentally watching porn according to a stream. If youre gonna parade youre a fucking expert and research into demonology and use real believed figures, at least get THAT right. In fact, Lucifer and Lilith (and Stolas tbf) are ESPECIALLY risky as theyre a lot more complex than most easy access texts will tell you. Likewise, Stolas’s first introduction and main focus is sex. He’s one of the FEW Goetia demons that dont have some involvement in relationship issues at ALL. He’s known for astrology, crystals and herbs but hes also known to aid MONEY troubles (it’s lesser known but it’s true! HB Stolas is an insult to the Prince). Turning Vodou into something evil is vile considering it’s powerful and liberated slaves. Pentagrams are nothing to do with Satan, they’re magic based sigils. Upside down cross is the symbol of a SAINT. It’s just some edgy attempt to trick people into believing they know more than they do. Also you should NEVER dabble and doodle sigils without knowing the meanings or respecting what they behold. Vox and Val, real fuckin cute way to make them look like a stupid fucking highschool drama instead of a fucking SEX TRAFFICKER (note: real pimps often target YOUNG folks too - aka minors - and groom them into sex work. Theres different types of pimp. Viv has shown barely any understanding of ‘the game’ and its a fucking insult to injury. Yes we KNOW what a fucking pimp and prozzie are! We dont need to see it. We need REAL AWARENESS.) and a fucking scheming bastard of a CEO salesman botman. And yet even THEN lets go a step further and make some yandere wuv on boyfweind aboose! Fuck off- Now I love a good anime but these tropes are getting fucking dangerous now. And unrealistic to real love and relationships. Kids nowadays know fuck all on a healthy relationship (neither did the fuckin 50s tbf) and Im seeing more romaticism and glorifying abusive situations. Like the show ‘You’. Ok, there’s a fuckin bloke online who slaughtered innocents and kidnapped yet people commented how cute he is on his IG and that they want to be kidnapped or killed by him next. Dont believe me? Look up Peter Manfredonia Connecticut and the comments people left him and then tell me why shit like whats being presented in HH/HB ISNT fucking concerning - because it is. For a series about redemption, it’s brilliant at the opposite (Quote from the creator herself, Viv has posted that it’s influencing her bad choices. Even as a joke, proof’s in the pudding). And the overall focus on sex in the way Viv does is so immature and really creepy, and this is from an ADULTS perspective. From one adult to another, Im concerned as to why any of them think this is a normal fixation. Then again they’ve hired quite a large amount of dodgy folks and even a child. Most of this shit gets avoided with a basic background check like most companies run. I DO like Hazbin. Or the premise. I love some of the cast and spite the others. In Helluva, I just like a tiny portion of the cast. And I critique it so harshly because Viv DOES need a wakeup slap, grounding to reality, people who arent going to big her up or kiss her arse for once and shape her up to be the best she can be. The actually reach and even surpass her potential. And to reach where you need to be, there’s a lot of harsh lessons youll face. That’s life. Shes chosen one of the most HEARTLESS industries and if she blocks out critique as ‘hate’ then she’s not strong enough and wont last. It’s just another unprepped YanDev again (except I dont believe Viv to be a nonce. Even with her dodgy past and dodgy present, I think her perspective on sex and relationship with sexuality is FAR from healthy BUT I dont believe she’s a pedophile. Ive bled my fair share and so far, I just think her sex perspective isnt healthy or mature for her age. But there’s little to nothing to suggest actual noncery - dont worry about accusations there. But YanDev is totally a dirty predator. Just clearing that up). Viv NEEDS some harshness and stability if she wants to do things right. And it’ll make her fucking cry but if she loves these projects as much as she claims to, then you’ll sacrifice blood, sweat and tears for that shit. Even the strongest points are mediocre at best when properly observed. She CAN do more, but she’ll have to face the harsh music. Viv wont see this, but if she does, I dont care if it upsets her. Why? Because this is that much of an issue - something she’s cultivated - that she needs to take action and not ignore it or be secretive about it. She needs to grow up and get tougher skin. Im not saying this to cause her pain. In fact, I wouldnt waste my fucking limited time if I DIDNT care. Trust me, I have duties to be met at a certain quota every single day. I say this shit only because I give a shit and care. If we met, she’d fucking hate me. But people like me are good for shaping people up to their potential. And we arent always this ‘tough love’ either. But when someone needs that level of harshness to help themselves, we’re not afraid to lose people or cause upset if the results end up being the best for them. If she ever saw this, she needs to re fucking evaluate her message, her story, and those she’s choosing to welcome into her circle. And all Im seeing is one rookie mistake after the other. Her paid patreon discord. Just like the messages Honest has posted on her side of being harassed (not in Vivs fyi), Ive experienced shit and bullying and even stay silent on their for being attacked for a group I fuckin paid to be in and yet I feel isolated. It’s all arsekissing and ‘thank you viv’ (thats an actual channel-) and it feels like a place of borderline worship and people trying to appease her 24/7 whilst kicking others with different opinions down. There’s so many I love but I aint kissin yer fuckin arse. Ask the closest friend I have - we’re fucking raw and wont just side with each other just because. We’ll call each other out if we think they’ve fucked up and then help each other build themselves up better. Because real fuckin people who actually care wont just want to be adored by you. They’ll care enough to point out your bullshit and help you, even if they upset you at the time. They’re real and upfront with you. People like us arent always the easiest to be close to either because we arent afraid of upsetting someone if it’s in their best interest and to help them. Likewise, we dont go out looking for fights either. Most times, we’re fuckin soft bastards- All this shit listed is the fuckin surface level of the real life hell of this fandom. And unsurprisingly, those who experience little to no toxicity have always been higher on that popularity ‘food chain’ - enough admirers and shared opinions that people wanna arse kiss regardless of their OWN feelings as well as neutral perspectives. I’d say you’re the lucky fans, but you’re not. You’re sheltered, and that isnt always the best way to be sadly. As for the fans. If Ive upset you. Well... I dont care. Because many of you have actively sought me out and weaponised my traumas against me. You never cared about my feelings then. Why should I care about yours? Im not doing this out of malice. Im fed up of humans behaving so pathetically yet claiming to be high and mighty. Most of you have been arseholes to those in and out of the community. The victims and non-victims alike. Hardly any of you considered once my real suffering. You put a drawing over a life. Many lives. You had the audacity to tell me Im full of shit. Some even using my real traumas to make a mockery of me and those Im around with a very similar history. Some with traumatic histories that differ from my own. You hardly ever considered the real lives of those effected. So no, Im not sorry for having the fucking balls to this day to still stand up for our rights and give us a voice that’s long been stolen. Im not sorry for being a fucking victim. Im not sorry for saying what desperately NEEDS voicing. And Im not sorry for not conforming to you or any fandom just to belong. We deserve better than to constantly be your fuckin arse monkeys (well... the trope is butt monkey but yknow-) and to be mistreated, misrepresented and harmed by you. You’re no different to the school bullies who give speeches on anti-bullying day. And I hope every single one of you starts looking into yourselves and improving. PS: Depending on the texts you read, Lucifer is said to have been redeemed or to be redeemed. Fun fact to haunt yalls with~ “

#warning long #long post #hazbin critical #very long rant #important #hear victims voices #just sick of how awful people can treat one another and believe this is acceptable #everyone is accountable #toxic fanbase #Toxic shippers #toxic ships #im literally too fucking old for this #forgive the anger but after years and years it gets so cumbersome and tiring #im happy to be the pariah if it means victims actually get heard and helped