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“Yah! Honestly, why is it that only the maknae line looks good while dancing.” My eonnie, Haeun complained.

We were watching our first music video together, and a specific eonnie was loudly critiquing the whole thing, Haeun eonnie was complaining on the first chorus where our choreography part was shown.

“Aniyo, Saeyon eonnie looks good!” Juyu fought back.

“She’s our visual what do you expect?” Haeun eonnie fought back as well, loudly if I would add.

“Shhhh.” I interrupted them.

Haeun eonnie raised her hands, surrendering. “Okay okay.”

The screen finally showed Haeun eonnie's part on the pre-chorus, where her surrender was thrown away, then she started gushing at how she looked cute on her part. She even sat back up from the couch pressing the back button, replaying her part. “Woah, see that? That’s me!”

Saeyon eonnie sat back up as well, then covered Haeun eonnie’s mouth and letting herself, along with the loud eonnie to fall back on to the couch.

“Thank god,” the other members whispered. I chuckled at that. The chorus played and Saeyon eonnie complimented our maknae Yeona after hearing her part in the chorus, slapping her leg in the process.

The music video was nearing the end, meaning the dance break was going to show up anytime now. Finally hearing the familiar beats that I have practiced for who-knows-how-many-hours in our months practice for our debut. I was on the screen - dancing, my hair was flowing as I move to dance my steps, I felt a surge of pride through me as we watch it. After the last beat of my segment it went back to the final chorus, wherein I finally became aware of my surroundings. I heard Yeseul eonnie’s last note with me present on the screen dancing the last step of the choreography.

“Why is it that Ara get’s the last part? Of course. Of course. Maknae line, leading again.” Haeun eonnie complaining again.

There has always been a rivalry going on between the eonnies and the maknaes, and to show the maknae line’s unity - Yeona, Juyu, and I stood up and did our “unity cheer.”

Clap. Clap. Clap. Clap. “Maknae line’s the best team.” The three eonnies sat at the couch dumbfounded, as the three of us laughed at their reactions.

“Ya! They’re teaming up guys, we aren’t going to lose to them.” Haeun eonnie stood up as well, clapping her hands on her own creating a beat while tapping her right foot. “Guys!” She whined after trying to get Saeyon eonnie and Yeseul eonnie to stand and follow her along, but they simply laughed at her attempt.

“It brings down my pride, but our maknae line is full of talents and visuals.” Yeseul eonnie said, shaking her head faking a pout.

“You’re the leader! You shouldn’t just quickly claim that, you claim dominion on them!” Hauen eonnie argued, laughing evilly at the end.

Our leader quietly sat at the couch. “That’s right. Yeona, get me a glass of water.” she suddenly ordered.

We all laughed at the mood change of Yeseul eonnie, but our maknae immediately stood up to get the water also laughing to herself. “This maknaes, really.” Our leader added as she jokingly shook her head. “We’re being too loud now.”

I stopped laughing and clamped my mouth shut, but Haeun eonnie simply laughed harder and louder just to annoy our leader. Yeseul eonnie looked at Haeun eonnie with a glare and Haeun eonnie used her most used counter-attack; “Ya! Yeseul-ah, I’m older than you!”

“This eonnie is really unfair!” Juyu claimed while everyone agreed. We continued laughing and just continued having a good time with everyone’s presence, until our manager, Jinsoo oppa, knocked on our door.

“Guys,” he knocked through the door.

“Ne!” Everyone replied immediately sensing the air for the word: work. We all fixed ourselves, feeling a little inferior due to the authority our manager has. Our leader opened the door for our manager and he saw us wearing our comfortable clothes, I felt alarmed. I try to remember our schedule and was greatly ashamed of how irresponsible we were for forgetting.

“You’ll have your short interview with M!Countdown in a few hours,” he mentioned. That was it! Oh gosh how can we forget, we were having too much fun. “And your-“

“Debut stage!” We all exclaimed, suddenly having an epiphany. Upon realizing this, everyone went chaotic to get the right clothes to wear.

“I’ll come back in a while to pick you girls up,” Jinsoo oppa bid, while closing our main door. We all acknowledged what he said and replied a very enthusiastic “yes!”

We all had our outfits on when our manager came back to pick us up and drove us to the BigHit Entertainment building, which we call the building. We left our face - make up free, and our hair - lose on their own.

“Yay! Make over, this is my favorite part of the day.” Juyu happily said as we hop off the van.

I ran to the building because I felt like doing so, and upon doing this the others started running as well. Feeling competitive I ran faster feeling the cold air against my face, what were we doing really? Yeona, Yeseul eonnie and Saeyon eonnie simply walked while talking to each other. At least half of the members were normal.

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“Oh wow, I look good!” Haeun eonnie stood in the mirror, looking at her self.

“Not as good as me,” Juyu said, standing beside the eonnie while posing.

“Ya,” eonnie said facing the intruder, Juyu took this as a sign to run away. “This kid!”

Saeyon eonnie came to the room with a camera on her hand. Everyone became excited, but there was a change of atmosphere, like we had to act like we were this perfect little group. The eonnies hoard the camera, which the maknaes were thankful for. Haeun eonnie was being her usual noisy self bullying Saeyon eonnie on camera, while our leader is trying to break them apart. It was just the right amount of footage they wanted.

I noticed the staff pass through me. “Who’s this footage for?” I asked a staff.

The staff looked at me. “Hmm? Oh, for your new youtube channel.”

“Oh. Alright, thank you.” I replied. I look to my left and saw the maknae playing on her phone, I tried to look for Juyu but I cannot find her anywhere.

“Hey,” I said waiting for Yeona to look at me. “Where’s Juyu?”

“I think the producers for that interview excused her for a while.” She answered, I answered her by nodding my head. I stood up while Yeona went to get her hair and make up done, while I try to fix the denim skirt I am wearing. I saw Juyu through the large mirror, and watched her sat down on the couch I was at a few seconds ago. I saw the producer who was a petite looking girl with round glasses on, wearing a mustard colored sweater with her washed denim jeans and black boots. It seemed like she was looking for someone, and we had an eye contact on the mirror; I hurriedly shifted my gaze and saw her that path was onto me, I attempted to run but was too late when I felt her hand on my arm.

“Can I talk to you for a second?” She asked me, not in a polite way but also not in a rude way.

“Uh, yes.”

She lead me outside at the end of the hallway, where the space provided a quiet space for us to talk. “So, I’m going to be showing a few questions that may appear on the interview later.” I nod my head, indicating that I understood her request. “First, here.” The producer showed me a bunch of post-it notes, with a bunch of things written on it.

Isn’t our staffs supposed to pick these? Oh well.

“Here are the post it notes which the members approved of, while here are the unchosen ones.” She explained. I read the unchosen post-it notes which had a messages that they were happy to see a new debut group from the Big Hit Entertainment and etc. majority of them were questions though. “We’re giving you the liberty to choose the probable questions that you’d like to appear on the backstage segment.”

“Oh. So there isn’t an interview?” I asked, genuinely surprised.

She laughed. “No, did you know that every member asked that?” I laughed too. We were kind of happy with the fact that we’ll be having an interview, however it did not go as we wished it to be, but these post-it notes seems fun too.

I chose the four post-it notes which contained ‘Give nicknames to the other members please!’ ‘Rank the members based on the appearance’ ‘Who is the wealthiest among the members?’ ‘Who eats the most?’

“Ah. Here.” I enthusiastically gave it to the producer and she took it. “Thank you.” I said and bowed to her, she smiled and dismissed me and went back to the dressing room only to see them packing and was getting ready to leave. I quietly followed everyone back to our van with the staffs following us from behind.

“Why is the maknae line hoarding the camera?” Saeyon eonnie said, obviously wanting the camera for herself as she looks at Juyu holding the camera while filming Yeona walking.

“You know that you are an almost member of the maknae line right?” I asked, hinting that I am after her in our line of ages.

“Yup. But, I didn’t so that means I can do this.” She slapped my arm and ran away from me, sticker her tongue out to me. The eonnies are really something.

When we all comfortably sat on the van with the three eonnies at the back singing along with the song of K.Will sunbaenim’s First Day, with Juyu filming them as they sang, sitting in front of them and Yeona sitting at the seat beside Juyu. I sat in front of the maknae with an empty seat beside me, I looked at the camera that they were so in love with and saw that it wouldn’t face me unless they go in front of me or at my side. After making sure, I tried to take a nap for a while — finding a comfortable spot and when I found it, I slept until we arrive at the Mnet M!Countdown building. I awoke from the awkward feeling of being watched, when I opened my eyes the first thing that I noticed was the members looking at me laughing as they filmed me.

“Yah!!” Juyu whined while holding the camera, making my head ache.

“But she looked good waking up, ugh!” Haeun eonnie complained. “Cut this out please,” she said moving the camera from the hands of Juyu to face her. “That is an example of inequality” she then added.

I ignored them and yawned. “Are we here?” I asked.

“Yup,” Yeseul eonnie answered me. “Fix yourself, you looked like you just woke up.”

I opened my eyes wider and lightly slapped myself to wake myself up. “I just did though, woke up I mean.” Eonnie gave me a look and I quickly bit my lip and bowed down, smiling a little. “Sorry, sorry.” Eonnie was kind of fun to tease.

“Okay, there are people outside and idols are coming in too. Greet our sunbaenims, and lightly bow to the fans. Okay?” The leader lectured. “No slowing down, okay?”

“Ne!” We all answered.

“Turn off the camera now, Juyu.” She added.

“Okay.”

Yeseul eonnie opened the door, and we were greeted by a bunch of people holding up their cameras, creating a sudden noise. Guards were holding them up away from us, and I felt awkward by the sudden attention so I simply looked down and continued walking to the back entrance of the Mnet M!Countdown building and proceeded to walk to our dressing room with a staff from Mnet the team — our members and staffs.

We heard a loud Yah! Before entering our dressing room. We saw Heechul sunbaenim singing our debut song as he briskly walks to us. “Kim Heechul undercover; here we have the people who will have their debut stage: *Hygge!” He was holding up a selfie stick with a camera attached to it, which seemed like he was vlogging.

(Hygge is pronounced as hue-guh)

Our staffs quickly left and proceeded to enter our assigned dressing area. “Annyeonghaseyo,” our leader greeted our sunbae, bowing and we followed her gesture, we all smiled after and simultaneously waved at the camera.

He smiled at us and faced the camera he was holding, to us. “Introduce yourself for our Mnet viewers!”

There was a bit of a dead air before Haeun eonnie bowed at the camera, and Heechul sunbae facing it on her immediately. “Go Haeun, the rapper!” Posing as she said the rapper. Eonnie really has no shame.

“Kim Saeyon, vocal.” Eonnie introduced as she bowed in front of the camera.

“Kim Yeona, vocal as well.” The maknae bowed and cutely smiled at the camera.

“Aw cute.” Heechul sunbae said, while using the accent of a baby. “What year were you born?”

“2000,” she answered.

Sunbaenim looked so shocked which caused us to laugh. “Right? She doesn’t look ‘that’ young but she’s so cute, right?” Haeun eonnie said. Heechul sunbaenim laughed, while nodding his head. He moved the camera to me, wherein I took that as my signal to introduce myself.

“I’m Park Ara, vocal.” I introduced slightly bowing at the camera, I lift my head up only to be caught in surprise to see the camera literally inches away from my face.

Heechul sunbaenim made a weird dolphin sound, before taking the camera away from my face. “You danced the dance break, right?” He giddily asked.

“Ah yes.” I smiled and bowing slightly, it felt nice to be acknowledged.

“Yah! You were amazing!” He gushed, slapping my shoulder lightly. “You went —“ he cut himself off before giving me the camera, I held the camera to face him, when he suddenly started to dance my part on the dance break sloppily, since he didn’t memorized it. It was still recognizable though!

“Thank you.” I bowed again, he laughed throwing me a thumbs up — asking me if he did good. And I raised my right thumb higher than I normally would to let it be seen on the camera showing that he did good. He felt proud of himself and raised his hand for a high five which I gladly accepted. I offered him back the camera and he took it silently.

The camera faced Juyu and once it did, she bowed very diligently. “I am your wish upon a star. Ahn Juyu, rapper.” She finished before throwing finger hearts on the camera. I covered my face embarrassed, while laughing because she actually had the audacity to do that!

The sunbaehim was speechless for a moment before blinking. “What just happened,” he stated.

Juyu started laughing, before moving her face to the camera. “Speechlessness, I bring that to people.” She said winking at the camera. I started to take her away from the camera.

“You scared him.” I told her, the members laughed upon hearing what I’ve said.

Heechul sunbaenim looked at Juyu. “That was shameless of you,” he commended her. “Very me, indeed.” We all laughed after he said that. He then face the camera to Yeseul eonnie.

“I’m the leader - Min Yeseul, vocal!” She introduced bowing at the camera.

Before he could talk, one of our staffs excused us, claiming that we needed to get ready. We all bowed to Heechul sunbaenim and bid him good bye before he did as well.

We all went back to our dressing room excitedly, and Haeun eonnie was skipping like a horse on the way back inside. “Omooooo.” We all raved.

“Did Super Junior ’s Kim Heechul sunbaenim just talked to us?” Saeyon eonnie asked us, bewildered. She sat where the make-up artist was at to do a retouch on the make up.

“It just happened, people. Plus, he knows us! And he knows our song and dance!!” Haeun eonnie said enthusiastically.

Yeona joined in. “He called me cute. Gosh, this is the best day ever!”

I laughed, feeling delighted also. “Okay, let’s go get ready.” Our leader said.

I went to have a change of clothes; I was finally wearing my baby pink fitted halter top, a white tennis skirt along with a baby pink knee support on my right knee, and a white Adidas shoes. I went to the make-up artist for the retouch of make up. The hair stylist started to do wavy curls on my hair and pinning up the hair on my right.

I took my seat on the after doing so and took selfies. I kind of felt the need to do so especially, this will be our debut stage and I looked pretty! I took a picture of the busy dressing room I am currently in and posted it on twitter along with my one of my selfies.

@Hygge_twt: Getting ready! #DebutStage #Ara

“Let’s go!!” Haeun urged us to go, I suddenly felt my hands and feet become cold.

“Oppa,” I called to one of our staff. “Please hold my phone for a while.”

“Okay,” he said taking it from me. “Your hands are cold, relax. I’ll give this to you later.” I simply nodded and followed the members outside of our dressing room.

I sat on the side while the others get ready for warm up, I breathed for a few minutes before I start to feel relaxed and stood up to join them for our warm up. Got7 sunbaenim were still on stage, rehearsing. When they went to the side of the other side of the stage, the LED screen changed to a girly-er color.

We rehearsed our lines, dances, formations, and the camera work also. They told us to face the certain camera on a specific part on our song, and after all that we became familiar with the feeling of the stage thus feeling less nervous. We ran out of the stage after the rehearsals feeling more fulfilled than ever, and I honestly can’t wait to get on stage. We were stationed on a waiting room where one of our make-up artist and hairstylist awaits, they fixed minor things on us again and we all simply wait for our turn on the stage.

There was a television screen wherein it shows the groups performing, I went outside of the waiting room to get some food and drinks and bowed to the other idols as I pass them. I saw a whole box of donuts which had at least six donuts inside, I thought of taking everything as a whole for a while, but decided on taking two donuts instead. I ate them at where I was because I didn’t want the members to get these donuts from me.

I quietly munched my food for a few minutes until I heard someone. “Excuse me,”

I looked up to see Dino from Seventeen, my eyes went wide and I bowed immediately. “Sorry,” I moved away with the one donut left on my plate.

He chuckled. “It’s okay, I was just going to take these.” Dino sunbaenim said holding a two chocolate pudding on his one hand.

“Okay, sorry.” I said bowing again.

“You’re born the same year as me right?” He asked, knowing the answer already. “We’re *chingu,”

(Chingu is someone who is at your age, there is no need for honorifics with them)

I looked up, suddenly losing the feeling of inferiority. “Really? You’re born in 1999?” I asked, in which he nodded enthusiastically. I suddenly felt happiness, I now have a chingu on my own! “Wah, *daebak!”

(Daebak is a commonly used expression that intends to share the message: amazing)

I saw a familiar mop of black hair when I saw Saeyon eonnie. “Yah, Ara! We’re performing next,” she called out to me.

I stood rigid and left my last piece of donut on the table and looked at my chingu. “Sorry, I have to go.”

“Oh, sure!” I bolt to my eonnie after hearing this, excited to be finally on stage again.

When we arrived on stage, numerous people were present holding up banners with their bias’s name on it. We saw a cluster of people who became loud when we entered. I saw them holding our official banners, I smiled at them and waved while they waved back. Majority of them were males, however I saw women also. We danced our stage, hearing the fan chants for the first time. The verses were shared by the eonnies and Juyu, while me and Yeona took the lines in the chorus. The first beats of the dance break was heard and I heard screams as they heard it; I danced my part while remembering when to look at a certain camera.

After our performance, Yeona ran and cried backstage. “I think I messed up a certain line,” she cried out. “I’m so sorry.”

We all hugged her. I couldn’t say I wasn’t satisfied with my performance because I really am, but it feels sad knowing that a member of ours felt like she didn’t do great.

Saeyon eonnie, the one who tops everyone in the world of comforting came to the rescue to talk to Yeona alone. The others and I looked at each other, we broke into a smile high five-ing each other.

“I really didn’t hear Yeona messing up her line, though.” Juyu said.

“I think she’s overthinking it, you know how stressed she can be when it comes to work.” I replied.

“Let’s all eat outside later, and she’ll get a larger part on the meal so she’d feel better.” Yeseul eonnie said.

“What?!” Haeun eonnie and I reacted. “But, that’s unfair!” We both complained. All it took for me to quiet down was our leader’s glare, however Haeun eonnie had different ideas. She started to complain that she has been giving us free food but when it comes to giving her food — it never happens.

After a few minutes our maknae and Saeyon eonnie came back, and Yeseul eonnie delivered the news to the maknae of us eating outside later letting her know that she’ll be having a larger portion size of the meal. Yeona broke into a smile and hugged her, laughing as she did so. It seems like she’s okay now.

“Over here,” a staff called to us while pointing at a door. We followed and went through that door. We were greeted by a hallway that has three cameras, in the middle. The petite producer was present and she urged us to walk further to be in front of the camera.

“Treasure the moment,” we greeted, bowing in front of the camera. “Annyeonghaseyo, Hygge-imnida!” We introduced while clapping to ourselves.

“State the fact that you’ve just debuted as a group today,” the producer told us, we nodded and we all looked to our leader while Yeseul eonnie looked at Haeun eonnie. The leader felt our stares at her so she immediately clasped her hands and exclaimed a loud “Ne!”

We all laughed at this, and she simply continued with what she had to say. “So, Hygge just debuted today!” Eonnie said stopping herself midsentence to clap and we followed the action as well. “This wouldn’t have been possible without the support we’ve been receiving from our fans, and of course to Bang PD-nim, we love you so much!” She said cutely sending the camera finger hearts.

“Okay, at the wall-“ we all followed her hand, simultaneously turning to the said wall. “There is the bunch of post it notes you’ve picked and we’ll give you the chance to choose one post-it notes each round,”

“Okay, round 1” she called out. We picked ours and I read mine silently.

Where would you be if you didn’t become a trainee? Congratulations on debuting, strong power!

“What are the name of the members on your contacts?” Juyu read, she looked up looking as if she didn’t want to answer it. “I have to answer honestly?” She asked the producer, which the producer diligently nodded to.

“Yah! Just answer it,” Haeun eonnie said, urging Juyu.

“Loud,” she said pointing at Haeun eonnie, eonnie stood there suddenly speechless. “Leader,” Juyu said pointing at Yeseul eonnie. “Ketchup,” pointing at Saeyon eonnie, which the eonnie cringed at. “Pretty,” she said pointing at me which I laughed at. “Maknae,” finally pointing at Yeona.

“Tell us why they’re saved that way,” the producer said.

Juyu shifted her weight to her right leg. “Well, Haeun eonnie is loud so she got that name stuck to me. Yeseul eonnie is our leader so, she has that. Saeyon eonnie hates ketchup, so I named her that.”

“Yaaah!” Saeyon eonnie said, slapping Juyu’s shoulder.

“Guys, maybe I should change her name to Violent eonnie.” Juyu joked before continuing. “Now, Ara is named pretty because that was what she placed on my phone ever since we were trainees and I felt lazy changing it now so… And of course, Yeona is the maknae so there’s that.”

“This is a snippet of how the maknae line treats their eonnies guys.” Haeun eonnie said.

“Okay, next post-it.” The producer said.

“Congratulations on debuting! Can you please rank the members based on appearance?” Yeona read.

Haeun eonnie insisted that she should start on the 2nd best looking one to the 5th to Yeona, while trying to look hopeful to get the maknae to pick her. “Should I look at this objectively or…” the maknae wondered.

“Go subjectively!” Haeun eonnie answered. “Remember the time I brought you food when you were hungry during training?” The same eonnie said while coughing.

“Ara eonnie, 2nd.” Yeona said, ignoring Haeun eonnie.

“Woo!” I clapped my hands.

“Maknae, I gave you a gift that you wanted during your birthday!” Juyu insisted.

“Okay, Juyu eonnie is 3rd.” Haeun eonnie gave out a surprised sound before looking at the maknae.

“You’re forgetting yourself, Yeona.” Juyu interject.

“I’m fourth and the leader is fifth!” Yeona immediately said, leaving Saeyon and Haeun eonnie.

“Haeun eonnie, sorry but you’re sixth.” The maknae said abruptly, causing us all to laugh. This girl is so savage really. The eldest looked at the camera and turned to walk through the door, but came back nonetheless.

We finished the interview and went directly to our dressing room to have a change of clothes. Juyu got a hold of the camera again and was filming in front of me telling her story of what it felt like performing for our debut stage.

I was sitting on the sofa and was dozing off when I felt a tap on my arm, I opened to see the staff who had my phone. “Here,” he said offering me my phone.

I took it and bowed lightly. “Thank you,” he left after that and I went back to sleep, while the others hoard the camera. I was woken up when I hear Yeseul eonnie telling me to wake up while shaking my leg.

“Eonnie,” I whined, wanting to go back to sleep.

“We have to go to Ingikayo now,” she said. I frowned and she seemed to notice it. “You can sleep on the car it’s less than an hour of travel.”

“Okay,” I said getting up.

——————————————— Author’s Note:

Hello readers! This is my first ever Author’s Note wohoo. I tried to make this as believable as possible but of course, it still lacks things because most of these things has been on my imagination… Anyway, why “Hygge”? I learned this word just a while back, it’s a Danish word which doesn’t have an English translation. The word itself is really beautiful. If I remember correctly it refers to being contented or happy within the moment you’re at. So, there that goes.

I still haven’t decided what to name the fans, but if you have any ideas and the reason, that would be nice. I can use it and of course recognize the one who made it every time the fandom name is mentioned on a chapter.

#bts #bangtan #imagine #scenario #jungkook #taehyung #jimin #hoseok #hobi #jhope #namjoon #rapmon #rapmonster #rap monster #yoongi #suga #jin #seokjin #ara #idol #trainee #hygge #twitch #fanfic #series

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aiminadiahayashi · 7 years

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Missing You _ BYG’s fanfic

It was a usual Sunday morning where I was doing my routine that was to jog. I put on my trainers and closed the gate before I headed to the park nearby. The Seonyudo Park. This park was full of scholars majority the poetry and arts major courses went to get their inspiration. The park has small gardens each holding a type of water plants and aqua animals such as lilies and goldfishes. This park is located in the middle of the famous Han River and it gives a spectacular and breathtaking view of the river and it’s surrounding. There’s also a traditional pavillion that overlooks the river, a cafeteria, a green house and an exhibition hall on the river’s history.

I jogged there with my earphones plugged in my ears listening to K.Will’s Love Blossoms. Oh, how the song matched today’s weather. I jogged while enjoying the scenery which could put my mind to ease from the busy working days. I jogged past through a few trees that shaded me from the sun’s radiating heat. I smiled. As I jog, I heard a voice. A too familiar voice. I halted and looked around. I spotted no one except a couple on a bench talking and in their own world. Seeing them made me feel sad. I looked at the happy couple, think how fortunate they are to be together and so happy, reminding me what I used to have. I continued to jog to clear my head of her telling myself that I need to move on. As my head cleared up, that voice again. This time, it sounded closer. And familiar.

I frantically searched for the voice but found none. My heart sped and I decided to take a break. I sat on a nearby bench under a large shady tree overlooking the lake. I looked around again in case I spotted the voice before I closed my eyes trying to calm my nerves. My heart calmed down a little but sped up again this time as I heard the voice again. This time it was nearer. As if it was right beside me. I heard the voice yet I didn’t do anything as I thought I might be hallucinating it. Hallucinating about her. As my mind started to clear, I felt a tug at my sleeves. A few tugs made me opened my eyes. I couldn’t believe my eyes.

I was greeted by a face that made my mouth gape at the sight of her in front of me. “Excuse me sir, can I have my cardigan back? You’re leaning on it”, said the female. “Oh…uh, yeah”, I said standing up and handed her the minty-coloured cardigan that I didn’t noticed before. “Thank you”, she said politely and started to walk off. I snapped from my stance and quickly grabbed her wrist. I spun her around and immediately pulled her towards me, hugging her tightly breathing in her scent. Hmm, she still smelled the same. A minty scent for her sweet-minty personality. “Uh sir, what are you doing? Can you please let me go?”, she said struggling to get out of my grasp.

I looked at her searching for her eyes that she was joking right now. That she joked on not remembering me. That she joked on not missing me. I hugged her tight and said : “Where have you been? Do you know that I’ve missed you so much? How could you leave me like this? Don’t you love me, Sora?"

This time she struggled so hard that I had to let her go. "Urm sir, I think you’ve got the wrong girl. We absolutely don’t have a history together and by the way, how do you know my name?”, she asked looking at me with her concerned light blue eyes. I felt like I wanted to laugh. How can I be mistaken of her to someone else. She’s my girl and mine only. It was impossible for me to mistaken her of someone else. "How can you forgot me, Sora? Of course I know you. You’re my girlfriend. How can I forget you? We’ve been together for 3 years. 3 years, Sora! That is, until you left me. But, you’re back now, right? You’re not going to leave me again, right?“, I said my voice wavered a bit as she said didn’t know me. That was impossible, right?

"Look, sir. I think you have mistook me of someone else. Yes indeed, my name is Sora. Lee Sora to be honest”, she said giving me her concerned look that she always gave to misfortune people. “But, that’s impossible. Your face looks like her. Your voice. Your appearance. Your smell. And even your name. The way you speak. Everything are the same as her. How can you not be her?”, I said my voice started to raise a bit in panic. A few people casted glances at us but I ignored them.

Kang Sora shook her head and motioned me to sit. I obeyed imeediately. “Sir, we may look alike but that doesn’t mean we’re the same person. Do you know that everyone has 7 identical person? And that includes us too”, she said holding my hands in her small palms. I started to come sense and was hit with a pang. “I’m sorry. I - I didn’t mean to - I mean, you look like her. Really, really like her. It’s like a clone of her”, I said my voice lowered as I came to realization that she’s not here with me. That she’s not comeing back.

“It’s okay. Maybe you want to talk about it? I don’t mean to intrude but you look like someone that needs a shoulder to cry on.”

“Do I? Hmm. Maybe I do. But not now. I don’t feel like talking about it.”

There was a moment of silence fell upon us. "Urm, I guess I should go", she said more of a question than a statement. “No. I mean, can you spend the day with me? I - I really miss her and I was hoping that if I could spend a day with her - even if it’s not the real her - I could let her go and moved on”, I said and my voice got quieter and quieter realizing how selfish I sound. Of course she would reject. Why would she accept?

“Sure.”

Her answer made me snapped my head towards her that I literally could hear my neck bone cracked. She smiled at me and asked for my name. “Yongguk. It’s Bang Yongguk ”, I replied.

We discussed on where should we head first and I’ve found out that she lovedstheme park. So, we decided to go there since it was her favourite place too. We tried various games and I had to catch up on her since she was running around like a little child. We even went on the rollercoaster that had double loop even though I had to convince her on riding it with me.

Later in the evening, we went to the vendor streets where you could find all of the streets food are available and freshly made. We tried on the famous spicy tteokbeoki in which you would cry in 5 seconds. Hahaha, joking. Tteokboki is a type of food made of rice cakes in spicy red pepper paste sauce.

I tried not to cry when eating it but it went into the drain because the tteobeoki were extremely spicy and I couldn’t really stand spicy food. After eating it, we deicded to search for food that could ease our burning mouth, so we headed to the nearest stall which was the Odeng (fish cakes). It costs about 500 won a stick and it was the cheapest food that you could find on the streets. The Odeng was skewered on a stick and was left in a delicious broth which happens to be free.

After wandering around the streets and sniffing the air of delicious smells, we came across Seondae which means Blood Sausage. These blood sausages are common foods around the world. Korea’s version of it uses coagulated pigs blood, glass noodles and barley, with pig or cow intestines for the sausage skin. They also come with a fe slices of liver or lung on the side. Both of us were grossed of that food and she dared me to eat one. How dare she?

“Lol, sorry can’t eat that. The last time I tried it, I vomitted green and my body turned jelly after that”, I said in defeat.

As night came, we decided to head back to the park and looked at the glimmering stars and the beautiful full moon. We sat on a bench that overlooked the lake and stared up. “Hey Sora. Sorry for thinking that you were my girlfriend. It was just - I can’t let her go. I can’t forget her. I can’t accept the fact that she had left me”, I said after a few minutes of silence.

“It’s okay. I understand. Why did she left you?”, she asked looking at me. I smiled at her grimly. “She had to leave me because she was … murdered”, I said and saw that Sora gave no reaction.

“I - I really miss her. Everyday I dream about her. About both of us. Our happy moments. Our sad moments. Our first argument. Hahaha. Oh how I wish she was here. I said to myself everyday that she’s not here, she’s not coming back, that she’s in a place where she’s happy and she would be sad if she sees me cry. I told myself that I need to move on and everyday I think that I had moved on until I met you. I have realized that I have not moved on yet and I hope after this day, I would be able to move on and be happy”, I said looking up at the stars twinkling brightly thinking that Sora, my Sora would be up there watching over me having this conversation with a clone of her that I’ve met today.

“I hope that you would be able to move on, Yongguk because - because I’m Sora. I am your Kang Sora”, she said holding my hands. Before I could say anything, her lips were on mine. Our kiss was slow but filled with emotions. Emotions for each other that were held back and nowhere to pour in unless it was the right person. Our kiss was a kiss where you could feel all the emotions whether they were anger, sadness, sorrow, guilt and most of all love.

“I’m sorry that I left you. That I left earlier. I suffer up there knowing and watching you live your life in sorrow, living like a time bomb waiting for its turn to blow up. It hurts me alot that I can’t help you to ease the pain, the scars that I left until today”, she said looking at me.

At this point, I knew that I shouldn’t believe her but my heart tells me that I have to because she’s telling the truth. That she’s mine, my Kang Sora. I didn’t realized that I’ve been crying until I felt her hands wiping away the tears that flowed freely. I cried in her hands telling her that I was sorry for not be able to protect her like I promised to, telling her how I wish I could rewind everything. I pour out everything and cried my eyes out till I was out of breath and for the first time since that incident, I smiled. A genuine smile.

“Yongguk, I’m sorry but I have to go. I hope that you would be able to move on and live a happy life. Don’t weep on me. You will make my eyes misty”, she said. I nodded and pulled her to a deep kiss. A kiss which may be our last and oh I wish this moment would stop. If it was the reality, I don’t want to close my eyes and if it was a dream, I don’t want to see the sun.

We broke apart and I watched her body changed to glimmering litte stars and felw to the sky, to the serene stars and watched them twinkled brightly.

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I was awake by a blinding, warmth light from my side and I looked around. I was on my bed and outside the sun shone brightly indicating that it was a new day. I sat on the bed confused on how I ended up there and I tried to recall yesterday’s event. I remembered everything starting the point where I left my house till the day she went to the sky in glimmering little stars. I thought that it was just a dream and that it was impossible for things like that to happen in this modernised world until I saw what my hand gripped on. It was the minty - coloured cardigan in which she had used yesterday.

I brought it to my nose and smelled it. It smells the same. Her minty scent. I noticed that there was a slight budge in its pocket and I took it out. It was a note. After I read the note, I smiled. Now I know, that it was not a dream but a reality. A reality that no one would ever believe it except me.

“I’m yours and always be. I love you."

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