#also pretty good to learn

[paskariu]

ah ha ha instead of actually learning for my exam tomorrow my dumbass is instead changing the strings on a guitar. lesgo

already changed the broken one and i have the other five too so i might as well change them too and keep the old ones as backup

#since apparently string make can affect the sound #idk how much to my untrained ears but oh well #changing the strings is kinda fun though #also pretty good to learn #my aunt once asked me if i could change guitar strings because she has one and saw me tune it #so might as well tell her that i know how to now? #alas i'm still kinda afraid of them coming undone as of now #the factory knots look so much neater than whatever i'm doing #riu speaks #pretty sure my roommates/ neighbours will kill me for this shit eventually though #the concert guitar is so much louder than the electric one (without speaker) and it surprises me every time #and i keep on whacking the other strings because i don't want to remove all of them at once #because i've read that it's bad for the neck to have the tension of the strings gone for too long? #and this guitar has been with one broken string for i don't even know how long since it arrived with a broken one

[inkskinned]

something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering. #it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now... #... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy. #(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

[gunstellations]

In the world I love

_

In a different world

#vanitas no carte #vanoé #doomed yaoi save me...save me doomed yaoi #play on the opening song + visual sequence + the fact that vanitas could only ever be happy in an alternate universe also #+ the other fun little fact we learn about him from episode one #i have complex feelings about this anime #its pretty damn fucking good #but im a leeeeetle iffy about the way it developed the female characters.....they had potential and i was actually excited to #to see some good solid female characters even the respective romances with their l/i's felt good at the start #not jeanne obv. they fucked up a perfectly good woman and her whole dynamic with v could have gone sooo well without the reall #really forced flirting behaviour.... i liked the more serious relationship they had it made me actually not hate what they had at the start #but yknow. whatever. sorry about going off about another ship on this but im just....i love jeanne a lot. i wish they didnt do her so dirty #my girl deserves better than this asshole #you want white/black dynamics??? let her get married to domi and then we can talk #i enjoy this show and i enjoy vanoe a lot #very yuriyaoi if you ask me #my art

[nats-uvi]

Angst time :D👍

You can read my rambling about her in the tags

#listen LisTEN TO Me #hear me OuT #oh is hc time #I read a while ago howw empathetic people tend to feel bad when they feel any angry/“negative emoy #el archivo literalmrnte lo tengo giardafo como “problemas emocionales goes brrrr” xD #how they tend to bottle everything up cause it makes thrm feel shame about how their actions might be seen as “selfish” #despite having VERY good and VALID reasons to justify thrir anger #based on the pilot I think she's pretty meek and also a little bit of a pushover #also I was thinking she'll be pretty self consious and try to mask her emotions the best she can #which obviously is super unhealthy #I think that at some point she's just going to SNAP and is gonna be awful and soo sad and omg I cant wait to see it #give my girl some character development pls #cause as much as I like crybabies characters I also like for thrm to learn how to stand up for themselves #anyway sory if that didnt made sense xDd is just that I have never had so much fun with a fictional character #mi hija fr #el archivo literalmente lo tengo guardado vomo “problemas emocionales goes brrr” xD #ya ahora si los tags serios #tadc fanart #the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc gangle #gangle

[moonverc3x]

(gosh I hope that comic is at least readable- Ignore all the inconsistencies, I've never drawn and colored a comic before 😭) Anyways- meet the heroes of yore! sort of... you get to know what they look like at least!

Im finally getting around to publicly sharing some tidbits of lore with yall! Originally the "heroes of yore" spiel Galacta reads was going to be just text but I thought people would probably like it a little better if there was a comic to accompany it!

and im. not sure how to end this post?? I suppose I can say that Meta and Galacta Knight are open for asks!!! Im hoping I can keep the energy to keep this thing going, but only time will tell!

#Figuring out how to make pretty looking comics is going to be one hell of a learning curve for me!! #Im good at putting a character into an environment and rendering it well but when It comes to comics I have to tone down the rendering #otherwise I will spend fifteen zillion years on it and then never actually finish the comic itself #also if it wasnt already GLARINGLY obvious I. cant.. color backgrounds. like. at all #Meta Knight #Galacta Knight #JAU #JAU Meta Knight #JAU Galacta Knight #Kirby oc #Verc3x art #J #GSA J #Edith #Cassius #swallow tailed galacta knight #< I think thats the tag I should use?? #also I should PROBABLY clarify that by “Standard” Meta means the universal language #like. becuase different planets have different native languages Standard is the universal language that almost all folks learn as a #secondary language #my ocs

[kaltacore]

merrill dragon age isn't The Character in terms of being the guy with the juiciest backstory details or protagonist material but she is The Person. The Heart. she was working on one of the most important researches of elven history and no one believed in her. not her keeper, her teacher and mother figure. nor her clan, the only family she's ever had. nor hawke's friends, the only people who were surrounding her for six years. the only person who can actually place their faith in her is hawke but if they don't she won't mind. she is used to it, being on her own. and, despite everything, she believes in people. she knows it matters. better than anyone.

she has never heard a nice word from fenris, but she still tries to cheer him up from time to time. she has never heard a nice word from anders either and she still feels for him. varric annoys her when he tries to distract her from the eluvian, but she appreciates it because she knows he means well. aveline refers to her work as senseless and potentially dangerous for the city, but she is still happy for her when she falls in love.

if hawke sides with mages in the last straw merrill is the first to support them. "I believe in you, hawke", she says, when everyone else is consumed by doubt. and then she's the only one who openly suggests sparing anders. so he can put things right.

she knows the feeling. when you're on your own and everyone thinks you're beyond salvation, undeserving of compassion or understanding. and this is the best she can offer for people she cares about: her unconditional faith, her sympathy, a second chance. the things she was desparately looking for and never had. she believes in people because she knows: there's no one else to believe in them

#going through my screenshots and every time i see 'i believe in you hawke' i want to explode #she's an unacknowledged genius but also she's the brightest person in kirkwall with the heart of gold #and i wish we talked about her smartness and willingness to discuss and defend her opinions more #but she's also genuinely such a good person. not in the 'haha silly pretty and clueless naive girl' way #but in the 'thoughtful and caring and compassionate woman who tries to learn from her mistakes and deepest regrets' way #her banters are full of these themes. believing and second chances and atonement and it just makes me feel things #if i were to put it all in this post it would be practically endless because i really lack the ability to shut up #spiraling back into my merrill brainrot. i love her i love her i love her so much #merrill #dragon age

[skunkes]

#a doodley #have to learn to draw self better #i grapple wit stylization vs accuracy when drawing self....and especially like. well. you can either choose to make yourself look Cute. or. #Go For Likeness. lmao #also al wld also be the arooo except he doesnt actively aroo like i do #he can do a pretty good accurate dog bark though #im obsessed with the thot of talon actually being able to do the tonal flutter so he can #ive referenced dis many times but its Real Real. he can and will purr.

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

still mad about this post lol so let me also say: “they taught us critical thinking in english class” is extra funny to me because there’s a genuine debate among Ed Heads about whether “critical thinking” as a discrete and decontextualized skillset can actually be taught :) so it’s pretty silly to go around confidently branding yourself as a critical thinker while simultaneously revealing that you’re extremely comfortable making assumptions about the relative simplicity of complex ideas which remain contested in their respective fields :) personally i would be pretty embarrassed to call myself a critical thinker if i also couldn’t stop myself from revealing i was totally lacking in the intellectual humility that would enable me to understand that we have yet to reach consensus on unbelievably complicated issues like how best to educate an entire population :) but i guess i was absent the day that tenth grade english covered running your mouth like an asshole on social media :)

#for someone so convinced english class made you smart you’re saying some pretty stupid shit! #i’m also genuinely curious about this person’s english class bc i went to a fancy high school and my english teachers were mostly fine #and i would not connect literally anything we ever did there to the concepts of media literacy or misinformation spotting #i would also be shocked if a majority of current high school english teachers are good at those things themselves. lol. #remember: teachers are being taught that learning styles are real and most of them never question it! #btw i’m inclined to go with the ‘critical thinking is discipline specific and can’t be taught as a Thing crowd’ #my unsubstantiated hunch is that like #being exposed to critical thinking processes in a variety of different fields #can build the kind of intellectual humility that is the most important prerequisite for critical thinking #like because i know how much goes into ‘knowing’ something historically #i know that i can’t really meaningfully critically think about high level debates in biology because the knowledge base isn’t there #and knowing that is IMO its own form of critical thinking #but that’s me spitballing based on vibes

[verdantglow]

All the ‘zona dads + Brits + Iskall completely fucking losing it at the Hot Ones Challenge.

A couple of them tap out.

& Joe Hills just walks up, eats the ENTIRE FUCKING NUMBER 8 WING, & washes it down with COKE.

& then proceeds to do the same with the LAST TWO WINGS, just taking leisurely taking bites of his wings, nodding as he considers the flavors, a sip or two of Coke here or there.

“I’m hungry! I knew we were gonna be eating!” [gestures at table of ridiculously spicy wings]

This man is a cryptid & I love it.

#nah but actually I think it’s just that he’s from Nashville #& no one else is particularly good at spice #(Except Pearly.) #(Pearl just going in on the last wing before anyone else even processed the last one.) #(She is also a bamf.) #Okay tbf Tango also handled it pretty well. #Joe just. Seemed completely unaffected. #Love this man. #Literally everything I learn about him delights me further. #(Maybe I’m easily impressed because I am A BABY when it comes to spice.) #(Like I doubt I would have made it as far Jimmy who tapped first.) #(I would be crying halfway through I am sure.) #Joe Hills #Hermitcraft #verdant liveblogs

[haunted-xander]

I already know, so why won't you just say it?

#me when. me when the found family dynamic is complicated and full of hurt #screaming crying frothing they both need therapy so so bad i love them #i have SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THEM #thancred needs to learn how to communicate #and also not project his grief onto his new daughter #poor ryne just wants to have a good father figure for once :') #(at least thancred is still better than ran'jit) #(but thats a pretty low bar) #ryne #ryne waters #< i love how thats an actual tag #thancred waters #minfilia warde #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #xanders haunting art #digital art #fan art #xander being insane about ryne

[satsuha]

pokemon stuff

#octopath traveler 2 #octopath traveler ii #satsuhart #crossover #i dont have like a super deep explanation for every pokemon choice but #for castti i wanted two grass pokemon to represent like medicinal/hazardous concoctions #throne... the seviper represents the blacksnakes obviously but i think itd be nice if pirro had a zangoose to match or smth #for temenos and ampharos i think its dex entries about being a beacon for lost people is nice... and it evolves from a sheep #hikari pretty self explanatory but specifically i think itd be nice if he had a bisharp while mugen had a kingambit it suits them a lot #for ochette i did consider choosing pokemon based on the 3 legends but that would be leaving out mahina akala fdjkha #= decidueye and lycanroc... the arcanine i just think it suits her but also master juvah shaped #oricorio baile was a natural fit for agnea and i think bellossom suits her homeland being the leaflands too #partitio... wild stallion.. gkjfh but i think given that he invents trains itd be good if his team was transportation-based... #delibird i think its just a nice fit for him bc of how it gives out gifts and stuff #for osvald i mostly picked porygon z and magnezone bc they learn tri attack naturally... theyre all scholar ish (?) anyway #also gave everyone unique pokeballs bc i wanted to #oh also for the first pic i didnt draw gallade on purpose bc it takes damage from sandstorms <:) #octo2

[wrongplaceworsttime]

on dragona

i managed to track down some pictures of the jojolands raws, and specifically one of the pages where jodio talks about dragona. i think ultimately we’ll have to wait for more to get a real read on his gender identity and presentation, but i wanted to see what the original japanese was and what it said for myself

here is where jodio is talking about how his mom can live a peaceful life because of what he and dragona do. in the first bubble he starts with “オレたち兄弟” (oretachi kyoudai). the key word here is 兄弟, which just means sibling(s). so he says “we siblings” (or, given context, could also be “we brothers”). regardless, this phrase is gender neutral

in the second one, he says “オレと兄” (ore to ani). this is why i’m choosing to use he/him for dragona as of now, because 兄 means big brother, and as far as i know, nothing else. i’d translate this as “me and my brother” (or if we’re trying to be grammatically correct, “my brother and i”)

in this bubble, jodio again says “兄”, which, if you look up in a dictionary, only translates to older/elder/big brother. 

i think you could’ve argued otherwise if jodio had called dragona 兄貴 (aniki) because that once can be a little more ambiguous in terms of familial relationship and gender, but just 兄 alone reads to me like dragona is jodio’s older brother. i also don’t really think that jodio is purposely misgendering dragona.

given what we know so far about the characters, i think there’s enough evidence to say that dragona identifies as a boy, but enjoys presenting feminine. so i’m going to be using he/him for dragona unless something contradicts that in later chapters

#hope this was helpful for anybody! #i'm not trying to say anything about whether dragona is good or bad queer rep #i'm a cis girl so i don't think i have much to add to the conversation in that regard #but its pretty clear that in the original language dragona is refered to as a boy #okay thanks for reading also general disclaimer i'm still learning japanese #the words i pointed out are very simple though so i'm not worried about having mistranslated anything #dragona #dragona joestar #the jojolands #tjjl #tjjl 1 #jjba #日本語 study

[handsofred]

Stiles' face when Derek walks in to the pack human wearing nothing but suspenders and a mini skirt.

#stiles stilinski #derek hale #sterek #teen wolf #stiles x derek #Slutty Stiles #Stiles likes to dress up in sexy clothing sometimes #it makes him feel oh so pretty and good #of course its going to be red to match against his skin tone and of course it's going to match Derek's red eyes #he also has it in a soft green too that makes him think of the wolf's eyes too #and it will be soft material too #just because he has learned from Lydia that good material matters when it comes to clothes and underwear

[biblically-accurate-dca]

sb humanizations + various vannys :3

#my art #fnaf #security breach #five nights at freddy's #so can i tag everyone or would that just be annoying. oh well #glamrock freddy #glamrock chica #glamrock bonnie #roxanne wolf #montgomery gator #monty gator #djmm #dj music man #daycare attendant #sundrop #sunnydrop #vanny fnaf #vanny #vanessa sb #<- idk how to tag her HFJSGJKD #ANYWAYYYY i've been learning how to incorporate cheekbones into the faces i draw #bc i want to draw vanessa's face similarly to the proportions of the vanny mask (with the big cheeks and slim face) #but it's also just something i've been really wanting to do anyway.. i've even been referencing the way team f/rtress 2 stylizes the faces #of all the mercs and stuff. bc i used to be obsessed with that game but i could never actually draw the characters properly #and it's been sooo SO helpful for me. its like a night and day transition for my art it's craaazy #anyway as for the other designs here.... these are all completely improvised Except for sun bc i've drawn this human sun before and i have #a general idea of what i want. but for the others idk if i'll draw them this exact way again in the future lmao. but i think they're still #pretty good for what they are !!!! #anyway i will stop rambling now HFKAJFKSG bye

[thegirlsinthecity]

This one is for the lovely @kalevalakryze ! Thank you for all the time and effort you put into your amazing fics!

This idea is once again pulled from their fic Mine over on AO3 :)

#star wars #ahsoka #wolfwren #sabine wren #shin hati #ahsoka series #ahsoka show #sabine wren x shin hati #star wars fanart #my art #thegirlsinthecity #okay when I read this scene it stuck in my head for days #(i had to get the dyeing image out of my brain first to be able to work on this one but once it was done? I immediately started this one #It’s such a good fic and a very cute scene!! #i hope you like it :) #i’m actually pretty proud of myself on this one #still lots to learn but i am improving i feel like #the lighting is what took me the longest because no matter how many videos i watched about light i still don’t get it #i also tried really hard to make the faces a focal point by rendering that area more than the rest. i originally had more detail on the rest #but it distracted from what should be the focus #also i am a perfectionist and often lose sight of the bigger image… note to self it doesn’t matter if something is rotated 37 vs 38 degrees. #no one will notice you don’t have to waste an hour deciding on if a single pixel should be added or not #also note to self phone will crash multiple times as soon as more than 30 layers are involved #also note to self overlay is your best friend #but yeah probably the first time i’ve looked at something i’ve made and been like ‘holy fuck i did a good job’ #also you know what? i will be shameless and put my own damn art in my favourites tag if i want to because i’m so proud of myself #favourites #tumblr is compressing my image quality >:( it actually looks so much crisper in my camera roll #adhd rambling sorry got off track here

[salemoleander]

I'm very tired of how bad/incomplete all the wikis are for Farmer's Delight, so I guess now I'm working on my own set of infographics. Starting with a lot of very repetitive editing in Photoshop!

#salem tag #farmers delight #modded minecraft #i cant wait until I get to work on making things pretty and I'm out of Get All The Images You Need hell #also yes the Cooking Pot UI is edited - it took up way too much space and was needlessly confusing for learning purposes #i removed the arrow and the ladle symbol and the 'output' spot and then shifted the bowl/bottle area below the output #technically crafting is also edited bc I removed the arrow and seriously shrunk the window #I still need to figure out good ways to indicate potion effects/duration and to indicate Shapeless or Shaped crafting