#am i thinking too hard about it? maybe.

[jynersq]

i’m not exactly old (mid-20s) but i do feel very tender about younger gen z teenagers discovering rogue one and star wars through andor when they were probably too young to see the movie when it first came out and cling to it with the specific excitement you can only have at 16 because you have so much more free time and you’re not yet beaten down….like i feel like i’m sitting on a porch smoking a cigar going ah yes the children are our future…

#am i thinking too hard about it? maybe. #but i just remember how much fun i had on tumblr and twitter dot com as a teenager with my own obsessions #because you just have a lot more free time and you’re so… even if you think you’re jaded you’re still looking at everything w fresh eyes #anyway have fun kids that’s all i’m trying to say #e

[wardingshout]

Zelda goes mushroom girl

#tloz #a link to the past #zelda #link #my art #I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one... #I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea #I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat. #it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd #if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl...... #I'm falling back into my old ways rn though #anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends #like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder #they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it #in a proper way that might make sense.... #if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth #and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh

[poopystain]

if you asked me 4 months ago who my favourite portal character was i wouldve said wheatley without question. Now however,

#portal 2 #atlas and p body #my doodles #the caption is about pbody but i love atlas too who do you think i am #neurodivergency suddenly hitting hard. will maybe probably post about them a lot

[mishapen-dear]

(end of bad’s Acceptance vod, about 1:48:30)

no but im never going to be normal again. LOOK at this. look. IMMEDIATELY before this he gave a whole miserable speech at the graveyard about how much he misses the kids and how he wants them to come home. He was grieving so hard it started to rain. He cried while he sang to them. It was the perfect end to 5 days of grieving- and then he does this.

and the rain isnt about grief anymore- the thunder isnt a peaceful background to a heartbreaking scene. It is rage. the whole context changes. The storm raged on while he grieved like he raged during the Everything Else that happened (“there are a lot of federation workers on today. I need to interrogate them about some things” he said while he was following forever ALONE to distract him. he knew forever was fucked up and about to put more marriage pressure on him and for anyone else that would have been Terrifying. how could you focus on anything but that? but. bad was thinking about tormenting more federation workers)

i just!!!! its so good. its SO good its so scary its so good. bad hasnt accepted the loss of his children but he has accepted how far he will go to get them back. (he will do anything)

#qsmp #Ik someone else posted the clip but i could not find it again and i Needed to go insane #i still need to go insane #i need to pick up every little bit of his character and pin them up and write an essay on all of it #you know that entire nervous system that was preserved? i need to do that to him #im going to be SO annoying about bbh for the next while #like i can feel the brainworms setting in so hard i am GOING to get pov rot and get so excited about my perceptions of his character that i #twist him away from what he is #it will be in the name of understanding him but really i will trudge thru those roots and trip into hell #or maybe not maybe ill continue to have fun and cool character analysis #50/50 on whether or not it will be comprehensible tho i think the last 8 posts at least ive made about him are nonsense #its because he is a bastard #with too many moving parts. i need a diagram neatly laying out every q!bbhism ever #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp clip

[harbingersecho]

Marrassurma, God of Death (and Dreams) from The Abyssal

bonus Sol bc the hand kiss scene is cute

#the abyssal #the abyssal if #interactive fiction #mine #*23 #art #marrassurma #i really want to do the pestilence thing but like. why would marrassurma do that he likes humanity + the human world :/ #btw if u think marrassurma is edgy i originally thought abt marrasverisurma lol. but i was like thats way too long dude im sorry #it doesnt mean november death btw it means killing of an omen (of death) or being killed by one. google's stupid #finnish lesson ahead ig. surma can be a violent death/a killing/voluntary manslaughter/a tragic accidental death/the destroyer of something #or a poetic way to say kill. surma can ALSO be a very hard obstacle or opponent or a personification of death when w/ certain chs #and marras is just any omen of death/person who brings death/person who's about to die/any dead thing/a ghost. yeah uhh dw about it #so marrassurma can technically mean a combination of any of these but i'm using it as like. the one i explained before lol #why am i even explaining this. maybe bc im cursed with the ability to talk endlessly abt stupid shit i think is interesting

[cobaltfluff]

Arajin observation notes so far:

- good reflexes? (dodging the trip in ep1)

- strong enough to hold up Matakara??

- is the punches to Matakara's kicks :3c

Kid was definitely serious about becoming strong back then 😂

#bucchigiri?! #watch and yell #spoilers #honestly i think arajin is still very strong on his own #but he's likely hampered by fear and his sense of guilt #also might tie in with the best friend stone and how he feels like he doesnt deserve it?? he probs still has it tho #i am SEEING the VISION #everybody loves Arajin except the one person who he wants to love him back LMAO #ALSO THE VERY END OF THE ENDING SONG?? #WILL EVERYONE GET TO DO THE HEART POSE??? #this feels so old school in such a good way i love it SO MUCH #also i am glad i was right that WAS matakara's brother #now why is he in jail(?) is the real question #running theory that arajin feels responsible for it #maybe big bro was protecting lil bro when arajin ran off and it got serious #something like that? #i am thinking way too hard about this #but I NEED TO KNOW

[rkn001]

this one-hundred paged fixation has had an iron grip on my smooth brain for the past half-year

(on another note, here's a list of ways of how to express "shooting yourself in the foot" in various programming languages, although some are, arguably, not actual programming languages, and some are just references to certain operating systems)

#mega man #megaman #rockman #enker #pilot man #mega man oc #shipping #the rather seemingly-unnecessary remark about that list is just me expressing to myself that i am shooting myself in the foot and #i'll just have to accept that the bullet will be lodged in my foot two weeks later and that its a part of me. #also as a way to detract your attention from the gayness. or maybe provide more attention to it. dont think too hard about this #i'm going to try to learn how to let go of things that bother me but really shouldn't so. anyway #if any of this confuses you just remember this is my blog. not my obligation to reveal everything to you nor attune myself to ur desires. 😇

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

examining your relationship with your art can be fun

but watch out

#examine too hard and you'll have a crisis #or *another crisis if you're like me #sometimes yeah i think about it too hard and then i get the intense prey instinct #to chuck my tablet into a field and then take off sprinting in the other direction #though i know id just come creeping back like a cautious but curious deer. get a little closer. run away #closer. jump back. poke the tablet and run away. come back and poke it again. #its the 'what am i doing? am i doing what i want to do? am i enjoying this? is it hurting me?' #will admit i have these thoughts every other day #ill have like a good bit of fully enjoying art & what im scribbling #and then suddenly ill wake up the next day and its terrifying and Too Much and huh??? HUH??? #i want to draw but im so so scared <3 but im being sooooo brave about it <3 #anyway i think we should all destroy our electronics and run screaming into the woods #OH MY GOD SOON I CAN DO THAT. #not the electronics - i mean the running into the woods part #oh im so excited. when its all too much i can just walk in nature with no one around #that Will fix me! for sure! #when the Art Fear™️ comes back i can just... go away for a few hours and touch some motherfucking grass #AND MAYBE FORAGE SOME CHICKEN OF THE WOODS. I AM DYING TO HARVEST WILD CHICKEN OF THE WOODS. #LITERALLY HAS BEEN A LIFE GOAL FOR YEARS NOW #when the Art Fear™️ creeps in i can get some big chickeney mushrooms and cook em up. refresh my soul.... #absolutely unprompted #but yeah sometimes i wonder if im drawing for myself or others. like drawing for others is fine but... i think there's a fine line #am i balancing it? am i Indulging enough? am i doing what i want to do enough??? #are my people-pleaser tendencies consuming me again? am i feeling Pressure? hm. yeah its crisis time #am i living how i want. am i enjoying how i want. am i interacting with welcome home the way i want to. #i think im going to go do the dishes....

[beanghostprincess]

if you like ling and greed the most… have you perhaps considered… shipping greedling? 👀

Bold of you to assume I don't ship whatever the fuck Greed x Ling x Ed have going on at the same time

#there is just something about the 'dude that takes over your body that turns out is extremely lonely and just wants love' trope #believe me i ship them believe me very hard #greed was too hot to die it's a loss for the bisexual community (the bisexual community being ling and ed) #ed saying he knows ling is in there. ed telling greed to become allies. dude be pulling both he doesn't even think about it huh #greed is just so gay for these two i can't even put it into words maybe what he truly needed were friends and 2 boyfriends #and ling is so in love with them too like look me in the eyes and tell me his last scene with greed wasn't extremely romantic #jumping off a bridge honestly these three live in my mind rent free #fmab #greedling #edling #edgreed #?? i am guessing that's the ship name i am new here okay

[mainapnifavouritehoon]

hi guys i-

#Hey so i wanted to talk about this really bad this has been bothering me for quite some time #i have been busy a lot these days and i dont get time at all to do anything but i can see myself wasting my time just scrolling #I have school and then coaching and then ofc i have to study on my own for which i barely take out time as im highly careless #My last 2 exams went absolute shit and that fucking scares me because i'll be having my JEE soon #Mummy has been telling me to stay away from my phone and ik she trusts me but she but she deserves a daughter that studies ig? #And now i kind of consider that as an option because this phone is very very distracting #I have been thinking about deactivating but i realized it would mean i would lose all my precious posts and interactions #So i wont be deleting this blog as i am too attached (i will be coming back istg) #I will be taking a break and ig thats what yall call a hiatus #I will be giving away my phone to my parents (trust me i have to) #Ik this will be hard for me to just leave all of a sudden so i'll slowly start vanishing if that makes sense? #This message also doesnt mean that i will be shutting down my phone rn at this moment and that this is goodbye #This is just to prepare the people that i love and who love me that i will be highly inactive and not come online for maybe months #This is not an impulsive decisions i have really thought through this #Also just to tell you again MAIN ABHI GAYAB NAHI HONE WAALI BUT THODE TIME MEIN I WILL GO ON A BREAK THIS IS JUST A PRE HIATUS MESSAGE #Also i hope you guys will still love me and remember me once i come back #Because coming months are going to be hard for me #I hope you understand and ily guys okay? #(Oh god why am i so dramatic about everything) xoxo

[yourqueenb]

You are so right in your distaste for Blades book 2. No matter how great things get near the end, a majority of the book was horrible. They led us along like mouse to cheese. It’s inexcusable to play with their audience this way.

I only wish more people were less willing to excuse PB’s mediocrity. The signs were on the wall for me when DLS was flat out better than Blades 2, and it’s narratively quite simple. The story told was well paced, thought out, and above all kept us waiting for more each week. I cannot say the same for B2. That is sad.

I mean I do understand why people still enjoyed it and were willing to overlook the negative aspects or didn’t have much of a problem with them to begin with. Blades 1 was a fan favorite, we all missed these characters a lot, and many people (myself included at one point) didn’t believe we would actually get book 2 because of all the bait and switches PB had done in the past. But the first two things are why I personally couldn’t overlook the glaring issues.

I can’t remember who the OP was now, but I remember seeing a post from when book 2 only had a few chapters out where someone said something about it seeming like the writers learned all the wrong things about what made the book so good, and I couldn’t agree with that person more! Yeah, book 1 was good because it was different from anything we had ever gotten before. But I think the main reason it was so good was because of the characters as individuals and the relationships we got to form with those individuals to ultimately become a family. Yet they didn’t really acknowledge those individuals or relationships in ways that did them justice for the majority of book 2. And on top of that, MC’s own characterization was inconsistent at times because the writers picked and chose when they wanted us to be a competent leader and when they wanted us to be virtually clueless for plot convenience.

Book 1 was also relatively straightforward whereas it seemed like the writers wanted to turn the sequel into their own personal commentary on religion, which is an incredibly complex topic in itself. They had some social commentary in book 1, but it was done a lot better in my opinion because it didn’t take so much of a front seat. They managed to make it clear that that commentary was important and relevant to the writers, the characters, and the readers living in the real world while never robbing book 1 of that fun adventure game used for escapism feel. Meanwhile, book 2 almost felt like ‘Rising Tides but make it religion’ at times. And that’s on top of all of the other issues I’ve already mentioned in my previous posts.

I will say that I can see how there’s usually a lot of pressure to blow things out of the water for a sequel to something so beloved, and that most likely contributed to how things played out. So maybe I’m being a bit too harsh in my judgement of everything. But I still find it very disappointing to wait so long for something just for it to be so messy and miss the mark by a mile

#choices bolas #choices blades #blades of light and shadow #choices stories you play #playchoices #I think the alcohol I had tonight is making me soft #bc there’s another side of me that agrees with you about how people should be less willing to excuse PB’s mediocrity #and that’s in general not just about Blades #but at the same time I’m like maybe I’m going too hard and need to chill 😂 #so I’ll just say harsh but true #also about DLS I’m not VIP so I haven’t finished it yet #but I am still enjoying it #idk if I’d say it’s well paced #it’s definitely not as badly paced as Blades 2 but I think they are dragging it out a bit #to really capitalize on those sex scenes every chapter 😂 #however as a lot of people have already pointed out DLS knows what it is bc the writers were actually self aware for once #which makes it enjoyable because we aren’t taking it too seriously and nor are the writers or the characters as an extension of them #so we can fuck around in the neighborhood (literally and figuratively) - get good dirt on everyone - and play detective on the side #and MC and the LI don’t act like self righteous little bitches #like people who are smarter than they actually are #or like they fell madly in love within the first 2 seconds of meeting #and the crazy thing is that the romance is fairly well written tbh #choices #choices app #choices ask

[skitskatdacat63]

As aforementioned, please take my Leyendecker type Nando bcs that recent Boss pic has brainrotted me

+ ref:

#wish i could be even half the illustratator Leyendecker was 🤧🤧 #i wasnt trying too hard to copy his style but i felt myslef subconsciously imitating some stuff #i feel like i always go look to his art for ref so it was nice to directly draw smth!!! #Nando's fitted waist 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 reminded me so much of early 20th century clothes #so i HAD TO bcs my god #i don't think ill be able to get over that pic #as i said before can they make him do a shoot with full suits???? #i love the mix of race suits and dressy clothing but god...imagine him in a full suit #and they should also add in the flowers from the gq shoot god.... #okay anyways jfc its almost 8 am why do i do these things 😭 #i think this took me about 5 hours ah.... #well im very happy w it :) #i never draw masc men so i think i did pretty okay with this???? #maybe now i will feel confidence enough for the 007 au haha #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #f1 art #formula 1 art #catie.art. #*OH ALSO did you notice i gave him his fluffy hair back??? #^ i think thats eveyrone's only complaint w the boss pics. no fluffy :(

[sysig]

You’re gonna die if you keep that up (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Kayako #And Teisel's there technically #*Die again - he's sticking with his track record lol at least he's consistent #Ghost/Curse GF arc!! I enjoy seeing ZEX happy but I am Concerned for him lol #ZEX be attracted to something/one that won't brutally murder him challenge - difficulty impossible #His affection for the grotesque and monstrous - I mean while it's admirable he does regularly put himself in dangerous situations! #Runs solely on the Suspension Bridge Effect lol - attraction and fear so conflated in his mind <3 #I keep thinking of his human instincts as specifically Max's instincts since it's his body - Max's self-preservation and fear and hunger #Which ZEX dutifully ignores lol Max's body tells him to bolt and privately replies like ''Yes yes in a moment'' haha #His fascination wins out! To his own detriment haha #Although I say all that as though I don't relate in my own way - I have maybe just a few too many notes relating to ZEX lol #It's always been hard for me to get into horror in the way it's intended to spook and scare because I tend to get sad :') #So many monsters and ghosts and creatures are victims of circumstance! Like Kayako! As she is here she's not even malicious just dangerous #I've never seen the Grudge so it's only speculation but it seems very sad that she was tethered as a Curse rather than a malignant spirit #Like a battery moreso than an individual - what a terrible after-existence! It makes me sad to consider! #ZEX reaching out to her in his own way is very sweet <3 He's so biased towards his darlings hehe #In a way being human does suit him - we'll packbond with anything that Might have even the slightest inclination to not maim us lol #And the way he personifies her! (VUXonifies her?) Reading intention or emotion into her actions with no proof and no understanding! #The way he ''tries to read her face'' as if he hasn't been struggling with that this entire time - with other humans who can tell him so ♪ #His pride is so delicious <3 He is so easily blinded to his own shortcomings in the face of pleasure and the potential for connection! #It's no wonder DAX worries about him so much hehe ♥ #It also always makes me so happy to have something fit together so perfectly like those last two hehe <3 #That vine didn't exist when this happened! But there it is!! I love newer memes on older media hehehe ♪♫

[kastillia]

#marnie #marnie pokemon #pokemon #pokemon swsh #i am...too tired to think of captions #i think her jacket is leather...? game graphics make it hard to tell #'but kas' i hear you asking 'where is morpeko' #maybe she just went off to find some food idk #definitely didn't attempt to draw her only to erase her due to...middling results #...don't worry about it #my art

[fruitsyrups]

ca n we all agree that human bonnie would not be a baker btw

#idc what gary does he's boring either way #but pb pbubs peebles is a scientisttttt she does scieeencceeeee #i mean baking is a science in a way but she'd be doing like... biology and chemistry n shit #a bit of physics #i mean sure baking as a hobby. but it would noootttt be her main thing #this isn't f&c hate bc as previously mentioned gary can do whatever the fuck he wants as long as he does it with minimal screentime #well maybe i am hating a little bit #i dont think i hate gary thaaat much actually its just that pb is so much better in every conceivable way and it makes gary so so #hard to care about in comparison #and he does not really read as a pb variant at all tbh... completely different personality. which is fine i guess #maybe they did that on purpose bc tbh pb's personality and everything would not work if she was anybody other than princess bubblegum #ykwim? #just wouldn't hit the same #wait moment of realization. i think i just like every other adventure time character too much & i need a punching bag

[mymarifae]

too much art of sunday hsr just standing around looking pretty. that man is so fucking insane even doctor veritas ratio was like "you need like. serious psychiatric help or something man what is Wrong with you" where are my sundays completely wracked with wretched grief and now completely uncaring of who or what he destroys in the process of avenging his dearest little sister. he doesn't give a damn about maintaining the harmony's peaceful image anymore. robin was all he had. he gave up everything for her. it didn't matter - he could be stuck in a cold mud pit all alone and be fine with it so long as he could still see her smiling. but now she's gone and will never smile again. you need to understand that he is exactly .001 seconds away from just biting someone's head off out of a grief-stricken rage and if your art doesn't reflect this in some way then i cannot accept it as sunday. thank y

#hard to say if robin is Dead dead but sunday sure seems to think so #maybe that's why gallagher sicced something unto death on him akdbsbdjfbsbfkf #like 'chill the fuck out. she didn't die (yet). here let me show you *sends him to the void*' #i need to go to bed. instead i am staring at my ceiling thinking too hard about honkai star rail.