#and he’s so passionate with that hatred

[nnon0]

JJH fic recs

been getting a little hard trying to find long fics to read these days but here are some that i complied in the last month or so :)

(🫀) -personal faves

all these years @domjaehyun

WC: 34.1k

fluff, smut, angst; childhood friends-to-lovers!au, college!au, neighbors!au

Just friends @lonelyharmonies

WC: 22k

Strangers-to-friends- to-lovers!au , college au

what happens when you wake up in someone else’s bed after getting drunk in a party?

(🫀) Only @ppangjae

WC: 21.6k

almost!lovers au

You like to believe crossing paths with Jaehyun after graduation is just pure coincidence. He always comes and goes. But what if he decides to stay? To stick around? To give what was an ‘almost’ a chance?

Romeo roulette @wincore

WC:21.1k

soulmate au, office au, fake dating

if finding your soulmate is the same as a damn game of Russian roulette, you are determined to not pull the trigger at all. except, you know who your soulmate is and he doesn’t—and given a choice to pretend, you find that jaehyun is the lesser of the two burdens to bear.

he fell first and he fell harder @taurusdaylight

WC: 18.7k

Basketball captain!jaehyun, childhood-friends-to-lovers

jeong jaehyun really loves basketball. but also, he’s terribly in love with his childhood best friend of seventeen years, you.

(🫀) all i wanted @yutaholic

WC: 17k

heartbreakers, smut

A year has passed since you last saw your best friend, Jaehyun, but the man who returns is not the boy you once knew and loved. Jaehyun will barely speak to you and you don’t know why, but you both may be exactly what the other needs to mend your broken hearts.

(🫀)The Apple of My Eye @sehunniepotwrites

WC: 17k

school! au , teacher!au , Kindergarten teacher!jaehyun

As a young and handsome kindergarten teacher of two years, Jeong Jaehyun was used to receiving presents during Teacher’s Appreciation Week. This, however, was the first year Jaehyun wanted to give a present of appreciation to someone else—his new and ever-so-lovable teacher’s assistant.

(🫀)song for a little sparrow @ppangjae

WC:13.7k

poet!jaehyun x painter!reader , strangers-to-lovers

As a burnt out painter, you packed one suitcase and flew a one-way trip to Paris in hopes of finding your passion again. In the city of love, the last thing you expected was to bump into a man who doesn’t believe in love. But you do, and you find yourself showing him the wonders of love and falling in love. Just don’t fall in love with him.

I like me better (when i’m with you) @tyonfs

WC:11.8k

friends to enemies to lovers, sports au , smut

there was no one else on the planet that made your blood boil like jeong jaehyun did. you never thought your feelings toward him were anything past pure hatred, but when you were lost in the feeling of his lips on yours and his hands on your body, you couldn’t help but think that maybe a part of you didn’t completely hate his guts. 

Someone to Bring Home @rouiyan

WC: 10.2k

Med student!jaehyun, College au, Brothers best friend , home for thanksgiving

synopsis — “if you’ve been waiting for fallin’ in love, babe, you don’t have to wait on me.” (sanctuary - joji)

Boyfriend material @mochidoie

WC: 6.2k

fake dating au, strangers-to-lovers , slight angst

Although you and Jaehyun had never spoken a word to each other before this class project, he asks you to be in a fake relationship in order to prove to his longtime crush that he is boyfriend material.

Back up Valentine @tyonfs

WC: 2.9k

Spiderman!jaehyun

you don’t have any unrealistic expectations for valentine’s day considering your love life has never flourished, but the least your best friend could’ve done was not summon an intergalactic army of an alien species during your first blind date ever.

SERIES

S.C.S; ayakashi @starlightkun

WC:66.2k

heavily based off yet another otome game, ayakashi: romance reborn ; bc of this, all the lore used in here is inspired by/based on/taken from the lore of the game, not the actual lore of traditional ayakashi/yokai stories

#nct 127 jaehyun #jaehyun nct #jaehyun #jaehyun layouts #jaehyun imagines #nct jaehyun #jeong jaehyun #jaehyun smut #jaehyun au #jaehyun fluff #nct 127 au #nct fluff #nct au #nct imagines #nct u #nct smut #nct 127 #nct #nct x reader #jung yoonoh #jung jaehyun

[glovehearts]

I'm not even a Leafs fan (or a Marner girlie! I like him fine but he isn't one of my main little guys!) but I've noticed how he's been treated by the fanbase, the media, the coaches (looking at you Babcock) for years and been absolutely appalled by it. I do think there's a strong element of misogyny underlying it all (and probably some homophobia), you're right and you should say it and I want to read that essay.

it's honestly ridiculous, and it's the same criticism that gets aimed at any hockey player who is smaller than average, except it's magnified due to it being the leafs and being toronto. he's always been treated this way, like people try to rewrite history and say they were fine with him before the contract but it's not true. babcock didn't even WANT HIM DRAFTED, but thankfully he wasn't the one making those decisions.

it got worse after the contract, but my thing is always that people don't realise where he was at at that time. he was still a rookie, under team control, and facing down years of being coached by babcock. babcock's contract only expired at the start of THIS SEASON. which means a young mitch was facing seeing a large portion of his career being coached by a man who didn't like him, wouldn't put him and auston on the same line, would take any opportunity to humiliate players he thought weren't good enough, like... I would've held out for the money as well.

the language people use for mitch is absolutely coached in homophobia as well, which comes all the way back to misogyny, because the worst thing these men who hate him can think of is being perceived as feminine. as weak. as less than a man in all the stereotypical ways. they'll throw homophobic comments at auston and willy as well, but they don't go full tilt misogyny because those two dudes are bigger, not as smiley, and they don't see them as being weak in the same way they see mitch. (which is wild because auston is the softest man in the world (affectionate))

these men see mitch as being weak, small, and too soft. they don't see the kid who fought his way to playing professional hockey despite being told at every turn he was too small. they don't see the kid with the lifelong passion for the leafs. the kid who always wanted to wear the logo on his chest and still wants that more than anything DESPITE all the criticism and hatred he faces. they don't see the kid who had to tell his dad to stop talking to him about hockey because he knew he'd never be good enough for him. they don't see that mitch is, actually, one of the strongest hockey players in the nhl for all he's been through to get to where he is.

they like to blame the contract and how much he's being paid, but that's an excuse. they hate him for not playing into the stereotype of a hockey player, despite being an ontario boy through and through. they hate him for being him, and staying faithful to who he is despite everything that has been thrown at him.

it would've been so easy for mitch to give in and become the person they all want him to be, but he didn't. he stayed true to himself and his kind and loving nature, and the fact that so many people don't appreciate that and would rather smear him, says more about them than it does about him.

#i didn't mean to write this much oh well #mitch marner #toronto maple leafs #i had some feelings #k answers

[colonel-kepler]

When youuuu have a pig that good... You don't eat it in a single sitting.

Warren Kepler's beliefs don't fall away all at once.

Kep believes in a few core principles: humans are animals, the species should self-protect, emotions are a choice, and he has dedicated himself to his job so much that he doesn't get to enjoy his animal pleasures any more.

He is first shaken upon Maxwell's death and Jacobi's response. Above all Jacobi is a man he respects, and to see such pain in the man makes him self-reflect. Following that, the aliens dismiss his brutal form of species-protection, opting to instead gibe about some "process." By this point, Kep understands that he ought to get back in touch with his inner animal, because clearly there's something missing (especially given that he made a bad call with maxwell)

When Jacobi turns on him, kep's absolutely shocked. He knew the man was sad but always trusted him to keep his emotions in check. his first instict, as always, is to self-preserve. but once he bypasses that, he realizes that emotions are not really a choice. and for the first time he realizes he can't push people past their natural limits, as he tells minkowski

"she was twenty-eight!" Upon cutter's arrival kep finds a newfound hatred within his professional respect for the man. He preserves himself first and foremost, but the arm replacement is a hollow proxy at best. While conflicted between the years of work he has put into goddard and his hatred for cutter's methods (notably, both entirely new emotions, since he was supressing em all before this), Kepler trusts in the others to figure out an escape while he experiences inner turmoil.

By the finale, Kepler is a stranger to himself. He believes in his own humanity and is ready to come to terms with himself as a person rather than a weapon, but rather than face redemption, he chooses the easy path of betrayal. Clinging to a silly justification about putting himself in the right place and long pent-up feelings of enimity towards ms. young, kep kills her in his first legitmate fit of passion in many years. unpremeditated murder is difficult, however, and so he dies too, and never has to deal with the real work of understanding his guilt and shame for the many lives he's ruined.

Or to present an alternative hypothesis: He finally gives up on his dedication to self-protection. humans, after all, can care for themselves, as jacobi and minkowski have shown. and without that, the sheer weight of his emotions is far too overwhelming to bear.

Most likely, it's a mix of both, but Kep's a matter of perspective.

#1am ramble :D #warren kepler #wolf 359

[socialc1imb]

Ages ago when i first got into Chonny Jash (when i really only knew him from The Mind Electric covers he did bc i was animating to it) I saw a comment on that video that said something along the lines of “i think it’s really interesting how The Mind looks down upon The Heart for being so emotional when his own lines of the song are inherently filled with emotion” and i. I haven’t stopped thinking about that since.

#social’s screaming about music tag #chonny jash mind #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cj mind #the one that sticks out to me the most is in the Soul Eclectic when Mind sings ‘Seethe as he snarls at you’ #like #that is pure anger #which IS emotion #but also the ‘i cant claim that i enjoy this covering for a tortured boy’ #honestly the entirety of The Mind Electric is him talking about how much he despises Heart #and he’s so passionate with that hatred #ESPECIALLY in the chorus with the ‘a pathetic thin veneer’ line #its just kind of ironic #he may be The Mind. the logical one in a situstion. but he’s filled to the brim with his own emotion too. #and im really really normal about it #he just shoves it to the side and doesnt let it get in the way of thought and rationality

[lemongogo]

what is their problem tbh

#lg doodles #nooo dont turn ur art jealousy into misplaced hatred noo~~ #sry ive been thinkig of yotasuke a lot recently so im goig 2 make it ur problem too #also i liked yatoras beanie + glasses look hes kind of a loser #they r drawn ontop of jayjaykay shibuya spoiler drawing if u can believe it #blue period #yotasuke #yatora #ngl im still so floored by the admissions reveal #inwhich we find out yotasuke was never accepted 4 his art .. LIKE THTS CRAZZYYYYYY #smth so real abt their shared envy . and their disconnect w each other #n yet they still hang out tgt #n for the like . wats it called . idk its 2 am #their like . perception of each other as artists n how that inverts w the reveal . U KNWO WHAT J MEAAAN #like yatora always revering yotas work and yota struggling to understand yatoras passion n yatora feeling inadequate #and yotasuke almost protected by his skill alr bc he has that foundation and he thinks thats all he needs #n then like .dealing w the realization that u can have all the skill in the world but if ur msg isnt there if ur passion or ur identity isnt #in ur work then what are u saying for urself (yotasuke) vs yatora realizing that his art can and does speak for itself n that is just as #important or just as transformative as having smth visually pleasing and that being a storyteller can be ur strongest asset #and u are as much an artist as the guy who renders still lives w utmost ease (ytaske) #n thats not even going in2 the way they feel . yota like art is an obligation and yato like art is a decision u make for urself #these 2 are sick inthe head .

[blindmagdalena]

really obsessed with soulmate au’s recently and it got me thinking… what if john’s soulmate was part of the boys? a girl trying to kill him with an entire group of people also trying to kill him… and he’s fated to her? could picture him finding out and just putting his hands on his hips while turning his back to her and doing that click chuckle thing. just in utter disbelief but it is definitely on track for fate’s little play with him and his life lolol

Oohhh, you know, I've never played much with the soulmate au concept, but this struck me just right because I can so clearly see the slow, building meltdown that strikes him when that reveal drops.

The mirthless laugh, shaking his head, the hapless gesture to the ceiling before his hands drop. "Of course. Of course it's you. Why wouldn't it be? I mean—Christ, it makes sense, doesn't it? Every single person who was supposed to love me has-has fucked it, so why—" he keeps cutting into this escalating, unsettling laughter. There's nothing funny about it: you're sure that you're watching someone lose the last shred of their sanity in real time. "Why would my 'soulmate'-", he says, miming big, dramatic quotation marks. "-be any different?" That manic grin has shifted into tight baring of his teeth, a vicious sneer. He closes in on you, stands so near you can feel the heat of his breath when he hisses, "I should put you in the fucking dirt with the rest of them."

It should be terrifying, but it's hard to focus on anything other than the glassiness of his eyes. The sheer devastating heartbreak of it all, telegraphed clear as day in the way he carries himself. His eyes flare red, sizzling up the tears before they can fall. "And then you really will be all alone," you say. Maybe it's the hopelessness of the moment, maybe it's the shock of learning for yourself that he's supposed to be your one and only, but you feel numb. Frayed in a way you didn't know you could be. The crimson light of his eyes disappears in an instant, revealing surprise, followed by a wounded kind of look, before that familiar seething rage returns. "We'll see about that."

#oh man i could get carried away with this real easy #i did here lbr #i guess it's up to the author just how connected soulmates are and how that kind of reveal happens #idk i'm a baby to the genre #but it would be very fun to write a situation where HL wants to strangle them just as much as he wants to snuggle up in their lap #they're at odds in every conceivable way but there is this soul deep pull to one another #coming to terms with the fact passion is the root of BOTH hatred and love #also the idea that HL was sincerely holding out hope all this time that his One Perfect Person was out there waiting for him wounds ME #only to be struck down by the realization that oh they ALSO want him dead #aaaaaaAAAAAAA #i'm sorry i'm so rambly today lmao thank you for the ask!!! i'm gonna have brain worms all day #darling anon #ask and you shall receive #homelander x reader #homelander x you #soulmate au #my writing

[ctl-yuejie]

I very much understand why Nick is always so receptive to Boston cajoling him with sex.

They are super compatible in bed and Boston particularly is a very passionate and attentive lover. Compare him fucking Top and Gap to his sex with Nick: I would say that the sex he has with Nick is intimate to say the least.

And Nick craves to be loved by Boston, even if he's understood that he can never get it, what he IS getting is true affection so it's no wonder to me why he "gives in" every time.

#only friends #only friends the series #bostonxnick #bostonnick #I would love to post sth besides bostonnick but I love their dynamic - I feel there's a lot out there about the others but bostonnick posts #are often channelled hatred towards Boston + poor baby Nick (which fair) but their whole thing is so tasty #loved the whole onion peeling of his dad being big in the message parlor business transitioning into politics to the layer where he can go #nd leave anytime to NY #his dad doesn't seem to care that much that Boston won't do his business degree nevertheless Boston IS still there #that is so interesting to me #photography is his passion so going to NY immediately would make sense and even lessen the potential of blackmail affecting his dad #but for now he is staying! and I want to know why #high-fives the people who write meta on the ephemeral aspect of ofts #also one of the days I had to get up at 5 to make it to court so I can only spare so many braincells for posting

[420jimmyuso]

DO NOT TOUCH HIM EVER AGAIN JD 😒 pissin me off all night UGLY !

#wwe #the judgment day #monday night raw #wwe raw #damian priest #the judgment day wwe #jd mcdonagh #i need jd to Burn #need r truth to humble him again 😒 #i hate jd with a burning passion #i want to kill him #hes so annoying #one day ill get to watch damian beat his ass TRUST #so many tags #about my hatred for jd #sorry #i just RLLY HATE HIM #stay away from him

[nichedragon]

the fact that wyll keeps winning the @rpgchoices polls is so comforting to me

He gets SO much hate and SO little positive attention. his tag is one of like 2 i'm currently following and it is so often just group posts

BUT WE LOVE OUR MAN

#i want him to win the whole thing SO BADLY #wyll ravengard #i saw someone say they either dont recruit him or have mizora dust him in tags on one of the polls #and i was like THAT'S WILD cuz i hate gale but i only blew him up once by accident and immediately reloaded #(i also pulled his hand off in my Bad Durge run but I'm doing ALL THE BAD THINGS in that run it isnt the same) #overall point is ive seen a lot of people have a passionate hatred for him and i prefer seeing how many people love him #he is very beautiful TO ME

[wizardnuke]

miss the early days of my tma listen when i was conspiracy theorizing and genuinely freaking out about michael distortion appearances. michael went craazy he is SO scary to me

#was passionately talking about this the other day #michael is barely an avatar. obviously he is but the issue is that he didn't like.. fall into it like so many of the others #he wasn't predisposed to anything in particular he wasn't introduced to the fears thru falling into them #like. avatars are most often drawn towards their domain. one way or another. jon wanted to understand. martin was lonely. etc. #michael was completely unaware. wrong place wrong time. and i mean that checks for spiral but you get what i mean #one day he was normal human michael abroad with his boss and the next he was an avatar he was Barely acceptable and that. that is why #the spiral got him but it's also why he was nuclear levels of batshit insane on top of being spiral #even helen makes sense. Extremely Normal Person who got baited in by michael - she overpowered him bc she was still like #somewhat normal in the head just in terms of awareness of whats going on #michael wasn't. michael was out of his goddamn mind. past the whole spiral situation he was part avatar and part victim moreso than a #lot of other avatars and that's why he was Like That. PLUS he worked at the institute and had a serious hatred for it #and i mean think spiral=psychosis=paranoia and him stalking first sasha then jon #but. such a good fucking character to kind of lead in the situation. here is a spiral of the avatar that you have to handle while you're #putting all the pieces together. he is extremely confusing. this is not because he is also confused but it is a part of it #he is not mindless but he is out of his mind. more than helen. more than any other avatar because he was grafted into the picture #while most avatars fall into it. here is the beginning of the end. he worked at the institute just like you. he is insane. more insane #than a spiral avatar should be. he is Weird and Wrong and he toys with people because he is angry. #poor jon's trying to understand the bigger picture and the best piece that he has is literally like a shattered mirror of a man #that hates him so fucking much #and that's all he had to work with. for so long. #poor sasha. had to try to explain an encounter with the spiral of all things. an avatar of the spiral that barely understood himself. #u get what i mean. #also the fact that he is SO fucked up. in design and how he acts. he's SO scary. rabid angry thing. #something abt helen psychically overpowering michael bc hes a fluke vs jon straight up stabbing elias bc he's like an avatar supersoldier #*tangled in red string tripping over a corkboard* michael and jon are mirrors. yes the mirror is distorted. yes that is the entire point #thee michael distortion. distorted. grafted into the spiral when its ritual imploded. even weirder and wronger than an avatar of the #spiral should be because he wasn't supposed to be one at all. poor fit. and then the avatar-victim jon licherally stabbing elias #narrative foils. impossible ultra freak of nature n his rage. and a skin graft of every single fear. with a knife. and his rage

[yaboisnelf]

sometimes some guy has to turn off his hearing aid and sit in an alley for a bit yk

monthly post <3

#ok. before i start tagging. i need u to know i hate jason todd w a passion #why. you might ask. why did you draw him and also why do you hate him? #first off. i put this off for a month and second my hatred was lulled because i sketched a very beautiful man and had to show it off #i know its not great but still. im telling a story. #i hate jason todd for a lot of reasons but the two big ones are his existence pre new 52 post res and being on my timeline 24/7 #i want him to go away. I WANT DICK GRAYSON AND CASS CAIN NOT JASON I DONT CARE ABOUT HIM DHCKDKRJFJD #anyways. that was my rant. i go more in-depth on my insta stories and i dont wanna repeat that in tags #jason todd #dc fanart #dc #digital art #red hood #im literally and actually his biggest hater. except for the fact that hes killed a nazi. thats fuckin sick as hell #love me a man who kills horrible people fr 💕💕 #ALSO. I KNOW HIS LIPS ARE WRONG. MY COLORS ARENT WORKING ON PROCREATE ANYMORE SO I CANT FUCKING FIX IT. IM SO UPSET. #jason todd fanart #procreate #im done now

[maulfucker]

reading Clarice Lispector and thinking. this could fix Maul

#hm i should make an original post tag #maul #rereading the passion according to g.h. the first and only of her books I've ever read #and i still love her writing style so much. the repeating sentences to really cement a thought. the vague identity crisis. #and RIGHT in the first chapter. the whole crisis about fearing her newfound freedom and missing her old world #even though she knows it was bad she misses it because it's familiar. it feels stable. this is so. extremely maul. to mee #his hatred for the jedi is not necessary and it's not productive but it's familiar. and it's something he can act on #he can't act on his hatred for sidious. #g.h.posting

[moskowins]

yeah,   yeah,   eli and demetri are cute,   but miguel and eli?   they own my heart now and forever.   out of all the bonds that eli could ever have and i want to see more on screen,   in order it goes:   eli/miguel,   eli/sam,   eli/robby,   and eli/tory.   i said what i said.

#out of character. ⁽ edie ⁾ #don't get me wrong #eli and dem are incredible and they had a beautiful friendship but the show refuses to acknowledge that dem genuinely never accepted #that eli was growing and changing and tried to pull the hawk persona from him without a care of why it had happened or what it meant to eli #he looked down on him for it and it's why hawk turned all the affection he had into active hatred #and eli was horrible to him and you don't just move past that and go back to how things were. eli and dem are so so different now #and they need to fix so much between them. they can and they will but it's also okay to not go back to how things were #they outgrew each other and that's okay. it's valid and it happens and they can still be close without going in circles #eli and miguel's friendship is so important to me because they grew together and miguel actually saw eli for who he was #miguel was the only one who could see his friend even when he took the rage and anger and need for control too far #he knew eli didn't stop being eli just because he was putting up this front and diving head first into it #also the fact that sam and eli have so much in common yet have always been on opposing ends and a balance to each other? makes me feral #i need more of them because i know they can be such a good team and it warmed my heart to see them root for each other #sam and eli are so passionate and have the capability of being so raw and real and their fighting styles are the most balanced tbh #they've been everywhere all at once and i need them to be a duo and fighting together because everything they hated each other for was a #doing of their trauma and their fears and everyone else tbh. sam and eli don't really know each other at all #and they have so much to unpack and see in each other because i do think that they have a lot in common and balance each other #eli and robby whew so much to unpack there too and i just need them to not gloss over what happened between them #and same with eli and tory because at some point they were all they had in ck when everything changed #and hawk was loyal to her and cared for her and he was displaced and it sent him deeper down #anyway justice for eli and actually seeing ties that matter without him just being shoved into an old friendship

[pvrrhadve]

ok but what is your beef with ach*lles... if i may ask?

i mean it's not like.... THAT deep but my 17y/o self opened the iliad for assigned reading and was immediately faced with an absolute fucking jackass rapist as a well as an astronomical moron throwing a tantrum over his sex slave and i've passionately hated him ever since. tbf to him i also hate basically every other man in greek lit but something about achilles specifically awakened a particularly violent homicidal rage in me so as i'm sure you can imagine, madeline miller deciding to romanticize him in a book that no one has shut up about in 10 years has been, very trying for me 😞

#my bone-deep and unending passionate hatred for him is a curse as well as a burden but ah well its mine to bear #like i get that queer lit was slim pickings back in the day so a lot of people have a very personal attachment to it #but vaguely wishing he was alive and a real guy just so i could personally bludgeon him and his stupid fucking jackass ankle to death #is simply what i've been called to do