#and how that might have contributed too

[marlenacantswim]

hey gang, do we all agree that ten's massive ego and god complex (or rather those traits being especially prominent in his regeneration) were a direct result of what happened in Parting of the Ways?

"marlena what the fuck do you mean" okay well think about it; ninth doctor. fresh off the time war. thinks himself unlovable, unworthy of love. just did a double genocide, including against his own people. he's returning to his old ways of lallygagging around helping humans in a more-than-desperate attempt to repress his feelings and try to mimic the person he was before the war. he's so vulnerable.

enter rose tyler. to him? she's the most amazing person in the universe. he loves her, full stop. she makes him feel like maybe he's still capable of love, but does he really trust her love for him? after all, she doesn't really know him, does she?

all that comes to a head when rose tyler becomes the bad wolf. in that moment, she sees everything. everything everything. the doctor's past, and the doctor's future. every horrible thing they did and will do.

and in that moment, with all this truth streaming constantly into her brain, most amazing person in the universe rose tyler looks at him and goes "i want to save you. you are worth saving."

bro no fucking shit ten has a motherfucking god complex, jesus christ i would too!!!

now personally i think nine would have rationalized it and been relatively Normal 'bout all that noise had he survived onwards, but unfortunately he didn't, and so when the doctor's subconscious and the universe were holding hands deciding what their new little guy should be like... well, we're already making him just for her, and she loves him.

rose tyler loves me. she loved me even when she knew me.

i'm just saying, that "Bad Wolf chose to save me" to "the laws of time are mine to command" pipeline is a straight vertical drop only a few feet long.

#there's also an argument to be made about the time vortex being responsible for his death #and how that might have contributed too #yeah sorry the inpenatrable waves of time lived inside your boyfriend and killed him #yeah and it kinda fucked up his regenerarion #so sorry girl your boyfriend's new life is tainted with the pull of ultimate power over one's domain #this won't actually mean much to you since your boyfriend will split in two #and the one you'll get to keep is too busy having a human brain and being warborn #but this will have horrible consequences for him after he turns six #and will emotionally devastate just about every other person he crosses paths with #but hey that's alright; remember that drunk guy who foretold good tidings on new year's? #yeah that was your boyfriend. he went back to see you as he was dying from the results of his god complex. #he came back to be with the reason he did everything— the reason he was— one last time #okay i'm making myself cry right now i gotta chill #running my mouth #doctor who #nuwho #tenth doctor #10th doctor #ninth doctor #9th doctor #the doctor #rose tyler

[cheese-water]

Leo and Sunny together gives me tons of feelings because at surface level, it’s just two very similar girls fighting over very childish things like who copied who and who likes Pepito more. But looking deeper made me realize just how similar they are.

It’s a funny coincidence that both Sunny and Leo have pivotal character moments when they interact. One right before and one right after.

Sunny’s is the mermaid family meeting with Tubbo before she was told about Leo’s prank, and it’s hard to watch. This little girl so desperately wants to be loved by others. She so desperately wants her other parents to meet her and take care of her that she’ll take any semblance of them and love it to moon and back. It’s too bad the remaining shards she has are horror stories and a body by the dock.

Leo’s happens right after saying “hola” and a few other words to Sunny and running away up the hill. When Foolish catches up to her, she’s already sitting in a chair and partway through watching a video. The video was an ai Foolish cover of Gary come home in spanish but replaced Gary with Vegetta (Vegetta vuelve a mí). Leo continues watching and it becomes apparent just how much she is affected by her other father’s disappearance. The depressing scene only darken when discovering that the ai cover was made a month before she disappeared. Two and a half months is a dangerously long time to hold out hope. Especially when it can all come crashing down on you in an instant.

Leo and Sunny are deeply lonely and crave the love and attention from their other parents that their single dads just can’t provide. They’re just a couple of girls god damnit let them live :(

#qsmp #qsmp eggs #qsmp leonarda #qsmp sunny #qsmp sunnysideup #disclaimer idk too too much about leo’s past pre-purg so this might not be as pivotal to others compared to her other rp #However I accidentally caught this moment live and have been thinking about it ever since #So leo enjoyers I hope I did you proud #Sunny enjoyers too ofc I just have more confidence in interpreting her than leo lmao #Anyway I’ve been thinking about this for a few days then prison happened and displayed tubbo and foolish’s single dadness #(them being one of if not the first to notice the other’s kid was by themselves and immediately inviting them to hang) #Like wow #Also love how whenever the other’s parent isn’t around Leo and Sunny just tolerate each other #Contributes to their mutual loneliness that this is a unspoken agreement but I may just be chatting #who knows

[unproduciblesmackdown]

fr is he, you know.............................................repeatedly described as being Impersonable and Lacking Charm and Pedantic and confused / bothered by things he supposedly shouldn't be while inspiring confusion / botherment in others in ways he supposedly shouldn't and like 99.9% of the grief he's given is over All That while he's just sitting or standing there rather than the like intimidatingly efficient hitman georg thing he has going on. which is in fact The Skill That Makes Him Useful Despite It All and also perhaps the least foothold in interactions because [worried he can & may kill you] affords power when otherwise just being the weird guy nobody likes(tm)

bonus mordecai balling

#lackadaisy #not exactly Necessarily intentional but like oh you don't say #something something liking patterns & order; though that overlaps w/the like fastidiousness that's just tied to backstory #but that even when picking up that particular trait he was apparently always Peculiar in the deemed Not Personable Way #like oh you don't say #can't really even truly hone in on 9000 murders/day when like. everyone's blowing people away out here. ya gotta #or certainly other people are doing it too lol. mordecai's Mostly differentiated from anyone else's hitmanning by demeanor/affect #and that demeanor/affect has everyone going sicko mode antagonizing him while he's decidedly just sitting there #like oh you don't say....epic mood re: the [how would mordecai approach being tasked with infant childcare] joke #held a baby once maybe twice and both times an exercise in simply like ah christ don't drop this thing countdown to passing it along #great minicomic lmao found in the uhh. gallery under....mini comics; penultimate one w/the baby cat jimmy carter as pictured as thumbnail #supporting his mystery contributions too....gotta be for real abt mitzi not shooting anyone but sure he may have noscoped atlas #though maybe also he did not; but we know they have some secret concerning atlas; even probably involving his death.... #vaguely wondering if atlas got whatever warning about [mystery thorn in marigold's side] as asa sweet mentions over that brunch #and perhaps would have chosen to back out of the business but mitzi was not about that & would arrange a Murder to inherit lackadaisy.... #but mordecai would have to have some reason to go along with that. Maybe as an out for working for atlas forever; but now he's at marigold #not exactly that different yet [themes re: The Other Paths Are Closed To You Forever for everyone out here] #while it might also be true that he left for marigold to try to figure out what's going on over there from the inside; as suggested.... #and whatever he's got going on he's Very Motivated about it as per the most recent comic pages. bold moves #anyways another accidentally autistic cat out here. for april. always a classic lol fr everyone leave him alone or else shoot at him yknow #i do support the mordecai & the savoys dream team there. reiterating i think nicodeme espesh could/should be the like surprise bestie & etc

[alienturnipp]

My favorite Beyond Evil characters & my favorite objects that they've held pt. 1, featuring Lee Dong Sik 🔨 and Yoo Jae Yi 🥚

Pt. 2

#beyond evil #jtbc beyond evil #lee dongsik #yoo jaeyi #my first real contributions to the fandom alksdjfslkdfj #oddly specific prompt too but i just really love how the show focused on those little props #like the camera closing up to the hammer as dongsik goes to grab it #and the egg scene is just - iconic #i might have 2 more pics for part 2 - hoping that it'll come soon! #for the moment pls have a bit of my babygirl and my butcher supreme #alien turnip's art

[featherymainffins]

*Trigger warning for eating disorder talk*

I hate how whenever I eat anything my brain is like "You should kill yourself. Now." Like what's your fucking problem

#tw ed #it's like bitch the body needs nutrients to function. idiot. that's how flesh vessels work. what are you an alien? #but my brain is always like 'booo you are a disgusting ugly bitch and as a punishment you can't eat at all tomorrow.' #like...ok then. i guess. #the funny thing is that it's also like two people fighting because like i hate what i see in the mirror from both sides #like one part of me is like 'ahhh we are far too skeletal it looks kinda creepy and Not Good' #and the other is like 'wow ew we're so disgusting and big and our bones aren't visible enough. what would our family say?' #so there's like no winning at all because if i don't eat one side will get mad and refuse to look in the mirror #and if i do eat the other side will go into total hysterics and I'll have to sleep completely covered up and will have to avoid #all mirrors because it will completely distort our perception of ourselves and will claim changes that aren't there and it will #force me not to eat for a day or two and probably also to walk everywhere #it also sucks because i think not eating enough might be contributing to me feeling so shallow and fatigued and disinterested in everything #but i have no idea because I don't know how many calories I'm actually getting #and it's really Bad™ for me to count because I'm a little bit too competitive and my brain has historically always made it #a challenge to eat as few calories as possible. because I'm insane and treat literally everything as a competition that i have to win

[aewrie]

'once a week or more' well rip

my default state of being when i'm not having a bad day is a little tired & nursing a budding headache. i have a headache right now that i'm ignoring

is this going to be another of those 'there is no such thing as a 'mild' concussion, if you hit your head bad enough to black out it is a concussion' lmao???

i get headaches from fucking everything. weather/air pressure (low and high). low/high blood sugar or too rapid changes there. too bright/dim light (at home i am specific about my lights/curtains at different points of the day/depending on how bright it's outside to avoid these). rapid repetitive/jarring physical motions (just jumping a little can be enough/make it worse). muscle tension. doing stretching/exercise that gets blood really flowing. lack of and/or bad sleep, or too much sleep. getting (strongly) emotional. caffeine (a new exiting one! only started regularly drinking coffee fairly recently. how much caffeine is too much is a fucking mystery though). i should wear glasses (myopia, not too severe) but i avoid it unless i need to see that far that well in part bc the glasses pressing on my temples give me headaches more easily than my eyes being slightly tired does.

i'm probably forgetting a bunch more

but every time i've seen people describe migraines i've thought well mine aren't anywhere near that severe/those specific kinds of headaches so No Way it's that

but. i do have other symptoms on that list? i just never thought it might be related to my headaches bc i'd not seen those mentioned, at least not in a way that i could identify as something i should consider in connection to this, and there's always the huge stress that migraines are always extra super bad to the point that a Real migraine completely disables you for a while. while to me it's. it's annoying, it hurts, if it's particularly bad it can make things more difficult but not impossible/near impossible; just, a general It's Not That Bad, therefore normal and i should just deal with it

#i should probably try to keep a diary of this crap for a while #i am looking at additional symptom lists from should-be-reliable sources and it's not looking great #yourebablingjulle #best part is i actually mentioned this offhand to a doctor once a few years back while discussing other stuff and he basically went #yeah it's normal some people just get headaches more easily #not sure how i phrased it or if he understood how frequent my headaches are #work stress definitely contributes so it's gotten worse since that time period tho #i often avoid painkillers or strategically schedule taking them bc otherwise i'm having them near constantly #most notably i might bear through a few hours of a semi-bad one if i know i need it later to be able to sleep ok #(not too common but it happens) #bc at their worst they do fuck with my already sketchy ability to sleep #melatonin thankfully works for me and it is a lifesaver #one other thing i know works is acupuncture but one session costs almost as much as a year's supply of melatonin and that Not affordable #(i had ~a year while recovering from depression/burnout where i could have ear acupuncture done weekly without having to pay for it #figured that if nothing else i get to chill for a bit on a regular basis. scheduled no-stress time. #when the nurse was unavailable at times and couldn't do it i realized i slept noticeably better when i got my ears poked regularly)

[thekidsare-not-alright]

I think some mcr fans would rather die than acknowledge that the break up helped cement their legacy and popularity. everyone loves a martyr/what they can't get more of, yknow. it's a fact of life

#btw I love mcr so don't fucking even #but idk sometimes it seems like they all think mcr is somehow the best band to have ever musiced and then they treat fob like garbage #and it really makes me think about how fob is always the underdog in comparison #no matter what they do people hate em and it's weird #this band has never not been aware of it too #like look at fucking this ain't a scene #grenade jumper #I Slept With #these are just the ones I'm thinking of #anyways #mcr is a great band with great music and they absolutely have a solid legacy with or without this. but you cannot say that factors that hav #nothing to do with their talents - such as them breaking up for a while - don't contribute to their fame #we always appreciate the things we've lost more than the things we still have #and it's unfortunate to understand this but fall out boy intends to go for as long as they're having fun which means they might never #get some of what they're due from mainstream attention #or at least. the kindness they deserve #they are still in a very privileged position so yeah lmao they're millionaires but fob tumblr gets my point I think #we're all in these conversations ope #fall out boy #fob #I'm just rambling and sharing thoughts. this isn't meant to make a movement lmao it's not that serious!! it's not that serious #it was never that serious

[deus-and-the-machina]

I havent really been into the current state of the JJK manga for a while, im at the point where its ending might hold some value for me as someone who was already invested in the characters but largely aside from seeing how a few things pan out I just really really couldn't care less. 

that being said I have to thank gege for every new chapter giving us more and more good looking Gojos. the more feral and covered in blood the better, and hoo boy am I getting that.

#god can he just kill sukuna already tho. like idc about this I want gojo v kenjaku #im of two minds on the megumi thing bc I do think its weird that gojo hasn't had any strong thoughts about potentially killing megumi #(tho i do think gege is like. holding them back rather than ignoring them) but I also think the fandom forgets their canon relationship #like yeah its nice to imagine them as a wholesome family but I dont think they even think of themselves as father and son at all lol #guardian and ward morelike. and I do think gojo was a decent guardian but I also dont think that recently traumatized and also annoying #teen gojo was ever like. very emotionally available or comforting. not to say it shouldn't be expected for gojo to be upset about this but #also I think people can get a little too wrapped up in their wholesome family pics. bc for one you can bet your ass gege doesnt care about #tsumiki enough to consider whether gojo was technically her guardian as well and how he'd care about her fate. or even nobaras it seems #holding out for gojo to be simply repressing his feelings and it biting him in the ass later but idk #he DID look strained when realizing megumis soul recognized ultimate void tho :(((( that does make me said :(((((( #anyways sukuna was a fine enough villain for me but ngl hes gotten a lil annoying likewhatevs dude idc. kenjaku is hells more cunty than you #normally I wouldn't mind his shallow motives and didnt bc he was a threat that contributed to the plot but now that hes out and running #loose hes just so boring idk. like you're just gonna fight stuff. ok. lame. kenjaku vs gojo might actually have some emotional weight to it #idc about this fight and idc about sukuna #like when gojo mentioned his students and they all grinned. that! that that that he cares about them ok gege! #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 230

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

I am opening my mouth like a baby bird for the barebones offline version of the rpgsolo stuff .. excited to see :3

i hope you enjoy it when it goes up, anon!! my main issue so far is trying to figure out how tf to format the percentage tables over text on a tumblr post. i could just post screenshots of it, because as it is it formats terribly onto here, but it's critical for it to be screen-reader accessible. i might go ahead and put it in a pastebin to link along with the screenshots; i'd like to get it down in multiple formats and mirrors in case something happens to one version, i Do Not Trust hosting sites these days, but i think that's probably a good start.

#asks #anonymous #whosebaby talks #whosebaby makes things #whosebaby does gamedev #ttrpg tag #i absolutely want to get it down in as cohesive; easily-parsed; and minimally susceptible to link rot a format as possible #i believe strongly in crediting and directing people back to the sources you're making use of #but the idea of 'this game is now unplayable bc the page with critical infrastructure to its function disappeared' makes me itchy as hell #BUT yes first and foremost i want to make sure it's accessible to people at *all* even if it might be a bit of an extra hassle #cannot overstate how much the work of indie devs setting out to fill a niche and make it easier for people to experience the joy of ttrpgs #in the way that actually works and is fun and accessible for them; while also making me realize that Wait *I* Can Do This TOO :O #has been a joy and inspiration to me both on principle and because it's let me enjoy tabletop myself when i couldn't otherwise #and being able to contribute back the same way is just !!!!!!!!! and i hope the results bring people the same #ANYWAY. happy chrysler to anyone who celebrates i have great big feelings about tabletop dev #and this was really nice to get thank you anon

[tmascfaggot]

so sorry if this is a wild question, but I saw your jockstrap images (❤️❤️❤️) and was wondering how they fit/do they feel comfortable? I'm a bigger trans dude and I've always wanted a jockstrap but I'm worried about it fitting improperly due to my anatomy.

they fit fucking awesome!!!!! i got mine from rodeoh and i find they use less of a 'here's a giant pouch for you're surely massive cock and balls' design philosophy w/ their jock straps, so they fit real great

i wear an xl if u need a size comparison! they're super comfortable and flexible, i adore them

#not a wild question btw ur totally fine! #sometimes they feel a tiny bit loose in the bottommost section but never in a way i can rly feel or care abt #i just sometimes notice when i take pics #contrary to what i pretend i do actually have a rather flat ass so that might contribute to it too #anyway feel free to ask more if u want #or u can dm me i'd be happy to share more pics if ur wanting to see how they fit in specific areas #i did mean that neutrally. or in a flirtatious way whatever u want #signal response 🔌

[airyairyaucontraire]

internal affairs fucker hassling Columbo to go to the firing range when he is just trying to feed his dog ice cream

#airy watches columbo #i don't think feeding dogs ice cream is really recommended #but columbo is a rule unto himself #at least he kept the chocolate cone for himself and gave dog vanilla #janet leigh is amazing in this one #I was spoiled for the twist #(that she has a neurological illness that is destroying her memory) #(and at this point she may not actually remember she committed the murder) #and the way she plays Grace's confusion and stalling for time when she hears things she doesn't understand or remember is excellent #probably the most PITIABLE murderer in columbo #and her house is gorgeous #now I'm not saying her husband deserved to be killed #but if he'd had the basic respect for her to tell her what was wrong #and allow her to make peace with it as well as she could #she might not have thought she could make a comeback and therefore would have had no reason to kill him for blocking it #so his high-handedness contributed to his demise #there are lots of delightful little details in this episode too #ranging from how flagrantly columbo spoils his dog #to the fact that he grew his hair out because his wife likes it this way #yes columbo's hair is on purpose

[dragqueenpentheus]

ough

#just finiahed reading haunting of hill house and have been crying so hard for a half hour i still thibk i might throw up #FOR SOME REASON AFTER SEEING HOW MUCH THEY CHANGED FOR THE SHOW I WAS STILL GUT PUNCHED WITH THE CHOICE THEY DID DECIDE TO KEEP. AND #ITS #YEAH #5stars easy one of the best books ive read ever let alone this year jesus #nel is going to stay in hill house and my heart in ways that are so new and devistating meeting her a second time #i gotta buy a beautiful copy of this book #and then also a cheap one to draw and write and highlight all over #FULL sobs. i have put the book down and cant bring myself to hit the return button for the library because #she. she just wanted to be seen and wanted andD I. CANT CONTRIBUTE TO THE PEOPLE WHO TOLD HER TO LEAVE. NOT YET. #watch me get matching stone lion tattoos for her #jessssus this was a hell of a thing #the show was hard this one was somehow harder #both stunning. obv. #god im gunna have to rewatch and rip myself apart w the easter eggs wont i #later. not yet. #if i think about them being her literal family members too hard my eyeballs will burst out of my head #irl #personal #god the choice to make luke her twin and theo her older sister is going to chew my up inside forever #mike i have several thousand questions would u like to sit down and discuss

[vladimpale]

Zukki week 2022 day 1: Only one bed/Bedsharing

@zukki-week

Zuko is a blanket hoarder

#dont click on the image if you dont want to see how messy this is #im a slow artist so i tried finnishing this on time #i had my exams last week sooo #i have an excuse #the colours are pretty funky(?) because i tried playing with the colour balance to make it look like its night #im shit at colour theory #theres just something so domestic and beautiful about zukki sleeping together #sokka is always taking the most space #suki snores and drools and cannot sleep alone(habit from the kyoshi warriors) #zuko always ends up almost on the foolr somehow #little momo cameo #i couldnt just not draw him #(did i use a cat reference? why yes i did) #is that really the foot sokka injured on the pillow or was i too lazy to look it up #well never know #that blanket was the death of me #and the fabrics in general #not my forte ngl #anyways #enjoy zukki week cause this might be my only contribution #atla #sokka #suki #zuko #momo #zukki week #zukka #sukka #zuki #my art

[surpriserose]

Good morning everypony

#Thinking it might be a read way way too deep into nosleep stories kind of day #I mean i say that kind of jokingly but i think it is geniunely interesting to analyze stuff like nosleep and yes ....fanfiction because #They are subcultures with little to no barriers to contribute to #And its interesting to see what kind of stuff gets posted and popular based on that #Unfortunately in the case of fanfiction very few people want to analyze how the most widely read kinds of fics and tropes are homophobic #Misogynist transphobic racist just all the bad things you know #With nosleep you have some of that as well obviously because its on fucking reddit on top of everything but its also a forum for horror #Which often reflects anxieties about society like its no surprise i was able to find a lot of ai related stories browsing the top of the pa #And sometimes those anxieties are reinforced in just awful awful ways whether its because of bad writing or badly handled content #Idk im rambling but basically nosleep corner might be back on the blog besties

[thrushppelt]

Ppl will be like “why do you say that x media is bad for having this and this and this when you do it w the same fictional characters?!?!?11??” Its because the media doesn’t make it abundantly clear it’s bad!!!

#pls say this makes sense w/o me having to write an essay #esp when it’s shit like books for EXTREMELY IMPRESSIONABLE KIDS #and even y/a books you NEED to basically outright say like. how dangerous relationships can be (for example) #I mean hell. I feel like murder too is So ……… noncommittal? #arguably murder has more like. reasonable excuses for it to happen #I MIGHT DELETE THIS I’m just rambling. please say this makes sense #and I think that’s kinda contributing to fandom police bc in the real world it’s all ‘THIS IS BAD!!!!’ #but in medias where there are these bad things; and people ‘do them’ to fictional characters it’s like ‘!!! bad person!!’ #‘do I need to write an essay’ *writes an essay* #I’m just. grrrrr I just want to imagine some fake shit happening ok! I’m not gonna fuckin?? go and noncon someone irl LMFAOOO

[floral-hex]

It’s been a rough couple of weeks. Anxiety run amok. Tried to distract myself by playing through Super Mario Bros, but I’ll be honest, that was stressing me out pretty bad trying to get through some of those levels. Unrelated but coincidentally (tangentially?), after an intense bit of playing, my anxiety flared up majorly. Heart racing, skin painfully prickled, lungs failing me. Oh well. That’s what drugs are for. So instead I started Death Stranding, which my little brother gifted me for Christmas a couple of years back but I just never got around to committing to. Much better choice. It feels like the perfect distraction for me right now. Frankly, I’m lonely. I feel cut off from the world. I’m scared and anxious and I have no idea what the future holds for me, but it feels bleak. So it’s nice to pop into this little world where you’re trying to make connections and explore the world, even if it is just a video game. It’s giving me something positive to focus on right now.

I just thought I’d make a text post. Mention a game I like. Just folded some laundry, I’m on my 3rd bowl of cereal right now, and I’ll do some dishes when I’m done. Trying to keep on moving forward. More bullshit in the tags.

#my anxiety has cleared up quite a bit these past few days #but now I’m trying to go without klonopin so we’ll see how that lasts #and I have an audiologist appointment tomorrow so that might be a big source of depression and anxiety #can’t wait to roll in there at 8:30 in the morning just to be told AGAIN that my hearing is just fucked and can’t be helped #which… is what I expect… I just wish there was more… empathy? sympathy? something soothing behind their words. #I also finally scheduled a therapy appointment but it’s not for a couple of weeks 😕 #taking care of yourself sucks! #anyway things are okay right now right here in this moment. I’ll deal with the rest as it comes I suppose #I was getting way too serious with super mario #I play on a snes mini and even with custom save states I was getting too stressed out. it was bad for my health. #which sounds like an over exaggeration but it just wasn’t fun after awhile #but Death Stranding is awesome. even just the walking parts I love #I love seeing other players’ contributions to the world. all the random signs and structures they put up. #I don’t know what else to add to all of this #I really thought I’d have more exciting tags than this #this isn’t important #you can ignore this #text