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zukotheartist · 7 months

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The day before yesterday I was looking at statistics about reading habits in different countries (average book count per year, age, most read genre, etc) and then yesterday i came across a poll here asking how many books youve read so far this year and now im wondering:

The highest I saw (not just in that poll's tags but on other socials as well) was 365! With the person in question being a lil under 300 rn.

The lowest (and no shame here! I myself have picked up reading again after a long time and it's quite the challenge) was 1! But I also saw lots of people aim for 5.

The average seems to be anywhere around 30 to 60!

And the second most common bracket (interesting that it's also the one made up of mostly late teens and early 20yos) is 10-30!

Idk if anyone will read this but if u do, id love to know more about your thought process in the tags!

(Just pls be kind to each other and no fucked up elitism lol)

#books #reading #literature #reading goals #lit #poll #al's poll #al's post #mine is pretty low bc i stopped reading for years so i need to ease up into it and be kind to myself (+ i have uni and im trying to do #another thing that takes a lot of time) based on that and a bunch of other stuff i initially aimed for 12 but now 13 also bc it's my lucky #number hehe #but ye lil me would read honestly like even 50 books in a year #and in their 3rd language - wtf happened😭

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wikitpowers · 2 months

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Making myself cry on my reread of tda noticing how obvious it is in every other character's POV that ty is drawn to kit and kit's presence is obviously calming/reassuring to ty and then thinking about how kit just like does not see it and thinks he has to be serving some purpose for ty to want him around 😭

WTF IS WITH EVERYONE ON THIS APP COMING FOR ME

DO I NOT SUFFER ENOUGH????? I'M A KITTY STAN FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! I HAVE ENOUGH PAIN IN MY LIFE ALREADY WHY ARE YOU REMINDING ME?????????????????

but on a more serious note (lolsies), i just love love love that in tda you can see how ty needs kit so much and always (and i mean always) wants him around. but kit is just too blind to see it bc he's got it in his head that no one could ever truly love him and it makes them that much more heartbreaking, bc they both love each other so freaking much but don't see that their feelings are like insanely requited (those fools)

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jakeperalta · 6 months

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it is actually so unfair how being quiet is treated as a character flaw that needs fixing in every area of life

#every single school parents evening and uni review session and work reviee meeting the feedback has been #oh yeah i'm smart and hardworking and everything is great but i'm too quiet and need to talk more #like my boss even said she knows it's not actually necessary for a writer #like exactly! i know that i'm quiet but that's why i'm not trying to have a career in sales or something #literally i sit at home at my computer and read and write stuff and my minimal communication with others is written #why do i need to be loud!!!#i've had the same feedback for 20 years at this point it's like can we not just accept that some people are just quiet and not try to fix it #talking

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sparky-is-spiders · 8 months

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I can accept basically any trans/nb reading of Jon however my personal favorites are transmasc Jon who transitioned physically and socially as early as possible and just never mentioned it to anyone cause it wasn't any of their business OR Jon being the most repressed transfem/nb in existence. They'll be talking about gender or whatever and Jon will be like "it's normal to feel totally disconnected from your gender all the time and also vaguely want boobs. That's just a guy thing I think." only for whoever they're all talking to to go "wtf no?? It's not????"

#please don't make this about j//mart or martin #only jon reading I can't accept is cis #sorry I just don't see it #idk might just be projection #but I think jon has really complicated feelings about gender that they don't know how to articulate #and they're also super private so they just. never mention it.#actually love literally any depiction of jon where they had a super wild personal life (band/mechs!jon punk!jon w/e) that they don't think #is important to mention ever. but occasionally they'll drop some random detail completely casually and then not understand why everyone els #is confused #like. I think jon's childhood probably wasn't super wild beyond the mr spider stuff #and once they started working at the institute I think they tried to lean really really hard into the boring respectable academic aesthetic #but I think uni jon was either the most dull shut-in workaholic OR doing really weird shit between classes with no inbetween #look I have a lot of jonthoughts ok?#anyway I think it's plausible that uni!jon was briefly non-repressed #actually adding to that: jon likes to break in to places to Investigate Them is practically canon to me.#ok anyway sorting tags. yeah I'm maintagging my jon mental illness #jon sims #jonathan sims #tma #the magnus archives #trans jon sims #trans jonathan sims #edit to add my new jon gender tag #jonder

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the-busy-ghost · 1 year

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Alright uninformed rant time. It kind of bugs me that, when studying the Middle Ages, specifically in western Europe, it doesn’t seem to be a pre-requisite that you have to take some kind of “Basics of Mediaeval Catholic Doctrine in Everyday Practise” class.

Obviously you can’t cover everything- we don’t necessarily need to understand the ins and outs of obscure theological arguments (just as your average mediaeval churchgoer probably didn’t need to), or the inner workings of the Great Schism(s), nor how apparently simple theological disputes could be influenced by political and social factors, and of course the Official Line From The Vatican has changed over the centuries (which is why I’ve seen even modern Catholics getting mixed up about something that happened eight centuries ago). And naturally there are going to be misconceptions no matter how much you try to clarify things for people, and regional/class/temporal variations on how people’s actual everyday beliefs were influenced by the church’s rules.

But it would help if historians studying the Middle Ages, especially western Christendom, were all given a broadly similar training in a) what the official doctrine was at various points on certain important issues and b) how this might translate to what the average layman believed. Because it feels like you’re supposed to pick that up as you go along and even where there are books on the subject they’re not always entirely reliable either (for example, people citing books about how things worked specifically in England to apply to the whole of Europe) and you can’t ask a book a question if you’re confused about any particular point.

I mean I don’t expect to be spoonfed but somehow I don’t think that I’m supposed to accumulate a half-assed religious education from, say, a 15th century nobleman who was probably more interested in translating chivalric romances and rebelling against the Crown than religion; an angry 16th century Protestant; a 12th century nun from some forgotten valley in the Alps; some footnotes spread out over half a dozen modern political histories of Scotland; and an episode of ‘In Our Time’ from 2009.

But equally if you’re not a specialist in church history or theology, I’m not sure that it’s necessary to probe the murky depths of every minor theological point ever, and once you’ve started where does it end?

Anyway this entirely uninformed rant brought to you by my encounter with a sixteenth century bishop who was supposedly writing a completely orthodox book to re-evangelise his flock and tempt them away from Protestantism, but who described the baptismal rite in a way that sounds decidedly sketchy, if not heretical. And rather than being able to engage with the text properly and get what I needed from it, I was instead left sitting there like:

And frankly I didn’t have the time to go down the rabbit hole that would inevitably open up if I tried to find out

#This is a problem which is magnified in Britain I think as we also have to deal with the Hangover from Protestantism #As seen even in some folk who were raised Catholic but still imbibed certain ideas about the Middle Ages from culturally Protestant schools #And it isn't helped when we're hit with all these popular history tv documentaries #If I have to see one more person whose speciality is writing sensational paperbacks about Henry VIII's court #Being asked to explain for the British public What The Pope Thought I shall scream #Which is not even getting into some of England's super special common law get out clauses #Though having recently listened to some stuff in French I'm beginning to think misconceptions are not limited to Great Britain #Anyway I did take some realy interesting classes at uni on things like marriage and religious orders and so on #But it was definitely patchy and I definitely do not have a good handle on how it all basically hung together #As evidenced by the fact that I've probably made a tonne of mistakes in this post #Books aren't entirely helpful though because you can't ask them questions and sometimes the author is just plain wrong #I mean I will take book recommendations but they are not entirely helpful; and we also haven't all read the same stuff #So one person's idea of what the basics of being baptised involved are going to radically differ from another's based on what they read #Which if you are primarily a political historian interested in the Hundred Years' War doesn't seem important eonugh to quibble over #But it would help if everyone was given some kind of similar introductory training and then they could probe further if needed/wanted #So that one historian's elementary mistake about baptism doesn't affect generations of specialists in the Hundred Years' War #Because they have enough basic knowledge to know that they can just discount that tiny irrelevant bit #This is why seminars are important folks you get to ASK QUESTIONS AND FIGURE OUT BITS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND #And as I say there is a bit of a habit in this country of producing books about say religion in mediaeval England #And then you're expected to work out for yourself which bits you can extrapolate and assume were true outwith England #Or France or Scotland or wherever it may be though the English and the French are particularly bad for assuming #that whatever was true for them was obviously true for everyone else so why should they specify that they're only talking about France #Alright rant over #Beginning to come to the conclusion that nobody knows how Christianity works but would like certain historians to stop pretending they do #Edit: I sort of made up the examples of the historical people who gave me my religious education above #But I'm now enamoured with the idea of who actually did give me my weird ideas about mediaeval Catholicism #Who were my historical godparents so to speak #Do I have an idea of mediaeval religion that was jointly shaped by some professor from the 1970s and a 6th century saint?#Does Cardinal Campeggio know he's responsible for some much later human being's catechism?#Fake examples again but I'm going to be thinking about that today

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ride-a-dromedary · 1 year

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I love you media interpretation, I love you overthinking things, I love you hyperanalyzing tiny details that may mean absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things but they mean something to *you* in that moment in time, I love you metaphor and allegory, I love you logical and completely non-logical thought process, I love you joke and serious conversations of meaning, I love you looking too deep into media that is constantly framed as “not that deep”, I love you contextual and non-contextual readings, I love you comparing and contrasting noticed details with friends who get excited about them with you, I love you putting thought and energy into things that seem small just for fun, I love you critical conversation, I loVE -

#i literally love putting unnecessary amount of thought into things i consume #i love reading into things #i love wondering what something might have meant and what it ends up meaning to others #i love talking with my besties about analytical things and comparing observations #i love deconstructing meaning and intent #like?? i find it the most fun to be like: okay i could put no thought into this or take it at face value #*or* i could have a bunch of fun and see what i can do with it and hear what others do with it #jibber jabber blabber bluff #anyway for as much as uni sucked the life outta me it was just so nice to talk interprety things and find out cool stuff #also this is semi aimed at my irl besties who constantly listen to my blabbering about nothing ilu #also also I love when other people hyperanalyze stuff they love even if I have no idea what it is or never consumed it #like yes tell me everything even if I don't see it or read it or understand it I want to hear it

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cantsaythetword · 4 months

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fuuuuuck ive dug myself such a massive hole and there's no climbing out now

#he speaks #love lying to my parents about how my uni career is going #cause i know they would cut me off from EVERYTHING i care about if they find out im failing anything #so just softening the blow by being like hey im barely passing #(which was still a DIFFICULT convo)#and saying oh im struggling heaps keeping up with readings and assignment deadlines so im just doing the bare minimum cause im exhausted #cause adhd #and them wanting to be super helpful and being like oh give me a list of your assignments and their due dates and your readings #and ill read the stuff and look at your assignments #cause you said you were doing summer semester to catch up on your classes from the trip #but in reality youre not you just said that so your parents would let you go #but now youre gonna have to do assignments over the summer break (aka for the next 4 weeks) and then be stressed about getting set up #and now youre so far in that you have an elaborate plan that you've “talked to the academic advisors” about your struggles and your adhd do #and both said you should go part time #so that it looks like youre graduating “on time”#but in reality youre just catching up on the courses you failed #and still struggling and hating full time #i stg if there were ANY other way to get the qualifications i need for this job #i would have left uni after first semester #i actually fuckin hate it #sorry for the rant lmao #kinda a vent post

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lieutenantselnia · 5 days

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I currently have to write a thesis, work on the biggest project in my entire study programme and will have to start preparing for my bachelor's exam at some point, and my brain thinks now it's a good time to get back into Red Dead Redemption 2👍

#I bought the game last summer but I'm still only at the very start of chapter 3 because I'm slow as fuck with making progress in the story #tbh I think it's bcI've spent the majority of my playing time so far with just admiring the beautiful landscape and taming cute horsies🐴#this game really brings out my inner horse girl again😭 I'd actually love taking riding lessons irl again once uni stuff is over -#but I'm gonna feel really awkward contacting my riding instructor again after such a long (unintentional) radio silence #like 'hello I got consumed with body and soul by university for one and a half years but here I am again do you still do lessons?'#also aside that I'm just really blown away by this game from a game dev perspective #I read that Rockstar used their own engine to make it so I don't have as much of an idea how they do stuff #but based on all the interactions you can do and things you can discover in the game -#my brain is imploding just trying to comprehend the internal structure of how like objects and their states are managed #and how it keeps track of everything and all that #I'm pretty sure it's not possible with a game like this since it's a company secret but I'd love to just get to look at the code #I probably won't even understand shit but it would still be absolutely fascinating

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historian-crown · 7 months

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Just got hit with the realisation that I will in fact never ever have to do a math test again or simply do math homework.

Idk but that just lightened my mood a lot.

#personal #thoughts that hit me while doing uni work #like i am sitting here reading about some study done hundret years ago and stuff and it simply hit me that i don't have to do math #i in fact have not done any math test in the last 5 years #feeling free #feeling unchained #feeling powerful #feeling hot #feeling slutty

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the-casbah-way · 9 months

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i think every university student who has a job and studies at the same time deserves everything they want forever actually

#yeah this is about me #i dont think people realise how fucking hard it is to do both and not go insane #ITS HARD ENOUGH TO DO ONE AND NOT GO INSANE #i wish uni would cut some slack to students who have to work and be more understanding w deadlines and stuff #especially bc jobs act like said job is your entire life and expect you to drop everything when an extra shift comes up #work drains me so fucking much that i just have no physical or mental energy left even back when my shifts were only four hours #how do you expect me to go to a shift then go to classes right after and then spend the evening doing mandatory reading #i rlly wanna know how other people manage it. i really dont think there *is* a way to manage it when you are neurodivergent and Sick #do not get me wrong im grateful to have a job and be able to work i just wish i didnt need to so i could focus on uni #i feel like im going to end up with a worse degree class than im actually capable of because i just cant spend the time on uni that i want

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sp00ky-scary · 5 months

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not a burnt out gifted kid or a regular student but a secret third thing (really fucking stupid)

#i got at least 1 A on every single report since grade 5 #so thats what 14 reports #i averaged like Bs for most stuff #so obviously thats like good #however in retrospect i did not and still dont understand the majority of things we got taught i winged everything #ngl i think its just because of how much school stuff is more based on memory #so you cram study something pass the test or whatever #and then immediately forget it #also ngl my not understanding anything is probably why i almost failed maths last year because it was built on stuff from past years #i dont think the reading fanfics through most lessons and occasionally showing up a bit high helped though #i passed everything this year though and now i never have to do anything again #jk im doing uni next year #hopefully a fine arts degree though #correction i meant grade 3 #also in retrospect wild that literal children are being graded like that #especially since parents (mine included) would/will punish like actual children for getting just a pass and being where they should be

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alexanderpearce · 9 months

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i am fucking spread thin (like vegemite)

#my point being that i have So many fucking things to do right now and i am so tired. university is back. on top of that i have 300 lines of #seneca to translate and then 1280 to write up properly before semester finishes. i have 8 skirts to make for ukrainian dancing and assorted #misc sewing jobs for polish dancing. need to write resume. then i want to submit something for a poetry competition And something else to #the uni magazine. i know most of this is like. stuff ive Taken Upon Myself to Do but omfg HELPPPP #also like. polish dancing sundays ukrainian dancing every second saturday and ive been roped into salsa on tuesdays.... girl #its okay. i have the prototype for the skirts done and its a very simple pattern #okay thanks i just needed to vent. then ON TOP OF THAT theres stuff i want to do! books to read fics to write shows and movies to watch...#shut up ulrike

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crazy-walls · 7 months

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when you wake up in the middle of the night and realise you kinda "lost your place" in fandom little by little since you've had to start working full time

#listen i was probably still half drunk BUT. when i was still at uni I sometimes cranked out a chapter every 2 days #and now i have constant 'don't even look at me ms word' syndrome because i spend so much time at work in word already #yeah fixating on skinny probably doesn't help and neither does complaining but it just feels more and more like watching from the sidelines #and i don't like it here. i wanna interact more. but I've no idea how unless i start writing very specific stuff again maybe #but there's been so much shit going on in the last 1.5 years in particular that I can barely write the things I really want to #anyway. brought to you by midnight realisations and the question is it a hangover or do i have a headache from sleeping weird once again?#so yeah if anyone wants to chat about ddf stuff my inbox/chat thingy are always open #i'm aware it doesn't help not having the time and energy reading uther people's fics and i really wanna get into that again as well...#delete later

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ouchhq · 1 month

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if you show me kindness just know that i will remember that forever

#a few days ago i met someone i had talked to on socials before but that was p much the first time we interacted really #and i felt really shy also bc there were other people i didnt really know so i felt a bit awkward but at some point #we have this tradition here that when someone gets a uni degree when we celebrate #the person has to read a kind of poem writtwn by their friends and family about them while their friends basically throw stuff at them like #flour or eggs or tomato sauce etc..#and the person has to wear a funny costume #and we started doing that and i was doing my thing and this guy broke an egg (u break them slightly before throwing them so u dont hurt the #person) and handed it to me to throw.. then he would give me a tissue to clean my hands whenever i threw something #and at the end i was helping my friend out of her dirty costume and he pulled up my sleeves for me and that really did make a difference #lmao because my friend was sooo dirty and idk i just thought it was so sweet?????? just so kind and idk these things make me want to cry #there were more things as well but idk these little things mean so much to me

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deus-ex-mona · 9 months

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