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#and in the meta of it all. when u think of all the destiel things left on the cutting room floor or censored by the network
angelsdean · 1 year
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when you remember that time Ash said dean and sam have died many times before and the angels just resurrected them and wiped their memories.......................................like not only is that so !!!!!!!! they have literally DIED multiple times and have zero memory of it, but also. it begs the question......what else have they erased ?? this is how deancas were fucking / together the whole time still wins !!!
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zo1nkss · 6 months
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Something about directly stating someone should be forcibly isolated and studied clinically bc they're traumatized just sits very very wrong with me, even as a silly lighthearted joke.
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quietwingsinthesky · 4 days
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In your opinion, is it worth watching Supernatural if you missed the superwholock craze and your only exposure has been meta posts
my darling anon, i’m a supernatural fan, i’m going to say yes. BUT. with caveats. one; depends on the meta you’ve been exposed to, because if you’ve been told by tumblr gifs it’ll be an epic love story between that dude and his angel, i’m so sorry to disappoint you but that’s not what the show is about. but if the meta you’ve gotten is about the actual themes of the show, go right ahead.
(to be clear, like, there’s still stuff to dig into for destiel. i just wouldn’t want you to go in expecting a romcom in a horror story.)
CAVEAT TWO: you gotta understand that supernatural is really like 5 or 6 shows in a trenchcoat building on top of one another. like s1-3 are pretty solidly their own show, cut down early by the writer’s strike and even delineated nicely by being filmed on. film. rather than digitally. s4-5 are their own thing. s1-5 are their own complete arc, and honestly, you can just watch that and have a pretty good time with some genuinely fantastically put together television. and then after that s6 is kinda its own thing, 7-8 too, 9-11, and then 12-15 i just lump together as Bad but im sure someone else would actually classify them by arc or whatever.
okay god we’re putting a cut now im not gonna shut up im sorry
i think more people should watch s1-5 of supernatural. it’s silly, it’s scary, it’s full of fucked up shit and things that will mess you up for life (affectionate). and then i say watch the rest until you don’t enjoy it and then drop it. don’t feel obligated to watch all 15 cause it loses the plot Fast and it also. gets bad. like if you want my rec, i say stick it out till s11 and then if you can stand it, s12 for [SPOILER] coming back to life. but i would never in my life tell anyone to watch s13-15 unless they had literally nothing left to do and a gun to their head. i watched it but im not a good role model.
uhhh what else should you know. oh, yeah, there’s a lot of references to non-con/rape in it, some of them the show takes seriously and some it’ll play for laughs with some 2010s era misogyny. there’s also a lot of moments that, depending on how charitable you feel like being, are either poorly thought out or straight out racist or homophobic. the show does very little to address its misogyny, homophobia, or racism until it gets put down like a dog behind a shed. i’m telling you this to prepare you for it, because i think engaging with the show is still worth something, especially if you take the time to entangle those elements and examine how the writers have used them to justify a world in which two white guys roll into town, kill a scary monster with extrajudicial justice to save the suburban families, and leave.
and then, of course, if u watch it you can also come yell at me about it :3
uhm. but seriously. supernatural is a complicated show. but it’s worth watching. there’s a lot of good in there with the bad. the way it approaches angels and heaven in the early seasons especially is so fucking fascinating, so if you like religious stuff at all, i’d say go in for it. the acting can be. well. the main guys range from ‘holy shit this is stressing me out to watch it’s so good’ to ‘okay’ to ‘jesus fucking christ please get the camera off of him.’ (and if you watch the show, i’ll let you guess which is which lmao.) but a lot of the people who come in to play side characters kill it in their roles. shout out to jdm. there for like 3 episodes purely to fuck me up forever. lifechanging performance, i’m so serious.
tldr: supernatural is genuinely a good show, for a while, and when it ain’t, it’s still fun, and when it stops being that, just put the show down. just keep your expectations in check regarding what the show is telling you it’s about and don’t expect it to be more. (like. feel free to fantasize about what if it Was more, i sure do, but don’t let that cloud your vision on what the show, as it stands, really is about and is trying to say.) and be prepared for the messy shit it’ll hit you with along the way.
and the fandom is pretty neat too, so long as you use the block button liberally <3
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chodoyodes · 1 year
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my work break is about to end so i’m going to pontificate about destiel fic if u will let me:
- the only fic i read of them that i remember + enjoy from my time in the fandom (2013-2015ish) was out of the deep, it was the first thing i ever used ao3 for after being a wattpad child and it took me a cumulative 7ish months to read in full
- i wanted to read twist and shout but the way people talked about that one had me scared about it emotionally destroying me beyond repair, now that i have proper fic exaggeration expectation down, i assume it’s prolly readable but i’m not going to read it out of both spite and disinterest in 50’s shit
- i re-read OotD when i was like 20 and working at petsmart and super super super miserable all the time, i used to prop my phone on the register and read it when i had down time at work, then i read the drabbles (which were better then the main fic imo, the author improved tenfold over writing the first fic) and then also the sequel AU thing, i was OotD pilled to the point where i made a ninerose au of it lmao
- i am always a superwholock girlie at heart (though sherlock and i are kinda.. divorced) and i like to keep up with spn bc it’s more of an internet ecosystem than a fandom proper, and recently i’ve been going into some popular fics from this modern(ish) era
- i’m on chapter 10 of A Complete Kingdom currently and i would put the horror level at like weenie hut jr’s but it’s a super cool and well executed concept, i personally think they are still in the cave and the curtain dream reality is the prime reality, and the fucked up stuff is a weird nightmare but i’m quite honestly not meta-minded enough to made heads or tails of this fic’s prime setting or reality. it’s super good though, i can see why it’s popular and i’m gonna read that other one too “every part of the animal”
- i am not gonna read down to agincourt (or however u spell it) because it’s just tooooo long and all the stuff i see about it makes me think it is kind of … don’t kill me dta fans…. overly pretentious for the sake of making its readers feel smart and cool and literature minded. and that is simply not what i read fic for sorry
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castielcommunism · 2 years
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i agree abt the microexpressions thing! my own unpopular opinion is that i tend to kind of dismiss the more overtly bait-y scenes as Retroactive Destiel Evidence if they seem like. intentionally mean spirited. the example that comes to mind is the scene in my bloody valentine where cas appears too close to dean in the morgue and they’re like, staring at each other or w/e. to me it reads as way too intentionally “lmaooo gay! gay! wink wink!” to feel at all genuine, and if we’re taking stock of “evidence” it almost feels like the opposite (honestly, “profound bond” is the same for me — not all that compelling even though it is clear “evidence” on a surface level). i don’t think most people would agree, which is fair — but i do love to read contrarian destiel takes so thank u for that lol
I guess it also depends on what you’re trying to “do” with reading the show as the destiel show. like so much destiel meta is about compiling evidence of romantic subtext to legitimise the shipping lens people use to consume spn, which I fully understand given how hostile most of the cast/con staff is whenever you bring up gay people, as well as the broader fandom outside of the desticule. like there’s a defensive overreach that I think tends to happen where people are like “wait am I crazy and reading too much into this?” and then make like Destiel Proof Compilation posts as a bulwark against that. Which is fine! Totally fine. Not bashing that at all. But because it’s motivated by those things, some of the “evidence” people muster doesn’t feel that compelling, even when I’m inclined to agree with them in general. And some of the destiel “evidence” is so incidental (jacting micro-expressions) that it only feels like evidence if you obsessively rewatch the show and pick apart individual scenes and frames. There’s an exhaustive element to this style of analysis where accounting for every scrap of dean/cas screen time as top secret destiel evidence is the end goal, as opposed to sitting back, blurring your eyes, and looking for the outline of the thing instead (which I think is a much easier way of finding actual subtext).
But because destiel is like, canon(? still hesitate to call it canon but it IS textual post-15x18) now, I think there’s a bit more of a casual/fun “where’s waldo” style of show watching where people find a sweet deancas moment and inject romance into it, especially as a way of retroactively accounting for the confession. Which again, that’s fine, I endorse people having fun that way, I also have fun that way.
So like I think in general I agree with the Great Weight of the Evidence For Destiel even if I don’t agree with every item on that evidence list. Individual data points can be negotiated and debated, but taken together they’re far more persuasive.
And also, I must ask this again - why the fuck did dean make cas a mixtape.
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jimmycoded · 2 years
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in celebration of icarlynatural but it's a destiel season 4 dean pov amv of "leave it all to me" by miranda cosgrove ft drake bell
merry christmas seq i adore you so much <3
"meta"/story under the cut haa
ok so. here's the lore:
dean knows that cas sees Thee righteous man and Thee mission as the world’s catalyst for benevolently foretold change - an untranslatable and wonderful More™ for dean than he sees for himself. yikes @ Thee mission immediately involving cas giving dean an order only to see how Perhaps The Sacrifices ie: the failed mission in the beginning. cas and dean’s view of what World means is Wildly different in a macro vs micro sense, ie: when they’re on the bench when dean is like hey look. humans. my world. over the course of season 4 and fkn quickly for a man w trust issues dean switches gears from seeing cas as a hostile maybe-enemy to a potential ally/”friend” - he sees cas’ potential for change and Perceives how free will could be wonderful for them with varying degrees of accuracy.
cas legit helped our boy live life and breathe air. it's the simplest sequence of this whole thing.
anyway. In scenes where cas is Reminded by the other angels to stay in his lane, dean begins to have faith that there must be a way to somehow encourage his cute lil rebellious streak. weapons are a symbolic form of trust in spn which is why the shots go 1. the First hand-to-hand exchange w the note, then 2. the demon knife, and, most significantly, 3. the angel blade, which oh wow cas u rly let them. Hold. the one thing that could kill you. anyway. cas sees the "get there" as saving the world; dean sees that too, sure, but also he’s a huge dweeb with a crush new friend who has Zero concepts of feelings and the wonderful experiences of humanity, see 4. dean handing cas money as the Ultimate Trust lmao (as in,,, trusting cas w his humanity much to dissect here in a non-weaponized way).
However. how. are we gonna get there if dean. Doesn’t Force cas to look at the reality of Thee mission and fall. Cas has that whole Moment where he Feels and then witnesses subsequent forbidden and Very Human shit as real and important. this is pretty much dean’s thesis of s4 and he Will break his goddamn hand for cas to understand how he feels.
It works! Cas wakes up and crosses that dang divide, joining the human “nation” (~nation here is defined as a community that shares a collective identity - team free will~). Ofc this is his Big Moment but also 1. the blending of dean and cas’ developing definitions of ~wonderful change~; cas’ being alignment with god’s true intentions for humanity, and dean’s being cas' alignment with dean the reality of humanity since 2. Cas realizes that there’s no chance for them uh dean humanity unless he takes one - as he most recently did prior to the green room scene in dropping info about the antichrist ooooh.
anyway, no choice now but to stay posi!!! looking on the bright side!!! Team free will baybay!!! it’s not like there are devastating times ahead come what may, fake it til you make it in every situation.
Now that cas is realizing all his unhinged glory and unknowingly saying shit like “fuck fate” to the literal individual who is writing their story as meant to be, let’s go!! Save!!! The world!!! Bottom of the ninth, w cas on his side giving his best, dean can tackle the rest and finally able to be the righteous man. i think.
in the very very least let's consider this canon adjacent ok cool
MERRY CHRISTMAS SEQ I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH
I DO have a 12 page document detailing the full extended version of the icarly theme song but i ran out of time and had to commit to This and it’s been wild
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americachavez · 3 years
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Hey! I was wondering if you mind sharing why you keep reccing asunder by rageprufrock. It's one of my absolute favorite fics of all time and i recently couldn't 100% put my finger on why when I was reccing it to a friend. Of course all media consumption is subjective yadda yadda but I really like your meta so maybe..... Thanks in advance!
thank u for the compliment I resent the implication I’ve ever written meta in my LIFE but I’ll try on this one just for you!!!
the thing that really gets me about this fic is how rare it is in the realm of normal human AUs. it does the rare thing where it takes elements of canon and incorporates them into a non-supernatural AU in ways that are not only really interesting but that actually seem grounded in reality. obviously the easiest one is the demon blood to heroin addiction translation, but there’s a lot of smaller details that pull from canon but are still aligned with the world the story is set in. which is my main beef with AUs if I’m being honest—the lack of creativity when it comes to reimagining canon irks me because if you could just swap out the cast of your modern AU with that from another tv show/movie and have no major changes to the story I’m probably not going to be interested in it. not saying I HAVEN’T read those fics or judge people for enjoying them but they’re not really my jam. but asunder is like, it feels like the characters from the show with similar baggage but they’re still actual people for the most part. or as much as characters in a fic can be people, you feel.
and honestly it’s one of the few fics that actually felt like it could just be a short story. another caveat here I am NOT one of those people who is like oh I don’t need to read actual literature I only read fic because only reading fic is one of the reasons everyone on this webbed site is brain diseased. fic doesn’t serve as a substitute for published literature which is understandable because people do this for free as a fun hobby and shouldn’t be held to the same standards as professionals! that’s not what fic is for fic exists as an important and very specific aspect of fandom and is transformative for a reason I DIGRESS. the point is that asunder....hm. I know it would lose something if the serial numbers were filed off and it was presented as a short story about a Family Drama with A History because obviously the connection to supernatural canon is what makes it so ENJOYABLE but it’s damn close. I’d watch the arthouse movie version of it is what I’m saying.
this is way longer than I thought it would be so I’ll wrap it up but ugh there’s a bunch of other stuff I love. surface level it’s fake dating for a wedding, but that’s like, the LEAST interesting thing about it?? you have this complex relationship between dean and sam which is really similar to their dynamic in s4-5 canon but again, is closer to reality since they aren’t being manipulated by demons and angels. and then that unfolds slowly while also revealing the equally complicated dynamic between dean and cas, which is more than just a “oh we’re in love but we’re not dating because of Plot” it’s like oh they’re not dating because wow yeah that’s an awkward situation. plus I love my girl ruby getting some sympathetic screen time in a deancas fic, which is especially rare in older spn fic. also dean in!!! child protective services!!!!!!! less fics where he’s a cop more fics of This!!!!!!! I AM heavily biased because I am a Dean Girl (terminal) and I know the fic is like the EPITOME of a dean girl fic and is unfair to sam in a lot of ways but I still think it’s a good exploration of their relationship. which is another rarity in destiel fic where sam is either starry eyed destiel shipper, oblivious, or Sir Not Appearing In This Film. sorry, sammy.
anyways this is all to say. fic good. good words give me nice brain chemicals thank u mx. rageprufrock
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clairenatural · 3 years
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can u explain the destiel lamp thing??? i was OBSESSED W DESTIEL in my teen years lmfao and now im just catching up again and 5x18 has ruined my semi-adult life bc now i'm weeping over destiel at 3am like its 2012 and trying to cling onto any shred of hope that cas might come back
Yes!!! Weeping over destiel at 3am like it’s 2012 is an emotion I know all too well :’)
Okay so basically, in episode 15x10 a Hero’s Journey, Garth (who is a werewolf dentist now) gives Dean a bunch of laughing gas to fill some cavities, and we have a whole dream sequence of Dean tap dancing with a lamp around the bunker. The episode ends with Dean watching Garth and his wife slow dancing, and Dean remarks “you know, I always thought I could be a good dancer if I wanted to be.” This episode was written by showrunner Andrew Dabb (and in general is a wild ride of an episode). Here’s a better explanation on how the lamp represented Cas and Cas = light/lamps overall.
Ever since the episode aired (or at least when I came back into the fandom a few months after it aired) there’s been meta on Cas and the lamp (some crack, some very serious) but with the recent frenzy of the finale it’s come back. People also re-connected that Andrew Dabb wrote 15x10 and is writing the finale (obviously, as showrunner) and the lamp was....never explained, which is where “if Cas doesn’t come back, why lamp” meme started, and then it just kind of. spiraled, as memes tend to. But it started as legitimate meta I swear!!!
Also I too am clinging onto hope about Cas coming back, and I think there is hope--I still think he was quarantining in Vancouver, and at the last con before the shutdown (right after filming 15x18) Misha personally mentioned having 5 more days of filming left. There’s also a bunch of textual reasons essentially boiling down to “it doesn’t make sense to not bring him back,” but I’m clinging to the facts we know which are that he was in quarantine Vancouver and he did say he had more filming left after 15x18!!
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incarnateirony · 4 years
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i think there’s a distinction that needs to be made. i think those with power over dabb & co are the ones who are exuding more habits of queerbaiting, while dabb and co aren’t. and because those execs are more or less invisible, the blame/fault is put on dabb as he’s the perceived figurehead of everything in the show when he’s not. anything he may want to put in the show can be easily vetoed by a higher exec so
Okay so I said I wouldn’t touch related issues facing wanky-side, but while this runs the line this is such a genuine, and valid thought process it feels worth addressing.
So in short: Yes. But no. But yes. But no. But we’ll see.
What do I mean by that? I’m going to put this behind a cut. But first of all I want to thank this Nonnie for at least trying to critically think about where the problems lead to. This is FAR BETTER CRITICAL THINKING than I see in this discussion most of the time and this. More like this. Nuance, discussion, idea trade, history. Let’s do it.
Okay, so.
How can it be yes no yes no maybe eenie meenie miney mo?
Because it really depends on what part of this 15 year legacy show we’re talking about.
What I’m about to say isn’t going to be popular, but I’ve said it before, I just can’t find the ancient ass post discussing it.
We’re going to rewind. Like, a fucking lot. A lot, a lot. This is going to be a history ride, and you’re probably going to wonder how it connects to the conversation at first, but bear with me.
Ignoring any personal frustrations I have with the casting of season 4 – frankly a chapter of this FUCKING show that haunts me somewhere in the ballpark of, “If my friend wasn’t dismissed as not white enough and got the role, would we have Misha, Destiel, any of this, would the show be on, would she have been chased off as the other actresses?” – and frankly these are the things people don’t even fucking *think* about.
TLDR a bajillion years ago CW made a casting call and we got this super cute character named Anna that Dean was slated to bend over in two seconds flat, as old canon used to be before modernly growing. The actress expressed discomfort, and frankly went over with the audience about as well as wet cardboard. And like, while I agree that a lot of women were hated for misogynistic reasons in this show, she really was about as interesting as a plank of plywood to me once she got past her first performance or two.
At the same time, this handsome bastard named Misha Collins auditioned for a bit role originally intended for 3 episodes and quickly extended to 6. But, identified as lightning in a bottle and with on-fire chemistry, while Anna waffled for *several* reasons, summarily, their story ends swapped. That’s… not like *exactly* what happened but it’s *basically* what happened. Anna became the herald and contagonist instead of Cas, and Cas quite frankly took on the role of the goddess.
With Lisa already entered before Anna, there’s no evidence whatsoever she was intended as endgame. Story flip. Thank you for everything last night on earth fall by angel banishing almost like this was foreshadowed woohoo! But… don’t lend towards a relationship. No point. Given, they made a few jokes on set at that point, but it wasn’t really an idea *they thought anyone took seriously*. 
Coming from a phase where most of the leads were introduced to “slash fandom” by Wincest, which they literally used to torture and prank each other, the idea of this being anything serious really wasn’t on their radar. The one I remember most was Misha choosing to sit on Dean’s side of the bed as Cas in the famous “What were you dreaming about?” and Sgriccia being like “that’s kinda gay” “nah keep it”
I mean, is that… queerbait at that point? I don’t think it’s fair to really call it that. They respectfully tried to scrub out the leading romantic edges from what would have been Anna’s story, but ultimately, the human psyche kind of recognizes 8000 years of storytelling history subconsciously when using the Hero’s Journey narrative, so it was resonant. Nobody was crazy for seeing it. That didn’t mean it was right, that didn’t mean it’s what they were consciously leading anyone for.
Hell, Jensen didn’t even know what the fuck Destiel WAS until season 7 (”Deathstiel?”) due to the way cons, circuits, and fansites kept the conversation force-muted at that point. Anything they had floated somewhere in the area of “hah that is kinda gay I guess”, and even that there’s no evidence of being frequent.
Kripke left, the show petered, social media was new, and summarily, Sera Gamble was a dumbass and listened to the wrong crowd that seemed super big back when big accounts were a whole 10K followers and you had 50 asshats screaming as a coordinated group about Ruining The Show™. Ratings tanked, somewhere between Misha being fired and the show turning into a parody of itself with dick jokes that made it seem like Gamble was trying to target 11 year old boys for her audience, and like, that’s it, that was the season. 
Until that nosedive spiral essentially turned into a shorthand apology reversal, a panicked and roughly written script that was *SO GAY* that *EVEN MISHA FUCKING COLLINS* couldn’t seriously choke out the dialogue. It was cheap, it was out of character, and as Jensen put it, the dialogue might as well have had him petting and sobbing into Castiel’s coat while essentially being like I SLEEP WITH YOUR COAT EVERY NIGHT TO REMEMBER YOUR SCENT UWU and shit that just LITERALLY vaulted from alien fascinated staring into desperate teenage gay drama in the body of a 30 year old man.
So yeah. Did I consider it reasonable to change that? Fuck yes I did. 
Was what Sera Gamble did queerbait? Yes, actually. And she did it again in the Magicians. You see, Gamble had fucked over an audience, and then tried to exploit that audience in reverse when she realized she fucked over the *wrong* audience, but had zero intent of fulfillment.
And then magically, Sera Gamble didn’t fucking work there anymore after a whole like, year and a half as showrunner.
Now, at the same time, Dawn Ostroff was leaving the CW. Jensen’s had some pretty fierce words about Dawn Ostroff not understanding the show and how to manage it, but whatever. Bye, Dawn. Hello… MARK FUCKING PEDOWITZ. But at the same time, WELCOME BACK CARVER and most of all HOWDY DO NETFLIX, so nice to make a guaranteed deal with you (that ended as of this year due to a CBS merchandising meltdown).
When Carver came back, he said a lot of things. He… very tactfully called Gamble’s era trash by phasing it like “:) Watching the show :) since I left :) I realized :) a lot of our mythology :) has been difficult to follow :) so I went :) back to basics :) please help”, and others, like mentioning he had a three year plan on his desk. So 3. Season 8, 9, 10. He had notes for his S10 finale in mind and everything! Great stuff.
Now the fandom, at this point, generally didn’t pay attention to the network or production. In fact, the actor worship around here is some other kind of wild and I don’t know how after 15 years people haven’t figured out that it isn’t how to go about paying attention. Either way – plot switches, showrunner switches, author switches, and NETWORK LEADERSHIP SWITCHES. 
Now, this little part here is speculation – but I am 99% sure that when Carver was pulling SPN out of the cancellation toilet, he had bigger things to inform the new execs about than “btw I might make it gay.” Like “Hey, since CW just got its netflix deal, if you give us another year we can import fresh demographic while bringing back Collins’ old fanbase by setting him back as a regular.” SURE, SOUND GREAT, MAKE MONEY, THX.
Cool. Cool. Make sense so far, you still with me?
Because at this point, S8 into early S9, fandom had gotten itself into all kinds of a stir. It was about to go canon, rite nao, said a bunch of bloggers, who at that point WERE pretty much chasing wallpapers and Tshirts and making the most bizarre uncorroborated parallel interpretations like “IF U PARALLEL IT TO MOBY DICK-” WHAT WHY WHERE– ??? BUT cAS = fISH
Okay, my fucking annoyance at what counted as lit crit in those days aside, we’ll get back on track. Everybody started vibrating for this shit because, you know what, S8 did resonate pretty strong, almost like authors were toying with ideas. I’m not gonna get into stuff about Robbie, I THINK fandom knows the statements he’s made and I don’t just mean the whole Destiel being canon tweet both antis and bitters descended on him to eviscerate him about. About what? Calling it queerbait!
So here we go, the great advent. About a year after a dramatic network shift, a CW exec was like :))))))))) I’D LIKE TO LEARN ABOUT THIS FANDOM THAT IS SUDDENLY MAKING ME MONEY!! WHAT SHOULD I DO??? TO TWITTER! HASHTAG TALK TO THEM!
[logs in]
Beep boop. “Destiel?”  “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” “Destiel?” the FUCK is a Destiel? Wait what no I don’t know what you’re talking about representation isn’t our intention with these characters. “QUEERBAIT”  “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT” “QUEERBAIT”
And then the network exec got so slammed he deleted twitter entirely and everybody popped confetti and felt accomplished and did NOT realize how fucking BAD that was. And frankly, anyone that did kinda didn’t want to admit it, because taking responsibility for that tire fire was… not… attractive. In fact, several folks are still around to this day, bitter blogging or making weirdass meta or accusing other people of wallpapers and Tshirts because that’s what they did so *YAY, PROJECTION!*
My own frustrated bitterness aside, I’m going to place some questions down, and not so much answer them as, now that the reader has really taken history in, let them decide:
At this point… is this queerbait?
Because this is when the queerbait yelling began. It’s when every fan with even a moderate platform or site blasted it out there. 
It’s when the fandom made DeanCas a big problem.
And it’s also literally the same time Carver left his very first recorded, known direction with a romantic tilt, “The note I got from Jeremy Carver was to play it like a jilted lover, so that’s what we played there,” on LGBT author Bobo berens’ very first episode. Everyone runs circles around that modernly, or goes “SEE??? QUEERBAIT!” without realizing what the FUCK just happened here.
So, SPN went from cancel rating line to their most successful show between 7 and 9. Suddenly corporate sees their successful product *ON FUCKING FIRE* so do you know what happens?
Fuck it this IS one line I’ll break: Corporate panicked. They changed their press packets. If you noticed a bunch of media-adjacent people and their friends suddenly get bitter as FUCK in season 10 after still surviving the S9 mess, here’s fucking why. Because now that everybody spent the last YEAR trying to burn down the product yelling about shit that corporate had been literally blindsided by, they added temporarily a new section to the packet that included sexuality. They were, at that moment, suddenly listed collectively as heterosexual men. SEE, WE AREN’T QUEERBAITING IF WE TELL YOU THEY’RE STRAIGHT *will smith pose*
Congrats fandom, you have now officially made Destiel A Huge Problem™ to the corporate behemoth behind the shiny pictures. The iron curtain dropped. This is what you could call “Protect the Product Mode” if you will. 
Now again, at this point: Is it queerbait?
Because at this point, S9-10 was rolling out. We all know it, Cain, Collette, *gestures off into infinity* But let’s fall back to Carver’s statement. 3 years. 8, 9, 10. You know what else happened season 10?
A bunch of shit, including shit Carver *wrote himself for the season 10 finale* got filmed, then cut. Coincidentally, it was all very gay shit. Things that pulled forward the Crowley/Abaddon Cas/Colette Sam/Abel parallels, arguing over who was who’s boyfriend, Rowena mentioning about them both being shattered at the Altar of Winchester (15.3 is calling), the secret admirer dream, I could go on. I mean, this shit literally would have shifted the entire storytelling arc to full-frontal taking that  parallel and addressing it right up in your face. First you’ll kill your mistress but you’ll get it done, and then you’ll kill your wife. He’s your boyfriend no he’s YOUR boyfriend. You’ve BOTH been shattered at the Altar of Winchester. Really, this is what you dream about? Your secret admirer Cas?
K? K. K?
Is it queerbait for Carver to have entered with a plan? Is it queerbait for Carver to have been interrupted on that plan despite attempting to pursue it? And is it queerbait for the network to still lock down on that plan so close after the event?
You see why this conversation gets increasingly complex.
S11 rolled around, Carver was half in half out, Dabb was stepping in, big gay heart songs, take what you will out of that entire mess, and by S12 Dabb entirely took over and we started entering the era we are in today.
So let’s address where we’re at today. 
Now :) I can’t say anything for sure :) because anybody that’s been to or worked on marketing stuff definitely has an NDA :) but let’s play for a minute. Let’s say with the stone wall up, a set of creators still wanted to actually *go somewhere* with this story. 
“But!” remembered the network, “Remember the tire fire?! And all the people that hated the gay?! What about our profit?!”
“No,” a creator might say, “Tides have changed.”
“We’ll see,” a network might say, “Take it to market testing.” At which point, one would enter a few years of polling how the general audience reacts to this.
Now, if they were seeing promising numbers, they might be given a bit of rope. Why, let’s … just pretend. Totally. Totally pretending. That Dabb pitched this idea to take up Carver’s mantle. Let’s say that started S12ish when he took over. Let’s say they ran through hiatus. And then… authors might be given a little bit of a line. “Looks good, but we’re not sure,” said a network quite fond of its split conservative/liberal demographic, “Try it out a bit and see how it goes.”
And so an author room that would be full of LGBT creators fed out good faith groundwork. They might even be like YALL ITS NEVER TOO LAAAAAATE TO START ALL OVER AGAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN and just throw their whole boy howdy cowboy into that shit and get great ratings.
What if even if the results came back positive leaning, the network ho’ed and hummed and stayed noncommital? Might the creators scale it back while still writing it lowkey just in case they got flashed a greenlight? I know I sure would, woudn’t you?! Or I guess would you prefer we drop the whole thing cold and stop writing anything vaguely in the direction?
Difficult question, in reality, isn’t it?
So in this TOTALLY HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION, this leaves the authors holding the bag, waiting for a sign, and being held with limitations. And just in case anybody thinks “BUT AUTHORS CAN DO WHATEVER THEY WANT!! AND!! OTHER SHOWS!!!”
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K have we come down to reality yet? So, sure kids, try the gay, we’re interested, but you can’t like, go Full Gay Frontal with it. You gotta imply the gay. Wouldn’t want to offend conservative america! Besides! We’re totally exploiting marketing making this LGBT content for you over here! *jingles a carrot on a stick* LOOK AT HOW MUCH WE’RE FLEECING ADVERTISING PROMOTING ALL THIS GAY STUFF FOR YOU AREN’T THE RAINBOWS GREAT?
Some creator of limited LGBT content: How’s the marketing looking?
Some network: EH! We’ll see!
Some creator of limited LGBT content: K guys we’ll scale it back to not upset them but don’t drop it.maybe we can have them hold hands at the end or if we’re lucky maybe they’ll say we can do the whole thing
Some LGBT creators: K
Making sense still? STILL WITH ME?
So at this point… is this queerbait, or is this business?
Put aside the emotional reaction. Realize this really only hit scale in S9, hit front line S10, and hit potential corporate discussion in this TOTALLY theoretic universe around S11-12. We’re talking 3-4 years. Not 10. And we’re talking only a few of it really being tested.
So again I ask, history minded: Is this queerbait, or is this business?
That’s where the nuance and complication comes in, and let it be said I am in no way defending the CW. I fucking hate the network. They have literally personally screwed over real friends of mine and I hope they choke on a whole bag of dicks with their bullshit, but honestly, the shit I have seen and heard would make people stick their heads in the sand like scared and ashamed ostriches for every time they trumpet “BUT OTHER SHOWS” – you don’t know what’s going on in those shows. You don’t know how they’re getting hardballed on budget decisions, you don’t know what that show’s marketed demographic is about, you don’t know what they demand cast how, you literally don’t have a fucking idea unless you’re up in that disaster zone.
And even IF you’re in that disaster zone, unless you’re truly in the upper echelon, you only know so much.
Now let’s pretend, again, totally metaphorically, and absolutely not inspired by a real person at all, that someone worked with the crew for a while and, because they saw support inside creeping upward siiiiince mmmm gosh we’ll say season 12 since that’s our advent and totally not when anybody specific started working there and telling fandom ladder fans what they thought they saw going on, only to get sad and bitter and angry and eventually leave, and all those friends, still abiding old bitterness from S9~, now get angrier because of somebody else’s burnout on their ITK level and perspective, even if that was *probably* aggravated by other work stress conditions as well, but hey! WHO KNOWS!?!?! :)))) What a weird hypothetical though and I’m getting weirdly super specific on it aren’t I so LET’S MOVE ON.
We’re in S12-13 discussion category now.
So my question is, from this perspective… when do you call queerbait? When not swept up in misguided hysteria… at what point do you say “Yeah, you know what, yup, that’s all queerbait”?
So we’re gonna take a bit of a break here for a second and really process all of that hypothetical world, where a creator pitched going for it, and got it put into market testing, and was given enough rope to hang themselves on if the network changed its mind.
After only a few years of conscious thought on it… do you even think the network is truly consciously misguiding specifically those fans, or do they see it as giving the fans something they want while testing the idea of possibly truly giving it to them?
Because here’s what fandom misses – the corporate perspective. And again, I’m utterly not fucking justifying the CW as a whole, but people look at this from the angle of fans, and then argue what they think is representative dialogue from the angle of fans, often while missing all of this history. All that history up till S9? That’s all very real.  But looking at history in perspective… who are you going to blame for that? Is it fair to hold S4-9 to that five year stretch of queerbait when that was… pretty much fandom manufactured from blissful ignorance to begin with? I mean if you want to go yell at Sera Gamble Specifically okay (please don’t) but beyond that like– that shit? Is that anybody’s fault? Do you blame a company for actually shutting DOWN the talk of it on a press angle? Can we call that and S10 queerbait then? Was Carver’s attempt at writing through it queerbait? Was trying to continue the story in S11 after theoretic shutdown queerbait? These are all genuine questions that are not asked enough. Most people don’t even realize they need to be asked.
So back to Totally Theoretic Land, where S12ish market testing would have been going on to see if people really thought it was Gay N Shit. Like a lot of people in an overwhelming majority after the amount of apprehension the straight old dude running the network has ever since the goddamn tornado of horse shit that happened like a year after he took over. Probably not the fondest fucking memory for him either. Probably also why he dismissively called most of that demographic “casual fans”, because in Smug White Guy Brain, “tru” fans would have all known, I guess, exactly the shit I’m telling you in history backtrack so, look at the silly girls wanting the gay shit :) Ahhhh girlllllls
Okay so, my impression of douchebags aside, let’s give it 12-13 hiatus to give the first test rope lead and 13-14 hiatus for the next, only to have at best noncommital and uncertain numbers and authors, theoretically, cautiously pulling back while writing it as generally established and implicit, as if it might, I don’t know, go from BIG GAY DRAMA to DEADASS DOMESTIC all of a sudden despite ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO START ALL OVER AGAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN cuz get it, they started over, after he came in his room and played him. *elbows* You all get it right?
K. So maybe numbers changed. Maybe they don’t. Maybe I’m not comfortable talking in this hypothetical, maybe I don’t have access to this hypothetical AU’s current marketing data as of this year, I just don’t know! We don’t know where those cards fell.
But if, at this point, after 2-3 years of market testing, and leading authors on, and giving them enough rope to hang themselves with to get themselves accused of queerbait just for trying to lay good faith groundwork for a cohesive narrative, because fans don’t care that 2 open closet LGBT authors are on deck or that there’s totally theoretically probably and in no way fingering anyone at least one closeted author on deck, or at least publicly so, their coworkers would probably know. But I mean. That’s just. :) statistics. Right?
K whatever moving on. If at this point they’ve been boggley bounced around… you know, I gotta say. At this point… I might actually call queerbait if the network stonewalls it. At this point, they’ve had a few years to really get their shit together, and if they’ve just used it to play yo yo with LGBT creators trying to make content then yeah, go suck a whole bag of dicks.
The problem being with the lack of nuance in this conversation, you’re right, Dabb and co would catch it rather than the guilty party, which is why I HATE faux activism culture. If you’re going to be an activist pay the fuck attention to what you’re being an activist in, don’t bite the hand that’s feeding you just because it was a PBJ and not filet mignon, go after the bastard 1%’er that’s eating all the goddamn filet mignon. But nobody will. It never works like that. And then everybody wonders why this continues – be it in this show, or on other networks.
But hey. Maybe this theoretic network got enough material to change their mind. Maybe another executive got promoted that might help one of the other creators argue it to corporate with their new shiny title. Maybe they can convince someone. Convince them of what and to what level, who knows. Maybe just continue telling the established story, give them a divorce, mention marriage, divorce, dead wives, breakups every 0.2 seconds while they go through a classically framed dark point in the romance everybody with brains and eyes understands because, again, historic storytelling we literally all recognize, but pretend we don’t when stomping about personal representation lines? Or hey! Maybe it’ll go further. (Don’t hold your breath.) Throw in some other shit that even a straight guy would look at and be like “two dicks one chick that shit’s gay bro” because WE LITERALLY ALL FUCKING KNOW WHAT IT MEANS EVEN IF IT’S IMPLIED BECAUSE THE NETWORK IS A BUNCH OF PUSSIES.
…*stops, breathes*
If you can’t tell this is a very long term topic of frustration to me, because nobody, absolutely nobody, wants to introspect and think, you know, maybe it wasn’t queerbait back then, maybe we SHOULDN’T have set a corporate exec on fire about it, that might have been fucking bad.
There are other ways to be an activist than to scream queerbait into the void at whoever is unfortunate enough to cross your paths. One of the best examples I can remember is Exorcising Emily collecting demographics on fandom, and testimonials from LGBT fans about resonating with the content – no fanfic, no fanart, no attacks – and sent copies of this to several powerful creative names.
Now… if with this history… if, from season 9 to 12… one of those names became a creator. If, by some FLUKE of imagination… he still had that book around… and even gave it to his freshly joined new employees like 2 weeks after they started working there–
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The mentions would be much as you expect, antis screaming and demanding her job (QUICK, somebody tell Andrew Dabb that she’s READING ANDREW DABB’S OWN BOOKS THAT HE CHOSE TO KEEP AROUND FOR THREE YEARS).
Has Dabb’s era seemed… more plugged in? More resonant? Better and stronger in its storytelling? More hooked into fandom? 
See, that’s what well thought activism can do. Well thought activism can structure an entire movement. Poorly thought rioting thinking itself as activism can cause the literal opposite effect of what it wanted. That is how these things contrast each other. And that is something fandom needs to DEEPLY consider. 
…but is it queerbait for him to try to continue the story? Even if, say, we drop the marketing talk, because TOTALLY nobody can ACTUALLY know because AGAIN anyone that DOES would have an NDA so we DEFINITELY can’t say anybody knows anything for sure, because anyone that said jack shit would probably get sued so hard their descendents down in whatever homo superior evolution 1000 years into the future would feel it, so you know. We’ll put aside this totes theoretical shit and ask
…If he just was told no– would you prefer to just drop the storyline entirely at this point?
Again. Genuine question. And difficult. And something poorly thought queerbait screaming can actually cause, too. 
So here we are in the land of the final season. Whether you consider it network queerbait or not – again, they can choke on the whole bag of dicks at a network level for all I care for ANY number of reasons, even well beyond the domain of Supernatural, and may all their bacon burn from here into the next life – it’s a lot more complicated than fandom has ever let it on to be, because letting it on to be what it really is, in full perspective, also demands a lot of introspection and acceptance, and we all know nobody in this fandom can ever make a mistake ever and they’re all fucking perfect darlings.
It’s a complicated answer to a simple idea… and unfortunately I don’t think this fandom will ever really sit here. They’ll yell “VICTIM BLAMING” because it’s buzzy, they’ll yell “HIDING YOUR GAYS” which I mean, yeah, but let’s talk about what led us here. They’ll yell a lot of things. But they will rarely quietly think, and study, and hone down to what’s going on in the world out there beyond what they have, at this point, become obsessively hotlocked on. 
Supernatural, as of 15.7, has already taken several steps further than it ever is before. No, that’s not a signal of me saying [Your Personal Goalpost] is going to happen. But it’s a sign that if they have a line, they’re testing it with every strength they have.
Going back onto the Fateful Advent: Cain. The mentor– who was never going to stop; I can’t stop samuel; he was never going to stop; I will never stop; Rowena, the mentor, never going to stop, shattered, at the altar of Winchester. Long ago, when Cas was human, Dean sealed him away, and now, he’s doing the same to him. So Shirt Of Bad Decisions Deanmon basically karaokes with his friend like the Crowley days, REPEATING the Crowley dialogue but infinitely harder to dodge, as if some sort of calculated method of cat’s cradle of How To Write The Gay was discussed. Man, whoever wrote that kind of shit would probably even publicly thank whatever big gay mastermind helped them map out THAT level of stuff. Wouldn’t it be funny if most of that shit had been written by a gay dude that’s still around and it’s still popping back up in the show louder and harder to dodge than before? That’d be fuckin’ wild, man. Oh, fucking WAIT.
And this is why I hate the way shipping culture thinks it’s doing activism. Most of the time it’s cosplaying as an activist and at this point it’s become more of a furry convention than it has any kind of organized rights movement. Nobody’s out here fighting for the rights of these LGBT authors this year, nobody’s helping them get a voice, and in fact, often scream at them or bury what voice they’ve had as not enough.
And I want to fix it.
Desperately.
And frankly, I don’t know how anymore.
But what we’re not talking about is some 3-5 year show that came in early and started intentionally fucking at you. We’re looking at happy coincidences, so let’s check with our gay king, the father of Wayward that everybody coincidentally accepted as canon with far less because of a (meaningful) third party line DeanCas had elsewhere but hey it didn’t have antis so suddenly it counts; let’s check with him about that.
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That’s my king. That’s my king that wrote the first recorded episode to be intentionally directed as jilted lovers. My king that gav eus Colette. My king that gave us the mixtape. My king that gave us the PR framed breakup. My king that gave us Cas leaving Dean. That’s my King. That’s my gay king who has been fighting his ass off, only to be hung out to dry by a fandom that doesn’t even care to look where or how to scream, or maybe consider that perhaps screaming isn’t the option.
Is he yours yet? Have I broken through to a single soul on this?
That’s my king who wrote about the necessary evils in 2003, before the youngest in this fandom were born and while many were still in diapers or kindergarten; about the unfortunate necessary evils that he loathes and acknowledges about moderate queer content gaining exponential amounts of platform compared to whatever is considered hardline aggressive at the time, about how that incrementalization is what helped our media landscape evolve to this day.
And he isn’t wrong.
And he’s getting roasted for doing just that.
And I really wish I could just psychically make everyone fucking stop.
But I will say one thing.
“It’s network queerbait!” I mean
Yeah
That
Because… realistically? like 99% of modern queer content is queerbait, even stuff with canon queer content.
ESPECIALLY on the CW.
If you’ve noticed CW panicking the last year and trying to slap rainbows and DARE TO DEFY on everything, it’s because their entire fucking ecosystem just got fucked over by CBS wanting 100% merchandising profit like it already took 100% digital profit and Netflix was basically like “miss us with your bullshit” and broke the CW contract which was *HOW PEDOWITZ BANKROLLED MOST OF HIS NETWORK*. Now? Now CW has to carve a niche. So LOOK AT ALL THE FUCKING PRIDE COLORS ON– OUR– STRAIGHT–CHARACTERS??? BUT WE HAVE GAY ONES LIKE LEGENDS OF TOMORROW AND *flips notes* THAT SIDE CHARACTER LESBIAN ON SPN. 
*gets a whisper* What they killed her? Shit. Maybe bring her back. AND THERE’S THIS PERSON OVER ON JANE THE VIRGIN oh that just got cancelled uhhh VAMPIRE DI-wait fuck. Well we’ll just make one of the chicks in this shitty charmed reboot CBS just forced down our throat and killed Wayward over, that’ll fix it *jazz hands*
TV is a business. Businesses make money. The entire LGBT battle is basically us industriously proving we can make money. It’s about rights and visibility on our end, but on their end it is *always* about money and I really don’t think anybody really groks what that really means. 
So “it’s the network! Queerbait!” 
…yeahhhhh.
…welcome to working in television. Now you just have to sit and think about how many other times this has completely missed your radar.
The network will never get a shit about you, they give a shit about your money, and that’s just the reality of capitalist america whether we like it or not. When it’s 2143 and bernie sanders’ floating head in a jar is president and andrew yang’s base income shit is in effect and we’re all a socialist country and the world has figured out how to run high cost businesses like TV on the power of unicorn farts, they might actually give a shit. But they don’t. There may be a few advocates WITHIN the company that do, but as a whole body, the network will never give a shit. They don’t care if you’re black, white, straight, gay, disabled, male, female, beyond what, explicitly, that totals to in dollar signs depending how they feed you, when and where. 
So it’s not like... *just* a queer rights issue, it’s an “Anything Trump’s America may consider offensive on their television” issue. It’s businesses weighing who they think pays their bills while making it and beyond that who they think is the safest investment to make the most money.
As a side note: Personally, I’d consider it dumb as fuck to not do it. SPN will taper within a few years down to just trekkie-esque addicts unless they find a way to get a new burst of viewership and boy howdie do I hope so, but how much Pedowitz overvalues the conservative US demographic, or certain international markets, I don’t know. I’m not in his head and I don’t have this year’s marketing numbers beyond basic live, +3 and +7 ratings, and digital calls. And just general nielsen released demo. But how he’s added that all up? Can’t say. And I sure ain’t gonna bank on him not being a dumbass, when he’s famous for it, so don’t go get your hopes up either.
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Hi! Wanted to ask a question. I'm assuming u have watched Ep4 if not, SPOILERS and don't reply to this? I have seen a lot of ppl comparing John W's action with Steve's in CW and ppl furiously debating about it. This isn't about whether it is the same thing or not. More like ... Is it cuz of cultural difference or what, but when I see ppl so casually talking about whether "X" 'killed' a friend or not and how it is justifiable .. I find it so ... jarring. I know these are fictional characters in a superhero setting but isn't it odd? Love your blog, btw. For a few years now. It's cuz of your and a few other SPN blogs (think you may be friends with them?) I started caring about the CA movies. Mostly, just for Bucky & Seb. and of recent, Anthony too. But it still feels like a whiplash when I see Fatws content on here from either of the blogs 😂 Then I have to remind myself I got the Stucky from the Destiel😂😂😂 Hope you're having a nice day. Idk if I explained my question well. How is there no word limit on this Ask?
Hey!
I’m kinda assuming your saying not to respond if I haven’t seen the ep?  But okay to publish?  I get confused, DM me if you want this taken down.
Assuming it goes up.  Asks are being weird.
I haven't seen people argue about whether killing is justifiable, though I'd be amazed if people aren't furiously writing meta about that scene because...what a goldmine.
Yeah, it's kinda weird to see people debating about whether that sort of thing is justifiable, but it always seems to be a hot topic in the 'superhero' and comics community.
There are characters who do kill and/or do morally grey things. Like Deadpool or Jason Todd, but for the most part they aren't doing it for the same reasons. With John it was all about power. Which isn't the same as doing a bad thing for the greater good, or the killing feeling quite impersonal. Sorry to hear it's jarring for you. Hope I didn't set that off again? I tried to tip toe a little around the subject.
I'm so glad you're one of the SPN blogs that has moved to Marvel, I'm so glad so many of us have moved. There was already a lot of crossover between fandoms.
Wait how is there no word limit on the ask, you're right. Wtf?
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We are real
Destiel meta. 15x02 "Raising Hell"
Hello my dears! I'm very pleased with the huge Destiel dialogue we had in this episode. Full of feelings.
So let's began...
An Alarming Destiel Mirror
When the episode started, we saw a woman dressed in green with a pink t-shirt, and a man in blue that came out from nowhere. The woman in green and pink was representing Dean and happiness, and the man in blue is Cas. But what we saw was kind of alarming, because the guy stabbed the woman and killed her. But he was possesed by a ghost. So we can say he wasn't him... But some evil entity taking his body... Well we can play with speculation here saying OH NO! CASTIEL WILL BE POSSESED BY THE EMPTY AND HE WILL KILL DEAN! But I guess is mostly Castiel rejecting happiness and rejecting Dean.
Love in war time
During the whole episode, Dean and Cas didn't work together, and when they did, there were always the others, Roweena, Ketch and Sam.
So this is another clue for our Lovers Separation spec.
But let's talk about Ketch and Roweena.
Ketch was wearing a pink shirt (emulating happiness) and Roweena and him were flirting the whole episode. Why? I want to think that was LOVE IN WAR TIME. There's time for love? When you are fighting a ghost Apocalypse? There's time to allowed yourself to be happy?
And the thing was, Dean was in the middle of it. Trying to make them think IS NOT CONVENIENT. Because his head is in war now. And there's not time to think on it. But it was funny, when Roweena and Ketch were enjoying themselves in that sexual tension, it was Dean who called and interrupted them. And very, very interesting, Roweena's words right there...
"Is almost, but you can't rush this things..."
Oh gosh... Everything means something, and we had just watched the Destiel scene and Roweena same out with that, like... Okay... We have to be patients... With Dean and Cas talk, we know. We can't rush these things (but already had been 11 years!!!!!) Okay okay, I'm cool **breathing heavily**
Dean and Cas
Okay, we're here...
The thing is, Cas tried to talk with Dean, but Dean is locked in anger, and fears. But why?
Because his mother is dead? Because Jack killed her? Because he still blame Cas? Yes... But that's not the whole thing.
He's angry, and scared. Because everything he did... And everything he feels... He's terrified thinking isn't real. Isn't real to love Castiel? That was something written by Chuck? He did this? Everything they lived together? Everything Cas did and gave up for him? Is a lie? That scares him to death.
So... Cas first wanted to talk, and day again maybe "I'm sorry because your mom died for my cause... Or Jack...or because I lied to you..." But... Not... Dean cut him off... He didn't need that... He needed to know if things are real.
And he lost faith. He's mad at Cas because he thinks he doesn't see the whole situation, or because CAS isn't mad enough with his father.
But he's. And the difference between him and Dean, is Cas still believes. Still believes in Jack and in all of them. And still believes in what he did and in what he feels for Dean.
So... He ventured himself to say this.
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Gif set credit @samxdean
He had to say it, because he saw what Dean was struggling with there. The doubt about the feelings, the doubt about himself and everyone else.
We took our choices, and we did good things
Castiel is saying I GAVE EVERYTHING FOR YOU BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO DO IT. IT WAS MY DECISION. CHUCK DIDN'T WROTE IT. REMEMBER. YOU SHOWED ME WHAT FREE WILL IS.
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Gif from my beautiful friend @agusvedder
So Dean has to see these things... His love is real. His choices are real. They're real.
And why when he was talking with Sam he had another tone? Another kind of tiny hopes? And not with CAS?
Because what terrifies him the most, is knowing his feeling for his angel and the feelings Cas has for him, are lies... Just a manipulative joke.
Miscellaneous: another interesting Destiel Mirror
Amara and Chuck, by the end of the episode...
Amara abandoned Chuck, saying him: You dropped me first, now I'm dropping you.
And also, marking Chuck didn't change and he is still the selfish narcissist god he always was.
And I saw this and maybe could be played as another clue for the lovers separation spec ...
You know and because Dean is still so mad and treating Castiel so badly... This could be something that could happen in the incomings episodes.
To Conclude:
There were interesting Destiel Mirrors, but the most captivating was Ketch and Roweena interaction. Ketch emulating the happiness and both of them trying to live a romance in times of war.
The Destiel dialogue was full of feelings and emotions, fears and anger. And Castiel had to clarify to Dean they are real. Everything is real, their feelings and their choices...
I hope you like this meta, c-u in the next one.
Tagging @metafest @gneisscastiel @magnificent-winged-beast @emblue-sparks @agusvedder @weirddorkylittlediana @michyribeiro @whyjm @koshisekisen @legendary-destiel @a-bit-of-influence @thatwitchydestielfan @misha-moose-dean-burger-lover @lykanyouko @evvvissticante @savannadarkbaby @angelneedshunter @trickster-archangel @dea-stiel @mybonsai1976 @anarchiana @angelwithashotgunandtrenchcoat @trashblackrainbow @destielshipper221b @mishtho @dancingtuesdaymorning @feathered-castiel @bre95611 @zoerayne2426 @justmeand-myinsight @proccastinate
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almaasi · 5 years
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reaction post typed while watching SPN 14x15 “Peace of Mind”
CAS!!!!! CAS CAS CAS IS THE BESTEST CAS CAS CAS CAS
03:24pm
ALL RIGHT I’M READY
I ACTUALLY SLEPT LAST NIGHT SO I’M NOT CURRENTLY DYING. only, like 40% woozy and 90% drained of energy
LOOKING FORWARD TO SOMETHING WHOLESOME
another steve yockey episode?? screenplay by someone called meghan fitzmartin. sweet
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all i know about this episode is from a tumblr post that said “cas”, “funny” and “brother in law bonding”, and an instagram post with sam looking like a shady art auctioneer who sells endangered animals on the side
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03:32
k, got my bean salad, got my magnesium chloride footbath, i am as ready as can be
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03:33pm
i really hope they name the snake ‘cause i’m posting a fic tomorrow with the snake mentioned and i don’t have a name
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03:35
“scooby doo matinee”
ehehe
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03:36
digging the 1950s thing
...but not actually the 1950s?
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03:37
“.....duuude??? do you.. need help?????”
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griffin is the hero of this story and must be protected at all costs
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ah the snake is a boy snek?
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cas: “i thought you were going to sleep until the cows dragged you home”
dean: “thshsa notdhfsdg n”
 i fucking love everything about this
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i still love cas’ car
i hope nothing bad ever happens to it
and i hope we see dean taking care of it the way he takes care of baby, and/or showing cas how to do it
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the little 1950s town
reminds me of pee-wee herman tbh
also dear god now i want to write a fic where there’s a town like this except dean and cas are undercover as a gay couple and everyone’s freaking out about it because being queer is ~accepted~ in modern times but it goes against the ~historical aesthetic~ of the town and dean and cas are “faking” except accidentally change the minds of everyone through the legitimacy of their love
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03:54
cas: “saturday evening post... i look at them sometimes after you fall asleep at night”
/googles that
ooh
also..............if i didn’t ship destiel so damn hard that would be such a perfect sastiel line
“they’re very soothing”
;~; cas and his soothing, stimmy things
i love him i love him i love him
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03:58
oh maaaaan i love sam and cas but WHAT I WOULDN’T GIVE TO HAVE DEAN AND CAS ON A DATE IN A MILK SHOP
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03:59
oh the milkshake probably turns people kooky and sam’s gonna turn but cas didn’t drink the milkshake so he’s gonna be fine
edit: damn i got got.  but also yeah cas was fine
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04:01
did cas say “like a ripe melon ON the sun”?
yes he did
but why
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04:03
i like that this town seems pretty diverse despite the general view we see nowadays of the 1950s
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04:04
the way dean shrugs and say “i like bacon”
is so nauseatingly cute
i wanna cry and squish him 
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I KNEW HE HAD MICE SOMEWHERE
in my fic the snake makes friends with the mouse jack tries to feed him (the fic is a 14.5k dean/cas smut fic called Measure of Thigh Love and will be posted here tomorrow)
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04:07
lady: “morals. gotta have morals”
*eyes cas”
“you know”
whAT DOES IT MEAN
does he look like a good boy, an upstanding pillar of the community, definitely not a perpetually confused hot mess in love with a freckly bisexual trashbag
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04:08
the fact cas so calmly and blankly reads the pornographic letters talking about the guys dick
i just
does anyone even understand how much i love him
every fucking thing he does or says makes me love him more
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ANGEL FOOD CAKE & DEVILS’ FOOD CAKE
YEEEEEEEEAH OkaY DEAN
i literally just posted a fic where he eats angel food cake
AND DEAN WILLINGLY BOUGHT CAKE
BISEXUAL DEAN /  DESTIEL ALERT
also?? feeding a snake angel food cake? 10/10 good omens vibe
but also god no THE SNAKE DOESN’T EAT THAT but i love the journey they’re going on to find out what the snake eats
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04:16
the fact dean panicked that jack was choosing the devil’s cake over the angel one
um
maybe he just liked chocolate
BUT ALSO
PROOF THAT CAKE ALWAYS REPRESENTS SOMETHING
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the house lady has an mp3 player / headphones?? maybe she’s the centre of all this
edit: maybe they had pink headphones in the 1950s ????
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bird poop all down cas’ car aww
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like
i know everyone’s dying and it’s clearly terrible
but also i find the vibe of this town very calming
the clock ding-donging in the background especially, when cas visits mrs smith
also her apron is pretty
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04:22
cas: “the tall man.......... hair? he has beautiful hair?”
that’s fucking c u t e
if dean heard that he would complain for 6 hours straight and not let it go, ever, and he’d say it’s because he doesn’t like sam’s hair but it’s secretly because he’s jealous, both of sam’s hair and also that cas thinks it’s beautiful
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the “hey you’re a woman make me a drink/dinner” thing is highkey irking me though
unsure if that’s the town or just sam
then again he was clearly under the influence the first time he asked for coffee too
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cas: “you will snap the hell out of it!!!”
sam: *flinches* “sir, you watch your mouth”
omg
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haitch eee double hockey sticks
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clearly jack does still have some soul because he cares about the snake
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when the light gets his eyes like that he doubles in prettiness
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THAT PARALLEL TO WHEN CAIN!DEAN DIDN’T STAB CAS
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cas: “GOD HAS A BEARD”
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cas: “yeah, i told him about the cardigan”
10/10 shoutout to the fact dean and cas talk off screen
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04:51
“i’ll help you”
oh no is he gonna kill the snake
oh no oh no
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04:52
oh maaaaaaaaaaan i dunno how i feel about that ending
and thus i don’t know how to feel about any of this
i loved the slowness and the softness of this
and i LOVED seeing so much of cas
but after the ending all my emotions just got steamrollered
i loved that the girl saved the day by overthrowing her abusive father but also not killing him and also giving him a nice ending, so to speak
i love that there was some representation in here even though i never caught anyone’s name besides sam’s “JUSTIN SMITH” and griffin
dean and cas seem to talk in the kitchen a lot which is nice !!!
i dunno i’m just sad about the snake... jack did the right thing maybe? but also i’m bummed out about it
sooo much snake/angel/cake symbolism <3
i’m looking forward to reading metas and stuff about this episode, especially about how the sam+cas stuff is actually dean/cas stuff in disguise, because frankly it kind of looked like it even though i could’t say how at this point i time
i FREAKING LOVE SEEING SAM AND CAS WORK TOGETHER THOUGH. SO MUCH. can only imagine how hard it was for misha and jared to film this though. especially the scene where cas reads the pornographic letters, and when jared is lying on top of misha
cas casually reading porn is the best
cas bringing sam out of hypnotism by relating to him about lost armies was probably my favourite part though
i mean, excluding the bits where dean and cas talk because dfjsdjgfd i love them i can’t help it
10/10 i guess? i can’t think about anything to complain about :P was a pretty good, solid, all-rounder, yay
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tinkdw · 6 years
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hi tink ^_^ was wondering if you think both endgame human!cas and endgame angel!cas are both valid interpretations? im genuinely interested as I can't see the whole human!cas being a thing, and I'm open to learn more if you think that's what is actually going to happen. idk his experience as a human was miserable, i feel like maybe im missing something?? :0 u dont have to answer this if u dont want, as it may cause wank. ty
Hi!
Here’s my “overall” Cas meta from a while ago, nothing’s changed and a few other meta writers added to it so it’s a good view I think as to the whole concept:
https://tinkdw.tumblr.com/post/165781313412/why-do-you-think-cas-should-becomechoose-to-be
It’s a really crappy topic for divisiveness, in my experience the people who have, relatively, as much as possible, objectively analysed the author intent in the show have come to a pretty solid conclusion within the meta community that Human!Cas appears to be endgame based not on his experience as a human but the outcome, his overall arc since season 4 and the Chekhovs gun style flamingly blatant reminders throughout the show such as the repeated asking him if he wouldn’t rather be human, his choosing to be an Angel to go into battle powerful enough to save the people he loves and putting what he wants to one side and his clearly not wanting to be a soldier anymore.
It’s kind of like saying endgame Dean is for him to be emancipated and being able to openly watch Oprah and Disney etc even though on the surface he says he doesn’t like that stuff. Because the pretty obvious sublimation is there.
With Cas the sublimation isn’t quite as clear but it’s really all there. Yes he suffered as a human but he literally came out of it and said he missed it, while previous to being human he was curious and wanted to try human things (eg kissing meg) and afterwards we’ve seen him actively choosing to act more human, smiting less and fist fighting instead, acting more human, I mean the big one for me was when Dean asked him “and you’re okay with that?!” When he told him he got grace back to be able to fight and he just totally brushed it off saying he needed it to fight:
https://tinkdw.tumblr.com/post/171244776157/kanayaks-tinkdw-cas-i-got-my-grace-back-i
He later takes more grace which he had been previously rejecting but only to save Dean and then took his own grace back when again it’s needed for a fight whilst telling us the quote that the craziest thing a man can do is die.
He’s literally saying he’s killing himself / his wants for the greater good.
He needs grace for the fight and to be a good useful soldier and to save his family but does he want it?
Want v Need.
One of the biggest themes of the show.
Cas needs his grace to be useful when times are hard but is that what he wants?
In my opinion the show has repeatedly emphasised that it isn’t. I also think it’s clear he doesn’t want to be a soldier anymore and these things go hand in hand.
Others may use canon to say they think it is. Both interpretations are totally valid as long as they are based on canon and actually analysing the canon in a consistent manner.
The issue I have is certain people cherry picking and projecting their stories into it and claiming it’s an overall Cas’ arc since inception meta. That’s just not how meta writing works.
You can absolutely write that stuff but you can’t claim it’s objective and fully inclusive of canon and logical when it is just picking parts that fit your own desire for the character. Like, I didn’t want Lucifer to be centre stage in s13 but I didn’t just ignore it when it was.
Cherry picking things ie the one time Cas said “I just wanna be an Angel” when he was depressed, distraught at Dean’s death and wanted to stop feeling things as proof it’s what he really wants isn’t what I’d call meta writing of the whole story. That’s like saying Sam really wants to be a hunter and tag along beside his brother in the impala on the road for the rest of his life because he was a depressed, vengeful mess after Jess’ death and said ok let’s go. Is it really what Sam wants for himself and the rest of his life though? No way! That’s been clear too.
Even worse when some people claim to be bullied or triggered by other view points. Someone even screenshotted a few sentences I wrote that if you took away the top and bottom sentence looked like I was making no sense and anti Cas (me anti Cas. Lmao) but in the context obviously made sense and decided to create a wank storm about it because they didn’t like human cas meta and wanted to make me look bad. People need to grow up. This isn’t a meta discussion about interpretation it’s being a dick and being unable to contemplate another interpretation.
It makes a discussion totally impossible which moots the entire point of blogging on tumblr in the first place.
Absolutely all interpretations are valid, it’s just a case of how you pitch your interpretation. If you want to state your interpretation of a character absolutely go for it! I used to be all up for Angel!Cas meta until a few utter assholes decided to be personal and ridiculous about it. Now I don’t touch it with a barge pole. Same as M*gstiel.
But that doesn’t invalidate anyone’s good, thought out, canon analysing endgame Angel!Cas meta.
For example my own interpretation of the siren episode is different to many other meta writers, we can discuss it and have polite and great conversations without getting triggered / defensive because we aim to discuss author intent, our own interpretations and do so in a civil manner. There’s one meta writer in particular I’ve had altercations with in the past over some differences of opinion on speculative things and ways of writing meta but who I get on well with, admire and like talking to because we are adults and literally get over it.
There’s also a few people who unfortunately though I agree meta wise about things on the show have been so nasty irl to myself and others that I’ve cut them off completely.
Interpretations are interpretations until they are canon, I’m lucky that most of mine have become so or are clearly on their way but I can also be wrong ie I thought Asmodeus would be more important to character exposition than he was, life moves on. I also didn’t realise quite what it would mean that he would be a Bucklemming own concept and not really used by anyone else, I thought perhaps he’d be used by others by the wasn’t, now I have that knowledge in my pocket meta on anything that sets up for Bucklemming use is kinda meh don’t bother analysing it much it’s probably not hugely important to the overall story being told by the showrunner, ie Nick.
All interpretations are valid is very true. Eg. I can interpret Cas’ story as a metaphor for a queer kid (and in particular trans) coming from a conservative family and emancipating themselves and someone else can interpret it as an immigrants story.
If the show starts changing this then I will change my meta, because my meta is an analysis of what the show is doing, not what I want. For example I never wanted Dean to be queer representation, I was totally heteronormative and would have been totally cool with him ending up alone or with a woman, it’s the show that made me want something different for him through consistent and repeated canon blatant hints at something else. Same as Cas, I was totally ready in season 4 to just like him as a cool character and for him to bog off back to Heaven after being useful but he was captivating as an ally and it grew from there. For ages I would totally have put to one side the hints at a romantic part of his story and loved for him to become the third brother, it’s the show that made me see more between him and Dean, I never would have imagined that myself, I was a boring heterormative adult more interested in the individual characters’ stories than shipping, I thought shipping was just maritime transferral of goods before I was like wtf and googled Destiel after 10x05 cos I’d finally found a name for what I’d been seeing evolve for 6 years.
Sam goes for Cas’ own individual arc and what he wants. I never had a clue what I wanted from him until the show told me what I should want by repeating something clearly over 10 years. If they suddenly change any part of the story then they change it (and I’ll be annoyed they changed something so entrenched but I’m not going to bitch @ tptb for it or whatever, it’s their choice, they’re the creator and once it’s changed I’ll meta that) but so far it’s been the same, clear story to me for 10 years.
An interpretation is an interpretation but it’s when you start, as I do and some others do, saying you believe this one is the authors intention that you have to be more careful about backing it up with canon and logic and not getting #triggered when someone disagrees.
If you’re going to pitch it as what you believe the author intent is then you have to leave your personal projections at the door and work solely based on the canon, the production, what the author may have said outside of canon etc. It has nothing to do with your own wants for the character or show.
It also means when someone has valid canon supported arguments to the contrary you can have a really interesting discussion and I love that.
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I can't anymore with the destiel theories, not because they make no sense (well sometimes they really make no sense) but because no matter what they are THEORIES based on a show that pulls the bait and switch since years. Yes, we can see what you see but in the end it won't matter because they were just taking you for a ride to keep u hooked. People writing essays on how sure they are it will become canon are making people believe on something that will 100% guaranteed let them down.
Hi anon! Another message that I’m replying late, I apologize to you too. I think we all know why the show does some things to keep the fans returning to watch, and also why some crew members encourage the same fans with little tidbits about the ship. Of course some meta readings go beyond anything imaginable or realistic and reach levels of Ancient Aliens. 
Sadly people are SO desperate looking for some kind of confirmation that they take whatever they can, and some metas take advantage of that. What bothers me it’s not so much that, after all they can have whatever reading, and yes I feel for the people that get hurt in the process year after year, but they also are free to believe in those metas. What bothers me as you may have read in some of my long rants, is the no acceptance of other fans seeing things for what they are: baiting. Or just and simple policing everything and everyone that doesn’t share the same views. Now that’s fucked up. 
And that bullying HAS to stop. Because they are hurting even more people and even when we call them on that, some of them, especially some meta, gets offended and goes on a rampage against people that only say: I don’t agree with you. At this point it doesn’t matter if we all see destiel, a wall painted certain way that says is canon or the painting of a ship on the set...we ALL should call these people out to stop being bullies to other fans that don’t agree with them. 
This kind of hive mind when we all have to see the same has to stop. And also the policing: going to other people’s blogs, sending them messages, leaving them hate, trying to teach them “how to watch the show”, ALL OF THAT, that we so criticize about bronlies, we have to agree that has to stop. Sharing opinions is ok, having a reading is ok, writing meta is ok… making a cult around their views and persecuting everyone that do not agree, going to their blogs, now that’s fucked up.
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naruhearts · 7 years
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hii! So I've been following your awesome blog for awhile but I never saw u get asks about spn eps or anything. I read your tags though and you have so much to say (: you're a huge destiel shipper too so what you say makes sense..I hope u don't mind if I ask u what you thought about 12x11 and the Dean/waitress scene! lots of people are talking about it and i think u talked a bit about it in your tags
Aww thanks, anon!!
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Oh yeah, I have a LOT to say about 12x11! To get to the point:
I really don’t think Dean slept with Elke, nor do I think we were queer-baited. It’s a consistent pattern…we technically haven’t seen Dean ‘blow off steam’ with her. We don’t even know what it means. They either made out or she came onto him first (he was slammed/’roofied’ on 4 shots of tequila). This is why she seemingly apologizes for taking advantage of him. 
Scratch that - Elke may have been lying about the entire thing (I should reblog a perfect meta that bluestar86, postmodernmulticolouredcloak and numerous others wrote concerning this scene).
Later on Dean mentions that it’s like it “never happened“. He doesn’t recall if they got jiggy. Reminder, he hasn’t hit on any women in a long time (“first action in I don’t know how long”), which aligns with the longing retcon. 12x11 was a bisexual Dean gift, so I saw what the writers were trying to establish (’He rode on Larry’ jfc). The most important thing is that he basically turned Elke down by not showing up when they were supposed to meet outside the bar. In the past, we could have assumed Dean was landing home run. While it might be true that Dean and Cas aren’t yet romantically official and that he’s still allowed to canoodle with women/men, I don’t believe Dean did anything with the waitress. What Elke said made no sense - she emphasized “how busy she was”. Therefore, how were her and Dean able to properly fool around? Harmless flirting, then her scheduling to meet him after, fits. She seemed jealous that Larry the bull received the action, not her. 
Suppose Dean was eager enough to hook up. Why did he ditch her easily? Riding Larry and catching Gideon became a priority. That was all him lol.
Plus, the bartender instead of Elke saw Dean leave to chase Gideon. Gideon’s a Cas parallel: he’s the one who left the bloody handprint on the tree, which reminded memory loss!Dean of Cas (his excited “Our best friend’s an angel! Whaaat?!?”). How obvious can they get? Gideon told his loved ones to run away and save themselves. Guess who says nearly the exact same lines? *12x12 promo!!* 
We can conclude that Dean has ditched potential hook-ups to chase after Cas, the man he loves. So, the ‘blowing off steam’ comment was most likely Elke testing Dean. Either way, just remember that Dean being attracted to people doesn’t negate his love for Cas (ibelieveinthelittletreetopper). I also think it’s quite obvious Dean never goes through with sleeping around anymore because Cas is the one he ultimately wants. Notice how there’s been a super substantial decrease of one-night stands over the seasons, especially now that him and Cas are approaching a good, healthy place aka we’re so damn close to canon Destiel that a kiss or intimate handholding is all we need
p.s. I just realized that Elke’s comment of “You had the hots for Larry as soon as you walked in” sounded awfully like “omfg you’re gay I assumed you and I could hook up but nope, you rode Larry instead then left me”. Maybe that’s why she slapped Dean at the waffle house - she was mislead! *screams silently*
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incarnateirony · 4 years
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My frustration with fandom never really ends. SPN is now more alchemical in it’s structure than Full Metal Alchemist, but because it’s not literally titled that or ELI5′ed to the crowd as specifically that, while even using direct quotes from major books in the study, people handwave it away *still*, to this *day*, or act like they’re being giving saying “I guess they might nod to it sometimes”. S 4-5 wasn't titled Full Emo Christian but everyone figured it out. That’s about the equivalent of saying S4-5 “nodded to the bible sometimes”. Honestly worse. Back then it wasn’t related bible verse titles or full cinematic color work and framing and yet here I am, hearing people say things like “I mean I guess if we got there,” like no, guys, we’re already there, we’ve been there for years. That’s like being halfway through S5 and acting generous saying “I mean I guess if they started using the bible I could see it happening” like guys-- guys-- GUYS.
It’s one thing to not UNDERSTAND it all because it’s so niche. That’s what asking questions and study and meta is for. It’s another to just keep walling it off and refusing to even think of it. Hell even if you don’t want to engage the alchemical stuff consciously, even that’s fine, but the passive aggression of dismissal is e x h a u s t i n g
I’ve even been called dogmatic for pointing this out. So in season 4-5, if literally nobody knew what Christianity was except you because IDK, AU where everybody’s been gargling Zeus for thousands of years instead, the One Random Person  -- you knew about all the related biblical, apocryphal and other texts and kept trying to point out the Whore of Babylon, and angels, and seals, and Lucifer, and revelations, and orders of operations in the text -- and people kept going “MEH SEEMS FAKE” without actually trying to get it how fucking absurd would it seem? Or when someone goes “NO” and throws down their collective textbooks about literally everything happening in the show, and you sit here literally trying to explain why the show is working the way it is and how the Book of Revelations is applicable -- is that dogmatic, or simply aware and studied in a topic? 
I mean, someone could say angels are a totally made up thing for TV and had no foundation, or someone can explain to the reader where these things come from. Now, if the person does not get knocked off their viewpoint, because they can point out all the bible verses quoted or story-enacted, and point out that it is literally the plot, are they being dogmatic or are they just being based about wtf the story is using as its inspiration/playbook?
I really don’t know where I’m going with this post beyond venting, because I’m exhausted of enduring microaggressions over this kind of thing just because people don’t WANT to-- I dunno. It varies person to person. Conflicts with what they want out of the show? Just don’t understand it and have zero reason to pursue it? Hell the latter is fine unless you turn around and slap at someone over it. 
The question is, is it truly dogmatic to just get outright annoyed at the passive aggressive mentality and deletion of alternative traditions per convenience when you literally won’t get budged off of the source text, or is this something fandom really needs to think about a little more? There’s people to defend others for their queer lens, their poc lens, their gender lens, whatever. Imagine if you had not a single soul defending you for, say, seeing Destiel, even, to make it simple for the average reader. No queer lens defense. “But it’s queer stuff not religion!” and yeah. And some of us have followed paths of whatever sort before we even admitted to ourselves we were queer and the stuff is JUST as attached to your mental lens and identity as anything else. Come on y’all. Be more mindful, and more open. You don’t have to pursue a path but it’d be great if I could stop leaving group chats because I’m tired of getting slapped at and diminished because it’s not the one Western Approved Religion being used, and instead I’m enjoying thoughtful use of a niche philosophy I’ve spent my life on. 
Don’t understand it? Cool, fine, awesome. Nobody’s saying you have to. Shit on it because you don’t want to understand it, or act generous in denial of dismissing the core elements entirely but going like “if it happened”, miss me with that. Again, to put this in public perception, what about people going “I don’t see anything at all whatsoever with Dean and Cas being a unit but I guess if they went there it’d be fine” here in season fucking 15. And there being. ZERO PEOPLE. ZERO SAFE SPACES. Where you can avoid being slapped at, and then, IDK, get accused of Gay Agenda when you’re pointing out “But 15.03 and 15.09 and like the entire history since S9???” -- seems pretty stupid, doesn’t it. If not outright assholish, even if it’s not consciously being an asshole.
Every time you hear that shit about Destiel you get annoyed, right? You probably hear it about once a month or every few months? Try like, almost daily on something else important to you, with zero defenders, zero safe spaces, and zero thought about why you’re investing yourself in something impacting and deeply seated in you. There is no hermeticist group chat. There’s in fact three hermetic and hermetic-adjacent people to hide in our corner together trying to enjoy this. Four if you count the one approaching it from an angle of academia which, not to be offensive, but from the inside over here I can see all of the weirdly angled trajectories that don’t actually sit right in the usage of it but bless them for trying. The difference between knowledge and understanding, if you will. Five if you count my Jewish friend that intrinsically understands about half of what I talk about because of the overlap with Qabbalah. That’s it. That’s what we have. And I don’t think people really understand how toxic and destructive to enjoyment it is to catch it from everywhere.
Like has it occurred to the “MEH”ers that I literally built an entire spec series based on this structural theology use in plot last year that not only came true, but continues to, to the point I’m now remastering the videos with new content to make new spec moving forward, or--
Like c’mon y’all. I’m not a magic 8ball, I just know the goddamn source text for reasons that would be REALLY great if people stop using passive aggressive language to dismiss. Engage it, don’t engage it; understand it, don’t understand it. That’s fine. It’s the slapback and phrasing of rejection that’s the issue I deal with often.
I’m now at a point where I’m hanging in Daf Yomi servers and niche holes in the wall in fandom just to avoid this shit and it’s just P E R S I S T E N T.
Thanks.
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