#and then publicly bit by bit

[asterwild]

Flame-breasted Fruit Dove (Ptilinopus marchei) from the Philippines.

#id in alt #avianaugust #avianaugust2023 #birds #dove #animals #animal art #nature #going for a soft scribbly style yet evocative of old nat history illustrations #really should have experimented before august actually started but i did not so i guess we're just going with this :') #anyway! only 3 posts a week + will switch to doggust later but eventually the whole list will be drawn & viewable on patreon #and then publicly bit by bit

[majunju]

set after the fontaine aq

#genshin impact #my art #i feel like childe wld rly appreciate lumine publicly acknowledging their friendship bc to him things have always been a bit onesided

[daily-imbibitorlunae]

drawing imbibitor lunae everyday part 5:

he is not paid enough for this shit

#imbibitor lunae #honkai star rail #bailu hsr #hsr fanart #dan heng il #i am going to be without power & internet tomorrow so day 6 may be a bit late! #also to the anon who sent me a suggestion i will probably do it this week sometime :) #more suggestions are always welcome!!! #feel free to chat with me on my main as well (begaydoalchemy) !!! #im trying to keep this blog drawing content only so i probably wont answer asks publicly to make it easier for folks to scroll

[wisteriagoesvroom]

thinking about nico rosberg and how happy he seems in retirement. and how much bravery it actually took to retire on that high, to say "i'm happy, i don't need more", and refuse to get bogged down in all the discourse and the hate. about his random exploits making a youtube channel and openly figuring out who he was away from the sport. how unstressed he is now compared to 2016. i'm thinking about how the f1 circuit chews people up and spits them out even if you go in with all the tools and money in the world, because money and resource is very insulating, but you're still always paying and paying in different ways - and at what cost. how he's now thriving and hydrated and his hairline is safe and he's able to stay on the sidelines of a sport that he's loved so much. able to enjoy his winnings and his nepo baby money and his family time. the way he's hilarious on camera, and says things that sometimes are outrageous (all things about lewis - like he's soooo lewis biased he's basically running a stan account but on sky tv actually... drop the burner twt @, nico). but sometimes he says things that are also really needed (being loud on camera about lando being a great driver who will have his time and his win). like, maybe we have to stan actually.

plus look at this stance:

#nico rosberg #nr6 #as cx said: Du bist Cuntmeister!! #did i expect to end shanghai gp being a nico apologist? #no. #but the f1 world moves in mysterious ways #i won't question it #it simply is. #wisteria talks #also he's a rare personality that isn't PR-ironed lmao #he's publicly a lil messy and a bit odd sometimes and doesn't seem interesting in toning it down for anyone and therefore very entertaining #STAY YOU NICO BABE

[elvispresley]

The Beatles - New York press conference (1965)

#they were so done with the press at that point #it stills amazes me how he would say jokes like this so publicly #it’s the kind of joke that i would think in my head but i wouldn’t say it out loud so easily #and he just did it. he really insisted that it was a joke so i assume that he felt a bit bad to have said that #but i admire him for saying this during a PRESS CONFERENCE !! couldn’t be me! #he definitely had guts. and of course back then he was considered the rude beatle but the press was still so fascinated by him #he was really special #also he looked so good that day. they all did. 1965 is a powerful year #john lennon #the beatles #george harrison #paul mccartney #ringo starr #1960s #1965 #press conference #classic rock #beatlesedit #edit

[jakeperalta]

have quite literally never been less excited about a taylor announcement in my life

#girl why are you collabing with someone your boyfriend was just being publicly very offensive about???? i'm embarrassed #also new song is good but putting it on a cd that's only available at one concert venue is just bizarre to me #even the 'we saw what you were all saying about lana 🤪' rubbed me up the wrong way a bit #like ok did you see anything else people have been saying or....? #literally read her announcement post like this 🤨😒🙄😐😕 i fear my true swiftie days may be over idk #talking #taylor swift #ts discourse

[starving-mimi]

Draw more terrorbeak wilson 🔫

idk what you're talking about, I still am drawing him I think

#dst #wilson #dst wilson #Terrorbeak Wilson AU #mobs AU #yet again asking for help naming that AU plz #this is obviously a joke because the saladmander wilson is just wilson but as a saladmander while terrorbeak was some werewolf type bullshi #i still doodle terrorbeak wilson but just never post it... because these doodles don't look interesting to me... #maybe one day i'll post a doodle dump of shit i don't find interesting enough to post but eh i probably won't #the only real thing these AUs have in common are that i post about it a bit then never again #at least these gets posted publicly

[raytorosaurus]

Sorry that this post is long but I would appreciate it if other white people read it and thought about it. I've been reading a lot of posts and the tags on them and I just want to make it very clear that this conversation isn't really about Ray getting 'attention' or his talent getting acknowledged. We should not be minimising this to “we need to acknowledge that Ray is an excellent guitar player” because everyone knows that, all you need is ears. True, it went largely unappreciated by fans at the height of mcr’s fame, but at least that's different now. What we're talking about now is about so much more than that - in fact, part of the problem is Ray getting reduced to nothing but the guy who shuts up and does the solos. We're talking about a pattern of behaviour that has been so deeply rooted in this fandom for so long that it's almost invisible to white people. It's a collective problem but it's perpetuated by individuals and needs to be addressed at an individual level first before it can begin to change.

I will acknowledge that, at least in my circles, things have started to change a little bit this tour in regards to people noticing him and discussing him beyond just his solos. But on the flipside that's only highlighted the larger issue, which boils down to how differently Ray is treated from the rest of the band. This is a consistent pattern. If he's not being ignored, he's behind separated out and set apart from the others - either being put on a weird pedestal or given suspiciously backhanded compliments.

Back in 2020 when I'd be lucky to see three posts about him a day on my dash I used to spend a lot of time scrolling through old inactive blogs to queue Ray pictures. Back in the pre-breakup days, if he wasn't being called "princess fro fro" he was being called ugly or he was the target of straight-up racial slurs. There was a weird narrative that he like, lowkey bullied Frank or took more credit than he deserved for mcr's guitar parts (which is painfully ridiculous and only proves that nobody paid attention to a single word Ray's ever said). Until very recently, the punchline of one of the main "jokes" (quotation marks because the word joke implies it was ever actually funny in the first place lol) in this fandom relied on Ray being at least casually homophobic. And these were blogs that posted Ray - I can only imagine how much worse the people who actively didn't like him would have been.

Nowadays, I post a lot of Ray content so I see a lot of tags from people outside my circle of mutuals. Let me tell you, there are Patterns. First of all, there's the classic "tags that completely ignore Ray to make the Ray post about Frank and/or Gerard instead." But more and more often what I'm seeing is if he's not being infantilised, he's being treated as some hyper-masculine, omni-competent, suave sex god or something - each of these things are equally reductive and dehumanising - and each of them are different manifestations of racist stereotypes and common fandom attitudes towards people of colour. Sure, Frank also gets weirdly infantilised a lot, but in a very different way - Frank is woobified in the way people often treat their fictional faves out of affection and horniness, whereas Ray is just reduced down to a personalityless nice guy - something that is also very common with fictional characters of colour. Then there are people who act like he's some kind of long-suffering untouchable genius who puts up with the little weirdos in his band because they worship his talent or something, as if he's not on equal footing with them as their peer and creative partner. And then you get the people characterising him as some kind of rough macho domineering dude because he's…tall? I guess? And plays guitar with confidence? Or is it just because he's brown.

I just..genuinely want you to sit down and think about a reason Ray might be singled out and separated from the rest of the band like this.

Is it because he's quiet in interviews? Mikey was always quieter. Also, Ray has done a lot more interviews than you think, they just haven't been circulated by fans as much. Also, he's literally the second-most featured band member in lotms - you know, the almost sole source for their fandom-driven personalities back in the day.

Is it because he's less feminine than the others? Both Mikey and Frank regularly present as more traditionally masculine in their fashion choices and mannerisms etc. The only thing “more masculine” about Ray than the others is...his body type I guess. There’s a whole conversation there about the intersection of gender and race and racist perceptions thereof.

Is it because he's private and keeps out of the public eye? So does Gerard.

Is it because people historically found him less attractive than the others? I shouldn't have to explain that that was the racism all along (yes, I know there's no accounting for taste, but Ray was regularly and actively mocked for his non-white features, and noughties beauty standards, especially in the alt music scene, were overwhelmingly white and racist. I regularly get tags to the effect of "when did Ray get so hot???" and honestly it's pretty telling that he's only widely acknowledged as attractive now that he's lost weight (whole other important discussion on fatphobia in this fandom here btw) and his hair has changed texture and beauty standards have shifted so certain racial features are fetishised rather than mocked.

Is it because he wasn't involved in one of the iconic bandom boylove duos? News flash, all "ships" are made up fan theories. Rpf and/or tinhatting is based on what fans notice and what rumours they perpetuate. Besides them kissing on stage a few times to make a point over 15 years ago, you know frerard lore because people talk about frerard lore. You know petekey lore because people talk about petekey lore. The truth is nobody cared enough to pay attention to Ray back then. (To be clear, this isn't me trying to tinhat anything about him, I'm just once again pointing out the obvious disparity in how Ray is treated compared to the others.)

I consistently see people acting baffled at how he's been behaving this tour - skipping or bouncing around the stage, eating his solos up, being physically affectionate with his bandmates. I can tell you he has literally always acted like that. Sure, this tour is special - he's certainly a lot more confident than he used to be and seems happier than ever, but really the biggest thing that's changed is now we get full footage of every show so it's literally impossible to overlook.

I also see people acting baffled when others point out the way Ray's been mistreated by fandom - being shocked that anyone would crop Ray out of band photos etc. I guarantee you that almost every single one of you has reblogged pictures where he's been actively cropped out, because some of the most iconic Frank-and-Gerard pictures that constantly get passed around on here are just that. "But how would we know" - sure, it's not your fault, but it's a small example of the way the more blatant Ray erasure from the past gets passed down to new fans and perpetuated by them unknowingly in turn. Cropping him out of pictures is just the tip of the iceberg in terms of how his talent and personality and significance to the emotional heart of the band has been overlooked. I can't tell you how many iconic well-known quotes from interviews or paragraphs from Not the Life it Seems directly precede facts about/quotes from Ray that nobody seems to have heard.

So again, this is not really a popularity thing - it's hard to measure but I'd say in the past few months Ray's overtaken Mikey in terms of mass popularity, at least on tumblr. You don't need to performatively post once a day about how Ray Toro Is God or how much you want him to rail you or how much you want him to rail your white fave because "he's the only one who can top" (you Realise how this sounds right?). I'm just asking you to confront your internalised biases and the external biases ingrained in the culture and history of this fandom, and start treating Ray the same way you treat the rest of the guys. He's not an untouchable god and he's not a sunshine cupcake, he's just Some Guy who's really fucking good at guitar. He's a proud stay at home dad, he's cringe as fuck, he loves to cook, he listens to podcasts about fucking Apple products for fun, he writes (very) shitty poetry, he takes his sons to women's rights marches, he invests in bitcoin, he cries when his mom sends him postcards, he drives a douchey car, he loves children's cartoons, he's a corny liberal just like the others, he loves his friends wholly and openly. Just…please acknowledge the history of racism in this fandom, think about how you as an individual might knowingly or unknowingly perpetuate it, and try to do better. And please just treat him like a human.

#at least we're HAVING this conversation it's so so much worse on twitter #anyway. i've discussed and complained about a lot of this stuff on discord and that's my bad for not talking about it more publicly #like. i don't want to come off as just bitter about my fave or something because it's a much deeper problem that #but that just means i need to be very clear abt my point #hopefully you give this post the time of day i know it's long but i do think it's important #ray toro #racism #ref #** #gonna pin this for a bit too

[qtubbo]

Some of guys need to learn to just turn off a stream and leave it, if your made uncomfortable by a joke that is completely fine for someone to make, that may have themes that make you uncomfortable you just have to deal with it. IF something making you uncomfortable it’s your job to avoid the content not complain that it’s making it hard to enjoy something. If a QSMP cc has a bit that doesn’t sit well with you, then don’t touch the stream that’s it that’s all you need to do.

Publicly shaming and/or harassing a CC for making light of something negative they experience daily/weekly/consistently is repulsive behavior. I know it may be upsetting to have to not watch some people you like, but you’re going to have to deal, not every bit will be to your tastes and you just have to accept it. This goes for every cc by the way, if your made uncomfortable by a bit they have it’s your job to leave the situation no matter how much you enjoy their content or friends content.

I also know you may want to find a moral reason to excuse your discomfort, you can just be uncomfortable it doesn’t matter the reason you can just not like a bit. You don’t need to write up an essay saying all the reasons it’s hurting you, it can just hurt and the best solution? Stop watching. Maybe you’re right maybe there is something wrong with a bit or plot line, then make an argument that you will send privately to the cc, if you think this is a general issue with the server, with non direct target then go ahead and post it but it’s just harassment to publicly shame someone, their name blasted.

It doesn’t matter which bit it is, if you think there is a serious issue with a bit/arc that needs to be addressed, you must and I mean must address it PRIVATELY once you are @ someone on twitter, complaining on tumblr or twitter, talking about it somewhere it will get to other people not just the target, you have done something wrong. I’m phrasing this vaguely on purpose because I think this is a wide spread issue rather than just the one most recent event, and so I ask you to treat it as such. Also do not harass anyone who does this stuff, just leave them alone, death threats will always be inappropriate.

TURN OFF THE STREAM IF YOU’RE UNCOMFORTABLE ITS YOU’RE EXPERIENCE OF WATCHING YOU DON’T HAVE TO WATCH THE STREAM.

#qsmp #Qsmp fandom neg #qsmp fandom crit #discourse #Crit #fandom neg #fandom crit #neg #I have so many bits uncomfortable with and I leave them alone because I do not believe it necessary to publicly shame a cc for a joke #I just didn’t like

[sneez]

victor kain chronic pain nation rise up (credit to @transdankovsky for this idea :-D)

/ id: two digital drawings. the first image shows victor kain and daniil dankovsky sitting together; daniil is taking victor’s pulse. inside a speech bubble above victor’s head is a screenshot of a question from the duolingo russian course, in which the sentence ‘я – хороший пациент, у меня всегда всë болит’ is translated as ‘i am a good patient, i always have pain everywhere’. the second image shows daniil looking politely horrified. end id. /

#artwork #pathologic #victor kain #daniil dankovsky #this might seem a bit out of left field given that i havent talked about it at all publicly but victor having chronic pain is one of my Most #Established and Important Headcanons and i think about it all the time. i should write something about it but i have lost the ability to #write it seems :-/ but i can still create Images! so here is one :-D #there is a lot of projection involved i will confess but i also think it makes a lot of sense for his character so i am not ashamed of that #not that anyone should be ashamed of projecting i just feel embarrassed when something is Too obvious. baring my soul via the depressed dad #anyway i imagine him to have multiple chronic illnesses and health problems but primarily fibromyalgia in the pain department #but he hasnt really realised that it's abnormal so he hasnt mentioned it to anyone. until he brings it up offhandedly to daniil (as #pictured) and daniil goes through every stage of grief at the same time #hes got problems. hes gottem #as i said it was icarus who had the idea and ive been thinking about it ever since :-D ily ic #thenks duolingo russian course for my life my russian is still incredibly sparse but im tryin. im getting somewhere. very (very) slowly #i hope you are all doing well my dear friends!!! i am so sorry i have been so absent this term has been absurdly busy :-( i miss you all

[katabay]

sketchbook / the mabinay spring (2023)

I’ve been busy, so I haven’t had the time to finish up some comics I have in my WIP folder, so it’s time for some traditional art from my sketchbooks! lately I’ve been drawing foods and drinks and just recently got comfortable enough with it to start adding some color to them 🍓🍓🍓

#I may have to keep drawing strawberries forever. I feel such inner peace like yes….YES……strawberries my best friend strawberrries #(I’m actually a raspberry and orange kind of guy when it comes to fruits and citrus but I haven’t cracked the code on drawing raspberries) #the colored ones are from my personal sketchbook so I won’t be sharing much from it in the future #but the one behind it is one I’ve been keeping that I might post pages out of once a month publicly and once a week for patreon #(in the future) that way everyone can see at least a little bit from it but it’s primary function is like a thank u card for patreon suppor #but my personal sketchbook is for Me Only so I’ll probably only every share little peaks once in a blue moon

[thunder-sea]

Spoilers for Fontaine Act 5 and previous archon quests!

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What's really sad about Furina is that she has been seeing what is a god in human terms. She sees them as perfect, unmovable deities rather than beings who do make mistakes, therefore trying to become 'perfect', lovable, and unmoving herself.

She hasn't had the chance to actually meet/get to know the archons like the traveler has, hence why she has such a naive worldview of what is a 'god', while we know them as imperfect (and sometimes silly) beings.

The archons we've got to meet have had little knowledge on how humans work, made mistakes that would affect their own living, have made enough bad decisions to start a civil war, have had their own people doubt and hurt them, have cried, have tried to lay low, have been beaten, have felt heartache, etc etc...

This whole demanding act that Furina put upon herself was sometimes unnecessarily harsh on herself, because archons are more human than she thinks.

#genshin spoilers #fontaine archon quest #fontaine archon quest spoilers #fontaine spoilers #archon quest spoilers #genshin #genshin impact #genshin furina #furina #gi furina #when our sweet peach said that her crying was her hydro overflowing... #i was thinking 'oh bby girl venti would cry over not being served alcohol. it's fine to be stressed' #thoughts #idk if people are missing the point of this post? #I’m saying Furina’s worldview is inexperienced and she therefore didn’t give herself enough leeway that other gods would give themselves #It is absolutely understandable how she acted and she is a perfectionist as well as somewhat of a people pleaser #She was put into a position without divinity with little knowledge and so much stress was put onto her since she didn’t know how to act #I’m saying if she did know how other gods acted maybe she would’ve allowed herself to cry publicly and maybe take alone time a bit more #But that’s the thing- she didn’t #That’s what’s so sad. Her perfectionism and people pleasing was doubled and she wouldn’t allow herself to be her view of ‘ungodly’ #or even allow her people to eventually accept their god as maybe a little bit meek. They certainly put more pressure and anxiety on her. #I feel for Furina. It definitely wasn’t her fault. She is who she is and any human w inexperience would behave the same way

[pillowprinx]

if you’re following my main and/or art blog then you’ll already know I’m remaking blogs, I don’t know if I’ll be remaking this blog any time soon but if you’d like to know if/when that happens then you’ll have to follow my new blogs

#whimsy whispers #also remaking my discord account for the same reason as why I’m remaking blogs #as mentioned on my other blogs I’m not saying my new urls publicly so you’ll have to message me for the new urls #I don’t think the people I’m trying to prevent from finding my blogs knows of this blog cause I only gave this url to people through dms #but like I’m still paranoid about the possibility of certain people monitoring my blogs and somehow finding this one #I’m honestly a bit worried they’ll still find my new blogs despite all the effort I’m going through to make sure they don’t but idk #I’m not sure if that can be helped or not #but yeah farewell thanks for following this blog #I know I wasn’t very active here and i honestly don’t know if/when I’ll make another nsfw/suggestive art blog #it’s fun art to do just like as said on main and my art blog I’m burnt out uninspired and just don’t find much joy in art lately so #anyways yeah message my other blogs if you’re interesting in following me to my new accounts toodles

[decamarks]

haha get +RIGGED +RETOPOLOGIZED +RENDERED

#i actually did this a bit ago & just never posted it. i've been working on something with them for the past week or so... >=) #definitely considering doing something to make gabriel's wings look a bit Less Crap when posed but EH. they still animate just fine #some topology isn't Perfect but it doesn't matter TOO much considering a lot of it is like. either armor or a straight up skeleton. #BTW if you want these rigs for anything feel free to message me! i'll probably upload them somewhere publicly after my thing is done... #ultrakill

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

okay wait laughingstock concept Incoming: so im imagining some of the neighbors (maybe Julie & Frank) noticing that Barnaby & Howdy are a lil fruity, yk yk. and Julie's like damn, i guess we have to play matchmaker here.

so naturally they wind up getting the whole neighborhood involved. everybody's a wingman here. Poppy's dropping hints when Howdy drops off groceries, Wally is constantly asking Barnaby to go get him things from the bodega, etc etc. Howdy and Barnaby are facing this sudden change in town-wide behavior with slight concern and bemusement

eventually - lets say Julie, Sally, and Wally - get Barnaby into the bodega and then abruptly leave like "don't have too much fun without us you two *wink wink nudge nudge*". once they're gone (read: very obviously hiding outside & watching through the window) Barnaby & Howdy turn to each other like:

Barnaby: you think we should tell them we're already married?

Howdy: let them have their fun - they'll figure it out eventually

#dont have the mental fortitude to Draw This but i still wanted to share the thought #'but how would no one notice that theyre literally married' #easy: theyre very relaxed and secure in their relationship. also howdy has a strict 'no pda at work' rule #also because its funny. we can stretch rationality for the Bit cmon now #through the power of the bit Anything is possible #and we all know the neighbors are Peak Sillies so. yk #it strikes me that once they get Bored of the constant 'matchmaking' #barnaby and howdy stage this whole thing where they 'confess' to each other So dramatically and So publicly #they make it an Event #sally is swooning from the drama and spectacle of it all. wally is trying to paint the moment as fast as possible #julie is so excited she's close to passing out. eddie is crying. so is poppy. frank is taking the credit. home is just happy to be there #as soon as barnaby and howdy retreat out of sight they burst out laughing for a solid ten minutes #GAH THE BRAINROT THE BRAINROT #laughingstock #wailing and sobbing they are so so good together and FOR WHAT FUCKING REASON #i cant even put it into words they just Fit! like puzzle pieces! #theres something so natural about em. i look at them and its like. they Would be perfect for each other huh #i already know theyd have such a healthy wholesome relationship They Just Work. Theyre The Dream Couple #howdy says the most confusing sentence ever said. barnaby nods along with genuine love in his eyes. etc. you get it #now watch! canon is gonna absolutely set this on fire! #which would be Fun. painful. but Fun. seriously tho im curious as to how/if barnaby and howdy will interact/develop.... #i mean personally i love it when shit gets messy so i hope it Hurts So Bad or at least Goes Downhill #i hope its a rollercoaster on all accounts

[sappymix1]

okay look i think however upsetting and stressful this has been for all of us. it has undoubtedly been a million times more so for hannah. and i’m willing to give her a pretty much unending amount of grace as a result

#like ive struggled so much and continue to struggle formulating an opinion and i cannot imagine trying to do so even semi publicly while #much closer to the situation and those involved #i just think. perhaps some takes are being a bit unkind