#anything by zar really

[moonymoonbeam]

any older age range marauders era people out there looking for friends here because i very much am

#being 23 is so 😔 #seems everywhere i turn is teenagers and i dont want to be the elder 😭 #PEOPLE IN THEIR TWENTIES WHO READ WOLFSTAR UNITE PLEASE FOR ME #please message me or point me in the direction of a server i beg #wolfstar #jegulus #jily #fuck jkr #crimson rivers #dorelene #wolfstar fic rec #of milk and thievery #anything by zar really #and moonymoment #im trying to think of fics off the top of my head and its not going well #putting good vibes out into the interwebbs #😀you will become internet best friends with me you will😀 #marauders era #marauders #marauders fic

[sunseekerstarchaser]

Fanfics Recs

Hi! So lets talk about the elephant on the room, Zar’s gone, their fics are gone. Im sure they did the best thing for them and I hope they're okay and that they can still enjoy this fandom without having to deal with the toxics part of it, doing so from the anonymity. Maybe one day they would bring their fics back, but maybe they wont. either way, this fandom is full of AMAZING stories, and every day I see new ones! Every day a new writer comes out with such beautiful and interesting concepts, so please, be kind to them, remember fanfic is not something you can buy, this is a comunity where we all interact and interchange opinions and our creativity in the ways we can!

I created a page for all the fics I have read and enjoyed, and Im working on one for my tbr.

Read Fics

TBR

And because it takes time to do it prettily, here’s a list of recomendations too! (That are not on the previous pages yet)

After Everything, Always by Reggie4dayzz 

A Taste of Scandal by Solmussa

all the world around us by softhearted 

A thousand bells ring in my heart (how hard it is to ask for forgiveness) by Alfonsiny 

Balancing act - onedayofcourse

blinding lights by introvertedhufflepuff 

By Your Heart's Calm Strenght - pansysnarkinson

can i save you this time? (can you save me too?) by maynightcity ***

Chasing the sun (For you) - matchamoony

Diptych by pansysnarkinson 

Don't Blame me (Love Made me Crazy) - pieces_of_a_mirrorball

Downfall by Lunarde 

Drugs and surgical scrubs by anauro

edge by pinkpalaceapartments 

Futile devices by moonylovesreggie  

GreenLight by starmoonchaser

Good Old-Fashioned Loverboy - TakeSwimmingLessons

glimpses of heaven by lunahunt 

heaven is here if you want it by invisiblemuseum 

If The Sun Caught Icarus by dantesstarsxxxii  

i'll be seeing you by residentrookie 

in the fires of our youth (oh, brother of mine) by quynhorlose 

Into the Dark by regulusdiary

Kill Your Darlings by MesserMoon 

lifeless things (nothing beside remains) by sisyphusss 

Lost At Sea by star_stories 

Loving is easy - rxgulus

Si vis pacem, para bellum by aureusprongs 

Teeth  -amour_anguis, regularis_vas 

the elysium by pixie90smom 

The Catfish & the King - TheBiButterfly

The Strange Serendipity of Regulus Arcturus Black by shy_attention_whore 

this is me trying by witchhunts

Thole, Reggie. Thole by puddinghater26 

Would That I by third_crow 

We are all Stardust by rrosie_08 

The ones in black are just my personal favorites!

#jegulus #marauders era fanfic #jegulus fanfics #starchaser #sunseeker #if you dont know what to read #give these a chance #and yes not all of them are jegulus #but they are soo good so do it anyway #and well...im a really small blog i dont think what i do or dont do affected or influence anything #but if you fics is here #if i made an edit of it #and you did not like it #you can always tell me to not mention you or it #and i promise i will never talk about it #again im a baby i really dont think anything with me had anything to do with zar's decision #but its always better to be clear and just #be respectful #and kind #always kind #and im rambling

[captain-cheeseboi]

oh my god the chapter count has been updated

#NINETEEN MORE CHAPTERS #ITS NOT ENOUGH #tbh i dont think anything will ever be enough i really love this fic more than life itself #im not ready for it to end yet #oh my god its updating tmrw #im like genuinely nervous #im gonna sob when it ends i just know it #i hope zar still loves writing fics after the way he was treated #crimson rivers #zeppazariel

[babaroqa]

moja voda by laufer vs. ugasi me by parni valjak fight

#i'm a laufer fan first and foremost but i can't really say anything against parni valjak #budi moja voda ja sam sada vatra izgorjet ću #ugasi me zar ne vidiš da gorim #sonething about fire as passion and desire and water not as something that kills it but something that calms it to a bearable degree

[preciousprongs]

All of you assholes getting mad at zar for deleting their fics suck and are part of the reason that they did. Fanfic writers don’t owe you anything. You read their books for FREE. You have no right to demand they post more or be in any way rude. Stop acting like childish 8 year old and grow tf up. Some really good fanfics are gone. You’ll survive. There are thousands of marauders era fics you can still read. Stop being shitty people and allow other to do what they need for their mental health.

#marauders #right where queue left me #dorlene #jegulus #marauders era #marauders fanfiction #zeppazariel #bizzarestars

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 14

chapter 25:

1. james accepting his own death will forever and always be heartbreaking

2. “Though, honestly, James had meant it when he said that he wishes it had been Regulus. Maybe it's a strange, pyschosexual thing, but he feels like he's sort of been flirting with Regulus and his daggers this entire time, so to be stabbed by him would surely have been more satisfying. Regulus would have made sure James felt it, adrenaline or not. He isn't sure why that's so attractive to him, but it really is. Maybe James is in shock. Maybe James actually does have a knife kink. Maybe James is just in love, and he wants anything he can get from Regulus, even if it's literal death.”

ik this is a big chunk of quote, but like what. james. james. james my boy. these are wild thoughts to have. also, you definitely have a knife kink, but only for regulus. not on anyone else. james. you. dear, wtf (i love you) 😀 sir.

3. god, james is so earnest on his death bed. i am also, fyi dramatically sobbing

4. shit shit shit shit no. SIRIUS!!! SOMEONE!! HELP SIRIUS! HES LOSING HIS BEST FRIEND AND HE IS NOT OKAY

5. zar is correct. it is sock-sock-shoe-shoe. that is the correct way.

6. 😀😧 regulus is troy. not the trojan horse, but instead troy. i-

7. “James is dying, and Regulus hates him. James is dying, and Regulus loves him. James is dying, and Regulus hates and loves him, because they were always one and the same.”

stop no, this is actually cruel. this is heartless. i don’t know how someone with a good conscious or loving heart could write this

8. god no shit no. i finally stopped sobbing. then there was the line about james asking reg to go to dinner with his parents because effie and monty are used to feeding two kids. i- shit. shit. no

9. HE’S TELLING REG TO TAKE BACK THE HAT??? NO THIS IS CRUEL

10. i actually want to quote this entire chapter, but i cannot do that. so therefore i would like to offer up my tears. and reg deciding there’s no point in going home if james potter wasn’t with him, because james potter was his home

11. 😐 he threw food away, but kept the handcuffs? reg dear, wtf

12. REG IS GONNA SACRIFICE HIMSELF TO LET JAMES GO HOME?? HELL NAW

13. HE CALLED JAMES BABY??? AGAIN??? (fwi i have voice recorded and sent sobbing over this fic to my irl marauders friend. hi iko!!)

14. 😟😟 oh god damn. he actually went in the crimson river. wait shit. how the hell is he gonna survive this?

15. “In his panic, in his haze of pain, it's Sirius he instinctively calls for.” 😀😀 just rip out my heart, it would be less painful

16. THE VENOM!! THE THREAT TO KILL HIMSELF IF HE DOESN’T GET REGULUS BACK!! THIS IS LITERATURE AT ITS FINEST

17. regulus is just tossed out the fucking river. they both survive. lmao this is kinda funny

18. not the symbol of the hallows being the deathly hallows. yikes.

19. i’m kinda disappointed that slughorn gets a POV cause like, that POV needs to be given to one of my faves, so they can be guaranteed to live.

20. dorcas my beloved. she’s such a bad bitch

21. okay wait, i might actually grow to like slughorn as a character. he’s being brought to the phoenix. so like, maybe he’ll be super helpful

22. LMAOOO DORCAS MY QUEEN!! “”How does it feel gamemaker? … Are you entertained?”” AHHHHHHHHH

23. unnamed woman: my guess is mcgonagal

24. after reading the authors notes, i realize we have been blessed. zar decided that reg would not die in the arena. and thank fucking god. thank god. i would not be okay if i read ahb then this. yikes

#marauders #regulus black #james potter #fanfic #jegulus #sirius black #dorcas meadowes #horace slughorn #crimson rivers #sunseeker #starchaser

[sophsicle]

the real question is did u read crimson rivers???

yes i did! and even though i know me and zar have very different opinions on the original series i think they made a lot of narrative choices in that fic that expanded on the source material in really interesting ways and fixed a lot of the problems i have with the original story, at least from a character perspective, i think the relationships in CR are far superior to anything Suzanne Collins has ever written

truly will never not be impressed with how deftly both those universes were combined, it felt like a really good exploration both of the hunger games and of the marauders ESPECIALLY with Sirius and remus

10/10

#soph rambles

[brandileigh2003]

Jegulus fic recs:

My friend asked so I figured I would stick in a post here too.

-ofc I can't do this without mentioning crimson rivers, best friends brother and just lovers (anything of zar's really)

Others:

-Only the brave by solmussa (divergent Hogwarts into the war)

-You signed up for this by Solmussa (summer fic, black bros and plenty of other yummy ships)

-raggedypond: check out one of my fandom chosen family members

-pink lemonade by moonysbookshelf band au

-these violent delights (have violent ends) by damagecontrol Titanic au with mcd

-You want me to be yours? By her_smile_forges_galaxies

-Lead Me Into the Light by third_crow

-Cloudless Climes and Starry Skies by Eniaos

-The Catfish & The King by TheBiButterfly

-Kill Your Darlings by MesserMoon (check tags)

-Art Heist, Baby! by otrtbs mcd

-quite like us by alarainai

-Muse in Secret by winlark

I'm mostly a wolfstar girlie so I have a big rec list for them too if you're interested. Here

#jegulus #James Potter #regulus black #fanfic #fanfiction #ao3 #fic recs #recommendations

[sabrielmoose]

The Human phrase of “eyes being the window into the soul” is bull. Its not scientifically possible.

At first they wondered, how can you tell exactly what others are feeling, just from their eyes? How?!

They’re just eyes. Nothing special. Humans eyes aren’t even as big as the Zoor’garth or as many as the Thenns of a thousand eyes. They can’t even change colour like the Datten!

That was what Zar think as well. Their friend Rachel had brown eyes that didn’t do anything special. Of course, like always in a story like this, they were proven very very wrong.

It was after they had become close “friends” as Rachel called that Zar would notice something more.

Rachel eyes would gleam when she ate her favourite snacks or when something funny happened. The colour remained unchanged but they reminded him of moons when they gleam with something. Curved into two tiny crescents.

They would glint. Like a spark has been set off, when something catches her interest. Almost like a predator catching sight of prey, he realised with a shiver. Her eyes would narrow down slightly and they would sharpen.

Funnily enough, it seems that Zar was the only one who noticed the subtle movements. Maybe it’s because as Rachel had said, they were “best friends forever” and had been granted special privileges. Or maybe it’s because he made spent more time with them.

Whatever the reason may be, Zar himself doesn’t really care much. Rachel is still Rachel.

In the end, it’s just one of those things that make a human human. Best not to think about it too much, lest he becomes like one of those crazy human-booklet scientists.

#humans are space australians #humans are space fae #humans are space oddities #humans are weird #earth is a deathworld #earth is space australia #earth is weird #creative writing #moosewrites

[gaywizardzone]

deliriously in love with your dgm fanart. i stumbled into a full course buffet. exquisite, splendid, 10/10 no notes. do you have any DGM fic recs, bc i have suitcases full of DGM recs,

ok first of all thank you so much!! dgm is i think the thing i've drawn the most fanart for in my life cumulatively? in many bursts of insanity over the years. lol. so i have a lot of fun drawing it and i'm very honored that you like what i've made so much. also re: your other ask my worstie and collaborator ozwuv and i are working on it together since you sent it to both of us (we made a joint google doc to combine our perspectives lol) so the answer might not come from me but you'll get one!

second of all i am kind of an old livejournal era hag in terms of my taste in fanfiction in general and my history with this series in particular, so there are exactly three things in here that are less than a decade old and two of them are from 2016. naturally this means that a lot of it is now divergent with some details of how the plot and characterization and etc has actually gone (sorry to everyone back in the day who thought kanda was looking for some missing sister or something. one truly could not have possibly seen all of that coming). that said they still hold up to me in terms of general character dynamics and being fun and well written and such. recommendations also depend on what you like! i will generally not put that much shipping in here because there aren't that many of those i've read and would recommend in the first place (no hate to our strong and beautiful yaoi warriors, i used to read nearly anything back in the day, it's just that not too much of it has stuck with me) but there are some things that are so iconic to me that i could not in good conscience not include them. lots of this is kanda-centric because i like him :) putting it all below the cut

Hard Living by metisket - the aforementioned ship fic that's too iconic not to include. changed my brain chemistry when i first read it many many years ago. i seriously considered making it the only thing i put on here for a second just for the bit. To Me this is actually such a classic that it transcends shipping. the humor is very sharp and funny and i'm so in love with the concept of dying young for them meaning getting old early first and having to deal with it all together. they're so damn hilarious. it should happen to them. it does in my dreams. it never will but in my head there will always be a world where it does <3 i love to draw fanart of them as old decrepit men at 35 and maybe i'll post some of it someday. obviously it was written pre-alma so you just have to accept that it's wildly inaccurate in that regard. anyway pretty much anything this author has written for dgm is really good, i will put a few more metisket favorites on this list but check it all out even if i didn't include it. also this particular one is the inspiration for my most favoritest kanda fic <3 below

Blooming From the Mud by zarinthel - this is not just me shilling fic by someone i know. i am an absolute kanda diehard and this is really THE fic for me in terms of like hitting all the things i love about him. zar number one kanda understander. incredibly funny and compelling i don't care if you don't know anything about bleach (i don't either i haven't read it since middle school) or that you haven't read the fic it's inspired by (though you should) or that it's unfinished. you all should and in fact must read it. kanda's life is both so sad and so hilarious because of how sad it is and his pov here is just so excellently funny because he really is such a funny individual. also not a slash fic though it does really highlight how close and kind of insane his and allen's relationship is in a way that i find extremely delightful and accurate and just wonderful. they make me sick (positive). really good. so if you're a non shipper but you care about them you should read it and if you're a shipper you will also certainly enjoy it anyway so you should read it. truly for everyone!

Chimera Obscurant by moonsheen - i tend to struggle with most kanda/alma fix-it fanwork i've encountered despite loving them dearly because i rarely feel like anyone evokes the way their relationship is both strong and a bit unsettling (at least to me) without swinging around into being too edgy (i fully admit i have not explored super deeply because i get frustrated easily so i'm sure there are things that would appeal to me that i'm missing). this is one of the very few things i've read for them that i've been like yes i think this is beginning to get at the kind of atmosphere i want to see. if i remember correctly this was written before kanda came back to drag allen into accepting support and friendship so i'm just like "oh whatever" about its incompatibility with that. fanwork for ongoing stuff truly creates divergent timelines in my head. anyway this is the most nsfw thing that will end up in here and it's not particularly explicit, but heads up that it is there in case you're averse to that

In his Heart by harukami - another kanda/alma but just kanda technically. i read this and was so delighted that i made a :D face in real life. i've assimilated this into my worldview like i think this is something he would do. he's crazy like that.

Economies of Scale by liketolaugh - last kanda and alma one but this one's here less for the romantic aspect and more because i'm so endeared by the idea of fresh out of the lab kanda being so angry and miserable but also completely blindsided by all the stuff there is in the world. ten year old who is learning about so many new animals. really funny and cute and sad.

siblings, probably by scarlet666 - this one's for the kanda and lenalee enthusiasts. the best friends lovers. i love them so dearly i put the level of energy people usually put into shipping into their bestie-isms so naturally this was for me. huge shoutout to this person for writing 20k words about them if nobody else in the world has my back i know they do. i have the memory of a goldfish and this is long enough that i can't really scan quickly to refresh my memory and make more detailed comments but i know it deserves a spot on here. my note from when i bookmarked it just reads AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but i never leave a comment in that field at all usually so that speaks volumes i think. life is so beautiful sometimes. peace and love on planet earth <3

Welcome Home by metisket - for the rest of this list i am about to hit you with the metisket beam. the author whose work i most fondly remember from my youth by far, which means that's what's stuck with me and what half of my recs will be. i love this one dearly because i love a normal person perspective in insane anime settings type of fic and reever is so delightfully normal and longsuffering and also funny as hell. love how his relationship with komui is in this. not a ship fic and am not recommending it as such but it did make me in the back of my head go "komui/reever is almost like roy/riza without the war crimes for people who are cringefail mad scientist enthusiasts." sane responsible second in command type slash babysitter who is devotedly loyal to crazy irresponsible boss but also wants to kill him a little bit. they're so great to me

Growing Up by Accident by metisket - just so kanda and allen and the way their relationship is. having the exact same feelings about something but approaching it so differently that they want to attack each other. love them 4ever. the way metisket writes allen's internal voice is also delightful to me (like not JUST here but in general). he's so jaded and funny. probably my favorite allen to read out of anyone who writes him ever. and kanda is always just so...kanda.......<3

Sand Castle by metisket - (smiles and blood leaks from the side of my mouth) i love you allen walker. i love this look at allen's growth pre-series from cross' perspective and how he managed to become the hilarious twisted convoluted wonderful little freak that he is. allen is so.....everything to me truly i would never have it any other way. really kind of darkly funny but also like agonizingly emotional. delightful

Mask and Mirror by metisket - love this take on what the inside of lavi's head is like, and also the way all the character dynamics shine through even in such a short thing, they're all so wonderfully cute and funny. the sense of humor is really great. lenalee didn't even make a real appearance but even the brief mention of how she and kanda are had me giggling.

in the circus series by metisket - certified classic. i love timcanpy pov and this whole thing is just so emblematic of my fond memories of old dgm fanworks. i love anything that highlights the way they're all just so immensely fucked up to the point that it's actually incredibly absurd and funny. i'm pretty sure metisket's LJ has more mini outtakes from this series but i'm too lazy to dig through the dgm tag right now so i'll just link it so you can do it yourself if you're interested.

lastly if you're looking for someone to share your recs with you're free to! i am on a personal level picky as hell and my taste in styles and approaches to fanwork was forged in the livejournal mines and has not evolved with the times LOL but i also don't judge <3

#asks #i think this is the first ask i've ever answered on this blog lol #congrats you get to find out i'm extremely wordy #well maybe this look at my taste can provide you all some insight on my approach to dgm fanart <3 i guess

[saintchaser]

this fandom can be really egotistical at times tbh. now that zar has stepped back from the fandom, people are more worried about not being able to read their fics anymore, rather then their well-being (i've literally seen people BEGGING on tiktok for docs of their writing,,, they literally took down their fics because they were not comfortable with people reading them anymore (you are crossing boundaries, people!),,, get a grip).

known fandom authors / fanart artists are put on a pedestal and treated like a celebrity and like they hold the almighty truth. you do realize that these people that give you content through your devices are people too, right? they go grocery shopping and they listen to music and they go to sleep the same way that you do, and just because they happened to blow up on xyz platform does not give anyone the right to cross their boundaries and ask things from them literally just because.

and don't get me wrong, i love it that people enjoy reading and looking at fanart and whatnot, but it's important that the creator feels the same way, because you can't have an enjoyable fandom experience if people constantly ask things for you and criticize your work to bits. you don't like the way someone wrote a certain character or a certain scene or anything else? do it yourself, or look for something that has specifically what you are looking for. stop demanding things from artists, and don't pressure them into doing things they don't want to. you have to realize that these people create content for free and put it out for people to enjoy. for free. and yet people are still ungrateful and hateful of content they paid nothing to see.

a thing that fandoms in general seem to not grasp is that content creators likely create content the way they see it and the way they like it, because they like it. if you don't like it, it's that easy to click off instead of sending hate mail and of demanding a certain thing be written / drawn the way you see it. and it's one thing to request something, and one thing to demand / pressure someone into something.

recently, so many people are driven away / taking a break from this fandom for this exact reason. popular content creators are praised to the point that the people who consume their art seem to believe that they are not human anymore, and unpopular content creators are driven away because nobody engages with their creations. don't get me wrong, engage with whatever you want, but it's disheartening, seeing people be acclaimed while nobody interacts with you.

(also, @sunshinemarauders did a thesis on the subject of harassment and this kind of behavior in fandom, and the rates are absolutely alarming. for more insight on their research, you can check their account to see the data and the conclusions.)

like previously mentioned, fandom is supposed to be an enjoyable experience and some people are ruining the fun of other people. stop it. please realize that your actions have consequences.

#and this is not just about zar! this is about many people in the fandom who have STATED that they are uncomfortable with this behavior #we really need to spend time with ourselves and try to find the solution to making fandom a safe and enjoyable space for everyone #and this is a conversation that need to be had whether people want to admit it or not #fandom discourse #fandom discussion #fandom rant #marauders fandom #also this is not like. a callout to anyone in particular but all of us need to work on ourselves

[sommerregenjuniluft]

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Ant Pile | rosekiller | E | 21.3k words | chapter 2/2 | modern day AU, unhinged stupid teenage boy behavior, hood rat x whatever the opposite of a nepo baby is, slice of life

This is a story about two boys raised by the sun. Florida heat, being a teenager, best friends and how falling in love works when you've already loved them for as long as you can remember. — [ heavily insp by Dominic Fike’s song Ant Pile/the Sunburn album ]

no one’s gonna say anything against a dude kissing his homie good luck | rosekiller | M | 3.1k words | stupid teenage bois, jealousy and Good Luck Kissing

Evan’s fingers clench in the worn cotton. Somewhere in the back of his head there’s sirens going off, a voice yelling at him to not do it. It’s a husky little thing when it tumbles out of Evan anyways. “You want a good luck kiss?” — [Ant Pile b-side]

Die a Little Death For Me | jegulus | E | 2.7k words | smut, trans reg, light dom/sub, voyuerism ft. the rosekiller boys

James leans down, admonishing, voice patronizing in his ear, “You gotta be quiet for me though, love. Can you be a good boy and do that for me?”

Suck the marrow out my bones and all you’ll taste is yourself | old wolfstar | T | 1.6k words | domestic, toothrotting fluff

“Moons,” whispered on a breathy little snicker, much too boyish for a man in his mid fifties and the mattress dips beneath his weight.

Teeth | wolfstar | E | 3.9k words | written for the Kinktober 2023 prompts Dubcon and Stripping

And then Remus squats down in front of him, a palm held under Sirius’ chin, “C’mon, spit, baby.” Sirius cheeks are flaring and he throws his chin up and forcefully spits the man right in his fucking face.

Always Pushing her Luck | lesbian wolfstar | E | 2.6k words | the inherent eroticism of lathering someone up in sunscreen/aloe lotion

Remus braces herself but, really, she should have seen it coming. “Kiss it better?”

Ribs Are Designed To Be Crawled Into | lesbian wolfstar | M | 1.7k words | bloody and gory-ish, feelings realization, canon universe

“Chest a widely open crater that Remus wants to duck into and make a home for herself in. Close the bones of Sirius’ ribs behind her like some grotesque form of double doors.”

rotting/festering away in the docs:

sun-baked dirt | wolfstar & jegulus cowboy au early 2000s | E

i’m talking mechanical bulls, chaps, skinny dipping, ex-equestrian black brothers, meaningful talks under the stars, the prettiest set of boots and lots of heart eyes and sexual tension

mira, mi amor | insp by a zar prompt! | jegulily & background wolfstar modern day nanny au | E | age gap, chronic illness, poc jily, smut

harry has 4 younger siblings: we’re serving an angsty almost-teenager, red-haired twins (because i couldnt help myself) and one precious toddler—lily and james are shagging non-stop to compensate for having the hots for their nanny and regulus is perpetually stressed out or horny (…….or both)

— a million and one more little things, mostly porn oneshots but also a whole fuckin haikyuu and maze runner au?? yeah

feel free to come yell at me about any of these:) also haikyuu, jjk, atla, aftg, httyd or anything in general really<3

#the post that says ‘im a writer in the way a potato is a battery’

[travis-enthusiast]

muhehehe hello all this is my side account for aphblr :D my main is @fantareigen !! go follow me on @scoundrelzarr if u are a denis, flamingo, polar cub enjoyer (i call them the pals 2.0 hehehe) mlp, soul eater, more anime stuff (im a nerd) and also art i post :3 i'm not really active on there but i hope to become more social on that acc ^^ im will soon be adding commisons too so look for those :D

u can call me zar, jordin, wtv u want tbh and my pronouns are she/her :)

DONT BE AFRAID TO TTM!!!!!!! also send aphmau hcs, aphmau art ideas and anything aphmau related on this acc :33 (I ALSO OFTEN ADD MY OCS TO MY ART SO IF U DONT LIKE DW JUST CLICK OFF)

DNI INFO!!!!!!!

proshippers, rude anons and accounts, passive agression, racists, dni info is pretty bleak tbh just don't be problematic pls, everyone else is welcome :) (green is like super dni pretty pls)

feel so very open to send asks if u:

HAVE RAREPAIRS/ CRACKSHIPS I DONT JUDGE!!!!!!!!!!!!, fan kids, au ideas, aphmau art, slanderous katelyn beings

my timezone is EST and im 16 so dont be weird if ur 18 or older i will tell on u/j

FOLLOW MY ART INSTA: zarphobia

#pinned post #pinned intro #pinned info #dni info #aphmau #travis’s lawyer has spoken

[padfootastic]

So there’s this fic called Crimson River (idk if you’ve heard of it read it) it’s technically a wolfstar & jegulus, but that aside it’s quite a fantastic bit of internal monologue from Aberforth regarding James and Sirius.

“ The bond between James and Sirius is something entirely other. He has never before seen anything that could compare to it. What James and Sirius have doesn’t exist in history, and may never exist again - not just once in a lifetime, but once in any lifetime.  This is not history repeating itself, therefore it is unprecedented. Aberforth had no doubt in his mind that James and Sirius could undergo any form of torture and come out the other side entirely themselves, but he does doubt that they wouldn’t toss everything that they are, and all that they stand for, if it could mean sparing one another any bit of pain.”

i do know the fic!! i think it’s impossible to be in certain fandoms w/o hearing about some fics and this is one of those. the whole thing sounds amazing but it’s just,,,the ships lol (although,,,if i’m hearing it right,,,zar might be…dipping a toe into j/s soon so i need someone to ping me if that happens bc i’d run so fast—i love their entire energy so much my god)

and this really sums it up why bc it’s so, SO accurate for j & s. they have a bond that’s so unique and so codependent, it’s hard to separate where one begins and the other ends. and zar gets it ykno? no matter what romantic ship they might be a part of, the other is an integral part to them and this passage captures it so brilliantly. esp that last bit about enduring anything for their own self but if anything happen to the other, they’d go feral. like, i firmly believe that sirius is a bit broken not because of azkaban but bc he lost james. if for whatever reason (not that it’s possible lol) james was alive & he still ended up going thru 12 years in azkaban, i don’t think he’d be as he was. james’ death is so fundamental to who he is post halloween, it’s just !!!!!! i don’t even have words lol

thank u so much for sending this to me <33

#prongsfoot #the worst part about being so picky about characters and how they’re written #is u can objectively appreciate writers who’re fucking amazing #which wolfstar and jegulus has in SPADES #but ur unable to read it 😭😭 #and what’s even worse is that i wasn’t like this earlier right? #i could read literally anything under the sun no problems #but now i’m just !!!! no !!! #when i really want to lol #i love when people send me j/s stuff from other fics #esp the wolfstar and jegulus ones #bc i wouldn’t ever find ur on my own #it* #so i always rly appreciate it #thank u!! #pen’s asks

[lavenders-blu]

idk where Zar is, but wherever you are, this post is for you:

my childhood pet was my cat, I grew up ostracised from my peers and my parents weren’t really around. so, she was my everything, I love her more than anything and anyone.

she got really sick a few weeks ago. during the time she spent in the vet, I read some of one of your fics to her every time I visited. she died yesterday, and I cannot put into words how grateful I am to have that memory of reading to her like that. so, thank you.

#for zar #zeppazariel #bizarrestars #mayzarbewithyou #best friend’s brother #just lovers #crimson rivers #thank you

[cressthebest]

Crimsons Rivers thoughts pt. 36

chapter 55:

1. kingsley is mad at lily and i GET IT i understand. but all those people are adults and CHOSE to go on the mission. it is not solely her fault

2. NOOOO!! sybil is so dear to me!! and kingsley broke up with her!!! no!!!!

3. god, i feel so bad for euphemia and fleamont. yeah victors were saved. but their children, their two children, were the only ones not brought back home. i don’t know how i would recover

4. “there was Narcissa, who wasn't just in the hunger games; no, she played the game, and she played it well, so well that Euphemia never doubted she would win.” yo that’s fucking terrifying. i-

5. andy and narcissa reuniting has me crying so hard. their sisterhood is so important to me

6. regulus doesn’t have sirius, so all he wants is james to comfort him. i- i can’t do this

7. “It's like this, that he turns to her, and Euphemia knows immediately, just that simply, that Sirius isn't here.

He isn't, because if he was, that's who Regulus would cling to; that's the only person he ever wanted to cling to.”

okay, um, simply stabbing my heart would have been easier

8. “They all knew only one could make it out, and Sirius wasn't going to be the one who did, except more than one has, and Sirius is the only one who didn't.” 😧😧😧

9. god i love dorcas. she is not lying to anyone they saved by saying there will be comforts, but she is saying they will be safe and everyone there will be kind. i love her so much

10. dorcas caring for marlene first >>>>>>>>>

11. LILY AND REMUS REUNITED!!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! THEYRE REUNITED!!!!

12. oh shit. wait. that was too soon. before the lily and remus reunion, he hears her say that the absolute love of his life is probably dead

13. remus’ breakdown has me in shock. like i’m not even in tears anymore, i’m just shocked. i- this hurts too bad to even cry

14. “Lily does not know much, she doesn't know what Sirius was to Remus, but she does know for sure now that he was something.

Maybe, as much as she dreads to think it, he was everything.”

😀😀😀 you can’t write lines like that. that feels illegal, to mess with my emotions like that

15. i want someone to care for me the way dorcas cares for marlene. she starts a war early to save her life. she’s willing to kill anyone to keep her alive. she will do anything.

16. “"Perhaps if you had considered the impact of the lives you planned to shape into martyrs, you would have realized that this could happen, and would be no one's fault but your own. You put those people in the arena this year, Albus, didn't you tell me that? All the ready opposition to Riddle, and you couldn't foresee this? Opposition to you?"”

get his ass alberforth. 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

17. “In all his years, Aberforth has never seen a loyalty and love exist as the loyalty and love between those two boys do.”

this is so sweet if it weren’t for the context of the statement

18. 😀😀😀 wow i hate albus

19. “They are at their best together when they are showing their worst to one another and basking in the relief of being next to someone they know won't really care, or have an opinion on it, or judge them.”

regulus and remus’ friendship >>>>>>>

20. as reg is literally beating lily up he’s like “i love her! she’s amazing! she’s my savior!! 😊😊 that’s why i must try to kill her!!!

21. “It was supposed to be me and you, but Sirius is gone. Come back to me, baby, Regulus thinks, but James is gone.” 😀😀 what a fantastic start to my day

22. lily should have had a gun in canon. this au only further proves that to me. the war would be so short is lily evans was given a gun and told to just go off and do what she wanted with it.

23. zar gave marylily hints in the authors notes ??? 👀👀 marylily??? 👀👀 marylily endgame?? 👀👀🌸🍓🎉

24. authors notes: “lily lily lily my beloved <3 she really was about to blow albus' skull open, soooo sexy of her 🥰” AGREED

25. also there’s 420 comments on that chapter and i don’t want to fuck with that number.

#marauders #regulus black #jegulus #sirius black #remus lupin #crimson rivers #lily evans #dorcas meadowes #euphemia potter #lily and remus