#anyway i was talking with my qpp about this and yeah

[gale-in-space]

It's dangerous going into the Gale tag. Like most of the time it's fairly innocuous, but sometimes you will get people who are ranting about all the reasons they hate him and it. Sucks. Mostly because it's about people knocking on his behaviors that are highly relatable in terms of neurodivergence (from everything from his actual canonical suicidal ideations to his tendency to be a bit of an infodumper).

Like sorry. I relate too hard to this man for exactly all the reasons you find him to be annoying. Sorry.

#hurts even more when people complain about how annoying it is to have to help him #like ah. yeah. just like how people complain about having to support neurodivergent people. cool #idk if i should tag this #this is less of a vent and more of an observation? though it does feel like a bit of a vent #anyway i was talking with my qpp about this and yeah #this is kind of why i don't go in the tag anymore #which sucks because then i miss out on cool art and writing and meta and stuff #but i need to do it for my mental health #idk honestly i think i'm overreacting. this is a fictional character we're talking about after all #OKAY I JUST NEEDED TO GET THIS OUT. I'M GONNA GO DRAW WEIRD PICTURES NOW yippee

[leafatlaw]

there really is nothing like watching your favorite show with someone else, and completely reevaluating the characters and ships

#sparrow speaks #It’s all very positive btw !!!!!!!!! #It’s good #because otherwise you get stuck in the echo chamber of your mind #Sometimes it’s nice to have someone point out a ship and it’s like “how did I never think of that?” #Or just have someone appreciate your favorite charcater and like “!yeah ! I love that guy” #Also really nice just hearing someone talk without the knowledge of fanon #Anyways thsi is basically just a love letter to my qpp #I love him and echoes correct forever and always actually <33333333 #Still thinking about poly scienceteam

[prince-liest]

Hi! About your staticradio series (which is PHENOMENAL omg😍) - I know you said Vox is kinda falling in love while Al will remain aro. Which is awesome, we love to see rep! But I'm wondering if they will end up as QPPs (who fuck, lol)? Or it'll strictly be FWBs? Gah it's diffifult to describe it bc labels are so subjective and often too limiting, but I guess what I'm asking is whether they'll have an emotional relationship too, however it might look with their orientations? Will Al in particular have any soft feels for Vox & be fond of their unique bond? Even if Vox is in love with him when Al himself isn't? (I worry that would scare Al away😭) An intimate emotional closeness regardless of the specifics?

Thank you so much!! I've been enjoying writing it enormously so it always brings me a lot of joy that other folks are, too. >:D Just a heads up, this post has turned a little long because it got me talking about Alastor and the way he handles his feelings vs his ego in general.

First: I think the answer to this depends fully on how you personally define a queerplatonic partnership! I don't think Alastor would ever go for, like, a committed relationship with Vox in any form, but I also don't think that this would necessarily be a sad state of affairs for Vox, who I obviously write as poly as fuck with his toxic yaoi husband. Maybe it's because I'm aro af, but I feel like from Vox's end, "Yeah, I get to fuck around with the guy I'm obsessed with and he's not, like, nice, but I think I Stockholmed him into giving a shit about me!" is not actually a state of affairs he'd dislike! Especially since it's got that shiny "I'm special!" vibe in the sense that Nobody Else Gets To Get This Far With Alastor.

As for Alastor's side of things...

I think that so much of their dynamic dynamic isn't just set by Alastor being aroace, it's also set by him being a fucking sadist and a narcissist, HAHA. Like, he is very much in the middle of developing feelings about Vox, which (if my favorite interpretation of his little breakdown in the finale is correct) is also where his character arc is heading with regards to the hotel crew in canon, too, but his friendship-and-trust arc is slowburn as all hell and not entirely linear.

Part of the fun in writing Alastor is the process of qualifying all of his feelings with his sense of superiority in a way that is protective of his ego. He is freely and openly fond of people when that fondness doesn't expose any kind of emotional vulnerability in him. For example: He feels a condescending but genuine fondness for Niffty and Mimzy, whom he protects, and that's safe! He's quirky friends with Rosy, who is a benevolent semi-equal who uplifts his ego, and that's safe! He... may or may not have started caring enough about the hotel crew to have put himself at risk for them, and that is not only dangerous to his physical well-being but also massively humiliating, which is arguably worse to someone like Alastor.

He has SO many ego-prioritizing defense mechanisms and it's fun for me to pay attention to because I, too, am someone whose cardinal sin is probably pride. Anything is permissible only as long as it can be framed in a way that doesn't insult his ego.

Anyway, the point is: I don't think "soft feels and fondness for their unique bond" is on the list of ways that Alastor is able to find himself feeling about someone like Vox. The whole reason their whole situation in 666: Live on Air! started is thanks to Alastor's awareness and amusement at how obsessed Vox is with him. He sees himself as above Vox, and knowing that Vox is more emotionally invested than he is is part of the appeal. It's just gone from (derogatory) to (fond). (Which is, guess what? Safe!)

(It also means realizing that Vox is falling madly in love or whatever just nets a reaction somewhere in the region of, "Wait, is that significantly different from what you were already doing?", lol, because the only thing that's changed is the flavor of feeling, not the level of exposed emotional underbelly that he thinks Vox is showing him.)

TL;DR: He likes Vox like a cat likes a favorite mouse.

#ask #personal #Anonymous #my writing #radiostatic #staticradio #long post #meta #alastor #hazbin hotel #this is one of those things that I have trouble putting to words in meta-essay format rather than #“look just. here's a fic. it's like this. you get it??” format #so I'm not sure I did my thoughts justice but hopefully I got close #at any rate. THERE ARE INDEED FICS. IT'S LIKE THAT. >:))) #666 live on air

[raayllum]

i'm literally sitting here trying to figure out what EVEN i can SAY about aspec rayllum here? i think about them and i want to combust into heart emojis. i watched the first season when it first came out and then only happened to catch up last year with my qpp, and in between i was like. so infuriated when i found out they'd made rayla and callum a thing bc i - naturally - latched onto the green and purple character as an aroace icon at 18 years old, and my partner was like "no no no no TRUST me you've got to watch it, you'll love it"

they weren't wrong and after bingeing the whole show i'm stuck thinking about rayllum a LOT. they're written so much like my own ideal relationship that i kind of want to explode from it sometimes. anyway, my absolute favorite thing about them is how much emphasis there is about their friendship - to the point that when i watched season four, I can't remember which episode specifically it was number wise but when rayla suggested splitting up and offered to go with callum and he turns her down, my first immediate heartbroken thought was "she misses her best friend..." i just love how they're in love but they're in love cos they're best friends....11/10 no notes i need more relationships like that in media

ANYWAY long rambley ask about my loves aside, my question is what are some of your favorite moments where rayllum are so clearly best friends/goofballs in love?

No like honest to god though — me and the Rayla to my Callum are also in a QPR + dash of romance relationship and like... arc 1 and arc 2 Rayllum are just so goddamn sweet??

I don't agree generally that arc 2 Rayllum is more Mature™ than arc 1 rayllum — Callum is more patient and Rayla is more open, so they've matured as individuals — but merely just that they're different flavours of aspec-ness. Like arc 1 is the craziness and rollercoaster of meeting a stranger and realizing they're Your Person, and arc 2 is the deepness after the fact of "I know you, and I know that we can get through everyone so long as we have each other" mostly cause I think the main reason people label arc 1 Rayllum as more immature is because s3 Rayllum gushes over each other, but that's bc people have a hard time conceptualizing having deep admiration for your partner(s) that isn't infatuation... even though like? It's totally normal and welcome, like any long term relationship is "my partner is the most amazing person ever and i'm also very aware of all their flaws simultaneously" and like, arc 1 Rayllum hits that balance perfectly imo

I just love all of their stages and sides to them so so much

But yeah! Some of my fave moments Rayllum wise for the Best Friends quality has to be when they help each other up in 3x05 (Callum after the soulfang chase and Rayla on the ambler) because things are Weird but they're still always going to help each other? The "I missed my best friend" quality in s4 with no one laughing at Callum's jokes / talking about magic with him (vs their first scene in 5x01 being him telling her all about the magic stuff he's reading) and Rayla keeping her disappointment at bay always hits hard and I loove 4x06 when she's beating herself up and he takes care of her because a Good Relationship isn't about how you treat each other when everything's fine, it's 100% about how treat each other when life is hard/stressful and/or you're upset with each other

But I love all the gentle teasing in early S5 and the fist bump lives in my head eternally rent free. The 2x03 hug also means a lot to me cause that was the turning point she went from being a friend to being family and I think in a lot of ways, that's their relationship's most important turning point alongside maybe 1x06 (trusting her anyway!) 4x09 (forgiveness) and 5x04 (her opening up).

5x02 post-inn and stargazing scene are also faves just because of how happy they are talking about Nothing and everything, and like — that's just so fucking real, y'know? When someone makes everything automatically better just by being there

As Callum says, "We've been through a lot, and a lot has changed. Well, some things have changed, but not everything," and this never will

#aspec rayllum #rayllum #thanks for asking #alterous rayllum #qpr rayllum #poelya #aroace rayllums unite #like i was a basic pre show / s1 rayllum shipper from the start

[alterouslyinlove]

I’ve recently been strongly resonating with alterous attraction, for several reasons.

Basically yes I had several “romantic” relationships in high school, but I honestly have no idea if they were actually romantic. When you’re a little kid in elementary school and your best friend is a different gender, people assume you like them and you have a crush on them, so you assume that’s what you’re feeling. As a kid in kindergarten in my case when I had my first “crush”. By the time you get to high school, everyone knows that there are certain things which means you are in love with someone, and being in love has to mean romantic feelings right? Bc that’s the only type of in love? Right?? Being in love equals romantic attraction right?? Of course! No not really, but that’s high school.

So anyways, there were people I got excited to be with, that I loved talking to, that I smiled around constantly, and yeah I dated someone that all of those things happened to me, and we cuddled and kissed and for all appearances, had a romantic relationship. But… was it?? Or was it me assuming that getting excited and butterflies around someone, getting spacey eyed around someone, and enjoying cute gooey lovey stuff automatically meant romance? Butterflies happen when I’m nervous too. I get spacey eyed when I’m daydreaming about fanfics. And I liked gooey lovey stuff with my platonic qpp too where there was no romantic feelings. Was I just assuming that the feelings I had at that time were romance bc that was the pressure I felt from society and from my partner?

Looking back on it, I can’t say for sure that it was romantic attraction or if I just assumed it was and believed it was.

What makes it more confusing is that I like certain romantic aspects, and with my partner now, I love the things that would be “romantic coded” and I am definitely in love with her, but I can’t say for sure that it’s romantic. I found this explanation for alterous attraction, and it’s so relatable. “I want to be with you and talk to you and do everything with you, I just don’t care how it looks for us or how we categorize our relationship.” I’m happy to let my gf take the lead in how romantic or not our relationship appears bc it doesn’t matter to me.

I’ve settled on this term for my attraction towards my girlfriend: romance-inclined alterous. I’m in love with her, and I enjoy doing romantic type things with her, but I might not always feel that romantic attraction towards her. I’m inclined to like romantic things with her and I might sometimes feel romantic attraction towards her, but I won’t all the time.

Kinda turned into a ramble, but what do you think about terms like romance-inclined alterous?

that’s a good way of explaining it!! im sure there are a ton of other ppl that feel that way too, i think that’s a good term. but yeah thanks for sharing :)

#asks #🌀 #alterous #alterous attraction #alterous relationship #alterous yearning #i feel so official having ppl send me asks like this #like yes yes tell me your thoughts

[4townie]

Road to 4☆TOWN

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5

“Oh, my mom is calling.” T looked at his phone. “I guess she doesn’t think I sleep.”

“That’s because you don’t.” Taeyoung reminded him.

“Hi, Mami. Do you know what time it is over here?” T said as he answered the phone.

“Oh right. I forgot about the time zones.” Catalina facepalmed. “I’m sorry, mijo. I hope I didn’t wake you.”

“Well, you know how I don’t sleep. At least that’s what Taeyoung says.” Aaron nudged him. “You had a date tonight, right?”

“Yeah, I did. In fact, Megan’s here right now.” Catalina said with a big smile. “She actually asked me to call you cuz she wanted to talk.”

“Really?” Aaron grinned. “Cool, put her on.”

“Aaron, I’m gonna go put on some toner and then get rid of you.” Taeyoung said before wandering into the bathroom.

Aaron waved absentmindedly in response. “Hey, Megan. How’s it going?”

“Aaron, I need to talk to you. And forgive me for whispering, your mom has really good ears.” Megan whispered into the phone. “I wanted to ask for your permission to marry your mother.”

Aaron paused. “You what?”

“I know it’s old fashioned, but it would be a huge change for both of you. And…I really wanna marry her.” Megan admitted quietly.

“Ohmigosh, yes! I’ve been waiting for this.” Aaron’s eyes got wide. “When are you gonna do it? Tonight? Right now?”

“I don’t have a ring yet, silly.” Megan chuckled. “I wanna buy her the prettiest ring I can afford, so I’m gonna have to save up. But I wanted to give you a heads up beforehand.”

“Awww, you’re so sweet.” He sighed. “You’re gonna make the coolest step-mom. EEP!”

“Kay, I’m ready to kick you out.” Taeyoung came back into the room. “It’s late and you need a head start on falling asleep.”

“Is that the little man?” Megan asked. “I wanna talk to him, too.”

“Yeah, yeah, he’s here.” Aaron waved Taeyoung over. “It’s Megan. She wants to speak with you.”

“The hell…?” Taeyoung furrowed his brow. “Why?”

“JUST TALK TO HER!” Aaron whisper-yelled, shoving the phone to Taeyoung’s ear.

“Oh, uh, hi Megan. Aaron said you wanted to talk to me?” Taeyoung said awkwardly.

“Little man! Awesome to hear your voice.” Megan greeted him. “I was calling to ask you both for your permission to propose to Catalina. I know you’re pretty close and I wanted to include you.”

Taeyoung was quiet as he noticed the strange feeling in his chest. “Thanks for including me, Megan. I appreciate that.” He cleared his throat. “A-Anyway, you guys make a really cute couple, so you have my blessing.”

“Yes!” Megan cheered. “Oh, you guys are the best.”

“Well, if that’s all—”

“Wait, don’t hang up.” Megan ran around the apartment in search of Catalina. “I’m gonna pass the phone back to Catalina. I’m sure she wants to talk to you.”

“Right, right…” Taeyoung sat on his bed beside Aaron. “My best friend’s mom and my best friend’s mom’s girlfriend wanna talk to me.” He sighed and rested his head on Aaron’s shoulder.

Aaron looked at him. “You okay, Tae-Tae? Something you wanna talk about?”

“What? No, of course not.” Taeyoung jumped back up. “In fact, I can’t talk to you right now. Your mom’s on the phone.” He walked away awkwardly. “Hey, Catalina…”

———

I’m back! Thank you all so much for your patience🫶🏾 A month ago today, I lost someone very important to me, but after taking time just to focus on celebrating her life and visiting my qpp to unwind, I am finally ready to resume the story. Hope you’re all as excited as I am😁

#4town headcanons #4town fanfic #4town aaron t #4town taeyoung #4town z #4town robaire #4town jesse #turning red #turning red 4town #4town #4townie

[yuukei-yikes]

Vinnie may we have some marry hcs please? I think i kin her and shes been a big fave of mine wah

awesome choice, mary is great!!! sadly i cant rly think of anything i havent already said at one point.... like i love mary, but she's not the character i think of the most

a cute one. since mary doesnt need to eat to survive and i think its rly funny she's only introduced to the concept of eating when moving in with mekatrio, mary cooking.... it would be SO BAD. like this isnt an original hc or anything but like she's rly that bitch creating fires out of NOWHERE.

since her and momo are bfffs and momo's cooking and tastes are. special. they make a lot of abominations together completely unsupervised and it's so bad. do it at momo's house bc both are banned from kido's kitchen and shintaros in his room like Why do i smell burning

i think mary doesnt care for eating and rather enjoys sitting at the table bc she feels included :) mostly wants to cook as a way to show love. eventually gets more into baking than cooking bc its cuter♥️♥️♥️ but everything is always SO nasty you know how it is with baking. its very easy to mess up and everywhere u can mess up, mary messes up. and burns many things.

but she's always looking forward to giving the dan her cupcakes and all that :((( and kido and kano are super prone to teasing but seto is there looking at them like EAT THE DAMN CUPCAKE so theyre like (shiver) then momo wholeheartedly enjoys them because she's insane and the rest is also pretending so hard bc mary seems so excited and she's so sweet. everyone gets sick after

my hcs of her that ive talked abt before include her having a service animal or emotional support animal and its a doggy. bc of her social anxiety and ptsd/hallucinations. and that she and seto are building their own house from scratch like tsukihiko did :3

i also think mary gets her legal identity sorted out post str bc she obviously doesnt have any documents regarding who she is LMAOO and if she's integrating society she's gonna need it... takane helps with this bc. hehe. falsified documents ♥️

setomary are qpp BY THE WAY but are married anyway they elope as soon as theyre 18 bc. idk. partly bc of identity issues with a marriage it makes everything easier for marys documents but also she is so insanely traumatized and seto helps her through EVERYTHING and they love each other so much and seto is like i want to be with you for the rest of my life mary would feel so bad bc... the rest of his life is not the rest of Her life. she knows he will eventually die. and her grandmother's heartbreaking story will just repeat with her but she's gone through so much already but even if mary were to reject seto's love he's just content being by her side and again theyre qpp like setomary is so specific in my mind. theyre both aroace btw♥️ but they get married anyway. bc of reasons.

setomary eloping at 18 super spontaneously and call kido and kano like hey can you come pick us up at the registry office. and kano and kido are like why are you at the registry office. and seto and mary are like erm....

theyre like we NEED this and the dan throws a super improvised wedding and its so silly. ayano wedding planner GONE CRAZY. yknow steven universe There Is An Awful Lot Of Awful Things We Could Be Thinking Of But For Just One Day Let's Only Think About Love. yeah. something like that (ive always wanted to make an animatic of that with kagepro actually...my secret is out) theyre still qpp though. but also married. you get it right.

#ask tag #headcanons #mary kozakura

[lyman-garfiel]

Prohibited wish haters unite

i don't know who you are............but you're so right, hold on i have things to say on this i want to say my personal discomfort stems from my..bordering unhealthy attatchment to scarab as my f/o [as i type this the body pillow is LOOKING at me] hence why i don't and never really liked..interacting with the ship, but to each their own yaknow? if you like the pair i won't come at you. [and this still goes, pwish shipping mutuals i don't hate yall] ive just had people take my scarab yearning posts before tag it as "haha prismo coded" and its upset me before It was only when the the whole reveal in episode 10 with scarab to me shown stuck in the time room now that the ship got very saturated which i get, But the more attention drawn to the ship the more it drew in........a really bad crowd. a lot and i mean a LOT of proshippers. I want to say its died down now as i don't see much gross scarab content nowadays [then again i stick to tumblr.] but it really bothered me how scarab was treated. i enjoy prismo very much as a charecter i think he's a silly guy but he has not burrowed a nest into my skull like scarab has so i want to say i'm only qualified to talk about scarab in this regard. The community [i want to state casual shippers this is not you. this is very specific people] had a habit of ......putting scarab in compromising positions teetering on s/a [most of the time this was done using nightmo as prismo's "evil mode?"] and in a lot of comics and fics they water scarab down to this "NOT LIKE I LIKE YOU OR ANYTHING GRR" type of charecter..ignoring....evreything interesting about him. [i want to say good pwish fics likley exist..i just don't read them as for personal reasons the ship makes me uncomfortale.] also.....orbo got caught in the crossfire and he god DEMONIZED over a headcanon. [i like the headcanon but holy scales guys..chill on the ball dude a bit?] I think the ships main problem is it caught on so fast that it attracted some really bad crowds and since scarab is a very new charecter to the adventure time universe, any solo enjoyment of him was swept away in favor of shipping him with prismo.,,,,,,,speaking of prismo...so many artists in this community will WHITEWASH his ass also this....community has a problem with exposing nsfw content to minors. granted this is an issue ive only seen on twitter but in the begining of pwish getting popular i'd check the scarab tag like evrey few hours [yeah i....i love this man.] and withought FAIL i'd get what i dub "scarab pussy jumpscared" because artists would not know how to tag their porn. Eventually the pwish commuity came up with a seperate tag for their nsfw BUT THEY'D STILL TAG THE CHARECTER'S NAMES EXPOSING ANYONE LOOKING FOR JUST PRISMO OR JUST SCARAB CONTENT TO BUG VAGINA. its a lot more laxed here on tumblr ive noticed but hough was it BAAD on twitter. It just makes me sad scarab really lacks the attention he deserves, instead being cast aside to be ship fodder....... anyways before i end this LONG rant i would like to enter into the PERSONAL INTERPRETATION ZONE!!!

[disclaimer this is all my personal viewing of prismo ad scarab as charecters, if somebody reading this views them in a different way that is fine by me !!] Ok...so personally i don't...... see pwish working even if it did happen, i like the idea of them being exes and even qpps in the future [in...in lymanlore they become close friends i just don't like mentioning it in fear of my thoughts being taken as me shipping them when i DON'T scarab is married to lyman in this universe get out of my HEAD.] i just see these two ending up very bad for eachother with prismo being very depressed after jake's death i don't...think dating a man with no idea how to show sympathy as a rebound is healthy. scarab is his own bundle of issues and despite me being his husband i don't think kiss kiss will fix it </3 ALSO WHOEVER YOU ARE..WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE ANON FEEL FREE TO DM ME ABOUT THIS I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MY DISDAIN FOR PWISH.

#i am.....SO SORRY FOR THIS RANT HOLY SHIT ITYPED A WHILE. #rant #TY FOR THE ASK IT MADE MY DAY!!

[prtfrmhrtbrn]

im ill and incapable of real genuine human thought so im just going to talk about one of my favourite drafts that im working on and its this

-regulus & evan fake dating, ft aromantic regulus, endgame rosewater qpp AND endgame rosekiller.

-yeah im hitting evan with the polyamory beam. ITS CALLED PROJECTING!!

anyway its one of my favourite things in my google docs. some fun facts about it:

•barty & evan BOTH already like each other. evan also knows barty likes him back but thinks hes too much of a coward to say anything and his first thought is “okay, i’ll fake date somebody about this”

•oh and also regulus is just like “i mean alright i guess”

•regulus tells barty immediately. hes like “honest to god get your shit together” and barty is like “literally why would you do this” and regulus is like “i thought it would be funny”:

•you guys are all ALWAYS forgetting that if sirius pretty much raised regulus HES GOING TO ACT LIKE A TWAT SOMETIMES i love regulus being an absolute menace

•qpr. thats all i need to say. as a member of a qpr it is one of my all time favourite relationships in my life and i think not enough people write them. i ALSO think not enough people write aro characters as capable of emotion!! 90% of the time (in my experience!!) theyre just aro because the author couldnt think of a pairing for them and they felt bad. so anyway i changed that for this fic. and also in like… 3 other fics in my drafts. i love being in a qpr im in a qpr hey did i mention im in a qpr this post goes out to my beloved partner even though they will never see it

•sirius. sirius. sirius. i dont know WHAT it is about the black brothers but every single time i write ANY fic with either of them in they end up talking to each other. i cant stop them. im just writing and they say “we want to reconcile” and i say “that wasnt one of my plot points…?” but its too late! theyre already talking!

•regulus being SUPREMELY confused when he realises he likes evan <3 with the focus on the fact that he can still like him without it being romantic!! he has no idea what a qpr is but he’ll get there

•regulus GOES TO SIRIUS FOR HELP!! and sirius is like “ok i will help you” and regulus is like “what why” and sirius is like “do you want help or not tbh”

•but also regulus is like “ok so i have a fake boyfriend” and sirius is like “you fucking what”:

•the segment with sirius features a LOT of complaints from regulus (that part is his pov! it changes throughout between barty, reg & evan though) about the red of the gryffindor dorms. he is so upset by them:

•barty immediately notices when regulus accidentally catches feelings. hes like “…you thought this would be funny but it went like normal fake dating didnt it” and regulus gives him a very sad looking nod and says “i wont stop you dating him i still dont know what it is” and barty is like “getting over evan is too much work and id know, if he wants us both he can bloody well just have us both”

•spoiler alert for the fact that he does <3

-anyway. not much of this is written but i just wanted to talk about it! my dear best friend and the platonic loml is anti reg/evan (she could never get me) so… tumblr has to hear about it instead!

-oh also my fake dating experience is based in a little too much truth about my life (i did it) (its how i got with my partner) so! you know. you can trust the authenticity?

-thats all. i needed to get this out of my SYSTEM but it might end up on ao3 <3 anyways if youre a rosewater-er my ao3 is SUCH a safe place for you. my marauders pseud is hellenistic & my main is apartfromheartburn (but dont go there because its all anime fics i wrote 3 years ago) so my marauders fics can as such be found under hellenistic (apartfromheartburn). id link them but also i have a headache that will kill me if i stare at my phone acreen any longer so! thats not happening. end of this post! bye bye <3

#fanfic #marauders #regulus black #sirius black #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #aromantic regulus black <3 my love #polyamorous evan rosier!! YIPPEE!! #this fic is all me projecting #queerplatonic #black brothers #regulus is abhorred by the colour in gryffindor tower (red… he wasnt wxpecting it) #includes snippets of parts of the fic <3 #rosewater #rosekiller #fake dating #sadly it goes wrong! whod have guessed! #regulus black is a little shit #yeah ive always wanted to use that tag tbh #draft

[charlie-emily-fr]

Hiya, I'm Charlotte aka Charlie ('Char' and 'Lotte' also work), pronouns he/him + pix/pixel/pixels + a few others if you want to know me and I guessss I'm a game-FNAF fictionheart?

It's complicated. "Fictionheart" doesn't really seem to describe how I feel and what I experience, but it's the closest term I've found. I experience the world of FNAF, and often real life, through Charlie. My character preferences in FNAF rely solely on what she thinks. And yeah like I said, oftentimes her preferences extend to my real life too (don't ask how I got into The Muppets- hint: it's all bc of Charlie)

I feel simultaneously that I am her and that I am just... me.

Like I said, it's complicated.

Anyway um I'm very open to chat!! Would love to talk to Sammy (brother moments) or Cassidy and Cecil/CC (will also accept those named Evan or otherwise lol) who were my QPPs, and also all my other Friends obviously... Elizabeth and Michael,, along with Susie, Gabriel, Jeremy, and Fritz :)

Anyway thanks for checking this blog out. Again, feel free to reach out about whatever, I'd love to talk to people :p

#charlie emily #fnaf #fnaf kin #fictionkin #fnaf heart #does... is that a phrase i can use #fictionheart #fnaf kin charlie #fnaf fictionkin #fnaf irl

[winterswhite]

Personal rant, CW for talks of blood and medical stuff

The past 5 days have really been so much for me and it... seriously doesn't feel like only 5 days at all with how much has gone on

On Wednesday evening I got home from work feeling extremely weak after telling my QPP repeatedly that I don't feel good, and after I was no longer able to hold my head up or open my eyes without extreme effort my roommate took me to the emergency room where we waited 9ish hours for me to even be taken to a bed and then one or two more to be seen

When they did get there, they said they needed to take blood, give me an IV, do chest x-rays, and a few other tests (I think they tested me for a stroke too) because clearly a lot was wrong

The nurse tried to put the IV in my left arm and then my hand, failing both times because she couldn't find a vein. She then called over a second nurse, who said since I had already been poked twice, she wasn't going to poke me unless she was sure she had one

She left without poking me.

She called over a doctor to come with a whole ass ultrasound setup to use that to find a vein, and they only found a suitable one in my upper right arm, meaning I had to hold it up at an uncomfortable angle the entire time and because of where it was, it also hurt the entire time (only a little, but still)

They also interrupted it in the middle to take more blood ("well that can't be good")

Also, while they were putting the IV in, I remember them struggling to reach the vein, and the pain from them wiggling it around trying to reach my difficult ass vein, and then hearing "how attached are you to this sweatshirt?"

I had... bled all over it (fortunately they stopped the bleeding pretty fast, very different from my last experience with an IV where I nearly bled out on the hospital floor)

Anyway, after wanting to cry from how uncomfortable the whole experience was but eventually managing to sleep through the last half hour of it, they told me about my bloodwork, and a lot is wrong! Some of the things that have always been wrong with me, and some new things, like low thyroid and low potassium, low sodium etc

They scheduled me for a follow-up appointment in a week and I leave, it is now Thursday morning

I picked up the meds they prescribed me and got home around noon, exhausted from not having slept all night, and napped

Only to wake up to a terrible toothache out nowhere, that at its worst was so bad I couldn't lift a finger

I ran to the dentist but they were closing by the time I got there and told me to come back the next morning

I did, and they said I need an emergency root canal, but that it would be hard to find any endodontists who take my insurance, which... yeah, it proved to be impossible

So now, today, I'm scheduled for the root canal, and I have to pay for the whole $1500 out of pocket

Which I haven't reached, but... I'll have to see what I can manage now

Also, through all of this, my workplace is telling me it's "unacceptable" not to show up to work because they're short-staffed. As if I wasn't stuck in the fucking hospital. I worried about getting fired, because I need that money to pay for the fucking root canal and I hadn't even received my first paycheck, so I went in to work yesterday, but wasn't able to finish a full day of work because I felt like Shit

They still told me they need a doctor's note specifically stating that I can't work for x number of days (even though I gave them my emergency room discharge papers to prove I was unwell) before they could believe that I was actually not feeling well enough to work

So I guess I'm going to ask the fucking endodontist for one

And this cuts into my funds for my trip to take the JLPT and some other things in June, which I also really need so I can get a better job. It is absolutely necessary that I take this trip, but I'll no longer have the money for it yet, and travel costs only go up as you get closer to the date of, so lol.

Anyway. It has not even been 5 full days since I first went to the ER. I need a fucking break.

#anposting #/rant

[elmaxlys]

thoughts on utaren?

Dear anon, literally my first thought was "are you new here?" but then I realized that yeah okay fair I haven't posted about them in forever. you do need to have been there for a while to have known me during my nonstop utaren-posting phase

Short answer: there are 18 pages of posts tagged utaren on my blog, i think this speaks for itself (aka I love them, TG OTP)

Long answer: *stick figure violence* they mean so much to me

Retrospectively, this answer is not making any sense I'm just throwing thoughts around. Have fun, anon.

The thing with Utaren is that. they are so. so . They're best friends, okay. They know each other better than anyone but also they don't know each other at all and that's fucking poetic. They've been around each other for decades, they haven't seen each other in years. They can't live with the other, they can't live without him either.

If you want to know, back in. oh dear. back in the days of early :re publication (i read og around when :re was announced or something but i got "active" in fandom when :re was being published), I was Uta/Utaren posting and was arguing that Uta's tattoo talked about Renji, ya know, while anti-Utarens were arguing back that no it talked about the humans/ghouls relationship actually. Because I was so young back then with no concept of analysis, literary or not - despite the insane quantity of meta I read and my good grades in french/literature class - and also my english sucked wonderfully, I couldn't prove my point clearly. But anyways yearsss later I was proven right and this was maybe one of the best feelings I ever felt. When I say I'm always right this is what I mean.

So yeah I've been a shipper since forever.

The way I'll describe the way I see them depends on who I'm talking to, honestly, so take your pick.

With Utaren antis/deniers, they're my OTP. I ship them. They fuck on the regular. They try to kill each other before, during and after, it's part of the mating ritual. They've ruined my life enough I won't do in subtlety and won't go in deeper analysis. Leave me alone.

With Fellow Utaren Truthers, I'll say yes I ship them but I also see both of them as aspec, you know, I see Renji as arospec ace and Uta as either oriented aroace, either as alloaro, and thus this impacts the way I ship them, you know? I alternate between they're QPPs by the end of :re, they're FWB and they don't define their relationship/the way they're involved with each other (they have A Thing going on and who needs to know what that is apart from them, ya know)

With myself, they're friends. Their "we're friends" leitmotiv is. extremely important to me and that's what made me sooo involved with them in the first place, ya know? it's. so meaningful, both to them and to the story. to the fact they literally can't be together nor apart. They're friends. That's how they define what they have and who am I to tell them otherwise, you feel?

So yeah I ship them in all the ways above and probably more.

Also ya know this meta

And this fanfic

Speaking of which, I started a lot of utaren fanfics.. i never finished any because I really struggle writing relationships, especially when I'm not decided as to where I want them to go (see above the many different ways i ship them). RIP I guess

#thank you <3 #utaren #tokyo ghoul

[seishun-emergency]

Talks of both Chiakana AND Natsumugi fics? Why yes, I am looking! Hehe! Also... Transmasc Natsume, so true. I don't know if we're still playing since it's been a hot minute, but if you still want to chat about ships, i'll give you OT3s to rate! : Hiiaikoha, the three ryusei juniors, and the 3-A trio! -🐟

mermaid anon i think u severely underestimate how much i like talking about enstars i have genuinely talked about it for nonstop hours in person to my qpp shoutout to them for putting up with me. all this to say that i will never say no to being enabled to say more things about enstars

i love polyships i think more polycules should exist. i have a lot of insane ones bc i keep putting them in Situations and then going "instead of resolving this with a single relationship it will resolve with All" and i think thats really funny of me GLSJDF anyways all this to say:

kohiiai - oh theyre so wonderful. teenagers in love. im a big fan of kohaai and hiiai and kohii and its just smashing all of it together they r all holding hands!!!! kohaku and aira's online friends to irls arc is so funny to me u met oomf irl and they were hot . and then hiiro and aira care sooo much about each other they r literally best friends!!! and hiiro and kohaku r both really similar and really different people i think theyre fun as foils and also just as boyfriends . u cant go wrong with them to be honest

ryusei juniors - I ACTUALLY LOVE THEM SO MUCH !!!! nothing super coherent but i like how often shinobu calls midori handsome and tall its very funny of him i think. points at shinobu you have a Crush. they balance each other out well i think,, midori thinks things through a bit more than anxious shinobu and overeager tetora and tetora can help motivate midori and get shinobu over some of his fears and shinobu is just so earnest and loving and i think his being so unafraid to be his true self makes others around him feel like they can be their true selves as well. u know? they r all holding hands. i have a couple fics planned for them LOL

3-a trio - i think theyre so funny tbh. kaoru and chiaki is already a Dynamic but adding sena izumi in there?? wow. good lord. izumi's a really fun addition tho his tsundere nature plays off of chiaki's endless enthusiasm and earnest love well and he isnt afraid 2 call kaoru out on his shit, which sometimes kaoru needs desperately. they're unlikely friends but friends nonetheless and also friends that hold hands sometimes as a treat. its also just really funny aesthetically you have ur calm composed model in the dignified knights unit and then the blond flirty playboy surfer and then the Red Power Ranger. yeah. they're silly i like them

#leo composes #mermaid anon #3-a trio #ryusei juniors #kohiiai #i think the craziest polycules that ive considered writing for or would read are uhhh #natsume harem #and tomoya harem btu that's a bit more gimmicky than natsume harem

[appreciatingtokrev]

HI!!!!!!!!! ELYS!!!!!!!!! sorry for the enthusiasm it just feels like i haven't spoken to u in years even tho its been like a day or two 😭😭😭 but how've u been? whatcha been getting up to?

i catched up on the tokyorev anime (s2) and its v nostalgic watching it ngl, but its rlly fun to see hakkai, koko, inui and yuzuha finally in action :) i also started watching buddy daddies! idk if u ever got into the whole craze of spy x family but its all rlly good, new fav anime genre frfr

HEY!! TAKU!!!! :3 no no dw you’re all good anyways and you don’t have to apologize to me if you’re enthusiastic abt smth /gen i think it’s very stupid that society tries to silence people who are happy about something like?? it’s not annoying either?? idk. anyways fr same it does feel like it’s been years 😭😭 i’ve been doing good, ty for asking!! hanging out with my qpp was, as predicted, very fun hehe. we just talked, listened to ddf audiobooks and cuddled while enjoying each other’s existence but fr that’s one some of my fav activities to do,, idk it’s just. i like people i like their presence i like doing my own thing beside them yk. well after coming home again i survived three days of school which wasn’t too interesting imo. i did get two copies of the same 3* draken in the tokrev game tho that was pretty cool. how about you tho?? ohh i’m saving the new episodes (i’ve watched the first one already tho) bc some friends and i will finish s1 of tokrev and then the episodes of s2 that are out soon, probably the coming weekend so yeah lol. i am very excited i cannot wait to see the iconic kokonoi blep animated!! i am generally very excited for him, as well as inupi, and hakkai, and yuzuha. and more chifuyu!! aaaa. oh i actually wanna watch that some day. maybe spy x family too idk yet. it does seem fun fr i get the hype but idk how much i will personally enjoy it tbh buut one day we’ll see lol

#fun fact about me i am so quick at picking up habits from others that i. i started doing that with fictional characters as well. #which i realised when i kept on doing the kokonoi blep #blep blep blep #no but fr it’s fun(ny) yes but it’s also a pain in the ass if you pick up everything everyone ever does #help why is this answer so long #☆—`ask #☆—`elys rambles #elys n taku rambles

[bringcal]

never thought about dave and jake as a pairing! :o why?

ok sorry for putting you off for like. so long. but oh my god do you wanna do this... do you rlly wanna do this... bc i been insane abt them.

Not in the relationship way... theyre not boyfriends. They're Qpps. tbh I think theyd both date and be "boyfriends" but they just both dont understand theyre both aromantic and their feelings are queerplatonic. Anyways. ( Can you tell im arospec.)

They're honestly quite similar in a lot of ways, not in even only obvious interests ( particular interest in dead things, comics though daves interest in comics seems more into webcomics ) but also in things like talking pattern and habits, fashion style ( those bitches will both show up to a party in suits and bowties. ), and also. their fucking whole masculinity issues .

Also, you cant tell me they wouldnt watch Weekend at bernies together. Be real with me right now.

Also, I think them being together would either help or make their masculinity issues worse. it has possibility to go both ways. Honestly can you imagine hypermasc davejake. thatd be kinda hilarious sorry everyone. but them painting nails together is the ideal i promise.

Just felt the need to add in that gpa harley collects knights and some of jakes movies have to do w knights and ... yknow where im going w this. anyways. yeah

#ty for asking my opinion bro i love sharing them #oh and also #i feel like when ppl give their opinions on things its all formal but i do not roll like that so sorry but this is all ur getting

[fiveandanotherfive]

Ships

I, like many Numberblocks fans

Have ships

Honestly the only ship I'm against is Twelve and Eighteen because

They are siblings

Please do not ship them

I will block anyone that ships Twelve and Eighteen /srs

Other than that people can ship any Numberblocks

Now, I said that I have my ships, so I shall get into that

But before I get into that

I headcanon that Six is polyamorous

Now that that's out of the way, first I'll do the romantic ships, then my headcanon queerplatonic pairings

Six and Eight

Probably the most common ship (and the only one that isn't a same-gender ship) I have on this list, but honestly it's the only fandom-agreed ship that actually makes sense to me (mostly because of all my LGBT HCs) and it's just really frikin sweet and there's a lot of ship fuel is the actual show

Thirteen and Fourteen

Unlucky X Double lucky, no matter what I like this ship and will stick by it no matter what, although I do like to think of this one as a wavership instead of just a straight up romance

Fifteen and Sixteen

Opposites? Yes (A quiet, serious step squad and a loud, fun-loving square), but do I love this ship? Also yes! They're basically magnets (metaphor) and also I imagine Sixteen changing into isosceles triangle form (1+2+3+4+3+2+1) to try to impress Fifteen but Fifteen is just like "Sixteen sweetie I already love you no matter what shape you make" and then Sixteen gets so flustered she just splits into the four Fours

Seventeen and Eighteen

"Sunset this is the third ship you ship where the numbers are right next to each other in numerical order" hush these are my ships I get to ship Seventeen and Eighteen if I want to and I do ship them so I will talk about it, I imagine them trying to spend quality time together but it always ends up failing because I imagine that Eighteen hates trying to spend hours painting because because the only movements you can make while painting without ruining it all is the simple brush strokes, and Eighteen's idea for quality time is riding on the rays track with the people he cares about (both platonically and romantically) and Seventeen is afraid of heights, but they both still love each other nonetheless

Twenty-Four, Twenty-Five, Twenty-Seven, and Twenty-Eight

The polyamorous lesbian foursome that coincidentally consist of all composite numbers, Twenty-Five and Twenty-Eight steal each other's oatmeal cream pies 24/7 but they all love each other the same, and Twenty-Four likes to shine her rays when it's dark so that Twenty-Seven doesn't have to be scared, and all four of them will have fun forming both 2D and 3D shapes together

Forty-Five and Forty-Nine

I kid you not when I say that I thought of this ship while making this post, but I will not let this ship go now that I've thought about it! They both love each other a lot but they used to think step squads and squares being in relationships is forbidden because they think the annual steps vs squares treasure hunts mean feuds between them (they realized it was all just fun and games when they realized that Thirty-Six is both a square and a step squad) and even when they realized that step squads and squares are cool with each other they still keep their relationship a secret because they're both not ready to announce it to the world yet

Now onto the headcanon queerplatonic pairings

Five and Six

This is why I mentioned before that I headcanon that Six is polyamorous! Anyway, I am more passionate about this than I am about any of the actual ships I ship mainly because Five is my favorite Numberblock ever anyway yeah Five and Six are the QPPs ever

Eleven and Nineteen

Another headcanon queerplatonic pairing that I am less passionate about but I will still hold onto this one for life

Twenty-One and Twenty-Two

I refuse to elaborate about this headcanon queerplatonic pairing I just headcanon this for some reason

Anyway that's all of them

#Numberblocks #Numberblocks Five #Numberblocks Six #Numberblocks Eight #Numberblocks Eleven #Numberblocks Twelve #Numberblocks Thirteen #Numberblocks Fourteen #Numberblocks Fifteen #Numberblocks Sixteen #Numberblocks Seventeen #Numberblocks Eighteen #Numberblocks Nineteen #Numberblocks Twenty-One #Numberblocks Twenty-Two #Numberblocks Twenty-Four #Numberblocks Twenty-Five #Numberblocks Twenty-Seven #Numberblocks Twenty-Eight #Numberblocks Forty-Five #Numberblocks Forty-Nine #GOD THAT'S A LOT