#as i burn another page

[darthkieduss]

Autistic MFers with ADHD will write in our journals in long paragraphs about their spiritual beliefs and political convictions but relegate personal life stuff as a footnote. Like I went on a rant in my journal about I had lost faith in the capitalist system and ended it with "also I Got a girlfriend now. [her name]. 1/22/2019"

Even in a private journal, we keep private shit to ourselves, least our future selves look at our own words in judgement.

#adhd #adhd and autism #journals #Journal entry #diary #dear diary #as i burn another page #as i look the other way #i still try to find my place #in the diary of jane #Diary of Jane #Breaking Benjamin #lol

[clair-de-lunar-tears]

not at all related to real life events

#but i'm tellin ya right now if i get another email i will explode #scream and explode like popola #also there were way too many choices for the 9S screenshot #ah bruh #i'll just be over here burning down my computer #don't worry i can post memes from the fridge #vague spoilers for everything #warning- people are fked up in a game full of fked up events #nier #but on second thought maybe they should've all just started meme pages #it's really good for your mental health

[oatbugs]

in the philosophy common room 2 friends both doing what they need to do i'm alive i'm here i'm ok okay

#my heart is beating not quickly but with so much force #5 things you can hear: a trackpad clicking. crows outside. faint hum of the radiator. the wind. occasionally an indistinguishable chatter #5 things you can see: laptop. backpack. friends. philosophy books in the shelves. #cup of tea my friend made me in a cup of coffee my friend bought me. a note on the board that says h-value: the number of seconds before #hitler is mentioned in any ethical discussion. another note: 1) moral reason requires Ability Not To. 2) god acts on moral reason. #3) god lacks ability to do otherwise. 4) ⊥ #5 things you can feel: the fabric of the couch. sharp edge of the laptop against my hands. soft keys. love. desperation. #5 things you can taste: fresh air from the window. dust from the books. the lips of every person i've kissed. her skin. tea. i let him #add almond milk to it. #5 things you can smell: baccarat rouge 540. rice. old pages. soap. electricity burning. nothing else. not her tuscan leather. not her hair

[castielmacleod]

I want the “waltz with the villain” trope for Crowley so much… literally instead of talking with Cas in hell in season 6 he should have taken him back to his fancy house, dropped a needle on some smooth jazz record, and had Cas dance with him while he monologued about his proposal for their partnership. More or less the same conversation but dramatically different vibes.

#Crowley spn #Castiel #Crowstiel #I just think this would have catered to me personally #Crowley deserved this energy and Cas deserved to dance. #Especially with a man but just in general like. He never got to dance! Just another basic thing he never got to experience #My posts #I can’t believe there isn’t a Tv Tropes page for this? It’s such a good one #Also yes yes Crowley’s house burned down circa season 5 I just think he’d get a new one #Especially once he’s the king and not you know. Hiding under a rock like a bloody salamander etc #Anyway I’m. Going to go pick out a song for this 😭

[egginfroggin]

@dysfunctionalburden *Yeets this at you* gaze upon the shenanigans your tags have inspired (and thank you for the inspiration, I hope you don't mind me running a marathon with it).

It is. far removed from the plot of Iced Tracks in several ways, though, I will say. Brain just. took it and bolted. And now this happened.

Anyway, one other thing -- this makes my 21st published work on AO3! Thank you all so, so much for reading my works and giving feedback -- you have all been wonderful readers, and thank you so much for your support! <3

Happy reading, beloved reader beans!

#iced tracks #technically #dying of the light au #subway boss emmet #reshiram #eggin's writings #submas #slightly eldrich legendaries #cw burns #oh look ANOTHER AU #golly they're popping up like popcorn #:> #2 pages of fic oh BOY #I thought it would take longer to get there but! no! #*incoherent raptor screech of joy*

[enbysiriusblack]

thinking about horror film au marauders.. (tw. lotta gore)

lily the nerdy, bossy character that comes out with a giant axe and brutally beats up the killer/s to the shock of every other character

peter is either the bargaining character that tries to bargain and give the killer/s what they want just as he's about to die. or the character secretly on the killer's side that's revealed at the end

definitely giving wolfstar the making out whilst a killer is in their house/car/woods

mary, dorcas, remus, and lily all turning to each other wondering which of them is gonna die first, when they realise they're basically in a horror film cause of the black character dying first trope (i watched the blackening yesterday and the tagline "we can't all die first" gave me this hc. very good film. highly recommend)

sirius is the resident horror film expert that tells them what the killer usually does next (im imagining someone dying and everyone is just screaming over the dying body and sirius is also screaming but then adds in "this is exactly like that scene in wrong turn!"

the screamers are probably mary, remus, and james. not a definite though. i can see it being other people.

marlene gets the most jump scare scenes and emmeline gets the most hearing creaking and footsteps

james is the best at fighting but absolutely hates blood. feel like there needs to be a scene where he's like punching a masked killer and is doing SO WELL. and he gets the killer on the ground and is about to pull the mask off when the killer pulls out a knife and stabs at his hands and chest and shit. and he just screams and backs away staring at his blood until he faints.

as marlene dies, she clutches dorcas' hand and whispers "the lesbians never get a happy ending. apart from fear street... why couldn’t this be like fear street?"

the final girl HAS to be mary. ofc.

#im very much a satire horror fan. in case you couldn’t tell from this. #gonna explain how everyone dies (other than mary) in the tags cause im having ideas now i thought i was finished #idk the order so this is random and not at all chronological #remus- is high as fuck. thinks sirius or james is pranking him and then gets stabbed or whatever #sirius- tries to out horror the killer. tips a bucket of fake blood on them. has a chainsaw and mask #has a bunch of recording devices with sounds he previously made. etc. but then his fucking phone goes off #and he gets so annoyed because thats such a rookie mistake. and he asks to cut and do a retake just before the killer kills him #marlene- kinda already said about her death. but feel like it's def outside like in the street and shes only with dorcas #i already said james' death #lily- feel like there's more than one killer and she manages to kill one. just to turn around and another to get her #dorcas- she gets VERY into it once marlene dies. definitely gets hits in if not killing some of the killers. #but they ultimately get stabbed a lot and they run to marlene's body whilst bleeding out instead of the hospital #and she dies in marlene's dead grasp. #emmeline doesn't get killed for a while. is bait in a plan to catch killer/s but the plan goes wrong and she gets pushed out a high window #i havent mentioned other characters but why not say their deaths. #regulus- he's made to be involved with like a scene in a library where they go to him to ask about some secret history of the town #and then is killed the next day but has s bunch of writings and pages of books around his room about the killers and hes solved it #but the killer burns it all before anyone gets there #pandora- kinda want her to the first death for some reason idk.. like it gets framed as a suicide but so many people dont believe it #and the killings go on #barty- sees the masked killer and like jokes around touching their mask and stuff. and then the killer just like. brings out an axe #and chops his head off #evan- dont know why but im imagining him driving and getting those spikes in the road to lure him out the car #also btw didn't mention peter's death cause im leaning towards him being secretly one of the killers #and gets killed by either lily or dorcas #was gonna say barty and evan could be killers then i realised i made them kill reg and pandora and cas so people would not like that #also no mary death obviously since shes the final girl. survivor ever <3 immortal <3 #marauders era #marauders #tw. gore

[partyhorn]

jo gets ice cream :)

[herorkgk]

working on some stuff for my oc

#wip #my art #oc: leif #sorry i keep bouncing between projects im trying desperately to keep myself from burn out rn #so i took a break from work to doodle a page for them... #to me they are really cool i'll talk about them some more at another time

[arcadian-vampire]

I wonder if my laptop is functional enough for me to clumsily make a neocities page 🤔

#pikaposts #i'm worried abt tumblr crashing and burning so i wanna have another place where people can find me #besides discord. i only use discord to talk to molly and rp and i forget other people exist woopsie #anyways i don't like other social media... i feel like neocities will be the best fit for me #i like decorating a page and blogging!

[imwritesometimes]

I think the huge chunk in the middle of my wip notebook that is just manic notes, outlines, time lines, entire chapters complete with edits from the last (almost) year that I abandoned should idk... have the decency to tear themselves out and set themselves on fire

#nothing like sitting down last night like: you know what! I am gonna try again! fck it! I CAN write! #I know I can cause I checked! I can absolutely write it's fine I'm actually pretty good at this! #and opening the notebook and looking at the cery loose wip notes and going: ok! I can work with like 80% of this! #what else is in here?!!! #that was my mistake.... I should not have looked at what else was in there #pages and pages and pages of 3 different wips I tried to make work for one ship #a couple for another #a whole fleshed out 5+1 for a beloved ship wip that I just.... gave up on #notes from the last fic I shared nearly a year ago #that was the last time my writing flowed. I could read those notes and be like #oh this bitch is onto something. she's FEELING IT. #and then after that. poof. I tried and tried and tried and tried. #and then I got all in my head abt the one ship. and the source material. and I honest to god just. #kinda burned myself out on fic and fandom and blorbos in general tbh. like. that ship nearly killed my creativity. #for good. #but now I'm kinda like hmmmm you knkw what I'm not bad actually!!! #but then. open the notebook. and womp womp. maybe I am bad. maybe I've always been bad. maybe I SHOULDN'T try again. #closed the notebook and went to bed. idk if I wanna look at it tonight again #might just fuck off and try to make sense of the new true d ep that's apparently out tonight #(this season has been so mid so far mehhh) #erin explains it all

[gunthermunch]

you said max has sketches with lucas in his sketchbook. did he draw him in a soft way because he look at him with admire and think lucas deserve to be immortalised in art or in an aggressive way because he thinks it will helps him to get lucas out from his head (silly boy)

the later is more accurate

#ask #gm reply #i think he only sketched lucas in a ~daydream way once. and then he glued that page to another one+burned it so no one will never know #(i did that

[protonpowered]

I made some rough notes on story progression. It's very probable that some things will get condensed into one or split into two, but I have beats for about another 23 chapters, not counting the ones I couldn't fit onto my paper

(It doesn't even sound right in my head, perhaps I'm just being generous with my estimates)

Oh boi I hope you all like a long haul of a slow burn 🔥 😬🫡

#at the end of that page i was only just getting to the part where the two were actually doing things about their feelings for each other #theres at least another twenty chapters after that #cause its not just a slow burn #its also nef fucking up his ranger career #but once hes done that the fic is very nearly done #and then i go go onto part two blargian boogaloo which i plan to be significantly shorter #not a 50 chap behemoth like ranger dyas night turn out to be

[the-busy-ghost]

Love how my taste in poetry is utterly irrational, has absolutely no rhyme nor reason, and seems to be based solely on Vibes

#I'm not a poetry person though I do intend to read more of it #And there are a lot of mediaeval poets in the category of 'poetry I like' but that might also just be because I've READ more mediaeval poems #Meanwhile my knowledge of modern poetry is patchy at best and it's really not clear where to start if I don't want to do it chronologically #But yeah #Setting Chaucer Dunbar Henryson and the rest of the gang to one side #And Burns whose works are written on my heart due to upbringing even though I've not read much of him as an adult #There seems to be absolutely no reason why I go 'Eh it's alright I suppose' to some poems and 'YES THAT ONE YES' to others #Entirely vibes #I'm coming to the conclusion that that's maybe the best way to consume poetry anyway #My lack of modern poetry knowledge is not helped by the fact that I like to have the whole of a poet's output at my disposal #But I also like to dip in and out of poetry #So staring down a 400+ page collection of poems is not helpful they'll all start to run into one another #But at the same time I don't want to buy individual collections as I might be missing out on something #So I just never read it

[doctorwho2022]

Doctor Who episodes that aired on the 30th of May…

In 1964, The Warriors of Death (the 2nd episode of The Aztecs)

In 1970, Inferno Episode 4

#Doctor Who #Barbara #Liz #Benton #personas and parallels #on this day in 2013 the final issue of Hunters of the Burning Stone came out in the pages of Doctor Who Magazine #The end of another fantastic comic series by Scott Gray #Speaking of. On this day in 2019 the final issue of Herald of Madness came out. Gray's latest series finale so to speak. #And one more personal favourite- I hope people forgive me for listing my favourites like this- #In 2017 the short trip Falling came out. #1964 #1970 #May

[crystar1um]

i finally love lord of the rings

#i always had a fondness of it and it still terrifies me #but the hope and pain threaded into the series #i need to finish the last two movies cause i barely remember them #and im tempted to read the books #but also rings of power to me is beautiful #i feel lim getting sucked into shipping hell but i genuinely am fascinated with galadriel and sauron as standalone cahracters and their #dynamic with eachother #and its prob tumblr sexyman eyeglasses and im missing prob 92837492 pages of lore behind sauron and hes not actually tragic #but what the fuck man :( im sad #but its like you have no time to be sad because any sympathy is IMMEDIATELY burned away #which i think thats another layer of like I WANT TO BE SAD BUT YOURE JUST AWFUL BUT INTERESTING #im compelled by basic edgey media ill never have taste

[wayfaringauthorofficial]

I did everything I could as I tried to gain your trust, tried to

earn a safe place in the depths of your jet black heart.

But what if that was all for nothing, a war without purpose?

I look at you now, and you’re next to me in this bed

but we might as well be oceans away because you

don’t look at me anymore and you don’t touch

me the way that you used to anymore.

I’m starting to forget the way that you taste

when the THC gets to my head and I’m texting

him instead because he filled the canyon that you made

in my heart when you ran so far and so fast that it made

my head spin to think that everything you ever said

to me was a lie to keep me hanging on and pouring honey

into your light pink mouth, opened and ready,

until you found someone older, someone better-

someone who wasn’t fucked up like me.

""

Our friends don’t talk to me anymore

because they know you better,

but maybe that’s the way that I wanted it.

The less memories I have of you,

the less my heart hurts and

the less things I need to forget.

No matter how much I drink or how much I smoke

your hands pass through my memories.

Your thin lips paint pictures on my ribs again.

I still get the urge to bury my face

deep into the warmth of your chest,

feeling it rise and fall with every breath that you take.

""

Sometimes a part of me wishes that you would

come back to me, just for one day

so that I could tell you all of this.

I wish I could shake you, tear you apart

and remind you of the pain you left me with.

I pray that part of you is hurting now,

that you know how I cried and locked the doors

when you ran for the hills,

just like my daddy said you would

during all those boring dinners without you.

Just like my mama promised would happen,

because who wants a scarred and ruined girl

like me, anyway?

Who would want to love someone

who is so intent on ruining their life

rather than keeping themselves safe,

keeping her own heart beating?

Who would want to love someone like that?

Who would want to love someone

like me?

-As the flames burn out.

#embers #amwritingpoetry #amwriting #poets on tumblr #female writers #just wrote this #poetry #new poem #writers of tumblr #writers on tumblr #amwriting poetry #writing about it #past and present #scars on pages #letters on pages #spilled ink #i used to miss you #but i don't anymore #another picture to burn #taylor swift and poetry #creative writing #my own poem #trying to find a place in this world #taylor swift and kisses #maybe you loved her more than you loved me #and you wanted someone who looked like her #but your new girl looks like me #make it make sense #tell me why #why did you leave