#been meaning to get the avicii game too

[asexualbookbird]

what if instead of reading a book i find and download all rhythm games i can find and rate them all

#bookbird babbles #i love the tappy taps #beat saber looks like soooo much fun but the one time i tried on a vr headset i got claustrophobic and nauseous lmaaooo #been meaning to get the avicii game too

[squiddokiddo]

It's been a while since I've been tagged in one of these. Thanks for inviting me to join @tsarinatorment.💛💛

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Tag game

Three ships:

I'm not really a shipper, I'm very picky about the romance I consume. It's kinda like candy, great in small amounts but if I consume too much of it, I start to feel adverse to it.

• Jeff/Kyrano - Thunderbirds

The convos we've had in the Thunderpride group chat have made me quite like this one, just two sweet old men falling in love and raising their 6 kids together.

• M.A.X/Fritzy - TAG

Those two robots are so cute!! Can robots experience romantic attraction?? I guess so??

Cute cute cute!!

• Fischler/The Mechanic - TAG

More of a crackship which could be romantic or platonic. I love the idea of the mad scientist and his responsible engineer boyfriend.

Fischler's just running around coming up with ideas and inventions and the Mechanic is chasing after him adding safety features and making sure nothing explodes.

First ship:

•Uhhhh Pen and Ink (Gordon/Penelope) - TAG

I don't really ship them anymore, they're fine but like the candy metaphor; I had too much of it and it kinda put me off. There's also been times where I've accidentally stumbled apon nsfw of them and it just kinda made me worried about consuming the ship at all.

Tbh I feel like their relationship would much more interesting if it's familial and/or platonic, I also love lesbian, wlw and aroace Lady Penelope headcanons so there's that too.

(I don't mean to upset anyone, I'm sorry.)

Last song I listened to:

• I believe it was The Nights by Avicii while I was drawing last night. (As long as we're not counting songs on the radio because I have no idea.)

Last movie I watched:

• The Super Mario Bros Movie.

My brother and I had a siblings' evening out to watch it in the cinema. Nintendo and Mario played a big role in our relationship when we were kids so going to see the movie together was quite important. We both loved it btw.

(I don't really sit down and watch movies so any that are just playing in the background I don't count.)

Currently reading:

• Heartstopper (do comics count?)

My friend convinced me to binge watch the first season with them on Netflix and I'm hooked, I love it!!

She lent me her copy of the books to read before the next season comes out, I'm not really much of a reader anymore but I definitely want to get through these.

Currently Watching:

• Whatever takes my fancy, I just pick and choose whatever. I don't really have much on my radar right now.

Currently consuming:

• Not sure if this means media consumption or actual consumption but right now I'm drinking a glass of Coca-Cola with some ice and a straw.

Currently craving:

Iced caramel latte from Coffee #1 but I don't think a moment goes by where I don't want one of those.

I could also go for a tight hug and a good night's sleep.

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Tagging:

@inertplanetary @crunchyluigi @knyee @tracybirds @dragonoffantasyandreality @uniwolfcorn @bonsaiiiiiii @mrmustachious @katblu42 @avengedbiologist

I know it said tag 9 but I did 10 because I can (and one of the tags isn't working properly, sorry Wolfie)

#it just occurred to me that maybe this should have been its own post #sorry tsari (;^^) #thunderfam #romance #ask game #get to know me

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Never paid much attention to Louis’ playlists until I started reading your blog (your music posts are brilliant btw) but his Tour Bus one? I mean the story it conveys... if you’re a Larrie and believe that H&L are expressing their truth in clever subliminal ways how can you look at the lyrics of those songs and not see his situation? I mean Dakota (about a PAST summer romance in June), I’m still standing, bittersweet symphony... He’s screaming “we need to move on” as he clearly has.

Louis has already said a lot in his previous music recommendations, both about his preferences in music, his taste, his background (musical and cultural), and his personal life. Amy Winehouse has tunes for days, but he picks Tears Dry On Their Own.

This is the Louis Tomlinson Tour Bus playlist:

Song 2 - Blur

Well I got my head done/ When I was young/ It’s not my problem

Never Miss a Beat - Kaiser Chiefs

What is the golden rule?/ You say nothing/ It's cool to know nothing

The Runner - Foals

Loneliness of the long distance runner/ Shadow, come closer, so I'll go on further

Twice - Catfish and the Bottlemen

Maybe I’ll grow tired of you bitchin’ all the time/ cause when you love me, the way you’re living/ it’s just hard to fret about much/ because if I got time, I’d just regret most shit

Life Is a Game of Changing - DMA’s

Life is a game of changing/ I was thinking all about our situation/ Here anymore, I can't steer anymore

Charmer - Kings of Leon

She's such a charmer oh no/ Oh no/ She stole my karma oh no

Reptilia - The Strokes

Our lives are changing lanes, you ran me off the road/ The wait is over, I'm now taking over/ You're no longer laughing, I'm not drowning fast enough

Dani California - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Who knew the other side of you?/ Who knew that others died to prove?/ Too true to say goodbye to you

Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana

I’m worse at what I do best/ And for this gift I feel blessed/ Our little group has always been/ And always will until the end

Dakota - Stereophonics

You made me feel like the one

Heavyweight Champion of the World - Reverend and the Makers

I could've been a contender/ Could've been a someone/ Caught up in the rat race/ And feeling like a no-one/Appearing in the papers / With the money and the girls/ I could've been The Heavyweight Champion of the World

Flux - Bloc Party

We were hoping for some romance/ All we found was more despair/ We must talk about our problems/ We are in a state of flux

Looking At You - Only the Poets

He could flick a light switch in your heart/We were just a deep dive in the dark/ I don't know why it still tears me apart/ Oh looking at you looking at him

Supersonic- Oasis

I need to be myself/ I can't be no-one else/ I'm feeling supersonic, give me gin and tonic/ You can have it all, but how much do you want it?/ You make me laugh/ Give me your autograph

Teddy Picker - Arctic Monkeys

And it's the thousandth time that it's even bolder/ Don't be surprised when you get bent over/ They told you, but you were dying for it

Hard to Beat - Hard FI

Read all about it, have you heard the latest?/ Boy in a band dates a hollywood actress/ But baby, you and me, we came up from the street/ No time to hesitate, we've got to push our weight

What You Know - Two Door Cinema Club

And I can tell just what you want/ You don't want to be alone/ I wouldn't test you, I'm not the best you/ Could have obtained, why try anything?

Dog Days Are Over - Florence + The Machine

Happiness, it hurt like a bullet in the mind

Without You - Avicii (feat. Sandro Cavazza)

You said you’d follow me anywhere/ But your eyes tell me you won’t be there/ I’ve gotta learn how to love without you

Stoned in Love - Chicane, Tom Jones

If I could roll it back to you/ Just like lovers always do/ I'm stoned in love but not with you

I’m Still Standing - Elton John

And did you think this fool could never win?/ Well look at me, I'm a-coming back again/ I got a taste of love in a simple way/ And if you need to know while I'm still standing/ You just fade away

Don’t You Worry Child - Swedish House Mafia

Don’t you worry, don’t you worry child/ See, heaven’s got a plan for you

Lonely Boy - The Black Keys

So you pulled my heart out and I don't mind bleedin'/ Any old time you keep me waitin'

Fight On - The Lathums

A lovers quarrel/ Buried under rubble

We Have to Move On - Inhaler

It’s your last night/ We have to move on/ In the last light/ Oh, we stroll off

Can’t Stand Me Now - The Libertines

An ending fitting for the start/ You twist'n'tore our love apart

Not Nineteen Forever - Courteeners

You're not nineteen forever, pull yourselves together/ I know it seems strange but things, they change

I Am The Resurrection - The Stone Roses

Don't waste your words I don't need anything from you/ I don't care where you've been or what you plan to do

Whatever Gets You Thru The Night - John Lennon

Whatever gets you through the night/ It's all right, it's all right/ It's your money or your life/ It's all right, it's all right

Will We Talk? - Sam Fender

Sometimes I close my eyes/ And sometimes, I see you're fine

Black Betty - Ram Jam

What About Next Time? - Milburn

I really do not mean to pry but this just seems so silly/ How can the truth become a lie just so it means you're winning, oh

Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve

Well I never pray,/ But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah./ I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah./ I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now.

#tour bus playlist #louis playlist #louis spotify #21 march 2020

[alwaysupatnight]

Okay, doing @yossariandawn‘s questions because they were so good I didn’t wanna miss out. :P

1. Set two fictional couples you love on a double date, and tell me how would that play out? One word answers are acceptable if you prefer. Hmm... Well, I always wanted to do a crossover fic of fdtd and twd because I shipped both sethkate and bethyl. I could totally see Kate and Beth being best buds right away because they’re so similar and are pretty close in age. I wasn’t ever sure Seth and Daryl would get along too well because Daryl is a little standoffish with people he doesn’t know. :P Seth would not be having any fun and would probably make an idiot of himself, but what else is new. The double date might devolve into a fistfight between the two lbr. XD

2. Do you like candles? If so, what’s your favorite candle scent? I had this mocha coffee scented candle with coffee beans glued to the bottom half that I LOVE. I don’t remember where I bought it but I’ve been wanting to get more like it for almost 2 decades. lol I’ve never burned it. I also had this mango pineapple scented candle I got from bath and body works that I LOVED. It smelled so good!! But I don’t typically burn my candles. If I buy any, they pretty much just decorate my bookshelves. :P

3. What’s the perfect fic you’ve been craving that wish someone else would write already? I wish someone could see inside my brain and write the Fireman Seth au of my dreams. lol I just don’t know what to do with it myself tbh. Alternatively, my culebra seth fic. XD I’m just terrified I’m gonna screw it up by trying to give it a plot and it’s already getting out of hand as it is. lmfao but I promise I am trying!!

4. If you could have an 15 minute conversation with any fictional character, who would you choose? I would pick Beth Greene.

5. Above question continued, what would you talk about? I would demand to know WHERE HER BODY IS. And then I would discuss with her why she’s not actually dead.

6. What’s one weird thing you loved as a child? I was OBSESSED with the movie Con Air (starring Nicolas Cage). XD idk why?? I think it was because I really loved that final scene where he reunites with his wife and gets to meet his kid for the first time while Trisha Yearwood’s version of “How Do I Live” plays in the background. lol

7. Any songs that make you always think of a character? I honestly have wayyyy too many!! :P

Cinnamon Girl & Get Free // Lana Del Rey makes me think of Kate Fuller... those are just her songs okay!?!

Hey Brother // Avicii always makes me think of the Greene sisters from twd because of this gifset [here]

Echo // Jason Walker never fails to make me think of Bethyl because of this fan vid [here]

Never Give Up // Sia & All My Tears // Emmylou Harris always remind me of Beth Greene because of these gifsets *I* made lol [here] & [here]

And of course Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby // Cigarettes After Sex always makes me think of Seth Gecko/sethkate!! My fave gifset of mine y’all!! [here]

8. How well can you swim, and do you enjoy swimming? I was never gonna make the swim team but I wasn’t too terrible at it. lol Now I just float mostly. :P

9. Recommend me a new show, movie, or song! Narcos!! I’m definitely dragging you into the Pedro fan club!! :P Come fangirl over Javi with me!! lol Alternatively Cobra Kai (now on Netflix)!! It’s so good!! idk if you’ve seen it?? I can’t wait for s3!! Unfortunately it won’t be coming out until NEXT YEAR. dying about it. Or if you’ve seen that or are uninterested, I definitely recommend Upload on Amazon Prime!! Such an amazing show!!

10. What’s your favorite food that you make? I’ve been making a lot of chili and cornbread this year lol It’s pretty much the only thing I can cook decently but it’s pretty amazing ngl. I’m a better baker tbh and I loooove chocolate chip banana bread with walnuts!! I’ve perfected my recipe and it’s one of my fave things to make now!!

11. Draft the perfect Zombie Apocalypse Survival Team, 5 characters from any show or movie. I can only pick FIVE?! Ugh okay. lol

Leon Kennedy: Are video game characters acceptable?? lol Well, he’s in a few movies too. :P Leon is my zombie apocalypse bf okay. Plus he’s an agent and has experienced this shit multiple times lol

Beth Greene: HAVE YOU SEEN HOW THIS GIRL MAKES HEADSHOTS?! ACTUAL ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE PRINCESS!!

Daryl Dixon: Because he is the ultimate zombie fighter

Kate Fuller: the girl is FEARLESS. I mean, she wields crossbows and chainsaws against Mexican Dracula. Get her some body armor and she’d be unstoppable.

Karen Page: I read a zombie au Kastle fanfic a while back where she became the leader of a community. Every army needs a leader, right? Plus, she’s pretty badass with a gun!!

Not adding questions or tagging anyone cause this was just for fun. :P

#tagged

[gh0stbird]

Okay Now Do The Rest

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

Bright but argumentative. I was never afraid of pointing out things I didn’t feel were fair hfhddh

When we were learning numbers kids would often write 91 for nineteen, just flip them, y’know, and Ms. Potter yelled at the class for it. Baby Generiq went into it about how it was an understandable mix up because you do say the number first. In twenty-three you write the two first, so in nineteen it’s easy to assume you would write the nine first.

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

Tired.

8. movies or tv shows?

TV shows. Every book adaptation should also be a series not a movie. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

9. favorite smell in the summer?

Honeysuckle and sunshine

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

Floor hockey! My friend and I used to be brutal and swing at each other’s shins going after the ball. Also it was reminiscent of golf, which I competed in.

12. name of your favorite playlist?

I have an untitled playlist I cycle my current music in and out of, but Newton’s Third Law is my favorite named one!

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

I don’t- I guess the yellow smarties. Don’t come for me they taste like lemonade.

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

I assume this means assigned book and not the reports we got to pick for ourselves. Ah, Night was good. Lord of the Flies was fine but way overhyped. Again, don’t come for me.

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

If I can tuck my legs into the chair I am sitting in that is ideal!

18. ideal weather?

When you know it is going to rain and you get to stay home

19. sleeping position? (Skipped on accident)

I reeeally like pressure, so either against something or on my stomach.

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

Phone notes and a notebook! Sometimes a blank document but I always find it strangely intimidating

21. obsession from childhood?

Warrior Cats, Percy Jackson, and Maximum Ride were my big three!

22. role model?

Aa I try to straw from people I want to copy, but there are talents I look up to. Rachel Chavkin is a brilliant director, and there are so many artists and authors I look up to and who inspire me.

24. favorite crystal?

Obsidian because it’s black like my hea- I’m kidding, I do love obsidian, but it’s Rose Quartz because it’s a very very pretty, soft pink and makes me happy.

25. first song you remember hearing?

The mobile above my crib played Imagine by John Lennon. My childhood room was themed after it as well!

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

Swim or sit in the sunshine. Ben and I usually go driving with the top down as well.

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

Walking through fresh snow is amazing, so are snowball fights and building snowmen.

28. five songs to describe you?

Oh fuck yes

Hurricane - Hamilton

The Reckless and the Brave - All Time Low

Almost There - The Princess and the Frog

All This and Heaven Too - Florence + the Machine

Facade - Jekyll and Hyde: A Gothic Musical Thriller

30. places that you find sacred?

I don’t typically find places sacred, but certain headspaces are very special to me, and time spent with loved ones means more than enough to be considered sacred.

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

A black blazer with a white button-down and a skirt.

32. top five favorite vines?

I am in Missouri (misery)

I love you, Bitch

I want a Church girl

Obama’s “I know because I won both of them”

I won’t hesitate, Bitch!

33. most used phrase in your phone?

“No worries”

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

That fucking PFI bandana boot sale I stg

35. average time you fall asleep?

Somewhere between 9:00 and three in the morning

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

Some girl doing bunny ears on her friend. I don’t remember what the caption was

38. lemonade or tea?

Both. Mixed together. It’s called an Arnold Palmer and it is my favorite drink

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

Lemon cake!

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

We duck taped out principal to the wall once. Also some kid broke their tray over another kid’s head at lunch one time.

41. last person you texted?

The family group chat, though Beau if Discord counts

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

I wear a lot of leggings so jacket pockets!

44. favorite scent for soap?

We had some Lily of the Valley hand soap that was amazing

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

Fantasy, I think! I’ve never done super heavy into the other two. Though I definitely don’t want to ignore sci-fi because two of my favorite stories are a little science-fiction-y

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

A t-shirt and shorts

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

A banana. Generally accepted as a fruit and kind of just rolls with it, but is actually a berry

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

I fucking hate Hamilton-ing on main, but

“And when my prayers to god were met with indifference, I picked up a pen, I wrote my own deliverance!”

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

That changes every time Beau and I play HetaOni together, but I have fucking lost it for at least five minutes the last two sessions.

51. current stresses?

I dunno, man, life? My hair could use a wash

52. favorite font?

Covered by your Grace and I’m a big Spectral baby. These are both google docs! I don’t know if that makes a difference.

54. what did you learn from your first job?

Patience is important when teaching material, but never be afraid to find another approach better suited to the person you’re tutoring.

55. favorite fairy tale?

Robin Hood!

56. favorite tradition?

My family does homemade Springfield cashew chicken for Christmas!

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

Uhh lots of self-acceptance shit no one really wants to read

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

I can pop the joint at the center of my foot

That’s all

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

I sort of like my role as mom friend, so maybe I could keep that role in a sort of action-based anime that followed a group of friends

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

“I am not the protégé to waste your time on; I'm complete!” Jekyll and Hyde: GMT

62. seven characters you relate to?

Haha

Lisa Carew - Jekyll and Hyde: GMT

Japan - Hetalia/Oni

Garnett - Steven Universe

Hfhddh that’s all I can say that aren’t my own characters

63. five songs that would play in your club?

I Don’t Like Clubs, but

Overwhelmed - Royal + The Serpent

Backseat Serenade - All Time Low

Go Big or Go Home - American Authors

The Nights - Avicii

Tempo - Lizzo

64. favorite website from your childhood?

Webkinz!

65. any permanent scars?

Yep - One from a bad bike wreck. My body rejected the dissolvable stitches so it’s a lot bigger than it was supposed to be

66. favorite flower(s)?

Lily of the Valley, daisies, Day Lilies, and Dandelions! I also love honeysuckles but I don’t know if those count.

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

Accidentally drank rancid milk once!

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? (Haha, nice)

The fastest, free way to fill up your potions on Wizard101 is to play Potion Motion to level three.

70. left or right handed?

Right handed

71. least favorite pattern?

On myself, animal print

72. worst subject?

I’ve never been intuitively good at History, I do think it’s interesting though.

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

I don’t like to take it until I can’t move without it.

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

Kindergarten? I had mono and then scarlet fever twice, so my baby teeth were pretty much ruined and they all fell out very fast.

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

Curly fries!

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

Kalanchoe’s, it literally Window’s Thrill. These babies are fairly temperamental outside and love partial sun, so the window is the perfect spot for them. And! If you keep them happy! They’ll bloom! My personal favorite is the pink bloom.

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

What’s wrong with coffee from a gas station? Also I don’t like seafood.

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

Earth tones!

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

Lightning bugs

82. pc or console?

PC!

84. podcasts or talk radio?

Podcasts - talk radios actually tend to get under my skin for n o reason

84. barbie or polly pocket?

Barbie, but let it be known I was brutal with mine. We did human sacrifices and the like.

85. fairy tales or mythology?

Mythology!

86. cookies or cupcakes?

Cookies, but I’m a slut for whipped frosting

87. your greatest fear?

Losing control!

88. your greatest wish?

A life beyond where I am now. Haha Stop chasing new down the hallway you’re so sexy haha

90. luckiest mistake?

Logged into Omegle in like 2015 and some rando asked me to join their Doctor Who roleplay. Luckiest moment of my gd life.

91. boxes or bags?

Bags! They’re easier to store

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

Sunlight! But in the late afternoon when everything is bathed in orange.

93. nicknames?

Mom is the most prevalent!

94. favorite season?

Fall into winter. Peak leaf crunch!

95. favorite app on your phone?

Discord or Notes

[glasyasbutch]

playlist: craving & manic

link to playlist (on spotify)

1. Oh Girl You’re the Devil by MIKA

And I said follow me, whoever you want to be / Don’t care where you go as long you stay with me

MIKA kin song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The individual persona verses fit Craving (”girl with a bag full of hearts and the devil’s eyes”) much better than Manic but the general VIBES are just ... magnifique. It’s a song about people sticking together because the world hates them. Also like, devil themes ... tieflings ..... you get it.

I also just rly like the closing lines being “She’s a bad, bad girl, a very bad girl, he’s a bad, bad boy, a very bad boy” cause yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. Deal With It by GIRLI

We walk in, you stare at us, we find it hilarious / We came here to tear it up, we’re here to tear it up / Lights on, we roll up, makeup and undercuts / Lap it up, we’re pretty sure you can’t deal with it

Bro they went so fucking hard in their time as criminals like. So Hard. Especially a fan of the lines “back of a police car, free ride to the next bar” bc they really didn’t take law enforcement seriously like. At All. and the opening line of the selected lyrics above because two super fucked up and hot tieflings Definitely were eye catchers anywhere they went and they took a sick kind of pride in knowing that everyone was put off by them.

This song was originally on Craving’s personal playlist, but I moved it here bc it was much more of a pairs vibe.

3. Trouble by Valerie Broussard

I’m that knife in your boot, girl I got ya / I’m your number two man in the fight / We are revolutionaries tonight 

The only reason either of them made it a day out of their hometown was because they had each other, and they are So much more dangerous as a pair. 

4. Outlaws by Delta Rae

Don’t you know that we’re outlaws, giving the finger to death itself / We got no one to hide from, we got no one to toast our health

So this is on here partly just because I like Delta Rae. It’s technically a love song but it’s not explicit enough to turn me off from excluding it, because its much more about not giving a shit because you have the only thing you care about anymore walking by your side, and as long as they’re with you, you feel invincible, which is DEFINITELY how manic and craving walk through the world.

5. Bulletproof Heart by My Chemical Romance

Hold onto your heart in darkness / Will it ever be the light to shine you out or will it fail and leave you stranded? / I’m not going to be the one left standing / You aren’t going to be the one left standing / We aren’t going to be the ones left standing / Gravity don’t mean too much to me / Is this our destiny? This world is after me, after you / Run away, like it was yesterday

I always wanted an MCR song on here bc siccy niccy likes mcr and I felt like they deserved one on a playlist involving their character, but until recently I didn’t really listen to the band and didn’t trust myself to pick the song of theirs with the best vibes. But don’t worry! I’m having my MCR phase now so the updated playlist has one!!!! 

Anyways bulletproof heart makes me go fucking bonkers and the lyrics speak for themselves why it belongs on this playlist. It doubles for pre-campaign “we are just shitheads and society hates us and its fun cause we hate it too” and “we are literally going to throw overthrow strahd and probably die but like fuck it what else can we do” vibes

6. Skyway Avenue by We The Kings

‘Cause if you jump, I will jump too / We will fall together from your building’s ledge / Never looking back at what we’ve done / We’ll say it was love

Nic sent me and morgan a text one day and was like “if craving dies in strahd i genuinely think manic is just gonna walk into the woods and let a dire wolf get him” and then i added this song :)

7. Hey Brother by Avicii

Hey brother, do you still believe in one another? / Hey sister, do you still believe in love, I wonder? / Oh, if the sky comes falling down / For you, there’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do

A part of me will always here this song and think of the Taaco twins, but hey, we can give it to other sibling pairs who have lived through near unimaginable strife and come out the other end bitterly clinging to each other for dear life. 

Fun fact! This song is also on Nissy & Leth’s playlist. I make so many siblings.

8. I’ll Keep You Safe by Sleeing at Last

Don’t be afraid / God knows these mistakes will be made / But I promise I’ll keep you safe / As you build up your collection of pearls you pulled from the deep / The most beautiful landscape I’ve ever scene

Unconditional love between people who so desperately need to be told that they deserve any kind of love at all. Also bonus for one of the verses being about clocks because :3 sirris :3

9. We’re Alive by Cavetown

Actually you know what? The way things are isn’t good enough / We’re alive and we’re here / Please listen ‘cause we’re scared / We’re alive and we’re here / We will scream til you hear

I like to think this is the song for the exact moment they woke up and coughed the ashes of their home out of their lungs and decided that they’d been left alive to make their existence a hell for everyone else who thought they didn’t deserve to have one.

10. Eating Like Kings by Shawn James

I’ve let the sun set 365 times with murder running deep in my heart / And if I didn’t directly pull the trigger, I sure as hell played my own part / You know that it’s a snake eat snake world, we slither and serpentine through / Cause we all took a bite and six thousand years later, this apples getting harder to chew 

Houghghgughhggh this song sexy ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I think its a song for the regrets that are beginning to creep up in the very back of their minds (especially Manic, fuckin good-aligned morninglord paladin lookin ass). 

11. Hell, Yeah by Nothing but Thieves

In a town upon the outskirts, with a flaw it cannot hide / I made my peace with sorrow and kept it all inside / They call it “hell”, yeah, why don’t we go there? / It’s way down below there, it’s just like home

Hell imagery, hopelessness themes, we are vibing.

12. A Demon’s Fate by Within Temptation

Angels have faith, I don’t want to be a part of his sin, I don’t want to get lost in his world, I’m not playing this game / When the shadows remain in the light of day / On a wing of darkness he’ll retaliate / He’ll be falling from grace ‘til the end of all his days

A song for good people turned to hate over the death of everyone they loved, a song for a brother devoted to a god of good and his sister devoted to an archdevil. Listen to this song with the volume up as high as you can stand it.

13. Years of War by Porter Robinson

Oh, two hundred years of war / Fight til we are no more / A curse on the streets of gold / Just know mine is a hand to hold / Take back what the kingdom stole / A curse on the streets of gold  

unlucky 13 songs for an unlucky pair, the lyrics speak for themselves man. It’s about standing by someone as they rip back everything that was taken from them

Fun fact: i wrote a songfic to this about Caleb and Beau Critical Role

Fun fact 2: I love this song so much it makes me go literally insane

#playlists #craving

[musicallisto]

Hi! I'd like to request ships for the PJO, Marvel and Playchoices fandoms (my fav books are ES, TC&TF and ILITW) if you don't mind! I'm a straight female (she/her) who's intelligent, hard-working, ambitious, sassy, sarcastic, determined, helpful, caring, logical and analytical, but also arrogant, bossy, stubborn, overly competitive, fussy over my friend's health (both mental and physical) and very averse to big changes. My dream is to become a lawyer because I want to use my skills to (1/2)

Help others. My hobbies include reading books, watching films and over-analyzing both. I suck at anything remotely physical but I'm rather good at all things school-related. For the song thing I'm going to choose Avicii's "Without You" because it's been stuck in my head all week xD. Anyways, thanks so much for doing this and sorry if I made any mistakes, English is not my first language 💙💙💙

I Ship You With...

Percy Jackson

there’s surely a lot of energy going on in this relationship, but even before you two were together, your friends used to say that even Mount Olympus could collapse with the strength of your passion (passion meaning ‘stubborn as HELL tendencies’, but I didn’t tell you that)

it’s honestly kind of tiring at times to be the protective, caring, and even fussy girlfriend of a demi-god who’s been the chosen one of probably 12 prophecies (and counting) and has a knack for fighting ancient monsters of legend and immortal creatures

you have to practically beg Percy for him to lay down a little so you can take of his injuries and take a nap with you, mainly because you’re so concerned about his physical and mental strain, but also for the selfish pleasure of having him only to you

“Oh come on, I’m gonna be fine, it’s really no big deal” “Perseus Jackson you have been fighting mythological monsters for two weeks straight I am COMMANDING YOU to take a nap with me”

him being the cheeky hero that he is - “well, if this is what my general commands” with a sly smile, but you can read the absolute exhaustion beneath his sea-green eyes

he never really had much interested in anything acamedic or school-related, what with his dyslexia and ADHD making it harder for him to concentrate for long periods of time on given subjects (and, you know, the occasional saving-the-world thing taking up a little of his time), but once he discovers how passionate you are about school stuff he’s tempted to make an effort and support you

when you have a big test coming up and you have to study, Percy typically sits (spins, actually) on a chair in your bedroom while you’re at your desk and randomly exclaims pop quizzes about the subject to make sure that you know everything

“what was the name of the gladiator who led a slave uprising against the Roman Republic?” “Spartacus” “correct. The gods talk about him sometimes. Jason heard he’s a fun dude.” “Percy, you’re not helping me” “I am helping you! how many students in your class have heard from Jupiter himself that Spartacus was a fun dude? you’re really gonna make a difference thanks to me.”

he just asks for a kiss in return; consider it payment for helping you pass your ancient history exam with flying colors he’s an all-around amazingly supportive boyfriend, though

Tony Stark

did you just say you’re overly competitive? oh mygod

if there is one thing that Tony Stark hates more than losing, it’s losing to you. when you get that smug little smile of yours and start prancing around the Avengers Tower like you’re queen of the world because you beat him in whatever stupid thing you were both doing and it’s !!!! ARGH infuriating he hates it. no, really, he does. totally does not like it at all. it’s only for the pleasure of CRUSHING YOU to pieces that he constantly challenges you to anything and everything.

chess nights at the Avengers Tower have never been wilder and tenser. (except for Bruce, who just enjoys the whole debacle, giggling in the background, because he can see you’re both so bad and he could have won this whole thing three rounds ago. unless you’re looking to prolong the fun?)

both of you taunting the other to give up now and save themselves the humiliation of the slaughter you’re preparing. metaphorical or physical slaughter, no one really knows, especially because it never comes. the only way these dreaded, hellish chess games end is either in blood after Natasha throws the board in utter despair, or with you both having fallen asleep in the middle of moving your knight

there is a tenderness, however, in the way you care about each other, but you don’t show it that much, as if this sudden vulnerability came into conflict with the other sides of your personality. but it is undeniable. you care about each other, deeply. it’s enough to see how whomever woke up first from the infamous chess half-night wraps the other in a blanket and gently eyes them as the sun rises slowly

how you nag him to take a break when he’s been overworking himself, fighting all the threats and taking upon his shoulders the responsibility of saving the whole universe (and more)

and how he holds you steady, close to his heart, in the dead of the night when New York City almost falls silent and there’s nothing but your appeased breathing and the faint echo of a moonlit breeze

Lucas Thomas (It Lives In The Woods)

nerd meets prep in three, two, one...

(notice how I didn’t clarify who’s the nerd and who’s the prep)

I mean, if Lucas isn’t a nerd already, he turns into a big one whenever he’s with you. how could he not? you exude radiance and positivity and passion whenever you explain in great detail whatever you book you finished last week and you’re still obsessed with. how you pick up on the character development and how clever the symbolism is and just... ugh Lucas please baby read it you’ll see it’s just so good. with a laugh, he says he’ll try to fit it in his schedule. it sounds like the lame excuse you’d give someone when you’re not interested at all, but actually the first thing he does on his way back home from school is stop at the public library and borrow the book

he finishes it in one night, as you can tell by the foot-long bags under his eyes the next morning at school (longer than usual, anyways), but also by the content, even smug little smile that he wears on his face.

“so, what did you think about it??” you ask, hopeful, when you notice that he doesn’t seem completely apalled by the experience

cue montage of you two enthusiastically discussing every aspect of the book and the writing and the worldbuilding over lunch, in between classes, and even when you’re supposed to be studying

when you actually do study though, it’s always very intense because Lucas takes his homework and academic success very seriously. maybe even too seriously? you’re the one who makes sure that he catches a break every two hours to grab some water or take a breath of fresh air

he doesn’t need it, though, he retaliates, and you would find it agonizingly cute and endearing if you weren’t so mad that the boy will NOT listen to you. “you are my breath of fresh air”, he murmurs with a boop on your nose, before getting back to work

that absolute, lovestruck, handsome and brilliant fool

#ships #matchups #percy jackson #pjo #marvel #mcu #tony stark #playchoices #it lives in the woods #lucas thomas #mywriting

[mydivinepunishment]

Check-Up Tag!!

I was tagged by @fashionbitchgd Thank you for tagging me always you're like fam 😭💕

How has your day been?

I woke up early, had tea in the balcony, redownload 'Call of the Emperor' the mobile game and lately my brother and me have been downloading all The House of The Dead computer games and we just completed the 3rd one today!!! Woo hoo~

What was the last thing that made you smile?

Well I have been into Seventeen lately and Dino just released a dance video to Feel Good by Avicii and Jesus fucking Christ it was good like how can dancers just like channel. music and be able to present it by like dance??? I mean wow.

What's keeping you entertained these days?

Painting! I recently started painting (I left it back in highschool in 2014) and I have been trying to draw K-pop stars. Jeonghan's turned out really good but I guess I just have to accept the fact I will never be able to portray the beauty of Vernon on paper, it's just too hard.

if you are in some kind of quarantine/self isolation, is there anything you’d like to achieve in this time?

To be honest I just want to be able to write again. I have too many ideas but for some reason trying to write makes me anxious. And also get back into exercising. Last year was hard on my body and head and now I just wanna 😤😤😤 be the badass I used to be. All I do is eat all day ;-;

Post a selfie! (If Youre comfortable with that)

I would love to tbh 🤷‍♂️put a face over my blog icon

I wanna tag whoever wants to do it!

[pyrabmaniac]

BAD REPUTATION | avicii can you see my emotion slinking away in slow motion? it’s like a break in the ocean just getting lost out at sea. can you see my emotion? can you see my devotion? ( it’s like a break in the ocean just getting lost out at sea ). i hear what you’re saying, i’ve got a bad reputation & now you’ve got me praying for a better situation.     

THE SPECTRE | alan walker is this the place that i call home to find that i belong? walk along the path unknown to find what i’ve become. we live, we love, we lie. deep in the dark i don’t need the light, there’s a ghost inside me. it all belongs to the other side ( we live, we love, we lie ).  

DOLLAR SIGNS | calvin harris i said fuck this shit, you know what’s on my mind. stay on your hustle, you be on your grind. rip your heart out and left it on the line. you’re running out of time—you lose your mind ( you lose your fucking mind ). people searching for answers while the world is spinning faster; they say love is the answer, but all i see is dollar signs.    

DOSES & MIMOSAS | cherub something’s gotta give soon or i’m gonna lose it—substance abuse it & never come down ( down ). fall off the deep end & forget my english–what’s the point of language if you don’t say what you feel? ( so with that being said ) to all the bitch ass hoes who hate me the most, i hate you too.   

WICKED GAMES | the weekend look at all this cash & i emptied out my cards too. now i’m fucking leaning on that. bring your love, baby i can bring my shame. bring the drugs, baby i can bring my pain. i got my heart right here—i have my scars here too.    

LET ME TOUCH YOUR FIRE | spence i’ve got a cold heart, cold hands—make you want to be where i am. if you only knew my plans, if you only knew who i am. normally i’d break your heart. i’d love every minute that i tear you apart. 

SOBER | slushii, kavion you’ve got me trapped inside this spell—now i feel it ( now i feel it ). your demons trapped me close to hell, i can feel them drag me down. you will never let me leave you—you make these nightmares come true. my heart is on the ground—you fucked me up, i’m sober now.  

DARK TIMES | the weeknd, ed sheeran in my dark times i’ll be going back to the streets—promising everything i do not mean. in my dark times, this is all i could be. don’t think my mother could love me for me in my dark times. light one up, let me bum a smoke; still calming down dripping throat. i’ve got another man’s blood on my clothes, but this is the life i chose.  

BURN THE HOUSE DOWN | ajr used to keep it cool, used to be a fool—all about the bounce in my step. watch it on the news, whatcha gonna do? i could hit refresh and forget. ( used to keep it cool ). way, way up we go; been up & down that road before—so we’re gonna burn the whole house down.       

MONSTERS | shinedown leave your weapon on the table; wrapped in burlap, barely able. don't get angry, don't discourage—take a shot of liquid courage because my monsters are real & they're trained how to kill. there's no coming back & they just laugh at how i feel. these monsters can fight & they'll never say die. there's no going back—if i get trapped then i'll never heal.

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#( insp. ) #bellotask1 #playlist | wicked games #( corrupted soul of skin & bones )

[orthographewrites]

JUSTIN COWELL - HC CHART

CHARACTER CHART:

Character’s full name: Justin Louis Cowell Reason or meaning of name: Justin is an anglicized form of the Latin given name Justinus, a derivative of Justus, meaning "just", "fair", or "righteous". Justinus was the name borne by various early saints, notably a 2nd-century Christian apologist and a boy martyr of the 3rd century (possibly spurious). The name is also related to the similar Latin name Justinian. As an English name, Justin is common particularly in the English-speaking world starting in the latter half of the 20th century. Character’s nickname: (This slow is gonna be updated with his DJ name/soundcloud account once I can think of one wow) Reason for nickname: -- Birth date: July 29th

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE:

Age: 25+ How old does he/she appear: About the same Height: 183 cm  Body build: Built, slim Eye color: Blue Glasses or contacts: None Skin tone: Pale Distinguishing marks: Has a small scar on his collarbone after a dare gone wrong Predominant features: Nose and eyes  Hair color: Dark brown, nearly black Type of hair: Light curls  Hairstyle: Short, almost shaven or a slick back  Overall attractiveness: It’s in the eye of the beholder Physical disabilities: None Usual fashion of dress: THIS THIS AND THIS basically fashionable, youngish and comfortable Favorite outfit: I can see him use the last one a lot, probably only changing out the jacket and the cap now and then for a color pop Jewelry or accessories: Oh yes! He loves wearing watches, necklaces and wristbands. Can also be seen wearing headphones around his neck, he’s a DJ after all. 

PERSONALITY:

Good personality traits: Charming, creative, approachable, flexible  Bad personality traits: Childish, tactless, untidy, weak-willed  Mood character is most often in: Upbeat, although not in your face upbeat. Optimistic and joyful.  Sense of humor: Justin is quite bold and cheeky with his jokes, he enjoys direct punches rather than a long build up.  Character’s greatest joy in life: His daughter and music  Character’s greatest fear: Failure in his choice of career Why?: Because it’s all he knows how to do and has poured his full heart and soul into What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil?: Like any sensible parent, it’d be losing his daughter. Other than that, I’d have to write him some more or plot around a little before I can come to further conclusions. Perhaps finding himself in a tight spot with Emilia somehow? He’d rather avoid that.  Character is most at ease when: Creating new music  Most ill at ease when: Around Angie’s mother  Enraged when: Emilia shows little to no interest for their daughter whenever Justin is around. Also when people can’t be upfront or honest with him, especially due to said incident with his ex.  Depressed or sad when: he can’t find enough work for the week or when his music fails to deliver.  Priorities: His free time, Angie.  Life philosophy: You can’t get stuck doing the same thing over and over, you have explore and live a little -- take chances.  If granted one wish, it would be: To regain some of his youthful years.  Why?: He loves his daughter but he enjoys his freedom as well, it’s a rough act to balance. I’d describe Justin as someone with a Peter Pan syndrome, aka someone who refuses to grow up and act accordingly to his situation and age.  Character’s soft spot: His family and friends  Is this soft spot obvious to others?: Yes Greatest strength: Creativity  Greatest vulnerability or weakness: The fact he’s kind of easy to run over if you want. He’s not gullible but he likes to give people a chance and wants to be liked in return.  Biggest regret: Having a child at an all too young age, he feels as if he’s been missing out on his best years.  Minor regret: Dating Angie’s mother. Only a minor though since ya.  Biggest accomplishment: His career and the fact his music is slowly growing on people.  Minor accomplishment: Whenever he steps up his game and acts like an actual adult.  Past failures he/she would be embarrassed to have people know about: Why?: Character’s darkest secret: He doesn’t have one, thus far he’s a pretty clean slate but that might change.  Does anyone else know?: -- 

GOALS:

Drives and motivations: Success, obviously. He’s a creative soul and wants his music to be heard. He doesn’t necessarily crave to make it to the top of the chain but he wants to be able to live off creating music either for himself or others.  Immediate goals: Get a new gig.  Long term goals: Get a bigger following.  How the character plans to accomplish these goals: By being as creative as one can be and by networking, really. He tries to play around with new sounds and tend to mix in his own songs among requested ones at gigs, cheeky as you can be.  How other characters will be affected: Not much, it’s mainly aimed at him but alas Angie could suffer a bit since it’s time consuming and he has full custody of her every other week. 

FAVORITES:

Color: Green and red, especially deeper shades.   Least favorite color: Anything too bright, no matter the color.  Music: Electric Food: Fries Literature: Not too much of a bookish person. Form of entertainment: Tv-shows and youtube, a night on town with them pals.  Expressions: This section will happen as I write him more.  Mode of transportation: Public transportation mainly, has a driver’s license but no car. Most prized possession: His sound board. 

HABITS:

Hobbies: Partying, musical mixing, song writing Plays a musical instrument?: Plays the keyboard Plays a sport?: No How he/she would spend a rainy day: Writing a song or mixing about on his sound board, otherwise he’d watch a movie with his daughter or having a nap  Spending habits: He spends money on clothes, booze and fast food  Smokes: No Drinks: Yes Other drugs: No What does he/she do too much of?: Sleep, be lazy What does he/she do too little of?: Act like an adult, clean Extremely skilled at: Music Extremely unskilled at: Reading into situation and hints  Nervous tics: Talks too much/rambles about things  Usual body posture: Confident, open and approachable.  Mannerisms: Usually comes off as friendly, has an easy-going way of expressing himself. He quite so look and act like every other 25 year old out there though which haven’t allowed themselves to realize they aren’t 18 anymore, with his lavish way of dressing up in hoodies and caps. He’d blend into a crowd, yet find a way to hold his own. 

TRAITS:

Optimist or pessimist?: Optimist Introvert or extrovert?: Extrovert Daredevil or cautious?: Middle, depends.  Logical or emotional?: Logical Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat?: He’s a methodical messy type deal haha  Prefers working or relaxing?: If on his music he enjoys working, otherwise a nap never hurts Confident or unsure of himself/herself?: Comes off as confident but definitely has his doubts.  Animal lover?: Yes, but he doesn’t own one. 

SELF-PERCEPTION:

How he/she feels about himself/herself: Not too high, not too low. He has himself as this sort of middle ground in which he doesn’t dismiss his talent but he also doesn’t have it in him to fully brag or show off what he can do. He believe he possess some rather positive qualities beyond that point, even if some are better than other. It could always be worse.  One word the character would use to describe self: Fine.  What does the character consider his/her best personality trait?: The fact he won’t limit himself to the already known as he enjoys broadening his horizons with new bits and bops.  What does the character consider his/her worst personality trait?: He’s too lazy for his own good.  How does the character think others perceive him/her: Others usually tend to hold Justin high or with warm regards. He’s not quite the type to make enemies unless it’s provoked, he makes friends way easier. Most find him amusing and tend to make an interest with his music and career.  What would the character most like to change about himself/herself: He’d like to be more thankful for the life he has, but he finds that harder than he should. 

RELATIONSHIPS WITH OTHERS:

Opinion of other people in general: He finds people fascinating and enjoys interacting/meeting new people whenever possible. He works as a DJ so being surrounded by them is a key.  Does the character hide his/her true opinions and emotions from others?: Mostly no, depends on the situation and how rough it is on him. He tend to talk about his issues and worries with close friends.  Person character most hates: He doesn’t hate her but definitely dislike Emilia for playing him the way she did.  Person character goes to for advice: Open for plotting.  Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: His daughter Person character feels shy or awkward around: Open for plotting Person character openly admires: Vicetone, Avicii (RIP), Savant  Person character secretly admires: Open for plotting

#hc: justin cowell #i need to do this for more chars #wow

[unsteadyflame]

YOU ALREADY KNOW HOW THIS WILL END. 

𝖖 𝖚 𝖔 𝖙 𝖊 𝖘

            “Some of us weren’t born for rewards. Some of us were born for sacrifice.” - the lumatere chronicles, melina marchetta.

       "He killed, that is why I killed him... I therefore judged and condemned that man to death. As for myself, compelled to do what I have done, but abhorring it, I have judged myself.” - les misérables , victor hugo.

         “Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.” - rumi.

            “An intellectual? Yes. And never deny it. An intellectual is someone whose mind watches itself. I like this, because I am happy to be both halves, the watcher and the watched. "Can they be brought together?" This is a practical question. We must get down to it. "I despise intelligence" really means: "I cannot bear my doubts.” - albert camus.

             “He was in love, and people in that condition did stupid, unfathomable things. They were all flawed, every single one.” - the story sisters, alice hoffman.

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NAME: Fabian Ignatius Prewett NICKNAMES: Fab (rarely used; he doesn’t especially like this but will answer to it out of politeness) AGE: 26 BIRTHDAY: March 10 GENDER: cismale PRONOUNS: he/him

𝖋 𝖆 𝖒 𝖎 𝖑 𝖞

MOTHER: Iolanthe Prewett FATHER: Darius Prewett SIBLINGS: Gideon Prewett, Molly Weasley, Arthur Weasley (brother-in-law)

𝖕 𝖍 𝖞 𝖘 𝖎 𝖈 𝖆 𝖑 𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖗𝖎𝖇𝖚𝖙𝖊𝖘

FACE CLAIM: Elliot Knight BUILD: lanky, strong HAIR:  short HAIR COLOR: black EYE COLOR: brown SKIN COLOR: brown DOMINANT HAND: right ANOMALIES: most injuries in the field of battle have been healed but a few curse scars remain, notably on his right shoulder SCENT: cinnamon, mallowsweet & sage (the latter two commonly used in potion brews for work) ACCENT: english ALLERGIES: flower allergies, particularly to chamomile (don’t offer him a calming cup of tea) DISORDERS: mild depression due to the role he’s had to play in the war, alcohol use as an unhealthy coping mechanism though not as of this stage alcoholism FASHION: he is far more accustomed to wearing robes than to any muggle clothing. these tend towards the practical and affordable, fashion is certainly not a priority for fabian. NERVOUS TICS: overtalking, offering reassurance to the other person (whether or not they’re in need of it), looking over his shoulder for gideon QUIRKS: always reads people’s tea leaves (nothing he says ever comes true), tends to be a bit absent-minded, can be forgetful and clumsy, very tidy when he wants to be, bad jokes

𝖑 𝖎 𝖋 𝖊 𝖘 𝖙 𝖞 𝖑 𝖊

RESIDES: The Prewett Household, Tutshill BORN: St Mungo’s Hospital, London RAISED: Falmouth, West Country PETS: Grew up with a family owl, Uric

CAREER: Unspeakable EXPERIENCE: conducted an internship with Griselda Marchbanks, who also recruited him to the Department. He has now worked there for eight years. EMPLOYER: Ministry of Magic

POLITICAL AFFILIATION: The Order of the Phoenix BELIEFS: The Prewett family remained more or less neutral for many years, accepted by most of pureblood society, though their tendency towards leniency and tolerance of Muggle-borns was suspect. Rightfully so, as the Prewetts encouraged their children to be open-minded, if circumspect about their beliefs; Fabian, Gideon and Molly took this further and decided to be defiantly against blood supremacy, particularly after they became close with Arthur Weasley in their Hogwarts years. MISDEMEANORS: nothing you can prove (all in the line of duty)  FELONIES: doesn’t really count if you don’t get caught? DRUGS: he just wanted to see if it could help him open up his inner eye (it didn’t) SMOKES: n/a ALCOHOL: Fabian tends to self-isolate to cope with his guilt and remorse, in recent years he’s also added alcohol to the list of coping mechanisms he employs, to an unhealthy extent. DIET: very accustomed to eating well, due to a culture within the prewett family of food standing in for displays of love and care. his sister particularly took to this, although gideon and fabian are not too bad at cooking themselves.

LANGUAGES: English, some Gobbledygook

PHOBIAS: Dementors, losing his family HOBBIES: Reading, spell experimentation, visiting Muggle fairs TRAITS: { + }: intuitive, loyal, principled { - }: jealous, aloof, obsessive

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LOCATION: The Burrow SPORTS TEAM: Falmouth Falcons GAME: Wizard’s Chess MUSIC: Mostly into rock MOVIES: “What’s a movie?” FOOD: Once started eating Fudge Flies as a joke, now he can’t stop. BEVERAGE: Has a taste for Firewhiskey COLOR: Ravenclaw blue

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ALUMNI HOUSE: Ravenclaw WAND (length, flexibility, wood, & core): 12″, unicorn hair, rowan AMORTENTIA: tbd. PATRONUS: Bat BOGGART: Gideon’s corpse

𝖈 𝖍 𝖆 𝖗 𝖆 𝖈 𝖙 𝖊 𝖗

MORAL ALIGNMENT: Neutral Good MBTI:  INTP MBTI ROLE: The Logician ENNEAGRAM: Type 5 ENNEAGRAM ROLE: The Investigator TEMPERAMENT: Melancholic WESTERN ZODIAC: Pisces CHINESE ZODIAC: Horse PRIMAL SIGN: Gecko TAROT CARD: Temperance TV TROPES:

Big Brother Instinct Experienced Protagonist The Quiet One Good Is Not Soft SONGS:

what if i’m wrong // temper trap mercury // sleeping at last hey brother // avicii don’t let me be misunderstood // nina simone this will end // the oh hellos

IDEOLOGIES: - Idealises romantic love, believes there is nothing so powerful or truly good as a solid partnership, akin to the one his sister Molly shares with Arthur

- that said, his respect for the institution of marriage can, uh, waver. love is sacred, marriage ... somewhat less.

- there is such a thing as objective right or wrong, and the responsibilty to act upon moral belief exists also

- killing is wrong and defiles the soul

- nevertheless, believes killing is the only solution in some contexts and is able to justify it to himself. this does not alter his belief about the ultimate effect it has on the soul.

- the use of dementors as prison guards is nothing short of torture, inhumane, as are many of the ministry’s policies, including the authorisation of the use of unforgivables to take down death eaters. some inherent hypocrisy as fabian is conflicted but supportive of the order’s own kill authorisation. He would not be part of the order if he did not believe they are more capable of defeating death eaters than the ministry and, more just in their delivery of a death sentence. implicitly has a higher regard for his own judgement than the judgement of the government.

- rejects any notions of the inferiority of muggle-borns and/or muggles, although that doesn’t mean he necessarily regards them as the same. tends to keep to wizarding society, inclusive of muggle-borns but he doesn’t exactly venture out of his typical circle. muggles, he admittedly considers as something of a different species, even though he does think they have a valuable knowledge and power of their own.

-  is interested in dark magic but has a distaste for it, including dark creatures. especially dementors, but would also have some prejudice against werewolves, giants, etc. he’s been raised on stories of their twisted natures

- 100% believes in divination; if you tell him you are a seer, he will lowkey believe everything you say

- Family. Duty. Honour. #housetully #queensansa

#dulcetask #* #obligatory pls read melina marchetta's entire body of work #fabian [ muse ]

[a0x0annie]

[Tag] Answer 21 (welp, 20 since one question got lost hh)

Tagged directly by @vanillaamoursucrethings​ and indirectly by @murdererowl, so thank you very much! ~

1) Nicknames: None :”) That’s how it is when you don’t have friends lol

2) Zodiac Sign: Aquarius ♒

3) Height: 168 cm, which is around 5′5″-5′6″

4) Hogwarts: Okay, I’ll be honest here - I’ve never read any books nor watched any movies when it comes to HP series, so I have basically no clue about anything hhh but according to Pottermore I’m in Ravenclaw whatever that means

5) Last Thing I Googled: Międzynarodowy Festiwal Gier i Komiksu w łodzi (it’s an annual festival in Łódź about video games, manga, comics etc., I wanted to check the date) 

6) Favourite Musicians/Singers/Groups:  

♥ Groups: Maroon 5, Mystery Skulls, Arctic Monkeys, Imagine Dragons, Coldplay, OneRepublic, Marina and the Diamonds, Fall Out Boy, Glass Animals, Panic! At The Disco, twenty one pilots, Glee 

♥ Musicans/Singers: Adam Levine, Lana Del Rey, Ed Sheeran, Ariana Grande, Marina Diamandis, Melanie Martinez, P!nk, Brendon Urie, Avicii and some Polish musicians like Ewa Farna, Dawid Podsiadło

I also love musicals, for example: Hamilton, Heathers, BMC, DEH, Bo Burnham, Mean Girls, The Count of Monte Christo, Legally Blonde-

7) Following Now: 1,793 hhh

8) Followers: 134

9) Do I Get Asks?: Nope

10) Amount of 💤?: It depends, on school days it’s something around 4-6 hours, on other days it’s 7-10

11) Lucky Number: I don’t really have one tbh, but I like the number 21, does it count;;

12) What I’m Wearing: My mint pyjamas

13) Dream Job: I don’t really know, but I’d like to have a job where I can work at home on a computer and earn decent amount of money without communicating with other people too much, so IT specialist or a programmer perhaps?

14) Dream Trip: Japan, France, USA, Norway (also England and Croatia but I’ve been there already so I guess they don’t count)

15) Favourite Food: I don’t think I have one since I’m a super hesitant person, but for now I’ll say pizza maybe? Or ice cream and sweets in general, or spaghetti, or-

16) Instruments: I play the guitar for a year now and I know a few songs for piano, but that’s all

17) Languages: I talk fluently in Polish and rather good in English, I also know the most basic basics of French and Japanese 

18) Favourite Song: Again, I don’t have one, I change my mind all the time :”)

19) Random Fact: I’ve become totally addicted to Danganronpa recently, earlier I knew it existed but didn’t actually play the games and now I’m like HOW TF COULD I BE SO BLIND, but unluckilly the manga and anime suck imo hhh games are way way better

20) Aesthetic: I have a lot of them, but my main are probably “cute, fluffy, pastel & soft” and “dark and moody”

I’m tagging @dailygila, @penguingirlanzu, @hipster-writer-official, @mcl-dunya, @solxh, @softnlesbian and everyone else who wants to do this ~

#tag game #long post #personal #about me #tag

[not-your-lifeline]

Tag Game

from @vivianit4

Rules: answer 22 questions and tag 22 people

Nicknames: the ‘mom’ used to call me as a dog’s name in Korean, It sounds kind of similar to the word ‘beep’ or ‘bleep’. though the meaning is more like  ‘(pre)-ttie’. and I hate it.

Zodiac sign: Taurus

Height: 168cm

Last movie I saw: Don’t usually watch movies. but last time I downloaded and watched Deadpool and MCU series.

Favourite musician: different from time to time. Billie Eilish, Troye Sivan, AViVA, James Young, Oh Wonder, Halsey, Avicii, Melanie Martinez ... etc. (most of time just listen to whatever Youtube recommends me)

Song stuck in my head: SAD! (Kid Travis cover)

Other blogs: I heard somewhere that a true tumblr user uses only one blog to hoard entire reblogs and shitposts and forgets which one did they already reblog before and do it again

Following: 397 (mostly art blogs)

Followers: 96 (includes blocked pornbots. not gonna count it one by one)

Do I get asks?: disabled.

Amount of sleep I get: used to not sleep at all or sleep 12 hours, lately 4-5 hours....or coffee.

Lucky numbers: 3

What am I wearing?: white 100% cotton embroidered nightwear.

Dream job: Scientist(researcher)/Programmer.

Dream trip: Home sweet home. but I like beach.

Favourite food: not very picky as long as it’s not overly spicy/salty/cheesy/sweet. can’t digest if it’s too focused on carbohydrate. like bitter(sweet)/sour taste(like grapefruit). prefer small amount or rather drinks.

noodles(pasta/asian/instant/etc. prefer thin ones), meat(both cooked/raw except fish. can’t really eat anymore for some reason. used to love salmon. bones included), fresh vegetables, dark chocolate, Mojito, specific fruits (Blood plum, Mangosteen, White Grape(hard/crunchy texture), Red Currants, etc), herbs and spices (like strong flavor like whole black pepper), etc

I like cooking/baking. not eating. (for example I can’t even finish a single piece of lime pie I baked. too sweet.) Pies and Cinnamon Rolls are fun to make.

Instruments: music teacher taught me how to play piano when I was in middle school, and guitar by Japanese teacher. for a little while. it’s been too long and need practice to remember how.

Language: Korean, English, little bit of Japanese

Favourite songs: as I said it’s different from time to time +too many of them. usually like it if the song’s catchy/dreamy/calm and has dark/deep/relatable lyrics. but also like if there is plot(sudden change of melody). prefer one without lyrics or with only humming/choir/random noises. like sound of Xylophone and Music Box. Tropical House, Electro Swing, Acapella, etc.

Obelisk/I am shell and I am bone(Gazelle Twin), Bottom of the deep blue sea(MISSIO), Cradles(Sub Urban), Grind me down (Lilianna Wilde), Restless sea(Louis Futon), Begin again(Purity Ring), Sacramentum Unaccompanied Hymn for Torino (Mili), etc

prefer airy/whispery voice because it’s easier to sing along that way

Random fact: I’m autoimmune.

no tags because I’m lazy and screw rules lol

#tag game #looked fun #favorites #personal information #shitposting

[acethehappyanon]

Tagging Game ~~~~~~~~~ Rules: answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people you’d like to know better

I was tagged by @smiles-advice

(sticking this under a read more too so nobody has to read this if they don’t want to!)

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Nickname: I go by Ace on here but my favorite nickname I got irl was Bubbles!

Zodiac: I’m a Libra!

Height: Ummmmmm! it’s been awhile since I double checked but I think I’m somewhere in the 5′1/5′3 range? 

Last Movie I Watched: It took me a second but now I remember! It was a Studio Ghibli movie, a newer one? I don’t remember the title but it was about witches and flowers!

Last Thing I Googled: oh no, this is silly. I googled the difference between s’il vous plaît and s’il te plaît because I’m studying French!

Fave Musicians: Avicii will always have a special place in my heart

Song Stuck In My Head: Ummm, not really anything right now! I was working on a project using the song Silent Scream recently but that’s not stuck in my head.

Other Blogs: I have a main but it’s a secret! c:

Do I Receive Asks: Um?? yes? I mean I haven’t really gotten many but I’d like to!

Following: On this blog I follow 59 aesthetic and positive blogs! and on my main I follow.. uh... 493 blogs...... I have a problem aheh, I’m subscribed to 438 channels on youtube too. woooooops.

Amount Of Sleep: Oh no I’m gonna call myself out. I uh! kinda! tend to sleep like 12 hours! oops! but that’s okay. lately I’ve been sleeping more like 9 hours and I’m proud of that improvement!

Lucky Number: I’ve never really thought about it?? Maybe like 15 or 19 or something?

What I’m Wearing: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh totally not my pajamas. what. hey it’s still 10am I don’t have to be dressed!

Dream Job: I’d like to be a vet or an author. Animals and writing make me happy!

Dream Trip: I wanna see London and Paris! and oh my gosh I REALLY wanna go see the Scottish city of Dumbfries! did you know Scotland has a city called Dumbfries CAUSE THEY DO AND I LOVE IT

Fave Food: Ummm!! Everything? I dunno! I like veggies, I looooove pasta, and oh my gosh soy milk! and cashew butter!! and I found cashew milk ice cream the other day? and it has BANANAS in it?? I LOVE IT SO MUCH

Instruments: I am decidedly musically un-talented! But that’s okay.

Languages: Just English! unless my really basic understanding of French counts, but I don’t really think so! (the best I can do is watch an episode of Miraculous Ladybug in French without subtitles and be able to pick up the gist of what’s going on from keywords I know!)

Fave Songs: Ummm! Everything??? I can’t really choose a favorite! I have like 670 songs on my ipod and I love them all equally.

Random Fact: Ooooh I got this! My favorite sciencey fact is that, when you get brain freeze, it’s because there’s nerves at the back of your throat that get too cold too fast and they! panic!! cause they think you’ve just spontaneously gotten hypothermia! and that’s why they freak out and tell your brain to give you a headache for a second.

Describe Myself As Aesthetic Things: Hmmmm! Maybe a warm bathtub full of bubbles, a bedroom of pink and lacy stuff, laying in the grass under a tree on a sunny day? sitting at the window watching the rain? I dunno! those are things I like!

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Tagging: I don’t know anybody else on this blog personally so! I can’t! Sorry!

#tag game #sorry this is out of theme! #i really wanted to do it #ace speaks #unrelated #I'm still stuck on the food question tbh cause now I really want my cashew milk ice cream #but I already had sugary cereal for breakfast I can't follow that with ice cream! #I have a really strong fondness for non dairy products guys #it's not that I can't have milk it's just that I find it disgusting lmfao #WHY AM I RAMBLING ABOUT MILK

[pathhyena]

Depression: It bad

This might be an awful idea, but hyenas sort of thrive on those so who knows.

Hi everyone! Hey what’s been on the news lately?! Right, suicide. That sucks. (Great start hyena). I didn’t know the folks who passed very well, but I remember when Robin Williams took his life, and that threw me for a loop. Celebrities are weird because we have some connection to them even though they’ll likely never know we exist. We sort of support them en masse and they serve an invisible army hungry for their content. When they pass away, it hurts, because we have that powerful emotional one-way connection. I get that.

The bad news is that’s going to happen a lot. It used to not happen as much because we only had radio and TV and 30 channels so the celebrity delivery pipelines were relatively small. That’s why the news still announces every death in the mornings. Today, with social media, fandom structures, indie streaming, a million channels, and more movies and music delivery streams than ever, the number of celebrities has exploded. This is really cool because now there isn’t some centralized control over who we get access to, it’s really nicely wide open. What this also means though is that in the coming years we’ll hear about a lot more passing’s of really cool people. I think to a limited degree we saw this with Bourdain, whose content was delivered on an expansive cable frontier, and Avicii, who benefited from less centralized control over music. These are still all- stars in their fields, so they may be weak examples, but I just think we’ll see a lot more of this down the line.

Celebrity life is really crazy. It’s demanding. They read a lot of critical reviews of themselves as people, and sometimes the motivations that drive you towards fame are also internally destructive. Creativity as a force is often (not always!) cruel, and the drive to find approval from a mass audience often comes along, and often doesn’t come from the greatest places. Even far removed from who we were as teenagers, our darker angels live within us for decades. We all get better at dealing with them, but they certainly still exist.

When a celebrity takes their own life, there is a documented spike in suicides across the world, most notably in demographics similar to that individual. Partly this makes a lot of sense: someone we understand who looks and feels similar to ourselves lost their daily battle, and maybe it’s okay if we do, too. I heard a sociologist on NPR explaining that suicide is now normalizing, and that struck me as odd. I don’t know how it seems to other people, but it’s always been a glaring option to me. I didn’t need news articles to tell me it was an option, it’s something I used to think about.

Suicide is a thing a lot of us think about, and that doesn’t make us weird. It’s an odd existential exercise that the brain sometimes likes to meander into then shriek away from. Like how when I’m high up I think, wow that jump would suck (I am consequently scared of heights). That’s not all that abnormal, I don’t think. The issue comes when the exercise becomes less thought and more dangerous solution, less pondering and more considering. Some folks don’t feel like they have a lot to lose, even though realistically we have everything to lose. Decades of die rolls and adaptations and new friends around a corner we can’t see, but in that moment none of that seems likely, or maybe even all that great. We as people can’t help but view the entire span of a lifetime but through the lens of today, of right now. Tomorrow is forever away.

People keep begging us online to remember how valuable life is, they keep sending us suicide hotline numbers. One tweet I saw going around had the number for every country, in case someone speaking English in Turkey needed the suicide hotline for their nation. I have to be honest, I don’t know how qualified I am to respond to these; I haven’t felt a considerable level of suicide drive since I was 23. I didn’t want to take my own life since it would probably hurt and also it would make my mother sad and that would suck, but y’know if something would have magically end my life painlessly and without fault assigned that would have been cool. Nothing magically made that better but time, but I also had a lot of good friends to talk me through the really crazy thoughts.

I made very little sense back then. (I make only slightly more now.)

What I tend to find with depression is that it ebbs and flows. That’s not true for everyone, I’ve read, with the worst cases being times where apathy sets in and just stays for years. In that scenario nothing is good, nothing is bad, and everything is nothing. It’s a familiar numbness to the entrance and exit of a depressive wave. I think the brain just burns out, and it takes a while to recover. But there’s a period for a lot of us where it’s just really harsh, and I think that’s what those hotlines are for. Maybe you don’t have anyone you trust to talk to about something, you don’t have an emotional connection, and distant tweets from distant strangers don’t do it for you. That’s otherwise really hard, because you have to get through it on your own. I’ve had those nights too. It’s certainly possible to recover from the really bad times on your own (if not required sometimes), but it helps to have a receptive mind on the other end of your painful thoughts. Just something on the other end to reflect and consider. Sometimes that can turn things around, but usually it doesn’t. It’s good at getting you to the next clear moment, where maybe you can recover, find some respite.

And here’s the thing with going to a friend for help – they often want to “fix” you. And it doesn’t work, and then after a few more rounds (this stuff comes in rounds usually), they get frustrated and they check out. Even the good friends do, they just get exasperated. Okay this definitely isn’t true for ALL friends. But here’s a hint to the good allies out there: You can’t fix someone with these issues, we must work them out for ourselves.

“You only talk to me when you’re depressed.” Yes, because that’s the only time I’m in enough pain to overcome debilitating social anxiety.

“You don’t really say anything.” I don’t know what to say, all my thoughts are awful.

“Why are you so negative all the time.” Why is the sky blue.

“This is really hard to hear every week.” I know. I know that, and I feel bad talking to you, I just don’t know what else to do.

And therapy isn’t a magic bullet. You need a good therapist, and sometimes the right drug combination and that’s its own mess. I encourage folks to take this route, but it’s not a fast lane. You often need a mix of stuff. You need exercise so your body doesn’t get sad on your brain’s behalf, friends to get you through the hard times and share your realizations, helpful information to help you fight your battles more strategically, an ability to adjust your tactics when you’re in a good place, and sometimes professionals who can help you understand what’s going on. You may be helped by medication that can help you find clarity.

That’s a lot! And it takes years, and I know that’s frustrating. Humans live for decades, and even through your bad years you often add a lot of value to the world in weird little uncelebrated ways. We can even have a lot of worthless years and find our way to a net positive life. It’s just hard to see that. You have to take it on faith. I’m not much for hope myself, I’m weird that way. But some things you have to take on faith. If you keep fighting, the probability is over time you can find the tools to make it just a little bit easier. And sometimes that’s all we need. We don’t need to be “fixed”. Just make things a little bit easier. And then we can start from a better palace, another foothold in this mountain climb.

We need people to help us be okay with the tumbles, though. There will be a lot of setbacks. Recovery is a long game.

And maybe this is morbid, but consider Robin Williams for a moment. He struggled constantly, and in the end, he “lost”. He went a long time though. If it was cancer, we would have celebrated his valiant struggle. It wasn’t, though, it was self destruction, so it feels like just this great, avoidable loss.

It isn’t, tho. Depression is much like cancer, there is a physical cause, and just because we overcome it psychologically that doesn’t diminish how difficult that is. When you think, when you process ideas or even daydream, you literally change the physical construction of your brain. You rewire. There’s a physical change. When we learn to work with and around our depression we are literally adapting to difficult wiring with re-routed wiring. Depression is a physical malady. When someone loses their struggle, it’s very sad.

But it’s not their fault. It’s not our fault. It’s no one’s “fault”. Sentience is so complex. There are millions of adaptive super computers we call brains and sometimes they have difficulty and we struggle. The tragedy, I feel, is when someone loses to a “spike” – those moments that inexplicably are so much worse. That’s what the hotlines are for, y’know. They get you through those potentially fatal spikes, and maybe there’s a longer term way out.

There are people that have died because they didn’t have someone with an emotional connection to talk to. That’s a stark truth. Now someone to talk to isn’t going to fix anything, necessarily, but if you have a really harsh downswing, and there’s no one there, it’s so easy to give in to the reality your troubled mind constructs. How do you overcome a misperceived reality when your own mind is telling you what’s real? That answer is complicated. We have a lot of minds in us, and we can sort of call on our other sections of thought to help get us through. We can find our way through creativity, practiced mental exercises, or even forcing ourselves to think logically through a mental storm. Those are tools we learn how to use, but they’re hard to use when the awful part of the brain is literally screaming at us. Like trying to have a conversation with a screaming baby behind you on a plane. What helps a lot in the really bad times is another person to sort of generate words for us, and that’s why the good friends are so important.

But we also burn those friends out, and you sort of need a network to spread that responsibility around. But so often it’s hard to trust, and without vulnerability you can’t really care about the person on the other end. Without a fully functioning personality it’s difficult to find that bigger network. People are also stressful and sometimes awful. Sometimes they even make stuff worse.

This sounds like a lot, right? It sounds hard. It IS hard. Folks should understand how Catch 22 in nature depression is.

I have several people who only talk to me when they’re just really, really depressed. They don’t say they’re depressed usually, just small talk, and we banter, and they feel better. Lonely is it’s own kind of hell. I’m okay with these folks, to be honest. I don’t mind being that person. I’m glad I can help in little ways. Maybe it adds up.

I mean I’ve also had people just message me with no effort every day and they’re basically using me as a background television station because they’re bored, and that’s less great. Sometimes it’s hard to tell one from the other.

Anyway I’ll finish with this. Depression isn’t your fault, and feeling like you’re at wit’s end isn’t weakness. There is something wrong with you but it’s your fault as much as it’s someone’s fault for getting the flu. Now there are dumb things you can do when you get the flu – you don’t go run a mile or stop drinking water, right? There are basic measures to be taken, and that’s true for depression. Don’t indulge your demons and try to take care of your body when you’re able (your body can create it’s own depression). When the flu wears off we do things to recover and get back to 100%, and when depression gives us a break we should be documenting, pondering, and trying to fight our awful thoughts.

Another good flu analogy is seeking mental healthcare (which yes I know is not a great system today) makes sense when your brain is that ill. As with any physical malady, and no amount of willing it away is going to fix it. Telling someone with a 104F fever that they should suck it up is about as helpful as feeling like you shouldn’t need to go to a therapist because we should all be Very Strong People.

If you’re basically fighting the good fight, the overall tenor of where you are today is absolutely not your fault. It’s not a weakness, you don’t suck. You’re given the life you have by who you are and who you were.

Today is yours, and you can control how you react to today. Yesterday is already fucked, and that’s okay. You’re you today. The point of today is to make tomorrow a little better.

To that end, I’m okay with being someone’s desperate cold call on the way to oblivion, which is to say that if you just can’t stand life anymore and you don’t have anyone, it’s okay to message a hyena and say like, “fuck I don’t know what to do, you wrote that I could say hi to you and I could unload and you wouldn’t eat me (that might be a lie, that last part), so I’m taking a risk.” (You don’t have to curse.)

Now I know it’s a shitty thing to say, “Hey if you need someone come talk to me”, cause people are utterly fucking terrifying and how do you talk to someone you don’t know well, especially if they’re “fandom popular” (which has it’s own complications). What if you’re wasting someone’s time, what if you have nothing to say, what if you say something dumb, etc.

If I can’t talk right now, I can tell you, and I think you’d understand. If you have nothing to say we can talk about curtains. You can’t waste my time unless you’re just doing the bored no effort “I’m fine but entertain me” thing people sometimes do when they’re younger and haven’t figured that part out yet. Beyond that, honestly I’ve been where you are and the quality of conversation doesn’t even have to be great, it just has to be someone else out there. I’ll read your words and respond. I can’t be your best friend, and I’m sorry about that, but let’s be honest we’re not looking for best friends we are literally looking for anybody to show some compassion and care about our struggle, even if just briefly.

You may not know me except for reputation, or tweets, or even just this dumb tumblr post. That’s okay. You can look at my tweets and see that maybe I am weird because I think I am a hyena online and paws are pretty cool, and if you don’t think I’m awful (enough) and you really need someone, say hi.

As a disclaimer obviously if we have a prior history this may not work, because I am a person you have history with and am not actually a volunteer stranger on the end of a phoneline.

Dear person in a Very Bad Place: I may not be able to find you in time to say the right words. If you reach out to me, *I* may not have the right words. But we can try, and at least that’s something. I might be at work or laggy or depressed myelf, but I can tell you that, and I trust you to not take it so personally because you are a people and I am too.

If direct contact is scary, send me a reply on Twitter. We can use a code phrase, it can be “Foxes are very strange.” It’s true. As a corollary, sometimes my notifications get slammed and I might miss that (Twitter is bad at volume delivery), but I wanna still offer it as a sort of option.

Life is hard. I get that. If I can make your struggle a little easier, and you’re in a bad way, maybe I can help.

I feel like this is probably true for a lot of people on Twitter, and I bet there are folks who will read this and might reply “Hey me too, I would like to be this person too”. I don’t want to name names cause I don’t want to volunteer people who may not be in a good place themselves. You never know people’s lives.

ANYWAY, thanks for reading 3000 words, have a gold star. I hope any of this was helpful, and I mean the thing at the end except for the not eating you part. I have a reputation to maintain, you see.

@pathhyena on Twitter

P.S. I am especially bad at tumblr comments because I am extremely old.

Also adding ten more words to make it exactly 3000.

[charliebattinson]

BEST FRIENDS? | Best Friend! Shawn [BP] Part 1 | Shawn Mendes

A/N: Hello! I’m splitting this thing into two parts because it was so long haha. I just had so many ideas!! Honestly i’m such a sucker for the “best friends to lovers” trope it may be cliche as hell but it’s my fave. Part 2 has more of a storyline to it just in bullet point form! Also wanna thank @siennarossi, @innocent-before-mendes and @i-keep-craving-craving for advice and for helping me out! Hope you enjoy! Feedback is appreciated! Have a lovely day! ♡♡♡

☆ Read Part 2 here ☆

You moved to pickering when you were a kid and met Shawn when you were 4

He was your neighbor

Bedrooms facing each other

You always thought how stupid he looked trying to climb the tree that was impossible to climb at his age

Since you were new to town when you went to school you knew nobody

Playtime came and you saw shawn by the sandbox playing by himself

You walk to him and asked if you can play together

He was so shy "okay" red cheeks and all

Everything just hit off after that

You guys were attached to the hip

Walking to school holding hands or seating beside each other on the school bus

Some girls from school wanted to play with you and you were so happy to make more friends that you brought shawn with you but the girls said they don't play with boys

"But shawn goes with me wherever i go"

"I guess you can't play with us"

You ditch them for Shawn

“I’ll play your barbie dolls with you y/n”

Wouldn't it be cute to imagine when your parents open the door and look down to see kid shawn in his squeaky voice “Good afternoon Ms. y/l/n! Is y/n there?"

You guys loved watching barney together and singing the theme song

Role playing power rangers and pretending to be fighting each other

Till that one time you accidentally punched Shawn in the face and his nose bled

You always attend each other’s birthday parties and you always need each other by your side before blowing your birthday cake

You play husband wife sometimes

“y/n when were older im going to marry you”

“why shawn” “cause you’re my best friend”

Riding bikes together

Getting boo boos and helping each other out with the wound

“Here’s a bandaid Shawn it’s the barbie one”

Eating ice cream by the front porch

PLAYGROUND PLAYDATES

Giggling to each other while your both on the swings

Sometimes when there’s only one swing left Shawn would offer it to you and he’d start pushing your swing

Lots and lots of videos of you two when you were kids

Halloween time is always a fun time for the both of you because you guys to get to do matching costumes

One year would be you as Mario and Shawn as Luigi with the matching mustaches

“Hey how come you get to be Mario?” “Because I’m cooler Shawn”

another time would be Kim possible and Ron stoppable

another time as Spongebob and Patrick

then ferris and cameron from ferris bueller’s day off but no one ever really got who you were dressing up as that year

and that one time in school where you thought everyone was going to be wearing halloween costumes turns out only and shawn did

Horror movie marathons every halloween

You remember the time Shawn screamed like a girl

“Y/N please don’ tell anyone”

When its Christmas you would go out and make the weirdest looking snowman, snow angels, drinking hot cocoa, baking cookies for santa and opening presents while trying to stay up late and wait for Santa Claus to come out

“My father is the actual santa claus??” “You’re so dumb Shawn”

School plays together!!! Like little mermaid where you played a fish and shawn played a lobster

One of your school plays was also King Arthur

You were a local villager and shawn was the village idiot

Coloring coloring books together

Going to camp together during the summer

11 year old Shawn would be sporting braces and you would make fun of him when he got it

“HAHAHAHAHAHA LOOK AT YOUR METAL MOUTH”

“shawn close your mouth you’re blinding me”

You were a little bit taller than him at that age

You guys would constantly call each other names the kiddish kind

“TOE LICKER” “BUTT SNIFFER” “ONION BREATHE”

He would freak out when he sees your bra laying on the bed

But would also be there for you when you start to panic when you finally get your period

“you aren’t going to die y/n. please your making me scared what if you die, i’m gonna be all alone”

shawn gets so scared when you say a bad word by accident

“Y/n you know we’re not supposed to be saying bad words or we’ll go to hell”

You’re both appalled by kissing when your parents do it or when you’re watching a movie

“EWWWWWWWWWWW” “YUUCK”

“COOTIES EW”

“okay class! go and pick a partner”

🌚 🌝

Your whole family knows Shawn. Shawn’s whole family knows you

Uncles, aunts, cousins and grandparents. THEY ALL KNOW SHAWN.

Your family is so familiar to having Shawn around the house so when he’s not there they ask “where’s Shawn?”

High school rolls in and you’re both invited to your first ever high school party

“Y/n do I wear a tux to these parties?” “Idiot”

He ended up wearing Capri shorts and his Birkenstocks

“Please tell me you aren’t wearing socks with your birkenstocks” “well…”

You play 7 minutes in heaven and shawn goes in with a girl

When he goes out, the girl looks so weirded out by shawn

“Well..what happened?”

“She was leaning for a kiss and I got nervous I just screamed at her”

you try alcohol for the first time together in your room; you raided wine in your parents collection

you both spit it out right after

“POISON!!!”

16 year old you is wondering how tall Shawn got over the summer because you have to tilt your head up to look at him

He’s also gotten cuter over the summer no more braces and thank god he stopped wearing those birkenstocks

he’s still wearing those baggy khaki pants

The insults have upgraded

“You stupid lanky dickhead” “fuck you y/n”

You both swear like sailors now

You’re by your lockers and he just salsa dances and sing songs  “look who got an A on chemistry byotch”

You’re both each other’s first kiss you rather have it be your best friend than be it someone else who won’t matter in a couple of years

Also for practice because Shawn ’s been pinning over some chick named Stephanie the whole freshman year

“Come on y/n so you can tell me if I suck or not”

He sucked

“YOU KISSED ME LIKE IM A CPR DUMMY”

Sleepovers at each other’s houses

passing notes in between classes, shawn wanting to play tic tac toe

Doing homework together

Copying each other’s homework

“Pssst shawn what’s the answer to no. 5?”

“I was gonna ask you that!”

“fuck”

Shawn going up your window late at night because he’s tall enough to finally climb the tree

but also the idiot tried doing a stunt and ended up bringing down one of your pipes down with him

you guys would meet each other by the window to say good night

sometimes when he knows you feel bad he would stare at your window and write down a note saying “are you okay?” or “feel better”

You attended junior prom together

“Look at you Shawn looking so fancy in that tux”

You see Shawn’s cheeks redden “thanks y/n you look pretty”

You try to pin his boutonnière and he keeps joking around that you pricked his skin

Till you actually pricked his skin cause he was moving around too much “idiot”

Ditched after a while cause it was getting boring, you both just headed out to the local diner and ordered milkshakes

For senior prom, you had to find a date because Shawn asked someone else; you were a little sad because you’re just used to you and Shawn doing everything together

Watching the schools football games together by the bleachers

They made shawn the school mascot

“it is a sauna inside here and i can’t fucking see anything”

always going together to high school parties

fist bumping to levels by avicii (beacause it was a bop at that time tbh)

asking each others approval when you find someone hot

constructing each other’s sentences before hitting send to your crush

there’s a girl that likes shawn and she’s very confident and flirting around with him and shawn just mumbles trying to talk to her “yeah ugh no yeah totally but ugh yeah no”

You’re just watching him trying your hardest not to laugh

“pathetic”

Giving each other tips on making a move

“I watched that movie hitch and they said that if a girl lingers by the front door it means she wants you to kiss her”

“Shawn you gotta stop screaming at a girl when they try to go near you”

You tell each other who you lost your virginity to and judging so hard

“WHY BECKY?” “Sleeping simon are you serious?”

Also being each other’s person to look for support and comfort whenver you’re feeling down

Shawn would get your favorite ice cream and listen to you on your bed cuddled up to him”

“Hey shawn i got your favorite muffins. Please tell me what’s wrong with you”

Shawn would tell you to leave him alone under the covers and you would just go under the covers

Being lab partners

Shawn making you laugh when he does an impersonation of professor fink with his lab coat and goggles

“Well according to my calculations..”

GRADUATION DAY

You would be cheering for each other when you both get on stage

“LETS GO Y/N LETS GO!!!”

“THAT’S MY BEST FRIEND RIGHT THERE”

Shawn would just blast “SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER” on his jeep on your way to your graduation party

He wore a fucking vest and a casual tie with converse to the party

“A vest shawn? Really?”

”yolo y/n yolo”

Booze is present and you both have had a bit too much

You see Shawn standing up on the table dancing to Daft Punk’s One More Time

You push Shawn into the pool but he’s quick to grab you leaving both of you underwater

Going to the park after and riding the swings just like when you were kids

Figuring out what colleges to apply to

both of you just staring at your acceptance letters

“Open yours first” “No! You open yours first”

“FINE I’LL READ YOURS, YOU READ MINE”

Jumping because you both got in

Luckily you both wanted to go to the same college with just different courses so the long distance friendship is off the books

You’re headed off to college to fix your dorm rooms

Shawn would be in such a school spirit he’s already wearing the college hat and hoodie

Shawn just starts playing “everybody lets go” song from dora the explorer in the car

“Here we go...”

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