#bullshit going on rn

[rjam9]

sometimes i think i’m doing okay mentally and then my earbuds break and i realize the thread i am hanging onto is actually quite thin and if i experience even one more minor inconvenience i will probably lose my mind entirely

#jam’s ramblings #it’s the adaptor that broke (fuck you apple) and won’t be able to get a new adaptor until tmrw #so im suck with a shitty pair of wireless ones and the sound quality is shit but at least i dont have to listen to any of the other #bullshit going on rn #whoever uses wireless how in the fuck do u do that this sound is so quiet and muffled??? or maybe that’s just my pair they were a #secret santa gift from a cousin who widely misinterpreted the assignment. whatever. im not about to strangle someone or anything

[doriandrifting]

What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck

So Noah Schnapp can spew his racist propaganda and go on a tirade of liking Islamophobic and homophobic content but when a Mexican woman dares to say she understands what it’s like to be colonized and stands in solidarity with oppressed people, she’s fired? It’s fucked.

#I know this is not even remotely close to the most important thing going on rn but this is some bullshit #censorship #pro Palestine #scream movies #melissa barrera #horror #current events

[chickenoptyrx]

....I just wanted to draw gators :T at this point these 2 are more 'a representation of my last 2 brain cells' then they are actual characters 😅

#im living vicariously through the cartoon guys #because i want to A. pick up gator (strong man style) #and B. ..pick up gator (hug) #ok but so i recently found out an area where i take stupid little walks for my stupid little mental health #has! GATORS!! (potentially. theres signs.) #and this is great cause seeing gators would def heal me as a person #but ok so when i look for hiking places i always look north cause the terrains more hilly #but now im lookin south more cause turns out i AM in fact far enough south to see gators!! #and yeah looks like theres a handful of nature reserves w hiking trails the same distance away as the little mountain trails i go to #its flatter and the trails are less extensive so ill hafta see if i think its worth it #but then too theres a really big black water swamp that.. further away then i wanna drive.. #but also i drove 5 hrs once just to go to mammoth cave as a day trip so.. we'll see.. #my friend says he wont go w me tho :T he'll just report me missing #this has been a tag ramble about my sudden outset intrest in seeing a gator #my bullshit #lol barely but still #also- i told myself not to over do it drawin the scales or coloring it #and as you can see i dont listen to myself ever #lol they look outta place but idc i got to draw 2 of my favorite characters and also ALLIGATORS :U #living the dream rn

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

okay so someone gifted me ad-free Tumblr last july and it’s ending sometime this month….. and i’m scared

i’m not ready to deal with Tumblr ads again, i’ve forgotten how to function with their presence…. help

cursed answers only pls

#seriously am I going to pay for it now? tbh maybe #tbh i’d rather have checkmarks than no ads #….no i take that back- I seriously don’t know how i’ll survive the ads #tumblrs my only ad free home rn and I love it :( #also I love polls and this is an excuse to do one :) #hellsite hall of fame #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit #ad free #Tumblr #ad free tumblr #tumblr ™ #tumblr advertising #Tumblr ads #hellsite ™ #hellsite (derogatory) #polls #Tumblr polls #Tumblr poll #poll

[theharlotofferelden]

Gonna take the bigot’s advice and make my own post on this.

The problem I have with people having this “opinion” or “headcanon” that Astarion is gay (or that Karlach is a lesbian) is that it’s directly alienating to bi and pan folks within the community. Like, there’s bi and pan ppl in the community and you’re saying this shit on main like it’s just a cute lil opinion that’s free of consequences. It’s not ✨just an opinion✨. When you say shit like this, you’re stereotyping queer people and are invalidating that bi and pan ppl exist and are allowed to exist in ways that contradict your understanding of what it means to be queer.

Acting like there’s a difference between saying “I can’t imagine him with women” and saying you only see him as a gay man is being deliberately obtuse. We all know what you mean and the fact that you’d prefer to double down and act like a child in an adult fandom is honestly embarrassing.

On top of that, you have folks (like this person) claiming that because they’re queer themselves they are somehow incapable of perpetuating queer stereotypes and/or being bi/panphobic. I don’t know how to make you understand that it’s complacent to think your identity makes you immune to being a bigot. I rly don’t.

If you’re thoroughly invested in the idea that Astarion is gay and Karlach is a lesbian, please ask yourself why. Then ask yourself why you are easily ruffled when people try to tell you that your opinion is directly harmful to the community. Then ask yourself why it’s so important to cling onto this “headcanon” and what you’re really losing when you acknowledge that all of these characters are bi and pan.

But to the folks who are gearing up to chime in with “lol I’m not reading all of that”: I’m sorry I’m not fucking pithy enough to speak on a subject that gets rehashed every fucking decade. Peace and love ✌️

#baldur's gate 3 #astarion #karlach #i don’t wade into discourse ever but I’m so fucking tired of this shit #‘go outside’ bitch I AM OUTSIDE #I’m literally at a drive thru rn waiting for the movie to start #sorry I’m capable of replying to your bullshit while I’m doing RL shit #eta adding tags for blacklist #fandom critical #discourse #bg3 discourse #bg3 fandom critical #biphobia #panphobia

[cat-downthestreet]

seriously why does no one mention this??? the information is so easy to find too like are y'all forgetting on purpose or was I not supposed to give a crap about the opinion of one of the main writers for the series 💀

#sonadow #yeah im maintagging this #so i'm back on my bullshit again #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #ian flynn #why does nobody talk about this #literally what the fuck #this is really cool but no one is talking about it #is there a lore reason #or am i just stupid #once again #i am pulling tags out of my ass #because i can #did i mention #I'm new to this fandom #i literally have no idea what's going on #can someone please explain #I'm literally on the floor rn please help #why did i add so many tags again

[squidthrift]

Wild Flowers of Palestine, Pressed Flower Specimen Book, 1895 Harvey B. Greene - 15 pages bound mat, illustrated. Similar edition for viewing avaliable at ecommons from the University of Dayton

Source: Lone Jack, MO Soulis Auctions

#Palestine #pressed flowers #antique #antique book #christian book #1890s #gilded age #victorian era #soulis #auction #ugh i lovee antique binding. pretty. #anyways #free palestine #donate to palestinian relief #if you know of good links for donating please add on to this. i know theres bullshit going on rn with some of them but whatever you can do

[who-is-page]

Life is hard! Consider buying my stuff!

My life isn't quite falling apart, but things have gotten really tricky lately. One housemate (and their super destructive, permanent houseguest) is refusing to pay their share of rent or utilities for the next three months, and another is refusing to pay their full share of rent for that same amount of time and is making us cover around $75 every month, and I'm having to double-up my hours at work while still being a full-time student (and also one of my professors, who we're 99% sure is using ChatGPT to generate her citations because none of them exist and we pointed this out, hates my guts and has been grading me really harshly and forcing me to go full-sail on every assignment to ridiculous degrees in order to pass this required class).

My spouse is working on getting full-time at their job, but it looks like they won't be able to until December, and we also have no idea how much rent is going to increase this year-- my guess is it's going to go up another $500, same as last year, to a total of $3,000, so things are gonna get really fucking bumpy until around January, probably.

So basically, if you like the work I've done, consider throwing me a tip on Ko-Fi or buying my stuff on Itch.io:

(Also I promise we have more stuff lined up that we want to polish and publish, life has just been super-duper fucking busy! There is so much more going on right now than what I've mentioned here, especially in terms of surprise medical bills and other horrible surprises. And we haven't forgotten about Inky Paws issue 2, either, which we're still hoping to have done by December and which will STILL always be entirely 100% free to download, no matter what our living or money situation looks like. That will never ever change, so please don't worry!)

#personal #yells #one of the surprise medical bills was MY TOOTH FUCKIN BROKE #I need to get a whole ass crown!!! wtf I'm anti-monarchy this should be illegal to happen to me #there are other surprise medical bills too but that's the one I'm most like are you FUCKIN srs rn #I love dentists and I think they're the coolest so it's like not scary or anything it's just. it's SO EXPENSIVE. #All the other bills should be at around $600 or below but this definitely won't even with insurance and I'm like whyyyyyyy #I should have gotten the crown like a week or two ago but I literally just cannot afford it rn so I'm trying to just be careful #with the patch the dentist put on it a month or so ago.... #sorry I'm just using the tags to SCREAM at this point like oh my god guys #you would not believe some of the bullshit that is going on rn #My housemate's permanent guest? it's their partner with assault charges #Who kidnapped a cat #Burned their last place of residency down #Bite and shanked their mother at 5am while she was asleep in her bedroom #And got my housemate arrested on false charges last year for funsies #And jumped off my roof #And brings stray animals in the house #And makes the hugest messes in the kitchen and living room without cleaning them up #(And I think she's a local drug dealer but that's more just a DO IT IN YOUR OWN FUCKING HOUSE AND NOT MINE thing) #So the whooooole polycule is on high alert that this person is gonna go off the rails and hurt people/pets at any time #I'm so unbelievably stressed out and worried about my cat especially #And like. I have PTSD dudes! This is so unimaginably fucking awful for my mental health! #If it weren't for my support system I would be in PIECES right now. I am so lucky to have partners and friends who care. #Also if some of that list sounds Weirdly Familiar to you it's because I wrote a fictional AITA post for NaNoWriMo '21 based on some of it #Yeah THAT is how long this stuff has been going on and what I've listed here is only Tip Of The Iceberg #Those two people will be gone by the end of November but oh my god I'm so stressed about retaliation and shit #The housemate in question tried to deflect by being like-- oh well she was just off her antipsychotics! #Like dude I don't know how to break this to you but. 1) that's a reason but not a justification for her behavior #2) She's an awful and horrible person both on and off her meds so obviously it is not the sole fault of her psychosis

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i turn 27 tomorrow and i feel like my life is collapsing in around me #i officially made the decision to take the summer off. which i hate. which means i have to get a summer job #when ive only ever had jobs in academia so my resume looks insane if im applying to work in a bakery or whatever #im just so tired. everything makes me so tired and sad. i still dont kno what im gonna do #im glad my dad is here bc he gets it more than most ppl bc hes also dyslexic and like everyone assumes im fine bc ive got this far #but like at what cost? im doing a job where im set up to suffer. and for what? im doing something so niche and weird #all i can do is more academia. but what if i cant cut it? what if i would b better off getting a epa job or something where i can do my job #and then go home and stop thinking abt it. how do i apply the stupid bullshit i decided to study? i should have done Ecosystem restoration #or something. its just that my dream was to study weird things in weird places and now it feels like that dream is collapsing #which is devastating. im gonna try to come back in the fall and give it a go but like i dunno it feels so hopeless rn #im just so tired. i have no joy. i just want to lay on the floor #unrelated

[airlocksandaviaries]

You’ve heard of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead, now get ready for  Hamlet and Horatio are Gay

#shakespeare #shakesposting #absurdism #absurdist plays #theater of the absurd #rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead #ragad #rosencrantz #guildenstern #hamlet #horatio #tom stoppard #gay #lets fucking go #its midnight rn and Im on my bullshit

[violethyacinth]

guess who started watching Star Trek Deep Space Nine 🤪

#it’s me #I think I used to watch some of it with my grandma when I was growing up #but baby this shit premiered when I was one year old #so I have almost no recollection of any of the stories or characters fr #but I wanna give it a try #tbh there’s so much Star Trek that I’m a little intimidated to start #figure DS9 is early enough to be a good start #if I fuck w it well enough I’ll go back and watch some of the older ones and work my way into the newer series too #tbh I’ve been on my jeffrey combs bullshit #and the weyoun fics have made me curious #I like mass effect and doctor who so surely I’ll like this #I’m on season one episode 2 rn #and I fuck with it already #vi speaks #Star Trek #st ds9 #star trek ds9

[king-col]

alright y'all important question: ultimate baldur's gate 3 blunt rotation, cuz this is mine-

Karlach - can light the joint with a literal flick, which is hot AND convenient. she's also just absolutely giggling at literally everything that's goin' on; she 100% has Clive in her lap the whole night too, all while having her tail curled around Tav's leg

Jaheira - brings the weed, literally just grows it in her spare time and tbh I feel like it's cuz she doesn't trust anyone else to bring the good shit; she also is the one who actually like. COOKED food beforehand so that they're not only snacking the whole night

Wyll - he'd be SO chill and have so many funny stories from all the parties he used to go to; I also feel like he'd try and show off his dancing skills with a little bit of goading from everyone and despite being blitzed, he still does a fantastic job

Halsin - also VERY chill and has a lot of interesting/funny stories that he's willing to share; also just ends up growing a bunch of berries for everyone to have a constant influx of snacks and on top of that? can roll a joint like it's nothing

Shadowheart - I feel like she'd just wanna lay back, head on Tav's shoulder while listening to Wyll's stories, totally vibing, a soft smile on her face, and probably nonverbal unless she gets a moment of lucidity where she says a maximum of 5 words

discuss in the tags and shit cuz I'm genuinely curious about y'all's rotations omfg

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #shadowheart #karlach #wyll #halsin #jaheira #col talks #apologies for the like. rambling bullshit i'm manic rn and my brain is going 5 million mph so #anyway i'm gonna go finish my bg3 art ajshdgasjh #is it gay? yes. is it more shadowheart/karlach/tav? yes. will i post it? who knows.....

[vitamin-zeeth]

experiencing fhjy while currently being in the equivalent of junior year is so. Yeah that's what it's like that's how school treats you that's how I'm feeling RIGHT NOW. I love how perfectly accurate it is and I also hate it so much because they don't deserve to go through this shit

#like fuck man #im currently fucking struggling through school clawing my way to exams so i can stop dealing with all this bullshit and have a life #and i cannot WAIT until its over cause next years gonna be the chillest #but fuckin hell man some of these moments #adaine struggling cause the school just won't provide the resources she needs. fabian dealing with a 150% workload + ecs. #kristen being genuinely gifted but finding the paperwork so awful that her grades are plummeting. #gorgug being told he cant do what he wants to do because they want to keep him focusing on the path he chose when he was 14. #riz trying to keep his friends together because if they separate he doesnt know what hed do #ough #kristen especially is resonating with me HARD her entire energy is so fucking relatable rn #its giving burnout its giving tired undiagnosed teenager its giving doesnt know wtf theyre doing #shes strongly considering dropping out but then looking back and going FUUUCK I KNOW I GOTTA JUST PUSH THROUGH #shes hating the work its making enjoying the subject harder shes needing a break and nobodys willing to give her one #shes so me this year actually. realest ever I'll defend her til i DIE #d20 #fhjy

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

Speaking of which… how many unanswered asks do you have

so so so so many

#I don’t know how to see the number on mobile and can’t go in my computer rn #….so we’ll just say it’s quite a lot #I do try #but I overthink my answers wayyyyy too much lmao #that’s why i’m so terrible at and hate texting #i’m one of those hated people that actually *prefer* phone calls over texting #…..yeah #but what I post is like 10% of what I receive #ask #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit

[masterreborn]

okay for real though what was up with moffat’s rampant casual misuse of the terms “psychopath” and “sociopath” back in the 2010s. like i can think of half a dozen instances in doctor who s5-7 alone and that’s not even mentioning whatever the fuck was going on with bbc sherlock. why did he do that

#the genuine harm this did to my impressionable ass 13 y/o self #going back in time to grab myself by the shoulders and go ‘you are not a sociopath even a little bit jesus christ get off of webmd’ #‘you have undiagnosed autism and are experiencing a shitload of trauma rn. you are not a sociopath. also that term is sort of bullshit’ #‘don’t let moffat lie to you and once again get off of webmd’ #steven moffat #doctor who #bbc sherlock #eleventh doctor #river song #shouting into the vortex

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

🥚egg head🥚

#and da cutest one at that #even when he's pretend j3rking it😉 #anyone else enjoy watching the way he just slightly raises his eyebrows like the little devil boi he is #handsome fella. I could spend hours letting him lounge between my legs on my couch as we binge watch something #and I scratch his head over and over with my nails. #don't mind me folks. I'm in a lonely-yearning mood rn. imma go back to writing one my wips as a distraction #Fred Durst #Limp Bizkit #nu metal #Freddy D #The Chocolate Starfish is My Man Fred Durst #On my Freddy D bullshit for Fred Durst Friday #down the rabbit hole