#bury my childhood

[starry-bi-sky]

every so often i get possessed by my childhood friends dead on main au and i turn to danny like a specter and froth at the mouth over him, and i get weirdly poetic. Like oh? Oh? Did crime alley do a number on you, kid? Did it turn you into something that bites? Something cruel, that claws? And kicks? Are you something full of grief, tainted and smeared with the oilsin of Gotham? You're not getting that off, scrub all you like Macbeth, it's not coming off. Oh, you're submissive? No, no, you're submissive like a dog on a chain is, are you wearing your muzzle? Oh, you took it off? Are you going to bite? Better make it hurt then. You better make them bleed. Better clamp on so tight they have to pry you off. You better take some skin with you. You're not the gun, guns don't hurt people. The bullet does, are you the bullet? You better be, if anything, Crime Alley raised you to be nothing else. What's your trigger, my friend? Whose gun are you in?

#dpxdc #cfau danny #childhood friends danny #anyways crime alley danny my beloved. inherently kind but also with the greatest potential for cruelty. #spend your formative years in hell and come out with horns. hide them all you want babe they're still poking through the skin #some are born kind. some choose to be. and sometimes you are both. sweetheart sometimes you're born with blood already staining your hands #hide your thorns all you want. they're forever buried beneath your skin. darling you're one wrong step and a quick fall into bloodshed. #and yeet. you still choose kindness. its bloody and raw but its kindness. how on earth did that happen? #sorry just needed to get that off my chest

[sealrock]

decembhyur, day 5: struggle

little dark age, little dark age... — ♫

#decembhyur #decembhyur2023 #mypost. #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv oc #🍃 #the link is to soundcloud instead of youtube this time. the original video got deleted but this remix is such a vibe #this has been in my head for a while #yea that's foulques as a kid; him and paris were childhood friends #i was torn on using this set for day 4 or not but this fit the theme of day 5 more #so imagine the 'struggle' of trying to carry a boy two times bigger than you for fun #and the actual struggle of trying to carry the dead body of your best friend back from the cliff so you could bury him #the body of the best friend you had to kill #it just hit me that this could be a companion piece for my other gpose of them featuring mgmt lyrics ough #blood cw #death cw #q.

[ride-a-dromedary]

the darkest of nights, in truth, still dazzles.

a halsin fanmix  [listen]

01. Heart of Spring - david arkenstone | 02. Cé Hé Mise Le Ulaingt? / The Two Trees - loreena mckennit | 03. Pussywillows, Cat-tails - gordon lightfoot | 04. Maybe Tomorrow - f&m | 05. Don't Stop Me Now - queen | 06. I Was Born Under a Wand'rin' Star  - bryn terfel  | 07. A Tenuous Bond - derek duke | 08. Closer - nine inch nails | 09.  Into the Darkness - jeremy soule  | 10.  Colorblind - counting crows | 11. Natural Light - ludovico einaudi | 12. Under the Greenwood Tree - royal shakespeare company | 13. The Grove - bear mccreary | 14. Blood Upon the Snow - hozier & bear mccreary | 15. A Quiet Darkness - houses | 16. Spellplague - alderfall | 17. Empty Chairs at Empty Tables - jonathan antoine | 18. Only Everyone Can Judge Me - crywank | 19. Blue Skies - kathryn calder | 20. The Buzzard - old blind dogs | 21. Constant Craving - k.d. lang | 22. The Cave - mumford and sons | 23. Jim Cain - bill callahan | 24. I Won't Back Down - johnny cash | 25. The Ash Grove - laura wright | 26. The Wind - yusuf/cat stevens | 27. To Someone From A Warm Climate (Uiscefhuarithe) - hozier | 28. The Logical Song - supertramp | 29. Tapestry - don mclean | 30. Big Yellow Taxi - joni mitchell | 31. Eat Your Young (Bekon's Choral Version) - hozier | 32. The Flock - david maxxim micic | 33. Changes - david bowie | 34. Ri Na Cruinne - clanaad | 35. The Moments of Happiness - ken page | 36. My Back Pages - the byrds | 37. If This Journey - tom hanford | 38. Turn! Turn! Turn! (To Everything There is a Season) - Live - pete seeger

#BG3 Musing #BG3 Fanmix #Halsin BG3 #Halsin #Halsin Posting #my fanmix #i give up this is about as done as it will ever be - i've been talking about this enough i need to get it away from me #i could have made at least one or two other playlists with the number of songs i cut from this #there were some things that hurt me to cut but i figured others had them in their playlists so they're out there #(the impossible dream you will always be famous i am so sorry :(() #i had three goals with this 1. make it more of a timeline in that it follows a narrative order (which hopefully is easy enough to follow) #(it makes sense to me about as much as it is ever going to lol) #2. try to avoid using songs that other individuals have used in their playlists (with a handful of exceptions - i highly encourage you also #take a listen to the others around! lots of good stuff and i figured if you were missing it from this one you can find another with it) #(and if i did use one the context might be different #'closer here is being used in a different way than i usually see it - it's putting more emphasis on the 'you can have my isolation' bit use #in context of the matron and patron for example) #and 3. focus as much as possible on non-romance path elements of halsin's character - i.e. again that's a topic that is highly explored #in other fanmixes to great success - this one is about the childhood he references and the adventures and the capture in the underdark #and the shadow curse and the burying of people he loved and the uptaking of the archdruid position and the healing he did #and possibly did not do #and the radicalization he comes into when his goals are met and he's faced with injustices #and the struggle he has of redefining himself and figuring out who he is after all of it #hopefully the 'eras' are clearly defined but hey it's all gravy from here #honestly if there is one song to listen to that encapsulates halsin for me it's tapestry - highly recommend that #anyway i am blabbing - let the lyrics and such talk for themselves jemi please #but if fanmixes aren't your speed have a kinda nice edit i guess #edit: now with bonus song i just had to add after shamefully forgetting it

[twoheadedfather]

i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my da

#sorry i talked about my dad in therapy recently #brought up a lot of hidden and buried emotion #GOD HE IS JUST GGGGRAUFHAHFUAHFAJS #did my therapist ask if i needed to be removed from my home when i talked about my mom? no #DID SHE DO THAT WITH MY DAD? YES #toxic dad #toxic father #daddy issues #childhood neglect #childhood trauma #trauma

[whyeverr]

"Want me to bait your hook for you, babe?"

"Cher, I can put a worm on a freaking hook."

"Oh, we're using stink bait."

"Stink what?"

"My own secret recipe. Catfish love it."

"Bleeeeegh! Gross. Okay. Yeah, you better do it."

#my vegan ass tapping into long buried redneck childhood memories 😌🧐🤮 #rebuild a city #ts4 bacc #3_19 #ts4 #ts4 gameplay #dawson kelley #cherry woodard #alicia clement

[teddylacroix]

Been thinking a lot about my lad lately.

#gerry keay #gerard keay #gerry delano #tma fanart #the magnus archives fanart #i realised i hadn't drawn him yet... #at least not on tumblr lol i have a couple of doodles floating around in procreate #and while i love my dear jmart #i love all things gerry+jon in any manner #brotp otp whatever #brotherly bond or childhood friends or college buddies or shippy #give it all to me #i wish i had the energy to write the fic that's in my head #childhood friends! buried-touched gerry and vast-touched jon! an unfortunate separation! rockstar gerry! long-distance pining! #sighhh #the spirit is willing but the flesh (and time management) is weak #the magnus archives #teddy draws #tma art

[back-to-rose]

“--Yet it’s my duty as a shinobi to fight.”

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Form @obito-week prompts Red, Mission, Childhood, Duty.”

#obito uchiha #uchiha obito #obitoweek2023 #team minato #obito #I always wannted to explore childhood obito in a wartorn land #the emotions annd pain and fear #the internal conflict #hurt by the world and the duty as a shinobi #witj 1000 emotions #all buried within #tw blood #tw war #sketching #my art

[warlordfelwinter]

i just need gale to explain his choices to rain

#context being episode 2 of shadows of athkatla #'you left my dog with VOLO???' #rain's devastated when he hears gale let someone trim his hair #also devastated to hear they got to meet drizzt without him #that little buried murdered forgotten childhood part of him that liked adventure stories is a fan of drizzt #doodles #oc: rain #bg3 #high rollers bg3

[veinsfullofstars]

❄️ Memories of winter ❄️

(ID: Kirby series fanart, Childhood Friends AU, featuring young Dedede, Meta, Para Dee, and Bow Dee engaging in various winter-themed activities and scenarios. DDD wears a burgundy full-body coat with fuzzy white puffball buttons and cuffs, a red-and-orange-striped scarf, and a red knitted cap with another white puffball on the end. Meta wears a purple-and-lilac-striped scarf patterned in simple dark bat shapes and a pair of knitted purple wing cozies. Para wears a green-and-brown plaid scarf and a pair of pale-green earmuffs with a white band alongside his glasses. Bow wears only a pair of white earmuffs with a light-blue band alongside her trademark bow. More detailed descriptions below the cut. END ID.)

Part 1 (you're here!) | Part 2

Finally managed to bang this out despite the weeks-long pain of driveway shoveling. A pox on this season, I say. At least the kiddos are having fun - look at them. Precious beans.

Sketches started btw 11/23 and 01/24, render started 01/08/24, finished 01/21/24. NOTE: This was originally posted on my deleted account on 01/29/24.

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Image descriptions (from top to bottom):

-The kids all packed together on a wooded sled going fast downhill toward the viewer’s left. Meta up front leaning into the wind with a look of excited wonder on his face, Para sitting beside him with his hands covering his face in fright, DDD behind them holding onto the sled and squinting hard against the wind, Bow behind him holding onto his shoulder and waving her free hand in the air in joyful exhilaration.

-DDD and Meta iceskating towards the viewer’s right (each wearing a pair of brown skates with gold clasps and silver blades). DDD has fallen flat on his face (in his signature head-slide pose), and Meta glances over at him as he skates past, a look of concern on his face, his scarf trailing out behind him.

-Bow on a snowboard (the deck patterned in long swooping lines almost like waves in various shades of teal), soaring up through the air towards the viewer’s left, her feet planted firmly, one hand gripping the board, the other tossed back behind her, her expression determined.

-A snowball fight between Meta and Bow on one team (background) and Para and DDD on the other (foreground), each hiding behind a wall of packed snow. DDD startles, arms held out and eyes comically wide, as a snowball - tossed by Bow - hits him right in the back of the head. Para (sitting beside him) glances up from where he is making more snowballs. Behind them, Meta climbs on top of his team’s fort, a snowball the size of his own body held over his head, his eyes a pair of ultra-instinct diamonds as he prepares to throw.

-Para trying out a set of skis (the decks lime-green, the shoes brown with gold clasps, the poles dark-green with lime-green handles). He looks very unsteady on his feet, holding the poles out wide as he trembles, frowning down through his lime-green ski mask. He says in a speech bubble, “P-Pizza… French fry…”

-Meta standing neutrally, wearing his scarf and wing cozies along with DDD’s knitted cap, his breath visible beside him in a small puff.

-The kids all lying on the snow making snow angels (top-down view, DDD on bottom, Meta on left, Bow on top, Para on right). DDD laughs with his eyes closed as he drags his arms and feet through the snow in wide arcs. Meta grins happily behind his scarf as he does the same. Bow excitedly flails her little arms and feet through the snow as fast as she can, spraying snow everywhere. Para - caught in her wake - curls slightly away from Bow and blocks the snow with his hand, one eye closed, smiling despite himself.

-DDD sitting with his arms held out as his friends all cuddle close to him for warmth - Para draped over his right side (viewer’s left), Bow peeking out from behind his left shoulder, Meta lying against his left side (viewer’s right) - all looking quite content save for DDD himself, who looks only slightly annoyed. Squiggly lines radiate out from him to indicate body heat, while an arrow points at him with the text “Living Space Heater”.

-DDD, Meta, and Para all enjoying mugs of hot cocoa, each piled high with swirls of cream, wisps of steam curling off of them. DDD holds one mug for himself (pale-yellow with a light-blue snowflake design) and hands out another for Meta (light-blue with a pale-yellow snowflake design). Meta reaches for it excitedly, eyes wide and sparkling, his little hands waving and his wings flared out behind him, straining in their cozies. Beside him, Para sits with his own mug (light-green with a pale-red snowflake design), holding it in both hands and smiling contentedly.

-The kids making snowpeople. On the left, DDD stands before a snowman vaguely modeled after himself (with rocks for the eyes, mouth, and buttons, three twigs on top for his plumage, and a fish-patterned scarf - presumably Bow’s - around its neck), grinning cockily and mimicking its pose with one hand on his hip, the other held up in a flex. Para stands beside him with an armful of extra sticks, looking very unimpressed with an ellipsis over his head. On the right, Meta leans on one foot with his back to the viewer, working on a snowman that looks somewhat like Galacta Knight (with twigs shoved in to represent his horns and the cross visor of his mask, and mounds of snow in back to represent wings). In the foreground, Bow sits stubbornly half-buried in a pile of snow, shivering, a drop of snot hanging from her face.

#veins art #veins ocs #veins fanart #fanart #kirby series #kirby #king dedede #meta knight #original character #oc #kirby oc #my ocs #para dee #bow dee #AU #childhood friends au #winter #page composition my behated -_- #good news - I kept DDD squint after all #any opportunity to use the Dededeathpose - I will take it #Meta didn't start the snowball fight but he Will finish it #*Chowder voice* body heeeeeat #fun fact - one of Bow's moms made Meta those wing cozies; they're a little restricting (not flying in 'em) but they do keep him extra warm #contrast that with Bow who will do everything in her power to NOT wear her winter gear EVER (much to her parents' frustration) #DDD (ever the enabler) dared Bow to see how long she could stay buried in snow #(mostly to keep her from preemptively destroying their snowmen) #spoiler alert - she got sick and they all got in trouble for it; she still brags about winning the dare tho #another fun fact - I based Meta's scarf design off of the inner tube he uses in KRtDLDx :D #veinsfullofstars

[levymcgarden55]

#clarification after these tags #polls #hyperspecific poll #hyper specific poll #hyper specific polls #hyperspecific polls #levy makes content #get to know levy #okay here we go #I also killed & buried my imaginary foe. he came back so I buried him on mars #I made MORE than 450 pieces in a year. art fight minigames are a hell of a drug. #I’m exmormon & have a sideblog for it. check my desc. also I still wear my Claire’s earrings from childhood #I got more ofc. my earrings: donuts. flip flops. gummy bears. swirls. mermaid scales. pusheen. #one toothpaste is a leave in. the other is not. I buzzed my hair + don’t shave my body hair bc Fuck That. I’m not here to be looked at

[hellonearthtoday]

with men it's always "he could never do that" and "he would never do that" over and over again until they DO do it. they do it and they always continue to and people will keep saying "he would never do that" till literally the end of the world and I feel like I'm living through it again right now because of course, my very first thought was "he could never do that, right?"

FUCK!!!!! so disappointed but so happy shubbles gotten her peace. that woman deserves the world and even with everything, she got out and she's told us and she's healing.

if you haven't, watch her vod. Not sure where to go from here. will have to think about it a lot

#♥️ #very lost #like I've been dropped in the middle of the ocean #denial was comfortable but unrealistic #love Shelby shubble #my childhood #I guess the question is: how truly seperated is fiction from reality? #amen . need to go bury myself

[abeluser]

I propose Cry of Fear dlc/game that follows the plot of Alesana's album 'The Emptiness' (2009)

#cry of fear #cry of fear fanart #cry of fear simon #cry of fear sophie #simon henriksson #simon henriksson fanart #book simon #book sophie #i just want book sophie to be real basically.. the whole point of this idea ngl #BUT its not a journal its SKETCHES bc i think sophie is more of an artist than a writer so its SKETCHBOOK sophie #the story is essentially: simon wakes up next to sophies dead body > buries her in basement > game centered around guilt haunted by her ect #finds book simon > fights him to death > stabbed > revealed that the one he's been fighting is sophie > switch perspectives to sophie #choose between killing sophie or simon > 2 endings depending on your choice #this game would also have cutscenes of when they were happier / how they met / explores sophie's childhood #but ending reveal is simon was slowly descending into madness and sophie has to put an end to it by killing book simon #the person simon buried at the start could have been either an innocent bystander or a suicide attempt #to get the TRUE true ending you have to collect all of sophie's drawings and simon recognizes sophie b4 she kills him #and together simon and sophie kill book simon & book sophie #my art #abel.txt

[danmeichael]

i need to work on my chengxian fics....

#one of them isn't even chengxian really it's mostly just a character study of jiang cheng and his relationship with wwx #and i've built it up in my brain as my magnum opus which makes it impossible to complete #“oh danny you ship chengxian?” they live in my soul and take me apart piece by piece #it's not so much that i ship them romantically it's that they're two skeletons in the same pair of ruins #who were so close together where they were buried that when archaeologists found them #centuries later when half their bones are dust #and the world around them has changed #they are reconstructed as one body. wwx's femur to jc's pelvis. jc's skull to wwx's c1 vertibrae #the version of their relationship in my brain is too weird for platonic cheng&xian likers i think #they are yuri to me #in the way that yuri is about the love between two people as ambiguous and ephemeral and all-consuming #they have the same relationship that you had with your childhood best friend who you don't love anymore but you also Do still love #just because it's part of you just because it's in your blood #even though you haven't talked to them in years #and who you think you could have married if you had both chosen just one thing differently. #“danny that's an insane thing to say about a pairing you just said you don't ship romantically” well maybe you just don't understand love.

[ghosts-but-one-word-is-pussy]

I shall miss you, pussy

- The Captain

#anon submission #bbc ghosts #the captain ghosts #me when we buried my childhood cat

[goldensunset]

yeah idk i didn’t mean to imply that you can’t criticize the way kh has structured its overarching story. maybe i should have clarified that. trust me i have plenty of gripes of my own with kh3’s attempt to tie a thousand plotlines together (although i think it was pretty much doomed to fall short of fan expectations for a myriad of reasons but it is what it is). and as far as i’m concerned it’s valid to wish they had gotten to kh3 and capped off the story in a simpler way earlier

but like.., the writers aren’t obligated to cater to you is the thing.., they wanted to keep making kh games and the way to do that was to introduce new plotlines in games before it that would thread through kh3 and lead into the future. wonky? sure. not trying to say it’s always flawless. but like they’re not milking the franchise for cash or whatever they’re clearly passionate about this and shouldn’t be hindered. they got more ideas and had to establish more lore and sometimes change some older lore, as is the nature of writing sometimes

if you dislike that, believe me, i’ve been there. we’ve all been longtime fans of something that was fundamental to our childhood but then took a turn we personally didn’t like. i know it sucks but the solution to this is to simply leave. hit da bricks. reminisce about the glory days with other people who agree with you but mannnn responding bitterly to people who clearly are enjoying the new thing is going to do nobody any favors. does hateposting even make you happy??? for your own sanity find another place to go

#catch me stalking the steven universe tag yelling about how future was a mistake and they never should have blah blah blah #orrrrr instead of trying to inflict my misery on others i bury myself in memories of happy days #anger will not bring your childhood back

[luvsavos]

i am once again apologizing for my lack of activity/responsiveness

my childhood cat passed away a few days ago which has just been more stuff on top of everything else for me to deal with to stress me out and upset me

i'll try to get back to stuff. Eventually. as soon as i can</3

#mar.txt #still very much upset about losing him，but it's kind of faded for numbness now #still not holding up great though especially considering how sudden it was #he was all fine and healthy and then just suddenly started to rapidly go downhill and within like. two days he was gone #he was so weak. couldn't move almost at all，his meows were barely just meow-sounding exhales. the last two things he did were #getting my attention so i would come to him，then attempted to crawl onto my lap and despite me being less than a foot away he couldn't make #it. so i brought him onto my bed on my lap with me. and then at some point later after another sudden onset of diarrhea (which seemed to #take absolutely all of his remaining strength) and i'd brought him back to my bed after cleaning the poop off of him he got my attention to #move his head so he could look up at me. and that's how he passed. looking up at me. #despite everything，he was purring. so weak and faint i could hardly feel it，but. he was purring，maybe until the moment he finally passed. #he was obviously suffering. and we couldn't afford to get someone to put him down so we just did what we could for him. #i'm glad that，at least，he was happy in his final moments. he wanted to be with me and i'm glad i could give him that. i HAD needed to go out #that day but i opted to stay home because i was worried he'd pass while i was gone. sure enough if i had gone out he would have. #i'm glad i could give him the comfort and company he wanted in his final moments. i'm glad i made him happy enough in them to purr even #despite how weak he was. i'm glad he didn't pass alone and possibly in pain. #ive lost a lot of pets in my life. but amos? he's only like. three years younger than me? we practically grew up together. ive known him his #entire life. no amount of being told it hurts to lose a childhood pet will ever compare to the reality of it happening. #i buried him outside my window. so he's close to home. #vent post? i guess?