#but for now im focusing on other things

[kicksnscribs]

A Whirl to end the day

#might post more stuff tomorrow #but for now im focusing on other things #whirl #mtmte #my doodles #maccadams

[birdcatt]

#art tag #oc: leaf (pmd) #leafeon #pmd #pokemon #pokemon mystery dungeon #i have So many ideas its insane #im just not fast enough to draw it all #in the middle of making an 8 page comic for leaf and her ThoughtsTM back when she was just turned into an eevee #honestly. good for her. bc i used to focus so much on emerald & bronze when i was a kid and leaf was just. there #now she gets her own flavouring of trauma #not to say the others dont have their own brand but im focusing on leaf rn #bronze has been the most neglected bc i think he lived a fairly ok life #his big thing was the he was from amp plains and also personally knows both the manectric and luxray tribe leaders #not on purpose. he doesnt even want to really know them. his dad just happened to cheat on the both of those guys #and his other parent was the luxray #(bc i considered changing him to being a shinx partner before instead of being pikachu) #so hes the bastard son who felt like he didnt belong

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm surprised you haven't posted any Welcome home stuff recently! Honestly kinda makes me sad since I love your WH art and stuff

yea y'all are gonna have to be Patient w/ me bc

a) i have like. a week left to pack all of my stuff before i need to shove everything into a uhaul and leave, so its crunch time! leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

b) to be honest my mental health is the worst its been in years - which is fine, its whatever, i can deal. it's not as bad as it could be and im handling it! like a champ, even! but also its leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

c) had a minor crisis over my art and how i interact w/ WH, and i realized im not scribbling enough of what I want. ive mostly been trying to please people and do as asked and thats! not good! so i want to temper expectation & reassert that im Not a WH art blog - its just a hyperfixation / something i love rn. i draw what i enjoy & what i want in the moment.

#i picked up my tablet last night and all of my motivation died on the spot #so im just. eh whatever ill get back into the swing of things eventually #but yeah im spending my time packing & keeping myself afloat! not much room for other things at present! #rambles from the bog #but yeah i was starting to feel like a commodity of sorts? #like the majority of asks are just some form of 'can you draw this' 'draw this' 'id love it if youd draw this' #which is. fine. im an art blog! thats what i do! #but its also like hey. im just some guy doodling what they enjoy. im not a machine churning out content for consumption #& it gets to the point where there's so much expectation and obligation and 'demand'- #when do i ever sit down and truly indulge in what i want? #like the monster scribble i posted the other day! it made me so happy! i love monsters and Beasts! #when do i ever allow myself to draw them? #rarely bc i feel like people Expect puppets from me. and thats not a great feeling! #i love puppets i love wh and everything but i would like to enjoy it w/o pressure yk yk.... #& for a second there i Was feeling the pressure and scribbling puppets was starting to feel like a chore #something i Needed to do to please people #so! im focusing on real life & taking a break from creation & keeping my mindset away from 'jump into traffic' thankyew <3 #theres just too much going on right now #in my head And outside of it. #so ill stick to packing & binging psych & i'll lovingly place everything else on the backburner

[wildstar25]

What physical part(s) of Arsay does her partners find the most attractive! Is it the same for all partners or does it differ between them?

(also optional bonus ask of what part(s) of/about Arsay generally do they love the most, physical or not!)

Meanwhile, if you were to ask the same of Arsay:

#ffxiv #wolship #g'raha tia #y'shtola rhul #wolgraha #wolshtola #y'shtola x wol #arsay nun #graharshtola #y'shtola calling arsay a pain in her side is very much an affectionate thing btw #and i couldnt pass up the joke of g'raha giving the sweet gentlemanly response only for yshtola to be like 'tits tbh' #her defaulting to an answer that would probably stop the conversation before she has to talk to much about her deeper feelings imo #i have. a lot of feelings about yshtola and arsay's friendship #someone who is constantly trying to build walls between herself and others vs someone who desperately wants to form real connections #its not a 'wearing that person down' type situation either #just one lonely person seeing another lonely person and hoping that they could be less lonely together #or that she could at least bring some cheer to #and idk yshtola strikes me as the type to have been like 'if they want to be my friend they have to work for it' #which arsay certainly did #i could ramble on and on how their friendship lines up so well with yshtolas character development but theres a limit to these tags #so just look at how cute shtola is with the slightest blush on her cheeks #graha is a much more complicated topic since he went from Extreme adoration to I want to be her friend but I dont think im good enough #to 100% Hero worship again to Shes my hero and I love her to Shes a person and I love her #to I love Arsay. Even the parts she can't love in herself. I will love all of her till my dying breath. #he thinks shes the most beautiful person in the world and the most important thing in his life #but he now knows how insane she's been about being everyone's hero and he really doesnt want to feed that beast #so hes trying to build her up in other ways #focusing more on the adventuring side than the saving the world side #and then there is arsay who loves so much about her partners and is in capable of narrowing it down to any one thing so its #'here let me list everything that comes to mind right now' with 0 shame or filter

[bananasofthorns]

pspsps people who did/are doing an mlis. what bachelors degree did you do and what are some of the degrees you know other people in your program did? I am trying to figure out. college stuff (also feel free to tell me any other experiences/advice you have related to an mlis!)

#master of library and information science #master of library science #library science #library #banana made a post #HELP. #i was gonna do a photography degree just bc its the one thing i was like #yeah i like this enough to be able to do four years of it #but now im like. do i really want to do four years of art school lmao #trying 2 figure out options #im possibly considering a management degree or a printmaking degree #very different things! one of them is still art school! #society if i could do a statistics-focused math degree w/o having to do all the other math i dislike

[smeltbracket]

SOOO WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT SEASON 4???

(love your art btw!!!)

smeltbracket found dead in this kitchen

#okay in all seriousness though i fucking loved it #hands down favorite episode was earth rake #but also contending is stockiverse and.. Bouillabaisse.. #i really love how family focused this season is. dont get me started on tervo. i love how much nicer everyone is to each other #except for them really juicing up korvo’s bitchiness in super gooblers (which i guess was meant to push jesse into her confrontation) #speaking of korvo his voice was a delight this season. just so expressive and is now up there with the rest of the casts distinct voices #i guess trying to ease back into finales that end with a season reset #and why didnt pupa change color?? #overall it was pretty fucking great. had black spots in my vision during the invisible kitchen scene #tervo this season was fucking crazy my god what are they gonna do for the valentine special #UGHHH. they really keep raising the bar every season. SOOOO GOOD #this isn’t a very In Depth discussion of my thoughts sorry i need to spend more time in this seasons nooks and crannies #ooh ohh and the replicants this season were so cute too. THEY GREW TOGETHERRR #i liked the shlorp lore and little peeks into their past too #anyways i got sidetracked yeah amazing season #I FORGOT TO MENTION THE ANIMATION #THE ANIMATION THIS SEASON WAS BONKERS DUDE. LOVED HOW FLUID IT WAS AND ALL THE FUN NEW EXPRESSIONS THE SOLARS HAD #THAT SCENE OF THEM SAYING DEENOSAUR WAS LIKE MY FAVORITE EXAMPLE #gonna keep adding as i remember things im glad they wanted to explore jesses character more #but i dont like how they jeopardized korvos character for them to get there #kinda made him backtrack his progress for the sake of that episode :/ just a really big shift i wasnt a fan of #and they didnt make him feel remorse that whole episode either he didnt even say sorry :/ #also terry was just chill with chris that whole episode? have we just moved past the hall of betrayals thing? #i guess jesse’s roast about him being sky blue really just set him off for the rest of the season #he needs to talk to someone professional #i feel like solars is a really weird blend of being umm. Emotionally episodic

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[lilaccatholic]

how do i do it though. how do i let go of the bitterness and the hardness when they kept me "okay" for so long? does it come when i finally leave? can it ever?

#babes i actually relate to the frigid angry woman more than im comfortable with but this time there's no prince coming to save her and idk #i was never beautiful but i was and am angry and capable and that's served me well but being angry is exhausting #it's a birthright i can't give to a younger sibling. it doesn't transfer. #i dont inspire devotion. there's no version of this that ends with me waltzing with a true love. #im not the type you launch a thousand ships for. #so what's left? #who am i when i have no one? when ive spent my life making *me* less to make others more? when im nothing but a useful piece of furniture. #i know God loves me! i love Him! but it's not the same. i want *people* to love me. i want to be someone that theyd fight for. #im feeling that 'women have minds and hearts but im so lonely' scene from little women 2019 so much right now. #except im not jo. my family loves me but theyd never do for me what jo's would do for her. theyre also all focused on surviving. #i feel like a military ration. there to be consumed but cast aside the moment something more palatable comes around. #how do i become consumed with joy? how do i let go of the cynicism? its all thats kept me safe! but its choking me too. #its like tony stark in iron man 2. the thing thats kept me alive this far is killing me. i need to find an alternative but its looking like #ill have to synthesize a new element to make it happen and that freaks me out. #ive always been derivative. never an individual. how do i become a trailblazer when my job was always to hold the hand of the one blazing #the trail? how do i become myself happy and free? #because i WANT to be more #i WANT to be more than anger and coldness and a useful idiot. i WANT to be me and be so so happy #but i dont know how to get there #and if someone suggests therapy im shooting you. i dont want to listen to one more person pretend to care about me and tell me #all the things i need to change and spend even longer not learning how to think for myself #i want to be more than this. but i also cant stand the thought of taking up any more space than i do #anyway. #anyone who's read all this thank you and i promise im fine im just in my feelings today lol #im going to work out and get some happy brain chemicals flowing and then ill take a shower and itll all be good. #please dont worry about me! im just having A Moment TM #lilac rambles

[cerealmonster15]

3 or 21 for jamiazu playlist doodle promppt thing !!!! :P

i had to jump on #3 because that one was put on in reference to this fic i wrote last year [HAS IT BEEN THAT LONG ALREADY. I FEEL LIKE I JUST WROTE THAT ONE. GOOD LORD.]

The song is Frankie Valli's Can't Take My Eyes Off You

and i drew a scene from said fic where that song is playing lol:

teehee

[pick a playlist and send me a corresponding number for a doodle!!!!]

#jamiazu #azujami #jamil viper #azul ashengrotto #twisted wonderland #twst #mobblepsycho100 #asks #cereal tries to draw #i say doodle but i def spent more time on this one and the other one i just did lol #i got lost in the sauce #that coveted hyper focused moment #which is fun! i was getting Stressed about drawing......... but im havin a good time for now lol #ty for sending!! #slowly revealing my playlists one song at a time thru this game #im too embarrassed to post the whole things fjkslfj #i feel the need to Explain Every Single Choice so this is the only way i can cope LOL

[ccbatman]

I once said that I thought Steph would make a great Black Canary, and I still think that's one of the realest takes I've ever had.

Like, this moment seared itself into my head and never faded:

{ Robin 80-Page Giant }

#stephanie brown #dinah lance #spoiler #black canary #me learning about how dinah lost her cry which was as much BULLSHIT as steph's death btw okay hold on i need to get this out of my system #because they had to nerf her SO HARD for that to make sense and it STILL DIDNT BECAUSE ?????? SHE'S THE BLACK CANARY???? THAT GUY WAS A #NOBODY WITH A KNIFE ARE YOU JOKING??? and then the story that follows isnt even really ABOUT dinah it's about ollie and im so. ohhhh my god #JUST like how steph's death was largely brished aside to deal with bruce and jason's angst like. yeah i wanted there to be angst but it #wouldve been nice if it had been about HER for more than five seconds. honestly im so mixed about her death and return tbh. the way they #went about her passing was so weirdly inconsistent through the issues that bruce managing to get her to leslie in time does make sense but #then they do that weird thing with leslie and it's like ???? wha???? i go back and forth on how i feel about steph's return. on one hand i #love how she comes back more focused and stronger largely by her own means but on the other i did want #... something. i wanted her to be angry a bit longer and to deal with the complicated emotions between her 'failing' and bruce's 'failing' #and what that meant for her now. idk i love her batgirl run but it wouldve been nice if she had a bit more space to grieve herself. #anyway later in this issue dinah agrees to mentor steph for a bit and her rules are pretty much the same as bruce's when he made her robin #and if dinah had mentored steph instead of bruce she never would've died ok send tweet #wjshshsk #i love the panels of them looking at each other. dinah looking into steph's eyes and recognising the look in them. #i love how she smiles at stephanie both times. it's so gentle and kind. ily black canary #love posting on blogs where no one follows me. i can just say shit #comic ref #freya talks comics

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

“they’re saying only 1% of people die of covid so why are you worried?” ok then. not looking at any sources, let’s go off that statistic for this post. note: we’ve lost over a million people and counting in the united states alone.

i’ve seen some estimates saying 10%-30% of people end up with continuing symptoms (fatigue, brain fog, etc) after the end of infection, which could mean tens of millions of people. however, if even only 2% had persisting symptoms and we go by that 1% death statistic, that could be 2 million people living with some form of long covid impacting their daily life.

don’t wanna listen about covid? ok, let’s compare it to another disease known for its lasting symptoms and its “long” form: polio.

polio could be asymptomatic, but symptoms presented as flu-like if there were any. all things considered, paralysis was rare in comparison to infection numbers. i’ve seen a lot of polio statistics, and some say only 1 in 1,000 (0.1%) polio cases resulted in paralysis, though this seems like a rough average between the three variants. still, there were tens of thousands of cases of poliomyelitis paralysis. 1952 alone had over 20,000 paralysis cases reported, and that’s one year of many polio outbreaks (the most well known u.s. outbreak was 1948/49-1952).

just because a percentage seems low does not mean the damage is minuscule. be knowledgeable about how information is being presented to you and what the actual impacts are. small numbers do not equal little harm.

#im so tired of people who don’t know shit about disease trying to talk about it #although the cdc is supposed to know things and they’re only spouting bullshit too so who fucking knows #sometimes i wish public policy went with the polio route of ‘scare the shit out of people about this disease to keep them safe’ #because the management right now is complete bullshit #anyway hi i spent years researching disease as a hobby and took an epidemiology class with a semester focusing on polio #i could compare covid to the spanish flu pandemic too but that would be another post #anyway im tired of this bullshit. viruses have the potential to wreak havoc on the body and covid is a prime example. the studies coming out #and the anecdotal experiences of many should be worrying to you and you should be avoiding it at all costs. you will not get lucky every #time against disease. knowledge is power especially when talking about disease #other source if y’all don’t think the research + study were enough and want me to have first hand experience seeing the disease progression: #my dad died of covid. i watched that disease wreak havoc on every part of his body as it progressed. it was absolutely terrifying and #exhausted his body to where his heart couldn’t keep up anymore. this isn’t a fucking cold #coronavirus #my post

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

trying to write the decapitation fic and it's like there's been a Franklydear Renaissance in my head. my fucking god those two

#WAILING WAILING WAILING #ah yes the fic centered around barnaby tearing wally's head off #CLEARLY it should have a whole franklydear subplot #HELLOOOOO????? WHO AUTHORIZED THIS!!! #canon-oriented brain did. #im finally exploring eddie's memory problems and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCK FUCK FUCK #when its real. and comes into play. im not going to survive #its about the names its about the names its about the motherfucking names- #and other things but. THE NAMES!!!!! #where the hell is my chalk i need to Eat It. #absolutely unprompted #me before writing the fic: okay this is barnaby centric. we're focusing on him and the effect of temporarily killing wally #me now: Ahhh I See! It's Been Love Amidst Cosmic Horror The Whole Time! #either my third eye is wiiiiiide the fuck open #or its 3 am. #...its 3 am. #JUST ATE THE THICKEST FUCKIN CHEEZIT. THAT WAS EXQUISITE!!!

[blaiddraws]

I tried to imagine which other au I could fit dojoshipping into without it being cursed and the only one I could find was the ghost worm au. Imagine somehow he sticks around in the past for a bit and Zisu kisses his shiny metal head

hey check out this ask i got the other day

#answered #not art #ghost worm au #when your husband turn into worm 😔 #fhjshsksbskshsjd #all joking aside it's. not gonna be a thing. he avoids jubilife and most humans in hisui a Whole Lot #there's ALSO the. two posts i made. guns georg. (which then immediately led me to think about gunsmoke au--) #that one would be normal. ish #there's nothing about ingo that is normal Ever. to be honest #HEY. HEY. HEY IVE NEVER MENTIONED IT BUT. BUT A WHILE AGO I HAD A GREAT IDEA FOR S DOJOSHIOPING FIC #OF WHICH I AM WORKING ON. SLOWLY. #right now im trying to get out a belated Halloween fic (VERY belated 😔) #but. after that i plan on the other thing #which i started before or during whumptober but. obviously focused on whumptober #ANYWAY. #:> #oh i guess #dojoshipping

[plantboiart]

Currently writing a chapter that’s just entirely Rand Going Through It TM because the previous chapters haven’t had enough Rand suffering

#i got too focused on rolan and kian and now i must fix that #the next like 4 chapters at least will be mostly rand centric #like don’t worry the other two will struggle too #im just saying my google search history will include a lot of things about hallucinations and paranoia and also survivor’s guilt #just roll with it #jrwi #jrwi show #jrwi bitb #jrwi blood in the bayou #blood in the bayou #timothy rand #jrwi rand #bitb fanfiction #jrwi fanfiction

[bunnihearted]

🐁☁️🌫️

#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant #nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it #it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer #ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know #it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are #but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom #bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park #i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that #i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none #my sisters havent talked for me in over a year #and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w #nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao #i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots #i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol????? #im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay #and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like #when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!! #im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing? #other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing????? #and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things #i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

considering making a pmatga edition of my "say cheese" project where i take pictures of every character so people have easy access to photos (for edit blogs and the like!) of the characters . what are we thinkin chat

#the captain's rambles #pacman and the ghostly adventures #pmatga #only catch is im doing betrayus DEAD LAST. not 2 be mean or whatever but because he's The most popular character and there are like #a Million other Super Obscure characters from the same source who have ZERO pictures of them out there #despite sometimes having More lore relevance than he does (COUGH COUGH sunny and zac COUGHACK apex COUGH #sorry betrayus girlies you're gonna have to take the L ok . for now anyways #i would arguably do him in the first batch but like. Everyone knows who betrayus is. he's basically the poster boy 4 the show #it's less of an issue with botbots bc EVERYONE is obscure from there. there's no single “special little blorbini EVERYONE loves” #i guess frostferatu and bonz-eye come close-ish to that bc frostie's on the fucking sexypedia and bonz-eye is homo gay w/ lady macaron #but with pmatga it's like. there's a thousand bajillion betrayus pictures out there. #even If things are getting better and more ppl are focusing on other characters #the impact the 2015 fandom had on the current fandom can Not be ignored and/or erased 😭