#but honestly - i don't think this kind of chart would cut it - as fun as it sounds

[brainrotfm]

the sideshow spectacular: week one

☞ pairing: nurse!ryomen sukuna x f!reader

☞ word count: ~4.6k

☞ short description: yandere fertility nurse sukuna who thinks he's pulling a fast one on you except you're yan4yan and have masterminded this exact situation from the start

☞ content warnings: dark content, modern au, no curse au, yan4yan, yandere behavior, medical play kink, breeding kink, light bondage, inappropriate power dynamic, baby trapping, afab!reader, feminine descriptors + pronouns, blink and you miss it daddy kink, probably a lot more honestly i'm sorry for being a pervert

☞ notes: credit shhhhh don't look at what time this was posted i *definitely* made the cut off for week 1 also this came to me in a vision and then i feverishly wrote between today and yesterday also this is my first posted smut ever pls be nice also also also not beta'd not edited we die like men have fun xoxoxo

You have turned him into a monster.

You, with your kind smile, the way you offer it so carelessly to every person you meet. You, with your adorable gestures, fidgeting and fiddling with pens, magazines, the edges of your skirts as you sit in the waiting room. You, with those trusting eyes, lashes fluttering at every passing sensitivity. He could read your emotions clear as day, and spent too much of his time doing so, pretending to work behind an antiquated desktop as he side eyed you.

The other nurses had caught on, of course - ever watchful hens, they were quick to pinpoint his interest in you, tutting at him in the break room only for a moment about it being inappropriate to desire patients. Their admonishments turned teasing without him interfering, settling into their usual lust for office gossip without another acknowledgement. In truth, his coworkers were delighted, in fact, by the pink haired man "softening" over you.

This would have drawn his ire, even his retaliation in most instances. Until Sukuna realized he was purposely being slid your chart whenever your monthly appointment rolled around, an unexpected convenience in Sukuna's intricate plan to claim you as his own.

He had only heard of your husband in passing, the man only present at your introductory interview with the fertility team and the first few appointments before his obligation to you waned. Sukuna despised him for it on principle, but in practice, no other presence in the exam room meant having his bubble of heaven. A single half hour appointment, once a month, where he reviewed your chart, asked invasive questions about your health, took blood, gave the occasional ultrasound, offered advice on the repetitious nature of fertility treatments, and flirted his ass off as he watched you giggle and squirm under his attention. The prospect of cucking this faceless man only added to Sukuna's dark desires.

Today was finally the day. It was even circled on his desk calendar, red ink.

"You look handsome," you offered him the compliment easily, your voice obscuring the click of the door locking behind you both, back to him as you set your jacket on the extra chair. Sukuna preened for a second, smiling to himself.

Sukuna was wearing a tight, long sleeve black shirt beneath his favorite maroon red scrubs, the smallest hint of a chain beneath his collar, and comfortable black sneakers - none of his piercings, sadly, and since his interview, he had worn make up to cover his face and neck tattoos at work as well.

He knew you meant it too, as he diligently wore the exact same outfit to every one of your appointments since the first time you had complimented him all those months ago.

"Already buttering me up, you better not be trying to get out of your blood work," Sukuna teased as he opened one of the nearby cabinet drawers, retrieving his special black gloves that only he was allowed to use, quietly noting that none were missing with a smirk.

"You always remind me of a tattoo artist with those," you deflected, tossing him one of your oh-so pretty smiles.

"Y'know, I buy these with my own money, and I'm gonna let you in on a lil' secret... That's why, that's what I want you to think," Sukuna bantered back, so at ease around you that he rolled his sleeves up thoughtlessly before making a show out of snapping the nitrile against his wrists. He had never done that before.

You had caught wisps in the past, only question marks until today. Thick black bands of tattooed ink sat around his wrists, hidden now beneath his gloves that blended so well against them, it made sense why he liked them so much.

Your mouth went dry at the sight, licking your lips as you choked out to him, "I didn't know you had tattoos."

The tone of your voice had him raising a brow, lopsided smirk already in place, "Is that a deal breaker, baby?" If only you knew.

"Those can't be the only ones," you replied, and if Sukuna wasn't mistaken, there was a lilt of hope sitting between your words, causing his smirk to soften to a smile, his heart wrenching for a moment at you. You. He was going to ruin you.

That when he noticed that you were still standing awkwardly, your things deposited in the nearby chairs as you rocked on the balls of your feet, something about you seemingly overwhelming tense despite being in such good company. You were being different today too; Sukuna hoped you didn't sense something was amiss.

"Everything okay with you today, doll?"

"I, um... I was wondering if we could wait, actually, to do the ultra sound today," you started shyly, and he could tell you were fighting the urge to wring your hands as your fingertips jittered against your wrists. Despite your words, he continued to dig materials out of the cabinets, glancing at you over his shoulder as he spoke.

"You want to do blood first? Feeling bold today, sweet girl?" Sukuna hoped so, he had big plans for you. He turned from the cabinet to approach you to do the prep work. He didn't want to waste anymore time, but maybe having you light-headed from lack of blood wasn't such a bad idea - he stopped when he saw the look on your face.

"Is there any way I can have a physical exam today, actually? Y'know, like my annual one, but instead... now," your question was rushed as you looked toward him but not at him, and Sukuna knew this because he was staring you down, a predator honing in on his prey. He felt like he could hear your pulse from where he stood, and it made his mouth water.

"You mean your pelvic exam?" he repeated, almost dumbfounded at his luck - were you stupid or naive? Nurses didn't give pelvic exams, that was the doctor's job. Your chart only had an appointment for your usual round of bullshit, blood and ultrasound, Sukuna trying to upsell you hormones your insurance wouldn't cover, blah blah blah.

God, you were so pretty and dumb, was this on purpose? Were you trying to manipulate him? You'd been here enough times to know better, right ? When was the universe ever so giving? Sukuna figured there was really no way you'd fall for what he was about to try, sure this was your attempt at catching him red handed in his obsession over you, but he didn't care. He'd take the bait, even if it was a shot in the dark for you.

His head had cocked with his thoughts, a lopsided grin unfurling across his cheeks as he regarded you with darkening eyes, coughing to clear the husk of his arousal from his voice. "You know, the doctor has been in and out all morning. Something with her kids. I'd hate for you to get stuck waiting around for her. I could always administer the exam, if you'd like."

He very much could not, but he kept his wicked smirk in place, silently praying you wouldn't call his bluff. To Sukuna's delight, your gaze twitched between him and the exam table, knees rubbing together briefly before your hesitation subsided and you made a half step in its direction, wavering as you looked down at yourself. He understood in an instant, clicking his tongue in recognition as he went back to the drawers to dig out an exam gown for you, both your hands lingering on the package when he passed it forward.

"I'll step ou-"

"No, you can just... stay," you sounded much more confident now, cutting him off with a defiant look in your eye, the smallest curl of a smile tugging at the corner of your lips, "You're going to see everything anyway, right? J-just turn around, maybe?"

You were so cute, he wished he could kiss you right then. Using every ounce of his control to suppress his smirk, Sukuna turned on his heel and faced the opposing wall dutifully, the urge to peek over his shoulder at you easy to resist when he knew exactly where all this was leading. As if the wheels hadn't been in motion since before you had even arrived today.

It was sort of erotic, though, to hear the jostle of your clothes hitting the floor, knowing you were naked and so close to him, and being unable to touch or see. Not yet. A little more patience and he knew he would reap the best of rewards. You cleared your throat when you were ready and Sukuna turned, unable to hid his smirk now that he saw you in the silly canary yellow exam gown they gave people here. You were still adorable, though.

Stepping to the side, Sukuna pulled out the lowest shelf of the table to act as a foot stool and help you up, before moving to each side to unfurl the arms of the stirrups he'd be putting your feet into. He couldn't think about it too much or his cock might hear, already on thin ice until you were properly restrained. The room had grown painfully quiet, Sukuna unable to continue joking with you when he was barely keeping his hands off you.

It was taking every ounce of his self control to not start panting and drooling like a dog at the way you quietly obeyed him, without question. So trusting... So easy, it took nothing to lead you down his path of corruption. His skin was starting to get hot, but Sukuna ignored the prickling beneath his shirt, knowing he needed to retain focus now more than ever. Oh, you were speaking. Fuck.

"I read online that during ovulation, there can be blockages that, like, can contribute to the problems I'm... having, you know," you were rambling, words rushed, and Sukuna realized you were embarrassed by the information you were offering. Cute, so fucking cute. You probably should be, it sounded like snake oil garbage, but Sukuna thanked whatever AI algorithm spat that nonsense into your brain as he nodded along.

"Hmmmm, well, that's only sort of true," he hummed through the lie easily, trying not to let his fingertips linger too long against the soft skin of your calf, your ankle as Sukuna strapped your left foot into place. He was even quicker with the right one, worried you may change your mind if he idled too long.

He used his foot to kick the rolling stool closer and sat down in a smooth motion. He couldn't give you a moment to think, because if he did, you may realize your mistake. Sukuna's hands were already beneath your gown as he rubbed both palms eagerly at your inner thighs, cooing from beneath you when you jolted at the sensation, "Hey, it's okay, it's just me. You trust me, yeah? I'm not going to hurt you."

Only some of it was a lie, but you eased regardless, somehow relaxing when you shouldn't be. Sukuna would've clicked his tongue, admonished you, if he wasn't the villain in this story.

"I'm going to look at you now," it was a command more than a question, not waiting for your consent before his hands are moving to your outer thighs, pushing the gown up easily, the fabric already wanting to give from the angle of your legs in the stirrups. It just needed some encouragement.

Glancing up at you, Sukuna noted your fluttering eyelashes and shallow breaths, and realized you probably needed some encouragement too.

"So beautiful," he couldn't stop his silky whisper, barely even trying to keep up the ruse that had put you here, careless as he finally gazed at your perfect pussy, splayed out wide for him. He wanted to touch. He needed to taste.

"Y-yeah?" the quiver in your tone perfect, and Sukuna fought the urge to moan at the entire situation, wondering how someone as bad as him could have such a perfect moment unfolding like this.

"My prognosis is that you have pretty pussy syndrome," Sukuna couldn't even stop himself now, having gone mad as soon as he could smell your arousal, spit pooling on his tongue as his fingers twitched on your thighs. He wanted to touch you everywhere. He wanted to have everything. He leaned closer, his breath beginning to fan over your folds, using two fingers to spread you even further, really expose every inch of you to him. He had dreamed of it for so long, Sukuna couldn't help but linger here, just a moment.

"I d-don't think you're supposed to talk to me like t-that," you wriggled beneath him despite your words, probably beginning to realize this may have been a bad idea, but it was too late for you. You'd have to scream, and to be frank, Sukuna would shut you up before anyone could intervene. He was too close to what he wanted to be stopped now - not that you would. The wetness leaking out of your pulsing little entrance reassured him.

"Yeah? That was unprofessional of me, wasn't it?" Sukuna feigned agreement before he was licked a flat stripe from your perineum to your clit, making sure to linger and kiss at the hooded bud once, twice before giving an experimental suck, earning him a pitched keen that had him grinning.

"But then why are you so wet for me, doll?" the pet name dripped venomously off his tongue as two deft fingers pinched and rolled at your clit, crimson gaze peering up your body at your reaction. The look on your face was almost enough to make him cum right there; your tongue was poking out between your lips as you panted, eyes hazy and hooded, unable to tear your gaze from where Sukuna sat between your legs and continued his ministrations. You already looked fucked out, and he was just getting started.

He laved his tongue gently against your rapidly engorging clit, another whimper falling from your lips when a fingertip started to tease at your fluttering entrance. Already so sopping wet with the prettiest slick he'd ever tasted, he was so entranced by you that he was hardly listening.

"T-this isn't... This is different than what-" You sounded so cute like this, all high pitched and whining. Needy for something you couldn't ask for, not yet, not that you'd have to - Sukuna knew he'd give it to you, give it all to you, give you everything he had.

"We're doing a different kind of exam, doll. I'm not your gynecologist," Sukuna chided back with a sharp laugh, his words full of a condescending mirth as he sunk two fingers deep into your cunt, fighting his own moan at how easily your pulsing hole gave way to him. A moment longer of watching your cunt gobble up his fingers to the knuckle and Sukuna was going to finger bang you to death, truly.

The nitrile gloves were definitely the culprit, the addition of all your slick eradicating any friction. To be fair, your pussy was tight enough that when your walls fluttered around the sudden intrusion, Sukuna had a momentary worry that making you cum might break his hand. It'd be worth it though, so the thought passed him by.

He curled his fingers deeper, prodding and scissoring against the gummy slick of your walls, searching for the spot that would make you sing. He knew as soon as he did, a sharp inhale followed by a whimper leaving your mouth, and the man fought against his urge to grin at all the pretty sounds you were making just for him. Because of him.

He shushed you, easing the pressure against your G-spot, just swirling the pads of his fingers in a circular motion as he purred your name before admonishing you softly, "I really do need you to quiet down, we can't disturb the other patients in the waiting room. Can you be good?"

Your bottom lip was firmly beneath your teeth but wobbling precariously, the sight of you adorable but albeit, not very reassuring. Sighing, Sukuna slipped his fingers out of you, which left you whimpering and squirming, much to his pleasure. Standing between your legs, he regarded you with a cold scowl for a moment before reaching down both hands to shove your exam gown higher from your hips , up up up, not stopping until he'd bunched it beneath your arm pits and freed the jiggling fat of your breasts to the chill in the air. You didn't even wear a bra, whore. His characteristic smirk was back in place at the newfound sight of you.

He couldn't help but stare for a moment. He didn't think he could get away with taking a picture, and he needed to commit this to memory.

After a moment, he reached for the hem of your gown again, this time bunching a fistful together before pressing it against your lips, his smirk going crooked with arousal when you took it with a tentative bite, the pretty doe eyes gazing up at him starting to water.

"Shhh, don't worry, I'm prescribing the perfect fertility treatment for you today, it's even covered by your insurance," Sukuna shushed, the comfort and sympathy offered obviously fake as his fingers tips caught on your entrance again, unceremoniously shoving three forward. Maybe Sukuna was the one who needed the gag - he all but groaned when half his hand sunk into your pussy without resistance, your messy hole squelching loudly for him.

Your eyes immediately rolled as he began an unforgiving pace, hammering his knuckles against your thinly stretched entrance, his other hand having shoved into his pants to fist his cock for even the smallest ounce of relief. Despite your muffled whines to the contrary, your hands began to smack helplessly against his shoulders, the only defense you had to the onslaught of pleasure as you were otherwise pinned and tied to the exam table, by your own wishes. You had, quite literally in Sukuna's opinion, asked for this.

Sukuna squeezed the base of his cock when your flimsy pushing against his chest finally registered, because you weren't even really trying to get him away, because you were still moaning like a little bitch. He almost came at the thought.

His thumb found your clit with ease, the poor thing swollen and begging for attention as he swiped against it, and he had been right in his earlier observation; the added sensation had your pussy clenching down around him so hard, one of his fingers folded over another, practically crushing his knuckles from pressing into you any deeper. You were about to cum for him. That wicked smile of his began to curl across Sukuna's features as his other hand left his cock to take over at your clit, flicking back and forth in a quick motion while the hand buried in your cunt gave several practiced tilts forward.

"Pretty little doll," he groaned hoarsely, pressing in hard against the spongy tissue of your G-spot until your back arched from the table, tits wobbling in the air. Sukuna knew what you needed, grunting a commanding, "Now, cum for me now," before surging forward to bite one of your perfect nipples, the sudden change in angle and added sensation your ultimate undoing.

Like a bow pulled taut, you snapped at your peak, a surprised shout barely escaping your throat before your cunt flexed hard, before splitting itself open with a gush of clear liquid around Sukuna's eagerly awaiting palms, the hand inside you stilled to let you ride on while he continued to lazily flick your clit, prolonging your orgasm as long as he could.

You were going to feel heavenly around his cock.

Sukuna felt his eyes roll back as he mercilessly pummeled his hips forward, unable to slow himself down, your cunt filled to the brim with his girth. His hand was grasped so firmly over your mouth, you could only helplessly cry out against his palm, laving your tongue and teeth over the skin for some amount of grounding sensation as the man ruthlessly fucked into you.

The stirrups had kept you spread wide for him, unable to wriggle away from pleasure and pain alike, and a puddle was forming on the floor as your needy cunt drooled around his abusive thickness. So perfectly fucked out, just for him. Your walls fluttering indistinctly from the spasms of your orgasms, your euphoria evident from your slick sodden pussy, your heavily lidded gaze, your labored gasps for air beneath his hand. Grinning, he pinched two fingers together and closed your nose, and your entire cunt clenched, and Sukuna barely stifled his own groan as he ricocheted into you with renewed vigor. He let go when your eyes began to roll, and it seemed that the flood of oxygen back into your brain combined with the frenzied thrust of his hips had you shattering around him once again.

"Oh my god, look at you," Sukuna choked out lowly, "you're just sucking me in, it's like-"

He was gazing down to where your bodies connected, wonder twinkling behind heavily lidded maroon eyes as he watched your cunt take him still, after already cumming twice and probably so sensitive, still. His heart hammered in his chest, the pressure at the base of his cock getting dizzying, making his mouth run as his brow furrowed, unable to take his eyes away from your drooling slit as he chased his high.

The exam room stank with sex, filled with the wet slaps of his hips and low grunts, your cum drunk mewls broken and pitchy and barely muffled by your spit-soaked gown. It was a wonder you both hadn't been caught yet, but at this point, it just seemed to be Sukuna's lucky day.

"You want me to cum in you, don't you?" Sukuna asked breathlessly, not actually caring for the answer, because this had been the point all along. The entire plan hinged on filling you to the brim with his seed.

"You want my fucking cum, you want to be bred by me and not your stupid fucking husband. You want me to fuck a baby into you, you dirty fucking whore, so shameless," as he spoke, his thrusts began to speed up, his control finally dwindling as he hammered recklessly into your perfect sopping cunt. He was unable to stop himself from reaching down to grind his palm against your clit, adoring the way your walls gripped his shaft, milking his thickness for all he was worth.

"It doesn't matter what you want, m'gonna do it anyway," he hissed, crimson eyes wide and wild and boring down at the pussy he planned to fill with his seed, absolutely deranged with his singularly focused obsession, and the sight had you shuddering around him again, your third orgasm unexpected for the both of you.

Sukuna had no chance against your spasming walls this time, his hand finding your throat and dragging you up for a ruthless, harsh first kiss. More of a mashing tongues before Sukuna cried out with a growl, dropping his head to muffle himself with a bite to your shoulder. Instinct shoved his hips forward, burying his cock as close to your womb as physically possible as he came, flooding you with warmth. His cock jumped inside of you, twitching and sensitive against your fluttering walls, both of you hissing and moaning softly as your hips continued to rock slowly, riding out the overstimulation.

Your chests were pressed skin to skin, Sukuna's head was still tucked in the space between your neck and your shoulder as you both came down from your highs, silent except for the shared panting. Sukuna was the first to speak, chuckling as he lulled his tongue against the mark he had left, kissing the already blossoming redness in a surprising act of tenderness.

"I marked you up pretty bad, doll, between that and my baby, I don't think you're getting away with any of this. What're you gonna tell your man?" Sukuna didn't know if it was pride or jealously twinging his words, but whatever it was, it tasted bitter on his tongue, despite all the blessings he'd received today.

A beat passed before you tried to sit up on your elbows, the angle of the exam table not exactly helping, once hazy eyes now trained on his, absolutely twinkling as you murmured, "Probably nothing, I guess... considering I'm not married." You wriggled beneath him, still pinned beneath his chest as you danced your hips back and forth around his softening length, making cum leak out and down your puffy slit in a proud display.

"What?" His cock hadn't even come out of you yet. You were gonna make him hard again if you kept that up.

You giggled, the sound sparkling with delight as you repeated, "I'm not married. That man isn't my husband."

"He's been here... It's part of our screening process."

"He's just some actor guy I hired. I don't even know him." You didn't even have the nerve to sound embarrassed.

"What does that mean? He gives samples-"

"I give samples on my 'husband's' behalf. Why do you think our treatments haven't worked?" your smile had grown wicked, a twin lopsided grin to the one he usually wore, pupils dilated as you admitted your sins, your pussy even giving a little spasm on his now rapidly hardening cock. You were getting off on this, you little she-devil.

"Then what's even the point in coming to a fucking fertility clinic if you're not-"

"All for this. All for you," your confession both the sweetest and most deranged thing he had ever heard of in his life, and that was saying something, considering... him.

His heart skipped a beat.

Sukuna was pretty sure he was in love with you.

You thought you had finally stunned him. You had, for a moment, like a flash bang. But Sukuna recovered quickly enough, reaching an expert hand down to drag the middle shelf out from the front of the exam table. He stepped his right foot forward before hoisting a knee to plant his left foot firmly on the stool, using the advantage of his palms already under your knees to unceremoniously shove you into deep mating press, no longer constrained by stirrups.

His fat cock could bully against your cervix easily now, and considering he never skipped leg day, his stamina in this position was nothing to be trifled with. He gave an experimental roll of his hips, sinking tip to hilt without any resistance, the movement causing you to shout hoarsely at how quickly his balls pressed against your asshole.

"Oh you fucking slut," Sukuna purred in delight, his condescension sticky sweet, "Since you want my baby so bad, we'll make extra sure it sticks this time, but you gotta be quiet and we gotta be quick." You opened wide as he grabbed a handful of his special black gloves from their box and balling them into your gleefully awaiting mouth. Leaning forward so you were caged against his chest, Sukuna rolled his cock deeply into you again, content with your muffled whine of ecstasy, before setting a brutal pace into your already cum sodden cunt.

"And call me Daddy this time."

#the sideshow spectacular #sukuna x reader #kinktober 2023 #jjk kinktober #sukuna x y/n #sukuna x you #ryomen sukuna x reader #sukuna x reader smut #tss: week one #and with that! i put myself to bed! #writesfm

[kiwiana-writes]

Six(ish) Sentence Sunday

Thanks for the tag @hgejfmw-hgejhsf and @onthewaytosomewhere - it's always nice when I'm not kicking the week off lmao. I didn't get a lot of writing done this week because I was busy editing the Going Platinum podfic I posted today, but I've powered through so I have something to share!

Rockstar Alex is now officially fully epistolary, because I figured out how to get #3 from the five fun facts game into a fully epistolary format. If you are thinking to yourself, "Great! If it's fully epistolary then it can't hurt as much!" I would advise you to turn to your nearest Schitt's Creek fandom buddy who has read my fics in that fandom and ask them how they feel about chapter 5 of Meet me out at the end of my rope (aka angstapalooza), and calibrate accordingly 😈

SO. Below the cut is a little sneak peek of this with the skin on (and some bonus Reddit comments because when I go epistolary I go balls to the wall), but if you don't want to venture under the cut, enjoy the text version of an r/TIFU post:

TIFU by breaking my no-hookup rule Obligatory ‘this didn’t happen today’ but my friends are still making fun of me days later, so. I’m not a hookup/cruising kind of gay. Full respect to you if you are, it’s just never been my thing - I’m more of a serial monogamist type But it was my friend’s birthday last weekend and we all went out to a gay bar, and I ended up dancing with this guy who… honestly if I describe how off the charts hot he was you wouldn’t believe me anyway, so you’ll just have to trust me on this. He was there with a friend and the friend bought us a few rounds of vodka shots before fucking off somewhere, so me and this guy went back to dancing. And then the dancing was grinding, and then we were making out for a bit before he said he was gonna go to the bathroom with THAT head tilt. You know the one. Even my no-hookups ass knows the one. And yeah, I don’t do hookups, but fuck it. I said yes (I really cannot express how hot this guy was lol) and followed him to the bathroom. I won’t get into all the details but suffice to say getting blown by this dude was a religious experience. I’m just getting to the point of no return when he pulls back all of a sudden. And he’s got tears in his eyes, but I just thought it was from like… well, you know… but then he STOOD UP. I was like “what the fuck dude” and he just started APOLOGIZING, saying something about the song????? I hadn’t been paying attention tbh, I was a bit busy having my brains sucked out through my dick, but this guy just muttered something about the song and his ex and then he LEFT ME in the fucking club bathroom, dick bobbing in the wind. I think I’m back to no hookups from now on tbh. TL;DR: first ever hookup ended with a stranger literally sobbing his way off my dick, and ACD’s new song is a banger, but I’ll probably never be able to hear it without thinking of the worst case of blue balls I’ve ever had.

Forever feeling feral for whatever y'all are up to, so tagging @affectionatelyrs @anchoredarchangel @anincompletelist @blairwaldcrf @cha-melodius @clottedcreamfudge @cricketnationrise @cultofsappho @daisymae-12 @dumbpeachjuice @everwitch-magiks @firenati0n @getmehighonmagic @happiness-of-the-pursuit @heybuddy-drabbles @indestructibleheart @indomitable-love @inexplicablymine @leaves-of-laurelin @littlemisskittentoes @lizzie-bennetdarcy @matherines @myheartalivewrites @ninzied @notspecialbabe @orchidscript @rmd-writes @sherryvalli @ships-to-sail @smc-27 @sparklepocalypse @ssmtskw @stereopticons @tintagel-or-cockleshells @welcometololaland @whimsymanaged and, as always, anyone who wants to play! (If you take the open tag please tag me so I can see!!)

#six sentence sunday #kiwiana-writes #wip: rockstar alex exes to lovers #this is gonna get ridiculous #(this is already ridiculous)

[natureismynature]

I'm finally home and ready to talk about The Book!!

So, this book I've been talking about was found by Roier yesterday when he was looking for Cellbit in the castle. I don't think anyone thought much of it since Grandma's room is kind of a hotspot for almost all of Foolish's pranks. But I'm telling you, this one is NOT a prank. Especially not when said book was found accompanied by a VERY illegal gun.

Now. Here's the contents of the book.

i hope this finds the right person... hide it for now, be careful who you tell.

7 space 27

no one suspects a thing

that was a giant middle finger... asshole

no meaning. just for fun :D

3000 cielo 0

could someone find this first (alternatively: someone could find this first)

Ok, now that we've laid that all down, I'm gonna start rambling and theorizing under the cut

If you guys remember, Forever tried to barter Foolish's gun for his silence/lesser aggression. But Foolish told him he already had other plans for the gun... and I guess this was it.

I suspect he did this during that time Aypierre was doing a 24-hour stream and he randomly logged on. He usually logs on offline nowadays if he was hiding something from chat and other people... anyway, that's not the point! The point is the binary code on the first page and whatever the hell that was on the last.

The binary code translated to "7 space 27" which means. Literally nothing. Or DOES it?

Because I refuse to believe Foolish just randomly typed out binary code on a secret book handing over his gun to whoever finds it (most likely assumed to be Cellbit) which ACTUALLY translates to something. So I dug around and bullshitted my way to find a SOMEWHAT acceptable conclusion because I am not delusional and will never be as smart as Cellbit.

Keep in mind I have no fucking clue how enigmas work and used a chart for this bullshit. Specifically this one:

According to this chart, if we take the translated code and refer to them as our decimals, we've got 7 and 27 to look at. Now, if we look at our decimals' rows, we will get BEL and ESC as our ASCII symbols.

I searched up what they meant and they are literally:

BEL - bell, alert

ESC - escape

Now if we take those and complete the "sentence" that was there originally it would become "Alert space Escape" which is... something... but don't quote me on this, I could be 100% wrong.

But enough of that because my brain is already mush. Let's check the next one!

Next one being "3000 cielo 0"

I looked up what cielo meant, and it had various different meanings, but the common denominator was that it was high up. (i.e. sky, heaven, roof) But it could also be used as a term of endearment like mi cielo (my heaven) or something along those lines. And 3000 is some kind of angel number or something that means love and stuff.

My immediate thought upon searching up these two is the phrase "I love you 3000" but I might be grasping straws here. This might just be cords to a place somewhere up high with 3000 and 0 as the x and y axis. But you know, I like to make things harder for me.

Honestly, if you're still here and reading this paragraph, then I applaud you for being smart enough to understand whatever the hell I just wrote down.

There are two wolves inside me. One that thinks Foolish didn't really mean anything by these codes and the other that KNOWS he's smart enough to do this (AND would absolutely get help from the admins if he didn't)

#qsmp #timb talks #rambles #foolish gamers #qsmp theories

[xiaolanhua]

ok, so here are my thoughts about Till the End of the Moon:

First of all, i really enjoyed watching the drama, there were some things that i didn't like but it doesn't determine if is a good drama or not, just my personal preference.

Visuals:

Among all the xianxias i've watched, they really brought one of the best visuals and cgi. The photography and cinematography were also on point. One of the best things about the drama!

Characters:

I'm so glad i got to meet Tantai Jin, he is a complex and intriguing character played VERY WELL by Luo Yunxi, he definitely was the star of the show. The man really gave us the most unhinged, sad, pretty and mad human (or devil) being while using the most thin and neat eyeline and he's so iconic for that (he and dongfang qingcang would be besties, i feel it!)

Li Susu/Ye Xiwu are kind the kind of character that you love or hate or both, and honestly, i'm going with both. Really felt mixed emotions about her but i understand her character and why she behaved like that, Bai Lu once again did a great job <3

Also, shoutout to my favorite secondary characters Pian Ran (my beloved fox, i miss you so much), Qing yu (a cutie), Bai Yu (a puppy who loves his master so much) and my bad b*tch Si Ying (r.i.p baby you were mean but slayed).

The couples:

The main couple were not a "healthy" one and i acknowledge that but Bai Lu and Yunxi's chemistry is off chart, i'm glad we had another drama with them giving us all kinds of feels because they are really great with that. Also, if you want to watch them being one of the most funny and healthy couples of dramaland, i highly recommend Love is Sweet, it has "corporate" plot but they make it worth it.

Pian Ran and Qing Yu deserve the title of "second couple", they were fun, cute and had great chemistry (the writers did they dirty 🤬)

On the other hand, unfortunately, this drama has one of the worst "second lead" characters/couple (bingchan/mo nv and xiao lin/ji wu). I didn't like them for a bit and could erase them in any timeline/plot, very weak and with nonexistent chemistry :(

Costumes:

You can really tell that they spend efforts with the costumes and i appreciate it so much because the dresses and accessories (specially Ye Xiwu's head pieces) were stunning!! The team responsible for the costumes deserve a raise.

Plot/ending/editing:

Yes, it's a xianxia, and yes, i knew what kind of drama i was getting into and i'm not a "sad ending" hater or whatever, but i feel like the mass cutting and re-editing for the drama to be broadcasted really downgraded the overall quality of the drama.

Who directed also made a mistake choosing to release too much scenes that weren't really needed and then fast forward scenes that were important to the plot, you guys know what i'm talking about? yep, the dream arc/bo're life.

The dream arc indeed was important, specially for character development and to understand about the ancient gods and the battle against the former devil god, but how they prolonged when it could be done without taking almost 9 episodes is really frustrating.

There's a tiny detail that really bothered me while i was watching that how they used the same location/wardrobe for multiple scenes. Like, they put the actors on a place and made them record different kind of scenes that were put on the drama and you CAN tell they did that because the editing didn't help. I don't know if they did that to cut expenses but is just a thing that throws me off.

Now, about the last episode: i was meh... the ending was more bitter then sad. And, yes, i'm totally angry because Tantai Jin did not deserve the ending he got 😭🤬 like, would it kill to explain better if he was gone for good ??? because that last scene was confusing

OST:

I admit that i only heard the OST when i was watching, it was great but not memorable :(

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well, i think this is the larger post i've made about a drama and i'm sorry if something sounds confusing or is written poorly, english is not my first language (i know, is such a latino thing to say sorry about having a "bad" english 😬)

rating: overall: 8.2/10 acting: 9.5/10 visuals 9.5/10 plot: 8/10 editing: 6/10

#till the end of the moon #cdrama #aurora says #i know i forgot to say more things but this is what i have for now

[therichantsim]

I was trying to keep this short enough for a reply because my last one was so long, but…

First, let me say that Giddy Up and Footloose was so much fun!

It was after the bowling dress that I said to myself, "watch she win," but it was more like an upset during the playoffs, like coming from behind kind of win. But this? This is an upset in it's own right. I don't think most readers thought that her braggadocious attitude could come off as charismatic, and yet… I would be surprised if their bars weren't halfway in the green.

I thought he had chemistry with Noemy, but this is off the charts in comparison, even considering that they didn't really flirt. Of course I didn't know what the date was going to be like, but I knew it wasn't going to be dressage or a mountainside rescue, so it could only be something playful. And that underscored for me that Yasmine's date wasn't structured like the others in terms of flow.

But even with that, I think that these last two dates were actually the most fruitful in terms of Quinton seeing, not quite to the heart of them, exactly, a bit too early for that, but at least being able to see… wait for it… what they're made of.😉

So, I'm not recanting, but I believe the juxtaposition does offer a different perspective on the outcome of Yasmine's date. I have other thoughts about this that are tethered to a couple things, including, something you said in response to my previous ask and, that, rather than a romantic relationship, the date would seem more like the start of a mentorship, but I'll hold off on those until later if they're still relevant when later comes.

And Chanel was the first to ask about his kids! I was not surprised that it was her, but I was surprised that I forgot that Noemy didn't. I remember thinking (assuming, really) the convo Quinton and Noemy had on the plane would lead to her reciprocating the question in someway, but it never happened. Well, it did, but it was about his late wife and they never made it to the kids. I'm not keeping score because I'm actually only rooting for Quinton at this point, but I know that he is, so that had to earn Chanel some points.

I think the main thing this date represents to me is the beginning of a solid friendship, which is sooooooooooooo important in the long run. Having the hots for each other is all well and good, but for most sex-favorable couples, sex happens in between everything else. So, knowing you can vibe with them during everything else is a great foundation. Though, I suppose that vibe won't matter as far as endgame goes if their pink bar stays low, because, again, they didn't really flirt, at least not in a way that the game recognizes.

Up to this point, save for Lucy, who I like personality-wise, I've been indifferent about the rest, just observing, but this date has definitely moved Chanel into the like column. And that's all thanks to the way you're choosing to translate their traits and bio info into personalities in action; it's what I'm enjoying the most.

Me reading this ask. I love you and thank you for your feedback.

Now below the cut.

I can honestly say Chanel surprised me as well. I came into this with one or two sims who had backstories that truly tugged at me. Now, after a weekend of playing these sims, I am all over the place. I just knew Quinton and Chanel would end up with a negative bar. She's in the negative with two of her housemates. However, I was surprised at how Quinton's mood was around Yasmine. Especially since they hit it off so great at the bowling alley, but I guess that's why one on ones are important. Giddy Up and Footloose was really Andraya's date but she reacted negatively towards the horse. So, I went to look at her likes and dislikes and saw dislikes animals. Then re-read her bio and same thing. I don't know how I missed that. So yes, the execs (meaning me) messed up. So nosey and persistent Chanel came in handy because was not about to build another venue. She literally came outside and interrupted their interaction. It's just funny how everybody eventually showed up at the bar while she was having her date with Quinton. Even Dani but she was barefoot for some reason, so I sent her home. It takes all my strength to not cheat or intervene when these sims act unfavorably or against my interest. I have one possibly two sims I'd like to see win but since these sims have been surprising me in ways, I could not have imagined I'm going to let the chips fall where they land. The story has been literally writing itself. I do take some liberties with posing because sims don't do certain things like walk and holds hands. Also, they move too much when sitting or standing while talking so I will use conversation poses after I've done the game play interactions. Saying all that to say it is 85% organic and that's more than what USDA and FDA can say about our organic food.

#becomingmrsblackburn2 #Quinton Blackburn #thanks for the ask! #This was such a good analysis.

[ruki--mukami]

❆ henlo jas i have come to give you appreciation:

Y’KNOW! when first getting into DL, Ruki was like?? not a FAVOURITE, but not a character i didn’t like either. i didn’t particularly think to much of him. UNTIL—

i read your portrayal of him. FOR SOME REASON— the way that you write specifically. the way you convey his character. wonderful. spectacular. is so?? compelling?? DEF DRAWS A PERSON IN.

so now everyday i wake up like “ooooo i wonder what shenanigans rooks is gonna get up to on the dash.”

and thats thanks to you 😎 ANYWAYS FORGIVE ME FOR THE RANDOM APPRECIATION. I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW I ADORE YOUR CONTENT 💪😎 AND EVERYTHING YOU DO 😩 PLEASE BE SURE TO TAKE CARE YOURSELF 🗣🗣 ❆

🧩 OMG WHIN IN MY ASK BOX, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS—

First I just want to say thank you so much for your kind words, from the bottom of my heart. T_T Writing has always been a passion of mine to some degree, but before this blog I never wrote much of anything fictional. In fact, the last time I did any kind of roleplaying was probably 10 years ago if you exclude this blog, so I totally thought it would flop due to my rustiness LMAO. Instead, I made so many wonderful friends on here including yourself and I could not be more grateful for it. Every day I'm trying to improve my language and technique and it's been such a blast exploring that through, hands down, my favorite comfort character of all time. It's definitely entertaining for me to think of how he would react to certain situations, interact with all kinds of people, and problem solve his way out of things. 🧩

WARNING: MAJOR RUKI SIMPERY AHEAD because I just don't know when to stop I guess.

Okay someone stop me because I know I'm going to go on a long Ruki spiel that no one asked for—

Honestly, being indifferent to Ruki is a pretty reasonable conclusion to arrive at for the standard DL fan, assuming you have not read all of his routes, drama CD's, tokutens, etc. like most people probably haven't. The anime only shows a glimpse of his character that doesn't even do him justice, and his first route (MB) barely scratches the surface as well imo. I'll try to keep this short since my Ruki simpery is off the charts, but the breadth of his character for me stems from Dark Fate and Lost Eden which, I assume, most don't really delve that far unless Ruki is already one of your biases.

Basically what I'm trying to say is—I think you flatter me too much because I kind of just take everything I know about his character + how I envision him to act in my head and just… write from there, I guess. HAHAHA. Truth be told I was convinced when I made this blog, people would think my portrayal of Ruki is too exaggerated (which, ngl, he totally is for my own entertainment LMAO) or too sadistic for his own good. BUT violence and torture aside, it's one of my goals of this blog to spread my love for the character and make other people see why he is so dear to my heart.

Too often have I seen people mistake Ruki for someone who is overly serious, dull, or no fun at all. But to me, that couldn't be further from the truth. Anyone who plays through his routes would know that he has some of the biggest snark and sass I've seen of ANY OF THE DL BOYS. Seriously, the cutting edge this man has… OOF. IT HITS HARDER WHEN HE'S ALREADY INTELLIGENT AND KNOWS WHERE IT HURTS MOST TOO. Yes, he is strict, stoic, maybe a bit too aloof for most people's tastes, BUT HE'S ALSO SUPER WITTY, SURPRISINGLY CHARMING, AND HE JUST SOMEHOW GIVES OFF THIS JUXTAPOSING AURA OF "I WANT TO RUIN YOUR LIFE" + "I WANT TO PROTECT YOU AND CARE FOR YOU" and I jUST—GFHFGKHFG okay you can argue probably all of the boys give off that kind of vibe??? But still??

The whole backstory of Ruki being the eldest who leads his brothers despite knowing he is the forbidden choice who should not be chosen, [SPOILERS CROSSED OUT] despite the person he respects so much being the same reason for his own trauma and downfall , and being arguably the most closed off, cold-hearted of all the boys eventually opening up to you and being vulnerable around you? IT DOESN'T GET MORE REWARDING THAN THAT.

It's the reason why I make him quite the sadistic vamp and try to add a cutting wit as sharp as his own fangs in every single reply I write. That's what I take from his character and luckily for me, being someone who knows a lot of idioms and ambiguous sayings with room for double meanings, there is so much for me to work with to go above and beyond the Ruki you would read in say, an English translation of his dialogue, if that makes sense? Probably most of what I'm saying right now doesn't register unless you have Ruki for brains like I do but bottom line is: I love this man too much for my own good that I had to make a blog of him portraying him the way he practically lives in my head rent free.

And you don't know how elated I am that it's more than just the inner fangirling of a crazed Ruki lunatic. I'm so happy that others like this portrayal of him as much as they do... It all feels so surreal to me.

So, yes, when you mention Rooks and his shenanigans... I ask myself the same thing every day too when I first wake up. I wonder what my man will encounter today and what other crazy madness he's gonna stir up on tumblr dot com HAHAHAHAHA. I can only hope it is entertaining for all who happen to stumble across it and dedicate the time to read my posts. T_T <3 Thank you for enjoying the character thanks to how I write him. It means more than you know.

And please take care of yourself as well, Whin. I see how hard you work and it doesn't go unnoticed. We all need breathers from writing even if it's a fun hobby, or so I like to tell myself.

Thanks for coming to my simp talk.

#the admin speaks #ruki mukami #mukami ruki #retelling-of-ragnarok

[acacia-may]

Hi again! I was checking your fanchildren post (that's an amazing list of kiddos) and I'm very interested in the post-apocalypse / dark triad wins AU, please tell us more about it! :D

Hi there! Thank you for the ask and for checking out my fanchildren chart. It's kind of a mess, honestly, so I just hope it made sense. 😅

That AU is honestly a little out there (my sister and I made it up for (angsty) kicks & giggles a long time ago), so I doubt it'll ever come to be anything concrete, but I will try my best to explain. (Since it breaks off from the canon after the Spade Arc, I'll put my explanation below the cut to avoid spoilers and also because it's kind of dark. Just warning you there's a lot of things that are wrong with this one...but it’s really not meant to be taken too seriously...)

Alright so the premise of the AU is that the magic knights succeed in rescuing Yami and William in Spade; however, they don't manage to close the gate. The demons (in league with the Dark Triade) run amok in the world and kill off most of the population. The Heart Kingdom is completely destroyed, and the Diamond Kingdom is completely taken over and given over to Morris who runs human experiments there. The few surviving Clover Kingdom magic knights manage to hold a portion of the Clover Kingdom safely and end up pushing back the Dark Triade and the demons back into Spade. What's remaining of Clover is a completely fortified and walled in area, but the survivors attempt to rebuild there and a select few of the magic knights (more often than not led by Yuno) will occasionally go out into the world to try to figure out what in the world they're going to do about the Spade problem.

Asta and Noelle survived in the post-apocalyptic world for a while. They were a big part of the efforts to rebuild, but, unfortunately, eventually both perished [Asta in a mission and Noelle by being assassinated] shortly after their daughter was born. Nozel named her after Noelle, but he didn't think he was equipped to raise her so he gave her to Yami and Charlotte who aren't in a romantic relationship but have merged what was left of their squads. Little Noelle (Elle) wants to be a magic knight, but Charlotte and Yami have mostly forbidden it because it's too dangerous (under normal circumstances they probably wouldn't be so protective but almost everyone has died here so they're naturally pretty concerned), so they get her a job as a secretary to William Vangeance instead.

William Vangeance has left what's left of the Magic Knights to work in the government (in what I suppose is a "Wizard King"-esque position). He has an adopted son named Langris (Ris) who he rescued from a lab in the Diamond Kingdom as an infant. Langris Vangeance has extremely powerful spatial magic that allows him to travel through time, and his "Uncle Yuno" is particularly insistent that if he'd only train harder and apply himself, they could use his power to go back in time and close the gate thereby stopping the apocalypse. To Yuno's annoyance, however, Ris would much rather use his power to slack off, have fun, and get snacks (like churros which are his favourite food).

Langris Vangeance doesn't know his origin story, and he's not the brightest so he mistakes Rill and the since-deceased Charmy as his parents, thus the "Pappitson" part of his name. [Lisa is a defective but sentient clone Gauche made of Vanessa, and Ris bonded with her because she is "warm and motherly," so he has added "Lisa" to the end of his name as well in her honor]. Langris Vangeance [Pappitson Lisa]'s parents are actually Vanessa and Finral, though everyone thinks that they're long dead. At the end of the Spade Battle in this AU, there was an earthquake that separated Finral, Vanessa, Secre Swallowtail, and Langris Vaude from the rest of the group (and everyone just kind of assumed they all died). Langris died saving Finral's life, and Secre sacrificed herself for her friends (it didn't actually end up killing her though but rather turned her into a bird permanently again, but no one knows that. Bird Secre watches over Elle and Ris, however).

Thinking they were the only survivors and feeling she had no other options, Vanessa brought a badly wounded/half-dead Finral back to the Forest of Witches where she bargained with Her Majesty to save his life. Recognizing the potential of combining Vanessa's fate magic with spatial magic, the Witch Queen saved Finral on the condition that he and Vanessa stay in the Forest of Witches and have a child with the power to travel through time (and therefore prevent the apocalypse). As it's a post-apocalyptic wasteland out there, they didn't really have much of a choice but to stay. They weren't planning to give in to Her Majesty's demands, however, but as time passed, they actually came to love each other and accidentally had twins they named after Langris and Secre.

When the twins were still infants, the Dark Triade and their demon army attacked the Forest of Witches. Her Majesty perished, and they brainwashed Vanessa who took over as Queen in her place and allied with the corrupt Spade. During the chaos, Vanessa pushed Finral and baby Langris through a portal, and they managed to escape before Finral was knocked unconscious and Ris was stolen by the Diamond Kingdom. Finral was rendered permanently comatose due to head trauma but was, luckily, found and taken in by Henry, Grey, and Luck who are living in the woods (and also thought they were the only survivors post-Spade). Little Secre (Re) has been raised in the Forest of Witches with her brainwashed mother, who is a surprisingly good parent for being a villain. The brainwashing modified and sealed away a lot of Vanessa's memories so Re doesn't know anything about her father or twin brother. Eventually, a particularly jaded Gauche finds his way to the Forest and becomes Queen Vanessa's right-hand man and Secre's uncle.

Were this story ever to be written, the bulk of this AU would take place when Elle, Ris, and Re are all teenagers and would mainly consist of them trying to save the world. It would likely start with Elle and Ris running away from home to journey to the Forest of Witches to try to make an alliance with the Queen (who they don't know is brainwashed or actually Langris Vangeance's mom). However, it's such a convoluted mess of a plot and an idea that I doubt it'll get written. It's kind of fun to think about sometimes though, and I've also made a couple of doodles I can share below...

The first image is William with a little bitty Langris Vangeance and their bird feeder. The second image is an older "Little Noelle" and Langris Vangeance (with churros and Rouge who ends up saving his life at one point).

#thanks for the ask! #i never really thought i’d ever tell anyone about this au 😅 #it’s dark but it’s not really supposed to be taken that seriously… #answered asks #the-black-bulls

[yelpfic]

Fic prompts 54 and also 55 ?

54. What’s the fandom/pairing distribution of your posted fics?

You so didn't ask for this, but when you said distribution, I instantly went to the spreadsheets.

My main fandoms are clearly Genshin and ES21, but I mostly write for exchanges these days, so that ends up in this huge long tail of random fandoms (truncated in this chart to preserve space). It's been fun to try new fandoms based on what my recipient requests, but it also feels a bit weird to just write in a fandom without ever even wading into it as a reader - kind of like I'm showing up at a party without carefully scrutinizing the social norms first!

Well, I'm clearly into ZhongXiao, but my pairings beyond that are also quite random. Can you believe that an Ishimaru pairing is tied for third place? I'm happy for that boy, honestly.

I'm not much of a shipper, and I tend to enjoy exploring different permutations of characters I don't see often, as well as platonic &-pairings. I suppose ZhongXiao is an outlier (honestly also fueled by exchanges!).

55. Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

Themes: absolutely! I started this account because I wanted to write my id, and I have certainly done so. I love themes of power imbalance, fear, mercy, loyalty, and those are what show up most in my writing. I like to think that I turn it off for exchanges when my recipient gives me no sign of wanting those things, but if I really over-analyze myself, exploring those dynamics is probably what motivates most of my (non-exchange) writing.

Words/expressions: I think this is something that readers will be more likely to notice than writers. These patterns are almost invisible to me because they’re how I think and thus almost invisible to me.

But yes for sure.

For example, I way overuse phrases like "it seemed like", "she found that", "apparently", "somehow". I think at the time of writing, I'm trying to convey the uncertain perceptions of the narrator, and maybe also inject some dry humor. But in the end it feels wordy, distant, and unneeded. Those are some things I try to cut out.

Along a similar vein, I filter way too much of the narrative through the lens of: "When he thought back, it was clear that...", "She glanced over and noticed that...", etc. Those are all a bit redundant - if I write that a cheetah raced by, it's clearly because my narrator just saw it, no need to say it. (TBH I've done this a lot in these last two asks...) Again, things that I've noticed recently, and am working on improving!

If you've noticed other phrases I overuse, I would love to hear about it and use that feedback to make my writing less repetitive. :)

Thanks for the asks!

#asks #meme #fic meta #writing meta

[bts-polls]

BONUS POLL: SIX MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!

Seriously, I can't believe it's been this long already! I haven't missed a day yet but there's been a couple that were set incorrectly for 1 day instead of 1 week. :/

But more importantly, I want to thank all of you that have been around here! Without you, this would absolutely not have been worth it! Whether you vote on every poll or only occasionally, you are the reason for this blog existing. Thanks for joining me! BORAHAE! 💜💜💜

Please feel free to share any feedback or suggestions for improvement in the comments, asks, or messages. I'd love to make any adjustments to keep this a positive experience for all!

As is tradition with these bonus polls, I've compiled some fun facts below the cut:

The poll with the most voters was easily this one about our first BTS memories.

The polls that took the most effort were the desert island disc tournament. We're almost done! Just counting the closed polls, there have currently been a total of 675 votes cast across 22 polls.

I'm not sure if I'm up for another tournament-style series quite yet but I do have an idea for another one. I probably wouldn't let it stretch out as long as this one though...

Poll results that surprised me:

Member you'd like to share streaming profile: Yoongi was the top pick but I honestly don't remember him sharing much of what he chooses to watch in his spare time...maybe that's why though, we're all so curious. lol

NYE Performance: Most voters haven't seen any of it. I thought this was one of the more popular performances, given how much everyone gushes about BWL and that it was in the US at a well-known event.

Sign Language in PTD: This time it wasn't the highest response tht surprised me but a good portion of voters didn't know it. Another thing that I thought was common knowledge but apparently not.

Agust D's getaway driver: I don't see Hobi being calm enough to be entrusted with that task but nearly 50 of you thought so!

Which member you'd trust at a buffet: Not so much the results but just how this poll took off and got significantly more voters. I guess we all are opinionated in which member we'd trust to get food for us! ;)

It's so lovely to think about how differing each of us are and how varying our experiences have been but we've all arrived at the same place of voting in these silly polls.

It won't be a surprise to any of you that have read any of my Run BTS posts on my main blog that I love a good spreadsheet and some data analytics so here's the current state of my main chart for this blog:

It's not always the case but posts that get more engagement via reblogs, likes and comments also get more voters (Although there is absolutely a cyclical effect at play). I'm personally excited everytime anyone engages with the polls. I do tend to think the ones that get more votes are the kinds y'all would like to see more of so I try to create more in the same spirit.

Anyway, if you made it to the end of my rambling, thanks again for hanging out and I hope you have a great day! 💜

#bangtan sonyeondan #bts #polls #tumblr anniversary

[starbuck]

I momentarily considered making a “character parallels chart” for Black Sails to attempt to summarize my thoughts but then I realized that it’d look like a very fucked up shipping chart so I probably should... Not Do That.

Gotta say tho, there’s smth really funny to me about the idea of a chart that looks like a shipping chart but it’s just me drawing increasingly insane parallels between random characters. 

#this theoretical chart would probably have different colored lines depending on if it was smth Mimetic or just a normal parallel #bc there's def both in the show and it is an Important Distinction #some characters are paralleled by the narrative whereas others are actively doubling each other but it all leads to the #same 'oops! everyone is everyone' conclusion #but honestly - i don't think this kind of chart would cut it - as fun as it sounds #like. some parallels are super minor and unimportant but still There whereas others i could write essays on probably #i have Much To Say #i'm thinkin about this one thing and like... Boy..... #i'm sorry i'm being so vague about all this but like #i need to say this One Time and i need to get it Right #and i'm considering new thematic elements to the whole thing now and i am Thinking.... #i should honestly just rewatch the whole show with all of this in mind and then report back lol #yeah ya know what - i'm gonna do that #rewatch starts like. tomorrow ig lol #better get my Thots in order!

[thebeeduo]

Ranboo: Do you want me to just reading random- Do you want me to just- I'm gonna just start texting you

Tubbo: Yeah, just start texting me random input on the space

Ranboo: *texts Tubbo*

Tubbo: "Microwave explode"? Yo, thank you. "This is awesome"? Ok, stop texting me now. You didn't even respond to my message I sent you this morning

Ranboo: That's 'cause I was asleep!

Tubbo: Yeah, but like.. *sigh* Maybe I should just go live on instagram

Ranboo: Eughhh!

Tubbo: What? Is that cringe?

Ranboo: Yes

Tubbo: Maybe I should just go live on TikTok

Ranboo: Ahhh! Ahhh!

Tubbo: Is that cringier? Is that- *laughs*

Ranboo: *laughs* You go "Is that cringe" to Instagram and your next one is TikTok

Tubbo: *laughs*

Ranboo: I can make fun of it 'cause that's where I was born

Tubbo: Pffft!

Ranboo: I was born there/on TikTok [?]

Tubbo: Do you ever look at someone and wonder what's going inside their head?

Ranboo: I was- I was born on TikTok [?]

Tubbo: *starts playing the piano* You gotta remember your roots

Tubbo: I want my grand piano back, electric piano is cringe

Ranboo: *coughs* [unintelligible]

Tubbo: He just- He just decides "Oh I'm going to spit my germs around the room"

Ranboo: Yep!

Tubbo: *giggles* Wow, wow. You're a bad- I suppose you're anti-vax as well while we're at it

Ranboo: I am literally- I am literally vaccinated

Tubbo: I'm not allowed to be vaccinated, leave me alone!

Ranboo: That's just a major L for you then

Tubbo: Ahhhh

Ranboo: You're/Keep on getting coughed on!

Tubbo: *starts to play the piano intensely*

Ranboo: That's what happens when you're not vaccinated, people will come up to you and cough

Tubbo: That is a terrible sentence. I despise everything about that sentence

Ranboo: *laughs*

Tubbo: *plays The Owl House theme song, then switches to City of Stars*

Ranboo: Ughhh

Tubbo: So..

Ranboo: Oh my gosh!

Tubbo: What?

Ranboo: I just found more food to order

Tubbo: Nooo! Oh my god, if I get one more Amazon box arrive at my door and it's like a 25 large sized bars of Rice Krispies treats or fucking those shitty cheese squares that you haven't even eaten I'm gonna lose it

Ranboo: It's ding dongs

Tubbo: What the fuck is a ding dong?! That sounds like slang for a dick! You're literally eating dick!

Ranboo: *laughs* I am not! Jesus Christ

Tubbo: Why!

Ranboo: That is so far from what it is

Tubbo: What is it with all this fucking BS American food! Twinkies? Oh yeah, let me just-

Ranboo: I didn't get those actually. I don't know where those came from

Tubbo: Where did the Twinkies come from!?

Ranboo: I'm gonna be entirely honest..

Tubbo: Where the fuck did they come from!?

Ranboo: ..I have no idea where those came from. I did not order- That is not what I ordered

Tubbo: Look, you've got your-you've got your Cheez-It's and your Twinkies and your fucking ding dongs. I'm gonna f- I'm gonna blow some shit up

Ranboo: Sorry, I'll make sure to order a plain cheese pizza the next time

Tubbo: Honestly, that would be so much- I'm actually- I've been really healthy. So far I've had a fruit pop for breakfast

Ranboo: That's good. I had.. *silence*

Tubbo: You haven't had breakfast yet

Ranboo: I haven't- I haven't eaten yet

Tubbo: You haven't eaten yet today, and your first meal of the day will be Taco Bell

Ranboo: No, it won't!

Tubbo: Will it not? Oh

Ranboo: Why do you think- Taco Bell doesn't even deliver here!

Tubbo: *sighs* Fair enough

Ranboo: Why would it- Why- Mkay..

Tubbo: American

Ranboo: I know that the algorithm on Amazon works too well because it was [unintelligible]

Tubbo: *starts playing City of Stars again* Oh no

Tubbo: City of staaars.. *laughs* That song- It kind of annoys me, I'll be honest

Ranboo: I'm looking at- I'm looking at the, um.. I'm looking at your- the Tubbo space hashtag and someone just sent this, like, chart of, like, eye colour but it is, like, the most low res thing that I have ever seen

Tubbo: But I don't know- I think my eyes change colour depending on what I'm wearing, I'll be honest. Is that weird? Because everyone on twitter asks me "Ah yes what is your eye colour" and I'm like "Uhh how the fuck am I supposed to know" and then

Ranboo: My eye colour is [?]

Tubbo: Then I went through a bunch of like- I went through a bunch of, uh.. like, old photos of me and they just change colour depending on how sunny it is, what I'm wearing.. like.. Yeah, so, I don't know

Ranboo: *laughs*

Tubbo: What?

Ranboo: Nothing

Tubbo: What?

Ranboo: *loudly typing* It's time to listen

Tubbo: Time to listen to what?

Ranboo: To my music, I'm just gonna listen to my music

Tubbo: You're not gonna listen to me? Listen to me. Stop dancing. Knock that off. Yo, keep your clothes on! Woah, why are you so- *laughs* sorry

Ranboo: Why do you do this!

Tubbo: 'Cause it's funny, 'cause there's no video

Ranboo: Why do you- why do you do this

Tubbo: and.. and there's no video

Ranboo: What did I- What did I ever do? Nothing

Tubbo: *laughs*

Tubbo: *reads something about chip shops?*

Tubbo: Why do people keep sending me, like, soviet bunnies as well? I don't wanna see bunnies from soviet Russia. What's with the soviet Russia bunnies?

Tubbo: Thoughts on him? Bill Cypher? Pretty fun loving lad- Why did you just mention me and write "awesome"?

Ranboo: I didn't- No, it's a response to a tweet

Tubbo: Oh

Tubbo: *sees Michael fan art* "Oink! Hello father" Oh, I see

Ranboo: Just buff Michael

Tubbo: Buff- *laughs* He went to prison from lack of parent supervision and he came out buff, oh no! Oh no! *laughs*

Ranboo: What do you mean lack of parent supervision? I'm gonna go brush my teeth

Tubbo: Oh ok.. Bye

[Video cuts directly to when Ranboo comes back]

Tubbo: Hello. You seem hollow. Your mother is here? Wait, I shouldn't have read that out. You just texted me that so I didn't read it- Ok, well.. She's here guys!

Ranboo: Ahhh! Why!

Tubbo: She's here!

Ranboo: There's a reason-

Tubbo: She's here! *laughs* Just thought I'd let you know! *laughs* She's raring to go! That's awfully exciting..

[Video cuts again to the next beeduo clip]

Tubbo: Guys, I want to- How does one get the- What is the max people that have been in a single space, like, ever?

Ranboo: I own the number two spot for that!

Tubbo: Do you? How many was it?

Ranboo: Yeah. It was during MCC, it was 36k I think

Tubbo: 36- guys, can we get 38k please?

Ranboo: *fakes being angry* Can't you let me have anything!? *laughs*

Tubbo: Wh- Ok, Mr. 100k subs, Jesus

Ranboo: I don't- I got that once

Tubbo: Twice

Ranboo: It was six times actually..

Tubbo: SIX TIMES!? Oh my god, ok..

Ranboo: Alright... Goodbye space people!

Tubbo: Bye!

Ranboo: Goodbye!

Tubbo: Bye! Leave

Ranboo: I'm leaving the U.K. actually

Tubbo: He's not

Ranboo: *laughs* I'm not.. Wouldn't that be just terrible?

Tubbo: You just said bye and left..

Ranboo: The whole time everyone thought that I was going in, like, October but then I actually just straight up just leave..

Tubbo: You wanna go home?

Ranboo: ..in the middle of August

Tubbo: You can just leave.. get out!

Ranboo: Ok..

Tubbo: Pffft

Ranboo: Bye!

Tubbo: Bye!

[Video cuts again to the next beeduo clip]

Ranboo: I'm back from the U.S.!

Tubbo: Oh, what did you forget?

Ranboo: My- my beloved locket

Tubbo: *mocks American Accent* and the AirPods *laughs*

Ranboo: Yes

Tubbo: Have you told them what you've called your AirPods? The name of them?

Ranboo: Oh yeah, no, it's because basically, right, if you put a slash and then an asterisk at the end of a word it will bleep it out, so, right, me of course being young I thought that was the funniest thing to have that. So whenever Siri said my name she would just go like "You [beep]" so I thought that was funny. So it's like beeping noise, yeah

Tubbo: Oh, I see. So is that why mine do that as well?

Ranboo: I guess so, yeah

Tubbo: Yeah

Ranboo: Yeah.. yeah..

Tubbo: I see.. So..

Ranboo: I'm gonna go now

Tubbo: Bye, again!

Ranboo: Bye! Back to the U.S. I go!

Tubbo: There's no "E" in Tubbo.. Just throwing it out there..

#beeduo #bee duo meetup #meetup #meet up #beeduo meetup #ranboo #tubbo #tubso #ranboosaysstuff #ranboo mcyt #ranboolive #tubbo underscore #tubbo mcyt #tubbo stream #ranboo and tubbo #uk #uk trip #ranboo uk #ranboo tubbo uk #uk meetup #mcyt #dsmp #dream smp #minecraft smp #tubbolive #bee duo #ranboo my beloved #tubbo my beloved #ranboo stream #beeduo my beloved

[quaranmine]

we, for one, would love to hear your thoughts on jimmy

OKAY! essay time >:)

I'm not really sure where to start with this, but I guess I'll start with my observations about him. Note that most of this will pertain directly to Evo and 3rd Life/Last Life. I've seen his Empires pov but I separate Empires!Jimmy and Evo/3L/LL!Jimmy as characters due to the different backstories in Empires. I'm...im gonna put a cut here because this gets. so long

Jimmy's just...nice. He's a friendly person. He's good natured and kind and a bit goofy. Somehow he manages to pretty quickly endear himself to people, even when they're making fun of him. He likes being in the middle of things and making people laugh--even if it's at him. While I don't think he necessarily always intends to be the butt of people's jokes, I think he is willing to be sometimes, which is honestly a really strong thing for someone. He's a very fun person, and has a big mischievous streak and a tendency to prank people, but his pranks are normally pretty harmless and non-destructive. That ties into something I'm going to talk about further on--Jimmy does not want to hurt people.

He's also not very assertive, and tends to get walked over in situations. Jimmy is normally not on top. Nobody views him as a threat, but they're kind of right because he normally isn't a threat anyway. He's a bit too trusting of people, and wants to see the good in them, to the point where it can turn back and hurt him.

He can be hesitant on taking action, which sometimes leads to him being stuck in a bad situation with no time left to leave, at which point he normally tries to surrender instead of fight. Vice versa, he also frequently obliviously walks straight into situations without thinking them through, when if he'd studied the situation longer he might have seen the danger. It's almost a little baffling. He doesn't really have a good ability to gauge situations--Martyn, however, is very good at this.

I think he's pretty strongly motivated to protect his friends/people he loves. Just like Martyn. He cares a lot about them, and wants to keep them safe. But Jimmy struggles with his ability to do this. He's not particularly powerful or a good fighter. He also doesn't want to hurt anyone. AFAIK, the only kill he's ever gotten in either 3rd Life or Last Life was his Boogeyman kill on Lizzie, and even that was an indirect trap kill. He's just not a fighter. Which is a problem when you need to fight to protect people, or to win the game. He also strikes me as someone who needs to be around people, and doesn't do well with loneliness (which is...honestly backed up by his post-dragon fight Evo lore.)

Getting more into headcanon territory instead of characterization/observations, but I like Listener!Jimmy a lot. cc!Martyn said in his lore vod that the Listeners chose Jimmy as their "confidant" and someone who could carry out action on their behalf. Which indeed was true, because they literally took Jimmy, sent him to the future and dropped him alone in old spawn to carry out a mission for them. I wish he'd expanded more on the Evo Listener lore and how he and Jimmy were connected to it in his vod, but we got so much more than I'd ever dreamed of.

For my fanfic (although I normally carry across headcanons to all my writing) I've spent a lot of time setting up up Jimmy and Grian as...foils, perhaps? I could probably draw a chart comparing and contrasting them and their subsequent powers as Listener/Watcher and their backstories. cc!Martyn implies that the Listeners are a sect that broke off from the Watchers, but in my headcanon if that happened it was long enough ago for them to develop different appearances and powers. However, I still believe them to be counterparts and they share some commonality.

Anyway, one of the major contrasts between Jimmy and Grian is how they came to join the Listeners/Watchers. It's very common fanon, but I'm fond of the Watchers having kidnapped Grian (and, I may be pedantic, but the wording they used in the post-dragon fight end screen was specifically that he was "taken," and Martyn described it using the same word on his lore explaining stream. to me, that word carries "not willingly" connotations, so I chose to interpret it this way.) Jimmy, however...I think Jimmy joined willingly. Remember how I said he wants to protect his friends? That includes from the Watchers. Jimmy says in Evo that he thinks they're evil. He seems scared of them, and very aware of their ability to punish the players. He's even a bit paranoid, honestly--there's a whole thing towards the end of the series where he's convinced that every cow on the server is a vessel for the Watchers to be spying on them. Which...doesn't seem like the behavior of someone who isn't afraid.

Anyway, the Listeners are against the Watchers. Based on their canon actions on Evo, they seek to undermine the Watchers and protect the players. The derision that the Watchers have for the Listeners is also apparent in Martyn's LLSMP finale lore. Additionally, in his lore vod, Martyn says that Listeners were trying (and were successful) to get the players away from the Watchers and that the server basically fled with the Listeners. So basically, I think the Watchers offered Jimmy--who is not powerful and not a fighter and is always walked over but wants to keep people safe--an opportunity to finally have a little power and do something about the Watchers. And he accepted.

This is also maybe the point to say that Martyn confirmed that there's a dark-light theme between the Watchers and Listeners, with the Watchers representing the shadows and the Listeners the light. Personally, though, I prefer to view them as more neutral-evil and neutral-good. I definitely think the Watchers are more malicious (which...is canon) and that the Listeners do more good. But I also think they're both these mysterious supernatural beings that are probably extremely disconnected from humans, and operate on a different moral code. The Watchers think of Martyn as having a feeble mind, and clearly feel above the players. The Listeners don't seem to have much lore about this, but they are also quite mysterious and communicate with the players (via books and mazes/underground rooms and things) in a similar way to the Watchers. Essentially, I think it adds a good depth to Jimmy if perhaps the Listeners aren't 100% good in the traditional sense--he made the choice to join them, in exchange for more power, and that means he has to live with/be complicit in whatever else happens.

Also, I view the Listeners as...less strict than the Watchers? I also like the headcanon that Grian ran away from the Watchers (although Martyn contradicts this in his lore vod, but I don't have to listen to him always so). I feel like he was expected to stay with them, and didn't come to Hermitcraft until he was already free of them (which means in this headcanon, the Watchers would have come back for him before 3rd Life. do with this as you will.)

Jimmy, on the other hand, I feel like has the privilege of being the Listeners' field agent, so to speak. He's free to join other servers and be with his friends, as long as he reports to them as necessary and is available to carry out whatever they need. After all--both Grian and Jimmy were technically taken after the dragon fight on Evo, but only one of them actually came back and could see his friends again. Also, I feel like Martyn absolutely knows Jimmy is a Listener (Martyn was the other person the Listeners were planning on giving a mission too, although he never sees them.) cc!Martyn said in his lore vod that c!Martyn wasn't intended to be a Listener, just one of the ones who fled with them. I like to think he's just human and is like "well my best friend is a god now so I guess I'll help him" lol. However, the Listeners are pretty private and frequently tell their chosen ones to not tell anyone else about their missions, so I feel like it maaaaybe isn't common knowledge to other people. (Unlike Grian, where the entire server of Evo was told that he had joined the Watchers.)

Anyway, I think I'm going to end this here, but tbh I uh. I actually have more. I didn't even get to my headcanons on Watcher powers/Listener powers. I also talked about Evo more than 3L/LL here, but that's because I don't really want to give away anything about my fanfic plans. I also haven't spent nearly as much time yet analyzing all this lore into the final, finished version of LLSMP compared to the amount of time I've spent coming up with headcanons for my canon-divergent AU haha. thank u for asking me about this <333333 i have so much brainrot <3

#quara asks #evo smp #last life smp #jimmy solidarity #solidarity gaming #quara analysis #I. MAY HAVE LOST MY MIND A BIT OVER JIMMY #llsmp #listener jimmy

[blanknamed]

happy happy new years to everyone :))

just wanna say i really had an amazing year despite the rough start and end of 2021. i hope everyone stays safe and healthy!

here's some moots i'm extremely grateful for and i hope the sentiments similar under the cut

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my discount sbi moots aka @redhoodsoot @thatplanetmarz @genesisrose74 and @sharkie-pog !

i like to see them as my very first friends and my tumblr family :)) i'm so glad to have met them and have them deal with my nonsense without any sign of (serious) judgement.

they all also write some pretty banger fics if i'll be honest and are the main reasons why i decided to come out of my shell and write. i also love the little banter i have going on for each and every one of them, albeit most of it being siblings-esque banter.

they really helped me grow in terms of confidence in my writing and confidence in myself outside of the computer! they helped me learn that caring for yourself is not at all selfish and people are kind (and not weird old men) no matter where you are or what your life is like, you just need to let yourself learn who's good enough for you :))

next up is @hufflepuff-writings

kait was probably the next person i decided to reach out to on a risk of not knowing if she'll ever respond. they're a ray of sunshine i love talking to when i manage to catch her on the same time i'm on tumblr as well. i was so honored to be tagged into her event and just being in the same prescence as them in general so i hope to experience more in the near future!

the one and only @mcytmushroom

met shroom by chance and honest to god we practically message each other on a day to day basis now, usually on discords, most times on snap. i was really happy to make them comfortable enough to let us get as close to each other as possible and i really, really hope we stay that way because, honestly, i don't know what my life is like with this snarky little shit.

and then here we have @inniterhq

edgy teenager. that's all i can say. also, i remember seeing sapnap's feet on my feed because of art's little... anons. very horrifying, but a core memory i can't shake when i go on tumblr so this is a thank you but also fuck you /j for putting that there. i hope getting hammy cheek'd was good payback for the unsolicited feet pics.

along with edgy teenger is other edgy teenager @mitzimania

just wanna point out to everyone that i turn 21 next month and not some anceint age mitzi tells y'all. like art, i saw mitzi through my search feed and thought vir writing was really good. ngl, i was lowkey shy to even say anything to mitzi for a while before hiking up my big boy pants and actually talk to vir before i realized mitzi is a little edgy shit lord like art 😐

astrology bestie @earthtooz

the minute crystals were mentioned i just knew earth and i would be tight. also said "that makes sm sense" when i said i mainly had aquarius in my placements and that kinda made me laugh. i hope she enjoys my crystal updates even though they're lowkey annoying WUXHWH if you want your charts read at some point, please go to earth if she has time. also one of her fics made me cry so

and to my favorite steamer @cherios

like most of my mutuals, i stumbled into cher's streaming by chance and thought it was funny to make stupid jokes in chat. i haven't gone into streams in a while due to some family related blockades (i'm sorry cher 😐💔💔), BUT cher has some awesome stories and an even more awesome personality so please follow and enjoy the posts she makes!

also, my favorite streamer @mikeyinnit

very patient. lovely moot. please love mikey and his writing i think they deserve sm attention. they are also very fun to watch in terms of streaming and is working very hard with making connections! love love love mikey please love them as much as me :))

next up is @strawberrymilkgeorge

finally @sunniewrites

fizzy usually gets bullied by me and shroom ngl (esp with that one sven comment WUDHEH im sorry if that's too much LMAO) BUT fizzy is amazing, funny, and overall the sweetest person i met so i love having met them and i hope to talk to her more since everyone lowkey disappeared near the middle of the school year starting, including me. i promise i'll be more active on your server, fizzy ;-; i'm just a little awkward WHSHAH

@basilly , another edgy teenager

one if the contributors on the "arielle is old" joke but i couldn't have it any other way. just like mitzi, i was scared to approach basil until i realized that all of them remind me of littile chihuahuas harassing me 😌 /j we haven't talked much lately but i hope once basil sees this they have an amazing year!

a ray of sunshine, pun intended. hurt sunnie's feelings and you're seeing the end of my bully stick (a promise, not a threat). very happy of have met them and gracing my feed constantly!

some more people i'd like to thank: my anons! don't think i haven't forgotten you guys i miss y'all 😩 playlist anon is the most active (and is also a beta reader for one of my fics so very grateful for my ading for that) BUT i love every single one of y'all for asking to be my anon and i hope to hear from you guys more :))

i'm also very grateful for my followers! we're at around 700+ right now and that's honestly amazing! i'm so happy my writing makes you guys happy enough to follow me and reblog my post you guys are the best ♥️♥️

hope you guys have a happy new year and hopefully we interact more! i'm sorry if i dropped off the face of the earth sometimes; college is a stressful part of my life but is something i find necessary to help me meet my end goals in life. love y'all!

12/31/2021 [10:01PM EST]

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#happy new year #2022 ♥️

[little-smartass]

THE VAMPIRE LESTAT COVER ALBUM - the legendary Vampire Lestat is back and bigger and badder than ever, this time bringing a whole album of song covers ranging from classic bangers to newer fresh takes on chart hits! get your copy now, complete with a transcript of the artist's commentary on each song!

(songs I think Lestat would cover and release as an album in an attempt to re-kickstart his career and/or make some sort of dramatic statement to Louis. tracklist and "artist commentary" under the cut)

Survival - Muse

“And I’ll reveal my strength, to the whole human race, yes I am prepared, to stay alive, and I won’t forgive, and vengeance is mine, and I won’t give in, because I choose to thrive! Yeah I’m gonna win!”

Oh, I wish this song had been around back on that opening night at the Cow Palace - how apt that would have been! What a fucking anthem! They would have been rioting all night. I mean, they already were, but, like, because of the music. Not because vampires were being immolated in the middle of the crowd. Different kind of riot.

The Bitch Is Back - Elton John

“I’m a bitch, I’m a bitch, oh the bitch is back, stone cold sober as a matter of fact, I can bitch, I can bitch, ‘cause I’m better than you, it’s the way that I move, the things that I do!”

One day I want to have this play as I walk into Night Island. I’ll time it perfectly so that I throw off my coat - my denim jacket, or- oh, no, a fur! Maximum drama! - just as the chorus starts. Armand will know that I’m coming of course, but I think that’ll just make it even better. And I have good memories to this song... [muffled question] Sorry, gentlemen don’t kiss and tell, bébé. [laughter]

Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic

"Oh my, feels just like I don’t try, look so good I might die, all I know is everybody loves me, head down, swaying to my own sound, flashes in my face now, all I know is everybody loves me”

Look, do I even need to explain this one? Didn’t think so.

Bad Reputation - Joan Jett

"I don't give a damn ‘bout my reputation, I've never been afraid of any deviation, and I don't really care if you think I'm strange, I ain't gonna change - and I'm never gonna care bout my bad reputation"

This one's fairly self-explanatory again. It could have been my personal anthem when I was mortal quite honestly. And it's an awful lot of fun to jump about and headbang to, don't you think? That's a new thing I've found out about, headbanging. People have been hopping about to music looking like fools for centuries but now there's a name for it. Fantastic.

bad guy - Billie Eilish

"I’m that bad type, make your mama sad time, make your girlfriend mad type, might seduce your dad time… I’m the bad guy. Duh.”

Creepy? Check. Sexy? Check. Tongue-in-cheek? Check check. This song was great and a lot of fun to cover.

Lover to Lover - Florence + the Machine

“I believe there’s no salvation for me now, no space among the clouds, and I feel I’m heading down, but that’s alright, that’s alright, that’s alright”

I don’t know, this one just felt very relevant. Also the piano was great to do. You might have noticed that I’ve picked a lot of songs with piano, and that’s because I bullied the studio into getting me a goooooorgeous grand piano for the recording space and I wanted to use it as much as possible!

Feeling Good - Muse

“Stars when you shine, you know how I feel, scent of the pine, you know how I feel, oh freedom is mine, and I know how I feel”

I just really like this song - I’ve done a cover of an excellent cover! Can- can you put emojis in this? Do people still use emojis? Well imagine I’ve put the shrug one. Wait, isn’t there- Daniel, Daniel, come here, isn’t there a shrug emoji made up of keyboard- [muffled words] yes! The shrug one! Yes, put that in the transcription. [ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ] I just like this song.

The Man - The Killers

“I got gas in the tank, I got money in the bank, I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man, I got skin in the game, I got a household name, I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man”

I feel like this one speaks for itself too. Can you put that shrug emoji thing in here again? [ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ] Yes!

J'ai Pas Envie - MIKA

J'ai pas envie, de faire comme si, comme les maris, qui disent oui, j'ai pas envie, j'ai pas envie, j'ai pas envie d'te faire plaisir, j'ai pas envie, j'ai pas envie, si tu m'aimes viens me le dire"

Look, I'm not going to translate the whole song for you, because it has all this clever wordplay you just totally lose in english… but the gist of it is that these two lovers are… at odds a lot. It's… it's maybe a little spiteful [laughter] but in a fun way! It's a fun song! Louis won't even be mad about it, it's MIKA.

Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy - Queen

"When I'm not with you, think of you always (I miss those long hot summer nights), when I'm not with you, think of me always, always"

[Long pause] God, I miss Freddie.

Let 'Em Talk - Kesha

Ah, full disclosure - I put this song in purely because of the expression Louis made when I played it in the car and it got to the line “can suck my dick” and she did that popping noise… it was incredible, and I just knew I had to cover it so I could see his expression when I said that. I can’t wait to play it to him. [laughter]

So What - P!nk

"So so what, I'm still a rockstar, I got my rock moves, and I don't need you, and guess what? I'm having more fun, and now that we're done, I'm gonna show you tonight, I'm alright, I'm just fine, (and you're a tool, so)"

I'm actually a big fan of nineties and noughties female stars - all that grrrrrrrl power, it's great fun, you know? I'd say this one is fairly self-explanatory, because I am still a rockstar! This is my new album! Fuck you EMP and your sniffy little article calling me "washed up"!

Little Lion Man - Mumford & Sons

"But it was not your fault but mine, and it was your heart on the line, I really fucked it up this time, didn't I my dear?"

This one could be self-deprecating, but it's also very vindictively angry at the same time, and that's a combination I definitely get. Like, oh, it's my fault, isn't it? It's my fucking fault again, what a surprise. Perhaps "learn from your mother or you'll spend your days biting your own neck" is a little on the nose… [muffled words] you've read my books, right? [muffled words] Good, good.

Missy - The Airbourne Toxic Event

"But I swear there's still some good in me, I think if you'd stuck around you'd see, all the botched attempts at integrity I once had"

Oh, I was feeling philosophical when I picked this one. No, philosophical isn't the right word… melancholy? Do people still use that word? "I swear I swear I swear I'll never get sad" is both furiously defiant and yet so self-defeatingly ironic. [Exasperated noise] Enough of that. Next!

Please Don't Leave Me - P!nk

"I don't know if I can yell any louder, how many times have I kicked you out of here, or said something insulting? I can be so mean when I wanna be, I am capable of nearly anything, when my heart is broken… (please, please don't leave me)"

Oh, we’re… we’re getting to this section now. [clearing throat] Well, I have to make up for that sucking dick line, don’t I? Get a bit vulnerable. Oh God, why did I decide to do this bit? [muffled words] [bad chicago accent] But why buy the cow? Because you love him, you really do. [sigh, laughter]

Next To Me - Imagine Dragons

"Oh, I always let you down, shattered on the ground, still I find you there, next to me, and oh, the stupid things I do, I'm far from good it's true, still I find you, next to me"

Why did I- I don’t remember putting so many of these ones in.

Run To You - Pentatonix

"I've been settling scores, I've been fighting so long, but I've lost your war, and our kingdom is gone... how shall I win back your heart which was mine? I have broken bones and tattered clothes, I've run out of time"

[Sigh] [clears throat] Yeah. I think we can move onto the next one.

Love of My Life - Queen

“Love of my life, don't leave me, you've stolen my love, you now desert me, love of my life, can't you see? Bring it back, bring it back, don't take it away from me, because you don't know, what it means to me”

I play this one sometimes on my baby grand when we've had a fight, and it's impossible for him to stay angry. He's a sucker for this sort of… formality in romance. God, I wish I'd realised that earlier. If I'd written him a letter in fancy copperplate script with scented paper and enclosed rose petals politely requesting him to bend me over his desk back in the day, it might not have taken two centuries of mutual blue balls for us to figure our shit out. Ah well, live and learn… as it were. [muffled words] Look, I did a whole bunch of vulnerable songs! Now I get to make sex jokes! [laughter] oh fuck off.

#Lestat de lioncourt #loustat #vampire chronicles #dead disasters #my mixes

[bluerose5]

The Ghost of Paradise (Exile AU)

Chapter 3: Flying High

Rating: M

Word Count: 3,082

Tags: Mass Effect: Andromeda, Scott Ryder, Reyes Vidal, Reyder, Pre-Relationship, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Exile, Flirting, Secrets, Complicated Relationships, Eventual Romance, Rivalry, Engineer/Mechanic Scott Ryder, Jealousy

[Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Current Chapter (ao3)]

After Scott had finished up with the repairs and modifications, Reyes stopped him before he could head back to Port.

He gently took Scott’s arm in hand, squeezing lightly.

Scott met his eyes, but Reyes struggled for words. It was funny in an endearing sort of way to watch how he kept opening and closing his mouth, gaping like a fish out of water.

As much as he tried, words escaped him.

“What is it?” Scott asked, worried about whatever had managed to leave him speechless.

Reyes bit the inside of his cheek, desperately wracking his brain for something to keep him there. To keep Scott by his side, even if only for a little while longer.

His mouth moved before his brain could properly filter what was said.

“I don't want you to go yet.”

It wasn’t like Reyes to be so open and honest. Both Scott and himself appeared shocked by the stray comment. Reyes cleared his throat and averted his gaze, releasing Scott’s arm in order to rub at the back of his neck in embarrassment.

“I mean—”

Scott cut him off. “What would you like to do?”

Reyes blinked owlishly at that. He honestly hadn’t thought that far ahead, but the pressure was on to find something to keep them busy.

Looking around, he searched.

One glance at his shuttle, and he had an idea.

“I might have a little something in mind,” Reyes said.

Taking Scott’s bag from him, Reyes hitched it up over his shoulder and tossed his free arm around Scott. Feeling the warmth settle into his side was dizzying in the best way possible. The proximity alone left his head spinning ever so slightly.

Leaning in even closer, Reyes whispered conspiratorially into Scott's ear.

“Want to go for a ride?”

“Depends on what kind of ride we’re talking about here,” Scott deadpanned.

Reyes snickered.

“While I wouldn’t mind that kind of ride, especially from you, I was thinking more along the lines of taking you up in the sky. Let you see the sights. You always fix up the shuttle. It’s been a while since you’ve gotten to appreciate the fruits of your labor.”

“Heh.” Scott elbowed him in the side with a teasing grin. “What? Is this the part where you take me on a magic carpet ride?”

“Only so long as you promise not to burst into song while we’re up there,” Reyes joked.

“Damn it.” As Reyes helped him into the shuttle, Scott pouted. “Take the fun out of everything, why don’t you?”

“I’ll make it up to you,” Reyes chuckled. Setting Scott’s things aside into a secure compartment, he closed the shuttle doors behind him before making his way into the cockpit. “I promise.”

Once they were seated, Reyes strapped in and put his headset on. With a tap to its side, an orange, holographic visor popped up in front of his eyes, displaying diagnostic and informational data. He passed the matching set to Scott, who put it on and instantly started to scroll through the different color settings for the visor.

With a roll of his eyes, Reyes shook his head at him. He started to power up systems to chart their course, running through his mental checklist like it was second nature. Thrusters, check. Fuel, check. Navigation, check.

By the time he was done, everything seemed to be in order.

More importantly, Scott had finally settled on a color for the visor, sporting a bright blue that made the color of his eyes all the more apparent.

When Scott noticed Reyes looking his way, he playfully lifted his hand up to his mouth. He pretended to have one of those old-timey radios in hand, making a staticky noise before speaking.

“Anubis 1, this is Rogue 2, requesting permission for takeoff.”

Scott probably sounded terrible and cliché, but at least it got Reyes to crack a smile.

Even better, Reyes entertained him for the moment, playing along for the hell of it.

Lifting his hand up, Reyes replied, “Rogue 2, you are clear for takeoff.”

With that, Reyes adjusted some settings, and the shuttle’s VI announced that night vision mode was enabled. At Scott’s curious glance, Reyes explained.

“It will be better to keep our lights off,” he said. Night was falling, and getting taken down in the badlands didn’t exactly sound like Reyes’s idea of a good time, especially in the dark when visibility was limited. “Don’t want to give the scavengers an open invitation to try and attack us.”

“Why not?” Scott countered. “It would be a hell of a fight.”

“Excuse me if I don’t feel like dying a slow, painful death and losing my shuttle to Kadara’s finest all in one night,” Reyes muttered.

“O ye of little faith,” Scott said, watching closely as they started to ascend.

“Oh, I have perfect faith in your abilities.” Reyes started to pull back a little, leveling out after they took off, a silent shadow darting across the night sky. “One hundred percent, but odds are that we’d be outnumbered out here if we were captured.”

“That only makes it more thrilling, right?”

“It would be more of a mood killer, in my opinion.”

“Funny.” Scott leaned forward, watching the landscape drift by on the edge of his seat. “I didn’t realize there was a ‘mood’ to be killed.”

Of course, it was easy to say that, but Scott had to admit that even he was impressed by the view. While plenty of Kadara’s wonders were visible throughout the day, equally as many could be admired throughout the night.

Scott watched in awe as they soared over lakes and pools of water. Bioluminescent algae lit up in an array of blues and greens, an aurora of color able to survive the sulfuric conditions.

The farther they ventured from port, the more diverse life appeared to be, however sparingly.

Scott watched as tall, six-legged creatures traveled in packs, their snouts elongated like that of an anteater. They grazed upon the land, glancing up as the shuttle passed overhead. Some of the young sprinted forward in graceful, bounding leaps. They chased after the shuttle until they couldn’t keep up any longer, soon returning from where they came.

A smile played upon Scott’s lips.

That feeling of discovery…

Most days, it was all too easy to forget what it felt like. When survival required most of their attention, their minds typically had little room to focus on much else.

But, wasn’t that why they were there in the first place? To discover, to explore. To find the edge of the map and see what lies beyond it.

They didn’t come to Andromeda, only to be discarded by the Nexus.

They were —all of them— capable of so much more.

If only the others could see it that way.

As they banked right around a mountain, their flight pattern disturbed a cavern nearby. It was carved high up into the rock, just out of reach of any natural predators.

Out of the cave emerged a swarm of serpentine creatures, all glowing eyes and sharp fangs. Violet light emanated from their bodies. Arcs of electricity stretched out along the length of them.

And they soared.

They had no wings in sight, yet they made flying seem effortless. They swam through the air, riding the currents like one would a wave. Occasionally, they would flatten out their bodies to glide, only to curl their forms through delicate spirals once again.

It was their dance, familiar to them. Sacred and seamless. Some would fly alone, yet others would join in groups, weaving together with one another in perfect harmony. Their light gained intensity when unified, putting on a dazzling display for all to see.

“Incredible,” Scott breathed.

The serpents released light echoes of noise, high-pitched in nature. They swirled around the shuttle yet kept their distance, making no hostile moves while they crafted their song.

The shuttle’s feeds received some occasional interference from the bioelectricity, but other than that? They were harmless.

Reyes pried his eyes away from their reptilian friends long enough to glance over at Scott.

That was a big mistake.

He hadn’t been prepared for how—how beautiful he would look. How the colors danced across his skin, casting light upon his face.

How his carefree smile made the promise of a whole new galaxy pale in comparison.

The instant Scott felt the weight of his gaze, he turned towards Reyes with unbridled excitement, unable to contain his fascination with the life around them.

However, the last thing Scott expected was to be on the receiving end of such intense scrutiny.

It left him speechless, fumbling.

Everything between them shifted in that moment, but Scott ignored it.

He had to.

Clearing his throat, he chuckled nervously.

“Better keep your eyes straight ahead, Rey,” Scott teased. Despite how his voice cracked on the nickname, it felt safe to fall back into their usual banter. “If we crash, I know whose ass to kick in the afterlife.”

Reyes blinked owlishly at that, berating himself as he was dragged out of his stupor.

“Right,” he muttered, embarrassed by— well, by whatever the hell that was. He tried to recover as smoothly as possible. After all, it was better to hold onto what shreds of dignity he had remaining. “They’re cute.”

“Hmm?”

“The dragons,” Reyes clarified, pointedly looking out at them. “They’re cute.”

“That’s an understatement,” Scott said, “but dragons, huh? I like that. It suits them.”

With a near-blinding burst of lights and sparks, the dragons finished their dance and broke away from the shuttle’s path. They took off into the night. Some soared towards the direction of their home while others ventured out in search for more.

The shuttle received a brief flash of interference after that grand finale, but Scott and Reyes were quick to clear up the extra noise.

For a while, they continued to fly in silence, left to their own thoughts.

Eventually, Reyes set down at a secluded spot near the peak of a mountain. Once the engine was cut, they took off their headsets and stepped out onto stable ground.

Scott winced as his ears popped, acclimatizing to the pressure change at the higher altitude. He tried swallowing past it, which helped offer some relief.

He didn’t stay focused on it for too long, staring out into distance.

“Whoa.” Using his omni-tool to light the way, Scott approached the edge with Reyes hot on his heels. Together, they looked out over the edge of their perch. “I have to say, Reyes, you sure do know how to impress.”

Reyes tossed him a self-satisfied grin.

“You haven’t even seen the best part yet.”

Reyes pointed, so Scott followed his lead. As busy as he was with admiring the landscape, it was hard to believe that he forgot to look up at the skies.

They didn’t disappoint.

Scott looked out at the expansive beyond. Stars glittered and winked at them from above. He could recognize a few constellations that Nola told him about, made all the more apparent without the lights coming from the port.

It was breathtaking, no doubt about it, but something inside of Scott’s chest tightened.

He should be out there.

That’s all he could think as he stared off at far and distant stars.

He was never meant to be confined to one planet. If nothing else, he was certain of that. As much as he enjoyed the impact that he had on people’s lives, that wasn’t the ‘dream’ that he signed on for.

“Do you ever want more?” Scott whispered.

Reyes raised an eyebrow at him, but Scott continued.

He wanted reassurance that he wasn’t crazy.

“Don’t get me wrong. Kadara is great in its own right, but—” Scott growled under his breath in frustration. “But there has to be more! For so long, I sat staring at that damned relay in the Milky Way, thinking that one day my hard work would finally pay off. I had a front row seat to people coming and going, chasing after their own fortune and glory. After word got out about Dad’s research…”

He trailed off. The words alone drained him of all energy. His shoulders drooped, and his arms wrapped tightly around himself to keep him from flying apart.

Scott shook his head in an attempt to clear it, but it didn’t do much good.

“I don’t want to be their hero of the hour,” Scott confessed. “Hell, I don’t even want the glory.” Although, a little fame and fortune never hurt anyone, right? It simply wasn’t a priority for him. God, he felt so pathetic. “All I ever wanted —all I really want is the chance to prove myself.” That’s all. “To prove that I am more than what they say, but Tann, Sloane, Alec…” The list could go on and on. “They didn’t even give me the chance.”

“I get that,” Reyes sighed, “but is that all you want? Just the chance?”

“Why?” Scott snorted. “Planning on offering me a job?”

“Who? Me?” Reyes asked, way too innocent. “No, of course not. You know better than most that I’m more of a free agent.”

“Of course.”

Reyes narrowed his eyes at him challengingly. “Got something to say?”

“Nope,” Scott said, popping the ‘p’ for emphasis.

“Really?” Reyes asked. “Because that didn’t sound very genuine.”

“That’s because it wasn’t.” Reyes wasn’t the only one who could play mind games. Scott closed the distance between them, standing almost chest-to-chest. The glow from his omni-tool pierced through the night, casting shadows in its wake. “Besides, I’m not exactly looking to work for anyone after all the shit Heleus has put us through so far. You know me better than most, right?” Scott smirked bitterly, tossing his words back into his face, bullshit that they were. “I work better on my own, more of a free agent that way.”

Reyes scoffed. “Right.”

“Although, we do make a good team when we work together.” Scott could acknowledge that much at the least.

“So, what? Are you offering a partnership?”

“I’m not offering anything yet, let me make that clear to you.” Despite his steely determination, Scott’s smile turned sad. “I need to sort out this whole Pathfinder mess first, and then we’ll talk business afterwards. I need to be able to assess the entire situation.”

“You and me both.”

“I only worry that your vision isn’t aligning with mine anymore,” Scott admitted. “Reyes, I’m planning on expanding my reach beyond Kadara.”

Whether that plan involved Paradise, he would have to wait and see what the future had in store for them. He had given them a steady enough foundation, and that’s all that mattered. With or without his help, they would survive. He had faith in that.

Reyes’s expression gentled yet remained slightly distant, always holding something back.

He reached out, but Scott didn’t so much as budge when he took his cheek in hand, thumb upon his bottom lip.

Reyes searched his gaze for a moment. Whatever he found, it certainly didn’t discourage him in the slightest. Scott refused to pull away when he leaned in, thinking the move to be some type of ploy or distraction. For what? He had no idea, but he wasn’t one to back down when presented with a challenge.

Resting his forehead upon Scott’s, Reyes stared deep into those bright blue eyes. Scott’s heart raced, feeling the heat of his breath upon his lips.

“You know, Scott,” Reyes whispered, voice low and husky, “you say that as if I haven’t done so already.”

Releasing him, Reyes spared him a playful wink.

“I’m just waiting on you to catch up.”

That being said, Reyes strolled past Scott, bumping shoulders with him on the way back to the shuttle.

Scott stood there, mouth slightly agape.

Where there was once warmth, Scott shivered as a breeze settled over him. Goosebumps spread across his skin like a wildfire, his hair standing on end.

Ugh, that man could be so damn infuriating.

Following after him, Scott joined him outside the shuttle but stopped him before he could go inside.

“Before we head back,” Scott said, “could you answer a question for me? Honestly.”

Reyes pursed his lips.

“It depends on what you want to know.”

“All I want to know is what you’ve heard about Sara.” Scott shifted uncertainly from foot to foot. While Sara was a strong woman who could handle herself just fine, Scott still worried, both about her and all the other rumors that have been circulating around the port. “What I’ve been hearing out of Kralla’s has been confusing, to say the least.”

The fact alone that she was Pathfinder has been a bitter pill to swallow. Not that Scott doubted her ability to live up to the title, but it hadn’t taken long to put two and two together regarding Alec’s fate.

Complicated as their relationship might be, it wasn’t exactly the best way to find out about his father’s death.

“She’ll be here in a few days,” Scott sighed. “I just want to know if what I’m hearing is true. Are they really making these planets viable?”

Reyes figured that was easy enough to answer.

“From what my contacts have reported, yes.” He nodded. “Those rumors have some credibility to them.”

Scott processed that, thinking about all of the possible implications for their future.

Shit.

Shit, shit, shit…

“Damn it, we need to find out how she does it,” Scott said, gritting his teeth while the gears turned inside his mind, “or we can kiss any chance of having a future free of Nexus influence goodbye.”

“Agreed, but that sounds like the exact type of secret that they would want to keep close to their chests.”

“I know.” Scott grimaced. “I know.”

Reyes sighed. “Well then, no point in losing sleep over it now. Let me work the angles, question some contacts. I’ll comb through what intel I do have and see if there was anything that I missed.”

Scott was shocked that he even offered.

“Thank you.”

Reyes shrugged.

“Don’t mention it. Like you said, we work better together. We build each other up. You might doubt my intentions now, but I could see us going places, Scott.”

“Yeah?”

“Mm-hmm…”

He wanted so badly to believe it.

“I—” He took a deep breath, bracing for whatever came next. “Let’s just go.”

As he climbed into the shuttle, Reyes whispered.

“Right behind you.”

#mass effect #mass effect andromeda #scott ryder #reyes vidal #reyder #mreyder #scott ryder x reyes vidal #exile au #my writing #my fanfic

[by-kilian]

hi again kw! it's ⚔️ anon again!

work today sucked so i'm writing about comfort characters and self-inserts :")

that said, do you have any advice for writing canon characters accurately? i found that my insecurity in my writing is usually about the realism or legitimacy of the actions/dialogue etc. so any pointers would be wonderful !!

take care of yourself, ilysm! 💕

Hey love!

I think I answered this on my old blog but that's obviously long gone now 😂. I do have some advice though and I'll put it under a cut ❤️🥰.

My first piece of advice is to just study the characters when you watch the show (or read the source material if there is one). Pick up on their idiosyncrasies, their mannerisms, their way of speaking, and try to incorporate it into your writing. Even if it's subtle like a cheek scratch when they ask questions they're unsure of, or playing with their fingers when they're nervous--if it's appropriate for your character and even canonically seen, I think it adds to realism.

Same with dialogue. Pick up on their speech patterns as we all have them. Look at the way they say things and *how* they say things, and try your hardest to imitate it. Levi for example never belabors or talks a lot so I don't make him talk a lot. If anyone ever decides to read LDBS in full from front to back, you'll actually see how little Levi talks in comparison to everyone else despite being a main character. And even when he does talk, it's not long sentences and he hardly goes on for a long time or monologues. This is how he is in the manga and the anime so that's what I modeled it after.

My other tip is to read their character bio and pick up on the traits they're told to have. Even if they're just known to be perceptive, think about how you can translate that perception, that hyper awareness into other areas of their life. Would they be hyper aware of their partners? Are they the kind of people who are only hyper aware in some situations but not all? Unless it's stated or shown canonically how they'd be otherwise, the world is really your oyster. I try to use context for how they are overall to try to figure out how they'd be when it's not stated word for word, but it's really up to you.

At the end of the day, characterization is what you make it! Use what's given to you already (character profiles, the shows, the books, etc) as your source material and model but also know you can be flexible and play with it. Who's to say a stoic character isn't super soft behind closed doors even if we've never seen that before? Or who's to say a super confident character in other situations isn't really insecure when it comes to their partner? Insecurity is such a universal emotion unless you're a narcissist, we're all bound to feel it at some point so why can't you make your characters feel it? My point is, you can make it whatever you want, unless it's stated otherwise. Don't worry about it. Play. Have fun.

And honestly even IF it's stated otherwise, fuck it. Human beings are full of contradictions. That's what makes us human! We often say what we don't mean and we're just full of complexities that often contradict what we are like or how we are. The most logical scientific person you know may also check her astrological chart every day. The mean gruff coworker who doesn't greet anyone in the mornings might talk in a baby voice to their kitten. We're all so different at the end of the day, it is (in my opinion) totally possible for us to be complete paradoxes of what we say we are.

Anyway. Use what is already given to you as a template but also don't be afraid to play. You're allowed to do that, I promise. It doesn't have to be perfect and everyone's characterizations will be different, and that's okay! That's the beauty of writing and different life experiences--we all kind of inject our own lives into what we write, and that's what makes it unique, special, and sometimes all the more pleasure to read imo.

I hope this helped, my darling! I'm so sorry work sucked today, but ILY and I hope your day gets better! ❤️

#asks #kw writing questions #⚔️ anon