#but i figured it looked different enough and i dont have all too many followers

[ceasarslegion]

I know i have a lot of teenagers who follow me because i dont baby talk to them regarding things like drugs and alcohol and sex. So i wanted to throw out some advice that still saves my ass every day as an adult that i learned to instill in myself as a teenager:

-Learn how to keep house. I know that every adult is beating job skills into you right now and its overwhelming to say to least, but no matter what you end up doing with your life, you will need to know how to cook and clean and budget and go grocery shopping and do laundry and the dishes and x y z. You will need to know how to work with cleaning products like bleach safely and without creating mustard gas by accident. If you figure that out now, you will be able to take care of yourself for the rest of your life. Those are skills that you WILL need every day in the real world no matter what.

-i want to asterix the budgeting part. I know way too many grown adults who could be doing very well for themselves who are broke as shit and actively getting worse because they cant budget to save their lives. Managing your finances is what will often be the difference between living relatively comfortably and struggling to get by.

-dont get roommates if you can help it. I know you will want to, and it will seem like a fun idea to live with your friends and like nothing would go wrong, but roommates ruin friendships. If you can afford to live on your own when you first head out, do it. Trust me, paying the full rent is worth not having to deal with other peoples bullshit taking up your living space. I learned this the hard way, dont be like me. The only people you should be actively looking to live with at the young adult stage of your life are any permanent partner(s) that might come along the way, and you should rush that either. And taking some proper time to be on your own will do you so much good in the long run in realizing what kind of person you are and what you need in things like work, relationships, life in general, etc.

-you don't need a brand new car, and your first apartment doesnt need to be high end and fancy. All your firsts for those things need to be are functional, safe, and reliable. And you will love them regardless if theyre your first car/apartment. And you dont really NEED a car if youre an urbanite with a reliable enough transit system, either. Thats more of an individual thing if thats your situation. I live in an older apartment building with a stove from a brand that doesnt even exist anymore, but its real spacious for one person, in a nice part of downtown where everythings still right outside my door, and all my utilities are included. I pay 500 dollars less in rent a month for this than my coworker who lives 2 blocks away from me and has half the space i do with none of the utilities included because its all smart tech and luxury suites in that building. You don't need all that, you will not notice the difference when you actually live there.

-no one cares about high school tier drama when you hit your college years, especially if you go to an academically-based school. In my experience at least, the schools the nerds end up at think the d&d club is the coolest one on campus. This will pass, you will be fine. The nerds really do inherit the earth after you graduate, and all those bullies really do peak in high school. The guy who was the worst offender towards me in high school now literally pumps gas for his dads gas station because nobody else would hire him. Which is fine, its honest work, but it IS a tad ironic how things worked out there after so many years of telling me he'd be my boss one day. Yeah sure, howd that work out bud

-please dont get into drugs and alcohol just to be cool. I know every adult has treated you like some porcelain doll to be handled with baby gloves regarding any sort of substance, but if you choose to partake in them, all i ask is that you be informed about the risks, you do it safely, and dont do it for social clout. Its not the substances im most concerned about there, its that when you do them for social approval, you dont know when to stop or how to listen to your body telling you thats enough, which is a straight shot to a potential addiction. Its your choice whether or not to consume drugs and/or alcohol, but its irresponsible to act like theres no real risk involved in them, especially if you have the kind of personality more susceptible to addiction. Do them for yourself, in safe environments, as cleanly as you can get them if possible, and only after you educate yourself about what the risks are and what resources there are in your area for healthcare and counseling if you do develop an addiction.

-be selfish, but dont be a dick. Your young adulthood is when you should be selfish in the sense of prioritizing your own mental health, work ascension/schooling, etc, but you can do all those things without being standoffish or disregarding other people in the process. You should be there for your loved ones if you can, but if you cant, give them the common courtesy of telling them. A simple "hey, id love to help you if i could, but i have too much going on right now to spare anything. But im always here to talk about it if you need it, ily and im wishing you all the best <3" is way better than "i cant help you right now, i have my own problems to deal with."

#some thoughts

[wasyago]

Dear Wasyago,

Strange, I have always thought it was spelled as Wasayago. But recently I've realized, I can't read very well.

I want to send appreciation today, to you.

You've taught me a lot about art. You've taught me a lot how to draw certain things, and you have opened my eyes to new perspective of art, ever since I started following you. Colours are brighter, I experiment more, I can see a specter of visuals that was previously hidden from me. It's like gaining shrimp colors.

Your art feels like an art classroom. There's sun pouring in from the windows, and there's tree leaves in front of them. Every time you come in you see different art projects. Paints add on to the tables, that will never scrub off again. There's dirty cups with paint water, and brushes, in the sink. It's lunch break, and there's people here. Some are just doing their math homework right before class, some are working on their sculpture, some are picking out paints, some are working on their new piece, on a fresh canvas. And it is so alive.

Your art feels so alive. Like the leaves, the people, the stains. It's really nice to see, every single time you post, how lovingly you bring a character into the world (My favorite so far is that one doodle of Modern au Gillion eating noodles, I have it in my favorites gallery).

I would like to see some unfinished, maybe forever to be so, doodles that you weren't especially proud of. We'll love it all.

Respectfully,

Marcus Bloodsmith

oh, thank you so much, this is so sweet qwq

im happy to know that you feel this way about my art, and im glad i could help you with some advice! it feels a bit weird to show unfinished or scrapped art under such a nice message, but yeah why not. and its funny that you mentioned the gillion eating noodles one, because its also one of the pieces that i really didn't like and didn't want to post hdgsh. i dont have that many unfinished drawings left because i delete or redraw most of them, but i have a couple that might be fun to share... and i guess it's gonna be a long post bc i wanna tell a little about each one or at least name them.

there's this art of chip, the first time i properly tried to figure out a way to draw him back when i just started listening. redrew this piece later, kept the sketch on the left, but the right one i changed completely because i didn't like the vibe this one has.

there's this attempt at redesigning caspian after i found out he was a water genasi, plus the first version of that art of caspian, pretzel and gill. this design didn't feel "caspian" enough, it looked too soft and kind where i wanted him to be more layed back and chill and sarcastic and with a bit of an edge. redrew both pieces later. the underwater drawing also has an unfinished background in this version, i added some fishies later so it didn't feel that empty.

some random sketch of gillion to show off how the lightning scars look on his face and neck. i quite like it, but it didn't really fit in the post with three proper drawings and one sketch so i decided to scrap it.

there's this drawing where i tried to figure out how the capital of the undersea looked like. i really didn't know where i was going with it and didn't have a good idea when i started drawing, so its a mess of things with nothing to really focus on. i tried to add a character on it later to breathe some life into it, but it didn't work out since i didn't focus it on the character from the beginning. plus i don't like how the colors turned out, and the entire concept of the environment feels weak and boring to me. i still want to draw more concepts of the undersea and try a couple other ideas, but probably at a later date...

the first version of whatever try it was to design gill's armor. (fun fact, i have more armor designs scheduled for tomorrow). this one i redrew almost immediately, i really didn't like how it turned out and how the legs were cut off and it looked so messy with no real accent point or personality. plus the smaller copy of the drawing in the corner just didn't look good. im not exactly proud of the redrawn version either (that's why i did another one yesterday lol), but im glad i redrew it anyway, it looks a lot better than this one.

the first sketch of that one gillion drawing. i couldn't figure out the colors for it for so long and wanted to drop the idea entirely. but i left it to sit for a couple hours and eventually got the motivation to come back to it and finish it. for most of the illustration pieces i did for jrwi there were multiple versions, where i just didn't like the first one and redrew the whole thing with a different composition and colors. didn't save any of those drawings tho...

this drawing of jay but with green wings and a slightly different color shirt. it was actually the first version of this drawing, and i changed the colors to blue later. wanted to post both of them side by side but then decided against it. that's why this drawing survived and was properly saved and not just deleted.

more recent attempts at designing the chaingel. i like the concept, and the pose in the second sketch is pretty badass, but the execution is just not there. it doesn't feel right, doesn't have the right kind of vibe that this character gives off. so im sure i will try and draw her later when i figure out what's missing and how to show her personality in the way it feels in my head. but these two sketches were never going to see the light of day, so now they're here.

aand this is it, this is everything that wasn't deleted in the past month for one or another reason. i feel like im more chill with deleting and redrawing things, so a lot of initial sketches and concepts never get saved or seen by anyone. im also on mobile so i can attach only ten files lol. not that it matters, the last two were just random figure drawings for warm up, not much to talk about.

#very sorry to the tagging anon but im not tagging this as jrwi. this is just nothing. #yagotalk

[spacexseven]

since you've done dazai x yandere reader, let's see (yandere) childe x yandere reader or diluc x yandere reader? (or cyno/al haitham, since i recall them being your favourites from genshin<3) don't push yourself if you dont wanna do these tho!! i absolutely adore your work :)

youuu are so sweet lol thank you <3 alhaitham's part might not make sense in canon, but i thought it was a pretty fun idea :> (more on that at the end)* if there's more interest for yandere reader x genshin characters, i'll go ahead and work on more characters later <3

as alhaitham held up the earpiece, it occurred to him for a moment that there were better ways for him to be spending his time than studying a now useless akasha terminal. there was nothing in particular that was unique about this one, except the person to who it belonged. for some days now, he had been bothered constantly by your presence. even for someone like him, who was always aware of his surroundings, it was becoming increasingly difficult to catch you. in fact, it appeared that after every time he caught you watching him from the distance, you were only getting better at camouflaging into the crowd and the background.

he was already quite bothered by the fact that he had yet to actually catch you, which left his questions for you unanswered and him constantly on edge, paranoid about whether you were watching him still. while he was mostly sure you harbored no ill intent, at the very least, he was sure you were not stalking him in order to attack him, he couldn't deny the unease that followed him whenever you laid eyes on his figure. however, with the few times he had managed to spot you following him, he had enough information about your physical features to concentrate his search on a handful of people in sumeru.

and since he had caught sight of your earpiece when you turned to disappear after realizing you had been caught in the act, alhaitham decided it was a good place to start his search. he had already gathered information about his list of suspects, but this would surely end it once and for all. he was convinced, that once he found his way into the dreams each suspect's akasha terminal had harvested, he would find irrefutable proof of which of these names were yours, and your intentions with him.

what he didn't expect, when looking at the harvested dreams, was to be staring at himself—frames and frames of him from different angles, mid-speech, in various poses. it was alarming, how the only thing you dreamt about was meeting him, talking to him, holding him...he couldn't wrap his mind around how you seemed to be driven only by the thought of him, your mind constantly revolving around him and your dreams plagued by images of him. it almost felt like an illness, something dark and stubborn, clinging desperately onto your every thought and worming its way into all the corners of your mind. and at the center of this illness was none other than alhaitham himself.

were you stalking him after succumbing to this illness, this obsession that had possessed you? or maybe, were you hoping that he may have an answer to this, or did the sight of him soothe your torment? or maybe you thought that he was the cause of all of this. he had too many questions and no definite answers. no, until he could get his hands on you and extract the needed information right from the source, he would be left distressed. it was rather easy to plan out the rest, now that he was certain of your identity. and now he was the one watching your every move, waiting for a second of vulnerability from between the crowd so that he could isolate and corner you.

*'cos you know alhaitham knows the akasha system better than most people since he's studied it and stuff, so i thought if he wanted to, he could probably "see" the dreams harvested by the akasha terminal. i guess this wouldn't exactly work since he's not really all for doing extra work if he doesn't have to, but let's just ignore all of that because this is just what my mind could come up with ^^

#my love hate relationship with genshin lore #i had to look up alhaithams character stories because I COULDNT GET HIM #sobbing #anyways the bit abt how kaveh came to live with him is so cute lol #i love them #yandere genshin imagines #yandere genshin x reader #yandere genshin impact #yandere genshin #yandere reader #yandere drabble #yandere reader x genshin #yandere reader x alhaitham #yandere reader 🐟 #genshin 🐟 #alhaitham 🐟 #al haitham x reader #alhaitham #al haitham #al haitham x you #alhaitham x reader #genshin x reader

[shinjisdone]

Hey! I hope you dont mind this too much but may you write a set of hcs of s1/teen thorfinn with a fem/gn s/o who is like Amanirenas (very smart & tactical, skilled in archery, graceful & brave. You could also include how one eye was blinded too) and how he interact with her

(I’m sorry if this is strange, eygpt + sudan history is my current fixtation rn, so feel free to ignore and delete!)

A very interesting request. When it comes to readers being based on characters/figures, fictional or not, it would be very helpful to get a short description/link of them so that I know just as much as you do in that regard ¯_(´・ω・｀)_/¯ ! I looked Amanirenas a bit up but considering she was a real life person, I can't go too much into her story...basing it on your short description, hope that's okay!

S1 Thorfinn with a Reader Who Is Like Kandake Amanirenas! (Gender-neutral & female examples)

Thorfinn's stance on you depends on wheter you are part of the band or not.

If you are not, you are an enemy, no matter how skillful or brave you may be. However, considering how you mostly fight with a bow, he might not fight you one-on-one. You are probably used for defense.

Yet how useful you are. Even with just one eye, you manage to hit every single target of yours efficiently and deadly. One arrow is enough to send one tumbling down their grave.

It all seems to easy to you. Like the wind you move, light as a feather as if the very air submitted to you and your arrows, allowing you each kill.

Your tactics could leave Askeladd pondering but that is none of Thorfinn's concern. Enemy is enemy and if he ever finds you or can get a duel with the murderer of his father by getting your head, he will.

If you are, however, part of the band, you will surely stand out like a sore thumb. An archer as graceful and smart as you doesn't belong in this group full of hard-headed and foolish men. Especially if you are female.

Many might avoid you and awe at you in battle but Thorfinn wouldn't be one of them - vocally at least. He silently is impressed and approveds of your skills but it still wouldn't answer his question on what a true warrior is.

Is it bravery and tactics? Keeping on with such composure even if one eye was taken from you?

One day he might let it slip of how differently you appraoch things. Why are you here? What is such a...dandy person such as you doing here? Do you see yourself as a warrior?

Thorfinn observes you and your decisions in silence. It's how he makes his opinion of others instead of actually going up and talking to them.

If your strategy proves useful and better than Askeladd's (or when he doesn't want to listen to him), Thorfinn might follow your orders but only privately where only you two can hear them. Though he only takes your word for granted if it makes sense for him but if he does end up trusting you, he might follow any order you give him even if things aren't clear yet.

Your elegance might also confuse him. Why do you speak like that? Why do you treat him like this? You act more royal-like than the princess. He might shrug some things you do and say off or even straight up tell you to drop this 'graceful act'. We are vikings. This kind of behaviour is unneccessary and doesn't make you very popular amongst the others. Just a heads up.

Just say what you wanna say and do what you wanna do. Thorfinn doesn't have the patience for this graceful stuff.

He appreciates your skills in archery. In a way you always have his back and he admittedly feels safer this way knowing there is someone out there who literally and metaphorically has his back. He doesn't need to only look out for himself anymore.

If you are attacked directly though, he might get worried. Being an archer means being vulnerable in melee combat in his mind. Thorfinn will run back and defend you quickly and will scream at you if you initiate close combat yourself. How are you going to win with a bow when someone is this near you with their spear?! Don't be stupid! He thought you were one of the smart ones!

Though your bravery is something he commends. Again, not vocally but you can be sure he might do so when he believes you deserve it. Either by letting you know your own strength or when others doubt yours. He will do so more likely if you are female.

If you are a woman, then some might make some googly eyes at your smart and graceful person. Some may be impressed by you, hailing you as some Valkyrie or warrior queen that they'd definitely marry - if only they weren't so bad and depraved! Haha!

Thorfinn would only scoff at their behaviour. Woman or not, your outer appeareance doesn't matter to Thorfinn but he would be a bit more protective if this kind of behaviour of the other bandmates continues.

If he feels comfortable enough, he might ask you about your eye. Wondering how it is you can still see so well.

#vinland saga #thorfinn karlsefni #thorfinn #vinland saga x reader #thorfinn x reader #gender neutral reader #female reader #request

[emmacreatures]

A DANGEROUS START

This will possibly happen more often but I always adore thinking of many ways the two can meet, I can never decide whats canon or not so I just write so manybhejdbd. Sometimes when your brain has the first idea, after more exploring, another even better idea can pop up and so on, especially when other characters are added! This one popped up a few days ago, but I was finally able to write all day and BOY AM I LOVING THIS. I'm REALLY happy about this one! Featuring mainly Quaritch and Ka'am. But actually, lyle and Ter'ran are also quite in the picture! I hope you enjoy~

Ter'ran was stupid enough to get caught by the sky people. He wanted to mock them most likely, getting too close and got easily captured by them. Overestimating himself and ending up getting in more trouble seemed to be a re-occuring thing at Ter'ran's side..

"You Skxaung.." Ka'am whispered so angrily when he saw his friend got taken as they originally were out for a hunt, but had split ways to get stuff easier. He mixed so well in the environment that no one could sense or figure he was around once Ter'ran had been caught. Before he knew, Ter'ran was taken to one of their helicopters, so called hornets in their language.. Ka'am knew if he would shoot people which he could with his arrows, it would become more of a problem, making these RDA people crawl all over their lands.. Possibly not worth it for one individual, even if it was Ka'am's best friend. So as tricky as Ka'am was, he would wait for them to get in the air and to their base.. Following them. Wanting to attack them at night to see if he could manage to get Ter'ran an escape with the help of Ka'am. While Ter'ran felt overly confident with himself, mocking, bragging in the best english he could as he wasnt 100% advanced, he did hope that Ka'am would try and help him. Despite their friendship was interesting, he at furst assumed right away that Ka'am would come for him, but as the time passed.. He knew Ka'am was a rather loner type and knew better, making Ter'ran do realize his stupid actions just like this one. Hoping his best friend eventually would pop up.

"What are we gonna do with him Colonel." Lyle asked as he passed Ter'ran, glaring with his stupid glasses before Quaritch noticed eclipse was coming near, standing at the RDA base while looking through the window. "I'm guessing someone must worry or help this individual eventually, if he has friends.." Quaritch said as he looked only with his eyes into the direction of Ter'ran. "If we're smart, we'll put up a trap, just wait. I think its good to watch out and see whoever may bite. They may be more intelectual than this one" Quaritch said without much shame, as Ter'ran's ears folded flat. After harrumphing rather loud, Ter'ran who was all stuck with cuffs and all, not being able to go anywhere as he was put on the ground, glared and dared to speak. "You know, my english might suck, but I can 100% understand you, you dick" Ter'ran said, almost wanting to hiss, but as soon as Quaritch heard it for his ears twitched, he turned to Ter'ran, showing him a glare he hadnt met before. "Is that so?" Quaritch said as Ter'ran immediately regretted his life choices.. "lyle.. How about you show this man some manners." Quaritch said loud and clear, making Lyle smirk who turned to Ter'ran, who just made a stupid face to Lyle.. Quaritch scared him, but Lyle was just asshole material for Ter'ran "You dont have to ask me twice Colonel" he said with a lot of energy; glaring at Ter'ran before pulling him up roughly at his arm that was cuffed. "Meanwhile, lets see who might care for you" Quaritch said, watching the forest of pandora, serious and determined... Hoping they might catch a better Na'vi, who would have a different mindset than Ter'ran. He really was the worst of troublemakers with a big mouth.

"fucking BASTARDS" Ter'ran yelled in his cell as soon as he was thrown in. He managed to tackle Lyle while being cuffed, trying to run for his life before having received a slam in the face, which gave him a nice extra purple eye along the rest. Lyle had underestimated the man's strength despite having seen the muscle Ter'ran has. He really hated the Na'vi to death right now. If it wasnt for Quaritch who had told him to come back as soon as the man was locked up a bit later, he would've kicked his ass for god knows how long. "fuckin shit" Lyle whispered as he wiped his nose clean, having gotten a few harsh hits before he had thrown Ter'ran into his rightful place as of right now. "I'll get that bloody bastard later.." he continued to whisper before coming back to Quaritch who had called him through his ear bud. Quaritch was ahead of the way Na'vi slowly started to work. "I want you to be ready with your sniper at any given moment now.. Since Eclipse is coming near. I have the feeling Na'vi like to work at night." He said, being intelligent as he is, for he heard Lyle agree and get all stuff ready.

Ka'am had followed them hiddenly, showing no sign as he made his way through the jungle, close to bridgehead. The man was as silent as the wind, getting closer to one of the more back entrances.. Seeing the exact helicopter which had some special markings nearby that station.

"Can't believe I'm getting that idiot of a friend out of this.. And for what." Ka'am whispered in Na'vi, grabbing his arrow before pulling it ready, breathing in silently.. As a slight hesitation popped up while having a perfsct aim on one of the people guarding some of the doors.. Ka'am was one of the people, if not.. Only na'vi that always suggested to rather speak to the sky people, rather than kill them right away. His curiosity to what they wanted was big.. but no one ever wanted to listen or understood why he would even consider it. They always told him to never go near them. To never interact.. but all Ka'am wandered, was what their thoughts were like. What their ways would like. He thought that due the Na'vi attacked them with their life, all the sky people would do was to attack back. Ka'am's mindset and brain was unlike most in general, but due his own mind came through in the act of almost killing one of them.. He stood there, ready to pierce through people's chests with his arrows. But his personal opinion came through..

With a slight groan, he put it back, trying to get inside without having to kill anyone at first despite he was insanely good at them, like his own sister, never missing an aim. Ka'am also figured it would be best not to kill anyone, because it would track attention real fast.. making his approach more difficult, but he never minded to step back from a big challenge. As he put his bow around his chest, he started to make his way closer to the entrance, having learned it from his thanator, like a predator almost crawling through the woods.

Coming near to the entrance, he grabbed a human at his legs like a snake out of the blue, making it drop unconcious once he pulled, yet putting them out of sight so no one would question where or what happened.. It didnt take Ka'am long to sneak inside, using his skills to hopefully find ter'ran as quickly as possible. Being focused on finding Ter'ran, he did at times not only look inside rooms that were around in case anyone would spot him, but also being curious what went on inside of Bridgehead.. "We got an alarm ongoing at gate 7.. Might as well have to check whats ongoing" Two humans said as they started running through the corridor, for Ka'am heard them approach. Sneakily getting into a corner, almost turning invisible while he was huge compared to them, he smirked as soon as they passed, continuing the search to Ter'ran. But despite Ka'am not having been captured on camera nor sensors.. The dissapearances of the knocked out humans did slowly start to show up.

"Ma'dam. We keep having several men and women dissapear on their radars.. We dont know why. There isnt an error for what all we know" Some said to Ardmore, for Quaritch caught up on it. Being around. "Can you give me the exact connections that seemed to have dissapeared" Quaritch decided to get in on it, walking rather strong while having made the specific marine hand movements so Lyle and the others followed. Lyle, who walked steadily behind the man having his sniper ready, filled it with tranquilizer darts.

Ka'am who sneakily got more and more deep into the huge building complex, quickly read which way to go. not having attracted any attention to himself yet only the possible victims who were put unconscious by his hits.. He knew sooner or later he should be nearby. Ter'ran, who sat on the ground, pissed as hell, heard some noises of some things falling against metal, hearing small thuds. Trying to stand up with his hands cuffed, he walked up to the side door that was see through.. Eventually seeing Ka'am. "OMG FINALLY. Ka'Am?! I'M HERE YOU DIPSHIT. What took you so long! DUDE" Ter'ran yelled for him in Na'vi, making Ka'am almost put a deathwish in his eyes. "STOP YOU SKXANG?!

I will goddamn kill you once you're out there" Ka'am signed in sign language in Na'vi, not wanting to speak as it was easier rather than yelling through the glass cell. Not wanting to track ANY attention, in which Ter'ran did the opposite. "stop your volume or you'll get us KILLED" Ka'am kept on signing with his hands, making Ter'ran glare before just wanting to get out of here. But sadly, Ter'ran's behavior would soon get them in trouble.

"Sir, our prisoner is acting rather active all the sudden" Quaritch got a sudden message from one of the teammembers who watched over the cells, making him and Lyle go straight up to that area.. Noticing a tall Na'vi indeed stand right next to the cell. "Lyle" "already on it colonel" Lyle said strict as he quickly aimed onto the new Na'vi, smirking as he shot fast.. Hitting Ka'am in the leg for Ka'am didnt make a noise but it sure fucking hurt. 'fuck'.. He thought before pulling the dart out, grabbing his own bow and arrow before continuing to walk hiddenly behind some desks and inbetween computers, noticing rather fast where the one who shot at him was located with the others.. He felt his brain started to have troubles thinking thanks to the tranquilizer.. But it didnt stop Ka'am. "Did you hit him." Quaritch said as he grabbed his gun ready, being attentive as they slowly walked to the cells, seeing Ter'ran was still stuck who stuck his tongue out to the RDA. "I'll get you later" Lyle said angrily to Ter'ran, who got corrected by Quaritch, saying Lyle should focus. "Did you hit him Lyle" Quaritch said rather angrily now, for the man hadnt replied to him yet. "what do you think?" "LYLE!" Quaritch wasnt tolerating Lyle's almost sassy behavior, for Ka'am heard they were struggling or at least being angry at each other, making use of it by aiming on one of the computers with his bow, hoping the cell by that would open.. The second Quaritch saw a bow, pass him with just a few inches apart, right onto the computer, the colonel glared towards Lyle.

"ARE YOU SURE?!" Quaritch said deadly, 'because obviously he can still move around which is not what we goddamn want' Quaritch thought, but seeing Lyle frown of confusion made it clear. He must've been hit, but how was he still moving. Plus.. Said Na'vi could've easily hit them, but instead aimed for the computers. "I 100% did but he keeps running??" Lyle said for he quickly reloaded his tranquilizer gun..

For Ka'am definitely hit a computer to cause errors.. As there were so many, it didnt seem to open the cell.. And as minutes passed which felt like seconds, the sedative started to get to Ka'am for his tolerance was already high. For Ka'am eventually showed his face for the first time without hiding, pointing at Lyle and Quaritch with his arrow.. Holding his aim without any shiverings, he felt his legs started to have issues standing up.. For Ka'am eventually made eye contact with Quaritch who held his gun in the direction to Ka'am.. Seeing a rather life threatening look, Lyle in the meantime took his chance to shoot again, hitting Ka'am again in his leg again.. But surprisingly, while Ka'am looked life threatening to Quaritch, the colonel almost tilted his head, seeing the na'vi man wasnt sure of shooting at him directly. and in that exact moment, Lyle knew he should shoot. The double tranquilizer definitely started to hit Ka'am.. For the man almost hissed but stayed silent, he couldnt keep his body up anymore, letting his bow and arrow fall before falling to his knees...

Yet despite his body was about to stop working for a bit, Ka'am hissed once while he grabbed a knife from his back.. Not giving himself up so easily. Quaritch and Lyle stepped closer.. Seeing he was fighting and still conscious.. The more seconds passed, the more knocked out Ka'am became to where he dropped his knife, falling upon his back. Quaritch slowly approached and kneeled down on one leg, seeing Ka'am still wanting to protest.. "I wouldnt try that if i were you.." Quaritch just said almost calm at this point but confident, before their eye contact was broken, Ka'am was finally unconscious.

Ter'ran glared furiously at the two, hissing furiously at lyle especially. "Oh you're next-" Lyle wanted to say before planning on going to Ter'ran's cell. "no." Quaritch said as he leaned down to check Ka'am's neck, feeling a slow but steady pace. Deep asleep at this point. "Put him in his own cell, away from his friend. I want to speak to him later" Quaritch said loud and clear, standing up as with help of the other RDA group, they got Ka'am in his own cell while the man was absolutely out of it. "Corporal, do you have any of the cameras working outside.. I might want to check upon some things.." Quaritch said as he walked back to the computer area, wanting to see footage of outside. Possibly to see how Ka'am got in in the first place.

"Do me a favor and try to find what happened at gate 7, somewhere between now and an hour ago.. and from there on see anything that comes through this side" Quaritch said as he held his side with one hand and with the other, pointing at the specific areas he wanted people to look. It took them a while, but eventually, they found it. "sir we might've found something.. Its not much but-" one of the human workers said as Quaritch leaned down, watching the screens before the person made them large enough so Quaritch could stand back one. "we found one, sneaking through but.. he seems to just watch most of the time, and not attack like the others.. He didnt kill a single man or woman. He knocked them out it seems, and most out of camera, as if he knew there were eyes on him-" "oh thats him alright" Quaritch whispered, frowning before saying its okay to stop it.

As sometime passed, Quaritch was thinking on what to do about this whole occurence, having called Lyle, to bring Ter'ran in the room. cuffed and all, as Lyle entered the room as agreed. He threw Ter'ran on the ground, as the man just pulled himself away as soon as Lyle told him to stand up. "We can do this the easy way, or the hard way" Quaritch said clear, making Ter'ran glare before noticing a change in the way the colonel looked, really giving him a cold chill down his spine. But Ter'ran's ego first came through. "from what I know, you guys really love to go the hard way at all times" He first said in Na'vi, for Quaritch could follow, glaring a bit in a warning way. "Lets just get straight to the point then. what can you tell us about your friend" Quaritch asked for Ter'ran took his time to answer.. "who do I owe anyone to say anything?" He said in Na'vi, not noticing Quaritch gave a slight hand signal to let Lyle hit him firmly once..

Making Ter'ran shake his head a bit as his nosebleed started again. "i'd speak if i were you" Lyle said for Ter'ran frowned, turning to Lyle. "is that really the toughest you can fight? this is like a casual workout for me. I've had worse." "Enough." Quaritch immediately said as his dangerous voice echoed, making Ter'ran who felt the blood in his mouth from the one hit spit it out. "We know his name is Ka'am, thanks to your yelling in the cell towards him." Quaritch said for Ter'ran eventually spoke a bit more.. In english this time. "Ka'am is the toughest to break. He's not gonna talk to you if thats what you're hoping for" Ter'ran said for Lyle wanted to hit him again for being almost disrespectful to Quaritch, but Quaritch raised his hand to stop Lyle. "How can we make him talk" "you cant." Ter'ran said for he smirked a little. "well then. We will have to break him. eventually he will speak" Lyle said rather easy, for Ter'ran scoffed. "Have you seen him? he pulled out a sedative out of his leg and ran for another 5 minutes before you had to shoot him with another, while you're supposed to drop unconscious within the second it gets in your system which supposedly is a few seconds" Ter'ran said half in Na'vi and half in english as he at times struggled with more difficult words.. Seeing Quaritch was able to follow but it confused Lyle. "he'll be rather dead before you'll be able to get anything out of him" Ter'ran eventually said in english, finding his friend epic in a way for he hoped it would scare them off.. But Quaritch, was an intelligent man, who noticed a lot of different things about Ka'am in his behavior. "Bring him back, I'll figure it out myself" Quaritch demanded as Lyle with pleasure brought Ter'ran back to his cell, as Lyle returned quite fast. "I do wonder though? where did he build up that pain tolerance. I havent seen anyone tolerate sedatives like that and I knew for sure I hit him, twice" Lyle said as Quaritch walked a bit slow but steady. "Possible just experiences. Keep an eye on that troublemaker, I'll go talk to the other one" Quaritch said clear as Lyle left with a 'yes sir'.

Despite Ka'am had received two trenquilizers.. He had slowly gotten up, slowly walking in the cell before he went along some of the interior, just genuinelt curious on what it was before leaning against the table in the middle.. Arms crossed, a tail swooping slowly from left to right slowly. No pressure, no stress. Not even slight signs of trying to break out which all other Na'vi have tried, including Ter'ran.

Quaritch slowly entered the room before the cell, where they could look through the wall. "how has he been" he asked one of the scientists, who watched him at all times. "calm.. He doesnt seem stressed. Woke up about half an hour ago. Seemed a bit curious in the beginning, but i think he knows we can see him. But no signs of trying to break out" He said as Quaritch left the room, waiting for the door to opened of Ka'am's cell. Not even the second the door opened did Ka'am try to outrun or outsmart him. Instead, he was leaning against the table, with his back to the door.. Not moving, except his tail. Quaritch waited until the door was closed again, now being in the same room as Ka'am, for he sat the same way, but a bit more to the left, and with his back to Ka'am.. Both leaning against the table, but not facing each other..

Ka'am through his whole time here had not spoken a word. It was his way of almost.. Protesting, but he wasnt doing it actively. He preferred to be mysterious, and only speak when it was nessesairy. "not talking are we?" Quaritch said with a gentle approach, exhaling a bit more loud to show he too wasnt really in a tense mood. The whole energy in the room seemed fine. "I'd almost think you're mute" Quaritch then said, seeing Ka'am did not look at him, not even his glance or one look of the eyes.. He just sat there almost casually, for Quaritch just reflected it. "your friend over here, he wouldnt stop talking unlike you, complaining till the sun would rise again. These people here as well, are rather surprised you're not trying to get out of here, do the best they can" Quaritch just kept talking, seeing he wasnt even ignored, for Ka'am just listened.. But he did not speak just yet. "You want to stay mute? sure.. Not sure how far we'd come.." Quaritch said as he'd eventually turn a bit to Ka'am, who still did not make any eye contact with him, which would now be a good moment with the way he was turned. "you're a smart guy. I can see that. You knew what you were doing." Quaritch said seriously, knowing that the man was a trained killer or fighter. "Not only didn't you try to get out of here, but you also got in here, without killing anyone." Quaritch said as Ka'am's tail swooshed a little quicker. Finally there, a low manly voice revealed itself. "so you wonder what i'm doing here" Ka'am said, making Quaritch listen closely.. "Whats up with the rather, gentle approach to us, rather than trying to break our necks like your fellow friends. Why dont you attack, like most of your kind do" Quaritch said as he kept his arms crossed just like Ka'am did, making Ka'am finally turn his head to Quaritch, having a serious approach.

"if you'd look correctly.. I do attack" Ka'am said, his voice was steady but low, making Quaritch raise his head in a 'okay then.' kind of energy.. "only when we seem to do that to you" Quaritch said back on what Ka'am explained.. "I can slit your throat if thats what you're implying" Ka'am all the sudden said, noticing Quaritch looking more into the man's eyes as a warning, perhaps out of threatening him a bit, or just being curious at this point. "So why havent you just yet." "I have my reasons" Ka'am said as he had broken eye contact at first, raising his head a bit before turning back to Quaritch, seeing the man tried to figure him out.. For Ka'am lived up to his name, being a mysterious and hard understanding man. But Quaritch wasnt done yet.. Wanting to get him back on the things he found rather.. surprising from Ka'am. Seeing what excuses he'd have despite the man so far was straight up with his things.

"Since when do navi learn english? Oh thats right.. they dont. Because its a language, that the last time I checked, at this rate is being seen as the devil's speech" Quaritch said, seeing Ka'am break eye contact again before he'd look back at quaritch who didnt break eye contact. "so who taught you.." he asked clear, seeing Ka'am just looked at him rather intensely, but he could figure out of the way he looked.. Quaritch now knew the man taught himself.. Showing another odd sign of what this man's brain was like. "so if you're not here to fight us. what do you want to do here" Quaritch got more to the point now, seeing Ka'am got more serious too. "i do not know what you seek, or why you captured Ter'ran" The man said; not hearing the name 'my friend' but his actual name. "Ter'ran so happened to lure us out. But we are just looking for a man that goes under the name toruk makto.. Or the well known, jake sully" Quaritch said for he noticed Ka'am's dissapproving energy all the sudden.. His ears folded flat, for the man smirked hiddenly before getting back to their conversation. "ah.. i see that name doesnt get received well either. How about we make a deal then" Quaritch said, standing up from the table he was leaning against to, walking a little bit through the room while Ka'am kept leaning against the table with crossed arms.

"help us find him.. and after that, we'll just let you and your friend go, since you were here to help him right?" He said as Ka'am rolled his eyes over Ter'ran's detail.. "or maybe not." Quaritch said, narrowing his eyes to see it wasnt 100% the reason Ka'am came here to break Ter'ran free.. Which made Quaritch more curious to him. "Or.. If there is something else you want in return" Quaritch said as Ka'am was thinking and he could see him think, giving him the space. "So.. Do we have a deal?" Quaritch said for he felt quite confident about it, seeing Ka'am slowly stand up for he watched the man's hand that Quaritch reached out.. Almost like a mutual understanding or respect while he knew the man for a short amount.. He'd think about it, before his own anger about the connection to jake sully grew worse, putting things to the side mentally to eventually take Quaritch' hand to shake it. Ka'am dared to look up at the man again, seeing intelligence and tricky but also almost honest energies flow through there.. He really wanted to kill that jake sully badly. and right now the hunt was about to start with a native to help him. Sooner or later Quaritch would want to figure how on earth Ka'am was still standing after two Tranquilizers.. Something must've happened to him to be more advanced into it.

#emmacreatures #niku30 #avatar #quaritch x ka'am #avatar fanfiction #lyle wainfleet #avatar oc #ter'ran #ter'ran trouble #lyle x ter'ran #avatar ships #quaritch x oc #quadritch x ka’am #recom quaritch #miles quaritch #optional different canon meeting

[bishops-of-the-old-faith]

at the time of this blog,

shamura is sort of everyones rock. theyre the oldest, they know the most, they seem to always know what to say. theyre often busy and i feel the others would be concious of it, not wanting to bother them. i feel shamura is quiet and would love for their siblings to bother them about more things but they dont know how to go about asking or letting them know that they would like to spend more casual time with their siblings. theyre not good at expressing themselves or their own needs, but they are fiercely protective of their siblings and their needs and feel like they have to always be emotionally available to help out, but again, their siblings are worried about interrupting them when theyre busy

narinder is the cool older brother, not entirely mature, but someone who has live longer than you and knows everything thats fun/not fun. often likes to tease his younger siblings, especially leshy and kallamar. hes got a lot of spunk and energy and often messes around w his younger siblings to take it out. he doesnt always understand boundries until he crosses them, then he is very apologetic and feels a lot of guilt about it. similar to shamura, hes not good at expressing himself, but its moreso he doesn't have the proper words to describe what he's feeling, rather than an inability to bring up what he's feeling at all. he looks up to shamura, he often bickers w heket but they laugh it off immediately, he tries to coax kallamar out of his shell, he keeps leshy entertained. hes a bit frustrated that nobody seems to tell him anything when it matters, especially shamura

heket sort of picks up where narinder is lacking in the older sibling department, making herself the responsible one in shamura's presumed absence. she is stubborn and she's the one to keep the others (narinder included) from doing something stupid that could get them hurt (or in the case of shamura, remind them to take care of themselves, too). the responsibility feels heavy on her shoulders, but she keeps it up because she feels like this is what she has to do often. she has a lot of parties and festivals to try and ease things up for herself, but after theyre over, its right back to being strict. her brothers have a lot of fun, she feels, and part of her wants to have fun with them, but she worries they'll get into something disasterous if she lets her guard down and she doesnt want that to happen

kallamar is shy but passionate. he takes a bit of encouragement to get started talking but once he's talking he doesnt stop. he loves talking about his collections and cool stuff he finds and random facts about the ocean to his siblings. in turn he is a good listener when it comes to their interests, asking questions and engaging with them, even if he doesn't entirely understand what is going on. but he is riddled with anxiety. he overthinks often, worries his followers are talking bad about him behind his back, his power will not be strong enough, he wont be able to live up to his siblings, and if he is not good enough, does that mean he will die? he's silent about these fears, not wanting to bring the others' moods down and feel like an even further burden on them, but its just a glass bottle waiting to explode

leshy is very active, probably even more than narinder. what he does is completely at the whims of his ever-changing mind, he may relax in the dirt for a while or go on a rampage in a nearby village, he's very impulsive. he likes to cause a bit of "harmless" (to his siblings. mortals may not get the same treatment) chaos with pranks or sudden humorous remarks. hes just a lot of fun to be around. as the youngest, hes the furthest away from figuring himself out, and hes a bit insecure about it. everyone else has solid domains-- war, death, famine, pestilence. what chaos means isnt as clear. yes it has a definition, but that can represent itself in so many different ways. hes not keen on asking, because he feels, like the rest of his siblings, he should figure it out for himself. they would help him... if they knew he was struggling

tl;dr. lots of miscommunication in these bitches and its not gonna end well for them

#note from the sky #headcanons #not an ask #|| i had this whole thing saved for a while #i hope it is an interesting read and makes my portrayals of them clearer! #if youre in the discord youve already seen this hahahaha

[monotonecomplainyguy]

For the send a fandom: Tsushima.

Left field. Bitch.

Mofo making me add yet another game onto this blog, spoiler alert I loved ghost of tsushima and think everyone should play it. ps. spoilers ahead cause I cant for the life of me figure out how to hide text till you click it.

The first character I fell in love with: tbh Yuna, her blatant disregard for the rules and expectations in favor of doing good is great, even if that good is selfish from time to time. Her growth throughout the story just reaffirms this even more too.

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: That'll have to go to Masako, her introduction led me to believe that her as a character would be nothing more than a cheap revenge ploy, and while her questline kinda leaned into that hard her as a character grew on me. The duel with her had me literally yelling that I better not have to kill her.

The character everyone else loves that I dont: Shoot me, but Ryuzo. As a character hes as good as every other major character but thats why I dont like him, his betrayal hits hard especially after listening to the banter between him and Jin about their childhoods. As they spoke about parting ways after their initial duel I seriously hoped they could reconnect over the course of saving their home.

The character I love that everyone else hates: I dont know if hes necessarily a hated character but Ive heard several people say they really didnt like Norio. A lot of people say his quest is two dimensional and bland but looking past that Norio feels like the only character that really understands Jin's struggle with what needs to be done and his expectations as a samurai. Through the second and third act he feels like a reassurance at Jin's back, that his decision is a difficult one but one that needs to be made.

The character I used to love but dont any longer: Ishikawa, Initially I thought he would be the basis for a growing understanding that what Jin and Yuna did was necessary, especially with what he did with Tomoe. But he remained just as stubborn and while I can understand why it doesn't mean I have to like it. Hes a good character but not my cup of tea.

The character I would totally smooch: Probably no one in the way you would expect, but Yuriko needed a kiss on the forehead and praise for doing such a good job even in her old age and told not to worry about Jin. At least she was one of the few that got to pass peacefully.

The character I'd want to be like: Taka hands down, he tries so hard to be something hes not, and when he found a way he could help he put his heart into it. Then even in the face of the Khan he put on a brave face and knowing full well he stood no chance tried to do what he thought was right. In many ways hes a reflection of Jin yet not so gifted that he can fight for his home, yet he still raised a sword when it mattered the most. His death by far killed me the most.

The character I'd slap: Lord Shimura, this man infuriates me so much yet I cant hate him because of how sad he is. The ending killed me, seeing his pain in having to face Jin, losing the person he considered his Son, and even more so after sparing him. He could've helped change everything and even if he disowned Jin officially he could've still let him go after everything that happened. But now he continued to be shackled by his idealology of honor and it forced him to push away his son all the more. I get its not easy to change what someone is raised to believe in whole heartedly but you would expect the loss of the last of your family to help with that, but no.

A pairing that I love: Jin and Tomoe, I feel like they are two very different edges of the same coin. Jin choosing a path that leads to a great many regrets that become overshadowed by the good that followed, and Tomoe falling down a selfish path filled with many more regrets and struggling to correct it. Is this generic? maybe, is it cliché enough that I like it still? of course. What do you want from me cliché is my middle name. Also yes Im aware she hardly had any screen time and her and Jin hardly interacted, I like thinking about unlikely things, its called headcannon for a reason.

A pairing that I despise: I dont despise it but I dont really like it either, Jin and Yuna feels kinda wrong. The two of them went through so much together and it feels like one of those dynamics thats very rooted in a deep friendship and nothing more. Plus after spending so much time together in so many stressful scenarios changing how they see each other would be a monumental challenge, especially after Yuna lost Taka and would most likely be hesitant about getting close to someone else. Losing a family member often causes people to push away the thought of relationships for awhile.

#ask game #ghost of tsushima #video games #tbh I haven't played this game in about a year #Might have to change that tho #it was genuinely great

[rassvetsky]

Hello hello my dear :D

I love your writing so i HAD to send a request! This is probably super niche and if you dont feel comfortable writing it thats COMPLETELY okay!<3

So i have a skin disorder that makes red spots appear ALL over my skin and it makes it feel itchy and rough(now in other fanfic its normally that the characters talk about "readers soft skin" and sadly i cant relate to that)

So i was wondering if you could write Sam Wilson x fem! Or Non binary! Reader with a skin disorder :D what prompt you use, if its nsfw or sfw and how long it is, is completely up to you! I would just love to relate to a fanfic again :,)

Much love <3

thank you so much for sending this and i hope i did it at least some justice, because i've been incredibly uncreative and unmotivated for a long time now— i too suffer from a skin condition mostly triggered by stress, which makes the skin of my shoulders and upper back very bumpy (and damn it leaves scars each time) so this was insightful to think about,, most fics aren't that inclusive unfortunately (which is nobody's fault!!) but anyway, i hope you have a wonderful day, and thank you again for dragging me out of my void!!

Fifty Bucks

sam wilson x reader

"It's impossible to feel inconvenienced by anything when Sam Wilson is your personal stand-up comedian and therapist at the same time. He might demand fifty bucks, though."

[1k] | honestly not much, super short and quick anyway, fluff, reader has a skin condition as lovely anon mentioned above, swearing, sam is a blessing and not in disguise at all

reblog and/or like for a kiss, feedback much appreciated! not proofread.

You should've seen this coming.

But it's like your body and your mind operate on completely different terms sometimes, with no connection to one another whatsoever. It's impossible to control how your body might react to something that brews in your mind, and while for some it's not an issue to keep focus on; people that are blessed with one tiny little add-on to their existence like you have to be extra careful sometimes.

And good lord, you can never be careful enough.

As Sam paced around in your apartment, trying to keep your mind off of work stress and the general adulthood obstacles through a sacred quest of finding a show to watch before you could come back to the living room; you were mentally face-palming upon the sight of a red spot on the course of forming on your shoulder, and a few more down your arms. You can't control everything that happens around you, of course, but God, why is it that everyone else seems to be better at handling stress?

When you came back to the living room with a slight pout on your lips, fingers tugging on the material of your t-shirt to reveal a portion of your arms, Sam is perplexed. Remote control in his palm, he turned around to look at you, gaze flickering between your hand and your face. "Everything okay?" he asked, pointing towards the snacks laid out on the coffee table with the remote control. "It better be. I didn't pay for all those for nothing, you better cheer the hell up."

That pulled a chuckle out of you as you shrugged, stepping closer to him with a sigh, forcing the sight into his point of view. "Flaring up a bit, I think," a soft breath left you. "Figures. I was beginning to expect it at this point."

"What's that? Allergies?" he asked, following suit when you took a seat on the couch, relaxing right next to you. "Is it the lobster? Can't be, because I marinated that thing so good that people with seafood allergy could risk death to have a taste. I'm serious."

"No, it just happens." you chuckled softly, heaving a deep sigh before leaning back comfortably. "There isn't much that I can do about it now, it's just gonna itch and drive me crazy."

Sam hummed as a response, before pressing 'play' on the first comfort show that he came across, mind occupied with this newfound information. It must be annoying enough to go through, he thought, figuring that he shouldn't ask many questions— but he's a curious individual, he couldn't help it even if he tried. "Isn't there anything, like— like an ointment or something for 'em?" your slow nod caused him to hum, the intro of the show seemingly catching your attention, but not his, surprisingly, considering the fact that he often possessed the attention span of a goldfish. "Does it bother you?"

"It's not a pretty sight when the timing is wrong," you mumbled while reaching for a pack of sour candies on the coffee table before leaning back on the couch again. The cushions were soft against your back, but not as soft as your bed— which you were beginning to miss. "But I feel like I've gotten used to it, you know? Like, I learn more about how my skin reacts to certain things as time goes by and, well, I'm trying to manage it better."

"Not a pretty sight my ass," he whispered under his breath, causing you to laugh— along with him. "You could have Shrek skin for all I care. Or Avatar skin, whatever fictional world you're into— you'd still be one hell of a sight."

"Shrek skin? C'mon, you're just saying that."

"Watch it, I get real aggressive about affection," a pair of strong arms pulled you to his side and you giggled against the material of his shirt, trying to slap his arms away from you. "God was like, damn, a full package. Gotta balance it out somehow."

It was incredible, how fast Sam could get you laughing. But there you were, laughing at his antics with the show long-forgotten on the screen, his arms secure around you and a pretty smile on his lips. He was a man of acceptance, after all, and you were sure that given the chance, he could restore world peace in a week with his delicious cookouts and wonderfully thought speeches.

"Shut the hell up," you chuckled, shaking your head. "It doesn't even bother me, it's my own skin. Just makes me wish that I was a bit luckier."

"That's a good thing, you know, being alright with it." his fingers found your hair then, giving the area a few loving pats before carding them through your locks. It was as if his tone changed when he started to speak again, and you'd recognize that speech pattern anywhere. "Health-wise, accepting and embracing something kinda works like a placebo, you know? Whether it's a mental thing or, you know, something physical— when you're like, alright, I'm doing this and that to cure this thing, but at the same time, I'm not gonna be all like, damn this thing—"

"God, not one of these speeches again—"

"Listen, you ungrateful brat," his faux offense made you laugh again, as you watched him press his palm against his chest where his heart is supposed to be. "People don't pay therapists for nothing."

"I know, I know." you cuddled onto him more. "M'sorry, go on?"

"I will, for fifty bucks."

"FIFTY?!" you raised your head from his shoulder to look up at him, eyes wide in shock.

"Do you have any idea how expensive therapy is?! Thirty at most, pay up or shut up!"

#sam wilson #sam wilson x reader #sam wilson x y/n #sam wilson x you #sam wilson oneshot #sam wilson blurb #sam wilson drabble #sam wilson fic #tfatws fic #tfatws #tfatws x reader

[kygerbearr]

getting into high-end ff14 content made me realize 2 things.

1). many people who have particular responsibilities have NO business with them

2). apparently i'm a fucking genius when it comes to shit because i can watch a short guide and understand what to do while everyone else apparently needs several days worth of catch up to do one of the most basic be-here-then-go-here shit on the planet. i have never been more frustrated with humanity. i am so tired. everyone i meet is either someone who takes thing too seriously and has zero skills to back it up or there's people with a wife and kids and a 9 to 5 job and a mortgage who come home from work and are somehow fine with doing MORE work dealing with people who dont know their fucking job and everyone is managed by someone who's an absolute pushover and still expects to be the "leader"

like i don't consider myself very smart. everything in this game appears to be very easy, i don't struggle with any of it, i don't understand how all of these seemingly normal people can struggle so hard with mechanics that have been reused over and over with a new coat of paint, and I feel guilty even suggesting its easy because of how hard everyone makes it out to be

do not believe anyone when they say ff14 is hard. it isn't. it's one of the easiest games i've ever played, i have never felt personally challenged by something in it and the only difficulty i'm having is being around dipshits who somehow don't understand how something works. i feel like i'm in a classroom full of people who showed up to the exam without studying anything and it's like they expect a clear just for showing up. buddy, this fight has so much personal responsibility that if you don't figure your shit out, the WHOLE CLASS fails, and you can't move on until you pass.

and i KNOW its easy because I made my OWN group out of frustration and we cleared THE FIRST DAY WE STARTED RAIDING. the VERY FIRST DAY. I have been with this other group for MONTHS.

this group cannot handle clockwise and counterclockwise somehow. there are markers on the floor arranged in a clock. it got to the point where I had to suggest that people look for a particular number and rotate towards it, and somehow, everyone STILL messed it up.

not only that, but in this group, any time I try to express something that goes against their ideology either the leader gets on my case or one of the members gets on my ass. just the other day I had this fucking asshole who was running shield healer who WASNT APPLYING SHIELDS?? during PROG??? and when I said "hey can we get shields" he was like "no we're good" we were dying. bodies on the floor right in front of him.

so I asked why. his argument? we cant have shields. it would mess up his gcds. I have CLEARED THIS FIGHT ALREADY, AND WITH SHIELD HEALER. so I know we can have shield for Every raidwide. and when I tried to explain how, he got angry and was like "no the fuck we cant and i will NOT have someone micromanaging my gcds" buddy my friend is dead on the floor right there and it's your fault

we proceeded to not hear from him the following week. essentially no-call-no-show but for a videogame and not a real job. whatever, not my problem. just meant I could be shield healer. and that day went super well! we had prog. i was healing. we didn't die outside of people failing their personal responsibilities.

i mean it when I say I genuinely don't enjoy the game anymore. I'm so exhausted from dealing with people who don't give a shit and aren't trying hard enough, are too stubborn to do anything different and hate it whenever I do anything whatsoever that goes against their agenda. it's not a team at all, it's a fake ass leader who can't lead with followers who are so fucking mindless braindead that they think they can mindlessly follow this failure of a leader into a clear for a fight they've been stuck on for THREE MONTHS STRAIGHT.

it takes up so much time out of my week (3 hours on both monday and tuesday so back to back, very exhausting, reminder i dont like these people because they treat me like shit and simultaneously I'm the only person who cares about what we're doing) and there were times where I legitimately would've preferred working (which i cant do while playing this game) and man I hope they get rid of me because my martyr complex keeps me from leaving them until we clear the fight

don't play final fantasy 14 it's not fun it's not worth it and if you do then dont talk to anyone. i legit only have fun when its with my friends and I have yet to meet a person on 14 I could make any sort of meaningful connection with. they're all so normal feeling, they're always like 5 years older than me and it freaks me out, I don't fit in, I don't belong there, and I don't want to stick around in a place I don't feel I belong in. the ONLY good thing about the game is that I can play as a big kitty cat

[remembering-angels]

My full reincarnation timeline

I shared this on Reddit and I thought I could share my reincarnation timeline on here too if anyone is interested . This is basically a time line of all my past lives from being an angel to human past lives to now a days.

The very first thing my soul remembers is a place almost like heaven, or maybe eden. I remember a vast ocean, spreading endlessly over the horizon, if my soul had an origin, it was at the shores of that ancient ocean. I remember a light, everything felt bigger than the earth, bigger than the solar system, i was one with the universe, with the galaxies. my dreams of that time are always of me in between earth and space, that's where I believe heaven to be, if I could ever put a name to it I would almost say it felt as if I was one of the angels. the angels in my memories tho looked different from the beautiful paintings in churches, some looked inhuman in a way people can't imagine and yet some did look even more beautiful than those paintings. those angels and me being one of them had a mission, it was always to help the universe, and humanity evolve, some have forgotten it tho, and sometimes i myself forget it.

the first reincarnation was maybe around ancient Egypt times is the best i could describe it tho i was in a different country, being on earth is different than being in heaven, on earth, when i first came, in my first reincarnation everything felt so intense, my first reincarnation was in the middle east, in the deserts and hot weather still feel very close to me, my divine siblings reincarnated with me at the time. i remember speaking the ancient language and seeing the beauty of maybe Persian (?) or ancient israel cities, everything felt like an endless dream, at the time i saw tribes at war and empires begin to slightly form.

the second reincarnation was in Europe in the middle ages or the medieval times not sure what its called, i was a lady,i remember hallways illuminated by candlelights and music if I could pinpoint a language it would be old English, there was a man there, my soulmate, i would play around with him a lot, he was older than me ,he had some kind of political standing but i can't remember now what he did. i died from getting shot with an arrow, but i think it was an accident or some kind of battle thing, i remember the arrow piercing my chest area, i remember being carried to the water as my final resting place and waking up on the other side ,seeing the most beautiful moonlight.

from there on my memories are kinda blurry,i can't remember all my reincarnations, i think i had one during ww2 that i can slightly remember but not well enough.

the next very vivid past life i remember is of being a regular girl in 1960's-1970's America, funny enough i went to religious studies, i remember daydreaming a lot, wondering about my soul, my life's purpose, i didn't have a lot of time to figure out my life's purpose since that life was cut short,but if i did have time i would have become a teacher or a researcher or someone who helps others , and i remember making deep connections. the love from that life still follows me here. i was lost in that life a bit and some took advantage of that. i died by the hand of an evil man ,an evil man that took many souls that he shouldn't have. a selfish man.

and i remember leaving my body and walking through a forest ,an endless forest until i found my way back to heaven,or my version of heaven at least, i remember hearing whispers all around me when i reached the other side, the whispers were comforting me, I was stuck as a ghost for some time, looking up the sky at the stars listening to those whispers,and when I got back home to heaven I slept in a field of lovely purple flowers, my divine siblings Keeping watch.

and my reincarnation now. i dont think this is my last, i think i have one more life to live. I am blessed I can remember so much .

well that's it what i remember so far!

[pissmd]

ok im so sorry for continually asknig you how in the hell you draw so good but how in the hell do you draw hair specifically so good ok thank you <3

no its no problem at all! hair IS a tricky one, i still struggle a lot with it myself, and up until recently i HATED painting hair it wasnt until using SU-Cream Pencil that i figured out a way to detail strands in a way that worked with my semi-realistic style. (you can actually see in my art tag the difference in the way i paint hair, my first wilson painting is the first time i used that brush, everything before it i hadnt) sometimes it is a matter of finding the right brush for the job but i’ve never used brushes solely made for painting hair, like those ones that look like lines made by a rake? i find those kinds of brushes totally egregious and deeply unhelpful for actually painting hair realistically.

my first piece of advice for hair, and really for painting in this kind of style is that the goal is to make it look Convincing. it does not have to be 1:1 with the reference and you’d be setting yourself up for an impossible task anyways in trying to do so. there’s also the fact that overdetailing hair Can end up reaching a level of uncanny valley very fast, which is honestly never appealing. multiple times i’ve found i’ve added too many strands and had to paint over it and try again while limiting myself to how many fine details i can add.

to gauge where you’re overdetailing you really can use your reference to point towards where exactly the most visible strands of hair are and where it sort of all blends in together. really you can get away with very little detail in some chunks and it will make your art look way more convincing. for example my house art you can see that by the left side of his temple theres a chunk of dark greyish-blue that washes out all detail. compare that to the right side of his hair that has the highest level of detail. you can still see that there are small chunks in the right side where theres very little detail (like the triangular chunk just above his ear), just to ensure there’s a balance of detail in order to prevent it crossing into the uncanny valley.

you can even see i have that same effect in his face if you can compare the left and right side of his forehead and the level of detail in his wrinkles. the way the grooves of his wrinkles stop as it moves into the shadowed part of his face. you can understand he hasnt like deaged in the shadows its just about understanding what level of detail Should be visible as dictated by the light. you can also see this effect if you compare the wrinkles under his left eye and right eye, as well as the difference in levels of detail in his stubble on the left side of his face compared to the right.

so getting back to hair specifically, and ensuring it looks convincing enough, is i would say the way i paint hair is 50% planning/following the reference and 50% bs.

the way i start with the planning part of hair is with a really blocky sketch which just begins with planar boxes of how the hair flows and breaks into segments, its really just breaking down the existing reference into the simplest shapes possible.

next is i then draw a more detailed sketch above the original simple sketch where i add more detail. you can see in the image below the level of detail i get to on my second sketch as compared to my original sketch. i dont go too detailed because i will use this second sketch on a layer with lowered opacity above my painting layer as a guide to begin my painting. if its too detailed it’ll confuse me, but if it’s not detailed enough it’ll be more difficult figuring out where to put what colour.

since i start painting after this i’d like to start by saying how i make my colour choices in the first place. since i have limited images i can use in a tumblr post i won’t show examples but i suppose mostly everyone can gather that the real life references we use tend to have a lot of muddy, dark (and boring) colours that dont translate well in painting. i avoid this in two major ways.

the first is i always edit the colours in my reference image. any program will do, i personally use video star to edit my colours but that isnt an app available to everyone and i really wouldnt specifically recommend using it unless you already owned it and liked using it. im just mentioning it because it is what i use to edit colours. btw before video star i used to use prequel, another app that can edit colours. u can just as easily edit saturation and colour levels etc in just about any image editing software or art program.

the other way i avoid using muddy colours is by colour picking then manually altering the colour-picked colour so that it’s brighter and more saturated, and sometimes by sliding the hue just a little. this is really broad advice of course but hair colour is tough to get right (especially blonde hair tbh).

another little tid bit more correlated to choosing hair colour is when im in the early part of my painting process im thinking already about how i’m ensuring the hair blends into the face easily. to achieve this i like to blend in the colours i've use in his face, into areas like the fringe and sideburns. you can see underneath in the right image that wilsons sideburn ends in more of a pinkish colour compared to the rest of his hair.

my next step is blocking out the colours of the hair based on the sketch and the reference. it’s important to start as broadly as possible, like for example, you can see i’ve got big dark chunky shapes where wilsons hair parts in both images below. the immediate simplified shapes dont have to be largest shapes just shapes that do the most work in defining the shapes of his hair. like for instance in the right image below, you can see in wilsons fringe, that theres a singular bright gold thin strandlike stroke, and its just a really simple stroke but it does a lot of work in defining the shape of the chunk of his fringe.

another thing i wanted to mention is the way i block fringes. you can see in the right image above that his fringe is completely solid. i just start with as broad and simple a shape as possible and dont worry about individual strands of the fringe this early on in the process. the left images fringe also looked as solid as the rights, but i didnt have an image of the part of the process before i started blending his fringe in with his forehead.

in the image below you can can compare the fringe to the image above, and see where i've begun blending it into his face with the colours from his forehead. it's important i think to mention again i'm an artist who uses separate layers to paint on instead of just the one layer. so the hair layer that i'm painting on is transparency locked. it really ensures i keep the shape of his fringe intact to paint this way.

you can see above as well that at that point i had begun adding individual strand detailing into his hair. and really at this point this is where you have to use your own sense to decide what details get the shape of the hair across, this is the bs'ing part where i am using my reference as a guide to how my subjects hair works but not trying to be so overly precise as to kill myself with impossible perfection. you can probably see the that even though im painting what looks like strands its not anywhere near as thin as what itd realistically be like. i think making sure your brush isn’t too thin helps a lot in avoiding the uncanny valley. if you look closely at the image i have of house at the top too, you can see that i never go too thin with the details there either.

transitioning into the fine details is just making sure to work in sections that i've defined by my largest shapes. i'll show a few process shots of a wilson painting and you might be able to spot how i go from a larger shape of the hair to smaller detailing.

im at my limit for images so i couldnt show all of my process shots for his hair but you can kind of see how systematic my approach is, how i go to a chunk of basically defined hair, and then add the finer detailing to it bit by bit.

lastly i’ll just mention i use two different brushes for hair. i use analog anabelle (which is part of the frenden brush pack) for the big basic shapes, and then i use SU-Cream Pencil for the finer details. you don’t have to use the same brushes as me but the main difference in these two and how they’re useful in my process is the amount and the type of texture in the brushes. analog anabelle has a subtler papery texture, but the cream pencil has sort of a hard pixelly effect to its texture? and i find that the heavier texture of the cream brush gives an illusion of detail without me putting in the hard work of actually painting it.

if you go into my art tag and find a painting titled ‘kiss from a rose’ you can see i used a soft untextured brush for sevens hair, and it doesn’t look anywhere near as realistic as the hair im painting now. i’m sure other artists can use soft brushes to detail hair well but i personally have no idea how to do that so i’d 100% recommend playing around with textured brushes and seeing what works for you👍

so sorry if any of this sounds like gibberish, again, i really do love talking about my process so i would 100% welcome more questions if any of this was unclear!

#asks #hope ANY of this helps i realise i have a longwinded and scatterbrained way of explaining things so i can never really tell haha

[trinrose3]

The one universal tip(s) that goes for every artist that I NEVER see get mentioned when people ask for advice:

Do life drawing. Go sit down somewhere outside(if you can) and draw people, animals, trees, rocks, landscapes whatever. Just...dont be weird about it like those tiktokers that sit on the subway AND THEN GIVE THAT PERSON THEIR ART OH MY GOD THATS CREEPY DONT DO THAT!!!!!

Draw what you observe. If you cant afford to go to any actual life drawing sessions or none are provided; draw yourself study yourself and what you can with your eyes cause mirrors can flatten but use them when necessary!

There are many sites out there dedicated to help artists do life drawing but camera ALWAYS warp no matter how good they are so its always best to study from life first but its never a bad idea to go to them if you cant.

Study the way the old masters did it, anything from like 1920s- to the present isnt gonna give you a good idea of how artists SHOULD draw structure in the body. DO NOT look at the “minimalistic” and stylized versions of a figure drawing. Those are good if you know what theyre doing and why but they wont help you understand anything.

Learn the difference between a study, and a gesture drawing. A gesture is capturing the flow and dynamic position and movement of the body, usually with a shorter time span on it. Studies are meant to help understand more of the anatomical features presented in the figure and how they appear in that specific posing.

Draw the surface area. Dont focus on the “outline” or the “shading”. Its best to pay attention to the surface to help give an idea of how the volume on the body is presented, with that will naturally come “shadow” (shadow should not actually be drawn unless doing a value study, but can be presented/seem present if passages* are created). It helps give a sense of bone, muscle, and fat structure in the body. IF you focus too much on outline or silhouette of the body it might end up looking flat.

DRAW DIFFERENT BODY TYPES!! It never hurts to study different body type! Everyone carries muscle and fat on their body differently and just having general knowledge of their placements might not be helpful enough, when drawing diverse body types.

Dont be afraid to draw nude art! You dont have to draw the genitals or whatever but if you draw people in bodysuits/underwear/unitards youre not gonna see the more detailed and subtle areas of places on the body. Theres also nothing inherently sexual about it and the embarrassment wears of quickly lmao.

*passages are a series of lines in a parallel direction created in a figure drawing to denote volume and surface area as well as flow, structure, anatomy, of specific parts of the body. Passages CAN over lap but should always follow the form and not be used as shading or crosshatching.

Thats all I got for now I think lol

#art tips #figure drawing #life drawing

[andreajingling]

[A theres a knock on your door! When you open it.. There's a rather large present, with a note on top! the note reads as follows:

"hey im your secret santa. merry arcmas? meant to get this out earlier but busy. sorry for the delay. should still be arcmas for you right? hope you like the gift. just make sure your mons dont eat the chocolate of course. -rs"

Within the large box is lifesized Flareon plush! It's very fluffy... There's also some Konpeitō, chocolate chip cookies, and a Spell Tag.]

// this is the perfect chance for some lore lets gooo /lh ~ | The place was BUMPING when they first got there, lights all over the place, music blaring from inside both the house and the restaurant next door, both Christmas related and, not.. I could swear one song over in the restaurant next door sounds like it's singing about talking in your sleep.. Odd branding too, who's that yellow bear? | ~ ~ | Well anyways, after the knock, a voice echoed from in the house, one that was drawing closer with footsteps. | ~

"WE'RE NOT BUYING ANYTHING, IF YOU TRY AND PAWN OFF THOSE SHITTY KNIFE SETS ON US I SWEAR TO THE GODS ABOVE AND THE DEMONS BELOW I WILL- oh."

~ | The Brunette in a Santa Outfit was cut off as she realized it wasn't anyone, rather, anything. She examined the box for a second, before pressing her ear onto it to make sure nothing was ticking. Too many times Tavish put stickies in there, so says her memoir. After confirming that it wasn't a collection of bombs that her scottish father figure had sent to detonate again, she slowly brought it in, the party inside still bumping as she did. | ~

"Looks like we got mail folks. No clue from who, thought postal service didn't run today..

~ | She paused, pressing a worried hand to her chin.. | ~

"percy and the other mail services d i d get the christmas mail done yesterday right.."

~ | Another woman, taller than the brunette by what looked to be two or so inches approached, resting a hand kindly on their shoulder, faded gold eyes matching Andrea's own shimmering Sapphire, and black hair drifting down her back. | ~

"Yes honey everything there was sorted don't worry, I listened to your ramblings last night.. What's it say?"

~ | The brunette at last decided to properly look at the box's tag, reading over the note left on it. As she did, two other figures walked over, the child, and the cannibal. Both were taking an interest in the box, listening to their mothers converse about it. | ~

"hey at least one of us does Cassidy."

~ | Andrea jested, giving a small peck on the cheek to the spiritual woman next to her. And as usual, the ghost melted into her wife's grasp. Lesbians. | ~

"Ok from what I've read, it's from that Secret Santa thing we signed up for back at the start of the month. Forgot about that thing somewhat.. Hey they got the time zones right it's still Christmas here on the Pacific Coast.."

"Then why does it say 'Arcmas'."

"Might be a different name for it, different religions, cultures, ways of celebrating, y'know."

"Ooh. Yeah fair enough."

~ | The two women took a step back, as they looked to the kid and the demon girl who are still eyeing the gift. | ~

"Have at it you two."

~ | As SOON as Andrea said those five words, the two began to rip open that gift's wrapping with the might of the demons below which, honestly makes sense considering one's dead, and one is actively possessed. | ~ ~ | Eventually, the two finally got the box open, and pulled off the lid to reveal the contents inside. | ~

"COOKIES. MINE."

~ | Mary rushed off, cookies in hand, the feast shall begin. | ~

"Oh FUCK yeah! Spirit Tag! Been looking for one of these! Shed will love this."

~ | Maddie scurried off to the couch, showing her Shedinja the tag, and carefully securing it to him in a way that wouldn't make him shatter into a million pieces, not only using it for the fact it's a Spirit Tag, but also as a Name Tag, just in case he takes another joy ride on the railway out back. | ~

"No way, no fucking WAY bro! I remember HAVING this shit as a kid! My parents ALWAYS put this in my stocking!"

~ | Cassidy grabbed up the Konpeitō, ripping it open, and taking a good handful, putting it into her mouth and MELTING at the flavor.. | ~

"Mmmph! Oh my god that is, really, really nostalgic.. Honey?"

~ | Cassidy turned to see what her wife was doing, only to see the woman on the floor, holding the life-size Flareon plushie in her arms like a child, or more accurately those like *gently holds* memes with the yellow creatures. Her own Flareon 'Coasteon' was looking at it with great intrigue as well. She was practically frozen, just, holding it close. Cassidy couldn't help but chuckle, sitting next to her, and snuggling up, giving her a soft, yet loving hug. | ~

"Lost a lot this year, I know ya did. But, hopefully next year has a lot more promise. Merry Christmas Honey."

~ | And with her quiet words, the brunette leaned on the black haired spirit, and quietly, the two enjoyed the last fragments of the season together. | ~

// OOC // WOO! I LOVE writing! Always a wonderful Christmas treat to be able to absolutely print like a mother fucker. Thank you for the wonderful gifts, honestly wonderfully thought out. No idea who sent em but if you're the one let me know! // Also I think it's time for an update to that character post. Wife Time.

#andrea posts #cassidy posts #maddie posts #mary posts #pokeblogging #rotomblr #pokemon irl #pkmn irl #fnaf #cause i mean there are mentions of it so yeah it kinda fits #ttte #it's got some mentions too so #tumblr rp #rp #oc rp #in character #roleplay

[darkicedragon]

Seb/Angelo don’t Fully Spark Joy for me and Azure. So we talk about developing Rougewolfe and Angelo interactions instead.

darkicedragon Yeah, hm. Theres no Spark for me w angelo and seb Theyve got the culture and class differences, but they dont clash AGAINST each other. They tease, but dont make each other react azure same ú-ù Angelo has potential, but Seb just doesn't cut it *sigh he's not Muzaka, unfortunately darkicedragon Hes an m at closest, pff. But w self esteem. A lil ball of rage azure technically yes, but even his angst falls flat and boy, I should eat him up with the amount of shit that happened to him darkicedragon We need qn escaped alpha .... ............ Roguewolf Well shit 😂 A failed alpha who went thru all the experiments and augments and is a ball or rage azure YESSSS someone to balance Angelo heck I'd eat this ISH UP! GIMMIE GIMMIE THIS EXACTLY darkicedragon Doing what he can to get by, but too traumatised to do much and ends up back in the hands of scientists again azure HNNNNNGGGGG you I like ur brain darkicedragon Tho would angelo have anything to do with him, since roguewolfs dna just isnt fit for alpha augs. Unless roguewolf tries hunter, has a bad reaction and angelo wants to fix it since he feels its his fault hunter is on the streets Or the new batch isnt meant for ppl already enhanced darkicedragon Roguewolfe hating it there bc it just reminds him of his Failure and all the shit he was put thru, and just rage bc of the strong association angelo has w augur .... And also angelo getting a first hand acct of whats been going on under his nose, so now he has to figure out what to do with all this information and how to adjust with his new perception of augur (unless he already had suspicions, but never had time to dig deeper into it) azure whose blood were they using for hunter? wasn't it roguewolf's? darkicedragon W adjustments. Maybe they improved his own mixture enough that his dna rejected the new mixture like the original azure > Roguewolfe hating it there bc it just reminds him of his Failure... smells like a lovely combination of M and Muzaka and I'm digging it so hard uwu 👌 Wolf not trusting Angelo, but having no choice but to follow and obey him bc he can help him not die due to his faulty augs while Angelo is v =-= bc something is clearly at fault, but he doesn't know how to fix it darkicedragon Angelo asking abt rogues scars 'Its from the alpha training?? Did you seriously never oversee any of it?' 'An accident...?' 'Hah. As intended. You ask any alpha around how many scars they got from training and come back to me, or do you only listen to other scientists?' azure ohohoho yessss darkicedragon 'Oh right, you WONT see them, bc they were the SUCCESSFUL ones, so all their scars were smoothed over with the augments, never to be seen again' 'I...' azure 🤤 👌 also night terrors that go extremely bad because Wolf uses his powers to defend himself and Angelo has to physically hold him down and wake him up which is not easy, bc him enhancing Wolf meant he was pretty powerful darkicedragon omggggg. is wolfe being looked after in augur building or angelos home, bc wolfe might put his fist thru a wall 😂 darkicedragon 'you never asked, did you. what happened to the failures. you were too interested in the ones who made it thru, your little pet project, never thinking abt what happened to the rest of us' 'i just thought-' 'yeah. you did. the rest of us never mattered, so long as you got your fucking results for your golden alphas' azure I love this 🥰 also bc Angelo being at an impasse coming to terms with all the ppl he indirectly hurt darkicedragon yesssss azure hmmm, I'd like to say Angelo's home bc angelo... illegally stabilizing Wolf maybe as thanks for him giving him hints about hunter also bc I don't think Wolf would want to go back to augur ever darkicedragon and since wolfe isnt an official alpha, shouldnt be treated in the building either azure THE DOGGOS O0O the doggos sensing when Wolf is in a reaaaally bad place, going to him to calm him down Angelo finds him dozing off in a corner, with the doggos piled up on him/next to him bc they sensed him having a night terror/a burst of anger and they grounded him darkicedragon angelo def knowing somethings up when the dogs go to wolfe rather than him 8') also zeus going to angel to help wake wolfe up azure while Apollo is just a puppy pile on top of Wolf all <QnQ> *smol whines bc he's not waking up and he's hurting darkicedragon yesssss. licking his face and wolfe still isnt waking up azure and when Angelo wakes him up, he's startled and lashes out at angelo, not at the doggos, ofc uwu darkicedragon angelo is the first face he sees, while doggos 'only' feel like restraints, so its angelo he lunges for ... good thing angelo can heal and doesnt feel 8'))) unless wolfe isnt that strong azure Angelo does a good job at fixing him ^-^ maybe he didn't mean to make him that strong he... accidentally made him strong Angelo like "Ah, hmm.... Oh, well' darkicedragon 😂 he got too In The Zone and suddenly hes been pouring over wolfe's dna and what to tweak and he's got 10 missed called from hastings wondering where the hell hes been and hes missed all these V Imp Meetings azure yessss and he's like 'tsk, such a nuisance' oooh, maybe Wolf was breaking down or getting real sick and he had 2 options crawl back to augur and hope they fix him or make a deal with Angelo Wolf hearing Angelo is looking for more info about Hunter and Wolfe can get him that info darkicedragon yaaaaa azure in exchange for Angelo fixing him and not letting him die "No offense, doc, but you couldn't take a single step in the slums and not be recognized. I blend in easily, I can get you the info you need. You just fix me." darkicedragon yesssssss azure "Are you looking to get unlicensed enhancements?" "No, I just wanna stay alive"

#night shift podcast #skype conversations #madameazzure #angelo volta #roguewolfe

[lightlycaramel]

Marriage is not a good option

You know I used to dream about marriage all the time. I used to dream about how happy my husband and I will be. The vacations we would take with other couples, our kids, and just each other. I thought I wanted marriage so bad. I wanted to be wanted by someone. I wanted to be special enough to be called someone’s wife. After being engaged for about 10 months now, I’m not so sure marriage is all it’s cracked up to be. I know everything isn’t going to be peachy and cream all the time. I know times are going to get rough. But right now this is the roughest time ever for me. I’m like if this is what marriage is then I don’t want any parts of it. Marcus I believe is an unstable individual. I’ve thought that from some time now, more like years. But just because someone is unstable, does that mean they don’t deserve to be loved or wanted. But he has so many different moods about him it’s ridiculous. Sometimes I ask myself like who are you really. This is why I told him it is important to figure out who your dad is. When I asked the psychic that time she mentioned that his dad had mental issues and to me that would be make a WHOLE LOT of sense. It would explain so much for me as well. But it’s like when he is up he is up. I mean he is smoking, making videos, and just being an all around type guy. But when stuff starts to hit the fan and things arent looking so hot; where he at? GHOST!! I’m like if you want to be a real social media influencer, youtuber, whatever the hell you call yourself; you need to show your followers when your up and when your down. Let them know that you are human and shit happens to you as well. But all he wants to do is get on social media and “act” like his life is the greatest. But that’s neither here nor there. Back to marriage. We aren’t even married yet and we argue alot and it’s always issues. I’m so over the Nita you do this, Nita you do that. Like Nita, Nita, Nita. I’m like at this point silence is golden!! We about to disappoint a whole lot of people, but this wedding is about to be OFF!! I don’t want to get married to someone with all of this confusion. What he said about me earlier really hurt my feelings. He said all I do is complain about being a mother. I honestly wanted to rip him a new one. Well let me see why...boy if I could be a father I would. Yall niggas dont do SHIT! Do the kids call on you for everything, hell no! Mommy can I get this, mommy can I get that. Maybe they call on their mom so much because you were busy out driving trucks all the time. Oh wait! my bad you were out taking loads and meeting bitches lol. I tell you I crack myself up. I mean I’m literally the parent that does it all. He does not see that. When Makinley wants to go to sleep, who does she call on, ME! Who dresses Makinley, ME! Who cooks the kids breakfast majority of the time; that would be ME again. Until he really lives in my shoes he aint never gonna get it. It’s even worse when I’m working. When I’m working everything is on me because he is already up and gone by the time I get up. Then I get home before him so that means that it makes more sense for me to start dinner. I mean when you are doing it all what the hell do you expect. I guess he expects me to be just as happy as a horse all the time. I have a lot of responsibility and don’t get a lot of time for myself or to myself. He can just go in that damn room of his whenever he feels like it and do his thing. The kids barely bother him. Then let’s go back to the room for a second. I hate the fact that I even wanted to find a house where he could have his own space. That was a big mistake and I regret it daily. Like all he cares about is that damn room. All he does is spend time in that damn room. Sometimes he spends so much time in there we barely see him. I mean I really wanna just record our lives because he really don’t see the stuff he be doing. Like I told him he spends too much time on his phone. At this point I am done saying that same shit about that. I don’t even care anymore. But I know he better not say nothing when I cut his shit off lol!! I am just that damn petty to do it too. I’m glad I haven’t bought his ring yet. Maybe this is a sign that I shouldn’t be marrying him; at least not right now. Maybe it was too soon. It’s like we got back together and then before I knew it he proposed. I mean I wanted him too as well, but maybe I shouldn’t have. I’m just so tired of being in this shit. I mean it’s nothing I can find that is positive about what we got going on. I am really going to give this some thought before I decide to take out a 10,000 dollar loan for this damn wedding. And we bought another house smh!! Maybe that was not a good idea either. I got this big house and then going to have to pay all the bills if we break up. But I would never stay with anyone because of money or kids. I want to be happy. I think I deserve that and he does too. Maybe he should of really tried to make things work with the girl from DC. That’s another thing I don’t understand. You cheat right!! not me...YOU!! You cheat and then everything is just suppose to go back to normal. Like maybe I’m the way I am because you cant do right. Maybe I’m the way I am because you continue to put other bitches over me so then hey I treat you like shit because you treat me like shit. I mean but let’s not think about that. Let’s not think about the hurt that you caused me. I just think it’s best for me to stay quiet. I keep saying I’m going to write more and that’s what I need to do. I do feel better after going in on him on this app. I feel like I can go downstairs and kiss him and hug him...NOTTTT! I am not that damn over it!! But do I want to argue with him...no. I don’t have much to say to him at this point. From now on I have a standard answer for his ass. They going to call me Tony the tiger because all of my answers are going to say GREATTTTT. Since I am so negative and I complain too much. I still think that is hilarious. You know what let me know when I do something right. I have no idea what that is to be exact. I hate to start marriage like this but if I’m not happy then I’m not happy. I mean I can’t fake or force myself to do something I don’t want to do. But lets go back to the unstable part. So when I’m mad you know I’m mad. I will shut down and act like your ass doesn’t exist at all. So he tells me that I need to stop holding on to stuff and move on. Okay so I know yesterday we got into it and it wasn’t pretty. But what do I do today, I decide to get up and forget it and move on like he asked me to. So I’m like sitting on his lap and want him to touch me and of course it’s plain and boring...I’m like what is wrong. Then of course he comes up with the what happened yesterday shit. So I’m like dude what the hell. You are the same person that wants me to get over stuff and not hold on to it but now you feel some type of way still!!! Make that make sense. So I got something for him. He better not try to touch me or have sex with me because that’s gonna be a no for me. I’m going to nicely and politely ask that he get off of me or stop touching me. I just don’t know how much energy I have left to give to this situation. I mean we have already been together on and off for ten years. So me tolerating all this extra stuff that I’m not feeling, it’s highly unlikely that I am going to keep dealing with that. 

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i can't think the wheels keep spinnin' there's more to this that I can see, i'm not sure what they need but my hands are tied there is nothing much that I can do 

the universe did not want me to finish this ive been working on it for a week and every time i sat down to try to finish it my computer broke somehow LMAO. but i rewatched the umbara arc and the fives arc back to back and it makes me so upset fives i love you.....

[image id: a redrawing of the hanged man tarot card with fives. hes suspended upside down with his arms behind his back, wearing his arc trooper armor. two shadowy rows of clone troopers, with bright red visors and lit in red, stand behind him. the sky in the background is bright red. small blue flowers hang from the top of the frame. at the bottom of the image is a plaque that reads ‘the hanged man. more blue flowers surround the plaque.]

#star wars #star wars the clone wars #the clone wars #fives #arc trooper fives #i was fucking w textures on this and im pretty happy w how it turned out!!!! and colors overall i really am happy w this #i think i saw nibeul post a tarot illustration w cody and i didnt wanna step on any toes by posting this #but i figured it looked different enough and i dont have all too many followers??? nibeul if you see this im sorry we just had the same idea #my art