fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.
hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.
hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy
hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it
hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently
hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love
horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho
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Dunmeshi request, Chilchuck and Marcille interacting? 🥺 Or standing next to each other that works too. Could be hugging, or sharing a meal/food, or…
Got a bit out of hand with the prompt XD I ended up doing a scene inspired by this fic! Based on that time Marcille Izutsumi and Chilchuck were sharing a bed in chapter 47. It felt very memorable so I tried to recreate it but I kind of went offscript because I was basing it on my recollection of the fic lmao
^Obsessed with this guy and how he lets Izutsumi use him like a hot water bottle bc it's comfier.
I think he'd hardly ever act this soft + tolerant of physical affection unless it's situations like this: When the others are too sleepy to remember it LOL
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might as well do this- uh no pressure to anyone who sees this btw
at 10 notes ill drink a glass of water
at 50 ill do some homework
at 75 ill clean my room
at 100 ill make sure to set up a selfcare app with everything i need to do and stick to it
at 250 ill work on my book plot
at 500 ill finish my takehome test
at 750 ill finish my presentation on why ppl should listen to tma
at 1k ill change my pronouns on discord to show my neos
at 2k ill share a fic i already wrote here but have been to scared to share
at 3k ill plan a fic
at 6k ill finish my animation
at 8k ill finish all my play list
at 10k ill try to fix my sleep schedual
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Two Days Left.
Colorish version + me being excited below!
IM SO EXCITED IM SO SO SO AGHHH
like I've never had so much motivation in my life I literally cleared the rest of my bio notes for a week in advance so I can just play the dlc when it comes out 🥳🥳🥳
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