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doodledrawsthings · 9 months
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I'm sorry if this is of any inconvenience but I was wondering how do you have the courage to post your art online cause iwant to do it to someday but I just can't find the right drawing though I've tried I can't figure it out like how do you do this wonderful stuff without worrying about hate or anything?
The main advice I can really give you is just. Don’t. worry about that.
People online will be mean, sometimes. Sometimes accidentally, sometimes with an understandable criticism, sometimes just for the sake of getting a response. Take it all with a grain of salt and curate who you follow and who you see on your dash and in tags if you’re that worried about it. I think when you post your art or anything you do online, that’s just something that has a possibility of happening no matter what you do.
Also I just really think it’s unlikely that anyone’s gonna just send you anon hate because you posted some drawings, unless they’re, like, objectively offensive for the sake of being offensive, or something.
Just try not to take social media too seriously, IMO. When I started posting here I posted grainy iPhone camera doodles of Transistor fan art from my school notebook cuz I liked the game and wanted to see if other people liked it, too. I wanted a place to put the things I drew and a place where I could track my progress as I posted my art over the years, and maybe even meet people. If that’s what you want your eventual art blog to be, then that’s all it really needs to be.
If it’s something more practical you’re looking for: when I was starting out, I would load up the post I wanted to make, hover over the post button, and count down from ten. When I hit one, I just post it, no matter what. If I really didn’t like the post, I could just delete it.
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scuderiasundays · 7 months
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better together
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summary: airline lounges, box box widgets, and a cheesy greeting card 💌
words: 1,045
a/n: the romcom girlie in me has always wanted to write a meet-cute and i've been listening to too much lizzy mcalpine! tagging @vamossainz55, @sainzcaleruega, @monzabee, @ssainzz, @diorleclerc, and @userlando just because. let me know if you'd want a part two! hugs and kisses 🫶🏼
Love comes when you least expect it. Those same old words had fallen from the lips of every person you knew, so much so that they now felt weightless. On this particular evening, you found yourself at your best friend’s wedding reception, zoning out at the open bar. You nodded along as some man who’d had one too many G&T’s rambled on about his meet-cute on the Paris metro. Seeing two people you adored make a lifelong commitment only reaffirmed the fact that you craved the same.
It was no secret you weren’t exactly the MVP of the single scene. On any given night out, you’d leave the club before midnight to get a full eight-hour snooze. Dating apps were a no-no, as reruns of Catfish had made you skeptical about “finding the one” online. At work, you kept a low profile, socializing just enough to have a tight circle of work friends. It was as if you were coasting on autopilot, wanting love but hesitant to steer towards it.
Not to say that being single was all bad. Every hard-earned dollar was invested right back into the things you loved: trips, clothes, and your dog Cannoli. You silently weighed the pros and cons of your lifestyle as you stepped into the airline lounge.
Setting down your latest read to save your seat, you made your way to the breakfast buffet and grabbed a plate of avocado toast, poached eggs, and a glass of orange juice. On your way back, you spotted someone in a hoodie and cap making themselves at home in the armchair opposite yours.
The whole lounge was virtually empty, and this just had to be his seat of choice? You slowly approached from behind and let out a quiet gasp as you noticed them flipping through your book. “Love languages, huh?” The man pointed at the cover and smiled.
Your pupils dilated twice their size as you registered just who it was. The fan-made bracelets, the Leica, and, most of all, the signature McLaren cap—it all fell into place. “My manager and I just got into a huge argument, and honestly, I’d rather be anywhere but with him right now. Do you mind if I-" He gestured towards the seat beside you, his eyes radiating a silent plea.
“No problem. Let me give you your space,” you responded, hastily gathering your things. Just as you were about to step away, his hand gently clasped your wrist. “I could use the company. I’m Bob, by the way,” he mumbled, oblivious to the fact that his cover was blown.
As in, you knew he was currently seventh place in the driver’s championship and slowly but surely climbing up the standings. The last thing he needed was for you to bring any of that up, so you did as he said, trying to give him a sense of normalcy he so deserved.
He headed to the breakfast buffet and returned with the very items you had selected. "Copying me?" you teased. “First step in getting to know you,” he grinned. Curious about your life, he asked about your job in the emergency room. You told him the hours were grueling but watching extremely sick patients leave healthy made it all worthwhile. "Hope I never end up being your patient," he joked.
His interest didn't stop there; he inquired about siblings (only child), your dream vacation destination (Antibes), and whether you were a dog or cat person (not even a question). You, being a proud dog mom, wanted to show your furry guy off and handed Lando your phone.
As he squinted at your phone, you heard him say, "7 days to go. United States Grand Prix." A wave of panic washed over you as you remembered the Box Box widget that also occupied your screen. The silence was deafening as you wished the ground would swallow you up. 
“Let me see the app,” He said. You normally wouldn’t have acquiesced so quickly, but you crumbled and unlocked your phone. He appeared to scroll and click a few things before he handed it back. “Widget Preferences. Constructor: McLaren? Driver: Lando Norris?” You asked as you noticed he’d made some selections.
“You hadn’t bothered with the preferences, so I took the liberty of choosing.” He blushed as the awkwardness of it all hung in the air. “That doesn’t feel fair. I’ve had all this time to get to know you, and I can’t say the same for the other drivers.” You teasingly retorted.
“I'll let the guys know they're in a tight race for your heart." He snickered. The man was on the verge of tears when his manager came by to remind him of his impending flight. “Flight’s in an hour, Lando,” snapped him right back to reality.
He entrusted you with his bags as he ran out to run a quick pre-flight errand. You couldn’t help but squeal the second Lando had vanished from view. What kind of magic was in the air at this airport and could it be bottled?
You tapped through your best friend’s Instagram stories as you awaited his return. The nearly empty lounge echoed as Lando asked a nearby gentleman for a pen and jotted something down. Breathless, he handed you a card, urging you to read it later.
"Your shoelace is untied," he mentioned, and as he bent down to tie it, his blue-green eyes met yours. 
The British racing driver left your life in the abrupt way he had entered it. You took in the card, decked out with drawings of mac and cheese, milk and cereal, and avocado and toast, captioned "Better Together" at the bottom.
It was the only card in the store, but it felt just right. You highlighted “words of affirmation” as your love language, so I thought I’d give this a go. Thanks for keeping me company. Talk soon? - LN 
His number was scribbled at the end. You quickly changed your lock screen widget to showcase his stats and took a screenshot to send his way.
New look. I might be biased, but I think you just became my favorite driver. Let's see if you can keep it up.
He replied right away.
I like the sound of that. When can I see you again?
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cameronspecial · 4 months
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Assisting In Deception (Part 2)
Pairing: Rafe Cameron x Reader
Warnings: Mentions of Sex and Assassinations.
Pronouns: She/Her
Word Count: 2.8K 
Summary: Rafe makes an unusual offer that Y/N takes just to prove a point to her cousin.
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Y/N enters Rafe’s office to see him scrolling on his phone at his desk. His coffee is left cold in its mug while his focus is on his phone. He looks in her direction at the sudden feeling of another presence in the room. She walks over to the chair in front of his desk and waits for him to put down his phone. “Yes, Ms. Y/L/N. What do you need?” he offers, giving her his full attention. She readjusts her posture with the sudden new gaze on her, “I know it’s a little early, but I was wondering if I could have March 18th off.” His eyebrows knit together in confusion. She isn’t one to request time off unless she is sick and he highly doubts she can predict being sick six months in advance. He knows she is a planner, but no one could schedule a sickness.
“Okay, may I ask why you need the day off?” 
“For my cousin’s wedding. I mean it would be great if I could have the whole six months just to look for a date, but I could do with just the day.”
“You need a date for the wedding?” 
“It’s not necessarily a need. It just would make my life a little easier to go to the wedding without being questioned by my relatives about why my romantic life is non-existent. It also doesn’t help that there are like a million parties before the actual wedding that I will be going to solo.” 
Rafe shifts his body weight forward, placing his elbow on his desk and his chin on his hand to show his interest. He feels as though fate plopped this opportunity in front of him. What are the chances that Y/N needs a boyfriend at the same time that he needs a girlfriend? “I have a proposition for you,” he states, calmy like what he is about to say is an everyday offer. Y/N’s head tilts, “What would that be?” He looks into her eyes and it feels as though he is about to reveal a deep dark secret. “I want you to be my girlfriend.” She sits there in shock for a solid minute; her mouth hangs open, saying nothing. Rafe worries, waving his hand in front of her face, “Ms. Y/L/N?” “I’m not sure what to say about that,” she admits with bewilderment all over her face. Rafe nods, “I should clarify. I would like for you to be my fake girlfriend. I would go to all of your family events and in exchange, you would let me use you to show the media that I’m not everything they say I am.”
“I see. So you want to use me.”
“Well, yes. But I shouldn’t have used that word. We would just make media appearances together and that’s it.”
“Theoretically, if I were to say yes, I need more details on what you would require me to do.” 
“Exactly what I said. You could flaunt me in front of your family. I’d go to the engagement party, bridal party, the wedding and any other thing related to the wedding. For me, you would just need to make one or two event appearances, be seen with me in public a few times and maybe one interview. That’s it. If you agree, we could write this all down in a contract.”
“What about the fact that you are my boss? Don’t you think people will say things about that?” 
“They probably will, but everyone will have criticism of who I say I’m dating anyway. I have full confidence that you can charm the public.” 
Y/N takes a second to ponder what he is saying. She weighs the pros and cons of his statement and in her mind, the cons come out on top. “I’m sorry, Mr. Cameron. But I don’t think I’m comfortable with the idea of being in the spotlight. Thank you for offering though.” She gets up from the chair and makes her way back outside.
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It’s been a few hours since Y/N has been in his office and she can’t stop thinking about what he said. She turned down the offer because she wasn’t sure it was a smart idea with her crush on him. The relationship would be fake, but the possibility of her catching true feelings for him could be a risk. It would be too painful if that happened and then they had to stop dating. She would rather take the annoyance of being single than the pain of heartbreak. She still can’t believe how calm and collected he was throughout the whole conversation. He acted like he was asking her what she wanted for dinner, not like he was asking her to lie to the world about their relationship. The ringing of her phone snaps her out of her thoughts. 
She takes it out of her pocket to answer it. “Hey Y/N, how are you? Did you get Francine’s wedding invite?” Natalie asks through the phone. Y/N shakes her head at her cousin’s inability to hide what she really wants to know. Natalie has only ever had one interest in life and that is one-upping her cousin. “I did, Nat. Are you going?” she plays into her cousin’s game. 
“Of course, I’m going. I love Francine, so I would totally want to go to her wedding. Plus, Richard can take the day off. I’m thinking of getting us matching hats for the wedding. Well, a fascinator for me and a top hat for him.” 
“That sounds like a great idea. I’m glad that you are happy with Richard.”
“So… Are you going to be going to the wedding solo again?”
The hint of pity and patronizing in her tone irritates Y/N to no end. Y/N responds without another thought, “Actually, I do have a date. Not that it is your business really. Anyway, I have to go. My boss is calling me.” She hangs up the phone and sighs at what she has to do. She gets up from her desk, knocking on Rafe’s door. She enters at his approval and sits herself in the same chair again. “I accept,” she informs. “But I want a say as to what goes into the contract.” 
“I can work with that.” 
Rafe holds his hand out for her to shake. As she shakes it, worry floods through her. She realizes that this isn’t just going to be something her family is going to see, but the whole world is going to know about their relationship. What will they say when they learn she isn’t the heiress of some big company? What will they think if they learn she is his assistant? She buries her stress deep inside and promises to not let it out until this whole thing is over. 
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The staff lounge is empty except for Topper sipping his tea whilst on his phone. He may be the head of legal at Cameron Development, but he always makes sure to get to know everyone in the company, no matter the rank of their job title. “Ahh, well if it isn’t the new Mrs. Cameron,” he jokes when he notices her at the door. She smiles at him and walks to the Nespresso machine, “That is not a new nickname that you are calling me. So I see you got the contract.” Topper laughs at the seriousness of her voice at what he called her. “That I did. I have to say I was not expecting to see a contract about your relationship with Rafe when I woke up this morning.”
“Me either. All I wanted was someone to go to my cousin’s wedding with me. And now, I am going to be paraded around his world.”
“Well, you could’ve just asked me. I’m always available to take you out.”
“Thanks but the only taking out I’m considering right now is the one where you would need a gun. All jokes aside, I think it’s going to be fine. Rafe is a good boss.”
“He is and if he ever gets on your nerves too much, you can always come to me.” 
“I’ll definitely keep that in mind.” 
——
Rafe looks around the subway station horrified about the state of the place. His expensive dark blue polo shirt and tan dress pants are a stark contrast to the hot and rat-infested platform. Y/N giggles at the look on his face, “It’s like you’ve never been on  the subway before.” “I haven’t,” he admits, looking at her with raised eyebrows. Her head moves from side to side and she hesitantly takes his hand to guide him onto the arriving subway.
One of the stipulations of the contract is that Y/N gets to take them on their first “outing” as a couple. She wanted to go out with him outside of work to get to know him more than the very little he’s allowed anyone he works with to get to know him; the exception being Topper and Kelce, who grew up with him and were given jobs when he took over the company. The other rule she stipulated is that she wants a soft launch of the relationship until it is necessary for her to be revealed as the mystery girl. At least, this way she can keep her privacy as long as she can. She had told Rafe to dress casually, but she really shouldn’t have been surprised that he still arrived looking like a million dollars. 
He keeps his sunglasses on as he pauses to sit down beside her on the subway seat. He takes a chance to glance at the costumed cookie monster and looks back at her. “Do you have to keep your sunglasses on? We are on the subway,” she questions, leaning in to talk to him. His eyes dart to the muppet beside him, “Yes, because me wearing sunglasses indoors is the strangest thing here. Why couldn’t we have taken my car?” She shoots him a playful glare. “Your fancy dancy car would bring too much attention to us and that is the last thing I want right now,” she explains, checking the subway screen to see how many stops until they get off. “Where are we going anyways?” he inquires, following her gaze. 
“It’s a surprise.” 
——
The pair exit the station and the sight before him is one he is familiar with. He isn’t sure what “regular” people restaurant is around Central Park, but he lets her steer them in the right direction. He looks down at their joint hand and he can’t help but notice how they interlace together perfectly. He shakes himself out of his observation and looks up to see the reason why she stopped. In front of him is a street cart that appears to be selling hot dogs. He looks over at her with a questioning look, “You want me to eat food that has come from a cart?” 
“Oh, come on. It’s not that bad. And this place has a permit. It’s fine.”
“You can eat that stuff, but I’m not risking it.”
“Stop being so snooty. Eating is part of a date. So you are going to go sit on that bench and eat whatever I get you. If you are a good boy, then maybe I’ll get you a Spider-Man or Spongebob ice cream. Dealers choice.” 
He stares at her in surprise that she talked to him in such an ordering manner. She always speaks her mind, but she normally does it in a less commanding way. He listens to what she says and goes to sit on a bench looking over the lake. After a few minutes, she comes back with two hot dogs and water bottles. She hands him one of each, “I have ketchup and mustard packets if you want. I didn’t get you a New York hot dog because I thought I would ease you into street food culture.” He takes the packets with thanks and adds the condiments to his meal. They eat in silence until she breaks the silence. “So you grew up in the Outer Banks. What’s that like?” He looks over at her, finishing chewing before answering, “Yeah. It was quiet.” 
“Wow, this has been a great conversation. Thank you for participating in it!”
“I don’t know what you expect, Ms. Y/L/N. I’ve never been much of a talker.” 
“First, when we are outside of the office, you can call me Y/N. Second, what I expect from you is to stop being Mr. Cameron, my boss, and to be Rafe, my boyfriend. If people are going to actually believe we are dating, then you have to separate those two.” 
“Okay, fine. I see your point. Ask me another question.” 
She grins at his offer and takes a second to think about it, “You are never playful or smile, so why do you tease me sometimes? It’s the least serious I’ve ever seen you.” 
“You’re the only one who isn’t afraid of me. Plus, it amuses me how flustered you get.”
Y/N is rendered speechless and she uses one hand to put her hair that is framing her face on both sides of her face behind her ear. The conversation flows in small talk while they finish their hot dogs. She takes their garbage and stands up, “You’ve been good. I guess I can get you an ice cream. Do you want Spider-Man or Spongebob?”
“Are those the only two options? What about the other flavours?” 
“Yes. Now, choose.” 
“Spongebob.”
She nods and heads back over to the stand. He watches as she pays for the sweet treats and returns to him. Rafe didn’t want her to pay for everything on the date, but she had put it as a requirement in the contract. He takes the package from her, opening it as soon as it makes contact with his hand. The disappointment on his face is evident on his face and she laughs. “This does not look like the picture,” his lips turn in a microscopic pout. Her head moves from side to side, “Things rarely do, Boss.” 
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Y/N returns home from the date a little after five to find Juni sitting on the couch, watching TV.  “Where have you been? You didn’t tell me you were going out, Sweetie,” Juni interrogates, getting up from the couch to be closer to Y/N. She chuckles at her best friend worrying like her mother. She gives her a hug, “Did you forget that I told you about my fake date with Rafe today?” “Oh, yeah. I did. Sorry, I’ve been so busy with work that I forgot. How was your date with the Big C?”  she apologizes, sitting herself down at the kitchen island. 
“One. That cannot be your new nickname for him. Two. It was good. He opened up to me a little bit, so we are making progress. It was adorable, he was so disgruntled that the Spongebob ice cream wasn’t like the picture. Also, apparently, he teases me because he likes to see me flustered.” 
The loving look in Y/N��s eyes causes Juni to frown, “Just be careful with him. I don’t want you getting hurt in this whole fake dating thing, Sweetie. I’ve never seen these things end well.”
“Don’t worry. I won’t fall for him. He’s my boss and nothing more.” 
Alexander enters the apartment with no knock and an annoyed look on his face. “Why must people be so crude? Why does no one want a serious relationship anymore?” he complains, settling himself on the couch. The girls turn with concerned looks on their faces. “Another bad date?” Y/N poses, getting up from her stool to sit beside him. “Yes, this guy literally told me all he wants is a fuck buddy. And when I asked him why he still tried to match with me even though my profile said I wanted a relationship, he said that he just thought I was lying and would agree to just fucking when I saw his face,” he answers and lets himself be embraced by Y/N. Juni gets up to rub his back in reassurance, “Ugh, I hate men that are so cocky like that. I’m sorry the date went bad. He doesn’t realize what a great guy he is missing out on.” 
Heat rushes to his cheeks and he scratches the back of his neck. They look into each other's eyes. Anyone but them can see the obvious attraction between the two. Y/N looks between the pair with a slight bit of jealousy. She wishes that she could have chemistry like that with someone, but that would require believing in love first.
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brcnze · 24 days
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but even after this, you’re still everything to me.
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a/n: im not hugely keen on this but thought i’d post it anyway! i hate this luna fic drought we’re all in so much so here’s my contribution hehe! i’ve also only roughly read it through so please ignore any mistakes.
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but even after this, you’re still everything to me.
Everything was a constant reminder of her; the matching toothbrush that shared a home beside her own, the golden smiley face necklace that she had given her as a present because it reminded her of her smile, the excessive amount of half empty condiments still in the fridge, the little westie she saw every day after training and whom still got excited to see her. 
Lucy was gone, but the memory of her was far from that. 
It had been a grand total of six months since the defender had transferred to her new club. Six months since Ona had felt truly happy. She felt silly really, their relationship had started off as long distance and it was overly common to have to deal with it at some point being a sportsperson. 
However, after living the dream life with Lucy for an entire season and becoming so accustomed to having her by her side day and night it utterly broke her when she left. It broke them. 
She didn’t blame Lucy, she couldn’t. The defender had wanted to extend her contract with Barça but unfortunately wasn’t offered a renewal. The pair had cried many tears together when they learnt the news, less than ready to face being apart yet again. They spent evenings upon evenings going through offers that Lucy had received and weighing out the pros and cons. 
In the end, Lucy settled on Bayern. She had offers worldwide, everyone unsurprisingly jumping at the chance to sign the talented right-back. However, Germany was the closest she could be to Ona and although swearing she would always put her career first, Ona was now her priority. 
The day the older woman had left, the last time she closed the door to what had been their shared apartment, she had taken off with a promise. She promised Ona that they would be okay, that she would visit whenever she could and that she would never give up on them. 
She kept that promise. Messaging and facetiming Ona at every opportunity, finding as many gaps in her schedule as she could just to fly over to see her, but Ona wasn’t strong enough. The younger woman couldn’t cope with the distance, she’d had a taste of a life with Lucy and having it ripped from underneath her sent her into self sabotage. 
Lucy wasn’t stupid, she knew Ona like the back of her hand and so the change in her demeanour was picked up by her instantly. 
“Is everything okay?” 
Ona looked at her through the screen, the beautiful eyes she loved more than anything filled with nothing but concern. She went to nod, pretend that everything was fine, but it wasn’t and Lucy knew it too.
“I can’t do this anymore.” 
The break up was filled with tears. None of the breakups the spaniard had been through had been pleasant, but this was so different. They were both still so deeply in love with the other, they wanted it to work but had both come to the conclusion that they were putting one another through more harm than good. 
Lucy was the woman that Ona wanted to spend the rest of her life with. She knew that from day one, but for some reason the clouded thoughts in her brain persuaded her that it would be easier to give it all up rather than fight for it. It was completely out of character for Ona to just give up this easily, but she had never experienced a love like this and love makes you do crazy things. 
She spent the rest of the night crying in bed, using Coco as a source of comfort. She didn’t think she could possibly feel anymore shitty until her phone pinged with a message, her heart physically breaking at its contents. 
I promise this is the last time i will contact you, but i just had to say this before i let you go.The two years i got to call you mine were easily the best years of my life. I’ll never find another like you Ona Batlle and i hope more than anything that one day we find our way back to eachother. Thank you for everything. I love you, always.
Your Lucia. 
They hadn’t spoken since. 
Everyone told her it would get better after that, or somewhat easier. It never did. It had been months since the breakup and although she was able to force a smile onto her face at training, the facade instantly slipped as soon as she got a minute alone. 
The team were at dinner together after being away for international break. Ona being forcefully dragged out by Mariona against her will after insisting she wanted to stay home. She loved being around her teammates, but the thought of socialising with anyone now aside from her dog felt utterly challenging. 
She was sat beside Keira throughout the meal, not missing the concerned glances the ginger would give her every now and again. The spaniard envied Keira in a way, her being the only one on the team who got to see Lucy somewhat regularly. Tossing around a piece of chicken on her fork, she couldn’t help but allow temptation to get the better of her and ask the question on the front of her mind. 
“How is she?” 
Keira turned to face Ona, her eyes immediately softening as she took in her broken expression. 
“She asked me the same question.” 
The ginger smiled sadly, not forgetting the same sad look that was on Lucy’s face when she too asked how Ona was doing. 
“Her and Georgia are thick as thieves now they play on the same team, but you should really message her yourself. I know it would make her smile from ear to ear because she’s missing you an awful lot.” 
Ona hated the way her heart picked up upon hearing that last part. She thought she should be moving on, but it was impossible.
The midfielder didn’t miss the hopeful glint in her eye upon hearing how much Lucy missed her. Some may say it was odd how much care Keira had for her ex girlfriend and her ex girlfriends ex, but she couldn’t deny they were perfect for one another. Herself and Lucy had ended on the best terms possible and she and Ona had made her feel more than comfortable when they all played on the same team, actually forming a genuine friendship that they all valued.
“Long distance is hard, but it really is worth it if you love them enough. I wish more than anything that i got to see Laura everyday but everytime i do get to see her i’m reminded of why i do it.” 
The spaniard let out a sigh, grateful for Keira’s kindness but also filled with the thoughts that she wasn’t strong enough to cope with it. She didn’t want to be the reason that her and Lucy both always felt an emptiness when they were apart.
“Thank you, Keira. She would be worth it, of course she would, but i’m just not as strong as you are.” 
Keira wanted to argue it, convince Ona that she was indeed strong enough and that the heart ache would never actually go away if she just gave up. However, she also knew that Ona didn’t need to hear that right now, opting to just squeeze her shoulder and offer her a sad smile.
So, for the remainder of the football season Ona did her best to push her sadness to the back of her mind. There was no way she was going to be getting back into the dating scene, that wouldn’t be fair on her or a potential partner. Instead, she focused on finding things that made her happy again and partook in less moping around. She busied herself with old and new hobbies that she found she enjoyed and worked on her ever awful baking skills all the way up until the final match. 
Her teammates noticed the change in her, and although the tinge of sadness never quite left, they were overjoyed to get a slice of their happy friend back. The euros were also fast approaching, and having played her last game of the 24/25 season Ona was feeling as ready as ever to play for her country. 
The tournament was being held in Switzerland, and having visited a few times already Ona was excited to return to the beautiful country. Amongst the excitement of it all, the spaniard hadn’t even thought twice about the fact that Spain obviously weren’t going to be the only country in attendance. It wasn’t until she was sat on the plane next to one of her best friends, Salma, that the realisation hit her like a ton of bricks.
“You think you’re going to be okay, Oni?” 
Ona had given her a questioning look, taking out an airpod to try and gauge what she was referring to. 
“Seeing Lucy again and everything.” 
That’s when it hit her. 
She’d tried to force herself to stop thinking about Lucy as much. She attempted the classic out of sight, out of mind approach and although it hadn’t worked and she still thought about her every single damn minute, she hadn’t actually taken into consideration the fact they were going to be more than likely less than five minutes down the road from one another for the next few weeks. 
They hadn’t ended on bad terms at all, the last message Ona received from the english woman being nothing but adorable. However, that didn’t prevent the nervous feeling growing in her tummy at the idea of seeing the woman she loved so dearly after so many months. 
“I hadn’t actually thought about it.” 
Salma noticed the way her friend was nervously picking at her nails now, placing her hand atop to offer some comfort. 
“It will be fine, you don’t need to worry. It’s not like it’s going to be awkward between you or anything.” 
For the remaining duration of the flight, Ona couldn’t help but allow her mind to spiral about what seeing Lucy again would be like. She was excited in a way, she missed the older woman more than she ever knew it was possible to miss a human, but she also was filled with nerves. 
Herself and Lucy had always struggled to stay away from one another. They were like magnets from the day they met, drawn to one another instantly when in close enough proximity. It was one of the things that made Ona realise just how deep her love for her was, never before being a very physical person. 
The spaniard allowed her mind to wander all the way up until she reached her hotel room. The girls all got their own rooms now, which she appreciated for the privacy but also missed the company. 
Ona collapsed straight onto the white sheets and as soon as she unlocked her phone, almost immediately found herself mindlessly scrolling through Lucy’s instagram, something she definitely didn’t do on the regular, and smiling to herself at the pictures. Lucy was the most beautiful woman on the planet in her eyes and she couldn’t help but want to appreciate that.
As she scrolled down a little further, she came across her favourite collections of photos. During their relationship they both had agreed to keep it private, but not a secret. So, something they both had enjoyed doing frequently was complying pictures for a photo dump that gave the teeniest subtle hints of the other. 
They resembled school girls whenever they’d hit the post button, giggling away to each other about the hidden meanings behind each photo they had chosen. 
As she refreshed the page, scrolling back up to the top, she came across a new photo she hadn’t seen before. It had been posted only twenty seconds ago and showed Lucy, grinning widely at the camera as she stepped off a plane. Ona missed that smile more than anything, not being able to stop herself from zooming in to get a closer look at her favourite eyes. She missed looking into them without the preventative barrier of a screen more than anything. However, what she definitely didn’t intend to do at all was like the photo. 
As soon as the red heart splayed across the screen, she froze. 
“Mierda!” 
She muttered to herself, shutting off her phone instantly. It really wasn’t that big of a deal. All she’d done was press the like button, but knowing it was  after only twenty seconds of being posted made her internally cringe. 
She wasn’t a huge instagram user at the best of times, only really going on there to promote games or post a few photos herself. She rarely ever liked posts and Lucy knew that. It had become a weird sort of game for them both, Lucy knowing that if she ever received a like from Ona it meant that the spaniard had really, really enjoyed the photo. 
After a few minutes of cursing herself, face buried into her hands, she felt her phone buzzing multiple times from underneath the pillow she had shoved on top of it. 
Lucy Bronze liked your post. 
Lucy Bronze liked your post. 
Lucy Bronze liked your post.
She knows she shouldn’t but Ona couldn’t help the smug smile that wiped across her face. She’d been in the same country as Lucy for approximately an hour and already she couldn’t keep away. 
She stared at the collection of notifications, knowing Lucy knew exactly what she was doing and contemplated messaging her. She was weighing up the pros and cons in her head before she finally came to the conclusion of…fuck it. 
Stalker.
She kept it short and a reply came almost instantly. 
If i remember correctly it was you who liked my post first, within a minute of it being posted may i also add. 
You looked nice. 
She was feeling brave, eagerly anticipating Lucy's response and not being disappointed when it came through. 
So did you.
The spaniard hovered her fingers over the keys, preparing what she wanted to say next when her phone began to ring with a facetime request. She knew who it was before even reading the ‘Lucia’ followed by a pink heart, that flashed up. Ona knew it was a bad idea to answer the call, but it was a bad idea to send her a message in the first place, so to hell with it. 
As the screen filled with Lucy, she opened her mouth to speak but was immediately silenced by the sight. The defender had her hair down and splaying across her shoulders, her glasses resting perfectly on the bridge of her nose, a content smile on her lips. She must’ve noticed Ona’s trance as what was a smile turned into a smirk and she took the words right out of her mouth. 
“I’ve missed seeing your face.” 
Ona blushed at that, mirroring the smirk that Lucy was giving her. 
“You are in Switzerland now, too?” 
Lucy nodded, “We arrived a couple hours ago. How have you been?” 
The pair spoke for hours, but it felt like minutes. Everything always felt so easy with Lucy, and Ona had missed the lighthearted conversations they would share. It was nice to talk to someone and not feel like she was pretending for once. Lucy could tell just by the younger girls' mannerisms that she wasn’t totally herself and she too wasn’t totally herself either. Neither woman had been since the day they had broken up. 
Lucy had craved seeing Onas smile for months, but the fact it didn’t quite reach her eyes anymore didn’t go unnoticed by her. She kept pressing her on whether she was really doing okay, and upon being met with an unconvincing nod for the third time she asked her to see her tomorrow. 
Ona was sceptical at first, knowing that she would likely break down at some point if she was to see Lucy. However, the opportunity was unlikely to become available again anytime soon so she had to grab it with both hands. She chose to ignore how impossibly further back that would set her on her attempts at moving on, and she honestly couldn’t bring herself to care.
“You’re really up for meeting tomorrow, yeah?” 
Lucy questioned, a little taken aback that Ona had actually agreed. 
“Si, i would really like to.” 
After saying goodnight to Lucy, Ona couldn’t quite comprehend the fact that she would be seeing her tomorrow. She tossed and turned in the hotel bed, thinking about how long it had been and what she was actually going to say to her. 
When realisation had hit her on the plane earlier that day that they’d be in the same place, she didn’t think for even a second that tomorrow she’d be willingly meeting up with her. Just the two of them. 
The thought of being next to her and not being able to call her love, rest her head in the crook of her neck, trace the outline of her wrist tattoo the way she loved, kiss her senseless seemed impossible. She and Lucy had been drawn to each other from day one, never ever being just friends and always being one hundred times more than that. However, she would have been a fool to turn down her offer after craving just her presence for so many months. 
It’s safe to say she went to sleep with Lucy, and Lucy only on her mind that night. 
Ona was convinced she had never gotten up and ready faster in her life the next morning. Herself and Lucy had agreed to grab coffee and just go for a stroll around a local park, close to both of their hotels. It was crazy to think that they actually used to do this most days together, and it was now that Ona realised how much she took the most simple of things for granted. 
She didn’t plan on telling anyone that she was going to meet Lucy, not wanting to answer any unwanted questions. However, the ridiculously wide smile for only eight in the morning didn’t go unmissed by Mariona. 
“What’s got you so smiley chica?” 
Ona turned to give her a small shrug. 
“Just excited for tomorrow’s game.” 
Mariona narrowed her eyes, not believing a single word. 
“I know that smile. That’s your Lucy smile, have you seen her?” 
The brunettes eyes widened. She loved how close she was with her teammates, but the fact they could analyse her moods this in depth and with such little information made her wish they didn’t know her quite so well. 
“How did you kn-“ 
Mariona cut her off. 
“You’ve been a lot happier these past few weeks Oni, but we can all tell it’s a little false. You haven’t looked as happy as you do this morning since Lucy left Barça. Now you’re in the same country and suddenly you’re like the gato de Cheshire!” 
Ona sighed in defeat, there was no way she could argue with that. 
“Okay fine, you got me. But i haven’t seen her yet. I’m meeting her after breakfast and it’s just as friends, sadly.” 
The forwards grin widened even more, impressed with her ability to guess correctly and also happy that two of her best friends would be reuniting again. 
“Do you think it’s a bad idea though? I want to see her so badly but i’m…scared.” 
Mariona met her with a sympathetic smile, grasping her hand that was nervously picking at her t-shirt. 
“There’s no need to be nervous, guapa. I know, we all know, how much you have been missing her and this is the greatest opportunity. Besides, you and Lucy will get back together one day. I know everything, remember.” 
Ona let out a huff of a laugh, shaking her head as she got up to scrape the remnants of her breakfast into the bin. 
“Gracias, Mario.”
“Don’t have too much fun, Oni. Oh and when you’re done with her tell her i’d like to see her too!” 
Mariona called out after her as the spaniard made her way outside with a fond chuckle and a ‘si lo que sea.’ 
As Ona made her way outside, she stood by the fir tree tucked around the corner from the Spanish girls hotel. She and Lucy had agreed to meet there and so she busied herself with scrolling through her emails she had neglected whilst she waited. She had so many feelings. She was nervous and excited all at the same time, but thankfully the anticipation was cut short as a deep, familiar voice called out to her. 
“Ona?” 
Her head snapped up at the English accent, emails immediately forgotten. 
As soon as she looked into those beautiful eyes properly for the first time again in too many months she felt as though she could turn into a human puddle. 
“Hola, Lucia.” 
Lucy smiled at the nickname, all the feelings she had been desperately trying to keep bottled up spilling out. She let out a deep sigh as she took in the woman in front of her. 
“Wow, i- i can’t believe you’re here.” 
Ona mirrored her smile, nodding her head in the direction of the park to begin their walk together. 
They chatted non-stop about anything and everything, never once enduring any type of awkward silence and everything felt just like it had many months ago. Lucy brought them
both a coffee, ordering exactly what she knew Ona liked and ignoring the spaniards insistence on paying. 
As they carried on, coffees in hand the pair reached a bench in a secluded area, opting to sit down for a while. 
“So, how is it at Bayern?” 
“It’s okay. The girls are lovely, it’s nice to have Georgia there as a familiar face, but i miss being in Barcelona a lot.” 
“I bet you just miss the sun.” 
Lucy let out a chuckle at that, knowing how much Ona used to tease her that she was more English than her as Lucy was always such a baby whenever the temperature dropped below twenty five degrees. 
“Well that’s a big part of it, yeah. All it does is bloody rain in Germany, but I also miss the food, the views, Narla, the girls…you.” 
Ona’s breath hitched a little. It felt as though she and Lucy had silently agreed not to divulge into their feelings, but knowing she missed her made her heart beat that little bit extra. 
She looked her dead in the eye, her own eyes softening at the small expression on her face. The spaniard couldn’t help but reach her petite hand out and place it on Lucy's knee and as if by reflex, Lucy’s hand came to rest on top of Ona’s. 
“I miss you too, Lucia.” 
Ona swallowed deeply, looking down at their hands as Lucy began to rub small circles across her knuckles. It took every strength within her body to restrain herself from leaning forward and attaching their lips, so instead of doing that she tried to divert the conversation in a different direction. 
“So, you don’t have a new girlfriend then?” 
The Englishwoman let out a rumbly laugh at the question, deeming it as absolutely ridiculous. 
“Don’t be stupid, course i don’t.” 
“Well good, i was just checking.” 
“Good? Why, what would you have done if i’d said yes?” 
Lucy was smirking at her, the smirk that almost always had Ona on her knees. 
“Tell her to, how you say? Back the fuck off.” 
She knew she should tone down on the flirting, only setting herself up for more pain in the near future. But when Lucy was looking at her like that with that smirk on her face she simply couldn’t help herself. 
“That’s hot” Lucy murmured. 
Ona couldn’t wipe the grin off of her face, not missing the way Lucy was now trailing her fingertips up her arm. Until, all of a sudden reality came crashing down on her. 
It was almost like for a split second she’d forgotten about the fact they weren’t actually together anymore, they’d fallen back into their usual ways the second they’d reunited and it was only now that Ona had to remind herself the woman beside her wasn’t hers anymore. 
“Hey, you okay?” 
Lucy asked, evidently concerned as the spaniards smile had faltered and her eyes had filled with sudden sadness. 
Ona nodded, trying but failing to keep the thick hot tear that now trickled down her cheek at bay. 
“Woah, woah what’s the matter?” 
The defenders eyes widened, her hand immediately coming up to rest on the small of her back. The sudden change in Onas mood scared her beyond belief, there was nothing she hated more than seeing her in any sort of discomfort. 
“It, it’s just-“ 
She began, stuttering her way through the answer. 
“For a second it was like I completely forgot.” 
“Forgot about what?” 
Lucy questioned, her voice soft and hand never stopping it’s comforting movements across the small back. 
“That we aren’t us anymore. I’ve only been with you for no more than an hour and it already feels like the old times again.” 
Ona let out a long, shaky breath, desperately rubbing at her now reddened eyes to stop the tears. As she blinked her way through them, her vision becoming a tiny bit clearer, she focused on Lucy, and the way she was looking at her as if she was the only thing that mattered sent another fresh pang across her heart. 
“Oh, sweetheart.” 
The lioness pulled her into her chest, Ona not even trying to fight it and allowing her head to rest there. She sniffled into Lucy’s training shirt, relishing in the familiar smell of her perfume as she allowed herself to calm down in the embrace. 
“It’s so hard, so fucking hard. You have no idea how much I miss you every single day.” 
Lucy whispered as she stroked her hair, scratching at her scalp lightly in the way she knew always brought her comfort. 
The two women made no attempt to move for a good few minutes, Ona’s sobs finally subsiding as she chose to fully focus on the way Lucy's fingers felt brushing through her hair. She lifted her head from the comfy spot on her chest, sitting back against the bench as Lucy’s eyes followed her with concern. 
“Lo siento. I shouldn’t have said anything.” 
“No, it’s good to talk about your feelings. You can’t bottle them up all the time, it’s not good for you.” 
Ona looked at the ground, not being able to meet Lucy’s eyes again. Her willpower was declining and she knew that as soon she looked at her face again, she would be pressing her lips against said face. 
“I need to go.” 
“Already?”
Ona nodded, standing up from her spot and any glimmer of hope that Lucy had felt was immediately gone. 
“Please don’t just walk away from this, we’re both hurting Ona and it’s not just going to go away.” 
The broken tone in Lucy’s voice made her feel all different types of guilt. Deep down she knew she was being stupid. She could get back with Lucy and feel ten times happier, but there was something inside her convincing her she would just be putting them both through pain. 
“I’m sorry but I think this was a mistake.” 
She walked away without another look back, tears spilling down her cheeks as the sad look on the Englishwoman's face was etched into her mind. Nothing was ever a mistake with Lucy, the only thing being her own actions. 
As soon as she entered her hotel, heading straight for the lift she was spotted by Mariona. 
“Ay, Ona! Esperar!” 
Her teammate called out, chasing after her with a grin on her face that quickly turned into confusion upon seeing her tear stained face.
“I messed it all up, it was going so well and then I just freaked.” 
Ona was a blubbering mess as Mariona followed her into the lift. She pulled her into her embrace, rocking her side to side and tried to provide her with the reassurance she needed. 
“Come on Oni, tell me what happened.”
Hours had passed and Ona was still trying to explain the internal battle that was going on in her head. Mariona was being so kind, carefully listening to the explanation and offering the best advice she could muster up. 
“Do you really not think making it work long distance is an option? You both love each other chica, and that’s how you started this.” 
“I know and I feel so stupid. So many people have to do it, you do it. I think i’m just craving the old life we had.” 
Mariona nodded in understanding. 
“I understand, but it is important to remember that it’s not forever. I miss Lia all the time, but I know that one day we will have the life together we always talk about.”
Ona smiled a little at that, suddenly feeling terrible for rambling on and not asking about her friend's life more often. 
“How is Lia?” 
“Buena. I’m glad i finally get to spend some time with her here, it makes it all worth it.”
Ona couldn’t help but remember back to her conversation with Keira a few months ago, the ginger saying the exact same thing. The two friends continued their conversation way into the night, both reminiscing on the time both Lia and Lucy had come to watch them play in the nations league final. The spaniard was so grateful to have friends as understanding as her team mates.
Spains first game was the next day and they absolutely flew through it, just like they did the whole tournament really. The euros went by so fast and before she knew it, Ona was preparing for the final game. The final game that was against none other than England. It was like des ja vu for the whole team, except this time around Ona wasn’t giddily messaging her girlfriend the morning before. 
After her conversation with Mariona, she had decided not to message Lucy again during the tournament. She had wanted to, felt the need to apologise for the way she took off with barely an explanation. However, she also didn’t want to mess with her head during such a big competition, and figured it would be easier for both of them to have their full focus on getting a win for their country. She had decided she wanted to make a go of it though, nothing could be worse than the feeling she already felt every day. She just hoped and prayed that she wasn’t too late. 
As soon as the Spanish team arrived at the stadium they were ushered out onto the pitch to perform their pitch inspection. The England team were already out there and before Ona could even search for Lucy she was being dragged into a hug by Ella. 
“Ona! I’ve missed ya.” 
The strong northern accent boomed, still never being able to pronounce her name correctly. 
“Ah, Tooney. It has been too long.” 
Ona replied as she felt herself being slowly lifted off of the ground by the girls strong hug. They caught up for a few minutes, Ona spending most of it in hysterics over whatever Ella was talking about. Until the inevitable question came up. 
“You gonna go speak to Bronzey?” 
Ona sighed, looking across the grass where she finally found the woman in question. She was chatting to Alexia and Laia, donning a wide smile that Ona wished she was the cause of. 
“Si, i will actually. It was nice seeing you though and good luck tonight.” 
Ella ruffled her hair before making her way over to Lucia, deciding it was time to pester her now and once she disappeared Ona looked back over at Lucy to find her now alone, scrolling on her phone. 
She took a deep breath and made her way over, stopping right in front of her. 
“Hola.” 
Lucy looked up from her phone, swallowing deeply as she met her eye. 
“Oh, hey.” 
It was colder than Ona was used to, colder than it had been when she’d seen her only a few weeks ago. 
“How are you?” 
Lucy nodded, “Im fine. You?” 
The spaniard couldn’t hide the hurt on her face now and just simply nodded. She had never been spoken to by Lucy this bluntly before and she instantly felt tears prick at the corners of her eyes. 
“I missed you.” 
She desperately tried, hoping Lucy would give her something back. She could see the slight break in her demeanour after that, her eyes somewhat softening if only a tiny bit. 
“Good luck tonight.” 
Was Lucy’s response and as she tried to make her way past her, Ona grabbed her hand. Lucy looked down at the grip Ona now had on her wrist, almost breaking at the way her thumb cascaded across it gently. 
“Please, don’t be like this.” 
“Like what, Ona? You’ve made it perfectly clear we can’t be together so I don't know how you want me to act?” 
There were tears filling in the spaniards eyes now, unable to look anywhere but Lucy but feeling her heart break even more at the hushed way she was shouting at her.
“Im sorry that i ran off the other week. I was scared, Lucy and i didn’t want to hurt either of us anymore than i already have. I just want-“ 
She was cut off by the whistle, summoning both teams back inside. 
“Please, just let me explain after the game.” 
Lucy looked down at the way Ona still had a hold of her wrist and then back up to meet her eyes, nodding slowly before she had to walk away and rejoin her England team mates.
Ona let out a deep breath she hadn’t even realised she’d been holding as she walked her way back into the changing rooms. She didn’t really know what she expected, but it definitely wasn’t that. The younger girl couldn’t blame Lucy for being distant with her, but that didn’t make it hurt any less when the one thing she wanted more than anything in the world was Lucy. 
When the teams lined up side by side in the tunnel, Ona couldn’t help but turn around to look at Lucy. Though when she turned and found her eyes already on her, she wished she hadn’t as how was she supposed to concentrate on the game now? 
It was even worse when she made her way down the line to give hand shakes and high fives to the England team. When she got to Lucy, last as always, she couldn’t help but hold onto her hand for a second longer than what was probably deemed acceptable. 
Lucy gave her hand a small squeeze, and there was evidence of a tiny smile growing at the corners of her mouth as she mouthed ‘im sorry.’ This was all the reassurance that Ona needed to go out and play this match. 
Little did Ona know that Jordan had been silently observing their interaction during the pitch inspection. She had questioned Lucy on it as soon as they had taken their seats in the changing room. 
“What was all that about?” 
“What d’you mean?” 
Lucy had responded nonchalantly. 
“All that out there with you and Ona. Why are you giving her the cold shoulder?” 
The defender shrugged, “I'm not.” 
Jordan rolled her eyes, "I'm not as stupid as you think. You’ve been non-stop going on about her since the day you broke up, so why were you acting like that?” 
“Because I love her Jord, okay? I love her and every time I think about her it bloody hurts.” 
The Aston Villa players' face softened, remaining quiet so that Lucy could carry on.
“It hurt me so bad when I last saw her. I thought for a split second there might’ve been a chance but she made it perfectly clear there wasn’t when she upped and left. So, I thought that maybe this time if I was blunt with her, didn’t give her much conversation then I wouldn’t be opening myself up to feeling even more like shit when she inevitably walks away again.” 
Jordan let out a sigh, wrapping her arm supportively around her shoulder. 
“She seemed like she genuinely wanted to talk to you, Luce. I couldn’t hear what she was saying obviously but maybe she’s had some time to think and genuinely wants to give the long distance a go.”
“Yeah, maybe, I don’t know. I told her i’d speak to her after the game so I just need to focus on getting this win first.” 
The game was a tough one to say the least. The world cup champions against the european champions was never going to be a walk in the park, but Ona found she thrived off the intensity. She was playing well, her whole team was playing well and were fuelled by the excitable crowd. However, a last minute goal by Lauren Hemp meant that England had done it for the second time. 
The spaniard laid back on the grass, absolutely exhausted from the ninety six minutes she had just endured. She looked around at all of her team mates, noticing the defeat and sadness in their eyes as they hugged one another. As she looked in the other direction though, she caught sight of the England girls with a much different expression on their faces. They all looked so unbelievably happy, tears shed out of happiness rather than sadness which was a huge contrast to the world cup. 
She immediately caught sight of Lucy, never failing to be impressed by her ability to always pick her out instantly no matter how many people she was mixed in with. She looked happy, so happy, as she lifted Alex into the air and Ona couldn’t help but smile at the sight. 
She hauled herself up off of the pitch, deciding it was best if she went over to console her team mates who had taken the loss particularly hard. Ona was gutted of course, she was as competitive as they came and wanted to win everything she took part in. However, seeing the joy on Lucy’s face eased the disappointment a pretty large amount, which was a fact she would definitely not be sharing with her girls. 
Once she’d done the rounds, giving pats on the back and assuring the team that they did their best she caught sight of a shirtless Lucy standing in front of her. It was safe to say her mouth fell visibly agape as her eyes couldn’t decide whether to fix on the woman’s eyes or her abs. 
“Im sorry.” 
It sounded like a double meaning apology. For the coldness Lucy presented her with earlier, and also for the fact that her team had just beaten Ona’s. She decided to focus on the last part though, if her mind could possibly focus on anything other than the abs staring her right in the face.
She shrugged, “it’s okay, you all deserved it.” 
“So did all of you though, you’re a hard team to beat.” 
Ona smiled a little, enjoying the sight of the well-deserved gold medal that hung proudly around Lucy’s neck. 
“This is for you.” 
Lucy said as she chucked her match worn shirt into Ona’s hands. 
The spaniard couldn’t help the smug smile that wiped across her face. Ever since the world cup final, Ona had held a pretend grudge against Lucy at the fact she gave Mariona her shirt and not her. Mariona and Lucy thought it was hilarious and would tease her about it all the time, but Ona could not for the life of her understand how she wasn’t the one trading shirts with her own girlfriend.
“Oh, you don’t want me to get Mario? So you can trade with her instead?” 
Lucy smirked at her, letting out a huff of a laugh, “well actually, now you come to mention it-“ 
“Don’t you even dare.” 
Ona interrupted, lightly slapping her on the chest. 
She took her own shirt off then, handing it to Lucy as she replaced the Spanish jersey on her body with an England one, adorned with ‘Bronze 2’ on the back. 
The wide eyed look on Lucy's face and the way she scanned her body up and down certainly didn’t go unnoticed by Ona. Who took it upon herself to give a small twirl so she could see the name on the back. 
“Suits me?” 
Lucy had to bite down on her own lip to physically stop herself from drooling. She had just won back to back euros, yet she felt like she’d well and truly hit the jackpot seeing the pretty spaniard with her name on her back. 
She nodded and lightly took a hold of Ona’s arm, discreetly pulling her away from the pitch and down the tunnel away from prying eyes and cameras. Ona didn’t know what was happening, so when she was dragged into an empty medical room she looked at with a confused expression. 
“Im sorry for how I acted with you earlier.” 
Lucy blurted it out fast, as if she was scared if she didn’t say it soon enough Ona would be ripped away from her again. 
“It’s okay, I understand. I didn’t give you an explanation last time and I am sorry for that.” 
Ona looked up at Lucy, delicately intertwining their hands that were dangling by their sides. When she felt Lucy grip on tighter she stepped forward, further into her embrace and reached her other hand up to tilt her chin down to look her in the eye. 
“I want to make this work. I thought I was doing the right thing by letting you go, but it is completely impossible to move on from you.” 
Lucy pulled her impossibly closer as Ona carried on. 
“I get it if I'm too late and you don’t want this but-“ 
The older woman decided she couldn’t wait any longer. She pressed her lips against Ona’s before she could even finish her sentence, the younger girl sighing happily into her mouth. 
Ona reached both her arms up to wrap them around Lucy’s neck, interlinking them at the back to pull their bodies even closer. She let out a deep moan as the older woman pushed her further back against the wall, her strong hand sneaking up the England jersey Ona wore to scratch dully at her abs. 
Ona parted her lips only slightly at the sensation, giving Lucy enough access to slide her tongue into her mouth. The room was filled with heavy breaths and pants, both women’s hands not being able to stop exploring the other's body as they had been deprived for so long. 
Lucy finally managed to pull away from Ona’s mouth, but only to attach her lips to the inviting skin on her neck. She trailed hot, open mouthed kisses all the way up to her favourite spot behind her ear. 
“I want this.” 
She whispered, taking a tiny nip. 
“I want you.” 
Another kiss. 
As the Englishwoman made her way back down to Ona’s jaw they were startled by the door swinging open, forcing them both apart and none other than Mariona walking in. 
“Mierda! ¡Lo siento, chicas!” 
She hurriedly said, hands covering her eyes. 
“You can open your eyes, Mario.” 
Lucy said with a chuckle as the Spanish woman slowly blinked one eye open to check it was safe before removing both of her hands entirely. 
“You see Oni, I told you I knew everything! Oh and congratulations Lucy, I'll come and see you once you’re done…here!” 
Mariona said before winking at Ona and exiting the room. 
Ona let out a huff of a laugh, wrapping her arms tightly around Lucy’s waist as she lay her head on her chest. 
“What was she on about?” 
Lucy questioned, stroking her hands through Ona’s hair as she felt her grin against her chest. 
“Oh, nada.” 
She pulled her head out of Lucy’s chest, looking up at her with a look that could only be described as utter adoration. 
“We are going to alright, aren’t we Lucia?” 
“As long as we’ve got each other we’ll be fine, princesa.” 
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Hiii!!!! Just saw your 200 followers event and thought it was the cutest thing ever!! Could I request one of the Octavinelle guys at 6pm during a sunset maybe on the shore? I genuinely don’t care which one I love them all lol tyy (≧◡≦)
WARNINGS: I tried to write it slightly differently than I normally do, so I apologise if it doesn’t flow as well! Azul might be slightly OOC, sorry! Also, MC can raise one of their eyebrows. Idk if that’s a warning for most people but I literally can’t do that no matter how hard I try and it’d make me laugh if I read it, so I figured I’d put it here hehe. Also also mentions of drowning (It’s just Azul being dramatic dw nothing bad happens).
COMMENTS: Thank you so much!! I’m glad you like the event! I decided to go with Azul, he’s my favourite and by far the easiest for me to write hehe. I hope that’s okay! Sunset at the shore is so cute, it sounds like the perfect place for a confession!
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Azul felt like he couldn’t breathe.
Somewhere, in the back of his brain, he was aware of the irony. Humans couldn’t normally breathe underwater, and yet he had no issue doing so. Yet here he was, sitting on the seashore with the most gorgeous sunset he’d ever seen, right next to his crush - you. You were bathed in the golden light, sitting comfortably on the sand, smiling at him so sweetly as the light hit you just so - he could’ve sworn it was a scene straight out of a painting. Heart pounding and so, so nervous, he guessed that this was what drowning felt like.
He just wanted to crawl into his octopus pot and hide.
“Wow… this sunset is really something, isn’t it?” You looked up and smiled at him. 
He blinked, willing his heart to calm down - or at the very least, let him regain his composure. “Ah- yes, it is.” 
The sunset was beautiful, yes, but try as he might, he couldn’t focus on it with you sitting next to him - and how close his hand was to yours.
You glanced up at him, evidently sensing something amiss. “Is everything okay?”
“Y-yes, I suppose so.” He managed. Swallowing hard, he took a deep breath and glanced at you and oh. That didn’t help things at all. His heart stammered in his chest and he bit the side of his mouth to try and distract himself.
“You suppose?” You raised an eyebrow, and he internally cursed your adorable facial expressions. “Is something wrong?”
He gazed out at the sunset for a moment, taking in how beautiful it is, before turning to look at you. There was no doubt about it - you were far more breathtaking. Somewhere, his brain registered that this looked like a confession.
That thought alone had him clearing his throat and looking away, trying his hardest to hide his blush.
But what if you did confess? His thoughts nagged at him. This is the perfect place. What if you don’t get another opportunity?
He hesitated, doing his best to weigh up the pros and cons, even as his thoughts peer-pressured him into what he wanted.
Screw it.
“...There’s something I’ve been meaning to talk to you about…” He managed as he inched his hand closer to yours.
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☾ PERFECT PLAN ? ; PARK GUNWOOK
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➛ genre / trope ; shy cofident ➛ warnings ; cursing , mentions of food
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“ PLEASE. “
“ no. “
“ PRETTY PLEASE ? “
“ no. “
yuqi shook your arm back and forth using her whiny baby voice while you gave her a judgemental yet unimpressed look.
she pouted , letting out a small puff of frustration as she laid her head on your shoulder.
“ i’m not that mean , plus i’m waiting for him to make the first move. “
“ yeah by the time he does we’d might as well marry each other and have kids. “
you looked down at her , “ i’m down. “
the bell rung. the end of recess.
yuqi chuckled sitting back up straight and putting both of her hands on your shoulders , giving you her best serious face that she could muster up.
although that just made her look like an angry cat.
“ my dear child , i might separate from you once again to enter the gates of hell which you may know as chemistry. i trust thou will know what to do when the time comes. “
yuqi gave your shoulder a firm hard pat before picking up her things and leaving your classroom with a ‘ cya ‘
“ … what the fuck yuqi. “
after she left it got you thinking… should you carry out this elaborate yet stupid plan.
both you and yuqi were aware that the class president , and seat-mate , gunwook had a massive crush on you.
to be fair , he wasn’t very good at hiding it.
it started from casual talk when you became seat-mates then texting , passing notes and cute doodles during class , copying his homework , him borrowing your items , you borrowing his jacket to sleep on. [ he tried to discourage you from this activity but he couldn’t help but take this chance to admire your features as you slept. ]
overtime you noticed the small little details such as him blushing whenever you accidentally brushed fingers or the frequent glances he’d give you.
this was confirmed when another one of your friends , gyuvin , asked gunwook in which he went on a full tangent on his small [ big ] crush on you.
you easily fell for the class president too , just that you were way better that hiding it.
after weighing the pros and cons you decided to go through with the plan , after-all the worse thing that could happen is embarrassing yourself and having to drop out of school to not show your face in school again.
plan recap : ask who is crush is , he wouldn’t say who it is , you reveal it , confess and he confesses and boom. easy.
you took a deep breath mentally preparing yourself for the incoming events. which just on queue , the wooden doors slid open revealing the man himself.
“ hey ! you didn’t go to the cafeteria today soo i got you a small snack. “
gunwook pulled out a egg and mayo sandwich , offering it to you.
you smiled thanking him placing the sandwich on your desk.
“ also i have to ask you something. “
“ yeah ? “
“ do you have a crush ? “
you saw his eyes slightly widen and the way his shoulders tensed up a bit. a small blush coated his puffy cheeks and he started fiddling with his fingers.
‘ he’s more shy than i’d thought he’d be ‘ you thought , fighting the urge to giggle.
“ yeah , its you. “
gunwook looked at you with a sudden surge of confidence , he maintained eye contact his body now leaned back onto the chair with his arms crossed. [ although the blush still remains on his face ]
that.. did not go according to plan.
“ wait wait do you not feel the same way ? oh shit i’m so sorry ! gyuvin told me to just say it whenever the day comes but like oh my god why did i listen to the guy ?! “
“ no ! i… do feel the same way it’s just , wow , i didn’t expect you to be so straightforward. “
his face instantly relaxed as he let out a few embarrassed yet amused chuckles.
“ so… you like me too ? “ he asked all smily and giggly seemingly unable to revert back to a resting face.
“ was it not obvious ? actually yours was way obvious. “
“ no it wasn’t , i hid it well. “
“ oh please the whole school probably knew “
the playful banter continued and underneath the tables his hands reached for yours , intertwining them in a perfect fit.
“ OH MY GOD LOOK GYUVIN THEY’RE HOLDING HANDS ! THEY’RE— “
“ JESUS SHUT UP YUQI THE HALLWAY ISN’T SOUNDPROOF. “
“ SHUT UP LET ME HAVE MY MOMENT. “
“ ITS THEIR MOMENT ? YOU’RE JUST CREEPILY STARING AT THEM FROM THE WINDOW. “
“ YOU’RE DOING THE SAME ? “
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Sinned Awakening pt. 26 🩸
An AU Elvis fic
(Vampire!Elvis/ Vampire Austin! Elvis x reader)
Character/Fandom: Elvis - Elvis (2022)
Prompt: Getting promoted to be Elvis full time housekeeper, you realize the man holds secrets beyond beliet and your undeniable attraction makes you tear the unknown. [Fem!Reader]
TW: Cussing, tension, ANGST, smut, mentions of blood/gore!!!
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5.4k
A/N: Hello everyone!! Enjoy this new part! It’s a bit shorter than normal but it’s because the next chapter is a MONSTER and I had to break it up somehow! Some questions are going to be answered and some other things are going to be uncovered😈
If you'd like to start from the beginning, start here or Ao3! hope you enjoy and message and comment what you think.
A reminder, this is Vampire!Elvis so there is going to be mentions of blood/gore from here on out. If that's not your thing, sorry but it's needed for the story.
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You now understand why Elvis considered not sleeping as part of his ‘curse’. There was no escaping your thoughts and it was just endless noise that played in your head. It was hard to focus on the things you wanted to hear because you had nothing to put your focus on. You were getting the hang of focusing on the sound of Elvis’ heart when he was here, but now he was so far away you couldn’t hear him anymore.
You don’t know how long you cried, it felt like forever. You just wanted him back here so you could apologize and make things right. The empty pit inside your heart ached for him. Despite the distance, you felt him ache for you too. You knew he was out there feeling the same longing you were experiencing. You prayed he’d be back in a day or so to talk things out and figure out how you guys can find answers on your new life.
But he doesn’t come back the next day, or the day after that. One full week drags on and no one has heard from him. Not even a phone call. You grew desperate for him, needing him to be here with you and hold you again. You were lonely and most importantly scared. You hadn’t even been away from him this long and you were worried.
None of the guys were hanging around the house lately and if they did stop by to check in on you, it was the same answer when you asked them if they heard anything from him. Jerry was the only one that hung around the most. He knew how worried you were even though you kept assuring him you were fine.
“Maybe I should go out there looking for him… what if he needs me,” you suggest to him one day.
“Where would you begin to look for him? E would kill us if he knew we let you out there by yourself,” he says worriedly.
“I’m stronger than all of you right now!” You snap. He swallows uncomfortably and looks away from you. You instantly feel bad and apologize.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to snap like that. I just mean, I could take care of myself,” you try to explain.
“I understand, there’s no doubt you would win in any fight with us but you don’t have any control over your abilities,” he says gently. “You’re kind of a loose cannon lately,” he jokes.
You can’t help but laugh and have to agree, you had no idea what could tick you off if you mingled with other humans you didn’t know.
“No, you’re right,” you sigh, “well maybe you can come with me?”
He pauses and considers the proposal, weighing the pros and cons of this idea.
“Elvis is my best friend. I’d do anything for him. Hell, I let him bite me. But most importantly, you’re his other half. I’ll go anywhere you go,” he says sweetly.
“But I think we should give him a bit more time. If he doesn’t come back in a few days, we’ll start looking for him,” he says.
“Okay, sounds good,” you say with a smile, thankful he’s on board with the plan.
You tried to put your time into reading all the books Elvis had on vampires. Anything to help you understand what was going on with you. Or what was going on with him? The books couldn’t keep your full attention, however. Too much worry plagued your mind and certain topics in these books disturbed you. The human part of you became squeamish when you read about the more gruesome things like how to kill a vampire. You couldn’t bring yourself to read what was in those passages. It made you physically sick to think of anyone ever trying to hurt Elvis. You hoped Jerry was right, he was just out there looking for answers to understand why you changed the way you did and what else you needed to survive.
You didn’t have an appetite while you were worrying about him so much. You weren’t eating like you should have and it had been days since you drank any blood. There was this dark part of you that craved to have Elvis’. You could barely remember what he tasted like from when you first bit him, but everything inside you screamed to bite him. It was extremely frustrating that this incessant voice in your head was begging to have him when he was God knows where.
The next few days pass slowly, and still no sign of him. You couldn’t sit in this house any longer not doing anything useful. You weren’t going to let Elvis shut you out and get himself into trouble out there. You started to gather a bag full of things you might need on your journey. You tell Elvis’ housekeepers you’ll be back soon, but don’t give them an exact date you’ll be back because you didn’t even know yourself. They had worried looks on their faces they couldn’t hide and you hated to see them worry.
You wait for Jerry in the living room, double-checking that you both have everything you need.
“Any idea where we’re going to start looking? He can be anywhere,” he says jokingly.
“Well, hopefully, he’s not too far and we can find him quickly. I just want him home. If he still didn’t find any help, we’ll go together and help him,” you say matter-of-factly. “I guess I should follow my instincts, follow the bond that tethers us together.”
“Let’s go, you know I won’t question anything you say,” he says grabbing his bag he pack and slinging it over his shoulder.
Your attention gets pulled away from the conversation and your head snaps to look at the front door like a magnet. You heard a heartbeat. A loud, melodious heartbeat, beating only for you. It was one you could recognize from anywhere.
Elvis.
You rush to open the door and see him, looking as good as ever walking up the steps to the house. His hair was slicked back, showcasing his handsome face. His eyes were still golden and more captivating than ever. He had this boyish innocence in his eye though, like he was silently pleading for you to forgive him for being gone so long. You could feel how happy he was to see you and how his heart raced faster the closer he got to you.
He stood in front of you, eying you head to toe and taking a sharp breath in. He pulls you quickly by your wrist and envelops you in his arms. You wrap your arms around his waist and hold onto him tight. You sigh a breath of relief and feel his warmth wrap around your body. His scent fills your head like an intoxicating drink. You hum content, so happy to have him in your arms again.
“Oh, baby,” he whispers as he picks you up slightly from the ground and gives you a deep, passionate kiss. It was intense and electrifying, wrapping you in his blinding love. You place your hands on his face, making sure he’s real and not some cruel dream.
He gently puts you down and you look up at him in anticipation.
“Where have you been?” You ask, hurt filling your voice.
“I’m sorry I was gone so long baby. I-I-I had to take care of things,” he says overwhelmed. He tries to comfort you but suddenly pick up another scent behind him. You suddenly feel on edge as you don’t recognize the scent at all. You dart your eyes back up at him, trying to push him to the side to see who it is but he doesn’t budge.
“Umm honey, I need you to meet someone…” he says uncomfortably. You push at his chest slightly to see who is behind him and he gives way.
It was a girl, maybe twenty years old or so, with long black hair, and flawless golden skin. She wears sunglasses shielding her gaze from you. She doesn’t say anything right away, just stares at you behind the glasses, inspecting your every detail. You step in front of Elvis instinctively, wanting to create a barrier between him and this girl.
“What do you want?” You growl. She smirks at you, amused by your protective tone.
“I’m not a threat,” she says calmly, “my name is Iris.”
“That doesn’t answer my question,” you say through your teeth, “what do you want. What are you doing here?” You press. You feel Elvis place his hand on your shoulder to try and calm you but need to focus and don’t want him to touch you right now. You brush his hand off of you and take another step forward to Iris.
“Elvis found us in search of answers,” She starts to explain when a man you’ve never seen starts to walk up the steps behind her. “We are like you, Chosen.”
You feel your stomach drop, not believing what she just said. You glance over at the man standing next to her. He was young too, with wavy dark brunette hair, and pale icy skin.
“My name is Alexander, it’s nice to meet you,” he says sweetly.
You look back at Elvis, unsure if you should trust them or not.
“It’s okay, they’re here to help us,” he says low.
You look back at them, nodding your head that you’ll let them talk.
Iris smiles, “Perfect, where did you guys want to begin?”
Elvis pushed the front door open and stepped to the side. “Please, come in,” he says kindly. You let them walk in first and watch as they inspect every detail of the house. You pull at Elvis’ hand before you two walk in behind them.
He looks at you intensely, as you pull him away from the door.
“Do you know who these vampires are you just invited into your home?” You say low, your eyes blazing with intensity.
“Baby, it’s all okay. They can be trusted. You need to hear what they have to say. They’re the real thing trust me, I was skeptical at first too. Please, just listen to what they have to say,” he says squeezing your hand slightly.
You huff, knowing you can’t say no to him.
“Fine, I’ll let them talk. Then we need to talk too. Alone,” you say shortly.
“I know,” he says softly, knowing there’s a lot left unsaid after your fight.
He lets you walk into the house first, resting his hand on the small of your back.
A spark.
A little golden ember blazes inside of you with one touch of his hand.
You look back at him and he has this look on his face. Smug and yet still tender. But you know he feels it too.
“Mine.” He sighs.
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snapscube · 1 year
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100% sincere question - when you were deciding to start becoming an active content creator online, how did you weigh up the negative consequences of having an online presence (annoying anons, potential for backlash, being nitpicked) against the potential positives? Especially as an LGBT woman, who get much more critical scrutiny than other creators, it seems so intimidating to even potentially open yourself up to that. I'm so scared of putting any of my work out there and taking myself seriously as an creator/artist because of it
Honestly, to me it has just always been second nature to want to put myself out there. I don’t know where it comes from. But I’ve known for my whole life that, regardless of the cost, if I am not out here creating and sharing my passions with people then I am not fully living. And, truth be told even further, I was creating stuff and putting things out there longggg before I understood either myself or the negative potential fully. I was just doing shit, “i might have to deal with harassment” never popped into my mind because when I started I was LITERALLY a child. Which has its pros and cons. Pros being that I’ve been able to achieve a lot in a relatively short period of time, but cons of course being that when the sticking points did start coming around, I was not really prepared to deal with them. Still am not in a few ways, though I’m a lot better about shit than I was even a couple years ago I’d say. Either way, the joy of creating and sharing itself is worth a lot of the downsides for me. Though there’s a lot I would do differently if given the chance, and sometimes I do get a little wistful about the idea of living a much more private life when things are tough, I honestly think this all suits me pretty well.
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quesadillayuri · 5 months
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do u guys ever think about how the partners of those on the qsmp are gods and/or godesses in the lore. unrelated did u know that tommyinnit and tubbo underscore are legally married. just thought that was interesting.
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Tubbo is, admittedly, not the best person. 
He’s kind of a bit of a dick. He’s reckless, doesn’t have much regard for his own personal safety, let alone others, and he can be callous and rude and prickly and blunt. He’s not afraid to push buttons, literally or metaphorically, and he can be... explosive. Destructive, even. To say the least.
On further introspection, Tubbo realizes that he’s actually a lot more than a bit of a dick. 
He doesn’t deserve this though. Probably.
Tubbo can’t remember much, but he’s almost entirely sure that he’s done nothing to deserve this. Literally no crime ever committed, ever, is worth this punishment.
“I hate you,” Tubbo sighs, for the ninetieth time in the past four minutes, “I hate you so much.” He pulls off his jacket, slipping his arms out of the sleeves and tossing the jacket in the general direction of the prick that can’t quite leave him alone. Tommy recoils at the jacket thrown across his face suddently, letting out a —incredibly cathartic for Tubbo— squak of surprise. Tubbo stomps away, leaving Tommy to reel away in his overblown, exaggerated horror at Tubbo’s dastardly actions, or whatever.
“This is, quite literally, very homophobic of you, Toby,” Tommy says, all faux-shock and concern, like Tubbo will believe him for a second. “Truly just so homophobic, I’m writing a twitlonger as we speak because Jesus, Toby—”
“You’re not even gay!” Tubbo bites out, left eye twitching. He stomps away, leaviTommy gasps at this, and Tubbo reminds himself that wringing his neck is not an option, despite it looking more and more appealing by the second.
“Oh, and how do you know that?” Tommy argues, walking right on Tubbo’s heels, “You really can’t base things on stereotypes, Toby, it’s incredibly offensive, you know? Just because I look straight and sound straight and act straight and— Oh, hi Em— say I’m straight doesn’t mean I am. What about me is straight to you?”
“Well, maybe the girlfriend, if I had to hazard a guess,” Tubbo says sarcastically, “Although I suppose that’s not relevant right now?”
He’s joking, obviously, because it’s very relevant.
“Oh Toby— Toby, Toby, Toby. Sweet, young Toby,” Tommy starts, and Tubbo knows he is not planning on stopping, “Of course, that’s not relevant. I’m talking about our marriage!”
“We’re not married,” Tubbo says, for the one-hundred ninetieth time in the last five minutes. 
“Oh, ho-ho, but we are!” Tommy says, and Tubbo weighs the pros and cons of killing himself rapidly and graphically by throwing himself out of the nearest possible window. The pros are not currently outweighing the cons, but with how this conversation is going, they probably will soon.
“Sign the fucking divorce papers, Tommy,” Tubbo sighs, a little angry about how long this has been going on for, but mostly tired and resigned. And angry, because Tommy’s neck is looking so, so wringable right now, but mostly tired.
Tommy just laughs, and disappears in that frustrating, echoey way they all do. Em’s never far behind him, but Tubbo dispairingly turns to her at the kitchen counter anyway, for his own comfort. To her credit, she does offer him a smile, but at best it’s pitying, and at worst it’s amused. Tubbo thinks it might be both.
“I’d say I’m sorry, but I think we both know it’s going to take more than that to get him to sign those papers,” Em says, and Tubbo groans.
“Why don’t you tell him?” Tubbo asks, desperate, but knowing the answer anyway.
“Because this way, it’s—”
“One thousand times funnier,” Tubbo finishes for her. He lacks the energy to even attempt to mock Tommy’s tone, but Tubbo hears his voice ringing in his head anyway. Em laughs, and then she disappears too. Tubbo squints at the place where they both were, like if he stares for long enough they will both reappear as reasonable, normal, willing-to-sign-the-divorce-papers sort of people. They don’t, because God hates Tubbo, and the world hates Tubbo, and the universe hates Tubbo.
The only thing that the universe did right was make sure that Tommy didn’t have the foresight to make him sign a prenup. At least Tubbo can get Tommy’s money when he finally signs the divorce papers.
If he ever signs the divorce papers.
Tubbo slams his head against the wall again.
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Tubbo_: never get married
pactw: ?
Tubbo_: dont do it pac
pactw: ???????
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serialunaliver · 3 months
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yo hey hi i like hearing ur thoughts, they’re an interesting perspective. anyways i’m coming to u today because i genuinely have no idea who else to ask 😭😭😭 no need to reply either, i’ll work it out eventually but you seem more experienced and maybe you might know something about this?? anyways for a whole decade or so i thought (the symptoms of) psychosis were a normal thing that everyone experienced, and then i was a bit too honest with my mother and found out that no, it wasn’t, apparently? she wants me to talk to a psychiatrist and try to see if i can get on meds for that, but i’m not sure i should. like, generally i guess it interrupts my life, but it’s not THAT big of a deal to me?? like the memory issues that come with it really suck and does tend to affect a lot of my life, and it sucks not really being able to trust the memories i do have, but the other stuff i think i can handle just fine. like the hallucinations usually only affect me for a little and then i can focus (although sometimes they appear while driving which is frightening, but still, it’s brief and i doubt i’d crash). anyways i’m troubled about this because i hear that antipsychotic medication tends to have especially negative side effects. like i’m willing to take them if they can definitely fix my memory problems but it sounds like it’s just not worth it?? especially weighing the pros and cons, im just not sure i should do it. idk,, what do you think? or is there a third option here. maybe i should just look into a lobotomy
i'm not sure exactly what all your symptoms are but there are different psychotic disorders and some can be more manageable than others depending on the severity of the psychosis. mine is based more in a 'delusional' thought process. therapists believe I hallucinate but I think it's just a combination of dissociation and hyperphantasia (vivid mental imagery).
driving is an issue for some psychotic people because of distracting hallucinations and it can still be dangerous so you should probably talk to a doctor and see what your options are.
knowing beforehand that side effects of antipsychotics can be negative helps because you can ease into things but I want to clarify that most people on antipsychotics do not end up with the level of neurological damage I have. this was a result of being severely overmedicated on them as a minor and it would not have happened if I had autonomy in treatment and knew what to expect. there are plenty of people who stay on *normal* doses of antipsychotics and are fine with it. it really depends on whether you have a better quality of life on or off them. i'm lucky that my family can support me but they still would prefer I be on antipsychotics.
good luck and don't be afraid to advocate for yourself <3
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A Witch Adrift
Chapter 2 - You're not a Wizard, Harry
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“Consider it tough love. Now, just what is going on here?” A rather unique voice spoke over the cat’s complaints, but they were out of your line of sight. “And just what are you doing up there? I’ve been looking all over the place for you, and I find you playing games with your familiar, and a poorly trained one at that!”
“...What?” You mutter, at a loss for words. ‘First of all,’ you think, ‘shouldn’t your first reaction be of worry since there’s a person hanging onto a banister for dear life, and maybe, oh, I don’t know, offer to help?!’
“Hah! As if I’d serve some lowly human!” The cat yelled, accompanied by the sounds of it struggling. “Now, lemme go!”
“Yes, yes. Rebellious familiars always say that. Do be quiet for a bit, won't you?” The other voice speaks once more, as the cat goes quiet, only muffled yells of protest to be heard from it. “Dear me. Of all the students I've dealt with, you're the first with temerity enough to open their own gate and step out of it; Does the very notion of patience elude you?”
‘Is he talking about me? What does he mean by student?’
“No matter. Your orientation has already begun. Hurry up and get down so we may return to the Mirror Chamber,” He says, sighing with a hint of annoyance.
“Uh, I would if I could, man. I’m stuck,” You say matter-of-factly. You weren’t about to risk the three-meter drop, not with all the floating books and evil cords that could potentially mess up your landing and, worse case scenario, get you killed.
“If you were going to get stuck, why would you bother to get up there in the first place?” The man asks, seemingly dumbfounded at the prospect of how stupid he thought you were. You opened your mouth to answer but were cut off by him speaking again. “Very well, I shall help you, for I am gracious.”
The sudden feeling of weightlessness startles you and an invisible force starts to pull you away from the mezzanine. You squeak from surprise and tighten your grasp out of instinct.
“Goodness, I can’t get you down if you don’t let go. Now, come on, I won’t drop you.”
You take a moment to weigh the pros and cons of trusting him; It was either trust him to get you down safely or wait until your grip fails you and fall. You squeeze your eyes shut and let go, anticipating your plummet, but no such thing happens. Opening your eyes, you watch in awe as you slowly float to the ground. An “Ahem” from behind you breaks you out of your stupor, and you realize you’ve been staring bug-eyed at the floor where you had just landed for a good few seconds, much longer than what was seemingly acceptable to the magic man you still have not seen. You turn around to see a man in a rather flamboyant raven-themed ensemble, complete with a bird-like mask that covers the upper half of his face, leaving only two unsettling, glowing yellow orbs, presumably his eyes, to stand out against the black mask.
‘Is he wearing reflective contacts? Are those even a thing?’
“Now then, we must not waste any more time; Let us be off,” with a swish of his feathered overcoat, he spins around, heading towards the door of the library, the still-struggling cat wrapped in a… whip? What? Does this count as animal cruelty?
Seemingly not bothered by the cat, the man opened the door and looked back at you, waiting for you to join him. With a small stumble you hope he didn’t notice, you quickly catch up with him and leave the library, hearing the door shut behind the two of you with a small thud and click. He leads you back the way you came through, towards the courtyard, but not through it.
“Um, excuse me, Mr…?”
“I am Dire Crowley, the Headmage of the esteemed Night Raven College,” he says, and you think you see him puff out his chest a bit in pride.
“Night Raven…?” You mutter but decide you can ask about that later. “Um, Mr. Crowley, sir, could you give me a moment to grab my shoes from the courtyard?”
“Your shoes from the– why are your shoes in the courtyard?” He looks at you, quite bewildered, if his tone of voice is to be believed. It’s much harder to get a grasp on his emotions when his only telling feature is his mouth.
“...Self defense?” 
“...I see… I suppose we’ll cut through the courtyard then. We can not afford to be late any more than we already are, so we’ll talk about whatever happened with you and your familiar after the orientation.” He turned on his foot and walked into the courtyard, his pace quickening by a margin.
“But I don’t have…a familiar…” You try to speak up, but he has already walked out of earshot of your quiet voice. You sigh and follow behind him. “If I may ask,” you say as you catch up to him, “where exactly are we?” He looks at you, stunned for a moment as you pick up your first shoe near the middle of the courtyard. “Why are you looking at me like that?” You meekly ask, starting to worry that you may have said something wrong.
“Do you…hmm. It seems the timespace teleportation must have addled your memories…” He brings his hand up to his chin, seemingly thinking about something. “Well, these things happen, I suppose.I shall explain it to you while we walk. Truly, my magnanimity is boundless.”
“Wha– tumespace what?”
He clears his throat, ignoring you (he seems to like doing that), and speaks in a practiced tone, “This is Night Raven College, of which I am the Headmage of, having been entrusted with its care by the chairman.” You two walk in the direction where you had initially run from, and you grab your other shoe as you near the edge of the courtyard. “It is an institution for students the world over who demonstrate a rare aptitude for magic. It is the most prestigious academy of its sort in all of Twisted Wonderland.” 
He pauses when you reach the outer hallway where the cat had chased you, black scorch marks decorating the floor. Having come to a stop, you look up at him in confusion. He silently gestures to your shoes, still held in your hands. With a small “Ah,” of realization, you clumsily put your shoes back on in a haste. 
“Magic, huh?” You say quietly. “Guess that’s how you got me down.”
“Well, of course! What else could it have been?” Ah. It seems he thinks you’re kind of if not completely stupid… Or maybe he thinks you’re a child? It seems magic is common sense to him, which would explain why he’s acting like you’re dumb. You know nothing about this magic he uses.
You shrug and make a noncommittal sound to say you didn’t know. “Psychic powers?” You offer, but he says nothing… It seems he thinks your legitimate question was a joke– one in very poor taste at that. Well, that’s what you infer when his frown deepens slightly. “But …why am I here?”
His expression didn’t change. Instead, as soon as you stood up, he continued to walk and began to speak again, “Only those who the Dark Mirror perceives as having a talent for magic are admitted to the college. Those who are selected are summoned to the campus through those "gates," which can appear anywhere. A black carriage bearing one such gate should have come to meet you.”
‘Does this birdman Crowley have a problem with me? Is he toying with me? It feels like he’s treating me like a child, what with his suspiciously selective hearing and stupid comments. Well, if I wanna know what’s going on, I guess I’ll have to put up with it.’ You rush to catch up with him and match his longer strides. “So, what do you mean by “gate?” I don’t remember seeing anything like a gate…” You trail off. ‘Wait, could he be referring to the pentacle I drew on the floor? Is he saying I opened a gate to hell and I got dragged in instead of me summoning someone out? Oooooh, no. Oh, shit. I think we done fucked up, (y/n).’
“You woke up inside of a coffin-shaped gate, did you not?”
“Wait, you mean I was summoned through a coffin?!”
“A coffin-shaped gate, to be precise, but yes.”
‘So, it wasn’t my summoning circle? Well, there goes that idea.’
The two of you, three if you count the bound cat, reached a set of ornate doors. The same doors to the room you woke up in. The doors to the room which could have been your final resting place, had you not escaped.
“Now, let us attend to your orientation.” With that, Crowley grabbed both door handles and started to pull them open.
“...had a tummy ache?” You just barely heard a bright voice saying something when Crowley suddenly swung the doors open all the way in a split second.
“I most certainly did not!”
‘...He totally used magic to swing those heavy doors open so quickly. If he was trying to make a grand entrance, he’s not doing a good job; it feels more like a dramatic entrance in a school play.’
“Ah, speak of the devil,” a clear, young voice spoke this time.
“If you must know, I was searching for the new student who'd failed to show up for orientation,” Crowley then stepped aside and ushered you forward in front of him. Now that he was no longer blocking your view, you could see the state of the once burning room. 
People.
So many people. Too many people. You could feel the eyes of dozens, perhaps even hundreds, of eyes all turn to focus on you. Your chest tightens. You can hear your heartbeat in your ears, its rhythm steadily accelerating. Just when your panic had finally begun to dissipate, your anxiety caused it to rear its ugly head once again.
“You are the only one who has yet to be assigned a dorm,” Crowley spoke to you, now, much quieter compared to his grand entrance. “Step up to the Dark Mirror, and be quick about it. I'll watch your tanuki.*”
You don’t want to. There’s too many people, their stares kindling your anxiety. It’s getting harder to breathe. You don’t want to step forward. You know the longer you stall, the more intense their stares will get, wondering what’s wrong with you, why you can’t just take a step forward. It feels like their stares are becoming glares, burning into your skin, hotter than the blue flames you ran through not even an hour earlier. 
What felt like forever was only a few seconds of pause, enough time for Crowley to notice you weren’t stepping forward. He gently placed a palm on your back and gave you a nudge forward. Maybe it was because you weren’t expecting it, but it made you stumble forward a few steps. 
You have no choice but to walk forward.
Stiffly, you walk, eyes trained on the floor. There’s too many eyes. You can’t look at them. So you focus on your feet. You take slow, deliberate steps. You’ve stumbled enough today; tripping over nothing in front of so many people might just make you cry. You take a quick glance up to see how much farther it is to the mirror. You’re halfway. It’s silent. At least, you think it’s silent. The roaring of your blood pumping through your ears makes it hard to hear anything else. The sound of your anxiety has never been a comfort before, but there’s a first for everything. Maybe you should be grateful you can’t hear any of their deprecating whispers about you. You no doubt look a mess with what you’ve been through today. 
You can feel yourself shaking by the time you arrive at the mirror. You clench your hands into the fabric of your robe–you still don’t know who changed your clothes and why– to try to steady yourself. The mirror is dark, save for the swirls of green smoke reflected on its surface. But you’re not there. There’s no smoke in the room and you don’t see yourself in the mirror. This mirror isn’t a mirror. Or you’ve turned into a vampire, but you’ve felt no semblance of sanguine hunger. In the mirror, a white mask fades in from the dark until it becomes completely opaque. It is a full-face mask with defined features, and seems to be wearing a lacy, black masquerade mask.
Its lips move. “State your name.”
A booming voice fills the silent room. Perhaps it is a being of great power. Or perhaps your anxiety attack is causing its voice to sound so commanding and feel so heavy. The silence that lingers after it had spoken almost feels even louder. It’s waiting for you.
“(Y-Y/n). (Y/n) (L/n),” you stutter out your name.
“The nature of your soul is…” it pauses for dramatic effect. After a few seconds, you realize it did not pause for dramatic effect. Something is wrong. Its face scrunches in a way that reminds you of when you smell something familiar but can’t recall just what it is. A moment too long later, it speaks. “It is…unclear to me.”
“What did you just say?” Crowley sounds astounded in a way that, for once, is from pure shock. Like victorian-lady-in-a-book-about-to-faint shock.
“I sense no magical power from this one.” The mirror continues to speak. If it is bothered by Crowley’s outburst, it doesn’t show it. “Soundless. Colorless. Shapeless. Utterly vacant. Therefore, no dorm would be appropriate.”
‘Rude. I can do magick. Maybe not your psychic-type or fire-type magic, but still.’
The stares that were focused on you intensify and cause you to stiffen. The pairs of eyes from all the bored onlookers who initially weren’t paying attention to you now lock on to your frozen form. If everyone’s eyes weren’t on you before, they definitely were now. Their hushed murmurs grow in number across the room, so much so they morph into wordless noises. And you know they’re all talking about you.
“Are you suggesting that the black carriage went to receive a person who cannot even use magic?” Crowley asks, still unable to believe the situation at hand. “But that is absurd! The student selection process has not erred once in its century of existence! How could this have happened?”
“Mmmph! Nnnrgggh,” The cat manages to struggle out of its bindings and gasps for a breath of air. “ME! Let ME have this student's seat!”
“Not so fast, you hyperactive tanuki!” Crowley reaches out in an attempt to recapture the cat, but misses.
“Unlike that human, I can actually use magic! So let me be a student here! Look, I'll show you! My spells're the cat's meow!” The cat rears back and a small blue sphere starts to form in its mouth.
“Everyone, get down!” A redhead boy shouts, his voice you recognize being the one with the clear voice you heard after you and Crowley entered the mirror chamber.
“Myaaahhh!” The cat lets out an uncontrolled stream of blue flames from its mouth, lighting the room on fire, much like how it was before you escaped.
“AHHHHH! HELP! I'm on fire over here!” Another voice you vaguely recall came from a tan, white-haired boy, who didn’t seem to know about ‘stop drop and roll.’
“Someone, catch that blasted animal before it sets the entire school ablaze!” Crowley commands. Seems like he’s not planning to help with this.
‘You know what. Fuck this. I’ve had enough of dealing with this cat.’ You ungracefully sit yourself on the ground next to the fountain below the floating mirror. ‘If its flames reach me, I can just douse off with this… dubious green liquid… I hope it doesn’t come to that.’
Now that you’ve finally taken a moment to rest and the people’s attention is no longer on you, the pain from injuries you forgot about and didn’t even know you had flares up. You can’t tell if the vague nausea is from the massive bruise no doubt forming across your stomach or your anxiety attack. Your legs and feet sting, the pain ebbing and flowing sporadically. Your shoulders are sore, one more than the other, but thankfully not dislocated.
A few of the people wearing matching robes, but with their hoods down, start to argue among themselves, a floating tablet included in their argument. Now that you’ve taken a moment, everyone in the room, save for the cat and Crowley, are wearing the same exact clothes. Including you.
‘...Is this some kind of cult initiation? But he said this was a college and these were students, so… a cult-based school orientation?’
You watch as the redhead and a different white-haired boy with glasses(his hair had a slight purple tint compared to the other white-haired boy) chase the cat, who is still spewing flames, around the room, in an attempt to catch it. It’s kind of comical though. So you lean back on your hands–you cringe a bit, your skin a bit raw from holding onto and slipping down the banister–and watch the spell-slinging chase scene happening across the room. It isn’t until after the cat manages to set fire to many more things, and probably some people too, when the redhead loses his temper.
“Off with your Head!” The redhead waves a fairly short wand and a heart-shaped collar materializes out of thin air and locks itself around the cat’s neck.
“MYAH?!” The Cat shouts in surprise as the weight of the metal collar forces its head down. A dull clank resounds as the point of the collar hits the hard floor. “What are you doing?!”
The redhead speaks to the cat, but he’s facing away from you and too far away for you to hear what. The cat, on the other hand, has no trouble yelling at a volume that easily carries its words across the room. “I ain't a cat or a tanuki! Don't try to collar me! I'll burn it right off! …Huh? Wh-what gives? My fire ain't workin'!” A response from Red, as you’ve decided to call him, seems to anger the cat more. “M-meoWHAT?! I ain't nobody's pet-NOTHING!” Red speaks again, saying something that seems to cause the glasses guy to laugh, but it sounds a bit fake. You would know a customer service tone anywhere as a fellow sufferer.
Movement from your peripheral catches your attention, and you watch as Crowley marches up to you. “(Y/n)-san**” His clear anger makes you flinch. “Was I not clear that you are expected to take responsibility for your familiar? You must discipline your familiar properly!”
“But…that’s not my familiar,” you explain to him. Seems he really didn’t hear you earlier. “I don’t even have a familiar in the first place.”
“It’s not? Oh…Um,” Crowley clears his throat, a bit flustered having been mistaken. “Then I shall have it expelled from campus. I shall even spare it from being served as dinner. My, but I am kind. ...Someone take this away, please.” Crowley dismissively waves his hand in a ‘shoo’ motion. One of the hooded figures grabs the cat and heads to the doors.
“Nooooo! Let me gooooo!” The cat screams in protest, desperately trying to wiggle out of their hold, but to no avail. “You fools better remember my name!” It yells out one last time as the person opens and steps through the doors. “Cause I'm gonna go down in the annals of magic history! Just you wait!” The heavy door shuts with a thud, and you can now only hear muffled shouts from the other side.
‘This might be considered animal cruelty, but it was intelligent and should therefore be held accountable for its crimes. Fuck you.’ You might be biased though, considering it did light you on fire and attempt to kill you.
It’s much quieter in the room now, the source of the chaos having been removed. The flames have died out, maybe because of whatever the cat said about not being able to use magic? Without the cat–or tanuki? –around, you could hear what the others in the room were saying without them yelling.
“Well, that was quite the unexpected fracas. I hereby declare that orientation has concluded. Housewardens, please escort your students back to the dorms,” Crowlet announces with a clap. “...Hm? Come to think of it, I don't see Housewarden Draconia of House Diasomnia anywhere.”
“And that surprises you? Dude's a total recluse,” a guy with lion ears says with a bored tone.
“Wait a sec... Did anyone even invite him?” The tan boy who was screaming earlier asked.
“If you're that worried about him missing out, maybe you should have told him yourself,” a guy with very nice hair said.
“Maybe, but I don't know him too well either…” The tan boy replied, a bit sheepish.
A few boys near you mumbled to each other. “Draconia... Like, Malleus Draconia? THAT Draconia?”
“So it's true? He really does go to school here?”
“Yikes.”
‘...I don’t know what’s going on anymore; I still don’t really know where I am. And Draconia? What kind of chuuni*** name is that?”
“Ah. Just as I'd expected,” a rather short boy spoke this time, his voice not matching his cute appearance(and very short height) at all. “I figured I'd come down and see for myself whether Malleus had made an appearance. “But once again, he was evidently not informed that his presence was required at an official ceremony.”
“You have my sincerest apologies,” The boy with glasses spoke this time. “I assure you, this oversight was in no way intended as a snub.”
‘Is this, like, some Victorian era political bullshit? Where they subtly insult each other disguised with polite words?’
“I mean, you must admit, he's not exactly the easiest person to strike up a conversation with,” Red said.
‘...Red, my mans, you gotta read the room. You can’t just–ignore the obvious over-politeness. You gotta roll with it.’
“No matter. All who were assigned to House Diasomnia, follow me. I just hope he doesn't sulk about this,” the deep-voiced boy said, muttering the last sentence.
You watch as the colorful characters–plus a floating tablet–who stole the spotlight for most of the event left the room, the mass of hooded figures following after them until it was only you and Crowley left.
“Well, (y/n)-san. This is a most unfortunate turn of events. I'm afraid that you will not be attending Night Raven College after all. Surely you realize that I cannot very well admit a student with no magical ability to my academy.”
‘Don’t worry man, I didn’t wanna join your cult in the first place. I need to get back home in case that demon is waiting for me.’
“But worry not. The Dark Mirror will see you safely home,” Crowley held out a hand for you to grab, helping you to your feet–the first polite thing he’s done for you today. Wow, who’d’ve thought. Local bird-man is actually capable of kindness without bragging about it. Or is it considered him making vaguely-veiled threats, because if it were anyone else saying his ‘for I am kind’ lines, it would definitely sound like a threat. “Now, step into the gate, and visualize the place from whence you came.”
You watched Crowley use the same magic he had used on you earlier to bring forth one of the coffins. Hesitant, you slowly stepped inside and closed your eyes, visualizing your comfy bed, its covers just waiting for you to cocoon yourself with them.
“O Dark Mirror! Return this soul to where it belongs!”
A moment passes. Nothing. You’re getting some serious deja vu vibes.
Crowley clears his throat. “L-let us, er...try this again. O Dark Mirror! Return this soul—”
“There is no such place,” the mirror interrupts him.
“What?”
‘What.’
“There is no place in this world where this soul belongs. None.”
‘Um, what the fuck?’
“How can that be? My, but today is a veritable cavalcade of impossible phenomena!”
‘Dude, why are you using fancy talk? Hell, how are you calm enough to use fancy vocabulary? Now’s not the time for this!’
The mirror didn’t answer him.
“This has never happened throughout my long tenure. I must confess that I am at something of a loss,” Crowley turned to face you, who was still inside a coffin. “Tell me: From what land do you hail?”
‘I’ve never heard of Twisted Wonderland before, so let’s start broad,’ you decide. “Earth.”
Fully expecting him to give you a ‘well, no shit,’ look, you grew unsettled when he didn’t lose his serious demeanor.
“...You mean to say you came from the ground?”
“What? No, I mean Earth, you know, the name, not the dirt?” ‘The one I hope to dear god is the one I am on now.
“I'm afraid I am not familiar with such a place.”
“...Fuck.”
Crowley gave you a silent look as if to admonish you for your language, but seemed to let it pass considering the current situation. “I am intimately acquainted with the origins of every student who has ever come here, and yet... This mysterious homeland of yours eludes me. Let us go to the library and look it up, shall we?”
You’re in deeper shit than you thought.
“Just as I'd suspected. Nothing.”
The two of you now found yourselves back in the library where you’d first met. Whether these or the previous circumstances were more favorable was still up for debate.
“Not only is your homeland not listed on any map from any point in history.
Now, are you QUITE sure that you come from such a place? That wasn't some sort of lie, or jape? Because if so, the only explanation is that you've come from another planet far, far away. Or perhaps you were summoned here from another dimension?”
“I’m sure,” you respond plainly, if not a little shaken. “And it’s definitely at least a different planet.”
“Oh, what makes you so sure?”
“Earth is the name of my planet, and you didn’t recognize it as a name.”
“...Why would you introduce your home as your planet?”
“...I panicked.” A lie.
“Well, no matter. Now, show me everything that you brought here with you.
Do you have some form of identification, a driver's license perhaps? Or even a...shoe?” It seems he associates you with shoes now, since you told him about your choice of weapon against the cat. “You do seem a tad bit...empty-handed.”
“I don’t think I have anything. I don’t even have my clothes.”
“Well, this is quite the predicament.”
“Yeah. And speaking of–”
“I cannot have someone with no aptitude for magic bumbling about my magic academy,” he cut you off with a rather rude comment. “And yet, as an educator, I am loath to expel a young person without a cent to their name, or any ability to contact someone they know. Truly, my grace is boundless.”
‘Wow, this guy is super conceited… Now that I think about it, what if he doesn’t think I’m dumb? Maybe he’s just got a superiority complex.’
Crowley brought his hand to his chin and hummed in thought. “Hmmmmm... Ah! There is a vacant building on this campus,” he began to explain. “It was, in fact, used as a dorm a long time ago. With a proper cleaning, it should be habitable enough.”
‘“Habitable” is an odd choice… Is he saying the place currently is not habitable? I’ve got a bad feeling about this.’
“Out of the profound kindness of my heart, I will allow you to live there for the time being. In the meantime, we will investigate other ways to send you home.” He turned away to give a self-praising soliloquy, “Dear me, but I am a gracious man indeed! A model educator, one might say.”
‘...I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone purposely pause a conversation to give a soliloquy. Especially not one where they just compliment themselves…I think I can safely say I would only like this birdman if he was a character and not an actual person.’
“Well then,” he looked back to you, “I shall take you to your dorm straight away. It is an older building, but it has plenty of...character, one might say.”
“Character?”
“Precisely. Come along now, time waits for no one.”
He leads you back out of the library, this time taking you down a few unfamiliar hallways covered in paintings, whose eyes you swear were following you, and lit with tall candelabras. The candle flames were the same green as the liquid in the fountain and cast an eerie glow, the color reminiscent of poison. After a few minutes of travel, you ended up in a large, open area; the best way you could think of to describe it was as a lobby. Crowley walked up to a set of grand double doors at the center of the opposite walls. In the dark it was hard to make out, but they almost looked as if they were made of stone.
‘No, they couldn’t be. Who would be stupid enough to make doors made of stone?’
With the flick of a wrist, Crowley opened the doors with, once again, magic. The sudden chill from the cool wind blowing in sent a small shiver down your spine. You crossed your arms for some extra warmth, but you couldn’t tell if it helped or not.
“Make sure you don’t wander off,” Crowley gave you a pointed look, as if you were about to go missing and he’d have to search for you again. “It’s just this way; follow me.” Leaving no room to argue, he began to walk down the path with you in tow.
His tall height already gave him longer legs so his stride was longer than yours, however it seemed he was in a hurry tonight. With him speed walking, you almost had to jog in order to keep pace with him.
‘Stupid tall people with their stupid long legs and stupid fast pace. I should've expected this from Birdman Crowley… Yeah, the more I get to know him the less I like him.’
After a while of following Crowley down the stone roads in the chilly night, he led you up a small hill towards a fenced in building that could almost be called a small manor. Or, it at least was a manor. The metal fence was horrendously crooked in every which way: the fence itself was laid out in a way where it curved back and forth, the pointed tips were bent back and forth, the bars were bent terribly; it was in horrible shape, as if someone ran a truck into every part of the fence. Although the fencing was bad enough, it didn’t compare to the building itself. As Crowley guided you up the stairs towards its door, you could do nothing but stare in awe.
‘This place looks haunted as fuck.’
The building looked like it was on its last legs. All the windows were boarded up, covering what were more than likely broken parts of the glass panes. The side paneling was coming off in places, there were more shingles missing than you were comfortable with, and the roof seemed to dip unnaturally in places, probably from prolonged water damage.
“This… this is where I’ll be staying?” You ask in disbelief.
“Isn't it delightful? Right, scoot inside now. There you go,” he shooed you inside, past the door whose rusted hinges squealed when opened.
‘...This can’t be legal… This is a lawsuit waiting to happen. I should sue… But legal practices might be different here… Fuck man, there’s really nothing I can do, is there?’
“This should keep the elements at bay for the time being,” Crowley looked proud of himself. “Now, I should return to my research. Do try to find some way to keep yourself busy. But don't let me catch you wandering the campus! Ta!”
“Wha–huh? No, wait a min–aaaand he’s gone,” you called after him but he had already ditched you, the squeal of the door grating on your ears as it magically closed behind him. “Man, this place is a mess. Does OSHA not exist here? Like, a fantasy OSHA? FOSHA? Haaah, this place is probably infested with several different types of mold. I’m not looking forward to discovering them…”
‘Wait, that reminds me, if I’m not from here, that means I’m probably super susceptible to so many new diseases. Do they have vaccines here? Because I’m probably gonna need all of them. If they’re safe. What if their water carries bacteria that’s deadly to me? Or what if all their food is deadly to me too? Oh, no, this situation is a whole lot worse now that I’ve had time to think.’
Stuck in your nervous inner ramblings, you didn’t notice you had begun to pace the room, kicking up the dust.
‘I mean, these people definitely look human, or at least human with animal ears like that one guy, but for all I know they could be completely different biologically.’
 It wasn’t until a frighteningly loud boom of thunder that your concentration broke, and made you squeak in surprise in the process, that you noticed it had begun to rain outside. It didn’t take long for the occasional water droplets to fall from the ceiling. 
‘This could be a problem. As the storm goes on, the droplets will probably increase dramatically. I should go find some buckets or pots.’
You were about to go searching the dark building for a supply closet or the kitchen when you heard a familiar voice.
 “GWAH! It's pouring out there!”
*Using tanuki instead of weasel because Grim doesn’t look like a weasel, and it makes more sense in the context of tanuki in Japanese mythology.
**Characters who are polite will refer to others with Japanese honorifics instead of English ones. It’s more gender neutral and flows better than using Mx. in my opinion, which will be more relevant in the future.
****Chuuni–short for chuunibyou.’ 
A/N: I spent half an hour trying to figure out the technical term for when you make sounds like “iunno.” Like when you use intonation and sounds but not words to speak and still get the message across. The best I could find would be calling it an approximate onomatopoeia of a phrase. 
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Fictober 2023
Prompt number #1 Fanfiction Fandom: Flash Rogues Rating: T – Teen and up Warnings: Profanity
Day One: “It’s not too late, let’s go.”
Hartley was clearly in a foul mood as he tore off his cloak with what seemed like excessive vigour. He muttered to himself as he changed from his costume into nondescript street clothes, and naturally all of this caught James’ roving attention.
“What’s up, Hart o’ mine?”
“I’ve told you not to call me that,” Hartley fumed, carefully packing two tiny pipes into the seams of his civilian clothing. He could never be too careful, even if just planning a casual outing.
“Chill, Piper. What’s wrong?”
“I had plans today. I was supposed to go to Pride with a guy I’ve been seeing occasionally and his friends, but they ditched me with a flimsy excuse so I’m pretty sure I’ve been officially dumped and now have nobody to go with. Then I mentioned to Cold that I plan to attend in full costume to rep the metahuman scene, and he gave me shit for it so boring clothes it is! I’m half-ready to just cancel this year.”
The wheels were clearly turning in James’ head, which rarely boded well, and suddenly he grinned.
“It’s not too late. Put on your hobo gear and let’s go,” James announced, jumping to his feet with an ever-widening smirk.
“Aren’t you going to the Rogue meeting this afternoon? And planning to set off a fart bomb under Digger’s chair?”
“Yeah, but you’re my pal and I’d never miss an opportunity to tweak Len and wear tights in public. We’re gonna make the news for sure!”
Hartley hesitated, looking for signs that James was pulling his leg or had some sort of cruel intent, but saw none. After weighing the pros and cons for a few moments, he flashed a grateful smile at his friend and hurried to pull on his boots and cloak. They were going to put on one hell of a show for the crowd.
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ooooo is your last post about “i feel like i win when i lose”???
sorry anon, it's not - it's about a better call saul fic.
however, this reminded me that I got another ask about that story which I forgot to answer a few weeks ago. it has been quite a while since i've worked on it. I have no idea when/if there will be an update, if I'm being completely honest with you. I feel bad about it! but under the cut are some sections from what I do have written of the last chapter. hope you enjoy em <3
Jughead accepts a cold beer from Munroe, settles back onto one of the open loungers, and actually has a pretty good time chilling with the bros until – inevitably – someone suggests they see what the bridesmaids are up to.  
“I dunno.” Archie pauses in the midst of slathering more sunscreen across his chest, something he’s been doing every fifteen minutes or so, likely at Veronica’s behest. “I think Ronnie wanted them to have a girls’ day.” 
Eric opens his mouth to protest, but Reggie jumps in. “I know what you’re thinking, bro, but none of them are single. Well, except for Betty.”
Jughead focuses with deliberate intensity on the label of his beer bottle as the others weigh the pros and cons of crossing the bride’s boundary line for the sake of flirting with her hot maid of honor. He hasn’t spoken with Betty since a week before her move to Michigan for the journalism fellowship, and even that was just a couple of stilted text exchanges – congrats, be sure to buy some good snow boots, ha ha. In the meantime, nearly eight months have passed.
And Jughead’s regretted every minute. 
“Hey.” Archie nudges Jughead’s leg with his foot, jerking his chin towards the house. “Wanna help me with some snacks?”
They both know what he’s actually doing, and Jughead feels a rush of warmth for his friend – his best friend, who’s getting married to the love of his life tomorrow, and deserves better than a sadsack excuse for a best man who wastes a free trip to the Caribbean so he can mope over a non-relationship that ended before it even began.
“Do you even have to ask?”
In the kitchen, Jughead sits on one of the swiveling counter stools and watches as Archie attempts to curate a charcuterie plate. 
“So, Betty asked how you were doing.” Archie tilts his head slightly as he flops a slice of prosciutto to one side, then the other. 
Jughead ignores the faint flutter of hope in his chest. Most likely she was just wondering if she’d have to walk down the aisle with a brooding basket case at her best friends’ wedding. “What’d you tell her?”
Archie shrugs. “Not much. I figured you can tell her yourself at the rehearsal dinner tonight.” 
“Oh. Yeah.” Leaning across the counter, Jughead snags a green olive and pops it into his mouth. “I guess I can.” 
“What happened with you two, anyway? Ron was freaking out for weeks that you were gonna, like, propose, and then nothing.” 
“Nothing happened, we just…didn’t happen.” Jughead reaches forward again, this time retrieving a block of cheese and an entire sleeve of organic rosemary-sea salt crackers. “Shit happens. Or doesn’t. Whatever.”
If Archie’s skeptical, he’s too preoccupied arranging slices of salami to dig further. “Whatever you say, man.” 
“Not everyone gets the picture perfect happily-ever-after, Archibald.” Jughead sandwiches a hunk of cheddar between two crackers, eyeballs it, and crams the whole thing into his mouth. “You’re lucky everything just slid into place with Veronica. You got off easy.” 
There’s a pause as Archie frowns down at his mess of a charcuterie plate. “I don’t know if I’d call it easy. There was a lot of stuff we had to work through.” 
It’s a funny thing to hear, coming from a man who’s standing in the kitchen of the villa on the private island that his future father-in-law rented out for an entire week, while he heaps jamón Ibérico onto a hand-carved wooden board for a bunch of sun-drunk bros who’d be just as happy scarfing down a bag of pork rinds. But it is Archie’s wedding, so: he’ll humor him.
“Oh yeah? Like what?” 
“Like the fact that Ronnie’s dad hated me when we first got together because my dad dated her mom back in high school.”
Right. He’d forgotten about that. “Okay, sure, but that was just –”
“And then there was the year when Hiram coached the wrestling team. That was rough.” Archie shakes his head a little. “And the year after that, when I interned for him. I still have nightmares sometimes. And that time where he wanted to buy up the south side and turn it into SoDale – I mean, you know, Jug. You were there.”
“Fair enough. You didn’t hit the in-laws jackpot. But –” 
“And then there was college.” Archie continues as though he hadn’t even heard him. “Long distance was hard. And right after graduation is when Ronnie found out about Hermosa and went through that whole identity crisis thing. She broke up with me for a couple months that year, remember?”
He hadn’t, actually, until this moment. That was the same year that he’d moved to Chicago. It had taken a while before his old friendships had settled into a new rhythm that bridged the hundreds of miles between them, which was his therapist’s very nice way of saying he’d been kind of self-centered that year. 
“And then there was the thing with the bear –”
“Okay, okay.” Jughead waves both hands in defeat. “You moved mountains to be with Veronica. I get it.” 
“I’m just saying. If she’s worth it, sometimes you have to put the work in.” Eyes wide with wonder, Archie holds out a jar of cornichons. “Hey, have you ever tried these baby pickles?” 
A light sprinkle of raindrops catches Jughead just as he slips through the door to the ballroom. 
To one side of the airy, open room, Archie, Veronica, and their parents are huddled together with a severe-looking woman who can only be the wedding planner. To the other, the rest of the wedding party is mingling in clusters of two or three. 
By some miracle – or curse, he can’t decide which – Cheryl Blossom spots him first. “Look what the cat finally dragged in.” 
Scowling, Jughead glances at the time on his phone as he reaches the edge of the group. “I’m not late, Cheryl.” 
She rolls her eyes, flicking a lock of long red hair over one shoulder. “I never said you were.” 
“She’s just jealous you got one of the beachfront suites for being the best man. I got the other one.” 
He turns around, and his heart skips a beat when it’s Betty looking back at him, a hint of nerves in her smile. “Hi, Jughead.” 
“Betty.” He swallows, his mouth suddenly dry. “Hi.”
She looks radiant: eyes bright, cheeks rosy, hair pinned back in loose waves that fall just past her shoulders. He doesn’t know whether or not she wants him to touch her, but thankfully she doesn’t leave it up to him, stepping forward for a brief, perfunctory hug. 
“I’m not jealous, Cousin Betty,” Cheryl huffs. “I simply find it unacceptable that our hosts would play favorites with two single people who could be sharing a bed themselves while those of us who actually need the space are forced into a room the size of a two-cent postage stamp. Especially while my TT is in such a delicate condition.”
Before either of them can say another word, Cheryl stalks away in a huff. Jughead looks to Betty in mild alarm. “Is Toni okay? Was she in an accident or something?”
“Toni’s fine. She’s pregnant. But she’s only four months along, so you can barely even tell. They don’t need any more space.” Betty waves a hand in dismissal. “Anyway, how have you been? Are you settling in to the city?” 
Betty’s tone is genuine, curious – but also distant. Like it’s been eight months since they’ve spoken, yes, but more than that – like all the little intimacies they’d shared before have been washed away. A polite, friendly blank slate. 
It feels like his heart’s been crumpled up in a ball and tossed into the wastebasket. 
And it’s his own goddamn fault. 
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mara-tevith-solo · 1 year
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Sing a Little Song For Me
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I think I figured out the gif thing, it only took me a year :D ok, ok, first dad joke of the year out of the way, sorry
Part 10 of the drabble set, gif very much not mine, i love 1strecomdejablue’s work
Warnings: Canon levels of violence, talk of hunting, kidnapping, death, attempted death, Eywa is sneaky, mentions of dead bodies
Pairing: Eventual Colonel Miles Quaritch x Na’vi/Avatar named f!reader/OC
Taglist: @seashelldom @perseny @tinyfairies​ @kimqueenofhell​ @blueberry-thrawn  
words: 1.4k+
Rated 18+
It started out as a peaceful day, great weather, the RDA was quiet, and patrolling the skies felt like more of a formality as Thor and I debated hunting later that evening. Weighing the pros and cons of hunting something large enough in the dead dark. I, personally, didn't mind the challenge. He, however, wasn't as keen because he was the backup, he was the muscle. If shit went down he was all I had to rely on. Even though nothing of the kind had ever happened, neither of us had ever needed saving. "Dad... I mean Devil Dog, can you read me?" Filtered over the radio, breaking the internal conversation, Lo'ak sounding regretful and hesitant as he spoke. I pressed the ear piece in further, not wanting to miss a thing.
"Send your traffic, Eagle Eye." Jake responded firmly as though he was preparing for more trouble.
"We see some Avatars, full camo, I don't think they're ours." Lo'ak responded softly, my heart already sinking as I began scanning the trees for any hint as to where they were.
"Who's we?" Anger began painting his voice.
"Um, me, Spider, Kiri... and Tuk..." My stomach sank with my heart with dread and fear, Thor growling at it, his wings digging into the air harder for more speed.
"Where are you?" Jake asked quickly, sounding just as alarmed as I felt.
"We're... we're at the Shack."
"Fall back, do not engage, do you hear me? We'll be right there to get you."
"Ok." "I'm closer, I'll see you there." I interrupted, Jake having no doubt forgotten that I was also running patrols.
"Right behind you." He confirmed as Thor roared, flying faster with his anger and indignance that the enemy was within breathing distance of his favorite kids. I made him drop me off at a clearing just far away enough that they wouldn't hear him, ignoring his grumbling and cursing at the dense forest before we pulled away and went our separate ways. I stayed close to the ground as I jogged silently, avoiding anything that could make too much noise as I moved, knife in hand. I barely stopped when I came upon the first one, putting my knife through his temple and lowering him to the ground before continuing, chirping loudly every few meters, listening for the kids. I killed another one much like the first, wondering why they weren't beginning to act alarmed, surely, the first driver would have done his damnedest to warn the others, right?
I stopped chirping when I was within twenty meters of the very tense group, all of them dressed in fatigues like their passed comrades, none of them looking alarmed, just alert. I whistled one short three note bird call, making the kids' ears focus on me as I surveyed the situation. There were two women, and eight males, all of them armed past the teeth. "Keep your heads on a swivel." One of the men ordered, his voice familiar in an uncomfortable way.
"How will we know, Colonel?" One of the women asked, the least dressed or armored of the whole unit.
I kept my focus on the first one I'd heard speak, the one that was obviously in charge as he kept moving around agitatedly "I'd bet they're already here." He frowned, unknowingly swinging around to face me, his calculating eyes passing right over me without realizing it. That gaze was different, the voice wasn't as age rough, and the face was noticeably different, but there was no mistaking that chill that made me want to shake and shiver as it passed over me. I wanted to duck behind the tree beside me and hide, my heart beating erratically as the first rain drops chilled me far too quickly. My vision swam as I tried to control my breathing, knowing that crouching there behind a thick fern wasn't a safe place to have a panic attack. Neytiri's chirps filled the dark forest, lifting the kids' hopes further as they looked between each other. She was ahead of the group, cutting them off from escape and locking them into only one, maybe two, possible escape routes. I couldn't see her from where I was, but I wasn't going to fuck up the element of surprise to look. "Watch our six." Quaritch ordered one of the others, a shorter male who seemed to enjoy jerking Kiri around as he brought her with him.
She began praying in pain, her head as far back as was comfortable "Shut up." He growled with a nasty tug, making her hiss softly but she didn't stop. "I said shut up!" He ordered louder, stepping in such a way that he was looming over her.
The arrow that made a home in his skull kicked off a multitude of fear as he fell to the ground "Contact!" Someone yelled as I used the distraction to pop up and take a shot before moving closer, tucking behind a tree as a breathless groan followed the sound of someone falling, bullets flying indiscriminately as someone else yelped loudly and crashed to the ground.
I could see Quaritch look at the arrow that was sticking out of the woman, saw the split second of fear that he covered with bluster "That you, Mrs. Sully? I recognized your calling card!" He called out into the dark as he reloaded his own gun before taking the woman's and reloading it. "Why don't you come on out, Mrs. Sully?" Quaritch called out to her again, unable to hide the shake in his voice as he loaded a grenade into the lower barrel of the rifle. "You and I, we've got some unfinished business!"
"Demon! I will kill you as many times as I have to!" Neytiri replied her voice an angry growl as she made her vow, though giving up her position.  
He motioned to one of the men ahead of him from his seat, making silent instructions as I shifted my weight, wanted a better line of sight as I pulled back the bow string. His attention instantly locked onto me, his eyes widening with fear as he realized what he was staring down before I loosed it. He barely had time to duck, and no time to aim as he started shooting, forcing me to retreat to a safer location. "Lieutenant Riley, that you?" He asked when the bullets stopped, even more shaken than before.
"I wish I could say it's good to see you, Colonel!" I called before moving again, not wanting to get shot.
His laughter filled the forest, tired and stressed and nearly killed several times, but he was still laughing. Psychopath. "Me too, Princess!" He called, shaking his head, not noticing me as I lined up a perfect shot. He didn't have any time to react by the time he noticed, the arrow already defying gravity in a bid to taste his skull. He could only blink at it dumbly, frozen in the face of the end, mouth open in a yell that would never come. Until the arrow veered to the left ever so slightly, not even grazing him as it sank halfway into the log beside his head. Both of us just blinked at it, both of us knowing it should have hit him right between the stupid eyes, and yet it hadn't. I was staring at the accursed arrow for so long that one of them snuck up on me, his knife whistling through the air just loud enough to alert me to the danger in time. I struck the avatar with my bow, yelling my frustrations at him as I chased him with my knife, sinking it into his heart the moment he hit the ground.
The explosions of grenades, yelling, and mass amounts of gunfire followed the dead Recom, the others leaving him behind as the Sullys undoubtedly retreated, having recovered the kids and booking it before something else happened. I followed suit with ringing ears, swinging wide so that I didn't get caught up in anything, didn't run into anyone, covering our flank. "Fall back! Fall back!" Quaritch's orders rang through the forest, pulling my attention and my feet towards the group, movements swift and silent, wanting to make sure that they really were leaving and weren't trying to trick us.
Human blood tinted the air ever so slightly as I closed the distance, setting me on edge as long strides covered ground faster than my brain could make decisions, knowing that there was only one person it could have been. I caught a world shattering glimpse, somewhat distant but no less clear, of a dirty bloody Spider thrown over Quaritch's shoulder like a sack of potatoes as the Recoms retreated. A wail tore itself out of my throat as my feet began pursuit, panic making my thoughts swirl like a hurricane as I desperately tried to close the distance.
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nobody-for-sure · 2 years
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Language Barrier
Chapter 13: Interlude
(~0.3k words, see chapter list here)
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This player is currently offline
"Again?" You sigh. You still haven't seen Autumn on since your abrupt parting before. "I really wanted to apologize in person, but..." You hum, weighing the pros and cons. "I guess if they don't get on before I log off today I'll just send them a message." That'll be almost as good, won't it? You'd hate to loose a friend over a misunderstanding, even if they are just an online one.
Especially Autumn.
They've been a fantastic companion, and you've grown close rather quickly. Besides helping you in combat - which wasn't really necessary, but you both enjoyed fighting together - Autumn turned out to be a great conversationalist. You'd discussed all manner of topics, and even confided a couple secrets that you couldn't bring yourself to share with anyone you knew in real life. Why is it so much easier to talk to someone you don't know? But Autumn made it easy. They took everything in stride, never judged you, and always knew exactly what to say. They never pushed you to share more than you were comfortable with, and never failed to offer good advice or a heartfelt compliment when you were feeling down on yourself.
You daresay they might be one of the best friends you've ever had.
You collect your daily commission reward (already out of resin), and check your friends list again. Nothing.
"Okay, message it is."
You open the chat, type out as much as the character limit will allow, and hit send.
you: Sorry about the other day I wanted to apologize in person but I haven't seen you
"Are you FUCKING serious."
you: I got disconnected the other day but I'd still like to talk next time you're on
"Oh, for fuck's sake, wifi!" You wait a couple minutes, trying to see if the game will reconnect, but Madame Ping is not with you today. Frustrated, you close the game with a huff. "Alright, first thing tomorrow. This is getting ridiculous."
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It was not to be.
First thing tomorrrow, you yawn, stretch, and squint your eyes at the bright sun.
"Hey, wait a minute. Where the fuck am I???"
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twogyuu · 2 years
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Calling You at the End of the World
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Pairing: Seungkwan x gn!reader (ft. the rest of maknaes + Seokmin, mentions of Mingyu)
Synopsis: “So, who would you call? If, you know, the world would end.”
Genre: Fluff, crack, mutual pining
Warnings: Alcohol, name-calling (lovingly and out of good humor only), food, kissing, mild spoilers about Sweet Home and The Walking Dead
WC: 1.9K
Permanent taglist: @nanamioo @binniesposts
A/N: Inspired by this prompt from @creativepromptsforwriting! I’ve noticed that there’s not a lot of Seungkwan fics out there, so decided to make this one about him :) Here ya go, Mr. Boo ✌🏻
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Drained from the three hours of non-stop singing, Seungkwan and you were sitting limp on the old orange leather couch that nearly sank your asses to the floor every time you sat down. The blue, pink, and orange lights of the karaoke room danced across the room, casting a purple hues across your face. The wooden table in front of you was strewn with empty plastic shot cups and half-drunken red solo cups, your room wreaking of the pungent smell of namely soju and maekju, with perhaps a hint of Diet Coke if you sniffed hard enough. Despite the lack of voices, the karaoke machine still played the robotic instrumental tunes of the songs you all had madly queued up before and during the karaoke session – Ironically, TWICE’s ‘Alcohol-Free’ was playing, the screen panning out from Sana to the whole group swaying back and forth. 
“Hey,” Seungkwan called out drunkenly from beside you. He let out a hoarse chuckle, his shoulders bouncing up and down. 
You let out a soft hum in response, turning your head to look at him with the side of your face pressed into the couch. Though it was dark, you could see that his cherubic cheeks were flushed pink. You weren’t sure if it was from the alcohol or if he was sweaty, though you opted for the latter from the way his once neatly combed back hair was sticking to his forehead. 
“I have - hick - a stupid question for you,” he slurred. His eyes fluttered shut. 
“Shoot,” you replied. 
“Let’s say,” Seungkwan started, “There’s a zombie apocalypse, like, like . . . in Sweet Home.”
“Sweet Home was about humans transforming into monsters because of human desires and greed, dummy,” you corrected him.
“Really?” Seungkwan tilted his head in confusion. “The one with, w-with . . . Song Kang?”
“Mmmhmm,” you confirmed. 
“Well okay, then,” he slapped the empty seat on the other side of him, “Zombie apocalypse like The Walking Dead.” Seungkwan nodded, a smirk forming on his face as if he just made the best discovery in the world. “That show that Mingyu watches – or used to before it got stupid and the best character died.”
“Get to the point, Boo,” you chortled. 
“Okay,” he nodded once, slumping back against the couch. “So, who would you call? If, you know, the world would end.”
You knitted your eyebrows together in confusion and peered up at your friend, who was staring back at you the same with wide-eyes. His lips were set in a small pout, as if he was hanging onto every single word that was about to spill from your lips. 
Playfully, you tapped your chin like you were pondering, filtering through your short list of friends, weighing the pros and cons of each person. Though in truth, you only had one person in mind. 
“Well, if the world was ending, technically our cell phone wouldn’t work?” you pointed out. “So I can’t call anyone even if I wanted to?”
A bored expression settled on Seungkwan’s face. It was really no wonder you got along so well with Hansol. Rolling his eyes, he thwacked your forehead. 
“Ow!”
“Just answer the question, Y/N.”
“Fine – Mingyu,” you deadpanned immediately. 
A look of hurt and disgust flashed across Seungkwan’s face. “What – Why? He’s gonna be the first to be eaten because he fell out of a tree – do you know how clumsy he is?”
“Would not! I’d trust him to come save me right away. Also, Mingyu knows how to cook, he’s clean, he’s got big muscles – ohh! And he’s got a big brain. I would stick with him to the end.”
Seungkwan scoffed. 
“He led us out of that escape room that one time, remember?” you continued, “You, Hansol, and I would’ve been stuck in there until time ran out – don’t fight me on that,” you shot back. 
“Aahh – tsk, this –hick– person . . . Mingyu’s not that great.” Seungkwan sucked in a sharp breath, crossing his arms, tearing his eyes away from you. Sometimes, he wondered how he developed feelings for you. You were so argumentative and annoying at times. 
You watched him, huffing to himself, the alcohol seeming to clear pretty fast after providing your rationale for your choice. You chuckled and entangled your arms around his left bicep, pressing your forehead into his shoulder. 
“Wah! What are you doing?!” Seungkwan exclaimed, trying to pry your hands off. “Get! Off of me – go do this to your everso reliable Mingyu!”
His reaction only prompted you to cling on tighter, a laughter bubbling from your chest. The two of you struggled a while longer, Seungkwan trying to pull away, but you had an iron grip, until a shriek from across the room. 
A pillow was launched in your direction, smacking you in the face. You let out a small moan, Seungkwan immediately cupping your cheek before shooting daggers across the room. 
“Both of you!” Seokmin pouted, his eyes still squeezed tight, “Shut up! I’m trying to sleep! You’re giving me a headache!”
He immediately fell back against the couch, sleeping again as if he never woke up to yell at Seungkwan and you. You suppressed another bout of laughter, turning to look at Seungkwan’s who was suffering internally from keeping his own chuckle in, his face contorted. Unable to hold it in any longer, Seungkwan wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you close and burying his face in the junction between your neck and your collarbone. You would’ve laughed too, but the close proximity caught you off guard. His hot breath fanned against your collarbone as your ears burned, his touch sending tingling up your spine.
When he finally calmed down, Seungkwan let go of you and flopped back against the couch. He dabbed the corner of his eyes with his knuckles, wiping away the tears of laughter. You could finally breathe, but you suddenly found empty without him caressing you – even if it wasn’t intentional. Nonetheless, you found yourself inching closer to him, resting your head on his shoulder. 
“Ah . . . Lee Seokmin, that guy,” Seungkwan sighed, “He’s such a crazy drunk.” Seungkwan picked up the pillow that had landed on the floor and threw it back at the said man. It bounced off his head and landed in front of the door behind Seokmin – the older man didn't react, deep in his slumber. 
The two of you stayed like this a little longer, taking in the calm again after the small outburst; the whistle of STAYC’s ASAP tinkled in the background. You let out a small sigh, wondering how the two of you got here, in this weird limbo between acquaintances, skipping the friends part, and something more. You met Seungkwan through Chan, in a setting similar to this one. A year ago, you had just moved into the city, not knowing anyone, but him, your childhood friend. Chan had offered to introduce you to his friends at karaoke night at Mingyu and Wonwoo’s, where you were quite blown away with Seungkwan’s stamina to keep singing and dancing until dawn. Since then, you’ve mostly only encountered Seungkwan at gatherings, where he would be planted by your side most of the time. Even if you didn’t have that much to talk about, Seungkwan would fill the silence with tea about everyone else in the room – people watching with him was fun. Every now and then, he would text you to meet up for coffee (specifically iced americanos because you learned that you both loved those), or check-in to see if you were doing well. Chan had told you Seungkwan was a sociable and nosy guy – good nosy, in that he just cared a lot about his friends. Thus, it was difficult for you to decipher if this was just Seungkwan or if he actually had a romantic interest. 
It was not news to your friends that you had developed feelings for the young man. Chan and Hansol were just very hands-off kind of people and hoped that the course of the two of you getting together would fall together naturally. Seokmin, on the other hand – loveable, but clueless and oblivious to the tension in the room whenever the two of you were together.
Liquid courage still coursing in your veins, you finally decided to tell him once and for all – or so, cryptically of course. You weren’t that bold. 
“I was kidding, Boo,” you said in a small voice. You stroked his arm gently.
“About what?” he muttered, his eyes already shut. 
“If the world was ending, you’d be the first one I would call.”
Seungkwan’s eyes fluttered open. He straightened his posture and peered down at you, thankful that the room was dim, so you couldn’t see the blush growing across his cheeks. “Don’t lie.”
“I’m not,” you insisted, “Even if our cell phones didn’t work, I would still try to call you.”
“Why?” he asked softly. 
“So I could finally tell you the truth,” you chortled, “I like you.”
Seungkwan stiffened. Slowly, he turned his head to look at you, his eyes wide and his mouth slightly agape in shock. “Liar.”
“Even if we don’t survive in the zombie apocalypse because you and I are hopeless,” the corner of your lips tweaked up in a small smile, “I would be happy you finally knew.”
“Y/N, you're drunk.”
“It sucks that it would take a zombie apocalypse to tell you though.” Your eyebrows furrowed together. 
“Don’t say things you don’t mean, Y/N.”
“But they're not lying, bro,” Hansol’s voice echoed from the door. It was cracked open, while the young man was leaning against the doorframe eating turtle chips casually. Seungkwan could make out the top of Chan’s head, peeking from behind his shoulder.
How long had they been there? How much had they seen?
“W-what . . . what do you mean?” Seungkwan asked breathlessly. 
“Y/N likes you and I think they just confessed,” Hansol giggled. A few bits of turtle chips spewed onto the floor. 
“Are y’all done? Can you just kiss and get it over with?” Chan yelled from behind. 
A pair of hands landed on either side of Seungkwan’s jaw, twisting his head in your direction. By the time he blinked, your lips were already unceremoniously pressed against his own. He was shocked for a minute, but eventually leaned into your kiss, refusing to open his eyes now. His hands naturally resting on your hips. The taste of alcohol and peaches lingered on your lips – you were quite literally intoxicating. 
But the kiss was over faster than he would’ve liked. You were breathless when you finally pulled away, your hands clasped around the nape of his neck, resting your forehead against Seungkwan’s. You peered up nervously at him, nibbling at the inside of your swollen bottom lip. 
Seungkwan smirked, staring lovingly into your own eyes. He looked away for a moment before flitting back up. A small chortle left his lips. “I’m glad, you’d call me first.” 
You breath caught in your throat at his suddenly deep and husky voice. 
“Cute,” Hansol commented. He looked back at Chan and pointed at the pair, “This is almost like a rom-com in real life!”
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