#but still refuse to throw away?

[lacnunga]

Theres something about big booktoker/booktuber shelves that really heebies my jeebies

#its the all new everything #the identical matching hardback covers #of books that every other bookwhatever has #its the long rows of illumicrate botm etc editions #wheres the old favourites? the books so loved through youve sellotaped the covers on #but still refuse to throw away? #wheres the ugly impulse purchase thrift finds that just sounded too intriguing to leave #wheres the mismatched series bc you couldnt wait to read the next book #wheres the hand me downs that you dont like that much but have so much sentimental value #your old childrens books? your textbooks bc you got really into a subject for no reason? #the library book you forgot to return 5 yeads ago and is just yours now oops #yknow. the books that make your shelf look like it belongs to a human #instead of something an ai spat out

[askticcitobyshit]

before the break-up

#throws angst at you- refuses to elaborate- runs away #dont worry the breakup was mutual and theyre besties now and totally not in denial about their feelings for each other #ticcijack #creepypasta #ticci toby #eyeless jack #angst #toby rogers #toby rogers fanart #ticci toby fanart #eyeless jack fanart #jack nyras #jack nyras fanart #dont ask me why jack keeps changing sizes im SENSITIVE #i still cant draw non-scrawny men LMFAO #ticcijack angst #comic #creepypasta fanart #creepypasta comic #artists on tumblr

[stizzysupremacy]

…

#like okay I refuse to shit on anyone’s queer rep parade #and apparently so does everyone else who agrees with me #because I see so many posts about the alleged healthiness of Stede and Ed’s relarionship #and I know I am not crazy. nor am I alone in thinking ‘what healthy relationship???’ #in the finale they are At Best taking their first solid steps towards a healthy relationship #but they haven’t achieved that shit yet. they are actually still the men who didn’t talk to each other. who ran away from each other. #you want to hope for the best. but it throws me off when ppl act like what we got was the best #posts like ‘oh even when he is furious enough to smash a chair into a wall he still wouldn’t hurt stede’ #the scene that reveals that Atede didn’t explain anything and Ed didn’t allow himself the closure of hearing explanations really should be #NOT considered evidence of healthy relationship #okay I’m done I just get sick of seeing that gifset with its reblogs saying that and #’oh they did so well balancing the inherent violence of pirates against healthy relationships’ #girl WHAT healthy relationship?? there’s not a single damn person at that dinner table that knows what a healthy relationship is! #(wait. forgot about Buttons) #(I want to ship these two losers but I want to ship it for the cringefail ongoing train wreck it is #not the perfect queer happily-ever-after-SOMEHOW fairy tale that I don’t think canon supports)

[sleepii-moth]

i am well aware that there is more than one person running for the democratic party in the presidential election but unless someone usurps biden in popularity (which i honestly kind of doubt will happen), people really need to understand that ultimately the election is going to result in one of three things:

1, democrats refuse to vote, therefore donald trump or another most likely equally as bad person will win

2, democrats split the vote between other canidates in the democratic party which results in none of the dem candidates getting enough votes to beat a Republican and the same outcome as 1 happens

or 3, democrats work together to vote for the most popular canidate (who i think will most likely be biden) and a democrat is elected

and im gonna be honest, if 1 happens im gonna start biting people. yall NEED to vote, voting is LITERALLY the most basic most liberal ass thing you can do as a leftist right now, and if you are refusing to vote right now im like actually mad at you, its really not that hard yet some people STILL dont wanna do as if NOT VOTING WASNT PART OF WHY TRUMP WAS ORIGINALLY ELECTED. JUST VOTE.

#i understand that there are better avenues for leftist activism than voting that do more blah blah blah votes barely count #but its ridiculous to me that people have literally the easiest way to make sure that the US is slightly less of a complete #dumpster fire and are STILL not wanting to do it #do you people really want another trump presidency???? is that what you fucking want??? why is everyone incapable of picking the guy who #is significantly less worse than trump. do you people think that voting is the same thing as saying you love someone so much and they can d #no wrong??? you can still protest a guy you voted for?? no one even has to know who you voted for either??? #i cannot understate how pissed i am at people like this as someone who cannot vote i am like enraged #you have this ability and yet you refuse to utilize it while those unable to have to sit and watch while your actions cause #horrible people to make the rules #trans youth in america have been the most targeted by the right recently #and how do you think they feel helplessly watching you throw it away because you dont know how to suck it up and choose? #theres no such thing as a good president you need to learn that

[batfamhyperfixation]

I need more content of Tim's jealousy when other siblings come in and become close to Dick. Like every time someone says Damian is Dick's favorite it hurts my heart a little cause I know how Tim would feel.

It's one thing for a younger sibling to grow up with you, cause like at least then you all have your defined roles and it's like what you know so you aren't stepping on one another's toes, but like it's something completely else to have a sibling who is already grown up come into the family and become siblings with your sibling.

It is just like that longing feeling when you see them together and like they haven't known each other as long yet they seem closer to your sibling than you are, and everyone knows they are the favorite and you are just like how do they get along so well with so little effort.

I need more Tim and Dick content like this. The boy went from being Dick's only sibling still around (aka no competition for being brothers and nothing to compare it to) to being like 1 of 5 of dick's siblings, and I know this also goes in reverse where the newer sibling is jealous of the older two siblings for already having the established bond, but I dont see enough of Tim having bitter envy of how close Damian and Dick are despite not knowing each other as long, like you want angsty relationships DC, show me this instead of just everyone trying to kill Tim, show me silent envy that grows more and more as it slowly decays a sibling relationship instead of like a weird ritual where if you wanna be apart of the family you have to attempt to kill tim

#sometimes i just need angsty tim #not tim getting targeted by siblings or tim getting annoyed at siblings #just Tim who finally became brothers with his idol and hero and formed a relationship with having to watch as it goes from their small #contained group of dick tim Bruce and babs where tim is like the best brother dick has got to everyone especially damian coming in #and tim feeling crowded out and jealous as damian and dick become closer than tim and dick ever were and tim slowly pulls away #and at first dick not even noticing and tim feeling guilty every time a dispute comes up and feeling guilty over how happy he feels when #damian ticks dick off and tim starts throwing himself into other things and flakes/cancels on things he and dick have planned and #finally one time tim and dick are sitting around and tim is like i miss how close we were and dick laughing is like well you're so busy now #and tim is like 'well its not like you need me anyway you have damian and jason and cass and duke and- nevermind' tim cuts himself off #dick is like 'timmy you know im still here for you just like before' and tim is just like 'yeah sure whatever' and heads out and then dick #starts noticing that tim is keeping him at arms length so he keeps trying to connect and he sees how tim keeps getting close with others #but that he refuses to with dick and then the jealousy is both ways and slowly they start to come together again as brothers and things #arent quite the same and probably will never be but they are still brothers and they love each other #but things are complicated when you go from the only sibling to having like 5 siblings and i want that explored more #i want these complex sibling relationships dc. give me this over trying to kill tim. there is more to siblings than the cain instinct. #anyway thats my rant #tim drake #dick grayson #batkids #batfam #bat family #batsiblings

[un-pearable]

george lucas handed an overwritten mess in and then the fandom + otherwise involved creators in the extended universe and other supplemental media have spent the last decades ritualistically dissecting it and reworking it’s constituent parts into some of the most fascinating worldbuilding you can get. and the average person has no knowledge of this and just watched disney completely fumble it within an hour and a half of their first title crawl in The Force Awakens and proceed to completely fall apart within the next 3 hours . and that’s just what star wars is to them

#star wars #and maybe the mandalorian. din djarin really out here carrying the entire star wars reputation as well as his son #original trilogy girlie will never not be mad disney inevitably fucked up BOTH giving the OG trio OR finn poe and ray a satisfying ending #and is instead now going down the prequel rabbithole . this is what youve done to me disney #star wars/episode 4 a new hope is still my end all be all fave (specifically despecialized) BUT i will admit . the clone wars era is growin #on me. i’m down for the tragedy of your ancestral life ways being eroded by the need to throw your peacemakers and children on thefrontline #to prevent the deaths of an army you never wanted to be responsible for #that one story that had the whole ‘if people actually want to leave the republic *why aren’t they the ones fighting*’ revelation. oogh. #sheev you bastard you divised the perfect plan to make a bunch of hypercompassionate mystics who are preternaturally #disposed to feel empathy for people be unable to refuse fighting on the frontlines of a war bc it’s the only way to even begin to protect #both their army of innocents (acceleratedly aged clones) AND the public at large #I KEEP GOING ON TANGENTS IN THE TAGS SORRY. MANY EMOTIONS TONIGHT!!!!!!! #<- old tags from nov 28 lol #old starred war posts im excavating from the drafts :] #text✨ #posts from a galaxy far far away

[seventh-district]

it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨ #the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more- #-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :) #man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it! #if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out… #anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!! #after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go- #Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo! #i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!) #anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

[radioscientist]

I love the parallel in these episodes between Watanuki choosing to suffer so that the ghost woman wouldn’t ever feel as alone as he has, and Doumeki choosing to risk his relationship with Watanuki in order to save him by purifying her with the arrow because he promised himself he’d never let Watanuki be alone again and he’ll be DAMNED if he lets him fade away

#anime #radiowaves #xxxholic #XXXHolic #holic #*AHHHH* #*AHHHH GUYS GUYS GUYS* #*something something THE SELFLESS WATANUKI SUFFERING AND DYING FOR HER NOT TO BE ALONE* #*VS THE SELFISH DOUMEKI DECIDING WATANUKI’S WELL-BEING IS H I S AND REFUSING TO LET HIM THROW IT AWAY* #*yeah it’s not SELFISH and SELFLESS per say like there’s obviously shades and shades to this* #*but I love how Doumeki saves Watanuki recklessly* #*watanuki will let the world wear him away for everyone until he is nothing because he is too kind and he has no self worth* #*doumeki will cling onto whatever he’s decided is his and he will not let anything take it no matter what* #*his DESCENDENTS still watch over him for fucks sake* #*doumeki is also kind but he is not recklessly horribly kind* #*he understands the cost of taking on responsibility for Watanuki and he will pay it but he will NOT let him disappear* #*oh god OH GOD THE FEELINGS*

[moth-mart]

"I need them to die in eachothers arms and for it to mean something" then proceeded to make a terrible. horrible punch to the gut

#o. #ow????????? #its. coming off the future alt but sona's afflictions go from being chronic to terminal #and because of the mutations to his vampirism the only way to survive is to feed off of gods #which they find out the hard way when he gets *really* sick and nothing's helping so they panic and Stylus kills a god #as a last 'out of options' resort and he feeds off it and it *works* #and they come to that realization and Sona refuses to continue like that because he says hes not going to live off of other people's- #suffering anymore. and so he makes his choice and at some point they go to visit Will who's completely cut ties with them because she #blames god's death on them being cowards who didnt try hard enough to stop her #which she isnt happy to see that and doesnt take the news well at all and states that theyre just throwing god's sacrifice away by #letting him die which makes the situation even more conflicting for sona who muses on how even beyond the grave #god's putting him in shitty situations. of either living selfishly off of others' deaths or seemingly having let her die for nothing #and will storms off and Caraway [who she's living with now] tells them to stay the night so they do #but it doesnt even matter cause Sona gently wakes Stylus up in the middle of the night and tells him hes dying and so #they sit with eachother and just talk softly and reminisce about meeting the other and they both agree they wouldnt trade it for anything #then he dies very peacefully in Stylus' arms #and will wakes up the next morning and comes downstairs and Caraway gently informs her and she runs into the other room #and Stylus is still sitting there in the same spot just. holding whats left of him. unmoved for hours #AND THEN I HAD TO STOP BRUSHING MY TEETH. CAUSE WTF. MAN??? #the emotional damage may entirely be dependent on the emotional attachment level to these guys #and nothing otherwise but. if youre me. yknow. [shatters like glass] #MHMMH #cool #character death #I GUESS #sonaverse #delete tag #lore dump #very much a noncanon thing but. mmgnmgmg [wiggly sheet of metal noise]

[kingmaximusboltagon]

karnak, who's main thing is seeing the flaw in everything, telling triton that his disability is actually a strength,,,,, crying

#'its a struggle everyday but the alternative is unthinkable' IM!!!!!! TRITON!!!!!!!!! #i get so sad over him all the time. my sister showed me a podcast where he was mentioned #and he was described as having no personality other than fish #and like. i cannot fault them for that bc he IS really underutilized!! BUT ALSO LIKE!!! #he occasionally gets these small moments of Real Emotion #and its like. triton's character is. weirdly tragic!! hes almost entirely background and even most of his family seem to #consider him a liability more than anything else #hes always isolated even when he IS with family and friends. and despite all of that he STILL deals with and struggles #bc he loves them that much. bc theyre the most important thing he has. bc theyre the only thing he has. #he commited treason and risked sabotaging EVERYTHING important to him just to try to make their lives easier #just to TRY for the end of a war and new terrigrn #just to TRY to save TWO OF THEM. #he was willing to throw everything away just to TRY. and because he refused to fight his brother #he literally DIES FOR HIS FAMILY!! HE DIED FOR THEM!!! #but hes just known as. the Fish One. #triton solo series WHEN marvel!!!!! #triton mander azur #karnak mander azur #lockjaw inhumans #undescribed

[raveartts]

#raveartts #akudama drive #got a new sketchbook finally #so now I can draw in A4 instead of A5 😍 #and I got a replacement for my 04 micron #though this was drawn with my old half dried out one #I guess I'll sketch with that one until it runs out #because I refuse to throw something away if it still works -_- #there's no point in keeping it #but it was my first micron #and I wanna see it go until it dies #also if you're wondering why he's wearing a tank top it's because I hate drawing his jacket so fucking much #that jacket is the bane of my existence and I love it #as long as I don't have to draw it

[boyfrillish]

I still think about Victor and Hop having league cards featuring photos with each other at some (or multiple) point in time.

One having a celebratory photo after winning Galarian Star Tournament together, the other for example a selfie together, and either while they’re still in that pre-relationship stage or already together. Both options make for really cute shenanigans

#trainshipping #hopvic #(I don't have any kind of graphic skills and my doodle skills are still too rusty adfadfg gotta find an artist I can throw my money at) #(I even had whole blurbs for the back of the card drafted in my head like 2 months ago but I never wrote them down and my brain is currentl #refusing to let me recall them.) #(I do remember the gist of Victor's card namely sth sth he's becoming more comfortable with the spotlight thanks to a certain someone) #(which would perfectly align with the photo being the celebratory photo) #(but the exact wording?? it eludes me argh see this is why you are supposed to scribble things down right away!) #frillishtxt

[gessshoku]

Yo i just realized something and now I’m very insecure

So as I was talking to my beta readers I told them future plans for the future chapters and ones like “oooh all this is from bams fic, are you going to give them credit?” And I’m like “what?” And they got confused so I explained that this is all because of wanting to create my own self insert Fic and they apologized but now that I’m thinking for future chapters..

How am I going to make it different than bams? They got everything down and yea I can use inspiration but there’s only so much I can do and I started this fic because I was encouraged to do so and to see how I do. But I don’t want it to be exactly like bams, I don’t want sun and moon to end up like teachers (I got that figured out) idk how I’m going to have sun and moon charge without saying they’re solar powered, I mean it makes sense but I can’t get it out of my head it’s bams idea. I don’t want to copy them unintentionally. I want to do my own thing but now that I stop and think I have no idea how to do that

This is mostly a vent but it worries me a lot now. I don’t want to force myself into making it SO different that everything feels forced and it won’t make sense and I don’t want to follow bam too much because I don’t want to feel like I copied them, most importantly I want you guys to have something entirely new to read, something different than Solar Lunacy but I have no idea how I’m going to do that without feeling certain arcs are like Being stolen from Bams fic

Writing is HARD WIDNXOE At least the detective AU is different, or the baking AU or friggin Mermay AU like those are simple! They are different! I want to write a slow burn like bam but my own touch but I don’t have the imagination for it. I fixed one out of many problems for the ending and even then it’s not enough and I don’t like this feeling someone come and put it in a plastic bag and yeet it in lava

#vent #is this what the kids call imposter syndrome? #cool! #someone take it and throw it away. #I just started the fic because I was happy with what I was writing #Solar lunacy covers everyhting with reasonable fixes and solutions #how am I supposed to make all that in my fic different? #I want the trust building and I want the happy ending #but how can I make it all different? #I feel so lost for future chapters #chapter two is amazing but after like the first arc I have no idea #oh to be different from the one you admire but feeling you are copying them #oH TO BE FREE FRKM THIS FEELING #now I’m hungry but I refuse to eat because I’m sad and it hurts but like #I’m s a d and legs hurt from walking all day and I’m just defeated #well not defeated I’m still going to write this. #just really sad and very imposter syndrome eeeee

[adecila]

Tw infertility

#i have this thing where i keep hanging onto objects because i attach them to a certain moment in my life #so they end up in drawers and boxes little buried treasures for me to find #we changed our nightstands. and i had to go through my old one #somewhere in the back of my mind i must have known why i kept refusing to go through it #why i kept putting it off #underneath the knicks and knacks and the highlighters and all the pens #and some old medicine and post its and even some buttons i thought id lost #were 6 pages neatly folded. meant to be forgotten because i just couldn't throw them away at the time #every tracked cycle. and every measurement of my ovaries and ovules neatly documented. with a complete list of meds and supplements #because ofc i was being pumped full of those too #every failed iui tracked to the very last detail--to the hour #so here i am on the floor of my bedroom 5 years later staring at those 6 pages #proof of the worst days of my life #it's funny because i kept telling myself then that there would be a point to it all to all the pain and the tears and the prodding #and the only way i could push through at the time was write 'failed :(' next to each cycle #and now i still feel like a 'failed :(' person #on the very last page there's still 'failed' written next to it. and you can tell there used to be a :( too #but not anymore because over it theres a heart in black and blue pen #and i have no recollection of it but it must have been me #and on the corner of the same page i seem to have written 'it's ok' #not that i remember but it is my handwriting. and it is the way i draw hearts #i guess i've always got me #im sure there's some deeper message here but now im feeling the post-cryimg crash #and i have stuff to arrange #I've added a trigger warning just in case #i still dont know what to do with my 6 pages #love you. it's ok.

[hadaad]

something something believing in the greater good, believing it's all worth it through it all. something something. stretching yourself thin until you can't do anything but slide to the street while the dust and debris settles around you. never seeing the people you saved. only the ghosts that wait for you whenever you get home. being exposed on a daily basis to the worst parts of humanity but never believing that anyone is too far gone to come back.

#the fact that zaf transfers over from being an analyst at six and gets thrown into some shit straight away #and yet STILL remains the same guy full of hope and belief in the world makes me feral #he sees SO much. and he still refuses to blindly follow orders and *always* offers help to everyone - #no matter what they intend to do / have done. #he has a soft heart that he refuses to let the security service harden #and that selflessness comes out in such a huge way in the first episode of series 6 #the implications in the series finale make me wanna throw up. #i like to think he held onto that soft heart through it all but ... idk. i also like to think he went to some place mentally #that made it all easier to bear. #tbh i dont know which one is worse. i fucking hate bbc. legitimately.

[binch-i-might-be]

today I am treating myself by wearing a pair of shoes that doesn't have any holes ❤️

#i refuse to throw stuff away when it still works that's why i just have like three pairs of shoes riddled with holes lmao #and i wear them almost every day!!! they work just fine! but the pair i was wearing yesterday barely has any sole left so it hurt to stand #and i think i might be standing a lot today (or so i hope lol) so my more intact shoes it is ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) #rayrambles