#but you don't have to overthink them

[perchingominouslysmwh]

#this #is not the usual kinda fic i'd read but #honestly #I have no words #just #an overwhelming feeling of nostalgia #and some things that punched me right in the existential crisis #and the whole growing up thing #like oh gosh #i don't even know where to begin with this #but it was so so good #but i kinda feel better after reading it? #the whole deciding your own future vs fate thing #and the way everything comes down to the choices you make #but you don't have to overthink them #just...accept them as they are i guess #and it got me thinking about being more honest with yourself- cuz you can always tell when you're lying to yourself #and accepting it is just- a huge relief #its so much easier than breaking your own heart all the time but absolutely #terrifying #at the same time #gah #and the maybe you don't have to cut off everyone who cares about you just cause you don't feel like you deserve it #maybe them caring about you isn't your choice at all #also yellow being their saving grace- the way they were the the light for each other during each other's darkest hours?

[im-the-j-in-anthony-j-crowley]

Good omens tag game

Name two things you have in common with Aziraphale and two things you have in common with Crowley

More reasons to love them!

Crowley

1.- Taste for black clothes and... I WANT TO BELIEVE that I look good too

2.- I love Aziraphale Dramatic

Aziraphale

1.- I love books

2.- Stubborn. Really stubborn

No pressure tags: @fearandhatred @bildads-shoes @harbinger-of-existential-dread @di-42 @sayeverythingwillbefineplease @littlekhaos626

And of course, open tags!

#Is this how you start a tag game? #I'M TERRIFIED #Has anyone done this before? #I hope not #Or I don't know. #jay and... jay what are you doing? #WHAT AM I DOING!? #WHY DO I MAKE POSTS WHEN I CAN'T SLEEP? #Yes. I'm overthinking this too much #good omens #crowley #anthony j crowley #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #aziraphale #I tried so hard to put simple things #someday I'll make an essay of everything I have in common with them #not today #today I should sleep #I'm curious what morning Jay will think of this #I hope they like it #jay and tag games #hi I'm morning Jay. I love this

[royalarchivist]

[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

–

Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk. #I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive'' #but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this'' #''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?'' #And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

[canisalbus]

Would you classify Machete as neurodivergent at all? Like in an autistic way? Or is it just the overwhelming ambition, trauma, and anxiety?

I think I've projected so many of my own autistic traits on him over the years, chances are he's at least a little bit on the spectrum.

#your ocs tend to mirror facets of yourself more often than not #whether you want or intend it to be that way or not #I think #I'm a little hesistant to assign a whole bunch of specific labels on him though #because if I say “this character is ace” there are people who will start to view them as ace representation #or autism representation or gnc representation or italian representation or catholic representation #what have you #and if character x represents thing y #I'm worried eventually someone will show up and say “your character represents autism wrong/badly” #even though we're talking about one person's highly personal oc and not like a commercial product #I don't know I'm just overthinking probably #but yes back to your original question you're probably correct to assume he has some neurodivergency going on #he doesn't know #nobody knows #it's late 1500s #and he has learned to mask well #answered #ephemeralprince #Machete

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc. #so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously) #but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate. #and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic! #if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it. #like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is- #writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl- #will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of- #'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

[ectoodle]

Hello! I wanted to ask what made you fall in love with bingqiu?

Hey there!

Ah hmm that's an interesting question, I've never thought about it actually. I like bingqiu a lot, but I never considered it as falling in love with the ship? They're a fun ship to play with and they have a wide range that's pretty flexible so I'm always in my comfort zone drawing them.

I suppose most of the art I draw for bingqiu are a love letter to them, though. And I think that's pretty telling of my brain rot for them 😂

I think the food the fandom cooked up really helped a lot. SV fic writers are on a whole other plane of existence when it comes to analyzing binghe's character and filling in on his journey of healing with sqq by his side. I'm the annoying type of audience that gets bored when the main couple gets together at the end...so when scum villain ended the way it did, mxtx may as well have german suplexed me on the concrete. scum villain is a story that subverts its tropes left and right and the ending was no exception! I love that bingqiu getting together at the end was not an automatic happily ever after, but rather, they still are putting in the work and effort to understand and stay in each other's lives. The glimpse of that path we get in the extras really did solidify my desire to see how bingqiu will continue to stay together--bingmei vs bingge extra was probably the finishing blow for me tho lmao. I couldn't stop thinking about what the heck happened to bingge after he left the sv world that I read a bunch of fics about him and needed to soothe the angst with sv bingqiu

on a side tangent, bingqiu parallels another of my all time ship, nozomizo from liz and the blue bird. mild spoilers if you haven't seen liz, but nozomizo had a similar codependent relationship that needed them both to grow apart as individuals in order to stay together. bingqiu separated unwillingly and binghe's growth as an individual was fueled by betrayal, despair, and that dying glimmer of hope that maybe, maybe shizun could accept him now that they're equals. but they don't. because binghe still hasn't emotionally grown to get past his temper tantrums (thanks xin mo) and sqq is still failing binghe by constantly misunderstanding him. but bingqiu still choose each other, choose to love and support each other, and they refuse to be separated again. whereas nozomizo was a healthy separation with a promise of reunion, bingqiu was fighting through the muddy trenches with a vague hope that the other is reaching out their hands too. i thought it was neat how differently both ships handled their codependency that still guarantees a happy ending, no matter how dirty and bruised they got along the way.

I also think sqq's compassionate narration in regards to binghe's suffering got to me lmao. He truly does care for binghe, and even if naysayers argue it's not romantic, it's undeniable that binghe is special to sqq. although not the best choices, most if not all of his choices were for binghe's best interest (thanks system). sqq had so much heart for binghe that it affected me through the screen too. binghe's abandonment issues and fake wet tears have captivated me. his gap moe as a chuuni emo demonic overlord and wife with a maidenly glass heart has bewitched me body and soul. i want luo binghe to be happy so badly!!

i think that's why bingqiu fascinates me. most of the bingqiu arts i draw are like slice of life vignettes, so without the meat and bones of fanfic diving into bingqiu's messiness, i would not have ascended to this level of brain rot for them...

#asks #anon #i get comments sometimes that my love for bingqiu is apparent in my drawings #and that makes me happy! also embarrassed at how obvious i am... #i never questioned myself if i was in love with the ship even tho it was on my mind 24/7 #but it did get me thinking that most of my bq art was fueled by an unhinged need to visually manifest bq's happiness #so they're practically love letters #ty for the ask anon! #don't tell anyone but i got burnt out from bq and drawing in general #i had too many wips going on and lost confidence in all of them #no worries tho i drew something last night and was too excited to sleep so things are looking good right now 😎 #also sorry to be overthinking about the whole falling in love with bingqiu on my part... #a classmate once told me 'you must really love drawing to have filled up so many pages' and it kinda stuck with me since #at the end of the day i do love bingqiu after all

[averlym]

@remylong :

#newest broken telephone installment #the remy renaissance #or rather standard avvycc dms. broken telephone elements include ccsims designs of my old designs plus prev hp art plus the general sepia #of everything on fire. bonus to the chromatic aberration on hp it feels quite fitting (yknow bc the chorus behind his lines..) idk vibes #this colouring style is actl terribly fun i'm quite !!! about it. i'm also glad that I made reference sheets for them all long ago bc #otherwise i would have gone insane rrying to rmb them from scratch. lately despite the rainbow hp seems to overall be turquoise blue? which #is so fun compared to the more purple/ neutral blues and greys i have in mind for mark... #anyways doing well! getting back slowly into Making things again! having fun etc etc #have been in OC-land late​ly but nothing i'm ready to share yet haha #so occassional bit of fanart it is. i inexplicably want to draw hands now though i was walking back home #pondering my adamandi era (mad the most insane fanart i've ever made; no recollection of it now) and after enough mulling it over #it would be nice to return to it. don't think i'm as obsessed anymore but it's certainly not lacking in inspiration #ideas are there just havent reached the sweet spot where you get so taken by an idea you're compelled to turn it to reality #and i think itwould be fun. perhaps even gratifying to set wips to rest #so maybe. in the meantime px11 brokentelephone is sustaining my urge to make miscellaneous fanart haha #melliotverse so true. wonder why despite watching taopp i haven't been compelled to draw it but i get the inkling it's just that specific #aesthetic that doesn't do it for me. <blinks> it was very good and i enjoyed it immensely! i think i just surprised myself by being normal #about a musical for once. i think also bc irl i've been more Good Busy the drive to engage in fandom has dissipated somewhat.. #so overall i think it's a good thing. just different. but then again this stretch of time is a transitory period for me so changing ought to #to be expected. ah well tldr don't overthink just do what sparks joy be happy? literally so lucky to be spoiled for choice wrt things #i want to do. so much to do and see and learn and time still to get to figure it all out!

[emmodii-mode]

Just finished my first playthrough of BG3. Romanced Lae'zel, but ending up turning into an Illithid because the idea of making Orpheus or Karlach do it didn't sit well with me (or my character).

I told Lae'zel to leave with Orpheus in the end (I heard she wouldn't stay with a ghaik anyway, which she's valid for, but also, it doesn't feel right to ask her to stay when I know how much her people mean to her). And like-

Her face before she flies off---

She looks so heartbroken and sad.

#emmodii rambles #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate series #lae'zel #spoilers #i don't regret my choices and i do love a good angsty story. but at the same time... OOF. #may you find a new source of joy in the astral realm my queen :'( #for anyone curious- i played a githyanki which i heard is the only race that can fly off with her or something? #but well. again- didn't quite fit my character to have someone else turn instead pfffft #ALSO HE'S A CLERIC OF ILMATER AND A REDEEMED DARK URGE. self-sacrifice is kiNDA TO BE EXPECTED HAHAHA. #anyway- do give romancing lae'zel a shot guys. she may be a hardass at first but it's really because she cares a lot #also slightly off-topic but as a dark urge gith... durge grew up in a city so like. wonder how out of place they woulda felt with the #other githyankis anyway. i think i read somewhere that a gith durge realises they don't really feel connected to creches and stuff #which is interesting and makes me curious about how exactly they were made. cuz they have the traits and knowledge of the race but didn't #grow up with them. i guess the easiest answer would be 'god magic shenanigans' but STILL. #trust me to overthink things hahaha XD #if anyone's curious what happened to my guy in the end--- we followed wyll and karlach to avernus hahaha #what are the devils gonna do? steal the soul we don't have?? TRY IT BITCH #of course i did reload multiple times to have my character kill himself. because that was another option that felt possible for his charact #...and also because i wanted to see how companions would react to it. krewfjewlkrjewklrjewl- although the narration for durge suicide #is also quite interesting! of course maybe that's just me being mentally ill eff (/lh) but having a kill that isn't going to murder daddy? #gives a redeemed durge some control and a final say at last. which is still sad but a nice way to tie up their death methinks #ANYWAY- time to go find a way to convert him into a full-on OC. elves and dwarves are one thing but giths are blatantly dnd so i'mma have #to figure that out for my own story lore and universe--- some kinda new species? humanify him? or convert to another existing general speci #hmm hmm hmmmmmmmmmm-

[moodyseal]

I was talking with a middle-aged lady at the bus stop this morning and after I complained about not knowing whether I was extroverted or introverted because of some conflicting tendencies I have she looked at me for a moment and went "You're not introverted, you're probably just shy", and I thought it was absurd at first—because HOW can be a person be shy if they're extroverted? Doesn't that go against the concept of extraversion itself?—but then I thought about it some more and actually she may be right. One trait doesn't necessarily exclude the other, and if you're the type of person who jokes about being "closed-off with strangers but a chatterbox with friends" it may be worth considering whether this tendency of yours is really a sign of introvertion or whether it's just a stress response to your fear of rejection

#you can love time alone while still being an extrovert. you may not want to talk with people but still be an extrovert #it really depends on the reasons why you do that #like personally i love having me time #but i noticed that most of the time i want time alone when i'm stressed #and when i don't want to talk with people it's because i'm overthinking about them finding me annoying #at my most natural relaxed state i think i might actually be pretty sociable #exhibit a: if you give me even the slightest sign that you like me i won't shut up. ever #lonely thoughts

[vcrnons]

mingyu's naked shoulder: several dead, many injured, at least 3 in critical condition.

#mingyu #kim mingyu #mingyu gifs #svt gifs #seventeen gifs #my gif #*mine #yeah i deleted the other one and remade them smaller What About It #i spent too long staring at them and decided i did not like how they looked #struggles of the overthinker etc etc etc #i'm like. 60% happier with these?? maybe bc they're smaller they don't LOOK as dithered idk anyway. anyway im not gonna look at them any lo #longer than i have to bc he's causing me pain #gorgeous gorgeous man my heart pounds in my chest every time i see a single fucking LICK of his skin #i hate it here you big fuckin puppy <33333 #q

[jankwritten]

yall wanna know how fucked up my anxiety is about some shit

i scroll past a post that's about a topic i don't like. whatever, it's fine. i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't care about. that's normal.

i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't like or care about but the person presenting it is a person of color? i IMMEDIATELY feel immensely guilty and need to "compensate" by "proving" it wasn't because of race by also skipping other random posts, JUST IN CASE someone thinks I'm racist because I didn't want to watch a video on a topic I didn't like or care about, that happened to be presented by a person of color.

this just in on: the police in my brain are loud and i'm scared of them

#this is also because i grew up in a racist area and in that culture and my own ignorance i also Was Kinda Racist #but like in that way where you don't realize it's racism until you're out of it and now feel so ashamed that you forcefully block all #those memories just so you don't ever have to associate yourself with them ever again? #(mind you I was like. 15-16 and closeted and scared scared scared all the time so I acted like the Crowd and that was awful of me to do) #BUT NOW that i've grown and am learning and have taken classes on anthropology and all kinds of stuff I just feel like I notice my own shit #like TENFOLD now #it's my anxiety overthinking thing plus if anybody ever knows I could have done anything SLIGHTLY problematic the world will explode #plus my constant paranoia that someone is always watching me and just Knows that I'm Secretly a Bad Person (even though I don't think I am? #also I feel like I need to clarify that the kind of racism in my town wasn't like. klan shit. it was like very hidden racism? #it was like. kids casually doing black accents and making jokes with racist undertones. the kind of racism where race was always #the butt of the joke instead of an outright HATED thing. and I think that's why it was so hard to unlearn #it's like that thing where in order to stop wanting to kill yourself you have to stop joking about wanting to kill yourself #this has become a vent post accidentally i'm so sorry #this is just. one of my Major anxieties that engulfs me every day because of 1) anxiety 2) potential OCD 3) being a bad person in my past #this is another reason I fucking hate florida #because I just know if I had grown up in my home town in MI I would not have been raised in that environment #and it's my own fucking fault for falling into the crowd like that. #all this to say i traumatized myself and likely some people around me by being A Fucking Idiot when I was a kid #and now adult me is doing everything in their power to not ever be that person ever fucking again #tw vent post #tw racism #tw past racism #but im better now and I know my mistakes and I refuse to make them again #fuck florida for every fucking reason under the sun

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :') #way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh) #my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?' #and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy' #and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!! #which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!! #and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me) #'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that' #fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

[ashes-in-a-jar]

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#kinda sad i saw that sexism in the tma fandom post #this fandom has a dramatic overthinking streak i was trying to avoid #can't force me to live something i don't love #especially if the focus of the show itself puts men in a more positive light and mire focused on their characterization #I'll find way more in common with them sorry #blaming fandom for legitimate criticism you can have for the show urself is unfair #especially when it's done in that attacking tone #i hate when people are ageessive about their virtue signaling. it makes me anti even if I agree to a point #oof #discourse

[running-in-the-dark]

had one very short interaction with my mother-in-law and once again I think I won't get through living here until the end of March :)

#she drives me insane #she asked something. I answered. she goes 'okAaaAayyyy?' in the most irritating tone ever. #like what is wrong with you. what. #she's so fucking irritating. truly the most joyless serious bitter person I have ever met (and I have met my mother so...... that's saying #something) #it's just. man social interaction is already so difficult but she just. makes EVERYTHING weird. #literally dude all I said was that yes everything's great with me and the cats 👍 how ELSE was I supposed to respond to that?? #I know I'm overthinking it and being a horrible ungrateful little bitch but god I just can't stand her #I don't CARE what they do for us I still just don't like them 😭 yes I know I'm the worst 😭 #my husband had to promise me that I won't have to see them more than twice a year once we move. I just. they drain every last bit of life #and joy and happiness out of everything #drives me insane #anyway I'm done being an asshole for now #been trying to take a tumblr break but where else would I complain about this. #personal

[hajihiko]

How do you feel about trans hajime agenda

Same way I feel about most gender, sexuality, and neuro headcanons: not something I *personally* really need to talk about or name, but anything that makes people happy is a thumbs up from me

#That first part isn't a no either btw. It's just a 'i already barely understand my own gender' #'im not gonna talk about or project gender on other characters when idk wtf to even say lol' #Same with neuro stuff. I know somethings wrong with me but I (and therapists) dunno what #So what would I have to say about it in a narrative? #I just draw how I feel and when ppl are like 'omg trans swag' or 'real autism vibes' I'm like oh? Hell yea ok! #Tldr I'm dumb about many things so I don't really think about them #except polyamory BC I'm spiteful abt that one lol #Wow this got long. Uh anyway #If you get mad at anything I say consider: asking forclarification. I'm not always very comprehensible #Can you tell I am a MASSIVE overthinker

[loadinghellsing]

the comedic potential of anderson not knowing that alucard is vlad lll dracul and finding it out is severly under-recognized and im glad you’re exploiting it

Half the reason I love Anderson as much as I do is due to his room being covered in books - and for the refrence to Mars. The thought of him being a major history & mythology geek gives me life. So him finding out Alucard is Vlad? Fights momentarily put on hold- We've got a first person resource on the 15th century to interrogate-

#i contribute #doodle #vladcard #hellsing alucard #alexander anderson #hellsing #--- #don't give anderson time to overthink things #one moment “YOU'RE VLAD THE IMAPALER?!?!” #to “I have an entire shelf of books I need your opinion on and you can't leave till we're through them all” -will fight Integra over this #there can never be enough Vlad and Anderson content #there is so much potential with everything between them #from the parallels #to the characterization #also the thought of Vlad hearing some of the myths to his name #and being completely disgusted #or concerned #or take inspiration to further enrage the clean up crew