#concentrate on work and not... thinking about the pressure of producing

[loveemagicpeace]

🪐Saturn in your life🪐

🦋One thing you should know about Saturn is that Saturn is the planet of restructures, authority, discipline, represent the older people,responsibilities, good and bad karma. And Saturn is protector. He will protect you from the accident & in general from the things that can go wrong. With saturn, we can put too much stress on ourselves and push ourselves over the edge and become exhausted from it. The planet is known for its reality and practicality. Also by a tendency to excessive strictness. His expectations may be too high. Powerful Saturn in the chart it can indicate that we want everything in ours control life to the extent that we consider ourselves to be unsuccessful if we fail to achieve the goals we set for ourselves set themselves. There are some things about Saturn again. 🦋

✨Saturn in 1st house-Saturn in the first house makes the individual very difficult, self-centered or serious. The individual takes himself and life very seriously. You are ambitious, persistent and stubborn. You secretly want to do things in your way. In your own way, you deal with resistance, arbitrariness, etc. In some cases, you want to control others. You are inclined to thinking, withdrawing from the world, thrift and caution. The individual plans, predicts, moves forward slowly and surely. You usually value ​​good reputation and honor very much. Things take a long time to come true. You are also prone to accidents due to negligence or divine intervention. They also showed disappointments, sorrows and heavy responsibilities. You can often feel lonely deep down.

☁️Saturn in 2nd house-Saturn in the second house makes the individual thrifty and conservative, but has an abundance of energy. You have a need to acquire wealth and property. Life progress is delayed or difficult. Saturn in the second house it produces circumstances that do not allow the individual to take full advantage of certain circumstances that may appear in his life. There are constant misdirections, delays that are extremely problematic, and lack of opportunities due to lack of money. At the same time, it can make you a person who works very carefully with money. People will never fool you. But it can create pressure to be able to have money because you can feel that without it you have no power or you are not enough. Saturn here can find enjoyment and live in the moment.

🦋Saturn in 3rd house-these people are very intelligent, smart, thoughtful. They have good concentration and great depth of thought. When they compare themselves to other peers, they feel that they are smarter because their thoughts are much more structured and focused on the chosen topic. A person with Saturn in the third house can be stubborn and dogmatic, if you realize that you are in danger through inappropriate information, you value ​​the knowledge that have been achieved on the basis of experience and practical observations, which you then structure in your memory. A person with Saturn in the third house is very careful when driving vehicles, so accidents and accidents are not very likely.

🫧Saturn in 4th house- The positions of Saturn in the fourth house can be connected with the domestic atmosphere, private matters, relations with parents and family dynamics as a whole. Saturn in the fourth house strongly cools all relationships in the home environment.Home and family may be completely satisfactory, clean and orderly from a formal point of view, but there is emotional emptiness, repulsion and coldness among family members. Maybe it's hard to find or get love. But it is not necessary (some people have a very good relationship with their mother and the mother can be very caring). Here there can be many connections with the father (it is possible that the father is always somewhere on the sidelines or you do not feel a connection with him). You can already feel more independent and less connected to your family at a young age.

⚡️Saturn in 5th house- The ambivalence of this position is manifested in the simultaneous overestimation and underestimation of one's own abilities and talents. A person with this position is not able to openly show his love, but can express it through material forms, for example through gifts. You long for recognition and praise everywhere, because you cannot find it in yourself, and you are so demanding of other people that in the end you can remain alone. These people can be too serious when it comes to having fun. It's hard for you to be childish. You may also be embarrassed to show off your talents or be seen. These people should find their inner child.

🪐Saturn in 6th house you will be happiest when you do work that is related to you and is not tiring. In fact, it is good for these people to do something that is easy and calm. A job that is too stressful can indicate serious health problems and can make you sick many times. The pressures at the workplace are sometimes so difficult that a person is no longer there able to perform his work correctly and with high quality, because he is deeply dissatisfied, hurt and frustrated. Daily habits and tasks (for example, hygiene, cleaning, house order, principles of behavior, etc.)are very precisely determined, as the individual demands absolute order and compliance with the established rules. This position indicates great persistence and patience, which is why a person often keeps a job or a workplace. A person's health is most strained when the individual is stressed day and night with the problems and disappointments he experiences in life, and he sleeps poorly, does not feel well, eats improperly and does not exercise enough.

❄️Saturn in 7th house- these people tend to find true love only later in life. They may have some relationships or one that can change their life. These people can be careful when choosing a person because sometimes they can go too fast into a relationship, which can end up being a big disappointment. You can also be afraid to go into a relationship or you are afraid of disappointment. Maybe you take it very seriously and don't like to get involved with people who aren't serious. Many times you like people who respect themselves and are more like Capricorns or have such traits. These people can also be focused more on people with whom they can be practical and can do something together. This position indicates a marriage with a person who is loyal, extremely hard-working and has a great sense of humor. The other partnerships are also loyal, hardworking on or responsible.

🌙Saturn in 8th house- These people are very connected to mysteries, transformation, things related to death. This position indicates financial problems of a marriage or business partner who is not as well off as the individual. Therefore, this was shown by the lack of benefits in business relations or marriage. Life can be limited by lack of resources. But at the same time, he can bring a person into his life who helps him and together they achieve great power and do business together. Saturn in the eighth house showed a slow death. Old books claim that Saturn in the eighth house, if it is in an unfavorable position and in a water sign, indicates the danger of drowning. They claim that if it is affected by Mars or Uranus, it can mean the danger of accidents that are fatal. Of course, these are just indicators. All I would say is that people with this position can be more optimistic because it will bring them a lot of satisfaction in life.

☔️Saturn in 9th house-you can find faith in something or the meaning of life. That way you will be able to make yourself happy. Too much pessimism can lead you to dissatisfaction and sadness. These people should be spiritual and believe in something. Finding a place that makes them happy is the only way they will be able to deal with saturn. Saturn in the ninth house often indicates the individual's separation from his homeland or the desire to move on to another country. If it is in a good position with the Sun, this is a good indicator of a personality devoted to religion.

💫Saturn in 10th house- It produces an individual with a personality that is highly focused, hard-working, disciplined, level-headed and diplomatic. An individual can have a one-sided view of life that is egocentric. Progress in life is assured, but slow. Saturn in the tenth house is difficult to identify without aspects and sign. In general, it indicates ambitions and the need for a position in society. They have to observe life well and make the right decisions. Sometimes you can push yourself too much when it comes to career business and reputation. You want it all and you can consider yourself as being unsuccessful if things are not going into the way you want it to be.

Saturn in 11th house- Saturn in this house usually means few friends or problems with them. It can also mean that the person has older, more serious friends. This position usually brings an ambitious person whose hopes and dreams are not they have solid foundations. This position indicates a person who wants to succeed in society. It can also indicate that you are too serious when it comes to friendship and that you can quickly resent and leave. You can be a person who is firm and knows what you want and has hard-set goals.

🛼Saturn in 12th house-Saturn in this house causes the person to be modest and timid. A person struggles and has many opponents. This position indicates that he works without recognition or works in solitude. Saturn in this house makes an individual who has hidden pains and disappointments. It is also an indicator of going to prison unjustly. However, it should be understood that prison can be in physical or psychological form. It can also mean being trapped in your own thoughts. But it also means that you can understand life much better than people. This placement leads to a disciplined approach to spirituality, mysticism, and the subconscious mind. Saturn here can also have a hard time letting go.

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-Rebekah🦋🩵🫧

#astrology #energy #zodiac signs #planets #my notes #astrological houses #saturn in houses #saturn

[octuscle]

Dude, I've been edging every day for weeks now, and I love how full my balls feel and how wild all that extra stimulation drives me. It feels so good to be so full of cum...

I wish I came even more! I wish my needy cock would drool so much precum that I need to wear condoms to keep from soaking my pants at work... I wish that my balls would produce so much that I can feel them gurgling and sloshing like water balloons...

Welcome to the NNN, bro! I can understand you, having as much pressure on your balls as on your bladder after a decent bender with your pals just makes you fucking horny.

As good as the idea with the condom was, unfortunately you forgot it. And now it actually looks like you've pissed your pants. Your underpants are completely encrusted with the sticky stuff. And thanks to your bursting balls, you can't concentrate at all. All you can think about is sex. Hard, male sex. And then you shout "Damn, I'm so horny, I could fuck a vase of flowers" in the middle of the meeting. Your colleagues look irritated, your boss asks you outside for a quick chat in private and suspends you for the rest of the day. Thank God, you couldn't stand being around people any longer. You would even have banged that fat, unsympathetic fellow from Internal Audit if you had been in the same room for much longer. Before you leave the building, at least take a piss. Flush the precum out of your dick. And put some toilet paper in your underpants to soak it up.

Fuck, there's so much manhood building up in your balls… It's coming out of your cock as precum. But you also start to sweat it out. And with the sweat you fertilize your fur. The bushes under your armpits grow. The bush around your dick grows. And your dick is getting longer and longer. And your face, still clean-shaven this morning, is showing a veritable three-day beard. And the damp patch on your pants looks forbidden. If you already have the afternoon off involuntarily, you might as well get out of your clothes. And get yourself something new. There's a sportswear and workwear store just around the corner… Maybe you'll find something there…

A jockstrap won't do much good. But the synthetic material will at least dry quickly. Just like the nylon sports pants. You asked the store assistant to lend you a pair of scissors. You cut open the trouser pockets with them. That way you can get to your cock and balls better. Not at all to play around with you. But this way you can spread the precum and massage it into your skin and hair. Shit, the thought makes even more precum flow. It's a vicious circle. You look in the mirror. That makes it even worse. The soft office boy has turned into a pithy chav. Your hands are already sticky. You rub them on your old clothes and stuff them in a garbage can.

Don't wank, don't wank. You try to think of things that are a complete turn-off. But then you see some guy walk past you and your balls push out another gush of precum. Not wanking… But sex is not forbidden. So if someone were to suck you off now… That would be okay… The guy coming towards you looks at your pants for a long time, where you're playing with your balls, and then deep into your eyes. You walk past each other and both turn around again. And while you maintain eye contact, you turn into the side alley. As expected, you don't have to wait long and your fellow follows you.

Thank goodness. You wouldn't have lasted a second longer. The guy gets down on his knees and you push your waistband down. Your cock pops out and pulls up a fat slimy strip of precum. The fellow's saliva runs out of the corner of his mouth. The poor bastard has no idea what's about to happen to him. An explosion is brewing in your balls that you will both remember for a long time to come. Enjoy!

Found the pic with you playing with your sticky balls @milankotowyc

#submission #male tf #male transformation #chav tf #nnn

[weaselle]

being a line cook is insane but people do it anyway

do you want to know the secret to why line cooks stay line cooks?

We're addicted to a certain aspect of the job. A sort of combination of Pride and Power.

See, most of what is going on in that restaurant comes down to you. If the restaurant was a dairy, you'd be the cow, everything is based on what you produce; how much, how fast, and of what quality.

And it's INSANELY hard for most people to do. It requires you to keep mental track of tons of stuff while doing complicated physical creation in a dangerous environment under intense pressure

Any line cooks reading this? let me recreate a moment most of us have had many many times

For the rest of you this will be a nice window into the line cook experience

you have a rail FULL of tickets, and the printer will NOT stop printing more.

You've got a stove FULL of stuff you're cooking, and half of it is for stuff you don't even have a ticket for, because of something on a table that already went out was wrong or missing, or a server forgot to put something on a ticket and needs it in a hurry, or...

the tickets you are working on are for tables that finished their appetizers 45 minutes ago, and it could be an hour before you even get a chance to read whatever the printer is currently printing.

You have a head FULL of stuff you're tracking: how quickly the sauce is thickening in this pan, whether the garlic is about to burn in that pan, how long before you drain the pasta in that pot before it over cooks. As soon as the thing in the oven for table 31 is 5 minutes from done you gotta put the other thing on the flat top to go with it, you're putting together Something on your board and you can't finish it because you need a refill of an ingredient from the walk-in but you can't go get it because if you leave the kitchen you'll burn the thing in the salamander. And you can't plate the thing in salamander yet because the Something you're putting together on your board is taking up all the room you had left in this disaster of a kitchen

Three people have just told you complicated changes to dishes you have to organize and keep in your head. Something like

"24 needs 3 gnocchi not 4, and 2 with no rosemary; 3 needs all 4 gnocchi to have extra rosemary, 2 with no garnish; 22 needs an extra gnocchi extra garnish no rosemary, salads are almost out you can go in 3 or 4 minutes"

The manager, assistant manager, about 8 servers, and a fuckton of people at tables are all waiting on YOU with an impatience bordering on fury.

right? sound familiar? okay that's not the moment, that's just the dinner rush on a night somewhere between bad and average.

The moment happens when, during this insanity, you reach an internal place where you become completely overwhelmed. Panic and frustration and over stimulus all rise up and wipe your brain completely clean. You can't think, you have no idea what to do, you want to run away, you want to quit, you can barely think of your own name, everything feels completely impossible.

And then. The Moment

You pull it back together.

You stop being overwhelmed, you stop panicking, you insist that it IS possible, and that you are going to do it. You decide what has to happen and you start. You clear all the clutter you can from your kitchen. You pull all your tickets as far down the rail as possible and scan through the tickets on the printer so you have an idea of how things are going to go. You write down a couple of times on tickets that you would usually keep in your head but you need the brain space. You group the tickets according to not only time but what dishes they have in common so you can do batches of things. You decide if you can just get these two things out of your way you'll be in a much better position and so you concentrate on getting those two things cooked and plated. You beg the dishwasher to grab you the thing you need from the walk-in. You call your assistant manager or manager into the kitchen and you tell them you need them to start you 8 gnocchis: 3 no rosemary one extra garnish, 4 extra rosemary two no garnish, and one normal.

Right? Okay so first of all, as you can see... The job is INSANE

and second of all. Not everybody is capable of that Moment. The moment you stare already-existing catastrophic failure in the face and tell it No. That moment.

and you have to be capable of that moment if you want to be a line cook.

Which means pretty close to zero other people in that restaurant can do what you can do.

So now let me tell you a story.

I was 19 years old. I was a line cook at an italian joint. We're slammed off our ass one night, and the manager is in the little galley kitchen with me, and he's just standing there because he isn't good enough to not be in the way if he tries to help

and he's over my should about everything, telling me to drain that more or turn the heat down on this etc.

Finally, I stop completely, look him dead in the eye, and say "Tony, i'm not cooking another thing until you leave this kitchen."

I'm 19. Ive worked here six months. Tony is twice my age and married to the owner's daughter. There is a heavy pause.

Then Tony turns around and walks out of the kitchen.

What's he going to do, send me home? Zero other people in this restaurant can do the thing that makes it a restaurant. If i go home the customers are going home too.

And that's the real reason most line cooks stay line cooks even though the job feels like a war you never win.

It's that interplay of Pride and Power. For those few hours, the restaurant is happening because of you.

That's the power.

For the other part, try pulling a cook off the line during the rush. You can't. Even if they are in the weeds. Maybe even especially if they are in the weeds.

Once i was working with a cook who, in the middle of the dinner rush, sliced is hand open - a cut both deep and wide, pouring blood. No bandage we had was going to be a solution for it.

So he popped a latex glove on that hand, triple wrapped a rubber band around his wrist to keep the blood in, washed with soap, and went right back to cooking.

Because it was the dinner rush and no one else could do the job, and he wasn't coming off that line.

30 minutes in he had to swap gloves because it had filled with blood like a water balloon and was making it hard to cook. Leaving the line was never even a question.

that's the pride

#He went to the emergency room after his shift and came in to work two days later all stitched up and ready to kick more ass in the kitchen #same cook use to pop out back during a rush and power hit an american spirit #if you don't know american spirits are notoriously long lasting cigarets #and power hitting means smoking the whole cig in one long breath #that was my first restaurant job washing dishes there #wild experiences in restaurants absolutely wild

[gearsandbranches]

How is electricity actually made? - The Rankine Cykle

What do biomass power plants, coal power plants, concentrated solar power plants, nuclear power plants and dry steam geothermal power plants have in common? The Rankine Cykle.

When I learned about this system, the first question that I asked myself was "how can it be that this is the first time I´m learning this", because it´s such an important element to electricity production. It made me realize that I actually don´t know how electricity is produced, for example in a coal power plant, or in a nuclear power plant, or in a biomass power plant. And the answer is... We cook water.

Okay, it´s not quite that simple, but also not a lot more complicated. Let´s look at it in detail:

(Source: S.Peake (2018): Renewable Energy. Power for a sustainable future. 4th edition. Oxford University Press.)

The first step is the pump. Here, water gets pumped into the system. The water gets pumped into a steam boiler where it gets cooked, so turned into pressurized steam. And that´s what the energy source is for! Be it coal, nuclear, biomass, solar, it´s used to heat water. This pressurized steam is then led through a steam turbine, which generates electriycity. The now low pressure vapour (which is still very hot) is lead through a condenser, to be turned back into water, which then reenters the cykle. Since the cooling water in the condenser is warmed up during the process, it can be user for district heating, which preserves some of the energy that isn´t being used in the steam turbine.

The whole process is not perfect, the level of efficiency which we used to calculate with in our classes and which is for example given for nuclear power plants here is about 33%. That means that only one third of the energy that is used for heating the water is actually turned into electricity. It gets a bit better if you use the residual heat for district heating, but the rest of the energy is lost. The system works essentially the same for everything you burn to produce heat, coal, biomass etc. It works a bit different for nuclear, where it´s the excess heat of the nuclear fission producing the heat, and in concentrated solar power plants, the heat from the sun melts salt, which is then used to produce stem. This enables the solar power plant to produce electricity even at night, since the salt can keep the heat for a few hours.

I think in order to decide which kind of energy production we should be using, it is important to know how they work. I was surprised how little I knew about the Rankine cycle as the general principal of energy production and I hope that I can spread the knowledge a little bit further.

Source: Source: S.Peake (2018): Renewable Energy. Power for a sustainable future. 4th edition. Oxford University Press. Pages 33-35.

Rankine Cycle - Steam Turbine Cycle | Characteristics | nuclear-power.com

#environmentalism #science #climate change #climate action #rankine cykle #physics #energy production #clean energy #renewable energy #fossil fuels #climate crisis

[divinekangaroo]

While "patiently" waiting for fic updates :) , was wondering what other stories you're working/will be working on? Will you be writing still when you go back to work?

No pressure btw, this is me trying to manage my expectations XD

lol, yeah -> my 8 hours of blissful 'do nothing but write idly' day has dropped to about 2 hrs in the evening. the increasing arc of life resuming. The writing is still ok in these 2hr bursts but getting it to a readable standard is agony. The one benefit is that these 2 hours are probably going to be the same 2 hours I'll have once back at work.

My past fandom experience is that I usually mono-play in a fandom for around 5 years -- but I've never had kids+work+other family commitments when writing before.

I do hope I still have the drive to keep writing once am back at work. I can already feel that anxious itch of pressure, though, and my way of coping with pressure is to aggressively prune everything (friends, family, hobbies, chores, self) that causes the slightest bit of peripheral friction so I can concentrate on the thing that I can't prune (work, money, survival). BUT, this time, I go back to a new area-director role rather than my past project-director role, which should have less crazy deadline pressure/inconsistent hours than most construction work, so I'm just not sure what to expect. It'll be the first time in my life when I actually have a desk job with consistent hours.

Of my current Last Second Ending arc, I really want to finish the Holford fic, the Diana fic, and the Charlie fic (the 'Churchill' vehicle, although I'm so many chapters away from Churchill it's nuts!), which are all the live and incomplete multi-parters-- but as multiparts they are more challenging to do. I have several other ideas/snips scattered through the timeline, but they're fairly short as drabbles, flash-fic or circa 10k standalones, so they will be less heavy to complete and easier to do around work hours -- but they do tempt me now because they're more easy and fun to produce. This timeline's list of ideas has stayed stable for a couple of months now, so at least I know what 'finished' looks like for this arc, even if I don't quite get there.

I do have two firm AUs which itch at me wildly (timeline arcs again). I'm desperate to write the first piece of both as an anchor/test, but keep deferring because I know I'll have to sanity-check my motivation after finishing (or hitting a motivational brick wall with) Last Second Ending.

The 'easy' AU is the 1990s AU which is Tommy x Lizzie, set broadly post S3 and to the end of S4 as an AU S4. It's easy because there's only a few scenes in my head but they're all pretty heavy/hardcore and I can't find an 'in' for framing them yet.

But the second is that weird-arse Dragon Age II fusion AU which is less pairing focused and more family focused, albeit a great deal of pairings and sex within - but it could be a fascinating little monster of a thing, so I'm letting that simmer in back of mind until well after I get back to work to see if there's sufficient motivational drive. It's likely to become a 'what if the PB version of the Real World also had five millennia of Blights, mages, the Fade and Circles as part of Real World history/currency?' idea (alternatively: magic is real but it's pretty fucking ugly what humans do with it).

I also have about five loose BUF-Britain AU list of flashfic sketch ideas, which are generally 'things and scenes that might happen if Mosley was voted into power and took over england', which is primarily Tommy and Alfie.

And I have one solitary sort-of crackfic sort-of-not-crackfic -- S5 from the 'My Property' scene onwards but with the addition of a male chastity device -- which despite the crack premise will actually be really difficult to write compelllingly with the amount of scene checking and chronology I'd need, and accordingly is so low on the list I only think about it in idle moments to amuse myself.

There were a range of other ideas (like a 28 Days Later AU, or a Butcher x Baker AU, or why can I not have these endlessly magnificent threesomes I desperately want to read) but mostly they were isolated 'wouldn't that be cool' scenes without any sustained continuity or theme, so with time limits, they've sort of withered away.

#my writing

[mayxthexforce]

@mutatiio said

To say Obi-Wan had been having a bad week would be a broad understatement. The holo-novelas Anakin loved so much made faking your own death seem like such a problem solver; the reveal always dramatic, the 'dead' man always welcomed back with open arms, and things moving on from it and back to normalcy by the next episode. But as many of the concepts explored in those, it turned out that was not how it worked in real life. His Padawan and grand-Padawan were both, understandably, upset about his decision to keep them in the dark. But while Ahsoka understood, to an extent, and chose to move on from it and celebrate the fact he was not actually dead and they hadn't actually lost him, that it had all been just a desperate plan to prevent yet another terrible thing from happening, and that Obi-Wan didn't do it because he didn't trust them, Anakin had no such reasoning.

Then there was Maul: always the unremovable, and seemingly unkillable, thorn on his side. Always finding ways to make things more difficult for Obi-Wan, as if Kenobi himself wasn't able to do that all on his lonesome– he was, the strain he allowed this last mission put on his relationship with Anakin was proof of that. So far, the one benefit Obi-Wan had gotten from all of that was that spending time undercover and 'dead' meant days and days spent without having to deal with Maul. But that, too, was over. If he didn't know better, he would even dare say Maul seemed to miss him. If their squabble hadn't ended up on the ground so quickly, Obi-Wan would have gone as far as to point it out to his rival because, well, good banter could win you half the fight in a way lightsabers never managed– especially not when it came to Maul. But when he had the chance to speak, to lean in and deliver the verbal jab to Maul's ego through the frantic beating of his own heart right against his eardrums and in his throat, making his head feel like an echo chamber, he found his lips parting not to speak, but to allow his tongue to come out and press right against the former Sith's nose, licking blood.

Obi-Wan wasn't sure what drove him to do that. He wasn't sure what drove him in general as of late, and had ended up questioning many things, especially after seeing the look of betrayal and disillusionment on Anakin's face when his former Padawan found out he was alive. What drove him? What made him think some things he did were good ideas or worth crossing the threshold from idea to action? What the kark was he doing?

He chose the wrong time and place to question such things.

His physical grip on Maul's upper limbs faltered upon impact, but the pressure he applied with the force over the Zabrak's lower body did not. It took more than headbutting to make Obi-Wan's concentration falter enough to forget the growing threat that Maul's metal legs could pose, especially in a position like this where a well-placed kick could have probably broken a rib or worse. Still, it hurt. His nose miraculously got away with just a squish against smooth red and black skin that might leave it sore for a bit, but one of the horns really got him.

"You–"

Whatever banter or insult he might have been about to produce would remain a mystery, as he was interrupted by the copper taste of blood filling his mouth as it dripped right into his tongue but mostly down his chin from a cut left on his bottom lip, which was already beginning to swell and welt from the blow.

#may the queue be with you #||in character: obi wan kenobi|| #& maul #mutatiio #||verse: a crisis of faith; obi wan kenobi||

[o-craven-canto]

Ea: Our Second Chance (8)

8. Fuscophyta: Ea’s black plants

(Index) (< 6b. The Commander) (> 9. The Descent)

(original image)

« We are able to think of nature as a mossy serenity only because we have done the hard work of taming the earth. We owe our kindly view of nature to an accumulation of technology and the efforts of civilization... We often forget this, and take both gardens and civilization for granted. » - Simon Sarris, Nature, Substack, 2020

« It's still not known how the association between Eucytobionts and methanogens first occurred. It seems analogous to the process of endosymbiosis by which oxygen-breathing bacteria and blue-green algae were incorporated by eukaryotic cells as mitochondria and chloroplasts, respectively. Apparently, though, the methanosome of Fuscophytes does not require to be exposed to oxygen, but to be isolated from it. (Methanosomes are in fact extracellular, but always located inside masses or bladders impermeable to air.)

The function of this association has long been a mystery. The most basal Fuscophytes have the appearance of black moss covered in blisters. It was once said that their photosynthesis is very far from the efficiency found in Hematophytes, to the point that cultured isolated cells are net producers of carbon dioxide. This is however a misunderstanding. Fuscophytes are in fact photoheterotrophs: they are very efficient in deriving energy from sunlight to survive, but unlike Hematophytes and Terran plants they cannot use it to incorporate (fix) inorganic carbon into organic macromolecules.

Methanogens reduce carbon dioxide to methane (CO2 + 4H2 → CH4 + 2H2O) by using a variety of metal complexes as electron donors, especially cuproproteins. The association may be an attempt by the Fuscophytes to "outsource" carbon fixation to the symbiotes, as methane is probably easier to assimilate for the hosts compared to carbon dioxide. The details of these chemical operations are still very poorly understood. Methanosomes are also involved with a variety of biosynthesis processes.

The main benefit for modern Fuscophytes, however, might not be metabolic at all. Last year's work by Huang & Van Rijk proposes that it might be mechanical. Fuscophytes completely lack most means of support available to other organisms, whether bones or shells or structural polysaccharides. But they do have methane. As the gas is much less dense than Ea's atmosphere, large bladders help keep the organism upright without expending resources into sturdy trunks or metabolically inactive shells.

The most primitive moss-like forms seem to use methanosomes only for their metabolic benefits, and the "bubbles" kept in tension by the inner gas pressure are probably meant only to increase the surface available for photosynthesis (the leaves of Fuscophytes are never very developed, probably because of relatively inefficient circulation). However, we can see a clear progression in the mechanic role of methane from bubblemoss, through blistertrees (which use large bladders to lighten their structure, and visibly sag when they are punctured), to land kelp (which uses a group of bladders at the top to keep itself upright with minimal solid support, effectively as kelp did in Earth's oceans), to rootblimps (which are effectively clusters of photosynthetic bladders floating about, dragging adhesive tendrils on the ground to gather mineral and organic matter).

The danger posed by methane-concentrating organisms has been known since the earliest years of human presence on Ea. In warm and humid conditions, any thunderstorm brings the danger of rootblimps being blown by the wind near a settlement and exploding from a lightning strike. Fuscophytes also almost never form pure forests outside of the wettest climates because wildfires strongly limit their population density.

It has not escaped our attention, however, the potential industrial application of Fuscophyte symbiosis. A culture of Melanomyxa foetida (Van Rijk, 162) can be grown under pressure and in absence of oxygen, producing large amounts of liquid hydrocarbons (up to 15 ml per kg of culture per day under ideal conditions), which can be fractionated and refined to produce an acceptable substitute of gasoline. Given the virtual absence of natural fossil fuels on Ea, this has obvious economic implications. Because of the inherent minimal size of nuclear reactors, the inconstancy of solar power, and the high cost of compact bacteries, liquid fuels remain a necessity for light aircraft and other such vehicles. Water drawn from the wetlands in the mid-course of the Shuang Jiang rivers – the most accessible source for our company – appears an adequate medium when purified of competing organisms and metal pollutants. »

– Update Briefing internal memo, InterChem, 190 AL

« Rootblimps were our worst nightmare in the early years. Every time wind blew from the north they'd come swarming from the jungle like spaceships or something. Blotting out the sun, throwing this brown shadow everywhere at full noon. They'd shadow the crops, they'd make it a pain to fly scouting drones, they'd drag their disgusting sticky roots around the camp – I swear I saw them drag away a rover for half a mile, once – and they'd make this creepy drumbeat noise when they bumped into each other. And every time there was a thunderstorm – when wet wind from the sea met cold wind from the Ninurtas, I suppose – well, then they really became trouble.

What do you get when you take a huge bag full of methane, very flammable methane, connect it to the ground with a wet cable, and add lightning? Yeah. We had to shoot them down before they got too close to a pod or a camp. Thank God there aren't so many left these days. Let them burn in Hell, they'd enjoy it so much anyway. Have you heard those loons at Galapagos want to make them a protected species? I'll make you a protected species. I had to jump out of a burning rover when one of the damn things blew up. »

– Will Maddox, interview in Small Steps for Men: Earthborn Accounts of Ea's Early Years, Nisaba Press, 79 AL

« Rootblimp (Nepheloecia mirabilis; Fuscophyta : Cystopsida). [...] The name, literally meaning "cloud-dweller", is of course a misnomer, as the rootblimp generally remains in direct contact with the ground... The tendrils contain water-filled vessels with large ciliate cells that incorporate minerals at the ground level and actively carry them to the photosynthetic tissue in the floating bags. Considering the relative inefficiency of this method, it does not surprise that a rootblimp can take several decades to start casting spores, and more than two centuries to attain its full size. »

– fragment of encyclopedia, recovered from ruins in Toumai, circa 290 AL

#speculative biology #speculative evolution #xenobiology #alien life #my work #ea our second chance

[diamondtaem6v6]

✨ 160907 - Taemin’s interview with “COMO” magazine

This summer, Taemin started his first solo career in Japan. He usually works with the reliable members as a member of SHINee, so he thought that his solo work would be a good thing, but he seems to be unexpectedly popular?

Taemin: No, it would be lonely. When I’m in the dressing room, I sometimes wonder “Why isn't everyone here?”. However, I want to get along with the staff around me and spend a lot of time chatting with them, so it’s ok. I think I can do it. (laughs)

The staff burst out laughing at Taemin’s words. The members aren’t here, but the bond with the staff seems to support Taemin. In fact, during the interview, the staff quickly took notes of Japanese words that Taemin couldn’t catch, and later gave feedback to him.

Taemin: I don’t have much confidence in my Japanese, but I’ll do my best to improve through my activities. Actually, even in Korea, I tend not to talk in interviews, but thanks to this activity, I have more opportunities to talk alone, and I’m able to talk more and more. If I don’t speak, no one will speak for me (laughs).

Taemin: That’s about the only thing that has changed from normal, but I don’t think there are many things that are different. Whether it’s with the members or working alone, I work hard just as much. However, I still feel the pressure of being a soloist. SHINee has 5 people, so I wondered how I could fill the same amount of energy as just 1 person. I haven’t solved it yet, but I’m looking for a way. SHINee is my greatest pride.

Taemin: When I was preparing this album (Sayonara Hitori), I didn’t have many chances to meet the members, so I didn’t receive any advice from them. But we’ve been together for about 10 years now, so I don’t think we need more words. Even if we don’t talk about it, we know each other. Each one goes their own way, and that’s fine.

This album also has the charm of a Taemin that couldn’t yet be seen in SHINee. In particular, the title track ‘Sayonara Hitori’ is a song that Taemin fell in love with when he asked for it.

Taemin: The moment I heard the melody of ‘Sayonara Hitori’, I felt like I wanted to sing that song. I liked it so much that I talked with the producer about it. The Asian style melody lines are impressive, but I’ve always wondered how I can express myself in the world.

Taemin: I think the dance also expressed the world of the lyrics well. Although it’s an intense dance, it has a choreography that delicately incorporates emotions. For example, in the case of a song like ‘Everybody’, I put more emphasis on strong dance than lyrics, but for ‘Sayonara Hitori’, there was a strong sense of swaying, and I thought it wouldn’t fit just for me. I wanted to dance while cherishing the songs. Koharu Sugawara, who choreographed this song, had the same idea as me, and she thought about how to express the world view of the song through dance, and I really liked it.

Taemin: This mini-album contains a total of 5 songs, but I’m sure that even small children will like ‘Final Dragon’. I myself was embarrassed about the first part, and I was worried whether I could do well during the recording (laughs).

Taemin: Someday, when I can do a concert on my own, I want to create a stage where I can sympathize with everyone. Where we can sing and have fun together. But when I want to concentrate and sing, I want everyone to listen carefully (laughs).

— What were you like when you were a child?

Taemin: I was the kind of kid who would go out to play and wouldn’t come home until my mom came to call me. And I was mischievous. For example, flushing the water while my brother was in the bathroom (laughs). I didn’t get yelled at so much because I was quick to escape. It was like that until I was about 7 years old. But even now, I secretly hide behind doors and surprise the members. I’ve always had good motor skills, and I was the kind of kid who could climb anywhere. Also, because of my popularity among girls... When I was walking with my mother, I was always surrounded by older girls I didn’t know. But for me, it was natural, and I never felt that I was particularly popular (laughs). I was an introvert, so I always hid behind my mom.

— What kind of dad do you think you will be in the future?

Taemin: If I had a son, I would like to be an exemplary dad who would be a good role model for him. I want to be and inspiration for them as they grow up. But rather than strictly disciplining them, I want to raise my child so that they can always feel happy. That’s why I want to leave the scolding part to the mom (laughs). What an unfair dad (laughs). If it’s a girl, I think it’s going to take more time than a son, and I think there’s a delicate side, so I’m going to be very careful. Whether it’s a boy or a girl, I want to be the kind of parent that when my kids are asked: “Do you like mom or dad the most?” they’ll answer “I like dad the most!”. Although I can’t choose between my parents, I like both of them (laughs).

— What would your ideal family be like?

Taemin: I think there will be fights sometimes, but I want to have a family where the happiness that each person envisions is pointing in one direction, and we can walk together toward happiness, and we can think of each other as our greatest ally. My family isn’t that clingy, and I started out in society early on, so it’s more like a group of people who go their own way. I also want my child to do the work they want to do. Even if they choose the same path as me, I would like to support them if they seem to become something from my point of view. I want to teach them everything I know, and I want to do my best to support them in what they want to do.

— How would you like your child to dress/look like?

Taemin: If it’s a boy, I would like him to dress neatly, someting like an English-style set-up suit. Like a British child model (laughs). Trying on jeans, sunglasses, hair styles and makeup. I’d also like to try matching outfits. If it’s a girl, I would like her to be dressed like a doll. Can I take a look at this? (He looks at the samples in a magazine carefully, but it seems that it’s difficult to find it) Would it be a bit exaggerated if it’s a dress? But I really would like to raise her with femininity. On the other hand, what if she grows up a tomboy? I think I will look back on my childhood and reflect on it. Even my parents had such a hard time raising their children (laughs).

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Credits: “COMO” Magazine (2016)

Scans: @supernoona_TM

JPN - ENG translation: @DiamondTaem

#shinee #샤이니 #샤이니월드 #lee taemin #taemin #이태민 #태민 #COMO magazine #Sayonara Hitori #english translation

[give-soup-please]

Previous anon here

I understand. Hell, I even get your perspective, at first you were Just Some Guy, but then I saw more of you. You're the guy who really likes soup, who likes analysing and enjoying fan content, who ran away from home. The guy who lived a life worth considering a story in of itself. When someone makes something that I enjoy, I feel happy and associate that happiness with them. I always rejoiced whenever I saw your comments, I love hearing what authors think of their works, or just commentary on it. Just. The person behind the art puts a lot of the art into context.

And I'll be honest, I've read your response over and over again. I don't think it's still sunk in that this blog has an expiration date. Despite that, I feel pressured by myself to say "oh, you can still think of the characters, you can still love them", but considering your ride or die artistry, I feel more negative will come from positive there. (Apologies if this is a bit all over the place, it is roughly 4am.)

Just. I care about you. I feel emotions for you. I see a you behind the curtain of words that you display, and I care. I feel comforting warmth when you post, showing you're alive. I feel conflicted and bittersweet about this whole situation, and I feel hopeless yet hopeful that there'll be a happy ending to this. I want to say that you can walk your own path, but I don't know enough to say that. I want and wish to be able to help or know what to say for comfort, but instead it's just this jambling mess. I'll miss you, and I'll be concerned for you. What I want to do is pull you close, hug you tight enough to make all the bad problems be squeezed out, and work together on the ones that can't be squeezed out. But I am a stranger on the Internet staying up well past their bedtime. And you are another stranger on the Internet, probably sleeping much more consistently than me. I wish I could end this on something thoughtful and daring and caring, but I'm nearly passing out every time I close my eyes. So, know that you are loved, even if it's the most distant, platonic love you've ever seen.

See ya soupman 🍜🍜🍜

I've kept this in my inbox for a while now, just smiling every time I read it. I'm glad that you and others have gotten joy out of what I've produced over the summer, and I'm doubly glad that people are enjoying the glimpses they see of the person behind the blog.

The relationship I have between my hobbies, my academic life, and the characters I love dearly is a complicated one. Even now, despite the fact that I've been thinking through a response for this for 2+ weeks, I still have trouble defining it. I will always love TSP, there's no way out of it, and I believe that the narrator is one of those exceptionally rare characters who I will always enjoy thinking about and rotating in my head. That won't go away, despite my attempts to suppress how I feel about the game. Believe me, I tried. It didn't work, the narrator lives rent free in my head and is outrageously smug about it. Even now, if I concentrate, I can see him grinning, kicking his feet back, and refusing to go. And frankly, I love him for it. Smug bastard.

The blog can't continue, I already made that determination when I started looking at what being a full time student means. It's a shame, but I only have the brainpower to focus on one at a time. And rather than keep stringing people along and have them wait and hope I get to their request, I decided it would be easier on all of us to make a clean break.

Me going off to college is... technically a happy ending in its own right. It's a matter of perspective, really. I'm majoring in English, my long standing passion. The thing it feels like I was born to do. I wrote my first story when I was five, devoured my first analysis essay at twelve, and I was set on the road for wonderful things. I get to read books and write all day, and you can bet that I'm looking forward to it. On top of that, if I keep my GPA high enough, I've got guaranteed housing for the next 2-3 years, depending on how I play my cards. (That's a long story by itself, a combination of unexpected financial help and scholarships.) As a technically homeless youth living in the most expensive state in America, that's huge. Housing is so hard to come by, and I'm incredibly lucky to have the resources I do. It's either go to college, or risk going to the streets. I know which choice I'm making.

While the direction my life is taking isn't the happy fairytale ending everyone hopes for, it's definitely not a tragedy either. It's a complicated transition between one phase of my life and another. There's grief and bitterness and sorrow, but also a lot of joy and excitement.

There are lovely books in this ivory tower, and the gilded cage is comfortable. I am genuinely content, now that the grief is starting to pass. I mean- they're offering a 'video games and culture' class. C'mon, I'm going to take that for the pure excuse and joy to rant about TSP in essay format. Hell, I'll do my dissertation on it down the line, if the chance ever presents itself. Even within complicated situations, there are ways to find joy and entertainment. I'm planning on taking fun, easy A classes wherever I can. Life will be good, because I'm going to make it that way, even within my limitations.

I appreciate your words, whoever you are. I do not know you, I do not recognize your writing style, but your words are seen and appreciated. Hugs, both physical and virtual, are appreciated too.

I'm wishing you well, anon, just as much as you wish it for me.

#personal #not tsp related #22 days between now and the end #how about that

[lets-boogie]

So, I’ve been thinking about this for a bit now, and I kinda feel like I should make a post about it

How do you feel energy? How do you know when a spiritual being is present?

It depends on the person, to put it bluntly. Everyone experiences energetic shifts differently. And it’s important to keep in mind that there is no right or wrong way to feel energy of any kind. It mostly comes down to your intuition and how well you naturally can connect to unseen presences. Your natural ability doesn’t dictate whether or not you can feel energetic shifts though, as everyone can do it.

Feeling energy is a lot like training a muscle. You want to work on your intuition, meditate, and concentrate on how you feel mentally and physically to train this non-physical “muscle”. But if you work too hard in strengthening your abilities, much like with training your physical strength, you will become spiritually weaker for some time until you let yourself recover. You don’t want to overwork yourself and inevitably drain yourself. However, you have to put in a decent amount of effort still to strengthen your abilities. You need to find a good middle ground that works for you when it comes to this aspect of learning to feel energetic shifts.

I’ve found that divination is an excellent way to train your ability to feel energetic shits and different frequencies of energy. Whether you choose tarot cards, a pendulum, or whatever else suits your fancy, divination connects you to your own energy, the energy of other entities, and allows you to build your intuition as well. Meditation is great too, as it allows you to connect with your mind and body!

Since everyone is different, here’s how I feel personally energetic shifts!

I’ve found that the most common experience that has happened to me is physical feelings when there’s any sort of strong energy frequency nearby. No matter what the energy sequence belongs to (demon, ghost, etc), I will always feel a pressure in my throat and/or chest. “Pressure” is the only way I can reasonably describe this feeling, but it feels very different from other pressures I’ve felt. It’s almost tingly in an odd way, but not quite.

I can judge how powerful an energy frequency is based on how strong the pressure I’m feeling is, and if it’s only located in my throat. For instance, weaker energy frequencies tend to have a mild pressure that is only located in my throat.

Frequencies that are stronger will have a more intense pressure that consumes both my chest and throat. This feeing can sometimes overwhelm me due to how strong it is.

It’s important to note though, that energy frequencies will also become stronger when there is more spiritual activity that takes place in a given area. I can tell when a building is haunted based on this feeing, for example. It’s not simply a sign that an entity is nearby though, as places such as churches give me this feeling too. While there is always a high chance that spiritual entities (of all sorts) dwell within any place of worship, the simple act of intense worship can also effect an areas energetic field. Living things and spiritual beings can both produce different energetic frequencies, and this is important to keep in mind!

That’s just me though, and this is not meant to be how everyone will experience this. I’ll make more posts that go deeper into how intuition also affects this. Also, I hate the term “frequency”, as it ties into the whole “high vibrations and low vibrations” thing that a lot of new aged spiritualist delve into. I personally find it insulting (in a way), as it suggests that you need a “high vibration” to be “good and pure”. I’ll also talk about that too eventually lol

#spiritual #paganism #pagan #new age spirituality #witch community #witch #witchcraft #satanist #satanism #occult

[darspeaksout]

SUSMARYOSEP Is My Most Surprising Fragrance Yet

- DAR DAR G

Today is April 22, 2023, and I made SUSMARYOSEP. It has notes of green tea, frankincense, tobacco, chypre, and amber. The ratio is 1:1 for all of these notes, which amounts to 2.3 ml each in a travel-sized spray bottle. I figured if I wrote down the formula here, I wouldn’t need to write it in my notebook. Writing on Tumblr has always been more familiar and nostalgic, anyway. 

SUSMARYOSEP is a Tagalog phrase which literally means, “Jesus, Mary, Joseph.” The phrase is used to express exasperation or surprise. I arrived at this name because the opening of the fragrance reminded me of the wooden pews in church. This wood feeling is created by the note of frankincense. In addition to the wood, there is a cleanliness which is created by the notes of green tea and tobacco. When I first smelled these raw materials, I was surprised to find that tobacco actually smelled more pleasant than I had anticipated. I guess I was thinking of cigar, which is closer to what I had imagined all smokes to smell like - dirty, grown, ultimately difficult to blend in a fragrance. But tobacco is rather smooth and easy on the nose. I picture a dark blue when I smell it for some reason.

To continue, chypre gives the fragrance that department-store cologne feel. And amber grounds everything together, making it warm. In deciding the name of this fragrance, my mind went from wooden pews to rain (as it was raining earlier today). So we have the image of Mass while it’s raining outside. I thought, what is a Filipino term or expression that derives from religion? And that’s how SUSMARYOSEP came to be.

For those who are already familiar with this term, it may come as a surprise that this is the name chosen for a fragrance that is essentially a woodsy, contemplative scent that leans masculine. SUSMARYOSEP does not evoke shock, anger, or surprise - to me, its creator, it evokes calmness, poise, and self-assuredness. Because of the gap between what “Susmaryosep”, the term, means, and how SUSMARYOSEP, the fragrance, smells, it invites anyone who has the chance to smell it to use their imagination to bridge these two ends together. If there is any shock factor to speak of, it’s that this fragrance does not embody the personality that one would expect from such a name. It is quiet and subtle, yet clean and sharp. It remains close to the skin and is not a projection beast. It does not announce itself because it has no need to. Like someone confident in themselves, their personality is no surprise to them but may come as a surprise to others. This confidence is what I tried to embody in my reel.

I took advantage of today’s weather - cloudy, gloomy - to issue forth the emotions necessary to be felt in order to produce SUSMARYOSEP, and my accompanying reel. This is the first reel I have created which provides a closer look into my process of making a fragrance. As a hobbyist, I enjoy tons of freedom when it comes to creating whatever scents I want, at my own pace, with no external pressure, and a limitless capacity to explore my own creativity. Of course, in the reel I am using pipettes, measuring liquids, spraying tester strips, and the like. But I am also sipping coffee, drinking water, taking my vitamins, and sometimes just sitting in my chair as I stare into space. This is to show that in the creative process, it’s not only about being productive and producing the results that everyone sees. It also consists of pondering, imagining, reminiscing, emoting. It is work and meditation at once. Similar to when I throw knives, I forget everything else and concentrate on the task at hand as I let my “flow state” take over. 

The song, “Waves”, by LeRoyce, captures the relaxed and melancholic vibe I was aiming for. The last few clips feature the gray sky, and myself as I walk away from the camera with my back turned towards it. Walking away symbolizes that, at least for now, this fragrance is complete. I say “for now” because as a creative, it’s common for us to revisit previous works and try to perfect them, although objective perfection does not exist. In the ending of my reel, I take a sip of my coffee before the beat drops and it cuts to a clip of a black screen with “SUSMARYOSEP” written at the top, and some of its prominent notes listed underneath. The reel cuts back to me - I turn my head forward then walk to the right until I exit the frame completely. The casualness of my movements shows calm, poise, and trust. As the viewer, you don’t know where I’m walking towards. But from the self-assuredness I have demonstrated, you can trust I’m going to a good place. 

This is the essence of SUSMARYOSEP - a confidence that is not performative and heavily charged with hypermasculinity which is the version often seen now in the media, but rather one that is subtle, cultivated by and exists for itself. It’s self-assuredness after having broken away from religion and homophobia, finding strength as an individual for once and not as part of a collective subscribed to the same ideologies as everyone else. A confidence gained only after tapping into your creativity and bringing it to the surface. A confidence that shocks others because of how apparent it is, but also how natural it is to the individual that it often goes undetected. One is left to wonder, “Jesus, Mary, Joseph. How is that possible?”

Personally, SUSMARYOSEP is by far the fragrance that has surprised me the most. A phrase similar in usage that I often hear is, “Diyos ko, ‘day” (”My God, sis”), which is a term mainly used by women. I have not given this potential new creation much thought beyond its name. “DIYOS KO, ‘DAY” is funny, colloquial, and lighthearted. If I were to pursue this scent, I can see it becoming the woman’s version of SUSMARYOSEP. We’ll see if it comes to fruition. Instead of making any promises, I would rather deliver it as a surprise.

#SUSMARYOSEP #fragrance

[oonajaeadira]

State of the WIP Address

I was really hoping to have something up this week, especially since I finished my big project and should theoretically have more free time. But my boss has been logging extra hours and then there was that storm the other night and I had to hide in the basement and the dog peed everywhere and I’ve had loved ones with sickness and crisis happening and my wifi went out last night and I’m prepping for a work trip/vacation next week...it’s been a mess.

But. I’ve been doing what I can. I’ve got some proof under the cut.

Completed this week:

nothing. sadness.

A list of what I’m concentrating on right now:

Thief x Locksmith 6 - I really wanna get this out before I leave on vacation. (see below)

Dieter. INFILA Scene 4 (see below)

The first of the Pats Kiss and Tell Sessions.

Proof that I’m working on Thief:

The periodical lowers slowly to reveal brown eyes. A prominent nose. A greying beard and mustache that frame just the shadow of a smirk. 

“You’re looking for the book.” He has the audacity to show no shame at being caught.

“And you’re watching me do it.”

“The pleasure’s all mine.”

This pulls a corner of your mouth up and you take the opportunity to reveal your family name, as does he. A two-word exchange across a zipline of locked eyes.

“So are you here to offer to help me, or were you planning on letting me do all the work and then running off with the answers?”

“Who said I was after the book?”

Your eyebrows are the next to pull. “So you’re here for me?”

“I think I might be.”

.

Proof that I’m getting distracted by Dieter:

Due to some scheduling efficiency (and probably an investor pull), you’re scheduled for the table read at a conference room in CBS Studios. As you flash your pass at the gate and park your car, The Farmer’s Market and The Grove disappear behind the studio complex.

It’s not that you haven’t been back there since that first day, it’s just… the combination. The Grove. CBS. Dieter.

It’s good you arrived a bit early. The pressure of the first read–with all the cast, the writer, the producers in the room–has you riding the edge of your excitement threshold and just about anything’s bound to put you over an emotional edge.

But you know what’s going to happen at this read today. You know that Dieter will put it all together too. You can almost hear it now, “This remind you of anything, cakes? Grove? CBS? This is some full-circle shit, right?”

Yeah, Mr. Bravo. This is some full-circle shit.

#state of the wip address

[lakesbian]

WRT to the Wormfinity Train thing, you could probably do a more concentrated variation of Ryan and Min-Gi’s canon reunion as a trigger event.

Ryan hits rock bottom, tries to convince Min-Gi to take a chance and do a show in New York, when Min-Gi refuses and Ryan steals his keys, it escalates into a full-on fight which leads to a dual trigger

Not entirely sure how clusters work but could see Ryan being primarily a mover (desire to get away from his old life) and Min-Gi a changer (pressured to give up on his dreams and fit into typical society) with both also having some master undertones (loss and dissolution of their friendship)

OOH yeah wait this could 100% work you're Right. particularly bc at that moment in time both of them rlly feel completely alone and adrift in life, so when ryan comes back and starts a fight, it feels like the one (1) person each could've had left is betraying them. agree on the changer & mover w/ master undertones. the fun thing about cluster triggers is that, if i understand correctly, they mean ryan will be a mover w/ a secondary changer power and min will be a changer w/ a secondary mover power, which fits very well because ryan Does have elements of constraining social expectations to his trigger and min Does have elements of wanting to escape to his trigger.

as for actual powers. i am admittedly still drawing a bit of a blank, largely because i have to be able to cram music in there or i'll die.

tentatively suggesting:

ryan: ability to enter brief bursts of super-speed--fast enough to effectively appear as teleporting--where a sonic-boom style stun-inducing noise is produced at the start and end of the burst. not sure abt secondary changer power but i think it's Something that produces a "hey i'm shiny and so cool pay attention to me" effect

min-gi: stranger undertones to the changer power here, bc of the unwanted attention from society. this means he works well w/ ryan 'attention-grabbing' akagi. bait and switch, and all. anyway maybe some sort of like. formless/gaseous teal-translucent changer form that makes him just rlly damn hard to detect + produces some form of master effect. i'm thinking making people more complacent + being corrosive if someone stays w/in the form too long? + secondary mover power i think is something really simple, not sure what to come up w/ that isn't already taken because there are only so many ways to Go Fast, but it definitely presents as just. I'm Over Here Now.

#scarf don't look #infinity train

[0613magazine]

210520 Rolling Stone - V

BTS’ V on His Upcoming Mixtape, His Love of ‘The Godfather,’ and Being a ‘Secret Member’

"When they said I was a hidden member, I actually thought I'd been cut from the team," V says

From the start, singer-songwriter-producer V was BTS’ secret weapon. His rich, deep voice is a pleasing contrast to his fellow singers’ ever-higher high notes, and he’s not afraid to delve into full-on bedroom R&B, as on the downright sultry neo-soul track “Intro: Singularity.” With a love of jazz and classical music, V began his musical life as a saxophone player, and has the most eclectic list of influences of any member of BTS, from Sammy Davis Jr. to Sam Cooke to Coldplay (BTS’ recent cover of “Fix You” was apparently his idea). Wearing a black newsboy-style hat, a zipped-up black parka, and a white mask in his label’s headquarters one morning in April, he sipped orange juice and talked about his upcoming mixtape, his Elvis Presley fandom, his favorite movies, and more.

I know yesterday you did a variety show for the first time in a long time. How was that? It was our first appearance in five years. So I was really nervous and I was really tense. So I didn’t get a lot of sleep. But then actually when we showed up yesterday for the actual shoot, the host of the program was really kind and really accommodating. So everything went really well. I felt really comfortable. And then this morning, because of our interview, I also didn’t get a lot of sleep last night. 

I’m sorry about that! [Laughs] No, no, no, no, no.

I know you had been working very hard on your mixtape, and it’s been delayed, and I think you feel a lot of pressure to make it right. How’s it going now? We’ve worked and made music as a group, and as a group only. So working on my own tape means that I have to do everything related to all the songs on the album. I have to take part in writing the lyrics and the melodies for all the songs and the production process. So, it is a bit of a pressure to bear all of the load that is distributed among the other members for a group album. So it is tough. But what is good about it is it gives me an opportunity to show who I am, and show the music that really has the color of Kim Taehyung, the color of V, to our ARMY. So that’s great opportunity of course, and that’s what makes creating this mixtape so much fun and fulfilling.

So, what is your current prediction for when you will put it out? I originally thought of releasing it last year. But it turned out to be more harder and more complex than I imagined that it would be. So then I thought I would release it early this year. But again, it turned out to be a bit more tough than I thought it would be! So now I’m looking at the end of this year.

You already had the solo song “Sweet Night,” from a TV soundtrack. What did you take away from the experience of making that? That was released as part of a soundtrack for someone I knew really well [actor and former cast-mate Park Seo-joon]. but it was actually originally made as part of my mixtape. It’s one of my personal songs. That song started out from me feeling that I really wanted a good night’s sleep. 

“Blue and Grey” is a gorgeous song. You said you wrote it about a time when work was really hard for you and you weren’t happy. What was it about the work that was hard? That was when the Covid pandemic was just really expanding and becoming serious. We had prepared really hard to show ARMY our “On” performances. And what I was finding difficult at the time was not being able to show what we practiced and prepared so hard. I was telling all ARMY on social media, “Get ready, we’re about to show you these great performances!” So that was really frustrating and difficult and it made me sad. I think there was a measure of being tired and really sort of burned out a little bit from the work as well.

Were there any good points of this year off the road? It allowed me to really focus on something. Pre-Covid, I was so busy that I couldn’t really concentrate on one thing or really focus on something new. If I wanted to do a new thing, I was really forced to sort of be a dilettante. I couldn’t dive deep. But during the last year I had more time. In my work, I really tried to do more producing and then go more in-depth on my music. My melodies before were not that complex, or intricate, I thought. But I was able to focus more energy into it, to listen to more music, and really sort of think about more things. And that, I think, helped me to really dive into the producing aspect of making music. And I had a lot of time to come up with good melodies, and also had a lot of time to just sort of sit and vegetate. [Laughs] And that also helped me.

I know that you like many different kinds of music. Tell me about some of your musical heroes. My musical heroes are constantly changing by the hour almost. So yesterday, you know, it was Elvis Presley. And today might be somebody else. This is sort of my personal preference, but I think I like the older Elvis Presley, the Elvis Presley of his later years. There are many famous Elvis songs, but I feel like there’s a lot of songs that are more hidden, and not as prominent in the song discography. So, what I’m trying to do, and what I want to do, is listen to every single song, even if it’s just one minute of the song. Both the big songs and even the songs that are sort of hidden among the tracks.

There’s some great 1950s ones as well, but you’re right, late-period songs like “Kentucky Rain” and “Suspicious Minds” are some of his best.  If you can recommend some must-listen Elvis Presley songs, I’ll listen to them!

I’ll get a playlist to you. So what was it like to be a “secret member” before BTS’ debut?  To be perfectly, perfectly honest, when they said I was a hidden member, I actually thought I’d been cut from the team.

So can you laugh about that now or is it still a little bit traumatic? I can laugh about it now for sure. As long as I can sort of toss around our CEO, our label’s boss, and shake him around a little bit by his cuffs. But yes, I can laugh about it.

I’ve heard you like old movies. What are some of your favorites? I like old movies, but also movies that are classics but not super old. Like for example, The Godfather was a movie that I really enjoyed. And Reservoir Dogs is one of my all-time favorite movies. The Godfather I actually watched recently. A friend of mine had told me, “It’s really long, I fell asleep in the middle of it.” And I thought, “Is it that boring?” And then I watched it and I was really moved by it, especially the charisma of the godfather [Marlon Brando], and all the actors and the direction and the production. And again, his charisma, and his commanding presence during the film.

You did some acting of your own in the TV drama Hwarang. Do you want to do more of that going forward? It’s something that I’m thinking about after I turn 30.

Source: Rolling Stone

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SOLACE’S RESPITE  BY KANG KIHA, YOON MINHEE 30/11/2022

SCREEN BLACK.

( ‘ / The world is only as focused as they want it to be. It’s a skill that comes easily to them, like everything can constitute a few dials that they can turn down or up as they wish, them the overarching entity of their own experiences. They concentrate on the hands of the clock in their slow descent, hung on the wall behind Dr. Minhee so they’ll forget about how they’re digging their nails into the leather of the chair. They find an old crack in the material for their fingers to pluck at the cotton stuffing within and it’s only after she clears her throat gently that they realise they haven’t answered her question. They blink. )

KANG KIHA

I’m sorry, could you ask that again?

( ‘ / For what it’s worth, she doesn’t look angry that they weren’t listening. That they haven’t been listening for the past five minutes, that much obvious to the both of them from a mile away. She’s flicking through her pages and their eyes are drawn to the scrawls of her handwriting. ) 

DR. YOON MINHEE

I asked you how you were finding school after your break. I remember the last time we met, you were nervous about going back after a few months. Has settling in again been easier than you expected?

KANG KIHA

It’s -- it’s been okay, I guess. I’m just trying to find a good routine again, like the one I used to have. All the professors and TAs have been understanding about me handing my assignments in late, but I guess it wouldn’t be appropriate for them to express their disappointment so obviously anyways. Especially if they knew I took those months off for health purposes. 

DR. YOON MINHEE

Their disappointment? What makes them think they’re disappointed in you?

KANG KIHA

I don’t know. It just sort of makes sense, like, no professor wants a student that doesn’t stick to deadlines. Or even if when they stick to them, the films, documentaries, and storyboards they produce are just. Well. A little shit. Sorry.

( ‘ / The look they give her is apologetic, and she returns it with a light laugh. ) 

DR. YOON MINHEE

You can swear if that’s what you want to do -- that’s nothing to apologise for. I’m more interested in why you’re so certain that they’re disappointed in you when they were the ones that insisted you receive as many extensions as you need, right? Even when you told them that you don’t need it. 

KANG KIHA

Yeah. 

DR. YOON MINHEE

You’re not a bother to them, Kiha; they're professors after all and they wouldn’t force you to take breaks unless they really wanted you to. Instead of seeing yourself as an inconvenience to them, maybe think that they’re just teaching you in the way that they know is best for you. They’re adapting to your needs like any good professor would.

KANG KIHA

Yeah.

DR. YOON MINHEE

And do you feel better after they’ve told you that? That you don’t have to hand in your work as soon as everyone else does?

KANG KIHA

I do. It takes the pressure off my shoulders for a few minutes but then I get anxious again, that they expect much better than average because I’m taking my time on it. I don’t know how to explain it; everything makes me anxious, and I feel bad because they’re trying to make me as not-anxious as possible. I feel like they don’t really mean it when they tell me it’s okay, that it’s not an inconvenience. How could I not be one when I’m the only one messing up everyone’s schedules? 

The world doesn’t revolve around me, I know that. It’s inconsiderate to everyone. 

( ‘ / She pauses at that, the pen clutched between her fingers moving where her mouth doesn’t as she’s writing something down onto the paper. A beat of silence passes, gradual in comparison to the erratic pace of their heart threatening to burst out of their chest. They wonder if she finds them annoying, too, how she asks them one thing and they seem to answer everything else. ) 

DR. YOON MINHEE 

Kiha, do you often think you’re an inconvenience to the people around you?

KANG KIHA

Of course. I know I am.

DR. YOON MINHEE

How?

KANG KIHA. 

I just pick up on their mannerisms and stuff, the way they look at me, the tone when they’re speaking. Saying it’s okay is different when they’re huffing a little. Like Sunan and Hansol; I was basically living with them over my break and they never told me to leave, They treated me so nicely, taking me out everywhere like restaurants and the movies; Sunan let me cook with him a few times too, even though I’m terrible at seasoning. 

And they never told me they were annoyed at how often I was there even when I basically was encroaching on their time together. I knew they were irritated but I was selfish and didn’t want to leave because that meant I would have to be alone whilst they were together. I just feel it. I can read people well, I think.

DR. YOON MINHEE

But how can you gauge an accurate sense of how people perceive you when the starting framework you’re looking at it through is that everyone is angry at you?

KANG KIHA

But -- isn’t everyone automatically mad at me?

DR. YOON MINHEE

Why would you think that?

( ‘ / They inhale sharply, teeth scraping against their tongue before they bite down on the inside of their cheek, fingers continuing their assault on the stuffing of the couch. If she sees them, she doesn’t mention it, her eyes holding a heavy weight when they find Kiha’s like a silent encouragement for them to explain. To get to the crux of it, to talk about who she knows they want to talk about every session but only starts to after being prodded. )

KANG KIHA 

I just. I kept thinking I was doing the right thing every time, putting their needs before mine because I just liked them so much, because they deserved to be loved so strongly. Theo didn’t mind, that’s probably why it was so easy to take advantage of me because I’m always so silly when I’m in love. 

But Dowon -- it annoyed him a lot. Everything I did seemed to annoy him, like when I would always tell him to leave me alone at parties so he can go talk to his friends even though I knew he didn’t like them that much. I didn’t want to monopolise his time; he’s so popular, you know, like a magnet drawing in people. There’s just something about him that’s constantly carefree, always cool. Likable. Everyone likes Dowon, and I felt like I was doing something wrong by being the only one he stuck with the entire night. 

( ‘ / They break eye contact only so they can draw their knees up, resting their chin on the surface they’ve created, arms wrapped around them. It’s easier to hide the slow welling of their eyes like this, conceal the way their voice cracks when they talk about him. It’s not as embarrassing as it is a metaphorical knife that’s twisted somewhere into their chest through flesh and bones. A reminder that they messed it all up. )

DR. YOON MINHEE

Doing something wrong to who?

KANG KIHA

Everyone who wanted to spend time with him.

DR. YOON MINHEE

Why would you be worried about making sure everyone had time to spend with him when you went to the party together for a reason? You told me Dowon knew you didn’t like them, that he always checked up on you throughout the night to make sure you weren’t overwhelmed.

KANG KIHA

I don’t know. I like pleasing everyone. I felt like I was doing a disservice by making him mine, so he should say hi to everyone who wanted to spend time with him.

DR. YOON MINHEE

But you weren’t making him yours exclusively; I’m sure he would’ve spoken to his friends if he really wanted to, but he just wanted to spend the night with you, Kiha. Do you think that maybe, by trying to please everyone, you were hurting him instead?

KANG KIHA

Oh. 

DR. YOON MINHEE

You had good intentions, I could never say you had anything less than that, and I’m certain people close to you would agree with me on this too. But subjecting both of yourselves to something neither of you wanted for the sake of other people wholly outside your relationship; it must’ve hurt Dowon badly, Kiha, even if he never expressed it, purely because of how often he told you that he wanted to go to the party and stick with you. He may have reacted that way because he felt like you didn’t take his love for you seriously -- especially when, like you told me, you know he isn’t somebody who is good with reassuring constantly. And he was doing the best he could in that aspect.

But that’s not to say the breakup is your fault because that’s not a burden that can be shouldered by either one of you individually. It wasn’t fair for Dowon to leave you at the party because he was upset, even if he’s not good at expressing himself. 

KANG KIHA

It was. I -- I upset him! I didn’t realise what I was doing, I didn’t know.

DR. YOON MINHEE

No, Kiha, it wasn’t fair, it was a stranger’s house. It could’ve been dangerous for you, at worst -- it’s fair for him to be upset, but not for him to lash out in the way that he did. The fact that neither of you got to talk about how you were feeling, that neither of you could see the other’s point of view without indirectly putting the burden on the other; both of you seem to have underestimated how important that is in a relationship, and both of you were incredibly hurt by the fallout. 

I guarantee you Dowon’s taking this just as hard as you are. If everything you told me is true, he’s someone who loved you very much.

( ‘ / The tears spill over unexpectedly to the extent that they hadn’t realised they were holding them in until now, their hands immediately reaching upwards to press the palms against their eyes with a shaky breath. In the darkness they hear the rustle of a tissue box placed on the table in front of them, the ticking of the clock again, the sounds of them sucking in rapidly whatever air is available to them. When they open their eyes again their vision is bleary, eyelashes stuck to their cheeks with the tell-tale sign of regret. )

DR. YOON MINHEE

And you? Do you think Dowon loved you?

( ‘ / They let out another shaky breath when they take their bottom lip between their teeth, eyes red-rimmed and exhaustion tugging at their being. )

KANG KIHA

I was in love.

DR. YOON MINHEE 

That’s not the same thing.

( ‘ / They think they’ve known this for a while now. The way that they blend the line between the two, so it’s much easier to feel loved when in reality they’re the only ones with affection strong enough to spill over their tender heart. I’m so in love becomes synonymous with I’m so loved, them loving Dowon to the ends of the Earth automatically means he loved them just as strongly. Thinking about whether that’s true or not leaves their chest aching dully with want, something to fill up the gaps left behind. They shake their head. )

KANG KIHA

I know. I think it’s been so long that I’m too scared to tell the difference between them anymore, even when I know at the back of my mind that the line is still there. He made me feel both, that I could be in love and be loved at the same time. That I couldn’t just pick one.

DR. YOON MINHEE

Do you think that’s why it hurt so much? Because you know Dowon loved you?

( ‘ / They see the line between the two now, the way he had occupied both spaces so naturally. The ruffle of his fingers through their hair, their head laid on his lap when he played some distant melody into the night. His chopsticks dropping a piece of pork cutlet onto their plate at the school canteen, his signature knock on their door every time they worked themselves into oblivion, the honking of his car outside their window. 

The circles of his thumb over the back of their hand, those same thumbs lightly brushing over the space underneath their eyes, fingers tracing the skin of their torso when they’re writhing underneath him, murmured ‘pretty’s under his breath that they wouldn’t catch if the weren’t so finely attuned to him. Dowon’s eyes crinkle into a smile somewhere in their memories, and Kiha feels the knife twist more. )

( ‘ / They nod. )

KANG KIHA

I do.

DR. YOON MINHEE

And did you love him back?

( ‘ /  The world is only as focused as they want it to be. They nod again, suddenly alert with a realisation that douses over them like a bucket of cold water. They sniffle, voice breaking once more when they talk in a low tone. )

KANG KIHA

I did. 

I still do.

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