#danneel x daughter

[dreamerbouquet]

A COLD SUMMER

Jensen Ackles x Daughter!reader, Danneel Ackles x Stepdaughter!reader, Jared Padalecki x Nephew!reader

SUMMARY: When Y/n can't stop the voices in her head, she finally finds the courage to ask for help.

NOT: Y/n 17 is years old.

Word Count: 4.300

“JJ, you make me so angry sometimes!!” you shouted at your little sister. You were intolerant these days and JJ was starting to get stubborn with you.

"GO AWAY!" JJ shouted.

You combed your hair with your hands, "you better go to your room, JJ. I'm the older one and you should listen to me!"

"You are not my sister!"

You took a deep breath, "now, I'm going to call my mom!"

"She's not your mother, she's mine and the twins' mother!" JJ continued to scream.

You were stunned by what you heard. "What?" You hummed. Your eyes started to water and you swallowed hard.

Hearing the screams, Danneel came down from his room, "hey what's going on here?" asked. The woman approached them.

You pulled yourself together with your mother's arrival. You turned around and wiped the tears from your eyes.

"I asked you girls a question. Now tell me what's going on." When no one spoke, the woman turned to her eldest daughter, "Y/n?"

You calmly began to explain what happened, "I warned him many times about something she shouldn't do, but she didn't listen to me. So I got angry." You said. You didn't look at your mother. What JJ said was going around in your head; 'She's not your mother!'

After listening carefully, the woman turned to her little daughter, "JJ, I told you to listen to your big sister, right?"

"She's not my big sister!" JJ shouted the same words again. You looked at him and your eyes started to water again.

Danneel was stunned by the little girl's words. "What did you say ?" Asked

"He shouldn't call you mother. You are mine and the twins' mother, not Y/n."

“JJ-” the woman began to speak as Y/n quickly walked past her and up the stairs. “Y/n, honey wait,” the young girl had already disappeared. There was the sound of a door slamming from above.

Danneel turned back to her little daughter, "JJ, what you did is so rude! You upset your older sister, yes your older sister. I'm her mother too. She's your older sister and the twins' older sister. Yes, I didn't give birth to her, but that doesn't mean I can't be her mother. Now go to your room, you're grounded."

JJ ran to her room.

After a while, Danneel knocked on Y/n's room door, "Honey, can I come in?"

“Yes,” you sat up in your bed and leaned your back against the headboard. You took the pillow in your lap and hugged it. You've been thinking about what your sister said ever since you went to your room. She was right, Even your real mother didn't want you

The woman entered the room. He sat on his bed, facing his daughter. "Shall we talk for a while?"

"She is right." you said, not taking your gaze off your lap.

Danneel was shocked. "No, Y/n, no. Please don't think like that. I don't know where he got that from, but believe me, I never see you as different from others. Y/n, look at me, please." The woman held the young girl's hands.

You knew this. Danneel was never rude to you, never hurt you. But these days you were questioning your existence to yourself. Your father was 24 years old when you were born. Your mother didn't want you. You were staying with your grandparents when your father went to Vancouver. When you were 6 years old, your father introduced you to Danneel. You loved him since you first saw him. A year later, your father and Danneel got married.

You turned your gaze to your mother. You felt your eyes filling with tears, you were trying hard not to cry.

Dannel understood his daughter. "oh, come here," he took her in his arms. "Honey, I love you so much." He broke the hug and looked into the girl's eyes, "Y/n, you are the one who made me a mother before a baby fell into my womb. I have never forgotten the first day you called me mom, and it makes me extremely. We are not biologically related, but that doesn't change anything."

You remembered the past and smiled;

…..

A few months after your father and Danneel got married, you walked out of your playroom and walked over to Dannel and stood in front of him.

Danneel looked at Y/n who was writhing in front of her "Honey, is there something wrong?" Asked. she stopped reading the magazine in his hand and focused on the girl.

You started playing with your fingers "I want to ask you something Dee," you said shyly. At that moment, Jensen entered the room and sat on the couch. He liked that his daughter turned to your wife to ask questions.

“Of course honey, you can ask me anything you want” She straightened the little girl's hair.

You looked at your father before asking and then back to Danneel.

Jensen noticed his daughter's writhing and squinted at her.

"I… I mean, can I call you mom?" you asked. Jensen sat up straighter. Danneel looked at her husband in surprise at the question. You worried, thinking you'd done something wrong. "I'm sorry-"

“Of course baby, you can say sure, I would love that.” She took the little girl into his arms. Jensen's eyes filled with tears. He looked at his wife and thanked her silently.

....

Danneel"You made me the happiest person in the world, honey," said. She smiled and combed her daughter's baby hair behind her ear.

"You made me the happiest child in the world, mom." you said. You smiled at him and hugged him again, but you still couldn't stop the voices in your head.

EVENING

You and JJ made up and decided to watch Frozen in the movie room. Again. The twins were sleeping. Danneel entered the room with popcorn in hand "Here, your popcorn is ready" He said as he placed the plate on the middle table.

“Thanks mom,” you thanked her.

Danneel, "have fun." said and joined Jensen in his study.

"Hey honey" she greeted his husband and sat next to her.

"Hey, what are the kids doing?" Jensen asked.

"The twins are sleeping and the other two have restarted the Frozen marathon." The woman rolled her eyes.

Jensen smiled. "Dee, Y/n seems a little different these days, Has she said anything to you?" asked.

"No, he didn't say anything to me, but as you said, he seemed a little calm and thoughtful. The woman took a deep breath. Jensen looked at his wife and thought something was wrong.

"Did something happen? Dannel, is there something you're hiding from me about Y/n?" Jensen was worried.

"No no, it's just that he and JJ had a fight today." Jensen frowned. "JJ didn't listen to Y/n's warning and that made her angry. But that's not the problem." The woman stopped. Jensen waited for his wife to speak again. "Oh, JJ told him I wasn't his mom and not to call me mom," she added.

"What? Oh," Jensen sat, not knowing what to say. "Have you talked to Y/n?" asked.

"Yes, I did. It's okay. JJ apologized to her sister and she accepted." the woman replied

Jensen, "We need to talk to JJ about this, where did he get that from?" said.

"I don't know, but I talked to him," Danneel said.

"Should I talk too?" Jensen asked.

Danneel, "no I don't think so, at least not right now." saying replied.

The cartoon was over Jensen and Danneel came into the room "yeah now everyone to bed," Danneel let JJ  kiss his fader goodnight before taking him upstairs. "Good night, daddy," said the little girl.

"Good night, baby," Jensen said.

“Good night Y/n.”

“Good night, JJ,” you said and waved at him. You grabbed your plate of popcorn and got up to take it to the kitchen.

Jensen, "Hey honey, how about movie night?" he asked his daughter. He wanted to spend time with her and make sure she was okay.

“Oh, I'm actually tired-” you tried to deny but your father cut you off.

"Come on, we're on summer vacation. Don't you have some time for this old man?" Jensen said playfully.

"But I'm going to the brewery tomorrow," you said. You were working there during summer vacation.

Jensen, "At 12 o'clock," Said. "So I think it's okay to sleep a little later."

You smiled "ok, old man" you said emphatically. Your father smiled. "Popcorn?" You asked, pointing to the empty plate in your hand before sitting down.

"Of course," Jensen agreed. He took the remote control and settled into the chair.

You came back with the bowl full of popcorn "what are we watching?" You asked as you settled into your seat.

"I thought we'd watch action. Do you have a movie in mind?"

"No. There will be action, I haven't watched it for a long time." You replied.

Jensen wanted to talk to Y/n about what happened today before the movie. "Honey, can we talk for a while before the movie?" asked.

You looked at your father, "About what?" you said. You knew what it was but you asked anyway.

"Your mother told me about what happened between you and JJ today,"

"Oh yeah, it's okay dad, he's a little kid. He apologized to me afterwards." You said. You shrugged and wanted to end the conversation.

Jensen looked at his daughter, he wasn't sure if she really thought that, but he didn't want to push it now, "Okay, I'm glad about that," he said. He took the popcorn plate from Y/n's hand and the girl looked at her father in surprise. When Jensen saw his daughter's look, he said, "you already ate," and popped a few popcorns into his mouth.

You frowned, "I can still eat it," you said as you took a handful off the plate. "Besides, you're an old man, you shouldn't be eating at this hour."

Jensen squinted at his daughter.

You when you saw your father's look, "okay it was a joke." You said, raising your hands in surrender and smiled.

“It better be,” Jensen said and started the movie.

When the movie ended, Jensen saw Y/n sleeping. She smiled at him and turned off the television. Being careful not to wake his daughter, he took her in his arms to take her to bed. Y/n stirred in her sleep "shush sleep honey" he said and carried her to his room.

TWO DAYS LATER

“Y/n, I'm home,” Jensen called to his older daughter as he entered the house. Danneel and the little ones had gone to their grandmother's, so the house was quiet. He put his keys in the bowl. When he didn't hear anything from his daughter, he went to his room. It wasn't there.

“Y/N ?” Jensen called out to his daughter again. She went out to the balcony and saw him sitting on the swing in the backyard. He pulled his knees to his chest and hugged his legs. Jensen went down the stairs and out into the garden "sweetie?"

There was no one at home and you couldn't hold back any longer and started crying. You couldn't cry in front of people because they kept asking why and you didn't know what to say. Even you didn't know exactly why you were crying. The voices in your head couldn't stop. You felt stuck and unnecessary. As soon as you heard your father's voice, you quickly wiped your eyes and sniffed. You put your feet down from the swing and without looking at your father, "hey dad."

Jensen could tell in his daughter's voice that she was crying. He approached Y/n and sat down next to her "Honey, are you okay?" He combed her daughter's baby hair behind her ear and tried to see her face, but Y/n was insistent on not showing her face.

"I'm fine dad, I'll go to my room." You said, you got up from the swing to go but your father stopped you.

Jensen held her arm without hurting her, "Honey, you were crying, what's wrong? Talk to me."

You are not wanted. Do you really think you're asking that? No! Even your mother didn't want you. Nobody wants you here. They will leave you.

"Nothing, I'll go to my room!" You said. The voice in your head started talking again. You quickly pulled his arm away and ran to your room.

Jensen stood there stunned, not understanding what was happening. He wanted to go after his daughter, but he stopped, thinking that would shut him down even more.

After a while Jensen knocked on Y/n's room door "honey can I come in?" There was no sound from inside. Jensen sighed and went downstairs.

"Y/n! dinner is ready" Jensen called out to his daughter.

You took a deep breath and walked out of your room. You felt bad for snapping at your father. Those voices were making you do things you wouldn't do. When you entered the kitchen, you didn't look at your father and sat in your usual seat.

When Jensen looked at his daughter, he realized that she was still upset. He sat down and started eating.

After eating silently for a while, you looked at your father out of the corner of your eye. He looked sad. You didn't want anyone to feel sad because of you. You didn't want to bother anyone with your problems. That's why you thought you needed to talk now and said, "I'm a little bored today.." You started playing with the food on your plate.

Jensen looked at his daughter, relieved that she was finally opening up, "Did something happen?" He understood and asked his daughter to open up.

You shook your head, "No, I'm just bored." You still haven't looked at your father. You stopped playing with the food and started playing with the skin around your nails as usual. You've had this habit since childhood. You start doing this without realizing it, and sometimes you can't stop when you realize what you're doing.

Jensen saw Y/n playing with her fingers andi “Honey, can you look at me?" asked. She didn't like that he did this because it hurt himself.

After pausing for a while, you turned your gaze to the your father.

"You're quiet these days. What's going on in that beautiful mind of yours?" he asked, feeling his worries returning again. “Look, whatever this is, you can talk to me about it, you know that, right?”

"I don't know." You said and he took a deep breath.

"Are you anxious?" Asked. He knew that Y/n had a hard time expressing herself in situations like this.

Your eyes started to water, “I'm sorry dad, I don't know why you came again.” You said quietly, a few tears came to your eyes and you quickly wiped them away.

"Come here,"Jensen stood up and picked up his daughter as well. She leaned her head on his chest and hugged her daughter tightly. He hated seeing her like this. “It's okay, just let it go, honey.”

You hugged your father tightly and started crying, unable to hold it back any longer. You felt the voices in your head disappear. As if it would never come again.

Jensen let Y/n cry. He knew that crying was good for him in such situations. After a while, when he realized that she had stopped crying, "Do you want to talk about it?" asked.

You shook your head no. You didn't want to talk.

"Okay whatever you want baby" Jensen said knowing it wasn't right to push her. "Shall we go out?" Asked. he pulled back to look at her daughter's face, "Maybe we can get ice cream." he said, smiling at her

You looked at your father and gave him a small smile. You were happy, thinking that the fact that he wanted to spend time with you meant that he wanted you. You nodded your head yes and hugged your father again.

Jensen returned the hug and looked down at his daughter's plate, where she had eaten almost nothing. "But finish your meal first," he said, as if to a small child.

You giggled and said "okay" as you continued to hug your father.

After wandering around for a while and eating ice cream, you returned home. Yourself were feeling tired.

Jensen looked at his daughter "are you okay honey?" Asked. He watched him carefully the entire time they were out, wondering what was triggering her anxiety.

"Yes, I'm fine, just tired. I cried a lot today and it's tiring." You said.

"Y/n," Jensen looked at his daughter tenderly and placed his hands on her shoulders, "next time you feel like today, come to me, okay? Or go to your mother. No matter what the topic is, no matter how ridiculous you think it is, come to us, Deal?" Said. He didn't want her to feel alone.

You looked at your father and shook your head.

Jensen,"I want to hear it, deal?" he said again.

"We agreed." You said and smiled at your father, but you weren't sure about it.

"Okay, now go rest, you look really tired." Jensen said as he playfully pushed his daughter forward.

“Good night, Dad,” as you walked to your room. you said

Jensen, "Good night baby, I love you." he called after his daughter.

A FEW WEEKS LATER

After talking to your father, the voices left you. Everything was going well after that day, but recently you started hearing voices again. You felt restless and tense. You were sitting in your room, on the bean bag chair in front of the window. It was late afternoon and it was a sunny, warm day outside.

Your father told you to come to him if it happened again, but you couldn't. That's why you decided to talk to your Uncle Jared. Actually, you weren't sure about it either, but you knew that he would understand you. You texted your Uncle Jared, told him you wanted to talk about some books, and he came back with a text saying he was waiting for you. You always did this but now you just used it as an excuse, that wasn't the point.

"Dad?" When you came downstairs, you called out to your father.

Jensen, "I'm on the balcony, honey!" he called out. He was sitting in one of the armchairs and looking at his computer.

When he went out to the balcony, "Hey, what's up?" you asked. You walked to your father. You saw the little ones and your mother playing in the garden.

"I'm checking my e-mail," Jensen said to his daughter. He could tell Y/n wanted to say something. "Talk," he took a sip of his coffee and started typing something on his computer.

You looked at your father, frowned and smiled, "how did you know?" you asked, You sat on the empty single seat.

"It's not difficult, you are my daughter," he said. He winked at his daughter.

"I was wondering if I could go to my uncle Jared's today, I want to talk about a few books," you said.

"Sure you can go honey, you haven't done this in a long time." Jensen said.

"Yes. Okay," you said as you stood up, "I'm going to get ready and leave, can you tell my mom?"

Jensen, "Okay honey, drive carefully." Said.

You left the balcony and went to your room to get ready.

Jared met Y/n at the door “Hey, I missed you kiddo,” he said, wrapping his arms around his niece.

“Hey Uncle Jared, I missed you too,” you said. You hugged him tightly and just stayed there.

Jared waited for Y/n to finish the hug, but she didn't. Thinking something was wrong, he asked, "lollipop, is everything okay?" Asked.

Jared named you lollipop when you were a kid. You were always walking around with a candy bar in your mouth. You still do.

You finished the hug, “I didn't actually come to talk to you about books, Uncle Jared,” you admitted. You couldn't understand why this was so hard to do; asking for help.

“What's wrong Y/n, are you okay?” Jared looked intently at his nephew.

"I'm fine, it's just ı," you took a deep breath and turned your gaze to the ground, "I can't stop it," you said. Your voice was hoarse due to the urge to cry.

Jared frowned in concern "what can't you stop, Y/n?" Asked

“Voices,” you said.

Jared understood and pulled her back onto his lap. "Oh lollipop, I got you"

The two of you walked inside and went into the living room. Gen and the children were nowhere to be seen. You didn't ask about them, for some reason you didn't wonder. You sat up, pulling your knees to your chest and hugging your legs, and started playing with the skin around your nails. Jared sat right across from you.

Jared stared at his nephew for a moment, it hurt his heart to see her like this. He knew what pain of the soul was like and he wouldn't want anyone to experience that, especially those he loved. Y/n had struggled with anxiety for a while and had gotten over it in a very short time. He could more or less guess what the voice inside his nephew's head was saying, but he was older now and maybe the topic was different, so he decided to ask.

"Y/n, do you want to tell me about the voices?" he asked gently.

"It's about my family. I feel like I'm extra, I mean, voices tell me I am. My mom and dad say they love me, but something tells me it's not like that, they're bored of me." You said. You swallowed and took a deep breath. You were going to say what worried you the most, but you didn't know how to express it, you felt like it would come true once you said it.

Jared's guess was correct, this was what he was worried about before. he knew it wasn't true, she knew how much Jensen loved her, how Danneel cared for her even though he wasn't her biological child, but he also knew how anxiety takes over.

He could tell Y/n was pausing, struggling to say what was bothering her most. He leaned forward and took Y/n's hands, "kid, whatever it is you can tell me, it's okay. You don't have to deal with this alone, you're not alone Y/n." Said. By giving him confidence.

You looked at your uncle Jared, you weren't surprised that he could tell because he was just as worried as you. "I feel like if I say it, it will come true." You said. You started playing with the skin around your nails.

Jared grabbed Y/n's hands again to stop what she was doing. He knew that ever since he was little, he had a habit of doing this when he was worried.

“Let it go, kid,” Jared said.

"I'm afraid they'll leave me." You confessed by saying. Your voice came out quieter than you intended and your eyes began to water. You bowed your head and began to cry silently.

Jared sat down next to his nephew and pulled him onto his lap "oh, come here," he said. "It's okay, it's okay, honey. I got you."

You let him hug you and continued to cry. You hadn't cried in front of anyone in a long time and you didn't want to stop it now.

A little later you said, "she left me and now I'm afraid that one day everyone will leave me." "I'm so sick of this, Uncle Jared." You added.

Jared realized that Y/n was talking about her biological mother. "I understand you, Y/n, but hey," he tried to look at her face, "trust me, this won't happen. You're a great kid and I wouldn't do this. Lollipop, we love you so much, your daddy loves you so much. That man misses you so much when he's away. That, You should understand from the fact that he is constantly video chatting with you." He said playfully, half hoping Y/n would smile.

You smiled softly, having stopped crying, and turned your attention to your Uncle Jared. His words were healing you, guiding you.

"None of those sounds will ever come true. You know how I know," Jared returned his nephew's smile.

You nodded your head "yes I know" you said.

Jared continued speaking, "Thank you for trusting me and coming to talk, lollipop. You can talk to me about anything, but if you want to go to therapy again, I can arrange that." He offered to Y/n.

You hadn't thought about going to therapy, but you knew it would be good for you. "It could be." You said. "Uncle Jared, my father told me to come to him if I was worried like this, but I couldn't and came to you. So, will my father be upset about this?" you asked. It suddenly occurred to you and you were worried about it.

Jared, "No, I don't think so, on the contrary, he will be happy about it. It takes courage to do this, Y/n. You don't want to live with this and you want help. Asking for help is not wrong, on the contrary, it is the right thing you can do and you did it, lollipop, I am proud of you." Said. He smiled proudly at her niece as he tucked her hair behind her ear.

You looked at him with teary eyes, jumped on him and hugged him tightly, "thank you, Uncle Jared,"

Jared laughed, surprised by her sudden hug, "always Lollipop." He said and returned the hug.

"When will you stop calling me lollipop?" You asked as you hugged.

Jared, "Hmm, when are you going to stop eating lollipops?" He answered the question with a question.

"Never!" You said and giggled.

"Well, then I'll just keep doing it." Said.

#jensen ackles x daughter!reader #uncle jared #jared padalecki #supernatural imagine #Danneel ackles x daughter!reader #fandom #y/n ackles

[thefemalestorywriter]

A Cry for Help

Summary: Jensen see something one night that makes him think his daughter is in trouble. He confronts her, only to find out its deeper than he thought…

Pairing: Jensen x daughter!reader

Warnings: language, angst, drug addiction, sexual assault (non-graphic)

A/N #1: The reader is 16-17 years old for this series. Danneel and Jensen are married, Danneel is not reader’s mother, JJ and the twins are included, and the reader has dyslexia.

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#jensen ackles #daughter reader #supernatural imagine series #jared and jensen #jensen x daughter!reader #jensen and danneel #teenage issues #angst #fluff #fatherslove #drug addict

[maralisa124]

Hi

Again, do you guys know the Jensen Ackles’ story, where Daneel is dead and he is a singles patent, then Jared and Genevieve introduce Gen’s friend to him she is also a photographer … in one chapter he says the wrong name when they are sleeping together…

If anyone knows please tell me

#supernatural fandom #supernatural #dean x you #dean x reader #dean x daughter!reader #jensen x reader #jensen ackles #jensen and danneel #jensen ackles x reader #jared paladecki #jared padalecki x reader #jared padalecki x geneviv

[amberjazmyn]

pinky promise

𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - pinky promise

𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - sad, big sister ackles leaving, crying, tears

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - the older sister of the ackles family, aurelia, was leaving austin, texas to go back to australia for college. and let's just say her family but especially her younger sister jj was not happy about it.

𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - this was first written so many years ago and i am so pumped to be rewriting it now when i'm a much better writer. also, this will be set in like 2015 when danneel was pregnant with their twins, arrow and zeppelin so that's why jj is only mentioned as the other ackles daughter.

masterlist

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today was the day that no one in the ackles family was looking forward to. wishing that the day didn't even start and they wish it never ended. aurelia, the eldest daughter of actors jensen and danneel ackles, was needing to go back to australia for the second semester of her first year of university. her two-month long semester one break was finishing and she was due to come back on campus on monday and it was now thursday evening, the last night that aurelia would have with her family before needing to be awake at stupid o'clock for her eight am flight back to brisbane, australia.

knowing this was going to be her last night in austin, texas with her family for who knows how long, sucked the big apples. she really wished thursday didn't come or end. aurelia's vlog camera capturing this sweet moment between her and little sister jj as they talk about aurelia's farewell tomorrow on friday.

aurelia's pov

"...why are you leaving me, ria?" my little sister, jj whined, my nickname "ria" falling from jj's lips as i chuckled softly, not wanting to cry as i had already cried way too much when packing some last-minute things

"because jj, i have to study!" i giggled back, moving over to the pouting and sad jj and allowing her to rest in my lap as she played with my long hair

"i don't care! you are not leaving me...not leaving us or the new babies!" jj whined as she wrapped her arms around my waist, literally sitting herself in my lap

it did warm my heart at the same time as hurting it as i could tell jj would become hysterical the second the family steps foot into the airport. especially considering jj was right, mom was pregnant with twins right now and she was worried that i wouldn't be home in time for their birth.

"i have to jj, i know it sucks but, i'll be back soon i promise, and i'll be home way before the new babies are born!" i giggled softly, attempting to lift the spirits of jj but also my parents and aunty and uncle and cousins but, nothing was working so, i just exhaled and allowed my chin to rest against jj's head of hair as i tried to distract myself

"you pinky promise?" jj's soft, upset voice rang back in a whisper as i chuckled softly, lifting my head up to see jj lifting her pinky, making me lift my pinky up too for the pinky promise

"pinky promise," i responded back, giving jj a little comfort kiss to the head as she grabbed my arms and cuddled them, knowing she wouldn't have that opportunity for another month or two before seeing me again

it was starting to become quite late when it was decided that netflix would be chromecasted from my iphone to the tv and watch a movie together with the joint padackles family. the padalecki's were also visiting so they could also farewell me tomorrow at the airport with their two boys as well. we were also in the lounge room on the king-size mattress that we were all laying on so we would all sleep together. we had then all agreed to watch the disney movie, lilo & stitch at the request of jj because it was one of her current favourites.

by the end of the movie, somehow, we were all intertwined and cuddling with one another, well, just me, jj, thomas and shep since the adults had all moved to their bedrooms at some point in the night. but, this was normal, even though it was going to be the last one for a month or two due to my studies back in brisbane. which is why we wanted to make the most of it before the treacherous flight back.

time skip | five am friday morning | aurelia's pov 

fluttering my eyes open, i looked to my right to see that it had just hit five am which was perfect because it meant that i had to get ready for my nineteen hour and thirty nine minute flight back to brisbane, australia for my second semester of college. looking around the king-sized mattress, it seemed as though i was the last one awake however when i stood up and turned the corner, my poor little sister jj had fallen asleep with her head resting on the breakfast bench. i chuckled softly before tip-toeing over to her and trying to shake her awake. deciding to get all of this for the farewell vlog, placing the camera down a couple of benches away and shuffled over to jj.

"jj, sweetheart, you need to wake up," i giggled softly as i tried to whisper, telling jj she had to wake up, a childlike whine falling from her lips as my heart melted at the sound

"no, i don't want to!" jj whined out as i cooed at how tired she sounded but, nevertheless, she opened her eyes and lifted her head off of the countertop, giving the saddest look ever right into my eyes as i pouted

"i'm sorry jj but you have to. i'm sorry that it sucks," i pouted as jj sniffled before swapping her weight from the countertop over to me as i took no time in wrapping my arms around my tired younger sister

it was easy to tell why jj wanted to stay aslee for as long as possible. because, her logic was that, if she didn't wake up, then i wouldn't have to leave. which, was the saddest but smartest and cutest thing i've ever seen.

then, after having a little cuddle with jj, i could hear my cousin thomas getting ready in the bathroom with his dad, uncle jared's, help. and it already sounded like little tom was getting upset. i gave jj a kiss on her forehead before walking to the bathroom, i was also filming this for my youtube channel for the farewell vlog so, this made it even worse to say goodbye. and, before y'all attack me, i've always had permission by both my parents and uncles and aunties for permission to film the kids!

"tom, you alright?" i whispered, giving a soft knock on the door with my vlog camera in my hand as tom responds as i hear uncle jared try to comfort him

"uh-huh," i pout at the camera at tom's small noise, but i know straight away that tom wasn't okay

"tom, don't lie to me my love. can your daddy please confirm to me that you're okay?" i asked softly as i then hear jared's voice and he sighs sadly - yeah, tom definitely wasn't okay and i don't blame the little one, i was feeling the same and i hated that today was even happening

"no, he isn't okay, ria," uncle jared responds as i nod my head and take that as my cue to come in

i quickly place the camera a far distance from our faces as straight away, tom asks to be picked up by me. similar to what jj had done as i don't refuse and i pick him up and have a little cry as well. uncle jared watches on before obviously, me and tom open the hug so daddy/uncle jared could join in.

"everything's going to be fine, tom, i promise i'll be back soon, you don't need to cry sweetheart!" i whispered into the little boy's cheek as tom's small cries become muffled due to my shoulder and the texas football jersey that was my dad's that i was wearing

"i just don't want to forget you, cousin ria!" tom revealed, his tears making him sound congested as i hugged tom tighter, completely ignoring the camera that was filming this entire thing as i gave a sad look to uncle jared who returned my sad look with a sad look of his own

and hearing tom say that broke my heart, did he seriously think i would come back home for a couple of months and then just go back to brisbane and forget about him and the rest of the family? what a silly little goose he is, if anything, i'd be worried about them forgetting me!

"oh, tom, my sweetheart, i won't forget about you guys! i love you all way too much to even think about forgetting you!" i whispered back as tom smiled into my shoulder as i managed to catch a peek as i smiled back

then, after i finished my cuddle session with mr tom padalecki, i decided to pause my video recording so i could eat something for breakfast so we all decided as a family to get food. right next to the house and a little up from the lake we have a little cafe that we would go to almost every day so, we decided to go there for some coffee and breakfast before the airport. and then, after the breakfast trip, we all came back home and i spent more time with the rest of the family, had some cuddles with the kidlets, jj, tom and shep, the youngest of the padalecki boys and also had some last minute cuddles with my parents and uncle jared and aunty genevieve as well.

time skip | airport | aurelia pov 

now came the time that all of us hated, stepping out of my range rover and into the bloody austin airport. the entire car ride, i was being smothered in cuddles by the three kids, my sister jj and my cousins tom and shep. the best thing being, i was sitting with jj cuddled in my lap and tom and shep leaning on me so the cuddles i got were immaculate. however, i felt awful for my parents as dad was driving and mom was in the passenger seat whilst uncle jared and aunty genevieve were in the middle of the car and me and the kidlets were right in the back of my jeep. i could tell that dad was getting upset and wearing sunglasses so no one would notice how upset he was getting. i had also now decided to start the vlog up again so, this was all being filmed, the car ride probably was the cutest thing i had filmed the entire day of which was otherwise depressing.

"...so guys, it's now happening! i'm now at the airport with the rest of my family about to check-in for my flight and then go though security. thankfully, all of us, will all be able to go through together so they won't have to leave straight away which is nice. but, it's just awful in general that semester break is now over for uni and that i have to go back to brisbane but, it is what it is and, i'll be back home for semester two break. as of right now though, it is time to get ready to head to college," i huffed into my vlog camera as jj stayed attached to my hip since i was carrying her as i chuckled, giving her a kiss to her head as she smiled and hid her face in my side away from the camera

"as you can tell, none of the family is happy about it..." i giggle as i pan the vlog camera to my family who all instantly turn away, my dad even going as far as giving it the finger as i pout with a small giggle

"but, just like mom always says, i chose to study internationally and it's a new and fun life experience and we can't change it. so, for a catch up as i didn't really vlog anything last night, pretty much the entire day all of us were packing up the house and doing some final touches umm, we had packed away the bedframe, hence why you saw that king-sized mattress this morning in that little clip that you saw of jj and i in the kitchen. umm, we all fell asleep watching lilo & stitch and we were just cuddling and all over one another but at some point during the night, mom, dad and uncle jared and aunty genevieve were upstairs in their rooms which just left me, jj, tom and shep on the king-sized mattress in the lounge room. then we just got dressed and went out to the cafe that's just over the lake a little bit for some breakfast and coffee before we made our way here over to the airport. it is now *checks phone* six-thirty in the morning and my flight is at just before eight am so, we have an hour and a bit left together before i truly do, leave my family for another two months *they groan as aurelia giggles*," i tried to speak as quietly as i could even though they weren't that many people that were actually in the airport right now

and, this was shocking as they'd usually be quite a few morning flights but, apparently, not today!

we then checked in and, i lowered my vlog camera for that so all they were seeing was jj, tom, shep and my shoes and fluffy socks that we all decided to match with one another. and then, we went through security so, all the video was seeing was the inside of the x-ray radiation machine. whilst it was quite cool looking back, i don't think it was actually good for the camera itself but, we move. then after that whole security check, we then went to find my gate.

"we've just all gone through security and we are now waiting at the gate of where i'll be getting on a plane and leaving..." i trail off as jj suddenly flops herself onto my lap as i groan and giggle, running my fingers through jj's hair

"...but, that isn't for another hour or so so right now, i think we're just gonna chill and just have loads of cuddles as a family and hopefully my parents, uncle and aunty won't get asked for any photos *giggles*..." i trail off as i shake my head

"...i'm totally joking but, i'm only saying that because there are times and places to ask for photos with your fave celebs and just saying, as a tip from a daughter of an actor's daughter, do not ask your fave for a photo whilst they are at the airport with their family. especially when it's them saying goodbye..." i trail off again as i then finish the little ted talk and circle back to what i was explaining earlier

"...but, going back to what i was talking about earlier, now that we are just waiting for the next hour or so, i'm not sure how much of this i'll film but, yeah, do enjoy these next few clips that will be showing up on the screen soon!" i giggle as i then have a filmed cuddle sesh with jj and tom before pausing the vlog again to grab another coffee before starting the vlog again

"...i'm back y'all! umm, the clips you saw before this one was of me having some more cuddle sessions with jj and tom so, after that i just cut the vlog for a bit since i don't really want to film a whole hour of us waiting and twiddling our thumbs *giggles*. i decided to grab some more coffee in that break because i know i'll need it so i don't cry like an absolute ugly baby because i learnt that lesson when i left for semester one at the beginning of the year and, i didn't have a coffee let alone two so i was a cry baby and it was very embarrassing that i cut it completely out of that vlog *giggles*. but, it has now just gone six-fifty in the morning so we've still got a while before the flight gets called to be boarded but i just thought i'd give you an update. so, as of right now, as you can tell, i have a thing called shep padalecki, in my arms right now. i'm just holding little shep here cause mom and dad have taken jj and tom to get some hot chocolates for those two and some coffees for them and uncle jared and aunty genevieve. so, that's all i can really update y'all on right now so, yeah, see you guys later!" i smiled as i then shut off the camera again as i see mom and dad return with jj and tom

i pause the video and put the vlog camera down on the seat next to me. my second arm that's now free from the vlog camera now comes around shep as i can now hold him properly, with two hands rather than just the one. i then saw dad smile as he noticed that i was still wearing his texas football jersey he had given to me as he watches jj and tom, making sure they don't spill their hot chocolates as mom also smiles at me, cradling her pregnant belly as i smile back at my parents.

the clock had now hit seven-twenty which meant that it was coming up to the time of my flight's first round of passengers being called onto the plane. and this is when everyone truly started to get upset. however, i occasionally would pick up the vlog camera for some clips.

seven-fifty am

"...guys, it's happening! it's seven-fifty am and in a few short minutes, i will be getting called up to board the flight to brisbane, australia. i'm honestly the most upset i've ever been in years as, i honestly didn't want this semester break to end but, now it really has so, in these next few clips, you'll be seeing me and my family say goodbye. and, i do apologise in advance and issue a warning as there will be some very ugly crying starting in three...two...one..." i did a video transition by covering my hand over the camera as the clips of me saying goodbye to my family started to be filmed

uncle jared and aunty genevieve were the first to come over and say goodbye. i could tell they were upset but it wasn't a weepy upset like you would think. i mean, of course uncle jared and aunty genevieve were sad, they hated seeing me leave as did my parents but, i think they were more so proud of me. but, even still, my heart broke when i hugged uncle jared and aunty genevieve as it was never fun having to say goodbye to them.

"bye uncle jared and aunty genevieve, behave, both of you! and i better hear some pregnancy news when i come back because i still want a padalecki niece! i love you both and take care of yourselves and of my little boys!" i giggle, whispering into the group hug with uncle jared and aunty genevieve as they giggle as well

"we love you too, aurelia! come home soon! we will behave and we'll try to fulfil your wishes of wanting a padalecki niece! take care of yourself too and we'll see you soon!" jared said with a smile as genevieve just nodded her head in agreement as i giggled

after saying goodbye to uncle jared and aunty genevieve, it was time for me to farewell the kids, cousins tom, shep and my sister jj. and, before i even hugged any of them, jj was hysterical. which then, when i did have to end our hug and goodbye with the kids, made me feel even more guilty because jj was already hysterical. thankfully tom and shep didn't seem too upset but i knew that would change when they'd see me walk onto the plane as that's what had happened last time.

"i miss you already sissy! please don't go!" jj cried as i picked her up and hugged her as tightly as i could, making eye contact with the camera

"jj, sweetie, if i could choose i'd stay but i can't, i have to go back to study but i promise i'll be back soon!" i spoke softly into jj's tiny ear as her cries started to calm down which i was really thankful for

as, in all honesty, seeing my little sister so upset broke my heart. also seeing tom or shep cry or upset felt like my heart was broken. but, because tom and shep didn't seem too affected at this current point in time which made it slightly easier on me.

jj had now calmed down which meant it was now time to move on and say goodbye to was mom. thankfully, her emotions and hormones were slightly controlled so she wasn't as emotional as she was the first time i had to leave. however, it was obvious mom was still upset that it was happening again and i couldn't blame here. so, i shuffled over to mom and opened my arms out for a hug as we both laughed. she welcomed me in for a hug straight away and i smiled and hugged her tight.

"oh, my darling aurelia! this break went too quickly and i wish i could have slowed it down so you were home for longer! i love you loads my darling and we'll see you soon!" mom smiles as she hugs me tightly before pulling out of the hug and placing her hands on my cheeks as i smile and nod my head

"i love you too, mom. and this break did go too quickly and it should have been longer, i agree. however, i will see you guys soon and, hopefully the babies aren't causing too much trouble!" i giggle at the baby comment i made as i then touch mom's pregnant belly and talk to it because, of course i do, my baby siblings are in there

"oi, speaking of my ackles babies, please don't put mom through too much pain, alright! don't be kicking her, don't be using her insides as bongos and other musical instruments, please and thank you. and behave and listen to everything mom and dad tell you and also listen to jj cause she's still older than you! and also, please don't make any special arrivals until i come home again, alrighty? i love you so much babies and i'll see you soon my loves!" i whisper to mom's pregnant belly as i then kiss it as mom smiles and brushes her fingers through my hair

"well, that was a stern talking to and, i hope they listen!" mom giggles as i laugh as well as i hug mom for a second time before we pulled away

and now, the last person i had to say goodbye to was my dad. the hardest goodbye ever next to mom and jj. the entire drive to the airport, dad was quiet and didn't even try to strike or include himself into any of the conversations like he usually would during car rides. meaning that today really wasn't a good day for him and, he wanted to get it over and done with as quickly as he could so then he could grieve privately away from everyone and my vlog camera.

just like jj, before even speaking or hugging, he was teary and it was awful. for those wondering, my dad wasn't really much of a crier, that was all uncle jared to be quite honest. so, the fact that the roles were switched this morning was quite a jumpscare. then, i shuffled over to dad and opened my arms for a hug which he basically initiated straight away and hugged me tightly. i could feel a couple of his tears and i pouted sadly, i could tell dad regretted not asking the school if i could do the uni work online and stayed for the extra month home here in austin but, he just didn't think he would get this upset. and because of that, he didn't bother asking and now i am ninety nine percent sure dad wishes he had done that.

"i love you dad, don't be upset for too long! i'll be back soon and you know that! besides, i thought you were the one that always says no chick flick moments?" i tried to joke as i managed to hear dad giggle a little as i giggled as well

"i love you too ria. and i'll try not to be upset for too much longer. i know you'll be home soon, i'm just being dramatic! and, how dare you use my own words against me!" dad joked back, giving me some sass as we pulled out of the hug as i giggled again and shrugged my shoulders

"oh, you know, because i can and it's not the first time i've used your words against you," i giggled as dad couldn't argue with that as he laughed as well, hugging me close again before giving my head a kiss

then, as dad and i parted from the second hug, the announcement that we had all been dreading but waiting for the entire morning came over the pa system.

"can passengers for flight 933 to brisbane, australia please start to board for their flight. i repeat, flight 933 to brisbane, australia, thank you," i couldn't help but finally shed some tears i had been holding back as the entire family ran over for a group hug as jj started crying again

after parting from that hug, it was finally time for me to go and board my flight.

"okay, it's actually happening guys, i'm flying back to brisbane for my second semester and i don't want to go," i sigh into my vlog camera as i see out my viewfinder that my family, but more especially dad and jj were waiting for me to run back to them

exactly like what's shown in the movies but, i couldn't do that as, if i did do it, i don't think i would have it in me to run back to my plane in time.

i then made it on the plane and found my seat and got myself as comfortable as i could for the nineteen hour flight back to brisbane, australia. i got my vlog camera back out to do the outro before placing the vlog camera back into my carry-on so i could then go back to listening to my spotify and watching netflix.

"...a few minutes have passed and, i'm now on the plane. the next you'll see is a compilation of the last month of my trip back home to austin, texas with the best family in the world and then, in the rest of this "outro" since it'll be kinda long, i'll be back in brisbane in my dorm room at college. see you guys then, i love you all and remember, you are very much loved, you are not alone and always keep fighting!" i waved goodbye and blew a kiss to my camera before ending the vlog

i then went into spotify to press play on my playlist. only to hear the one line of the one song that really encapsulated today in a sentence as a tear glided down my cheek. i closed my eyes and rested my head on the window before the safety demonstration was to begin.

if you were wondering what the song was that made me cry, it was louden swain's she waits.

- - - 

well shit, now i'm sad, why did i write this

ily xx

word count; 3922

#supernatural cast #light angst #jensen ackles x original female character daughter aurelia ackles #jared padalecki #genevieve padalecki #jj ackles #thomas padalecki #shep padalecki #danneel ackles #pinky promise part one

[justjensenanddean]

Jensen Ackles and Jeffrey Dean Morgan | New Jersey Convention, Main Panel (April 16, 2023)

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“hey dad! times been good to ya” (x)

when jensen and danneel had crushes on each other but were tied up with other people jensen wrote her a note that said “not now. but someday” and she still has it (x)

jdm was on jensens first date with danneel bc JENSEN INVITED HIM BC HE HAD NO IDEA IT WAS A FIRST DATE (x)

jensen: jdm got off a motorcycle in slomo and i saw hilarie’s jaw on the floor. she had no idea who he was (x)

fan: fav backstage moment from cons jdm: when i told everyone i was having a daughter bc i wasnt supposed to  (x)

jensen: when we announced the end of spn and at SDCC there were 7000 people and i told jared “take this in. this is it”  (x)

*everyone arguing over an answer* jensen; glad we figured that out. great job jdm: im still confused (x)

jensen got in trouble for sharing info abt a project last con so he will not be saying ANYTHING (x)

fan; SOLDIER BOY COMING BACK? jensen: uh…….no comment  (x)

theyre talking about their daughters jdm: mine will be the death of me jensen: one will be the death of me and the other will take care of me jdm; mine will be twerking over my grave jensen: HOW YOU LIKE ME NOW DADDY  (x)

.@JDMorgan : the year I did #Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy changed my life #SPNNJ (x)

.@JensenAckles getting the part of Tony in West Side Story in high school was life changing - after his baseball coach talked him into doing it. (x)

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the drama teacher at Jensen’s school wanted him to be in the spring musical and his baseball coach was like “you’ve played with me for three years. go give this a shot i promise we’ll be in the front row”  (x)  a talent scout was at the play and told jensen that he had it and he should come to LA and he went “lol take a hike” (x)  THE ROLE WAS TONY IN WEST SIDE STORY!!! and his whole baseball team was like “woah ” (x)

jensen: getting into the industry is harder now that it was back then jdm: i dont even know how to get an agent now jensen: yeah dont ask us for advice  (x)

Question: Jensen, what was your favorite thing about soldier boy? JDM: the codpiece. *crowd laughs* JDM: sorry, I thought you were asking me.  (x)

the boots soldier boy wore on the show are the same ones that dean wore on spn. they’re called carolinas  (x)

jensen: jdm texted me when i was getting fitted and he was immediately like “SHOW ME THE COD PIECE” and i was like “perfect timing i have five of them lined up which one” AND JDM SAID “PICK THE BIGGEST ONE” (x)

fan; nash was amazing. is there hope for touring in the future for radio co? jensen: thanks it took a lot of drugs jdm: he’s not lying  (x)

jensen: touring might be aggressive but anything is on the table  (x)

jdm: i watched it online and i remember texting you being like “what the fuck is going on that was amazing” (x)

jensen looked at steve and said “this is a bad idea we should leave” right before going on bc louden swain KILLED and they didnt wanna follow that  (x)

.@JensenAckles : even tho it was a vengeful mission, John set out to right a wrong. In The Winchesters we wanted to show John before that trauma.  (x)

jensen says the pilot of spn “holds up today”  (x)

fan: whats your fav format to play in (movies, tv, voice acting, etc) jdm; whatever has the best writing. we knew supernatural was going to be good by the first ep (x)

jensen turns towards tv bc he doesnt know where it’ll go and where it will end (x)

jensen: ive done soap operas and that was 20-24 pages of dialogue a day (x)

APPARENTLY ONE TIME JENSEN TAPED JEFF’S DIALOGUE TO HIS CHEST AND HE WAS LIKE “WE GOTTA GET THROUGH THE DAY LOOK AT MY TITS”  (x)

JENSEN TALKING ABOUT FRIENDS AND HE YELLS “PIVOT” (x)

jensen: i heard “anyway you want it” in the car and almost got out before the second chorus hit bc i thought i was late for stage (x)

fan: go to karaoke song? jensen: have u ever done karaoke? jdm: never in my life. i think you asked me once and i said “goodnight 👋🏻 ” jensen: right but it was more like “goodnight 🖕🏻  (x)

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#Jensen Ackles #Jeffrey Dean Morgan #NJCon23 #SPNNJ #Jensen: Panel Highlights #* #I really enjoyed their dynamic #and how supportive of each other they are #it's very genuine

[sara78]

Family Don't End In Blood - Part 10

Summary: Following the events of the previous nights, everyone is keeping themselves on their toes. The Ackles family, plus Y/N and Jared, discuss their further moves. Disagreements arise, but a kind soul breaks out the fight easily and allows things to settle down before talking real game.

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x foster!daughter reader

Word count:3,299 (wow, really?)

Transcription - Y/M/N: Your mother's name ; Y/H/C: Your home country

Warnings: Mentions of abuse (nothing graphic but SKIP IF THIS TRIGGERS YOU), kids are the kindest souls in the universe and you can't prove me otherwise, angst

A/N: Here's a little reward for powering through the week :D

Your nights have been pretty restless through the last few years of your life. The way you would flinch from the slightest sound your ears picked up, the way you curled underneath the blanket and squeezed a pillow to your chest, often burying your face in it as well, trying to quiet down the cries and allow the soft fabric to pick up all of your tears without any judgment, the way you would jump awake from a nightmare, just to get hit and yelled at for waking up others and the way you overall didn't feel safe, did a thing or two to you through the course of years.

Something happened with all of that when you started working on Supernatural. Something changed in the way your body worked. You slept pretty well. Yes, nightmares were still there, but there was no yelling and punching after you woke up from one. Your body felt safe, surrounded by kind people and kids. You slowly but surely started to feel like the old self - able to asleep in any spot at any time. You're pretty sure Jensen, Jared and Misha have a whole album on their phones just with your weird sleeping spots just to tease you, which you didn't mind, as you had just as much material to tease them back.

But this night was restless. For both you and Jensen. Maybe it was the fear of what tomorrow would bring. Maybe it was fear of how are things going to go down. Or it was fear of losing people close to you. No matter the reason, fear was evidently present. You could feel it in the air.

You just laid down next to Jensen and stared at the ceiling with him after you finished getting ready for bed.

He'd strike up a question. You'd do the same. But all the conversations died rather quickly and you'd both return to silence, staring at the ceiling and trying to calm down your racing minds.

Soon enough the night turned into early morning, and everything that was going through your head was pushed aside as you heard a knock on the door,

"Hey," Jared's raspy morning voice spoke up, "Danneel and the kids should be here soon. Wanna come with us to pick 'em up?" you nod, sitting up and yawning, Jensen still laying down, "Did you two sleep any?"

"No," Jensen said as he sat up while you stood up, rubbing sleep out of your eyes, "I'll be ready in a few."

"No hurries," Jared said, "Y/N, wanna come with me to grab breakfast after we pick everyone up from the airport? We're not on set today."

"What?" you asked, visibly confused, "It was supposed to be Mish, you and me on set today. What happened to that?"

"Rich sent me a text and told me we're off the schedule for today and tomorrow. We had the weekend off anyways, so it's just extended now," Misha spoke up from behind, making you sigh,

"I don't want others working overtime because of me. I can work."

"Rich is behind the steering wheel and that's what he decided. Making this show isn't just acting as well," Jared pointed out,

"Besides, you can go ahead and call him, wake him up and make him all grumpy. I'd enjoy that, he loves his beauty sleep," Misha added, making everyone smile.

Crowded places weren't your jam. Maybe because you always had a feeling you weren't safe. You didn't know how many different personalities walked past you and that scared you a bit. Especially because coming from a third-world country, you'd never seen so many people packed somewhere and it was a weird experience, but you'd learned fast enough.

But this time, as you walked through the airport, you kept scanning every single face that had even the slightest of resemblance to her.

You were afraid she was following you. You weren't sure how much does she know and what weapons is she willing to use to get to you and people you love. She's got her way around here and it scares you to hell and back.

And to think that she could pop out from anywhere and hurt anyone who's walking with you and hurt the four people who are about to land sent chills down your spine and kept you on edge with every step you took.

You were at the gate just in time, as Danneel walked up with the kids. While the girls ran to Jensen, Zeppelin had no problem running to you, even though he was on a long flight and you could see how tired he was just by the way he looked at you. But the way he lit up and smiled when his eyes caught glimpse of you made you smile just as wide, seeing how much joy and love can a child's heart hold. He was in your arms within seconds and you felt so relieved to be able to hug him tightly and protect him from whatever might happen.

He's just a little kid.

How can she threaten a child?

You kissed his temple as he curled into your hold and clung to you, not letting go,

"I missed ya, Y/N," he murmured, making you smile and rock him gently,

"I missed you too, big guy," you responded, allowing Jensen to give his buddy a kiss as you waved at the girls. Arrow came up and gave your leg a small hug, while JJ walked past you and went straight to Jared. You sighed, Danneel showing up and giving you a big hug,

"I'm sorry," you whispered and she shook her head, still hugging you,

"There's nothing to be sorry for. We're safe and that's all that matters."

"Let's get going," Misha said, "You must be tired and hungry."

"Y/N and I will go order and bring breakfast home," Jared said, letting JJ down into the backseat and making you sigh as you put Zeppelin in his car seat to which he protested,

"Hey, what's my little guy want for breakfast?" you tried and he pouted, "Buddy, I know you wanna stay with me, but uncle Jared has no kid seats in his car because he's a dummy," Zeppelin giggled, making you smile too, "How about I get y'all a shake?" Arrow squealed in joy in response, Zeppelin nod and JJ kept quiet,

"Birdie, say thank you to Y/N," Jensen said, looking at her as he sat in the drivers seat. She pouted and looked away in the other direction, "Come on birdie."

"Thanks," she murmured, not looking at you. You sighed, looking down for a second and catching a deep breath to stop the tears from spilling.

JJ didn't like you. At all. And that was okay. You didn't expect her to like you. Especially because she's way older than the twins and understands more than they can right now. But you were trying to do as much as you could without overstepping her boundaries and now, when you are this vulnerable, the slightest thing that usually doesn't bother you now seems like the end of the world. And it hurt, plain and simple.

"What's the plan?" you asked, working on strapping the twins safely into their seats as you sniffled,

"We're gonna discuss that on our way back," Jensen sighed, sipping on his coffee, "You don't separate from Jared."

"I won't," you sighed, kissing Zeppelin and Arrow's foreheads before closing the door to the backseat, "Please, talk about every possible option. Even the ones that have me going away," you said and Danneel shook her head as you looked at her,

"You going away is never going to be an option," she said with a smile and you sighed, walking away to Jared's car.

Three hours later

"You guys good?" Jensen asked as you and Jared walked into the apartment an hour and a half later,

"Yeah," you smiled, "Kids asleep?"

"Out like a light," Danneel smiled, "Zeppelin was the last one to fall asleep. He was waiting for you."

"That kid will be the death of me," you smiled, "Breakfast good?"

"Yeah. Yours got cold though," Jensen pointed out, "Everything okay for sure?"

"Yeah," you smiled, "We just needed to clear our heads and get some fresh air."

"I had a moment and she made me stop and do as she said," Jared popped in, "Sorry for not checking in."

"She sent me a text. Knows us all too well," Jensen smiled, ruffling your hair, "Now you two get your asses at the table and eat."

Heavy silence filled the room while you and Jared ate. Jensen was sipping on his fourth coffee of the day and Danneel was sitting right next to him, cuddled up to his side and playing with the fingers of his hand.

Jared was obviously the first one to finish the meal, as he was the human food vacuum. You took a few more minutes before placing your plate and utensils into the dishwasher and turning it on. You returned to the living room, where Jensen and Danneel were on the couch and Jared was on the other couch, facing the two. You took a seat next to Jared and sighed,

"This can't go on anymore," you said, bringing Jensen back from his over thinking and Danneel from her half-asleep daze, "We can't make this work out. We tried, and I love you all for trying, but it's not working. We gotta do something because I don't want either of you being in danger anymore."

"We don't want you being in danger too," Jensen added, making you sigh, "We're gonna make it work."

"How?" you asked, "By keeping Dee and the kids here, imprisoned?"

"No," Jensen shook his head, "It was a bone-headed move to make them come here. I acted out of fear. They're way safer in Texas."

"What makes you think that?" you asked,

"She's wanted for not showing up for trial with Chaos Machine when she attacked you," Danneel explained, "She can't cross the border nor use any of her documents. Unless she makes a new identity, she can't cross the border. She's also here on a travel visa, which expired long time ago."

"She makes connections so deep in the rotten pores of the law it makes me sick. I wouldn't be surprised if she found someone to work with who could get her over the border," you explained,

"Even if she does, it'll take a long time. Kids and I will be safe in Austin. Now, Jensen, honey, you making us come here wasn't a bone-headed move. We need to be together, at least for a few days. Kids and I will stay for a bit and then go back. They still have around a month of school left and you have a lot of filming to do."

"I mean, it's only five weeks. But that might be extended, given all the circumstances," you pointed out and Jensen shook his head,

"We're skyrocketing on the streaming charts. We're doing another season in the fall and two extra episodes this summer. Meaning we don't get off work till mid June."

"When were you gonna tell us that?" Jared spoke up from where he was leaned against the couch, "We doing that good?"

"We still got it, old man," Jensen teased, making everyone giggle,

"He's not old. He just has gray hair that Sarah has to dye over and over again," you pointed out, Jared sitting up and tickling your sides as Jensen and Danneel giggled, "I'm glad we brought the show back."

"We all are," Danneel smiled,

"Nonetheless, my point stil stands. The filming is going to take a while. She has all the time in the world to figure shit out. She's going to find a way to fuck us over, one way or another. I know you don't like this idea at all, but I think that me moving out is the most rational option at the moment."

"No," Jensen shook his head, eyes staring at some point on the carpet, "Not happening."

"Jense, it's for the best. I'm the target and she's using you to get to me. She knows me all too well. If I remove myself from your place, she won't chase after you anymore. We're gonna see each other on set. We have phones too. We can keep in touch, and of course we will. I don't want to cut any contact off. I just want to remove myself physically from you and your families until it's safe for you."

"It's supposed to be about your safety too, not just ours," Jensen said,

"Well my safety had been compromised for a very long time. I can live a bit longer in the danger zone. You, however, don't deserve to suffer because of what's going on between me and her."

"But kid, there's a plot hole," Jared spoke up, "Say you move out. We stay in contact, all cool. But what if she comes to us and asks for your whereabouts?"

"Simple, I won't give you my address. You won't know."

"And you think that us telling her we don't know will be the answer she wants to hear? You think she'd believe us?"

"I… Fuck," you breathed, running a hand over your face,

"I'd tell her to piss off, whether I knew the address or not," Jensen growled,

"None of us would give it up," Jared added, "I see where you're coming from, munchkin. But unfortunately, plot holes exist and she might want to hurt us even if we're don't know anything about your whereabouts. I'm siding with Jensen on this one. It's better to be around familiar people. It helps with your head, right? That's what you told me like an hour ago. There's no reason to sit and suffer in silence."

"I wish I was normal," you whispered, looking down to the floor, "I wish we weren't having this conversation right now. I wish I wasn't the problem."

"You are normal and you aren't the problem," Danneel said, "Sweetie, you're so far from the problem. We all know who the real problem is and we know that in this moment we can't remove it. But what we can do is stay together and keep fighting."

"What if I just met up with her?" you said, Jensen's eyes widening as he looked you in the eye, "I mean, just end it, once and for all?"

"What makes you think she'll listen?" Jensen said, making you roll your eyes,

"You can't just contradict everything I say, Jensen. Especially not when some of the solutions are actually pretty solid."

"I'm not contradicting you because I like to. I'm doing it because I don't want you to be in her vicinity. Ever again. After everything she's done to you, she doesn't get to keep having her way with you."

"Due all respect, you don't even know half of what happened-"

"And that's what scares me!" Jensen exclaimed, "It scares me to hell and back because I don't want you to live like that anymore. I don't want you to jump at every sound your ears pick up, I don't want you waking up from nightmares, drenched in sweat and crying, I don't want you to be afraid of loving and being loved. I want you to be a kid too! And by putting yourself out there, you're doing her a favor. You can't compromise your safety like that. "

"If you wish for a normal kid, why did you want to adopt me in the first place?" you asked,

"I never said I wanted a normal kid. Just a kid that isn't in fight or flight mode all the fucking time."

"Well that's what you get," you said, "You knew what you got yourself into. I've warned you multiple times that I can't be a regular kid. I'm fucked up, very fucked up on many, many levels and I'm sorry I don't meet your expectations."

Jensen abruptly stood up and walked away into his bedroom, Danneel sighing and going after him, which left you with Jared. You buried your face in your palms, trying so hard not to cry.

You got attached.

And you shouldn't have.

"There's no expectations to meet," Jared's voice spoke up as you felt the couch dip down on your right, "We just want to give you a space where you can feel safe and sound. Where you don't have to be afraid. Where you can relax and be yourself without any hesitation. We love you for who you are. We loved you on day one, when we didn't know nothing about you besides how big your appetite is and how much of a joker you are. And we didn't stop loving you when your background unraveled and came into the picture. And we won't stop loving you, no matter what tomorrow brings. You're our kid and nothing can change that. Fuck me, we all have loads of crap on our shoulders and you love us the same way we love you."

"That's different."

"How can that be different?" Jared asked, "There's no difference. There's no measuring whose pile of crap is heavier. There's none of that. We all have our own struggles and we all have an equal right to feel how we feel about them. There's nothing wrong in being scared and nobody here wants you to be someone you're not. You're scared and you're terrified. You can be scared and terrified. Nobody would point any fingers at you because we know what's the reason for it and whilst maybe we don't know the whole story, we know enough to piece it together and understand."

"You are NOT moving out," Jensen growled as he stormed out of his bedroom, Danneel on his tail. His tone took you by surprise and his stance gave you some not so nice flashbacks, resulting in your body flinching in a try to shy away from him,

"Jensen, relax. Nobody's moving out," Jared said, "Let's all take a deep breath and-"

"You don't get to walk out on your family," Jensen kept talking to you, "Not on us. Not on that little kid who loves you more than anything in this world," he began, pointing to Zeppelin's room, "Not on this woman who took you in like you're her own child. Not on Jared who cares for you so deeply. And not on me. You don't get to walk out on me because I want to protect you and keep you safe."

"I'm not asking for protection," you said, standing up, "And I'm not walking out on anyone. I just want to do this right."

"And you think that handing yourself to her is the way to go?!" Jensen asked, making you gulp,

"I don't know!" you exclaimed, "I don't know what's the right thing to do. I want to do something, anything, just to feel like I at least tried."

"Well, we can do something else. Together. But you're not moving out. You're not leaving your family."

"Jensen-"

"No!" he exclaimed, "You are family. To me, to Danneel, to the kids. To the Padalecki, to Misha. So, I'm sorry, but you're not gonna be by yourself as you wallow in self-hate, painful memories and fear. You've had enough crap for the next 10 lifetimes and it scares the shit out of me that you were on your own all this time and it freaks me out that I don't know half of the stuff she fed you with and I don't know if I can help you, but I'm going to be here and you're going to be here and you're staying. You don't get to say you involved us too much already. Because the moment she step foot onto the set, that's when your problem became our problem. She won't hurt you ever again! I'm not gonna let her hurt you again! And I'm not gonna let you destroy yourself and put yourself in danger because-"

"Daddy, stop yelling at Y/N!" Zeppelin's small voice echoed, making everyone go dead silent as they all looked at him in his dinosaur pajamas, holding his blankie in his tiny hands. He walked up to Jensen who had his eyes glued to him, "You tell us we shouldn't yell. Apologize to Y/N."

Everyone was in awe of Zeppelin's words. Such a young child yet so emotionally mature. He turned around and walked up to you and you smiled as you picked him up and sat him on your hip,

"I'm sorry Y/N," Jensen whispered, sitting down,

"It's okay," you said, "If I recall, you have some dinosaurs to be fed?" Zeppelin nod with a smile, "Then we can't keep them waiting any longer or they'll eat us," you smiled, walking away from the living room.

3rd person POV

"That kid is something else," Jared breathed, Danneel grabbing Jensen's hand and bringing him back to sit down at the couch,

"He's right," Jensen whispered, "We teach them not to do that, yet I did the exact same thing I tell them not to do. I didn't want to yell at her."

"People can push our buttons and she's been pushing yours for a long time," Danneel said, "She knows you didn't mean for it to come out that harsh."

"She probably thinks I hate her," he responded,

"Then you talk to her and make sure she understands that you are allowed to have bad days," Jared joined in, "You're human, brother. You can make mistakes. As long as you owe up to them and try better next time, you'll be forgiven. And Y/N is one of the kindest souls I've ever met. She'll have no problem forgiving you. If someone knows what it's like to keep all those feelings bottled up, it's gonna be her. I bet she ain't even mad."

"Jared's right, honey," Danneel cooed, kissing his temple, "He's very right. Just talk to her about it later. Let some time pass. And everything you said is true and we stand by what your point is. She has a good intention, just bad execution."

"I just want everything to be over so that we can adopt her and be a family and just live life without being in fear all the fucking time," Jensen breathed, running his hands through his hair,

"She's got a long road ahead of her, but we're gonna be there to support her no matter what," Danneel smiled softly, squeezing Jensen to her side, "You're so noble, to love her the way you love all three of the other kids. Your heart is so big and so loving. Don't ever forget that."

"I hope I can do enough to make her stay."

"She's not going to leave us," Jared pointed out, "She just has to learn that sometimes she can't do anything about something. And no matter what happens, she's still gonna be the one getting pranked alongside Misha. She's still gonna be our kid, no matter what. You gotta trust her on that."

"I do trust her, of course I do," Jensen breathed, "I just… I'm just scared of the endless possibilities. What if she kidnaps her and brings her back to Y/H/C? She said it herself, Y/M/N is playing this game very dirty. Who knows what she can do to her."

"Some things can't be stopped," Danneel said, "Of course we want to protect her and keep her safe. But some things can't be stopped and we cannot foresee what's gonna happen. She won't be stopped from doing whatever she wants to do to Y/N. I wish we knew and I wish we could act on it but maybe we won't be able to and that's okay too. She's not gonna blame you or anyone else for what her mother does. And we'll be here for her when it's over, to help her heal and give her a place to call home."

"Yeah," Jensen whispered, wrapping his arms around Danneel and hugging her back, "You should get some sleep, honey."

"You should too," she countered,

"I just downed another coffee. It might take a while before I start getting sleepy again."

"It doesn't matter," Danneel pointed out, "Just come lay with me when you calm down your jitters."

"I'll go out, get some food, make some lunch and dinner. Invite Misha over," Jared said, "When I come back everyone in this house better be sleeping," he said, standing up from his seat, walking over to Zeppelin's room, knocking on it softly before getting in and closing the door behind him,

"Sorry to interrupt," he spoke up with a smile, seeing how happy Zeppelin was as he played with Y/N, "I was wondering if you guys have any ideas for lunch and dinner tonight?"

"I'm fine with whatever," Y/N said, shrugging her shoulders,

"I wants pizza!" Zeppelin exclaimed, Y/N and Jared giggling,

"Yeah? How about everyone makes their own pizza tonight? Everyone gets to choose what to put on 'em?"

"Yeah!" Zeppelin exclaimed happily, "Thanks uncle Jare!"

"You're welcome," he smiled, ruffling his hair, "Are you happy because you get to play with Y/N?"

"Yea!" he said with a wide smile, "I love Y/N!"

"I love you too, big guy," Y/N smiled, Jared smiling as well,

"I'll leave you guys to it. You better get some sleep before lunch too. That's an order."

"That's a boring order," Zeppelin said, making you and Jared giggle,

"What do you say, is uncle Jare scary?" Y/N asked and Zeppelin shook his head,

"No. He funny and clumsy and old."

"Well thank you very much," Jared grumbled, "This old man will be going to the grocery store now and leave y'all to feeding the Jurassic Park over there."

"You okay?" Jared asked as he left Zeppelin's room, leaving the door slightly ajar. Jensen was leaning against one of many windows in his apartment, just looking out to the streets,

"Yeah," Jensen breathed, "Sorry for freaking you out earlier."

"Don't apologize," he shook his head, "I was kinda surprised by your abrupt leave though."

"I just..." Jensen shook his head, "I was so pissed at Y/M/N. Still fucking am. I would love to punch something. Preferably her face."

"We would be taking turns for that," Jared sighed, patting Jensen's back, "It's okay. Y/N is playing with Zeppelin, seems to calm her down a little. Give her a little bit of time."

"Yeah, will do," he whispered, "Thanks for being here man."

"It's what brothers do," he smiled, "I'll be heading out. Pineapple pizza for dinner?"

"You want to get your face punched instead?" Jensen asked, making Jared giggle and jokingly run away, "Shoo, old man."

"Your face is old!" Jared exclaimed from the doorway, closing the door behind him.

Jensen took one final glance from the window, scanning the blurry faces on the street. He sighed, walking away and into the room JJ and Arrow shared. He made sure they were nicely tucked in and leaned to give them both a kiss to their cheek before going to the bathroom.

He walked into the bathroom and washed his face. Seeing himself in the mirror scared him a little. The bags under his eyes definitely have their five minutes of glory. He grabbed his toothbrush and brushed his teeth before changing into a pair of shorts and a shirt and walking up to Zeppelin's room.

The door was slightly open and he saw Y/N and Zeppelin sitting on the floor, both of them playing with dinosaurs toys,

"Y/N," Zeppelin spoke up as he kept playing, "Why's daddy scared?"

"Uh, you remember that monster you dreamt of a while back?" Y/N asked and he nod, "Yeah, remember how I said I have dreams with monsters too?" Zeppelin nod again, "Dad is scared of some monsters of his own."

"He had a bad dream?" Zeppelin asked, looking at Y/N and stopping with playing, "But you told me daddy will protect us."

"He will, of course he will," Y/N smiled, "But daddy can be scared too. And he will still protect us, no matter what."

"He yelled at you," Zeppelin looked down, poking at one of his dinosaurs toys, "Is he mad at you?"

"Probably," Y/N sighed,

"Why?" he asked,

"I make mistakes. I've been making a lot of those recently."

"Like JJ?" he asked and she smiled,

"Sorta."

"But JJ doesn't talk to mommy and daddy when they're mad at her, or when she's mad at 'em. You talk to daddy. Why's he still mad at you then?"

"Just because we talk doesn't mean he's not mad at me. He's scared too. You remember how you reacted when you saw the monster in your dream?" Zeppelin nod, looking down in shame, "Hey, bubba, lookie at me," she tried, crawling over to him and picking him up and sitting him in her lap, "I'm not saying this to tease you. I'm trying to tell you that everyone reacts some way when they're scared."

"So, daddy yelled because he's scared?" Zeppelin asked and Y/N nod,

"Partly, yes. That's right bubba."

"Can we help him not to be scared anymore?" he asked and she smiled,

"I think this is just one of his bad days."

"So what do we do?"

"We remind him of how much we love him and give him an extra tight hug," Y/N said, Zeppelin nodding,

"Okay. Can I do it now?"

"I think dad's asleep. But you can totally do it when he wakes up. Now, I've got a little something for you..." Y/N said, reaching under the bed and grabbing a new Lego set of a monster truck and showing it to Zepp, which resulted in a squirm and a jump right on her,

"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" he exclaimed, clinging to her. She smiled, hugging him and kissing his temple,

"You're welcome, you're welcome, you're welcome!" she responded, allowing Zeppelin to settle into her lap with a yawn, "You tired, big guy?" he nod, looking up to her, "I think it's time for a little nap. I'll wake you up for lunch and then we can start building this together. Maybe dad or uncle Jared would join us too."

"But I wanna play with you now," he said with a sad face,

"I know you want to but if we start making this truck now, I'm afraid we might get some sort of an animal instead of a truck since we haven't rested well. And also, mom said you can stay for a few days so we have plenty of time to play. And we don't want to be cranky like old man uncle Jared," she teased, making Zeppelin giggle, "Come on now, you can go ahead and pick a book you want me to read you as a nap-time story."

"I haven't heard of nap-time stories," he said,

"That's probably cuz I just made it up," you giggled, kissing the top of his head, "Go on sweetheart, pick a book. Then we can transfer the Jurassic park over on the shelf and read. Sounds good?"

"Yea!" Zeppelin exclaimed, standing up and going for the book shelf.

As Y/N stood up she saw Jensen on the doorway. He just smiled at her and nod, and she did the same. He leaned against the doorframe and watched as Zeppelin helped her bring the toys on the shelf and then watched him lie down and drift off quickly, as Y/N read him the book he picked.

As she finished, she tucked Zeppelin in and stood up quietly, picking up her bedding and walking up to the doorway where Jensen stood,

"Everything okay?" she asked,

"Yeah," Jensen nod with a smile, "Thanks for taking care of him."

"No problem," she smiled,

"You should sleep some, kiddo," he then said, making her roll her eyes, "Come on. You haven't slept any. You gotta rest some."

"I have to catch up with math that I missed last night. I don't have time for sleep right now."

"Do I need to read you a nap-time story to make you go to bed?" Jensen inclined, making Y/N smile,

"How much did you eavesdrop, old man?" she teased, making Jensen smile

"Enough to know of nap-time stories. And that Jared's the old man and not me," he smirked, "Come on sweetheart. Lunch won't be for another two hours minimum. You have a bunch of time after kids go to sleep to catch up with your math. Please?"

"Are you gonna get some sleep too?" she asked and he sighed, nodding,

"Promised Dee."

"I don't feel tired at all but okay, I'll try to," she sighed, "I'll sleep on the couch. That okay?"

"Yeah," Jensen nod, "One last question," he said as Y/N opened the door to Zeppelin's room, "You okay?" she smiled, nodding,

"Yeah. Go get some rest Jens. You need it," she said, closing the door to Zeppelin's room, going for the couch. Jensen waited for her to get comfy before approaching to tuck her in, making her giggle, "Dude, I'm not five."

"You're my kiddo, whether you're five, seventeen or seventy seven. Sleep tight," he smiled, kissing the top of her head before walking away to his room. He quietly walked over to his bed, laying down and facing Danneel's asleep form,

"Glad you came," she whispered, not opening her eyes but instead opening her arms for him, "Y/N and Zepp asleep?"

"Yup. Figured I'd come nap with my super hot wife," Jensen teased, seeing Danneel's eyes roll under the eyelids,

"You ain't getting anywhere with that. C'mere," she said, opening her arms for him, ". "You are long overdue for a cuddle. I missed you."

"I missed you too," he whispered as he cuddled up to her chest, "I love you."

"Love you too."

Your POV

"That is physics," Jensen spoke up and you giggled, shaking your head,

"Math."

"Whats arrows over letters doing in math?!" he exclaimed,

"Vectors," you smiled, "Everyone asleep?"

"Yep. I'd be surprised if they weren't," Jensen said as he sat down on the bar stool next to you, "Done with school for the day?"

"Yeah. You headed to bed too?"

"I wanted to talk about today with you before I go hear Danneel snoring in my ear."

"You're the one snoring, idiot," Danneel called out as she walked out of the bathroom, "How was school today?" she asked as she came up to you,

"Good. I have a physics test next week."

"Oh, that doesn't sound very pleasing," she said, making everyone giggle, "Okay. Both of you, don't stay up too late. Night Y/N," she smiled as she hugged you softly and you returned it,

"Night mom."

Jensen kept quiet at the way you called Danneel, but you swore something shined in his eyes, but something shattered as well. Maybe you shouldn't have said it.

"So, what did you wanna talk about?"

"I'm sorry for losing my temper earlier today. Zeppelin is right. I teach them not to yell yet I do exactly that."

"Jense, I know you didn't mean for it to come out that loud. I'm not mad at you. I was pissing you off for as long as we know each other. It was bound to happen and I know that."

"But you flinched," he said and you sighed, looking down, "I saw it."

"I just sometimes get scared. That's all."

"I should have watched my tone. I'm sorry."

"And I shouldn't have pushed your buttons. I'm the one who's supposed to apologize. I've been treating you like shit and you don't deserve it at all."

"It's okay. Have you thought a bit into the whole situation? Or do you need some time?" he asked and you sighed, nodding,

Uncle Jared's right. I just… don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared of her, I'm scared for your safety, for everyone's safety, yet I don't want anyone to suffer because of me. It's so complicated."

"Yet very simple," Jensen said, "You stay with us. We finish filming, go to Texas, stay the summer there. I was thinking we could go for a little vacation somewhere. We come back to Vancouver and keep filming in November. You'll be in your third year of high-school and you'll do great."

"And what if something comes up? What if she does something?"

"Then we deal with it when it comes. We can't live in fear, kiddo. We can't live like this, afraid of taking a step. We're gonna be extra cautious, of course, but we can't lock ourselves in and do nothing. We gotta keep living as normal as we can, given the circumstances."

"You think she's not gonna do anything?" you asked, biting on your lip,

"I don't know what she thinks and what she plans to do. What I know is that we're all gonna try to protect each other. And that's all that matters. Besides, she can't keep this up for that long. She's gonna fuck up and set herself to be caught. It's just a matter of time."

"I have such a bad feeling about this all," you said, "I don't want her to be here anymore. How come she isn't arrested?"

"She's definitely hiding well. And with her connections with CPS, she's gotta have some in the federal department too. You said it yourself."

"She's gonna do something big. It's only a matter of time," you said, "She always does something big when shit doesn't go her way. She always makes some big problems."

"And we can't stop her from that. But we can make sure to act properly when it happens and stay close. It's the one thing we gotta do. We gotta stay together. She can't get through any of us when we're together. It's what she doesn't understand and doesn't know. She's powerless when we're together."

"She's never had anyone to have her back," you said, "She thinks her mom has her back but she's just using her. She always told me that I don't need any friends, that I'm better off on my own. That nobody needs friends. She thinks she's doing just fine without any friends and she tried to make me have no friends either."

"I see how well the no friends situation is coming down for her," Jensen sassed, making you giggle, "It doesn't matter. It's her life, she can screw it however she wants to. Only thing we won't let her do is screw you again."

"Yeah. But just because she doesn't understand how strong we are doesn't mean she won't try to do anything and everything to break me apart. And now you too. You understand what you're getting yourself into, right? I don't want you to get hurt, Jensen. Not you, not anyone. This is on me. If something happens to you-"

"What I've gotten myself into is a relationship with this wonderful kiddo who's got heart bigger than the sun. This kiddo who loves without limits, who cares and feels deeply, the kid who can smile, sing and joke around. You're a wonderful person and just because you have shitty baggage doesn't mean you're a bad person. Especially because you can't do anything to ship off the shitty baggage."

"Sorry for all of this," you whispered, looking down, "Sorry for being an ass to you. You didn't deserve any of it."

"It's true. I didn't deserve any of it," Jensen agreed, "But I understand that you're having a hard time with coming to grounds about things such as having a supportive family. You're still in that flight or fight mode you've been in for years and I also know you're stubborn as hell. I'm not mad at you and you're not making any mistakes or doing anything that would make me mad. You're just living the way you lived back in Y/H/C. And yes, you don't have to live like that anymore, but it's gonna take time for you to let go of old habits."

"I... I always got beaten up after an argument," you said with a sad smile as you looked at Jensen, "When something like this today came down, she'd beat me while I was sleeping. Wake me up in the process. Leave me crying quietly, sometimes beat me up again because I was crying, even though I was quiet. That's why I flinched today."

"I might lose my temper and raise my voice but I'm never, ever going to hit you. We're gonna talk it out. Whatever it is, no matter how difficult it is or how stressful it is, we're gonna talk it out. Just like we're doing now."

"Thanks for treating me like a human," you then said, smiling, "Even though you don't agree with my opinions, you still listened."

"You're always gonna be my kiddo but that doesn't mean that you're gonna be treated as a five year old when something important is being discussed. You are entitled to your own opinion and that's completely normal."

"Thanks. And sorry for being an ass. I'll try to do better in the future."

"And that's all I'm asking," he smiled at you, standing up from his stool and walking up to you to hug you, "To try."

"You're a sap," you teased, hugging him back,

"I know, Dean doesn't approve. Now, where are you sleeping?"

"I thought to sleep here, on the couch. I've stayed up for my classes anyway so-"

"Daddy," a small voice called, making Jensen turn around as you both looked in the direction where the sound came from, "I-I had a nightmare," Arrow hiccuped, approaching you two. Jensen frowned, meeting her halfway and picking her up,

"Yeah baby girl? You wanna stay with me and Y/N for a while?" she nod, leaning her head against Jensen's shoulder as he began swaying her,

"What was it about Ro?" you asked, "If you're comfortable with talking about it," she shook her head and you frowned, "That's okay. What can we do to help you feel better?"

"Sing," she whispered, ever so gently, "Y/N, sing."

"Me?" you said, surprised at the request. She just nod, Jensen nodding you to sit on the sofa with them. You followed his cue, sitting on the sofa with Jensen, Arrow still in his arms.

You began softly singing, getting Arrows full attention as she looked at you, her head leaned against Jensen's shoulder. You kept singing songs that came to your mind, basically anything on your first language that had a soft tune to it.

It didn't take her long to fall asleep, soundly held in her dad's embrace. You smiled, leaning to kiss the top of her head, Jensen' halfway asleep as well,

"I would never figure out why you hid that angelic voice from us," he said, ruffling your hair. You rolled your eyes, grabbing the blanket and throwing it over him and Arrow,

"Sleep here with her," you said, "I'll go finish something for school and then-"

"No," Jensen shook his head, grabbing your hand gently, "You lay down with us too. Cuddle puddle."

"Jense-"

"No arguments," he breathed, "We're too tired. Let's just sleep. Come on," you sighed, knowing you're not gonna win this argument. You laid down, Jensen throwing another blanket over you and giving you your pillows, "Expect the other two to be all over us in the morning. I am not responsible if any of your kidneys decide to go on a walk when they jump on us," he said, making you giggle,

"Don't worry. My little cousin back in Y/H/C did that all the time to me. I'm trained well."

"Yeah, I can tell," he smiled, "Night, Y/N."

"Night Jens."

A/N 2: Thanks for reading! And, @crasmuna, you are so fucking far away so I can't hug you, so this will have to do <3

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[brightlilith]

IN ANOTHER UNIVERSE... – Masterlist

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Fem!Reader, Jensen Ackles x Reader

Request: Yes | No

Warming: None

a/n: DC x Supernatural crossover, Supernatural is a series in the DC universe and Supergirl is a series on Supernatural

a/n²: The reader is the daughter of Supercorp (Lena x Kara)

Important notices: Jensen is single out of respect for Danneel, she deserves all the love in the world, Danneel and the Reader are best friends along with Genevieve, we will see this trio of friendship. NO HATERING DANNEEL! RIGHT?!

<3

series summary: For the first time, Dean allowed himself to be genuinely happy.

0. Prologue

1. Dreams (Coming up...)

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[writethelifeyouwant]

Vices | Masterlist

Summary: Beau, an alpha, has always planned to keep his omega daughter with him at home. As her parent, he legally holds her contract until he decides to trade or sell her, but since her mom is gone now, Beau’s happy to keep his little omega all to himself. The alpha has his vices though, like any other man, and when a pretty woman crosses his path with tequila and a pack of cards, Beau gets himself and his omega into a whole lotta trouble.

Pairing: Beau Arlen x Daughter!Reader / Anael x Reader Rating: 18+

Warnings:  incest (father/daughter), slave society, references to past underage Tags:  Crossover, Supernatural / Big Sky Crossover, Omegaverse, Alpha!Beau, Omega!Reader, Daughter!Reader, Alpha!Anael, Dominatrix!Anael, Female Alphas have Dicks, Futa!Anael, Hurt/Comfort, Heat, Scenting, Marking (Hickies), Nipple Play, Fingering, Unprotected Sex, Knotting, Dirty Talk, Daddy Kink, Small bit of Ass Play, Doggy-Style, Kitchen Sex, Reverse Cowgirl, Light Food Play, Gambling, Drinking, BDSM Play, Bondage, Gags, Light Breathplay, Mommy Kink, Fingering, Squirting, Multiple Orgasms Bingos: @j3bingo @anyfandomdarkbingo @anyfandomkinkbingo

Word Count: 13.7k Created for: This fic is a commission for the lovely @unfortunate-brat ❤️ the danneel shipping queen ❤️

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[sapphyreopal5]

So I've seen some posts here in the anti blogs regarding black magic, Akashic Records, things like that and wanted to share some insight I've gained on this tidbit. I realize this might not be in everyone's wheel house at first glance but I thought I'd write about this anyways. I do a lot of divination work using a pendulum and ABC chart, which is how I learned about this and connected the dots with other tidbits of info I've gathered from divination and also online.

I'm sure a lot of you here are aware of what happened with the Rust shooting a couple years ago. I'm also sure some of you know that Jensen made a remark regarding the film Brokeback Mountain and how this movie ruined Wild Western films for him [x]. Now you may be wondering "how are these 2 'unrelated' incidents related"? According to his Akashic Records (aka both Divine Blueprints and Divine Plans), a certain someone's astral body made a tamper in his divine blueprints back in the summer of 2002 that makes these 2 incidents 100% related as I'll explain later.

This person's astral body who is his wife created this tamper and had it to where Jensen was going to die on the set of Rust. It turns out that if someone hits "Enter" while hacking the computer in Gehanna/Cloud Nine that has limited access to the Akashic Records, a lot of things have to be done to "undo" a tamper, or what was not supposed to happen to someone. All magic does is enforce what is in the Akashic Records and essentially is the reason behind why everything works the way it does. Black magic is essentially the enforcement of the magical user's astral self trying to eliminate their own unpleasant events in their divine plans, and at the same time placing a bad event in someone else's divine blueprints. As Arthur C. Clarke once said, "Magic's just science that we don't understand yet".

Apparently, when Jensen made the comment about not wanting to do cowboy movies because of Brokeback Mountain when a fan asked him if he'd ever make a cowboy movie, one of his higher selves (yes people can have more than one) was telling him "I am Hermes, one of your higher selves. I've come to warn you to not pursue any wild west movie roles, as there is a tamper in your divine blueprints [Akashic Records], where you die on the set of a wild west movie called Rust from a mysteriously loaded prop gun going off while being pointed at you and being fired off camera. The same person who made this tamper in your blueprints will prove to be unsupportive in your time of need but should be the most supportive [your wife], should you end up auditioning for this role and end up walking away from this set alive."

So, what was done to make it, so Jensen dodged this bullet and his life spared? A man I went to school with who looked similar to Jensen (same brown hair, green eyes, skin color and skin tone, but was shorter than Jensen) yet behaved and dressed just like Dean Winchester was killed 9 years ago by freak accident while cleaning his own gun; this was coincidentally 2 days after I started to date my son's dad in February 2014. 2 nights before he passed away/when my son's dad and I started dating, I had a feeling something big was set in motion and it would become clear to me very soon what that is. I oddly enough had a big crush on this guy in middle school but this didn't pan out for multiple reasons. Also, it turns out that Dean didn't marry Ellen's daughter Jo on a divine blueprints level. It was also set up to where Danneel played Sister Jo, who Jensen is coincidentally married to. This served as a hint of whose astral body made this tamper in Jensen's blueprints to begin with. It also turns out that one of the last things that had to be done in order to spare Jensen's life was to make it so Dean Winchester died... by being impaled in the back by backing into a rusty nail. Strange way to die by the way, don't you think?

I do hope Halyna and that man are both resting in peace. On a very strange note, Halyna's death happened on October 21, 2021 occurred 2 days before my birthday, which is on October 23. Apparently Jensen does have an important job to complete and needs to be alive in order to finish it afterall.

#jensen ackles #akashic records #divine blueprints #divine plan #god's plan #divination #anti danneel #black magic #psychic #supernatural #spn

[mlovesstories]

Feelings And Phone Calls

@youngjusticeimaginesus Hi, I was wondering if you could do a Jensen x daughter!reader oneshot where he finds out the her bio mother passed away and when he tells her she breaks down into tears even though shes not sure why cause they were never very close. But nonetheless he comforts her and validates her. And him and Danneel were getting ready for a date but both decide not to go and instead stay and watch movies with their daughter?

Words: none. 

Warnings: death, emotions 

Jensen hung up the phone with a blank look on his face.  Daneel searched his stare for emotion.  

“What’s wrong?” 

Seeing that he was unable to form sentences, she guided him from their closet where they were picking out their clothes for the day onto a couch in their room.  

“Hey, talk to me.” She remained in his line of vision. 

“Umm,” he collected his thoughts. “YN’s mom passed away.” 

“Wait, what?” Daneel gasped.  Although they weren’t the best of friends, Danneel had an amicable relationship with her step-daughter’s mother.  Now she is gone. 

“What? How? Huh?” Danneel was now short for words, herself.

“I need a minute.” Jensen stood quickly and walked out of the room.  Danneel was left with no information and no way to help her husband.  A few minutes later, Danneel was in the kitchen when he walked back into the house.  She saw dried tears on his face.  He stopped a few feet from her. 

“She was killed in a car accident today.  They want me to come identify her body.” 

“Oh, Jensen!” Danneel ran to him and wrapped herself around him, making herself as big as she could, even though he was much taller than his wife.  

“Yeah.  Look, I need to go so that they can get the process started, however all this works.  YN should be home from practice in a few hours, so don’t say anything yet.”

“Absolutely.  Do you need me to go with you?” 

“No.  Thank you.” He kissed her head and cleared his throat.  “I’ll be back.” 

Jensen got through the process as quickly as possible, identifying his daughter’s mother and leaving the building before he had time to realize what he was doing. He arrived home, going through the motions, realizing he didn’t know how he got back to his own house.  Jensen checked his phone when he heard it ding once he parked in the driveway.  

Danneel

She’s home. 

Jensen

Okay. :( 

“Hey, princess.” Jensen hugged his daughter when he entered the kitchen.  

“Hey, Da-” When she looked up at his face, she stopped.  “What’s wrong?” 

“Honey,” Jensen took her hand and guided her to a chair at the table.  “I got a call about your mom.” 

“I just saw her for my weekend visit?  What’s up?” 

“I got a call from the city.  She was in a car accident.” 

“Uhhh…” YN rang her hands. 

“She didn’t make it, baby.” 

“You’re lying!” She shrieked at her father and pushed him away.  Stomping up the stairs, Jensen watched her go out of view.  

“I’m sorry about our date night, but I can’t leave her.” Jensen searched out his wife on the bottom floor of the house.  

“We are absolutely NOT going out tonight on our date.  She needs us, no need to apologize.” 

Jensen made his way to YN’s room.

“Honey?” He knocked and opened the door.  

“I’m okay.” She was huddled in the corner of her bed with her comfort items in her arms.  

“It's okay if you’re not.  Let’s not worry about that right now though.  Would you like me to hold you?” 

YN started crying for a second time, as evident by her red, swollen eyes.  Climbing into his lap as he sat on her bed, she nodded.  

“Come here.” Jensen cradled her as she shook.  

Keep it together, Jensen.  Keep it together, he told himself.  

“Dee and I are right here, you aren’t alone, kiddo.” He kissed the part in her hair as she continued to sob.  

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[luci-in-trenchcoats]

Hello! I don’t think my previous ask went through, anyway I was wondering if you write Jensen x foster daughter reader where Danneel lost her credit card and thought reader stole it but turns out it was one of the trio that took it? I will ask both anonymously and normally in case tumblr does not work again. Thank you!

Hi there! I’m pretty sure that’s in the A Place To Call Home Adoption Day timestamp!

[thefemalestorywriter]

Jensen Ackles Masterlist

Imagines

Oneshots

Mini-Series

Series

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[moosekateer13]

To Learn Her

This is an alt ending to my mini-series Undo it

Jensen x reader

Warnings: Fluff, Angst

Summary: After the discovery of a long-lost daughter Jensen and his wife Danneel divorce. It was just too much for her to handle. Now a year later his high school love Y/N and are back together. No longer the awkward immature teenagers they once were. Can they make it work this time?

Inspired by Miranda Lambert's To Learn Her

To love her is to learn her

Ackles' Backyard

To say this past year has been a bumpy road is an understatement.

Mine and my daughter's life got flipped upside down from one brief run in at the grocery store. 

Now I am here at my daughter's wedding with someone by my side that I thought would never be again.

"Okay sweetheart I'll see you later go walk Avalyn down the aisle. I'll see you after the ceremony."my fiancee said before placing a kiss on my forehead.

" Are you sure you don't want to walk her with me Jensen?" Ava asked.

“I don't think it's my place, Ava.” Jensen replied.

Ava heads to the bathroom, not wanting to discuss it further. I know she was disappointed, but he's right.

He looks over at me.

"It's not my place Tonia, you raised her. She hardly knows me. Ava surprised me last week and started calling me dad. That's a big step for us." Jensen replied. With that, he walks out of the room.

I wonder what's taking her so long. Jensen comes back bursting through the door.

"Lavender if you really are sure you want to take that big step. I'll be happy to walk with you and your mom." Jensen said with unshed tears of happiness in his eyes.

"I am sure dad," Ava said

He hugs her tightly as a silent thank you. It's a quick hug but filled with so much emotion.

I feel a tear slide down my cheek, which Jensen promptly wipes away with the handkerchief in his pocket.

Eventually, it's time to go so flank our daughter on each side to walk her down the aisle to her fiancee Jeremy.

Our backyard looks extra stunning decorated in purple and gold.

The vows are simple but beautiful. She's got a way with words. I guess she takes after me.

Our friends and family are here today. That includes her half-siblings, the Padaleckis and Collins. Absent, of course, is Danneel. It is definitely not the right place for her to be.

Ava looks stunning in that simple white a-line dress and the classic veil. The veil is an heirloom from my side of the family.  I am so proud to be her mother she accomplished so much at such a young age. Ava has her own doctor's office.

I steady my nerves as Jensen and I make our way to the stage. We have a little surprise for her first dance. Jensen and I are going to cover Miranda Lambert's to Learn Her. Him and I used to sing together all the time in high school. Never did I think we'd be together again but the universe clearly had other plans in store for us.

We've grown a lot since our time apart. It wasn't the right time for us back then but now it is and I can't wait to be his wife. I briefly run my thumb along my engagement ring. Jensen and I exchange a small smile.

My Y/E/C lock onto his emerald ones as we sing the last verse.

To love her is to lose her

Hey, that's just how it works

To love her is to learn her

Some things you just can't learn

Oh, to love her is to learn her

Some things you just can't learn

#to learn her #jensen ackles x reader #moosekateer 13 #supernatural fanfiction #fluff #angst

[amberjazmyn]

never asking for it

𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - never asking for it

𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - mention but no details of rape, swearing, blood, crying 

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - jared's teenage daughter, jules (juliannah) was such a careful girl that when she finally told her father and uncle jensen the event that happened at her best friend's party, both men were absolutely heartbroken. they couldn't understand the reasoning as to why someone would do that, not just to jules but to anyone. 

𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - this is an imagine that was already previously written for a previous book so, please enjoy but do read with caution please as it is such a heavy imagine. 

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you never imagine it happening to you because you always think you're being so careful. you make sure you're being careful because you don't want to become one of those statistics that are always talked about on the news. however, you don't imagine it happening to you until that very thing happens to you.

juliannah (jules) padalecki was in the utmost pain, terror, shock and disbelief. she didn't want to believe that the unbelievable happened to her so she just pretended and forced herself to tell everyone as well as herself that nothing happened to her and that she was fine.

the seventeen-year-old girl told herself that she was crying for absolutely no reason and that the blood all over her white dress was her own fault because she wasn't being "careful enough". she wiped her face from the blood and tears, scrubbing her skin so hard that her skin was turning red because she was scrubbing and washing herself harshly trying to rid herself of the blood and that feeling of disgust of the man, the boy, who had done this to her. slipping her father's texas football jersey over her white dress, winching as she did so since she was still in so much pain, that she had placed in her handbag and slithered out of the house where the party was hosted and into her car so she could drive herself home. for she couldn't bear the thought of staying in that house any longer after the events that she had just gone through mere minutes earlier.

juliannah arrived home less than an hour later and slithered into her family home. her parents, jared and genevieve and her uncle and aunty, jensen and danneel all sitting on the couch in the living room watching a movie on netflix. however, it seemed as though they were all staying awake to wait for the eldest padalecki kid to return back from the party they gave her the permission to go to due to her straight-a grades for her first semester of senior year.

saying her hellos to mom, dad, uncle jensen and aunty danneel were quick and snappy as she then rushed up to her bedroom. however, mom, jensen and danneel just thought it was because she was tired and wanted to get changed out of her party clothes. jared was the only one who noticed that she had his texan football jersey over the top of her white dress as though she was trying to hide something from them. the only time jared has started to realise that jules would wear his old texan jersey was when she was upset, missing dad or feeling unsafe. and, that scared jared that his daughter was wearing it after coming back from a party that he thought she would have come home later from. so, it shocked him even more so that she had come home a lot earlier than he was told she would have. it wasn't anywhere near midnight, ten twenty pm to be specfic, was the time that jules had come home and walked through the front door. so, jared had a lot of questions for his daughter however, he knew that she was probably wanting a shower and to get into some track pants and take off her dress.

but, no matter how hard jules tried to hide this dirty secret of hers, it was obvious to her father that something wasn't right and he needed to investigate what was going on with his daughter. he needed to know what was wrong with his daughter because, whilst she thought she had washed all the blood off, she really hadn't and, unfortunately, dad had noticed some dried blood on his daughter's arms and legs which weren't covered by his jersey and in places that shouldn't have been bloody.

jared's pov 

tilting my head, i couldn't help but worry about jules, my wife and i's eldest daughter. something wasn't right about her after she had come home early three nights ago from her best friend's party. and, i knew she was refusing to acknowledge it. purely for the fact that she was most likely trying to protect herself from more harm and not being believed.

however, it truly killed me inside to think that someone could have intentionally hurt my daughter and nothing i could have done could have helped her. it truly scares me even more so when i noticed the dried blood on her arms and legs which weren't covered by the texas jersey i had given to her as a hand me down as well as other places that shouldn't have been bloody. it was obvious she had gotten hurt but, how badly and where i had absolutely no clue because of the jersey. but, in my opinion, i don't think i wanted to see what she looked like underneath the jersey and underneath the dress. otherwise, she wouldn't have felt the need to hide it from me, mom, uncle jensen and aunty danneel.

"...daddy, you alright?" i jump slightly as i see jules in front of me, her signature padalecki smile on her face

"hey...hey baby girl! i'm fine jules, why are you asking?" i scoff slightly, in a little bit of shock as she smiles again, sitting down next to me as she still wore the texas jersey, now becoming a common staple in her outfits

"you just looked...i don't know...like you had seen a ghost. dad, are you sure you're okay?" jules asked again with a small smile, playing with my hands as i turned the question onto her

"are you okay, juliannah?" i said, a tinge of anger in my voice as i say jules' full name as she looked at me with a hint of fear before completely changing her facial expression and body language

"of...of course i'm okay daddy, why wouldn't i be?" jules responded as if i was being accusatory as i groaned, my hands rubbing at my face, jules' hands falling into her lap

"bloody hell, jules...you're not hiding it as well as you think you are darlin'!" i raise my voice slightly which makes jules freeze as she just stops moving entirely which worries me even more

"what...what do you mean, dad?"" jules gulps as i narrow my eyes down towards the lower half of her body, more specifically her legs as it seemed as though she had changed out of her sweatpants

"juliannah, my darling'....just....just look at yourself. you've been so alert since tuesday and you're so worried about everything..." i trailed off as i watch jules' facial expressions

"...for christ sake, you yelled at odette after she tried to hug you when we had accidentally woke her up tuesday evening. what's happened, sweetheart? you know you can always tell me anything and you'll never get into trouble..." i pleaded, whispering for my daughter to let her guard down as it slowly started to

her breathing became quicker and it broke my heart as she slowly started to become distressed. tears start to well in her eyes as i gulp. knowing that what my daughter is about to tell me something real bad, i knew i had to prepare myself as i watched my daughter try to figure out how she was going to tell me. tell me in a way that didn't make it seem bad or maybe in a way that felt less complex.

"i...daddy...i...well...okay..." she tried but none of her words came out properly so jules took in a deep breath after i gestured to remind her to breathe

then, she tried again, "...at the party...i...was...i was with my friends...i was with taliah and yasmine...i don't remember where breanna went since i don't think i actually ended up ever seeing her and i...i was at the bar with taliah and yasmine and....then....a drunk guy came over to me....and he...forced...forced me to come with him after i told him no, to go away and that i had a boyfriend but he just didn't go away...." jules started to panic as i slid off the couch and kneeled in front of her after asking for her permission if i could hold her hands

giving me permission to hold her hands, i held her hands tightly and nodded my head, gesturing for her to continue, "....after that he...he got really agressive and he...he ra...raped me dad...he to...touched me when he knew i didn't want it...he hur...he hurt me real bad...and no...and no one heard me when i screamed asking for help...the music was so loud and i...i eventually escaped and took a shower...after that i....i just didn't bother drying myself off i just...i slipped on the football jersey and drove home..." jules finished explaining as my heart just broke

my daughter was raped and touched all because she told a guy she already had a boyfriend and that no, she didn't want his advantages on her. and that's how she gets treated. she gets violated all because she said no. after getting permission by jules, i pulled her in for a hug and i held her tightly because i couldn't do that. because last night i couldn't be there to protect her from that disgusting, pathetic person.

three nights ago | jules' pov

i was dressed in a gorgeous short white dress that tied off at the back but still showed my back off. a physical thing of mine that i loved of myself and a detail i loved about the dress. i always loved showing off my back and my legs, hence why i decided to show off a bit of leg and wear the dress that was short, white and flowy. i was wearing heels that my mom, genevieve had brought for me, a simple makeup look and some rings, necklaces and braclets to accessorise with.

the only thing "crazy" about my outfit was the colour of my lipstick that i chose, everything else about my outfit was white and neutral coloured to fit the outfit choice for tonight for the party. and, you know what, i was proud of myself for this choice of what i was wearing and, even my parents loved it. they had let me go to this senior high school party because of my straight-a grades at school and because i was taking the majority of the babysitting jobs for my three younger siblings and cousins who were the kids of my uncle jensen and aunty danneel. so, obviously, that meant that my parents couldn't go and neither could uncle jensen and aunty danneel. so, they all stayed back at our house to take care of the six kidlets whilst i went out and partied with some of my senior class high school friends.

even though i was going out on my own to the party and meeting all my friends there since i had my license and my own car, my parents had a lot of trust in me because of how responsible i was on my own. and because he knew that when i wasn't on private property that wasn't ours or uncle jensen and aunty danneel's house, i'd never drink alcohol or do anything inappropriate. so even though i was without my parents for this one night, they had a lot of trust in me that i was going to stay safe and that i was only going to stay with the people who i knew more than just their name or the fact that they were attractive. and that, because i was driving, that again, i would not be partaking in any underage drinking.

the minute i walked into the party and tried to find my best friends, taliah, breeana and yasmine, i immediately noticed a young boy. well, he wasn't young but he was probably around the same age or a couple years older than me and my girlfriends. however, the more i looked at him, the more i realised that he was staring and keeping an eye on me, like a real close eye on me. which, not going to lie, of course, freaked me out as, who just stares at someone as soon as they enter a party? most especially if it was a high school party but, i just tried to look past it and ignore it because, it wasn't going to ruin my night. i was going to find taliah, breeana and yasmine and, i doubt he'll do anything. especially when it's considered that he was kissing...well, more so eating, the face off of the girl that he was with right now. so, i hoped that that was going to keep him occupied for the rest of the night or at least for the time that i'm at this party for.

i then just made my way up to the makeshift bar where i managed to find two of my three friends, taliah and yasmine, sitting at the bar and smiling as they noticed me.

"...hey, jules! come join us over here!" taliah calls out as i relax knowing that i would be safe with taliah and yasmine

"hey taliah, hey yas! i was looking everywhere for y'all!" i sighed as i sat in the seat that was empty in the middle of the two of them as i wrapped my arms around the both of them

"hey girly! sorry we didn't text you letting you know where we were, we just found our way here after not knowing where else we could go as a meeting spot!" yasmine apologised as i waved my hand at her, not needing an apology as i did end up finding them

"don't apologise, yas, i found you didn't i?" i giggled as yas and taliah nodded and weren't able to argue with my point so we just stayed here together for a little longer

staying close to taliah and yasmine was the best idea as we just sat and chatted more about everything we had done over the weekend as it had been around two weeks since the last we had been in contact. being this close to the "bar" and with a couple of friends was something i always did when i went out somewhere to meet friends, a safety thing mom, dad, uncle jensen and aunty danneel had taught me as i grew up. due to how common sexual assault, harrassment and the other things are, especially when you're out alone and waiting for friends.

then, out of nowhere, taliah, yasmine and i suggested that we'd stray away but not too far away from the bar so we could dance a little bit. so, the last few hours we spent dancing whilst staying sober as i wasn't at my house or at uncle jensen's and i also made sure to update dad every few minutes just to let him know i was still safe and that i'd be ringing him at nine thirty pm as i had promised him. as, at one point, during the night i'd call him to check in with him.

after that nine thirty call, that was the last time i heard from him after we hung up, telling each other we loved each other and i placed my phone back into my bag. and i just continued to dance to the nineties song that was playing over the speakers.

as i laughed and jammed out to the song with taliah and yasmine who also decided to stay sober alongside me, i suddenly felt someone pull at me relentlessly. i pulled back and looked at the person, i recognised it as the guy who was staring at me as i had walked in earlier on. unfortunately, as i went to look for taliah and yasmine, it seemed as though they had both left at the same time to grab a strawberry mocktail so i couldn't ask them for help.

"...umm, hello? what do you need?" i ask as kindly as i can as he sways from side to side, i groan as i realise how unbelievably drunk the guy was

"y...y..you," he slurred out as i scoffed, didn't he already have a girlfriend? plus, can't he see my open locket necklace which very clearly shows a photo of me and my boyfriend with my dad?

"umm, no thank you, i have a boyfriend. can you please let go of my hand?" i try to keep as calm as i can despite being in the middle of the dance floor of the high school house party

yet, not one was even acknowledging that this was happening after a rule had specifically been placed that if this behaviour was happening, for it to be stopped immediately - some fucking rule it was. especially if no one was paying attention to see if it was happening to then stop it from happening.

"c...c...come with me!" he slurs out again yet he suddenly becomes soberer and soberer by the minute which freaks me out completely

i mean, who the fuck has this much to drink yet sobers up by the click of a finger?

"no! what the fuck, let go of me!" i raise my voice to match his tone despite the loudness of the music that was blaring over the top and all around us

then, something clicks in this guy's brain which causes him to tighten his grip on my wrist. to the point where i started to properly feel the pain and see bruising appear on my wrist.

"no! you will come with me you skanky whore!" he yells loudly as i can't do anything more but just scream out to yasmine, taliah and breeana to help me

"HELP! TALIAH...YASMINE...BREEANA...HELP ME!" i scream the loudest i've ever screamed yet it seemed as though no one could hear my screams over the loud nineties music

by this point, i was now dragged up the stairs of the two-storey house and still, no one had seen or could see that anything wrong was happening. no-one stopped to think that i hadn't given this man consent to grab me by my wrists and drag me up the stairs.

then, suddenly out of nowhere, a guttural scream emerges from my lips as i felt as though my torso, my entire body really, was being ripped open by this guy. yet, he just wouldn't stop, he just kept going. he was doing that one thing that seemed to be so common to do at parties yet, i thought i had been so careful that it would never happen to me. especially because i never thought these things happened at a high school senior house party but boy was i wrong. five-year-old me never thought that i'd become a statstic for rape and sexual harrassment. i have a boyfriend and i was about to graduate high school and move up to vancouver with my dad for the final season of his sci-fi tv show, supernatural. how does this guy not realise that i never once actively consented to this?

"...pl...please stop!" i have the sudden confidence to scream out as the guy looks up from where he had been raping me, absolute evil in his eyes, like lucifer from supernatural 

 "you're mine now sweetie. you are out of your goddamn mind if you think i'll stop!" he responds back as he laughs, going back to ripping my legs to shreds as he continued to insert his genitals into my vagina

i couldn't stop screaming and crying and that was when i realised i could use it against him. despite the pain that was making these tears and screams, i knew it was now my superpower even though it was a horrible way of seeing it. praying that if i just kept on screaming and crying, loudly, it would bother him or it would draw attention to the upstairs bedroom to the left and someone would hear me and would kick the guy out of the party. only hoping that my kicking, screaming and crying was drawing enough attention to everyone outside and pain to this man, he went on for another hour or so before it was around ten ten pm when he finally stopped after my last kick. my last kick that i had poured all my strength into my weakened leg had caught him square in the gut, taking my rapist down to the floor of the bed he had me pinned down on. that then gave me time and a lot of it for me to escape out of the bedroom, lock him in and then rush into one of the many bathrooms that this person that was hosting the party had so i could take a shower.

not allowing a single breath or look at me, i washed off that dirty feeling whilst still in my white dress. i watched as the blood and dirt from my rapist had fallen off my body and down into the drain of the shower as tears welled in my eyes. fighting against the pain, i had found my bag and i grabbed out my dad's old texas football jersey that i had bought with me just in case i needed it. and after drying myself and scrubbing my skin to dry, raw and red flakiness, i slipped the shirt on despite the pain and i booked it down the stairs and to my car. not even worrying about if the guy had found his way out of the locked bedroom or not.  

without hesitation and pure ignorance of the burning pain that was going through my body but most importantly through my legs and vagina, i kept on fighting. it felt like i was on my period because it felt like a searing cramping pain. i didn't bother calling mom or dad or even saying goodbye to taliah, breeana and yasmine nor trying to find them. but, they would all, parents and friends, see my life360 that i was home so i didn't feel like i had to tell them i was home early. because i didn't want to draw any of the attention to myself and, i didn't want them finding out that i was raped.

i finally made it home safely, the guy didn't follw me thank god and the moment i got home, it seemed as though no one had noticed what had happened. i got changed out of my dress, quickly shoving it as far down into my hamper as i could before carefully changing into sweatpants and slipping dad's texas jersey back on after taking a second shower. walking down the stairs was so painful because all i could do now was just focus on the pain of the rape as i made my way to the couch. trying to hide the pain from them though, i sat next to dad as i curled in up against him because he always knew how to make me feel better even without knowing what was wrong with me.

jared's pov 

"....after that he...he got really agressive and he...he ra...raped me dad...he to...touched me when he knew i didn't want it...he hur...he hurt me real bad...and no...and no one heard me when i screamed asking for help...the music was so loud and i...i eventually escaped and took a shower...after that i....i just didn't bother drying myself off i just...i slipped on the football jersey and drove home..."

i'm in utter shock as these words fall out of my daughter's mouth. i had figured something bad happened to her but, never to that extent of rape. plus, she didn't even give us any ideas as to why she came home early from the party other than she was tired. how did no one else notice the way she hobbled down the stairs both tuesday and the last couple of days? how did i not notice anything wrong?

"...jules...baby girl...i...i am so sorry!" i whispered, slowly moving closer towards my daughter, getting consent to pull her in for a hug considering she wasn't given that option tuesday night

and i wanted to make sure she was fine with me touching her considering i am a man and it was a man that raped her tuesday night. and jules nodded, allowing me to pull her in for the hug as she just started sobbing on my shoulder. her entire body shook as she sobbed and i had never seen my daughter in such distress. she had never cried like this in her entire life, she was never usually one to cry just in general which everyone thought was comedic considering i am her dad but, that's beside the point. it was beside the point because i had no idea what to do to help my daughter. never before was i placed in this situation of my daughter getting raped and having her crying her entire body out so i had no clue on how to help her. so, the only logical thing for me to do was to just listen to her and comfort her as she cried and explained to me. even though she had already explained quite a lot, i didn't stop her when she gave more details.

"daddy, it...it happened all so quickly. i...i...one moment i was dancing and...and laughing on the dance floor with yasmine and taliah, none of us i guess able to find breeana and then the next minute...i was being grabbed by a guy who i had noticed earlier on who had watched me walk in and then when he noticed yasmine and taliah go off to get drinks, he just grabbed me..." she trailed off as she then caught her breath before continuing

"...he then dragged me upstairs into the left-hand room and he ra...raped me in the bed...thank god he didn't break noah's necklace...my gosh...the both of you would've gotten so mad if he saw that the necklace you two got for me was broken...he would've killed me...he--"  

"--ssh, darling, hey, slow down darlin'! slow down baby, noah would not at all have gotten mad if he noticed your necklace was broken. if anything, he'd be concerned that's for sure but he wouldn't be mad. he would definitely ask as to why it broke but he would let you explain! he wouldn't have killed you, darling girl, he loves you way too much to even lightly tap you during a play fight *jules tearfully giggles* but he would never be mad! whilst i'm also glad that the necklace wasn't caught in the crossfire, you really need to report this, juliannah. it's rape, stalking and as much as it pains me to say, attempted murder if he had kept going. it's still early on, it's only been seventy-two hours so the earlier we report it to the police, the earlier we'll have him thrown into jail!" i speak softly, but i'm firm and jules' knows this because i call her by her full name as i brush her hair and she nods and sniffles slightly as she tries to compose herself

"daddy, i...i need to show you something...i...i've been hiding it in my hamper since tuesday night," jules speaks softly, grabbing my hand and lifting us both off the couch as she leads me upstairs to her bedroom

as we enter her room, i'm confused as she sits me on the bed as she goes over to her hamper which was on the other side of the room. it was closest to her ensuite bathroom as she rummages through before she grabs out what looks like a ziplock bag from the depths of the hamper. my eyes then widen in shock as i realise what was in it...

"...this was the dress i was raped and covered in blood with. i washed my body as best as i could in the shower at the house before i threw the jersey over the top once i was clean and rid of as much blood as i could get off. the reason why i changed into the jersey was that, it's the shirt i bring with me everywhere i go now because, just in case something bad happens or if i just miss you, i'll put it on and i'll suddenly feel better because it still smells like you. i knew that if i put the jersey on, it would distract me for a moment whilst i tried to comprehend in my brain why i was covered in blood with so much pain everywhere. i haven't been able to look at it for three days, daddy! i haven't even let mom rummage through my hamper because i knew she would immediately find it at the bottom of the hamer and she'd question me straight away!" jules trailed off in so much fear as i was at a loss for words

 "what...what do i do, daddy? i'm so scared and i...i can't be trusted to go out again! especially in an outfit like that again, i...i was practically asking for it as apparently, i wasn't being careful as usual, apparently, the necklace that holds a photo of me with my dad and boyfriend around my neck wasn't doing its job in letting creepy men who don't even look like high schoolers know that i'm taken and don't want to be raped and assaulted by them! ap...apparently me st...staying sober at a high school senior's party wasn't telling them "no" enough and that i was being cautious. apparently staying close to the bar and trying to stay as close to my friends wasn't telling them that i was trying to stay as safe as possible! what...what did i do so wrong, daddy? what...i..." jules was distraught and distressed as she just spiralled out of control, tears spilling down her cheeks

this was when i knew she needed to file a report with the police immediately and then get checked out at the hospital. just in case she was drugged or anything of the sort, despite the fact that we knew and she knew she wasn't even drinking alcohol in the first place.

"...baby girl, darlin' we need to go to the police! three days has been too long! and whenever you feel ready, you also need to tell mom, uncle jensen and aunty danneel but only when you're ready! never, ever will i push you to tell them until you are ready but, they are the rest of your family and they need to know just like the police!" i stand firm as jules almost loses it but i wrap my arms around her so she didn't fall

"with...with the dress?" jules breathing once again becomes quick and distressed as i nod my head, my heart breaking even more as i explained further

"yes baby girl, alongside the dress and the bruises and dried up blood that you couldn't wash off yourself, that's the biggest piece of evidence you have against that man, jules. along with these bruises and marks he gave you, that'll help the police more with the investigation and beliving it. but, please, just know baby girl that we will get this man thrown in jail, no matter what even if it's broadcasted because it's "jared padalecki's daughter jules padalecki" you understand me, princess? we're going to get this sorted and he'll be thrown away forever so no more girls and boys get hurt, okay?" i tell her as she nods her head as she all of a sudden turns to me and shocks me again with the next sentence that comes out of her mouth

"but first...i...i have to tell mom, uncle jensen and aunty danneel..." she trails off as i step back in shock but a small smile forms on my lips as i nod my head, my little girl really was like her dad

jules' pov 

i decided that, with dad's help, i could tell mom, uncle jensen and aunty danneel what happened on tuesday. uncle jensen and aunty danneel were almost always over so it wasn't unsual that they were back over at ours even though they were over on tuesday. and, i was also going to later on apologise to my little sister, odette, for yelling at her for just wanting to come into my room and be hugged. she truly didn't deserve to be yelled at as, in all honesty, i had woken her up because i had walked in and caused a little bit of a commotion.

"...jules, you okay baby girl?" uncle jensen questions as he softly rubs his finger against my hand as i gulp, looking towards dad who nods his head, giving me all the confidence i needed to tell the rest of my family

"umm...yeah...i am just a little bit..." "...actually, no, i'm not okay uncle jensen..." i trailed off, watching as mom, uncle jensen and aunty danneel look at each other in worry before diverting their attention back to me

"what...what's going on sweetheart? you're scaring us jules, what's wrong?" mom speaks up this time as i breathe in before i just spat it out opposite to what happened when i tried to explain it to dad

"i got raped at that party last night!" i rush out, my eyes clamping shut as i cover my face with my hands as i feel the vibrations from the floor

uncle jensen had stepped back in shock whilst mom and aunty danneel didn't move a single muscle as they stayed silent, as did dad.

"sweetheart...jules...i...i am so sorry...you...the pain...i.." mom was too stunned to speak as she moved forward and pulled me into her arms, uncovering my face without any hesitations i reciprocated mom's hug as she then knew she could go further into the hug after i consented

"it...it was so scary momma! i...i honestly thought he'd broke noah's necklace..." i trailed off, once again, my only thought that my boyfriend's necklace he gave me was going to break

mom pulled back, her figners lightly grabbing the necklace as she breathed out, the necklace was still in one piece as noah had come out from where he was hiding out in the kitchen. oh...yeah, i forgot to mention that noah had come over to visit and had been since wednesday, the day after i was raped.

"...jules, babe, who cares if he broke the necklace? i would have easily brought you another one the second i noticed it not around your neck. i'm not fussed about some stupid chain that's so replaceable when he hurt you and could have done worse if you didn't get him to stop in time!" noah spoke as he moved closer to me little by little as i nodded, giving him consent to pull me in for a hug

mom had since stepped back, uncle jensen and aunty danneel watching on as they waited before uncle jensen spoke up.

"why weren't we there with you?" uncle jensen growled, wishing that he could have helped as i shook my head

"no, uncle jensen, whilst it's not okay and it never will be, the damage is done but for now it's as okay as it's ever going to be. daddy and i will go down to the station and then the hospital. everything is under control and i am okay despite all the pain that i'm going through," i speak in the calmest voice i have this entire experience as uncle jensen nodded his head and slowly walked over as i allowed him to hug me as i could tell he was suppressing his tears

aunty danneel was the next person to speak up, i then hugged her as i slowly started to feel safe alongside my own family and boyfriend again.

"what evidence to do you have other than the physical, darling?" aunty danneel questions ever so softly and tenderly as i smile nervously

the dress that was ever so bloodied and no longer white as if it came from a crime scene came out from behind my back as they all look away in shock. they all seemed to become teary-eyed as i gulped in my own embarrassment.

"the dress i was wearing tuesday evening. i had dad's texas football jersey over the top because it made me feel safe in the most unsafe situation because it smelt like him and it made me feel like he was there hugging me and protecting me. i always bring that jersey with me everywhere i go just in case i need it for emergencies..." i trailed off as everyone nodded their heads

i then made their attention turn to the dried blood and the bruises that they were now discovering all around my body as i watched my family all comfort each other and my boyfriend. also comforting me since it was obvious this was still a lot for me.

time skip

less than an hour after telling my family and apologising to my baby sister, dad and i provided a report to the police and i had been double, maybe thrice checked over at the hospital. and, amazingly, i was free from any stds and utis which was the best thing that could have come out of that traumatic event as well as the fact that all the pregnancy tests i had to do also because of the rape, were negative thank god! my cuts, bruises and the big laceration across my abdomen and towards my vagina were also checked over and bandaged in their correct manners and i was then cleared to go back home with dad. this was the time that i took to relax with my boyfriend, parents and rest of the family.

"...next time, we're all going out as a family!" dad spoke up, addressing all the adults in the room, including noah and i as they all agreed, dad pulling me into his lap as i smiled, curling up next to him

"never asking for it!"

- - - 

i lowkey had no clue how to incorporate the title at the end so, sorry that it's awful!

rape and sexual assault/abuse/harassment however you wish to categorise it, it's all the same thing! you are not alone and it is never your fault! i used the example of jules blaming her outfit and how she refused to get drunk and made sure that she was safe as the reason as to why she was targeted. i did this from an authors standpoint to really showcase that rape and sexual assault can happen to anyone and there is never one specific thing or reason as to why people get targeted. i also wrote this because i experienced something like this, however, not to this extent. yet, i will not let my experience be invalidated because of how 'mild' it was to other sexual harassment cases, it was still sexual harassment. mine happened in a bar on my university campus, he was six years older and he was making sexual comments on a video of mine, most especially my butt due to the short skirt i was in whilst i was in front of him (in which, i didn't realise how short it was on me). i have a video of him with his arm wrapped around my shoulder, to which i didn't consent to and tried to get away from him, he refused. i was trying to get uni work done and he was constantly trying to advance closer to me. the only times he sort of stopped was when my friends and one of his friends came over and chatted to us. the other times, i had to make up excuses to get out of the situation until i finally decided enough was enough and that, i was going to be late to my class if i stayed one more second with him. after all that, he proceeded to be verbally abusive to me over snapchat and had a go at me, gaslighting me and making me feel as though it was my fault because he saw it as me giving him consent when i never gave him a definitive yes or no. he got mad at me because i was 'late' because i missed my bus and then told me it was my fault because he had taken a few hours off work to be with me when i never once told him he had to do. that was all his doing, never once did i ask him to take work off to be with me because frankly, i was just agreeing because, if i said no, god forbid, he may have gotten physical with me if he were to catch up with me at a different time. and, also, i wasn't allowed to be mad at him because he then got defensive! thankfully, he didn't do worse because, if he did then, my god, my uni friends would not have liked that! like, for weeks, i wasn't even confident enough to walk into the bar that it happened in because i was scared i would have to see him again. i would then see him walk around and my friend would let me know so i would know not to look in the same direction and draw attention to myself.

i shouldn't have even had to tell that story because i shouldn't have had that happen to me! most especially on the campus of my former university where it is supposed to be a safe space! everywhere in that building of the bar and around that campus, i see signs talking about what to do and where to report sexual harassment. this shouldn't even need to be done but it does because people are just on this world to bring harm and ptsd to others! to the young adult that did this to me, the biggest fuck you goes to you because you had no right to violate me, an innocent at the time eighteen year old who had no clue the entire time that you were this terrifying and forceful! you literally used manipulation to make me possibly fall in love with you and then just abuse me like that? it is not okay! however, i know it wasn't my fault because what i was wearing was not 'provocative' or seen as i was asking for it. i was wearing jeans and a v-neck short sleeve, my shoulders were covered as was my stomach.

if you or anyone you know has experienced this and haven't had the courage to tell anyone, i urge you to please find that courage and tell someone because no matter if what happened to you was as 'mild' as mine or you getting raped, please call someone.

that is the website link to RAINN, america's largest anti-sexual violence organisation

that is the website link to reach out, australia's sexual assault support page and what numbers to call depending on the state you live in.

https://www.rcne.com/

and this is the website link to rcne, europe's sexual assault crisis network which supports survivors of sexual assault in any of the European countries.

ilysm and stay safe, please xx

word count; 6214

#supernatural cast #angst #jared padalecki x daughter juliannah (jules) padalecki #genevieve padalecki #jensen ackles #danneel ackles #r*pe tw #never asking for it

[panic-in-the-multiverse]

You're gonna make me cry

Pairings: Jensen Ackles x teen!reader

Imagine: Your father, Jensen Ackles, comforts you while you cry about school

Warnings: none

A/N actually this kinda happened with me and my dad, only it was a bit different, anyway I thought it would fit with Jensen also this person might be a little to much based on me only that the best friend is my sister instead of my actual best friend

anyway have a good day and to anyone who needs to hear this, everything will be alright it might not seem that it will, and I myself might not agree to these words sometimes but in the end everything will be alright, you are going to be alright, so I think I’m going to go and eat ice cream while crying as I rewatch Supernatural have a good day

So here’s the thing you were going to start college

and none of your friends were going to the same college as you

not even a single person from your old school would go to that college

so there wouldn’t be any familiar faces there

you would be all alone in a new school with new people who all had friends already

and you most of the time had a hard time getting friends

so it would be nearly impossible to get friends as everyone else who started at that school probably had a friend that would go there too

it didn’t help that your best friend could get friends easily

So here you were on the verge of crying in you room

while your thoughts went to every bad thing that could ever happen at the new school

especially the thoughts about being alone without friends for the rest of your life

But that’s when your father walked in

He could sense something was wrong by looking at you cuddled up in your bed

At first he thought about leaving you alone for a while

but I’m the end he decided to ask what was wrong

So as he went and sat down on your bed

“What’s wrong y/n”

Only to be met by silence

So he made you sit up and look at him while he asked once more what was wrong

That was all it took for you to completely break down in tears

He lifted you up carefully as he sat you in his lap while he hugged you

And he tried his best to comfort you without knowing what was wrong

When you started to calm down you finally spoke

“I uh.. I will be all alone”

“I won’t have anyone, and what if no one wants to be my friend”

“What if they all hate me or what if all of them have friends already”

“I’m going to be all alone for the rest of my life”

“I’ll probably end up living in a dumpster after college

While he listened to you ranting about all you current worries he couldn’t help but chuckle at your last remark about living in a dumpster

You looked at him with an offended look while your last tears ran down you face

He looked you in the eyes as he said his next words, and you couldn’t help but to look away

“You won’t be alone there, you choose that college because it’s what you like to do, like the rest of the people there”

“I can assure you that at least one of all the persons there will want to be your friend”

“And if you end up all alone then you will still have us”

“You’ll have me, your mom and your siblings, and we won’t let you live in a dumpster, you can live here with us as long as you want, and nothing will change that”

As you looked up at his eyes again you could see that he really meant what he said and you could feel your tears coming again

“Shut up dad, you’re going to make me cry again”

As you said these words he just hugged you tighter and brought you all the comfort you needed

#jensen ackles x teen! reader #jensen ackles x teen #jensen x reader #jensen ackles x daughter! reader #jensen ackles #jensen ackles x teen!reader #jensen and danneel #supernatural cast #supernatural #spn cast x teen #spn cast

[sara78]

Family don't end in blood - chapter 8

Summary: Y/N had a fun two months off filming and she's finally coming to the grounds with where she's standing and who's got her back. But once again, a few words make all hell break loose in her head and she does something that sets off a domino effect on her and people around her, but it might ultimately lead to a positive outcome...

Word count: 6.000 and probably more

Pairings: Jensen Ackles x foster!Daughter reader

Warnings: angst, so much angst, scary situation (nothing big but if this triggers you SKIP!), Y/N is a lucky bastard to have these people by her side, Y/N's brain is a bitch

Word count:

A/N: This one's a roller-coaster, please fasten your seatbelts!

It's been quite a few weeks since everything unraveled. You would lie if you said that being at Jensen's didn't help. Having three kids eat your brains out occupied you a lot, but Jensen and Danneel made sure that you had your me time. You had a lot of talks with Jensen, Danneel and Jared and thought still confused as to why are they helping you, you were extremely grateful for everything they gave you.

The best time for you was the entirety of January. You finished your first semester of school, with all A's, which made everyone so happy because they all knew you worked yourself into the ground for it and you, for the first time in your life, felt like you were actually proud of what you were doing and your grades and all things you've accomplished this semester. It felt scary, as you closed in your last first semester of high school and were going to start the very last semester of high school ever, and you didn't know what will you do after that chapter of your life is behind you. But you didn't feel any rush, as you were financially more than stable and you have all the time and no pressure to find out just what you want to do with your life. And, well, it felt nice to know that even if you mess up or don't have a plan waiting for you to jump into it, you wouldn't be beaten to death, which definitely helped.

On the topic of beating to death, you were finally letting people close to you in. You finally felt like they weren't going to hurt you. You allowed yourself to let your guards down, even a little bit, even just slightly. It meant a lot to know you could do that. Jensen, Jared and Danneel made sure you were comfortable and they gave you a safe place where you could be just who you are.

You felt like you were finally beginning to heal.

January was also your birthday month and you didn't expect your birthday to go the way it did, but if you were being honest, you haven't had that much fun in such a long time. Your birthday was always special to you, since that was one of those rare moments when your mother put down the bat and let you enjoy yourself for a day with your friends. It felt like she was an actual, loving human being for that one day of the year. You didn't expect anyone to remember your birthday in the first place, but you were a fool to think that when you live with Jensen and Jared next door.

The kids had a sleepover at their grandparents' for the weekend, leaving you alone with Jensen and Danneel. You and Dee had maybe a little too much fun beating Jensen in Mario kart, which he fully allowed. Well, half of it was him allowing you to win. The other half was him just... Not knowing how to play.

The game was interrupted with the door bell going off. You said you were gonna get it, as Danneel was in the midst of kicking Jensen's ass. You walked up to the front door and opened it, revealing a short woman with glasses and a bunch of papers in her hands.

"Hi, how can I help you?" you said with a kind smile,

"Hello, are you Y/N Y/L/N?" you nod, "My name is Jane McAllister. I work in child protective services. You have been disowned and as a minor you are required to come with me and be in the foster care until you're 18 years old."

You froze right there.

Disowned?

"Hey, what's going on here?" Jensen's voice rang behind you as you felt him walk up to where you were standing, at a loss of words, "How can we help you?"

"I will not repeat myself. You have to come with me now," Jane responded and Jensen immediately flew into protective mode, pushing you behind his back,

"You will very much repeat yourself. What do you want from my kid?"

"First of all, she's not your kid," she corrected him, "She has been disowned and is now a part of the foster care system until she turns 18 years old."

"Disowned?" Jensen asked, "Disowning a child is a felony in the US. What do you mean she was disowned?"

"It might be a felony in the US, but it's very not in Y/H/C. She is not a US citizen and therefore she is not falling under the laws here. She will however, as an unsupervised minor, be placed in an orphanage and into foster care until someone picks her. I will have to warn you, teenagers are almost never picked. Especially if they... Look like that," she said, eyeing you from head to toe,

"Well she is not unsupervised, she has a place to stay at and I do not allow you to take her. How's that sound?"

"I do not have a problem with alerting the police, mister..." she looked down to one of the papers for a second, "Ackles."

"Then we'll be her foster parents," Danneel said as she showed up right behind you, "And we got no problem with adopting her. Right, honey?" she said, looking up to Jensen who nod,

"As far as I can tell, you do not have any records of fostering or a profile opened, for that matter. The process of opening a profile is very time consuming and it takes months, even years in your case, since you do not qualify high, as you have three children of your own and you are celebrities. Even if you tried, your poor attempt will be seen as a publicity stunt and it'll be immediately turned down."

"Try us," Jensen growled, "You're not taking Y/N away from here. This is her home."

"I'm afraid it's not."

"I'm afraid you're trespassing," Danneel growled, "Give Y/N the paperwork and leave. You can only come back with a warrant and take her if you have actual solid proof that you got rights and laws backing you up in your action, not just small-talk us into it. Otherwise she's staying with us."

"You are aware this looks like you are forcingly keeping her in? Like you're kidnapping her? You do know that is a felony for you, even if she's not a US citizen?"

"I don't want to go," you whispered, totally out of it, Jensen looking back at you, Danneel's arm on your back, rubbing it gently, "I want to stay."

"I'm sorry honey. But what I'm doing is for the best," she smiled at you but you shook your head, turning around and meeting Danneel for a tight hug, "Expect me with officers in less than 24 hours. Until we meet again," she said, shoving papers into Jensen's hands and walking away. Jensen closed the door and leaned against it with a loud groan. Danneel let go of you and opened her hand towards Jensen,

"Give me those. I'll contact our lawyer and see what the hell is going on and what we can do," Jensen did as told, handing her the papers before pulling you in for a tight hug which you gladly took.

It seemed like hours later when Jensen finally let you out of his warm embrace and looked you in the eye.

You didn't cry. You didn't have a reason to do so. If nothing, you were happy this is happening.

It took you a hot second to realize what's going on in this whole situation. At first you were taken over with fear. But then it dawned on what you should actually do.

"I'll go."

"What?!" Jensen exclaimed, "Not two minutes ago you said you don't wanna go. Whatever happened to that?"

"I didn't understand what was going on. I now do."

"Yeah? Enlighten me, doctor Phil," he sassed,

"My mother disowned me. She wants to get rid of me. She thinks that I'm weak and I suffer when I'm alone. Joke is on her, as I never really had anyone by my side, but she still thinks it's true. Being in foster care, in an orphanage, with the way I look, I'll be isolated, on my own. And even if someone picks me, I'll be beaten, bullied, abused. That's what she wants," you explained, Jensen shaking his head, "I'm gonna make a lot of noise if the cops show up tomorrow. I'll just go turn myself in first thing tomorrow morning."

"That's a no," Jensen said, "You're not going anywhere."

"I don't want to make a scene. I don't want to scare anyone. If she wants me to be there, then so be it. It's okay. It's just for a year. I'll be free in a year and it'll be all okay. I won't have to hear about her ever again. I'll be my own person."

"You are not going anywhere. You got a life here. You can't throw away everything. That's exactly what she wants you to do! Throw away everything you've worked yourself into the ground for. What if she has some sort of a sick, twisted plan up her sleeve? Huh? How did CPS even know you were here? What if she is behind that woman, what if they're working together or... I don't fucking know, what if your mother changes her identity and comes in to foster care you? She takes you with her. Goes MIA. What then?" you gulped, looking down, "What then, when we can't find you? Who knows what the fuck she can do to you. You said it yourself. She's mental. I've seen that sinister look in her eyes. There's a big fat reason she did this and for all I know she could easily manipulate and play outside the rules to get to you. You can't risk going there. You can't risk everything you've built already, your life, your safety. Dee is on the phone with our lawyer and we'll do everything we can to keep you here."

"Jensen, trust me, you don't want me to be your kid."

"Yes we do," Danneel spoke up softly, making you turn around to look at her, "You belonged here ever since you walked in through that door. And after everything you've been through, giving you a family is the least we could do to help you heal."

"How are things looking?" Jensen asked and Danneel sighed,

"We have to meet with our lawyer first thing tomorrow morning. This smells bad on so many fronts and we will discuss this scenario in more detail tomorrow. As of now, he will try to push us into the foster care system and have us take her case," Danneel said, "We hope it'll work out. But you are in no way leaving. You're not going into an orphanage. Not on our watch. Only place you're going to is the bathroom, to take a nice shower and then we'll talk some more. Okay?" you gulped, nodding as you padded off to the guest room to grab your clothes.

Your mind shifted to a dark place when you walked away from Jensen and Danneel.

Part of your brain wanted to believe Jensen was right, that your mother had something planned and she was waiting to get a hold of you somehow. It was rational.

But you couldn't think straight.

All your brain could think of is that you shouldn't be here.

You're dangerous.

Your mother is dangerous. Ways her actions would go to hurt you are dangerous.

And if she knew one thing, it's that you hurt the most when people you love hurt. That was the game she played when she wanted to control you. Hurt people you love.

You couldn't afford to be here anymore.

You sneaked out of the house, since Jensen and Danneel were upstairs in their room and couldn't see you when you walked out. You didn't even get any of your stuff. You just... Walked away.

Every step you took hurt you more, and you knew you'd be the happiest ever if you were to stay there forever and finally have a life-long dream of yours come true, but now wasn't the time for your happiness, but their safety. You kept looking back until the house disappeared in the darkness of the night. A quiet tear rolled down your cheek. Now you had nowhere to go.

You shivered as rain began to pour while you wandered to wherever this road took you. Of course it would start raining and there would be a storm brewing as well. Shows just how lucky you were. And the fact that you were in shorts and a flannel didn't help the situation much.

You were wandering down the streets, now already in a rural area of Austin. Jensen's house was already downtown so it didn't take a lot of walking before you were basically in the middle of nowhere. You couldn't see a single soul out here, besides trees and forests and the thought that something might jump out at any moment and any angle scared you. This whole situation scared you.

This wasn't your first time wandering on streets, in the night, by yourself. But never before were you scared like this. You could tell something bad will happen, again.

Every time you thought about how bad this idea was, you remembered Jensen and his family, and the thought would leave your mind. They were safe. No matter how much you loved them, they were safe without you around. And, well, just because you love someone, doesn't mean you get to stick around and screw up their life.

Cars passed by, splashing you, but the drivers didn't pay attention. Why would they? You were a nobody after all. Everyone had somewhere to go. Everyone had a home to go to. Everyone besides you.

You were wondering what to do now. You're going the opposite way from the city, from the orphanage or wherever you're supposed to be at. You left your phone back home and you knew that you shouldn't be wandering around these parts. You thought it would be a good idea to find some abandoned place and stay for the night, then make it back to town tomorrow. You were guessing that, if he was looking, Jensen was probably looking for you somewhere in town. You had to work around downtown as a whole if you were to go to the orphanage without him or any of the neighbors noticing you.

A black SUV went by you and you froze when you saw it brake suddenly. You forgot your glasses back at Jensen's place and you couldn't make out the plates, but Jensen didn't drive an SUV so that was already a red flag for you.

You swerved your path towards the forest instantly, lowering your head down as far as you could as you tried to find a bush to hide in or a tree to climb up on as you began to walk faster. You began running for your life when you heard steps grow closer behind you and you jumped on the first tree in your sight. But your legs began to slip and you felt your body slip down the tree as well, the surface wet and not very manageable to climb. Just when you were about to slip off the tree you felt arms wrapping around your waist and you began trashing as the person pulled you off the tree. You didn't let up, trying to get away from the hold, digging your short nails into the arms that tightly held you, trying to hurt and kick the man away.

"For fucks sake munchkin stop, it's me," Jared's voice rang over the rain, "It's just me. It's Jared. It's Jare, you're okay," he continued, still holding you tight and waiting for you to stop trashing.

As soon as you heard his voice, something broke inside you. You didn't know what it was. Was it all that fear, anger, sadness built-up that finally broke free? Or was it the fact that Jared is out here in pouring rain, looking for you? And if he was out here, then so was Jensen.

In reality, it was the realization that both of them were so scared that something bad had happened to you and you were gone, scared to the point where they don't care about the circumstances and would do anything to try and find you.

And then, that ear-piercing scream you've let out was some sort of a realization that you hurt people you didn't intend to and fucked things up beyond repair this time.

But you weren't going to let up.

"Stop, stop, stop," he tried, grunting as he tried to console your trashing body, "I'm not gonna let you go. You're not leaving us. You're safe."

"Let me go!"

"No," Jared shook his head, "Not gonna happen. You can punch me or the tree or yell out to the sky or at my face and do whatever you want to do to let all of that anger, sadness and fear built up go, but you're not going to leave your home and your family."

"You're not my family and that's not my home! Let me go!"

Jared put you down but he was fast to grab the collar of your flannel, almost lifting you off the ground with how strong he gripped at it,

"We're not your family?" he asked. You couldn't tell if he was crying because of all the rain but you could hear it in his voice and in the way he looked at you, "Is that why Jensen showed up on my doorstep, crying, begging me on his knees to help me find you?" he asked, shaking your entire body when tugging at your hoodie, "Is that why both of us are out here in pouring rain, trying to find you? Is that why we are both scared to death and we thought that bitch kidnapped you? Is that what someone who hates you does? Or is it someone who cares and loves you?"

"You're not safe with me around!" you exclaimed,

"We don't give a flying fuck!" he shot back at you, "You're my niece, Jensen's daughter, and whatever shit comes your way we'll solve it together! Running away isn't going to fix anything. It's only going to break everything."

"I-I can't," you sobbed, looking down, "I-I'm not Jensen's daughter. I'm a nobody."

"Yeah? Tell me then, why he's out here now, desperately trying to find you? Because he despises you from the deepest parts of his soul? Y/N, he loves you. We all love you. I don't know how long it'll take you to figure it out but we don't want to hurt you or scare you. We want to give you everything you ever needed - love. And no matter how long it takes you to understand, we will be here all the same and we will love you all the same and prove you day to day that you're worth it and that you deserve it. You need to tell me one thing - did she take you?" you shook your head and Jared heavily leaned against one of the trees, looking up to the sky as he let out a sigh in relief, but still tightly holding the collar of your flannel, "Okay. That's honestly the best news I've heard tonight."

"Best news? I ran," you pointed out,

"You do not want to know what scenarios went through Jensen's head, through my head. We were so scared she took you, Y/N. We didn't know what to think."

"I can't stay around with everything that's happening."

"Do you love Jensen and Danneel? Me? The kids?"

"YES!" you yelled out, "And that's the exact reason I can't stay! I can't put you in danger! Jared, please. Let me go. Tell dad-tell Jensen that I'm okay, and that I have to go and just let me go. It's for the best."

"You can't win this one, munchkin. I can only think of how dark and twisted your mind is because I've never seen you as a runner but you did it. It must be so bad up there if you acted like this. But everything is fixable."

"Even if I do come back, they won't want me anymore. What's the point in going back then?"

"Yeah, I'm gonna ask you again - if they don't want you anymore, why am I here right now? If Jensen didn't care you think he'd be kneeling and begging me to help him find you? If he didn't care he would have let you go, which is the complete opposite of what he did. Munchkin, I know you never had anyone stand by your side, but you have to understand this - there isn't an outcome where you win this war that has you running away from home and people who love you and people who you love. I know you want to fight this one alone and I know you're capable and strong, but this isn't a war you can win by yourself. You need an ally and you have us. You with me?" you nod, looking up into his eyes, hair falling into his sight but you could see honesty in the way he looked at you, "How about we move out of here and let your dad know that you're safe?" you approached Jared carefully before climbing on your tiptoes and wrapping your arms around his neck. He helped you by picking you up and squeezing you tightly, giving you one of his famous moose hugs as he carried you back to his car.

"Brother, she's gone," you gasped quietly at the vulnerability in Jensen's voice when he answered Jared's call, "I can't find her, that bitch took her I-"

"Brother, breathe. I found her," Jared cut him off and Jensen sobbed on the other end, "Our kid is fine. Soaking wet and scared of what's to come, but fine."

"Y/N, are-are you okay?" Jensen whispered, voice cracking,

"Yeah," you responded, hearing Jensen exhale loudly,

"I'll drive her over to you. Are you home?"

"Yeah, uh yeah. Didn't leave the car. I thought-I thought I was gonna tell Dee that-"

"Y/N is fine, Jensen. I'll be there in five. Do you trust me, brother?"

"With my life."

"Then trust me when I say I'm bringing your kid home."

"Thanks."

"Don't mention it. Now go tell Danneel. Meet you in the garage."

You stayed quiet for the entirety of the short conversation Jared had with Jensen. You were speechless. You didn't think Jensen was going to lose it as much as he did. Part of you thought he wouldn't even go looking for you. That part of you was definitely wrong though.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you," Jared spoke up, "I didn't mean it to come out that loud. I couldn't hear myself, with the rain and all. Did I scare you?" you shook your head,

"Not-not with talking. I-I thought you were going to kidnap me. I left my glasses back at Jensen's and I didn't make out your licence plate. I... I thought it was her."

"You didn't hear me calling your name?" he asked and you shook your head, "You were very scared. I kept calling your name but you didn't budge and then you jumped that tree and you were going to slip and fall and... I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I'm the one who's supposed to apologize."

"Not really," Jared shook his head, "In my mind, you got overwhelmed, scared, and in moment of vulnerability you acted out and thought running away was a good decision. You made a mistake but that's okay. We all make mistakes."

"Why do you love me?" you then asked, Jared smiling gently,

"Can you explain why you love people close to you?" you sat in silence, trying to put it into words but miserably failing, "See? We can't explain it. I can't explain it at least. You grew to me. You grew to Jensen. We just love you with all we have."

"What do you think will happen to me now?"

"Well you are first of all going to get two bone-crushing hugs. Then you'll actually take that shower you never took and you'll probably have a sleepover in Jensen's and Danneel's bedroom. Lots of talks. Jensen will be clingy for a while too."

"Why?"

"Because when something bad happens to someone he loves more than himself, he gets scared. He gets vulnerable to the point where he's clinging to the person and he's just... Scared. How I know? I've been with him when he was scared. I've been in his shoes too. And only thing you can do is reassure him that it won't happen again and be by his side. He needs that reassurance. I might use it too."

"I-I won't run away again," you said as Jared pulled into Jensen's driveway, "I promise."

"Even if you do, I'll find you," Jared smiled as he put the car into park, "We'll always come for you. But I choose to trust you and the promise you made."

The door on your side is swinging open and you're picked up by Jensen in no time. He's squeezing you tightly and you swore you felt Jensen sob as he leaned against Jared's car while he held you tightly. You couldn't do much but burrow your face into his shoulder and try your best not to cry as you grabbed the back of his soaked shirt.

"Brother, let's go inside," Jared's voice rang and it seemed to pull Jensen back to reality. He put you down but as soon as he did so, both his hands are cupping your cheeks and you're looking him in the eyes, red at the edges with so many emotions in them. You can't explain the feeling his look set off in you, but you could see how terribly you've screwed up.

Danneel is grabbing both yours and Jensen's hand and she's squeezing you for a side hug, Jensen getting the same treatment on the other side, as she walks you both into the house with Jared on your tail.

You're given a towel and a fresh set of clothes and you walk away to shower without a word.

You didn't know what to expect after you came out of the shower. The entire time you kept thinking of ways to apologize, but you knew no words could put together how bad you felt.

You were plain stupid to pull this thing off and you will probably never forgive yourself for doing this to everybody. You scared everyone because you were selfish, once again.

You finally understood that this war can't be won on your own. But would you find an ally in Jensen and his family now? In Jared, Misha? Would they look you in the eye after what you've done? More importantly, would you be able to look at them?

What you didn't expect when you opened the bathroom door was to find Jensen sitting on the floor right next to the door, back leaning against the wall. He looked up at you and your gut twisted and turned at all the pain you could read in his expression. He stood up and gently took your hand, leading you to the bedroom he shared with Danneel.

On the spare bench-bed in their room you had the full setup waiting for you. Your blankie, pillow, phone, the book you read, everything. You nod in thanking as Danneel sent you a soft smile. Jensen led you to the bench and sat you down on it before he leaned down and kissed your forehead. He smiled softly at you and you smiled back,

"I think it's best to stay close tonight," Danneel spoke up as she walked up to Jensen, "For all of us."

"Is Jared okay?" you asked,

"No rain can take out our favorite moose," Danneel responded, making you smile weakly, "I think we could use some sleep before talking about it all. How's that sound?" you nod, "But before that. Are you okay?" you nod again, looking down,

"I'm sorry for-"

"We're not asking that," Danneel cut you off, "All we care about right now is that you're okay."

Jensen didn't say a word. Instead, he leaned down to kiss the top of your head, Danneel doing the same. They made a few short steps to their bed while you laid down and watched as Jensen curled on his side and into Danneel's hold, the same way you curled into Jensen many times before. You grabbed your pillow, wrapping yourself around it and making yourself as small as possible as you squeezed it to your chest, burrowing your head into the blankie resting on your pillow.

You woke up to soft whimpers and it doesn't take you a lot to figure out where you are. You looked up to where Danneel and Jensen slept and found Danneel wide awake, shushing Jensen down. You gulped, standing up and walking over to their bed. Without a word you climbed onto what was supposed to be Jensen's side if he weren't absolutely squeezed against Danneel,

"He's got a nightmare," she said tiredly, "It's gonna take him a few minutes to ride it out."

"He has them often?" you asked and she shook her head, making you gulp,

"Only when he's really scared."

Only thing you thought of doing was plain stupid but it wouldn't hurt if you were going to do it.

You lifted your left hand and let it rest on his head, rubbing reassuring circles on it with your thumb. Danneel smiled,

"He does that to you, doesn't he?" she asked and you nod, "He does it to everyone he loves. It's his way of showing he cares deeply for you."

"I told him I were often hit in the head but his head rubs helped ease my headaches after nightmares. Didn't know it was his love language."

"It is. He's a very gentle soul. Even though he plays rough a lot."

"Outside world doesn't like gentle souls. You gotta stay rough out there if you want to stay alive."

"No seventeen year old should know that," Danneel frowned,

"I'm not your typical seventeen year old," you responded,

"I know that," she sighed, "Shhh sweetheart," she cooed as Jensen whimpered, still asleep, "It's just a bad dream. Everything is okay. Whatever it is, it's okay."

You gulped, looking down. The way he curled up reminded you of yourself. You could only imagine what his nightmares were. Hell, for all you know, you were the exact reason he had them.

Your train of thoughts got delayed as Jensen sat up abruptly in bed, breathing ragged as he looked to his left, where you slept. You could see his back tense as he looked back to Danneel, his left hand pointing at the empty bench,

"She-She's gone, Dee she's missing she took her we never found her Dee I gotta find her I-"

"Jensen, I'm right here," you whispered, making him turn around completely to face you.

It took you a moment to get back from awe you were left in when you heard Jensen's voice, uttering those words you didn't expect to hear. But as soon as you realized how scared he was, you didn't hesitate to crawl up to where he sat, completely silent, and give him a tight hug he gladly took.

It took him a few minutes before he let you go. His eyes were glued on yours for a few more seconds before he laid back down and curled in Danneel's hold.

You didn't know if you were ever going to be able to fix what you've broken here.

You stayed in bed for a few more seconds, watching him cuddle up to Danneel. She looked up at you with a tired, honest smile. You pressed your lips in a line, remembering Jared's words.

Telling him that you're sorry won't fix it.

Doing something to prove him you're sorry and to prove him that you're grateful for him will maybe do a thing or two.

You tapped Jensen's shoulder gently. He rolled to his back and looked at you, eyes watery and vulnerable. You leaned down to kiss his cheek.

"I love you," were only words you could think of and as you said them stood up and went back to where you slept. You turned your back to face their bed and you tightly hugged your pillow.

You knew a stupid kiss on the cheek and a stupid I love you won't fix a single thing and it probably meant nothing to him. But you felt like it was the least you could do in that given moment.

Not even a minute later, you felt a finger tap your shoulder. You rolled onto your back and Jensen smiled softly at you, leaning to kiss your temple and whisper a soft "I love you too," before he walked back to bed.

You woke up again to the sound of Danneel's phone going off. You heard her talk to someone on the other end and you just grumbled as you turned around on the other side and it wasn't long before Danneel tapped your shoulder gently,

"Honey, I totally forgot the twins have a class party today and I was in charge of some treats. I'll go sort all of that out and I'll call our lawyer too to see when he can see us, since he has other clients as well. I'll let you know via text."

"Can I let him sleep in?" you whispered and Danneel smiled as she nod, "Thanks."

"Don't thank me," she kissed the top of your head, "Sit in our bed. It's a tad bit more comfortable than that bench. I'm outta here. See y'all later."

"Hey," Jensen whispered as he found you reading a book while seated in Danneel's spot, "Where's Dee?"

"Because of all the mayhem I made last night, she forgot the twins had a class party and she was supposed to bring treats and snacks so she went to do that and she'll let us-" you stopped talking as your phone vibrated, "Pardon, she just let me know that we will meet with your lawyer at 11AM and uh... Get me some family, I guess."

The smile Jensen let out felt like a huge relief, especially after all of the emotions showed last night. This smile gave you a slight hope that maybe someday this will be a rather bad memory for everyone involved.

"I'll go make us some breakfast," you said as you went to stand up from where you were seated, but Jensen gently grabbed your hand,

"Thanks for staying here last night," he whispered, "It meant a lot to me."

"I scared the living shit out of you. The least I could do is stay by your side when you were scared."

"Yet that's exactly what you refuse when you're scared," Jensen smiled sadly at you and you looked down,

"You made me a promise," you whispered, finding courage to look up to Jensen, "Months ago. That as long as you're around, nobody will hurt me. I think I should make you a promise too."

"Kiddo, you don't have to-"

"I promise you to never run away on you again. Never, ever leave you again. Last night it finally clicked for me and I let myself truly believe in you. Up until last night I was waiting for the moment where you're going to up and leave me. Hell, I was pushing your buttons and trying to make you do that multiple times too. Last night I realized that you're not here to hurt me and that I can trust you, no bullshit. The mere fact that you were outside last night, looking for me, was enough for me to understand that you weren't doing everything you've been doing out of pity. And when I heard you last night... Jensen, she didn't take me. I ran. It was just me. Me and my stupid brain."

"Tell me one thing," he said, "Did your heart stay on the other end? On the end where you wanted to stay here and not leave?" you nod and he smiled,

"Then we're good. You unfortunately got hurt so many times before because you followed your heart and you had to grow out of that habit. But you've been following your heart recently, and I assure you that you're never going to be hurt by any of us for following what's in there," he smiled softly, "You scared me. Big time. But knowing that your heart was here this whole time makes it easier for me."

"I know I scared you. I scared Dee too. Jared... I don't think I'm ever going to forgive myself for doing this. That's why I'm making you a promise to never leave you again. And I know it's nothing but it's a start. I'll prove you that I meant what I promised."

"You've got nothing to prove. Your heart was here last night, wanting to stay home. That's enough proof for me that you want to be here. Even that smart brain up there must have entertained the thought too, but it had to think more rational. I know it'll take a lot of time to get used to it and sometimes you'll feel like you're not welcome and your feelings will get the best of you, but as I promised - as long as I'm around, nothing bad is going to happen to you. Physically and emotionally."

"Do you still want me here?" you asked, a little unsure, "After the stunt I pulled last night?"

"Yes. You belong here. And mistakes will be made but we're all human and we make mistakes. And no matter how stupid those stunts you pull were or will be, I'll still love you," he smiled, sitting up to give you a tight hug you gladly took, "Let's get ready. Dee's gonna kill us if we're late."

A/N 2: Thanks for reading! And thanks @crasmuna for being my consultant and for being my biggest support 💚

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