#doesn’t matter what the interaction is

[crowcryptid]

when will they invent social interaction that doesn’t make you feel sick and get a headache and get mad and you need to get out of there and never see anyone ever again

would be very useful!

#I’m normal idk what’s wrong with everyone else tbh #<- burnt out my whole life #doesn’t matter what the interaction is #the result is always negative #it doesn’t help that the interaction is also negative most of the time #people are so strange. they keep pushing the same button expecting a different result #so tired. why don’t they just leave me alone

[tariah23]

oooooo white people in my replies really saying ‘I can excuse racism but I draw the line at homophobia’

Not surprised since this is the site that only talks about racism and thinks it’s a big deal when they see it demonstrated in the cartoons and comics they like *coughs* dungeonmeshi *coughs* (for example at least. I haven’t seen THIS many white ppl talk as in depth about racism on here as much as these fandom nerds, man. I stg. Like “Ohhhh, so you all DO acknowledge that racism is real? Just not in real life even if you could feel it slapping you in the face at high speed. Gotcha.” It’s crazy.

Tumblr is like, 90% white and is extremely centered around them. That’s why you barely see stuff that’s important to black and brown people ever trending here or being talked about. It has to be something incredibly huge to the point where even white people can’t ignore it like they usually do, to talk about it here.

They only talked about George Floyd here because the topic of his death became world news. Even people in other countries were talking about it. Before him, it was probably Ferguson and Trayvon Martin… most of them are still trying their best to ignore the genocides because it’s a “touchy subject.” What do you expect from white people who live in their own bubbles of comfort and refuse to pop it with a needle??? They find comfort in their privilege and faux ignorance (they love playing stupid to avoid conversations about important things outside of fandoms like, are these mfs born with half a brain dedicated to fandom or what.) That’s literally all these mfs make a big deal out of, especially on this annoying ass platform. The ao3 mfs will go to war for the site that allows racist ff and cp like it’s no big deal. I wonder how many people here even donated to the site while actively scrolling past dono posts from folks who really do need help. They act like they’re doing a civil service by defending this site that makes over the amount of it’s intended dono goal in minutes.

Then you already know as soon as you even bring up racism in the stuff they like, they start ganging up and harassing black bloggers especially, calling them TERFs and the whole nine. Anything to make that person look bad for being concerned about the racism that they have such an intense aversion to. God, it’s absolutely exhausting knowing that these people would have no problem choosing a cartoon character over your entire existence if they COULD. Isn’t that fucking sad, man?

#:( #it’s like what can you do #as a black person I get why sm black bloggers here have ‘don’t follow me if you’re white’ in their bios #they’ll call it racist or whatever (it’s fucking not you guys just treat black ppl like shit here and most of us feel unsafe to interact #with y’all. you guys always turn on us at the drop of a hat) #i remember commenting on a HS post funny enough years ago #because the punchline of the post was literally the white mfs saying nigga #and I was so annoyed that I told them off and one of my white mutuals unfollowed meanjsjsjsl #like right after that #and another unfollowed me because I talk about racism and the like a lot like this is a really well known artist too so I was like 🧍🏾‍♀️? #because I talk about racism a lot??? it’s weird lol #like they’ll tolerate you for a while then when they feel offended they start to act weird and act like you’re not supposed to talk about #the stuff that effects you #tkf replies #karmelarts #they don’t give a shit about anything if it doesn’t personally Involve them #they act like they can’t relate to anyone or anything it they aren’t marginalized themselves (being gay or trans which they treat as a #personality trait) #notice how you never see movies/ shows about black and brown ppl trending here? it’s always white centered shit no #matter how hot and popular that show might be #you’ll never see something like the wire snowfall or power trending here #all of the black ppl are on twitter anyway so #sm black ppl got ran off of here by annoying white ppl

[royaltea000]

cannot STAND this guy

#the first time I draw lietpru interacting and it’s this #I’m so sorry to my lietpru likers out there #also sorry for the quality I drew this when I was half blind and exhausted but wouldn’t go to bed for some reason #so I really had no idea what it looked like until this morning #😭 #also this might be ooc but I thought it would be funny lol so it doesn’t matter #he would NOT fucking say that #no one would it’s the Middle Ages why are you talking about poppin your snatch do you want to be burned at the stake #lietpru #does this count lol #hws prussia #hws lithuania #aph teutonic knights #gilbert beilschmidt #tolys laurinaitis #digital art #my art #fanart

[rivalmelty]

they are fukuzawa’s boys, adopted twins, and menaces to the yokohama police

(pls do not tag as beast)

#oriondrewthis #bungou stray dogs #bungou sd #bsd ranpo #bsd odasaku #i’m glad everyone likes my extremely self indulgent au #i’ve literally been thinking about it for three years and it’s like free therapy istg #as far as i’m aware there aren’t really any fics about this au #but i could be extremely wrong about that idk i haven’t read too many bsd fics if i’m being honest #i have a personal google doc full of hcs and drabbles that i’ve been adding onto for years #but that’s really about it #i know i’m not the only one who’s thought about this concept #i just have never interacted with anyone who shares the sentiments who aren’t my friends who i’ve forced the concept onto #i will defo be drawing more of them in the future especially considering. canon events currently agskdjdkd #but yeah thank you for the love 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽 #they are brothers your honor #oh it’s very important but ranpo is older #by five days but it doesn’t matter he’s older and that’s what’s important #yes i am ignoring that technically in canon ranpo would’ve been 22 in dark era #and odasaku is canonically 23 in dark era #this is my self indulgent au and i make the rules #two pillars au

[tomwambsmilk]

Also I’ve seen so many people talk about “oh Shiv is in politics and she’s bad with people, isn’t that crazy” and they entirely miss the point that the job of a political consultant is not to be personable or charismatic. The job of a political consultant is to understand people on a macro level, not a personal one; to understand broader cultural trends, to figure out how to write speeches so that they resonate with most of your base, to figure out what policies are going to bring you in the biggest number of votes. And while shiv is terrible with people she is EXCELLENT at understanding these things; the best example might be her performance at the Argestes panel, where she does an excellent job of saying exactly what everyone wants to hear, in a way that has 0 practical implications, and makes 0 promises that Waystar will have to follow up on. She’s good at strategy and she’s good at making speeches and she’s good at figuring out what moves will play and what won’t, which are exactly the things she needs to be good at in order to do her job

#shiv is basically Amy from veep #and Amy from veep is AMAZING at what she does #can she interact with other human beings in a normal and friendly way? absolutely not. but that doesn’t matter

[drygrasses]

🔇-

#stealing this post format bc I need something like a priv account to vent and ramble on but Twitter is fuuuuucked #and that was one thing Twitter did well #idk man I get so anxious when I think I might not have 100% perfectly nailed a social interaction #which includes everything from someone just not responding immediately to me actually saying something wrong #and saying something wrong is usually not actually saying something wrong it’s saying something only like 80% of the way right #but to my perfectionism that is 100% a failure #I sent a friend a post I’d sent him before I even knew I might’ve sent it before and joked about that #and it turns out I did send it before #fuck I fucked up!! wow how awful I thought of him twice (sarcasm) #like I know it’s fine but my heart doesn’t feel that it’s fine #and it doesn’t matter how close a friend is #if I say something that is arguably just not 1000% pleasant and amiable and lovely #like having An opinion (just one) #and they don’t respond right away? or don’t immediately agree if it’s a real life conversation? #then my insides start chewing themselves up #I used to have so many opinions actually when did I get this hesitant and this afraid #who am I trying to please? #(except everyone I like) (all of them all of the time) #not feeling awesome rn I don’t even know what caused it this time #I have suspicions but they’re all dumb #well ofc they’re dumb anxiety is a manifestation of pure illogicality #and my perfectionism will make a mountain out of any molehill #for the priv #also I need that dash so the emoji isn’t just like. comically big lmao wtf

[thrilling-oneway]

Also shout out to the person who said in the tags of that airi post who said that half the debates in this fandom are over gender or sexuality because that’s true and it pisses me off immensely

#all the debates over whether VBS is gay coded or not and that their fans are biphobic if they don’t like m/f vbs pissed me off enough to #make me leave the fandom one of the times i left it. it’s also the reason I dont really like interacting with the fandom anymore LMAO #the thing is I don’t think it really matters lol #like mizuki is canonically trans but no one else is and I genuinely don’t get why people get so heated when ppl don’t have the same gender #hcs as them like it’s a HC not everyone has the same one as you. obviously this happens with airi a lot but with the boys being hc’d as #tfem as well? like I’ve seen people get SO up in it about them being called boys and it’s like full respect for your HC but #…they canonically are? #sexuality is a bit more complex bc while nothing is canon there definitely ARE things implied and since nothing is canon I don’t think it #really matters what ur HC is but at least be able to recognise what’s in the game? like kohane and minori showing attraction to multiple #girls but never to any guys. or an being canonically interested in kohane romantically or bad dogs being implied soulmates #and like it doesn’t matter what you ship or HC but loads of ppl try to claim this doesn’t exist for the sake of winning internet arguments #which is just So stupid #specifically i see this in the wxs fandom a lot over ppl HCing them as not mspec. especially with rui like ive seen loads of arguments #caused by people pointing out that he is actually gay-coded and then people trying to counter that. usually with shipping as evidence lol #and like sure ship him with emu or nene who cares but the coding is there so maybe don’t pretend it isn’t #this fandom is weird there’s like two sides to it of ‘everyone is bi and if you don’t HC that or like m/f ships ur biphobic’ and then #there’s ‘every character should be exclusively gay and if you disagree ur homophobic’ #both of them are wrong #also i doubt clpl gives a shit about any of this #tag ramble over this fandom annoys me

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍 #but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation. #which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what) #anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴 #i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.) #anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡 #but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦 #cheers to being fools universe

[rowan-guerrins]

making this in advance

#resident evil death island #resident evil #“but rowan what if it IS good” it will not be <3 but it will be fun #and if i’m wrong it literally doesn’t matter #bc the point is it DOESNT matter if it’s good or not. so long as claire and jill interact. thas all i need baybee #i also want a rebecca claire and jill moment for diff reasons. but not in an endgame forced feminism girlboss way.

[roseandgold137]

(it's cause the other supergirls are gayer)

Mae feels gay in a very fluid way

Mae and Linda literally shared a body (i mean granted Linda went "I. AM. NOT. GAY." to comet but like comets the earth angel of love so...)

Cir-El. just everything about cir-el, but especially her laying in a bed with Traci and Natasha

plus Kara at least has one good ship with a guy that's good, which is more than the others can say (though she probably also has more good ships in general due to her appearing more)

sorry I read this then meant to post it later yesterday but I forgot 😭

#asks #I think I get what you’re saying but also. Kara is still very much a girlkisser #like no matter what girl she’s put interacting with there’s always something there #her nebulous age grouping certainly doesn’t help #supergirl #kara zor el #mae kent #linda danvers #cir el

[pepprs]

ok actually yeah. i really need to do dishes and go to bed and not stay up late mentalillnessposting a little too viscerally on tumblr the night before i facilitate a workshop in front of the literal president of the university and the vp of my division (LOL about that btw. actively shitting my pants.) but oh my GOD. so saying goodbye to lia was actually fine in the moment. neither of us cried and we talked about all the ways we’ll still be in each others lives and reasons we’ll have to interact in the near future. and she gave me an extremely heartfelt thoughtful gift and we left on a very hopeful note and i felt better and content bc there’s still the rest-of-life and we’ll see each other there. but like an hour before that as i mentioned i was HYSTERICALLY sobbing. in full view of people i know AND people i don’t. and i just sat there and sobbed while everything carried on around me. everything carried on around me!!! and i feel like im about to sob again thinking about it.

#purrs #delete later #idk. i typed a bunch here and then deleted it and now idk what to say. i just feel so lonely. i have had fucked up relationships with every #single older adult in my life and never had someone who could a) stay in my life b) be consistently present in my life c) meet my emotional #needs d) actually See me and accept me for who i am. Like not one person who can be all four of those things. and i have to be all four of t #those things for myself now because im 24 and i missed my chance. but how fucking shitty and painful is that? especially after a year like t #this. the way it’s literally ending the SAME way last year did. huge scary promotion (which i haven’t even talked about on here or to anyone #but lia today actually. but it might be huger and scarier than i thought. which is good but also HUGE -‘d scary. and not a bad thing of bc o #course but it’s so fucking… perilous? like it makes me feel profoundly imperiled because i have extremely good reason to feel that way. and #i have to endure the mortifying ordeal of applying for my own job AGAIN after the first time was so horrible. lol) and also losing a beloved #mentor figure who understood me in a way no one else did which mattered immensely even if they couldn’t do the whole presence thing or #whatever. and now i only have one older adult in my life left (aside from my therapist who doesn’t really count bc i only see her once a #week and we barely know each other still) who is like. here and helping me and i KNOW i am so sick in the head i KNOW and i should not be #writing it but every single day i am fucking terrified that i am being or will be separated from him emotionally or physically jsut like all #the others so. LOL!!!!! i am normal and well adjusted. but it’s like so fucking painful because im grasping at straws but again the reality #is im 24 and the only people on this earth who it is fair for me to expect all 4 from and who should’ve provided it to me are my parents. #and i missed my chance with them forever and now i have to do it myself. and that’s ok sometimes and i can handle it… except in the moments #where im sobbing hysterically and everything carries on. when i am in my darkest moments i want to run to an older adult and have them #comfort me but i truly cannot do that with any of the ones i still have left / regularly interact with for so many reasons. and it’s so #painful it makes me sick sometimes. and now i have to be the romy and the lia i wish to see in this world. but how can i do that when i #haven’t finished grieving over them leaving which feels like leaving ME — NOW — in this moment when i have never needed more support of that #kind more. how can isummon it within myself. im not ready yet. i need a long hug and a hand to hold that won’t (have to) let go. when im #crying i need someone to take me somewhere and comfort me and calm me down. and im 24 so i can’t ask for it. but oh my god i need it. and i #missed my chance. and lia left today and she only ever did that for me metaphorically but… tonight i feel more alone than ever. #and it’s like i don’t even have the emotional intelligence or whatever to ASK for that. bc im playing by ear and i don’t know how to read #the music of it. im self taught. that fucking sucks. that SUCKSSS. also that’s too strong a way to put it liek obviously my friends who are #closer to my age are INTEGRAL to me being able to function and i learn from them and cherish their support. but just like i can’t be a mom #to me my friends can’t either. so it’s like what the fuck do i do. get steamrolled by relentless grief and rage every day i guess. #also side note. everything carried on when i was in brighton too. i came home early ofc but it’s like nothing changed in my absence. and #that has fucked me up SUPREMELY. i think that might be a root of it. like hm… it seems my presence doesn’t have impacts. but idk

[coldvampire]

.

#plagued by thoughts and emotions. #man lmao I’ve bitched out So many times this week from reaching out to people. idk. it’s been so long that I just feel like I’m #not important enough to justify it. & I did manage a bit w one person but also ended up #retreating there too bc I just got the sense I made it awkward somehow #so yknow. really great stuff on my end hdjfk #idk idk I’m starved for meaningful social interaction I’m starved for literally anyone taking interest in me atp #it’s such a roller coaster I hype myself up > doesn’t work out > crash hard & I don’t like it. it’s exhausting! it’s really fucking sad too #I’m so tired of my own company & talking to myself all the time. I’ve heard everything I have to say already there’s only so much I can do #I don’t even know what else to say lmao I feel like I don’t really exist anymore outside of my own head #I feel like I can’t get anyone to just djjfjf care about anything I have to say no matter what? #I’m not enough my art isn’t enough whatever it was a few years ago isn’t there anymore. #and I want it to be genuine I don’t want it to be out of pity bc all that does is honestly get my hopes up a bit but it can’t/wont last #I say that for everyone’s benefit too like djjfjf I don’t want to be annoying any more than other people want to be annoyed #anyway I’m going to try to shake this off a bit bc I can’t do anything right now #and I’m not even sure I’d be in the right headspace to have a conversation without decompressing first

[soddenbeast]

Apparently staff at the venue were telling people the show was canceled so a bunch of people ended up leaving 😐they really did not give a fuck about anybody there imagine driving hours to see your favorite band and then miserably driving hours home because someone who WORKED AT THE VENUE said it was CANCELED. only to find out you MISSED THE SHOW. I would actually kill someone

#madison wasnt that bad but i hope i never have to go back to somerset what a shitshow. #rhinelander is the only town in wisconsin that matters at all. for the hodag. nothing else #i just don’t understand why you work at a concert venue where you have to interact with thousands of people #if you are just a huge bitch who doesn’t know how to talk to another human being. SORRY!!!! #mine

[quietwingsinthesky]

lucifer is so invested in sam’s perception in him because he has defined himself by that perception, whether he realizes it or not. he needs sam to see him. lucifer is a collaborative project between sam reacting to him and lucifer reacting to his reactions, taking forms and faces to try and draw sam closer and inevitably only pushing him away, making him see lucifer as more of an invader, a monster. and lucifer keeps pushing and pushing and pushing anyway. he’s sam’s dead girlfriend, he’s sam’s best friend, he’s the angel that will save sam from the darkness, he’s sam’s favorite musician, he’s the man sam has to share his son with, he’s sam himself.

#and it never works. #and then of course Lucifer can try to get away try to make a new identity for himself outside of Sam but that doesn’t really work does it #he has to be defined by someone. he has to be in opposition or collaboration with someone #he doesn’t know how to be otherwise. he just doesn’t. he falls apart. #and on a meta level of course the way Sam and hallucifer interact resets Lucifer’s entire character from then on. complete rewrite. #sam always has the power to define Lucifer. lucifer can fuck with his head or hurt him or anything. but Sam is still. he’s what matters. #what he thinks is what matters. #so lucifer chases his attention. rejects his attention. takes his attention by force. #sam is dead? no. he has to live because he has to see that lucifer saved him. #does this make. any sense. #I’m just rambling I think

[sesamestreep]

perhaps nothing better represents the feelings of isolation I’ve been experiencing lately while trying to stay connected or make new connections with people online than logging onto tumblr to find a notification for a new message, feeling approximately 3 seconds of joy and excitement before I open the message and it turns out to be from a pornbot

#that post that’s like ‘I can’t write a poem about this it’s already a poem you get it’ #except it’s this and it’s me going ‘I can’t write a joke or a critique of this the situation clowns itself’ #like….. man I am so tired of this current iteration of the internet #I try to post my photography to insta and it reaches maybe like 10 people who already have me on a close friends list #doesn’t matter what I hashtag it with those are the only people who will see it #Instagram immediately jumps to tell me I should make my content into a reel! or have I considered putting music over a random photo #Just so I can jumpscare everyone if they happen to click the photo #If I really want eyes on it I’ve got to repost it to stories and then it will only get interaction if people click through which they wont #you post stuff here and nobody likes or reblogs anything anyway #as the site becomes more and more unusable to a bigger percentage of people #but don’t worry you will have to block three people name sugar-baby-moon34 per day #all this technology at our disposal and all we’ve done with it is make it so we feel constantly surveilled and judged #without ever really feeling more connected to one another #AND IM TIRED OF IT

[yuribalisms]

Essentially what it is all boiling down to is I have fully realized I am bad at being a person, that will always be true, and I don’t know how to handle that

#I’m going to be depressing and self depreciating in the tags so. fair warning to anyone who reads them #I’ve known for a while now that I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve thought of a few ideas but none of them seem to be working. and I #think a good chunk of what it’s boiling down to is that I am quite literally just stupid when it comes to an actual useful real life skills. #and it’s frustrating because I can’t even talk to ppl I know and confide in them that I feel dumb and stupid without them being like ‘nooooo #don’t say that! you’re not stupid! you were top of your class in hs!’ (that is their favorite thing to fall back on) but like. the thing is #I wasn’t even smart in hs. sure I did good but that’s because I cheated my way through and got lucky a lot. I never actually learned anythin #I never understood what I was being taught or how to apply it. I was good at English and art classes and that was it those were the only one #I truly felt I knew what I was doing in and grasped the subject matter well. I know I’m good at those two things and smart when it comes to #those subjects. but the thing is. in real life. both of those are useless skills. I can’t make money with them and it is highly unlikely #that will ever change. and yes I know not being able to make money with it doesn’t mean it’s useless but like it kinda does. capitalism #sucks. I know that. we all do. but that doesn’t change that we live in a capitalist society and it’s unlikely to actual change in my lifetim #so I’m stuck to try and figure out how to live in it. but I have no skills I can make money with so I will live my entire life poor and #miserable and working dead end jobs that make me want to kill myself. I’m not good at socialization I’m so fucking bad at it so I can’t work #any kind of job that hinges on networking or sales or human interaction which is MOST JOBS but I’m also too stupid for anything related to #STEM. I tried two different stem degrees and flunked out of both of them because I am a FUCKING IDIOT and I know there’s no point in trying #to go back to school for another one. but no degree in anything I naturally have a knack for will help me find a decent well paying job. ill #just be wasting my money to go to school for something like that. and then like. I don’t even think I’ll ever get married and I def won’t #ever have kids. so I can’t even put any hopeful stock in just being happy with a family one day. I know a lot of ppl who don’t like their #careers but they’re fine with that because they’re happy with their family but like I don’t even have that and I won’t ever have that. I #have NOTHING to strive for and NOTHING I am good at that’s meaningful I’m going to fail at having a career and a family and I know that #doesn’t mean I won’t be happy in theory but by societal standards I am and always will be a fucking failure of a person and since I do live #in this society yeah. it’s kinda fucking true. and I don’t know what to do about that. I’m just tired. I’m tired of being afraid and #struggling and going through patches of wanting to kill myself because of this because like what’s the point. I’ll never have anything #better so what in the actual hell is the point of me existing. and I know I’m being ridiculous and my brain is eating itself and none of #this is probably even true but that doesn’t change that it FEELS like it is a lot of times and esp right now and I don’t know what to do #to anyone who reads this I’ll be fine tbh prob as soon as tomorrow like dw about it I just need to get it out so I stop stewing in it. #I’m just. yeah. not having a great time rn but I left work so I’m gonna cry and then maybe sleep for a bit and hope that helps #kaz rambles