#first the Cluster now this

[rainbowangel110]

Watching Monster Reunion

"Aw just a few things, like, 'Hi how are you?' 'Where's the bathroom?'"- *flips to the white page with three diamonds* "And... 'I'm sorry.'"

@candyskiez I blame you

#steven universe #just posting #WHAT THE FUCK HONESTLY #SO LIKE WHAT #the Diamonds used a fucking nuke on Earth to get rid of the Crystal Gem Rebellion?!?! #wait no #MORE THAN A NUKE #APPARENTLY HOMEWORLD IS IN ANOTHER GALAXY #THAT SHIT WASN'T A NUKE IT WAS BASICALLY A GRB AT CLOSE RANGE #WHAT THE HELL MAN #IT DIDN'T JUST WIPE OUT THE REBELION NO NO NO #that part was unsucessful #IT WIPED OUT YOUR OWN FORCES #THEY ARE NOW MENTALLY BROKEN FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG #..... #first the Cluster now this #the hell man #actually you know what #Diamonds fisticuffs now #I reallyyyyy don't like them rn #holy fucking hell mate #god this show is chilling at times #was really hoping we'd get a courruption heal but alas #at least Senti is with their crew

[raycatz]

I'm not including a situation where someone might be injured because in that case I'm thinking the bed goes to them by default or they are nominated for it. anyone who wants to be chatty goes to join the living room floor gang.

What are your thoughts and headcanons? Do you have thoughts on how the boys tend to approach assigning beds in inns? Who do the chain choose to sleep near when camping and why? What are their dynamics like when settling down for the night and getting ready for the day?

In "Mirror Vs Open Closet Door: Fight!" by Gintrinsic (here) Four refers to the chain's decision on how to split up between inn rooms as the "Link-per-room ratio" which I find very funny. He, Sky, and Time also talk about their thought process behind why they do or don't want to sleep in a room with some of the others which I find fun and interesting.

So! If you have thoughts and want to share them! *gestures to the post!*

#linked universe #linkeduniverse #alrighty! now for my answers- #for the ranch question I think it varies which is why I'm asking in a poll. What do you think happens most often though? #each answer is a fun scenario so it's difficult to choose #but I think they'd try to act politely around Malon and Time for the first couple visits with straws or rock paper scissors #or showing generosity by offering the bed to someone else. (I bet Malon saying they're charming is quite the incentive #for more possible compliments. The chain as a whole would want to prove her right xD ) #Once they're more comfortable in the house though I can totally see Wind and Legend making a mad dash for it while Wars yells after them xD #Wind probably ends up sharing with Four a lot since they're the littles #or Wind snuggles in with Wars Legend Wild etc #Wild and Twi/Wolfie have claimed the spot on the floor by the fireplace. #For inn rooms / castle rooms / camping - I tend to group them by how they're grouped a lot already #but a lil mixed up #Time - Sky - Wars are the good rest trio. they want a good night's rest please let them get their beauty sleep. often joined by Four #Wars goes between this group and wherever Legend is depending on how chatty he is that night. #Twi - Wild - Hyrule are snuggle/proximity buddies #Legend is attached to Hyrule's hip or sets up near Warriors to gossip and gripe. I can also see him setting up near Wild #in the eye of the storm as it were or just an interesting place to be. Wild and Hyrule can get to chatting about everything and anything #so if Legend wants background noise (Hyrule and Wild podcast omg)- #or a conversation he can be half a part of and jump in and out of while getting ready for the night or in the mornings- #this is a good place to be. add Wind and things get a bit more chaotic. #Wind gravitates to Wars and Legend too when curious and chatty. He gravitates towards Time when he wants something calmer. #Four tends to be near Sky or Twi or to Legend's group for the same reasons #I can see Four and Twi having a little book club going during downtimes where they talk about what they're reading. Sky likes to listen. <3 #Wind thinks they're nerds but so is he and he can't resist a good story so he orbits and sometimes settles in and peppers questions. #it's funny that Time Sky and Wars want to sleep the most but Legend follows Wars to chat (and ends up bringing people with him xD ) #there could be some conflict there oooo #Twi is by Time #it's almost a circle but with clusters of sleeping bags near on top of each other and filling the gaps

[sealrock]

tell me, what makes a human?

#mypost. #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv oc #gifs. #first official gpose of the yearrr #this is for kirke's no. 1 fan (thefreelanceangel) #this is the only time i'm glad for the blurriness. it adds to the creepiness of it and how you can't /exactly/ see what you're looking at #these were meant to be still images since it was vertical but i had the idea of doing a gif like i did for hector #kinda hard to see as a result but open for full size #so kirke's new lore centers around transhumanism. i'm currently redoing it and she's. this now #kirke's technically not 'human' anymore. she's a cluster of sentinent allagan nanites (made by amon) who takes over the brains of the dead #to combat decomposition she's been adding cyberkinetic addons to it overtime because she likes this body #it's hard to tell but her torso down to her pelvis has been replaced. no more flesh #'but kirke why not just make a new body from scratch?' where's the fun in that #and similar to yves she needs aether to animate her body; but instead of needing aether for consumption she uses it as a 'battery' to move #since she's a big cloud of nanites if she runs out of aether she will more or less 'die' #and it takes a lot more aether to move a dead body it takes less power to animate a robot body #she's like a deranged energizer bunny #it's not surprising that yves and kirke ended up together. he's her own charger #also didn't use her normal hair here because her eyes are integral #body horror cw #glitch cw #flashing cw #q.

[foolishnpd]

i have been CONSISTENTLY posting on my art blog for YEARS and i'm not even a quarter as popular as some other artists' untagged first posts

at what fucking point does my effort make me worthwhile, what on earth am i doing wrong, don't I deserve more attention by now-?

"oh just post consistently and you'll eventually build an audience who loves you" how about you kill yourself <3 because clearly nobody likes my stupid art, they'd rather give their attention to those undeserving ungrateful artists instead

#lilyroaring #actually npd #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b vent #vent post #art community #literally doesn't matter what platform i use #even if i suck up to the algorithms and post only my best #i get NOTHING #I'll always fucking despise other artists #uwu sorry if i'm not being a good sport about it #popularity isn't everything <3 #how about I just get what I'm owed by now instead -_- #I dump my efforts into the void and get nothing back #it's so easy for someone in that position to say it doesn't matter and you shouldn't want ti #but it really feels like my talents and effort just go unappreciated. not just in art. but in everything I do really #and after years and years of that. it fucking HURTS #thinking back. my first time considering suicide was because my art wasn't good enough #those people don't appreciate their privilege with thousands fawning over everything they make #while I pour my heart and soul into it only to want to off myself when I get nothing back over and over and over and over and over and

[sneez]

since i started testosterone in february i have been reading a stanza of andrew marvell’s poem ‘the garden’ every month to track the way my voice has changed. today i finished it :-)

#my voice #does it belong in that tag given that i am speaking and not singing. ah well in it goes #andrew marvell #it is exciting to finally be able to post this! given the nature of the project i've been working on it for a while #i can't remember if i was initially intending to post it but i think it's neat so you guys can see it too :-) a questionable gift unto ye #it's one of my favourite ever poems which is why i picked it. partly because it's a cracking poem but also because the garden in #question is very likely fairfax's garden given that marvell wrote it whilst he was living at his house to tutor his daughter :-) #i love the line about melons. i love the idea that fairfax was growing melons. his melonship #also 'the luscious clusters of the vine upon my mouth do crush their wine' is such incredible imagery i think about it all the time #stopping myself now before i start explaining all my favourite parts of the poem because then i would just be reciting the whole poem #sorry the audio quality changes quite a bit by the way i kept changing where i recorded #oh also i skipped a month because my voice hadn't changed at all (between the first and second stanzas i think) which is why the #number of months doesn't quite match up to the number of stanzas #i do wish i had recorded a stanza when i was one month on T given that my voice barely changes in the last few verses. ah well #anyway i hope you enjoy it my dear friends :-) holding you all in my arms #also as usual i have a few messages and things to answer so i will do that soon! i have been enjoying being active again after so long :-) #ive got a song to post soon too. he he ho ho ho. hum hum hum

[nekrophoria]

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#Don't mind me I just need to vent real quick #Ignore this post by all means #Just feeling anxious af right now #Have barely been able to sleep the last two weeks #Plus I'm feeling even more I'll than usual and it just won't pass #Might be down to lack of sleep ofc #Or stress #Cuz I'm basically stressed 24/7 for no reason #Eitherway my gut keeps telling me something is seriously wrong #Like I'm seriously ill #But ofc I can't tell whether that's just anxiety #My doctor just gives me a shrug whenever I show up there #And getting a therapist in this economy is almost impossible #They don't even put you on waiting lists anymore cuz they're just too long #I wouldn't even know which type of therapy to go for anymore #Cuz my diagnoses are a giant cluster fuck and I don't know what to tackle first #It's just a tad bit overwhelming at times #Sorry #Needed to let this out somewhere real quick #Illness tw #Mental illness tw #nonsims #saviorhide

[bonerey]

im ok it doesnt even matter we're on a rock hurtling through space at unimaginable speeds i dont think this is my biggest problem

#im a cluster of cells replicating itself . i think because of electrical impulses in the thing i call my brain #and all of this is real and the moon is bigger then i could imagien and that is real and in the same universe as i am and isnt that insane? #to think that its just as solid as i am. to think that its tangible like i could reach up and touch it #this is real. i am sitting in a chair and thats real also. everything i see in my room is tangible. isnt that crazy. #sight is so fucking weird. i know where things are. this is so crazy why do i feel like im seeing for the first time #maybe the sleep deprivations getting to me #the universe is just as real as i am... the universe is as solid as the keys underneath my fingers.... thats so crazy. i feel sick. #and what a wonderful thing it is to ask questions. and what a wonderful thing it is to experience. and i dont think that anxiety matters- #-anymore. the earth is bigger then i can possibly conceive of. and to think of other planets bigger then our own... crazy... #im so aware of my breathing now its crazy i feel like its just going to stop. like the world is going to crack in two #sorry this sounds insane i think. dont read this post

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Nod culture is having a violent visceral reaction to any perceive threat the the integrity of your identity. Nobody can be like me or else they're stealing my identity and I hate them.

#cluster b culture is #npd culture is #cluster b #npd #Mod Reef #anonymous #MOOD #and then i assume everyone else thinks the same i do #so if someone talks about something being part of their identity first i now can't talk about it being part of my identity because #''oh god they'll think i'm copying and hate me oh no''

[ablednt]

NPD BPD combo will make you feel like a starving wild circus animal every time you remember other people exist

#ok to rb #vent tw #it's like. we have a member who has NPD proper as cohost now #so our BPD and NPD symptoms have been combined into one worse thing #and it's baby's first Real Narc Crash and Ive been having RSD inflicted panic attacks every day #and I'm getting really fucking exhausted so the point where Im thinking stuff like 'I wish I could kms rn but that'd be too shitty and I #know this shit has to get better eventually because it has before so Im just #trying to relax #and in this case it's not like I have imo a compelling reason like my friends are all paying a proportionate amount of attention to me #to the energy for friends they have to give like I'm not being NEGLECTED #but I am so attention starved it's actually insane #and if it were just that itd be fine but I'm pmsing and Ive been losing sleep #from a mix of medical issues and exotraumatic nightmares #so I'm just. I'm absolutely Fucking Miserable #and its nobodies fault so instead of getting pissed off at someone Im just pissed off at everyone and no one at the same time #I just want to feel special again but its like. even if I DID feel comfortable asking for more attention #1. It wouldn't feel genuine and nothing my friends could easily do would stop it from not feeling genuine #2. I've been cluster B long enough to know that this stuff has to sort itself out naturally #asking for vallidation can be good at the right times but when I'm wanting to rely on it most thats when I need to find something else #but genuinely IDFK anymore man like I'm too tired to do shit I feel like all of my energy this month has been #STOPPING myself from doing stuff so when I try and think about what I actually Want To Do I feel so obstructed and exhausted I feel like #there's nothing fulfilling rn bc my stupid ass brain is like why find joy in anything if everyone hates you and you don't matter #(<- literally no one in my life has even implied this but. that's just how mental illness goes sometimes) #I just need to hang on until this narc crash is over and my friend groups aren't in the middle of like #2 million different things we're all struggling with stopping us from hanging out very much #I do think this happens every winter though #Ironically I love the winter weather and the rain and cold and gray (idk if I have SAD but if I do it's for the summer) #but I never enjoy the season like I want to because it's the most busy time of year so everyone is stressed out and doesn't have much time #to vibe like I want to so I end up just feeling pretty miserable until the slow time of year when people can relax more #It's usually like

[pepprs]

mission failed we’ll get em next time 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i literally can’t quit omg i feel so fucking bad. it wasn’t so bad this time but also HE LITERALLY FORCED ME TO COME OUT LKKE GIRL HELLO???? #he cornered me and asked me if redacted had to do w my s*duality and i was like ummmmm. yeah 🫣 and he was like now why didn’t you say that t #the first time 🤨 and i was like …………. 😳. AND THEN i asked him why he asked me that and he said he’s been waiting for the right moment to get #it out of me and he always suspected it LIKE HELLO I THINK THAT IS POSSIBLY WILDLY INAPPROPRIATE I WANTED TO DIEEEEEE #and i lied right to his face abt stuff w my mom and also the redacted situation bc i always feel in trouble whenever i talk abt them w him #and also he asked how things were w my mom and i told him and he was like that’s great but how are things with YOU and yoir mom 🤨. UGHHHHH #and i can’t leave bc his supervisor is gravely ill and they haven’t talked abt doing inter generational therapy w me yet which is what they #want to do <- hasn’t looked it up yet and doesn’t know what it receals about me. and he also is like yet agai. trying to get me to separate #myself from data expunged AND ITS LIKE OMGGGG NOTHING IS HAPPENING WHY DO I HAVE TO THROW AWAY A GOOD THING THAT IS WORKING FOR ME JUST FOR #THE SAKE OF CONFORMING TO SOME STUOID MENTAL HEALJT STANDARD. so yeah ummmmm idk what to dooooo i know im not getting the best possible care #and this whole thing has been a cluster fuck but he validated my reaction to something for the first time like EVER today and he has plans a #and what if they work. and like omg if i drop it on him he’ll be so hurt and surprised like it will really come out of nowhere and i don’t w #want to look like even more of a fool to him than iam. but he says i can’t withhold stuff bc it’s doing me a disservice and we need to see t #the fullness of who i am to get to the root and solve problems and stuff but it’s like uhmmmm… but you don’t make me feel safe for reacting #the way i do or wanting things to work out in a way you disagree with so how can i bring out all the parts of me if you don’t make me feel a #safe and unjudged for doing so like. lol. the thought of leaving him makes me feel so guilty and stupid bc it s like why are you throwing aw #away sliding scale therapy that could turn out to be really useful and running away when ppl tell you things abt yourself you don’t like to #admit and force you to look at your hard ugly truths. but also the thought of working w him until july after already having had 16 weeks of #this literaly makes me fucking insane so idk what to do and finding a new counselor would be so hard and i don’t have time or money. UGHHHH! #purrs #delete later #like how am i gonna walk out on him when we just spent all this time talking abt how this new technique will bring me into a new season. AUG

[dragons-in-spaceee]

Been in a dark sky area again so I’ve got more space photos :)) will post them tomorrow

It’s been a brilliant night (I say that like the night is over, but I’m just getting some sleepy time now) - the Persied meteor shower is already hitting and I saw about 8 meteors tonight! Two of them were so bright I could see the smoke trail, one was super long lasting and clearly quite red!

#I’m vibing so hard rn #also said hi to andromeda for the first time in ages!!! #I’ve missed her #it’s just been so cloudy and light until now #plus the double cluster!!! my fave cluster fr #I wouldve spent more time with the binocs but I wanted to spend more time #getting a wider view on account of the meteors

[yooniesim]

Literalite, sojutrait and all their cliquey ass friends are just a bunch of hypocrites, sitting on their high horse, trying to destroy everyone who calls them out on stuff. They're the ones who keep dragging this out because they thrive on attention. You're a good person, Ceci. Hope you know that ❤

Thank you, nonny. They're both seriously awful & proud of it apparently. I ignored this ask for several days, but when I see shit like this, why bother? They consider it harassment & fixation just to point out they lied their asses off (and continue to lie) to their thousands of followers. I pinned the post because the original was full of lies and I have yet to see a single thing proving otherwise because it does not exist. I say that confidently even in a time where everyone screenshots everything that happens immediately, because I know I'm right. The events the way they described them simply never occurred, and they can't get away from that fact, which is why they're still bullshitting to ignore the actual issue even now. It's just like how there's no proof of Seph ever doing any actual "peacekeeping" at any point in time, other than the act of "kindness" of joining the server itself, which says absolutely nothing besides he sat there and read what was said just like 200+ other people. There was never an attempt to come to an understanding between us, no added perspective on behalf of his friends, no meeting in the middle during discussions/disputes. The one time I actually asked for his help with a situation related to both of our friend groups, I was straight up ignored. And every time I've asked for any type of empathy or understanding, I either haven't gotten any. So what peacekeeping, honestly, can he say he's done? I'd be curious to know, though I'm well aware I'm never going to get an answer, because it never happened. That's why you never hear a detailed account of anything that occurred, or god forbid an actual screenshot.

While I have plenty to back up what I've done, including an extensive account of very much punishing the person responsible for what they're pinning on me because it's convenient for their made-up narrative (and there's nothing else for them to use besides "she likes kpop too much for our personal tastes" which shows how shallow it all really is). And they can't refute that, so they have to resort to acting like I should've had the power to... somehow prevent someone from sending a message in a group chat before they sent it? If that sounds like nonsense, that's because it obviously is, and they don't even realize how ridiculous it was to say. Not to mention the silly, middle-school "cohorts" concept about people I only knew online in a public server, that I was not "warned about" by them in any capacity, which is yet another lie to add to the pile. It shows they find people that agree with you on the internet to be your ride or die friends, which explains a lot. And yes, I am very much able to call out people I was formerly friendly with when I get evidence of them showing their true colors, even when it's towards people I'm not particularly fond of, because that's what you're supposed to do- but clearly none of them have learned that yet. Instead it's always "my friend is never wrong because... they're my friend" or "the enemy of my entirely self-perceived enemy is my friend", which shows the immaturity in their thought processes. I don't find them any different than any of the others spewing false allegations, microaggressions, shit talking, or bigotry, because they're not. They just don't have the self-awareness to see what they do compared to when they're happily criticizing the people they don't like. That's why they're always convinced people are mad at them for "having fun" or "having friends", they have to victimize themselves to distract from their own shitty actions.

This entire post by sojutrait is nothing actually substantial because there's nothing to lean on other than being vaguely edgy & rude, better than, and using words and concepts they don't seem to fully understand. You can really tell no thought or deeper meaning was put into it at all. Just like how Seph's earlier response was absolutely nothing relevant as well. Both are obviously more or less a performance for their own egos and to justify their blatant lies so, as Seph said, they can be stable and happy and sleep at night despite the obvious hate they bring to others. Because if they'd truly moved on & were so much better than me, they wouldn't have posted either in the first place. (Including the tags- if I was lying, why didn't you just take your friend's advice and ignore it? Is it because you don't want anyone to see it and question you? Because posts like that with no proof should be questioned, precisely because of situations like this. You lied, you know it, and now you're caught in it.) People that are unbothered don't need to repeatedly tell you how unbothered they are... if they do, chances are they really aren't. They only want me to "move on" because they can't stand being criticized, it burns them up inside and you can tell. Which is a shame, because I don't care about them having fun with their friends, but I do care about this vile and embarrassing behavior that has gone on for years unchecked. They're not "consequences" if you had to outright lie to get them to happen, including knowingly using those lies to encourage disgusting asks... that's a "harassment campaign", one they're doubling down on despite knowing it's wrong and what they alone caused. That they never would've even had the guts to try if they hadn't known I was in a vulnerable place at the time, which is sad and gross enough. They should both honestly be ashamed and I hope they do some serious growth in the next five years or so to gain a little empathy and maturity because they desperately need it. Both in public and in private. Especially if they continue preaching accountability and self-reflection while never once (I challenge you to check) embracing those concepts themselves.

#asks #anonymous #ceci speaks #negative #nonsims #im the one that called the racist out for it yet somehow im the one that allowed it huh #wouldve been way easier to allow it if i just never pointed it out in the first place lol #im convinced people dont think before they type #but bias makes that hard too #nothing in either of those posts fooled me one bit #depressingly transparent and tactless #the more you mock the worse you make yourselves look #nothing to do with me atp #however i give you credit #i expected you to tell me to kill myself by now #shoulda known yall posted some dumb shit bc i started getting gross anons in a cluster #aint working tho #im still here and yall are still wrong for this #despite the public display of ass kissing #long post

[mrsblackruby]

Idk if this has anything to do with my low empathy but it’s easy for me to believe but not easy for me to trust and believe. However I personally consider myself pretty optimistic but swear people look at me like I’m “crazy” because I don’t think I’m a Negative Nancy. I’m starting To notice that to others I seem pessimistic. Which once again I’m left in a state of bewilderment and confusion. I put this on everything I may bring up the high probability of the world going to absolute shit but I still have hope in finding Sanctuary in this life time

I get it if you can’t relate even I don’t fully know the point I’m trying to make on this post

#mental health support #my adhd #cluster b #low empathy problems #low empathy #been tested by psychologist got told I have an unspecified mood disorder #at first I was like wtf but now it makes sense #like ohhh😮 ​deadass I am batshit a little bit #personal vent

[coquelicoq]

one specific thing that i'd like to get better at w/r/t crossword theme generation is identifying not just words that contain a specific set of letters but phrases that contain a specific set of letters. for instance. i'm working on a theme right now in which types of shoes are going to be hidden within the long answers. for some, there are longer single words that contain those letters (e.g., toolBOOTh, MOCha, conFLATe), but for others i'm going to have to go over a word boundary, which takes me out of the territory of Things That Can Eventually Be Found If You Read The Dictionary For Long Enough (my usual strategy lol). the problem is i have absolutely no idea how to get better at this. but in good news, today i came up with both "muscle atrophy" and "oracle at delphi" for "cleat" and "warts and all" for "sandal" almost right away. so...i just need to keep doing that? somehow? how are other constructors doing this all the time??

#and how was anybody doing this before the 'contains' search function on thefreedictionary.com existed?? #cruciverbs #my posts #i went on my crossword theme generation walk today and came up with nine theme ideas. NINE. #and i would have done more but i had to stop just bc if i came up with any more i wouldn't be able to hold them in working memory #long enough to get home and write them down #i should really take my phone with me on these walks lol #turns out one of the nine is an idea i've come up with before but haven't followed through on yet. maybe i should do that one next #i gotta focus on the shoe one first though and unfortunately i won't be able to use 'warts and all' unless i can come up with a second #answer containing sandal. because 'sandal' will be in a rebus square which means it'll be part of both an Across and a Down answer #but i really want to use warts and all :( #and i kind of think the second answer shouldn't include 'and' because that feels repetitive #so what are my options? '_s andal_' are there any common english expressions containing the word andalusia? i don't think so #'_sa ndal_' illegal word-initial consonant cluster so that's out. '_san dal_' are there any spanish saints with names beginning in dal-? #'_sand al_' or '_sand a l_' sand something. thousand something. ampersand something. hm. #'_sanda l_' sanda at the end of a word is not super promising #i think '_sand al_' is my best bet so now i gotta think of things related to sand that start in al-. or things that start with al- that #there are a thousand of #sand alloy. sand aluminum. sand algae. terrible. painfully bad. #this is what i need to get better at but idek where to start

[nicojoe]

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#i'm really open to SO much re: the sequel but i am super wary of the rumor that we'll #''find out what causes immortality'' and so they start creating more and more new immortals #please don't explain it we don't need to know it completely undermines the thesis of the first film #which is that ''the reason doesn't matter as long as you spend your time on earth loving and helping others'' #also i don't want the found family bond being diluted by an influx of brand new ''manufactured'' immortals #(now... an entirely different ''sense8 cluster'' of 6 immortals who are natural/not made? i can work with that idea more) #personal #will probably delete later

[iamacolor]

after finally motivating myself to work on two repair project I've had for a while ( a pair of worn out jeans and a torn pair of shorts), i worked on them non stop for almost 3 hours and now that I'm done I see the mess I've unconsciously made around me - the repairs are neat and nice but I've thrown bits and pieces of fabrics, tracing paper and thread all around me without paying attention because my brain was too focused on the "must repair these clothes nicely" task to go ahead and avoid the "must clean everything up all at once" task and had no consideration for the future me

#when I start sewing and making things at home it's like the rest of the world/time doesn't really exist lol #at work I'm able to remind myself to keep things clean and not just lose myself in it #but on my own it's like I'm sucked in by the task and the rest is soooo unimportant #and then I finish and get back to my right mind and see the result lol #and sometimes I realise I've been hungry for a while or thirsty but during the making process I couldn't really register it #it's a good thing I did most of my studies years at my parent's lol or I would've had such a messed up schedule #anyway on to picking everything up now! but first a snack #vinformation #I am generally bad at putting things right back into their place though which is a shame because I live in a small place that's easily #clustered but it's kind of comforting to have everything at hand lol