#focusing problems

[idliketobeatree]

you wear guilt like shackles on your feet like a halo in reverse depeche mode | halo

#good omens #good omens fanart #crowley #anthony j crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #good omens art #art #drawing #artists on tumblr #the body swap #go s1 #colored sketch #my art #aziraphale in his demon's body having a moment of contemplation. what's he thinking about? that's a secret #only after i finished i realised i could make the horns into a HALO to really drive the point home but. too late now #/i have 324253 wips so i've dug up an older sketch and recolored it again because it was easier. havin problems focusing on new work aaa #aaand the resolution being weird again. sori #hope you enjoy anyways <3 #orange hyperfixation going mf STRONG #also. don't be shy in the tags i know how he looks like. lmao

[catcze]

WWAIT WAIT WAIT PAUSE I HAD A VISION /!??!?!?!

Modern AU with mechanic Wriothesley who fixes up your car for you and jokes that if you want you don't have to pay, just let him take you out to dinner. He doesn't expect you to actually say yes but he is so pleasantly surprised when you do? And oh the way he's such a gentleman when he picks you up for dinner, bringing you a bouquet of roses and shit.

And later on when you both are going steady you like to just pop by his shop and hang around him while he works, scrolling on your phone or telling him about your day so he has something to listen to while he works. And occasionally, when he pops back up from working on the underside of a car, you'll see some dirt smeared on his cheek, so you beckon him over and wipe it away for him and the way he loooooks at you when you do that oh my goodness

#「 🐈‍⬛ 」 strawberry.cupcakes #wriothesley x reader #genshin impact x reader #cw gn reader #came to me in a vision because i thought of Wrio in one of those white sleeveless shirts leaning over the open hood of your car #his brow furroed as he tries to assess what the problem is and looking so hot and so focused and omg this guy wants to have dinner with you #LIKE SAY LESS LETS GO OH MY GODDDD

[qtubbo]

Tubbo statement on how he values the eggs over others, and that he straight up would kill Fred his literal love interest if it came down to it. Now getting this actually tested, and his conviction actually being stronger than previously stated. He would kill for the eggs, he would even kill himself or his close friends. He will put his entire life into looking for the eggs when kidnapped, even ones he does not know well because their kids. Even to the extent of searching and getting panicked for Pomme because she’s bad’s daughter and could be in danger.

Normally people have less conviction when put into the actual stressful situation but Tubbo showed he will do more than he ever said.

#qsmp #Qsmp tubbo #I think it becomes even more noticeable when you compare it to the other people online who just went not my egg not my problem #He was willing to do everything for Bad because his kid was in danger he didn’t need to involve himself he could have focused on sunny #But instead he looked for Pomme just to make sure Eve wouldn’t touch her to have a second piece of Blackmail for bad

[bladesmitten]

"wdym wyll didn't get romance content? he has new kisses!" which every companion got. meanwhile he still can't be kissed or hug in the epilogue. which you can do with every companion. he still doesn't have multiple unique romance greetings. which every companion has btw. he's still lacking reactivity after his act 3 romance scene. don't be deliberately fucking obtuse

#.txt #i made this post bc this patch was focused on romance but that doesnt mean this is the only problem with larian's treatment of wyll

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Izutsumi character study

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #One of my goals for this year was to spend more time doing art studies. #What better way to start than with my favourite danmeshi character (not seen: a whole page of figuring out her features) #I feel like she is by far one of the most poorly understood characters in the series. Partially due to her 'late party member' status. #'She's abrasive and mean' - 'she's a picky eater' - 'she's a catgirl who acts like an asshole cat ' YES and that is the point! #Everyone in dungeon meshi is traumatized and messy about it but izutsumi is just less polite in how she tries to cope. #Izutsumi is a extremely traumatized teenager who has utterly lacked autonomy her entire life. #She is the epitome of a “If I can just have X thing then all my problems will be solved!” character. And the X is 'Freedom'. #Her epilogue was one of the best and wrapped up her character so wonderfully (WARNING: I WILL NOW SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING) #Because she finally gets her freedom! She can go where she wants to and she doesn't need anybody! Yet...it doesn't fix her. #She is so focused on doing only what she wants that she forgets her own needs. Sometimes you have to eat the things you don't want. #And sometimes you have to face the hard truths that you need more than just one thing to make you happy. #Life is not all about only seeking pleasures and avoiding pain. You need to be balanced in order to grow. #Eat your vegetables (including the metaphorical ones: I am eating more art veggies this year by doing art studies!!!)

[journal-from-the-heart]

i think, for trauma survivors, especially those who were emotionally abused, invalidated, or gaslit, it is really important not to underestimate the significance of speaking bluntly about what happened to you. Forcing yourself not to beat around the bush, not to downplay what you went through with your words. say what happened, without any caveats, without any “but it could’ve been worse”, “but i might just be being overdramatic”, “but it wasn’t really THAT bad,” and so forth. sit with the discomfort until you can begin to let yourself realize that it WAS that bad, you WERENT being overdramatic, and even if it could’ve been worse you still didn’t deserve it. It’s almost like a form of reclamation, taking back your memories, taking back your life, even the difficult or gross parts, and refusing to let anyone change the narrative or tell you how you should feel anymore, even yourself. and it hurts and it’s scary and it feels weird and awkward and sometimes you want to convince yourself you’re lying, but i think sitting in those weird feelings and letting yourself admit that you really did go through trauma puts the power back in your hands to process things and be compassionate to yourself while you heal

#like. recently i’ve been reflecting a lot on this trauma i have with this absolutely godawful english teacher i had in grade 7 #he was an absolute creep and even though he never touched me i knew he touched other girls and made even creepier comments to them #than he did to me. and i never really had time to fully understand the gravity of the damage he did to me because i was #so focused on the fact that it could’ve been worse and he never even actually touched me or got that close to me save a few times #but yesterday as i was reflecting on this i finally got myself to admit. i was terrified of him and i was terrified for every fucking minute #that i spent in that class. and i was a child who never should’ve had to deal with that and it’s clear that i still have a lot of problems #from that whole event. and the more times i repeat that and get myself to understand it. the more i’m able to be compassionate to myself now #and patient with myself in the things i struggle with as a result of what happened #childhood trauma #trauma #cptsd healing #cptsd recovery #cptsdawareness #trauma survivor #trauma recovery

[slonechnik]

oh but what do you see in harry why do you like him so much whats so good about him he stinks hes an addict hes done fucked up shit hes not even cute how can you find anything attractive in him how do you find anything good like AAAAAAAA

ITS ABOUT CHOICE! THERES SO MANY BAD OPTIONS TO CHOSE FROM BUT THERE IS STILL AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO SOMETHING INCREDIBLY KIND AS HARRY

YOU CAN BE AN ULTRALIBERAL YOU CAN BE A MORALIST A FASCIST EVEN BUT YOU CAN ALSO CONSCIOUSLY CHOSE NOT TO PURSUE ANY OF THESE ROUTES

ITS ABOUT HAVING CAPACITY TO DO GOOD IN A WORLD THAT ACTIVELY DISCOURAGES YOU FROM IT IN A SYSTEM THAT EVEN PUNISHES YOU FOR IT

ITS ABOUT CAPACITY FOR CHANGE ITS ABOUT THE BEAUTY OF HUMAN RESILIENCE

and honestly so what if hes an addict! im surrounded by addicts! theres an alcoholic living next door theres acoholics at a family function theres a bunch sitting at a bench near the church or at the park theres an addict i love theres an addict i just met or some that i just heard of and some are kind some are not some are trying to get help some arent some stopped using and some havent and they all deserve at least the basic modicum of respect and kindness and aid harry might be fictional but all his troubles and ailments are not theyre real things that happen to real people! and i do empathize with that! sometimes i even relate! and it does make me love him as a character very much!

and frankly i dont care if hes conventionally attractive im tired of conventionally attractive im tired of seeing the same cardboard cutout of a pretty face and perfect abs okay! i find the receding hairline delightful! i love a belly! thick arms are wonderful! i dont care that his ass is flaccid thats where all our asses head towards and theres beauty in it! and in the flamboyant mismatched clothing and weird hairstyles and questionable facial hair! and idc abt the bloating or the redness i have a red face too! perpetually! i think its cute! and its also a testament to the resilience of human body and it is inherently beautiful to me!

and he stinks bc hes on a bender and forgot everything and doesnt even know what money is give him time honestly you can work up to a good hygiene and a good routine

okay im done goodbye

#disco elysium #harry dubois #harrier du bois #riemblings #ive seen one post too many ill probably feel stupid about this tomorrow but for now im going to sleep or finish writing my stupid essay #i hate having adhd but thats besides the point okay #i love harry a lot idcidcidcisc #message me with your harry critique when you manage to not make it abt his disabilities or his looks or his addiction #hes far from perfect hes done horrible things! and yet everyone is focused on him having shit hygiene and a drug and alcohol problem #okay im fine now!! im fine! im okay!!

[spooksier]

some sketches for a piece im doing for class :-) i <3 freaks

#art zone #body horror cw #suicide ment #not tagging this as tma bc there's no real piece in this its just some sketchies #but it is still tma #i think i may have convinced every person in my class to listen to magnus lmao #they had so many questions about the designs and what their problems were #good thing i love talking about em! #actual art coming soon i just gotta do it lmao #my prof loved just the faces so much that he wants me to redo the entire composition so its focused on their faces head in hands

[crybaby-bkg]

I’ve been taking crocheting lessons for the past few weeks and I finally made something and I’m legit so proud I can’t stop thinking about it 😭😭😭😭😭😭

#the only downside is that. it’s a pair. so I have to make the other one ALSJDKDJDJD #TORTURE!!!!!!! #but sooo worth it omg #it’s very relaxing for me which is good bc I have so many Problems #but the only thing about doing this is it takes quite a while #and I wanna read and write some fics but I keep getting so focused on crocheting 😭 #I’ll post a pic once I’m done! <3 #I wanna try a blanket next since I have some thick and fluffy yarn :3 #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[pyrefection]

there needs to be more fic of the ghouls being satans little helpers. running errands and attending mass, working their ministry jobs and living normal daily life

#i just love them so much #and i’m obsessed with their character #and i need more like #not heavy relationship focused fic #pyre rambles #fyi i have no problem wifh romantic/pairing fic #i love them #but i want some daily life too

[androdragynous]

universally applicable problem solving guidelines:

are you making up a guy in your head who will be angry at you for doing a thing?

stop doing that. the imaginary person who hates you should not be a determining factor in anything. "making a guy up to be mad at you" is a step below "making a guy up to be mad at" and it's not good for you.

are you denying yourself joy because of some arbitrary goal you are making yourself reach first?

stop doing that. you are allowed to be kind to yourself without needing to earn it, and putting things off for some nebulous "better time" to do them just means you won't ever do them. live a little.

if there is nothing stopping you from doing the thing right now, do it.

there are no workarounds for this you've just gotta do it. even if it sucks. especially if it sucks. sorry.

#source i am disabled and have adhd. yes changing these habits is hard but youve gotta just decide youre changing them. #patch me through to palaven command #almost every problem with a short term self-focused solution falls into these three groups i recommend them

[knightmareaceblue]

Cyberweek 2024 Day Five: Crossover

Pfft, I've been on an AvA kick recently, so I guess it's not too surprising that I chose this. On one hand, this crossover works well in theory. The stick figures are all fast, kinetic learners and really good at demonstrating their earned skills and knowledge.

On the other hand, the sheer tonal dissonance is hilarious.

#Cyberchase #Cyberweek2024 #Animation vs Animator #AvA #Animation vs Math #Day Five: Crossover #Matt #Jackie #Inez #Digit #Hacker #Euler's Integer #The Second Coming #TSC #Orange AvA #One is a little kid's show about applying math and science practically and focuses on problem-solving #With very little action #The other is an online series focusing on high-octane fight scenes #Much hilarity would ensue if they were put in the blender together #Knightmare Art

[ofbreathandflame]

feyre 'stans' (*cough* feysand stans) have such an interesting relationship with feyre - where, they can't decide whether to view feyre as a full-fledged adult or little more than a child. bc its like - if you always view feyre as a victim of her circumstances, then she's not an active, morally ambiguous character. or - they don't actually view her as an actual character, rather, an easy extension of rhys that can be projected into. im inspired by this video again, and specifically the discussions about rhysand's ability to see feyre as an equal - or even just an individual person.

like in the case of silver flames, feyre 'stans' often try to validate rhysand's actions, by affirming that he's 'just standing up for feyre..'

and you could argue that - but feyre has already established on multiple occasions that she feels uncomfortable with the way rhys decides to 'stand-up' for her in regards to her sisters. and when confronted with this - rhysand immediately assumes that feyre will (1) forgive him and (2) have sex with him. its a moment of complete insanity - where rhysand doesn't even believe that his constant lack of boundary actually entails serious consequences. thats not a man whose actually concerned abt feyre's opinions, or actually hurting feyre. he'd rather openly trigger feyre at that dinner table, then actually respect and take a step back. but to argue that rhysand's behavior is okay even when feyre doesn't believe means that you guys don't actually view her decisions to be confidently her own. bc the emphasis is always geared towards validating the actions rhysand takes, and not feyre's opinions on the matter. there's a difference between giving feyre this 'power' and giving feyre the tools and information needed to actually wield that power. there's a difference between rhys disliking nesta or elain treating them as he sees fit v. rhys disliking nesta, but giving feyre the space she needs to deal with them, and respecting the boundary she has clearly reiterated in regards to how he should treat and interact with them.

and its like these are the moments where we see parallels with what the story argues about tamlin - where his way of 'protecting' was uncomfortable towards feyre, and she establishes that she doesn't want to be protected in that way. and we get something similar in maf where feyre literally gets into an argument with rhys bc she established that his behavior with keir was unacceptable. but even when feyre stans see that - they still rush to validate rhysand's behavior. and its like we get multiple instances where rhys will often just take measures within his own hands, and the argument is never about how wrong it is that he does - but that his intentions trump feyre's opinion; specifically when rhysand goes behind feyre's back to make a diplomatic decision with keir and eris and does not tell feyre (and mor) bc he knows they will disagree. that is not the decision of a man who actually values the existence of a co-ruler. or even the decision to tell another high lord the complications of feyre's pregnancy but NOT THE WOMEN GIVING BIRTH to said child. even when faced with the absolute certainty of her death (feyre is almost guaranteed to die) he still doesn't even loop her in. and its important bc feyre is going to die. there's no argument, so the idea of 'stress' makes no sense bc she's going to die. the story is very blunt about it.

but AGAIN feyre established 'no more secrets.' she also established that she wants to always be kept in the loop (even if someone deems xyz dangerous; that was literally the entire point of feyre's mental breakdown. she didn't care that going with tamlin could cause her harm, she wants to make the decision). you see how even though tamlin believes its unsafe (and ig it is) its not his decision, and the emphasis is put on feyre's opinion and not tamlin's intentions? why aren't we keeping this same energy, like ever.

and that's the ick part - even if rhys hates nesta. even if we argue that nesta 'was abusive' - feyre has established that she (1) doesn't want rhysand to speak about them or to them disrespectfully (2) that she does not approve of his behavior. (3) that she always wants to be informed on everything. she also laments that her worst fear being deemed 'not enough' or 'not useful' which one of the leading reason she decides to go with tamlin at the end of maf - she didn't believe she was useful. that rhysand can consistently prove that he doesn't believe feyre to be unworthy of information regarding her own body, court and family should be a slap in the face to be people who claim to 'love only her.'

and yet - when confronted with rhysand's behavior (both in previous books and the last) the race is to validate his behavior and not feyre's opinions. so everytime time 'feyre stans' present an argument thats geared toward validating rhysand's actions and not the boundaries that feyre established. side eye.

either feyre is an adult, who is old enough to rule a nation, have a child, and have her own opnions. or she's little more than a child who needs certain decisions made for her bc y'all disagree with them. or she's person capable of making mistakes, having flaws, and actually making conscious (morally ambiguous) decisions that we the audience can agree or disagree with. we can't argue that she an eternal victim of every circumstance, while denying her agency in moments where she's actually the victim. or argue that she morally grey and complex and then justify the behavior and combat when people might have differing opinions. as is the point of being a morally grey character.

i think we need to do away with 'morally-grey' as a descriptor. or it needs to be expounded on in a meaningful way. being morally ambiguous means we should look closer into the actions of the character, because often how they chose to solve their problems says something about them. im just tired of 'morally-grey' used as the justification of an action, instead of a conversation starter.

#anti sjm #anti feyre #anti feysand #anti rhysand #anti acomaf #this is actually an old post but a discussion me and mc had bout this very problem with feyre and how she is positioned #made a lightbulb come out #and the last post i made about how people chose to selective read and selectively apply analysis that are often dependent on #removing actual context across books #focusing only on the explanation given #and not how that explanation or information actually measures against previously established information #in this case - never actually think about feyre as a fully fledged character #but instead placing her into this chunked analysis that are dependent on ignoring #what *she* has already established across the story

[yazthebookish]

I'm pretty much drawing more boundaries because a lot of people get too comfortable in this fandom to go out of their way to be shitty (and a lot of readers and creators face this too)

You don't agree with my opinions on fiction? Please move on because I don't care. It's a huge fandom you'll find your own people. You don't like me as a person? Okay stranger on the internet, you can move on too and if stalking and shitting on me makes you feel better about yourself and helps you feel validated, I hope you will find healthier outlets and coping mechanisms one day to channel that anger—but in the end it reflects more on you as a person than it does on me.

I'm not changing my content and opinions to appease people.

The longer someone deals with all this chaotic mess, the more they're immune to it from experience that's why I'm not bothered by it but I still don't understand people going out of their way to cross boundaries. It's an immediate block from me, I have better things to do.

#fandom bs #I've been having alot of fun focusing on content and posting about things I love #rather than engage in drama #it really pushes me to my peak #I will post theories and opinions because I enjoy them #I appreciate it when people like it and I can respect people who disagree #but don't make it my problem that you don't like it #January 2024 was a great month so I really want to make up for 2023

[galedekarios]

in case anyone thought i was joking. larian literally made it impossible to romance gale right now, unless you already have had the romance scene in act ii.

#sometimes i am glad that larian is so engaged with the fandom #and most of the time i am not #anyhow #would love it larian focused on actual problems #like act iii #like h*lsin or k*rlach's botched romance flags #and stopped trying to fix something that wasn't broken in the first place #and more down to people not being able to read or just jumping onto whatever bandwagon is most popular atm #text: personal #bg3 spoilers

[pixxyofice]

(massages temples) how do I tell people that Hunter's writing is good in season 2B AND that the fact that Willow befriends him and brushes things off and doesn't do that for Amity is actually consistent and not a writing flaw

Here's a hint: amity's story with willow is intertwined with her past, and therefore their relationship is complicated, especially when dealing with how they treat each other.

Willow met Hunter under a student disguise, was able to make a conversation with him, impress each other and trust each other... with none of their baggage attached to it. When Hunter betrays her, she falls back onto some old thinking habits, because it's always her, isn't it? Unable to do magic, unable to do abominations, only friends with one person... (even if that's changed)

Surrounded and captured, and then able to pick herself up at the opportunity to escape. Then Hunter defends her and shows her the person he was when they met, showing that it wasn't a bad judgment call on her, and that he's just... as Luz said... a bad but sad boy (who needed some friends)

Willow is forgiving. And in the grand scheme of things, this was just a tiny blip compared to the longer period of time her and Amity's weird... friendship thing was going on (before it started picking up again in LR)

Anyway they're good friends simply because they met and had no idea of the other's personal baggage when they bonded and now they'll pick up the baggage for each other and say hey, it's okay, in a different way than the others can.

#not that there isnt some problems with some writing but like. his arc is mostly focused on his character growth and learning that the- #things he thought were good were not and that doing belos' will was awful. thats the focus not on him being a villain #anyway #this ISNT a ship post. huntlows can interact but ur on thin ice #hunter toh #hunter deamonne #the owl house #willow park #this turned into a willow ramble oops