#fucking hell they make me so emotional

[raelyn-dreams]

So I was looking through Rei's appellations and:

This is so fucking sad???

SHU CALLED HIM HIS FRIEND. HE'S STILL ONE OF NATSUME'S BELOVED NII-SAN'S. THEY LOVED HIM SO MUCH, THEY STILL LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY.

Even when Kanata would've drowned himself if not for Chiaki grabbing him, even when Shu was being barely kept alive by a desperate Mika, even when Wataru smiled and tried to reassure them as he calmly walked to his execution, even when Natsume could only cry from the shadows - none of them ever resented him for it.

But Rei resents himself, because he couldn't save them, or Ritsu, or Koga, or anyone he cared about.

And that is why he can't let them be that close - it'll only hurt them more when he lets them down again.

#rei does everything now under the guise of being this wise serene grandfather who knows all the answers #a child who did everything to find his brother a cure only for ritsu to resent him for leaving him scared and vulnerable #a child who tried so hard to lead them and could only react in horror when shu and kanata were executed #a child who so desperately tried to shield natsume from the worst and later realized how much more he hurt watching his nii-san's suffer #a child who watched wataru accept that they couldn't be saved and watched as the least gleam of hope fell in front of his eyes #But he was a child. He was 17 years old. #shu and wataru and kanata were too #they were the age of tori tetora midori shinobu hiiro hinata yuta tomoya hajime mitsuru tsukasa and sora and they were being executed #natsume was aira and kohaku's age. and instead of squealing over idols and engaging in harmless mischief he was fighting to survive #fucking hell they make me so emotional #ensemble stars #enstars #five eccentrics #five oddballs #enstars relationships #enstars appellations #rei sakuma #kanata shinkai #wataru hibiki #natsume sakasaki #shu itsuki

[vaguely-concerned]

sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #john gaius #harrow the ninth #this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL #this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships #(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think #the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real #but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed) #there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone? #yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't) #the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god #when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care #(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution) #and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on #it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there #while john is -- well he sure is being john huh #this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end #(with john slam dunked right into hell that is) #it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up #john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too

[samdeancrimespree]

k hold on im going insane. so. what i just said abt dean beating up the car instead of sam. the Next Episode is the one where sam is like “you miss dad sooo bad and i can see right through you” “you can’t just substitute him with whoever you want.” and then dean punches him. guys if sam KNEW.

then sam is Begging dean to hit him. you don’t GET IT HES CRAZY.

dean doesn’t want to show these emotions to sam. he wants to be strong for him. so he tells gordon about them instead. but sam sees dean choosing gordon over him, believing gordon instead of sam. sam wants to be his equal, not his kid. dean doesn’t think sam knows what he’s doing. but sam understands dean’s emotions more than dean does.

so he goads dean into hitting him, just to prove he can take it. “you can hit me all you want. it still won’t change anything.”

we Know from how hands-on he is when sam gets injured that dean uses physical touch instead of words to show his emotions. if sam saw him fuck up the car, saw his warning, he knows that dean is struggling and wants sam out of the way so he doesn’t hurt him. dean might not even realize he’s doing it, but sam does.

and sam doesn’t let it go. sam shows dean that he’s here for him, no matter what dean does. if dean needs an outlet for his emotions, then sam will make sure it’s him. he doesn’t care that dean is messy and angry and mean right now. those emotions, those punches, are for sam. not for gordon, not for a monster, not even for his car. for sam.

#he’s so fucked in the head #i know there’s a bunch of posts abt this scene alr #but it’s making me even crazier today #the more i think abt sam realizing that dean is For Him the crazier i become #bcs dean will do it. hell do anything sam wants. literally anything #like sam is the sub but he’s also so completely in charge. Fuck #like. deans emotions are so completely about sam it’s actually crazy #even in this case where they’re about dad. they’re mostly about sam #everything is about sam to him #mars.txt #masochist sam #obsessive sam #wincest #i love you crazy girl #sex and violence #<3333 #spn studies

[me-sploh-rada-imas]

another angle of this beautiful solo [x]

#joker out #jan peteh #with bonus yearning nace #i literally can't take this his playing is just so fucking beatiful #jan je bog #truly #that's gonna be my tag for jan solos that make me emotional because fucking hell #i can normally refrain from sending stuff about them to my friends but this i have to show them #he's literally a genius

[gaycrittercentral]

Oh oh oh, them holding hands? Or hugging after S3 because I'm a sucker for some fluffy angst

Aw HELL yeah dude snuggly mushy stuff is my favorite fuckin thing so why not both!!

Holding hands while they wreak havoc hdjfhsjhsjsb

God season 3 makes me WEEP AAAAHHFJFJSHSHDHSHGS 😭😭😭

Although personally I felt very let down by the ending (I just found it kind of narratively unsatisfying) so I like to imagine an au where Sam abruptly remembers that they’ve been to hell and that’s def where Max went, so he just calls Jurgen over the hell customer service line and bothers him until they finally yeet Max back out due to pure annoyance lmaooo

#but let’s be honest either way Sam gonna be fucked UP over it all #bro he went through so much shit and then didn’t sleep for a week and didn’t even get his original husband back……..screaming and crying #like!!!! it just doesn’t feel fair to either of them to me it makes alt max feel like a consolation prize to avoid how upsetting it all is #and that’s not even touching how they’ve LITERALLY BEEN TO AND ESCAPED HELL GO LOOK FOR HIM THERE #anyway. having emotions for all eternity #sam and max #sam and max freelance police #freelance husbands #the devil's playhouse #the devil’s playhouse spoilers #my art #asks

[tricoufamily]

no ok we finished episode 2 what they have done to katara is unforgivable. they have completed zapped every ounce of her personality away. why. why. look how they massacred my girl

#i haven't even GOTTEN to azula mai and ty lee i'm scared #why the hell they're even IN season 1 is beyond me but whatever #i cannot fucking believe the amount of exposition dumping. did a 10 year old write this #this actually would be a very good lesson for young beginner writers actually #if someone's like 'i don't really get the show don't tell rule' show them this. then show them the cartoon. THAT is show don't tell #all. they. do. is. TELL. it's INSANE #zuko is the best actor at least but that's kind of like winning a game of chess against a broom #it's statistically impossible that they could only find ONE actor who can deliver a line competently. it's impossible #i delivered better lines pretending to earth bend w my sister at age 7 #i'm so confused about katara though. #like yeah the 'sokka can't be sexist that's problematic (that was the entire point)' is stupid #but that is at least AN explanation for why he's different. why on earth would you make katara like that #i can't even make an ember island players joke. at least their katara showed emotion??? #really fun hate watch to do w other avatar fans 10/10 recommend #when gran gran started saying the intro and it was so awkward jdskfjdsfldsjfslkfjlkfs i was LOSING IT

[jeysuso]

Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more.

#strangerthingsedit #stedit #eddiemunsonedit #stranger things #eddie munson #joseph quinn #the emotional trauma i've just put myself through to make this #I HADN'T SEEN THE DEATH SCENE #NOW I'VE GIFFED IT #fuck the suffer bros #all my homies hate the suffer bros #(this is a joke please don't hurt me) #i love him so much #idk if this is any good but i lliked it so #i'm making it everyone else's problem #supernatural meets stranger things #cause why the hell not #if this was supernatural eddie would've resurrected after like 5 minutes #sigh #mine #mine*

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Reading my fave thin man and lady fic. Kicking my feet a lot because tbh. Sometimes a sad man really is just a weird woman's science project in a way that is so homoerotic

#carols.txt #when i tell you i've been re-reading this single one shot religiously every single month for almost three years I mean it #《straight》 ship so good we call it queerbaiting #LMAOOOOOO #call it yaoyuri the way these old people r tragic and doomed by the narrative or whatever #listen as a bi person on the aroace spectrum whatever this fic was trying to convey really strikes a cord #while its not the same as my own this characterization of them is so intriguing. im so hooked on it #^^ one thing i think this person really nailed was thin man's immaturity (stemming from his emotions oftentime being too big to control) -> #and the desire of attention that comes with said immaturity while also having the lady be both cold (normal) and intrigued in a way that -> #that really fits her character. curiosity is one of the many facets that make up her character that don't get explored much and i think its #done so well here for like no reason💀 THIS AUTHOR COOKED TOO HARD YOU GUYS #like ofc she wouldnt send him away. shes studying him under a microscope. even though hes annoying as hell #thin man is plagued by sassy man syndrome in this which is really fucking funny cus it lasts a total of 3 seconds before she finds him out #PLUS THE TALK ABOUT THE TOWER AND THE WORLD... AUGHHH #i need this author to give me their brain NOW #AUGHHHHHAAGGGHEEHH #everyone needs to start doing thinlady the way this person was doing it #this is the biblically accurate old people (in case my theory abt baby lady having been in the pale city is wrong) #live laugh love. its my birthday. spoiling myself a bit. goddamn.

[shiroselia]

Play 13 Sentinels I am no longer asking

#13sar #13 sentinels #Some maybe implied spoilers in tags #I am not okay in any way I love this game so excessively much #I'd need like a 500 slide powerpoint precentation but tldr #Hijiyama's route is my favourite and also Insanely good #Gouto's route is incredibly good and an unexpected favourite I didn't expect that to be as good as it was #They really saved the absolute best for last #I have beefed so much with how late Hiji's route is forced because I loved it from the prologue but I 100% understand and I am 100% okay #with it cause every single time I've been forced to wait for it it was so fucking worth it #Girlies after they finish Live to Protect and ESPECIALLY girlies after they finish Hiji's last event whose name escapes me now #But holy shit dude Hiji's route is excellent I can rant about it for hours #It's enjoyable as hell it's got Excellent plot reveals it hits EVERY emotional beat it pulls #Like she has it all #Not to say that the other routes don't they're all excellent Hiji's just my favourite out of the bunch and succeeds in All aspects #Whereas some routes like Yuki's I feel are Completely carried by how enjoyable Yuki herself is #While not succeeding as much in say the plot department #Which isn't a Problem but it's just something which makes me prefer routes over each other when some can hit Everything it tries while #others might neglect certain aspects in favour of others which doesn't make it Worse but makes it less complete as such

[andi-o-geyser]

something something deus ex vox machina literally living up to their namesake something something a silly title they made up to reference being voice actors 7 years ago made them the champions of literal gods and now they're paying it forwards and helping the next generation of adventurers in their hour of need

#no cause like why is this making me so emotional #probably just because tlovm s2 just ended #yeah probably that #cause like! they are my beloveds they mean so much to me they started it all!! this whole crazy world! #im also stressed as fuck so that may be adding to the emotions oops #anyways this episode is such a roller coaster i'm so into it #critical role #vox machina #cr1 #bells hells #cr3 #cr3e49 #cr liveblog #cr spoilers

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

no by all means keep judging cartoon villains solely by if they get redeemed in the end. i know some of us like to talk about other stuff like characterization or entertainment value or nuance as something that makes a good villain. but i think the only thing that actually matters is if the villain ends up on good terms with the protagonist at the end. all the Good TM cartoons with Good TM creators make the villains die a Horrible Death for being Abusers or whatever. and all the Bad TM cartoons with Bad TM creators Forgive Fascists by not making them get publicly executed by the 14 year old protagonist in front of the 8 year old target demographic.

i mean im so glad that more cartoons nowadays are subverting the psyop to support fascists that a few queer artists and queer shows definitely invented in 2017. there are so many popular cartoons doing that. it's almost like there are more properties killing their villains now and in the past than there ever were of properties that didn't do this. and it's almost like whether the villain gets redeemed at the end is more about the context of the story and its themes leading up to a narratively sound decision.

but you know. a few queer shows made by trans ppl were popular and they didn't kill their fascists and even had the gall to make them nuanced while also looking into the harm they did. guess it's trendy to forgive your abusers now because like two cartoons said so. out of like 40 other similarly high profile works that just straight up hit their villains with a bus or smth. by all means. keep heaping praise onto that one show about how they "let their villain just be evil" instead of talking about anything more interesting. that's so subversive, everyone's doing it!

#shut up pandora #check off my 'monthly rant about the treatment of the creators of steven universe and she ra' #this is because of the 'praise' ive been seeing for belos btw #yes i love his panache i love how much he fucks up everything and i love how hes beyond redemption #thats not because he was Born Evil and has always Been Evil??? #ppl who show baby belos going out of his way to make calebs life a living hell and evelyn Rescuing this poor blond boy from his Evil Brothe #i am sending so many bad vibes at you rn #he isnt a good villain bc dana terrace decided to be 'subversive' by not redeeming belos #JUST being subversive while writing the story doesnt mean you make a good story being subversive =/= being good #hes a good villain because while his decisions are dogshit we can understand why he made them on an emotional level #and since gravity falls seems to be the golden standard for modern cartoons i guess #bill cipher also isnt a good villain bc hes evil and they killed him #bill is a good villain bc hes entertaining in the threat he poses #what makes a character a good villain is about stuff they do while theyre being a villain #dont just sum it up with 'duhhh they killed them at the end so its good' thats entirely dependent on the story! #anyway this is specifically about modern western cartoon fandoms #if youre telling me to watch shows that arent modern western cartoons or like. read a book then know that i do that already #this stuff isnt as big of a discourse topic in those circles but im talking about this specific circle rn

[widevibratobitch]

so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.

'you gotta sing this softer'

'what'

'this is mozart'

'this is vitellia'

'this is mozart'

'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'

'this is mozart'

'i wanna murder a guy'

'this is mozart'

'...'

'softer. gentle. mozart'

'...ok'

#they're killing me here #i already bargained for ONE (1) note in chest (thank you so so much that i am ALLOWED to sing an A3 in chest voice <333) and now THIS #THIS is why people hate mozart. fuck you. #i recorded that rehearsal and the first version sounds SO MUCH BETTER. after i did what she asked me to do its just. so fucking boring. #i hate it here #i love this duet so much but frfr im not sure i wanna do it if i have to do it on their terms. #also like sorry to be a bitch but you're a pianist girl. just stick to your stuff and let me take care of mine. #just because you're playing this like you're constipated because tHiS iS mOzArT doesnt mean the rest of us dont care either. #its possible i never will get the chance to sing the entire vitellia so i want to do justice. as much as im able. to this one chance i get #it took me A Long While to deal with the fact that i wont be able to bark that 'indegno' and 'regno' like i always envisioned. #but like. ok. whatever. i can still make it Entertaining. THIS however. no. no fucking way. #and its not even about me being a big-headed know-it-all who thinks she's better than everyone because. lol and lmao clearly im Not #but this is about having a fucking SOUL. its about actually taking the libretto into consideration too. its about trying to figure out #WHY mozart wrote it the way he did. like sorry but this is another fiordiligi case where its CLEAR that the amplitudes the crazy jumps #are there FOR A REASON. the reason is HE WANTED A CONTRAST. some fucking EMOTION. he sure as hell didnt want it to be Soft And Gentle. #i know it because i talked to him and he told me im right about everything as always and you can eat shit girl bye #grrrrrrrr im so angry #i knos i sound so arrogant here but please. please i just want to make this music fun and enjoyable. i just dont want it to be boring #please understand my vision im begging you

[tenok]

.

#I want complaine not only about bad takes in this fandom but also about theories that just!! so!! stupid!! but also I'm a good person that #doesn't shit on other people's fun #so I mostly suffer in silence #and block people in bunches #'you see! this theory absolutely doesn't take agency from character and doesn't minimize emotional impact!' #says person about theory that roughly summariasized as 'Crowley AGAIN knows more than Aziraphale and it's all so SAD because if only #Aziraphale knew he wouldn't make this desicion!' #I want to scream #somehow it also never about what kind of monster Crowley would be to willingly hide memories Aziraphale supposedly erised and never gave it #back in whole four years they had before season two #like. maybe not be a cowards and embrace 'I was a pussy and somehow didn't get a courage to RESTORE MY FRIEND'S MEMORY with some kind of #VITAL INFORMATION that could've IMPACT HIS LIFE OR DEAT DESICIONS #and now he's in place where he could be abused erased or killed and IT'S MY FAULT' angle hmmm? #at least it could've made it interesting #but noooo #also how the fuck them kissing in 1941 should've impact Aziraphale's desicion anyway I can't get logic behind this theories #(the angle with 'memories are not about some stupid kiss but about what Crowley saw in heavens' could've work but like first: Crowley didn' #saw anything Aziraphale won't hear from Metatron in next scene or can extrapolate using base logic #and anyway if Crowley wanted to use it as argument he like. should've start with it and not with 'blah blah you're an idiot we should run #from earth' #AT BEST I could've get behind him giving Aziraphale some kind of weapon or possibility of safe out or like. hell's fire to self destruct as #last resort. but memories? and especially Aziraphale's memories??) #anyway yes it's me being a hater. I just have no place to vent about it but I sure hope that no one that likes this theories will see it. #you do you!!! but I hate it so much!!!

[trans-axolotl]

i love being transgender so much actually. like my transgender friends and lovers and chosen family have brought me so much joy. my transgender body delights me + i love my top surgery scars. even despite everything i'm so glad i came out when i did and it's not like I chose to be trans, but I would choose it again + again + again because it has been worth it.

#personal #trans #talking to a trans kid today and i was having so many emotions about like #idk. i had a very hard time as a trans kid and i was very sad and angry and hurt pretty much all the time #bc of the violence that surrounded me #anyway. and they asked me if i would have done it different. knowing now #and i wouldn't have because despite it all. that fucking hell #i can't imagine who i would be. because it's important to me. that i did choose every single day #to survive that and that i chose to find a way to make trans being joyful. despite it all! #and that matters to me and that has shaped me and that just! #it's important to me. #not that there is anythign wrong with staying in the closet. for safety or any reason #to be clear

[redstrewn]

I got rien by etat libre d'orange and it smells like a damn church but if it isnt smoky and reeks of death so im calling it an ais scent now

Edit: nahh this is kuras's clinic with ais in it rather than ais himself

Tho i wonder if the seaspring could smell like a church bc of all the smokiness

#redstrewn talks #its described unisex but this shit is the most masculine shit i ever smelt #rien means nothing and if it isnt what ais is up to. fuck all. LMFAO #on the other hand bc this makes me feel like im making out with an ancient priest this scent could also be the lovechild of ais and kuras #call that the kuras clinic with ais in it #i got this bc of recs online but if i arent struggling to hell w enjoying it #apparently listed as not good for beginners to perfume. i can attest to that bc i fr feel like im fucking a priest smelling this. #real kuras-ais-unnamed scent #its ok as long as i imagine ais and kuras enough i'll probably end up liking this fragrance #my skill is taking sth i initially hate and brainwashing myself into liking it #i did smell the other eldo scents in-store but they kind of BORED me compared to rien #i hate smelling a church but it definitely did not bore me so i took it anyway #that kind of sums things up. id rather take something i hate than something that bores me #bc then at least theres an emotional spark there

[8cfc00]

im literally going to throw up im sooooo mad i never got to trick or treat OR sleepover OR play dnd in all SIXTEEN YEARS OF MY FUCKING LIFE..... im supposed to be a TEENAGER doing TEENAGE THINGS but for some reason i CANT

#THE FUCKING TEENS IN DNDADS HAVE A BETTER SOCIAL LIFE THAN ME #WHAT THE HELL #sorry im listening to teen talk and theyre talking about key pivotal teen moments #and i literally have not been over to a friend's house in a YEAR #AND NONE OF MY IRLS EVEN WANT TO GO OUT AND PRACTICE CINEMATOGRAPHY W ME #THIS IS FUCKED #im not that mad about it though #pretty okay on my own #i enjoy the time i get to spend w myself #and i enjoy the freedom that it provides me #an di understand that i gotta make the most out of the situation i am unfortunately in #but like its so fucking hard to do things without the support of a friend by yr side... #but like being friends w someone just for the shit they provide you is kinda fucked #and if i think too hard about the power of friendship and the strong emotional bonds it creates #bad stuff happenbs #idk i just find it hard to find people who understand me #and i tend to click with people who don't share very similar perspectives on friendship w me #i just wish it was as easy for me as it seems to be for the teens #and in a way im afraid im falling behind or missing out cuz i lack a strong friendgroup to fuck around w #but i mean ive been told sleepovers are overated anyway soooo