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buffyspeak · 11 months

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forgot to say this earlier but izzy was v cute on her date with charlie <3 like he’s sweet and all but idk i just got really choked up about “i don’t really do this” and how smiley and giggly and happy she was. because like!!! she Does Not! has not, ever! she does flings and hookups and casual relationships with the understanding that it’s not long-term partnership, even if it’s ongoing and has genuine feelings attached - and to be clear, none of that is bad! she very clearly enjoys it! there is not one right way to Do Relationships! but whatever feelings one may have about the doylist Why of it, she very clearly does long for some sort of relationship that happens to be out of her comfort zone. she begins to feel that she needs something that she is not getting from the kinds of relationships she has historically been in.

raphael was fully the catalyst btw. and while his asexuality is about him first and foremost - i think the fact that he cares about isabelle inn some capacity, has feelings for her, and sees her value outside of sex made her reevaluate her priorities in relationships. Things (TM) got in the way, but izzy says to clary that what she almost maybe had with raphael made her realize that she wanted more. (again, ‘more’ is not an ideal word, just the one she used becaue it is hard for people, writers of this show included, to conceptualize that casual relationships can be meaningful in their own way. but she very clearly is wanting something different than what she’s ever let herself pursue.)

it’s kind of why, on a narrative level, i get why simon is a good match for her, even if i generally agree that how it happens feels forced and rushed. (aside from that just being book!canon, which i do not really subscribe to dhdhdh.) like. it was never going to work with charlie because she would either have to bring him further into her world - which would endanger him and therefore she would not do - or keep seeing him but keep him in the dark about the shadow world. which she quickly realizes is unsustainable. (and would probably still endanger him if she kept on tbh).

simon’s a good balance because i think he embodies a lot of what draws her in about charlie. they’re both kind and treat her with a kind of gentleness few do. (her brothers of course, but that’s a) a different dynamic altogether and b) muddied by the fact that they’re all soldiers together and can’t always afford to be gentle.) simon, i’m willing to bet, would take her on lots of cute dates. like!!! simon just represents humanity in Such a Specific way, in perseverance, in loyalty, in still having passion for things like music and video games. and despite her flaws, i think one of izzy’s best traits is that she sees the value in this more than most of her people do, she’s drawn to it, she understands that the joy of the mundane world is what they’re actually protecting, what they’re fighting for.

and simon can be all that to her but still will understand when she has to cancel a date because patrol is going long or whatever. lmao.

(okay this is already so long and windy and going a million directions but. here’s the thing i don’t doubt that izzy has genuine romantic feelings and love for simon. i try to take it in good faith when it’s clear characters are written as having feelings for each other. it just occurred to me that how hopeless and lowkey depressed or at least… somewhat despondent and apathetic about her future prospects izzy seemed at the start of s3 is bc. idk how many options she felt she had? like. idk. as established, mundanes are just… not super viable. other shadowhunters are…. largely probably not willing? for better or worse, she has the lightwood name, and it’s tainted. also, i’m shot back to season one where maryse told izzy that she couldn’t do the arranged marriage because no one would have her because of her past relationships with downworlders. and while maryse was being undoubtedly cruel there, i also don’t think she was like, wrong. narratively it would always make the most sense for her to ‘end up’ with someone from the downworld but even then…. public shadowhunter/downworld relationships are shown to be rare!!! alec and magnus are a Big Deal for a lot of reasons and this is one of them!!! and many downworlders (for good reason!!) would have a lot of trouble trusting a shadowhunter in a capital R Relationship. so while there may have been downworlders who were willing to interact with izzy - who would like and respect her, even ! - i find it likely that given all that and her past reputation, many would probably only be willing to engage in a casual dynamic with her. which is no longer what she wants!

so izzy’s somewhat depresso espresso moment in the show is caused because she knows she wants to make a change in the way she does relationships and she’s also incredibly aware of how, like, there are Several Obstacles.

but again on the sizzy front this is not actually a bad thing for them because. simon is in a really weird but good place in terms of. he knows about the shadow world and can relate to izzy on that level. but he is also literally still So New to the shadow world that he has no preconceived notions of her. he meets her with no expectations, good or bad, of what it should mean that she’s a lightwood or a shadowhunter. the first three people he meets from this world are izzy and her brothers, two people that love her to death, and even though at this juncture simon does not care much for alec or jace, he is a smart and observant person. he knows how much they love her. he was always a little pre-disposed to eventually love her too, i think. he sees her as a more complete person than many do - he sees her (eventually) as a badass shadowhunter and a terrible cook and someone who’s scared of rats and doesn’t know how to do pinky promises and loves her family more than she knows what do with. he just sees her and yes, loves her, eventually, but i think what’s maybe more meaningful to her is honestly that he LIKES her, just, as a person. not just because she’s hot or strong or a lightwood (*which certainly feels like the only reason her parent’s care, at least sometimes) but because she’s Izzy.)

#shadowhunters rewatch 2023 #long post //#this is incoherent bordering on gibberish #it was supposed to be an ‘izzy cute :D’ post and instead i word vomited #i had a lot of thoughts and feelings #isabelle lightwood #tag later #not sure this makes one lick of sense #but i spentban hour on it and it is so long I cannot just delete it #i am now. SO sleepy

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simplyclary · 7 months

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My (Personal) Thoughts on Seasons of Shadowhunters

Note: These are my personal thoughts about Cassie's latest project. Feel free to comment and reply down below and share your thoughts as well.

Recently, one of my favorite authors Cassandra Clare announced a Kickstarter project and it's all about Shadowhunters. I was excited when she hinted at it on her IG stories and was even more excited (with a few mixed feelings) when I finally got the email about the project itself.

My thoughts on this entire project will be broken down into segments/parts (so it won't be long paragraphs without breakers) so if you wanna hear my thoughts, do continue.

Part 1: Secrets of Blackthorn Hall

To be honest with you all, I'm not excited about this one. Well, it could be because it's available online (and here on Tumblr) so maybe that contributed to my non-existent excitement for it. I will also admit that I did not read every single entry of SoBH, I only read like the ones I cared about (Tessa's letter to Sophie is one of them) and the others, I may or may not have skimmed.

Art-wise, the art is beautiful, no doubt. But still, I'm quite skeptical about this one so maybe when it eventually comes, I might change my mind.

Part 2: Careful of Books Novellas

I am honestly not the biggest fan of novellas. I mean, I do read them to further understand the characters of a certain story (I did read A Court of Frost and Starlight by Sarah J. Maas even though it was just the characters having a domestic Winter Solstice).

With this one, I am partly excited, partly not. I have no idea why but the closer it comes, I may be persuaded to be excited about it. It will feature a character whose future is interesting (I can only guess who that is...) and of course, it is set in the Shadowhunter universe (which timeline, I have no idea.)

I got to admit, novellas are fun but like it's not as fun as full-length novels with higher stakes and whatnot so I guess that is also part of it but I'll just have to see where we go from here.

Part 3: Notable Shadowhunters

Now, this is more of a collectible than a book because this will most probably contain more photos than words, which I'm not complaining about. It's always good to have fanart of your favorite Shadowhunters characters. I used to want to own the illustrated book but over time, that feeling kind of went away. I am a practical gal most of the time and I just thought that these photos would be scattered online anyway so if I favored a specific character's card, I would just get it online and print it myself if I desire to.

I'm not sure whether I will purchase it when it comes but who knows, maybe with some convincing, I might be persuaded.

Part 4: Better In Black Short Stories

This is probably what I'm most excited for. I adore the first three short story collections (Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy, Ghosts from the Shadow Market and The Bane Chronicles) and this is probably not gonna be any different. I'm a romance lover by nature and to know that this might feature some of my favorite Shadowhunters couples makes me a little bit more excited. I mean, to be fair, I prefer some couples more than others but getting stories about the prominent couples are not out of the question for me.

I'm looking forward (and slightly hoping) to maybe seeing my favorite couples Simon and Izzy, Thomas and Alastair, Clary and Jace, and Magnus and Alec take the spotlight but I'm not opposed to the idea that other couples (Jem and Tessa, Julian and Emma, etc..) will also be featured since romance is a big aspect in the fantastical tales of the Shadowhunters. Plus, it's never seen before content, so that kind of adds to the hype.

I just need the Clace and Sizzy wedding plus Thomas and Alastair living together, if you get what I mean, okay?

Part 5: The Compass Rose Journal

I may or may not have screamed when I saw this in the email because as a fan of Thomas Lightwood, his compass rose is a sentimental symbol to me and to own a journal with that very symbol, oh, I can dream but I guess it's coming.

And for art to be included, uhm, yes please! Although I honestly thought it would just be like a notebook with like the compass rose etching on the cover but I guess I was wrong.

Conclusion

These are all my thoughts. I may have not worded it all well because I did mention in a previous post that I kind of drifted away from the Shadowhunters fandom for a while now but maybe with this upcoming content, my heart might go back to the shadows or stay in the sunshine where it currently resides. ;)

With that, I say, Hail and Farewell, Angels!

#the last hours #the mortal instruments #the infernal devices #the dark artifices #shadowhunters #the shadowhunters chronicles

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malec-ao3feed · 4 months

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Distract Me From My Future

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/mRYX4rS by pretty_scary_vampire Blood spilt on marble floors, indiscriminately the blood of family. Blood family, dark and twisted. Chosen family, light and hopeful. Love of two kinds, two worlds, battles for peace amongst war. "Where is she?" "She's dead. They both are." "No. No!" "I'm sorry." "Why did you get to live when both of them died?" "I don't know. I'm sorry for that too." In which Everest can't keep up with the chaos. Words: 1816, Chapters: 1/20, Language: English Series: Part 3 of Distractions Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi Characters: Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood, Everest Fairchild, Original Shadowhunter Character(s), Simon Lewis, Isabelle Lightwood, Clary Fray, Jace Wayland, Maryse Lightwood, Jonathan Christopher Morgenstern | Sebastian Verlac, Luke Garroway Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood, Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood/Everest Fairchild, Magnus Bane/Original Female Character(s), Alec Lightwood/Original Female Character(s), Simon Lewis/Isabelle Lightwood, Clary Fray/Jace Wayland, Magnus Bane & Clary Fray & Simon Lewis & Alec Lightwood & Isabelle Lightwood & Jace Wayland, Everest Fairchild & Raphael Santiago, Raphael Santiago & Original Female Character(s), Everest Fairchild & Maryse Lightwood, The Seelie Queen/Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Inspired by Shadowhunters (TV), Shadowhunters (TV) Season 3A, Shadowhunters (TV) Season 3B, Canon Compliant, ish, Canon Rewrite, New York Shadowhunter Institute, Downworlders, Downworlder Friendships, Canon-Typical Violence, Malec/OC, Izzy gets a Parabatai, Magnus Bane Deserves Nice Things, Magnus Bane Loves His Partners, Alec Lightwood Deserves Nice Things, Alec Lightwood Loves His Partners, Everest Fairchild Is Stressed, No One Takes Any Shit, Protective Jace Wayland, Jace Wayland Needs A Hug, Isabelle Lightwood Parabatai, Protective Clary Fray, Clary Fray Is A Good Sister, Maryse Lightwood is trying, Polyamory, Threesome - F/M/M, Jonathan Christopher Morgenstern | Sebastian Verlac Being an Asshole, Jonathan is a bad brother, Kidnapping read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/mRYX4rS

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #shadowhunters #tmi #malec #magnus bane #alec lightwood #magnus x alec #malec fanfic #the mortal instruments

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bytheangell · 5 years

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What We Believe

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Alec isn’t due back home for another two hours, but when things at the Institute were quiet for once, Jace offers to stay and watch over the building (promising to call him the second something happens, if anything were to happen). Alec decides to take the extra few hours and surprise Magnus with takeout for dinner from his favorite Indonesian restaurant in the city.

Unlocking the door to the Loft and letting himself in, Alec stills in the doorway when he hears two voices floating down the hallway from Magnus’ apothecary. It doesn’t take him very long to place the second voice: Lorenzo Rey. What’s he doing here? Magnus didn’t mention any meetings or clients today, and Alec is certain he would’ve remembered if Rey’s name came up.

Placing the bag of food down on the dining room table Alec takes a few steps further into the Loft. At first he thinks nothing of it, certain that Magnus will tell him all about whatever it is later anyway… in fact, perhaps if he’s being particularly obnoxious Alec can step in and pull the ‘HotI’ card to get rid of him sooner rather than later.

He stops walking entirely when he hears what they’re talking about: Him.

“End your relationship with the Shadowhunter, prove that your loyalties aren’t divided, and the position is yours once more.” Lorenzo states in no uncertain terms.

Alec begins to roll his eyes. As if Magnus would ever--

“...break up with Alec and I get to be the High Warlock again?”

Alec’s heart stops beating in his chest.

“Yes.” “Consider it done.” Magnus’ reply reaches him, and it takes everything he has to force his legs to take several steps backwards, out of the hallway and back into the main living area. He feels numb, and his hands are trembling as he grabs his keys and leaves before he can hear any more, takeout forgotten on the table.

He almost goes back to the Institute, but that’s too obvious. Of course it’ll be the first place Magnus would think to look for him. Instead he forces himself on shaking, unsteady legs to the only place he can think of where Magnus would never think to look, and where he’d (hopefully) be met with a sympathetic, and non-judgmental, ear.

Which is how Alexander Lightwood finds himself sprawled out on Simon Lewis’ sofa, bare feet dangling over the arm and head tilted back towards the ceiling, staring at it with so much intensity one would think it somehow held all of the answers to the universe. By the end of his recounting of the conversation he overheard a few stray tears sting in Alec’s eyes before spilling over to dot the red fabric of the sofa a darker crimson. The Shadowhunter rubs them away hastily, convincing himself they’re out of shock more than anything else, and Simon very obviously notices but doesn’t say anything. Not about that, at least.

“That doesn’t sound like Magnus,” Simon declares, after hearing Alec’s story.

“It doesn’t matter what it sounds like - I was there. He said it.” Alec sighs. “Can I even blame him? That position is everything to him, and now that he has his magic back…”

“He wouldn’t do that to you, though!” Simon insists.

“Maybe not before now, but he’s about to.” Alec shifts his head to the side to look at his phone as it rings - and he sends it straight to voicemail - for the 7th time that hour.

“You know when you click it through like that the other person knows you’re hitting ‘ignore’ right? If you want Magnus to think you actually aren’t here you have to let it ring the whole time.” Simon points out, trying to be at least a little helpful. “That’s why he just keeps calling right back.”

As if to emphasize this, the phone rings again almost immediately, and Alec makes a strangled noise of building frustration before throwing the phone across the room, wincing at the sound of something definitely breaking as it collides with the wall.

“...or you could do that.” Simon says very slowly, suddenly a bit more concerned than he was a moment ago.

“What am I going to do? I can’t go back now. I can’t walk in there knowing he’s going to-- that it’s going to be--” Alec can’t even bring himself to say the words. He doesn’t want to imagine a life without Magnus by his side.

“It isn’t going to be over,” Simon fills in for him. “Look, I know I’m not your best friend or anything. You only came here because no one would ever think you’d come to be in the first place, and I barely know Magnus even though he keeps saving all of our lives, but you two? You’re Relationship Goals, alright? I know it. You know it. The entire Shadow World knows it. He went to Edom and gave up his magic to help you, do you really think he’d end things now over a stupid title from a guy he hates?”

Alec has to stop and think about that, because it’s a pretty good point, actually. It doesn’t explain anything he heard Magnus say, but it at least gives him the slightest sliver of hope that not all is lost.

“And if he really did mean it-” Simon continues, and Alec feels his stomach lurch at the words, that hopeful feeling disappearing immediately. “-then you have to fight to get him back. You can’t just mope around my apartment and give up.”

“I never thought I’d say this-” Alec starts, swinging his feet over the front of the sofa to sit up straight and slide his feet back into his shoes. “But you’re right, Simon.”

Simon practically beams. “So you’re going to talk to him and get your man back? Not that you even lost him yet, but-- you know what I mean.”

“Yes, Simon. I’m going to talk to him.” Alec walks over to his phone, picking it up and turning it over in his hand to examine the shattered glass front. An experimental poke with his finger turns the screen on, but it’s unusable.

“Let me know how it goes!” Simon calls after him, just as the door shuts behind him and Alec is on his way back to Magnus’ loft. A place his mind is quick to call ‘home’ when he thinks of it… though for how much longer, he supposes he’s about to find out.

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Instead of turning the key in the lock, Alec hesitates in the hallway before finally knocking.

“Now’s not a good time,” comes a clearly distraught voice from inside, not even bothering to ask who it is.

Part of Alec is tempted to take it as a sign and leave, but instead he ventures a quiet, “Magnus?” Through the door.

A moment later the handle turns and the door swings open. “Alexander,” Magnus breathes out, and Alec is surprised to feel arms immediately wrap around him in a warm embrace. He tenses, and Magnus feels it, letting go and stepping back slowly. “Alexander, what’s wr-”

“Stop,” Alec says. “Don’t pretend we both don’t know what this is about. I heard you with Lorenzo.”

Magnus frowns. “I thought you might’ve, when I saw the food on the table after. I’m sorry you walked into that.”

Alec gapes. He feels lightheaded, half-expecting the very ground he stands on to fall out beneath him where he stands unsteadily. “So it’s true? You aren’t even going to try and deny it?”

“You heard what you heard, but I didn’t mean it. I would never-” But now it’s Magnus’ turn to fall off, speechless as he realizes what’s happening. “You came here thinking I was going to break up with you.” Magnus says it with the lilt of a question.

“Aren’t you?” Alec counters, defeated. “You could finally have it all back like it’s supposed to be. Like it was before I showed up and ruined everything… with Soul Sword, and Jace and Lilith and Edom… why wouldn’t you leave me to get back everything you ever wanted?”

Alec keeps his eyes resolutely downward, missing the look of pity that passes across his boyfriend’s eyes, and the sadness over the fact that Alec could ever value himself so little in the grand scheme of Magnus’ life. It isn’t until Alec feels Magnus’ hand under his chin gently guiding his gaze upward that he looks into Magnus’ eyes again.

“Alexander,” Magnus’ voice is soft. Comforting, but also commanding of his attention, making sure he’s listening. Really listening. “You are everything I ever wanted, and everything I never imagined I could have. I wouldn’t give you up for anything, least of all some shady deal with Lorenzo Rey.”

Alec allows a small, hopeful smile to twitch up at the corners of his lips. “Yeah?”

“Yes.”

“Then why did you agree to it?” Alec can’t help but ask, still waiting for the other shoe to drop.

“Because I was going to agree, and then see how you felt about pretending to break up for a week or two until the official reassignment ceremony is over. Then I would promptly inform him we were never really broken up in the first place after there’s not a single thing he can do about it.”

Alec’s brows furrow together. “Wouldn’t they just take it away again?”

Magnus shakes his head. “No. Stripping someone of the title, if not willingly transferred, requires a vote and a meeting with the other High Warlocks. And after his lackluster performance as High Warlock of Brooklyn from day one with Lilith and the Ley Lines, I can’t see that working in his favor. No, right now he’s trying to save face and make me miserable at the same time.”

“Oh.” Alec can’t help but feel a little embarrassed that he ever doubted Magnus’ intentions. Also that he’d have to admit to Simon later that he was right. By the Angel, he’s never going to hear the end of that. “I’m sorry I thought -- I mean, I didn’t really believe it. I didn’t want to believe it. But after everything you’ve been through I guess I thought maybe…”

“I won’t pretend I’m not hurt that you thought I’d toss you aside that easily,” Magnus admits. “Just promise me next time you’ll come to me first?”

Alec nods. This isn’t a mistake he’ll make twice.

“You know what sold it?” Magnus asks suddenly, filling the silence.

“What?” “You. From the night I broke into his house. He told me all about how quick you were to sell me out for the ‘good of your people’ to turn me against you.” Magnus smirks. “You were quite convincing, it would seem. Shall we give those acting skills an encore?”

Alec considers the idea for a moment and nods. To get Magnus his title back, it’s the least he can agree to do. There’s a small, matching smirk on Alec’s face when he agrees. “Okay, I’m in. Let’s give them a break-up they’ll never forget.”

#malec #magnus bane #alec lightwood #simon lewis #shadowhunters #lorenzo rey #shfanficnexus #prompt anon #Thank you so much for sending these in to me!!#I'm really loving all of them now that I have the time to work on them!#<3 #elle writes a few deadbeat lines #i'm sensing a theme lately and that theme is not talking and then promising to talk in the future

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gummybearzgocrazyagain · 3 years

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my hella arbitrary list of fav malec moments ranked, just because i felt so aaaaaaand i have an unhealthy obsession with lists that is definitely diagnoseable but ssshhhhh

37. “you stupid Nephilim“ (c)

36. “I think the autumnal theme would be nice” “ABORT, ABORT, Isabelle, are you insane?” (c)

35. Hall of the Accords kiss in CoG

34. subway mugging attempt from the very first date

33. the way you just know book!magnus enunciates word “Alexander”

32. this absolute gem of an interaction

31. Magnus somehow figuring that enchanting his sister’s whip with magical protections would be the best gift to Alec for his birthday

30. The simple fact of Alexander Gideon Lightwood turning out to be wild AF, and having a certain proclivity to tearing Magnus’ expensive wardrobe pieces right off him, while in throws of passion

29. “Wow, you and Monogamous Bane make me tired. He’s even dumber than you are” (c) Lily

28. When Clary invented a rune to temporary present herself as one’s most beloved, and Alec saw Magnus, even though it happened mere months in their relationship

27. Magnus coming to the Institute to see Alec off to Alicante in CoHF, even though they were broken up

26. “Alec Lightwood loved one man so much...” cause duh

25. “He is not my warlock” cause DUUUHHHHHH

24. general population of the Downworld sometimes subtly reminding Alec about Magnus being slightly out of his league (e.g. “Punch above your weight a little, huh?” (c), etc.)

23. but at the same time, the journey from “STOP HUGGING SHADOWHUNTERS IN FRONT OF MY PLACE OF BUSINESS” (c) TEC 1 to “Get a room, cute boys!” (c) TEC 2

22. Mere fact that in spite of all the convoluted and complicated history Magnus has had with Nephilim over centuries, he eventually somehow ended up being married to their highest authority figure like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

21. “I do not ever want another love“ how dare you sir

20. the fact that Alec instantly knew(c) with Max, and Magnus instantly knew(c) with Rafe

19. and that it is physically impossible for them to come by an abandoned child, and stop themselves from adopting on the spot

18. Alec’s behaviour during warlock sickness in TDA

17.

16. ELYASS

15.

14. “The Voicemail of Magnus Bane” cause legendary

13.

12. “Catarina gave Magnus a delighted look over Alec’s shoulder. “At last”, she murmured. “A keeper.” (c)

11.

10. unforgettable “Since I am the Consul now, I guess I make the rules.” [...] “Was that flirting?” Magnus said. “Because I have to tell you I’m more in than I thought I would be.” [...] “Yes.” Said Alec. He paused. “No. A little bit.” [...] ‘’I mean I make all the rules. I’m in charge now”. “I told you already I was in“ (c) QoAaD

8. I wanna say the entirety of tRSoM, which main plot premise was “two poor clueless idiots are just trying to screw each other in peace, but kept getting cockblocked at every turn”, but am gonna say Rome Hotel Scene, for reasons

7. also, the marvellous fact that the cockblocking torch was passed down from demons/cultists/princes of hell to malec’s very own precious infant heir

6. aaaaaaand of course let’s not forget to mention Simon Lewis in that particular regard

5. the general level of thirst throughout the whole saga

4. Yes, this one, this one fits, after all the stumbling around and searching, and here it is. (c) What to buy the Shadowhunter

3. The Land I Lost (”his first kiss and his last”, “but he could imagine, in some faraway future, the face he loved best”, “hey, my baby”, “once he’d said “my betrothed” and felt like a total idiot”, feel free to stop me at any point)

1. [...] I spent days dying in chains, thinking you would never know this, so let me tell you now. I will love you as long as I live. However long or short my life may be, it seems to me that I could never find time enough to love you as you deserve. Loving you made me believe in eternity. Aku cinta kamu. (c)

#malec #shadowhunters #book!malec #Magnus Bane #alexander gideon lightwood

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elettralightwood · 2 years

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City of Lost Souls Moodboard 🦋

The demon, Lilith, has been destroyed and Jace has been freed from her captivity. But when the Shadowhunters arrive to rescue him, they find only blood and broken glass. Not only is the boy Clary loves missing, but so is the boy she hates, Sebastian, the son of her father, Valentine: a son determined to succeed where their father failed and bring the Shadowhunters to their knees. No magic the Clave can summon can locate either boy, but Jace cannot stay away – not from Clary. When they meet again Clary discovers the horror Lilith’s dying magic has brought – Jace is no longer the boy she loved. He and Sebastian are now bound to each other, and Jace has become what he most feared: a true servant of Valentine’s evil. The Clave is determined to destroy Sebastian, but there is no way to harm one boy without destroying the other. Will the Shadowhunters hesitate to kill one of their own? Only a small band of Clary and Jace’s friends and family believe that Jace can still be saved – and that the fate of the Shadowhunters’ future may hinge on that salvation. They must defy the Clave and strike out on their own. Alec, Magnus, Simon and Isabelle must work together to save Jace: bargaining with the sinister Seelie Queen, contemplating deals with demons, and turning at last to the Iron Sisters, the reclusive and merciless weapons makers for the Shadowhunters, who tell them that no weapon on this Earth can sever the bond between Sebastian and Jace. Their only chance of cutting Jace free is to challenge Heaven and Hell – a risk that could claim any, or all, of their lives. And they must do it without Clary. For Clary has gone into the heart of darkness, to play a dangerous game utterly alone. The price of losing the game is not just her own life, but Jace's soul. She’s willing to do anything for Jace, but can she even still trust him? Or is he truly lost? What price is too high to pay, even for love?

The title, City of Lost Souls, is metaphorical.

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originalwinnercheesecake · 3 years

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Parabatai bond Essay... Why they may all be destined to end

Parabatai: defined by Cassandra Clare as a rare intense where a pare of warriors connect/bond in childhood and then decide to knit their souls together so that they can always stay together and always carry a piece of the other inside them. Defined by the fandom as “ a type of (supposedly) platonic marriage”. Cassandra Clare also wants to claim it as a type of bond that is unique to the shadow world, but honestly I can name several pair of Parabatai all across different media’s. Just looking at early 2000′s children's anime and Disney esqu movies we have Ash/Pikachu, Yugi Muto/the Pharaoh, Hiccup/Toothless, Woody/Buzz, etc...

... If you share my taste in these media’s you probably noticed that of the 4 other series “Parabatai” I listed 3 out of 4 (Ash and Pikachu are still partners right?) have to split off from the other due to changes of destiny/life. This is also the case for man,y many parabatai in The Shadowhunter Chronicles. Sounding off pairs that are important enough for me to care about underneath

Jonathan Shadowhunter/David the Silent: Let’s began at the beginning. Jonathan Shadowhunter was the first ever Shadowhunter. His favorite person in the world was his companion David, who wasn’t as much of a fighter as Jonathan but was very smart and very good at keeping Jonathan grounded when necessary. After being traumatized by a greater demon when fighting alone one da, David gave up fighting (and speaking), and became the first ever silent brother. The story said this broke their bond and broke Jonathan down to tears. I am sure David still loved him though. David could have chosen to go back to being a mundane but instead chose to undergo the rituals to turn himself into a silent brother. David was never that into fighting/war. Everything he did he did out of love for Johnathan. When David was no longer able to be there for Jonathan as a solider, he found a new way as a Silent Brother.

Robert Lightwood/ Michael Wayland: Parabatai and joined at the hip as teenagers. When Michael confessed to having romantic feelings towards Robert confusion as to his own feelings and fears surrounded by change drove Robert to reject Michael in a cruel and harsh way. Their bond is officially severed after the uprising when Michael die,s and Robert is exiled. Decades later Robert still regards hurting Michael as the biggest mistake in his life, the persist moment when he lost faith in himself. It is only after he confesses to his oldest child what he did and how it still haunts him all these years, only after he is finally able to acknowledge within himself the importance of the memories he has of Michael, that Robert is able to finally turn his life around for the better.

Valentine Morgenstern/ Lucian Greymark: Parabatai while studying at the academy, and for a few years afterwards. When Luke started to doubt Valentine’s plans, Valentine took him to be ambushed by a pack of feral werewolves hoping Luke would be killed instead Luke was turned. After this Valentine and Luke became bitter enemy's. These two men who once had so much love for the other, now swore to destroy any plan the other had and would fight with the intent to kill upon seeing he other. Despite all this bad blood, both still loved the memories of who the other used to be, and it is implied that a lot of their hatred for who the other is now is born from grief over they Parabatai they lost.

William Herondale/James Carstairs: CC’s closest Parabatai pair. Both Will and Jem had their whole lives shattered by demons when they were just children, and afterwards questioned at times if it was still really had much of a reason to carry on. Then they met each other and decided that they had to carry on because they loved the other to much to leave them alone. These two are in a way echo’s of Jonathan and David, and like David Jem joins the brotherhood when it is no longer possible for him to stay with Will and Tessa as a shadowhunter. They lose the bonds, but keep their love for each other. Will calls silent city on a daily basis with some excuse for needing Brother Zachariah, and Jem faithfully answers every call.

Julian Backthorn/Emma Carstairs: Fall in love, turn into Giant “true Shadowhunters”. Their bond is severed when their runes are burned off by heavenly fire coursing though their veins. By this time though their relationship had already changed from a platonic one to a romantic one.

James Herondale/ Matthew Fairchild: The two that unquestionably love each other, but do not always love the others choices. As Parabatai they try to reach out to the other and help them. But both boys deal with so much and have trouble recognizing/excepting help when it when offered. Matthew is more aware of James issues than James is of Mathews, All though by the end of Chain of Iron even Matthew is at lose to understand James. James for his part only just starts to realize how sick Matthew may be. There are a lot of theories floating around that Matthew may being to sick to function as/ protect himself as a shadowhunter. With so much to recover from will their Parabatai bond last, or are they destined to seperate?

Cordelia Carstairs/ Lucie Herondale: The will they-won’t they pair. They have planed o one day become Parabatai since they were little girls, but have never gotten around to it. They are both nearly adults now and the story already seems to be puling them in opposite direction, so a lot of people now doubt that they will even make it to the ceremony.

Jace Herondale/ Alexander Lightwood: CC’ first pair of Parabatai, and so far the only pair to keep their bond for the whole series. Like seriously even when Jace died, he came back with the bond intact and Alec reporting that he only felt a little off for a few minutes. CC’s newest reasoning behind that is that there is apparently a delay time between one parabatai dying and the bond severing, and Jace came back before his and Alec’s had time to do more than fray at the edges. So that means that our boys stayed tethered together even when Jace was on his way to the afterlife. WOW (keep this reason CC, it actually kinda works). Jace and Alec’s bond has lasted the longest, but we still have 4 more books where something bad can happen to one of them, and they are now fighting in 2 wars at once.

Clary Fairchild/ SImon Lovelace: became Parabatai in between series, after both failing as a couple, and Simon going through multiple species changes. They are still parabatai in the most recent book but, like with Jace and Alec, we still have 4 future books that could change in. Clary, Jace, and Simon are CC’s three original main characters. She claims that the plan is to wrap up the Shadowhunter Chronicles for good in The Wicked Powers. What is the likelihood that she will leave all three of her original mains alive. I mean Clary already had a vision where “a version of herself” died, and Simon was originally supposed to die in COHF, but CC’s friends begged her to let him live.

While CC claims that Parabatai are rare in her universe, what seems to actually be rare is Parabatai staying bonded throughout the pairs lives. Why is that? Well lets remember that one of the rules for Parabatai is that they must meet and be bonded during childhood, Once they become adults they are no longer eligible. A fact of growing up is that lives and people change: We make friends, we love our friends,are there for them while we can be, and yet sometimes as we grow friends part ways. People die, they move away, or just grow apart. Memories of old friends and places we all used to hang out become beloved memories of being younger. During a time in our lives when we felt more innocent and care free. A time that sadly never lasts. In conclusion to why parabatai bonds tend to break parabatai could represent the close bonds of childhood, the friends who helped you grow into an adult, and some one who you are able to treasure your memories of as an adult, even if, due to circumstance, you no longer see that person as much or at all. Value your parabatai because you don’t know how long you will actually have them

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khaleesiofalicante · 3 years

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Hello, for the prompt thing, could you do “It’s three in the morning” for Sizzy? Thank you

Prompt #3 - “It’s three in the morning” + Sizzy

“Simon!”

Simon hugged his pillow tighter.

“Simon!”

The pillow was sinfully warm. He buried his face in it and sighed contentedly.

“SIMON LEWIS LOVELACE!”

Most shadowhunters would have been startled if someone had woken them up in the middle of the night by yelling their name.

Not Simon.

For starters, he had seen too much to be fazed by a late night scare.

And the voice that yelled it him was the voice he his heart fell asleep to every night.

So, there was no need to be afraid.

“What is it?” Simon asked, rubbing his eyes.

“I need to ask you something.”

He couldn’t see her. Just her voice.

Simon picked up his phone.

“Jesus!” Simon swore and realized how much he missed saying it once. “It’s three in the morning!”

“I need to ask you something important,” Isabelle amended.

Simon used all his shadowhunter strength to turn around and face Izzy. “About what?”

“Why didn’t Leia become a Jedi?”

Simon blinked. “What?”

“Luke is a Jedi. The best Jedi. But Leia isn’t. We know that she is force sensitive though. She can telepathically communicate with him, right? And she is also his twin. So, why didn’t she become a Jedi?”

Simon blinked again.

He was very confused - but also very turned on.

“Izzy,” he said. “It’s three in the morning.”

“Do you think you can call Eric and ask?” She picked up his phone and gave it to him.

He put the phone away and turned on the bedside lamp. Isabelle was already sitting up in bed. Simon couldn't wrap his head around how any human could look so beautiful and majestic at three in the morning. But it was his Isabelle. she always exceeded expectations.

“Leia didn’t become a Jedi because she didn’t want to,” Simon replied. “I mean, that’s what I think. We don’t really know.”

“But why didn’t she?” Isabelle frowned, her dark eyebrows knitting together in confusion. “She would have been great! Even better than Luke!!”

Simon sat up and faced her in bed.

“Isabelle, you know how much I love it when you go all nerdy on me,” Simon smiled and tucked a loose piece of wild hair strand behind her ear. “But you want to tell me what this is really about?”

“It’s about princess Leia and the sexist Jedi agenda, goddamnit!” Isabelle punched his pillow.

“Sure,” Simon said because he knew her better than she let on. “But do you want to tell me what led to this fascinating train of thought?”

Izzy was quiet. It usually meant that she was deciding whether to tell the truth or not. Simon hoped it was the former.

“I might be having a tiny identity crisis,” Isabelle sighed.

“It’s three in the morning.”

“I’m sorry, I wasn’t aware there was a scheduled time to have an identity crisis!” Isabelle rolled her eyes.

“It’s okay,” Simon kissed her temple. “But for future reference, it’s dawn. The aesthetic kinda vibes with the whole mood.”

“I didn’t understand a word you said,” her rolled her eyes again.

Simon wondered if god had given the Lightwoods an extra pair of eyes to switch between all the eye-rolling. Surely, they must be tired.

“Izzy,” he whispered. “Isabelle.”

She was quiet.

“ISABELLE SOPHIA LIGHTWOOD!”

She was still quiet.

Something was wrong.

Simon had questions. He was worried. But he decided to stay quiet too. Isabelle always spoke up when she was given space. So, he decided to do just that.

“What about later?” She asked after a while had passed.

“Later?”

“When we are married?” She said quietly.

Simon thanked the dim lighting because he couldn’t help but blush. But the hawk with the raven eyes must have noticed since he saw the smallest of smiles on her lips.

“Who would I be then?” She asked. “Isabelle Lovelace? Lovelace-Lightwood?”

“You can be whoever you want,” Simon smiled.

“I want to hyphenate,” she spoke quietly. “I want you next to me in anyway I can, Simon.”

He couldn’t help but pull her close and kiss her then. The aesthetic and the mood demanded that kind of vibe.

“But..” She said when she pulled back. “There won’t be any Lightwoods after that.”

Simon must have seemed lost because she looked at him and sighed tiredly.

“Alec’s children are Lightwood-Banes and ours would be Lovelace-Lightwoods or whatever. But there won’t be any Lightwoods anymore.”

“Oh,” Simon said.

“There would have been if…Max,” She stopped.

He put his arms around her.

“From what you told me, he was a smart kid,” he told her. “So, surely he would have changed his name into something flashier. Like Thunderstorm or Nightraven.”

Isabelle chuckled reluctantly.

“There is always going to be a Lightwood somewhere,” he said softly. “You are a stubborn bunch.”

“Always?” She asked.

“Well, technically Magnus is a Lightwood too,” he explained. “So, yes. Always.”

She suddenly looked sad then. But as Simon knew, about something else, entirely.

“Hey,” he shook her slightly in his arms. “If you want, our children could take your last name. Just yours.”

Isabelle looked genuinely surprised at that.

“When I was at the academy, I did research into all your families. Mostly because I was bored but partly because of there were some dope gangsters back then. But there was this one woman. An ancestor of Clary. Charlotte. Charlotte Fairchild.”

“The first female counsel,” Izzy smiled.

“Total badass,” Simon nodded. “Did you know she decided to let her children carry her name instead of her husband’s? She got the clave to accept that. Talk about power moves.”

“She is incredible,” Isabelle agreed. “Do you know Alec is lowkey obsessed with her?”

“Your brother continues to have good taste in power babes,” Simon chuckled. “But my point is…If you want to do that…If you want our kids to have your name, we can do that.”

“You would do that for me?” Isabelle asked, her eyes wide.

“Izzy,” he said. “There is literally nothing I wouldn’t do for you.”

“Hmmm,” she and rested her head on his arm. “Thank you, Simon.”

She sounded okay.

“Are you feeling better now?” He asked. “Identity crisis averted?”

“I don’t know,” she shrugged. “Maybe I should think about it at dawn.”

He smiled and kissed her again.

“You know what you should do? You should talk to Jace.”

“Jace?”

“He has a certificate course in identity crisis,” Simon pointed out. “And a diploma in last name dilemma.”

Isabelle laughed then. And he was glad. Even if it was at Jace’s expense.

“I’ll do that,” she said and rolled back to her side of the bed. “Thank you, my love.”

“Now let’s get back to sle…Oh no!”

“What is it?” Izzy asked urgently.

“My warm pillow,” Simon held it up. “It’s cold now.”

Isabelle laughed again and stretched her hand.

“Get in here,” she said and Simon suddenly found himself wrapped in warmth so pure that he felt asleep right away.

#i kinda like writing about them djekskkssk #hope you like :)#simon lewis #isabelle lightwood #sizzy #tsc snippets

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moonlight-breeze-44 · 3 years

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Shadowhunters Fics ~ Comfort Recs <3

With everything that’s currently unfolding in the United States, I thought that some of us might want to escape through fic for a little bit. With that in mind, I’ve made a list of my favourite fluff & hurt/comfort Shadowhunters fics to share with the crowd :) I love you all, and you’re wonderful. The world is a pretty scary place right now, but I have hope for the future. Remember to take care of your lovely selves and treat yourself with the kindness you deserve. <3

Pairings, rating, and any relevant warnings will be noted in the recs! :)

Fluff Recs

Of Cuddling and Clinginess by bidness (Malec, G, no warnings) Alec finally gets his cuddles.

All the Colors of the Rainbow by unending_happiness (Malec, G, no warnings) Alec and Magnus share a moment with their children involving colors, fluff, and pride.

Five times Alec called Magnus his husband on their wedding day by SquaresAreNotCircles (Malec, G, no warnings) Alec is very, very happy to be married to Magnus and it’s imperative that everyone at their wedding knows this.

Patience Pays Off by Aria_Lerendeair (Malec, T, no warnings) Alec and Magnus have been falling in love with each other through letters for a long time; when they finally meet each other in person, it’s everything they dreamed of and more.

Close by bidness (Malec, T, no warnings) High school AU involving music, an illegal amount of cuteness, Discord, and the rest of the gang revealing to Alec and Magnus that they’re not fooling anybody.

Haha Just Kidding...Unless? by Carmenlire (Malec, Not Rated, no warnings) College AU, best friends to lovers, and Malec being lovable idiots in love.

That’s The Spirit! by ByTheAngell (platonic Simon & Alec, T, no warnings) Simon needs someone to tag along on a ghost hunt, and Alec finds himself roped into doing the job.

Dancing In Your Arms by Aria_Lerendeair (Malec, T, no warnings) Dancing With The Stars AU where Malec are dancers paired together. Contains a ton of flirting, adorable proposals, and lots of pride.

Tell me I’m perfect (but tell me the truth) by SquaresAreNotCircles (Malec, T, no warnings) 5 times Alec talks about how perfect Magnus is when he isn’t there, and one time Alec talks about how perfect Magnus is when they’re together.

You’re Like Family by thatnerdemilyj (Lightwood siblings, G, no warnings) Jace is roped into reading with Alec & Isabelle (not long after he comes to stay with the Lightwoods) and finds he really likes having a family of his own.

Sleeping Beauty by notcrypticbutcoy (Malec, T, no warnings) Alec comes home from a mission exhausted and seeking cuddles. Magnus is more than happy to provide.

Idiots To Lovers by Aria_Lerendeair (Malec, T, no warnings) Thanks to an amazing server, Alec and Magnus finally get a clue about each other. Best friends to lovers.

Familiar Faces, Quiet Thoughts by Carmenlire (Malec, Not Rated, no warnings) An inside look at Malec’s relationship and the trust & intimacy that belongs there, told from Jace’s POV.

An Unlikely Angel by thatnerdemilyj (platonic Clary & Alec, G, no warnings) After a spell allows Clary to read other people’s thoughts, she doesn’t like the thoughts in Alec’s head, and takes to leaving him anonymous post-it notes to make him smile.

Sleepless in Brooklyn by Aria_Lerendeair (Malec, G, no warnings) It’s still early in their relationship, but Magnus is determined to make sure Alec gets some proper rest.

I’ll be here for you by Neuqe (Jimon, G, mentions of the canon times in the show when Jace & Simon died) Simon and Jace have a much-needed conversation in the Hunter’s Moon after the events of 2x20 and form Team Back From The Dead.

Hurt/Comfort Recs

just be by cuubism (Malec, G, anxiety & self-harm) Magnus helps Alec through the anxiety he’s facing.

i want your midnights by anonlymous (Malec, T, talk of self-harm) Malec talk about self-harm and also, there’s kittens.

One obstacle too many by sugarandspace (Malec, G, no warnings) Alec comes home after a long day at the Institute and Magnus makes it better with cuddles.

Astraphobia by AceOnIce (Malec, T, minor anxiety attack) Alec is scared of storms, but his experience is made better by the one and only Magnus Bane. Human AU.

A Bad Day by Aria_Lerendeair (platonic Magnus & Simon, Raphael and Alec are there too, T, no warnings) Simon comes to Magnus and Raphael on the anniversary of his death and they (plus Alec) help make the day a little better through Star Wars marathons and cuddles.

Stronger For It by sugarandspace (Malec, T, self-harm) Alec has a relapse, years after he thought he’d won the battle against his self-harm, and Magnus is there to remind him that he has nothing to feel ashamed of.

With your arms around me by HopeSilverheart (Malace, G, nightmares) One time Magnus has a nightmare, one time Alec has a nightmare, and one time Jace has a nightmare. Told from Jace’s POV. Eventual Malace. Lots of love and comfort all around.

sway with me, don’t speak by anonlymous (Malec, T, anxiety) After a mission gone wrong, Magnus takes Alec to the beach and helps him to combat the last of his anxiety.

No reason to feel like this by sugarandspace (Malec, Not Rated, depression) Alec deals with depression, and Magnus is there for him.

When the Night’s With You by fishcollective (Jalec, G, nightmare) Alec comforts Jace after he has a nightmare.

On Thunderstorms and Scared Shadowhunters by alecszuko (Malec, G, mention of unaccepting [of fears] Shadowhunter society, Bad Parent Maryse) Alec is afraid of thunderstorms, and Magnus is there to reassure him that there’s nothing wrong with having a phobia.

You Are Strong by sugarandspace (Malec, G, self-harm) Alec comes home early, asking for a distraction. Magnus is happy to help.

We Care for Each Other by ZequoiaRose (Malec, T, no warnings) Alec has a bad day, and Magnus comforts him.

I hope that you enjoy these and that they might put a smile on your face! <3

#shadowhunters #fic recs #malec #malace #jalec #jimon #platonic relationships #hurt/comfort #fluff #em recs stuff #tw: self harm #tw: anxiety #tw: nightmares #tw: depression #tw: panic attack

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beclynn-herondale · 3 years

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Inside TMI Gang's diaries part 5 2/3

Clary: Dear diary, I ran away with Jace, mom won't be happy, but I have to save my Jace. Simon is covering for me, although that won't last long and mom may go mama bear on him, I do love him though and I'll owe him one. So far things have been weird, seeing Jace get along with Sebastian is strange and I don't like it, and Sebastian is as evil as ever, i miss Jace so much, this Jace isn't my Jace. And Sebastian doesn't trust me I know this for a fact, but I don't trust him either and you better watch your back Sebastian.

*Later*

So Jace's room is the same as it always is, so clean not a mess, everything is neat, but he isn't Jace. We went on a date, Sebastian let us cause Jace would be with me, Jace cam speak italian and hates ducks, I'll have to mention this stuff when he is my Jace again, we stole a boat but that's nothing new from what we usually do, the date was nice but I felt guilty for enjoying it, when we came back Sebastian was occupied and creepy, anyway, we had a talk when I woke up later and he is starting to confuse me, but that's what he wants. I went back to bed and got up again, also Jace can make eggs, I don't like them but can't tell him that, also I wonder if he can cook other things, need to make a list of things to ask him when he's back to normal Jace. We also read a copy of his ancestor's book.

*Later later*

Me, Jace and Sebastian, went on a mission kind of thing, Simon calls us team Evil, we fought a demon, and I actually kicked a demons butt, Sebastian took us to a kinda night club, me and Jace got high, Sebastian told me I have a dark heart and like bitch whatever. Me and Jace made out in the club and uh things kinda got outta control, I am not proud, ok, I thought I saw dead people and passed out, I woke up to Sebastian leaving and followed him, demons almost killed me and he saved me, what is he doing? I lost my ring and can't get in contact with Simon, everything is bad and maybe this is all hopeless, no, I just need coffee, sweet sweet coffee, I need a coffee high *coffee/knife/serious emoji*

Possessed Jace: Dear diary, things are good, Sebastian keeps giving me weird looks when I am with Clary though, Sebastian we are still cool though don't worry. Clary is here and it's nice, I want her to be happy and her to have whatever she wants, I am gonna be so romantic but cool about *sunglasses emoji* I am Jace Lightwood, and extremely smooth and she loves me.

*Later*

I took Clary on a date and I nailed it *sunglasses emoji* we went back home after that and I read to her and we went to sleep, after that we went on a mission, my fire goddess kicked ass, and Sebastian took us to a night club place to take care of evil stuff, me and Clary got high and we did some things at the night club. In the morning I made her eggs, I'll make her eggs all the time, Sebastian wants to discuss evil plans now.

Trapped Jace: *sharpening knives* just wait you little shit, keep looking at Clary like that and I'll stab you, I am gonna beat you up, you shall know my wrath, and I will bring it upon you. *Knife/murderous emoji*

Sebastian: Dear evil diary, what can I say, the fruit of evil is ripe, I have evil plans, I have Jace under my finger, I have Clary now too, and soon she'll understand. Jace will do anything I say and Clary will do anything for him, love truly does make one weak. And I wi burn shit. Also maybe I'll play with stuff as well. *Devil emoji*

*Later*

We got into a fight and Clary can kick ass, maybe I underestimated her a tiny little bit. We went to a night club and I talk to Meliorn and I do believe the fair folk will stand with me, and after all I do have something with the queen, and I know what you are going to say what about Jace? Well you see Jace is my backup plan he has no idea ;)

Alec: Dear diary, still sneaking around, Jace is still gone, Clary is gone now too, Jocelyn is angry and I know why she scares Jace now, Izzy and Simon are something, Idk but my big brother instincts are kicking in. Jocelyn and Izzy went to the Iron Sisters and found out there isn't a weapon to separate Jace from Sebastian, unless it is of heaven itself or something. *Shrug emoji*

*Later* so we summoned a demon, and then a greater demon, what have we become? I'll do whatever it takes to save Jace, but like when did we start summoning demons and greater demons like it's not a big deal? I think we've lost our minds, and we are also now apparently going to summon Raziel, what are we doing, but it's for Jace. Also Magnus does look good in his outfit today but there is stuff between us. When did life get so complicated? *shrug emoji*

Magnus: Dear diary, welcome back to the crazy chaotic would of Shadowhunters, I may have lost Clary, but it's not my fault she can make portals, I see an angry Jocelyn in my future. Alec is kinda weird lately but it's probably nothing, Isabelle and Jocelyn were going to the Iron Sisters to see if there is a weapon that can separate Jace and Sebastian, blondie needs to come back so all this Shadowhunter drama will calm down.

*Later*

We summoned a demon and after that we summoned the greater demon Azazel, the little shit almost told Alec who my father is, and I swear what have I gotten myself into? Oh! Also apparently we are gonna summon an Angel now, I have a feeling we'll all be dead by the end of this, it's a miracle we haven't died already, I have to do research and stuff, also Sheldon saved my cat so I am thankful for that, Isabelle and Simon have something going on, Jocelyn is gone, and I want to drink and drink, cause Magnus is done bitches. But also Alec is looking beautiful today. *throws glitter* *sunglasses emoji*

Izzy: Dear diary, Simon came to me like I asked him to, and he told me about starwars or something, I don't remember the plot exactly but I think they had something called lifesavers???? Or something, also they are apparently in space which is cool, and the good guys win. Also me and Jocelyn went to the Iron Sisters and they said I would make a good one but like bish ya girl needs her heels, idk what has gotten into me lately, but when I think about Simon I feel happy and I get this feeling and I want to spend time with him and hear him talk endlessly about starwars cause he is so passionate about it. *Confused emoji*

*Later*

We may have kinda summoned a demon, and then a greater demon, and now we may kinda be getting ready to summon an angel we are on our way to Luke's farm so yeah. . . But yeah, Simon may die and idk what to do... *Blank emoji*

Simon: Dear diary, life just doesn't seem to be letting up, first Clary ran off to do reckless shit, Jace is literally possessed by her evil Brother and is like a puppet, Jocelyn is mad I didn't stop Clary, but honestly who can stop Clary?!?! — Izzy went off to the Iron sister earlier with Jocelyn before she found out Clary was gone and apparently they can't make a weapon to separate Jace and Sebastian without killing them both, this is the part where that intense action yet hopeless music would start playing. *Nerd emoji*

*Later* I told Izzy the plot of Starwars and she listened and laughed and said it was neat, she said It was neat and even though it is so much more than neat for some reason her just listening to me talk about it made me so happy, she may become a fan *Shooketh emoji* but also we summoned a demon, and then a greater demon and now we are going to summon an angel to try and get the angel Michael's sword called glorious cause it's apparently the only weapon that will work, but I may die so rip, but also please let everything be alright but also I do have the mark of cain it's just a matter of if it works. *Worried emoji*

Church: Dear Cat diary, I come to you with the heavy weight of the most fucking done I have ever been, Jem is still hasn't come and saved me, Herondale is still possessed and honestly I am done, fire ball ran away, archer boy is off doing shit, Izzy is falling in love now too and I thought she would be the one who wouldn't like girl love drama? And Simon is probably contributing to whatever chaotic plan fire ball has. evil shit is probably off doing evil shit, where's that sweet little boy? Gone! Because an ass had to be an ass. Sorry I need to control my emotions, I just miss Jem so much, and these kids are driving me crazy, also Magnus you are contributing as well now,Jem Jem Jem pls. Anyway I am gonna go sharpen my claws and eat tuna and drown my sorrows in tuna. *Cat/tuna/murderous emoji*

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henryandalex · 4 years

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***Magnus and Alec are husbands. Yes, this needed to be said because CAN YOU BELIEVE? :’) But also, yes, it’s really been that long since the latest Malec fic rec. I’m sorry. It’s... yeah. Although if you also miss Malec every second of every day, reading fanfics at least helps a little.

I tried to collect a nice mix again so I hope you will enjoy this 9th (!!!) edition of my Malec fanfic rec posts. As usual, I enjoy making them and rec’ing you fics but these posts take a looooot of time so please, please, please reblog, like and spread the word so that I see you enjoy these and these posts are helpful. It motivates to do a new one in the future if y’all are interested. Thank you

And now, have fun discovering, reading, and loving those Malec fics. And leave a kudo and comment for those authors while you’re on it. We all love appreciation and need validation. :)***

previous Malec fic recs: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8

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42 NORTH 71 WEST by @lecrit [ M | AU | 62.1k | complete ]

Alec sometimes wonders why he ever decided to pursue a career in politics. Magnus sometimes questions whether pursuing his dream of becoming an actor was worth it.

Those two facts are not necessarily mutually exclusive.

THE SHOW MUST GO ON by @unrestrainedlyexcessive [ E | AU | 21.3k | complete ]

Alec pulls up to the gold intercom positioned at the enormous front gates. Like everything owned by the obscenely wealthy, they’re proportioned for both for giants and giant egos.

He’d hoped this would be easier, less gut-churning work than protecting diplomats and foreign dignitaries, some guilty of truly terrible things, but being a bodyguard for a coddled popstar who can’t even be bothered with basic safety isn’t his idea of a good time.

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Magnus is a popstar and Alec is his reluctant bodyguard. The bodyguard au in epistolary form. Image-heavy.

HIGHER THAN THE BIG TREES by @carmenlire [ E | AU | 242k | complete ]

Alec loves his job. He’s been touring since he was sixteen. He’s stayed in dozens of countries over the years, learned enough of their languages to get a beer in his hand and a man in his bed. The road is as much his home as the townhouse on the Upper West Side. He’s as comfortable in cheap hotel rooms with scratchy linens and glaring lights as he is in his penthouse that overlooks Central Park with its silk sheets and the constant hum of the city that never sleeps. Alec works hard and that hard work has paid off. He just finished his latest sold-out world tour and by all rights, he should be on top of the world. But the mental pressure of celebrity is getting to Alec and he doesn't trust his footing. He's stuck where most people would kill to be and he just wants to know what his next move should be. Enter Magnus Bane. A history professor at Columbia University, Magnus is content with his friends, his classes, and the occasional warm body in his bed. But he's been feeling stagnant, looking for the next chapter in his life to begin. If only he knew what Alec would bring his way.

THE SECRET OF THE SECRET SANTA by @notcrypticbutcoy [ T | AU | 12.7k | complete ]

As busy doctors with busy schedules, Magnus and Alec have danced around their feelings for each other for years, much to the chagrin of their friends. This Christmas, Simon decides it’s time for an intervention-in the form of a shamelessly rigged secret santa.

Or: In which Simon rigs the secret santa, Magnus and Alec flirt over nerdy doctor things, and are both a little bit oblivious.

RUMOR HAS IT by @lecrit [ M | AU | 12.9k | complete ]

Magnus widens his eyes at him, silently asking him to just give him this one. Alec simply curves one of his stupidly perfect eyebrows in response, a simple gesture that carries the weight of a call for challenge. “Looks like you’re gonna have to postpone your wedding for now,” Maia giggles next to him. Magnus huffs, flexing his jaw. “Oh, it’s on, Lightwood,” he mouths at him.

Or the one where Alec and Magnus are both after the same guy, but end up falling for each other instead.

CIGARETTE by j__writes [ T | AU | 3.1k | complete ]

His relationship with Magnus Bane had been nothing short of frustrating.

Frustrating in the worst of ways. Frustrating in the best of ways.

ABSOLUTELY ABYSMAL by @aemiliafawn [ E | 4.8k | complete ]

The first time Alec sees Magnus wearing lipstick he wants to do filthy things to him. Magnus isn't exactly opposed to this.

A ROYAL AFFAIR by j__writes [ M | AU | 38.8k | complete ]

Prince meets professor and it's love at first sight. Lucky (or maybe unlucky) for him, the beautiful professor doesn't know his boyfriend's a prince.

HEAVEN IS A TASTE ON EARTH by @alittlebriton [ T | AU | 20.7k | complete ]

Making a birthday cake for the renowned chef Magnus Bane is a hard enough task – made harder still by the fact his girlfriend doesn’t seem to know Magnus’ likes or dislikes at all. Alec Lightwood, maker of some of the finest cakes in Brooklyn, is up to the challenge, even if he can’t take his eyes off the birthday boy. But as Alec and Magnus grow closer, could it be that the missing ingredient is true love?

LOVE & OTHER DRUGS by @la-muerta [ E | AU | 2k | complete | Semi-Charmed Kind Of Life #1 ]

Rising rockstar Magnus Bane’s life is all about sex, drugs, and rock 'n' roll - it's an old cliché, but sometimes the clichés are true. And Alec Lightwood, a bassist from another band, is a drug Magnus can't get enough of - even if he knows that like any drug, he's sinking deeper with every hit he takes, and that this is killing him slowly and painfully.

Because this is just about sex, and Alexander doesn't love him back.

OUR LOVE IS A HARSH CHORD by @la-muerta [ E | AU | 21.9k | complete | Semi-Charmed Kind Of Life #2 ]

Magnus lives in two worlds: one of blinding stage lights and the thunder of the adoring crowd stomping its feet to the rhythm of his music; and one of the darkness offstage, a blur of lonely hotel rooms, one-night stands, drugs, and the sting of whiskey.

Magnus lives in two worlds, both of them stark, bleak, empty - until Alec Lightwood comes along, and everything falls apart.

MELTING MOLTEN by @raininginadelaide [ E | 4k | complete ]

The training scene in the show was their second attempt. The first time, Alec showed even less restraint.

SUPPORT SYSTEM by @bytheangell [ T | AU | 122.8k | complete | Support System #1 ]

When Alec's favorite show gets cancelled and he takes to messaging customer service repeatedly to show his support, he doesn't expect to connect so well with the support representative he keeps getting paired off with.

PAGING DR. LIGHTWOOD-BANE by @carmenlire [ not rated | AU | 4.4k | complete ]

Alec scowls. “I’m not on rotation this weekend-- I’m not even on call-- and we decided to make the most out of it.”

“We,” Maia asks, brows inching towards her hair line. “Who’s we?”

“My husband and I,” he mutters and he rolls his eyes as it's like a bomb’s been detonated in the middle of the table.

Simon screeches, “What,” and even Jace and Isabelle are looking at him with wide eyes.

“You’re married?”

Or, the one where everybody finds out

TRUTH OR DARE? by @atowncalledmalec [ E | AU | 4.5k | complete ]

Two small-town cops, partners, Alec Lightwood and Magnus Bane, have somehow pulled desk duty on the graveyard shift. Bored out of their minds and finding a lie detector machine, the chance of winning a $50 bet and being able to ask the questions they've always wanted to ask is too good of an opportunity to pass up. Alec gets a little more than he bargained for though when the machine betrays him at every turn. And so does Magnus.

EVERYTHING I DIDN’T KNOW I WANTED FOR CHRISTMAS by @la-muerta [ T | AU | 4.5k | complete ]

Alec got his Christmas shopping done months ago - but he should have known that Jace would mess it all up for him. Now he's out braving the crowds on Christmas Eve trying to find a toy that's sold out everywhere for his son, and as it turns out, he's not the only desperate single father out there who will stop at nothing to get his hands on that last toy in the shops.

CERTAIN PERKS by quill_and_ink [ E | 5.5k | complete ]

"You never have to prove yourself to me."

Shadowhunters are being murdered and mutilated. The Clave is getting desperate to find the culprit, but Alec has to believe there's another way. He won't let this end his relationship with Magnus - he refuses to accept that, and he'll do whatever he can to protect them.

Based on the dialogue and actions from "Shadowhunters" Episode 2x13: "Those of Demon Blood"

THE TRUTH UNTOLD by @carmenlire [ not rated | 4.4k | complete ]

Magnus closes his eyes and leans into the feelings that wrap around him. They’re two of the most powerful men in the New York shadow world. It makes his chest ache sometimes, the knowledge that they may never be able to take their relationship public, that he won’t ever be able to kiss Alec on a sunny day in the city, that they can’t hold hands as they walk through Central Park, that whenever they do see each other in public it’s always in an official capacity and they’re relegated to formal greetings while their eyes try to say everything they can’t.

He’d still take this over not having Alec, though. That Magnus knows without a doubt.

ANYTHING YOU SAY by @milominderbindered [ M | AU | 117k | complete ]

Detective Alec Lightwood likes his job. He likes the order of it, likes helping people, likes that he gets to work with Jace and that Izzy is always right downstairs in the morgue too. He's wanted to be a cop ever since he was a kid, just like his parents before him, and now he's living that dream. His life should be perfect.

There's just one problem. Their precinct has just gotten a new forensic expert -- Magnus Bane.

And honestly, he's so cute that Alec's kind of losing his mind.

EMISSARY OF SIN by @insiemes [ M | AU | 97.6k | complete ]

Alec Lightwood, the Clave's top protection agent, is called upon to guard the life of his mortal enemy - one of the world's most notorious hitmen, Magnus Bane.

SHOOT TO KISS by @dantes-wombat [ M | 5k | complete ]

As far as dates go, this one's a bit more weapons-centered than Magnus expected - but also a lot sexier.

IF YOU’VE GOT THE MONEY, I’VE GOT THE TIME by j__writes [ T | AU | 73.4k | complete ]

Alec has made plenty of questionable choices, as Izzy likes to so kindly remind him. Asking Magnus to be his fake boyfriend and then offering to pay him? That, right there, he doesn’t know what the fuck he was thinking. And he wasn’t. But Magnus is really nice and really fucking hot, and if Alec gets to pretend to be his boyfriend then… win - win, right?

ANONYMOROUS by @superficialpeasant [ E | AU | 10.6k | complete ]

When one of Clary’s art exhibition performers drops out last minute, Alec steps in to help. Unfortunately that also means he’ll be having sex with a stranger in public.

DATE NIGHT by @unrestrainedlyexcessive [ G | 562 | complete ]

“Look, it’s no big deal,” Alec says. “The angles in pool are just like archery. I have a natural advantage.”

“Pretty sure I beat you the first time we played,” Magnus says, taking a sip of his martini. He couldn’t remember ever feeling so relaxed, so at home in a relationship.

That is, until Alec started winning.

HARDER THAN THE LIQUOR I POUR by @carmenlire [ not rated | AU | 6.5k | complete ]

The bartender considers him for a moment before holding out the hand that was over his just a second before. “I’m Magnus, bartender extraordinaire. While I certainly wouldn’t mind calling you pretty boy for the rest of the evening, I think it only fair that you share your name, too. Don’t you?”

Slowly, Alec reaches out and grasps Magnus’s hand in a poor imitation of a handshake. He meets Magnus’s eyes and knows they both know that this is a mere prelude for what’s to come.

“Alec,” he says slowly and watches as Magnus’s smile deepens.

“Well, Alec, my shift ends in an hour. Wait for me?”

CREAM by @ohfreckle [ E | 3.4k | complete ]

Sometimes Magnus likes to wear panties.

“Are you kidding? You look amazing!” Alec wishes he were more eloquent, that he could miraculously find the words and praise to express how fucking hot Magnus is with his little panties on.

SAY IT by @ilovealeclightwood [ E | 4k | complete ]

“I want you,” Magnus pressed his lips to Alec’s neck, the sensation of his lips against the deflect rune making Alec shudder again.

“To admit,” Magnus continued, pausing to run his tongue over the length of the rune, sending sparks of pleasure through Alec and making him try to jerk his hips up again.

“That I was right.” Magnus pulled away from his neck to look down at him and it took a second for what he meant to click with Alec.

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Or, Magnus and Alec solve petty arguments in a sensable, responsible manner

ALL NIGHT (OR A HUNDRED YEARS) by @hourglassmermaid [ T | 4.3k | complete ]

“Get your mind out of the gutter, Raphael,” Magnus chastises. “You know I take care of my friends.”

Friends. The word stings more than kuri venom; it lingers far longer than any demon attack ever could. It lingers in Alec’s mind when he’s tossing and turning at night imagining what they could have been if Alec hadn’t been such a coward all those years ago. It lingers in his heart whenever they’re alone, and Alec swears he sees a glimmer of those feelings Magnus must have buried long ago. And it lingers in his soul whenever they work together as allies, as leaders, as partners, because they really are compatible in all the ways that count.

But none of that matters, because they’re just friends.

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Alec and Magnus are colleagues — maybe even friends. Definitely allies. Alec's content, with his life, his career, and even his (lack of) relationships, but sometimes when Magnus sits beside him, Alec may or may not cease to function. It's okay; he's okay.

I SAW PAPA KISSING SANTA CLAUS by j__writes [ G | AU | 3.3k | complete ]

“I heard a noise and so I snuck out. He didn’t see me but I saw him. I saw Santa and then I saw Papa and he kissed Santa, Raf.”

LIKE NOBODY ELSE by @carmenlire [ not rated | AU | 3.7k | complete ]

Simon’s been Alec’s assistant for the past three years. Alec was a hard ass, no doubt about it. He had exacting standards, a perpetually sardonic expression, and Simon had literally never seen the man smile.

Lightwood had exploded onto the scene ten years ago and in that time, he’s made a name for himself that no one else could rival. He might not be well liked but everyone-- even his enemies-- respected Lightwood.

Or, Simon is Alec's secretary and doesn't realize just how little he knows about his boss until he solves a mystery.

SEXY SNAPSHOTS by @tobythewise [ E | AU | 2.8k | complete ]

“Anything interesting on there?” Alec asks, a teasing note in his voice as he nods at the camera. “Anything sexy?" “Not at the moment.” Magnus raises his brow. “Wanna change that?” OR The one where Magnus and Alec explore what it's like to have sexy times while snapping sexy pictures of each other.

PUNDAMENTALS OF OFFICE RIVALRY by @bytheangell [ T | AU | 3.8k | complete ]

When Magnus and Alexander get off on the wrong foot at the start of their internship, Magnus takes it upon himself to annoy Alec at every turn.

WORSE THINGS THAN BEING IN LOVE by @aemiliafawn [ E | 4.6k | complete ]

Their wedding was everything they had ever dared to dream of. But perhaps their wedding night was just as special.

CRYPTIDS OF BROOKLYN by @alexanderlightweight [ M | AU | 2.3k | complete ]

For all the rather redundant and overused jokes made about lawyers and sharks, never was such a comparison or joke made concerning Alec Lightwood, as there was one glaring difference between the two ruthless predators.

Sharks smiled, Alec Lightwood didn’t.

ZERO COMPLAINTS by @aemiliafawn [ E | 3.3k | complete ]

Usually when someone wakes Magnus up before sunrise they'd have to face his wrath – however since Alec decides to make it actually worthwhile for the exhausted warlock, Magnus finds he doesn't mind making an exception just once.

HAHA JUST KIDDING... UNLESS? by @carmenlire [ not rated | AU | 2.5k | complete ]

"You know Magnus wouldn’t joke about boning his best friend just to do it. You mean too much to him and we all know how gone you’ve been over Magnus since, like, eighth grade.”

Alec sighs and it feels like the weight of the world is on his shoulders. “I can’t get my hopes up, Jace. I’ve been in love with him for years but he doesn’t feel the same way.”

Groaning like they’ve gone around the block about this a thousand times-- because they have-- Jace facepalms. “How many times do I have to tell you-- Magnus feels what you feel but you’re both too stupid to get past your own hang-ups to talk about it.”

TAKE IT EASY by @la-muerta [ E | AU | 18.2k | complete ]

Alec signs up for a session with a professional male dominant, just a one-time thing to satisfy his curiosity. It most definitely doesn't end up being just a one-time thing.

THE LONELY HEARTS HOTLINE by @unrestrainedlyexcessive [ E | AU | 40.6k | complete ]

“Hey there,” Alec says in the lowest, sexiest voice he can manage. It sounds vaguely disinterested but some people get off on that.

“Hi,” the voice says.

“Ready to have some fun?”

The voice makes a small, sad noise.

“Or not?” Alec tries hastily. He gets paid regardless of what they're talking about. “We can just chat for a while.”

“What’s your name,” the voice says finally.

“Uh, Chad,” Alec says. He was drunk when he picked his name, just as he was drunk when he answered the job wanted ad. He should have picked something sexy like Tristan, but he’s forever Chad now, the douchiest phone sex operator in history. He balances his bowl of macaroni carefully on his stomach and sneaks a quick bite.

“You don’t sound like a Chad,” the voice says doubtfully.

“Why the hell not?” Alec says before he can stop himself, mouth full of pasta.

“--are you eating?”

“No,” Alec lies and swallows.

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Alec is a bored phone sex operator. Bafflingly, Magnus just wants to talk about music.

BRIGHT LIGHTS, SMALL TOWN by @lecrit [ E | AU | 104.3k | complete | To Build A Home #1 ]

When Magnus gets to Nashville, Indiana to handle his late mother's will, he doesn't expect to be forced to stay there for six months. Six months away from New York and lost in the wildness of the countryside.

It quickly appears that he is going to go through six months of living hell.

The fact that he hates the local veterinarian on sight isn't helping.

BRIGHT LIGHTS, SMALL TOWN: EXTRAS by @lecrit [ E | AU | 12.6k | complete | To Build A Home #2 ]

A combination of extras for Bright Lights, Small Town.

EARTH’S MIGHTIEST HEROES by @lecrit [ M | AU | 141.9k | complete | Avengers Assemble #3 ]

The thing is… Their plans have a history of not going accordingly so when they finally do, maybe they build a confidence a bit too quickly. Breaking Magnus out turns out to be indeed a formality. Selling the ruby, too. So what could possibly go wrong now?

In which our team of misfits has to deal with the consequences of messing with a dangerous man and again, everything goes according to plan. Or not.

COLOR ME BLUE by @carmenlire [ not rated | AU | 18.8k | complete ]

Christmas is his favorite time of the year but Alec has barely had time to buy presents let alone enjoy the holiday season. December seems to have lasted the blink of an eye and Alec's shoulders hunch as he realizes morosely that most of this year is a blur of emergencies and rounds and consultations.

His gaze snags on a bakery display as he walks past. The window is dressed with multicolored lights and garland wrapping around the edges. The display case is full and Alec’s mouth waters just at the sight.

Without conscious thought, Alec is reaching for the door to Bane's Bakery, eager to see if the interior is just as whimsical and welcoming as the outside.

#malec #malec fic #malec fic rec #malec fanfic #shadowhunters #fic rec #fanfic #otp: look what i have waiting for me

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Finally complete! Feels like the end of an era, and I’m going to try to let myself feel accomplished! Thank you to everyone who came along for the ride, and future thanks to anyone who hops back in <3

Chapters: 66/66 Fandom: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood Characters: Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood, Clary Fray, Maryse Lightwood, Raphael Santiago, Luke Garroway, Original Child Character(s), Ragnor Fell, Catarina Loss, Max Lightwood, Tessa Gray, Jem Carstairs, Church (Shadowhunter Chronicles), Original Cat Character(s), Chairman Meow (Shadowhunter Chronicles), Isabelle Lightwood, Jace Wayland, Simon Lewis

Summary:

It’s been three years since Alec Lightwood was stripped of his runes, three years to build a new life for himself as a mundane. Now, he runs a tattoo shop catering to downworlders, where anyone could stumble in.

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After helping prevent the second uprising of The Circle, Magnus Bane traded in his position as High Warlock to pursue his second calling: fatherhood. With two young warlock children, life is far from mundane.

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This story is a slow burn of numerous meet-cutes, generous fluff, and feel-good kid-fic moments. Constant fluff, eventual smut. Lots and lots of smut. Follows a timeline that includes a ton of holidays.

#malec #fanfic #malec fandom #malec fanfiction #magnus bane #alec lightwood #shadowhunters #shadowhunter chronicles #kid fic #long fic #slow burn #completed #malec fluff #multichapter

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Merry Christmas, myulalie!

For @myulalie <3

Read On AO3

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The one that he always (dreamt of)

It was his first day in college and Alec was glad that he had also found himself a job so he could pay for the courses he was taking.

His job was making deliveries for the flower shop his brother Jace and Jace’s boyfriend owned.

Alec never showed anyone his soulmate marks. It was rare to have them and the last thing he needed was a lot of attention and his siblings remarking on it.

After his morning classes he walked to work to collect the deliveries and earn his salary, plus maybe tips that clients would give him.

His last delivery took him to a tattoo shop, to bring flowers to a tattoo artist, Magnus Bane.

Alec had known since he was a little boy that he wanted to have a set of tattoos, but his parents wouldn’t let him. The matter was never mentioned again, but now he was standing outside the shop, looking at images that were amazing and beautiful. Alec knew what he would do next, once he earned more money.

Alec entered the shop and let the receptionist know he had a delivery for Magnus Bane.

The red-haired girl nodded and made a phone call.

A few minutes later a man showed up. Alec could see that almost all his body was tattooed and he had piercings in his lips and ears. Alec found himself staring with awe at the man and his beauty. He was so distracted that he didn’t notice his mouth was still open.

The gorgeous man came toward him as he asked, “Are those for me?”

“Uh… Yes, sorry, didn’t mean to stare,” Alec nervously moved his hand over his hair and gave the other man the flowers. “These are for you.”

Magnus put the flowers on the reception desk as he focused his attention on the delivery man.

“No… no, it’s quite alright. I’m always amazed by the reaction I get from my appearance,” Magnus told him with a smile.

“Is that a tattoo on your hand?” Magnus asked as he thought that he saw a glimpse of something.

“No… sorry, it’s not a tattoo,” Alec replied and hid his hand away.

“Is that a soulmate mark?” Magnus asked with a fascinated look.

“Could be. Why?” Alec asked, not giving anything away.

“I have one too,” Magnus replied to him as he rolled up his sleeve and Alec could see a name mixed with his rune tattoo of love. He created it once, the one that he always dreamt of. “What’s yours? Tattoo or soulmate mark, man?”

“Uh… I never show it to anyone,” Alec told him, still feeling nervous about the whole thing, as he rolled his sleeve up to reveal he had a rune tattoo with Magnus Bane on it, and a binding tattoo, like a wedding tattoo. “This is what I have.”

Magnus smiled at him, a very big smile, before he turned around to face the receptionist. “Call Izzy and tell her she needs to replace me tomorrow. I have a date that I need to make with my soulmate here.”

“With me?” Alec asked, still not knowing what was going on around him. He knew he should get back to the store, but he couldn’t walk away from the tattoo, from the man who appeared to be his soulmate.

“Yes, with you,” Magnus confirmed to him, as the red-haired girl only smiled in the background. “Do you want a coffee or something stronger?”

“Once I finish my work I can come back and have something then, if the offer still stands…” Alec replied.

“Of course, my soulmate is always welcome here,” Magnus told him.

“My name is Alec,” Alec introduced himself to him.

Alec walked away from the store, turning around one last time to look at the man, his soulmate, before heading over to his car and driving away.

As he came to the flower shop he noticed that Jace and Simon looked at him in a funny way.

“What? Is there something on my face, clothes? What is it?” Alec asked.

“Jace, is he smiling? I’m not dreaming, am I?” Simon asked his boyfriend.

Jace kissed him as he replied, “No, you are not dreaming, love, he is smiling,” Jace looked at his brother, “So, what’s with the smile?”

“Nothing. Is there anything I should do or are there more deliveries?” Alec asked, trying to change the subject.

“That was the last one, and you know that. Now, tell me, what is it?” Jace asked his brother.

“The last delivery, I think that I just met my soulmate…” Alec replied and lowered his head.

“Wait, you have a soulmate? Are you making plans for the future?” Simon asked with excitement.

“Yes, I have. I found him on the last delivery and he already wants to know more about me and wants a date for tomorrow. He arranged for a replacement to cover for him at work tomorrow,” Alec rumbled with excitement and nervousness.

“Is he your first, brother?” Jace asked him.

Alec nodded. He could feel the blush, his cheeks were on fire.

“Look, you brother is blushing,” Simon teased Alec.

“Go to him, brother. We can deal with any more deliveries that come in on our own. You deserve to find love, just like you always dreamt of,” Jace said, as he urged him out of the flower shop.

“Are you sure?” Alec asked him from the door frame.

“I’m sure, but I want all the details,” Jace grinned at him.

“Give us all the sexy details,” Simon added and smiled at the blushing Alec as he hurried out of the shop.

“You know,” Simon told him as he felt Jace’s hand move closer to his heart, “I thought that I would never see your brother blushing so much but happy at the same time.”

“I know what you mean. It was rare to see him even smiling at home,” Jace said as he kissed him on the cheek.

Alec drove to the tattoo shop; he could hear his heart hammering like crazy as he parked the car and headed over to the shop.

He knew that he needed to calm himself. There was no need to get out of control, even if he didn’t have any experience in love. It was just that he had never felt so connected to anyone before and he didn’t want to mess it up.

He thought that he could see Magnus Bane coming out of the shop toward him as he tried to move from his car to get to him, but he couldn’t find the power in him to move his legs.

“Are you alright, Alexander?” Magnus asked him, using his full name.

“Is it okay if I call you Alexander?” Magnus continued, as he noticed the look his soulmate gave him.

Alec just nodded.

“Did you eat anything today?” Magnus asked, taking in how pale the other man was.

“I think I ate after classes and between deliveries,” Alec found his voice again as he replied to him.

“You need more food, darling,” Magnus told him as he held his hand out to him.

Alec looked at the hand as he moved his own to entwine with it, like he saw Jace and Simon doing it.

“Come with me to dinner, we both need it,” Magnus told him.

“Can I drive over there?” Alec asked.

“No need, it’s merely a short walk. I know the right place for us. It’s quiet and we can talk as we eat,” Magnus replied.

“Okay, lead the way,” Alec told him with a smile.

While they walked Alec could feel his soulmate’s eyes on him. He could feel the soft touch of his hand as the air around them began to get colder as the night set in, the warm touch of his soulmate, warming his heart.

As they reached their destination Alec took in its name, Taki’s restaurant.

“I have never been here,” Alec said, sounding nervous.

“It’s alright, darling, you’ll get to know the place very well. Taki’s has the greatest food,” Magnus told him as he led him over to the door.

Alec could see the place was full, crowded with people who were enjoying the food. He was sure that there was no room for them, he could see people waiting inside to get to eat.

Magnus smiled deviously as he told the hostess that he already reserved a table for two and that the chef knew.

“Oh, right, you are the Magnus Bane that the chef told us about. She said that you might come with the right date,” the hostess told him with a smile.

“Y… yes, I guess,” Magnus told her.

“Follow me,” the hostess said as she took some menus and led them over to the darkest and quietest spot that was marked as reserved. “This is your table. A waiter will take your order soon. I better let the chef know you’re here.”

The hostess left.

“You know the chef?” Alec asked as he sat next to him.

“Yeah, I do,” Magnus replied, adding, “We grew up in an orphanage together and were the best of friends. We still are.”

“Oh, that’s nice to hear,” Alec told him, feeling more nervous than before.

“I know this probably isn’t the right time to ask, but have you been with anyone before you met me?” Magnus asked, seeing how nervous and blushing Alec was.

“No… I always wanted to meet my soulmate and to keep my purity for him or her. A soulmate is meant to be special, at least for me,” Alec replied.

“That explains your blushing and nervousness. Don’t worry, darling, you are cute when you do so,” Magnus told him with a smile, wanting to kiss him on the cheek, but was interrupted when the waiter appeared with the chef walking after him.

Magnus stood up from the table to greet the chef with a hug. “Maia!”

Maia smiled and looked at his date who was looking at them with awe or understanding on his face. “Is this your date?”

“Yes, he is my soulmate. Isn’t he cute?”

“He is cute! Does he have a name, Magnus?” Maia asked with a smile.

“Yes, his name is Alec, but I can call him Alexander,” Magnus grinned at her.

“Do you have a last name, Alec? So I’ll know it’s you and not some other Alec,” Maia asked.

“Y… Yes, sorry, my name is Alec Lightwood,” Alec replied and noticed the exchange of glances between Maia and Magnus.

“What is it?” Alec asked.

“Do you have a sister by the name of Izzy by any chance?” Magnus asked him.

“You know Izzy?” Alec asked, his eyes shining.

“Of course! She works at my shop. She has great eyes and she’s like my second in command,” Magnus told him with a proud look.

“I’m happy for her. Happy that she found a job that she always wanted, just like my brother found something that he always wanted,” Alec told him, his eyes sparkling with pride.

The chef talked with the waiter before she left.

“The dessert is on the house. Now what would you like to order? Or do you need a few more minutes?” the waiter asked them.

“We need a few more minutes,” Magnus replied as he focused on his soulmate, not minding the waiter at all.

“What about you? What you always wanted?” Magnus asked as he sat next to him again.

“I always wanted to meet someone like you,” Alec replied, his lips parted as he looked at Magnus.

Magnus looked at him before he licked his lips and not letting the table stop him as he leant over to kiss him on the lips.

The marks on their hands seemed to glow and bind together, the mark on each hand seemed to get another mark next to it.

Alec got the love rune and bind with Magnus Bane's name marked with gold and blue with it, as Magnus got his bind and love rune with the name of Alec Lightwood marked with gold coloring.

“Does it meet your expectations?” Magnus asked him with a smile.

“Better! Now I have you forever,” Alec replied, unable to look away from him.

“Would you like to order?” the waiter asked.

The End!

#myulalie #malecsanta20 #*fic20 #*gifts20

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What We Think We Deserve

Part 3 of The Weight of Living. (tw: attempted suicide) (Read Ch 3 on AO3) (Read from the start on AO3)

Raphael isn’t positive he actually got more than a few minutes of uninterrupted rest in the hours he spent laying in bed, tucked under covers that serve as a habitual comfort more than an actual necessity. He remembers, vaguely, someone mentioning once that just laying there with your eyes closed was better than nothing even if no actual sleep occured, so he’s counting on that to get him through the few hours following the moment he manages to pry himself out of Magnus’ bed.

Magnus came in to check on him once, but he pretended to be entirely unaware. If Magnus noticed he was awake he was kind enough not to say anything about it, turning to leave him be.

Enough hours passed for him to come to terms with his continued existence… or as much as he could after being so convinced it was the solution he needed. Now he has to find another solution - another way to atone, another reason to stay. If he is being honest with himself, he genuinely didn’t believe anyone would care if he was gone for good. Just knowing Magnus and Simon’s reactions is enough to make a difference.

Perhaps too much of a difference, because Raphael isn’t sure how he can face them now after seeing the hurt in their eyes after they found him.

Raphael cracks the door open just a bit to make sure Magnus kept the hallway entirely blacked out. He had, and Raphael moves through the darkness down the hall to where Magnus sits in the living room reading by candlelight.

Magnus tenses slightly at the sight of him, but does his best to put a smile on his face to cover his apprehension.

“Raphael. How are you feeling?”

“Like death,” Raphael deadpanned.

Magnus stood abruptly before he realized that the vampire was being sarcastic when the slightest twitch pulled up at the corner of Raphael’s lip.

“Glad to see you’re in better spirits,” Magnus sighs, rolling his eyes slightly. The casual demeanor is a front, they both know it, but they both allow it without question. It’s easier this way.

“I’m not. But I thought it might help.”

Magnus’ face softened slightly. “I don’t want you to make me feel better, Raphael. I just want to know how you’re doing. Honestly. And however it is, we’ll start from there.”

Raphael considers this offer for a moment. “...I should be the one asking you that. I heard about-” Raphael doesn’t say it out loud. He doesn’t have to.

“This isn’t about me. And, if I’m being honest myself, that’s a damn relief at this point. I’m fine and I have enough people coddling me that I don’t need to add you to the list. You don’t have to worry about me, Raphael.”

Magnus has a point. There are plenty of people looking out for him. Plenty of Shadowhunters , who would just as soon throw him in a cell as they would listen to his sob story of why he came back to the city.

“...I should go.” Raphael starts suddenly. “Before Alexander gets back. What I did to Heidi... lying to you… I shouldn’t be here. I may not deserve the death I sought, but I certainly don’t deserve any hospitality from the two of you, of all people.”

“Maybe you’re right, but that isn’t going to stop me from giving it to you. Or Alexander. I talked things over with him earlier and he understands how important this is - how important you are - to me. He won’t say a word to anyone at the Institute, Isabelle included, for a few days. He can’t stay quiet forever but he’s agreed to give you time, considering the… extenuating circumstances.”

So they both have things they can’t bring themselves to say, then.

When Raphael doesn’t say anything about that Magnus lets the silence sit for a moment before speaking again.

“I had a dream last night, about Ragnor.” Magnus isn’t foolish enough to say that Ragnor came to him in a dream, even if that was what it felt like.

“Oh?” Raphael questions, sitting down on the sofa as well. He wasn’t close with Ragnor the way Magnus had been, but they took to one another surprisingly well, much to Magnus’ frustration. He doesn’t think about the warlock as often as he should, but when he does he finds he misses him a surprising amount.

“Yes. It was a lovely little chat for a while, not the first I’ve had with him since his death. But before the dream ended he said, and I quote-” Magnus pauses to clear his throat, readying himself to imitate his old friend. “- ‘Oh, and tell Raphael that I know I’m his favorite, but that doesn’t mean he should be so eager to join me here’.”

Magnus smiles, and Raphael is thankful for the dim lighting that he can hide his face in, blinking away an unexpected swell of emotion. “Yes, that sounds like Ragnor,” he agrees, shaking his head.

Leave it up to Magnus to use a mutual friend to get him to talk.

“If you happen to speak with him again, tell him he’s absolutely right and I’ll never make that mistake again. I’ll simply have to choose a new favorite here.”

Magnus’ eyes widen a bit at the implication of that statement. “Do you mean that?”

Raphael nods. “I do. I can’t say it was an impulsive decision - I put a tremendous deal of thought into it before I did… what I did.” He glances down again. “It wasn’t a choice I made lightly but that doesn’t make it right. And perhaps there was a reason I didn’t succeed.”

The concept of fate, of destiny, of having a higher purpose in this life beyond anything he could possibly guess at or even fully comprehend; these are all things he was exposed to through religion from a young age. Those beliefs, though slightly altered now, are not the sort he will ever be able to get rid of. They are as much a part of him as his flesh and bones.

“There was a reason. And speaking of him--” Magnus’ phone buzzes on the table, shifting a bit as it vibrates. He doesn’t need to look down at it to know who it is. “Are you up for company?” Magnus fights the smallest twitch of a smile. “Simon texted me approximately--” He looks down at a piece of paper on the table, tally marks visible in the candlelight. “Nineteen times since you got here. This one’ll make twenty.” Picking up the pen he adds a diagonal slash of ink to the page through four upright lines. “I think you should talk to him, if you’re up for it.”

Raphael knows that Magnus will be here for him through thick and thin. He expects it - that’s why he left the warlock the only goodbye letter he wrote. It’s why he went to him when he was hurt, or lost, or full of doubt. He trusts Magnus with his life, and if Magnus believes he should talk to Simon, well…

“I think I could handle that particular company.” The last thing he wants is the entire gaggle of stray Shadowhunters Magnus seemed to inherit along with his boyfriend to show up asking questions. Of course Magnus already said his presence here will remain a secret for now, but it never hurt to be extra certain. “Just Simon?”

“Just Simon.” Magnus types something into the phone and gets a response back in under 30 seconds.

“He’ll be here soon. Do you want me to--?” Magnus allows the question to hang in the air, not wanting to assume Raphael wants to be alone with Simon while not wanting to hover if he does.

“No, you don’t have to stay. Of course, you’re more than welcome to. It is your home, after all.”

“I think I’ll just take a quick trip to the store.” Magnus moves instinctively to grab his keys and wallet and starts towards the door -- but pauses just short of opening it, hand still resting on the knob.

Raphael doesn’t realize why at first.

“Will you be alright alone? You’ll call if you need anything, right?”

Oh. Magnus doesn’t want to leave him alone, not even for the few minutes it’ll take Simon to get there. Of course he doesn’t. It makes sense, of course. He doesn’t blame Magnus for not trusting him when he isn’t entirely positive he trusted himself.

“You can wait with me.” Raphael sighs. He loathes the feeling of being babysat but it isn’t unwarranted. He brought this upon himself.

Magnus hesitates, still facing the door with his back to him so Raphael can’t see the expression on Magnus’ face as he weighs his options. Then Magnus simply shakes his head, only turning to call back to him, “You have my number. I’ll see you soon.”

“You will,” Raphael reassures him, listening with surprise at the sound of Magnus’ footsteps actually walking away from the Loft.

The sudden solitude feels strange. This is the first time he’s alone in the hours since Simon found him and Magnus brought him here. Of course he can’t do much with the sun up outside for another hour, so even if he wants to leave he can’t. But if he wants to do something else, something worse than running away… well, the sun is up outside. He can’t lie and say the thought doesn’t cross his mind but he’s able to push it aside.

He doesn’t think he can bring himself to face that choice again. He certainly can’t put Magnus and Simon through it a second time.

It isn’t long before a hesitant knock sounds at the door.

“Magnus?” It’s Simon. Of course it is, though Raphael isn’t sure if he feels more relief or tension from the confirmation. At least it if it was anyone else he could hide for a little while longer. “Raphael?”

Raphael stands and walks to the door, turning the lock and swinging it open.

The two vampires stand staring at one another across the doorway in silence for several long, drawn-out moments. Sunlight filters in through the window at the far end of the hallway, but not close enough to matter - though Raphael does squint against the brightness of the hallway compared to the candlelight of the backed-out loft.

“Come in,” Raphael finally says, stepping aside to make room for Simon to enter before closing the door behind him, easing into the darkness again.

“Thanks, for letting me come over. I’m pretty sure Magnus was about to block my number if I asked again, so…” Simon gives a quiet chuckle, obviously forced but well-meant. “Where is he anyway?”

“He went out, but he’ll be back in a bit.”

Simon can’t hide the flash of concern fast enough. It feels like a punch in the gut for Raphael.

“He left-- oh. Yeah, okay. That’s cool. So you’re, uh…” Simon starts, but shakes his head quickly. “Of course you are. I mean, Magnus wouldn’t have left you alone if he thought you’d- that you’re not--” The younger vampire frowns, growing frustrated quickly. “Sorry. I’m doing this all wrong, aren’t I?”

Raphael shrugs. “I don’t think there’s a right way to handle talking to the vampire you pulled out of the sunlight less than 24 hours ago, if it makes you feel better.”

“Oh, good. I thought I just missed that chapter in ‘Vampire 101’.” Simon laughs then, more natural this time, but his face immediately falls back into a half-wince, half grimace. “Sorry. I shouldn’t be joking.”

“It’s fine, Simon. And I’m glad you’re here, I wanted to thank you.” Raphael is surprised to find how difficult it is to remain standing - how much of it is his body working overtime to heal his injuries versus how much is just exhaustion he doesn’t care to decypher. Instead Raphael makes his way back to the sofa and sits down, glancing over to see what Simon will do. “After everything I did, no one would’ve blamed you for turning your back on me the same way I did to you.”

“I would’ve blamed me.” Simon follows, but sits opposite him in an armchair. Raphael is grateful for the space, still not sure why Simon is here, the same way he isn’t sure why he saved him in the first place.

“Consider your peace of mind preserved, then. I’m fine. And you don’t have to keep doing this.”

Simon’s brows furrow and his head tilts slightly to the side. “Keep doing what?”

Raphael lifts and drops his shoulders helplessly. “This. Checking in on me. Pretending to care. I appreciate it but you’ve done more than enough.”

“Are you mad at me?”

“Am I-- what?”

Simon frowns. “You know, for interfering. I know this wasn’t what you wanted to happen so, I don’t know. You’re pretty much telling me ‘thanks, you can go now’ so I thought maybe you were mad at me.”

“Simon I’m not mad at you. You stopped me from making a mistake. A rather monumental, no-going-back mistake that would’ve hurt a lot more people than I considered before. I just don’t want you to feel obligated now, like you’re responsible for me or something.”

“I’m barely responsible for me, so don’t worry about that.” Simon says, voice attempting to hit a tone of levity he almost manages.

“Don’t do that. Don’t turn everything into a joke to brush aside and ignore.” Raphael knows his sudden switch from being fine with Simon joking a moment ago isn’t fair but he can’t help it. There’s nothing dismissive about the guilt he feels. “What I did to Heidi, to you, to the reputation of a lot of good vampires… it doesn’t deserve forgiveness.”

“Yeah, maybe you’re right,” Simon agrees. “But you’d be surprised what people are willing to forgive, even when you don’t deserve it.” The younger vampire looks away for a moment. “By way of unforgivable moments, I wasn’t exactly in my best form when I used Rosa to threaten you. I never did apologize for that.”

Raphael tenses at her name, closing his eyes against the sound of it. Rosa. The reminder of why he’s here in the first place. The reminder of her loss. And the surprising flare of jealousy he feels at the sight of Simon again, remembering that he had what Raphael wanted - the ability to walk in the daylight. Simon doesn’t even want it , but he has it. It isn’t as if Simon asked for it, and it isn’t even under Simon’s control, but that doesn’t stop Raphael from feeling an overwhelming envy that spoils any positive thoughts he could conjure up just then.

“I’m sorry.” Simon says the words quietly, and Raphael suddenly understands exactly how Simon felt in the face of Raphael’s own apology. Because the tainted memory of one of Rosa’s last days on this Earth being leverage against him… it hurts. It hurts more than he can smile and forgive, and he knows instantly that was how Simon must’ve felt at his own words.

“Thank you.”

“It was stupid, and rash, and I was upset and wasn’t thinking. Not that any of that makes it better, but-”

“I get it,” Raphael cuts in.

Simon nods. “I figured you would.”

They both made mistakes with one another. And if it ended with just the two of them, perhaps they could’ve made up properly. But instead, despite Simon’s willingness to go out of his way to stop Raphael from ending his life, the idea of the two of them reaching a point of being good again is going to take some work.

But they are talking again. And Simon is here, for him, for whatever reason - and that’s more than enough for now. The air between them is different now than it was when Simon whisked him away to the basement of that building. With those immediate heightened emotions faded after a day of contemplation, something between them seems to settle, just a bit.

“Are you going to stick around for a little while?” Simon asks after a lengthy silence. “Since you left things with the clan… they’re not great. I haven’t been around them much but I think they could use having you back, if you’re really looking to right some of those wrongs.”

Raphael doesn’t answer right away. He should go, he reasons. No matter what Simon tells him Raphael can’t imagine the Brooklyn Clan actually welcoming him back. He doesn’t want to overstay his welcome at the loft and he doesn’t know where else he can go that would be safe for him right now, but the idea of leaving the only two people who might still care about him has Raphael facing the very lonely option of striking back out on his own and starting over somewhere new. He always wondered when that time would come, being immortal and all. He can’t exactly spend his entire life in Brooklyn, but he hoped to spent more time here than this…

“I’m not sure yet. Magnus said he would cover me being here for a little while…”

“So you’ll be here a few more days, at least?”

And there it is again. That spark of hope that betrays Simon’s casual, aloof exterior. Raphael is certain he wasn’t imagining it, even if neither of them are going to acknowledge it. He considers himself lucky for Simon to even be on speaking terms with him again, let alone the foolish desire for anything beyond that, friendship or otherwise.

But after Simon showed up where he did when he did, perhaps luck is on his side for once.

“Yes,” Raphael agrees slowly. “I think I will.”

“Good.”

They sit in silence for a little while longer before Simon speaks again. “I should probably go...” Simon looks like he isn’t positive he wants to, but that it feels like the right thing to say. “I’m sure you don’t want to spend your whole night sitting here listening to me ramble.”

Raphael shakes his head. “Actually, could you--” Raphael starts, changing his words in the middle of speaking them. “-would you like to stay?” He asks.

“I don’t know how good I’ll be at talking about this,” Simon warned. “I already used all my best insights this morning.”

Raphael can’t help the chuckle that startled out of him, surprised at the noise and by how easily Simon manages to provoke it. It’s followed by an immediate sense of guilt, however, because how can he possibly allow himself to feel any amusement - no matter how fleeting - right now?

“We don’t need to talk, but I could use the company.” Raphael admits. “I don’t particularly want to be alone right now.”

Simon nods. “Yeah. Okay. I can do that.” He takes another moment’s pause before pushing himself up off of the armchair and crossing over to where Raphael sits on the sofa, settling in beside him - not touching, but closer, and just that much is a comfort. “I could use a little company these days, too.”

He isn’t sure why he wants Simon to stay. A part of him wants to talk to Simon about all of this, but it feels selfish; this is too much of a burden to lay on Simon who is dealing with his own losses just then. But perhaps that’s exactly why they should talk, both alone in their mourning.

Perhaps they can help one another out with that, if nothing else.

It isn’t long before Raphael drifts off, finally finding the rest that eluded him all day. And Simon, a man of his word, stays right beside him until he nods off as well. That’s how Magnus finds them when he and Alec return back about an hour later.

“Your stray vampires are multiplying,” Alec mutters under his breath, earning him a huff of laughter and an elbow to the ribs from his boyfriend; but it’s Alec who grabs the spare blanket from the closet and drapes it over Simon and Raphael.

Raphael stirs once a little while later, startling awake, expecting to be alone again. He’s surprised to feel the weight of Simon against his side, head resting on his shoulder. He hadn’t left. The sounds of Magnus and Alec’s quiet voices down the hall mean that they’re home and haven’t kicked him out, either.

These little signs of reassurance are a comfort he doesn’t deserve, but he takes them anyway.

And for the first time since Rosa’s death Raphael starts to believe that he might not be as alone in this world as he thought.

#raphael santiago #simon lewis #magnus bane #shadowhunters #alec lightwood #saphael #malec #this isn't the ending i planned but it felt the most realistic given everything #a hope for the future rather than a proper solution right away #hope everyone enjoys! <3 #elle writes a few deadbeat lines

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