#got a lot of fixations rn

[puppyeared]

Xin Ya is so cute and well designed! more a question than a comment but I just love your style

thank u!! im currently redoing bits of their backstory and design so hopefully ill get some more art of them up soon

#ive already shared a bit of it with crow but rn im reworking their personality and backstory #mostly bc ive decided to change it a little and made baby xin real. so they do start off as a tiny little guy #and then grow at a normal pace. also took out the trauma so they dont know anything abt the circumstances of their creation #but now ive replaced it with bigger trauma >:o) hehehehe #i dont really have anything to fixate on and lmk kind of died off in my neurons a while ago so im just drawing whatever comes to mind #idk if id call it an artblock though cause i have the itch to draw but im not really sure WHAT to draw. maybe ill make character designs #for fun and post them here... or maybe ill work on my oc stories idk............ #although i have been meaning to make a voice claim video for xin and an animatic idea ive had for months but idk how long that will take #im rambling but yes!! thank u for the kind words!!! it makes me happy to hear ppl love my designs hehehe #if i got myself to draw more furry art im sure i could have a lot of fun with that.. or opened myself up to the idea of multiple sonas #god i have so many ideas for sonas.. id love to make myself some sort of badger or stoat sona cause they look cool #yapping #ask

[thehappiestgolucky]

Good lord I have been absolutely slapped in the face with Tisoquirrel brainrot. Mainly Vigilante Tisoquirrel brainrot actually-

#happy screms #vigilante tiso #tisoquirrel #girl help they stole the braincell again #i think about them a lot honestly i just don’t voice them as often rn becuase my fixation has bounced around #but BOI #oh to be two friends distanced by circumstance - changed irreversibly by time and brought together- #-by a tragic force that reveals lingering emotions that never truly faded #both wondering if time hasn’t changed them enough to no longer be the friends they once were #sitting by the blue lake talking - about the tragedy - about the effects of their time- #-lingering on old wounds that never got a chance to heal #would tiso still like quirrel after the years of disappearance? is the quirrel he is now still the one he could call his friend? #does quirrel linger on the tiso in his mixed memory? would he clean the slate and pretend as if the tiso now is a new tiso- #-to befriend and his old emotions fade? #and even though they still continue to bond and eventually date despite the circumstances i feel like those are questions- #-they’d have in their head. they know they can never have their past life again- #-but they wonder if the other clings to that past life. past interactions. if the current them doesn’t live up to the image in their head #tiso lamenting that he too failed to protect the place - the vessels that died just before he could get them - #-the fact the kingdoms date now rests entirely on a child. a child he’s emotionally attached too- #*fate. i hate the phone sometimes #-should a sacrifice be nessacary could he allow it? he’s not quirrel. he’s wonder how quirrel rationalised needing to let monomon die- #-how had he rationalised ghosts decision to let her live? is he ok? #are they both ok? #i’m just… i’m having thoughts and emotions i can’t fully articulate #MEANWHILE normal tisoquirrel has got me like: hehe leaning on each other cuddles :) #vigilante tisoquirrel being tragic friends to lovers meanwhile tisoquirrel out here just kinda being a couple:tm: #two types of brainrot-

[spacefunclubs]

To anyone who followed me for Beavis and Butthead last year and now see me switching hyperfixations to Good Omens this year, I am so sorry (half lie)

#sammy rambles #technically i got into GO in november of last year when my b&bh fixation was starting to fade a bit but ya know #i know a couple of people follow me from those posts i made about them (and I STILL get notes from that one scene of beavis) #and are now just seeing me losing my mind and sobbing over GO #also btw PLEASE watch good omens I BEG (ESPECIALLY season 2 rn) #i'd be a lot more happy if we got a season 3 of that than b&bh ngl (i love both but i need my proper conclusion to GO) #also someone do me a solid and draw beavis and butthead as aziraphale and crowley respectively and call them ineffable dumbasses #i'll literally pay you whatever you want fr #this blog has been through a lot with jumping ship to other fandoms (or just now jumping ship from twitter to here again LOL)

[jinandyin]

     Will likely be remaking this blog alongside sandy’s in the probably-not-so-near-sorry future      but reminder that jin and yin absolute gremlin bastards beloved <3

#ooc. #[ got a Lot of stuff i need to do to remake sandy n this blog dskjlds things i dont rly have energy rn for esp w/ #[ other blogs i want to prioritize more due to current fixation #[ and low energy in general #[ but holds demon bros.... bastard boys..... silly lads.... #[ beloveds #[ and yes they bite

[marblerose-rue]

OK getting content regardless / info below the cut for the sake of saving space!! and partial dsmom spoilers

click for better quality !! idk why tumblr nerfs it so often

these 3 are the main characters of the au pretty much . after strange and america (who renames herself spangle leapthrough, she enjoys her time in equestria for the most part but strange legitimately cannot stand it. and only begins to warm up by the time they're able to leave [he also refuses to change his name]) they land in a mlp-ified universe where all of the problems seem superficial and a bunch of mcu characters who are dead are still present. they figure out theyre not the only ones who dont belong in the universe though, and *thats* where the real problems come. they try to get as much info on this dangerous cosmic being that threatens the universe theyre in from spellcaster (strange's pony counterpart). and he doesnt want any help, because hes claimed the lonely title of 'being the only one competent enough to stop it'. strange wants to be the one to fix it bc like the worm, theyre not from equestria . so obviously he has to do it. its p much a power struggle between them and its pretty much up to spangle to get legitimate help because spellcaster is insistent they use as little magic as possible (and for good reason bc the worm absorbs residual magic to grow stronger) so that puts a lot of pressure on a lot of ponies who use magic . i thiiiink thats it

#you need to #knock that off. the others will not be finding out we were toy ponies. #my art #do not copy trace or steal #ponyverse #< that is my mlp marvel au tag #when theyre able to leave and return to their original universe america draws her and strange as ponies. at first hes like but then it gro #theres a lot more but this is as condensed as i can get it #most of this is like filler content i like. like a sitcom. if u will. blinks #OH YEAH the reason spellcaster is all dolled up is bc the first encounter he has with the worm (its actually a wyrm but its just a #miscommunication that stuck) he almost dies but he lives bc plot armor #BUT YEAH im struggling so much w drawing rn this is the best i can do atm . i got new brushes and i think its fucking with me #ive also got a summer job + a lot of appointments ive had to schedule/reschedule/coming up so thats probably also a factor s #so my time is a little blegh . on top of me playing minecraft like my life depends on it BAHA #BUT YEAH another thing thats not necessarily important but it is to me . bc of spellcaster being so fixated on the worm he essentially #outcasts himself so he can safely monitor it. and he reaches out to ponies who possess powerful magic (i.e scarlet static [and a few others #im still working on that part] BUT. he kinda breaks his own rules by using his own magic to create a double of himself (a lot more cleaned #up to keep folks from worrying) to pop up every now and then to keep suspicion off him. scarlet kiiinda knows but not enough to get her #to attack it bc if she does it'll power it up enough to unleash chaos . ANYWAY THATS A LONG TANGENT so when strange and america/spangle #land nobody really questions it/they treat him as normal bc they think thats just spellcaster and his new apprentice who nobody seems to #know . i hope that makes sense it makes sense to me

[pyromore]

microdosing on upheaving my life by destroying all my current genshin builds to center my entire account around scara

#he doesn't become a god in the archon quest so im building him like a god 🥰 #accidentally got c1 for him and really fell in love with his playstyle so basically after i get haitham/dehya (whoever comes first) #im saving to pull for his c6. and then hopefully his weapon. #for now he is using widsith . which hurts me the most bc it has completely ruined my dps barbara aka my pride and joy. #but these are the sacrifices i have chosen to make. this is the path i have chosen to take. #trying to get through the archon quest as fast as i can while still enjoying it and not rushing so i can start farming his talent mats #man. i remember joining random people to just fight raiden boss when i hadn't unlocked her yet. the way i would not do that anymore 💀 #after talents i'll probably use my 116 fragile resin on the desert pavilion domain 🥰 and i can give his current artifacts back to heizou #HEHE. thank god i have this game because everything else feels like a lifeless husk rn 🤪 #um. is anyone even seeing this. hi everyone. #yeah i disappeared for a bit bc my genshin fixation died down a little so i decided to go back to my old/main blog #im still thinking about maybe turning this into my new main but we'll see ig. i would miss my old mutuals a lot if i move here permanently. #op

[acotars]

the only reason one last stop wasn’t the biggest release of the year is because people would rather read about uwu capitalist gay boys than wlw

send me your hot takes/unpopular lit opinions and i’ll tell you whether or not i’d let you in

#you really said this one with your whole chest huh #listen. i think IN GENERAL audiences find mlm relationships more accessible/digestible than wlw relationships #i will give you that. i think it in part has to do with us treating men/masculinity as a default #i think it also has to do with the fetishizatiln/extreme sexualization of lesbians by straight men for the last idk forty years #i think those two things combined made mlm pairings ‘safer’ for queer people to project onto/fixate on for a long time ?? #think about the biggest fanon pairings of the last twenty years. johnlock. destiel. fucking kirk/spock. drarry. idk there are so many more #i’m blanking rn #but i can’t even think of ONE pairing like that that’s wlw #in general people who aren’t wlw don’t seek out wlw content. but people who aren’t mlm will seek out mlm content. #that’s what seems true to me based on absolutely no research and just vibes #i think that CONTRIBUTED to the success of rwrb and also the less resounding success of ols #BUT i truly think what tanked ols for so many people wasn’t that it was wlw. it was just timing. #it came out like four or five months after what i would call the height of the rwrb craze. #OLS came out like two weeks or so after mcquiston was on twitter not apologizing for the netanyahu thing #i think people just… got tired of hearing about mcquiston and rwrb at just the wrong time #that’s my two cents #but i feel like you have a lot of negative feelings about this that you should maybe process lmao #anon #asked and answered #hot takes

[jasnstilnski-moved]

I am probably. Gonna work on my multi revamp today

#i say probably..... i make no promises #its wishing i had a laptop so i could do everything from bed hours #update on my houses covid sitch is that as of when we tested the day before yesterday me and raine r covid free and daniels got it #but. all day yesterday i was coughing a Lot and had a runny nose so. who knows #i am still feelin. not good #but i have such a strong desire for my multi to be done and for my charlie to be done #bc i am Fixated on charlie rn #i am also fixated as Hell on mic.hael ho.lden and perhaps i also want 2 give him a solo #i just. dont know if i feel capable of living up 2 peoples expectations of him akshskf #i feel the same w charlie but hes slightly easier for me bc hes. very much similar to me #mich.ael is. Not #he IS however very similar to kurt so... Mayhaps #cutting down on 3 blogs just to make two more tho..... idk would people hate me for that

[batterygarden]

aot relationship hcs

Ft. Eren, Armin and Mikasa

Sfw but no minors on my page pls, these are miscellaneous and sillly.. I wrote them in a haze after my melatonin kicked in yesterday…like 1 or 2 suggestive ones in there

Eren

He plays basketball (he’s rlly good 😔) and if you come visit him on the court he dribbles the ball around you rlly aggressively like “try n block me!” and you just stare at him straight faced because he is exhausting

He is simply the most DRAMATIC man alive. Like if you don’t give him endless attention, hold his hand, climb on him, act borderline obsessed with him… he might explode. If you go 24 hours without playing with his hair he is wearing all black and mourning your lost love… cause you must just not care about him anymore!

He’s also kinda a neat freak… another opportunity for his dramatics. If you leave a dirty dish in the sink for more than half an hour he is turning up in a hazmat suit like baby…. i can’t handle how dirty the kitchen is rn. (He’ll do the dish for you)

Casual shoplifter even though he can truly afford all the things he steals

He probably commits tax fraud too

Bad driver but over confident as hell. Driving almost 50 in a residential like STOP :/

Also… hello mr oral fixation. He’s constantly got a necklace in his teeth or something… and that’s all fine and good till you find YOUR OWN PERSONAL BELONGINGS in your boyfriends mouth god. Like give me back my nice pilot G2 pen you animal >:(

Takes rlly long showers and uses up all the hot water AND your fancy conditioner. He is definitely one of those product stealer men…

He also borrows ur claw hair clips and never gives them back 😔

Randomly pretends to beat up the air in front of you u like put ‘em up!! And you’re never sure how to react. Like you’re standing there doing the dishes and he assumes fighting stance and starts punching ghosts till you give him attention.

Armin

Accidentally rolls his eyes ALL the time. Like he doesn’t even mean to his face is just automatically sassy when he disagrees w something. But he’s self aware. Sometimes he’ll do it and you’ll pause mid-sentence then he’ll catch himself like WAIT SORRY. I didn’t mean to do that. 😔

Makes you dandelion chains without you having to ask.. or puts dandelions and other wildflowers on you all the time… in your hair, in your pocket, in the little holes where your shoelaces go.

he’ll just fiddle w your things absentmindedly CONSTANTLY… he’s simply a fidgety guy!

Like you’re sitting in the grass talking to him and he’s nodding along like Mhm Mhm… while he repeatedly zips and unzips your bag… rolling up and unrolling the straps etc.

but sometimes the thing he is fidgeting with is YOU. Your hands are a favorite… especially your rings and any jewelry you may wear 😮‍💨 this man is having a field day spinning the metal around your fingers.

He’ll sometimes over explain things/accidentally go into extreme detail and you’ll tease him for mansplaining. But a lot of the time he’ll the OPPOSITE of mansplain things and use words way too big / poorly dumb down the most CONVOLUTED subjects and you’re like slow down there mr graduated college early 😔 .. say that again as if I were a 5 year old please

His sport of choice is… wait for it… track. Yeah this man’s a runner… occasionally a hurdler… he’s got stamina.. have u seen those CALVES when he’s the colassal ! Major swoon

Pretentious as hell ab the music he listens to. Gatekeeps even…. NO PUBLIC PLAYLISTS.

He gets bad anxiety the night before work and stuff… also picks apart social interactions after they happen… generalized anxiety disorder king!

He’s a gossip of course…. Literally will give you a million looks mid social gathering that say “we’ll dissect this later”

Does weird only child things every day without realizing

Like arranging the Tupperware a specific and less efficient way than you and getting mad when you don’t put yours away like he wants it

Or getting annoyed when you don’t burn his candles a very specific way that apparently is “more efficient” 🙁

He also NEEDS alone/recharge time… social stuff can get exhausting to him!

Mikasa <3

Good w cars… best with cars out of the three hands down… she’s your personal mechanic 🥺

She’s also miss quiet road rage over here.. she seems calm and collected but she is cursing the entire lineage of the minivan driver that just cut her off in traffic.

Eats up some reality tv… and is embarrassed about it 😔 she asks you not to tell people she’s rewatching season 10 of the bachelor rn

Aggressive as hell to ucky men in bars / clubs… or just in general

Like “back the fuck off before I beat your ass” kind of aggressive… very protective of you and any woman ever in these type of situations

& she has the skill to back up her talk!! This woman is a martial artist/ full time gym rat… she is *strong*. You need not worry about your safety no matter the situation when you’re with her.

Her critical nature towards men nicely contrasts how much she LOVES bimbos lmao. Extremely forgiving and patient towards bimbos… she’ll explain things to you so so gently.

She’s somewhat shy with direct flirting before you’re official… kinda nervous to ruin whatever dynamic you two had going on to begin with.. but once your feelings are out in the air this woman is getting a medal for her direct communication skills.

“I need you to hold me really tight right now, I’m feeling kind of anxious.”

“I want you to kiss me please! Need to feel your pretty lips”

“If we were alone right now I would have you fully ***** and ********* *** ** ** ****** ****.”

perpetually cold hands.. and she warms them by sticking them in YOUR shirt or even occasionally your pants. Just sticking em in there and then staring at you like she’s doing nothing wrong … staring at you like you’re NOT getting goosebumps on your ass cheeks rn

Once she gets comfortable, Mikasa is CONSTANTLY TEASING YOU RIGHT WHERE IT HURTS.

like it starts light, creating a little inside joke or two, like making fun of the special way you prepare your sandwiches or how you make the bed.

But then you catch her giggling to herself one day and you’re like aww what’s so funny ^_^ and she says she was thinking about that time you embarrassed yourself in front of her parents 😔

But then sometimes if she’s not in the right mood she’ll get all sassy if you tease her back. All “okay but I didn’t say it like that 😒.” Then she’ll pinch you.

She texts like .. full punctuation and everything. At first you thought she was mad at you every time you got her notifications till you got used to it.

She looks KILLER in turtlenecks it’s ridiculous

#eren x reader #armin x reader #aot x reader #mikasa x reader #eren jaeger x reader #aot headcanons #snk x reader #eren yeager x reader #armin arlert x reader #eren fic #armin arlert headcanons #eren yaeger headcanons #mikasa headcanons

[tvrningout]

hmmm what if i rework my m.ha oc’s a lil bit… lil guest muses until i catch up… what if i really go off the deep end and just add muses as i please bc that makes me happy… what if…

#also what if i just got this blog reorganized again bc man i need to do that #in general i need to do a big list but baby steps!! bc there’s a lot for me to juggle rn!! #anyway i’m on the way home and contemplating my oc’s 💜 #gears are turning and i guess it really is the year of rediscovering old hyper fixations :’ ) #i’m gonna sit on my mha oc’s a bit longer bc i wanna make some decent changes — like hekima is a lil too similar to hyouka in personality #just realizing they both have names starting with ‘h’ too asdgj #and my villain maemi… love u baby but you need a fresh take and maybe?? a different quirk bc YIKES!! #it wasn’t cringe but it was very dark for the source material it felt like? but we’ll see #ANYWAY!!! see y’all soon 💜 #get ready to ramble | ooc

[lemonisntreal]

Some sketches because it's been months since I drew these idiots oops☝️🥰

HI THERE. It's been a minute, sorry about that lol. I took a tiny out-of-nowhere and sorta involuntary break from the fandom because I lost interest for a second, but I'm slowlyyyy making my way back. With art, and some news about Tone Deaf for the people who are still wondering about that.

Also I see there's some asks in my box, I'll get to that eventually, I see you ;-; dw

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As stated, I momentarily lost a bit of interest with this movie- partially because I've recently been ensnared in a new fixation that will not be named right now, but yeah. I'm digging my heels in rn, because the last thing I wanna do is abandon this project. But, also, I've clearly bitten off more than I can chew with this being a comic lmao. In over my head and going through all 5 stages of grief and currently on acceptance.

The story got bigger. Like, a LOT bigger. Too big to capture every thought in a drawing and panel it and put it out as a perfectly polished comic without seriously burning myself out. It really doesn't help that my art style evolves by the second too apparently, so I've reached a middle-ground:

Tone Deaf is going to be a fic with some comic-like segments in it. An illustrated fanfic bc I still love showing and not telling a little too much.

This'll help me not only get stuff out faster, but also to help me fill in the gaps I didn't know how to draw with just text. So I can focus on just drawing the juicy shit. This also means it'll all be collected over on Ao3 in a neat little package, and I honestly prefer that over having a bunch of posts of pages that might be hard to find. So yeah, that's the plan.

Another bonus is that the frames can now be a lot more polished and nice looking [in glorious color] rather than hastily mashed together due to my bad habit of going overboard on singular frames without realizing it.

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Tldr; Tone Deaf is technically still gonna be a comic, it's just now gonna be supplemented with word-based fic mixed in because I made the project way too fucking big [the first Act has like 20 chapters I'm going to literally die]. Also it's gonna be on Ao3 and I'll probably be posting all the art here alongside any updates I make so huzzah! Help me :>

#UPDATE POST #Sing: Tone Deaf #sing movie #sing 2016 #sing 2021 #Buster Moon #Meena sing #Johnny sing #Mike the Mouse #tiny little pictures of Ash and Eddie too heehee #furry art #fanart #anthro #traditional art #sketches #it's been 5 months since I last posted #never let me do that again #also my art style's changed an itty bitty bit #just a little #finally updated how I draw Buster's ears and have an actual method for drawing Johnny >:] still unsure on Meena and Mike #I think this is the final plan for TD #gonna try posting more trust me #uwu #I always come back

[cheesecakethots]

I saw you wanted more chrollo thots and I’m hyper fixated on him rn so I’ll give you a few and if you wanted to write one or a few I’d rly appreciate it bc your writing is AMAZING

Chrollo with a darling who:

-loves romantic books/films

-loves to bake

- tried and fails to give him the silent treatment bc he bugs them so much

- is really sarcastic

Chrollo situations:

-buys them lots of clothes and makes them model them

-makes them a ‘classic candlelit dinner’

-Tried to replicate the men in the romance films darling watches

-They play 21 questions

Sorry if this was a lot but I rly love your writing and even if you don’t do any of these just know that I love your blog ♥️

RGHDUDHDH THANK YOUUU!!! <3 <3 <3

with a darling who bakes i have this idea of like. you hate him because he’s so PERFECT at everything. it’s fucking infuriating. oh yeah and he kidnapped you. that sucks too.

but you swear every time you sit down and do something, whether it be a puzzle or even just understanding the ending of a book he’s brought you, he’ll be right there just to go “well, you see…”

he’s a mansplainer lets be real.

but ask him to get you some ingredients so you can bake, and suddenly when you start on it he’s following you around like a lost puppy. he finds enjoyment in asking a million and one questions on every little thing you do, so it takes away from your own enjoyment at the fact that you know how to do something that he doesn’t.

also he most definitely tries to replicate the men in romance films you watch. might even get a little jealous of them at times. you had to refrain from bursting out laughing or cringing when he tried copying some lines from howl in howl’s moving castle, after you’d watched it together.

but ok. it’s cringe. but. i can imagine him saying stuff like that to irk you, or just to be a bit of a little shit.

you’d managed to escape the hotel you were both currently staying at. he’d left you alone for a couple hours, probably off to kill someone or steal something, most likely both. you’d found yourself smashing off the door handle with a chair leg, and before you knew it you were running down the hallways and out of the main lobby, to the dismay of the workers.

you didn’t really have a plan, god you didn’t know where to go or who to call, but you figured that your friends, family and the nearest police station would be the first places he would check.

you now find yourself in a little alley, back against the wall and mind racing. you got out, but now what? is there truly anywhere where he won’t find you? your panic quickly settles. you’ll find somewhere. you’ll never stop until you do.

after calming yourself down enough, you straighten up, turning towards the end of the alley and back into the street.

“that was fast.”

you freeze. footsteps from behind you draw near until he’s right next to you.

“you didn’t get very far, though. i can’t help but say i’m a little disappointed, [name].”

“go away,” you mutter, your knees shaking.

you hear an amused huff to the side of you. a hand reaches out, grabbing onto your chin and turning your face in his direction. you squeeze your eyes shut. you can feel his minty breath against your face.

“look at me.”

you really don’t want to, but the danger creeping into his tone has your eyelids slowly opening.

he smiles at you, and it causes nausea to form in your stomach.

“that’s my girl.”

from the twinkle in his otherwise dead grey eyes, you know that you’re in for a very long night.

#very nice thots thank you!! #tw yandere #tw.yandere #yandere #yanderecore #yandere chrollo #yandere hxh #yandere chrollo lucilfer #yandere hxh x reader #yandere chrollo lucilfer x reader #yandere chrollo x reader #tw kidnap mention #tw kidnapping

[raindrvq]

hi outsiders fandom ive been lurking for awhile so heres a little doodle dump. maybe ill post real content later (ik these r lame but ive been in an art block n randomly got motivation to draw so we're working w it)

im currently rehearsing a production of the outsiders play so thats what is fueling my fixation rn 🔥 i have a feeling a lot of my content (if i post it lmao) will be at least inspired by the play more so than the book just bc thats what im focused on rn so yea little disclaimer 😊 if u see me post art of the gang n they all look incredibly different from their book/movie counterparts its bc im gonna base designs on our cast bc projecting is fun 💥 these drawings were half based on the book/movie and half based on our play so. theyll probably change tho as we work on the show. ik this isnt rly relevant at all i just felt like rambling abt our show bc im hella excited. also i play pony so ‼️ the amount i will project on him will be crazy

#i didnt mean to yap that much but oh well. thats why i got cast as pony ig #bro literally has 285 lines. a lot of which is him monologue-ing #he just like me fr tho #idk if anyone is interested in the play at all but if ur curious abt any aspects of it im willing to answer 🕵‍♂️ #the outsiders #the outsiders 1983 #ponyboy curtis #johnny cade #the outsiders fanart #cam draws

[becausegoodheroesdeservekidneys]

I liked Kieran, maybe only because he reminded me of myself as a kid. Constantly feeling left out and being both harassed for everything you do do and never being trusted with anything to even proof yourself capable, like the knowledge about the truth about ogerpon. I still am, working on that, but was way more jealous of other people hanging out with my friends simply because I had so precious few. Idk how much it would have fucked with me if my verbally abusive older sister (I do also have one of those) simply decided that one of my friends was now one of hers instead and kicking me out while my friend isn't saying or doing anything to be like "no, actually I want to spend time with [anon] too".

Obviously his obsession with ogerpon and the following Drive to get stronger is pretty hyperbolic but I did also have a bit of that. Just rejecting everything, throwing everything back at everyone since it was, or at least felt, like its always my family and the people around me just throwing shit at me too. Did I overreact a bunch of times? Oh yeah for sure. Teenage tantrums will get ya, but I really did need that. Without it I don't think I would have ever learned to call out my family's abuse and other people treating me poorly. Since as a kid that just radiates low self esteem you seem to get treated like shit from just about everyone.

Anyway all that is to say, throwing around things like "I think this kid would shoot up a school if only he had access to guns" isn't, imho, great. And I don't even really particularly care about your instance rn, like it's a fictional character in a Pokémon game who cares. So sorry for being the one who got my rant lol. It's just something I've been seeing more of lately, people throwing "they'd shoot up a school" not only at fictional characters but actual human beings. Which I think is fucked. Thankfully no one ever said that to me, but I cannot imagine how hurtful that must be, like if we ignore all the other negative effects it has for a second, when your actual school life was hell enough to make you consider ending your own life, like it was for me, to just get thrown another brick at your head that people think you would be monster enough to murder people.

...well there's a lot to unpack here.

So first up, you have my genuine condolences for your extraordinarily shitty school life. You clearly had the very rough end of the stick, and it's clearly still hurting, and that sucks.

However. I am not thrilled that you just trauma dumped in my inbox because you over-projected onto a fictional character, and I'll ask you not to do that again. Particularly when your "rant" is explicitly aimed at trying to make me feel bad for criticising a fictional character that you, once again, have over-projected onto.

Like listen, I too had an extraordinarily shitty school life, and I also had very few friends (and at three separate extended points, a combination of Literally No Friends At All, AND Being Actively Targeted For Bullying; the first time around, the bullying was led by the class teacher, even.) I have very much been there, done that and got an entire t-shirt shop. But I still didn't come away from that feeling that I was entitled to other people liking me or wanting to be friends with me, because no one is obliged to like or be friends with anyone else. I may have occasionally felt jealous, but I didn't throw tantrums and demand perfect loyalty from the few friends I did make, because that would have been abusive as all hell and would have justly made them want nothing to do with me. And, crucially and relevantly to the fictional character in the fictional world that we are discussing, I did not fixate on someone I wanted to be my friend, see that they were afraid of me and wanted to be friends with someone else, and then throw such a tantrum about it that I physically fought that someone else for the 'rights' to that friend regardless of their consent in that matter, apparently with the intention of abducting them if I won. And on losing that fight, I did not storm off and start amassing a collection of stronger and stronger weapons so I could take over my school and prove my dominance over them, emotionally abusing anyone who couldn't keep up with me because of family problems along the way. I presume you did not either!

And if I had, then the trauma and loneliness I received would be irrelevant - actions borne of trauma are still actions, with real world consequences, and you are still responsible for them regardless of how bad you felt.

(I mean, not to put too fine a point on it, but school shooters are people who are also lonely and often bullied. It's very interesting therefore that you dismiss them as "monsters" while demanding that all behaviour from such people up to the shooting be excused. But the issue with such people is the entitlement they feel and the abuse they therefore dish out. Shootings are just the most extreme symptom of that - they're far from the only symptom.)

I cannot stress this enough - you are not the fictional character of Kieran in the game Pokémon Scarlet and Violet. You did not make his choices, or perform his actions (I assume). Criticism of him is not criticism of you. No one is accusing you of being about to shoot up a school. You state that you don't care that he's a fictional character, but I'm afraid you very much should, because that is the crucial difference. I am sorry that you're seeing a lot of people accusing real life people of being school shooters, but that is not what has happened here, is it?

You're welcome to write back. But I'll warn you very clearly - I am absolutely not at home to you trauma dumping further, or trying to make me feel guilty for talking about a fictional character because you have over-projected and therefore are taking it personally. That is a You Problem, and I will block you without reading if you do.

However, I am going to finish by reiterating my very genuine sympathies for your school experience. It truly was an appalling time for me, and it seems like it was for you, too. I hope you can process that trauma now, and find peace.

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☆Hi☆

I'm Elliot, the depressed teen behind this blog :3 I'm transmasc and use he/they prns, please respect that

I AM ALSO A MINOR, IF UR A P0RN/K1NK BLOG UR GONNA BE BLOCKED

(It also takes me a hella long time to respond to dms I'm sorrrry😭😭😭)

My old blogs both got t worded (rip oscillating-fan-whore and oscillating-fan-whore2) (next time I'll be oscillating-fan-whore4!!)

This is a triggering blog, BLOCK DONT REPORT. Reporting makes my mental health worse and doesn't do jack shit, you can't report everyone, we always come back

(Note: nsfw adjacent posts are mentioned below cut, if you are an adult on this blog please read that section <3)

ed sh blog but also I post vents and abt my life outside ed and sh too :D

(More under cut)

Anyways now that we've hopefully weeded everyone who doesn't like it out, hi guys ^^

☆I've had my ed since July of last year (23) but sh since 5th grade

☆I have (somewhat?) Diagnosed depression and anxiety and very possible autism (AKA I've been told by many people that I'm autistic, have like every trait, scored high on every pre screening test, but my mom refuses to believe it whenever someone tells her [which has happened multiple times but yk] ANYWAY-)

☆tics (probably tourettes but never dx)

☆no one irl knows

☆prone to typos

☆EMOTICON USER :3 :D ^^ :) :]

☆active red bracelet wearer

☆American :( [help us]

☆nebularomantic and sexual but no idea abt who I'm attracted to 💀 just attracted to my partner (? It's complicated) so somewhere around androsexual

☆suuuuuper Hannibal (nbc) fixated rn so like of you see a reference in my blog don't be surprised

☆sweetsp0>>>>meansp0 (unless it's good)

☆Skeleton Appreciation Day in Vestal NY is THE ED song trust

☆I'll make a tag list for recipes, lemme know if you want in :D

☆I won't send bcs coaches fuck off

☆open to an4 buddies tho :3

☆ngl a lot of posts about the state of my stomach (she hasn't been okay in years <3)

☆asks are welcome and encouraged (just don't be a bitch)

☆DMs are open but so is my right to block <3<3

☆I do occasionally post something NSFW adjacent abt my experiences in life (becuz I'm a horny teen with a partner get it together people) please keep in mind that I am still a MINOR and all of those posts have an 18+ DNI. 18+ are welcome to interact with every other post, but it's weird and uncomfortable on those kinds of posts. Me posting NSFW adjacent stuff is NOT an excuse to sexually harass me, especially if you are an adult.

[Stats]

Height: 5'5"

SW: >175 lbs

HW: >175 lbs

LW: 128 lbs (probs less let's be honest)

CW: 134 lbs (kill me)

UGW: 90 lbs (40 kg)

Bodyfat Percentage: 23.4% (fitness)

BMI: 22.3 (Healthy)

[Current goals]

☆<115 lbs by the 25th of April (Musical trip <3)

☆UGW by summer (obvi)

☆^ if not, then ugw by the time the county fair rolls around

☆111 lbs by May (officially underweight for my BMI [18])

[I AM SILLY!!!!!!!!!!!]

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