#havent been able to do thay

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

Every time i think i’ve out grown him…..

#sherlock holmes #yes this is about moriarty the patriot #cartoon #doodle #im so angry their holmes is fantastic #aack #mood of the week #its also about my compulsion to consume every piece of sh media i come across #except for elementary #havent been able to do thay #brb gonna go listen to some audiobooks and rewatch grenada

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

My mom: Maybe you should consider going to college for writing!

Me: Mom, what kind of career could I get with creative writing?

My mom: You could write a book and get money from that

Me: I think you underestimate how difficult writing a book is

#my parents visited me yesterday and we were talking about college #because im 20 and havent started college #and have no plans to start #at least for now #school is hard #so we were talkinf about things like majors and community colleges and classes #i said i wasnt quite sure what i wanted to do as a career and she hit me with this #mom no #right now the only writing ive been able to do is brainstorming #its not even writing #its throwing ideas together in a tumblr draft and then saving it #in hopes thay eventually i can craft the stuff into a half decent poem or something #mom you want me to write a book? #i also dont want to do writing as a career and havent for awhile #i want to be a teacher #probably #most likely a music teacher but ive also considered special ed #but also teaching is becoming more and more difficult... #like with restrictions and shit specifically the lgbt limitations #but also teaching is my passion so like. what do i do? #thats why i havent started college yet #but yknow maybe i can just write a book /s

[wylansworkshop]

I have literally been fighting executive dysfunction tooth and nail all day using lots of breaks and rewards but hooooly I have been sitting for 10 minutes just trying to get up and switch the laundry

#i have one more load to put in #then i have no more laundry #but i just havent been able to get up and do it #i cant explain it #fuck #ive actually gotten a surprising amount of work done though #i am proud of thay #i just hope i have enough left in me to wipe down the bathroom #(with lysol cleaning cloths bc even tho its not environmentally friendly i can not deal with rags and cleaner and all that rn) #(so cloths will have to do) #i think its time for a longer break though so im gonna let myself have that if i switch loads #mine

[mrfoox]

Everytime I realize how.... Chill... My mom is im... Im torn between thinking it's the best and not /:

#miranda talking shit #She lets me do anything and basically always have. Well as a child she didnt ofc but generally things i WANTED to do i was #Allowed to do unless something obvious came in tje way. I wanted to see a friend i was allowed. Wanted to go to a bday party #Allowed. She was so chill and yeah. Only as an adult i realized its not super common? Like she was and still is more a friend than parent #There has not been anything she ever said... No against or openly expressed doubt about. Not that i was wild or anything #I never have done much crazy things no parties with alchol or anything but even if i did... She'd probably be ok with it #Idk if its bc she trusts me or what? Bc i know she cares and by nature she is a worry wart. Thats why i have been able to tell her like #Anything. I havent but i genuinely think i could and she'd not freak out too bad about things. She let me go fly out to germany #First time i ever flew alone... And i had to change flight and i was 15. To see a girl she had only known about for a year from conversatin #She ... Never said anything against it. I barely remember i asked for her permission i just said mom i want to fly to germany #To celebrate xmas with my gf and she was like aight. And same with her coming to me. Oh an stranger from another country is #Coming to live with us for a few weeks? Who speaks no swe? Alright okay shes welcome! And same about flying to london to visit my online #Friends. That was potentially worse bc i wasnt staying with anyone i knew... So i was technically alone for quite some time when i was thee #And i had talked less about those people. At thay point i was 18 so technically she didnt have the right to stop me... But she just said ye #Ok ill help pay for it (: when my sister heard about it she flipped. And when i went on a second date with a guy #And spontaneously asked to stay over at his place... Mom had already left to get me and was just like lol ok ill turn around 😂 #At one hand this has been good for me bc... I dont naturally seek out experience and dare to do thing so if i got big #Arguments and stuff thrown at me when i wanted to do something id probably just ... Id not do shit and i already almost do that lol #But shes also too agreeable. She never had that authority over me... And is more like a friend . Aka if i ask her to do something she will #Do it 9/10 times without arguing and that has definitely missed me some lessons of own responsibility etc. I guess one can argue #Bc im autistic its okay to have more reliance on my mom. But yeah... Ive been trying to do so less. I mean some things she still does help #Me with. But since i live alone its... I cant rely on her like i have in the past so been adjusting for me and i dont think ive done all #Well. But yeah. I hear majority of moms either being .. Overbearing or controlling and im here like... Uh.. Oh uh mine is haha #I still think shes the best but probably not the best to make me into an independent human but best emotionally etc #Just ... Weird how she have managed parenting. Bc she is so loving and worring and emotional. I know she is. But she havent let that .... #Go over her kids? She have let her kids do a lot of stuff... With my brothers its been a somewhat problem bc they have acted out #But for me... I mean im reclusive but when i think back im suprised how cool she have been with the things i came with #Considering i usually never wanted anything ... When i came with something it was pretty big stuff like... Traveling outside the country #For the first time ever... To an person and her family she never met or have seen? Yeah . Her trust must be big for me

[phantoms-world-and-more]

Danny declared war

Its been years since danny took the throne and he's had enough

It started small like the GIW started shooting at the less aggressive ghosts, then it escalated to attacking non-fighting ghosts

6 months ago they started to focus more on capturing the ghosts then getting them away

3 months ago he discovered they were hunting for natural portals to the ghost zone

1 month ago he was able to locate the ghosts that were taken and being held

1 week ago he and other ghost made a rescue mission

And less than an hour ago danny watched what those...MONSTERS...they called HUMAN did to them...to HIS people

Theres alot he could do in this situation, he could call all the ghosts back, close all the portals, cut connections to the mortal world...

But he won't

His people never did anything wrong, and this is the last straw

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The JL were in a panic

Things that looked like Lazarus pits started showing up all around the world, and creatures came out, they attacked government buildings and made as much damage they could

Then they took positions

Some were going back into the Lazarus pits carrying things and others stayed at the buildings

Others took off in different direction with no connection, they went to a place, sat down and appeared to be waiting

They sent members to deal with them, some to talk, some to fight and some to capture

All of them havent been heard off since

They were about to make a public statement when the biggest Lazarus pit so far appeared where all the press were waiting

It was covered in black armour with a glowing blade, and was followed by someone smaller than him, he had a green crown of flames, white hair and looked deathly pale

He called himself phantom,

Thats when everyone got an explanation

Phantom broadcasted footage of similar lookign creatures being vivisected, shot, burned, tourchered, and...people were doing it

It let everyone hear how the people though it was FUNNY, their pain their screams...everything

It lasted for 30 minutes of eveyone watching different videos of people expermenting and tourchering them

Then phantom spoke

Spoke of how his people have been hurt and hunted too long, told them the facility's have been distroyed, gesturing to the frozen and distroyed buildings, and how the GIW was a government founded division designed to hunt and experment on his kind

And he's had enough

He said he took the experimentation and capture of his people was a declaration of war between them

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Batman was of the opinion that earth was fucked

They were now in a war THEY initiated with beings thay have no solid or reliable information of

Oh and over half the league that was dispatched is still missing

#danny phantom #fic prompt #daily prompt #danny fenton #dc x dp #dp x dc #batman #dc #the earth is fucked #danny declared war #he's done #GIW #the GIW have fuck up one too many times #everyones about to know what the government did

[wwwkun003]

small details in some lazy coords lately. i really like all my pieces atm i hope i feel good in them soon.

vent incomiiiing

TW: general moping and neediness fear weird feelings

ive been feeling super terrible still. i dont know what to do because it feels still like its growing. things keep gettig harder and i keep feeling more and more isolatef and alone. i dont know how to fix what im feeling and it feels like nothing is enough because i keep feeling this scared loneliness growing and these feelings of wanting to do some not so great things. i have been feeling like a massive failure in many areas of my life andlike i keep taking 50 steps back. the more that things happen and i feel things again the more i realizr i havent changed at all and that is provably why things will akways feel this way for me? i havent grown at all or changed i am still exactly the same as befor ebecaudr instesd of trying ti change i isolated myself until just now. my connevtions with people are still basically non existant but now when i do find myself having feelings thay i did beflre i realizr thay its because i completely shut myself off from the oppirtunity ti change. i feel ugly and terrible physicallyb and emotionally and im not sure what the right stepa for me to take are anymore. im scared that if these things continue i wont be able to fix it or help mysekf and i will judt be stuck inna loop of being this way foreverr. im tired and insecure abd i iust really hope things start feeling better soon

#egl fashion #egl lolita #old school egl #old school lolita #gothic lolita #lolita fashion #egl community #spotify #egl coord #lolita coord

[aurirorii]

my carat journey ♡︎

sypnosis: (im sure the title makes this self-explanatory but) in which i tell you all about my first impressions and journeys as a carat. (i like summed it all up so its super short)

a/n: i havent been a carat for tooooo long but nonetheless it makes me feel pretty happy to see ive come as a carat as well as how the group themselves have grown over the years c:

how did it start.. oh right. when i first came around seventeen or seen something about them it was actually back in may of 2021 from a clip i saw on youtube i saw of them on knowing brothers. this clip was when the mcs of the show were trying to guess all of the members’ names and it was the8’s turn.

i remember watching minghao doing that flip or wtv (sorry i dont remember what its called lol) n after he was all cool and stuff. and lowk i was like ‘oooooo.. hes kinda cute’ hehe. and honestly that was kinda it.

you see, it was in 2018 i was actually a k-pop stan yk during the prime era of kpop. obviously over the next 2-4 years i had lost focus. but, when i came back, that video was one of the many i had watched on youtube about kpop. and when i came back, i became a skz fan. i remember felix was my ult bias and that was that.

but that was until i came across an episode of going seventeen. pretty infamous right? god, i remember watching that episode when they were planting rice (ver-paddy) and i was hooked. i had never laughed so much, it was like my spark had come back. i say that because when i re-entered the kpop fandom, i wasn’t at the highest point of my life. so laughing that much over one video on youtube made me so happy. that was when i knew that i needed to find out who this group was and where i can watch more episodes.

that was when i realized that the group i was watching was seventeen: the group with that one cute guy with gray hair and glasses (the8)! also when i realized that vernon was in seventeen (i knew and recognized vernon bc if his cover with jeongyeon, do i need to keep explaining? i didn’t think so).

although, when i started looking into the members, one caught my eye and it was safe to say it was not the8. it was LA boy hong joshua. idk what it was really but i thought he looked so idk— beautiful. so thats what it was for me. i started stanning the group and having joshua as my new ult bias in june 2022. sadly, over time, my interest in skz started to decline. it wasn’t that skz wasn’t great, they are, y’know how it is right?

that was how my journey started. i started listening to their music, getting into going seventeen, binge-watching like all the seventeen related videos i could find on youtube, and most importantly: going through hell trying to learn all of the members.

oh. my. god. hey, you know, it took some time, but i got there! (i always messed up woozi and hoshi) um.. anyways. as time went on, obviously i was able to experience the feeling of waiting to watch their new comebacks and such. and honestly, i don’t mean to be one of those people, but seventeen genuinely brought my spark back. i had, and still, never been so interested in something until them.

around 5-6 months later, it was in novemeber 2022 when i was pretty settled into the group when my thoughts and views started to change. i was starting to focus on new members. i honestly don’t remember at all how this started but jeonghan caught my eye. and i was hooked.

idk.. hes js so.. im sure u know what i mean!!! i mean who wouldn’t? like, have you seen jeonghan? oh lordy lord. he was so beautiful yet fine yet cute yet literally all of the above. i sound like one of those crazy fans. PLEASE GUYS I PROMISE IM NOT LIKE THAY JUST HEAR ME OUT A TINY BIT. let a girl be delulu PLS. ok now im gonna continue being delulu for a sec thanks.

i do admit i still fangirl a bit over him, just a teensy bit!!!!! (i fucking watch edits on tiktok HELP ME I HAVE A SAVED COLLECTION IN MY FAVORITES ermmmm i js want to be organized!!!! …..) please guys im just a girl.

uh. yeah! but in all seriousness, i’m so happy that i was able to come across such an amazing group. time has passed so much and it’s crazy for me to understand that i’ve been already been a carat for almost 2 years. (pls help me ive watched like every gose episode and inside seventeen episode like 50 million times each, but honestly i’ll never get tired of it).

i’m so proud of seventeen after everything they’ve gone through. watching them win their first daesang made me feel so happy for them, they absolutely deserve it. from practicing together in a small, green walled room to selling out almost all of their shows and stages they perform on, seventeen has grown so much as not just a group but individually.

i just know that if seventeen’s predebut self saw their lives now their joy would just be through the roof. as one of the most looked-upon sunbaenims in their industry, i’m sure most people can agree seventeen tops their line of style when making music.

and i’m also so glad i decided to be a carat. i love the fandom, like i can be on tiktok for hours just laughing watching carats post the funniest memes and compilations as well as making the stupidest tweets. i can very much vouch carats are one of the most funniest, supportive fandoms out there.

so yeah, that’s about it!

#seventeen #svt #choi seungcheol #scoups #yoon jeonghan #hong jisoo #joshua hong #wen junhui #moon junhui #jeon wonwoo #lee jihoon #woozi #kwon soonyoung #hoshi #lee seokmin #dokyeom #dk #kim mingyu #xu minghao #the8 #boo seungkwan #hansol vernon chwe #vernon chwe #lee chan #dino svt

[boosterthisgold]

I hate hate hate switching I hate it i hate it so much I hate coming back to answer awkward questions of things I didn't do i hate the "you were online why did you ignore me" conversation I hate missing days I hate missing interactions i hate the fact my loved ones feel betrayed and abandoned by me I hate the thought they miss me i hate how I don't even realize I've been gone i hate how I can't excuse leaving cause it makes me sound manipulative I hate leaving my friends i hate how they all probably resent me for how i dissapear I hate how my co host is an introjrct of my current comfort source and I can't enjoy it without thinking of the trauma and building some resentment for him even though he is genuinely a great guy i hate hurting people i hate being a bad person i hate not being able to be in the right i hate not being able to be a justice bringer I hate how my younger friends don't listen to me when I've been where they are and my advice can easily change their suffering i hate seeing the same exact experiences I've had and learning from them only to not be able to help others learn too i hate how none of the kind words people say about me are true i hate how i know everyone secretly wishes they havent met me because I'm never there i hate how i leave people without meaning to i hate how tired I am always so even if we were switching id still not have any energy for more than simple interactions i hate how im missing possibly my mothers final days i hate how i have no memory of head space i hate how my therapist insists she thinks I'm a system but also wants me to forve everyone to stop seeing me thay way and for me to stop identifying that way I hate how she is forcing us to integrate i hate feeling like 1000 different ppl at once because of integration i hate not knowing what is real and what is source i hate not having a stable identity i hate my loved ones not feeling loved by me

I hate it. I hate switching. I hate chronic fatigue. I hate BPD. I hate my eating disorder. I hate my addiction. I hate how fucking unreliable and inconsistent I am even thought I try so hard. I hate how ill never be the good person that is selfless and brings justice they see. I hate myself. But I am the best person to exist and only I am capable of carrying a burden like this. That is why God has plastered it onto me to be the anti-christ because no other human could carry all the hatred I have. I am the devils daughter and I should be burnt for that.

#tw vent #tw god #tw ed #tw everything #tw Christianity #sorry. getting messed with thr church qgain is fucking up mu head big time. #im sofry #bmgj #im going to bed irs qlmost fucking midnight n we just switcged and my head hurts and djskjdks

[grimmshood]

i personally like 2 think ji-woon was a trainee when nospin debuted and was added a year after their debut, then their all-kill hit had been the same year (think rookie of the year type of deal) and also he's naturally the Functional + literal maknae (and probably the same age as the existing maknae as well)

my No BHVR Lore based NOSPIN lore is something else entirely bc i have So many thoughts

i came up with my own nospin members + concept btw so.

based only off the idea that ji-woon has several cosmetics that are costumes referencing nospin's previous successes (specifically the fur coat ones and recolors) and off a friend's statement, nospin had a more mature/sexier concept in their later work, personally i think they started off with a fresh / colorful concept and grew more mature over time to appeal to GLOBE (personal name for nospin's fandom bc icant call them orbit...)

i thought nospin probably had to have been suffering a bit from debut to require the addition of a new member, which goes into the arrangement i have.

also heights for the members were decided based off the nospin tome charm, also used skz as a reference to see how short would make sense for changmin lmao. ages are at the time of being taken / death

woojin - leader, he's indian and recruited from overseas. he's 5"8 making him the tallest member. woojin is his stage name (i havent come up with his legal name yet lol) he's a trans man and bisexual. '95 liner (24 at time of death, wouldve been 26)

blink- visual / rapper, thai recruit. he's 5"7, i do not have a legal name for him either. trans man and gay. '95 liner (24 at time of death, wouldve been 26)

jang chun-woo- american recruit, grew up in chicago and moved to korea in order to train at mighteeone. transmasc lesbian like ji-woon. '96 liner (23 at time of death, wouldve been 25)

su changmin- first maknae, 5"5 being the shortest. born + raised in seoul. unlabeled but he's just there. guy who says yippee! '97 liner (22 at time of death, wouldev been 24)

hak ji-woon - maknae, 5"6 (ash calculated this based on model heights so it's what im going with) debuted at 16 and was a trainee under mighteeone for 2 years. transmasc lesbian, was fully transitioned by 20 (bhvr wont say this but /I/ think nospin took a hiatus for 2 years in which he completed his transition) '97 liner (24, 22 during the fire)

my nospin is a self produced group with yun-jin supervising and doing production as well. woojin, blink and ji-woon are the primary producers where changmin and chun-woo primarily write lyrics. all of them contribute to composition, production and lyric writing but the separate groups applies typically to their title tracks. their songs vary in genre but tend to lean towards EDM and R&B. Songs Ji-woon does primary production on sound noisier and have a more distinct sound (leading into part of why the snuff scream music became his trademark, even though the audio was layered under other sounds)

i also. like to apply shinee things to nospin so i think they were on a reality show a year after debut (think hello baby) and the child they spent time with them is a boy named on-gyum who was 4 when they met, 11 when NOSPIN's members died and 13 in 2020.

my idea of their relationships with each other are that blink + woojin were the closest due to both being foreign members, chun-woo facilitated most of the early communication due to knowing english and being able to speak to woojin and blink that way + translating for the rest. chun-woo and ji-woon were pit as rivals, spending a decent amount of time paired up (as well as both being attention-hogs + roommates.) changmin had a crush on ji-woon for some time and ji-woon bullied him over it. this and ji-woons general shitty self centered attitude made the rest of the group despise him, but he hated them for taking attention from him so. they got along still but ji-woon got into fights with other members a lot, he did learn from woojin though. also woojin and blink were probably gay if you catch my drift

#txt #NO ido not think any of them are cis. they promoted as a boy group bc both lesbians were masc presenting and liked it that way. #understand my vision.

[mardoufox21111]

people are so disappointing no one in particular at the moment but everyone. i realised they just care about themselves and only themselves. i havent done anything all weekend. i tried to write yesterday for about 10 minutes but couldnt im disappointed in myself. but i know i needed a day to just totally relax a day away from d and half the day away from t my brain needs more of those to be able to write. im a bit tired now. someone was mowing their lawn at 8am on a sunday. i hope i win lotto tonight so i dont have to go to work tomorrow i almost forgot i have an early finish. kind of pointless when my mother is there. see if i won lotto i could have days to myself, time to myself to recoup help myself out. its hard when youre being put down all the time, walking on eggshells you dont realise it but your brain gets tired exhausted. for 32 years ive been exhausted. if i had my own place i could do what i want, when i want. no waiting aorund hoping that i can achieve something on her days off. no trying to tip toe around things. no accidentally upsetting th beat. i could watch waht i want. have a bath when i want. drink and eat what i want. read. watch tv. write. walk. go places. do things. right now all i do is go to work. and even then im not able to go by myself. if i had my own place now id order thai or a pizza. have some salad. go for a walk. watch a movie. ride my bike. write. i dont know. seems like it will never happen unless i win lotto. hope i win tonight.

[mosviqu]

i'm very happy that u are whipped for eric and congrats again for ur marriage can't wait to be there🤭

OH DAMN NOW IT WOULD BE EVEN COOLER IF I WAS THE FIRST ONE but like that would actually be crazy!!!!! i hope ur socialness will save us or it will be very awkward since both of us are like that then😭😭 I HOPE U WONT BE IN TROUBLE but i am at ur service will help with anything🫡🫡 ITS GOING TO BE SO COOL AND IM ALSO VERY HAPPY THAY I WONT HAVE TO SEND U PIXEL CALUM CUZ U WILL SEE HIM IRL!!!! ITS GOING TO BE AMAZIIINGGG AND IM A TRUSTABLE SOURCE FOR THAT

SHHSJFJF I WOULD PAYYY TO SEE HIM DANCE CAT AND DOG AT A CLUB HOLY CRAP THAT WOULD BE FUNNYHAHSHFJ and very true it would be more embarrassing 😭😭 i'm sure he is ur only one especially from the boyz u know right ahahahhahah😄

i still haven't watched any of the life performances i'm scared for my life actually ever since the video of him in that bath tub i haven't been normal so i think i will put off watching them😄🥲 IM NOT EVEN SURPRISED THEY HAVE EVERYONE IN SHAMBLES!!! and well i'm happy it actually wasn't short lived or well i still hope it won't be short lived and i hate to admit that i like the silver more cuz red is one of my fav hair colour on people💔💔💔 (liebestraum anon🥳)

me? whipped for eric ?? where'd you get that???? (definitely not our dms hahahaha...ahaha...)) ofc you are invited to the wedding you are the fav tbz girlfriend after all 🙄💔

you would be actually the first online friend id be meeting irl as well have i mentioned that already i think i have but anyways 😭😭 so id actually be kind of shitting my pants but oH WELL. love how u call it my socialness when its just me pretending i know how to speak to ppl bc the friends i found at uni are all introverted 😭 STOP I REMEMBER U SAYIGN YOU WILL SEND PIXEL CALUM AND I WAS LIKE AWH SWEET BUT BITCH ILL SEE PIXEL CALUM IRL ALL THE WAY FROM THE BACK OF THE VENUE LIFE IS SO STRANGE. also if we meet and become irl besties we can go see lovejoy together in poland (im sure the time doesnt match and 5sos is actually way after that but we do not care))

i mean a couple drinks in and id be able to dance cat and dog at the club so i think everythings possible😔😔😔 mhm mhm i only have one boyfriend per group i am NOT staring at sunwoo every chance i get why would u think that

also update i STILL havent watched any of rhe live performances for move bc i suck LOLOLOL but no i am kinda scared to if im being 100% honest i think that would be too serious for me. also it seems like red hoon is gone fr and its silver now so you won😗 (still am a fan of black)

#at this point do u even need the anon button 😭😭😭😭 #also sorry for replying late but u know how it goes

[nic0oftheunderw0rld]

trigger/content warning eating disorder vent

I am so god damned tired of having a fucking eating disorder. this shit never seems to get better it only ever gets worse and worse and worse. i am like purging about half of what i eat these past few weeks and like idk its bad but im losing weight. its so stupid cause like it controls so so manyt of my choices i am so tires of it being my reason behind so much of my motivations and actions. no matter how i move on from other things that is the one thing that seems to stay, anf like not only stay but progress and get worse and like cause way way more issues than it has ever fucking been worth. I am so tired of my fucking brain yelling at me for eating, or like for simply not moving enough during the day and then ending up eating. I cant even fucking enjoy almost any food at all and its gonna drive me crazy, if i enjoy it too much i want more and then i have to throw it up. every little thing that causes me issues i decide that the fix to that is for some reason binge-purging and or starving myself or excercising until i cant move. i just want to stop its been like this since i was like fucking 13/14 its horrible i am so so so tired. and like finding eating disorder social media has been amazing in some respects but in others it has made things so so so much worse. I wasnt able to purge before i found a few specific threads on eatind disorder forums, and like eating disorder tumblr and twitter and instagram have given me so so much community and feeling understood but also has given unhealthy tips and habits. and information and images that i will never unlearn. Through them i have met people years ago that i am friends with still and for that i will be so so thankful but the damage it has caused also is quite extreme and i dont know how i will ever come back from it. i havent been able to eat without thinking about the calories or what i have to do or if i should throw it up in years. it fucking sucks im so done. everyone is like you need help you need help you need to eat you need to get it together. talk to me. i can help. i wont eat until you do. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST SHUT UP IT ISNT ABOUT YOU JUST SHUT UP. this is so so much more than i ever thought it would be, i miss my life before i didnt have this, before it was fuciing ingrained. my worry now is if i will ever be able to recover. i have been tracking calories, restricting, bingeing, purging for years now, i dont know how i could ever really grow too far beyond thay it has become such an integral part of my life. i feel doomed. there doesnt feel like hope, there isnt a light at the end of the tunnel anymore, it went out years ago.

#vent #mine #ventaccount #myvent #triggerwarning #eatingdisorder #mentalhealthvent #eatingdisordervent #tired #im so scared i dont know what im really doing anymore #its terrifying me and i am so close to giving up and just letting my eating disorder run rampant and control me

[1kook]

I miss yixing

#i havent been posting him lately bc thay mf been doing so much i havent been able to keep up #i mean i def see him more on twt but #my yxg tag used to be so full and luscious #:(

[seungmin-jpeg]

🎐

#someone give me a sticker for not only reaching my peek stress level #but going over what i normally have to deal with #and then almost crying in the middle of my department #and its only tuesday :’)))))) #stan talent stan me #i need to get meds or something this whole college thing is to much for me #literally like can ur heart tense up so badly it hurts a little? #cause i think its doing that #also so are my lungs i havent been able to breath well all day cause of thay #thanks anxiety ur a real champ #delete later