#he can't even fucking drink

[epicfirestormer]

Me: I'm fine

Also me: Six getting his memory erased in "Six Minus Six" and Rex trying to make him remember is meant to parallel just how terrifying it must've been for Six and Holiday when Rex would sometime lose his memories before canon started. We know from what Tuck told Rex that he had lost his memories so many times, he would keep a notebook on him to make sure he would remember. How many times had this happen, for it to be a habit. How many memories did Rex lose when he was in Providence. How much of his own life does Rex actually remember during those years. Did Rex and Six bonded and got close before Rex inevitably blacks out and forgets everything again. How absolutely horrifying is it for Rex, a child in everything but title, to wake up with no idea who he is at a goddamn government facility and treated nothing more than a weapon. How heartbreaking had it been for Holiday, a mother figure who treats Rex like a child- how he should be treated- to see him not recall anything about her. How absolutely soul-crushing had it be for Six, who had taught this kid to survive and how to stay strong, to see that same kid act in fear. Did Providence did something similar to what Rex did, keeping a log of everything about him so he could know right away. How awful is that. How absolutely batshit, fucking insanely immoral it is that a child have to go through. To lose memories and be conditioned about waking up a military base. But in the eyes of Providence, he isn't a child. He's a weapon, an asset at best, and a monster at worst.

#generator rex #i have. so much emotions about generator rex #once again I need to talk about how genuinely fucked up the world of genrex is #like. rex is a fuckin kid. he's 16 #he can't even fucking drink #at yet here he is. forced to fight and be a child soldier because that's what he is. #no one views him as human because technically speaking. he isn't human anymore #he's a *thing* #can you imagine that. no wonder holiday always sounds pissed when everyone expects him to act like an adult #because he isn't. he's a teenager who got thrown in here because of factors out of his control and he has no choice but to fight #of course he's gonna rebel. that's just what kids do #honestly those episodes where rex is just. being a teenager and having fun? those are great. he deserves a break #i need to rewatch genrex cause holy shit i have a lot to say about it #something something ''providence is immoral'' something something ''rex is a child soldier'' #what else is new #rex salazar #the fire burns #generator rex spoilers #spoilers #im only tagging this as spoilers so that anyone new to this show don't get spoiled #also my mutuals who im gonna force to watch generator rex with me #hi silver. if you're reading this; thanks for getting this far #but also. let's watch genrex sometimes. it's really good

[momotonescreaming]

lowkey obsessed with the domestic college stommy au that lives in my head

#stommy #momo.txt #no upside down au established stommy they leave hawkins together #go to college and get a shitty tiny 3 bedroom apartment in the city #that they share with robin and carol #because they cant go anywhere without their girls #and Tommy's already had his redemption he's trying to be nicer and do better #but his sharp edges are softening even more in the city #he gets to wake up in the morning in his boyfriends arms he gets to explore this side of himself #they watch bastball games together and hug and kiss and cheer whenever their team scores #he can slap steves ass when he's making breakfast and tommy comes up behind him #because theyre both still jocks #carol makes a chore chart and sticks it to the fridge so they can rotate through all the chores in the shared spaces #gives everyone baskets to keep in the bathroom to keep all their products separate (this is mostly for carol and steve) #robin is dating vickie and she wants what stommy has she wants to wake up in the morning to her gf but she can't just ask her to move in!! #tommy says yes you can suck it up and fucking ask her to move in next semester already #steve is a little nicer and reminds rob that vickie loves her and she'd never be mean about it if she wasnt ready to move in #but she totally is so thats a non issue #they all go to parties at frat houses and steve and tommy drink and dance and use the alcohol as an excuse to get all touchy in public #carol flirts and goes home with some hottie of the week #she's having fun being single and exploring herself and the dating world #robin dances and has fun but eventually just goes home with vickie #they have fun they build up this lil friend group and its everything and theyre free #they made it out of hawkins theyre away from their parents #im just!!!!! #aaaaaaaa #theyre fun to think about i love them #if anyone is reading this i love u

[moderndaypandora]

Got tagged by @notallsandmen for a WIP paragraph game, and I’m incredibly flattered, considering ... this doesn’t feel on the level of fic, this is fun little sketches of dialogue at most. But this is what I had, so here’s more of the mortal dreamling silliness (previous bits: modern day mortal dreamling and newlyweds with ravens)

How Hob asked Johanna to be his witness for his wedding:

He texted her asking if she was free that afternoon, because he needed her for something.  Historically "something" has meant anything from "taste-testing 3 different scone recipe variations to figure out the best one" to "hustling drunk pricks at darts". Likewise, Hob has done her favors ranging from picking up tampons to providing an alibi. In theory there is a ledger of favors owed, but in reality there will never be a balancing of books (because they're best friends, even if Johanna is too prickly to admit it and Hob is too smart to).

Johanna texted back "yeah, what's up?", and practically broke a land speed record pressing "Call" when she got the response.

Johanna: what the fuck kind of text exchange is confirming I'm around and then sending "getting married today, hello, witness!" and a selfie of you and some goth twink?

Hob: it felt pretty self-explanatory

Johanna: last I'd checked, you weren't even seeing anybody!

Hob: things change?

Johanna: I got dinner with you 5 weeks ago, you bastard, and you were single then.

Hob: ... things change fast?

Johanna: how the fuck did you even meet him?

Hob: I was running back from class during that awful rainstorm last month, and he was just outside my tube station.

Johanna: Hob.

Hob: His umbrella'd broken and he was soaking wet, and he looked absolutely miserable, poor darling.

Johanna: ...

Hob: So I offered him towels and dry clothes, since my flat was just up the road. And by the time the rain stopped I knew I wanted to marry him, and he said yes.

Johanna: what lunatic just follows strange men home?

Hob: he was pretty suspicious until I gave him my phone so he could text my address to his sister.

Johanna: and she was somehow fine with it, like 'yeah, go on'?


Hob:

Hob: he got a bit distracted by my phone background and never actually texted her.

Johanna: the fuck

Hob: you know Julian of Norwich is gorgeous

Johanna: your cat is a lesser demon escaped from hell. I'm going to exorcise your cat someday

Hob: Jules is a sweetheart. She doesn't even hunt birds!

Johanna: That thing won't kill any of the bloody birds in your neighborhood because she's saving all her energy to someday murder me and you know it.

Hob: ... undeserved paranoia about my extremely photogenic cat aside --

Johanna: WELL-deserved!

Hob: --will you be my witness?

Johanna: Left it a bit late, if you're asking me today. Did everybody else say no?

Hob: Didn't ask anybody else. Been planning to ask you since Dream said yes, but I figured if I gave you too much notice you'd flee the country.

Johanna: [tearing up, because even if you're an independent badass, it's nice to hear you're somebody's person] you're fucking right I would.

(Johanna's custom ringtone on Hob's phone is from Sweeney Todd, the final verse in Johanna where you can hear the body drop ("Wake up, Johanna, another bright red day"), because Hob and Johanna are black-hearted bastards/absolutely in cahoots with each other and think it’s funny. Hob's ringtone is Being Alive from Company ("Somebody need me too much...").  Sondheim all the way, motherfuckers)

#dreamling #hob is a medievalist and he would name his cat after an anchoress #i don't make the rules except when i do #johanna: wtf do i even wear to be a witness #hob: idk nothing obviously bloody or stained? #johanna: mm. what are you wearing? #hob: khakis and a button up #johanna: not the high-waisted ones right? #hob: there is nothing wrong with them #johanna: you're going to look like the slutty professor wannabe you are #johanna: and i bet you're going to roll your sleeves up #hob mid-sleeve roll: can't i look nice for my future husband? #johanna: yeah nice. not Mr April from an Academia Gone Wild calendar #hob: ... how am i supposed to take that #johanna: as a suggestion to look like a respectable spousal candidate #hob: we got engaged on less than 24 hours' acquaintance #hob: there is no chance of respectability #johanna: jesus fucking christ #johanna: you're paying for all my drinks at the reception #hob: by reception do you mean at the pub afterwards #johanna: clearly you prick. and it's going to be decent liquor. none of that bottom shelf swill #hob: we are celebrating my marriage afterall #johanna: [groaning] text me the address and don't give me any shit when i show up with a flask #johanna: you absolute bastard #hob: <3 #dream is 'sir not appearing in this sketch' because he had to go back to his flat and get his own appropriate clothing #and also provide proof of life and zero mental impairment to death #because she was still hoping it was a joke/she could talk him around to waiting longer

[cryptid--bunny]

Pony Park Boys; Friendship is Bullshit

sorry for posting so much in the past hour. I'm lonely </3

#trailer park boys #tpb ricky #tpb julian #tpb bubbles #cryptid art #i put too much thought into why each of them which which species #like i knew julian was unicorn #cause of the whole pompous 'better than you' act he puts on #also he loves fancy shit #but i tossed w ricky n bubs for a bit cause pegasus ricky would be funny like instead of the car he sleeps on a cloud thats like. #just above julians trailer. it rains on julian constantly. #but also him being an earth pony w plant powers is also rlly funny cause. he grows weed. thats all he can do. his special talent. #and bubbles being an animal dude iwent oh fluttershy and then i went wait he's fucking blind #this is hilarious he cant fly #also ricky n pinkie pie would be SO besties #julian definitely keeps talking about going to magic school but he can't even teleport lmao dawg can only levitate shit #and its just his drink #sorry like i said. im lonjely. i have things to say.

[sapphire-weapon]

I’m about to vomit out a bunch of thoughts, and I’m not sure any of this is going to make sense by the end, but. I’ve been thinking a LOT about these three lines in RE4make:

“You haven’t changed. You just think you have.”

“You can’t save her. You can’t save anyone.”

“This time, it has to be different...”

I’ve seen people focus in on that Krauser line and tie it directly back to Sherry, which is cool! Even as recently as five years ago, people completely glossed over Sherry’s impact on Leon’s life, and it’s cool that the remakes have had people digging into his character and realizing “oh shit, literally everything that happens to him after RE2 is because of his paternal love for Sherry.”

But... Krauser’s line is about more than just her.

With the remake turning Krauser into Leon’s combat trainer, chances are he knows about everything that happened in Raccoon City. And I don’t mean, like. He read a government file. Leon probably told him.

In OG, Krauser and Leon have this exchange of dialogue:

Krauser: “What is it that you fight for, comrade?” Leon: “My past, I suppose.” Krauser: “Hmph. Umbrella.”

It was axed completely from the remake, because it doesn’t make sense for it to happen in the remake. If Krauser was Leon’s trainer, that question was probably asked very early in their relationship. And since they weren’t currently in a fight to the death, and because they weren’t already six years removed from Raccoon City, chances are, Leon’s answer was a bit more involved than just “my past.”

So, let’s back up a little bit. In RE2make, they basically turned Kendo into a completely different character. OG Kendo was literally just there to point a shotgun at Leon and/or Claire and then go “oh my bad you’re not a zombie” and hook them up with some guns before he gets eaten. In RE2make, he’s a desperate and terrified father just trying to spend his last few moments with his infected 6 or 7 year old daughter before she turns. After he shuts the door on Leon and Ada, Leon turns to Ada and says, “Protecting people like that is why I joined the force.”

But Leon doesn’t protect or save Kendo or his daughter. He doesn’t protect or save... anyone. Every single person that Leon comes into contact with and tries to save dies horrifically -- and some, he even has to kill, himself (Marvin Branaugh). The only people who make it out of Raccoon City alive are people who saved themselves (Claire and Ada).

Of course, there is Sherry. But Leon didn’t save Sherry; Claire did. ESPECIALLY in remake canon, since nearly all of Leon’s scenes with Sherry got severely shortened or removed completely in RE2make.

But then, when Claire entrusts Sherry to Leon’s care (on his own insistence, per her RE3 epilogue), he goes and fucks that up, too. Gets her kidnapped and held hostage indefinitely by the federal government, and the only thing he can do about it is do exactly as they say and just hope they keep their end of the bargain and not hurt her.

So, when Krauser says “You can’t save anyone,” he means anyone. Ever. And even up to that point in RE4... Leon got the two officers who drove him into town killed, and he watched Luis die a slow, agonizing death right in front of him. And then, past that point, Leon has to kill Krauser with his own hands. Then he watches Mike die.

Ashley is literally Leon’s first and only success story, up to this point in canon. (And even when you go all the way up to current-day canon, Ashley is one of... three? People? I can think of? Total? Who Leon actually saves?)

So, Leon saying, “This time, it has to be different,” he doesn’t just mean Sherry. He means Ada. He means Kendo. He means Marvin. He means the entirety of Raccoon City. He’s staring down a repeat of what happened back then, not in terms of the bioterror situation, but in terms of his own personal failures. His survivor’s guilt. He can’t handle the thought that he’ll be the only person to walk away again -- and he refuses to be.

And that’s why Ada’s line bothers me so fucking much.

I mean, first of all -- Ada, you haven’t seen this man in six years, and you’ve spent a total of like five minutes with him since meeting up with him again here, so how the fuck would you even know -- but even aside from that...

To be clear: she’s right.

But she’s also wrong.

Leon has changed -- to an extent. In RE2 (OG or remake), Leon honestly believed that if it was lawful, then it was also morally right. He doesn’t believe that anymore. There’s no more “letting the law sort it out” or trusting in the power of authority for him anymore. His moral compass has been boiled down to: “If you hurt or murder innocent people, you’re a fucking asshole, and I don’t really care who you are, I’ll kill you myself.”

RE2 Leon was willing to hear people out and give them an honest benefit of the doubt -- even Annette Birkin. RE4 Leon just tells people to shut the fuck up before opening fire.

RE2 Leon was honest and trusting to a fault, and he felt stronger as part of a team. RE4 Leon is suspicious almost to the point of paranoia, and he just wants to be left the fuck alone to do his job.

These are all things that were really important to who Leon was in Raccoon City, and they’re reasons why things turned out the way they did for him, back then.

But at the same time, Ada’s right in saying that, at the core of it all, Leon is still that kind-hearted, decent guy who just wants the good guys to win and the bad guys to lose. That’s why it hits him somewhere sensitive when Krauser says: “You can’t save anyone.” 

It’s just that, now, the way he approaches it is different. His outlook on life in terms of his goals is different. His expectations for it have changed.

So, if Leon had been smarter/wittier, he absolutely could have turned it around on her and said: “No, I’ve definitely changed. You just think I haven’t.”

And not only would that sound threatening as fuck, he’d also be right. They both would be, at that point.

And for all of those major parts of him to have changed and still be facing down the possibility of failing every single person he comes across, especially Ashley...

"This time, it has to be different.”

And this time, it was.

#resident evil 4 #leon kennedy #meta analysis #and it WOULDN'T have been different if leon hadn't changed #could you imagine how RE4 would've ended if leon was still his RE2 self and tried to apprehend krauser instead of killing him #or like give him a second chance #like 'i beat you now you can repent' #fucking LUL #that's how you fucking die comrade #unfortunately leon succeeding in RE4 also taught him to emotionally close himself off and push everyone away #classical conditioning and all that #but that's a separate post for a separate time #if they ever remake RE6 watch me clown honk my way through leon and sherry's fucked up relationship #claire goes to see sherry regularly and leon admits out loud he hasn't even spoken to her in at least 3 years #and then chokes up with tears when he finally sees her again #smfh he's so fucking stupid #leon if you can't cope with your trauma properly then just shut up and keep drinking god i can't stand you #one day i'll also write a big post about leon's suicidal ideation #today is not that day #but one day

[watermelinoe]

my niece once got upset w my dad bc he wouldn't buy her some overpriced drunk elephant skincare product. she was freaked out about getting wrinkles. at age eight. i wish her mom had never bought her that damn smartphone

#idk if my brother is dad of the year or anything but he didn't want her to have the smartphone so points for that #her mom bought it so she could track my niece whenever she's with her dad (my brother) and text her constantly #and considering she's so petty that she made my niece leave an easter gathering with a terminal family member early it's like #i'm sure she has her side of it and my brother was probably a dick somehow but girl you're punishing an eight year old about it #and i really don't think shit like ''ice age is for boys (so i won't watch it)'' came from my brother #i'm sure i'm biased bc it's my brother but genuinely i think she bought my niece that phone to spite him #and now she's just glued to it bc that's what smartphones are designed to do !!!! #you would really fuck up your own kid's attention span and self esteem just to get back at your ex??? #and this isn't even the worst parenting move on her part but luckily that guy died and can't be around my niece anymore ever <3 #but i just worry about her. since i moved away i don't really get to see her. #and not to be narcissistic but i feel like it's good for her to see women w short hair no makeup comfy clothes etc. #i wanna be a good example for her #i told her she should just worry about washing with soap wearing sunscreen and drinking lots of water #i just can't relate at all. at her age all my friends were boys and i was into dinosaurs and pokemon and werewolves #a lot of girls... didn't really like me 😔 i remember being upset bc one girl called me a tomboy #anyway if u read all this. secret radioactive kiss just for u. mwah 💚

[evakant]

thirty days of zewu-jun(e)  —  day ten

#theuntamededit #mdzsedit #the untamed #mdzs #lan xichen #zewu jun #liu haikuan #fdstuff #fragifs #zewujune #cqledit #listen of all the things that make me angry in this show #of all the 'why didn't he do this' and 'why didn't she say this' etc. etc. #of all the what ifs. of all the insanity inducing moments and dialogue lines. #lan-zongzhu drinking that cup is the thing that makes me the angriest #no joke! i know why he does it. i know he does the math but fuck if just thinking about it doesn't make my blood boil #not taking any questions at this time. i have nothing to add. #sorry zewu-jun i am so angry right now i can't even look at you #tv

[quietwingsinthesky]

soulless sam was at his best when he was still being written as a version of sam, to accentuate parts of him that normally get held back, and not as 'guess he's evil now'. soulless sam when he's reflecting sam's tendency to lose sight of everything else in pursuit of a goal. soulless sam when he's just kind of rude without thinking about it without his filter on. soulless sam when he's equal parts intent on keeping dean with him and also happy to lie to him and keep him shut out of the things he knows dean won't like so that dean won't leave. soulless sam when he equally recognizes that he is a better hunter now, and also that he probably can't continue to exist without his soul. (you know. before they went along with making him just kind of evil.)

...soulless sam when he's begging for literally anyone to acknowledge his autonomy in this situation and not force him to take his soul back without knowing how much it could damage him and being ignored.

#i have normal thoughts about this man #i love the soulless sam arc actually until it nosedives #i love how it gives us a new lens to examine sam through #i love that soulless sam isn't even really! malicious! he's just exactly what he says: a better hunter! #like the most Bad thing he does is inarguably dean vampire transformation #but id point out that. that gives us even more fascinating stuff to analyze about him #like for one. sam knows not only About the cure but about how dean can't drink blood for it to work. right? #so what can we deduce from this: 1) he is not arbitrarily risking his brother. he is making from his pov the most logical decisions to kill #the vamps they're after. and 2) soulless sam without a doubt believes that dean will resist drinking blood. because otherwise the cure won' #work on him. and you can say 'well he doesn't have a connection to dean because soulless reasons' but. i mean. that's false. clearly. #even if all it is is leftover feelings of responsibility towards dean and familiarity and knowing that dean's a good hunter. #that's still a connection! dean *does* matter to him! and soulless sam believes he wont go for blood. that dean can't. #(sidenote if dean did? i dont think soulless would have killed him. this is sam & dean we're talking about. #soul or not. vampire or not. sam is keeping him around.) #anyway the point of this is that soulless sam is both Very Simple to understand and Very Complex when you get into the details of it #but on the basic level he is just sam's drive to hunt unattached from morality. he is just a better hunter. #i like that characterization far better than 'he is evil and wants to do murder and bad things' #oh and also he fucks people's wives. he's fun like that. #soulless!sam #spn #sam winchester

[illiana-mystery]

New Fred just dropped and I'm loving this update. Hello, daddy. 🥵🤤

#he looking fine as fuck #like a wine #i would love to drink #didi chill lol #girl stop #relax bitch #lol #i can't wait for this show #i'm down so bad for this man #it's not even funny #my sweet alfredo #my heart #❤️❤️❤️❤️ #alfred molina #ai filter

[advisorsage]

I think I've fucked up

#i ranted to my girlfriend and i know she probably is just busy but my brain is screaming that i made her upset even though.. #my rant was about my own situation and how i feel about it and then i apologized for complaining at her and said that i wasn't supposed to #and I'm worried she thinks she's not supposed to complain to me when i just meant that i don't like telling people about my shit #and i know she said i could tell her and that she wants to support me but she and my boyfriend are my first relationships #and i don't want to fuck up and i think i have and i haven't told my boyfriend about my diagnosis yet #and I'm scared I'll complain at him too when i tell him and i don't care that he's told me i can and should complain to him #i don't want to saddle them with my complaints #and i called out of work because of how I'm feeling from my diagnosis and that's what i ranted to my girlfriend about #and i'm terrified she doesn't want to date me anymore because my reaction to being diagnosed with one more thing is so fucking pathetic #and i just need to cry and scream and throw up and i can't do any of those things and i feel like everyone except her is telling me #it's no big deal when it is a big deal and i don't think i got it through to my therapist and I'm just freaked out and i don't want to cling #and and and I'm just. i hate existing right now #i feel like i shouldn't do what i want to at home because i called out from work and i know that's stupid but i don't feel like i deserve #nice things right now despite needing them and I'm just so tired but not sleepy and i feel like I'm going to have a panic attack and #i can't even do anything about it! #fuck #i fucked myself over basically #anyway #drink water you heathens

[terraos]

Three days of hard work! My sims are living luxury lives (they're all so mad all of the time)

#save me from this hell #they have sleeping bags and a roof over their electronics so they don't break they're all fine #the poor vampire can't make friends with any of the other house members so he has nobody to drink blood of #the spellcaster made a potion from one of his experiments on the cauldron #i was keeping it just in case the vampire was starving and couldnt eat #and then he got thirsty and failed to drink from two random townies that were in the neighborhood so i was like fuck it #though maybe i should let the computer be unroofed so it breaks more often....i need to train the vampire in handiness #too busy spending all the money they make on farm an garden supplies. so they can make money #the spellcaster is the only one with a job and i didn't really even want him to have a job but like. he was just standing around all day #meh he can retire once the house is built #can you tell that i'm using a mansion blueprint as the base for their house. also the lots are so small i wish we had huge ass lots #i wish there were custom worlds like in sims 3 :( #i wish there were pet genetics like in the sims 3 this shit sucks ass i can't wait for paralives

[majimassqueaktoy]

I still want to write a fic about Makoto set after 0 where she goes off the rails because she is a traumatized 21 year old with not a single living connection in the world and now she has 10 billion yen to her name which just spells trouble to me

#when I say she has no living connection I mean bc Majima isn't ever known by her #like I hope she gets comfort at the idea he is out there even if she can't find him #but essentially her brother and Lee and her mum and her grandfather are all dead #She's literally got no one #And I'm supposed to believe she just copes fine with that? #I always had this Makoto Everywhere Idea #where she doesn't leave Kamurocho and Majima keeps seeing her around #and she's driving him insane because shes actively looking for him and he's trying to escape her #he's threatened every yakuza in the city never to say a word unless they want him to go mad dog like he did on the dojima family #even Sera agrees #so Makoto's left smacking random dudes and wandering around doing her investigation #She hassles Nishiki and Kiryu about it- but they're all Oh Um we didn't know the guy #It's just Majima going to get ciggies in the poppo and oh fuck heres Makoto eating a fuckin pork bun #quickly turn around and run away #Oh he feels a bit snackish- why not go grab some takoyaki Oh fuck me it's Makoto Makimura at the takoyaki cart /again/ #He wants to go have some fun- have a drink and a little karaoke #in an Okama bar- Jesus fucking christ Makoto's here and she'd singing HIS song and she's too drunk so now he's worried #But it's none of his buisness... Hmm maybe he can pay one of the nice young guys in there to keep an eye... No thats suspect #You get my vibe? #that's a different story to the one in the body of the post though. #Or Is It 🤨 #Makoto looking for him but being destructive and its driving Majima insane #anyway :)

[inkykeiji]

I don't want think about Jouno, being that. Nor do I want to think about Chuuya being undead. Which means dead too, right? My heart is in pieces.

Little guy just demanded that I stopped watching latest episode, because he wanted to watch too. I teased him that would still watch the last few without him. You should have seen his face. It was so adorable.

Oh, he and I talked about Chuuya being cured of his vampirism (don't know of that's possible, now that I think of it), how pissed he's going to be. And how devastating duo Dazai and Chuuya would be then. What do you think? -🦒

bsd spoilers!!

i'm not sure undead = fully dead!!! chuuya's case is different from aku's and jouno's because he wasn't killed before he was bitten; he was fully alive. but i totally feel u!!! all my faves are dying :// jouno makes me fuCKING FERAL THOUGH oh my good god i swear to the lord i become so fucking primitive every time i see him i can't even explain it!!! i love him!!!!!!!!

AWWWWW HEHE that's sooooo cute omg <3 i think it's really sweet that you guys watch anime together and have something you can share and enjoy together like that!!

oooh okay! so take this with a grain of salt but in bram stoker's novel dracula, there technically is a character that gets cured of her vampirism, so i wouldn't be surprised if there is somehow a way in bsd to cure those bitten before they died as well. i think all hope is lost for aku and jouno tho, which really kills me to say because they're two of my absolute favourites :(((

chuuya is definitely going to be beyond livid if he does come back from being a vampire HAHAHA aaah i have no idea how he'd feel to learn of what he was forced to do to dazai, but i'd put money on him being upset that it happened. truthfully, i don't think chuuya actually wants to kill dazai despite how much i do think he genuinely dislikes him (hates him but respects him, essentially), but i could see him framing it as being ‘upset’ that he didn't get to kill dazai of his own accord, in his own way and by his own choice.

if dazai isn't actually dead, i could see him holding this above chuuya's head in his trademark silly sarcastic condescending way without actually harbouring any hard feelings toward chuuya for what happened, since it was technically fyodor who did this.

#god fyodor is so fuckin hot tho #i know u aren't super into him and that's totally understandable #but these past few episodes he has looked so fucking good i can't even fully comprehend it #he also makes me downright feral #ugh anYWAY #i hope ur having an awesome day!!! #stay safe n drink water okay!! #🦒.anon #clari gets mail #inky.bsd

[yaoyuandaydream]

i learned passive-aggressiveness from my dad and i'm not proud of it. but lately i've been losing my patience and i think i'm okay with losing, if it means i won't have to second guess my every move. i don't want to play games. i don't want to have to explain myself. i just want to be quiet. to be quiet, and take care of myself. it's just funny how it doesn't seem to be enough now that i've learned it a little too well.

#our events are coming up and i'm just Tired i don't have time to deal with his petty mind games #which i guess isn't really fair because he's probably not even aware #like i know his actions and words are coming out of a place of love #that's why there's breakfast on the table every morning #and lunches prepared etc etc #but i'm so tired of having to explain that i don't want to drink the fucking smoothie because #my tummy's been upset and i'm about to fall asleep at the table #sometimes his love is like. it's like an overflowing fridge #crammed to the gills with food that we can't even fucking finish #and that's love #but it can be so suffocating because i didn't ask for half the things in there #and i don't actually like eating half the things in there #but how can you say that out loud? #love is not a one way street but i've never learned how to talk about it #feeling kinda shitty but i'll get over it #i'll try to get some sleep too but we'll see

[vermillioncrown]

looking through old knb reblogs, scrubbing through episodes...

we really just had all these gay ass sport anime back then didn't we

#can't go around w the whole 'subtlety of jpnese communication' and then be whole-ass drinking from the same water bottle #esp w one of the sharers being such a stickler for propriety & cryptid-ness #one of my guy friends i met during uni was a weeb but we spent a few months feeling out each other's weebiness #he weebed but he really liked waifus so like. Straight Weeb. #both were afraid to admit it first and even when we admitted it we kept it at surface level weeb shit #and then one day he calls me to complain about his on-off girlfriend's poor taste in pairing during the free! hype #i was floored but it was hilarious that we shared the same points #'yeah A's taste is fucking basic. pedestrian. ofc she'd go after the low-hanging fruit' #'i sussed from your tumblr that you'd understand.' #^so i nearly imploded but here i am still existing 5+years later #redglyphs #a verm tale

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

#unsafe vent #I really wish I was dead #my dad is putting so much stress onto me to 'make up' with my sister #which means I gotta apologize to her because SHE read MY personal PRIVATE journal #my family doesn't want me to kill myself and I don't know why #if I was dead no one would be around to make all of you upset #God I'm losing people left and right all I wanna do is go to sleep and never wake up #my dad said such nasty things that night when I needed him #what is the point of therapy if he's just gonna shit on it any chance he gets #I love my family but I wish that they would understand #I told my dad that I was so upset that I wanted to bang my head into the ground #and he said 'you gotta control that.' #what a fucking smart cunty bitch you are!!!!!!! yes I do!!! if only I had someone I could trust to help me!!!!!!! #if I wasn't so scared of Hell I would've been dead by now #I can't even cut cus my stupid razor sucks ass #I get why people do hard drugs now lmao #I would never but the urge to snort and swallow random shit to feel something is rising #I would drink but it gets me so sick it's not worth it #I'm in such a bad mental health spot all I can think about is how easy it would be for someone to take advantage #I dunno how to describe it but it's very dark :( #the only way I can make this all go away is if once again I take the blame #I wish I was more confident I was going yo heaven so I could just end it