#i am TIRED of seeing people reblog my posts about antisemitism

[whitesunlars]

hey. you. yeah you. if you think every and all zionists are inherently evil and the jewish people have no ties to the levant then the posts about antisemitism are about you.

#antisemitism #jewish #jumblr #i am TIRED of seeing people reblog my posts about antisemitism #with their previous post or following post being 'death to zionists' #or 'all israelis are settler colonialists who deserve to die' #define zionism for me #every definition of all forms of zionism #which is something i cannot do so i am sure you cannot do #so to claim you hate all versions of a concept you do not know is extremist to begin with #but then to have it a concept deeply rooted in jewish identity and history is uuuuh antisemitic #now tell me the history of the land of israel #and the connections between jewish holidays and the land #you can't do that either because then you'll need to admit that jews also belong in the land huh

[vaspider]

Okay, so I hope I don't come off as really confrontational and I'm sorry if it does. I've started to notice an increasing number of posts on your blog that seem to be critical of things trans women do on an intra-community level. I wasn't going to say anything before, but someone you reblogged mentioned that they were starting to keep an archive of what they called "Trans radfem behavior" and that concerned me a bit.

I have -- for years -- been extremely critical of cop behavior within the community or divisive behavior within the community. I have been critical of fellow lesbians when they have gone after aces and bi people. I have been critical of fellow transmascs when they say shitty things. My most quoted, most reblogged, most 'taken and posted on other sites', most linked on Reddit (fucking apparently) post is one about divisiveness and respectability politics within the community, how those things fail us and set us up to be split up and devoured by the cishets, and a call for radical inclusiveness within the community as the only way forward.

This isn't new. I've always been like this.

I have also always been critical of the idea that identity is a shield for shitty behavior. Whether that's disabled people acting like they can't be ableist, queer people acting like they can't say homophobic shit, Jews who think they can't act in an antisemitic way, or trans people acting transphobic or saying transphobic things, this is not a new concept for me, nor one I'll move away from. It is an unfortunate thing that disabled ableists and trans radfems exist, but they do, and I've gotten tired of the idea that we have to pretend someone isn't saying shitty things because of their identity.

For a long time, one of the topics I shied away from was discussing the divisions within the trans community specifically, because -- quite frankly -- I've seen the dogpiling that tends to happen to transmascs when we criticize the shitty, bioessentialist, 'man bad woman good' behaviors of a very small but very vocal section of the online transfem community.

But shying away from talking about that is just fucking cowardice, and I've never been able to stand for cowardice within myself. So yeah, you're definitely seeing more criticism of shitty intracommunity behavior within the trans community with me. I have never been one to criticize shitty behavior restricted to identity, however, and I have surely been critical of shit behavior regardless of whether or not the person saying it is a trans man, a trans woman, or any other group of people.

You will continue to see me criticize shitty behavior, because I am absolutely fed up with the way that this community treats itself, and you will see me talk about the things that happen as they happen. Right now, there's an awful lot of shitty behavior aimed at trans men and transmascs on this site, including some from trans women. It's absolutely unconscionable to talk about raping people, or to use words like "theyfab," "cuntboy," and "zippertits" to refer to transmascs. That's what's happening, so yep, you're gonna see that on my Tumblr.

The solution here is not to be concerned about me talking about it, but to be concerned about the people doing that. Talking about shit behavior isn't the problem. The shit behavior is the problem, and it's important to both talk about the shit behavior so it fucking stops, and to talk about the shit behavior very clearly as the actions of the people who took them and not the actions of a community. It sucks that there are transfems and trans women who think it's okay to treat transmascs and trans men the way that some transmascs on here are being treated right now. Those transfem folx should know better than to pull that shit, because they know what it's like to be the target of that kind of behavior.

That said, I am absolutely not responsible for what other people say or do. I am not aware of having reblogged or endorsed the idea of starting an archive of 'trans radfem shit,' so I'm very confused as to why exactly you're talking to me about it as if I said it or endorsed it or as if it has anything to do with me, or why it would be bad to talk about the way in which trans people of any gender can fall prey to radfem manipulation. Maybe the person talking about it specified they were tracking trans women, but even the ask you sent me says 'trans radfem behavior,' so I'm assuming it would be trans people of any gender, right? If not, why are you linking those ideas together?

Like, I didn't say it, I didn't endorse it, I'm not responsible for it, but what exactly would be wrong with talking about how radfem mindsets infect our community in the first place? The manner in which too many trans people find it easy to fall into the bioessentialist thinking of radfems is a community problem.

tl;dr: I criticize everybody when they act like fools, and I'm not responsible for some random thing that 'somebody I reblogged' said.

#transgender #trans #spider speaks

[wiisagi-maiingan]

I'm not censoring this person's username because he decided that I don't deserve enough dignity and respect for him to not talk shit about me as publicly as he possibly could so he can fuck right off to hell tbh.

This is the shit I'm talking about though, like I am just trying to browse some indigenous tags for posts to reblog and I see this shit, someone making completely unsubstantiated claims about a COMPLETE STRANGER and people just accepting it as truth. I'm over here talking to my tribe's offices about payment methods for enrollment fees and while my tribe is accepting me happily, these random fucking people online have decided that I'm not Native enough for them AND that they have to publicly "expose" me.

The thing is that there is NEVER any proof of these accusations! Ever! People just fucking say this shit and it gets spread and becomes fact even when they can't offer even the slightest bit of evidence. I am so goddamn tired of it and honestly? I'm pretty sure that this wave of pretendian accusations against me is because I had the audacity to speak out against antisemitism. Unbelievable. I hate this website.

Also, just for the record, my name is not Hawke anymore. No, I am not sharing the name I am currently using, partially because I'm still trying some out but mostly because I refuse to let internet discourse poison my own name for me again. Shit gets tired.

[tr4umaborn]

listen y'all i'm never here but i've seen two posts on the topic today and i can't just not say anything so:

being zionist does not equal being racist or islamaphobic

as a person who attends a seminary and is training with rabbis-to-be who identify across the spectrum of zionism and anti-zionism and who has been deeply DEEPLY struggling since oct 7 with a lot of learning and unlearning it makes me sad and angry to see posts from people who "don't want to interact with people who identify as zionist".

every zionist I know does not condone the actions of the government of israel. at the same time -- millenials and gen z with a relationship to israel palestine have ONLY know netenyahu as a leader except for like...a year. before oct 7, almost all of my friends in israel were constantly attending anti-government rallies. and after? even though they'd all finished their service months or years before, many of them got sent right back in. they didn't have a choice.

many zionists I know have attended ceasefire rallys and care deeply for the humans who are affected by this war on all sides. you can be anti-occupation and still be zionist. none of these things exist separately from each other.

i'm not out here to try to change your mind, but i will ask you to consider the implications when using a term that has long LONG been associated with judaism (many israelis still today use zionism to describe their relationship to either their home or to judaism in general) as a term you're calling racist. it's antisemitic.

my school friends hear me say a lot that i wish we focused on "ahavat amo yisrael" or "love of the people of israel palestine". my heart broke october 7 for a lot of reasons, and all of them have to do with the people who's lives have been lost of who have lost friends and family on both sides.

this war didn't start in 2023, and it certainly isn't ending in 2024. this is a decades long struggle that started when the allied forces decided to give the land that was palestine to the jewish people as a state. it isn't ok that a group of people was given land that belonged to another group of people. but that fact has nothing to do with the actual people involved.

i am more than happy to have a conversation where we listen to each other about our views. i will not engage in a conversation where the purpose is to try to convince me to change my mind. it's really ok if you see this and you need to hardblock or softblock me. this is all coming from a place of love for me because i know so many people who are in pain when people reblog things or say things that equate zionism to being a bad or evil person. we're all tired.

#current events cw #your jewish friends are tired lol #i have hemmed and hawed over a post like this for a WHILE #its time #feel free to reblog #unless you want to reblog with hateful things #i truly have so much love in my heart for anyone in pain rn

[tiredandsleepyaf]

I don’t think I’m going to continue adding people to the block list because I think it left jumblr, and let’s just say I’m really tired of goyim lying about what it’s supposed to be about/lying about my intentions, trying to argue with me over what antisemitism is, labeling me as an untrustworthy Zionist, and just finding other ways to justify harassing me. I thought it'd be something I could handle, but I don’t think I can. I’m just really tired of being treated like my life and well-being don’t matter because of who I am. I wanted to protect other Jews from the antisemitism I was seeing, and I think I overestimated my ability to be able to stomach all the hate. If there’s someone out there who’s more resilient than me and wants to continue the list, you are welcome to copy and paste my work, my links, and any of my posts you need to continue it. I plan to keep the list up, at least for now. I will probably continue to reblog other people’s block suggestions too. I might even come up with a specific tag for them; I’ll keep you updated on that. I’m sorry; I really wanted to do something to help, but there’s so much hate on here, and it’s more than I think I can handle.

#I don’t have the best mental health #and tbh it’s starting to give s*cidal thoughts #and I haven’t had those in a while and I don’t want to backslide #or give them another dead Jew #am I right? lol #tw sucide mention #tw sucidal ideation #tw antisemitism #antisemitism #update #jumblr

[smores100]

hey.

so. haven't been around for quite some time, mostly due to my health issues (the usual + muscle aches and joint pains, i'm having a great time), but also in part due to The Situation. it's hard to care about anything with everything that's been going on, it all seems so pointless and meaningless, i'm living in a completely different universe from everyone else here. wish i could be that privileged, but alas. it's also hard being around here, and on other social media platforms for that matter, and seeing the raging antisemitism and sheer hate everywhere. i haven't checked my dash in almost 2 months, haven't checked specific blogs like i used to either, and have no plans on doing so anytime soon. i know what i'll find, i don't want it.

i was gonna stay quiet like i ususally do, especially since i genuinely don't have energy for anything rn, but it's been 2 months and i've been biting my tongue and screaming and crying into my pillow daily and i just need to get some of it out before i implode. there's only so much ignorance and hate that one person can take before snapping, so. here i am.

i have so much i want to say, i've written a million posts in my mind in the past 2 months, but i'm too Tired to actually write them down, and it'll just be one big messy ramble anyway, so i'm just gonna reblog a couple of other people's posts and make do with that. just a couple, don't worry, i know these are issues most either want to avoid dealing with or the opinions shared in those posts are a complete 180 degrees from what's trendy to believe in today. but i have to share it anyway. for 2 months i've been terrified, frustrated, bitter, angry and absolutely heartbroken, but there's one thing i haven't been, and that is ashamed. i'm proud of who i am. i'm proud of my people and their spirit. you will never understand what it's been like for us, what it still is like for us, but let me just say this: they wanted to break us, they wanted to break our spirit. they failed. we've never been more united. they just made us stronger.

so i'm gonna reblog some stuff so i can get it out of my system and move on. at worst i hope you just ignore and scroll past it; at best i hope you keep an open mind and maybe for the first time read things from a different pov instead of just the one sided propaganda everyone is continuously exposed to. maybe you'll see it isn't all black and white, maybe you'll see there are nuances you're not even aware of, maybe you'll realize you've been fed a lot of misinformation, half truths and even lies over the years. maybe. if you have questions or want to have a mature and civil conversation about it, feel free to msg me and i'll try and reply when my health allows me to, i'm open to discussion. if you want to unfollow me after this, feel free to do so. i'm not gonna force my truth on anyone, but i'm also not gonna change who i am for anyone either.

and on a more personal note, i wanna say thank you again for the msgs i've received last time and haven't replied to (due to health, Situation etc), and for the ones i've gotten since (will get to those soon i hope). i do feel the need to say this tho - i did have a peek or two at my dash and on twitter earlier on and saw some things. i was in a super sensitive state at the time and it was pretty disheartening ngl. it's hard nowadays, with all the hate going on and public opinion being what it is, to know whether or not you're still welcome in these spaces, whether or not people still like you and care about you, or if you've officially become persona non grata. most days it feels like the latter tbh. i just don't know where i stand. i said i'm not gonna force myself on anyone and i'm not, so if you're still ok with me…i guess the ball's in your court? 🌻

thanks for reading. thanks for sticking around, to those who decide to do so. take care y'all. never again is now. am yisrael chai. 💙

#y'all are lucky i wrote this post and the tags on the following posts yesterday morning #bc after what was revealed yesterday and what happened this morning i'm a million times angrier and more bitter #i have never felt this magnitude of heartbreak and rage before #it was never like this before october 7 but with every day that passes i get angrier and angrier and cry more and more #every now and then i just want to set the world on fire #i cannot believe what has become of humanity. we don't deserve nice things. #and this is the mindset i have to live with in my condition??? i need positivity and light but there are barely any to be found anymore #fuck everything #anyway #it ended up being a bit more than a couple of posts bc i have a whole lot of feelings i had to get out #so if you don't wanna see anything about this you can blacklist the tag 'jumblr' #tbh i'll be lucky if i have any followers left after this lol but oh well it is what it is a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do etc etc #at least i will always have the pornbots to keep me company....<3 #jumblr #personal

[jellybeanium124]

it's not anti semitic to be against zionism. Regardless of how zionism intended to start out (whether it had good intentions or not) its clear that today its movement is equivalent to extremism and white supremacy in other parts of the world. Its anti colonial to be against zionism.

I did not bring up israel or zionism or palestine in my post. you decided my post about how a lot of people on this website are being openly antisemitic is me calling out """antizionists""" (whatever you mean by that, because zionism and its converse have completely lost any meaning to me online because everyone means something different when they say those words). people are being antisemitic. I have seen so many posts that are like "when someone tells me they're jewish I just can't trust them anymore idk, what if they're a bad jew??" PEOPLE ARE BEING ANTISEMITIC. LISTEN TO JEWS. PLEASE, PLEASE LISTEN TO US. no one is listening. no one hears us when we cry out. no one cares. you all think we are lining up to suck netanyahu's dick and praise him for his political decisions. we're not. netanyahu is a fascist and the sooner he's removed from power (or dies, hopefully) the better for israelis and palestinians and just everyone.

why did you feel the need to immediately send me an ask like this? is it to defend yourself? is it to quell the idea that maybe you need to look inside yourself and check yourself for antisemitism? because if a goy these days ain't checking themselves, they will say or reblog or agree with something antisemitic. THE WORLD IS ANTISEMITIC. society is racist. society is sexist. society is homophobic. society hates jews. you grew up in society. you need to unlearn the jew hatred you were fed.

the free palestine movement and """antizionist""" movement have a nazi problem. not everyone in it is a nazi. I am for a free palestine. I've been a proponent of the two state solution before most people my age could locate palestine and israel on a map, because when you're jewish you have to know about these issues, and you have to know about them young. I've said this over and over. I keep telling you people I think palestinians should have their own free, peaceful, and democratic state, and you never fucking hear me. you disregard me saying that because it isn't enough. it won't be enough for you until I think israel should be destroyed too. but I will never believe that. israel gets to keep existing too, because otherwise half of my people will die. israel gets to exist despite it's horrible, terrible wrongs, same as america or britain or china. you don't get to call for the destruction of a country that contains half the world's jews. I will never be on the side of history that is calling for the murder of half of my people. we have to stick together. there's so few of us already. we haven't recovered from our most recent genocide.

I've probably been a bit rude and angry in this post. The past several months have been tiring, hard, and terrifying, that's my excuse. I know you, though, you're not some anon. I like your art. we were mutuals for a short stint, until you unfollowed me, probably because you don't like any of my opinions on i/p, which is your right. it's also your right to block me after reading this. I'll miss seeing your art. it's nice. I like the animatics you made, particularly the "I won't say I'm in love" one. it's a classic. it's sad, really, losing friends. not that I would call us friends, exactly. I don't think we ever spoke until literally right now. still, we run in the same group. I recognize you and you recognize me. so I will say one last thing as kindly as I can, because I don't actually like being mad. I don't like arguing. I don't like being blocked. None of this is fun.

Here it is: when a Jew talks about antisemitism, it is a gentile's job to listen.

Same principle as everything else. When Black people talk about racism, it is white people's job to shut up and listen. When queer people talk about homophobia, it is cishet people's job to shut up and listen. When disabled people talk about ableism, it's abled people's job to shut up and listen. No matter how much you want to speak up, no matter how much you want to counter what they're saying, no matter how much you want to argue with them, it is your job as someone not in that group to close your mouth and listen and think.

This can be difficult and uncomfortable. I say this from experience as I am not in every minority group ever. I've felt uncomfortable before listening to people in minority groups I'm not a part of talk about the bigotry they face. this doesn't make me evil, and it doesn't make you evil either. I'm not perfect. You're not perfect. Even the best allies fuck up sometimes.

Thank you for reading all of this. Genuinely, seriously, and from the bottom of my heart: thank you. This goes for any gentile reading this, not just Wen. Thank you, all of you.

[bitter-syscourse]

syscourse hot take from yours truly, me. also just a generalized hot take in general.

i do not think minors should be running/owning blogs that cover heavy topics. lets talk about why i think this, and why it directly affects syscourse.

DISCLAIMER // THIS POST IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE OR ANY BLOG IN PARTICULAR. THIS IS SPECIFICALLY MY OPINION, AS AN ADULT, ON WHY I DO NOT THINK MINORS SHOULD BE HANDLING AND/OR COVERING HEAVY TOPICS.

minors can be influenced pretty easily, right? look at what tiktok has done with this disorder. minors are influenced into thinking that this absolutely awful and terrifying disorder is fun and dandy.

now think; minors running these big blogs, specifically syscourse related blogs, might feed into that “influencing minors” by mistake. am i saying all of them do this? no, but ive already noticed a small pattern with this type of stuff. hence the post.

blogs regarding syscourse and why endos/etc are bad are wonderful! yes, i love those, but i do not think that a minor, or anyone with a still developing brain, should be handling these heavy topics. this reaches towards literally everything. between talking of trauma, of C/SA, of S/RA, racism, antisemitism, literally anything and everything that can (and more than likely will) be a heavy topic.

am i saying that no one should be talking about these things? fuck no, if you think thats where im coming from, your back must be aching from reaching that hard. im simply saying that i think only (at least 25y+) adults should be handling these types of situations, and these blogs, to ensure that no one is being influenced to believe either blatant misinformation, blatant lies, or attempts to fear monger.

THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE. I AM WRITING AN EXAMPLE RIGHT NOW THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, I CANNOT EXPRESS THIS ENOUGH. anyone at the age of 15 could easily say something regarding racism, “this and that is racist”, and there is the chance that other 15 y/o’s will say “youre right!” and blindly follow that when, and theres a slim chance, that the OP was wrong about what they said. congrats, now you have multiple people who believed something was right, when it was not! replace “racism” with any of the other topics i mentioned, or really any heavy topic. it works every single way.

this is something i have noticed 100% within the system community on tumblr. i am seeing people under the age of 18 running these syscourse blogs with heavy topics, consistently engaging in syscourse to the point that it doesnt even seem healthy for neither party, and outright spilling their own stories to the public. this is not safe. none of the above is safe. none of the above should ever be happening, and yet, its happening on a daily, because it has been something that i have been witnessing for the past few months.

minors should not be running these blogs. following, sure. reblogging, sure. liking, sure. giving their opinions, sure. running them? actively engaging in this 24/7? spreading their opinions as if theyre pure facts and truth? hell no.

this is just some shit that i am, genuinely, so exhausted of seeing. i am so incredibly tired of seeing minors preaching about these incredibly heavy topics, and chanting that their opinion is the correct one, that theyre right, etc etc.

#-🐝 #syscourse

[manianlittlecutie]

Getting sick of seeing it so wanna say something real quick.

It's okay to dislike shows/comics/books and also the creators of said media. I dislike JKR because of her conduct and reading into the hidden antisemitism and mysoginy that's present in her books has ruined my reading experience of them.

BUT

No matter how much you dislike something you cannot start spreading lies about it.

I've seen this happen with Steven Universe and Rebecca Sugar, to a point this woman was called a NAZI by people! SHE'S EFFIN JEWISH! (or at least she was raised that way) I have seen this with Villainous and KO Lets be Heros and a bunch of more shows. Lately it's been a lot of Vivziepop drama and honestly it is exhausting!

See, I am someone who looks into every allegation because I don't want to just believe everything I come across (A friend was lied about once and it ruined him for a few years so I know how shitty it can be)

But the amount of LIES I have seen lately and not just small lies or stuff that was personal and dragged up for no good goddamn reason, no, big lies, is staggering!

Sometimes it is something like; bad rumors about a show not treating their workers right, I look into it and find out there was personal beef between two of the staff members that had NOTHING to do with the show and is therefore just petty drama that should not have been mentioned but it was shown as a big thing over wich the show should be canceled. Or it's about someone making a mean comment about (insert group of people here)and therefore they are a horrible, terrible, no good person that should not be endorced and I look into it to see that the comment was made in a private chat as a JOKE with the one making it being PART OF THAT GROUP!

These two situations ACTUALLY happened. I will not mention the fandoms because I am not about to get into it with anyone. I am TIRED!

So just to be clear on what I am saying here;

If you dislike stuff, great, do that and then move on with your life. You wanna tell us why you dislike this stuff? Sure, go ahead, make yourself be heard. BUT If you make a callout post/thread/what-have-you and you say shit about people/shows it is on YOU to make DAMN SURE that what you are saying is FACTUAL! NOT FAKE!

It takes research and effort to make call-outs and warn others about someone/something dangerous. You have to look into EVERYTHING you heard because people, especially people who already dislike someone/something, will lie to you about that person/show, either because they themselves don't know any better or out of malice!

It is on YOU not to spread lies and give into subjective feelings when you are trying to give the FACTS on something/someone.

If you cannot do the research YOU SHOULDN'T MAKE THAT KINDA STUFF!

Also, if you reblog/retweet/ share anything that is handled as a call-out you also have to make sure that what is being said is factual and not just personal opinion or lies, otherwise you are being an idiotic, fearmongering ASSHOLE!

TLDR Stop just believing shit, look into allegations, especially if they are bad and use your brain before simply sharing things, otherwise you are taking part in spreading lies in an uncontrolled and unfair manner.

I am so so tired now but thank you for reading CU

#rant #lies #so effin pissed #it happens too much #please think before spreading shit

[ominaterthegreat]

I'm not the best in the world with words and this is obviously a really emotional topic, and with good reason, so I'm going to apologize in advance if this comes off the wrong way.

I just wanna be upfront that I'm not concern trolling or trying to pull any bothsides-isms or trying to dimish any tragedies and I'm coming from a place of genuine sincerity and concern.

But some of the pro-Palestine posts you've been sharing worry me. A fair number of them contain false or debunked information.

It's important to double check claims and to have a healthy amount of skepticism regarding reports from any party involved.

Israel is carrying out a genocide, absolutely.

But it's worth remembering Hamas is an overtly antisemitic organization who would do the same if given the opportunity. Their leadership isn't even based in Palestine snd they have every reason to lie or inflate claims about Israeli activity and have put significant effort into attempting to convert anti-zionism with antisemitism and create dog whistles.

That's ultimately what adds another layer of tragedy to the entire event. Israel is even significantly responsible for Hamas' rise to power but that's a history topic unfit for a small ask like this.

Just be careful and keep a cool head and scrutinize everything you read.

I've been following you for a long time and I'd hate to see you accidentally fall into a propaganda pit.

Hey (sorry idk how old this is cause I never look in here) thanks for the concern! If I'm being real I have 2 responses to this:

You're absolutely correct. Hamas as an org is awful as we all know. I definitely fall trap to the uh, issue where we're so inundated with info and opinions and through being on sites like this and pinterest through the years I got kinda conditioned to just reblogging. Typically if I reblog something it's cause there's some grain of truth strain that I see worth sharing at least - I don't agree with every word in every post and I'm too tired to take the time to specify in the tags of every post which parts are worth sharing. That's probably a character flaw on my part.

In the other hand, I do think it's important to understand that to many Palestinian people, they could see Hamas as the only group bothering to do literally any fighting for them. This comes with two points: A - how do we expect Palestinians to reject the only people they see actively fighting for them? and B - Hamas almost certainly counts on this. I think they saw an opportunity to get power in a nation where people don't have any and propped themselves up as the hero - and to many, they now might very well be. That keeps people from looking too hard at the ugly side. I am aware of this. (note because people on this site do not know how to read in good faith: I am not saying all Palestinians like Hamas or view them as heroes, I do not view a nation of people as unilaterally the same as their government. Common sense disclaimer) While I want to support the only group bothering to physically "defend" Palestinians, I also know that they are vile at the core of their ideology. So please rest assured I am not trying to just blindly support a hate group with no understanding and no limitations of support. I don't support Hamas - I support the Palestinian resistance.

Thank you again legitimately for the reach out. It's good to talk to other people instead of just posts on here.

#anyways #yeah i like never get asks lol #thanks for reaching out anon i forgot i have followers at all #anyways if you spot something that bothers you you can dm me

[ink-man-sam]

I'm so fucking tired

I'm so fucking tired of everything. So fucking tired of all the shit going on in the world, so fucking tired of nothing getting better, and so fucking tired of getting blamed for it.

"Share this post, otherwise you're supporting genocide!" "Reblog this, otherwise you want innocent civilian to get bombed!" "Donate your entire life saving to this cause because other people need it more than you. Because they suffer more than you. Because nobody gives a shit about what you're going through. Because only people who are dead matter. Because it it your job to save the world."

I'm 18 years old. I'm an apprentice training to become a kindergarten teacher. Every day, I tear into my thighs with box cutters. Every day, I fantasize about finally hitting the arterie. I'm behind on assignments, my grades are getting worse, my teachers don't like me, I struggle to complete the tasks given to me because I don't see a point in it.

It is my job to do my work. It is my job to do my assignments on time. It is my job to get my grades up. It is my job to pass the exams. It is my job to become a kindergarten teacher worth hiring. It will be my job to care for children. It will be my job to protect them, to raise them, to teach them, to help them avoid the suffering I went through.

It is not my job to safe the world. It is not my job to stop genocides. It is not my job to stop global warming. It is not my job to stop wars. It is not my job to stop racism, antisemitism, queerphobia, or abelism, it is not my job to fix everything wrong with this planet and I am sick of social media telling me that it is.

I'm barely an adult. I still live with my parents. I've never had a real job. I can't even drive a car.

Politicians are supposed to avoid war and suffering amongst people. Not me. I can't do that. We can't do that. It's not my fault other people can't do their jobs.

I have to get up every morning. I have to eat. I have to shower. I have to do my work. I have to get home. I have to go to bed. I have to survive. I have to go on every day, and it doesn't leave room for me to help anyone else. I cannot save anyone, and I shouldn't have to. That's not my job.

I'm not an activist, I'm not a politician, I am a suicidal teen. I'm not a hero. I won't save the world and I will not kill myself trying.

#inkmansamoriginal #vent #tw sh #tw sui talk #tw suicide #i'm sick and tired #ocd #kinda #I think my ocd caused this vent to happen

[boogerf4ce]

I’m sorry. I can’t stand posting anymore. Reblogging mindlessly even as I try to stay active doing so. I can’t keep sitting here and flipping between a script that’s constantly aware of radical change and achievement of said change then jumping back to fads and memes and fashion and fandom bullshit.

I have loved everything less because of the conflict. I have feared and worried more because of the genocide. I cannot pass on Palestinian culture because I am removed from it. I cannot do it like they do. But they can’t do it either because they’re all dead. And I’m trying so hard to see both sides of the conversation— Jewish people who worry about their own targeting, raised percentages of antisemitism in certain areas, bomb threats and hate crimes. They are scared.

This doesn’t excuse genocide. I can’t believe the amount of people online who don’t even acknowledge the bodies, the voyeurism of having to record these videos of child survivors and razed districts just so people can believe it happened. I’m tired of trying to thin out my sympathy so it can go in every which way. Right now some people need it more than others. The rest I will address when I’ve given what I can to those in dire need now.

So many people just don’t get it. We are reblogging from empires, places so far removed from the violence we can’t even perceive the painfulness. In an awful way I’m lucky to have been in proximity of it. Idk. I guess it makes it easier to understand

#dans hole #palestine #feelings

[theelf-online]

I posted 8,105 times in 2022

That's 5,307 more posts than 2021!

13 posts created (0%)

8,092 posts reblogged (100%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@the-not-witch-time-forgot

@catgirldick

@malewifeandgirlboss

@ranboocore

@myaphelion

I tagged 882 of my posts in 2022

#blockmen - 462 posts

#osha violation - 93 posts

#homestuck (/neg) - 11 posts

#actually blockwomen - 10 posts

#me - 8 posts

#original post - 7 posts

#ok to reblog - 5 posts

#minecraft - 5 posts

#minecraft texture pack - 4 posts

#for -c - 4 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#also its proven sex education helps prevent csa because it gives people the knowledge to recognize it and i think thats extremely important

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

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#4

Hi! I’m @cosmic0artist and you wrote sweet tags on my miraculous ladybug redesign of Adrien that made me very happy so thank you haha! I never post here anymore but your lil comment means a lot :3

Aww this is so sweet! Absolutely made my day, thank you.

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#3

Shitty Rice Pudding

I want to have a place to send people when they ask about how I make the shitty rice pudding. Literally the only reason, I am not a chef clearly. It tastes like horchata so that's a bonus too. If you leave out the cornstarch it's still very good but it's basically rice in hot milk so... cereal?

Old Rice from the fridge (a bowlful, the measurements are very unspecific), Milk, usually enough to cover most of the rice but not completely, if you have it Heavy Whipping Cream, some Honey depending on how sweet you want it, Vanilla Extract, a bit of Cinnamon, and a very small spoonful of Cornstarch.

Add the rice and honey and if there's cream the cream to it, if not, just a bit of the milk and put it in the microwave for 30 seconds to melt the honey if it's solid and also warm the rice up to de-clump it.

After that just declump, the back of a spoon works great. Mix it together, add cinnamon, vanilla extract, and the rest of the milk, toss it back in the microwave for like a minute (both the times might depend on your microwave, make sure you watch it so the milk doesn't like, bubble over and make a mess)

Add cornstarch, mix very well, you don't want clumps lol, then put it back in for 30 seconds (again, watch to make sure it doesn't bubble over)

After you take it out mix again and let it cool to an edible temperature, it'll probably be too hot when it first comes out, it'll solidify a bit as it cools.

Enjoy.

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#2

Ya boi finally got a cane! Finally got around to going to the medical supply store and it was way easier than I was expecting. My anxiety was definitely making it seem worse than it was, it was literally just in and out. Other than being new to using it and uncoordinated, it made a huge difference on the way back home.

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My #1 post of 2022

Tired of the antisemitic caricatures in Minecraft?

It's well known the villagers, illagers, and witches in Minecraft are stuck with an incredibly antisemitic design that despite hope, will probably never be changed. I've looked for a resource pack that only changed those elements (keeping the base game look), and was non-optifine friendly, but found none, so I made my own.

So I introduce Antisemitism Begone!

(Version 1.19 but should work for all versions that include the redesigned villagers) It's far from a perfect solution, but it satisfies my main personal annoyances (I am Jewish myself), and I'm certainly open to any improvements that can be made.

Unfortunately, there's many things I wish I could change but am unsure how (such as re-naming the golems to constructs, or changing how the Ominous Banner looks), but my knowledge only goes so far, and I'm pretty clueless when it comes to these things. So for now it's only visual elements that are changed. If I figure out how to do these things in the future I will certainly update it.

(Edit as of 10/9/22) I have figured out how to change the name from Golems to Constructs. Currently supported languages are English (US/UK), Spanish (Spain/Mexico) and German.

Below the Read More are Images of changes (ID in alt text) and a list of changes made.

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[matan4il]

Holocaust Memorial Day ‘22

Today is International Holocaust Remembrance Day, commemorating the liberation of Auschwitz and the attempt to exterminate every single Jew in the world, which resulted in the murder of millions. It was established at the United Nations in 2006, a resolution initiated and led by Israeli diplomats, who fashioned this day after the Israeli national Holocaust Remembrance Day, established back in 1951.

When I was a kid, the Holocaust was this horrific thing that happened to my grandparents, their families, their friends, their generation, but... it was the horror of the past. The Holocaust was the shadows underneath my bed, and the shadows were real, but they were shadows. They were a part of the real darkness that exists in the world, but they couldn’t harm us, not in the here and now. I believed the world had learned from its past, I honestly thought the Holocaust couldn’t happen again. The Holocaust was sad, it was the profoundest of sadness, but it wasn’t scary.

Today, the Holocaust scares me.

Because I do believe it can happen again.

I think the world has learned to say the Holocaust was bad, but it hasn’t learned how to look its cause, antisemitism, in the eye and deal with that.

I hate going on Facebook, Twitter, Quora... I am almost never there for long before I see antisemitic content.

Tumblr is better, relatively speaking. It is selective enough in the viewing experience it provides that a big chunk of the time, antisemitism doesn’t burst my bubble here.

But it is a bubble. As I feel less free to use the internet, I know that’s a kind of win for antisemitism. And I know antisemitism is present on Tumblr too, even when I don’t see it. And every so often, it penetrates my bubble, too.

I have stumbled here across the white supremacy, neo-nazi content that I used to think of as banished to the darkest corners of the internet.

I have seen blogs with urls that use the name of a popular Jewish character (for example, Jake Peralta), and post content that includes death wishes upon the majority of Jews.

There have been times when I have posted Jewish content and subsequently lost followers. Not a lot, but enough that it’s noticeable.

Back in May, almost every Jewish blog I know, myself included, got harassed.

Three days ago, I heard the news about a Jewish activist against antisemitism who ended up dead due to antisemites piling on him relentlessly.

Two days ago, I had to explain to a Holocaust denier than no, there aren’t more Jews today in the world (about 14.5 million) than there were before the Holocaust (at least 18 million).

Yesterday, I got to hear that propaganda is being distributed claiming Jews are responsible for every aspect of the “covid agenda”.

Today I heard there’s never been Jewish self-rule that lasted for more than 100 years, another case of Jewish history erasure, since there have actually been three separate Jewish kingdoms that did.

Being Jewish and experiencing something related to antisemitism daily is hard to convey.

And quite recently, four Jews in a Texas synagogue were held hostage for 11 hours. Eleven hours of something that could have ended horrifically, unfolding live. CNN cut away at a certain point to talk about movie reviews. Tumblr was mostly silent, with a small number of posts being made in comparison with the numbers I’ve seen for other social justice issues/events, and those that were made were hardly being reblogged.

So today I don’t want to talk about the past or dead Jews.

I want to talk about the present and living, scared, worried, tired Jews. I want to talk about preventing a future repetition of the past. I want to say it is VITAL for people to speak up. There’s a lot less Jews left in the world than most people realize. Almost every time I've asked visitors to our museum how many Jews there are, almost every time they overestimate the number. 14.5 million people is just 0.2% of the global population. There are more antisemites out there than there are Jews in the entire world. Without non-Jewish allies amplifying Jewish voices, Jews will not be heard. Jews will continue to be targeted and left to fend for themselves.

Please.

PLEASE.

Look for sources combating antisemitism online, listen to them, learn from them and amplify their voices!

And to those of you that I did see reblogging posts about the recent hostage taking in Colleyville or about the fight against antisemitism:

Thank you. What you did matters more than you realize.

#international holocaust remembrance day #holocaust #antisemitism #antisemitic #shoa #shoah #never again #jewish

[ieatmorecrispsthanyou]

I've yet to see people really apologise for the 'Havers is a German spy' theory, it just seems to have disappeared roughly around October (when I made 2 posts about how it is not a valid or respectful headcanon as German spy means Nazi Spy)

The first one is pinned on my page. Immediately afterwards, two of the worst offenders reblogged mine with 'yes!! absolutely!! BUT it's ok for me to keep headcanoning this as havers was the 0.00001% who weren't Nazi uwu' and here's the post I made detailing why that doesn't excuse you from this mess.

I might get hate for this but I'm so fucking tired of people treating WW2 history and Nazism as if they're fun concepts to add spice to a theory, and didn't actually cause the worst loss of civilian life ever known to human conflict. If we were had a minute's silence for every Jewish victim alone killed by the Holocaust, we would be silent for 11 years - and that's not counting disabled people murdered in the T4 programme, or gay men and political prisoners.

I'm affected by this and so are lots of Ghosts fans, if you really don't see the problem that's because you don't recognise your privilige as someone who isn't a member of a minority group targeted by the Nazis or with generational trauma. I'm so glad people broadly seem to have got the message but I'm tired of the emotional labour used because antisemitism in particular is on the rise and by being so flippant about this issue and not actively apologising/correcting/deleting your previous fics or posts with Havers German spy theories, you're dangerously close to invalidating Jewish trauma in particular and contributing to antisemitism.

Yes, I am allowed to be angry. Yes, you are allowed to not see why I am angry and not care enough to correct your mistakes. But should you, though? That's the question. I'm done with being nice.

@lerry-hazel this is directed at you.

#bbc ghosts #cap bbc ghosts #havers bbc ghosts #cap havers #lieutenant havers #ghosts BBC #the captain bbc ghosts #eli rants #horrible histories #thomas bbc ghosts #fanny bbc ghosts #julian fawcett mp #havers german spy

[pumpkinpaix]

** the disclaimer still applies: don’t fucking dogpile, don’t harass using this as a springboard. furthermore, do NOT @ robin about this for fuck’s sake she’s already taken far more than what was warranted and this is not about her **

@daciafelix, out of respect for robin’s request to lay things to rest, I will be speaking to you on a separate post here.

however, I will not be letting your replies on the post in question slide. I’m very angry with you, and I want you to fucking know it. I’ll paste the three replies here.

1:

mirrorofprinces go back under the bridge please. Robin, you should ignore the trolls, they aren’t solitary creature it seems. You apologized and you should move on. I am tired of seeing a good author beaten down by people who don’t seem to understand how nonprofit fictional worlds work, not to mention reality. Dear “Chinese diaspora” , your trauma is real, attacking people is not the way to solve it. This type of attitude is what got Archiveofourown banned in China.

what the actual fuck was this? “Dear ‘Chinese diaspora’“? you have the audacity to tell us not to attack people while mocking us in the same goddamn breath? the lack of self-awareness that takes is stunning. congratulations for lowering the fucking bar once again!

perfunctorily saying that our “trauma is real” means nothing when the rest of your response dismisses us wholesale as “trolls”, insults our cultural identity -- one that we have repeatedly explained is a complex, difficult topic -- asserts that we have no grasp on the politics of fandom, that we’re delusional, and then!! has the fucking sanctimonious presumption to blame us for CCP censorship of AO3 in china. whether or not you intended any of that is irrelevant, because you still fucking said all of it and we still fucking heard it.

you don’t know jack fucking shit about the 227 event and it shows. the lack of respect that you exhibited in this reply is unbelievable. I was fucking there when this went down, I cried for days. I watched my chinese friends having mental breakdowns in private forums, a chinese friend i had met literally two weeks prior on AO3 emailed me in dismay for what had happened -- this is someone who had been working up the courage to send me a message for literal months and we managed to exchange emails just before the firewall went up -- you don’t understand, you can’t understand the sort of devastation that was felt. if you did, you wouldn’t have brought it up like this as a cudgel for sweeping our legitimate pain aside. blaming the victims for the acts of a violent and oppressive government is a fucking shitty look.

2:

Cloudyfromoobsession I have read it [*the chinese diaspora statement], it makes me really disappointed. They treat fan fiction as some deep existential writing, which is not necessarily wrong but they have to acknowledge that not everyone is divining the meaning of life in a mdzs fic or any other fandom. Transformative work as a principle is based in the exploration of alternative visions starting from a canonical point, there is no rule that fan fic needs to appease a certain portion of the fandom or even stay true to canon.

I see that you have shit reading comprehension as well! not to mention a seriously questionable philosophy on the responsibility of transformative work as a whole. once again, you mock our genuine efforts to express something very important to us by saying that not everyone is trying to “divine the meaning of life” from a fic -- we never once said that fandom wasn’t supposed to be lighthearted and fun -- I’m pretty sure we said the opposite in fact! I love that you think that our concerns are a matter of taking things too seriously! you’re basically just telling us hey, it’s not that deep! let it go!

why should i fucking have to let this go when so many people act like you and have in every sphere of my life from the time I was born? why should I continue to bite my tongue, smile and play nice? because it’s not convenient when the model minority kicks up a fuss?

“there is no rule that fan fic needs to appease a certain portion of the fandom or even stay true to canon,” you say, like our race, identity, generational trauma, are just a matter of differing headcanons or taste. this isn’t about fucking appeasement, it’s about human respect and compassion. no, there’s no rule that all fic has to match anyone’s personal taste, but there is a fucking expectation that fic, and any other creative endeavor in this community, has a responsibility to examine its own impact in context. how explicit must the harm be before you put your foot down? if the characters said “ching chong” and chinese diaspora shouted it down, would you still say, “well, it doesn’t have to appease you”? “just look away”? “but I liked it”?

tell me to ignore my own oppression again for your personal comfort, I fucking dare you.

3:

mirror, as the author has asked to put all this to rest I will not engage with you. I’m well aware that Chinese censorship is a more complex issue and larger that a fandom spat, and yes it had nothing to do with chinese diaspora fans, it was the spirit of this type of “poisoning the well” I was invoking.Limited word comments are not good for exhaustive discussion. But being rude and dismissive to someone who apologized(I mean the author) makes you an immature bully. Good day

funny how you think you can act like you’re taking the moral high ground by acting like you’re complying with robin’s wishes to “lay things to rest” when you ignored her requests to stop defending her twice with your asinine bullshit. if you’re going to act like you’ve got the moral high ground, you better make damn fucking sure you actually have it.

I am going to give you. a sliver of the benefit of the doubt and try to believe that you didn’t intentionally try to justify your sinophobia using a turn of phrase with  antisemitic associations (one that was already discussed at length during the previous incident). I know that the history of “poisoning the well” isn’t terribly well-known, so this is just a reminder/to let you know that it’s a loaded phrase and should be used with caution, especially in a discussion that involves antisemitism.

in any case, you’ve already demonstrated an incredible amount of ignorance regarding chinese politics, so I don’t see any reason to believe that you are “well aware” of the complexity that underlies chinese censorship. the fact that you invoked it at all betrays how little sense you have of the history, how close it is, how much very real, terrifying harm has been wrought -- people love to use the CCP as a gotcha! to shut down or derail conversations about sinophobia. it’s an extremely common tactic, whether or not you realized it. do you all not realize that the people who suffer the most from an oppressive government are the people that live under its shadow? why is that so hard to grasp?

i have friends younger than me whose parents were close enough to tiananmen to hear the first shots ring out. the daughter of one of the photographers of tank man that snuck it out of the country is a year older than I am. my mother has been cautioning me for having political views since I was in middle school, citing the red guards of her generation and how they were manipulated and left to die by the CCP. I could tell you about shit that happened in my immediate family that would make your blood curdle. these stories are not unique or rare. keep that in mind the next time you want to whip out the CCP in an argument.

you’ve stated that limited character replies aren’t a good medium for discussion. fine. you’re welcome to pick this up in reblogs if you want. I’ve said my piece. good fucking day.

#daciafelix #asks and replies #mine #cyanide #racism