#i am doing this now bc im avoiding studying

[poetrylesbian]

NEED TO RANT BC I AM HAPPY FOR MY MUM. cant believe my mum (studied ancient history in high school, has a degree in literature and ancient history, has been teaching ancient history for nearly 40 years) finally got to visit greece and italy. with a loving partner, after being divorced twice. after one of those husbands emotionally and financially abused her. and the first one cheated on her. and her loving partner took her to the acropolis in athens. and in front of the caryatids (which she always wanted to see, she has a poster of them above her desk at work) he proposed to her. and the ring he chose wasn't even ugly. and she went to delphi and crete and now she's been in italy for the week. she went to pompeii. she's probably taught HUNDREDS of students about these places. she can recite shit about them off the top of her head. she knows more about ancient history than anybody I have ever met. she made a 200-slide powerpoint and a booklet for her partner so he could be prepared for the trip. and, because he's perfect for her, he fucking read all of it. and now she's gonna get married to this man who I actually love a lot because from the beginning he has treated her family like his family. he's basically already my stepdad. and even though im pissed a little because she always promised me that we'd go to greece and italy together, im happier because nobody deserves this more than her. and i just think its amazing that at 57 these amazing things are finally happening for her. and our relationship hasn't always been perfect but i do think she deserves this happiness. im so emotional about it. and im really excited for her partner to become official family. and im so grateful that he helped make this trip happen for her. her last husband hated that she had kids and avoided her family and fucked with her and me a lot... he lied to her about money... he treated us badly. her more than i will ever know. he destroyed her self esteem. and now she has this man who is so generous with not only the money he has but his time, his love, etc. he cares so much about her family. and he proposed at a place she's been dreaming about visiting her whole life. how great is that! im just so relieved. her trip is almost over but im so happy she went on it. okay rant over.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[beatcroc]

a year!!! as of today i have now been drawing these funny little pizza freaks, to the exclusion of almost everything else, for!!! an entire year!!! i wanted to do a nice group shot/lineup of everybody to compare to when i first started trying to draw them because oh boy were they bad. i never even posted most of them anywhere because they were so bad. but im posting them here, now, to see how everything's changed/evolved.

this is probably the hardest time i've ever had trying to figure out how to work with a style, but we got there eventually; i'm pretty happy with the handle i've got on everybody now...dont let ur memes be dreams. lots of unimportant journaling and idle thoughts abt it below.

older pics

the first one is the VERY first time i drew them, before i thought i was going to actually have any interest in drawing them [lmao]; it was just the one isolated image, for my friendserver, to illustrate the funney message, so there was no attempt to make it Good or actually understand anything going on w/ the designs or style.

second is the original run of practices sketches to start trying to figure them out for real; done after i started having ideas for the comics and such and realized oh god maybe i am actually gonna draw fanart for this. [again, lol, and lmao.]

third one is the first pt art thing i posted on here. there were a couple weeks of sprite studies between this one and the previous image. the one on the top right wasn't part of that post i just threw it on as space filler; i'd intended to shift to doing Sprite Redraws But Stylized to explore tings more, but that was the only one i did. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

individual characters

peppino: by far the hardest dear god. bro what ARE your shapes how DOES your face work. jesus christ. everything i have trouble with this style for, peppino has it in excess. i draw in polygons! i need consistency! and that is the last thing this kind of style is concerned with. they are made of squarshy clay and i do not understand how to mold them. i was really hoping trying to learn this game's style would GIVE me that kind of flexibility for fun exaggerated facial expression but i don't think much came of it in the end 😔. anyway on the bright side all this means once i got peppino figured out a little bit everybody else clicked way easier.

fake peppino: honestly i never did anything with him on purpose except for how his eyes work + the perma-smile thing. i figured ok hes supposed to look weird and off model so whatever happens with him happens. and it did. and it kept happening. it is still, in fact, happening.

noise/ette: somehow, for every bit that peppino was the least natural thing i've ever tried, these two worked pretty much right off the bat. i still don't understand it, seeing as pretty much all the things at play for peppino are also at work for them. i think the new sketches are actually a little worse than older ones but not enough that i care.

gustavo: really funny bc i drew him on model twice and just went 'okay, cool nice, easy, um. he doesn't have any fucking legs?' fortunately he was the only one i had a strong idea for how to stylize him [square] and it worked exactly as i was hoping so wahoo.

brick: is an animal and therefore 5000x easier and more natural for me to draw/stylize than anything else in the cast. that is Just a rat bro. i can draw a rat.

gerome: i think the funniest one here. the most drastic and least necessary change imo. i was gonna have him be really small at first, like smaller than the noises, but then i just... didn't. he's just peppino-sized now. also i gave him like. actual human facial structure, which is funny bc in most cases i'd do anything to avoid, but it works well for his being A Rock to give him some angles and definition like that+ to differentiate his vibe from the rest of the cast who are all very squishy. also since he is essentially Just A Head it's good to emphasize that too ig.

john: i only drew john a couple times but he gets to be here because i like him. and because most of the stuff i applied to gerome was readily applicable to john, though i did try to keep him a little more uncanny because he is a Huge And Lanky Freak. i hate that he is barefoot btw but idk how to make his color balance look right with shoes.

pizzahead: i did not want to put him on here honestly but i Have drawn him a handful of times and more importantly i didn't know what i was gonna do with john's pose if i didn't have him there to be glared at. the only thing that's different with him is giving him wider-bottomed pants, which i got from when i tried to draw these guys in clone high style [i never posted that one either][i will eventually]

snick: he gets to be here because 1. he's like 6 lines 2. i like him and 3. ive scribbled him a few times offhand and it went pretty well

misc

there are some guys missing because those are guys i didn't draw enough [or at all] to have gotten comfortable with them. sorry

i would have Liked to shade these but for the time being i have accepted that my grasp of light/shadow has decayed to the point im not going to be happy with anything i try there, so For Now i am working on my presentation with flats i guess. gerome has a shadow only because he's shaded like that ingame and looks naked without it

anyway if you are still reading [hi?] i get to shamelessly plug now. i'm over the hill of my pizza run now, and while i still have plenty of things i want to make here, most of the bigger more in-depth ones have passed. pizza tower was the first thing in THREE YEARS to get me out of my oc groove to doing fanart, and once i am done with my ideas here i will be going right back to it. if you like my art or how i write characters/interactions you should check out my oc/webcomic blog @jamverse . i can't promise people who like pizza stuff will be terribly into my designs, but i can guarantee i treat my guys with the exact same sort of tone i handle the pt guys with. and hell, i've mentioned it a few times before, but like 70% of my characterization for fake pep is just copied off one of my characters, so if u are going to miss him... he will still be there in spirit >;p

and if you dont care about any of that and are still reading thank you anyway. actually making these comics + seeing how shockingly well-received they've been has done a lot for my confidence, and for seeing that my kind of stuff IS something people enjoy :')

#pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #gustavo and brick #the noise #noisette #pizzahead #arting #pizzaposting

[randomgoosegame]

Freckles

Request - would it be possible to request a one shot for Asahi and a shy female reader that feels self conscious about her freckles? usually she covers them up so he did not even realise she had them until now. I am happy with smut or fluff but really would appreciate if there was a bit of smut

Disclaimers/Warnings - Smut obviously lmao, insecurities, soft Asahi, protected sex (wrap it before you tap it ladies and gents)

This is the start of moving my ao3 one-shot works over to tumbler. If you like this make sure to show me some love on the main page :D

Waking up late for school you quickly grabbed your things and left your house unable to put makeup on to cover up the freckle littering your face. As you got to school and headed to the place you and your boyfriend Asahi meet up totally forgetting about the uncovered freckles.

"Y/N!" Asahi smiled brightly and hugged you close into his chest.   You smile and wrapped your arms around his middle. When you both pull away Asahi narrowed his eyes looking down at you. You would blush and wrap your arms around yourself to seem smaller.

"W-what is it Azurmane?" You look at your feet to try and avoid his stare. Asahi lifted your chin with his thumb and forefinger to peer down at your face once more.

"Have you always had freckles?" He asked, rubbing the freckles on your cheeks and nose softly like they would rub away if he pressed too hard.

"Erm yeah." You pull your head away from his hand and look around the school yard.

"We should go to class before were late." Asahi nodded looking at you with a slight frown. You smile at him and kissed his cheek before going to your classes.

Time skip bc yeah....

The final bell chimed dismissing students from class. You waited on Asahi because you both planed to study at his house for an upcoming test. During the day you had borrowed some powder from a friend and covered up your freckles.

"Hey baby." Asahi hugged you from behind and rested his head on your shoulder. You giggled and patted his hands turning around to hug him properly.

"Hey Azu." You smile up at him but it fell once you seen his frown.

"What's wrong?" You asked frowning your brows. He didn't respond but instead started to wipe at the powder covering your freckles.

"Azumane don't your ruin it!" You try to swat away his hands from your face. Asahi sighed and retracted his hands to hold yours.

"Lets get going before it starts raining." Asahi murmured and started walking, not giving you any time to respond.

By the time you and Asahi got to his house it had started to downpour soaking you both to the bone. Asahi wordlessly led you through the house and to his room. You stood there shivering and pulled your jacket tighter around you.

"Sorry here you can wear this, the bathroom is right there." Asahi handed you his old volleyball jersey from middle school and some drawstring shorts which you graciously accepted.

"Thank you..." You whispered and headed to the door he pointed out. When you left the room Asahi ran his hands through his wet hair wondering what he did wrong.

You both settled on the floor and got your books and things out to study. You could feel Asahi's eyes on your face, distracting you from your work.

"Did I do something wrong?" You look over at Asahi with a frown and shook your head.

"What made you think that?"

"Well, you've been quieter then normal and you keep hiding your face from me ever since we got here." You didn't answer him and tried to go back to studying. Asahi huffed and joined you on your side of the table. He turned your body to face his own and put his hands on your cheeks forcing you to look up at him.

"Asahi we gotta study. Im already about to fail this class i cant fail this test." You whine trying and falling to remove your head from his hands.

"Not untill you tell me what's wrong." He said stubbornly. You huff and play with the ruff carpet under you.

"Y/N." He said sternly making you snap your gaze back up at him. His eyes were narrowed and you knew there was no way getting out of this.

"I don't like my freckles alright!" You huff out and finally pull your head from his hands. Asahi pulled you into his lap and started to pepper kissed all over your face.

"Azumane what are you doing?" You tried to pull away from his assault but his arms caged you in place.

"Showing you how much i love these freckles of yours." He hummed and continued his way down your neck fallowing your freckles. You blush when he sucks and nibbles on your neck causing you to whimper.

Asahi's hands began to trail up your sides and slip under the jersey. You gasp slightly at the temperature difference from your hot skin and his cold hands. 

"A-asahi your hands are cold." You whimper and squirm in his hold.

"Then warm them up for me." He hummed and tugged on your shirt lightly. Getting the hint your pull your shirt over your head but cover your chest and the freckles that reside there. Asahi shook his head and pried you hands away from your chest. You watched his face as his eyes racked over your exposed skin

Asahi meet your eyes and smiled before placing a kiss on your lips. You hummed softly and returned the kiss. Asahi let go of your arms and placed one of his hands on the back of your head and the other on your thigh. You tilted your head deepening the kiss with a soft moan that got swallowed up by him.

Asahi pulled you closed by the hand on your thigh making you humm in approval as you grind against his bulge. Asahi moans and grids you against him harder. You whimper and wrap your arms around his shoulders and pull on Asahi's hair at the base of his neck.

Asahi's palms dragged up your sides and rested on your brest were he squeezed and kneaded the flesh. You moan and held him closer to your chest. Asahi latched onto your nipple and sucked on it while tweaking the other between his fingers.

"Azumane-" You whimper and he lays you on the bed while still between your legs. The new position allowed Asahi to grind deeper and harder into your heat.

"Your so amazing princess, freckles and all." He kissed you passionately, thrusting his tongue in your mouth. You moan into the kiss and buck your hips up into his. Asahi moaned and pulled his shirt off with your assistance.

You blush and shyly touch his chest. Asahi chuckled and kissed your cheek. You blush more and turn your head away from him to hide your blush in his arm. Asahi shook his head lightly with a chuckle.

"C-can i take your pants off?" You ask shyly still hiding your face. Asahi blushed and nodded.

"Y-yeah." He stuttered. You nodded and reached for the button on his pants. You undid it and Asahi helped you shimmy his pants down his legs and he kicked them off.

Asahi brought his lips to yours and moaned when you deepened it. When you parted Asahi brushed his fingers along the waistband of your shorts. He looked up at you with permission and once given he started to pull your shorts and underwear down.

You squeak as cold air blew across your core. Asahi trailed kisses down your body leaving a trail of marks that his hands fallowed untill he was settled between your legs. He paused and looked up at you.

"Please Azu." You whimper. Asahi bit his lip and dove into your folds sparing no time.

Asahi kissed your clit drawing a gasp from you. He licked and sucked at your clit before circling your entrance with a finger. Your hips bucked up into his face as you moaned loudly and tangled your hands in his hair.

Asahi moaned when you tugged on his hair and pushed one of his fingers into your sopping cunt. He slowly thrusted his finger in and out of your womanhood while still sucking and licking your clit. Asahi would add another finger and used his free hand to steady your hips as they rocked against his face.

"M' so close." You moan griping him tighter. Asahi sped up pumping his fingers into you, he curled them making your hips buck and squirm. Your moans pick up in noise and Asahi adds another finger stretching you more. The sting of the stretch is welcomed and sends you over the edge.

You moan Asahi's name loudly and ride out your orgasm on his fingers. Asahi removed his fingers and lapped at your folds cleaning you. You looked between your legs at Asahi as he cleaned you from his fingers.

You grabbed Asahi's shoulder to pulled him up to you and you kissed him. Your hands rested on his cheeks deepening the kiss. You moan softly as you taste yourself on his tongue.

"You taste almost as good as you look." Asahi murmured pulling away, a string of saliva connected you. You pull Asahi close for another kiss but moaned as his cock grinded against you.

You lightly trail your fingers down his chest and stomach. You loop a finger in the waistband of his boxers and bit your lip looking up at Asahi. Asahi watched you with eyes blown in lust and lips kiss swollen.

You pulled down his boxers and your eyes widened and you looked back up at Asahi.

"I don't.. I don't think its gonna fit." Asahi kicked off his boxers and looked between your two bodies.

"It will be ok. Ill go slow." Asahi kissed your temple and fumbled around in his bedside drawer and grabbed a condom. He ripped the packet open and slid it on his length, hissing softly.

Asahi guided his dick to your entrance and pushed in slowly. You wince and tears prick at your eyes which Asahi kisses away as they fell.

"Your doing so well princess." He peppers kisses over your face and you smile, wrapping your arms around his shoulders. Once he bottomed out, Asahi rested his forehead against yours and groaned feeling your walls ripple around him.

You shift your hips once your somewhat used to him and moaned  as he went deeper. Asahi slowly dragged out his hips so just his tip was in then he bottomed out again. You moan holding Asahi to your chest and wrapping your legs around his waist.

Asahi moaned your mame into your neck as he sped up his thrusting. His hands landed on your hips as he started to snap his hips into your own, each snap of his hips going deeper then the last. The sound of your skin slapping together echoed loudly in the room only to be drowned out by the sound of your combined moans and groans.

"Azumane please. Im gonna cum." You whimper feeling your second climax approaching at a fast rate. Your hips buck into Asahi's trying to match the pase he was setting.

"Me too princess, me too." Asahi moans and trails his hand down to circle your clit. Your legs shake and spaz as you cum hard sending Asahi over the edge and he spills into the condom. His thrusts slow as you both ride out your orgasms as long as possible.

Asahi pulls out and pecks you on the lips before tying off the condom and throwing it in the trash. He leaves the room and comes back moments later with a glass of water and a cloth.

You twitch as he cleans you up and he whispers a quiet apology. He makes you take a few sips of water and he helps you get dressed. You hum and pull Asahi back into the bed with you once he put his boxers on.

"You feeling ok?" He asks pulling you to his chest and covering you both up with the blanket. You only humm and nodded before snugging deeper into his chest. Asahi kisses the top of your head before you both eventually doze off.

#hiakyuu #smut #asahi azumane #asahi azumane x reader #requested #ao3 author #fanfic #haikyu #asahi azumane smut #soft asahi #fluff #fluff and smut #trash tags #idk what else to tag #my tags need help

[kittyit]

hi!! wanted an opinion. since about the time i finished puberty and started being perceived as a young woman, i have found it literally impossible to be friends with men without them developing feelings for me (with the exception of homosexual men).

i don't wear makeup, i cut my hair off, i don't shave, im loud and openly feminist. i've done what i can to be unappealing to men because i don't want to date anymore, and i thought it would be easier to just be unattractive because i have a difficult time turning men down or rejecting them. in the past this has led to many first dates, which led to sex which led to relationships because i get stuck in this cycle so easily.

but despite my efforts, guys i think are just friends i can play video games with or guys i think are nice classmates i can study with, every single one of them ends up wanting to date me. it's frustrating bc i do genuinely enjoy hanging out with some of them but i wish i wouldn't have to be so scared they'll try and take things further. any advice that isn't just "never interact with men socially"?

so i think this is a fairly funny question to ask a separatist but i don't mind answering anyway :) when i hear you say that you have difficulty turning men down or rejecting them, that is the crux of the issue. i would say working really hard on socially scripting yourself to be able to turn down guys and/or making sure you have friends who support you in doing so is essential. having things ready to say like "i really am just enjoying being friends right now" or "i'm flattered, but i like just hanging out", or even "let me think about that and get back to you" so you have some time to prepare a response. if this is happening over and over again and you're not finding it easier to deal with, you need to set yourself up for success with practiced responses, a plan to avoid going on dates you don't want to go on and the rest of the cycle.

if a guy is going to be a good and normal friend to you, he will be able to take a no. that is the baseline of what a respectful friendship should be (with anyone - it needs to be okay to say no!)

acknowledging this is an issue that you need support on and that you have trouble getting stuck in a cycle is a great step to figuring out a plan to stop it from happening. you might even try leading with the fact that you don't want to date - saying that you find it really awkward when guys you want to be friends with ask you out on a date and explaining that it ruins friendships and you just want to hang out and chill. yes, that can be a difficult conversation and might be taken poorly, but again, that's a measure of a baseline of respectful friendship. a reasonable guy would be like, yeah, i get it, that's chill, let's be friends

i know many women on the autism spectrum or who have other social difficulties who have trouble navigating saying no to men and it's really important to take that seriously and make a plan for yourself. it's ok to need support in this also - glad you reached out! i hope this helps :)

[icannotballformuchlonger]

i am very confused

hi?!!! that ? was a typo but im keeping it in there. it matches the theme. no idea how to like word anything im saying cause I have no idea who i am right now ayyyyyyyyyyyyyy

TLDR: -> we're in nursing -> hard boundaries: irl politics, Homestuck (sorry), irl religions -> stuff i/we like doing: art, writing, math apparently -> we talk a lot about our skrunklies (ocs) -> we rp/chatter about charas and never actually write

just. really really really lookin to get to know other systems, esp those who write too

im a system!!!! or we!!!!!!!! not sure im/we/uhhhh are not yet used to this. probably OSDD-1b. even our psychiatrist can't figure it out. that's probably a problem right. if the professional doesn't know.

but yeeeeeeee. not sure what my name is. it changes a lot so i'll just say for now im Host. ye. i like that actually lets go with that. (<- was not Host)

i just want some buddies. some pals. some good homies. other systems pref bc it'd be nice to not feel so alone :)

here's some stuff about me/us/ye:

im the host (probably) (<- was not the host)

i write fiction. original fiction and the occasional fic. i dig every genre, but more so fantasy and apocalyptic settings. most of the others in my system are into that as well

i like doing collab writing work stuff things. kinda like rping. except the shit is like. actually gonna be published or whatever.

i draw

i like math

im a nursing student (harass me if ur in healthcare too!!!)

my gender is everything and i go by any pronouns

bodily a young adult

i play sky: children of the light! dm me if u wanna add me there

here's some boundaries:

i'm not interested much in DID-specific discourse. i just wanna hang out n shit with other systems

i really don't like politics. never bring it up with me.

religion is an iffy topic. avoid it whenever possible.

some other stuff:

we don't use tone indicators. if youd like us to use em let us know

at least i in specific don't like the term "alter". i just call em headmates. my homies. "the others" (<- ominous, which is ideal)

we tend to make bonds through discussions of original stories and stuff. our closest friendships began via rping LMFAO

we or at least i in specific don't really like sharing my fandom interests if im not actively doing creative stuff in em. im possessive as shit SEUIGHEUISRG

uh. ye.

i think that's it 👍

i gotta study now lmfao!!!!!!

#actually plural #actually did #actually osdd #actually bpd #actually autistic #osdd system #did #did osdd #did system #can you tell that im lonely #im using every tag rn #i want attention #im desperate #this post got so long so quick #long post

[idealspawn]

ive been away from tumblr for such a long time, afraid it would trigger me. ive been doing so well:) i moved to another city. back to where i lived for a year, a year prior to this one. i was able to join a programme that enables me to study in this university again for a year as like an exchange student(?)-ish thing. it feels amazing. ive reconnected with two(three-ish?) extremely dear people to me and ive found my love for knowledge again. my apartment is so nice too. i live near a train station but i can barely hear anything, and if i do, the sounds are actually comforting. i used to dislike trains, they made me anxious but starting this summer i grew to love them and now i regularly even prefer them. i live on the top floor so my ceiling and walls are slanted but it brings me such comfort, my room in my parents' house also has it like that. i have a second floor, well half of it. there is a built-in ladder staircase. it feels extremely comforting. ive had to fix, and still have to fix, many things here bc its a relatively cheap apartment but im fine with that. it actually makes me feel more at home when i can work on the apartment and make it my own. it feels more like home when everything isnt perfect either. the washing machine was disgustingly dirty and the air ventilation thing above the stove is also so fucking nasty but ill deal w it.. not my first time renting an apartment...... .. .. . the emotional aspects of this place are way more important. ive adopted plants too this time around. and a lot more intentionally, ive made in-depth sheets on how to properly care for them. i speak to them and kiss them every day. i know i will buy at leasr one more plant. so far i have an aloe vera plant, alocasia zebrina(MY DEAREST but also the most needy), a chinese money plant and an ivy. i want another ivy but a diff one. right now i have the one called wonder, it looks very friendly, very round. i didnt intend to get this one but they got my order wrong but i didnt have the heart to exchange it so i will just keep it and buy the other ivy as a friend to it. i am so fond of the one that has, i cant seem to find its proper name, but the one that has extremely slim and elongated and really sharp star-like leaves. i figured maybe the two contrasting ivy plants would even look better together than just one. so maybe the wrong order was a blessing in disguise. im using plants to learn unconditional love and acceptance because my family definitely didnt provide me with that skill.. :d.. did the same with my childhood cat, thats why she was so extremely dear to me. when noone else in my family loved me unconditionally, she did:). ive been really motivated to study and read a lot of my own extracurricular stuff too. ive gone to really interesting tours and public programmes about nature and culture and society. ive actually enjoyed being on my own and had the balls to show up to places alone, i used to never be able to do that. i always had to have someone with me but its really limiting as many people around me right now have colliding interests. im also so insanely proud of myself for speaking up in a seminar!!!!!! u have no idea. NO IDEA how hard that has been for me. to realize my insight has value and should take up time and space in a seminar. ive always come so close to speaking but then my heart has raced out of my chest and then the moment passed. but this time i actually spoke up, i took the initiative and i didnt only speak abt the strict topic that our seminar text provided for that time but i brought up my individual reading!! and a girl in the seminar told me i spoke well!!(i didnt, god i was so nervous i stumbled upon my words so much and avoided all eye contact) AND ALSO the professor leading the seminar told me my answer was good too :) im so happy. im growing so much.

[creature-featurez]

omg can i know ab betty and simon bc i also have one with like multiple parties at once im curious...

hello!!! sorry this took forever to answer (and for the... absolute novel that is the answer) this is surprisingly a very loaded question LMAOOO also sorry if i misinterpreted the question... i realized halfway through that you may have been asking something completely different...

putting under a [read more] to avoid being a terribly long post on the dash

First, I know you don't have a lot of knowledge on Adventure Time lore (at least I think..) so I'll probably be going on several smaller tangents and explanations of things so that the rest of what I explain makes sense. :3 If I get off topic, that's proooobably why. Second, the first "arc" of Reader's (my oc for anyone new here) story is heavily inspired by this fic, though I am currently rewriting it to be a bit more separate, and all of the later arcs are completely original. I like giving credit where credit is due, however.

OKAY! So now back to the actual question LMAO

In Adventure Time, there is a great war among humans somewhere in the 90's-2000's. It's a nuclear war that wipes out most of humanity and leaves a lot of radioactivity around, essentially creating an apocalypse for any surviving humans. In my au, this war takes place sometime in the late 90's. The seeds for Reader and Simon being in a relationship exist as early as the early 90's, though circumstances regarding the both of them being unable to further their education together prevent it from ever really going anywhere. Reader (who is still female presenting) struggles to keep up in the very male dominated field of anthropology and archaeology in the 90's while Simon easily finds his footing in doctorate programs. (He's cis in this au sorry Simon.. it just makes the most narrative sense.) Reader eventually loses contact with Simon as they drift away from each other and this is around the time that Reader goes missing, finding an ancient shrine and making a deal with a deity to survive the upcoming war. This is about 3 years before the nuclear fallout from the war. Meanwhile, Simon and Betty have met and the canon events of Fionna & Cake / Adventure Time are playing out for them! They find the Enchiridion (a magic book Simon was looking for to prove his studies on magical relics isn't bullshit), fall in love, get engaged, and this is around the time Simon loses contact with Reader. And then Reader's family reaches out to Simon. Reader has been missing and no one can find them. Betty comforts Simon during this time, but there isn't really much anyone can do. Eventually Simon finds the crown and becomes cursed, and Betty time travels 1000 years into the future to help save him like in the show. And we're back with Reader! Who accidentally overslept surviving the war by 800 years. They wake up and realize very quickly that they are (1) no longer human and (2) definitely not in the 20th century anymore... After a while they also learn they are immortal. About 200 years later, Reader is a successful healer, using 20th century medical practices and whatever they can find in centuries old texts. They've gotten quite the reputation as many families have been using their practice for generations, and rumors have spread that they can cure even curses (much to Reader's chagrin). This is when Betty, who is now going insane desperately trying to save Simon, visits their shop. Of course, when Betty learns that Reader can't, in fact, cure curses, she's pissed. They get into a big fight and Betty is banned from Reader's shop. The two don't interact again by the time Betty actually does save Simon from being cursed as the Ice King, and Reader never puts 2-and-2 together. To make a very long explanation a very short one, Betty saves Simon by fusing with a chaos deity named Golb, becoming Golbetty. She then returns to this void between universes, leaving Simon once again mortal but now all alone. 12 years later, Simon and Reader reconnect! They slowburn fall in love, but Simon isn't really over Betty, esp when it comes to wanting to save her. Simon is trying to reach Golbetty through an ancient shrine, but Reader is completely unaware of this. Reader is left in the dark when it comes to a lot about Betty, actually, but respects Simon's privacy. The two of them settle into life together after reconnecting after 1000 years, both having long accepted the other died in the 90's, and things seem okay for the most part...

WE'VE HIT ARC 2 WHO CHEERED

Okay so things aren't all that okay. Turns out becoming a weird pseudohuman fucks with your self-image and connection to humanity, who would have thunk! This isn't anything new for Reader, who already associated their being nonbinary/transmasc with being turned into a creature shortly upon settling in the Land of Ooo (tho: author's note, they were always nonbinary, it's just hard to accept that when you're already struggling to make a life for yourself in a male dominated career in the 90's. Reader is mega-coping.) But reconnecting with Simon kind of made it... worse. Sure, Simon was cursed for a while but he got out of it mostly human, where Reader is very much not human. They find themself comparing how they once were to how they are now and feeling inadequate for Simon. Simon tries his best to help, but there's only really so much he can do. Things only get worse when a witch comes along who claims to know exactly what kind of creature Reader is. Reader is a golb-beast, a rare (often only thought to be mythical) creature created by being cursed, or in some interpretations blessed, by Golb. Reader is the only one of their kind known in existence, and this witch worships Golb. Knowing magic, she is able to manipulate Reader's curse so that they attack Simon, almost killing him, and in the chaos of everything she kidnaps Reader. The captor (I need to name her..) has a mansion that is decorated with statues and artwork of Golb, think Catholic cathedrals, and she initially locks Reader in the basement where she has a dungeon of sorts. She's kind of really fucked up and treats Reader like an exotic pet she tamed rather than a sentient human and even goes as far as to only let them eat raw meat it's crazy. Reader keeps up hope that Simon will come for them but the captor tells them (a lie) that Simon ran away from them when they attacked him. He's scared of Reader being a beast and won't be coming back for them. While Reader doesn't believe this at first... the longer they're trapped the more doubt starts to set in. Meanwhile Simon is actually losing his mind trying to find Reader after healing from his wounds, but to little avail. It takes months before he even gets a real lead. Eventually he is able to rescue Reader but in the chaos a fire starts. A statue of Golb falls and crushes the captor, killing her instantly while Reader watches. It should feel good but... Reader is emotionally crushed. It takes them a long time to get used to being back in the normal world again. There's a lot more I didn't cover here bc it isn't too important to Reader and Simon specifically, but there's a lot Reader has to overcome. This entire situation really sets them back on feeling human and accepting themself as they are. This time, Simon can't even seem to really help them when they're at their worst.

(continued in a reblog bc apparently i flew too close to the sun with this post...)

#creature reader #winged reader #asks

[wqnwoos]

im not the same anon as earlier but help ur grades are amazing 😭😭 im sitting psych and english in october and can i ask what ur study schedule or method is like? how early did u start studying + what did you do?

HII thank you soo much!! i worked my arse off for those stupid grades 😭 i’ll put the tips under a cut, i really hope they help, and good luck for october!! u got this <3

find out what time u study best at!! i somehow trained myself to become a morning person (naturally i am nocturnal LMFAO) but during study season i usually wake up 4-5:30 or something. it feels so much better getting to 10am and u have the whole day in front of u and you’ve done most of the things u need to do, but that’s just me!! i have friends who worked best from like 11pm - 4 am

pomodoro technique — excellent for my adhd ass brain. i genuinely thought this technique would never work for me, avoided it like the plague, and then used it during a study group session w friends and Love it. (i use the flora app btw!! i feel too bad to kill the little plant so i always study to the end 😭) i recommend the usual 25 mins, 5 min break but it’s up to u <3

FLASHCARDS!!!!! i cannot stress this enough flashcards genuinely saved my ARSEEE especially for psychology!! i always phrase mine like a question, so that if you get something similar in the exam it kind of jogs your memory? anyway. for psych i do not recommend remaking notes, i went straight from class notes and the textbook to flashcards, and repeated them All The Time

past paper questions!!!!! unfortunately the education system is fucked and doesn’t want us to learn for the sake of learning, they want us to be parrots so!!! really recommend past paper questions.

for english literature (i’m assuming you’re taking literature and not language?? idk anything about language past gcse level i’m sorry 😭), i wouldn’t recommend writing out essay after essay; plan a bunch of past papers, write maybe one paragraph per past paper question. ummm idk if u guys have to include context and critical interpretations because i believe that differs with exam board, but we did, and i used flashcards for those too!! (also. please make sure u know the text 😭 even vaguely knowing quotes helps so much bc searching for them in the exam takes so much time)

for english my friends and i also used to time ourselves — fifteen minutes per paragraph so that you weren’t going on too long about one point, and you weren’t wasting all your time on one question.

study groups!! this is ONLY if u work well with other people if u know ur gonna get distracted then please don’t do all the time 😭 also for things like english study groups r sooo helpful because a lot of the time, other people will bring points to the table that u have never thought of (and u can do the same for them!!)

EAT WELL!!!! SLEEP WELL!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m so serious . if u don’t do this then nothing will go well. idgaf what time u sleep because maybe you’re more productive at 1am - 4am, but make sure ur getting ENOUGH sleep. and don’t skip meals. pleaaaaseee don’t skip meals.

i also used to use a lot of mindmaps for english, for themes / characters / context!!

for psych i also used to do blurting — writing as much as i know about one topic, going back and adding everything j missed in a different colour <3

OKAY that is allllll i can think of right now!! if u need anything else pls slide into my dms or jump back into my inbox i am happy to help !!! good luck with exams bb i know ur gonna crush them 💗💗💗

#asks #anon #study tips #sorry idk how helpful this was because. exam boards differ and stuff. #OBVIOUS DISCLAIMER this is what worked for me it might not work for everyone

[lgcyubin]

here to present (bad trumpet playing noises) the illustrious kim yubin whooohoooo (crickets chirping) please like this post if you're down to plot and i'll mosey over to your tumblr ims. i have a discord if that's easier (tho i am slower on it) - just lmk and we can swap usernames :) also clearly bandwagon-ing so i may be even slower here, but i made a twitter since it's come up a few times! i'm also still (slowly) reading through event stuff but to the extent anyone's still looking for event partners please hmu!

better known as jamie (not james) kim, kim yubin's a california boy who's found his way to seoul with lukewarm dreams(?) of becoming a kpop idol.

quick tl;dr of his relevant journey: joined lgc in july 2021 by sheer happenstance. it's been two long years and he's still not sure if this is what he's allowed(?) to do, but for now he's trying to dabble in a little bit of everything to figure out what he likes, and works his ass off regardless of what he does bc it's in his nature. he doesn't have a self-declared focus, but his (current) penchant is for rap.

vs. what he'd put on his hinge profile: fluent in english and korean, the proud owner of two on-and-off dimples that may as well be a craters, and his t-shirt's made of boyfriend materi—

family bg: born to an affluent family of doctors. literally. all doctors, all successful, all brilliant. he's the youngest of four (three older sisters) and the black sheep of the family because he's... well, not exactly studying for the mcat right now. he's smart and hard-working, but certainly doesn't think he is - growing up in the shadows of steep expectations will do that to ya.

for as critical of himself as he is, however, he likes to keep most of his neuroses strictly to himself. you will not get him to be vulnerable without an ample amount of kicking and screaming.

self-inflicted mental saw traps aside, yubin comes across as remarkably... well, unconcerned on the outside. he's a flippant person who has zero issues making small talk with complete strangers. he's candid, straightforward, and he's got a wicked sharp wit and a penchant for dramatics. he's a funny guy! sarcasm is his crutch! and he'd much rather you laugh at or with him than see him cry.

WANTED CONNECTIONS

in desperate need of: friends. and specifically: friends who will put up with him whipping his head around dramatically every time you whisper "look at the hot person behind you but don't make it obvious" (he would be such a good wingman fyi)

best friends! but just a couple, max. he's a closed off person so if he did have any best friends that might have a better grasp of the inner workings of kim yubin, it's a limited number, and you've probably known him since he joined lgc (or longer—he's not a seoul native, but he was in town most summers). fair warning that he will be calling you his work wife/husband (it's a show of affection).

at the back of my mind, he is very loudly like "i would rather die than have feelings for someone" so naturally i feel inclined to write out a terrible ex plot. or a crush plot. or both. any breakup with him was probably messy and might be accompanied by some resentment (at least from his end), and any crush he could possibly have will be saddled with internal conflict. let's give it up for being unlovable!

no one's seen him cry except maybe a close friend or his sisters but you happen to catch him at the worst possible time and he is now avoiding you like his life depends on it. even if it means hiding behind a potted plant the second he sees you down the hall.

someone go on a perilous hike with him where you end up terribly lost and start to think you may have to spend the last moments of your life in each other's company so you might as well dish out all of your regrets and dashed hopes, right? it's not like you're just meters away from the path you were supposed to be on, right? good thing neither of you are drama queens, right???

if you would like to entertain the idea of having an inconsequential crush on the most charmless guy alive, please do so because he'd be so so uncomfortable with the concept of it and it'd be funny.

familial connection — he joined lgc back in july 2021 with his cousin (female), and she is 100% the reason why he's here. he's all about tough love and being mister sass pants so no one figures out just how much he cares about them, but he would do just about anything for his family and he's especially close to her.

#𝐎𝐎𝐂 ! #this is queued and i am on my knees praying it posts at the right time #edited to add some contact info

[highfunctioningfleshrule63]

mustart sepia. um i fogot the other one. pimento. flamingo it was i remmebered. im not fixing it

mustard and sepia made me grin so big. thank you for thinkin im some how correct and funny abt things. i tend to not feel like i am so i appreciate that it means a lot man. if people think im funny im doin something right. especially coming from you, i strongly value u as a good online friend even if we both kinda have a more avoidant style on here, i get it.

getting flamingo however….let me wipe my mouth a bit…cant believe im someone who you wanna study. thats. ive always loved the intensity in the mere concept of that its the same reason i adore found footage stuff. but also means a lot <3 i would also love to study you i feel that we do the base-level version of that by checking in on eachothers blogs. in a better world i would be within a someones more personal and intimate opticon….but its so odd that this is erotic to me on a different level bc i have had paranoid episodes concerning the panopticon/our surveillance state of now. neither here nor there…sorry for rambling

THANK YOU FOR THIS MY FRIEND.

#everything i do is abt an expertly crafted bit. just kidding but who else loves to play roles. i dunno why im like this i just do #anyway u have always been one of my favorites on here from the very beginnings of this blog so ill always appreciate u #tactical-asks

[euphoriasdesk]

Hi, im a grade 12 student and im considering studying law soon, and i was wondering if theres anything you wish you knew about studying law when you were at the stage that I am? thank you

hi! take this w a grain of salt bc ive only been going to school for a month. but here u go!

1. it involves a lot of reading. A LOT. and you have to absorb the concepts as you read them the first time bc, more often than not, you're not gonna have the time to go over them a second time for a more in-depth review. it would just be to jog your recall. don't worry too much tho! this is a skill you naturally develop especially throughout your college years since you would be reading a lot of difficult texts (i assume you'll be taking up an ab program since you have plans to pursue law?) of course, law school is 100x harder than college and you can never fully prepare for the workload, but building a stable foundation as early as now would definitely help you in the future.

2. you need to be great at thinking on your feet. this is something im struggling with at the moment bc of my social anxiety and fear of public speaking (ikr, what am i doing in law school lmao). i have always been the type to internally rehearse what i need to say a thousand times before i actually say it out loud. if you put me on the spot, no matter how impressive the idea is inside my head, it's all disorganized and incohesive the moment it comes out of my mouth. that being said, try to participate as much as you can in activities that expose you to public speaking and impromptu speeches like hosting school events, reporting, debate orgs, etc.

3. you don't have to be smart, but you definitely need to be studious. admittedly, people who are inherently intelligent will have an advantage over the others because they'll be able to understand concepts quicker (it is an edge bc believe me —there's never enough time when you're in law school). sure, it might be a little harder (i know it is for me); nevertheless, you'll survive even if you are not one of those people who are intellectually gifted. what you need is to be consistent in studying, because you absolutely won't last 4 years in law school if you don't put in the work. always come to class prepared. study all the topics assigned, or at least try to cover as many as you can bc you definitely can't bs your way out of a recit.

4. the idea of becoming a lawyer was planted in my mind by suits and htgawm 🤣 don't fall into that trap like i did! the study of law is nothing like its portrayal in popular media (which is understandable bc no one would wanna watch the monotonous lives and routines of law students if not from rose-tinted glasses). media makes a spectacle out of the sleepless nights and the volume of material to be read and mastered, but it doesnt reveal the exhaustion that comes from such to the point that you avoid laying down during your breaks in between periods of studying for fear that you cant close your eyes for a minute wo drifting off to sleep. it glamorizes the idea of allotting most of your waking hours to studying but it doesn't show on TV the faces of your family when you say you cannot come yet again to the plans they made on the weekend. your heart must be REALLY in it, or you should at least want it enough for you to be able to make the sacrifices it's gonna require you to make because—believe me—there would be many.

#student #studyblr #studying #filipino studyblr #study blog #university #studyspo #uni life #q&a #inbox #lawstudies #law student #law school #study tips #studyinspo #study law #law stuff #law studyblr #lawblr #lawyerinthemaking #up diliman #euphoriasdesk

[osaevsky]

So, yk how you said that life is using me as a punching bag?! You got it right!

After continously switching between social media, trying to avoid shit I didn’t want to see, I focused on things I had pending out. I waa out of my house, on a friends house — when I left, I stood outside waiting for my dad to pick me up. Guess what? It rained heavily, and it was cold AS FUCK. Imagine me dripping wet from the rain with the cold wind lmao

Anyways. I returned home, got dried, changed into comfortable clothings. Went back to my social media and first thing I see is some of my mutuals tagging one another gushing over my celebrity crushes and being whole ass explicit on how they would fuck and go down on them. My stomach was doing backflips and I was already like this LMAOOO BC I ALREADY HAD ENOUGH OF IT

I tried to ignore that, chatted with a new mutual and others, and of course talked with you too to have some fun. I sat my ass to finish organising some things for the things I have to work with and study — my back hurted awfully but I spent 3 dreadful hours doing what I had to do.

Then when I wanted to use the lift because I had to go to the main hall for something, NONE OF THE TWO FUCKING ELEVATORS WERE WORKING. I had to walk up and down 8 FLOORS. I nearly pass out when I returned back to my apartment, I was agitated and my legs hurt so my parents had to sit me down to take deep breaths and chill lmao

I ate dinner, went to bed and watched a 90s movie. Its 4 am here and I don’t feel fully sleepy yet so since its weekend even if I still have things to do tomorrow, I will use this quiet moment to have my own "me time" before coping with reality.

Guess what?

Power ran out at 4am. My windows are now fully open so I can have some windy breeze because its fucking hot in here. GOD CAN’T KEPT GETTING AWAY WITH IT.

I have mobile data so I will still stay up to do my things before sleeping because im stressed. I hope the power returns in the morning so I can pretend today never happened. I will pretend this day never happened so badly that in a short time whenever I remember something that happened today, I won’t know if it was a fever dream or a real day lmao

Your life sounds like a tragicomedy at this point 😭😭

It also rained here where I live, I thought I was the only one. Luckily I didn't have to go anywhere and I stayed at my house pulling an all nighter while it did

Idk what's worse, seeing stuff you don't wanna see about your celeb crush or seeing a mutual talk about it. Feels like some sort of betrayal at that point when it really isn't because they're in their right to do so but boy do I feel jealous 💀

Also not them being explicit about it IM SO SORRY- 😭😭😭

Idk how many times the power has run out in your apartment but it's concerning. especially if you're having a heat wave of some sort like I saw you mentioning a few days ago, idk if you can get it checked with your community or anything but you better do

I would be doing the same as you tbh there are some days in my life that are just so bad that they cross the line of being realistic anymore I would prefer to ignore their existence instead of trying to pretend that day didn't make me want to kms LMFAOO

[posallys]

i had to take all my finals and finish a bunch of final projects this semester less than a month out from my brain surgery and it was like. so bad in terms of studying. literally could not get motivated at all and there was no way to really avoid it bc even if i didn't take any classes this semester i still would have had to take exams for a class i had to take an incomplete for bc of the same health issues that i now need brain surgery to deal w. i had to finish my incomplete this semester or get an f. i still got straight as aside from the incomplete class but i managed to pull that class up from literally failing to b+ which i am considering a victory. also graduated a semester early by doing it so i can recover w/o worrying about anything but wow. it was so bad. okay i'll stop now. sorry about that grade, it's always worst when it's a technicality or weird grading system that fucks you over.

HELLO bestie i simply would not have been able to function if i knew i was getting brain surgery the fact that you did that is just. wild. a b+ in any circumstance is a good grade (even tho im bitching about an A- lol) so to do that with a fuckton of added stress is great!

#i hope your surgery went well anon <3 #good luck with whatever ur doing now that you graduated too!!! #taylor answers #anon #ask tag

[forlorn-crows]

hey! i'm really not a writer but i have to take a class on it next year and i'm really scared by it, so i'm trying to get opinions and whatnot from people who do write. (that's why you might see this ask in a lot of authors' inboxes heh) i'm wondering if there's anything that helps you get in the mood to write, if there's anything that causes/makes worse a writer's block, if you find it easier to write when given a prompt or if you prefer to make things up completely, if you prefer writing a story or more of an essay, how long does it take you to finish something and how do you know it's finished? and i know a lot of these could be answered with "it depends" but please avoid saying that if you can! thank you for helping me!

there's two perspectives i have here: one is writing in the context of college courses, and two is writing for pleasure.

when i wrote essays in college, i would always need a quiet place to go, or a place where conversations wouldn't be distracting. the 3rd floor of the library. a study cubby. starbucks at 4pm. but i would ALWAYS have instrumental music in my headphones. lofi. writing music playlists on youtube. classical. whatever made me feel 'scholarly' and didn't have words. that was my go to. and i think doing that same routine, getting my little drinks and always AFTER i had eaten was key to at least having some semblance of motivation to get my shit done. cause i had to write a LOT. all the time. different lengths of things too; 500 words to full length papers.

with school, the motivation was "i have to get it done by x date". and im a perfectionist, so it took me a looooong time to write the hard stuff. especially since i had to research as well. loooong time to gather sources before i actually did any writing, loooong time sorting and culling those sources, looooong time stringing them together to make them 'perfect'. i self inflict a lot of struggle, but thats how my brain functions to get the outcomes i did (and the grades I did).

I did do some creative writing in college, mostly poetry. for that, there were certainly deadlines motivating me, but the projects got my creative side flowing a bit more. often times, i would have to stop to jot something down while i was going about my day, because i knew i would forget it later. but, a lot of the same things can be said about my college creative writing; i slaved over the things until they were perfect, until they finally looked 'right' to me. and that takes a lot of time, personally. i hated procrastinating but sometimes you really do write better under pressure.

in school, i needed clear cut prompts/requirements for my long form work. i couldn't function without them, because i always outlined like crazy. it helped organize and cull my crazy thoughts.

now, with personal writing (which i 99% fanfiction currently), it can be hit or miss. sometimes, i need someone else's ideas to get me going. other times, im plagued by horny visions during work and i have to jot them down in my phone until i can write them out later. and sometimes i lose motivation by then, which sucks.

sometimes, it takes me a long time to finish stories. whether that be due to length, or simply because i took my time writing it little by little. I can crank out a full length fic in 2 days if im really feeling it, or it make take an entire week to write 1k words. it just depends on how into writing and into the idea i am.

lately, i have to go with whatever sparks my interest in order to write. i find its no fun to try and force yourself to write for pleasure, bc it just becomes a chore then. writing as a hobby is supposed to be fun, it is not supposed to consume you (wise words that crow does not follow a lot of times).

my advice for school is to keep track of your deadlines. start earlier than you need to for big projects, especially if you have an idea you really want to role with. dont be afraid to brainstorm with your teachers, they're your resource for stuff like that. they can help steer you in the right direction if you're stuck. carve out time to write and double down on it. take breaks when you need to, of course, but try to stay on task whenever possible.

my advice for personal writing is DO NOT FORCE IT. if you get inspired by something, and feel the need to write, and you can write at that moment, do it. those words will come like no other. second best thing is to write it down to visit later. i also think its important to remember you do not have to write every idea you ever think of, even if its a really good idea! its okay to have ideas that you dont do anything with.

overall advice, dont feel like you have to edit as you go. if you're unsure of your skills as a writer, just get down the ideas onto paper. thats the first step. write it how you might tell a story to a friend. all the fancy word choice and formatting can be done later. and know that you dont have to be the most seasoned writer to be a good writer. skills take time to develop. and the class may be boring at times. but its to help you learn, so dont fret! its okay to be scared at first.

let me know if you have any other questions, i have a lot under my belt, believe me!

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[mii3969]

i just wanna go

A month ago, i got send to the psych wards for OD It wasn't that bad honestly. When i attempted i felt so free,like i could finally rest,but the pills i took tasted so bad that i couldn't take more then 17. I then tried to sleep but since i have insomnia i couldn't. It begun to hurt so i was like ''fuck,i didn't even take a lot of pills so i probably won't even die''.

I then felt like it wasn't worth the pain since i won't even die so i woke up my dad,he took an hour to properly wake up,called the anti poisoning centrum;said i just had to take something for the stomach and then called the hospital: said i should comeso i did, and by 3am we were at the hospital. The doctor at the emergency was very sassy and cocky. I didn't like her. By 6am i got a room by the kids section and stayed their for 2 days. In those 4 days lots of doctors and my now psychiatrist came in, and i even got a friend and decided to room with her;she was their for blood poisoning. After those 4 days i got placed in the psych ward,I was in isolation for a week. No phone,no outside contact with the other kids. Ï was pretty mad about that. After that week i coud get my phone for 1hour after every meal, and could go join the other kids which i didn't bc i have pretty bad social anxiety. I did go to one activity it was estetique. I felt like the doctors and nurses treated me like a joke, i also had 2 roomates: the first one didn't really talk to me and would avoid me the staff really liked talking to her tho, but not me. She decided to change rooms to be with her friend and i got a new roomate the day after. She was very nice i really loved her,she stayed with me and since she was also in isolment we stayed close since i didn't left my room. She was allowed her phone tho.

Anyway, i got out the hospital and then boom school. I got lucky and the teacher said i could just come and stay at the self studie room the whole day and that's what i did and do. Honestly, the kids haunts my dreams i get ducking nightmares of the kids in my class. The teachers probably all see me like a fucking joke even tho they don't know why i was hospitalized except 2. At brrreak the kids from my class come to me say "hey (my name)" and then laugh soloudly. They know i was hospitalized but don't know why,yet im still their joke. I hate them so much. I hate school, I hate home,I hate the hospital. Everyone think i'm a joke. I'm so tired. The doctors see me as a joke. I hate myself so much they hospitalized me for dumb stuff , i took on weight too and they don't even know i am bullimic. i have school tomorrow and its 1.40 am and i can't sleep and i just really wanna overdose.

anyway yeah