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mamawasatesttube · 9 months

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YJ all living in the same dorm/frat house in college would be amazing. What do you think everyone’s majors/clubs/athletics would be?

assuming this is still like... main universe-adjacent and they all still have powers etc. yknow i think cassie has a giant existential crisis because she doesn't know what she's gonna do with her life other than be wonder girl and that will NOT fly with her mom bc helena absolutely wants her to have a normal life as much as she can. late-night conversations at the kitchen counter where she confides that she has no idea what she wants to do and helena sits with her and tells her she has time but she does expect her to go to college and do something, even if she doesn't have to have it all figured out right yet. all of this to say i think cassie goes in undeclared. also i think she should be on the volleyball team.

tim in college is smth i was actually talking abt with moss and britta just the other day. he of course is an insane engineering major who skateboards to class with a naruto-themed energy drink in hand only to fall asleep there 14 minutes into the lecture. also he's wearing a blazer and formal shorts bc he's like I Am Getting A Good Grade In Presentable Student :) and theres just something wrong with him. he has to join an engineering student study group bc its the only thing that actually gets him to bother doing his homework even if hes a whiz at the actual content. hes a disaster but he cant drop out he wants to hang with his besties plus lucius was like listen you can work at WE r&d and tinker with shit to your heart's desire but you do need at least a bachelor's of mechanical engineering to do that even if i know you know your stuff. and tim was like well i guess that's fair :/ hey squad i can sugar daddy us an apartment near met u lets all get an education

kon... well i think he also has a crisis (see also: sotm) but eventually i do like him going into teaching or stuff with kids in general. im always bouncing btwn him being a childrens librarian or a high school biology teacher. he WILL tell all these kids about star trek or so help him god. i feel like he wouldn't really go for most athletics bc he'd be too worried about making sure he doesn't excel too unnaturally BUT just for me, i think he and bart should join the ballroom dance team together. i think they would have so much fun doing jive in particular

as for bart. well the thing about bart is that he could literally do anything he wants to? the real question is what subject would hold his attention consistently over several years. i think the answer is either computer science or theoretical physics. possibly both i think he might double major. he's also terrible at remembering to do his homework etc but he flies through it when he bothers to. and he and kon join the ballroom team together :)!!!

#answers #Anonymous #core four #cassie #bart #kon #tim

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labrdorite · 2 months

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nico sketches i did as a warmup + 20 minute s/i sketches i did while my hands were tembling for dear life (designing a s/i for him)

hi i sketched out my s/i for him (naming them ambrose for convenience)

they go to the same university he does, & are in the same grade, they’re just 3 years younger. (they’re also in a different major. they’re an illustrator while he’s a game designer :3)

literally struggling HARD with the move from online schooling to in person schooling they’re holding on for dear life. new school AND new state (thankfully they’d emailed back & forth with him before getting his disc. so they had a friend.

btw for first meeting stuff, while their first meeting was online, they were friends for a WHILEEE before dating. HOWEVER!

amb had to fake date him for so long bc they kept getting teased :/ literally had the whole ‘omg are you single do you have a bf my friend would LOVE to date you’ so they just blurted out that they & nico were dating so they both had to go along w it (pls read ‘starting with a lie’ by liang azha bc that plot is what im stealing for this!)

anyways cue faking dating scenarios except these two secretly like each other HARD FOR REALS but literally dont wanna say it bc its so difficult to make friends as it is and they dont wanna ruin that (+ feelings are complicated so they both just brush it off to ‘not interacting w anyone for a long time so its just infatuation’) whatever

universe crossover for my other oc f/o moots but hc their friends (your guys’ ships) are SOOOOOO sick of them. doing everything in their power to be supportive & not bully them for being dense /j

they end up working together on projects, and have their own personal project theyre working on! (nico has a concept for a game, & amb does all the illustrations and concept art for it) & hc they end up together once the game is completed bc that means SO much to me oh my goodness. THE LOVE BETWEEN A GAME DESIGNER & HIS ILLUSTRATOR YOU DONT GET IT!!!!

anyways. more amb facts. they have random moles across their body. also, like nico, their joints easily dislocate. (ankles, knees, and wrist specifically) bc fluid builds up easy. a side effect of sports injuries & the HARD STOP from being athletic that was a cultural shock to them.

they also have a hard time processing things, but dont know why. they just chalk it up to the three concussions they got in the span of 1 year & a half finally catching up with them (also constantly thinks theyre having a stroke bc they sometimes can’t comprehend easy, basic concepts, words, etc…. im projecting this is just real for me).

outside of drawing their hands are so useless. muscle spasms all over the place. (their mood also swings WILDLY sometimes. y’know how i always come on here wanting my blood vessels to explode then im fine moments later? yeah theyre like that but since it mimics my irl way of expressing emotions its worse)

they’re trying their best all the time ™️ pls be nice. (also v bad at social stuff tbh. but theyre trying. :3)

btw they’d 100% be mischaracterised as a ‘low maintenance friend’. nah. they don’t text ALL day ALL the time (or even a ‘normal amount’), but the do respond as best they can & always have large burst of convos. but seriously they’re that friend you hang out and just do nothing with their social battery is very smile

they know how to play volleyball & skateboard btw :3

also fun fact abt them but also abt me: they didnt know how to ride a bike until they were 14-15 :] (also they still cant ride one bc its been years… haha, totes not projecting…)

#— 🎨🩵#🎮📘#i still need a s/i tag ugggghhh

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averyangrypossum · 1 month

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Caved and decided to share my main OC in the camp camp art style and universe

Even though I made my character in the camp camp art style a while ago the person that inspired me to post it/expand on it was @brewingcoffi with their OC, go check out their blog their stuff is so cool!

Lore and character under the cut

But anyways this is basically my main OC Jessie during the epilogue of her story. Where everything is (kind of) resolved and shes just left to pick up the pieces of the aftermath.

After her whole fiasco shes sent to Juvie for 11 months and afterwards sentenced house arrest and court ordered therapy, and after a while of being at home for house arrest shes granted permission to go to a camp to help her get re socialized with other “normal” children. And thats how she ends up at Camp Camp, specifically during seasons 1-4 since I don’t know if I want to draw her what she’d look like during season 5.

With an eye missing and a whole lot of baggage, literally and figuratively, she signs up for writing camp.

And she ends up having a great time! Not at the star at first cuz shes a little emo, but she starts making friends with the other campers, specifically Harrison. Shes one of the most troublesome camper besides Max but shes not seen as such by anyone other than Max because she inherited her father’s master manipulation skills.

Like father like daughter.

She has a stuffed bear similar to Mr honeynuts (Max’s bear) but it doesn’t hold the same weight since its really just a placeholder for another plush she had. Plus she has a pet emotional support raccoon that she successfully was able to take with her.

Her relationship with the other campers and counselors is how I rank it down here:

1. Harrison

Harrison is her tent-mate and her best friend at camp, basically like a brother to her, twin brother if you will since they found out they were born on the same day. Shes basically his number one supporter in magic and he frequently reads her stories and gives feedback.

2. David

She participates on the activity of torturing him with the other campers but she secretly sees him as a father figure, and hes the first one she goes to in the middle of the night when she cant sleep due to night terrors, and makes him make her a midnight snack.

3. Dolph

As an artist to another artist, they love each other’s company, Jess likes to draw too but more in a doodle kind of way and not of still life or arts and crafts kind of way. She likes watching Dolph paint in a way to call her down, and Dolph likes asking her if he could paint a scene from her stories.

4. Ered

Like everyone, she thinks Ered is cool, and admires Ered and even has a crush on her. WHICH IS BAD BY THE WAY! Cuz she has SEVERE mommy and daddy issues and anyone either older, cooler, maturer, and or smarter than her she will probably have a crush on them. But OTHER than that, they have a nice friendship where Jess asks Ered to teach her tricks on the skateboard, it does not usually go well.

(Oh and fun fact I actually met Ered’s voice actor and even got a signature from her at a con I worked at, she was so nice and shes just a really cool person)

5. Nerris

Jess has played DND before which leaves Nerris to frequently ask her to play with them, and sometimes Nerris would ask for story telling advice for future campaigns.

6. Preston

Jess’s mom and dad were both actors so she grew up having love for the industry, back when she still looked up to them. She even wanted to be an actor briefly when she was six but she grew out of it. Which leads Preston to cast her first in his plays since shes

“one of the only amateurs at this camp with an ounce of talent in her bones” -Preston

Although shes absolutely horrible at singing and pretty un-enthusiastic about acting. Not to mention she thinks Preston’s scripts are awful and once proposed to write on for him, he didn’t talk to her for four weeks in spite.

7. Neil

Her best friend outside of camp is literally THE BIGGEST NERD IN EXISTENCE TO THE POINT HES CONSIDERED A PRODIGY, which leads to her having a soft spot for nerds such as Neil.

And with what we are shown in season 3 episode 6, he falls easily for girls who know basic science. Which with Neil being the socially awkward person he is, sometimes he unintentionally makes her uncomfortable. Plus not to mention she enjoys Harrison fucking with him with magic, she finds it incredibly funny to the point its a little mean spirited. Other than all that other stuff she sometimes hangs out with him while Nikki and Max are doing their own things as she watches him do whatever science thing he happens to be doing.

8. Nikki

They don’t interact much, but Jess enjoys hanging out with her from time to time, and Nikki is the only other person Tim (Jess’s raccoon) likes.

9. Gwen

Her least favorite counselor but thats not saying much since theres only two of them. She still enjoys Gwen’s company and their relationship increases over the course of the summer, where Gwen helps Jess with her issues and complicated feelings towards her mother.

10. Space kid

She thinks hes weird, treats him like everyone else does unfortunately. Shes not really better than the others.

11. Max

Max doesn’t like her for most of the summer, because hes challenged for the title of being the biggest bastard at camp. Plus whenever she does said trouble, she gets away with it most of the time unless she’s cornered where she resorts to blaming it all on Max when he didn’t do shit for a change, and she is believed because shes seen as the ✨quiet sweet troubled girl✨ in David’s eyes and Max is Max.

They do end up having a partners in crime dynamic, specifically after parents day when he sees only her best friend came even its a PARENTS day. Which makes their dynamic more like a big sister and little brother, in the way ACTUAL siblings act.

12. Nerf

Hates how he physically bullies the other campers, in a way that isn’t entertaining to her.

13. Quarter master

Like the rest of the campers she thinks he’s INCREDIBLY weird even though shes used to supernatural elements so thats saying a lot.

14. Cameron Campbell

Hates him the same amount as the others.

15. The wood scouts

Has to restrain herself from making Edward join the one eye club eveytime she meets him, along with his posey but I forget if Snake has a damaged eye or no eye at all.

16. The flower scouts

Hates them the most and thinks they’re absolutely insufferable. Sasha reminds her of her mother especially and overall would pick a fight with them if she wasn’t literally held down BY THE LAW.

Thats it on this, I’m cringe but I’m free ~☆

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sillyfriendssharingablog · 1 month

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the iconic trio but if they were normal kids with normal lives, normal parents and in a normal town

this is a little peak of my modern/slice of life au that I love, it's literally one of the first things me and my bestie did when getting into mgs. it's very wholesome and cutesy, the exact opposite of its source material. I will talk about it fully later though, as I have other things planned for this month. This au is completely safe for other people to insert their OCs in. It is also set in Alaska, and most birthdates remain unchanged. But I'll give you some fun facts about this three little fucks and their normal lives as kids in my au.

Eli Sears (12 y/o)

Son of John and Eva Sears

half white American half Italian (in my head Eva is Italian stfu)

is the middle child (for a few seconds) and gets treated like it

lives in a very fucked up family (fucked up in the Family guy way)

vapes (thinking it's cool)

the vapes are stolen from uncle Venom

he despised his brother since the day they came out of their mother

acts all mean and angsty but still cries to his mama when he can't do his math homework

thinks he is the leader of the trio

cant tie his shoes

has braces

is a bit of a bully, or at least tries

is in their chuch's choir (in this AU the Sears are Catholics)

has a skateboard

Azedi Miller (14 y/o)

Adoptive daughter of Kaz Miller, that single-fathered her for most of her life

has a very deep and healthy bond with her dad, even if he is very overprotective

her race and ethnicity are the same, and she is still in touch of her culture even if she has been raised by an American man. But now she has a more southern accent, coping her dad.

at 14 she became a loving older sister of Catherine Miller was born

tomboy, and is a soccer champion

is the bodyguard of the trio (the one who protects and takes all the countabilty of their actions because she is the oldest)

tries to hold Eli from doing dumbshit most of the time, but at the end joins him

is a scout girl

has lived in the countryside in her first years.

gets herself into dangerous shit because her little ADHD brain tells her to do them

Azedi is neighboors with Quiet, that is Eli's cousin bcs in this AU she was adopted by Venom (don't ask why), and they are besties even if Az is 14 years younger than Quiet.

Tretij Rebenok (12 y/o)

lives in a foster-care home

autistic and has been nonverbal since 7th grade

knows that he is slavic, doesn't know much else of his past

trans boy, but only his friends know about it (even though, since he didn't talk, they only ever adressed him with "It")

he is the racoon of the trio (lives in a trash can and bites)

scares a lot of people just by the way he looks and is banned from most public spaces

instigates Eli into doing dumb shit

deadname is unknown. Before he asked them to call him Tretij they just called him "the other one" or "third friend"

literally eats bugs

in his foster home he is a neglected a bit, so he may often look messy and he may stink

he has a burnt scar on half of his face (I had to make up for the canon scars)

evilest fucking kid ever

just hangs in the background most of the time thankfully though

Some other fun facts about the trio in the au

Azedi and Eli have known each other since they were born, since their dads are buddies. they met Tretij when they entered primary school and became the neighborhood's terrors ever since

they raid Ocelot's house every once in a while

Eli and Azedi used to communicate with Tretij with mostly sign leanguege, that they learned with Quiet (since she is also autistic and nonverbal in this AU), when he was nonverbal, even though they also didn't really need to sign anything with Tretij bcs he understood them even without gestures (since they are that close with each other :3)

Eli and Azedi had started dating at the end of Eli's 7th grade, but the only thing that they do different from what they do with Tretij is giving each other little kisses and calling each other petnames

also Miller despises Eli, but this is in all universes

they all have matching bracelets made by Az

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hexagonlight · 2 years

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The beginning of my Spiritual Awakening Journey ❤️❤️❤️❤️

This is not a story, it is something happening to me and many people in the world, everything to me seems so real , so unreal, I never expect something in the movies will happen in reality.

Around 3-4 years ago, I was in an accident, when I woke up on the hospital bed. I still didn’t sense anything. I went back home but my usual routine changed , and even my emotions changed. I was under depression(i cant feel happiness) for a period of time. Normally, I would sleep like a pig until 12 pm but still feel fatigued and weak. However, I woke up without alarm at 6am morning every single day since I left hospital, I would feel so energetic and extremely happy , many things changed without me recognising them at the beginning , I became so good at numbers , which was opposite of me before, I could understand the principle of many things by myself but i haven’t learnt it before. I could still remember I went to a store for a scooter but I never tried before, it took me almost few minutes to think how I should balance myself and later on I can balance extremely well, even with a single leg only but I used to be not even able to balance on skateboard no matter how hard i try.

It feels like I am given a new brain and body. Times files, after few weeks, I started to recognise the difference in me…..

If this post did help you, tip a little bit if you like. Honestly speaking, I am financially poor due to personal reason

I will keep update this blog and you are welcome to discuss and share your problems or experience

#spiritualguidance #spiritualjourney #spirtualawakening #spirtualgrowth #awakening #worldwar #lightworker

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thatone-highlighter · 2 years

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as much fun as the 4K word CAWM post is I’m moving this to the ask box since I don’t have as much to say.

I would totally recommend looking through bmos room and the stuff in there ! There is just sooo many references in there it’s so cool, (and there is so much to pick through in the 1000+ theme song/intro)

Oh yeah 100%, BMO makes me sad in a way, how they r basically destined to outlive most of their friends (except for the few immortal bunch like Marceline n PB)

Heheheheeh I’m am gonna procrastinate on SO much stuff while infodumping about fern to you >:3

Oh yeah the Gumbald arc is definitely one of the ones that got most affected by it getting cut short, oh yeah the adventure time finale is pretty well received, even with some of the pacing issues n stuff, DEFINITELY WAY BETTER ECIVED THAN THE SU FINALE HO,Y SHIT, yeah I feel like people can be way to harsh on su, it’s definitely not perfect but god,

Lmao fanon lumpygrab is obviously a mixed bag like with literally every ship but it’s not really a ship i go seeking content for ? So when I do get it’s from accounts I already follow and stuff,. idk where I was going w this, you probably get what I mean, hopefully,

Tragic characters are my everything, just,, god I just don’t get people who don’t enjoy any angst at all. Like cmon I love my blorbos and wish for them to be happy but I also want to throw them into a fire and vivisection them and just make them go through so much shit.

Yeah yeah, the Finn losing his arm in golb thing is just intresting to think about, although is definitely not something I would have wanted in the show .

adventure time music grrrrrrrrrrrr

(Also I wrote this while listening to still alive from portal 1 on repeat. why did I tell you this ? Why not tbh)

I cant belige you could abandon the giant cawm post like this- /j

Okay so i actually just started having a look at the intro and bmo’s room so im just gonna say a bunch of stuff i noticed

I think its pretty cool that Shermy and Beth live in Marceline’s old house and then Finn and Jake also lived in Marceline’s old house too it seems poetic in some kinda way. I wonder how many other iterations of them shes leant her house to over the thousands of years, because thinking about that first introductory episode shes in, from memory if almost feels like shes done that before. So.

Why does BMO have a guillotine on the damn roof of their house . Is going around decapitating ppl a thing they just Regularly do or- . We got statue of KoO, the crowns, IKs drum but it looks kinda busted, lady rainicorns translator thing(?), bmo’s skateboard from that one episode, that soda girl, james baxters balls, the hat from the lady armour, oh the broken clock! , lsp’s number plate, amo just. Open on the table like its normal, one of those books looks like ones of the ones IK was reading on how to get bitches or smthn, is that lsp’s star??!??!, jake’s viola, a portrait of banana man?

Also that Is meant to be sweet pea right? The giant walking around?

The idea of characters who live forever is so sad to me. Im glad that bmo Isnt the only one because if they were it wiuld just be awful, Bonnie and Marcy have eachother but i hope they go visit bmo from time to time it would be really sad if they ended up all alone :(

I am taking this as a chance to go Insane over SU because somehow all this being insane over AT has made me want to do that. I could kinda i guess see how people could be unsatisfied with the ending of SU, i didnt have many expectations to be let down by by the finale but i also watched it when i was like 12 so. But even if you had issues with it once you found out that they got ruched into a finale and Why they got rushed into a finale you would think you’d cut the writers a but more slack but people Dont. And even outside of DD and CYM most of the issues people have with the show aren’t even that big a deal, “oh the art-style is inconsistent” okay? And? They let the storyboarders have a bit of creative freedom “oh the characters are off model a lot” okay?? As long as you can tell who they’re meant to be and as long as character a is taller than character b who cares??? “Oh the writing is really badly paced with a bunch of filler episodes everywhere all the time” 1. Thats not what filler means and 2. Its written like that because of the stupid fucking steven bomb format that it got aired in. Its a kids show thats just trying to tell a story about this kid with a magic gem in his belly that gives him super powers calm down okay tje first episode is about him thinking his powers come from eating ice cream(i mean this in the most affectionate way possible). No one is saying the show is perfect nothing is perfect if you personally dont like it just say you dont like it you dont have to try and come up with reasons why you dont and you especially dont have to insult and be mean people who do like it for no reason. Man

I get what u mean with the lumpy grab thing. Like most the stuff you see for it are from creators who make other content you already like so chances are when they make that content youll like it too even if you’re not overly fond of the ship itself. Brain to brain communication

TRAGIC CHARACTERS MY BELOVED. Weve been over this so many times but theyre so !!

Holy shit still alive!! I love that song i used to listen to it a bunch before id ever even played portal properly its such a vibin song i put it on whole i was writing this out <3 thank u for reminding me of its existence

#man we got all the good shit in one oost we got AT we got SU we got Portal all we need is minecraft and we set #i got. So into that SU rant for No Reason. i just rlly like it and the pol who critique it have such bad criticisms #wait fuck is this a theme i have #SU🤝ID things duck likes that ppl criticise for no reason and think liking them is cringe #well thats todays realisation down #i have a fucking encyclopaedic knowledge of SU or some shit someone will mention a scene in passing and i could tell you Exactly #when and where that scene is from its SO funny every time it comes up #Tree Man Posts #asks #and so the adventure time live blog continues

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kqtmansmokeschronic · 8 months

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just a rant cause brain

i struggle to even play older games that i grew up playing, i struggle to play basically anything thats not gta online and honestly its just that; 1. I have to be good at something, it used to be skateboarding, i can draw relatively well but chronic pain makes it hard, I'm not the best player on gta but i know im better than most people

2. Thats the game i was playing when i had my head injury...brain trauma and memory loss. It was hard at first to really even competently play gta remembering the number of click up or down in a menu where a hurdle but ultimately was good for my brain and memory health, but its because i mostly knew it before i wasnt a full tryhard but i didnt start at square one, playing ANYTHING else, except left for dead 2 with my boyfriend i feel frustrated and lost and it makes me feel so stupid and it makes me not even want to try new games i barely gave RDR2 a try and that mostly functions like gta, im mostly just rambling, i do love gta i enjoy grinding and playing missions and i enjoy messing around in freemode doing stupid shit with friends and i love making little toxic rat cunts that think they're hot shit cry and rage like little babies because the gay furry bent them over in the game, i just normal pvp and 1v1's and playing beach or sniping or trying to snipe someone from something or trying to RPG a or forcing a spawn trying to get a certain kek whatever it is is that can be a cool video or clip and the i fucking love making the videos i couldnt give a fuck less they're the least viewd thing on the channel i love making them and its proof youtube success isnt skill because the kid that sit in RC cars and Armored vehicles have 50k subs and 200k views every video and all they do is bait or fuck with real tryhard and make a 15 min video about "look at him he's gunna EWO" or fucking up some wannabe and claiming you beat a real tryhard meanwhile i swear we do the most epic shit ive seen a gta youtuber do:

-killing godmode players -killing orb spamming booters -killing lagswitchers -killing perma off radar and job TP abusers -killing passive players

We are litteraly un matched on console no one has done the kind of shit we do in the game since SUCE did back in like 2018ish years and it was on PC we do everything on console where there's not a shred of doubt every shot we take is just our aim and accuracy and every fight outcome is just skill, a video where someone starts a fight, loses, goes perma off radar, loses further and then job TP around just to continue to get fucked up even off the radar teleporting around gets maybe 50 views is fine by me cause at the end of the day i know we're just living our best life and making a little content out of a game we'd be playing anyway, and people we'd be fucking up anyway because we arent ever really trying, i wont lie yes some videos we try, but a good portion of the time we just arent its more that the rats and cheaters are extremely predictable im gunna end the rant here its basically just that i guess i cant go on any other game and come out on top over other actual competitive PvP players and cheaters i know as i just stated i dont even need to be good at the top teir like that to make content but idk we're mostly just doing what we want maybe i'll try to start streaming some other stuff maybe i'll try streaming diablo or fallout as well, maybe i need to entirly lose my ego when it comes to video games cause they're suppposed to just be fun right?

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captainsquality · 8 months

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i love sports i fucking love sports i miss playing sports

my greatest agony is that ive been sick literally half of my life and havent been able to actually PLAY sports in any formal capacity, especially not the ones I enjoy the most(which are team sports) since my mid/late teens. for reference I turned 31 at the start of this month.

I would play SO much soccer and volleyball and baseball, if I could. I would do so much rock climbing and cycling. I would skateboard so much more often(and probably better) if I weren't just so fucking fragile and unhealthy at my base.

I do think that if not for a lot of my non-physical health issues getting in the way of me keeping healthy routines and exacerbating my physical problems I could be a lot more active at least in solo sports. I want to see about hitting up hiking trails here locally as the weather finally starts cooling down this autumn bc sure its rly just walking but I love being outdoors and rolling in the dirt and climbing shit and the thing is that i havent gotten to do those things in any actual, real capacity in years and years and years

if I had been able to have a normal school experience, if I were able to have any semblance of a normal adult social life, I would probably spend a TON of time still doing team sports in community leagues(soccer especially, I miss soccer so much), and I would probably commute by skateboard or bicycle wherever possible.

I wish to god i could figure out a way to beat back some of my mental issues enough to get an actual workout/exercise routine going, even just low impact, improve my health so i can actually do some of these things I love doing but cant bc of health limitations. One of the greatest agonies of my disabled life is that I actually adore and love a huge breadth of activities beyond the few very sedentary ones my body actually ALLOWS me to enjoy with any regularity.

I fucking miss soccer, man. I literally loved playing soccer SO much. I don't even have opportunity to just. pass the ball around with people anymore. Not even fucking THAT much less actually playing on a team, even for just like futsal. I was actually pretty good as a player. Not Star Player worthy, but I understood the game reasonably well and I had tenacity and good passing skills so I tended to do very well as a wingback or midfielder and made some pretty damn good assists and even goals when I was playing in leagues.

as a teen, pre-HRT, a tiny willowy soprano playing casual keep-away with my three brothers, I was the smallest and weakest person the field, functionally. but I was fucking STUBBORN, not because I was determined to win, I was determined to participate. I wanted to play. I wanted to be part of the experience.

which means that despite my brothers ranging in height from 5' 10" to 6' 1" in comparison to my 5' 5" with the weight of a six pack of sodas behind me, I was still making steals and connecting passes to my younger brother with actual, genuinely skilled maneuvers that left my oldest brother, a college undergrad, jawdropped at my skinny fourteen year old ass swiping the ball from under him and into the 'goal' (two predetermined trees acting as posts).

I never WON a game in those little sessions but god did I love just getting to play and I fucking miss it! I miss soccer and I miss swimming, I miss baseball and volleyball and rappelling and skating and I hate that doing any of these things again, even in a casual context, is so completely inaccessible to me. and not even just because of my physical limitations.

there are not places for me to do them. there are not people for me to do them with. there are not accessible resources for me to find either of those things.

anyway sorry im done ranting. i didnt have a cohesive point other than i miss sports and felt a need to vent about it. thank u for letting me complain, carry on

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mysticonsheadcanons · 10 months

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Barrage: yeah, and now that I look back on it, I don't know, but I'm starting to think my mom knew this was gonna happen no matter what she did, I don't know, I did see her writing something when I was almost 3 but I don't know, sure, just don't loose it! That's one of the few things I have that belonged to my parents! Also, Priscilla is still asleep on your pillow, I'm just gonna come in and check on her, it's just that she's not normally asleep this long...😣

(Meanwhile)

Heidi: *attempting to write something on paper but cant* *nods in understanding instead*

(Meanwhile)

Me: I'm guessing mage boards are geminas version of skateboards, cause I'm not from around here, and I like all sorts of games, the very first video game I ever played was minecraft, and that one turned out to be my favorite! Have you guys ever been to another world? Or how about played a game you've absolutely hated? I've done that several times because I was just that bored! 😃

QUASARLA: I promise to be careful with the journal. And I hope Priscilla's O.K.

PROXIMA: (pets Heidi)

TONY: Yeah, mage boards are pretty much like skateboards, excpet that they hover slightly in the air. I have been to other worlds before, as my parents like travelling to different dimensions. And I'm too stubborn to play a game I don't like.

SARIEL: No, I've never been to a different dimension. And there's a childish board game my cousins like called Griffin Gliders that I play with them, even thought I find the game annoying.

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dzpenumbra · 10 months

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6/22/23

Today was chill. I got a full night's sleep, which is always welcome. I got up and checked on the plants... Oh... I forgot, today actually did start on a stressful note. My tomato plant collapsed again.

I don't know what the deal is with my plants, specifically my pepper and tomato plant. They're super thin, like... their stalks cant support their weight. I don't know if I should like... intentionally stunt their growth a bit to encourage them to build up their stalks... But my tomato just straight up can't support its own weight.

When I grew heirloom tomatoes outdoors back at my old house, I used trellises. This is a cherry tomato plant, I expect it to be smaller. But it seems like the stem just straight up can't support the weight of it. What was most concerning was that it collapsed and bent the stalk again, even when it was tied to the stake I put in. So... I went and tied it again, this time in two places, just... hoping it won't happen again. Maybe it was windy earlier and I didn't know because I was asleep? And the wind pushed it over the edge and it just collapsed? It is right next to an open window. As a stopgap, I'm gonna try to move it away from the window at night but still keep it somewhat in the sunlight, as much as I can.

But on the flip side... my succulents are sprouting. I plucked all the leaves of a specific breed of them that I had in my single pot and set all the leaves up for propagation, so I can clone them. And three of them have started sprouting little buds. A few others are starting roots as well... I might even have too many! I'm very pleasantly surprised. I'm going to have to figure out how to transplant them soon, I'm not sure if I should just plop the whole leaf they sprouted from in the new pot or if I should snip it somehow... I'll figure it out.

Yoga was surprisingly "easy"... as in... it's getting more effortless, while still being effective. Like, it doesn't feel as draining. I still don't have a lot of range of movement in my hips, my hamstrings really hold me back, and my back too, I'm sure. But god damn, doing this every day since January? I look back at myself struggling to touch the ground on a forward fold back when I started yoga when I was snowskating, and I find it hard to believe. Now I'm like, both palms on the ground easy with forward fold.

Even more than just like... general flexibility... what I've found really useful is how yoga is teaching me mindful relaxation. I'm sure those words will induce eyerolls in some, because it's super cool and trendy to dismiss things at face value because they sound "new age-y". Nothing is more "scientific" than dismissing something at face value... Let me translate. This actually happened intuitively when I was doing yoga after smoking weed one day a few years ago. Weed would help my muscles relax more than normal, so I started to notice that poses that I struggled with normally... for some reason I was actually able to get into after smoking, and pretty comfortably. And it kinda clicked that my own muscle tension in other places in my body was preventing me from being flexible. And by relaxing in other parts of the body, it allowed me to get into the pose. So... like... rather than forcing my hamstrings to stretch... to rotate my pelvis a bit more, and learn what that feels like. Or to rotate and relax my lower back. Stuff like that. Because it's never one thing, the body is a whole system. So I've started to become much more mindful (aware, I'm paying more attention) of where the tension in my body is, and how it's affecting other systems, and trying to chill those areas out a bit.

That kind of body awareness reminds me a lot of skateboarding, and in my case snowskating. It's often the really little things that hold you back from shit. I remember I really struggled with heelflips the year I was learning them. I was learning them on a carpet in the garage of the place I was staying at, before taking them to the snow. And I could get the rotation every time, but the board would always go behind me. Like, I would just get the edges of my heels back on the board, if I was lucky. Kinda like with front shoves, where it just naturally wants to go behind you. And I was just getting more and more frustrated and almost gave up. Then I just thought... "why don't I try to pop with my back foot further back, like almost in the front shove pocket?" The theory in my head, maybe I'd be pushing the board forward slightly, or something? Well... it started working, and I started landing them. Fast-forward years later to last winter, and I'm really getting serious about learning flip tricks on flat towards the end of the season. And I start getting kickflips down decently, and I go for the heelflip... and I realize... I am leaning way forward, way frontside. Like I'm crouching forward to pick something up. So when I pop, my whole body is kinda going forward like that, and the board is going backwards. And that whole foot correction thing I did? It wasn't solving the problem as much as it was masking the cause. My whole center of gravity was off, not just my foot position.

Once I uncovered that weight issue, like where I carried my weight when doing flip tricks? I started to see it everywhere. I saw it in my 3 shoves, I saw it in my kickflips, my varial flips. Even when I was doing ollies I wasn't comfortable with, like ollieing down stairsets. I would regularly land with my weight waaaay frontside. But when I comfortably popped, like I was just cruising and ollieing, my weight would be square above my board and it would be effortless. So... in a round-about way, I started to be much more mindful of where I was holding my weight and my posture when I was popping. And tricks started to come together much easier. It was like... like a mindgame thing... where if I was scared of a trick or really serious about it, I'd really lean into it, and crouch wrong, and... ironically... end up making the trick waaaaay harder to land.

So, now that I'm learning a lot more about body awareness and shit like that, I have a strong feeling that's going to have a big impact on snowskating this winter. And skating this year, if I can get myself to actually get out to the park.

So yeah, yoga was nice, workout was pretty easy. Then I spent the rest of the night just... sifting sand.

I really enjoyed it! This probably sounds super fucking boring, but I actually had a really nice relaxing meditative day just... scooping sand and sieving it into a big glass cooking dish, sifting the bigger stones out. Then washing the stones and putting them in another glass cooking dish. Then, when I had a good amount, popping them both in the oven for about an hour to dry. Now I have a very decent amount of sand and I'm pretty much set to start making my first garden. Then I spent the rest of the night going through the gravel I had sifted out of the sand one-by-one and picking all the light colored quartz out. Again, might sound mind-numbingly boring or tedious, but I found it really relaxing. I think I got through maybe... 1/4 of the gravel? I don't know, I don't even know what I'm going to do with it, I just thought it would make design work easier if I had the stones sorted by type. Or maybe I'm just stalling, idk.

No stream tonight, worked on that instead.

That was pretty much my entire day, honestly. I just had a stream on in the background and made some dinner at some point and that was it. Tarot time.

Past - XI: Justice, inverted (A force that can see your true intentions, your inner thoughts, but can see the world as a whole as well. She represents inner revelations coming to light, and the action of true justice.) Present - Ace of Cups, inverted (A new relationship and the accompanying surge of emotions. Getting in touch with your feelings. Matters of the heart. A deepening bond.) Future - XVII: The Star, inverted (Hope; the guiding light. The North Star, a reference point at dark times to provide security and peace.)

Alright, triple inverted! Yay. So... The Star was new to me (in this deck), so I filled in that definition, the others are ones I'm going to do from memory, then fill in the definition after.

The thread starts with inverted Justice. Justice is a conceptual Justice, like a Divine Justice thing. I like to think of it in what people normally consider a "karmic" sense. Like... the cause-and-effect of the universe making things "right". I remember struggling to interpret this before because... when inverted, this version of Justice is staring directly at you... when upright, it doesn't. But... when it's inverted, the scales reflected in her eye are upside down... So... maybe it's sort of... getting hung up on things in life feeling unfair? I mean, it's a dysfunction or blockage caused by the force of Justice, maybe it's sorta the embodiment of those moments like... "well what the fuck did I do to piss off the universe so much?"

This leads to Ace of Cups, inverted. Ace of Cups is the gigantic outburst of emotion that comes from a new experience. A new relationship, a new connection, a new adventure. Again, inverted meaning... dysfunction. And I don't think that's a lack of feelings around new experiences... if anything, they're waaaaay too overpowering.

This leads to The Star, inverted. The Star is... the guiding light. It's a very direct representation of the North Star... in that... it's the symbol of a reliable compass bearing. When you're lost in the woods at night, and you can see the sky... the North Star will always help you get your bearings and orient yourself home. So, it represents that sense of... "oh shit, okay, we got this." The safety and comfort that come with that. But, again... inverted... so... something is blocking that, or disrupting that symbol.

Alright, I think I got the card meanings pretty close. Again, inversions I'm always shaky on simply because I don't like going "oh... what's the opposite of Justice... Injustice. We'll call it that." Still developing that aspect of my readings.

So... this is sourcing from my feelings that life has kinda been a bit unfair to me? Or that Justice is kinda... off, somehow? I don't know, Justice is like... by definition supposed to be able to see your True Self, not just your actions, it's supposed to be beyond that... that's why I'm hung up on just saying "oh, Justice got it wrong." It's a divine force. So maybe... it's me that's out of balance... because I don't really fully understand the Justice that has been done? That makes more sense. Like... let me use an example. Like a former friend gaslighting me and laying into me about perfectly reasonable everyday friend shit, and burning down the entire relationship and storming off. And I linger on that going "that was unfair to me..." But, in the end... that spared me from having to walk away from them, from having to be the "bad guy". So... when you look at it that way... as much as it was shitty and hurt really bad and fucked with my head, and as much as I didn't deserve it... it kinda worked out in my favor. Because that person escorted their self out, doing me a huge favor, and if they ended up coming back, they'd have to own up to that shit first. Like... if they ever wanted to come back, they would have to directly address the core issue, so... I don't have to bring it up. Silver linings, right? I don't know, it's subtle, but that kinda thing... that Justice is present, but... it works in ways that don't really make sense at face value? I feel like that kind of presence is what's going on here. So... that whole feeling of injustice... but there being a bigger picture... leads to me to a bit of a dysfunction around the big surges of emotion that I get when I encounter new social situations. And... these outbursts of emotion are not innately bad... they are just... a lot. The image illustrates them as a big wave pouring out of a woman's heart and arcing over her head with the aim of landing in a cup in her outstretched hand... but you know most of it's going to miss. So it's just... a big outpouring of emotions that is kinda wild and unmanaged? Like how the emotion of stagefright makes your hands tremble or makes you stumble over your words. I would normally read inverted here as like... someone is kinda numb or disconnected from their emotions... but I know for a fact that's dead-wrong for me. So I see it more as the dysfunction I have around these situations... my avoidance and fear of these emotional surges overpowering or incapacitating me. My fear of fear. And this leads to... a barrier between me and my Star, my compass heading. This leads to me feeling lost and disoriented and not knowing where to go or what to do. Feeling lost in the woods, unsafe, insecure.

In one sentence? I was treated unfairly and because I can't see the whole picture on that... I have developed issues around forming new relationships... and this leaves me feeling very lost and aimless.

Well that's a fun note to end on...

#diary #journal #online journal #stream of thoughts #stream of consciousness

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Hi!!

Hanya is such a beautiful name <3 Does it have an specific meaning?

And "collect boy groups" ahha I love that.. I'm still pretty new to the whole kpop universe, and so far only SVT, ATZ and a little bit of SKZ really got me to keep up with them... For some reason I never really got involved with girl groups and I don't know why that is, tho I certainly appreciate them and as a bi person... I just feel attacked from all sides hahahaha Maybe the pressure on them to be 'perfect' is even worse than with the boys so they don't feel as genuine... idk... I know you said you collect bg but if you have gg recommendations I'm all ears

I love that you are also close with your family, my cousins all live far away but I love them soo much

AND YES QUEEN KRAKEN; I'm literally Bobby screaming "Kraken-ya" every time I rewatch the Wonderland stage haha... and no... atz definitely don't sleep I... I don't even try to HOPe they rest anymore (great meme btw heheh)

"to kill a monster with a skateboard in my crop top and boy shorts"... like, coolest sentence I've read in a while hahah I used to sing in a choir from 8 until I was 18 years old, I was a soprano and really good at it, but without practice I've lost some of my mojo... But it doesn't stop me to sing along to every single song I can hahaha My dream would be to sing with Dokyeom... (my ult of ults <3). And I studied graphic design tho it was a very basic course and I never really used professionally, it became more of a hobby and I have some creations on my blog, but now I make more gifs (yes, I'm a gif maker haha) Is faster and a little less creatively demanding so is good to pass the time and relax... recoloring stuff is definitely my favorite part of the process (your gift will be a gifset btw haha I'm still deciding on what exactly)

I would LOVE to have acting classes and learn to dance and play an instrument too (piano would be my choice) and I feel like the group of people I would meet in these environments would be incredible, but right now I just moved on my own to a new country so money is kinda short hahaha But I keep an eye out for that and I learned that is never too late to start anything

I love that you say YunGi are normal height cause I'm 1,55m so... shorter than the shorties hahahahah I guess that's why I tend to stan giants (from my pov), must be compensating hahahaha

Do you mind sharing what you do for work? And where will you be traveling, that's exciting!! There was not much celebration per se on my birthday haha I knew my friends would all be working, so I booked a little solo trip and got to meet a new town nearby a had heard lots about... And people were definitely right, I loved the place and had an Amazing time!! One day before my birthday I managed to secure tickets to see Ateez in Madrid which I still cant believe!!! It will be my first big scale concert ever and I also gave myself a ticket to watch the ballet "Giselle" next week, so yeah, a pretty great birthday week/month hahah I'm an ambivert with great people skills and I love my friends, but I LOVE my time alone as well, you know? 😅

Hoping for your excellent week to be realized 🤞🤞🤞

-Atiny Secret Santa <3

Aww thank youuuuu and no it doesn’t have a meaning it’s just the short, familiar, gender neutral version of my name lmao

I do collect them! I pick them up, inspect them, and put them in my bag. You’ve got good taste, “Hot” grabbed me by the throat and did not let me go for a second, the vocals on that are insane. When DK comes out fucking SWINGING?!?!?! I’m manifesting you getting to sing with him, he’s an S-tier fave, we love boys with big ass voices. I used to adore girl groups, but now they’re all so young that I can’t get into them. I remember being on stage as a teenager and 😬 So I still listen to all my 2nd gen nostalgia songs and follow the women in their 30s and 40s instead – when Kara sang “Step” at MAMA I might have teared up just a little. But none of these new girlies could do Hyolyn’s “Laying Low” so I’m fine. Anyway, if you like older girl groups (both have been performing longer and the members aren’t 17), check out EXID, they’re my favorite girl group – “Fire” wasn’t great, but they are, and I missed Solji so much.

Queen Kraken dominated that stage, I cannot beLIEVE she was robbed like that. smh even let Seonghwa ~kill~ her. We need them to sleep, they’re going loopy, I’m always excited for a comeback but I’m even more excited for a NAP.

It was SUCH a good film pitch. It’s about a bunch of skateboarders terrorized by a monster but they’ve all smoked too much and are too paranoid to figure out what’s going on, which is such a funny concept. I can’t skateboard but that’s fine cause the skateboarders can’t act.

Ooh another singer! Sorry you’re a soprano tho :/ (I’m an alto, I gotta get that in). But YES, it doesn’t matter if we sing seriously or nah, it’s so much fun to just belt along with the radio and music is all about enjoyment.

Oh nice! I admire gif makers, I can’t do it, I much prefer gfx (although I haven’t done one for Tumblr in a while orz), and I’m unsearchable on both of my blogs so I’m just like if I can make something annoying enough for one of my friends to chuckle sensibly that’s my goal. Recoloring is so fun but it’s still work, and then on top of all the other stuff to make a good gif set? You’re clearly so much more patient than me, even if it is meditative for you haha

Dude, it’s been so great taking classes again. I’m not any good at Meisner technique (my teacher yelled at me frequently, all of which was very deserved, and I respond better in the arts to brutal honesty and tough love, so my monologues are peak now) but it was amazing to get back into that space with such interesting people. There were some who were so annoying, but that’s the risk and it’s worth it imo. And you’re so right that it’s never too late to try, the secret is that there are fewer interesting roles for younger actors than older actors, and so you’re always growing into something better, even just good scripts to read in a class.

They’re, what, 185-ish? I’m 180, we’re sooooo normal. My fatal flaw is that I immediately assume the tallest male idol on stage is my dad’s height (196) and then when I find out they’re 180-185-ish I’m like oh so they’re normal! Normal height! It’s not our fault these other boys decided to stop growing! (Actually tho – my cousin was so mad when she moved to America for college and all her classmates weren’t at least 190. She scolded her dad for being 195 and skewing her expectations for American men, since he was the only American in their small town. If we point out that Japanese men also aren’t known for being 190, she says at least she wasn’t lied to.)

I work for the food and beverage department of a museum. I do the boring back-end invoice tracking, but when I’m on-site during the parties it’s wild. When parties are booked at the museum there’s a specific vibe – expensive and extravagant and ridiculous and a little bit tastefully tacky – and so it’s always just fun. The last one had a whole crew of dancers dressed as Lichtenstein paintings, in big dresses, bigger wigs, and stylized halftone makeup. A couple months ago was a sneaker ball, where people wore eveningwear and (WayV voice) thousand dollar shoes

I’m going to the Vatican! My dad’s there like yeah lmao you don’t have to come but his partner (deeply Catholic) is spiritually twisting my ear like “you witnessed a miracle, your father got out of a wheelchair, you are GOING.” I’m not meeting the Pope, but I get to watch my dad meet him, which I’m relieved about since I’m not Christian lmao.

Hey, sometimes you get your own little private celebration, and then a second celebration with friends! That’s totally cool! What town, if you don’t mind me asking? And congratulations~ Have so much fun (at both of them) and I want to hear everythinggggggg I’m not kidding I want a full rundown of your favorite parts.

#atzss22

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wpdariacutnes · 2 years

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Me: a das say me guy a happybetcher cup halloween but im fund dead note one but im not buy dys yeah (boyfrend Real zero jelly but dys)::

me: josua is second to jeson because his name is his name and he has declined in general, he says it

But yes, no ship a toxic will not be because they are only friends (which is why he didn't kill each other because they knew each other for a long time) and megaman have some distances and even looks and frendzone rudrze Ale loose (not by force of association)

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but it will be shorki but I am smashed by short RP ::

Shorki: *a paddle on the beach and Josua is looking* ... ugh...

Josua: so help you? *ask shorki but dys fact*

Shorki: well im cant kill you like dys and deam run because im fiking marmaid but male staws so yeah help

Josua: I will only find the flying skateboard there because it is fashionable, wait or count the stones because it will take time

Shorki: deam 6 time now im finks * looks at the seagulls * and you surely won't take a picture of me because I live little shit up here

Josua: I didn't fucking find it, but I found a basket on wheels and a total of ice cubes in the package, miraculously too *graps a shorki and help like dys* yep you so huge

Shorki: * das look hem* thx a say dys relly im relly hope self too HUGE

Josua: what woring say huge like same moony ploblem say icecream now finks im firting

Shorki: but im love icecrem

Josua: because you deam killer fish * out head sowing* baby shork dudud

Shorki: gosh im not baby

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Me: yeah vivi x zero only because normal code a can but sowing finks a better only hem because only be code same but dyfrent toking rooms like same going code but dyfrent say so

And yes vivi a dys out:::

But more guru take dys a kid because "better a matcher relly"::

And yes im hope a vivi is canon relly like im drwoing fert time a 2011 so yeah dys fact to working

Like not so wering so lot time a head dress a fatcher das more sans why armor skin is white or dyfrent staws a code "police" so yeah code not so moch introsting dotche doing but enifing megaman code get dys in car so no vivi cant be criminal dys fact a hem dotche a hem child

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Offical note: 23.10.2022.r

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#vivi megaman ver #megamancomunity #mereal #wpexpleing #youtube #parents take rule #art 2022

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