#i clearly know nothing about astrology haha

[thegreatestofheck]

Nothing More ⍋Routledge!Reader⍋

request -  Omg do a Routledge reader fic where John B is so focused on telling off JJ and warning him not to da*te his sister and he never worries about Pope and then Pope ends up dating her and John B is like 👁️👄👁️

warnings - none really, just a bunch of fluff I guess pairings - pope x reader, jj x reader, kie x reader (it’s a surprise 🥰) synopsis - You’re secretly dating one of the Pogues and your brother is starting to become suspicious. The only problem; he’s fixated on the wrong friend.  a/n - So, I went a little bit off the rails with this one. I had an idea and I ran with it, I really hope you don’t mind haha. I’m sorry it’s a little short. 

                                                   *** John B watched you carefully out of the corner of his eye. Your head rested in JJ’s lap and he fiddled with your hair. You weren’t paying enough attention to your brother to notice, listening intently instead to Kie as she rambled about astrology. 

“Okay, so, I don’t know if I should be insulted when you call me a cancer or not,” JJ said, his chewed off nails grazing gently over your scalp. The movement made your eyes flutter shut. 

“I didn’t call you a cancer, I said you are a Cancer.” 

“I’m not hearing the difference.”

Kie rolled her eyes. 

“It’s your star sign, dipshit,” you told him with your eyes closed. “The constellation you were born under.” 

“What’s that got to do with anything?” 

“Do you ever listen to a word I say?” Kie asked, half amused and half insulted. 

“Not generally, no.” JJ said. u8hPope, who was sitting with his nose in a book, started to laugh quietly to himself. “If I’m a Cancer, what’s y/n’s sign?” 

You looked over at Kie and raised your eyebrows. 

“Taurus,” Kie said with a knowing smile. You tapped your foot against her knee and rolled your eyes. “Pope is a Capricorn and John B, you’re an Aries.” 

John B didn’t seem to be paying attention at all. He kept his gaze fixed solely on you. 

Being John B’s half sister (younger only by four months) meant almost every single move you made was heavily scrutinized. Especially when it came to boys. More often than not, John B was far more concerned with whatever you were doing than the conversation at hand. Today wasn’t an exception. 

“J, can I talk to you real quick?” John B said, pushing himself out of the dirt. JJ looked up at him and then down at you. With a huff and a roll of your eyes, you sat up, letting JJ stand after your brother. You turned and leaned your head against Kie’s leg. 

“Hi,” she said, smiling down at you. 

“Hi,” you said back. 

“What do you think they’re talking about?” Pope asked, looking up at John B and JJ a few yards away behind a tree. 

“I bet he’s telling him off again,” you said, moving your eyes to look at the boys in the distance. 

“Really?” Pope sighed. “Again?” 

You shrugged your shoulders. 

“JB just takes the no pogue-on-pogue macking rule way too seriously,” Kie said with a laugh. 

“He’s the only one who hasn’t broken it, so of course he’s serious about it,” Pope said, looking back at his book. 

“’She’s my baby sister, JJ’,” you grumbled in a gruff voice in imitation of your brother. 

“’She’s not a kid anymore. She can make her own decisions’,” Kie whined, lamely mocking JJ. 

The two of you continued your dialogue, pretending like you knew exactly what was going on between the two of them. It dissolved into silly quips back and forth and then just senseless laughter. By the time JJ and John B returned, you and Kie were in hysterics. John B looked like he had been sucking on a lemon, but JJ was just smiling like normal. 

When he sat down, you lifted your legs and dropped them over his lap. JJ leaned back, raising his eyebrows at John B, almost like a direct challenge. You looked over at Pope and the two of you smiled. You even sent him a wink, knowing full well that John B was paying far more attention to JJ than to you or Pope or Kie. 

All any of you could do was laugh. 

                                                  ***

The party was in full swing. Kie and Pope were sitting, sipping on beers and laughing about something or another. John B was with Sarah Cameron, his girlfriend, by the keg, still passing out beers to whoever wanted one. 

You and JJ were on the dance floor. His hands were on your waist, his body pressed up against you from behind. You could feel the heat from his body pulsing off of him and you could smell his sweat and Old Spice. The music thrummed through your system as you lifted your hands to wrap around his neck. With you eyes closed, you let the rest of the world pass away, relishing in JJ’s touch. 

By the time the heat of dancing got to be too much and you and JJ were stumbling away from the dancers, John B was no longer at his station. Instead, he was standing angrily off to the side. You and JJ glanced at each other, rolling your eyes in sync, electing to head toward Pope and Kie instead of risking your brother’s anger. 

JJ sat next to Pope, flinging an arm around your shoulders as you sat between him and Kie. The four of you spent the rest of the night laughing it up, drinking, playing whatever games anyone offered them to play, and generally having a good time. 

It was around 2 am when the five of you made it back to the Chateau. John B was still looking sour, especially after Sarah left early to make it home before curfew. You knew that you couldn’t keep lying to your brother forever and he had just about reached his breaking point. 

When you all walked in to the Chateau, John B was pressed up against the wall, his arms crossed, and his eyes narrowed. 

“I’m calling a meeting,” he said. You had all expected it, so it wasn’t really a surprise. Still, it was crack ass early and you all wanted nothing more than to pass out. You walked over to the counter and lifted yourself up onto the counter. JJ moved to settle between your legs, but with a sharp look from John B, he elected to go elsewhere. Kie leaned up against the counter next to you. 

“I think you know why we’re here,” John B said. 

“This isn’t an AA meeting, JB. Just get on with it,” JJ snapped, clearly too tired to deal with this any longer. 

“Fine. JJ, y/n, I know you two have been fooling around the past couple months despite the clear line that I drew and I want to know what the fuck is up with that.” 

You heaved out a heavy sigh, tapping your heel against the creaky cupboard below. 

“You really don’t know much of anything,” JJ told him, getting more and more irritated by the minute. 

“You think I’m blind?” 

“No, I think you’re stupid.” 

“Okay, enough!” You shouted, lifting your head with a scowl before John B could cross the room. “John B, there’s something that I got to tell you that might make things a little less complicated.” 

Kie tensed next to you, but you almost felt yourself start to laugh. 

“What is it then?” 

“I, uh-” You pressed your lips into a fine line to keep yourself from laughing. “I’m gay.” 

John B’s eyes widened and he dropped his arms to his side. 

“I- what?” 

You nodded your head slowly. 

“Yeah. JJ is my best friend, nothing more.” You glanced down at Kie, who was looking up at you with tears in her eyes and a proud smile on her lips. She had come out to the pogues months ago and had been waiting eagerly for the day when you felt comfortable to as well. 

“y/n,” John B said, his voice breaking. He looked at the other three, who didn’t look surprised at all, and he realized that he was the last one to know. “I’m sorry you didn’t feel comfortable telling me. But I’m proud of you and I love you.” 

You smiled at him. 

“Thanks, bub. But there’s something else that I should tell you. I have been seeing someone,” you told him. John B stayed silent, clearly not wanting to say anything before you had finished, but he looked tense. “Yeah, uh, Kie and I have been dating for almost a year now.” 

“What?” 

You felt yourself smile. It was good to finally be able to say it. Kie put her hand on your knee, smiling up at you, and gave a little squeeze. 

“Did...you guys know about this?” John B asked, looking over at Pope and JJ who seemed to have no reaction to your deceleration whatsoever. They both nodded slowly. When John B looked at you with a face full of hurt, you thought you might as well explain. 

“A few months ago, back when you were hanging out with Sarah for every second of the day, we went to a party on the boneyard,” you told him. “It was just after Kie and I started dating and we were dancing together, chatting, whatnot, not really hiding it, but these guys kept saying gross things, people giving us looks, you know.

“We were getting super uncomfortable and wanted to leave, but JJ and Pope figured it out before we even told them. They’ve been...covering for us, I guess. And we’ve been-” You looked over at JJ and Pope. JJ looked at the ground and Pope looked straight at you, a small, proud smile on his face. “I guess, we’ve been covering for each other.” 

“Since we’re being honest all of the sudden for some reason,” JJ said with a sigh, lifting his head. “Pope and I have been going out, too.” 

He turned his head to look at John B, who looked like his head was seconds away from exploding. 

“I flirted and hung around your sister so that no one would say that disgusting “threesome” shit to her and Kie and so that Pope and I could keep things under the radar for a little bit longer.” JJ uncrossed his arms and reached out, lacing his fingers through Pope’s. 

Now, you couldn’t help but smile either. It had been a heavy weight on your chest, keeping such a big secret from your brother. But he told Sarah everything and, although you loved Sarah to death, you weren’t sure she would be able to keep something like this to herself. It was best if all of it just stayed between the four of you until you were all comfortable with it. 

“Are you mad?” You asked John B as he covered his face with his hands. He let out a deep, thoughtful sigh, before lowering his hands and looking up at the four of you with a beaming smile on his face. 

“How could I be mad?” He looked at you directly, tears swimming in your eyes. “You’re happy, aren’t you?”

You placed your hand over Kie’s, tracing your finger over her knuckles. 

“The happiest I’ve been in a long time.” Which was easily translated to “The happiest I’ve been since Dad died”. 

“I was so fixed on keeping you away from JJ, I thought....” John B stopped to laugh at himself. 

“You weren’t thinking straight,” you finished with a sympathetic nod. 

“Or you were thinking too straight,” Pope said, laughing at his joke. Kie and JJ looked at him with raised eyebrows, but you thought it was funny. 

“Shit, man,” John B said, pushing himself off the wall. “I’m so happy for you guys.” 

He walked over to you, pulling both you and Kie into a bear hug. He squeezed tightly, making you wheeze out laughter. 

“Okay, okay, that’s enough,” you said, pushing him away from you. 

“We could go on triple dates!” He had the look of a kid in a candy shop, eyes wide as he glanced between you and Kie and JJ and Pope. 

“Ooh, slow down there,” JJ said, putting up the hand that wasn’t holding Pope’s. 

“We’ll do a double date someday,” Kie piped in. She pushed herself onto the counter next to you, wrapping an arm around your waist. 

John B smiled at the two of you. He moved forward to give you guys another hug, but you put a hand against his shoulder and pushed him back. 

“No more brotherly affection today,” you said. “I think I’ve had enough.” 

John B sighed and took a step back. 

“Are you going to yell at us any more or can we crash now?” JJ asked. “I’m beat.” 

“Oh, no, we’re all good,” John B said. “Kie, can I talk to you real quick?” 

You and Kie glanced at each other while JJ and Pope made their way toward the spare bedroom. You could hear the both of them snoring within seconds. 

“I, uh, sure,” Kie said. 

“Don’t try and steal my girlfriend from me now,” you said to your brother, only half smiling. 

“Just gonna lay some ground rules,” John B said. You scowled for just a moment, opening your mouth to say something. “Hey, if it was JJ you were dating, I’d have the same rules.” 

“What about no rules?” You suggested, tilting your head to the side. “Sorry to break it to you, but you’re still not my dad.” 

“I know. But I’m your brother and I’ll be damned before I let anyone hurt you...ever.” 

“I understand that, but Kie has been nothing but good to me since we started dating. She doesn’t need your rules. She-” 

“y/n, relax.” Kie said, putting a hand on your shoulder and giving you a loving smile. Then she turned to look at John B, that soft, kind smile never falling. “Let’s go talk somewhere.” 

You watched as she followed after your brother onto the front porch. You felt like maybe you should go to your room, sit up and wait for Kie. But you couldn’t look away. John B donned his serious face, talking with his hands as he always did. Kie stood there in front of him, hands in her back pockets as goosebumps scattered up and down her arms. There was a smile on her face, hidden beneath a serious look. 

Every once in a while, she glanced in through the Chateau window toward you. Once she even gave a wink. The conversation seemed to be going well enough. Still, you were almost surprised when John B opened his arms, inviting Kie in for a tight hug. You couldn’t help but smile. 

John B walked back inside, a little strut in his walk. 

“Night, sis,” he said, shooting you a thumbs up. 

“Night, John.” 

John B whistled all the way to his room. You laughed quietly, hanging your head and kicking your feet ever so slightly. 

Kie walked back in and let out a content sigh. You lifted your head to look at her. She walked toward you, settling herself between your knees and resting her arms on your shoulders. You hooked your fingers through the belt loops of her denim shorts. 

“Does it feel good?” She asked you quietly. “Knowing that he knows?” 

You nodded your head, rolling your lower lip between your teeth. 

“Yeah, it feels good. I wasn’t as scared as I thought I would be,” you told her. Kie put a hand on your cheek, brushing her thumb across your lips. 

“I’m proud of you,” she said, her voice husky and quiet. You leaned forward and kissed her lips, gently, softly. 

“So, what are our rules?” You asked her once you had pulled away, only keeping a breath between you and her. 

“Oh, you know John B. No macking in front of him, no sex in the shared bathroom. Watch out for each other at parties, the same old, same old,” she said with an amused smile. 

“That’s not so bad then,” you said, tugging on her belt loops to pull her closer. Kie let out one of her signature laughs that was almost near a giggle. It always made your heart pound in your chest. 

You had been in love with this girl for as long as you knew her. Being able to hold her at night was one of the only things keeping you sane these days. Knowing that your brother was aware of your relationship made it all the better. 

“Should we go to bed?” Kie asked and brushed a piece of hair behind your ear. 

“Yes please,” you whined. She took your hand with a smile and helped you down from the counter. You wrapped your arms around her waist and let her lead you back to your bedroom. You flopped onto your bed once safely inside and she laid down in front of you. Curling your arms around her waist, you smiled as you tucked face into the crook of her neck. You placed butterfly kisses against her shoulder and neck, humming softly to yourself. 

“y/n,” she mumbled. “I can’t sleep when you’re doing that.” 

You sighed and placed one more kiss against her shoulder before letting your eyes close finally. 

“You smell good,” she whispered. You popped your eyes open.

“I thought we were sleeping.” 

“I know, but I wanted you to know you smell good.”

“I smell like sweat.”

“The good kind.” 

“I love you, Kie,” you told her quietly, letting your eyes shut once again. 

“I love you, too.” 

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[byuntrash101]

Cat, you're a capricorn, right? As a cap, which other astrological signs do you find the easiest and the hardest to get along with? And do you have any interest/like astrology?

Hi babyyyy 💖💖💖

First.... *inhales intensly* THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT ASTROLOGY TO MEEEE

Yes I'm a proud Capricorn!! Being a cap as its ups and down (like every other sign tbh).

Soooooo let me break it down to you!!

Disclaimer: I am NOT an astrologer and what i'm saying is purely based on my (very) little knoledged and personnal experience.

Let's start with some FACTSSS about the Caps.

Most Caps are introverts (lol me). SOme can look extroverts but are actually just doing tremendous efforts to socialize. Think about other Cap idols like Kyungsoo or Jongin theyr are both clearly introverts but they are very sociable and fun around people they are comfortable with like yours truly.

Also caps have BOUNDARIES. They are independant creatures who don't fear being alone.

The thirs thing about being a Cap is that they are literally keeping EVERYTHING for themselves and always act tough/unbothered when they actually care deep down but they rather die in a isolated ditch like a wounded animal rather than actually ask for help.

That's why for instance i'm very uncomfortable with the idea of being vulnerable and always use humor to hide my negative emotions. I hate to admit that i need help so much that mys siter developped this technique where she won't ask if i need help and she will just provide it.

Now lets get down to it.

The sign I find I get along with easily :

Cancer: Cancers are not an easy sign to understand because they tend to be very sensitive and the cap is sometimes a little too honest but I think the dynamic we have with cancers is healthy. Also both us are homebodies we like to stay in and don't need a lot of friends ad lost of alone time. Thats why I love cancers

Scorpios: lemme tell you theseeee *mwah* a great match! they get our twitsted dark humor and they can even top it. Scorpios can be a little controlling for the independant cap but overall they both have to work on the same thing aka letting people in their (mushy) hearts cause scorpios can be even more secretive than the cap.

Taurus : maybe that one is only for me as a cap idk if it can applies to the others BUT taurus and me we share the same appeal for everything that is sExY i day dream about dirty things all day longggg and taurus do to haha. We share many of the same values as we are both earth signs only taurus can prove to be a LOT more social than us and also a LOT more hard headed (dont try to change the mind of a taurus)

Honorable mentions to : geminis and aquariuses and other caps

The sign I find more difficult to get along with :

Virgos : Virgos can be a little selfish which doesnt float with me. As the cap is shy to ask anything for themselves they need somebody that will be attentive towards that and virgos are mostly not. Also they can sort of know-it-all and the caps hates to be patronized

Leos : they are known for their big egos thats not for nothing. I think at the end we just hurt each other without thinking. Leos will be hurt when the cap is concentrating on themselves and their business and Cap will get annoyed when leo gets clingy when in fact they only want to share some love/friendship

Libra: what a cap values the most is being dependadable. every cap i know (including me) pride themselves on being always their for their friends/loved ones. They are RELIABLE. And libras they are the definition of free, most of them are scared of commitment which what a cap (all earth signs tbh) thrive on. Cap will feel like they make all the efforts to keep the relationship going and libras probs won't even realize they are draining the caps energy because it's just not a big deal to them.

Honorable mentions to : aries and pisces.

What it really gets down to

I think you can get along, (not necessarely be bff) with ANYBODY if everybody involed TRIES! You have to ackknoledge your own flaws and not only point out the ones of the others. That's a difficult exercice but it(s the best way to learn and gow.

SOOO I actually never judge based on the zodiac sign!!!! I honestly can get along with everyone mostly because i am easy going (or at least i like to belive that haha)

Also, some people are just assholes regardless of their zodiac signs... and thats that on that.

THANK YOUUUUUUU for asking that it was really fun thinking about all of this.

It also kinda gave me an idea ofr a ff.... I'll see. Now i have too many things going on haha

#ask #thank you

[elitespacefreak]

if you're accepting headcanons, and this probably ooc, but what about a hopelessly in love zim with an oblivious reader. i just love this disastrous green alien 😭

I HOPE THESE HOLD YOU OVER UNTIL I GET YOUR FICLET UP

Okay so he didn’t even know he was having FEELINGS at first it was like ‘lol what it feels like I swallowed a bunch of bees haha’ and it takes so many of these weird comments before Dib tells him ‘bro those are FEELINGS’ and realization slaps Zim across the face.

He doesn’t get it at first, but he knows that feelings associated with emotions are super complicated and so he spends a lot of time zoning tf out and staring off into space trying to analyze what he feels and why and what to do about it until realizes he likes you specifically way more than anyone else.

So he just spends all day lost in his own head while he tries to come up with the perfect way to tell you that he likes you. It starts out with just him watching you with this big ass doofy grin on his face (that Dib is constantly rolling his eyes at).

Eventually you notice that he’s been looking at you a lot more than normal so you think maybe he’s warming up to things and wants to be friends but doesn’t know how to ask. So you invite him to your next study session to be nice - bonus: he’s wicked smart, perfect study buddy. Cue the cute studying routine~

He sits next to you, he always double checks your work, walks you through the things that you don’t understand, and helps you build a study guide. For you, it’s a nice routine that you can count on because you like the company. For him, it’s the most rewarding excuse to spend time with you because good god the feelings are really comin’ in strong and shit he just can’t stop smiling.

Dib confronts him about it, ‘you like her,’ he says. ‘Of course I like her, she’s nice to me.’ ‘No like, you have feelings for her.’ ‘I know right? I mean feelings are super weird but I think I’m getting the hang of them.’ Dib gets very frustrated. ‘No! You have feelings for her, not… I dunno, about her I guess? You treat her different, you’re in love with her.’

Oh… OH. Is that? Is that what those feelings were? He certainly didn’t feel them for anyone else, not even the other people he just liked in general because they didn’t suck. No no, his stomach bees (Dib called them butterflies but he insisted this was way more intense than that) went absolutely buck fucking wild when you were around. He should do something about that.

First he starts offering to buy you coffee after your study sessions, to which your bashful acceptance lights up his whole face. When you touched his arm and said thank you he almost melted into the fucking floor. And when you hugged him goodbye? Dib was pretty sure he just short circuited. Like actually for reals.

He did notice that you were very touchy feely with other people that you seemed to like or were close with. And while he felt honored to be considered such, the teeny tiny twinge of jealousy did motivate him to step his game up.

But no, he can’t just buy you flowers or ask you out to dinner - those are all boring human things. Instead he invites you over for neat astrological events, bakes you homemade sweets, and spams you with you fun space facts disguised as disgustingly cute compliments. And you’re always so grateful for his attention!

But… for as much as he was always such a dumb blushing mess around you, nothing seemed to change. Were his advances not enough? Perhaps he wasn’t appealing enough to you specifically, so he should try something else? Did... you just not return his affections? Was he not worthy of you???

After less than 12 hours of Zim’s horrible spiraling episode of him convincing himself that you didn’t like him, Dib finally explains it to him. ‘Remember when you didn’t understand social cues and everything went over your head? It’s kinda like that, you’re gonna have to spell it out. None of this underhanded romantic bullshit, just tell her.’

Just… just tell you??? Well, he’s never had an issue proclaiming his thoughts or feelings aloud before, right? So perhaps he could just walk up to you and say ‘hey I have feelings about you and I think we should go out to date’ except hopefully it would sound less like he was a Certifiable Idiot™.

OR he could be characteristically extravagant about it. Yeah Dib’s idea was dumb (as usual) and he clearly had no sense of style. Zim wasn’t just going to tell you he was in love with you - he was going to make sure he got the point across, and he knew exactly how to do it!

You’ll have to wait until I post the ficlet to find out what this giant surprise is~ It’s stupid cute not gonna lie, I’m real proud of it ewe

[shizen-hime]

I've never had my chart read before :o if you're up for it, that would be cool. Born Dec 21, 1986 at 2pm in Rinteln, Germany

(my program didn’t have your town so I picked the nearest one to it)

Okay, let’s start! I like when people don’t ask me anonymously so I can see a bit the blog aesthetic since it helps me interpret heheSo as always I’m not English and if the hour is not 100% correct the interpretation can change and I`’m still learning blah blah blah

We see a really well balanced chart, though you lack a bit of air, and we actually see it kinda hurts you because of Chiron in Gemini but meh.So starting from your Asc, Venus is Taurus planet. We see it’s placed in Scorpio, and since this sign has Pluto on it, you have a strong Scorpio energy. We can clearly see how this Venus is important to you by looking at your blog, which is strongly aesthetically influenced by Scorpio (and you have a lot of your Sag planets in Scoprio’s house, the 8th), so the occult, death, deep stuff, the unseen, sex, transformation etc, are things that just are your thing. You love all things that are not what they look like? Or like you like seeing what’s inside stuff, not just the surface. And you don’t only like it but you love talking about it and have deep, meaningful conversations.I mean you only have to look at your blog to see your aesthetic, it’s so clear! And that Venus is really meaningful to you, like you HAVE to show it to the world, since Taurus is in your Asc and Venus is in the 6th house, the house of work environment, the house of the day-to-day stuff, you know? It’s part of your identity. It’s quite well aspected, so I’ll assume you’re probably very liked in your environment and workplace, but you cause a strong impression because of that Pluto there (but not like scary since it’s just there, not making any aspect). Also, Venus in this house might make you want to work at something related to health and it will ask you to reinvent and transform yourself. Your Sun and Moon are making a trine and this is super fortunate!!! Congrats! You have a kinda easy life and people probably like you a lot! You actually love children and animals, older people, etc. 

Your Leo Moon is really warm, you’re probably a true leader and also makes stronger the need to show up yourself, like you have to be original and true to yourself. Being a Sag it all makes you a really warm person. Being it at 5 you might be too... hmmm.. maybe interested in having fun? I mean, the 5th house is actually Leo’s so you’re basically in your element when you’re out or you flirt with someone? Being a Sag and that Moon there might make you a very passionate lover and a very generous one.

Super honest (maybe too much sometimes lmao) and I believe you must dislike so much gossip or stuff like that? Dunno, but Chiron in Gemini might make this. At least you don’t really like talking just because, and you hate talking nonsense, like unnecessary stuff? At some point of your life this kind of behavior could have hurt you somehow. Probably when you were between 7-13 or so. This Chiron (investigate about what this is, it’s very interesting) is actually making an opposition to your Mercury, so maybe at some point you felt you couldn’t communicate well or others didn’t understand you? Dunno but could be related to your lack of air, like you might feel you can’t communicate properly.Anyways, the Saturn/Mercury conjunction might make you someone serious about what you say, you’re very conscious and you don’t say stupid things. To say that, you just shut up (tho you won’t shut up when it’s a matter of defending others or your values).

A Sag Sun in the 8th house is really up to learn about Astrology, Tarot, the occult, magic (as we said before), so you would definitely be a good astrologer if you’d like to learn about it (I always recommend to do it, it helps a lot with anything lol). In general, you’re a pretty optimistic person (Jupiter in Pisces reinforces that), easygoing and very warm, I like you! (*sees you also have an Instagram and looks at it*) Death is definitely your aesthetic LOL, but you do it in a really loving way, you make it look very beautiful (your Venus!) and you really like animals as I assumed c:Definitely a Taurus Asc, your wide face features and forehead!

If we keep talking about your Jupiter, we can see reinforced your like in charity and your sympathetic and hospitable nature BUT it’s making a square to Chiron, so at some point you could have lost all your faith and this amazing optimism? The cure to this (if we can say it like that) as well as all Chiron difficulties are to face problems as they are and just try to solve them and if we can’t, accept them. The best part of Chiron is that you can actually use it to help others, and since it’s in the first house (just like mine) you can help others by liking themselves (probably something you had to face too). You probably inspire a lot, though you “uninspire” yourself lol. Dunno how to say it but it’s just like that.Definitely someone really liked in your environment and with that Mars conjunction it empowers that. Though Mars in Pisces gets lost (I also have it there) since it’s a warrior and Pisces definitely isn’t, it gives you the ability or the need on wanting to help others. Like if you see someone being bad to a minority or a weak person you’ll stand there for them and go to the end until you can “save” them. Really nice aspects, though you can get a bit carried away by all this “helper” energies and you might end up seeing yourself like the savior, like the one that has all the answers (adding your Mercury/Chiron/Jupiter), a “guru” or something like that (I’m also kinda like that haha). So just letting you know not everything is good or bad, white or black. All good can be bad and all bad can be good, you just have to learn how to use the energy life gave to you.

Let’s be ending! Your North Node is what you’ve come to do in this life or something like that, like your purpose here. Since it’s in the 12th house, you’re definitely here to help yourself and others, but by going to your inner self and discover who you are. Meditation is something I’d recommend you 100%. Isolating yourself is also good to you (like be alone to just think). Since it’s in Aries, sport would do very good on you too (well and who wouldn’t lmao). But yeah, like empowering yourself, be yourself and also take care of YOU. Since you’re older than people I usually read charts of (they’re all from the 2000 lol), you’ve probably experienced this “realization” energy, but you still have to go to your inner self and just meditate and discover, all your life.But you’re someone very capable of change. All your water, all your Scorpio and Sag is also a mutable sign, so definitely a very transforming person, and that’s so cool because life is about that tbh. I see you’re a trans man, and your chart tells a lot about how you’re willing to realize and able to face change without problems, willing to be your true self c:The 12th house tells a lot about this charity thing you have too! It’s like you have to find the balance to help others but by being and empowering yourself too (Aries). GOOD!

Being so much water and fire can make you someone that is like fluctuating between a lot and nothing, like it’s too much or it’s too little (dunno how to say it), like you can lack of stability a bit. And air is what you don’t have as we said, so you definitely can face problems when communicating or socializing at some point (tho I don’t think so). Maybe at sharing ideas? Meh, don’t take it too seriously.

Finishing with some aspects you might have right now. Hmm so Uranus is now entering Taurus (in your 12th house). Ever since it entered your 12th house it kind of made you suddenly change. I think it could be when you started your transition? When you realized you were a trans man? If it was during 2010 it could be, but if it was before (2007) maybe it was because of Pluto was transiting your Sun but yeah during that period of time you had to face a lot of sudden change of transformation and death and resurrection (your Pluto was also opposing to Uranus). It’s like you suddenly realized a lot of stuff and you HAD to change, and since you’re a pretty Uranian person you were totally ok with it and went to change. Now it’s like... it’s still there but you kind of have to make it solid. Like all this going to your inner self and change is making you lead to some point and you’re starting you see what it is, this March could have started this realization or this willing to make solid a lot of stuff.ALSO your career is about to change somehow? There will be a Pluto/Saturn conjunction right in your MC (career) and it will be truly on this December and during 2020 (a crisis year for all the world just wait).OOF so you got all the slow planets making things to you:1. Uranus that is transiting your 12th house, the house of your North Node, telling you what you’ve come to do in this life.2. Pluto/Saturn in your MC, telling you and giving you opportunities to change your career, to change your way to see authority, willing to empower yourself.3. Neptune transiting your Jupiter/Mars in Pisces that reinforces your charity/willing to help others, deep stuff, great imagination!!! 4. Jupiter that is transiting Sag and it gave you a pretty optimistic year and it’s still going to be there for a while, so use the energy to expand yourself.

You’ve probably had rough years but your life or the way you see it is definitely changing and you’re a changer so go for it! I definitely recommend you to investigate more about astrology, maybe Tarot or something related to this mystery stuff you like so much!

Dunno why but I felt a lot reading your chart.. like... idk I see you such a great person and I could feel it and I’m such a dumb Pisces that gets carried away by feelings so T _ T) And I see you’re so true to yourself and I think this makes you so happy, I love that.I’d love to hear what you think! I could say so many other things and there are probably tons of things I didn’t even realize (I’m still learning lol) so feel free to tell me anything or something c:

Have a great daaaaaaaaaaay!!!

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Regarding post/172299066623/istj-hedonist-samlick23-istj-hedonist-when I don't get why people would compare mbti with astrology and shit. It's as flawed as any other personality theories but it's still a system that works. Astrology doesn't even deserve to be called a personality theory 😩 And just like u said it's never about 'personality' anyway?? That test clusters people yet only considers people's behaviors as if nobody doesn;t have shit like that

Okay. These are among the most exciting asks that I have received so far. I would like for this blog to be as drama-free™ as much as possible because it’s just my virtual escape™. I have also always expressed that I don’t consider this blog as solely an aesthetic™ and inspiration blog. In fact, I was very humbled to be encouraged by my friends and followers to continue including topics that interest me in this blog. But even though this is my blog, I know that I have the responsibility to check what I post here to ensure that nothing would negatively affect someone else’s mental and emotional health (especially as I have observed that most of my followers are minors). So I would just keep my response under the line—and because it’s just really, really, long. HAHA. Also, just for future reference, if you oh-so-hate MBTI [or whatever piece of knowledge I feature here/ if you’re only interested with the aesthetic™ content], you could blacklist my *mbti*, *text* and *photo* tags.

Coincidentally, I would be having a mini-hiatus, and this would be my only response regarding this topic because I’m not really fond of tumblr drama™. I would be temporarily disabling anonymous asks during my break, so if you have anything you would like to discuss with me, kindly contact me via private messaging (but please be patient with my response. I promise I would get back to you as soon as I become online). My only request is that you should first read what I have to say before reacting to anything, because I might have already discussed what you are trying to ask. No worries, I wouldn’t judge nor hate you for your opinions. I actually welcome and enjoy healthy debates (as it is part of my real-life job lmao). And I’m not a fragile snowflake™ so you could really talk to me about anything, I wouldn’t mind :P 

Firstly and most importantly, I want to apologize to anyone who had been offended or had felt attacked on my rant. I was not describing a particular person in the *inner dialogue*, and it’s not my intention to offend anyone. So if anyone had felt this way, again, my apologies.

So what is this post about?

I had recently reblogged an MBTI post where I was referring to the function theory—not the common MBTI stereotypes and misconceptions circulating over the internet. And just like what I had mentioned over and over again [and on my tags on that particular MBTI post], online MBTI tests are not accurate and should not be taken seriously. It’s disappointing how 16personalities have been profiting from this by selling misinformation to people. This was OP’s topic, in which I had just agreed with their views and had personally shared my opinions as well. Yet it seems to be that there had been some misunderstanding regarding said topic. Literally OP’s argument—and the same criticisms we continuously read regarding MBTI *points to some of the anons above*—are exactly what we are critiquing as well, because these are common misconceptions and stereotypes which are not related to the theory anyway. So I don’t really understand the intense reaction regarding our opinions on the letter dichotomy and online MBTI tests, because we actually disapprove of the same things as well. Weird -_-

I never mentioned nor even vaguely expressed that MBTI should be the zenith™, the absolute “ Law™ ”, nor do I believe that it should monopolize all the ideas in personality theories. That’s just.. funny. We wouldn’t mind if the function theory is not your thing; you can leave it just like that. Simple. Just like how everyone else has their own beliefs and interests that others simply don’t agree with as well. Nobody would forcefully entice you to MBTI, especially if you had not expressed your interest and curiosity for it. It’s just a matter of respecting others’ POVs and interests.

I could easily brush this off because I truly believe that people are entitled to their opinions, and I respect that. More importantly, I had studied typology for several years now that I’m already quite confident of my knowledge about it. Thus, I won’t easily be shaken by criticisms about the theory—which I’m very much aware of anyway. Sadly, it’s seems to be an automatic impulse in tumblr to hate, rather than communicate. My friends had told me of someone publicly posting something defamatory with regards to the MBTI post that I reblogged. I don’t know what that particular blog had been aiming for, but clearly their hateful intent had failed miserably. I didn’t expect the support of my friends, more so, the consideration of people from the MBTI community. I really want to thank everyone who had supported and understood me even if I wasn’t online during that time. My friends are so protective of me, and the responses of people from the MBTI community had been so funny and adorable I’m SO flattered. Watch as my face turns vermillion xD

With that said, I felt like I should at least explain my part and answer the anons who aren’t in favour of MBTI. I just want to stress that I don’t plan to forcefully persuade you to believe MBTI. My only intent is so that you could look into my perspective as I share my knowledge and understanding after many years of studying the theory, in contrast to the misconceptions and stereotypes about it, which I believe is what these anons were referring to. I emphasize that if MBTI is not your *thing*, then you could simply ignore it. This topic is very important to me because it had helped with my well-being, introspection, relationship with others, career, and general outlook in life. So I just want to clarify some points with regards to the asks above^ because I believe some misunderstandings had occurred. So thank you very much @hueristix​, @clumsynix​, @ckatharcis, @tzeentchs-secretary​ and anons for your messages. I am really so thrilled to discuss my views with you.

The cognitive function theory—more commonly known and referred to as MBTI [especially here]—explores the human cognition, NOT outward behaviours and personal preferences. Contrary to what the first anon had said, I believe that we cannot compare the theory with astrology because the former never categorizes how humans act the way they act, more so, it never simply propose their “ personality traits ”. The theory recognizes that every person has their own free will, inherent capabilities, traits, emotions, and preferences (etc. I could go on and on, I swear), and would be constantly affected by personal struggles, life circumstances and other external factors through out their life.. and well, basically just like what Jeanne (ckatharcis) had referred to, it acknowledges that humans cannot be “ clustered ” simply through their behaviours, personal preferences, traits, etc. because again, the theory is NOT about that. Thought process is the essential and primordial reason why outward behaviours, personal preferences, emotions, etc. are easily observable in a person, and NOT the other way around. Thus, it’s also the reason why your type cannot change contrary to common misconceptions, and essentially the reason why tests are not reliable. [Link 1, Link 2—I highly recommend this post.]

I think the first anon is not familiar with the function theory, but, instead, with the letter dichotomies (i.e. I vs. E, etc.) which is the general principle on the said 16personalities site [and other online MBTI tests]. This was exactly what OP had criticized and what I had discussed on my *inner dialogue*. Again, I do not blame the first anon or anybody else who are familiar with this concept because misconceptions and stereotypes are easier to be accessed, contrary to the theory itself which would definitely require time and in-depth research to get acquainted with. I understand that not everyone would be interested to invest time and effort on something that they would just like to casually learn. And it’s okay.

However, I would like to clarify that I [and I truly believe that OP as well] have no intention to humiliate, condemn, mock or ostracize people who had only been familiar with MBTI stereotypes (the letter dichotomy) and/or had only taken online MBTI tests, because we understand that [again], sadly, those misconceptions are disappointingly perpetuating in the internet and even on some books. OP had clearly stated that their only issue was how people who aren’t really familiar with the function theory should refrain from initiating any MBTI-related discussion. Even if I personally agree with OP, their premise was repeatedly contradicted by others who were justifying the validity of 16personalities. However, I believe that asking questions and expressing genuine interest to learn more is different from spreading misinformation to others. As long as you do your own research first, the MBTI community here is actually very welcoming of people who would like to learn more of the theory. The MBTI community here also encourages critical thinking, exchanges of different ideas, and endless rational debates—which is exciting, right?

I think OP had been very honest with their opinion (though may had been perceived as *offensive* and rude by some) and I truly concur with their points. I’ve said in my *inner dialogue* how I believe that spreading wrong information is destructive. It is damaging to other people who have only been starting to learn the theory, to take advice and information, or be mentored by people who had been misinformed as well. Why? Because above all else, the theory is used for self-evaluation and understanding of one’s strengths and weaknesses (with regards to their cognitive process), to provide clear direction on how to advance towards their personal growth and development. For that reason, if one is mistyped, and they generally believe that their thought process works this *particular* way and that they have *certain* strengths and/or weaknesses, then they are not only failing to seize the opportunity to recognize their *actual* strengths and weaknesses through fully understanding how their cognition works, but they could also potentially damage their mental health and well-being because that is not how their thought process operates. It worsens when spreading misinformation like that is increasing exponentially.

We would never dismiss nor humiliate anyone who have only been starting to familiarize themselves with the theory, because we had been beginners as well. Mate, my blog is not an MBTI blog, but I have two mutuals who had been so humble to admit that they had fell for that abomination-of-a-test, and had asked me about the basics and other resources to study the theory. I never ridiculed them; contrary, I was so proud of their humility to admit that they had been misinformed, and of their willingness to learn. There is no shame in that. I really admire people who admit their mistakes or ignorance because I know that people who think this way are really the ones who have the desire to learn and improve, and have insatiable thirst to absorb more knowledge.

I’ve been studying the function theory for about 3 or 4 years now, but I still consider myself to be a newbie at this. Even if I’m already quite confident of my knowledge about it, I know that I still have a lot more to learn [and that’s exciting]. But OP and other legit MBTI blogs here have been studying this theory for many years now, and they are considered as reliable resource persons for other MBTI enthusiasts as well [at least in tumblr]. Which is why I think [just my opinion], they could easily retaliate on insults or misinformation thrown at them by people who don’t even make an effort to read just the basics and/or have poor acumen to just believe everything they read on the internet, yet have all the liberty in the world to whine and be [passive-aggressively] defensive to rationalize their misconceptions of the theory. These legit MBTI blogs know what they’re talking about, and I think you could be the judge as to how they could react to insults thrown at them by people who don’t even understand the topic itself. I’ll just quote hueristix here, “ laziness should not be an excuse to ignorance ”. As I’ve said before: be receptive to different ideas, yet skeptical enough to question everything before accepting any piece of information as real™. And yes, that includes everything I say. After all, I’m just responding to opinions as well and we’re all just stating our subjective views here. We wouldn’t mind if the function theory is not your thing; you can leave it just like that. Simple. Nobody would forcefully entice you to MBTI, especially if you had not expressed your interest and curiosity for it. It’s just a matter of respecting others’ POVs and interests.

Yes, I am passionate about this theory and I know it is fine. But never had I mentioned nor even vaguely expressed that MBTI should be the zenith™, the absolute “ Law™ ”, nor do I believe that it should monopolize all the ideas in personality theories. I don’t know if what the first anon actually meant was: since I’m so passionate of this theory, then MBTI must be My Favourite™ personality theory, thus, I propose that it should be held true above all else.. but uhm I just want to clarify that MBTI is not My Favourite™ (I even prefer Enneagram over it, sorry haha). I am aware that it’s not the most recognized personality theory in the field of Psychology. And I had said it before, and I’ll say it again: just like any other typological theories, I know that MBTI has its merits and flaws. Though there is qualitative neuroscientific research intended to point evidence to the existence of cognitive functions in the human mind, MBTI is still not 100% considered to be scientific by some [because according to them there is no physical manifestation of cognitive functions. Uhm. I’d just leave it like that.. For now]. No personality theory is infallible. And again, as I had said in verbatim on my *inner dialogue*: “ The human mind is so complex. And to propose that a person’s *personality* could easily be identified through a 10-minute test is just absurdly.. laughable to me [not to mention that that test is focused more on NATURAL HUMAN behaviours and not cognition—which is what the theory is about anyway xxxx xxxx xxxx] like wtf so amazeballs that they could identify my *personality* with such an overly-random question that any other person could have strong preference over the other. ”. So I don’t really understand what the first anon’s critic was, because what they had pointed out was exactly what OP, I, and basically all the people who had studied this theory are continually expressing. Based on my tags alone, we’re actually on the same team™ here.

How? (1) I had said earlier that the theory does not limit human free will. It understands that people have innate imprints in them that manifest on how they act, talk, feel, etc. In the same way, it also understands how people and their preferences are constantly developing and changing [and yes as the first anon said, “ evolving ”], because humans will continue to encounter and be exposed to several personal afflictions, relationship struggles, disappointments, successes, gratifications, religious beliefs, cultural conformity, and other life-altering situations and external factors throughout their lifetime that will heavily affect their behavioural makeup and adaptability to their external environment. Everyone—whatever their type may be—can behave any way they like depending on the situations and circumstances that they are dealing with, because there are many factors that affect and influence how people behave, not only a person’s type. BUT their cognitive functions have been there all along, constantly operating, even if their *functional stack* could fluctuate on their healthy and/or unhealthy states depending on how they had adjusted and adapted to these circumstances [uhm more advanced topic of the theory—see the beauty of this theory? It’s never obsolete. Contrary to misconceptions, the theory recognizes the erratic human nature. It pains me how people could outright dismiss and insult the theory without studying it first, because they fail to realize its usefulness in a person’s life, more than what that shite site says *ho hum*]. (2) I agree with most of the principles of the function theory because it doesn’t “ categorize everyone into 16 cutout personality types ”, nor does it have a manual that says “ ‘here are a few common personality traits, be free’ aspect ”. MBTI stereotypes and ideas from the 16personalities assert that; the function theory does not. (3) [uhm this is getting so repetitive now] The theory is not about what our external behaviours are, nor does it dictate what our *personalities* are. Rather, on the simplest terms, it analyzes how we think. It analyzes how we make decisions, through our cognitive process, when we encounter a particular situation.

Hopefully, my explanation would be enough to clear up some misunderstandings from the aforesaid post. However, I believe that this explanation alone would not suffice for anyone who are still confused with the theory and/or for those who are interested to learn more. Hence, the next section is really just for reference and further clarification, just in case there are still some questions that others are still confused about. That said, I know that I would not be able to articulate these ideas the way this particular blog do [and I don’t want to sound like a bot if I would just be reciting their ideas exactly as they had expressed it], so I’d just be quoting one of the most reliable MBTI blogs here and a personal favourite of mine (mbti-notes), to give insight on some issues that had been critiqued on that post. These are really interesting and thought-provoking ideas so I hope you could take time to read them. Also, I highly-recommend their blog!

[With regards to common MBTI stereotypes and misconceptions]:

Anonymous: Stereotypes give people wrong assumptions about what types are. They don’t define what your personality or your actions are going to be like. They don’t even define what thoughts you have. It’s simply the pattern and the functions you use to come to conclusions. I’m an ENTP (22) and my best friend is an ENFP (23). Yet people would probably switch our two types because I tend to be very gentle and kind around others while she appears more tough and openly says what she thinks.

I appreciate your point. Part of the reason for the stereotyping problem is that the information online and even in books is dominated by two main schools of thought that focus very heavily on behavior at the expense of cognition (Myers-Briggs and Keirsey Temperaments), so a lot of people do not realize that there are other (better) interpretations available. My first exposure to typology was through Keirsey and, although I thought it was interesting at the time, I wasn’t able to see the full potential of the system because everything was masked behind simplistic labels (stereotypes) that didn’t seem to connect with real life to the degree that I thought was necessary to be a truly viable theory of personality. I think a lot of people get interested in MBTI because of its practical applicability in situations like personal relationships or group/work environments and MBTI is good for learning some general rules of thumb that can help you improve the ways in which you deal with different kinds of people. However, general rules of thumb very easily morph into stereotyping and pigeonholing when people do not understand the finer details of the theory and then apply the ideas and principles too carelessly. The human mind is prone to lazy overgeneralizing or drawing invalid conclusions as it is and the lack of depth in the information available unfortunately encourages that laziness. (Source)

[With regards to MBTI’s *accuracy*]:

Anonymous: Do you think that other personality identification types such as Alignment and Global 5/SLOAN are more, less, or just as accurate as MBTI can be?

“Accuracy” is not really the right question. Every theory of personality that is developed by academics is put together very deliberately to serve a particular purpose, and it must be used as intended in order to preserve validity. Unfortunately, when the ideas trickle down into mainstream consciousness, the original purpose of the theory often gets lost in translation, with the general public using it more like a horoscope or fortune cookie and then complaining about the inaccuracies. Every kind of theory has its advantages and disadvantages. For instance, the Five Factor model is a trait theory, which has the advantage of being easily quantifiable and very reliable for statistical analysis. However, there is no actual theoretical underpinning for it because the traits are derived from factor or data analysis, which offers no explanation as to why traits exist, how they arise, why there are only five, and so on. Trait theories are limited in what they are able to explain about human behavior but they remain very useful for doing replicable research studies. There is of course some overlap of concepts between trait theories and type category theories like MBTI.

Cognitive function theory is a qualitative and holistic model of personality that sprawls into other related areas of psychology. Qualitative research excels at theoretical analysis and depth of detailed explanations and is less conducive to statistical analysis/prediction. Jung developed psychological types as a part of the psychoanalytic tradition, however, that tradition fell out of favor in the US to make way for more popular quantitative research methods, though it continued to expand in certain European circles. Myers & Briggs and David Keirsey brought it back to life in a more digestible form but it was never meant to be distilled to such an extreme degree; MBTI essentially turned into a corporate money making tool and Keirsey rejected the notion of cognitive functions in favor of behavioral descriptors. Many of the criticisms that are leveled at MBTI are legitimate but not actually applicable to cognitive function theory because of not seeing the full extent of it and how it is embedded firmly within the long history of psychoanalytic theory, a school of thought which has done more than any other to reveal the qualities of the unconscious mind. Now that there is emerging neuroscientific research that confirms some of these old ideas about the unconscious, there is some resurgence in their popularity within research circles. (Source)

[With regards to MBTI’s basics, development and “scientific” basis]:

Anonymous: The J/P dichotomy is particularly interesting because, say, you have already three letters I N F, the last letter decides not only your dominant and auxiliary functions, it flips the stack; INFP (Fi-Ne-Si-Te) vs. INFJ (Ni-Fe-Ti-Se), and then we read that according to descriptions those types are very different. But then we also have a lot of people who can’t really decide if they’re INFJ or INFP. It’s all very strange to me.

It’s strange to you because (judging by the earlier question) you haven’t understood what the J/P distinction really means and you haven’t properly distinguished cognition and behavior. Two different cognitive functions can manifest similar looking behaviors on the surface (as I have explained numerous times in the guides, please read them carefully). E.g. Any introvert can be reflective but the reasons WHY a particular individual is reflective, the motive and explanation behind it, differs according to the cognitive functions involved (Fi vs Ni). If you don’t know the details of their inner cognitive processes, you cannot see the differences because, just looking from the outside, all you see is that they are both reflective in demeanor. xxxx xxxx xxxx MBTI type descriptions are purposely simplistic because newbies don’t know the theory and therefore must identify themselves through simple behavioral descriptors. MB designed their system in part to sidestep the complicated process of learning function theory so that more people could access it, a noble intention, therefore simple type descriptions do not include all the info you need to type accurately because they do not address variations within type and cognitive function specifics. In other words, problems with typing stem from lack of knowledge of the theory, usually because of not going any deeper than the simplified descriptions/tests. The test was meant to be administered and interpreted by an expert, which means that people run into all kinds of problems when they try to self-type with limited to no knowledge of type theory.

[continuation of the ask] Is there any real scientific proof that Jungian cognitive functions exist? Dario Nardi’s attempts are certainly interesting, but it’s a common knowledge that EEG method is far from being reliable. Also, on one of his AMA discussions on reddit he presented instances when he was testing midlife INFJ adults who he couldn’t differentiate from of ISTPs, which he attributed to the use the second most common pattern (Ti-Se for INFJs). So, which model is true, or is this a combination of dichotomies and functional stack model? Can you shed some light on those issues and inconsistencies? Additionally, I’d really like your opinion on Reynierse’s articles (“Preference Multidimensionality and the Fallacy of Type Dynamics”, etc.). Thank you. The question of “science” has already been beaten to death over and over again so I’ve grown impatient with this can of worms. I don’t have much to say about Nardi, he’s pursuing his ideas and more power to him, but his work is not particularly interesting to me because it is getting away from other aspects of type theory that I am more interested in. xxxx xxxx xxxxx Some people latch onto him because they desperately want some kind of “scientific proof” of the functions. Some people dabble in typology and keep demanding “scientific proof” but don’t understand the differences between quantitative and qualitative research. There are different kinds of theories, with different kinds of objectives, with different standards of measurement, with different methods of application - the scientific method is only one valid research framework and it should not be the measure of all things. Traditionally, science often includes the concept of falsifiability but you can’t falsify that which is not within the realm of empirical fact, e.g., you can’t falsify human valuations or subjective meaning/experience, so are these things not “real”? Do you understand the difference between facts and values? Do you believe that only scientific measurements can imbue ideas with value? Do you believe that materialistic explanations of human psychology are the be-all and end-all? Not everything about human experience can be reduced to neurons and electrons. If you think it can, then feel free to dismiss type theory as crap because it’s not going to fit well with your assumptive worldview. Also, abstract and concrete knowledge are different and should be treated differently. No idea is “real” because “real” implies concrete, and ideas are abstract. One can easily claim that any idea is not “real” depending on how you want to set your standards of measurement. xxxx xxxx xxxx Similarly, people claim that “types” or “functions” are not real even when they themselves: behave as type theory describes, suffer the problems that type theory describes, feel attracted to the relationships that type theory describes, follow the developmental path that type theory describes. 


Before you ask for “scientific proof”, you should first define exactly what standards of proof would satisfy you and make you believe that cognitive functions are “real”. It is quite often the case that people who like to harp about scientific “proof” don’t even understand what they’re asking for or to what end, they demand proof but no matter what proof is offered, they keep moving the goalposts because they are actually more interested in criticizing than understanding (see climate change deniers as the perfect example). Just so you know, many mbti bloggers are tired of dealing with such people, we’ve already gone through all these arguments a million times. I’m not saying you’re one of these people but beware that you’re stepping into a complex discussion and don’t seem sufficiently prepared. Instead of making people explain or educate you, state your exact criteria of scientific proof and I’ll happily tell you if type theory passes. Type theory is a big theory and some people find it hard to understand even the basic type concepts which barely scratch the surface because the theory goes far beyond simple typing. It is an incomplete and fragmented theory, with many people working on it for different reasons in different directions. Many people have found elements of type theory very useful and accurate in their lived experiences, even using it to permanently solve long running psychological issues, even using it to deftly cure relationship problems. There is piecemeal neuroscience evidence which does not directly relate to type theory but nonetheless corroborates it. I wouldn’t know if any of this is enough “proof” because you haven’t specified exactly what proof you’re demanding. If the book falling on your head doesn’t prove gravity is “real”, then I suppose all the people whose thought processes match the principles of type dynamics don’t count as real proof either. The results say a lot. I run a popular typology blog and have dealt with thousands of people, so I at least don’t suffer from sample-size-1. Type dynamics describes very specific problems and offers workable solutions, and I’ve witnessed many different kinds of people from different backgrounds, cultures, walks of life apply these ideas with great success. Is this “empirical evidence”? I’ve had the most hardened scientifically-minded strangers think I’m a magical wizard when I can knit together their life story and reveal their innermost insecurities based only on four letters, yet all I’m doing is applying and extrapolating from the theoretical ideas as I understand them, nothing more. 


All I will say about arguments against type dynamics is that they usually can’t see the forest because they’re stuck in the trees: they get wrapped up in granular details and superficial inconsistencies; they don’t see the historical big picture of how every model evolves from and contains the same set of ideas; they don’t see how some disagreements between models are merely semantic and actually address the same underlying concept; they don’t fully grasp the principles of type dynamics and then produce strawman criticisms (some of the points in those articles actually support, add to, or help clarify type dynamics rather than debunk it); they perceive the explanatory flexibility of type dynamics as a flaw, not a strength; they probably prefer trait theories because they are easily quantifiable (and then completely miss the point of type dynamics); they don’t see how the ideas could potentially fit with mathematical dynamics and energy flow. Any theory worth its salt should remain open to criticism, development, and further clarification but, in order to critique a theory successfully, you must first understand it, and I don’t think the author of those articles has understood type dynamics well enough. (Source)

Again, I apologize to anyone who had been offended of what I said in my tags. And thank you very much for taking the time to read this post! :)

P.S. I have no intention to answer that anon who made a sexist comment about M & B. I have already discussed what my points are regarding MBTI Tests™, so I wouldn’t really judge them or anyone else for having fun with taking multiple personality tests. But since I think this anon have zero knowledge of the theory anyway, I have to clarify that it wasn’t created by M & B [who, by the way, even if they had not been psychologists by profession, had made extensive research of the theory—probably more than you would ever do, anon. Then again, I don’t really adhere to M & B’s approach], but was devised by one of the best minds psychology has ever known. FYI that person was a man—if anon would feel more validated™ to know that their own sex is the perfect authority for objective™ measurement of intelligence or competence *cough* it actually isn’t *cough*. Also, I really am so tired already to rebut something that is completely illogical, it’s even barely understandable. *ho hum* I’m very open to discuss opinions that differ from mine, but if you are trying to establish your argument through a sexist comment, then don’t expect that I would answer you with respect.

#asks #anonymous #answered #tagging this as: #negativity #just to be safe #ckatharcis #clumsynix #hueristix #tzeentchs-secretary #please ignore any typos and grammatical errors #i'm too tired to proofread this haha

[maiji]

Process and wip images for A House That Holds Long Limbs (Part 8)

Previous process and wip documentation: Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Parts 6 and 7

Read the pages here: Part 8 (full complete version will be linked from YYH North Bound master post)

I personally love exploring character dynamics and character interaction! It's definitely what I tend to focus on in comics and stories. Plus you get to draw lots of closeups of people's faces and have a lot of fun with expressions. And that's what Part 8 is full of.

IN THIS EDITION, after the usual script and thumbnails, I'll take a bit of time to talk about expressions and characterization (my thoughts on Raizen and Hokushin specifically, but also some general thoughts on how I approach writing characters and character interactions). More details of some of the panels from part 8 so you can see the faces better!

Script and thumbnails

(If you look closely at the top of pg 2, you can see the page behind was where I started drawing my random dream sequence hahahah)

It’s always kind of funny to look back at the script and see my rushed typing (or texting on my phone, since I’m often doing this on mobile...) - odd typos and dangling/incomplete thoughts like ”my blodd” (lol).

Part 8 was one of the first sequences conceived in the development of this story. As a result, the script and the thumbnails both line up very closely to the final, because I’d already been thinking about it for so long and playing the scene out repeatedly in my head. I had a very concrete sense of how I wanted to direct it, unlike many of the action sequences from previous parts. The main areas I struggled with were historical details (the karaginu was originally labelled “tarp” in the script as a placeholder until I decided what it would be), and the biggest pagination change was probably moving Raizen’s “Maybe you just didn’t take enough off lol!” to the previous page so that Hokushin’s (literal) punchline would be at the beginning of the next.

Expressions

I have a huuuuge soft spot for subtle expressions - the kind where just a bit of extra line or texture around the eyes or the mouth, plus the dialogue or context of the scene, adds nuance to an expression. Especially ones that otherwise can read as relatively neutral. Even a very simple expression that’s just dots for eyes and straight lines for the upper/lower lids and eyebrows can have a lot of variation in how you interpret them, simply based on context and slight adjustments. Here are some examples with Raizen, where his face is super basic:

A: pretending nothing is wrong, calmly answering question

B: pleased with self for being smart - clearly a happer expression than A

C: similar to A, chillaxing and answering question

D: no big smiling mouth so he looks more like he’s focused on intensely sniffing the air

E: same as B basically, but a bigger smile of “everything’s fine!” (when you read the text)

F: extra thickness for his upper lid gives the sense that he’s in the middle of his casual sexy/chivalrous how ya doin’ expression

G: ... which changes in this panel to be more a realization (“oh shit I’m on fire”)

Actually, Raizen and Hokushin are both pretty difficult face types for me, being more “mature” looking male faces with stronger features/jawlines and narrower eyes. Hokushin especially has been challenging because his design has really low eyebrows which result in a default glare. Togashi still manages to make him fairly expressive and not look like he's glowering all the time. With my more limited art skill and lack of confidence, I tend to soften his expressions by really laying on the top line of his eye (this sounds like I'm putting mascara on him or something lmao), and also adjusting the size of his pupils (within reason or it starts to look even less like how I draw him normally, which is a big problem since his shaved head is a defining aspect of his series character design so he already looks pretty different). Here are some comparisons of his face - bearing in mind I had to keep his eyes wide open because of the seals in the story:   

A: crying/relief

B: this one here is supposed to be a bit miserable/self-loathing because he really didn’t think Raizen was going to look for him

C: shock, unexpected

D: thinking + “ugh plan B”

E: worried/apologetic and then “OOF/URK”

F and G: a progression to show the differences in rendering the eye. First is a bit angry because he’s realizing where all the blood for the seals came from, then he notices Raizen’s hands, and G is that example of softened expression (more lines on the top eye, larger pupil) to show how bad he feels about Raizen’s injury. 

One last thought on expressions. They can easily lose their nuance when inking (the slightest shift to a line can change the expression completely), and especially for someone like me who has unsteady hands it can be a bit of a nightmare. The nice thing about ballpoints is that they can retain a bit of the pencil sketch quality, which helped me freak out less when inking the last page with Hokushin’s glare. Here’s a comparison of the progress:

Though this particular expression isn’t that subtle, you can still see some differences as the drawing gets built up. When the pencil lines are gone and the drawing gets rendered in bw only, a lot of shading is lost. The messy lines can be interpreted more flexibly by your brain since they’re less defined and you haven’t “committed”, so the final version looks and feels less expressive. (This is why a lot of artists prefer their sketches to the finished piece, myself included...) Characterization This will get very specific to this comic, obviously, but hopefully my approach (and biases haha) will come through. With something like a fancomic, there are obviously existing expectations around the characters, but the benefit of working with these guys is that they’re not as prominent in the story or the fandom, so I feel more comfortable playing around and filling in the gaps. (This is probably why I like minor characters so much.)

In the case of Raizen and Hokushin, we know these two have a close relationship and history only through assumption and insinuation. We never see them interacting directly in the series at all. Actually, we don't see Raizen interact with anyone except Yusuke in non-flashback sequences (aside from the kudakusushi. In the anime, more scenes were added with his estranged friends, mostly their fond memories of him beating them up lmao). But it's very clear that they're extremely important to each other. Hokushin obviously speaks of his king in an exceedingly respectful fashion. Meanwhile, Hokushin is actually the last name Raizen says before he dies - his second last line, to Yusuke, is "Take care of Hokushin and the others" - or in my Taiwanese edition, "I leave Hokushin and the others to you". (Lol “the others”. Also I need to draw a comic about this at some point.) Despite this zero actual interaction, it's still extremely easy to imagine it because their characters are so clearly defined. In fact, they're both such consistent archetypes with enough particular quirks that they practically write themselves. So it wasn't difficult to extrapolate and imagine much younger versions of them, and how they may have interacted if they had only just met, which is the foundation of North Bound. Archetypes and stereotypes walk a fine line together, but they do serve as really useful building blocks for sketching characters quickly. This is why I really enjoy symbolic systems like astrology (or some of the the modern incarnations - personality assessment frameworks) because of all the character sketching it helps you do really quickly. Astrology in particular because, without even caring about birth dates or charts or whether astrology is "real" or not, the basic idea of a sign and its bucket of traits and symbols is simply a great resource when you want fleshed out character archetypes to build off of. I talked a bit about this in my Lenormand post, but I think of zodiac signs as one of the many games humans have developed in our attempts to categorize our world into recognizable patterns, and since we've been at it for thousands of years, there's a wealth of reference material, scenarios, analyses not only of the individual archetypes, but for all sorts of combinations and relationships. Some of it very well-thought out, and some of it just lots of fun to read. For my purposes, applying this to North Bound, Raizen is basically a Leo. He's dramatic, positive, powerful, passionate, a straight-shooter. Not only does he embody its main traits, he's literally a king (or eventually one in this story, I guess). And he even has a mane, for crying out loud. Meanwhile, Hokushin is a solid depiction of a quintessential Virgo - hardworking, practical, analytical, stoic, kind - and literally the loyal servant that typifies the Virgo paradigm. The Leo/Virgo duo is a classic partnership, and at the point where we meet them in the series, the relationship we can see has stabilized to exactly that. At the same time, there's tons of potential for a hilarious dynamic as well, especially imagining how they got to that point. (If you wanna have a laugh, look up some analyses of Leo and Virgo relationships and you'll see what I mean.) His freakouts next to Raizen's "hahhaa everything's fine!" carry most of the humour (similar to how his freakout at Yusuke's vandalism of the rurimaru stones carried a ton of the humour in that episode lol). Obviously there are other things that further finetune their characters so that they're more than bland cookie cutter personalities (Raizen's deep thinking about the future of the Demon World, for example, and Hokushin's sense of humour and appreciation/enjoyment of fighting), but in broad brushstrokes, these archetypes work incredibly well, and make it so easy to come up with scenarios and write interaction to the point that I'm now ridiculously behind in actually turning them into comics ahhhhh...

#yu yu hakusho #raizen #hokushin #comics #fanart #process #wip #swearing #profanity #character analysis #character thoughts #expressions #art by Maiji/Mary Huang

[shenanigumi]

i'm curious how do you calculate the characters; birth time for your astrology hcs?? thats so detailed, haha (on another note, if youre ok with saying it, i'm realllyyyy curious about your hc for okita's birth time)

Well, I’m glad you asked! It’s rather convoluted, actually:

Gather all applicable historical information. Usually, at least the year is known. If the month and day are given, make sure the date is translated to the Gregorian calendar and then skip to Step 5.

If the month and day are not given, identify the character’s probable sun sign based on their personality traits.

Pick the most likely decanate (in which third of the month/sign they were born) based on which of those traits are most prominent. If they are in the first or third decanate, narrow it down to whether they are on the cusp. This will result in a selection of between five and ten possible days.

Head on over to the invaluable Astro.com and, after specifying the historical birthplace, input each date in turn to check the moon signs. Narrow it down to the day(s) with the most appropriate sun/moon combination. If you can’t decide, note them all down.

Check a reference on the Chinese zodiac, since it’s functionally identical to the Japanese zodiac, and locate the appropriate year. Then select three possible Chinese ascendants based on personality traits. (For the next step to make sense, you have to know that Chinese ascendants refer to actual birth time and cover two hours. Western rising signs are calculated based on birth time, but are not themselves synonymous.)

Input each of the three possible Chinese ascendants in quarter-hour increments for each applicable day, and identify the best Western sun-moon-rising combination that results. Sometimes, you can end up with a different moon than you anticipate because a rising sign balances it out.

If you end up with more than one possible birth time for the same sun-moon-rising, do a comparison exercise between planets as they move through the various houses. (For instance, is it more accurate to the character for their Venus to be in the third or second house?) Use your own judgment to determine which planet-house combinations are most important. Then count up the comparisons and narrow down the charts to those containing the greatest number of more accurate positions.

If you still end up with more than one possible birth time, check the planetary aspects—that is, how the planets interact with one another. Compare them, count up the ones labeled more accurate, and select the chart containing the most important ones.

If you still end up with more than one possible birth time, it’s clearly such a minor detail it doesn’t have much of an effect on the personality. Pick whichever one strikes your fancy. I usually go with the one closest to the middle of the Chinese ascendant I’m working with.

End result: a historically plausible astrological chart accurate to both Eastern and Western interpretations.

So you can see, I’m hardly entering into this lightly. If nothing else, I do my research and lots of it.

As for Okita’s birth time, I have it as 19 August 1842 at 23:30, although that abides by my own process instead of the possibility that he was born during a solar eclipse. In the latter case, another possible date is 8 July 1842, but I haven’t explored that one, since Cancer conflicts somewhat with my perception of his characterization.

Anyway, hope that was helpful in some way! Sooner or later, I promise I’ll finally finish sharing the fruits of my labors!

#answered #astrology #do i put too much effort into this? #yes #but it's a compulsion gdi #i do this for most of my fandoms #i did it for final fantasy vii too #and certain tales games #it's how i LEARNED about astrology

[whendoestheaftermathend]

13th March, 2020 // Friday

I think I’m going to lose my mind. I currently have a subtle headache, to start things off with. Meaning, it’s the headache from yesterday—but it’s sort of… repressed or pushed down, not on the surface, but it’s clearly there. I’ll probably be fine if I just get the right amount of sleep, eat healthily, and not take too much stress.

But let’s go back to the first sentence. I think I’m going to lose my mind, or I’ve already lost it. William Lilly said that Mercury is the fastest when he moves at about 1 degree 30 minutes, if I’m not wrong… and my Mercury, is well… its speed is 2 degrees, 34 seconds… so you can just imagine how fast my mind is since Mercury rules over the mind. But also, it puts into perspective—how easy it is for me to get anxious over every little thing, how the reason why I can be so meticulous with my words… or at least, appear that way to others, is because I constantly have anxiety over being wrong, over not citing correctly, over not being knowledgeable enough, not doing justice—enough, I don’t know. It would surprise me if humans fail to understand this. Everyone just needs to listen to my words seriously for a second to completely understand how unnecessarily anxious, my mind gets. It is a mental torture to me. What is the salt to the wound, rather, is the fact that I know that my knowledge isn’t ideally enough, maybe not in the eyes of the people around me, but surely—I know just how much one can know… or I mean, to what lengths one can go, intellectually. I know that if I try harder, I can reach those heights—and have depth to my words—even though, honestly, I don’t need to. I don’t need to go an extra mile just for this. But my mind… my mind tortures me too much, it makes me tick, in a very impulsive and negative way. I wish people would understand that, I wish whoever gets to be my teacher would understand that. I wish I would understand that, even, so that I could be lenient towards myself. I don’t know how to calm myself down… I wish I knew ways to do so. 

I want to cry. I feel like I don’t even have enough inside my head for me to worry this much, for me to cry over it all—even. I genuinely might have imposter syndrome, and I hate it because I don’t know how to tackle it. Words don’t soothe me. Actions don’t either. It’s just numbing the pain for a second until it comes back up again. I repeat, it’s a mental torture. I say I can’t bear it but ironically, I am bearing it seeing as how this hasn’t killed me yet. Though, overthinking can physically kill at times, so I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s how I went down.

I just want others to feel it, I want others to understand it, I want others to truly feel and know what goes on inside my head whenever I’m anxious like this and what it does to my heart… I shouldn’t have to go through this because my purpose in life isn’t even to do anything intellectually—at least, that’s what I feel. I’m not even supposed to do anything meticulous—life purpose-wise, I mean, and yet here I am… crying because I’m afraid to get even the smallest thing wrong, I’m afraid to make mistakes because my mind is too harsh on me… when it doesn’t make sense. Making mistakes… well that’s how you learn. Not being able to meet people’s expectations, the thought of it—petrifying. Though I guess I know, why I’m so adamant at getting everything right—just to get my teacher’s approval. It’s because my own expectations for becoming a good traditional astrologer are very slim… and not very solid. It’s because I don’t believe in myself that I seem to turn over to what my teacher thinks, ignoring my own—approvals and disapprovals… trusting his word and not mine, trying to take his word as a final thing—as if it’s the truth that I should abide by, as if what he chooses to say, sets the potential for me to become a good astrologer or not. God, how fucking pathetic, Sabrina. I thought I was stronger than this. Though I guess, I know why I’m like that. It’s the subject that’s too complex, too methodical and yet—too abstract. You have to remember a lot, and no chart’s ever the same. No placement’s ever the same. Sure, you can generalize the placements here and there, but ultimately, every chart is so unique and so different, that it’s like you’re reading a chart for the first time ever. Natal Astrology deals with people and their lives… it scares me to not do them justice, or provide them a fair reading. It scares me to get things wrong when reading for them because there’s so much prejudice about Astrology out there and I don’t want to contribute any more hate towards it because there’s already so much of it out there. I suppose though, astrology doesn’t care haha. It really can’t give a fuck and yet here I am, clearing losing it over wrecking its already damaged reputation. The world is too cruel to give the student a chance to freely learn and grow from their mistakes, the world that surrounds me, to be more precise. 

and my mind. My mind. My mind doesn’t think I remember enough, do enough, learn enough, it doesn’t. It’s too fast, remember? It’s faster than what normally one can handle. So while I can know that I should at least applaud myself for knowing something at least—my mind’s always the one to tell me, “no, you need to know more, this is nothing.” In the eyes of the many—it’s everything, everything else that I need to learn, to know, to do, just might be for extra credit or me being too “assiduous and meticulous.” 

and I guess I’m afraid of someone else other than my mind, supporting what my mind says—harshly to me. I’m afraid of it all being real, because it sounds so much closer to reality because reality is so negative whether we like to admit it or not.

But this is so wrong lol. I don't want to be told a bunch of sweet nothings, either. I want the truth; I want to be honestly told whether I’m right or not. It’s just, my heart’s so weak that it can’t take it when it comes to astrology. It hurts because I’m extremely passionate about astrology. It hurts to see me have constant panic attacks over the subject that I love all because of this. I chose a subject that is complex to begin with, that I’m doomed to fail in over and over again just like—every other, good and bad—astrologer out there. They said traditional astrology wasn’t for the faint-hearted. They weren’t wrong, but my reasons are purely different than what they had in mind when they said that. Dear God, please give me the strength to get through this, to reconcile with my mind, to get past this—to have a strong heart, to be thick-skinned. Otherwise, surviving in this world, in general, is going to be super hard for me. I already feel like I wasn’t made for this world…

So right, I don’t believe in myself, and my mind can provide logical reasons as to why. But even those logical reasons shouldn’t be the reasons why I stop. People with debilitated Mercury in their chart are skilled astrologers. It would be stupid of me to stop. For my mental health, I can probably put studying it on hold, but even then, it would feel like me running away. I guess that’s why I went ahead and submitted my assignment today even when I planned on not doing it because I knew I’d end up like this. But the thought of prolonging it—the thought of not being able to think about it even, just made me feel so guilty and so disappointed in myself. I felt like I was running away and not facing the situation at hand, properly. Now, given the circumstances I’m in currently, sure, I can be excused for running away, especially since this sort of thing… is really not that big of a deal compared to the life-and-death situations people I know are facing. If anything, this should be the least of my worries. Even then… even then, knowing it would be fine, even then—my mind was not having it… I wasn’t having it, either. “I don’t expect myself to be good even though I really want to be good at astrology… so I want others to recognize the potential and the capability in me that I can’t, for them to say it as if it were a fact,” –probably what my heart thinks, but even then, this is so risky. People’s feelings and thoughts are so fluctuating. Who are they to decide whether I’m good at something or not? Even if they’re in the field I’m studying? Even then? Logically speaking, their words have some weight on them, knowing they are experienced and what-not, but even then… whatever they say, isn’t an “end” point for myself—for what I want to be.

I’m trying to convince myself. But it seems nothing gets through to me.

It’s funny, isn’t it? I’ve cried, panicked over this, and yet my teacher probably has no idea that I’ve been a mess during our concise email conversations. as if I don’t get anxious enough on my end, for myself already, my mind decides to get anxious just because he didn’t properly read my messages and didn’t reply directly? Even when I specifically stated everything—properly? That’s not something I should get anxious over. I do feel like I have a genuine problem concerning all of this. I just don’t think people are willing to take me serious.

He has yet to check my assignment though. I’ll know his thoughts by the end of the day. The stupid thing is, he hasn’t even said anything negative to me. The positive comments, being told that I’m one of his greatest students—really makes me more anxious because I’m afraid to disappoint even more so because my mind is convinced that I’m doomed to disappoint because remember? I don’t believe in myself. I hate my mind. I hate it so much. I probably shouldn’t hate it if I’m looking to reconcile with it and sort my life together but still. I’m so frustrated, give me a break, already. No, I don’t want to be indifferent, but I also don't want to be a mess like this, all the time. It never ends. The worrying, the anxiety, the panic, it never ends. 

If he says something positive, I become happy, reassured for a second but then I start doubting him the very next (second)—I pray that he doesn’t say anything negative today lol, but I’m afraid of how I’ll react if he ever does. I hope he doesn’t. I seriously hope he doesn’t. I won’t react explosively on the outside, of course. I’ve never been the type to be like that, unfortunately. I say unfortunately because exploding internally—suffering internally, whilst on the outside, appearing as if I’m fine, and composed—is the most annoying and isolating feeling ever. But hey, let’s hope for the best. 

I’m so sorry. I’m so into this… aren’t I? I’m not looking at the big picture, this thing’s gotten me so absorbed. I have so many flaws I need to work on. This, surely, being one of them. I pray for more wisdom… actual, useful wisdom, for my mind to be more open-minded.

#blog entry

[dinacharya]

Chapter 2. aka, Adele 25 therapy

what are tumblrs for if not for ridiculous oversharing and creeping into people’s lives you have no business being in, right? 

disclaimer: it’s a saturday night, 11:45pm to be exact, and i’m 4 hours deep into listening to Adele’s 25 album on repeat. i’ve also micro-dosed. or maybe regular dosed, depends who you ask. For all intents and purposes here, I’m calling it a micro because i very much have a grip even if my trusty wall tapestry is doing pretty things, and I had a very clear intention diving in. 

the tl;dr is that this 25-year old’s solo post-break up trip is a fucking cleanse and this is the vibe I’m fully on right now:

lol so, how did we get there: 

well waking up from last night’s binge smoking, gaming & sugar session (which was honestly much needed - shout out to the peeps who were there for that) didn’t feel the hottest, obviously. but crushed that shit with more sleep and getting back into jillian michaels* in my living room and eating a healthy lunch and whatnot. 

*side note: i’m sure she’s made millions already, but in this era with all the IG fitness models and influencers out there i still think jillian michaels is queen and underrated. 20 mins of jumping around and flailing weights, guided by her via TV is literally all i need to be like woh bitch i’m back. haha. 

now: you know how there are just those random people in your life that perhaps weren’t around all that long or maybe they had an impact on you that you only realized later? or maybe you just never shared with them how much they meant to you, because you didn’t even know. so there are a couple of those i’m going to bring up here (no names). 

starting with one - a friend from my NYC juice bar days, we spent many a wintery days and hours cooped up in that tiny shop kicking ass honestly with grade A difficult customers. she was one of my favorites to work with - so fun to laugh, with gossip with, just share a space with. i have so many fond memories of night shifts there, snow falling outside the windows. people coming in for smoothies at 10:45pm making us wonder what the fuck? 

she was stunning, tall, beautiful effortless skin and bone structure and all that, she just glowed. she was always lifting up other girls around her while shaming herself. i get it, that’s just what we do, that’s what I do. but fact is she was a straight 12/10 no question. anyways, we lost touch. we all know how that whole restaurant went down in sad flames with our owner locked up at rikers (if you don’t know of the psycho saga via vogue’s coverage, and want to hear a first-hand account, that’s for another day, it’s honestly a fun one to tell). so all the people in my life from the restaurant, who were what felt like home to me in NY, kind of faded out with time.

anyways, she’s one of those people for me that still pops into mind from time to time and i just wonder what she’s up to and miss her. so today in my idle morning of moping around, she popped into mind and a quick social media search led me to find her humble page and podcast she’s just recently started - and i ended up listening to a couple episodes because, lord knows i’m a podcast nerd. but i had a chance to hear her story and how much i didn’t know of her background when we were friends back then, and what a light she still was to those around her was pretty amazing.  she did say that her time in nyc was a bit of a blur that’s hard to remember because she was struggling at the time. it hurts my heart to know that, but at the same time i definitely can relate. generally i’d say living in nyc, as a student or not, can feel very isolating and while i have a lot of very vivid memories and recollections, a lot of that time is also a blur for me now the more distance i get from it. 

anyways, so kind of reflecting on all that this afternoon while mozy-ing around in bed was one part of today’s journey. one bit that was also huge was hearing her talk about her overeating/binge & restrictive eating disorder during that time, which is something i’ve tried to vocalize to my friends and family and even doctor but generally isn’t taken all that seriously. when in fact these habits i haven’t addressed are probably the most crucial detriment to my health. it turns out there’s such a thing as overeaters-anonymous. like AA but for people with compulsive eating problems. that’s 100% me, so this was a HUGE discovery today for me that something like this exists. i’m not going to say i’ll walk straight into a meeting this second, but i’m definitely interested. as carly whose lived with me for the last 3 years could easily tell you better than anyone else, i have a hell of a fucking problem and i don’t even know if i understand it fully myself.

part 2:

coincidentally, around mid day I happened to get a text from an old NY roommate, someone I hadn’t heard from in over a year probably, so it was pretty out of the blue. I always perceived her to be like an older sister figure, a funny lady from Malaysia with a heavy accent and a strong attitude, doing her best to fit into American culture, dating apps, heavy into the astrology shit, and all. Anyways, she hit me up because she was concerned she couldn’t find me on social media anymore (quickly resolved) and she mentioned that she enjoyed seeing my DIY stuff on IG stories and that it was serving as inspiration for some future business she’s been envisioning once she gets out of corporate life in Pittsburgh, PA. It was all endearing and sweet. i have heard from friends before that my IG could be turned into something more if i wanted to, but i’ve never had the heart to put more structure to things that just feel like natural parts of me that i want to remain free, if that makes sense. but it’s still nice to know that out there somewhere in pennsylvania the random things i do in my kitchen and share into the IG ether can serve as a little inspo for a roommate from 5 years ago. also it was just a nice reminder to self that in the same way i have these people i admire and root for and wonder about from a distance, maybe there’s room for me to be someone like that for somebody else i’ve crossed paths with. that makes me happy. 

So, part 3: hello, Adele.

i haven’t been shy about admitting the last couple months have been a struggle for me. basically since turning 25. even leading up to the big number, all year really i’d been kind of dreading what this age meant. it just feels like it’s gotta be messy whether i want it to be or not. considering every prior year has been a positive & fairly steady uphill climb, i figured at some point i’d have to pause/break/falter. don’t ask me why, age has always been something i’m glued to. (it’s funny because i don’t own a clock, the one watch i have is tucked into my wedding planner e-kit and only comes out on those days. given my job title and being a virgo and all, time has oddly never been a day to-day concern for me. (those who know me know i am never on time for anything, sorry) but i’ve always been hyper concerned about my age and the expectations (self imposed, inescapable) that come looming with it*. so birthday season usually is just a very introspective time every year where i evaluate where i’m at, the progress i’ve made, what’s holding me back, what i’m proud of, what i’m not proud of. 

*quick side story, the person i’ve dated all year always would say our age difference was nothing. but that statement always irked me because it’s far from the truth. every year 20, 21, 22, 23, 24 i’ve felt i’ve learned exponentially about myself and grown. so yeah, there’s a HUGE difference, emotionally/self-awareness, all that, between 22 and 25 if you ask me. like bless my early 20′s for being stoned fun & shit, but girl’s been putting in work too ya know?

anyways, back on track: come time for my birthday this year i didn’t really want to think too hard about it and just wanted to have fun, and i did! it was definitely one of the more fun/eventful birthdays i can recall. 

but now, 2 months post-birthday, fresh off of a break up, I’m beginning to see more clearly why I pushed all that usual introspective evaluation under the rug. essentially it’s what i’ve done all year, pretending 22 - 25 is nothing, and that all the work i’d done to get here was whatever. i’d taken steps back self-esteem wise, kind of let my work fall by the wayside just as something to do and not something i was excited about (which is more my norm), and i realize i wasnt being present in the right ways to friendships that mean the most to me. All in favor of some shiny beacon of excitement, being sucked into this vortex of conditional relationships*  and “fun” where i frankly just had no place being.

*linked there ^ is a stellar article, when you’re ready for it

THANK GOD FOR MY FRIENDS. seriously i don’t say this enough. I have been FREAKING BLESSED by the people who choose to be in my life. like fuck yo i know it’s FACT i have not been the most pleasant to be around or hear from this year but the true ones persisted and showed me love when I needed it most, were there for me constantly through all the thick of it and still are. like those calls every day just to chat about what the fuck ever, those random “i’m thinking of you’s” and “let’s hangs” mean so much to me in my isolated world of working from home and just being a general homebody type. let me just promise to all of you once i’m out of this present messiness, that I’ll be back on track. i’ve hated being that girl, i’ve heard myself, and i’ve hated it. so while I’ve been kind of MIA morphing into something i haven’t been proud of, thank you to every single friend who’s reminded me there was still something here worthy of your time and your energy and your attention.

*now, much less saving me, I get to start showing up for you guys better too. 

i’ve explained this to close friends before who have experienced it with me - psychedelics are one of my favorite ways to get a grip on my life. of course, i understand their role in fun experiences too, but i’ve always valued it first and foremost as a powerful mind-opening tool. (so naturally, i adore michael pollan’s latest book “how to change your mind”.) when i’m feeling overwhelmed or at a crossroads or muddled, i’ve found it to be the most affective way for me to tune into myself, see things with a fresh perspective, and commit to the choices i need to. 

so having been on a fucking ride with these breakup emotions, knee deep in self-pity, not knowing what to make of the past year, past month, past week, & where i’m at... i was like, 

why the fuck not?

just what i needed on a night to myself to give my soul a fucking cleanse. it’s a convenient weekend to have the house all to myself. read: a good place to be singing at the top of my lungs haha and doing whatever the fuck my single ass wishes all night. somehow along the way, i managed to cook up a pretty A+ tikka masala sauce and prepped a brussel sprouts salad for a dinner with friends tomorrow night, don’t ask me how. i’ve had a spiritual fucking connection to every single song on this Adele 25 album, obviously. idk why it hadn’t occurred to me until doing this that i’m now 25 listening to this album :) so all of this is to say:

Thank you, Adele.

for being a girl i can identify with who marks progress with age, unabashedly tunes into her emotions, and provides breakup comfort like no other. even though i refused to listen to this album until like a year ago

(also can we just take a moment to appreciate that Adele posted this on her own IG profile)

Thanks to those who aren’t necessarily at the frontlines of my life, but have a place in my heart, whether you know it or not, and bring forth some amazing shit or tune in at the right times.

Thank you, most sincerely, to each and every one of my friends that I won’t name here. 

Close and far, you’re the ones pulling me out of a drudge of a year where I lost myself and you’re reminding me what I love to do and who I am and it feels good to get a footing again. 

~ ciao, finally @ 1:43am.

p.s. below is THE picture of what i’ve been like for the last couple weeks ~ can always count on a new girl reference to have my back heheh

*we can also mark this as the night where i FINALLY get over my weird thing about not liking “Hello.” That shit’s a fucking masterpiece who was i to say anything otherwise hahaha

#journal #woh this some reaaal journaling huh haha

[surveysonfleek]

109.

About You & Your Background Do you know where you were conceived?:: no idea. australia i’m assuming How old were your parents when they had you?:: my mum was 25, dad 32. Were your parents married?:: yes. What is the meaning of your name?:: the goddess of wine. Did your parents have any other names picked out?:: yeah. the only one i know of is erica.

Do you share a birthday with anyone?:: bek and my mum’s friend, jane. Do you look more like your mom or dad?:: i’m a perfect mix of both tbh. What is your heritage(s)?:: filipino. Can you speak any of those languages?:: i can fully understand. i’m a bit rusty when i speak it, but it’s possible. Do you consider yourself “normal”?:: normal enough. How do people usually spell your name?:: wrong. especially since my name is spelt differently to the usual way. Have you always lived where you live now?:: no. since ‘99. Do you wish you were taller, shorter, or the height you are?:: a little taller. Do you have a religion?:: i do, but i don’t practice it much. Were you raised as a certain religion?:: catholic. Do you have any relatives of other races?:: hmmm i gues. Do you have any step-relatives?:: nope. Do you have any pets?:: a dog. Do you go to school?:: not anymore. Have you ever considered dropping out of school?:: nope. Do you ever talk to yourself?:: only in my head. If you were an animal, which would you be?:: a panda. Do you have siblings?:: one sister. How old are they?:: 19. Are any married / have kids?:: nope. Where do you like to hang out?:: home, mall, friend’s houses etc. Who do you hang out with the most?:: my boyfriend. What do you like to do in your free time?:: sleep, eat, cook, shop.

Relationships & Friends

Do you have a boyfriend / girlfriend?:: yes. What is their name?::   dwayne. What is their age?:: 26. Where did you meet them?:: through friends. When did you start dating?:: back in 2009 lol. Do you have any mutual friends?:: yes. plenty. How do your parents feel about him / her?:: they like him. How do your friends feel about him / her?:: they like him too. How do YOU feel about him / her?:: i love him. just going through a bit of a rough patch. Do your friends have a lot of influence on who you date?:: no. How many exes do you have?:: wouldn’t really count any. Are you friends with any of them?:: - What was your longest relationship?:: my one now. nearly eight years. Why did it end?:: it hasn’t. Which friends can you tell almost anything to?:: probably irene. Do you have friends that you just can’t talk about certain things with?:: yes, definitely. i’ve learnt my lessons. Are your friends virgins?:: tbh i can’t think of anyone who is. Do your friends drink or do drugs?:: all my friends drink. some have/do drugs but nothing serious. Would you say you have a lot of acquaintances or a few very close friends?:: few close friends. Do you consider your parents your friends?:: no lol. Do you have any furry friends?:: like a pet? haha.

Sex

Are you a virgin?:: no. Do you believe in waiting until marriage?:: in this day and age, not really. i feel like you should know each other in and out before committing.  Have you / would you ever have casual sex?:: never have. not sure if i would. Do you need to love someone to have sex?:: for me, yes. What do you feel is the appropriate age to have sex?:: whenever the person is ready i guess. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?:: i have. Do you think you make the right choices when it comes to sex?:: yes. Have you ever “sexted” someone?:: i have, years ago. i don’t do that shit anymore. Have you had sex under the age of 18?:: yes. Do you feel awkward buying condoms?:: i would but there’s no reason to. Are you on the birth control pill?:: yes. Is having sex against your religion?:: before marriage, yes. Does the amount of sexual partners someone has had, matter?:: to a certain extent only for like disease purposes.  Have you ever been tested for STD’s?:: no. Do you ever lie about how many people you’ve been with?:: no. Do you have any sexual fetishes that you’d like to share?:: i don’t think i even have any. Foreplay: Yay or Nay?:: yay. Drugs & Alcohol Have you ever drank alcohol?:: yes. Have you drank to the point of being drunk?:: yes. Have you / do you smoke cigarettes?:: yes. Have you done any inhalants? (Pot, cocaine, meth, other inhalants):: yes. pot and coke. Have you done any intravenous drugs? (Heroin, morphine, other opiates):: nope. Have you / do you do drugs regularly?:: no. Have you drank more than 3 shots in a row?:: three was my limit lol. Do you feel that some drugs are more dangerous than others?:: definitely. Should any drugs be legal?:: idk. Why do you feel that way?:: haven’t given it much thought.  Have you ever sold drugs?:: no. Have you ever bought drugs?:: yes. Ever watered down your parents’ alcohol so you could drink it?:: no. Are you straight edge?:: no. Are drugs more helpful or hurtful in your opinion?:: hurtful. except weed. Did your parents used to drink or do drugs?:: tbh my parents weren’t drinkers and never did drugs after they had me. they were smokers though. Does that affect your choice in doing / not doing them?:: no. Have you ever tripped on acid?:: no, don’t think i’d ever try acid. Do you take prescription drugs when you don’t need them?:: no. Do you take OTC drugs when you don’t need them?:: no.

Politics, Religion, & Philosophy Do you have a political affiliation?:: no. Are you more liberal or conservative?:: liberal. Does the government have too much power?:: obviously. Is America too intrusive in other countries?:: i don’t know much about this shit seeing as i’m not american, but seeing shit on the news makes me think yes. Is the Iraq War a war on terrorism?:: to some extent. Do you support the troops?:: well yeah. How would you feel if the draft was reinstated?: i’d feel pretty sad for the men around me. Should ANY country be allowed to have WMD’s?:: sorry to say, idk what that stands for. How do you feel about biological warfare?::   pretty fucked up tbh. Is war necessary to solve conflicts?:: at this rate i don’t think it’ll ever solve any conflicts. Have you / would you consider joining the military?:: no. Do you think gay people should be allowed to join the military?:: of course. Should gay marriage be legal?:: yes. Are you pro-life or pro-choice?:: pro choice ultimately. If a woman is raped, should she be forced to have the child anyways?:: no. Should there be an age limit on birth control?:: no. but obviously a 9yo shouldn’t be taking it. Should schools give out condoms?:: yeah but knowing the idiots in my high school there would’ve been a shitload of condom balloons flying around everywhere. Should creationism and evolution be taught side by side in schools?:: well both were taught in my school. Should there be harsher laws for drunk drivers?:: yes. Should all people have access to medical marijuana?:: if it’s needed. Is there such a thing as “God-given” rights?:: i guess. Is marriage an outdated concept in today’s society?:: yes and no. Is statutory rape really rape?:: this is a bit of a grey area. if one is 16 and the other is 17 i don’t think it’s much of a difference. in cases where the minor was clearly taken advantage of, then yeah i’d consider it stat rape. Do you agree with age of consent laws?:: yeah i guess. Do you believe there is a meaning to life?:: hopefully! Do you believe there is an after-life?::   we’ll all end up finding out someday. Do you believe in karma?:: sorta. Do you believe in any forms of magic / witchcraft?:: nah. What religion BEST fits your beliefs?:: i don’t really know. i was raised catholic and believe certain values but i don’t really practice it. Is the bible complete bullshit?:: i don’t think so. Are some things simply unexplainable?:: yes. Do you believe in the supernatural? (ghosts, etc.):: shit creeps me out but nah. Should the drinking age be raised, lowered, or kept the same?: in australia it’s 18. i think that’s fair. Does the government have the right to intervene gangs and cults?:: yes. Should health care be universal?:: yes. Could peace on Earth ever be achievable?:: haha not while i’m alive. Do you believe there is life on other planets?:: maybe not in our solar system but probably in the universe. Does astrology hold some truth to it or is it just nonsense?:: haha i don’t get astrology. Can someone really be psychic?:: i don’t think so.

Have You Ever…. kissed on the first date?:: hallucinated?:: baked a cake?:: dated someone 5 or more years older than you?:: dated someone 5 or more years younger than you?:: seriously considered marriage?:: seriously been engaged?:: witnessed a crime?:: fallen asleep in a pool?:: found an error on a receipt?:: been on a cruise?:: been to Disneyworld or Disneyland?:: ate squid?:: played strip poker?:: sent someone a naughty photo?:: talked to a celebrity?:: lied about your age?:: been to a bar?:: been bought a drink?:: been recognized from online?:: had sex with the window shades open?:: had sex in a place other than a bed?:: made out for more than 1 hour?:: failed a midterm or final exam?:: flirted with a teacher?:: wore your boyfriend / girlfriend’s clothing?:: talked your way out of something?::

The Last Time You… ate a snack?:: today. met someone new?:: a couple days ago. talked on the phone?:: today. went to a store?:: today. went to school?:: years ago. kissed someone?:: two days ago. crossed a street?:: yesterday. had sex?:: a week ago. watched a movie?:: right now. ate a popsicle?:: hmm maybe a month ago. went to the beach?:: start of the year. went to a concert?:: april. went for a walk?:: today. held someone’s hand?:: i forgot. aced a test?:: years ago. updated your facebook status?:: years ago lol. smoked a cigarette?:: a couple hours ago. saw your boyfriend / girlfriend?:: two days ago. went out to dinner?:: last night. checked your email?:: today.

#survey #surveys #quiz #questions #bored #long

[paradox-oflife]

massive q and a post part 3 ignore this pls

1. If you could learn any language fluently what would it be? Um maybe latin because it sounds cool but for practical purposes probably spanish lol

2. What historical Figure would you love to see in 21st centuary life? Jesus, not because I’m Christian but I’m curious to see what he would say

3. As a kid were you ever frighted of a monster under the bed or in the cupboard? No because my bed didn’t have space underneath 

4. Do you like clowns? nope

5. Do you prefer BBC or ITV? Okay, this is clearly British but I’d go with BBC

6. Have you ever been surfing? Once. It didn’t go that well lol

7. Have you ever been snowboarding? Yeah, it’s pretty fun actually!

8. Who was better, the Beatles or Elvis Presley? uuuh the Beatles

9. Whats your favourite type of foreign food? By foreign I’m assuming non-American/British. But anything from Taiwan (except for pig’s blood ew) is soul food for me :)

10. Which Foreign country do you dislike the most? I... don’t know. North Korea I guess? But when it comes to most countries, it’s the government that makes it bad.

11. Do you like your music loud or easy listening? (What does this mean??) Depends on the mood

12. Whats your favourite animated or cartoon program? Adventure time :D

13. Do you sing in the shower? Errr, no.

14. Are you a clean or messy person? I try my best to be clean but it always ends up messy.

15. Whats your prefered playing piece in monopoly? I usually go with the cat :3

16. Can or Do you still play twister? God I haven’t played since 5th grade.

17. Can you play chess? Yeah, not really good at it though.

18. Do you know the dance steps to an annoying cheesey pop song? Haha no because I suck at dancing

19. Do you prefer straight or bendy straws? Bendy

20. Have you ever entered a talent contest? And did you win? No .-. I’m not the type to do that lol

21. Do you like poetry? Yeah. I’d say so.

22. Are you a sore loser? Nah, I’m pretty chill when it comes to that type of thing

23. Which would you choose? Jelly or Ice Cream? Ice Cream > Jelly

24. Whats your favourite type of Pie? New Zealand’s steak and cheese

25. Whats your most used phrase? Hm. Maybe “yeah nah”

26. Whats your most used word? Not sure. I talk a lot.

27. Who would you want to play you in a movie of your life? Someone Asian of course, someone who has studied me well enough and understands me

28. What would your dream job be? Okay, I’m gonna be real. I wanted to be a vet but lowkey I’m too colorblind for it lol. I’m planning to study in Physical Therapy

29. Which song do you hate the most? I mainly just listen to the same albums nowadays but I guess i don’t really vibe with a lot of pop songs.

30. How long does it take you to get ready? Depends how tired I am. If I get pretty good sleep it takes maybe 10 minutes at most. 

31. What do you think the greatest invention has been? The printing press.

32. Whats your favourite feature on the opposite sex? Uuuh i dont really know. Forearms are nice i guess

33. Whats your least favourite feature on the opposite sex? Sometimes they’re just really oblivious to really obvious things

34. Who's your favourite Comedian? I don’t even listen to comedians really but Chelsea Peretti is pretty funny.

35. What's your favourite board game? Probably Monopoly. There’s no greater feeling than seeing the life drain from your friends’ eyes as you collect $5000 from them

36. Do you have any lucky items, objects or traditions? When I’m having a bad day I like to just read through my yearbooks and look at all the compliments people wrote. 

37. Do you have any superstitions? Not really.

38. Whats your favourite Movie quote? I have a lot. But maybe Manners Maketh Man.

39. Who would win in a fight? Chuck Norris or Jack Bauer? Chuck Norris.

40. Do you have much of an ego? I wish. I want to be more confident

41. Do you wear sunglasses indoors to look cool or stylish? No. Nothing against it though.

42. Are you a hat person? Nah

43. Whats your favourite supermarket chain? Costco

44. Whats your favourite fastfood chain? Smashburger or Inn n Out

45. Whats your first thought upon waking up? “Lord help me.”

46. What animal would you most like to have as a pet? I love dogs. And cats. 

47. Whats your favourite type of tree? Pine trees always remind me of home.

48. If you could bankrupt one person or company who would it be? Uuuh as much as I want to bankrupt someone like Jeff Bezos that’d be bad because a lot of people rely on Amazon

49. If you could steal one thing without consequence what would it be? I honestly don’t know. 

50. Who's your favourite celeb with the same first name or surname as you? I don’t know much celebrities with the same name as me.

51. If evil-doers invaded your country would you rush to the battlelines to defend the motherland or hide in a box? Um hide in a box I’m so tiny. Like I know a bit of martial arts but like??? I’m literally 5′1″ and i’m only 115 pounds. Someone could bench me easily.

52. Whats your favourite flower? I like lillies 

53. Do you believe in ghosts? Im really mixed about it. I believe demons exist though

54. Do you believe in the loch ness monster? Nay

55. Do you believe in Aliens? Eeeeh kind of but when i think about aliens i think about microorganisms. 

56. Do you believe the Governments hide technology and information from the public? Yes 100%

56. Which is your favourite pokemon? Growlithe uwu

57. What horror fiction character scares you the most?  Pennywise. No thanks.

58. Can you do 10 revolutions of a hula hoop? Yeah

59. Do you think Great Britain should have a National Day? n/a 60.Do you think Great Britain should be part of a United Europe?n/a 61. Would you want the Euro or keep the British Pound?n/a

62. Were you part of the Brownies/Cubs/Scouts/Guides etc? Nah

63. Have you ever invented a fairly unique meal or drink? No I’m not that good at cooking lol

64. Do you have any secret family recipes? My family only knows how to cook asian food and well, asian food is very freestyle

65. Do you have any family secrets? :o     uuuuuh well, it wouldn’t be a secret if I said it right?

66. Are you good at keeping secrets? Yeah! You can count on me.

67. Have you ever been up in a hot air balloon? Nopenopenopenope

68. Whats your favourite Sci-fi film/program etc? ugghhhh i have so much. I like the Martian tho?

69. When playing checkers or chess do you prefer to be black or white? Black

70. Which is better, a Pastie or Sausage Roll? Sausage roll

71. Do you prefer shopping on the high street or online? Irl, I’m pretty impatient man

72. Would you ever want to learn to fly? Like, fly an airplane? Or fly as in levitate. Cause if levitate, then YES

73. Do you often read your horoscope? Nah, as accurate as they can be sometimes, I don’t really believe in astrology 

74. Have you ever had a proper Tarot reading? Eeeee no. Personal opinion, tarot cards are hella sketchy. I don’t mess with that stuff.

75. Whats your favourite brand of newspaper? Honestly at this point I’ve given up on the news. I just read stuff off of reddit sometimes.

76. Have you ever milked a cow? No

77. Have you ever used the phrase "back in my time" to someone younger than you? HAHAH one time. I realized my friend’s younger brother had never seen an iPod before and I was so baffled he didn’t even know what it was.

78. Do you love or hate rollercoasters? Love them

79. Which was the greatest Empire? Maybe Macedonian. I want to say the Romans, but god, they had a lot of problems.

80. Whats your favorite word? Catharsis.  

81. Whats your favourite sportsware brand? Adidas or Nike I guess

82. Do you buy any weekly/monthly magazines? Nah

83. Who's your favourite Superhero? uuuuh Thor 

84. Who's your favourite Villain/Baddie? Doofensmirtz. He wasn’t even bad lmao. He thinks he’s a Chaotic Evil when in reality he’s a Chaotic Good.

85. What was the last Album you purchased? I don’t purchase a lot of music tbh bc I broke, but the last album I listened to was Hot Fuss.

86. What was the last DVD you purchased? A Daria DVD I found at Walmart for five dollars.

87. What was the last piece of clothing you purchased? Some jeans.

88. When pulling crackers does everyone get one each regardless or whoever gets the big ends keeps all the prizes? I’m assuming this is some British tradition so idk

89. Do you ever make your own greetings cards? Not really.

90. Do you have a swiss army knife? I used to then I lost it.

91.At what age did you twig onto the fact Santa wasnt real? My parents never did the whole Santa thing so I always knew it was false

92. Whats your favourite fruit? Watermelon

93. Have you ever done something really unbelivable, only to have no one around to see it? Um YEAH. I was 10th grade and I was in the Martial Arts club, which was a version of Aikido. I tripped on these stairs one time going down, then I did this glorious shoulder roll and got right up. No one saw but I was so proud of myself.

94. Do you buy from charity shops? Occasionally, if I can find some. 

95. Have you ever sold your services? No

96. Have you ever raised money for charity? Yeah, it was for a school club tho

97. Have you ever won a giant sized cuddly toy from a fair? Yes uwu

98. Is the glass half full or half empty? It’s half full

[strawberriandromeda]

OPHIUCHUS is back at it again y'all!!!! When tf will they stop!!!!!

Ophiuchus: hi everyone!! How are youuuu!!!!!!

Leo: bruh I thought we got rid of you lmao

Virgo: uhhh no? Did you pay attention at all when this dumb bitch over here invited them into the astrology club

Pisces: :(

Cancer, still defensive: NOW YOU'RE CALLING ME STUPID TOO??

Virgo: wait no-

Cancer: it's okay though I've accepted it *clearly has not*

Aquarius: can we not with the feelings right now? It's too early in the morning

Cancer: :(

Pisces: I think I deserve an apology because I'm being nice over here and giving someone the benefit of the doubt

Sagittarius: well, your "benefit of the doubt" just stole my wallet and ran off so.

Pisces: wait what!?!?!

Sagittarius: it's cool tho! That just means he has all my debts >:)

Gemini: haha nice gimme five

Sagittarius: I'll give you 8 bby ;)

Gemini:

Sagittarius:

Gemini:

Sagittarius: anyways moving on...

Capricorn, stumbles into the room: HAVE YOU SEEN OPHIUCHUS ANYWHERE

Taurus: uwu good morning baby

Capricorn, ignores her: OPHIUCHUS STOLE MY WALLET. MY CREDIT CARDS ARE LOST!!!!!

Taurus: >:( I SAID GOOD MORNING

Sagittarius: eyyyyyy they stole from me too, high five!

Capricorn: touch me and that five is going to be zero real soon

Sagittarius: O.O

Taurus: I can't believe this my own boyfriend won't say good morning to me what the fuck

Capricorn: good morning sweetheart, I have no money and I'm freaking out, do you understand???

Taurus: *only heard the phrase "I have no money"* *peaces out*

Sagittarius: see I told you she was only in it for the money

Capricorn: OKAY BUT I LITERALLY HAVE NO MONEY RIGHT NOW I'M FREAKING OUT WHERE DID OPHIUCHUS GO

Pisces: I'm so sorry Capricorn I don't know where they went but I feel like this is my fault for letting them in

Libra: heh, you see if this was up to me....

Leo: you would have let them in, too, don't lie

Libra: yeah :(

Aries: okay so while you guys argue about stupid shit I'm going to go find Ophiuchus

Virgo: but we don't know where they went!!!!

Aries: he does *points at Scorpio*

Scorpio: *sniffing the air like a bloodhound* North.

Sagittarius: haha, good boy!!! *reaches out to pet Scorpio*

Scorpio: if you're going to touch me make it count 😉

Sagittarius: o.o I feel harassed

Taurus: see they're a happy couple why can't we be a happy couple!!!!

Leo: I literally just saw you ditch Capricorn. My bank balance of three and my ego can't support that

Taurus: three what

Leo: three cents

Taurus: that's three more than Capricorn ever had

Capricorn: WHAT THE FUCK, TAURUS

Taurus:

Scorpio: while you guys were arguing Aries and I went to find Ophiuchus

Virgo: wtf that quick?

Aries: we have very fast legs

Virgo: soooo?

Scorpio: here they are *drops Ophiuchus on the ground*

Ophiuchus: hhhhhhhelppppp these two guys beat me up and said really rude things about my mother.....

Capricorn: there's my wallet!!! Yay :D

Sagittarius: there's my debts!!! Yay :(

Libra: there's my virginity!!!

Everyone: ....what

Libra: well they were excited about getting their things back so I thought if I said something I would get mines back

Leo: wtf Libra I thought I meant something to you!!!

Libra: tee-hee

Taurus: so uwu are we together

Leo: YEAH I GUESS >:'(

Capricorn: yeah I guess you're the only one who doesn't judge me for my knees and cream cheese fetish

Gemini: TMI

Libra: ooooh drama, who will taurus choose?

Taurus: I choose sanity

Capricorn: :/

Ophiuchus: what the fucko *backs away slowly*

Pisces: COME BACK HERE YOU BITCH

Ophiuchus: who, me?

Pisces: YES YOU. YOU BETRAYED MY TRUST. I LET YOU IN!!! AND YOU TREATED THAT LIKE IT WAS NOTHING

Ophiuchus: *insincerely* uhhh sorry?

Pisces: apowogy accepted uwu

Ophiuchus: hah nice I can't believe that worked

Aries:

Scorpio:

Ophiuchus: I just said that out loud didn't I

Aries and Scorpio: *starts beating the shit out of Ophiuchus*

Ophiuchus dies.

The end!!!!

#refiba astros #i think this second one was worse than the kr #the original..... #oh whale #im dumb anyways