#i dont even WANT to go to the fucking interview tomorrow i just want to kill myself and cry and die and fucking give up on it all

[ruffgem]

group work is Not It. I should have known better than to enroll in an engagement course that involves planning workshops with a group of other students……. guess who is doing all the work! :^) Back in tha day my teachers called me a ‘natural leader’… fun fact!!!! I am actually not! I do not like being in charge! it is actually just that people take advantage of me! Hope this helps

#God. I wanted to take the class so bad bc it’s about the history of art in prison systems #and it involves a weekly art workshop in a prison #the group that runs it is pretty blatantly abolitionist and partially run by formerly incarcerated ppl #so it’s made pretty clear that we're not ‘teaching’ art bc thats weird and enforcing a hierarchy if ur a 'teacher' #its more like a way to get materials inside and basically hang out with and make art alongside incarcerated ppl #under the guise of ‘volunteering’ as the dept of corrections labels it #anyway that’s all off topic but basically I am doing all the fucking work lmao we’re supposed to go in for the first time tomorrow and #my group members suck shit at communicating and the person who’s supposed to drive is like radio silent whenever I ask #where we should meet and shit #FUCK!!! I hate logistical shit like this #its taken us a million years to get cleared by the system (on purpose i stg) so its literally midterm time and we havent gotten in yet #i swear if our first one gets jeopardized by this girl who refuses to check her damn texts or emails or even come to class im gonna be so #pissed. lmfao #goddddd this is giving me flashbacks to when i took the class where we were supposed to do workshops at an elementary school #different vibe because in that scenario it was definitely supposed to be educational and we lowkey were 'teachers' #but my classmates also didnt do shit and i also ended up doing literally everything #WHY TAKE A CLASS LIKE THIS IF U DONT WANNA DO IT LIKE SERIOUS QUESTION #maybe they just want to put it on their resume LOL #they need a vetting process for this class i stg like interview these bitches before they enroll #cuz some of these people fr do not care

[toastsnaffler]

I have an interview tmr for a possible teaching assistant job. but I realllyyyy really don't want to fucking go

#the interviewer is rly nice ive spoken to him already its not like nerves or anything #I dont rly wanna go into teaching but I do have experience so I'm getting interest from recruiters.. I need a job and the pay is alright #the main thing is that background checks are so comprehensive + they want 3 references and I. dont have that many lmao #but its non negotiable cuz anything involving kids or vulnerable ppl has rly high standards. understandably ofc #so I need to email a couple ppl from my degree to ask if they would be willing to give me a ref but I REAAAALLLLY dont want tooooo #bc I fucking dropped out of my masters this year and didnt tell my tutor beforehand. so its just rly fucking awkward to ask NOW #like I feel kinda physically sick just trying to draft this email theres smth rly humiliating abt it. man im gonna cry again #but I have to do it bc this interview is tomorrow and I need to submit the form w references before then ive been putting it off #ugdhfhcbncjhfjfbfbfh. and even if my tutor is cool w it I still only have 2 refs so I need to find a third and just. mannn #i have a massive adhd block w filling out forms too fucking hate this shit what if I just cancelled the interview ahahahahahahhha #its like a physical fucking pressure preventing me doing anything abt it i hope i get hit by a bus so its not my problem anymore whatever #.vent #fucking hell. whatever im gonna go make lunch

[garlique]

god oh my god this sucks so fucking much, i knew today would be the worst day so far but holy fucking shit i truly just wish i was fucking dead!!

#i have a job interview tomorrow and there was ONE THING that i needed to do this weekend to prepare for it #and we were both going through withdrawals so badly that i DIDNT FUCKING DO IT #im literally just so angry at myself and at everything else in the world and i've been so fucking mean to the cats today and i hate myself #about it #i dont even WANT to go to the fucking interview tomorrow i just want to kill myself and cry and die and fucking give up on it all #this sucks so fucking badly oh my fucking god and i would bet you all like 500 fucking dollars #that ethan relapses on it today while he's at work and comes home fucking STINKING and making it worse for me #YET AGAIN #oh my god im so fucking angry im so fucking angry i just wanna scream and punch and throw and smash #AND I JUST HAVE TO KEEP IT ALL LOCKED UP INSIDE ME THERE IS NO OTHER OPTION NO FUCING OPTIONS NO CHOICES NOTHING #there will never be anything for me in this life and i dont know why i've been pretending otherwise #GOD it hasnt even been 72 hours yet can i please just be done #can i please find the first man who smoked tobacco and mass marketed it #AND FUCKING STRANGLE HIM TO DEATH???????????? #im gonna kill and cry and die and hate my life my self my everything #ive just been crying so many fucking angry tears #like i'll be so angry and when it does come out it comes as tears and i personally???? hate that shit so much #makes me feel so fucking weak #fuck everybody fuck god fuck nice people fuck mean people fuck the normalizing of horrible drugs fuck addiction and fuck myself #just gotta keep telling myself i dont need it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#today i am experiencing a very weird form of stress. one i have not felt since being an undergrad with no self awareness #like i stood at my door for like 15min today with my forehead resting on the wall. trying to get myself to go outside #and that has not happened in a loooong time #at least i managed to get some algae transferred. i did it while feeling halfway outside my body but i did no it #its just the interview i have tomorrow. idk y i agreed to it bc this one im like 90% sure i dont wanna go to #bc one its in new jersey and i dont wanna deal with east coast driving. also its not a ivy league school but its wanky enough that i felt #like i should look up whether it was or not. and i dont think i would b well suited to that sort of environment #also when i interviewed with the guy last time i was iffy abt him as a boss bc idk he felt kinda pretensions and very hands off #but his students like the lab so idk. the project would b cool but like idk not exactly what i want #so fucking idk what im gonna say tomorrow. i dont even kno whats supposed to happen #bc its like i had to pick 3 ppl to interview with but one dropped out and im like... r they just asking generic questions..??? #so im anticipating a cluster fuck but ifk at least its not in person lol. hopefully itll b ok once i start talking #its just had me borderline incapacitated for the last 2 days #aye. i want it to be next week when im. hopefully. having fun touring a school i actually wanna go to #it would b cool to b near the ocean tho. ive never lived thst near an ocean #unrelated #sorry for being so whiney. this month is just a lot rip

[marklikely]

sent in my two weeks notice time to esplode from anxiety

#aughhghghgh #i dont have a new job yet but i have one last interview tomorrow for one where i am the top candidate #and i guess like .worst case scenario i wont get it and ill just have to like #idk lower my standards and go for a remote phone queue job that ill hate but at least in a new way #or do like doordash or some other gig thing and try to figure out health insurance #avpost #im not doing the responsible thing because FUCK IT IM SO TIRED OF BEING RESPONSIBLE its gotten me nothing but depression. #fine im doing the irresponsible thing for once in my life . #at least i sent my notice in a nice way and wasn't bitchy like i wanted to be in my soul so like #maybe the worst worst case scenario is actually doing some nonsense for 6 months and then crawling back to this nightmare -_- #because this company is an absolute shitshow i just know they will be needing me back before the summer. #plus it would not be the first time someone in my department quit for a few months and then came back #it wouldnt even be the first time since i started working there 3.5 years ago

[fooltofancy]

i have so much to do today but all i want to do is throw up, lmao.

#parents are here sunday night carrie and kiel are at ww til sunday night and they made such a goddamn mess packing #i go back to work tomorrow!!!! #please just call me #please #i feel like theyre gonna hire someone else even though there's no reason they should #it's past ten and they haven't called that feels bad for some arbitrary reason #hate this #idk how many interviews theyve done this week and idk if he was gonna call if i DON'T have the job #very much don't want to call at three if i dont hear anything but he did say This Week so i feel like im not out of line doing that #i need to know so i can tell my boss if monday is my last day #fuck #i dont want to figure out working while my parents are here

[kookie-doughs]

Happy Meal

Hawks / Keigo Takami X Reader

-As a young mother YN didn't know what to do when the number 2 hero had taken the last happy meal that her son so desperately want.

Chapter 18: Still A Child

That night Hawks managed to calm the child and explain his new found quirk. He was extremely scared of it. Tsunagu had made him the gloves as soon as he saw what the child had done.

He broke... or desintegrated might be a better word... Ronald Mcdonald.

After Sato calmed and got reassurance, he slept and was taken home. Endeavour came with what you can only assume his entire agency or maybe city with the number of people, all of which signed up for the fight.

Hawks grabbed Toshinori and Enji and pulled them away from the crowd.

"Sato surfaced another quirk." The two looked at each other... "Its the worst one..."

"What do you mean?" Toshinori asked.

"Shigaraki's..."

Hawks nodded.

"You mean the crumbling one?!" Toshinori coughed blood.

"He disintegrated McDonald's. "

"What was the other quirks he's surfaced?"

"Flight or levitation I'm not sure, his mother's quirk which is a booming voice. He can also force someone to use their quirk... he did it with his mom, and now disintegration..."

Toshinori flinched, "Force quirk activation... that's All for One's quirk..."

Hawks froze.

"YN said, AFO was picking between her and Shigaraki to carry the quirk. He's been dosing them both with his quirk. Maybe that's why Sato..."

"The child might have All For One..."

"I don't know what all for one is." Toshinori and Hawks proceeded to explain to Enji what was very important about that.

"Bring him with us." Enji nods.

"Are you crazy?! No! He's like not even 10 years old i dont care what explanation you were gonna make thats just stupid! He can be stronger than all 3 of us at once but he's still a child."

The three continued to talk about a plan. Up till night and then they separated because tomorrow is the day when it will all end.

Tomorrow is the day you're coming back.

He got Sato who slept peacefully and went back to his home for sleep. He held the boy closer to him and kissed his head.

"After all these. I'm going to protect you and make sure nothing happens. To the both you and your mom."

He was settling down when a knock echoed. "Bird-boy come here its important."

Slowly scooting away from the kid, careful not to wake him up. He goes out of the room to see Rumi and Enji.

"What's up?"

"HPSC," Enji states.

"They made an interview. News spread quick."

"Fuck... So they made public about Y/N and Sato?"

Rumi nodded. "They're not going to have a normal life here anymore..."

"Hawks, the good news is so far no one had contact me backing out from the plan."

"I dont care. I'm going there tomorrow no matter what." He pulls out his phone to scroll through the media. "I'm just... worried for Sato and Y/N..."

Enji pats Hawks back, "get some rest. We came here only to let you know. Tomorrow you need all your energy."

Hawks nodded at the two who exits the home. Upon being left alone he crumbles. Biting his lip, deep breaths through his nose.

"Tomorrow it'll be over."

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[wibur]

im trying to sleep rn for my first Day on the job to-morrow & i cant stop thinking about my job Where they literally never had anything for me to do so i Was constantly just sitting in this girls office trying NOT to be on my phone thewhole time <because it would be sooooo fucking Disrespectful. meanwhile she wss sitting at her desk doing real actual work. THIS WAS FUCKED. I WISH I DID NOT WORK THERE.it was my first real job Did not do anything on my job description I was basically an intern because they didnt want to train me to do the shit i was hired to do. &it was crazyyy because i was getting paid to Sit around And do nothing i felt sooo useless But it was kinda the life because i was getting paid to sit around do nothing. Only when they felt like they made me do shit like assemble chainsaws And paint the freezing bathroom(< which had no ventilation so i ended up going home early Whereupon i immediately threw up upon getting inside).but no literally i was getting paid to Sit silently for 8 hours , in this girls office.......and that was frightening. Trying desperately not to use my phone too much. for EIGHT HOURS. occasionally making conversation but mostly not because she had an actual job to do. it was excruciating so i quit. Anywayim just thinking about that Because tomorrow im going to a real job with A breakroom that probably isnt freezing and im going to watch TRAINING VIDEOS. theres a month long period where ill be getting Trained to actually do things. its so beautiful. although i Dont really want to work so i might kill myself well seei actually didnt even want to go to the interview But well see.well see.

#THAT WAS LIKE MY FIRST REAL JOB AND IT AUCKED SOOOOO BAD. ok goodnight #wilburtextpost

[i-luv-carl-grimes]

☾꙳all the things I hate about you꙳☀︎ pt.1

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Chandler Riggs x Fem!reader (he is 16 and you are 15)

Summary: you recently got booked for a acting job playing a character in the walking Dead, it just so happens that you play the love interest for a character named Carl Grimes played by Chandler Riggs, you soon realize you two hated one another

Warnings: swearing

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Hello my darlings! This is VERY important so please read. Okay so this is part.1 of a series I will be starting I'll try to Update as much as possible but I hope you enjoy<3

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I walked out of the studio where I was auditioning for a character from the walking Dead, I was over the moon about it! I mean there we're only 3 other girls there so there was a really good chance I could get the part, and maybe I am getting my hopes up but the thought of meeting CHANDLER RIGGS I couldnt help but kick my feet and laugh like a little girl.

I was a HUGE fan of Chandler, I mean I've been watching the walking Dead since I was 8 and Carl was my favorite character, that's also when it hit me

Omg, if I get the part, I'm play his love interest and once again I felt my stomach fill with excitement and again I shoved my head in my pillow and let out a scream, once I calmed down I grabbed my phone and seen that Chandler had Twitted I opened it and see that he was talking about the casting

@chandlerriggs

I just seen the new casting, it'll be out tomorrow afternoon good luck! And check your emails

Chandler always seemed so nice, his streams were always funny the clips of him and even his interviews he just seemed so...i don't know how to put it, lovely? Yeah I guess. "Y/n! Dinner!" my mom said and I turned my phone of and almost skipped down the stairs, I NEEDED this part

"How did the auditions go?" my mother asked as I set the table. "Not sure, all I know is that if I get the part I will freak out" I said sitting down and she put f/f (favorite food) on the table. "I know how much you love that show and that boy, what was his name? Carl? Anyway when do you find out if you get the part?" my mom asked. "Chandler Riggs the actor for Carl said that they'll be out tomorrow afternoon" I said shoving food into my mouth. "I really hope you get it dear" she said grabbing my face and I gave her a soft smile. I hope so too.

After I had finished eating I said goodnight to my mom, put my hair up, brush my teeth and washed my face all before I jumped on my bed and grabbed my phone to see another twit from Chandler

@chandlerriggs

I'll be streaming at 8:00 pm for a bit, and PLEASE do not ask me who got booked for the audition, I can't say

I realized it was already 8:12 so why not? I opened the stream and seen Carl playing minecraft. I then seen Carl's eyes move to look at chat when a question popped up about the part I had auditioned from.

@/therealone: what are your thoughts on having a love interest

"Hmm I'm not sure actually, its cool I guess, I just know that the rest of the cast it gonna be a bit annoyed also, guess who was able to pick" he said then pointed at himself. "I aware there were 3 girl who actually got to do the audition but only 2 made it to actually being picked they wanted me to, why? I don't fucking know, I think they wanted me to pick who would look the best with Carl so I did, and I think I picked right but we'll see" he said and for some reason I felt anxiety rise in my chest, what if I was let go? What if I was the girl who didn't make it, I then started to type

@/(u/n)(username)

I look forward to maybe working with you!

I said and I seen his mouth curve. "Maybe huh?" he said, what was me implying, did I get the part? Was he messing with me? No he wouldn't, would he? My god I dont know anything about him, sure I thought he was cool but I don't really KNOW him know him. My anxiety grew and I sat up when my phone dinged

(F/n) (friend name)

Hey n/n (Nick name) I was wondering if I could come over and see if you get the part, that alright?

N/n

Sure! God I'm so nervous about it

F/n

Don't be! If you dont get it I'm gonna beat the producers ass, anyway get some sleep, I love u and good luck!

N/n

Ty f/n/n (friend nickname) I love you too good night

I then went back the Chandler's stream and leaned back resting my head on a pillow. Me and f/n we had been close for YEARS I honestly don't think I could even get where I am without her, but that's just the thing, there filming in Georgia and I just so happen to live hours away in y/s (your state/country) , so if I do get the part then we will no longer be neighbors, but that's also one of the reason my mom wanted me to get the part because we had family in Atlanta

"Also, one more thing before I head out, to the girl who did win, before you worrry about moving, I hate to tell you this but, your mom already knows we told her as soon as we know who we wanted, so we already gave house recommendations and I'm pretty sure you'll move in 2 months from now, anyway bye and to the new girl see you soon" he said then ended the stream,

I wish I'm the girl he's talking about, and with that i plugged my phone in and layed on my side, I needed this please just please I needed this. I slowly fell asleep even though I was filled with both excitement and exstream nervousness.

- (time skip) -

"Y/n it's already 9 you need to get up F/n said she was on her way" my mom said the walked out of my room, I groaned before I sat up and stretched before completely getting out of bed, I then walked over to my closet I grabbed some pajama pants and a black tank top (if you don't like the outfit just out what you like<3) something basic and simple for the possibly the best day of my life, that's also when worry once again filled me as well as the memory of what Carl said. 'Your moms already know' MY MOM KNOWS!? I put my hair half up (again if u don't like it just think of smt else) and ran down stairs

"Mom!" I said rather loudly and he turned with a worried look on her face. "Did I get the part or not? Chandler said you knew" I said and she let out a deep breath. "Y/n this is something you have to see for yourself" she said I then went down to sit on the steps. Thoughts ran through my head about everything that could go wrong till I heard the doorbell ring I got up and opened the door and F/n brought my into a huge hug, I returned it without hesitation. "You okay?" she asked and pulled away to look at me. "A little nervous" I said giving bet a small smile. "Well I mean one little email could possibly change your whole life, of course you are" he said letting out and airy laugh . "Geez what am I gonna do without you" I said referring to the fact that I had to move if I got the part. "I dont know, but I do know that you'll still be everything to me" she said, her voice was soft and reassuring. "Thank you f/n/n" I said and we hugged again she then pulled away and got comfortable.

"Did you eat anything yet?" she asked and I shock my head. "If I tried I think I might puke" I joked and she chuckled. "Well whatever happens happens" she said and I nodded then went up stairs to grab my phone

11 am

Just one hour

"Y/n! Hurry upp" I heard f/n yelled and I went back down stairs when my mom stopped me. "I am so proud of you" she said and I smiled. "Thank you mom" I said and she turned back to what she was doing and I sat down next to f/n waiting till I got the email that would either ruin or change my life I began to pick at my sick, something I picked up from my mom when I get really scared and Lord I wasn't just scared I was horrified.

"Y/n I got it" my mom said and I shot up. "Read it please" I said and she

"Y/n l/n we are-

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So? What do you think? Should I continue this series? If so please let me know!!

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#carl grimes #carl the walking dead #the walking dead #twd carl #chandler riggs #carl x reader #chandler riggs x reader #fanfition #twd x reader #x reader #the walking dead fanfiction

[elegyofthemoon]

im posting this before i forget and also sorta leave for the night cuz i gotta sleep a little early

• Posted stuff today ☺️

• I decided to do a bit of the writing tag game on my other account and it is WILD to see just how much i wrote the past few months??? im kinda proud tbh. I may be a little discouraged from posting these days but it's honestly really nice to see myself posting as much as I do - and esp to see how much ive written during all this time. this is aside from all the logs i do bc thatd just add further to my word count, but hdhfjdjd really despite the horrors, i'll always have writing. or well, writing's just been such a huge part of my life that if i cannot write then I'm not myself anymore. njdjrjd and my friend nick has mentioned this too that i dont seem like myself if i dont have a wip and all that jfjdndd

• i hate to say the rafayel birthday event made me embarrassingly happy but it really did 🙈

• speedwriting a fic. much shorter than something i wrote earlier but like !! idk i havent felt that surge of inspiration that was fun lmao wish that happened more often

• getting another message from a job i applied to that might be interested in hiring me. the positive is this ones a little more interesting than the one i did a recent interview with but same general position. still very 👀

• my friend finished london holiday and might start second key real soon and im so fucking sorry to him about the person i'l turn into when he starts liveblogging at me about it BUT ALSO im actually really happy and excited about it .3.

• OH FOUND OUT THAT MY SISTER WILL BE HOME EVEN FOR THE LITTLE BIT WHEN I GET BACK!! i thought i'd miss n entirely when she's back which made me sad but she'll be there for at least a day when she's back so !! i will beat my jet lag to hang out with her if i have to >:(

• n sending me something that reminded them of me was really sweet 🥹 it made me very happy tbh jfnfnddjj i was kinda shocked

•also saw new artist drawing characters from anti entropy that genuinely made me very happy 🥹🥹

• ngl thinking about tomorrow after the exam has me excited. i still have one more exam to go, but for once, i feel excited by the idea of saying goodbye. i dont really care anymore how i do for either exams, but it's one more step out of this life and one more step into the new one. i think thats exciting and im excited for it. i wish i could say the same about doing the practical exam but that one i just know ill go home dreading so ✌🏼 but tomorrow! lets have fun after the exam and visit the bakery ive been wanting to go to and finally get that silly plush ive been eyeing 🤧 let's give this life a nice farewell and send off before i go

#happy logs

[pixiesinspace]

I'm supposed to have an interview tomorrow but I don't want to go. I dont even want the job and thinking about anything to do with working again just makes me want to cry but I can't afford my bills so I don't have any fucking options.

I hate this.

I hate that I can't fucking function working.

I hate that I'm even mediocre at being a fuck up.

#at least if i was a junkie or hospitalised or something people would just write me off #but no im not even good at being a fuck up #im just shit and useless and cant keep a job while everyone keeps telling me they want better for me #like I KNOW! BUT I CANT DO BETTER #i thought id be dead by now #i want to be #couldnt do that right either

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#god. ok. so i should really b reading papers rn but my lab mate called me needy today and it just keeps cycling in my head #like ive spent way too much time around him bc of field work and the thing abt me is that i just say whatever tf is in my brain so hes #basically been exposed to a scattershot of anxious thoughts in my head idk wtf he must think of me but today he said #the more i learn abt u the more i realize ur needy in these v specific ways #and i think it bothers me a lot bc needy isnt the right word. im not needy. i dont plead for help. im just a semi non functional person. #i just lay here not dealing with all these problems i have. but i generally try just make it my own problem. im just a bit pathetic like #that. do i need help? maybe but im not like needy. im just semi nonfunctional and rather compulsive and controling over myself. i live in a #world full of invisible walls as dictated by my stupid brain. but its all internal control i can put up with a lot as long as i have ctrl #over myself. its not especially healthy but it makes me pretty easy going i suppose. ugh! needy! he obviously hit a nerve how annoying #whatever im exhausted bc i had to b a scribe all day and i had a phd meeting this morning. the project sounds v cool and apparently im the #most qualified person to approach them so far but idk itll be v competitive and do i really want a uk phd? idk idk #at least this guy conducted it like an actual interview. i was like fuck finally some structure! and he said i talk well lol thanks dude #so he thinks id do ok getting grilled by a pannel. idk i kinda wanna apply just to see how far id get into the process #unrelated #i was also having harrowing nightmares last night abt climbing mt everest. at least i got 8hrs sleep lol fml i leave for sampling again #tomorrow afternoon. this is what i get for trying to have even a tiny bit of a social life rip

[star-firework]

if twit is gone, i will have to use a blog like a real blog.

so anyway,

im a warehouse manager now and i got an employee who i feel like im in an abusive relationship with

he out of nowhere said "so some fat, ugly Samoan man won a miss america pagent and he identifies as a woman and you KNOW no one believes that shit!" and that caught my ear and made me stop and ask him why he brought that up cuz there was just no relation to what we were doing

he got defensive and when i asked him to not talk about things like that (cuz we just hired a new guy we dont know his opinions and also its not allowed int he work place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) the moterhfucker yelled at me and told me that IM "the problem and silencing" his opinions

i asked him to not use combative language and then he said "YOURE using combative language!!!" like a toddler yelling at his mom

i felt like i was on fox news or something, dude listened to so much joe rogan, he just melted in front of my eyes?

i was especially 'triggered' because my recently viral-on-reddit-infamous-homeless-attacking-ex-boss deany boy used to go on long, endless, anti trans rants when i was the only one working with him and i waslike what the fuck!!!!!!!!!! the fuck you care so cuking much about trans people in everything, shut up you old bastard dean

your donuts made my stomach hurt and you keep cream cheese in the fridge so long it turns green and when i went to throw it out, you told me to wipe off the green mold and put it back. you also keep the raw bacon on the top of the fridge of everything definitely not raw. you reuse gravy for days on end to the point i think theres weeks old gravy still being eaten. your wife broke 3 crock pots out of anger for some mundane thing and acted like a high school mean girl when she was in charge and made us remop a floor up to like 4 times because she didnt like how there was a "sheen" on the floor.

anyway

my employee just fucuking blew up at me and then he walked out and didnt return for 3 hours, i was at the point of thinking "well ok, guess he actually just quit?"

He returned and didnt talk to me and left without a word. The next day he called out and only said: "Sick. Out. Indefinitely."

What the hell does indefinitely mean after a blow up?

Poor choice of words or a bad way to vaguely quit?

i told HR and made them call him after he didnt text or show up the next day

i was ready to move on and already got an interview set up to fill in when we are already in crisis mode at work lol

then the bastard texts me at 5 when im about to go home and he is furious that HR was calling him. he said "if you have a problem you say it to my face, im coming in tomorrow sick or not"

i felt threatened and scared because when he gets mad, he gets mad and testosterone fueled rage and i dont know if he would get physical

he also was like "am i supposed to be looking for another job!?"

i was so scared of his reaction i was thankfully able to call hr and have her walk me thru how to text this maniac back

i really dont want to work with him ESPECIALLY now

but somehow the company wont fire anyone so this behavior is still cool and no one has balls, i dont have balls and guess i have to continue workingand managing a manchild who is going to be set off at anything

i also have to somehow figure out how to get a meeting with him, me and HR without it sounding liek an interogation because he is so easily defensive

we were cool and i have even been to his house and met his wife and had beers with him and another manager and then it felt like in one instance it just got all washed away because he wanted to rant about trans people?????????

i am so confused!

i also have thrown up soooooooo much this past year from stress, jfc. im finally losing weight but from a very very bad reason and very very unhealthy way that is painful aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

still dont know whats gonna happen since this dude is planning on coming back tomorrow and i have an interview w someone we meant to replace him after he was MIA

#blogpost #me thinkin cuz no twitter #warehouse life

[longeyelashedtragedy]

all or nothing episode 3: stream of consciousness comments

-fuckit i have work tomorrow but i’m watching anyway...capitalism won’t keep me from the boys

-”we have to be COMPACT AND FUCKING AGGRESSIVE FROM THE BEGINNING” jeessufdhjgahdgagda;ldg mikel you need to STOP

-(mikel and granit are SO FUCKING PERFECT TOGETHER i????? i’m thinking of the interview granit did with sky sports where he’s like i’m literally not going to change my playing style, mikel must have absolutely nutted on the spot)

-i love Sports Boys and Masculinity i wanna be in their dressing room broing out so bad fffffffffff

-gender goals: happy arsenal dressing room

-mikel arteta junk in the trunk queen of north london

-okay but sad aaron post-villa is quite literally bringing tears to my eyes

-”it’s a fucking joy”

-GRANIT’S CAR OAMDFKA;JDGK;FJ;AKDG “What is this shit car?” “Brother, the best car ever” oh my god only granit could roll up in this car 

-mikel looking like a model in his conference room

-uhhh his eye color? Radiant whatever it is

-he talked to aaron’s dad on the phone!!!! o m fg my heart,,,,,

-nuno going to ikea with his mom,,,,,,stoooooppppp

-nuno is stupid beautiful it hurts a little

-ugh the leicester win SO EXCITING

-side note i always love when in the away stadiums the away dressing room just has like, some shitty folding chairs 

-kt, ben, and cedric sitting around trying to eat and mikel comes up to talk to them about memorizing phone numbers hgjksgjsgj

-it’s been like 81904914 min and we finally have edu pronouncing mikel correctly lmao

-these 2 sitting around talking about mikel’s development while he’s right there in the room...this is the biggest jewish mom vibes i’ve ever seen lmao

-holy shit kt getting real about mental health.....oh my heart wow

-”i don’t speak often man so when i speak it’s from the heart” kt ahhhh

-oh it’s the portunhol

-cut from mikel in his black turtleneck to mo, alright alright alright alright

-”don’t leave anything in that fucking pitch bc it’s a regret...i let the team down and i let myself down....and i dont want you to go through that.  so go out there and play with fucking courage and be ourselves today on that pitch. do me please only that favor.  yeah?”

-THE KLOPP FIGHT...IT’S COMING 🍿

-how are people supposed to focus when mikel’s 🍑 is fully like that 

-the way that beating liverpool is such a personal tragedy for mikel

-i don’t ever want to see mr benjamin white look that sad and defeated ever again

-NOOOO they’re all so deflated nOOOOO

-i miss granit :(

-”don’t worry about it guys because i will defend you. if anything, it’s my mistake, i will take responsibility.” 😭💔

-pep telling mikel this job is the “loneliest profession”

-“i don’t regret one bit the decisions that i make” serving really big cfk “No me arrepiento de nada de lo que hice” vibes

-”i know the fans like kt, i can feel that.  but i wil try to fight for my position, it’s not me against kieran it’s about the position” ohhh nuno 💔💔

-holy shit wait this was the game where granit unexpectedly came back...so wait his injury wasn’t even mentioned? at all? wtf?

-ohhhh shit mikel’s yelling in the dressing room!!!!! 🍿🍿🍿🍿 “you’re fucking lucky!  LU CKY!”

-granit casually fixing his socks while his bf yells

-fuck you richarlison!!

-oh shit this is when aaron comes in like “fucking embarrassing”

- “the reaction here is too late” *walks out* OMG ICE FUCKING COLD AJDKGAJDGKALJDGA;GAKGFD;LJ

-next episode: auba drama, mikel with covid cursing enthusiastically on video chat in black shortsleeves in his house, man city new years day....WHERE IS GRANIT’S RECOVERY?

#ihc watches arsenal #ihc watches all or nothing #interesting to watch this one as a both teams fan hahaha

[sincerely-krp]

At the end of the day, you gen rpers are taking real life people (even if idols may present themselves differently than what they actually are irl) and writing them as if they are a fictional character in your little fantasy world, shipping them with other real life people, writing smut between them and other real life people, pretending that you are idols and living your fantasies through, again, real life people. Pot calling the kettle black, you're just as weird as them. // boosting this fr lmfao. imagine defending this whole csa topic and then turning around to write out choi soobin from tomorrow by together being a sexual deviant and sleeping with bandmates. i'm not saying these idols aren't old enough to do these things or have these interests... i'm saying that it's fetishized. i'm saying that it's glorified in modern times where, mind you, people will become upset (and rightfully so) if their gender or sexuality is assumed. so, why assume your fav idol is gay unless they explicitly state it? i dont wanna hear "they said ___ in this interview!" okay? if they mention being interested in men, maybe they're bisexual. maybe they're pansexual. maybe they don't even WANT a label. if they're straight up gay, that's cool. just don't assume they are unless the words "i am [sexual identity] comes from their mouths. gen is disgusting in this regard and very few people treat this part of gen rp with respect. in a world where people STRESS respecting labels and identity, y'all are quick to forget your fav idols are people, too. also, irdc if this is off-topic, it needs to be said. i'm all for the lgbtqia+ idols, but people who put sexuality labels onto gen muses (yes, i have room to speak on this, i used to do it too! until i realized it was pretty fucked up!) are disgusting. this goes out to that one jimin rper from a year or so ago, too, that put "he/they" or "they/them" (icr which) in their bio. that is VERYYYY BOLD to assume, even if you think it fits your pretty little narrative. if you wanna pursue that so badly, go to au or oc rp. please.

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[overflowchute]

venting

legitimately all i fucking want is to have a normal fucking life and be happy and i can't even have that because i'm fucking poor and i can't afford literally anything that'd make my life better, and now i have to face an insanely high bill that'll make everything in my life harder and the worst bit is that legitimately i don't know what the fuck i;m going to do if it happens again. it'll probably cost like 3000 dollars or something just to get this dealt with at the dealership and then what do i even do with my car? i don't want to drive it to work anymore which makes this job so much more frustrating, but i need to keep working it because otherwise i won't have any money at all. ive been interviewing for all these better jobs that im hopeful about but they're all way more distant and now they're just utterly not an option for me if i can't drive!!! im stuck with this stupid fucking job where im going to have to take the bus and change my entire schedule to fit it every day, let alone considering the 30 minute walks im going to half to take to get to the nearest grocery store...

ok, well, maybe when i get my car ill only drive it to the grocery store because it wasn't stolen for 3 months until i started leaving it at work all day... but im still just. i dont know what to do. i really dont know what to do. im legitimately just crying in bed like an idiot instead of being able to get to sleep because what the fuck is there even for me to say. what am i going to do at the service appointment tomorrow, ask them how long they can hold my car because i don't have any fucking money? how am i supposed to just keep on walking through life normally and go to work when everything's become so much harder? i worked 11 hours today at 15 dollars an hour, that's 158 dollars without counting my lunch break, and then i spent 200 dollars getting my fucking car towed to the dealership so i literally went negative today. i havent had more than 3000 dollars since i was getting scholarships at school and now i have to imagine dumping that much to replace something that could get easily stolen yet again at a moment's notice

like what the fuck am i supposed to do. get a whole new car that doesnt have as likely a chance of seeing its converter stolen? buy one of those stupid 200 dollar shields that only might stop a determined thief, despite the fact that those converters can go for like 700 dollars on the resale market? i can't fucking do any of that because i'm fuucking poor and i'm going to have to work like a month just to deal with the current situation, let alone trying to figure out a way to not have to deal with it anymore, LET ALONE any of the things i wanted to fucking save up money to be able to do

it's just actually fucking hopeless like life is just misery and suffering ok

#narfvent