#i drew once and it fucked me up

[babysitterpng]

after starcourt

#i drew once and it fucked me up #steve harrington #stranger things #billy hargrove #robin buckley #billy held back the mindflayer hes all good guys #trust me i saw it happen

[yourlocalabomination]

I am not immune to funny crackships.

+ Bonus

#*falsettos your chasitys* #this started out as a ‘aha yea they fucked once in highschool’ joke for me how did I end up here #it went from ‘Teddy: yea man it doesn’t count if your socks are on’ to queer teen situationship in the 90s angst with religious overtones #I would like to blame everyone who has made holybastard fanart/fanfics for converting me #I don’t see them as a long term relationship but more on an active affair between two old high school ‘friends’ #I drew these while listening to The Last Dinner Party ans now I can’t stop thinking about holy bastard to some of their songs #‘picture me in bed- under your crucifix- under your long black hair- I’ll see you on Sunday’ are actual lyrics how can I not- #I just impor you to listen (there only 5 songs as of now) and do the same- ESPECIALLY SINNER ITS SUCH A MARK CODED SONG #who would have figured the queer ex religious person would be a sucker for queer relationships with religious themes #grace chasity #peter spankoffski #pete spankoffski #mark chasity #holy bastard #starkid #team starkid #starkid productions #starkid fanart #starkid animation #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #nerdy prudes must die fanart #npmd fanart #npmd starkid #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #hatchetfield universe #fanart #my art #my animation

[whaliiwatching]

tfw ur spider boyfriend is actually a cat

also a fluffy version bc im incapable of drawing anything that doesn’t induce cavities

#spider man: across the spiderverse #spider punk #spider noir #hobie brown #noirpunk #thanks to voidpants for the initial idea & the discord for building on it!!! #fluffy version under cut <3 #a good amt of spiders have this thing called a tapetum over some of their eyes #essentially its a layer of fibers or CRYSTALS over their eyes that doubles nighttime sensitivity #(many mammals like cats also have this. we don’t bc we’re god’s worsties) #so at night if noir has tapeta he can actually see twice as good #no glasses! just this once!!! #if ur bf looked at u at night and u saw full on nictitating membrane cat eyes youd be freaked too #for abt 0.1 seconds before the FUCK THATS COOL factor shows up #or is that just me #i firmly believe hobie is lazy and just uses silk/satin pillowcases instead of a bonnet #but then i liked it too much when i drew it waaaah #hm…… they’re in love

[thefreshprinceofjunes]

sometimes i remember they gave riku a purse in the first supergroupies collab and i just

wow. beautiful. truly the gay-coded of all time.

#kingdom hearts #riku #riku kh #kh riku #riku riku ni shiteageru #yes i know straight men can use purses im just SAYING #it fucking kills me that like. kairi is the only other one with a purse #sora and roxas have backpacks #and axel has like a. sling. crossbody. thing. #i used the vague 'they' bc im not sure if nomura drew the art and then they made the products based on them #or if they made the products and then nomura drew them #either way they have his approval lol #ETA: from someone on reddit: #'The products were designed first. Super Groupies and SE collaborated to come up with the designs together.' #'And once it was finalised Nomura did some artwork of them.' #'Based on the image of them collaborating it looks like SE gave them designs of some characters in their KH3 outfits with details about-' #'-their clothes and Super Groupies used that to come up with the designs for their lineup.' #which is kinda what i figured after i found info saying they released images of the illustrations AFTER images of the products lol

[shepards-folly]

WHO NEEDS GOD WHEN YOU CAN BE WORSHIPPED LIKE ONE?!

#shep arts #content smp #csmp #doctor4t #this was supposed to go up after i finished it but again i went back to sleep so uhm good morning part two here's more contentsmp #my friend said it was a crime for me to draw arathain without R4T cause i talk about them together so much #anyway lol drew this really quick so it doesnt parallel arathains properly also its just kinda wack in some places #i think they were just teasing me but i mean yeah.. I cannot shut the fuck up about them once i get started #honestly i still have no idea how to draw R4T... I think this is like the third time I've drawn him :/ #scratch that actually i dont know how to draw anyone on the csmp and thats a sin I need to atone for #we'll see if i draw more lol. i keep going I should draw this and then not drawing that at all #typical neurodivergent swag moment tbh #btw the caption is roughly taken from attention seeking demon by winchifrost #i think that's the lyric but tbh rn all the stuff bouncing around my head are all just song lyrics but a bit wrong so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[fluxydrawings]

False. A WRONG thing. A pseudo-being which exists as a mimic of something better

#rapid eyes #id tag the chara but i have no clue if this thangs got a name. o7 #Creature ThingTM #fanart #my art #hi people who followed me for rapid eyes a while back. heres fanart again #drew this on call w my pal just now while loopin that song i linked. said at one point out loud 'i think this songs giving me anxiety' so l #ke! it works! LMAO #fucked w this alot. not the Happiest with it but whateeevver ylal can have it #thank u once again ta pj thumbprint brush cause i thought itd be funny for that ta be consistant between my rapid eyes fanart #also good texture lmao #tried ta make this creepy lookin hope i succeded. thumbs up!

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

Could you perchance draw my beautiful and loving wives the mannequin and or ferryman

sure, here ya go!

#ultrakill #ultrakill spoilers #<- the embargo may be over but i like tagging it for people who either cant or struggle to play the new layer #ferryman #mannequin #finally put effort into drawing ferrys bones for once #also i. didnt realize the joints on the mannequin were HANDS until i drew them?? thats cool as fuck #blood #my art #also haha i was a bit. surprised to get an art request considering i dont have anything that says i do them? im not mad just! slgnldjfh #whenever i DID ask people for art requests id never get any #so i just kind of gave up asking #if anyone else wants me to draw something maybe send an ask? it probably wont be fast or if it is it will probably just be a sketch but!

[laniemae]

I am going to take a break from milgramblr

[important please read]

ok now how do I start. Im going to take a break from tumblr for about a week. Things have been absolutely awful for me here since the very beginning of 2024, even if it may not look that way at times.

to retell the situation it happened with the new years gartic phone game, where someone made a prompt about a ship that made me heavily uncomfortable. To put it loosely it reminded me of an extremely bad experience with a fandom a few years ago when I called out a ship for being creepy and having a huge age gap but I was constantly dogpiled and harassed. It was probably the worst experience I’ve had on the internet and to this day I get really scared of people hating on me and I apologise for everything likely stemming back from the situation.

I tried to persist with the game but I got really upset and left. I expressed on my blog how uncomfortable I felt about the whole situation. Then this one person, who’s a prominent figure in the Milgramblr community, I won’t name them but I think you’ll know who, replied on my post saying that “it’s ok because…” in such an awful tone. It’s hard to explain but basically it felt really bad as they completely dismissed my feelings about the situation just to justify their creepy ship. And even worse, they way they responded was EXACTLY the same way that everyone else responded back in to at old fandom. At the point to I’d much prefer hate and harassment over that false positive attitude.

I freaked out and immediately blocked them and basically went into a panic attack. I was freaking out on my blog and just to make things worse I saw a post praising them and things got so bad. It was the start of the new year and I was on holiday and was supposed to do a bunch of things but because of that situation I was bedridden and couldn’t stop crying. I had so many nightmares about everyone here turning on me and the original incident and I still have them.

the way the person reacted to my situation was absolutely awful. After my breakdown they immediately went to their blog and started posting about how the ships good and you should praise it completely disregarding everything that happened. I’ve always been uncomfortable with them but this pushed me over the edge. And later on I got in contact with someone who was (presumably) trying to help me and we decided to see if that person could make an apology. But they took way to long to even think they gave any attention to the situation and the apology itself didn’t feel that genuine.

This person was still posting about it and didn’t change their pfp and title despite how bad it was to me and they did not do anything at all. Again I’m not naming anyone but I highly recommend you do not support them anymore. I said I’m going to be leaving for a while but if you want clarification on who it is you can just ask, I’ll check my stuff tomorrow morning before I completely shut off for the week.

I don’t know who it was but there was even a throwaway account hating on me and saying awful things. I didn’t care that much as things had already gotten so bad for me that I didn’t care about the opinion of an anon. But like I said, the sickly positive response that person gave was way worse than actual hate.

and that’s only one part of the story. Another thing happened much more recently with the person I mentioned who was trying to help me. They were the first person I followed on Milgramblr and the person who inspired me to join and make all these theories, so with this and them helping me I really looked up to them. It was a few days ago I think but they posted something on their account about that person and wanting attention to them. I expressed my uncomfortable feelings about the situation and they didn’t do anything about it. Instead they decided to KEEP POSTING about it, like constantly and me getting more upset at the situation and how they responded made it clear that they didn’t care at all. I blocked them and we were mutuals for a while.

It’s been a month and I’m still suffering very badly. I’m not constantly crying as I was when it first happened but it still pains me. I’ve been feeling incredibly distressed on this sight knowing that the original person hasn’t done anything about it and they’re still very close. No matter how much I block them or blog tags I still see them in reblogs or bought up. I had to exclude anything relating to the earbuds collab from my milgram archives as it gives me back really bad memories to the pfps involved. I just can’t feel safe in this place anymore and especially that no matter how I feel, nothing has changed since when it happened and no one’s even actually trying to help me or change things.

I’ve just been feeling so bad that I’ve been going days without eating. Just because I can’t be bothered to get out of bed. The only solace for me is sleep but even that’s not good enough as I might have nightmares and I often feel much more tired afterwards. Things are changing for me as I actually have to get up and do something now and it’s surprisingly going kinda well, but that has nothing to do with this situation.

just to note I will be continuing my milgram archives series, I’ve scheduled quite a few posts for this week so they’ll keep going. For me I’ll completely cut off all activity for this week, and may return on Wednesday.

it’s just. I hate how nothings changed. I want something to happen but no one’s helping

#I don’t know how many people will see this #i don’t even know if people will care about this #perhaps I just come back and everything’s the fucking same #I’ve been considering leaving the fandom because of this and I guess this would be to see what’s it’s like #If it’s better to stay or to leave #I’ve blocked so many people from this situation it’s hard to believe #people I thought I could trust… #To say it once again #If you know the person I’m referring to please unfollow them and don’t support them #I can tell you if you ask for a while #And just seeing all the praise the fandom got with people saying the fandom is such a nice and wholesome space is sickening #It was right after what happened and it’s just awful seeing people say that like they don’t care about what happened #They even started a minecraft server which I wanted to join #But avoided like the plague when I realised it was the person who started the original prompt #There was also a thing that happened recently where someone drew all their mutuals as cats #I ended up seeing that person in one of the cats and knowing that they followed them I instantly unfollowed #The cat pfps just make me so uncomfortable as it constantly reminds of the situation #It sounds stupid because it is but I’m at the point where any little reminder can set me off #But it’s not as bad as the collab pfps which I just can’t look at anymore #Although it’s only with a few characters that really make me feel that the art style in general just gives bad memories #To what I said earlier I don’t know anything about the person the originally made the prompts stand on this #I don’t know if they’re purposely ignoring me I don’t know if they even have no idea this is happening but I’m worried #I’ve also had experiences with a bunch of people I used to follow blocking me #And I’ve talked about it here but no one pays attention

[mikoran]

him

#will byers #TUMBLR FUCKED THE QUALITY UP AGAIN DAMNIT #send help #anyway gonna hate this tomorrow love that for me #byler #pspspspsps trying to lure bylers to my blog #you guys love him too its fine he can be in the tag #its kinda funny how much my art style changed after joining the st fandom #it was much more of an anime style but that stopped working once i drew real people #im having fun with this one tho #and im learning more face anatomy #win win for me #i love his side profile #i have so many byler wips thatll never be finished because drawing two people interacting is outside my skillset whoops #my art

[foodlesoodlesdoodles]

I suppose I ought to show my profile pictures origin . hey girl , I mean . they.

#hotpants sbr #hot pants jojo #hot pants sbr #oc #SBR oc #<???? #art #my art #Diego Brando #technically !!!!! sorry I drew him too cunty he needs to be pathetic next time #jjba oc #oh yeah I’m one of those #oc x canon #I ffucking LOVE drawing hot pants ‼️‼️‼️‼️ #it was a genuinely struggle to draw her hair at first but once I got the hang of it #modern AU #<< yeah that’s why she doesn’t have her usual hat sorry #Cecelia Clementine I love you #y’all have no idea how in love I am with . mostly everyone in this image #my WIFEE #btw that little golden pin thing? I Mandela effected myself into drawing that into their outfit it’s actually from Polnareff design #fucked me up but I will not stop drawing it like that #LESBIANISM . next question

[babysitterpng]

y'all mind if i scream

#i drew once and it fucked me up #steve harrington #billy hargrove #eddie munson #stranger things #hi im not dead #metalsandwich

[homosexual-fanfiction]

in celebration of the fic ALMOST being done here's a piece of the scrapped outline from 2019 that still makes me laugh

#back when the plan was uh #that... #well #i drafted this version in 2019. let me emphasize. before 2020 #and back then it was going to be a respiratory pandemic (uh oh) that suddenly breaks out and tons of people catch it (UH OH) #and the concept was going to be introduced by someone on the news wearing a mask and talking about it (UH!!! OH!!!) #and there's this huge rush to scramble around and create treatments for it (FUCKING UH OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) #AND YOu can probably see why i didnt continue to roll with that idea come 2020 #like it was mostly because i had started going sicko mode and deleted my old account around then but like alkfdjsklf #i like how the new version unfolded anyways i prefer it much more over what was going to happen before #once again i am glad im writing this now and not then #anyways #i still laugh at 'who the fuck is jimmy i dont care?' #not an update #i also have an old thing i drew in 2019 that i keep going back and forth on posting here cus i still like it but also i have an art account #but also i do not fucking use that account it is empty #i'll probably put it up here at some point #im just getting all like. Nostalgic i guess now that its almost over cus i first had the idea for this story like almost four years ago and #now its almost donneeeeee #ANYWAYS. #my favorite hobby is writing essays in the tags <3

[girl001]

peep the damn fit

#return of the pink wig #after i did my make up i hung my head realizing i accidentally looked like that one meme of that little girl #in all the sparkly purple make up #once i put on the fit tho it all came together #with the wig u couldnt see the little white leaves i drew on my forehead and temples tho :/ #selfie #my face #me #fashion #sword #pride month #gay rights #goth #alt #bi #FUCK I JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO PUT ON MY FUCKING FAIRY WINGS THAT WAS THE WHOLE REASON I WANTED TO DO A LOOK ANYWAYS OH MY GOD #oh well next time #ok to rb

[fauxridium]

Link looks like rcdart I'm sorry

this has got to be one of the stupidest asks i've gotten like fghdfh. for one have you??? actually looked at their art??? because they really dont look the same, the way i draw link is. proportionate, and not at all outside of the realm of physical possibility, which brings me to secondly, you realize. actual real life people can have the same body type right? real life trans people can have that body type? which also brings me to thirdly, i am a trans man who has a similar body type to the one i draw link with, by comparing the way i draw him to transphobic caricatures you are saying that my existence as a trans man with a similar body type is transphobic, for simply existing in my body

news flash but trans people can have literally any body shape, just like cis people, and if your trans activism doesn't include trans mascs of all shapes and sizes, Including those that are curvy, it is not activism and is, in fact, transphobia

#people on tumblr just love accusing me #a trans man #of being transphobic for drawing trans characters who look like me #like lol sorry die mad <3 #maybe you'd have a case if link was the Only trans character i drew but like #most of the characters i draw are trans #octavo is also trans #every link i draw is trans and they all have wildly different body types #because once again #trans people can have wildly different body types #shocking i know #anyways shut the fuck up lol

[daisyjoners]

tag dump! nana’s version (atualizando aos poucos por ser muita gente)

#⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ we only look like young stars because you can't see old scars ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ heath & ramona. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ all these people think love is for show but i would die for you in secret ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ victor & miranda. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ your integrity makes me seem small ; you paint dreamscapes on the wall ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ avery & amelia. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ back before i knew how much i had to lose ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ emre & vienna. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ drew a map on your bedroom ceiling ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ evan & dougie. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ i didn't see the news ‘cause we were somewhere else ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ melina & olivia. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ i once was poison ivy but now i'm your daisy ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ haseul & hui. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ you must like me for me ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ sunmi & minhyun. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ i’m under your spell ; drawn to you so helplessly ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ astrid & ahin. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ you’re quite the charmer ; my knight in armour ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ margo & blaine. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ i don’t wanna look at anything else now that i saw you ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ daniel & mai. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ say you love me every waking moment ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ maddie & forrest. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ crazy little thing called love ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ chaeyeon & soyi. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ everybody wants you but i don't like a gold rush ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ miso & baekho. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ the skeletons in both our closets plotted hard to fuck this up ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ harper & snow. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ now you hang from my lips like the gardens of babylon ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ aaron & cleo. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ i could lay and just look in your eyes ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ hoyeon & peggy. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ captain crash and the beauty queen from mars ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ sungyu & taekhee. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ our love ain't water under the bridge ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ dawon & channie. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ it doesn't make a difference if we make it or not ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ eunhye & minkyu. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ i wanna be with you everywhere ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ yuna & seokmin. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ my name will be stained on your lips ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ hyeri & yeeun. #⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ twin souls destined to find each other ⠀ ⠀ ﹕ ⠀ ⠀ erik & lola.