#i hate exisiting

[pissfizz]

The feminine urge to disappear off the face of the internet entirely

#urghhhhhh #is it bad I hoped I would be a casualty in the mistaken twitter bans #idk…. I hate exisiting and seeing others exist in a better way then I do

[charonte-simi]

Man I really did just speedrun being a late teen in my 20's huh. Looking back at me 1 year ago (hell 7 months ago really) and feeling embarrassed by my emotional state. I love that for me.

Like, I never got to have *any* of those moments as a kid but I managed to shove all of it, including the mental instability, tiptoeing into independence, and testing the waters of relationships, all into about half a year. Look at me go

#that The Wonder Years album just popped up #i love noticing the personal growth as it happens #i hate that i didnt fucking exisit because of trauma and mental illness throughout my teens/early adulthood #but im glad im getting to experience it all now that im in a safer more stable place #simi speaks

[iknewiwouldregretthis]

for like 2 weeks i’ve had several phone calls to make that need to be made during business hours and i haven’t wanted to do them from work because i need particular resources at hand and also they’re for my personal life and i don’t need work people overhearing me

but now i’m working from home today and i have the time to start doing the phone calls and i have all my little resources ready and instead i’m just not doing it because i guess i’m afraid that the mortgage broker is going to tell me i’ll be trapped here forever or something

#it's a hard world out there for a lil guy who doesn't understand money #most of my money things are taken care of but i want to buy a house #and for that i need specific mortgage related information and its relationship with my exisiting money information #i just hate every time i gotta call someone and be like 'hey i'm dumb as hell about money' #i know it's their job! i know! it doesn't make me feel less stupid! and bad! about it!

[to-be-enchanted]

i feel like ive never dreaded a day worse than right now

#i just feel terrified #and sick and miserable #i wanna sleep all day i wanna stop exisiting for the next 24 hours #god. i hate her i hate her i hate her #these past 2 weeks have been miserable. i just want school to start again I want to do something. #elle's vents #01/05/24

[sotogalmo]

6:12 am(? Its morning, so I dunnotbh)

It's 6 in the morning. On a Monday. Third week of school.

I have fucked myself over.

Oh God, this is the worst. Everyone will be contacting me, hating me, and hiring people to get me. Assassins, and anything else.

They're gonna spread shits bout me. They're gonna lie to me. They're gonna hate me. They already do hate me. Not like I care. I dont talk to them.

Why should they care enough to hate me? Why should I care. My chest is in pain, my stomach feels like it's on fire, I want to puke or eat something so I can forget, I hate the outside - how thw sky lights up, I'm twitching too much, I should remove my brain, I should be a robot. I should've been a robot.

Would've been better

#time diary(?) #audrey/kellie's time diary #very stressed. i hate everyone. fukc thdi worthy worthless poanet. i dont wanna exisit. people are gonna get me #vent ish ig #i shouldn't be like this #i should sleep at the very ficking least #i should delete this later #i hate my existence #very fucking anxoous as fuck and waiting to be choked💗 #i need help

[dialyce]

Totk spoilers but I think zelda should have stayed that way.

#personally i feel it removes all meaning from uer decision and also she was cooler as a dragon #she was teeny.... a baby... and turning her back removes all meaning #ezra.txt #not to hate on a girlboss but i also just dont like botw/totk zelda either and her suffering the same fate link did in botw #(losing all her memories and exisiting in a 'comatose' state for indefinite amnt of time) #felt poetic #bringing her back was so....ugh. but it is a kids game and needs a happy ending

[jack-owo-valentine]

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#i hate gynos so fucking much #its the most traumatizing shit on the planet #also like- female health care is a joke in the us #like #men can get fucking numbed n shit 2 get snipped snipped #but theyll just scrape the insides of someone w/ a uterus w/o anything?? #shove a massive tool that looks like a tortue device w/ no lube or nothing? #dismiss your pain #god i hate exisiting

[androgynous-peach]

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#today is chicagos pride parade #i didnt wanna go for the partying last weekend but the PARADE is what i love #somehow there was a miscommunication and my sister went without me #she is my best friend and also queer and lives closer to the city #and i found and sobbed #sobbed because all of this anti transness in the world has gotten to me way more than i felt i needed to acknowledge #bills against people like me happily exisiting #and all the hate speech i see so liberally everywhere #im in a moment of absolute devastation for my trans community #and i guess i needed to see trans love today #and im mad at my sister for going without me and im mad at myself for being mad at my sister #tw suidcide #ive had suicidal thoughts more than usual and its like im an activist to the bone but im so tired #im so tired please just let me be tired

[firehouse-subs-fr]

FIREHOUSE HELP why do i feel like you and subway have a love hate child

i swear i don't know where i saw it but there was a firewaysub blog claiming to be your child

i might be delusional help- i think i saw it in a dream maybe um

you might have to put me back into the leech box *sob*

--@jollibee-real

p.s i blame phub if i'm so wrong about firewaysub exisiting

WHAT THE FUCK

That's a horrible name and also WHAT THE FUCK

I hope you're just being delusional because I'm not ready to raise a child ESPECIALLY WITH MY NEMESIS WHAT THE FUUUUUCK

[karoochui]

Okay. So I recently found your blog and been obsessing over the sandman au but like. You mentioned things about reincarnation and how y/b died and like. If sand sun and boogie moon remember everything after the fire, do they know what happened to y/n? And don’t they realize that y/n is gonna die again? After all, I’m assuming that y/n is just a human and sun and moon are like. Kinda gods of dreams? Falling in love for a second time with a person you kinda know is gonna die eventually must be scary

Oh okay well firstly! They aren't gods or anything like that, theyre just them with the magic to boot. All the changes in the world were brought upon by a virus outbreak that i call the AP virus (as reference to it as a fourth wall viewer, not as in what it's called in the story) that killed off most living things by rotting them from the inside-out. After the events of Binary Resurgence this virus causes an apocalypse that's basically the start of everything being re-evolutionized and magic resurfacing. Everything is affected and some species stay the same (like some humans) and some don't. This all happens within like ~2000 years after the plex burns down. It's inspired by adventure time if that helps give you a better idea.

Magic is a pre-exisiting thing that's been subdued by polution (its part of the earth, pollution kills the Earth blah blah blah) and also ignorance/neglect of practice. Like ive said before this story will have a sequel which is where all the magic happens (lol) and it's only really touched upon/used as a foreshadowing element in the first story.

Also sun and moon aren't quite literally the sandman and boogie man, sun wasnt even inspired by either. I actually just mashed the two concepts together for moon's design and skills. Sun is more-so based on a grave-digger,western cowboy kinda look with a witchy touch. And yes! They do know what happened to y/n, they remember everything. They had to LIVE through the apocalypse after y/n's death and then live through the world changing all over again. They actually do "die" (their battery goes kaput) for a hot second but magic doesn't let many things rest in the means of evolution and their body is revitalized.

And yeah meeting y/n again after all of that is fucking horrifying for them but it's also a blessing. Its a plot point actually, because over the years Sun hasnt become evil, persay, but he's a fucking nut lmao. He has been through Some Shit and is absolutely deranged and not always in the best way. His behavior and actions eventually cause some arguments and stuff. The sequel is gonna be more of a feel-good story though, to make up for the terrible way the first one is gonna end.

Yeah y/n is gonna eventually die again (not that i plan to write that but humans aren't immortal) but it isnt so much about that as it is about "things will go right this time". The first story was very much a "right person, wrong time" kinda thing. I wouldn't say it's slice of life, because i don't really like that genre by itself, but it has elements.

Basically i really liked the concept for the first story but i hate bad endings so i made a sequel to fix everything. Also i hope that answered your questions! If not then don't be shy about asking some more.

#my asks #binary resurgence: round 2 au #binary resurgence

[perfectlyvalid49]

Sometimes I feel like this blog is more Judaism focused than I really want it to be. Like, I am Jewish, but that’s only one aspect of my personality. I’m also interested in politics and linguistics and nerdy pop culture stuff and a whole bunch of other things. And I want this blog to have space for all of that.

So when I spent a ton of time late last week fighting with an antisemite, I told myself that when I was done with him (or as it turns out, when he was done with me), I’d take a break from posting about Jewish issues for a bit. Just like, a week where I’m just reblogging stuff that makes me laugh or an interesting language fact or something like that. Y’know, happy stuff.

He blocked me Friday, and on Saturday, Hamas attacked. And I’ve got a big mouth, so I can’t not say anything. Maybe when this is all resolved I can post happy stuff, but for right now, I need a place to talk, even though I’m struggling with what to say.

I guess the first thing I should say is that I feel terrible about what’s happening. Because what’s happened so far is bad, and what will happen next is even worse. Israel will take its vengeance; innocent Palestinians will die. The friends and families of the victims on both sides will be radicalized and the violence will continue. I hate it and it’s stupid and I wish there was an easy way to stop it and I know that there isn’t.

And I want to say that I support the Palestinian people. The way that Israel treats the Palestinians in Gaza is inhumane – it shouldn’t be allowed! But Israel treats them that way because before they did, you couldn’t get on a bus in Israel without worrying about being blown up. That shouldn’t be allowed either! Everything is complicated. Both sides are full of people who just want to live in peace who are being screwed over by a minority who won’t be happy until the other side is gone. Both sides have valid points, both sides have done terrible things. Anyone who is telling you that it isn’t complicated is either woefully uneducated about the history of the conflict, thinks one side does not deserve fundamental human rights, or both.

And after saying all that, I guess that I should make it clear that I’m still a Zionist – I believe that the Jewish people have the right to a self-determined state, and I think that Israel is probably the best place for it (I did not say a good place, I just don’t think there’s a better one. The best of a bunch of bad options is still the best). Having said that I’m a Zionist, I still hate what Israel’s government is doing and has been doing. Netanyahu is a monster. You can disagree with a country’s government and still think it has a right to exisit.

If you think that all Zionists are evil (and you’re still reading this), then tell me a better solution. Where should Jews go to be safe from governmental persecution? Or should they be denied that? If so, why?

And that’s the other thing I want to talk about. Every Jew I know is watching this with feelings of grief and horror, and the response from the left seems to be some variation on, “Israeli civilians deserved this,” “go back to where you came from,” or “terrorism is OK, actually, as long as it’s against a colonizer state (but not the one I live in).” And it’s soul-crushing. It is possible to be anti-Zionist without being antisemitic, but it seems like right now people aren’t even trying. The only good Jew is a dead Jew, and now that there are a bunch of dead Jews, everyone is celebrating.

I keep thinking about this video that I watched at school when I was a kid about the conflict. It was probably the mid 90s and the video showed Arab and Israeli kids playing together with a voice over from an interview with one of their moms. And I remember her saying that the kids playing together was good because then they would be friends, and when they got older they wouldn’t want to fight each other because they would remember that they were friends. I know now that it was probably a propaganda video, but that’s still what I want. I want leadership for Gaza that isn’t a terrorist organization, I want leadership for Israel that isn’t a far right authoritarian nightmare, I want Palestinians to not be locked behind a wall, I want Israelis who don’t have drills for when the rockets come. I want everyone – EVERYONE – to be able to live a life in peace and I want two little boys with different backgrounds and religions that both include a history in Israel to be able to play in a field by a river and be friends.

And if you don’t want that? Fuck you.

#israel #antisemitism #long post #i'm having feelings #thanks for letting me ramble #probably a lot more reblogs on this topic are incoming

[adviceformefromme]

hey, so mine is kinda wild. i've struggled with depression, suicidal thoughts, and bullying for like three years. last summer it reached a climax to the point that i attempted, but i looked at my life and decided "this is a hellhole, i need to get my shit together." so i'm trying, i've started working harder to get my grades better, i've cut off all of my toxic friends and made new ones, i'm working to get my dreams to come true, and life is better than its ever been.

but to be honest, it's still hard. there are some times where i just wanna give up completely. toss everything out of a window, bury myself in blankets, fall asleep, and never get up. i hate feeling this way while i'm trying to fix myself. can you help me?

Thank you for your honesty in sharing this! Some tips that come to mind:

Look at what triggers you to want to give up, to bury yourself? Slowly but surely start working on those triggers.. for example if you're giving too much of yourself away to men who don't value you, and you wind up feeling worthless, look at the behaviour that got you into the position. The trigger will show you where your deeper wounds are and from there you can start deeper healing.

Re-programme your subconcious mind with a voice recording that you play before bed. You want to record your own voice on your voice recorder on your phone, repeating a few simple affirmations that help and heal you, for example 'I am creating a beautiful life for myself, I love myself, i am worthy, I am worthy of living my dreams, i am worthy of love, i feel so much love from the universe, from the people in my life, i am grateful for this life, i am grateful for all the love around me' you want to record yourself for around 3-5 mins and play if before bed and as you wake up. The subconscious mind loves repetition.

Take inventory of the music you listen to, the external factors that affect your energy, and some adjusting. In my early 20s i suffered with terrible anxiety and depression and I was listening to the most depressing music on repeat. This was completely affecting my energy. Try binaural beats, or frequency healing music, sound healing on youtube, or any feel good music with UPLIFTING lyrics to make you feel good.

Move your body, keep the energy flowing. Depression and anxiety love a stagnant body, but when the energy is flowing it has a difficult time to exsist.

Something I heard once is that negative thoughts are just energies, they exist and they look for places to latch themselves and live within us. This helped me understand that feeling worried, stressed, depressed, was not who i was. They are just feelings that exisit and the more we give them attention the more they can exist within us. Have you ever noticed that when you get distracted your anxiety can go but then when you think about it, it returns like magic. This isn't about wrestling your negative thoughts, it just means taking a deep breath, and focusing on who you want to be. A vision board that is your wildest dreams is a great way to remember your purpose and move away from darker thoughts.

Read fiction. I can't recommend this enough, for a little escapism from the world, something that brings you joy, detaches you from the screen, and reconnects your heart to a story out of your current world.

Find a support system. There will be a number of authors, bloggers, youtubers who speak to your soul on your healing journey, go find them and relish in their message. There are people available to help you. Angels on earth everywhere, specifically picked to help you. Once you start finding healers and a message that pulls you out of your darkness you are halfway there.

I hope these help! Inbox is always open for extra support xoxoxox

#manifesting #levelup #levelupjourney #manifestyourreality #healwounds #heal #healingtrauma #dreamlife levelup masteryourlife mastery lao lawofattraction manifesting hypergamy visualise visionboard attraction #depression

[twisted-wonderland-but-gayer]

Helloooo! Thank you for exisiting cause finding a GN/male friendly blog is harder than it looks 😭 But i give you choccy milk as my thanks

I hope you dont have too much on your platter already but can I please request a GN reader whos almost like a shadow monster? Its a sudden thought but yknow how Sam probably has smth to do with shadows cause of the char hes based off of, what if the reader was a shadowy monster themselves but their form only can be seen in pure darkness?

Its not a magical girl transformation too, its quick, like if they just step into a small bit of darkness people gets a peek of their true form, and so they have a bit of a bad reputation, but theyre just a nerd in reality who probably doodles bunnies in their notes, how will the bois react?

(This was long so sorry but for the Azul, Ruggie and Rook perhaps?)

Shadow Monster Yuu

I based this off Oz from Monster Prom and Don't Starve so enjoy. Reader is Yuu, but whether or not they have magic is up to you. 

Gn, some swearing and body horror

Azul 

Azul has had his eye on you from the second you appeared in this realm. A seemingly 'magicless', mysterious individual with no background informed at all comes out of nowhere and gets admitted at NRC as a beast-tamer? Furthermore, almost everyone who has run into you has been saying how terrifying you truly were – giving the Tweels and perhaps Malleus himself a run for their money.

What was it about you that was so scary? What made everyone else avoid you like the plague? And also, who exactly are you? You haven't a cent to your name, no records anywhere, is it true what you said? Of not being from this world? Another dimension? Was that truly possible?

After another report from the tweels came back fruitless, with no information at all on you, Azul took it upon himself to study you. You passed by each other during classes, so surely he may be able to get a glimpse of something. Or so he thought. He was right behind you in the hallway as you walked over to the cafeteria, trying his best to not stick out, making it seem like he just happened to be behind you.

Suddenly you stopped, and pressed your back to the wall behind you, glancing at Azul. Azul paused for a moment, before realizing that you were testing him. If he didn't move now, you would know he was following you. Damn, it's time to bring out the business persona again.

"Ah, greetings Prefect, it seems like we are both headed to the same place, care if I join you?"

There was silence for a moment as you looked at him. "Please stop sending people to follow me, it's annoying. Whatever you want, say it upfront." 

Azul paused for a moment. "Now now, Prefect, just where did you get that idea from, it truly makes me– eh?" You walked away from him in the middle of his response. You were quick, and not thinking carefully enough. You stepped in a dark shadow.

You felt the effects immediately, your blood cooling down and body contorting to match the fears of whoever was around you, this time being Azul. Azul's eyes widened in horror as he looked at your shifting form take shape, frozen at the sounds of bones cracking and flesh ripping 

Your eyes were brown, red, and occasionally yellow, Azul noted, trying to make sense of your nonsensical form towering over him. Gnashing teeth and glaring eyes were all across your shadowy form. Claws, spines, and odd tentacles sprouting and shrinking. Your face, or rather faces, terrified him the most. His stomach churned as your faces just seemed to somehow look like every bully he was hurt by in his childhood, all of them flaring down at him, calling him names, still seeing him as the pathetic child he always was.

Azul made the mistake of blinking. The minute he opened his eyes your face changed. It was the twins. They looked down at him in disdain, hate-filled eyes. His only friends, looked at him like he was nothing but shit. You saw Azul's shaking form and for form seemed to suddenly shrink, almost looking like a kicked puppy.

"I… I'm so sorry I didn't mean– this is why I told you not to follow me, I…" Your form came out of the shadows, shooting Azul a flustered, yet apologetic look, before walking off. Once he was over the initial shock, a scheming smirk spread across his face.

Ruggie 

He never meant to run into you. In fact, he went out of his way to avoid you. Ruggie may not be one for rumors, but when the entire hall makes room for you just to avoid you, you can't help but wonder why. Everyone he's met has something awful to say about you. You're scary, you threatened them, you're going to hurt someone. There were too many people saying the same things and he wasn't taking chances. 

Your reputation was no good, just like his. And you both got in trouble over it, just like how he is now. A few students surrounded him, accusing Ruggie of stealing from them. For once in his life, he didn't, but because of his reputation, no one believed him. How he wished to be feared like you and the leech twins. 

"For the last time, I didn't take your wallet! The only wallet I steal from is Leona's." "You fucking liar, everyone knows you're the resident pickpocket. Give it back you stupid fucking hyena!" 

The students prepared their wands and their fists. Ruggies ears dropped as wiggled free from a student's grip, trying to run off and dodge their spells. While stumbling to get up, a few spells got a hit on him, and the smell of burnt fur and the feeling of bruised ribs disoriented him. Still, he managed to get up and run, before he bumped into… something.

Ruggie couldn't even see what he ran into in the dark of the hallway, but he felt it. Something steadied him and pulled him behind it, protectively. "Leave the hyena alone." The voice snarled. Ruggie couldn't help but freeze in place, trying to feel around for a place he could squeeze out of and run off. Every time he felt around, he was felt right back, making him retract his hands. All he could do was look up at this monstrosity that decided to protect him.

He couldn't see its body, but they were huge. Its limbs are ever-moving and ever-changing twitching and twisting in unnatural ways. There seemed to be never-ending rows of sharp teeth in their mouth as they snarled at the group of students, who all quickly turned tail and ran off. Ruggie could only stand there, not knowing if he could escape at all from your but was quickly surprised to see this creature step into the light.

Cringing at the sight and sound of its body snapping into place, he realized his savior was none other than you. So this is why you're seen as scary, huh? Ruggie stared in shock as you looked over at him.

"You're not hurt are you?" At that, Ruggie relaxed and went on the defensive.  "I'm fine thanks to you I guess… so… what do I owe you?"

You stared at him. "Pardon?" "I mean, you surely didn't save my tail for nothing, what do you want from me?" 

Ruggie felt bad when he saw you deflate and flinch. "I… nothing I guess. Have a nice day, hyena." And like that, you walked off. Ruggie couldn't help but feel like he may have judged a bit too soon about it– them. Perhaps they aren't so bad.

Rook

Interesting. From the minute he's heard of you, you've been nothing but interesting. A student from nowhere, with no background, a Prefect of a new dorm? The huntsman couldn't help but be curious.

At first, he was simply going to keep you in the background. You weren't his main target after all, but you were still interesting. Or that's how it was supposed to go. Within a week, you garnered a terrifying reputation around campus.

"I heard that the missing students around campus aren't because they dropped out, but because of them" "The other day, they threatened me with my mother's old pictures, she's been dead for years and I've never shared anything with them!" "I heard a child crying and when I approached it I just saw them there with the creepiest expression on their face!"

All of these amazing stories and he has yet to experience one himself. Surely he could change that! You weren't that hard to find, after all. As a huntsman, he does what hunters do best: stalk their prey. Yet, after hours of following you, he doesn't notice anything strange.

You're meek, quiet, and try to keep a low profile. You're nothing like the reports he has heard. However, it's always the quiet ones that have the most to say…

After a few days of following you around, he saw it. On your walk home to Ramshackle, you slipped into the shade. Your body twisted and cracked before his eyes, melting then stretching into incomprehensible shapes a dimension above his understanding 3D. As quickly as it came, it went, and in the sun your meek form returned. His shocked expression turned into fascination. My my, what a little trickster you are!

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #ruggie bucchi #ruggie bucchi x reader #rook hunt #rook hunt x reader #monster mc #gender neutral #body horror #body horror tw #azul ashengrotto #azul ashengrotto x reader #eldritch yuu

[fancysilverfox]

As an enjoyer of multiple games, (shocker!) I often think about funny crossovers in the manner of characters meeting...On my mind recently has been the gay solidarity between Lady Dimitrescu of Resi8 and Sander Cohen of Bioshock.

They'd hate each other. Lady D would decimate him in seconds for exisiting. He be appalled at the lack of men everywhere.

But damn wouldn't it be funny if they met lmao

#bioshock #sander cohen #resident evil village #lady dimitrescu #im just thinking thoughts yall dont mind me #maybe ill draw this who knows

[eternalmx]

never let me go. | im changkyun

🥀a/n : hi!! I'm back again! but with angst! (I love me some good angst). I'm saying sorry in advance if you cry or I break your heart with this piece. I hope you enjoy it nonetheless. thank you for reading and exisiting within this space with me. you're loved, you matter, remember to take care of yourself, eat, even if it's small, and drink water loves. thank you; always. ♡ As usual, English isn't my first language so please be mindful when reading if you come across any grammar errors etc. My apologies in advance!

wc | 1k+

warnings : angst (really depends how you perceive this piece)

[1:26am] Five missed calls. That's how many times he called her since the news broke. Media outlets released the story around midnight. Despite all the fight they put in to stop this exact situation from happening, nothing worked. Several media outlets reported her and Changkyun to be dating for nearly two years, and in a matter of seconds her phones started pinging nonstop. Ranging from nice messages to a world of hate and death threats and many other vile things she wouldn't wish on anyone. Her phone pinged again and she glanced at it where it sat on the closet floor.

Changkyun : Answer your phone.

He called again. She didn't answer. She was too overwhelmed. She didn't even remember how she ended up sitting on the closet floor sitting in the dark. She couldn't move. Not when she felt her whole world has stopped. That's the thing about their relationship. It wasn't a secret because of what the world would think. It was a secret because it protected her and her privacy, and now.... Now... that privacy is being threatened.

After a few minutes of her sitting in the dark, that's when she heard him. The sound of him slamming the front door pulling her out of her thoughts.

'Babe!' he yelled, as he made his way up the steps. She didn't respond. How could she? She didn't know what this all meant for them. She was scared to say the least.

After a few minutes he called out again, 'Babe! Where are you?'

She heard him enter the closet before she saw him. He was breathing heavily as if he ran a marathon. The exact moment he spotted her his breathing relaxed. He went to turn on the light in the closet but she shook her head. The light from the bedroom creating enough of a glow to see in the darkened room. He left the door cracked and made his way over to where she was seated on the floor.

'Baby, are you okay?' he asked, kneeling in front of her. His hands lightly touching her cheeks finding wet tears silently flowing down her face. She let out a soft sob, not being able to answer him.

'Shhh. It's okay, I'm right here' Changkyun spoke softly, pulling her head into his chest. She silently cried in his chest. His arms wrapped tightly around her.

'Im so sorry...' she said into his chest. A chocked sob escaping her.

'No. You have nothing to be sorry for and I'm not going to apologize for loving you either.' he said, kissing her head softly. She felt a tear fall down his cheeks onto her hand and looked up at him. To her surprises, he was crying too.

'Are you okay?' she asks him, shifting so she is sitting in his lap, facing him. Her small hands wiped his tears off his cheeks as she pressed soft kisses onto his reddened face, where his tears were falling. He rested his head against hers.

'You always do that" Changkyun says softly. Taking a deep breath. His eyes closed and he controlled his breathing.

'Do what?' she asked, her hands comfortably playing with the small strands of hair on the nap of his neck.

'Calm me down when I should be calming you down. I'm sorry' he finally says after a long pause.

'Thats not how it works babe. We're in this together. I never want you to hide your feelings for the sake of mine. I want to be there for you in the same way you are to me' she speaks softly, he kisses her softly. His hand landing on the back of her neck, pulling her closer.

'I love you' she says says against his lips.

'I love you too' he says. Her chest pulling tight for what all this may mean for their future,. 'I need you to know th-' he says but she cuts him off.

'Dont. Not now. Not ever' she said, pulling a way slightly to look him in the eyes. This is the first time tonight she fully looked at him. His eyes were bloodshot but he still put up a strong front. But she knew. She knew him better then anyone. There was a war going on inside of him, both in his head and heart. He shook his head at her.

'Please.." his voice cracked as he spoke, 'I have to say this.' Changkyun looked at her with pleading eyes. So she nodded. Fresh tears threatening to spill from her eyes. He took another deep breath.

'I want you to know that if it gets to much you can walk away. I will still love you as I do today tomorrow and every day after. But if you can't do this. I understand.' Changkyun spoke, his voice cracking with each word, as tears fell from his face. She reached to wipe more of his tears.

'Is that what you want?' she asked, biting her lip trying to keep a sob from escaping.

'No. Not in a million years. But I don't want to be the cause of your pain.' he spoke, looking at her as if this might be the last time he ever sees her. Her heart was breaking with each word. He's got is all wrong. She leaned her head back against his.

'You're wrong. In all two years of our relationship, you haven't brought me an ounce of pain. You brought me a world of happiness and I wouldn't give that up for any other person or for anyt reason. I'm going to fight for you. For your love. Whether you think I deserve this or not, doesn't matter to me. Because I want this. You want this. And we deserve this. So you're going to have to try harder to get rid of me' she said the words in a rush, trying to get her point across because she couldn't bear to see the man she loved breaking right in front of her eyes.

He let out a chocked laugh and kissed her roughly. His tongue teasing her bottom lip, begging for permission. She opened her mouth. Their kiss wasnt like any they've ever shared before. This one spoke without the words. Solidified that they will fight for their love because they deserve it. He pulled away, biting her lip as he pulled away.

'We'll survive this, you and I. We will,' he spoke against her lips. His arms tightened around her wasits. She nodded.

'Never let me go.' she said, burying her head into his chest and Changkyun hugged her tightly.

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After the manga’s done, I want them to redo the entire anime.

Sp ruined it with all those bsa moments when it’s not even a ship in the manga, and cut Sumire out and created ksu eps for them.

They even limited her to a background character so she won’t steal trashrada’s spotlight (even tho the more spotlight midrada has, the more she’s gonna be hated).

And they try and push ksu to get Sumire out of the way.

When I first read the Boruto manga, I thought “this is the best next generation I have ever seen”, because unlike some (I won’t name), they actually try to make things different. They live in peace currently, and Kishi still makes problems for them and I like that about the series, and the writing of the characters and drawing of them.

But when I watched the anime, I realized that it’s NOTHING like the manga. It’s full of bsa moments. Hell, they even made MORE moments and made the exisiting ones MORE bsa (for ex: trashrada being more determined to carry Bolt than she was in the manga. I think it was during the Kawaki arc).

They’re the most biased, f*cked up studio out there. You’d think they’d learn their lesson. THEY’RE the ones that’s gonna get backlash when bsu becomes canon.

Switch studios and let’s start the entire anime from scratch because I’m so pissed at them

I doubt that will happen since they didn't do it for Bleach the anime won't get a remastered version till years if at all.

I do agree though SP greatly limited Sumire while being completely bias and giving Sarada filler moments all the time that it makes no sense like how she suddenly teleported across the room to protect Boruto with two tomoe Sharingan and some tanked said attack just by blocking. Like it completely broke the immersion just to force a BoruSara moment if Sarada could handle that attack then even if Boruto got hit it wouldn't have done anything to him let alone her magically being able to end up in front of him.

With how often they done this shit they really need to stop with letting their bias get in the way.

#anti borusara #anti sarada uchiha