#i just dont want to play by myself

[benderclub]

i want to play this rat centric version of the bachelor with my friends but no one seems interested like brO ITS A RAT DATING GAME WHATS NOT TO LOVE?? AND THEY ALL HAVE UNIQUE PERSONALITIES??

#i dont understand people #the game is the ratchelor by the way #its free its a website #i just dont want to play by myself

[wasyago]

the brainrot won

#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without- #distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just- #super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff #i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i- #read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :( #SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!! #but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little- #break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think #ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for- #designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much... #WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to #umm. tags. #new life smp #smallishbeans #mythical sausage #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #smajor1995 #inthelittlewood #my art #sketch

[oddthesungod]

hey............ yknow what would be super cool? a crit role fighting game with all the player characters :)))

#critical role #critical role fanart #beauregard lionett #ashton greymoore #critical doodles #i dont even play fighting games but i'd buy a crit role one in a heart beat tbh #i just want to play as cad and have him pummel someone into the ground #anyway god i spent way too long on this #why do i do this to myself

[puppyeared]

mascot

#this isnt vent dw!!! i dont smoke either i was just kinda going for some sort of vibe #i know its usually played for laughs or like. dark humor whenever ppl draw mascots without their heads and u can see the actor #but i always found it fascinating and a little sobering. ever since i was a kid ive always been hyperaware of ppl in costumes #like. even if i tried to block it out id be thinking the whole time 'its not real. theres a person in that suit who gets paid to do this' #it used to be an uncomfortable nagging feeling but now its like. oh yeah theres someone with a whole life story doing this. idk #i think when i tell ppl im not conscious of my body its like. im not dysphoric or experience dissociation but. at the same time #it feels like my physical body doesnt fully outwardly represent me..?? like some sort of costume #i like to phrase it as being a giant hairless mecha and inside theres a very tiny puppy piloting the damn thing #and the other thing is. when i draw my sona i dont really see it as what i /wish/ i looked like or how i want people to see me #its like being in a costume and just. fucking around with some sort of barrier between myself and others #plus mascots arent allowed to talk and i dont really. engage with other ppl in public spaces that it kinda feels like ad lib #i share a lot abt my life but ironically im also a private person..... i guess it just gives me some sort of control over my identity #my art #myart #my oc #sona #mascot #furry #??? is this furry art???? #twinkle #puppysona #edit: had to outline it bc i just realized it looks really weird on dark mode -_-

[undefeatablesin]

My angel, my pride and joy, my beloved AKA the Good Hunter Ruza lmao 🧡 ft. Her Lost Chikage and her fun outfit from these screenshots! + some lil headshots of her in the Yharnam Hunter Garb, a look I also care Deeply About ✨️

#sin scribbles #bloodborne #good hunter #good hunter bloodborne #hunter bloodborne #bloodborne oc #bloodborne oc ; ruza #(ITS DONE CAN U BELIEVE IT I SURE CANT!!!!) #(yes. i repeat. this was largely inspired and enforced by me playin d/m/c5 again. LOL.) #(look.......is it my fault my favourite games happen 2 both be about monster hunters with cool swords???) #(anyways whatever AHEM *shuffles notes*) #(i do rly like ruza in the knights garb tbf its fun and flashy. especially in game where everything is dark af) #(very fun to draw. but i prefer her in the actual hunting garb so THATS WHAT WE STICKIN WITH.) #(at least for now idk my mind changes like the weather sis thats largely why i havent given her a new ref sheet) #(or posted her new bio bc tbh im cursed!!!) #(as soon as i post a ref or a bio i immediately want to change it all. so. i just wont LOL) #(if yall still curious about her u can just send an ask or a dm or smth i dont bite 😂) #(this was supposed to be a sketch sheet can u tell i lied deceived played myself to filth) #(bonus cainhurst armor look bc i love that set SOOOOO....much) #(watch out yall sin is back at it with her nonsense cloth physics again)

[dreamj0urnalz]

my 2024 dream journal.｡.:*☆

#dont know how to sew #but i just wanted to make a cover myself instead of always buying one #it was fun #i felt like a child playing with crafts again

[mitskiluvr]

replaying mystic messenger is so crazy because why am i gentle parenting these grown men and teaching them how to handle their feelings

#mystic messenger #mysme #jumin han #saeyoung choi #this post is mainly about those two #i get so mad whenever jumin enters a chatroom like get out of my face im not joking I DO NOT LIKE YOU #like i get it blah blah blah CEO with a cold heart trope and you melt his icy exterior But im so tired... #i don't want to explain workers rights to him #or... basic human rights actually #when he goes “jaehee i need you to work overtime again” and my face contorts in disgust and horror as a sitcom laugh track plays in the bac #also seven's route is so frustrating #like there's genuine reasons for him acting cold and whatever and i get it #but i actually dont want to watch you break a robot cat and then change ur pfp to a dark and broody photo of yourself #I ALSO CANT TALK TO ZEN IM SORRY I HATE HIM SO MUCH #zen lovers do not hate me... i am just a simple person #at one point in seven's route he was like “omg there's an explosive in the apartment? i should send a pic of myself to comfort you...” #I CANNOT HANDLE YOU GO LOG OFF YOUR PHONE #sorry wow im really into this game #i played it four years ago and now it's come back to me #also all of my points are nullified by the fact that saeran is my favorite #doing his route is like pulling teeth and eating socks #i say that with love

[melatien]

tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

#bases are the most reliable way to find food afo found! #yoichi is crying bcuz he pitys them <3 #not because hes nervous #im gonna be honest i made this idea up on the spot when drawing this #pewdiepies new art video awakened something in me I NEEDED TO REMIND MYSELF I CAN STIL DRAW BANGERS TOO #i didnt disappoint myself!!!! competitiveness is my enemy and my bestie literally #anyways his right eye was an absolute horrendous nightmare to draw it was going so well until i did the hair then it ruined the eye #i actually thought yoichi was wearing shoes at this age but then i looked back at those chapters and realised yoichi was shoeless #WITH ONLY A BANDAGE ON HIS FOOT??!?!!?!? agony #can yoichi not make me wish he had something good in life for ONE SECOND #think of this as like how he responded to afo killing those people that (presumably) beat yoichi up beforehand #we dont know if hes crying because his brother is killing or if he was crying before being 'saved' #ill try do some fluff art soon ive been really interested in body horror related art lately so i wanted to play around!!! #i have a BUNCH of ideas written down ive yet to do #i just keep doing whatever i feel like #i am the master of ignoring the instructions and winging it #mha #my art #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #shigaraki yoichi #mha yoichi #tiny yoichi #tiny yoichi in his shabby little clothes #ive actually been dying to draw tiny yoichi again but KIDS ARE SO HARD TO DRAW!!!!! #i had an art moment though #HALLEJUHAH #art gods had my back fr

[autisticlee]

is it an autistic experience to ALWAYS be the one in a friend group who gets left out, alienated, secretly disliked, then kicked out of the group?

#autistic #autism #actually autistic #autism things #asking autistics #i want/need a friend group but it ALWAYS GOES BAD!!!!!!!! AND ITS SOMEHOW ALWAYS MY FAULT?! idk what im doing wrong. people suck. #but i need people and i hate that about me. why cant i split myself in half a few times #or learn how to do group activities alone....like playing tennis. going to the amusement park ive wanred to go to since i was a kid. #drive alone on long trips where i will fall asleep but talk to myself so i dont or something. walk on the park trails alone where people #get kidnapped and stuff when alone. go to a convention and cosplay a group of characters alone. one for each finger.... #if you cant tell im being sarcastic. and doing a bad job. sighs. i hate that i have to do everything i need/want a group for alone because #i cant make friends or make groups keep me in them. assuming because im autistic and they hate me 🙃 #eother that or im a piece of shit and dont realize it!!!!! how am i supposed to know when no one tells me!!!! 😭😭😭😭 #so is it actually me and my fault or is it because im autistic and people just do this to us for some reason #autism stuff

[houndfaker]

you guys know werewolf yukari now get ready for kikuyukamitsu werewolves because im nothing if not greatly self-indulgent

#p3 #p4au #kikuno saikawa #kikuyukamitsu #quinn moment #quinn drawings #i dont even wanna maintag everyone i feel like a dork a little bit LMFAO #i dont see myself making this a full au or anything i just wanted to play with design ideas bcuz i love werewolves so no au tag for now #kikuno's kinda nasty because she wasnt supposed to be a werewolf but underwent artifical transformation #mitsuru is based off of maned wolves which arent wolves but i like how gangly and long they are it just feels right for her.

[bigothteddies]

I talk a lot of fucking crap but I do have a little black book filled with everything I’ve been told about the tumblr doms on here and all the fucked up shit they’ve done. Creators talk to each other. The friendships aren’t just for show. I’m not saying I have “dirt” on anyone or that I’m friends with everyone and have heard everything or that what I’ve been told is even accurate. What I am saying is I have a good fucking reason to be so spiteful towards a lot of doms on this site, both for things they’ve personally done to people I know and for the long and storied cycle of popular doms on here being outted as abusers and groomers after they’ve been found out.

#unimportant thoughts #I don’t know im not like. a fan of cancelling stuff especially since so much latelt has been used as a tactic against marginalized groups #and its not like i havent done shit #i dont pretend to be perfect I know theres people out there who get pissed seeing my url on here and feel I shouldnt have a place here #its part of the reason i discourage people from viewing me as a ‘safe’ dom or as a ‘good’ dom on here #im just a person. good or bad. #keep your eyes and ears and wits about you in internet spaces ALWAYS #anyways #seriously. i domt just talk shit because i dislike them #i talk shit because they people have secret wives #because they are very clearly taking advantage of someone half their age and manipulating them into thinking its a normal relationship #<- and I DONT say that because im inherently against age gaps #i talk shit because they have cameras in girls rooms who dont even know their name and if i had to guess? #sounds like a dark corner of the internet illegal sex cam scheme to me #i talk shit because they’re in the DM’s of my friends and peers trying to convince them to join their cause #i talk shit because they only reason the stopped playing with that tumblr girls heart as a replacement for who they really wanted is because #they were TOLD to stop doing so #i talk shit because the reason people started being mean to Boss wasnt because he was cringe it was because he was a vile and abusive person #i dont talk shit just because i hate competition! i dont talk shit just because im trying to make myself seem safe! #i talk shit because these people and their actions genuinely bother me and i wish they didnt have a platform ! #anyways we’ll see how long this stays up its dangerously close to starting shit i shouldnt be starting

[spearxwind]

I have to figure out a way of getting more interest in my oc stuff without needing to draw as much because I dont have the time or energy to draw as much as I would like, which includes a lot of concepts and/or scenes that are in my head only but can't commit to drawing, but it feels like most people are only interested in visual stuff as opposed to just written stuff (and for good reason, visuals are flashy and all!) It just makes me a little sad that I cant draw and share everything Id like to show, and what I can do most is talk about it, but that barely ever gets responses unfortunately

#in general though its hard to keep an online presence recently im so tired from everything all i wanna do is play videogame or watch youtube #and I dont have that much time to even think abt ocs cause of irl stuff ^^; case in point- ive been struggling with CD a LOT #for many reasons. so i have been focusing on HR instead bc oughgh i love it sm. but even so I have trouble finding time to just #THINK about it?? its so wack. like just thinking abt it takes time!! #thunderclap #idk man kjdffdk this is so weird i dont like being in this weird transitory period of my life i want this to be done #a lot of the ppl i spent time with online are also incredibly offline lately as well so i dont have as much of a reason to be online myself #everyones busy everything changes. very strange feeling

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future'' #things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol.. #Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

[faunandfloraas]

i love being friends with girls and then they get a boyfriend and then he becomes the center of her entire existence and all she talks about and all she focuses on and i sit there and i smile and i nod and i feel myself becoming genuinely evil

#shut up about your fucking boyfriend I DONT CARE #<< i never say that bc im not a horrible person but good god idk if im built for this #im crazy and im always a little bit in love with every girl i know its just how im built #like i guess its bc whenever ive dated someone i keep that shit to myself #like you have to torture me for me to admit anythings happening so when other people make it their whole personality #and totally abandon friendships bc OMG must focus 100% energy on some guy it just makes my eye twitch #and then when they wanna come crawling back omg he sucks he cheated i want your shoulder to cry on and im like well you didnt even text #me when my nana died last march so. cry on your own shoulder. #full admittance i am also a jealous person so theres a bit of crazy jealous jessie at play Always. I'm nothing if not honest #sorry kpoppers you get my insnae ramblings this friday night #i'll make up for it i'll post like bang chan ass shots or something tommorrow dont worry

[eebie]

i cant keep it hidden any longer

#i get nervousss n shit about gettin character voices all wrong #i spent all of yesterday worryin about if theyd say each others first names or last names or WHAT ! idkkk #i didnt write any more than this But i rlly rlly want to #basing this over the exact types of convos me n my friend have When i watch her play granny #i say dumb shit like ooohhh shes gonna get you Or why are you so mean to this old lady😢😢😢 to rile her up🤭 cos its funny #and then when i run out of things to say i start asking shitty would you rather questions like Would you rather make out with granny #or springtrap. would u rather have to be angel dust Hazbin hotel(she HATES him) or Pinkypills william afton (also HATES) #idk how id write that for these guys. ik theres gotta be a way though #my rambles #homestuck #writing feels more vulnerable than just my silly ass drawins Cos its lettin ppl peek in2 how i think n perceive shit . its intimidatinggg #but im posting it anyways !! ill fight off the urge to delete it the best i can #sayin all this Meanwhile it’s just a few lines from a pesterlog emulator LMAO . i take myself too seriously w stuff like this #rhas my problem i think . joviality come to me NOW! i am lighthearted and carefree about rhis #yaaaayayayaaayy!!!! #FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW. GRANNY IS A SHITTY MOBILE PUZZLE HORROR GAME. THE OG !!! #all the shit like Piggy on roblox. thats copying granny 😤😤😤😡😡😡 #my drabbles

[goatpaste]

i just looked into the steel ball run anime and it’s only a rumor currently. the animation director had made a tweet about horses and needing them for reference, but he deleted the tweet soon after.

bawright good for them ig lol

#im like #im so im excited about a sbr anime because yay the parts i like and HP and didi #but also gogg i donT want it its gonna make me puke #also just make jjl #BUT ALSO its so popular like their gonna make it i think #but maybe they wont because idk bye bye jojos we dont wanna play with you anymore #but also also... #if sbr gets animated.. maybe.. JUST MAYBE... jojolion anime... #i swear to gOD ill animated it poorly myself in ms paint if they dont #i nEED IT NEED IT