#i just made myself mad

[allofuswantgwinam]

so like it should probably make me sad but i think it’s really funny that my ex wants me to believe he is in love with me and obsessed with me when he literally is on the same bs all the time 🤣🤧 like I finally have had it with this months ago after 6 years and have not come back to you the way i normally would and you’re STILL doin this shit? and you expect me to keep holding on when you’re already letting me down when i expected nothing at this point?!!?!?!!? dumb. like it’s really so dumb and it makes no sense to me

#this just shows me how full of shit he is 🙄 #i mean it do be sad #but im not the same bitch so it’s different #i am becoming who i was before he done came into my life and really made me stupid #Like foreal #S T O O P I D #like to the point that i feel like i don’t even know him #it just feels like it was all fake at this point #like we didn’t even fuck everytime we hung out 😭 i don’t understand why the fuck he keeps me around #it’s fucking stupid #why do people be like this #i just made myself mad #good job me #🤩🤩🤩 #i just hope one day someone loves me and means it #bc i cannot even begin to explain to anyone how much i loved this man #it’s really pathetic #i loved him more than i loved myself #done with that that’s all i know #now im sad #good job me times 2 #update: no sad just mad

[sergle]

i've been back in the pixel mines... working oh so hard. pixel redraw of my strawbebby girl from a few years back!

#pixel art #sergle art #illustration #artists on tumblr #i've got some other ideas for New pixel art actually bc I don't think I can just redraw every piece I've ever made #(even though it's really really fun to do it) #i made myself insane with this one a little bit. I got too into the detail. mad with power etc #VERY happy with it though

[beeduoo]

wonderful

#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭 #ctubbo #michael beloved #ctubbo fanart #Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this #so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her #stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w #hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY #BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS #So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi #ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i #RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!! #I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening #IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever #I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it #lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss.... #I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt #too dead to do al that... #Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye

[its-tea-time-darling]

nothing good is about to go down here babes...

part 2/? of babyboy's descent into madness (1, 3)

#tbosas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #2nd one right after bc i've got no self restraint when it comes to strategical posting (how would that even work??? lmaoo i genuinely dk) #i might also be a tad obsessed with the colors in this one #remind me to post a before and after editing comparison of gifs at some point btw #bc i remember before i made gifs myself i had no concept of the fact that it wasnt just taking screencaps and So Much More Work lmfao #tbosasedit #coriolanus snow #thgedit #the hunger games #the hunger games: the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the ballad of songbirds & snakes #also #just to be clear #the descent into madness started long before this scene lmaoo xlkjaldfjlkdsjf #my gifs #tom blyth #babyboy's descent into madness

[junebuggeryy]

reactivating my alice in wonderland phase in order to resurrect an old oc ✌️

#artsy whispers #miss mercury #im in the middle of revamping her and her first name is going to change. like. a HUNDRED times i can feel it #so we're going with miss mercury/maybe just mercury until i know whats up with it #i cant name my mad hatter character madeline ive already outed myself as EAH trash. i swear i made her before EAH was a thing #alice in wonderland #its not perfect BUT!! it defeated the artblock so there

[candyheartedchy]

So uh… I might end up with a live action f/o…

#okay so I was watching clips of this one show #mostly because I was curious #and then afterwards I went to listen to some music and caught myself daydreaming about the one character #and I panicked #I don’t know if this character will become a thing but uhhhhh… im having conflicted feelings #just… well… i being vague because it’s embarrassing #like pretty much all of my f/os are animated and I never had a live action f/o before #and the character is silly and over the top but…….. #*groans* #and I don’t think it’s like a celebrity crush type of thing #like I usually separate a animated character from the VA but to see the actor is… hmmm #and I’m just sitting here kinda wanting to watch this show even though it’s very cheesy #just to learn more about this character #like I already made sketches of the character and I’m MAD #god I hope this makes sense because I’m struggling trying to explain this #💬 chy chatter 💬

[uncanny-tranny]

The two things I love most about language are simultaneously that the human need to communicate is so strong that we will invent languages, vocabularies, and new turns of phrases at the drop of a hat (freeing our thoughts from the confines of our mind), but also that language is so naturally limiting that it won't truly encapsulate your deepest, most inner thoughts and feelings (your thoughts are yours, but at what cost). Do you understand how feral this makes me feel. "Please understand me," we tell each other, and we both will be seen but also so, so misunderstood, and it isn't our faults, not really, and we continue trying, trying, trying to be understood.

#language #i can never know what it's like to read myself as an outsider and it genuinely makes me go mad #which is why i am so paranoid about how people read what i make and how i am interpreted and how my tone and themes come across #we try in vain to be understood more than we are and holy shit we are divine #this both comforts me and sends me to insanity by the way. i am never normal about this #i love learning about pidgin language and languages that just pop into existence. we so DESPERATELY want to communicate #and even this post can never encapsulate my feelings. they are too big for words; too big for feelings or diaries or whispers to the stars. #yet another post i made while stealth arching in skyrim. what is this world coming to.

[amiinkles]

To be loved is to be changed, but would you still love me if I changed?

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd fanart #our flag means death fanart #stede bonnet #well episode 8 kinda destroyed this for me great #when ed essentially told stede 'i hate the new you. i miss the old you' I wanted to see them expand on that. #it is something ive been told countless times and i hated it #i relate to stede so much. seeing how he and his relationship with ed was handled in episode 8 made me mad #he was gifted his boyfriend and forgot about his dream about being a pirate. the show said 'you just didnt gind the right person' #as someone under the aromantic umbrella it pissed me off #i was genuinely invested in gentlebeard in season 1. but they didnt address most of the issues surrounding their relationship #im sorry im so angry but i had to get it out #im not blaming anyone but myself for getting so emotionally attached to this show #ughh amii out. feel free to disagree or whatever #amii ofmd cravings #fanart #our flag means fanart #amii argues #i still love stede btw. and izzy. #ed is in timeout but ill make a fanart and rant of his charcter eventually

[natsmagi]

sorry, i really don’t get you because you say you draw tsumugi with the body you do because she ‘seems like the type of girl who would have a good body (weird that you call that kind of ‘no fat but on the boobs sex doll body’ good but okay?) but covers it up’ and then don’t draw her covered up.

like you draw her in tiny skirts with her ass hanging out and shit constantly, in every one of your drawings is her body emphasised and on show and i just want to know what your fucking deal is? not only does it feel really mischaracterising for tsumugi, but it’s just really weird and gross. also you’ve literally never drawn a single fat character, all your characters are stick thin with different boob and hip sizes.

are we seriously doing this again. its ok to not like my art. its ok to not have it be to your tastes. its ok to disagree with my portrayals. it doesnt need to be much deeper than that

your rephrasing of my quotes is misleading though. ive re-emphasized the point more clearly before, but my points are based on societal standards and expectations, not my own personal preferences. big boobs small waist is the body type that gets ogled at the most, stereotypically speaking, so it makes it fun for her to have that body as her personality and the way she carries herself isnt whats commonly associated with it. with my depictions i try to take context into question. i dont just give the character a body or appearance that i like, i try to think how i can translate their character along with changing their figure (if at all). of course, i am not perfect, my stuff will not appeal to everyone and my takes might be disagreeable, and thats ok.

as for my tsumugi depiction; i dont know what you want me to say. tsumugi wears a button-up shirt with pants and a belt in canon. in my femstars version i simply change the pants into a pencil skirt. the belt is synched around the waist. its gonna make her waist look smaller than it is, as the belt is highlighting that area and creating contrast. this is a common way to dress and i honestly dont think i draw her in revealing clothes too often? like yea it happens. duh. and ive drawn some horny and suggestive art with her to add. but i do not think i go out of my way to flaunt her body or have her wear as little as humanly possible (which i dont even think would be an issue. an artist having fun is not the end of the world). i mainly do it when its, again, a suggestive drawing, or when its been for a joke. its not really meant to be anything deep sure, maybe she has her cleavage out every once in a while, but thats just. Her having boobs. i give natsume revealing clothes just as, if not more often than i do tsumugi, but people dont seem to care/notice as shes rather curveless. and idol clothes are separate from personal clothes that theyd casually wear because its what they enjoy, and its the idol clothes that tend to have that more "attractive" tinge to them her body isnt the focal point of my art very often either?? like if ur just staring at her boobs in every single one of my drawings atp thats on u

#if you dont like me and/or what i draw you honest to god do not need to be here #i wont be mad its ok #arguing further is just a waste of both of our times #i hope i made myself clear at least #as id like to put a rest to it #but again. youre free to block and ignore me if you dont like my stuff #focus on what you do like and send those artists some appreciation instead #ask

[ulgapodatkowa]

you know what? I am genuinely baffled. I know that izzy's death made sense narratively and a lot of people were saying that they're worried because they think the writers will kill izzy off. but it comes as such a shock for me because they tortured him so much this season, he was shot, his leg was cut off, nearly drunk himself to death. but he healed and found a family he could belong to. and to take it away it just seems so cruel.

it made sense narratively but they could have made it a different narrative. because I feel betrayed that a series that was the first one to finally make me feel seen as a queer person would be so unkind to the narrative surrounding a broken queer man.

and one can argue that izzy says that he wants to go in the end. but did the creators really thought that izzy had nothing else to give to the show? that they had to reduce him to being a part of blackbeard and only with his death would ed finally be free from that title? because let's face it, that seems cruel. in my eyes they made him a symbol, rather than a person. and i don't know if my heart can find it in itself to forgive that. he fell in love with life again and they took it from him.

#i really rarely critique the creators and i think know what they had in mind here but nevertheless i don't really think it was a good choice #moreso if it was made to rip the viewers hearts out but i cannot know what they thought when writing that #and the ending rings so sad because of it. he's just a grave. a symbol of the life that they left behind them #i don't know i'm fucking mad but that's what i get for attaching myself to a character #ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death spoilers

[lonely-night]

I think that it's best if we both stay; 

#picardedit #picard spoilers #raffi x seven #seven x raffi #saffi #its been 84 years I KNOW #its not my fault when s3 only gave us crumbs #anyway #part six has made me so mad that i just have to make smth #to calm myself

[leprousarmadillo]

Going on record to say Rings of Power absolutely slaps, as a lifelong Tolkien fan I'm so disappointed the way people tried so hard to judge it before it even aired and wanted it to be bad so much that they've literally convinced people to be afraid to watch it and judge for themselves. The visuals are STUNNING, the costumes are phenomenal, the creature design is haunting and so visceral. And the characters and world feel so *lived* miss me with that shit about it being low effort or budget, you can't judge a show by a handful of promo stills. I'm glad I didn't listen to the bs takes from people who are mostly just trying to hide their bigotry behind Tolkien worshipping zealotry.

#i love the man but he wasn't some paragon or god amongst men #he was a war vet and a linguist and historian and a writer #he made mistakes and he did great things #he was just a human guy who wrote some really great works but that doesn't mean there's some perfect purity to them #and i've been in this fandom for almost 3 decades #don't let anyone convince you this show isn't worth watching #hiding behind virtue signaling bullshit it's so disappointing how many friends and acquaintances I see falling for it #most of them are just mad they dared to say elves can come in more shades than ivory but know no one will listen to that #so they couch it in buzzwords and concepts no one would dare call them out on #rings of power #lotr rings of power #lotr #fandom critical #fandom discourse #sorry for the rant #i was gonna keep it to myself but it's all over all of my timelines and dashboards and i needed to get it off my chest

[chrollohearttags]

my whole YouTube feed is filled with videos about the Stanley cup/Sephora kid thing and maybe bc I haven’t used tiktok in months but I’m so lost as to why everybody, including the kids themselves is being blamed for this problem lmao.

#there’s only one enemy and that’s capitalism/consumerism #not to mention the parents who think being an ‘ipad kid’ is cute and quirky bc they don’t want to raise their kids beyond the baby stage #like why are you mad at an influencer who’s job it is to sell a product for not monitoring if ur children are watching #that beauty influencer is not selling to them or for them #they’re a business + brand marketing to other ppl their age #people who can actually afford the products #not somebody who barely has lunch money less known 3 bands to drop on drunk elephant #like I have so many young cousins/kids in my neighborhood who are being brought up this way + it’s the internet’s fault always #not the fact that their parents don’t do anything #and what gets me is that somebody like me who’s made content online like cosplay/anime or even writing fanfic #has to worry about censoring myself for some brat I’m not even thinking abt #and it hurts creatives who are just looking for an escape #when I’m reality the only problem is that these parents are lazy and expect some random youtuber to teach their kids the things they refuse #it takes a village yes but at the end of the day that responsibility lies on the person who birthed them #I’m sorry #cherry chats 🍒

[aromantic-goldfishdeactivated202]

how to make tea

place teabag in hot water

forget about it for an hour

be surprised when your tea tastes oversteeped

#mads posts #everybody guess what just happened when i made myself tea

[shepbal]

"Can I look into your eyes?"

"Why?"

"I just told you not to ask."

this show has my entire heart in a vice grip since I watched it last July and it might just be my favorite show of all time. ty, show, for bringing me so much joy.

<3

#oneyearofmsp #my school president #tinngun #geminifourth #my school president fanart #i JUST told u not to ask omg gun i cant w you #thai bl #what are the tag rules nowadays kids? #im having to input these tags for a second time and im mad #pleeeeeease dont look closely at the imaginary light source and incongruent shadows pls im begging u #i kept messing w the colors but made myself leave it bc i got other stuff to work on #my official foray into Other Fanart spheres #hello kids what's up #shephart #not bts

[dootznbootz]

I went on tiktok to just watch some silly Odysseus videos but then I mostly saw people going like "Yeah, maybe Odysseus cried on Calypso' island every day but honestly he had that coming after what he did Achilles and Patroclous/Circe!!!" and "Everything that happens in Odyssey is deserved cuz he took Patrochilles to war!!!" and "I feel so bad for Circe and Calypso and Penelope, they deserved better!!!"

For fucks sake I beg you, read anything different from Millers bs and like educate yourself- And please stop goddamn saying that rape victim. deserved it.

Circe probably didn't give a flying fuck, Calypso is a rapist and abuser and Penelope deserved everything she wanted and SHE WANTED ODYSSEUS

I think I've had enough internet for today, imma go wash my eyes with bleach. Anyways sorry for ranting here, i hope you don't mind it lmao

It's alright. I absolutely understand the vents about the whole thing. :'D No one deserves to be a victim of such a thing no matter WHAT they've done. I hope your eyes are okay after the bleach

Like Odysseus does so many fucked up things but Calypso and Circe? He is the victim. Period. It's very clear that Odysseus is in extreme distress on Ogygia. And Circe wasn't some sort of FwB situation. There's fear and numbness in the language he uses when talking about it. There's so much victim blaming and it SUCKS.

While back then it probably wouldn't be considered SA but now? It clearly is.

Even then, Odysseus' journey was kind of about "temptation" or just straight up "Die or get out of my sea." From Poseidon. "I don't want you in my waters so I'm gonna try and give you things that will keep you on land or just kill you."

Immortal goddesses wanting you would be many people's dream come true but not for Odysseus. And I think that's the point. His determination, how he clawed his way back into the arms he never wanted to leave in the first place, is incredible. Many people would've given up and just started a new life but he never would because no life he could ever create would compare to the life he had before. Even if it's different, it's what he's always wanted.

He literally tells Calypso "I'm not stopping until I'm home. I don't care if I suffer more until I do. I'm going home."

“Mighty goddess, do not be angry with me over this. I myself know very well Penelope, although intelligent, is not your match                                          to look at, not in stature or in beauty. But she’s a human being and you’re a god. You’ll never die or age. But still I wish, every moment to get back to my home,                                                       to see the day of my return. And so, even if out there on the wine-dark sea some god breaks me apart, I will go on— the heart here in my chest is quite prepared to bear affliction. I’ve already had so many troubles, and I’ve worked so hard                                  through waves and warfare. Let what’s yet to come be added in with those.”

(Book 5, Johnston)

Circe's a goddess and what happened is nothing like Dionysus and Ariadne and Apollo and Hyacinthus for example. Circe never gave Odysseus a crown of stars and he would never go out of his way to kill 120 people for bothering her. They did not love each other and he can't refuse as she's a goddess.

If you interpret them sleeping together the entire year,(It's only explicitly said that they had sex once so that's what I go with personally.) that doesn't mean he was happy with it! Even then, the whole situation is not what a healthy FwB should look like! I'm asexual and even I know that no one in a FwB situation should have to BEG in any way that basically says "Please let me go or kill me" with supplication!!! The fact that he leaves so quickly he forgets one of his men? The fact that during Elpenor's funeral, he doesn't greet Circe himself? He was avoiding her. Wouldn't he want to get "one last night together" during Book 12 if they were fwb? 🙄

It's bonkers to me that people hate him for being a "cheater" when A.) having multiple lovers wasn't uncommon in Ancient Greece, and B.) the two people he is explicitly said to have "cheated" with, weren't his choice. He wasn't actively searching for pretty women either!!!

As mentioned, while it was common for men to have many lovers, Odysseus never had any listed unlike some of the other men. (not bashing any of them. I'm just making a point in comparison.) He also has no other children besides Telemachus in Homer's works. There's no evidence of him having other lovers other than speculation. (funny enough, I once read somewhere that the reason why Odysseus is so mean is because he doesn't "bond" enough with the other soldiers. 😂)

Does that mean he didn't have other lovers? Technically, Nope! It's just never explicitly stated either way. He has slaves but none were ever said to be concubines or that he sleeps with them. He has deep bonds with his fellow soldiers but that doesn't mean he sleeps with them. That doesn't mean people can't write or talk about him doing so even though it's not mentioned! Just like it also means that someone can write him not doing so as there's nothing that says it either way in Homer's Works! :D

It's fucked up when people say "He didn't try to leave Calypso enough" or something of the like. It just tells you how A.) they didn't read the Odyssey or have piss on the poor reading comprehension or B.) ...you should probably stay away from that person...

With Circe though??? I can understand the confusion but digging deeper and looking at the text, he wasn't having a good time. Or at the very least was walking on Eggshells the whole time. I hate bringing up that essay over and over again but like...I literally wrote everything there.

I also don't like how people take Circe's morally gray-ness away from her. Let her do something fucked up to be fucked up!!! Let her traumatize Odysseus!

Idk, I kind of hate that I'm "known" for this but I relate to this idiot asshole a lot and it means a lot to me that his story, despite what happens to him, has a happy ending :'D

#Thank goodness I don't have tiktok >:) #I wish there was a way to like. have anonymous posts? because I made that PTSD post to show how him refusing to be bathed #by Nausica's maids and him choking Euryclea and was giving reference to make a point but I wish I wasn't like. Known for this??? #but like... I HAVE something to say. Having specific knowledge of some things just...really makes it clear in what happened that I don't #think others have considered. #And I was afraid if I was “vague” then people would say “You're just saying that to get sympathy points” and I didn't want to deal with #that :'D plus like in his outbursts I saw myself you know? #I just kept thinking “oh shit. I KNOW what you're doing because I did it too aAAAAAHHHHHHHHh” #I relate to Helen too but in a way. The Odyssey shows her “HEALED” (which fuck yeah!!! YESSS!!!😭) it doesn't show the #PTSD in the same way as she's had many years to recover. Watching it happen in “real time” for Odysseus was...really nice. #i said it before but the Odyssey feels REAL compared to the “girlboss queen slay” shit. Him tryiing to force himself into normalcy #only to act out is...yeah. #save me morally gray circe #ask #anon #Mad rambles #tw sa #tw ptsd #tw sex assault #anti madeline miller #anti circe #essay