#i just needed a moment to vent

[yaoiconnoisseur]

I’m feeling deeply unhappy with everything and I’m unsure if it’s due to stress or if it’s the depression

#or maybe it’s a mixture of both #:/ #this has probably been the shittiest holiday season ive had in a long time #definitely not the worst. but no where close to one of the best #i just want to curl up and disappear for a while #im so tired of dealing with my partner’s mom and sister #theyre so high strung. i cant deal with it #not with everything else going on #and now i have news that my mom’s husband is having really bad medical issues to the point where #they’re discussing what happens if he dies #and im like. idk. half numb to it half super upset #i like him ig but it’s more i like him because he makes my mom happy #im mostly just upset with the idea of my mom being widowed twice #i probably need therapy for how i feel towards him since 90% of it is ‘keep him at arms length so i dont get attached to #and lose another father figure that my mom is with’ #what sucks is if he does die i’ll have to do that whole funeral without my partner since he cant travel due to recovering from his own sur #gery #god. fuck. can i catch a goddamn break? #anyway thanks for reading if you made it this far lol #i just needed a moment to vent #they speak

[1caru]

downfall cuddles for anyone who needs them right now

#i dont post about real world stuff much cause i want my blog to be a place to unwind #but things are rough at the moment and i needed to vent just a little #anyway pray for gaza and remember to boycott yall #lu legend #lu hyrule #linked universe #linkeduniverse #my art

[sketchy-tour]

A wilting flower is not always beyond healing. It'll just take time.

#a small doodle! Just a little one! Wanted to draw but also didnt want to draw but also needed to draw #you know? idk if that makes any sense #dont mind me- #if anyone is worried I am okay please dont take this as some big vent or anything! #just art I needed to get out of my head. Ya kno??? nothin crazy!!! #anyway anyway im gonna go play a game or something!!! Drink water. Eat a snack! Sit down in some quiet for a moment #Yall should do that too! You! Drink water! Eat something! Sit and be calm for a moment. #welcome home oc #dandy leon #I always feel bad tagging my art of dandy alone with the welcome home tags??? uh- #my art #sketches

[ley-med]

I had a week long vacation not long ago, so I finally have enough energy to talk to non-medical friends once again. And I just realized once again, I'm not sure how to talk to them.

They tell me all the things they participated in, and I'm truly happy for them, all the while thinking I would never have half that much energy. They ask me how I am, I tell them I'm good, finally had a vacation. What did I do? Oh, literally nothing, tried to sleep off the worst of the exhaustion and tried to avoid interaction with other humans. How's work? You know, just the usual, it's good. It is good, and I love it, but how could I tell them all the horrors witnessed? That's right I don't, but what else do I have left to talk about? Most of my fun work stories are tainted with the shadows of tragedies... And unfortunately, I wouldn't trade it for anything.

So I just read their cheerful message and leave it on read, contemplating what to answer. And just hope they won't take offence to my agonizingly slow replies...

#medblr #medical life #sometimes it's so isolating #but it also brings along the tightest of communities #one of my work besties just messaged me #to talk about a very gruesome case that left them not okay and they needed to vent #listening and comforting each other is easy #holding up a normal conversation? #seems impossible #this post was written a while ago then sat in my drafts for several months #i just found it #and realised how actual it is at the moment #thank god for my work friends #they are indeed more like family #i love my other friends too and hey im trying here #but sometimes it takes enormous efforts to not just let it all drift apart

[thefanciestborrower]

Man,,,I’m so tired

#there’s always something going on somewhere in this community that I need to care about #Some problematic person or friend groups who hate each other #Characters you’re allowed or not allowed to draw #You have to like vore one of two hyper specific ways and if you go outside of that then YOU’RE the problematic one #Each part of the community keeps splitting off smaller and smaller and they all hate each other it feels like #Main fandoms hate you for existing and OCs get headcannoned beyond recognition #Idk how to tag this I’m just having a moment #I don’t even want to be in the ‘vore community’ I just want to post stuff #And not fear for my life if I post something slightly out of the norm #Like I like fatal and reformation and I like slightly spicier stuff between couples and I like familial and teens being goofy and #It just feels impossible to exist like that idk #Might delete later tbh #I’m just tired of all the rules and the feuds and the fighting #vent post

[zhongrin]

I assume you got hate for that L&D ask? I'm sorry that was done. Feel better soon. Maybe say less next time.

i appreciate your kind words, thank you. however, while i'm sure you had the best intention with this, i don't think i will 'say less'. this is my blog, my space, and as long as i'm not actually causing harm to anyone or anything along that line, i think i'm allowed to have some degree of freedom regarding saying what i like/dislike and setting my boundaries. i'm sorry, but i'm not an influencer, nor a public figure who has the responsibility to spread positivity and be a role model to you all. i try as much as i can, of course, but that's not the purpose of this blog. i'm just a human being who needed an outlet for writing and wanted to connect with like-minded people.

what part was not 'right'? that i expressed, in my own blog, how i didn't want to try out a game because one of the reasons is i find the graphics of the fictional characters off-putting, when asked? that i likened a fictional game art style to a different franchise and objects you see all the time in adult site ads? that i never said anything about the people who do like the game and told them "i'm happy you found a game you like"? that i never, not even once, went to other people's posts or blog who posted that game's content to ruin their fun like a bastard? that i actively chose to use tumblr's filter instead? that even if the filter didn't work, i chose to scroll and ignore instead of bitching about it?

pray tell, what did i do wrong? why should i say less? since when am i not allowed to dislike things?

and a public psa ー i'm sorry, but bluntly speaking, if you take an affront when I expressed MY own opinion, WHEN PROMPTED, WITHIN MY OWN SPACE (and god forbid you retaliate like that anon(s?) by spamming me to shut the fuck up and kill myself), then that's really not my problem. it's an art direction, for god's sake. i adore zhongli, who gets memed and made fun of as a cockroach all the time; you don't see me screaming at people to stop.

learn that people may not like the things you like. learn to agree to disagree. learn to treat others as fellow human beings with likes and dislikes. learn to separate fiction from reality.

and seriously, if you're annoyed with my rambles or 'babblings' or the interactions with my friends, tumblr has a filter and block function. it's just a simple google away. give some peace to your own mind.

#minors dni #rin answers #rin is having tea with: daydreams-and-wonder #and to clarify. i'm not mad at you daydreams-and-wonder!! #i truly appreciate the well wishes #but i had to get this out of my system because it's just so ridiculous that this is happening imo #cw vent in following tags #then again #excluding my actual friends. out of 8.5k of people following me i wonder if even one percent of you actually think of me as a human being #and not just a blob in your phone who churns out somewhat decent content every now and then #or some sentient hybrid between a journal or twitter you could just go anytime to feed your need for validation and attention one sidedly #or an entertaining monkey you put on a stage to watch just for the fun of it only to 'cancel' the moment i 'slip up' #maybe it's my pms. maybe i'm just stressed rn. or maybe it's long time coming #but i'm not just tired anymore. i'm getting disgusted of this treatment

[mihrsuri]

I need to make a list of reasons to continue to be here on this earth and forgive me, I’m doing this on tumblr because it seems to help (feel free to skip)

[redacted private Jewish Thing]

more swimming to do

rings of power season two

need to leave flowers for Anne Boleyn in England

have to get some more pretty dresses

might make people sad

listen someone has to have a bisexual crisis over Natalie Dormer and James Frain Lil

promised yourself chocolate chip cookies

taylor swift album

the cup of tea you are going to make

????

writing your fanfiction

promised

#i just feel so so tainted and dirty at the moment #between the antisemitism #and the fact that i feel like my entire trauma is clearly just abusive to have in general let alone depict in fiction #and also that i have to make an effort to type I there #also being on my period does not help #i just feel like garbage #i think i will try taking a nap #and not delete my tumblr or myself #i promised so i won’t and i need to affirm to myself but g-d #i know my trauma is absolutely too heavy for people and i entirely understand this now (wish i had before) #and i have a therapist and meds and stuff i just…sometimes unfortunately i need to vent here #but it means people can skip #child prostitution/incest survivor fun times

[cardiac-arresting-sweetheart]

please stay with me.

please don't leave me. please don't stop talking to me. please don't ignore me. please don't hate me. please don't tire of me. please don't find me annoying. please don't find someone better than me. please don't think i'm a bad person.

please stay please stay please stay please stay please.

it doesn't even look like a word anymore. but does my pleading still mean the same to you, my dear?

i'll never even think of leaving you. i'll never stop talking to you. i'll never ignore you. i'll never hate you. i'll never tire of you. i'll never find you annoying. i'll never find anyone better than you. i'll never think you're a bad person.

please let it be the same for me. please. i'll do anything.

but i'll continue to love you forever either way. my dearest, forever.

#this is. basically just a vent but erm #💐 #yandere vent #actually yandere #irl yandere #obsessive vent #bpd yandere #bpd feels #That made me laugh out loud wdym FEELS #bpd moment #thats just a personal tag atp. need to use that repeatedly #obsessive thoughts #vent #ok enough tags. #I need mental help

[stickeykeys]

idek whats up with me but i keep just lying in bed, listening to those subs where ur comfort character talks to you for a little while, which is fine, thats normal. but why do i start CRYING when the sub ends. whats up with that. why r my attachment issues getting worse.

#amber posts #this is such an amber SHUT UP moment #shiftblr #shifting #reality shifting #desired reality #shifting realities #im going fucking crazy istg i need to shift tonight or i might actually sob in the morning im just so frustrated #vent tw #i guess????

[trans-axolotl]

have not left bed today + found out another friend got locked up + want to beat up every single adult that saw what was happening to me and looked away or actively made it worse

#personal #vent #suicide mention tw #i need to call her. last time we talked she said she was going to kill herself if she got incarcerated again #i love her. nothing makes me more angry at so many systems than trying to do suicide support with my friends who are locked up #trying to do this shit over the phone with people listening in. trying to figure out what meaningful support we can even give #because when she says that death is better than months of solitary i know exactly how she feels and what she means and i cannot fucking #most of the skills mainstream peer support has ever taught me are useless in that situation and my best is not enough #there are so many places that need to be burnt down. #there are so many people i love who are not out and it starts to kill me a little bit #and cops are starting to fuck with us here more. i've gotten bruised up a couple times from being shoved around #nothing too bad yet but just #jesus christ #sorry for coming on here to vent all the time but my offline life is a little crazy at the moment and half this shit i can't talk about irl #i honestly think i need to like. start learning how to fight properly again. bc i have so much anger right now #and learning how to actually fight sounds like a better idea then fucking off and getting into random fights like i used to #idk. will look into it

[moveddazeddreams]

It's missing something that you can't remember hours today lads

#Getting real for a moment tho (vent ahead) #Not being able to remember things that the system still misses is scary #Like. you miss things because they ment stuff to you #You forgot something that ment something to you #And that's honestly what scares me the most about being part of a system #I think that this can get a bit more attention aswell #Rather than just the “I miss my own body”/“I miss source”/“I need to share my body”/“I dissociate a lot” things. #Which also ofc are part of it and a struggle #But the memory issues?? That's what scares me the most #Anyways #Ignore the tags I was just trying to be silly #Jack harkness posts #Dazeddreams posts #did system #Osdd system #did osdd #plural system #traumagenic system #plural blog

[captain-k8kat]

People who say diluc tried to kill kaeya

Oooooooo I am in your walls, i am coming for you, I will beat you up with a metal pipe, stop spreading these lies >:(

#k8kat talks #ragbros #he was UPSET they FOUGHT kaeya got HURT! #that does NOT mean diluc was trying to kill kaeya #diluc did NOT want to commit fratricide #i am burning ya'll up with my mind #i guarantee that that fight was over the moment kaeya got seriously injured #diluc didnt want kaeya to die he never did #orz #genshin impact #kaeya #diluc #this misconception kills me everytime i see it #it hurts me #o(-( #like dude just had to kill his father yall think he'd be out to kill his brother too? #he was mad at him tho #nothing about the fight was good #but it wasnt out of murderous intent #i've said this before multiple times because i need to vent about it every time i see it #it makes me so mad

[maudiemoods]

What If I gave up on art 😎?

#sorry this is my new favorite emoji 😎 #ive been trying to render my latest drawing for literally hours and have gotten absolutely nowhere #im going crazy #i think i just need to take a break for a moment #i have such a clear vision and yet i can't do it AURGGGGHH #crying and sobbing #ren won't shut up #i think i need to tweak the anatomy and pose a wee bit to something im a little more comfortable with #ive tried to just do normal line art FOUR TIMES already #guys help this isn't a funny prank anymore god let me access my skills (that i dont really have but want to manifest anyway) #← high expectations for myself even though i know i dont do the practice to get better #grr #rambling #vent #ish i guess

[dirtytransmasc]

grieving with family is so complicated, cause sometimes, no matter how much I love them, I just... can't with them.

each person in my family keeps trying to force their way of grieving, their way of coping onto the people around them.

people keep telling me how I'm supposed to feel, how I'm supposed to react, and that's one thing, I can handle it.

but my aunt (my uncle who passed's wife) keeps having people tell her how she's supposed to move on, and it's driving me bonkers. they keep telling her that finding out more answers about his death is not gonna fix things, that it's gonna not gonna ease her pain, that she just... shouldn't.

and like. yeah. there's a point to be had. but as someone who lost someone very close to me (my papa) very similarly, like, please, please, *please* stop telling her how she's supposed to fucking feel. like. oh my fucking God.

I swear.

it's been a few days, let us grieve how we're gonna grieve for just a minute. wanting answers isn't unhealthy. processing real or imagined guilts and coming to terms with it and clearing it isn't unhealthy. letting people grieve for a minute how they're naturally grieving is so important.

there does come a point where certain forms of grief become unhealthy, but trying to force someone to grieve differently DAYS after the death occurred, is like... such a dick move in my mind, especially when it's just the natural progression of thought and emotion and everything.

I don't know if I make any sense, especially cause I'm trying to leave as much detail out as possible, I just need to vent all this anger and frustration out before I snap.

#I have *no one* to talk to about this stuff #my family doesn't need my negativity and frustration #thats just the stage of like grief and just Feelings™ about all this where I'm just mad and easily frustrated and overstimulated by #everything thing around me so I'm sure that thats the reason I'm so frustrated #but I NEED this off my chest before I blow up on my grieving family #so to tumblr I go in an attempt to maintain my very fragile peace and temper #grief #loss #dealing with grief #mourning #I'm in my angry/overstimulated/“ready to blow up at any given moment cause im emotionally disregulated and can't handle anything ever” phase #personal vent

[the-kipsabian]

you know what i was gonna vent post but fuck it positivity moment instead cause whatever is inside of me thats making me sad it can be overruled by the people that still unconditionally love me and i know that and it means everything to me

#i have been awake for an extended amount of hours at this point so excuse me if my brain wanders a little bit #just. yeah. as sad as some things make me i can take so much more comfort in knowing there is someone out there who loves me #and i love them. and we are trying to get through this life together. and thats all that matters #i cant pinpoint an exact date but im pretty sure we are right about there right now for our one year friend anniversary #bugs i love you so much 💜💜 i know you'll see this eventually lmao 💜💜 #thats all. just needed a sappy moment instead of venting into the void. back to power wash hell i go lmao #night is an absolute mess on main

[lonicera-edulis]

Behold! 'Tis I, the mysterious Bagginshield Cryptid, returned from the deep woods and here to visit you with another Bagginshield question. . . What is your favourite headcanon?

The question puts me in stupor truly 🤯 I can't make a list when thinking of it. But I prefer how Sansûkh handles them, over what any Everyone-Lives-AU can offer (just because I don't want to throw away LOTR storyline and like some suffering I suppose, and Thorin needed a few decades of therapy before getting into a relationship xD). But it doesn't mean I don't like these AUs ☝️ And I haven't read enough stories to know/remember of more headcanons I am afraid. Sorry for this awkward answer, brain bad 😵‍. But hopefully some headcanonny things are seen through my art.

#thank you for asking though! #maybe if there was a list to choose from it would be easier xD #strange that I can't even talk about my favorite things #hmmm #I usually vent about what I don't like though phhh #bad way of thinking which I can't start dealing with yet #replies #I need to write down headcanons I like for myself next time though #maybe it will help to organize it and bring some ideas too #hopefully I am not too annoying with gushing over sansukh #don't want to demeanor anyone #I feel I may sound harsh sometimes #especially when I talk about some dislikes which are many #but they are nor awful #just not for me #also sorry to fic writers whos fics I am yet to read but too late #it's difficut to read anything at the moment