#i just. cant sit still i get distracted idk why

[soldier-poet-king]

I need to be strong and hot and also get new (thrifted) clothes and I have been feeling the creation of self so much so intensely lately and its such a joy but I'm SICK and been laying here ALL DAY and there is. Only so much tv I can watch and fluff I can read. Before I'm like. I can't sit still any more

#the duality of fran #i had the shakes so no cross stitch #and my attention span for passive media consumption is. low #i DONT binge things. i am mentally incapable #i watched like 4 eps of snk and 4 eps of derry girls. took a nap. read almost a full vol of mdzs #and now its like. ok. ok. can we stop feeling sickm thanks #its too dark out to craft (strian my eyes when I'm ALREADY fighting a headache) #im not sleepy given i slept a lot last night and then laid about all day today #im just. AHHHHHHH #video games probably noy a good idea bc head. and also. it is easiest to lie down rn #sitting. hurt. #its such a stupid thing some 24 hr bug itll be gone by morning #but for rn im just. AHHHHHHHHHH #everything feels worse when u feel sick and ur hair feels greasy. tbh #I WASHED IT LITERALLY THIS MORNING #i wish i was a tv enjoyer more. tbh #i just. cant sit still i get distracted idk why #and i dont with books or video games in the same way #stupid brain

[lonleywriters-blog]

I hope you are doing well and if not im so sorry! I hope it gets better (it will it always does)

♡♡♡

If you are still taking requests I was wondering if you could do head cannons (idk if that's spelt right, I cant spell to save my life) of gotham villans with a plus-size bf/gf? And if you do Jeremiah could you include pre-spray too? (Pre-spray Jeremiah has my heart) thankkkkkkk youuuuuuu!!!!!

YESSS

Gotham villains with plus size s/o

He isn't a smaller or average man himself so he can be insecure.

He genuinely doesn't even think of your weight, he is just so taken back by your curves.

He is entranced by the way your curves move and look.

He will buy you tight and fitting dresses all the time, unless he sees you are getting self conscious because of it.

He will sit you down and whisper sweet words in your ears for hours. He means every word to.

He loves to grab your thighs, it doesn't even have to be sexual.

If you are in bed reading with him his hand is just resting and lightly massaging your thigh.

He hates to see you cry or even slightly sad, especially if it's because of your appearance. He will literally drown you in affection until you can't say anything bad about yourself.

He is so pathetic and needy, he is shocked anyone wants to date him.

He is even more shocked when it's a curvy girl, just his type.

He is literally always a blushing mess around you, it doesn't matter how long you have been together.

Will trace his finger up and down your stretch marks as he falls asleep.

If you ever mentioned being insecure he will find out why and point out every single reason he lives that part of you.

If you dress up he will let you walk him around like a dog, just happy to be by your side.

You could practically use him as an accessory, and he would happily thank you.

Literally worships you, like actually has his goons worship you.

He will have shrines built, some combined with his, others separate.

He needs you to be seen and adored like he sees and adores you.

He will get the most expensive and flattering clothes, having you prance around for him.

You are like a model icon of the underground world, no one can say anything negative because you always look your best.

He spoils you. Hair, makeup, nails, anything you want you can have.

If you don't want anything at all he is more than happy with that as well.

Instead he will buy you movies, snacks, and the fluffiest blankets.

My man will go feral.

He hadn't thought much of being with someone curvy, since he was mostly locked up or in middle of a big plan.

When he sees you, he drops everything. He doesn't care if he is getting shit at, he has to say hi.

He will never let you leave the house without giving you at least ten compliments and grabs.

He is obsessed with dressing you up.

Especially in vintage style dresses or gowns of any type

If he ever hears people talking about you he will torture them.

Sometimes he gets very tempted to just hypnotize you into being more confident when he sees you sad. He never would though.

He gets so giddy around you, he just can't believe you are real.

You are real, and you really want him. That's almost too much for him.

He will do anything he can to make you comfortable and confident.

He always carries a mini lotion for your thighs so you don't get sores or chub rub.

He dots on you all day, you will distract him for work almost every time.

Can't help but grab your hips, literally always had a hand there.

He loves to hug you while you cook and use his hands to move your hips to whatever song plays.

He is obsessed with the way your curves move, he can't get enough.

He will beg you to sit in his face, he needs to feel your thighs around his head.

He is actually so whiny and pathetic for you.

#gotham x reader #jerome valeska x reader #jervis tetch x reader #jeremiah velaska x reader #jeremiah valeska x reader #oswald cobblepot x reader #edward nygma x reader

[murdrdocs]

idk if you have already written this since im a new follower but i was wondering if you can write where bimbo!reader puts on the ghostface mask with like sexy lingerie and ethan EATS IT UP.

i love your writing sm! and i understand if you dont wanna write this :) i literally cant get enough of your stories lol

a) thank you for following me and appreciating my work !! b) i would love to write this for you *rubs hands together* no smut i'm lazy

When Ethan walks into his room to see you holding a white mask in your hands, his heart rate immediately increases. He pauses in the doorway, his hand still wrapped around the knob, one foot inside of the room and the other out.

He's about to speak, maybe play it off and pretend the mask doesn't hold any significance to him, or tell you that it's not what it looks like. You speak before him.

Your head lifts, your lips in a pout, when you say, "You had one this whole time? And you didn't tell me?"

Ethan, completely confused, steps into the bedroom and lets the door swing closed behind him. He looks over you, noticing how you're only wearing his hoodie and a pair of boots. You both were supposed to be getting ready for the frat party that Chad was insisting Ethan go to tonight, something about getting the true freshmen in college experience. Of course, Ethan couldn't go without his girlfriend, which made Chad even happier as he not so subtly insinuated that Ethan should get laid tonight.

But you didn't look party ready, save for from your neck up.

He licks his lips and approaches you. "What're you talking about?"

You hold the Ghostface mask up directly beside you, your free hand singling out a pointer finger to point at the mask. "The mask, Ethan!" you say like it's completely obvious. Ethan's starting to think that it is obvious, and he's just not picking up on it. His throat gets a little dry, and his eyes get shifty.

He's thinking of something to say but again, you beat him to it. "You knew I was looking for one for Halloween. For tonight!"

Oh yeah. That.

Ethan did know that, but he was so enamored by your nails clacking along your keyboard and the way your new perfume smelled and the way your glossed lips parted as your perfect teeth smacked on your minty gum. You were overwhelming his senses, so he could barely focus on your smooth voice detailing your Halloween costume options.

"Shit, 'm sorry. I didn't know about that." Lie. He reaches out to splay his hands over your waist to cover up how horrible he is at lying. "Maybe next year?"

You lean into his touch, but your head tilts as if you're not understanding him. "I can wear it this year, too."

Ethan watches as your hands reach down to the hoodie, pulling it over your head carefully as to not drop the mask. His brain short circuits as he sees what you're wearing.

It's barely anything. Mostly because you're not wearing actual clothes, just a set of lingerie that Ethan hasn't seen before, most likely a new purchase.

"See this is what I was gonna wear, E," you say it through a pout but the words barely meet Ethan's ears. He's too busy staring at your soft skin, the way your tits sit in the bra, the way your thighs look, the way the panties hug your hips.

You're still talking, but Ethan's hands are already back on your waist and trailing down to your hips.

"Well I wasn't going to wear just this. I didn't wanna look like a total slut. So I have a little skirt I was gonna wear. You know the tiny one that almost shows my ass? Ethan?"

He hums, letting you repeat the last of your sentence. "Mhm," he says when you finish, the noise acting enough as affirmation for you to continue.

"Would that look cute with this? What'd you think?" He doesn't answer. "Ethan."

"Baby, I'm sorry. But I'm not listening to anything you're saying right now."

The admission makes you heat up, not from anger but from the opposite. Knowing that Ethan is always listening to you, and the only reason why he's not right now is because you're distracting him with your figure, makes you feel a little giddy inside.

"Do you like it?" Your voice is soft, your eyes the same. He nods, licking his lips and pulling you close enough that you can feel the bulge forming in his pants.

"Yeah?" you ask.

"Yeah."

"Sure it's not too much?"

Ethan's leaning down now, his hands circling around your back, obviously itching to grip your ass. You push yourself against him, free hand resting on his forearm, giving it a little push as a go-ahead.

"Not too much at all." His hand finally inches down and he takes one of your almost-bare asscheeks in his palm, squeezing it before smacking it.

You giggle, your head knocking against his chest. Ethan lifts one hand to encourage your head to leave his chest only so he can kiss you once, twice, thrice, then one more that's longer, a little more heated, but he wills himself away.

"Can you put the mask on for me?"

Your eyes are staring up at him, so big and wide, you're clearly eager to please, hence why you don't question it and instead nod, leaning up to kiss him one more time before you're pulling the mask over your head, prepared for whatever Ethan has planned.

#Proof read ☒ #smut could've existed here #but meh #ethansworld! #ethan landry x reader #ethan landry smut #ethan landry x you #ethan landry #scream 6

[lfghughes]

Seal My Fate pt 4

a/n: idk guys i think im going to have to do the same thing i did with heaven cant help me now and give y'all two endings because i cant even pick between them

“Jack, I just want to talk.” His ex was so focused on Jack and trying to talk to him that she didn’t even care that she had an audience, one specifically who was currently still in Jacks shirt. “There’s nothing to talk about.” His words came out in an icy tone and you had never really heard Jack talk in anything but his usual joking tone or soft one. “Ten minutes, please.” Somehow she managed to convince him. “My room, ten minutes and that’s it.” He led the way to his room and she quickly followed, shutting the door behind them.

“Well I’m going to my room to take a nap and to get away from whatever comes from that.” Trevor pointed towards Jacks room before heading into his. “Want some bacon?” Alex asked and it took you a minute to realize he was talking to you, holding out a plate for you. You nodded your head and ate some strips before going back to your place. This was clearly not the place for you to be today because it looked like the mood was going to shift drastically.

A majority of your day you thought back to the past twenty four hours and everything that had happened with Jack. Now you had no clue what would happen. It didn’t seem like he was interested in his ex at this point but you also had no clue what was said behind that door. Not that you had any sort of claim to him especially when just a few days ago you had also slept with his best friend. What kind of situation had you put yourself in?

The day passed and now the night was here. You didn’t really feel any better but you decided you needed to sit outside and get some fresh air to clear your head. Almost like he knew you were out there Trevor appeared from the darkness and onto your deck. “Looks like you kept yourself distracted while I was gone.” You could hear the hurt in his voice even though he was trying his best to not show it. “Trevor..” You wanted to explain yourself to him but there wasn’t much to explain.

“I just don’t get it. I love Jack, that’s obvious because he’s my best friend but you know him too. He’s just lonely and you were the first girl around, can’t you see that? You’re just another girl to him.” His words stung deep and you were trying your best to blink back the tears. As soon as he saw your reaction he realized how hurtful his words had been. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean-“

“Is that all I am to you too then? Just the closest girl around that would give you attention?” Maybe you were the fool here after all. You wiped your tears as you looked up at him and you could see the apologetic look on his face. “That’s not what you are to me at all, you’re so much more than that.” He started as he stepped forward crouching down in front of you. His hands went up to your face, helping you wipe away some of those tears.

Suddenly another figure popped up on your deck and you immediately sat up and away from Trevors hands. “Woah, hey is everything okay?” Jack asked as he rushed to your side. “Why are you crying?” He asked and you just shook your head getting up from your seat. “It’s nothing. It’s just been a long day so I’m going to head in.” With those words you made your way inside, leaving Trevor and Jack both outside. “Is it because of my ex showing up?” Jack asked and Trevor shook his head. “It’s nothing.” Trevor told him before walking off before he admitted too much to his best friend.

#jack hughes #trevor zegras #jack hughes blurb #jack hughes imagine #jack hughes x reader #trevor zegras x reader #trevor zegras blurb #trevor zegras imagine #( seal my fate ft jack and trevor )

[jrwi-adhd-swag]

Round 2 Poll:

Pictures and propaganda are under the cut!

Chip (Riptide)

As someone who has adhd, he does. He just does

have you ever seen that guy?? literally the most ADHD character in modern media i have no other words

The way Chip just joins in on antics, or absently stims, and especially how he joins in on Gillion’s stims.

look at him

ok i have adhd and autism and as we all know gillion is the king of autistic swag but what people dont know is CHIP IS THE KING OF ADHD SWAG LIKE LOOK AT HIM. you cannot tell me that this mans nurotypical. hes the kid who cant sit still in class. hes the guy who never learned to control the volume of his own voice, hes the kid who never EVER did home work. 

Fucking look at him

ADHD x Autism (FNC)

HAVE YOU SEEN THAT GUY!!!! he radiates adhd idk whyyyy but he just does. As someone who has adhd, THAT BOY HAS ADHD!!!!!! he’s just !!!!!!!!! YGHRHRH YKNOW??? i can’t explain why but Chip is soooo adhd

Gillion Tidestrider (Riptide)

He gets distracted so easily

#jrwi #jrwi adhd swag #jrwi bracket #just roll with it #just roll with it bracket #jrwi riptide #chip jrwi #gillion tidestrider #chip vs fish

[molthethratrenerd]

my gender

This is gonna be a long rant abt my gender so you do have to read it. I just need to say it.

Ok so ive been question my gender/sexuality for like 3-4 years now and i this was kinda it

Oh i'm a bi girl -> im pan girl -> lesbian -> pan she/they still a girl but queerer

Then like i was more worried about trying to figure out my sexuality right cause like i wanted to be kissed before my 16th (that didn't happen) 

Then like maybe mid 2022 i started thinking about gender and i knew 2 trans people but i was kinda like no that can't be me flashforward to march 2023 i got in to will wood and i was like ‘no way i'm in anyway trans but if i could be him i would’ and i like said to myself that i just thought he was attractive?? Then the same thing happened with the character jesse st james from glee which was even weird because there was no way i would want to date him, so thats when she/they pronouns came in i put it in my bio. Then kids from my class found out and made fun of it so i changed em back to she/her. 

Then since like september last year it feels like minimum weekly i’d either not be able to stop thinking abt gender or take way too many ‘what's my gender quizzes’ 

And like i feel its alway been in the day of my head, but its becoming more prevalent since then ive been like could i be non binary, genderfluid pintrest boards. At the beginning of the year i cut my hair again, which felt so good,.

So now somedays im having thoughts like ‘oh my fucking god why cant i drink something and be a guy’ ‘please for fucks sake’ though im nor sure id like to be a man im not 100% sure im a girl (im moving further from that). But like if there was like a magical thing i could drink do idk that would turn every inch into like robert smith between 1983-2004 id do it so quickly omg. 

And like it kinda hurts that i'm not idk (and ive never felt this for any girl celebrities)

And i kinda think they are also there those thoughts but some days theyre less i thinks thats just cus im distracting myself though i dont know i could be fluid. 

But i dont want to be any guy like the men in my family most of them are big i cant think of a better word then buffheads more so my dad but i could just not want to be like them i dont have a good relationship 

I dont think i HATE being a girl- i don't love it i like some parts but i dont think its things exclusive to girls say cause gender norms n stuff. 

I dont know if i have dysphoria because that fluctuates but im vision impaired so if i dont try and look at my body i forget some of it exists i really dont like my boobs or how clothes sit on my body think i like okay with having a cups (that i could easly hide if i wanted to  i dont but that cause also be cause by the pain they cause me.

My waist i like but only because that's the part of my body thats skinnest like my body was less shapely but that skinny id be elated.

But especially o the days i think abt it more but also all the time i do wish for more masc features eg adams apple more angular face bigger hands etc etc.Voices of weird one because my voice is in mezzo soprano range my speaking voice however in chest voice is kinda low  but I was self-conscious about it growing up because it made me stand out in different even though really it wasn't I think I just thought people were staring at me for no reason.  I think I only like my voice when I'm singing when I'm acting because I can imagine myself playing characters who aren't me but idk but if it was lower like high baritone or tenor id be like so fucking happy.

And like i Kind of want to try dressing differently but I can't because a I don't want my family to know certain pieces of clothing would be mens Not that they have a problem with it I'm assuming they could though but they probably just want to talk about it and I would not but also like  I remember one time I was at the shop called Factorie  and I wanted to get the Black Parade t-shirt but it was a mens shirt  and my god the amount of anxiety I had and the amount of people that I felt were staring at me I almost had a panic attack. 

And like I feel like if I ever did do anything about gender irl  I'd run away from everyone I know and cut of connections again not because I feel like they'd be bad about it but just I've built this thing around myself so long and I don't think I could even my queer friends like i dont know  my parents I'd feel like I'd be letting them down, and like 

But also so much for my childhood makes sense

Like when I was about 8 I got eczema for the first time and my first thought was ‘oh im turning into a boy… shit what am I gonna tell my parents’  which I don't even know why my brain made that jump but i hated my boobs sometimes more then others Once they got past a certain size,  when I had a pixie cut and a couple people in the street would mistake me for a boy felt exposed ‘like shh don't tell’ 

But I was also such a girly todder/ child  from like ages four Tube8 I would pride myself on being the girlest girl never wearing pants  because I kind of think it was trying to win that competition but I don't know         

I don't think anybody read this whole thing but if you did help me out or don't I don't care but I just needed to vent this 

m

#gender questioning

[teenandbeyond]

hi!! this is my first time requesting in awhile and it might be a little specific? 😭 so thank you if you do it and its fine if not

anyways the request: so can i get a bakugou x reader maybe? (or kirishima if u dont want to write for him). reader dislocated their shoulder (dominant hand so they cant do anything) and is now on bed rest?? idk i just want comfort bc my shoulder has dislocated twice in 3 days n i have been struggling big time 💀 im used to doing things by myself and not asking for help 24/7

i hope this is coherent 😭

Bakugo x Injured. Reader

This is super late, huh? Hope despite that it still brings some type of comfort.

Want more from me? Masterlist 2

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💥Let Me💥 (MHA or My Hero Academia)

Warning(s): Cursing(But it's Bakugo, sooo), Fluff

Bakugo refuses to let you do anything by yourself in this state

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“What the hell are you doing?” you heard a familiar voice growl.

You turned like a deer in headlights, “Uh, um…I’m…praising the cabinets?”

Your friend and crush--but he didn’t need to know that--raised a blonde brow, “Praising the cabinets.”

“Yes! I’m very religious with them, they store our wonderful plates—”

“Stop with that bull crap, why are you up? You’re on bed rest.”

“It was boring. I'd just sit around all day and do nothing.”

He scoffed, gently nudging you out of the way, “Do you not understand what bed rest means, dumbass? You’re not supposed to be getting up, you’re supposed to be resting.”

“I know, Bakugo…I’m just…used to doing everything for myself, not being so helpless,” you sighed.

His shoulders dropped in a silent sigh, “Yeah, I get it. But you’d be an idiot to make it worse and never get better. School without you is boring, so you gotta get back as soon as possible.”

He groaned as soon as he saw the shit-eating grin on your face, distracting himself with continuing the meal you were making.

“You miss me, huh?”

“I don’t fucking miss you! You’re just one of the few people who can keep up with me!”

“That sounds like ‘missing’ to me.”

“Shut up!” he barked.

“Why are you here alone? Isn’t school over?”

He shrugged, “It is, everyone but me got punished. They have to stay an extra hour to train.”

“I’m guessing you passed the test because you’re way better than everyone else?” you rolled your eyes.

“Exactly. Yeah.”

With a huff, you shake your head.

“Cocky-ass.”

“Go lay down, why are you still here, nerd?”

“I’m watching you. It’s not often you get to see Bakugo Katsuki cook,” you grinned.

He turned to you with the darkest glare you’ve ever seen on him, “I swear if I have to tell you one more fucking time to lay down.”

“Fine! Fine!” with a pout, you make it to your room.

Thirty minutes later he comes in with a plate, setting it on the nightstand next to your bed.

“How in the world did you hold a steaming plate with your bare hand?” you blink in awe.

He actually chuckled at that, “I have explosions come out of my hands on a regular basis, I think I can handle a little plate, [N/N].”

“You and your nicknames,” you reach out to take the chopsticks.

“What are you doing? You’re not gonna be able to eat without your dominant hand. You can barely use the other one.”

You shrug, “Yeah, I’ve been trying to learn and use the other side so I can do more.”

You yelp as you drop the chopsticks you were awkwardly holding.

“How’s that goin’ for you?”

“Shut up! I have to figure something out, I’m hungry.”

“I…you,” he muttered under his breath, his cheeks flushing a little.

“What was that? You’re loud any other time,” your inquire with furrowed brows.

“I can feed you…”

“…”

“Oi! Don’t laugh!”

You stifle the laugh, “Well, I can’t laugh too hard anyway.”

“I just don’t want to sit and watch you complain about stuff.”

“Thanks, but it’s okay, I got it.”

Then you proceed to hiss as you trigger your shoulder.

“Do you, now?” a smirk twitched onto his face.

“Fine.”

You found yourself getting flustered as he fed you, surprised by how calm and gentle he was.

“Don’t swallow too fast, idiot! It’s not a race!”

In between eating, if you needed anything, he’d grab it for you.

“You know Bakugo, you’d be a good boyfriend,” you told him honestly.

“H-Huh?”

“You’re very caring--more than what it seems, anyway.”

His eyes flickered down to the plate to grab more food, “I’m not caring…you just…look so pathetic trying to do so much when you’re supposed to rest…I don’t want you to hold the class back by prolonging your injury.”

Considering how many pauses were in that sentence, you didn’t really believe his reasoning.

“It’s okay, thank you for caring about me.”

He growled leaning toward you, “I just told you—”

You kiss his cheek out of gratitude, “--Just take the thank you, Bakugo.”

Startled he pulls away, face darkening in color, “I—You—Dumbass! Don’t do things like that so suddenly!”

You hear a knock at your door, “Hey, [Name]! We’re all back now! Let me know if you need anything, okay?”

You smile, “Thanks, Eiji! But Bakugo’s been helping me, so I don’t need anything right now!—You can come in, I don’t bite, you know!”

Once Kirishima enters, he looks in between you and Bakugo, seemingly putting pieces together.

Then he gives Bakugo a look that you don’t understand.

“Shut up, Shitty Hair!”

He chuckles, not able to hide his smirk, “Hm? But I didn’t say anything, Baku-bro.”

“You know exactly what I’m talking about!”

“No, what are you talking about?”

“Stop playing innocent!”

You smile, warmed by their banter.

“That looks good, can I take a bit, [Name]?”

“No! That’s just for [Name], you don’t get any, Kirishima!”

You pout, “Aw, why can’t he get any, Bakugo? He only wants a bite.”

“T-that’s because…Shut up!”

“We didn’t say anything…”

#katsuki bakugo x reader #bakugo #bakugo fluff #bakugo katsuki #bakugo x you #bakugo comfort #anime #bnha #mha #bnha x reader #mha x reader

[alexinity]

someone specific

albedo x gn reader

tw: none

-this is kinda short and boring but it was in my drafts for a few months so i decided to get rid of it finally, albedo might be a little off character idk

[albedo confesses his feelings, talks abt the future and his fears, a little comfort?]

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you and albedo were sitting on the grass near dragonspine, where the cold couldnt reach, yet the sun couldnt touch.

you were laying on the grass in deep silence, not an uncomfortable one but still in the nice company of your friend.

"have you ever thought about the future?" albedo randomly asked

"of course i have.. why do you ask?" you turned your head towards him and looked at his back

"i was just wondering..do you think if we already have a destined future, that a single moment can completely change it?" he was staring into the distance.

"hm..perhaps..the future is something that changes all the time and even a single decision can lead it towards a very different way. our fates change everyday with every little thing we say and do. this is how i imagine it... kind of like the butterfly effect, dont you think?" you said with a small smile.

albedo felt his cheeks turn slightly red. he loved the way they answered his questions, maybe thats why he always seemed to try to find something new to ask you

"maybe you are right..." he said while turning the other way again

"you seem bothered? is something wrong? you never really care about things that arent happening in the moment, let alone something so distant like the future." y/n got closer to albedo and gently placed their hand on his shoulder.

"true but.. recently ive been trying to get something out of my mind, no matter what i do nothing seems to be working out"

"well its new to see you worried about anything at all, you can tell me.." a few seconds passes before albedo sighed and lowered his head a little

"how do i say this...well.. i was just wondering if what im doing, my dedication, all my researches, all my creations...if they will eventually lose their meanings when in the end of the day i will still be alone like ive always been, i will lose control and.." he didn't dare look at them.

"albedo..." albedo had told them a long time ago what his life purpose was, they knew what he was capable of

"leave it..i shouldn't think about it now" he felt embarrassed. he didnt understand emotions as much as he wanted to, he knew that in order to not feel lonely he had to be around people and that seemed like the hardest part

the only person he always wanted to be around was you

he knew you were a busy person, always going around helping others, caring about everyone, you had your own worries and problems, he knew the fact that you were there with him right now was too much to ask for. why would you care about someone like him anyway? he wanted to be selfsh for once, take you away from all of your responsibilities for a day and spend moments like this more often

"do you often feel lonely?" y/n took albedo back to reality with their question

"sometimes"

"then why do you always stay here - alone. If you really didnt want to be alone you would be doing all your researches in Mond.. in your lab."

"you are right..i dont seek the company of other people, i tend to avoid everyone as much as i could, in dragonspine i feel.. save...i am perfectly fine by myself here, but i do seek the company of someone specific sometimes, its distracting me from my job, makes me feel vulnerable.." He turned his gaze towards you. he felt his breath hitch as he was staring at your confused expression. should he really be doing this?

"and who that might be?" oh how u loved to act dumb he thought

archons you were doing to kill him. why do you always have to do this? you never seemed to notice how much effect you have on the alchemist

his hands trembled

"you"

perhaps one day..when he loses control, when he cant hold back and think straight..perhaps you will be there to stop him and bring his mind to peace again

#albedo confessing #albedo x reader #genshin impact imagines #albedo kreideprinz #i kin albedo ok #this is so off character i suck at writing #genshin x reader #genshin impact #albedo imagines

[dualitysdownfall]

medical oversharing in form of sentence fragments below cut

knees prone to hurting after i walk more than usual ("usual" in this case being a very low threshold) particularly in situations like school where im also carrying heavy stuff (not very specific i guess. began couple months ago, not immediately after start of semester which is interesting (what changed???) didnt do good job logging occurrences and circumstances.)

not normal right? what do about this. not bad enough to be debilitating but enough to notice -> enough to cause concern. can power through. semester just ended, no more school anyway. not expecting problem to occur during break. so like should i even worry about this rn?

why this happen though? would simply reducing weight load help? or just minimize walking altogether? not muscular pain. ...wait for problem to worsen? cant think of anything immediately implementable that would reliably assuage or prevent. at least not without knowing whats going on.

i know in my brain preventive care is just as important as addressing stuff thats already happening but. how. feels like making big deal out of something manageable. logically know any issue at all is deserving of attention and relief, indicator of Not Fully Able Bodied but not sure how to address while still certifiably Not That Bad, Actually /genuine (esp considering, like i said, probably not a concern now that semester is over) like idk what kinds of things would reduce/prevent on such small scale without feeling like overreacting. don't exactly want problem to get worse but if it did at least that would justify getting something for it

also not really sure of patterns, again, did bad job recording data. sometimes convinced "i did so much walking today, this is gonna hurt tomorrow" then it doesnt. not sure what exactly triggers it or when. i do know once when it happened, sitting down for an hour made it virtually go away, then i started kicking my legs as a stim and pain began to seep back. like "ooogh augh you're still making us move, why this".

idk theres probably more details but. brain gone

should have carefully logged everything pertinent, would make easier to detect patterns or lack thereof

sometimes pain when laying down going to sleep. very distracting. like what more do you want me to do im already laying down.

like pain in response to movement but on a delay.

at worst maybe a bit unsteady, not thrilled about getting up and moving but can.

#wonder where get advice from chronic pain havers #this is what this is right? or at least heading toward that sort of area #planned to schedule doctor appt but then dad got covid #dont want him to have to go into places until asymptomatic #tired want to express thought fast no time for grammar #you want articles? go to newspaper IDIOT #harper babbles

[randomsmilingpotatoes]

2 x 02 commentary

- the principal must be getting so annoyed getting all those calls aha

- Simon has such a beautiful voice 🥺

- the money issue really plays into everything damn

- omg sara wtf that’s so rude???? sorry they couldn’t afford a nicer pair??

- okay wille you don’t have to ignore Simon in PE like you can pass it to him😭

- oooh smarrttt to convince Vincent

- omg wille stop being so passive aggressive just sit there and let Simon have space please😭

- IT IS MALIN FORCING HIM NO😭😭 doing her job but still😭😭

- the symbolism of the snow globe breaking omg:(

- “at least you don’t have to be crown prince”:/

- okay that’s an interesting take to say that they’re okay with it if he keeps it private til an adult and it’s on his own terms. that doesn’t change the way everything else is though, and the thing is, it wasn’t on his terms and it never will be . I think that would’ve been okay if he didn’t already have to deny the video but it’s not a normal coming out situation now

- he should see a therapist though I do agree with that

- Simon went to the principal?? wow I was wondering what he was doing, he has a huge heart

- I’m ngl tho wille would be an annoying ex I’m sorry HAHAH it’s feeling real

- okay pls tell simon the whole truth

- wille you CANT just expect Simon to go back to you like that

- GOOD SIMON. such a mature way to look at it

- don’t tell me sara is going to go try sleep with august

- omg the phone. can she do much with that information tho? like she can tell august but he can’t tell anyone- I guess he’d treat felice like shit though:/

- awe smelling the jumper and looking at the fish🥺 and wearing the jumper omg

- I love that Simon is expressing his feelings through song this season, he’s so lovely to listen to and it also gives him an outlet without someone else constantly sharing their own opinion

- the symbolism of taking the jumper off and feeling freer 🥹 this is what he needs rn

- the way he’s looking around Marcus’s place exactly like wille did to his, calling it cozy and everything 😭

- omg SIMON that was smooth

- okay that’s so sweet but I feel like Simon DID kinda want to fuck lmao. this is why you don’t use people as a rebound, Marcus’s feelings are gonna get hurt 🥴

- SARA WHY IS AUGUST MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU THAN YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH FELICE EVEN

- and now they’re gonna fuck? ugh

- okay that was a WEIRD experience for him lmaoo

- wille please just make the most of the situation . Like even if he never talks about the video he should talk about Erik.

- the anxiety pamphlet!! yes!!! this is what he needs🥺

- awe come onnn not MARCUS at whatever they’re doing to distract wille😭 poor wille

- this does not feel safe having wille shoot things when his ex’s new guy is there asdfgh

- you cant blame Marcus though like he’s just vibing, he didn’t even seem to know who wille was so I feel like he doesn’t even know about the video and Simon

- yesss !!!! august is OUT of prefect positionnn

- the little smile HAHA

- damn I didn’t even think about how felice quitting would affect sara too. too bad , good on felice for quitting!!!

- okay as much as I hate august he was much better at being team captain than Vincent will be💀 that’s so mean to valter what

- cheating?? hmmmmm. For simons sake I’ll accept it but idk

- ITS THE SAME SONG FROM SEASON ONE

- “do you know him?” WILLE you know DAMN well

- hmm we will see what is happening with the Queen and august hmm

- DONT SNOOP

#young royals #yr s2

[so-much-nonsense]

because this is life

yest i wanted to kms and today im sitting on my bed struggling to study without getting distracted. this is so funny to me. yest nothing in the whole world mattered. yest i couldnt care less about all this but, today, here i am, giving it so much importance. are we all just lil creatures. if yes why did i have to suffer so much. i dont want to live anymore. it stopped feeling like im living, for myself. i cant exactly tell when. bc few days back i was so happy and thoughtful about amount of emotions i can go through. yest night something just snapped and i sobbed uncontrollably in silence as i laid in my bed covered in sheets in the dark. what are friends and family in these moments? yest i wanted to die and no one were there for me. not even one person i could think of that i could call for some safety net. or even just to talk. my "friends" seem to be busy with their own fucking lives, lives im not a part of. "family" i cant call and worry. "people whod listen to me" i refuse to open upto. what has my life become today. before yesterday my life was so rich. after today if you ask me ill tell you it still is but ill be lying. i should stop opening these apps and checking my messages again and again. fucking not one person is gonna text me or even reply to me. its not vulnerability i am scared of, its misunderstandings. we as smol humans seem to have a lot of these every single day and they ruin lives. ig this is life now. crying in secret. lonely. questioning everything. but ik ill not feel a thing in this blog a time from now. if i still do itd really be the worst life. there is nothing to say anymore. my mind blank but suffering, lost in chaos. sometimes i think i just write all these things because i like writing. but a little later in life i thank myself for having closure. it is so bad that i feel isolated from everyone. i feel like i cannot to talk to anyone. i feel like everyone is going ahead with their life but me. dying is not an option. so idk. also annoying how much importance i can give to people and never get it back. i have never been this person but i think im slowly changing into this person. do i stop caring? idts. bc i think everyone is sad, at least a little bit. so if im there for them in even one of those moments im happy to be. hence i dont find a reason to shut off people. regardless of what they might to(unless theyre horrible things) they are also learning and i would be happy to be there for them. i want to be there for people all the time. i dont understand this urge. maybe because there never was or is anyone for me.

[icantgetnosatisfaction]

16th

am l in denail?

I dont know why l written this. I just did cuz it came to my mind.

I talk to many people, too many. l feel like it is jjust taking too much time and effort but it makes me not to think of my oqn stuff. I am not even saying problems cuz it is not neccessarily should called problems. lt is anything related to me and my future and my past, so pretty much everything yeah.

yesterday was a beautiful tiring day, I had moments that l believe l am going to remember for a long time or for the rest of the my life.

Idk if you can relate however yk sometimes when l see something or hear something I can feel -I can say- lf ı am gonna remember that for a long time or not, or it is gonna be something important or not. Or maybe it is just selective perception.

writing helps, it does.

I should go to sleep early today or earlier than usual.

I should not seek for any person to love or to care, nothing intimate.

I dont desire that, I just want to postpone, I know myself. I know you. I know us. Dont be a coward. Dont distract yourself to avoid eventuality. You know that you are not supposed please yourself regularly cuz all the other member of your community do. They just live cuz their urges are dominant over them but you live, you live for...

indeed what do you live for? or what do you do for the thing you life for? Dont be so scared to not to reply. oh u are not scared? You just dont know? you dont know the damn reason why you are still alive? -still?-. Yeah well he was the reason at first but now what? You got use to that and now u cant just give it up? you are frightened? ,

Well, yes, we do want change, we want the big picture. we want something different. Yet, you keep liiving like others do. Do you get the meaning of that?

it is because ı ate shitty dessert and now my body is pretty unhappy to digest. I really dont understand why I ate that sweet? I dont even like sweet but I kept ate it for some reason

I was not supposed to

I wasnt

I wanted to vomit badly but couldnt do.

I think most of us, people, spend their lives like this. pretty much like this.

They sit in front of the TV. Watch a dump TV show while eating their sweet with a class of tea/coffee. They feel full and they dont really enjoy that TV show either. But they keep eating and watching. Sweet doesnt even taste that good but they eat it, they see the TV too. In the mean while, deep down, they know this isnt the way it should go. They feel the guilt and they know they will regret that moment later. But they keep sitting in front of that TV. Maybe they want unconsciously someone else to be involved and stop these primitive acts of theirs. It is not going to happen, unless they are 3yo or in a rehabilitation center.

gonna draw that view tomorrow

some moments, they stay with you, for a long time

Even you dont know the reason

lastly, what we write is dangerous. even far more dangerous than what we see or read. although l still dont know whether talking or writing is more dangerous than the other.

[cisthoughtcrime]

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#what the fuck is wrong with me #i feel like something in me broke recently and like ive had so few lucid moments in the last two weeks #i dont feel right. physically mentally emotionally. im fucking exhausted and cant be around people or alone. #I'm running away for the weekend. gonna hide in a motel/hotel somewhere nearby and try to force myself to get through this work #cuz if i can just write this thing i can focus on getting the rest of my shit together #if i just power this out #idk what the invisible obstacle is this time. I've struggled with procrastination before but not like this #it feels different and i feel idk. sick from it. #im 25 & have lived 1000s of miles from where i grew up since i was 18; but i broke down crying to my mom saying i wanted to come home #I'm a wreck and it's all self inflicted. cant even blame anyone or anything but myself. there are no external factors in this... #...once again i have no conclusion other than that I'm the problem. im my own problem. #and ik id feel better with this work behind me. ik I'm capable of doing it. so why am i not? why is it that every time i sit down to do it #i feel prematurely defeated? #even running away to a hotel for a few days to force myself to work without distractions idk if that'll remove the obstacles #cuz im the obstacle. even alone in a room with nothing but a bed power WiFi shower & my notes for three days... #...will i accomplish what i need to at all? will i even get close? im so tired #on friday-saturday i slept like 18.5/24hrs and was still tired. I've done good work even in this state before why am i not doing it now #just fucking do the work just fucking do it oh my god im so angry at myself

[lonely-and-cold-but-also-soft]

i really be finding comfort in characters from shows i never even watched huh

#guilty #guilty pleasure #this is makes me feel so guilty #it literally makes me sad lol #because i cant seem to focus on watching things #i get either too excited (to a point where i cant sit still or feel sick) #or i get bored and distracted #i just cant #idk why #:( #comfort character #comfort

[fanfictionsworld]

Black Butler boys and Grell with a s/o who bumps into things

Sebastian Michaelis

This man in very consered and he finds it very amusing that you just bump into things.Like you to will be walking and talking about some things and then you bum in to the edgy of some thing.He dose find it very amusing but some times you really could be some serious thing like the time you try to open the window and you hit the the glass and fell on your back.He saw you on your back and strated laughing alredy gussing the what happedn.,,You know honey i am soo glad that i provied you with such entertaning acts."I know dear you are very fuuny thank you soo much."Yeha very glad now help me out with this will you."But yes ofcours."❤🖤

2. Claude Faustus

(I love this gif more than my life🤤)

This man has no reaction(still love him tho) but listen thing take a turn when you start talikng to them(i do that idk why just i do it) like what...um...y/n....ummmm.....you do know that a table cant talk back to you.....you know back and tell you...um... how they feel right.And your resonses kill him both insed and out which are,, yeha i know i just wanted to let the table know that its rude to hit peope in the sthomac when they bumo into you."He is just watches you walk away with the blank face thinking what the hell did i just wittnested.💛🖤

3.Undertaker

Perfect gif for this

My god he is laughing so hard the earth is shaking.Sometimes he will do to it on perpose like ,,deary could you hand could that cup from the shelf please" he knows that you are giong to hit your head on the shelf when you turn around and when you do he is very much laughing so you hard will think he will choke himself.You however are not very amused at this ,,Hey you knew that i was gonna hit my head on the shelf didnt you", ,,i am very sorry i did know its just very fuuny how you react i cant help my self i very sorry are hurt", ,,No i am not but pleas do not do that again or i will kill you,, ,Alright i am very sorry i wont do it anymore" , But it was kind a fuuny"💚🤍

4.William T. Spears

(Yes another istj man to love the fist is Claude,William looks to good)

Just worried thats all this man is very worried like how do you just bump into things like how that are infont of you like the wall is right there y/n how do you not see it ( i have some bad times with wall to dont ask) where do you look when you are going how just how very much like Claude like how,just how.One time you were talking to him about some anime posters and you wanted to show them to him you tought that openenig a door while you where faceing him would be cool he said dont do that you are going to hit the wall but you didnt lisent and as you turend around you face hits the wall ( like i said the walls hate me its just how i am).,,I told you not to do that now your face hurts sit down i will get you some ice."🤎🖤

5.Ronald Knox

I belive that this man also bumps into thing walls,tables,foot you name it so he knows how you fell you two just usally laught it off seeing how fuuny you both look.You two keep scores to seee how bupms into things more which to William behave is not very amusing how bumps into things more has to buy deinks,dinner,food,coffee,tea it turns into a copmetion and its very sweet to watch him bump into things just so he could take you out on date after he wins and you bea8ng carfule just so he could do that.💛🤍

6.Grell Sutcliff (The darg QUEEN)

Much to everyone supreise she is also worried she will follow your steps and block you from hitting your face,nose,sthomac,legs(yes leg too i am a very tall person okey) etc.When its very bad she will scold you for not paying much attention to your surroundings and to not get too distracted you will get hurt much wores so pleas be cearful. ❤🤍

#sebastian michaelis x reader #yandere sebastian michaelis #black butler fanfiction #black butler fic #yandere black butler #undertaker x y/n #undertaker x reader #undertaker #grell x reader #grell sutcliff #william t spears x reader #william t. williams #ronald knox x reader #ronald knox #claude faustus #kuroshitsuji claude #claude faustus x reader #black butler x y/n #black butler x reader #black butler x you