#i know that i'm a lost cause

[clouvu]

Save me french yuri... Save me

#genshin impact #arledrone #sandrone #arlecchino #haha remember when we all thought that sandrone and arlecchino would both show up in fontaine and be gay together? #good times.... good times #jk i'm ready to end it all actually #I KNOW WE HAVE LIKE ONE LAST MAJOR FRENCH PATCH BEFORE NATLAN BUT IVE JUST ABOUT LOST ALL HOPE #the way that literally every wlw arle pairing got fed so well following arle's drip marketing EXCEPT for arledrn... hate it here so bad #anyways shipping aside HOW is it possible that the frenchiest of french harbingers with heavy ties to machinery #and like two major world quests tied to specifically to her lore and is even MENTIONED of being present in fontaine #also being one of the first harbingers ever mentioned dating back all the way to the description of chode's teaser trailer #just???? doesnt show up?????? #Sandy enjoyers are stronger than any us marine because my GOD are we struggling out here #anyways ignore the fact that I completely forgot to draw sandy's wind up key it was hard drawing through the tears #(actually it was cause i half-assed this doodle but we dont talk about that)

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[weed-cat]

boys im not gonna lie, it really fucking hurts to know that my safety and happiness is no one’s priority 🙃

#i know it's my own fault i know i know i know it #i know that i'm a lost cause #i know that my crisis moments just come and come and come and come and never stop #i know that everyone is numb to my suffering at best and actively resentful of it at worst #but holy fuck #it hurts so so bad when no one cares when i cry or hurt myself or someone hurts me or i want to die again #i know its my fault. you have no idea how much i know it's my fault. you have no idea how much i think about that #i don't expect people to care. it's not fair to expect people to care. it's just me. i know i haven't earned it. #i'm trying so so hard i swear i am. but it's not enough. i know it's not enough. i know that i can't ever be enough. #there's no sense in wasting your emotional energy on comforting someone who will inevitably dysregulate again. #it's just logical that people tune out my pain. it makes me happy that the people i love don't waste their time on me. #i want them to take care of themselves. i want them to save their spare energy for someone who deserves it. i dont want to be selfish #but that doesn't mean that i dont feel so so so so so lonely #suffering alone is so painful. even if it's for the best #and i know that i'm not going to be able to deal with that pain forever. i know that i'm going to take myself out before long. #and like #it's okay. #i've accepted it. #i know that some day i'm going to feel too alone and overwhelmed to keep going and i'll just stop. #it's actually quite comforting to know that i can remove myself once it's too much to handle. #to know that i'm not going to have to live with this for longer than i can handle. it's genuinely humane when you think about it. #obviously i'd prefer if i just didn't have to hurt. or at least if i do have to hurt i'd prefer if i didn't have to feel so alone while i do #but i know that that's not an option. i have to hurt because i can't be fixed. #i have to hurt alone because i just can't let myself ruin anyone else. #but it's not forever. i just have to keep telling myself that. once the weight of existing as Me gets too heavy i can let myself rest. #i think i'd like to rest tonight but i wont. its very very heavy right now. it's crushing me. #but there are just a few too many people who are invested in my continued existence right now. it would be selfish to take it from them. #but they'll tire of me eventually. they always do. and once they don't care anymore i'll do it. #but for now it just hurts. #i just have to close my eyes hold my breath and let it bury me

[letsmakesomeonehappytoday]

He's gone! I was doing so well

#hlcreators #stylesdits #harry #my gifs #hs gifs #hslot23 #the tears in his eyes #i'm so not okay #if someone knows who this belongs to tell me cause i found it lost on instagram without the source

[lelalyo]

Ok so we know Gortash and Durge were writing to each other in their own code but do we know how they got letters to each other?

Were they using the normal postal service in Baldur's Gate? Did they use highest, most trusted, members of their respective cults to deliver on their behalf?

Did they use familiars?

Did they have a dead drop where they'd put their letters for the other to pick up later?

Did they agree to cross paths in a public space and slip their letters in each others pockets while they were passing?

So many questions!

#I gotta know the HOW #They must've been really close to INVENT THEIR OWN LANGUAGE I MEAN #Omg that's it #Durgetash got me #Mourn me not #I'm a lost cause it's over #Baldur's Gate 3 #BG3 #Lord Enver Gortash #Lord Gortash #Durge #Dark Urge #BG3 Dark Urge #Durgetash #Gortash x Durge #Gortash x Dark Urge

[dylanconrique]

remember when titus said he imagined jackson finding out about tim and lucy dating after waking up in the morning to find tim standing shirtless in their kitchen making coffee?? why couldn't we have had that????

#*carly catalogs #I'M SO SAD THAT THIS CAN NEVER BE A REALITY ANYMORE #CAN YOU IMAGINE IF HE WERE ALIVE WHEN THEY STARTED SECRETLY DATING?????? #he would've reassured lucy over and over that he wouldn't tell a soul about them (cause you know she'd be kinda panicked about it) #BUT THAT COMES WITH A PRICE #THE PRICE BEING JACKSON RELENTLESSLY TEASING AND POKING FUN OF THEM BEHIND CLOSED DOORS #ESPECIALLY WHEN TIM COMES OVER TOO HE'D GET SO COMFORTABLE WITH ROASTING HIM ANYTIME HE'S AT THE APARTMENT #TITUS I RESPECT YOU AND YOUR DECISION FOR LEAVING BUT IT WAS TOO SOON 😭😭😭😭😭 #the brotherly bond we could have gotten between tim and jackson.... lost to me forever...... #brb i need to sit in the shower and cry over this #the rookie #jackson west #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well

[bruhstation]

of fucking course the best, most harrowing, most gut-wrenching tugs character only appeared in one episode (a bit of ramble in the tags)

#this is tugs #tugs boomer #tugs sunshine #boomshine #<---- evil sinister laughter #fortezza bigg city #senjart #I think he's neat. I also think a bottle of antidepressants could help with whatever hes going through #okay I'm gonna talk for a bit about boomer (mostly about his canon counterpart rather than solely his fbc version) #boomer's character struck a deep chord within me that when rewatching jinxed while sleep deprived I got so scared #his depression? thoughts of sinking himself? claiming that he didn't want any help yet attempted to push just a bit longer when supported? #putting his worth on how useful he is as a machine first? an individual with selfism second? thus deeming himself as a lost cause? #and despite his jaded sardonic demeanor he genuinely cares about others and puts their safety before his own? #like mannnnnn come ON no wonder I couldnt stop thinking about him #his struggles as a clinically depressed person is.... so real? #he says ''I don't want any help'' but he clearly does want AND need help. he goes along with TC and sunshine's hijinks of helping him #gradually went from ''whats the point I'm gonna jinx it anyways'' to ''Ive tried so hard I really have but I cannot. I never had a chance'' #he even went ''okay but don't toot'' to TC before his final job! he's entertaining TC and sunshine's theory! he really does want help! #boomer's whole character screams “I want to live but I don't know how” #and man oh man I feel like s01e10 reached out of the screen and drove a stake through my heart #because it's so visceral. it's rang true with my personal experiences #it's so sad. it's probably because I'm sleep deprived but I want to take care of that poor orange thing so badly #boomer most likely thought his final job to tow the schooner will end badly as usual but with how he sounds way more upset when he failed- #-and how he even went ''I can't be bothered to argue anymore''. I have a feeling there's a tiny speck of hope inside him- #-that quickly died out the moment lightning struck and he got towed by the fire chief #and of course he's upset. hes tried so many times to find a way to get rid of the jinx but now? it's as if he's given false hope- #-and the thought of the jinx leaving is something akin to a fairytale. as long as he bears the name ''boomer'' and not ''captain harry''- #-he is doomed to this constant cycle of messing things up when its not his own fault and having other point their fingers at him #that is until he got refurbished into a houseboat (essay material for another day) #theyre never going to write another anthro vehicle character like this anymore . sad

[aeb-art]

soooo… i did another comic with geo (who of course belongs to @8um8le)! it ending up stretching the page quite a bit, so the rest is under the cut o7

and geo proceeded to win every single round of pool that night, the end, thank you for reading this far 🙇

i'm still not super confident in writing for geo, but i had too much fun with this to care ehehe 🥰 this is the year of indulgence, everyone!

edit: i just realized that I PUT THE CICUITS ON THE WRONG ARM! it's supposed to be on my right not my left, oh i'm so mad 😭💔

#2024 #stellar city #sc geo #sc ash #self insert #self ship #this is skipping foward a while in time from the new years comic damn i'll get to the inbetween later maybe idk #timeline would be nye kiss > stalling > actual confession > dates that are either confined to the mall or over video call > this #i think if it's not related to an event the security guards dress in civilian clothes to cause less of a scene if possible #shoutout to the furnace robot i'm in love with her also i decided that under her faceplate is a flamethrower i think that'd be fun #also i know realistically geo has clothes that aren't suits BUT the idea popped in my head of the mall toons having to fight him on his out #agrees to not wear a nice suit jacket and leave his shirt untucked on the condition that he can keep his gloves #like that's a ridiculous scenario but i lost it laughing #would you believe me if i said that's what made me do all of this #also the 'i won't let them ruin this' is also like… oh sweetheart how do you know YOU won't be the one to ruin it? lmao that'd be fun #i totally gave up on that last panel ngl i couldn't think of what to put on the signs lmao #okay i've rambled more than enough! everyone have a beautiful day/night xoxoxo love you mwah

[trashvampiree]

Long awaited...maybe? The Lost Boys Memes Part 4!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!! !!

These are worse quality than before OOPS :( so sorry

(if you care enough to read the tags,,,im hiding stuff in there) (standing in front of you like a deer in headlights)

Let me know which one made you laugh more cause thats what a mf (me) is here for (stares at you with my huge eyes)

#tlb #the lost boys 1987 #the lost boys x reader #x reader #marko tlb #the lost boys #paul tlb #dwayne tlb #david tlb #michael tlb #ive literally never reblogged anything in my life before but i'm going to start doing so #I couldnt beforehand but now i can :3 yippeee #sex penis?!?!?!?!?!? #ALSO I WANT ALL OF YOU IN THE LOST BOYS FANDOM TO KNOW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME AAAAH #and if any of the boys see this no you did not #kisses you on your mouth #there are so many of you who write fanfiction and stories on here who are so fucking cool and awesome and loving and #sometimes i do tear up a bit seeing you guys interact cause AWWWWWW #hope that wasnt cringe #also im still debating on whether or not to change up my account idk yet

[gxlden-angels]

I love getting validated on small things that I didn't even consider like it's always a treat and this time it's Gender

The Fundie Baby Voice™️ has been popping up a lot in ex-christian spaces lately and I actually had one in middle school and part of high school! I learned when and where to use it and how to turn up my southern accent just enough. I can still do it but it sounds weird after 3 years on T. The main place I used it was at church cause it made me sound sweet and polite. I used it for old ladies when I worked at a grocery store too. My family didn't like it when we were just all together cause they said it sounded like baby talk, but loved it when I used it at church cause everyone would tell them how sweet and soft-spoken I was

My therapist said it actively made him feel uncomfortable when I used that voice. He couldn't quite put his finger on why it made him uncomfortable (other than him only knowing me on T) but he very much did not like it and he's so so right for that

#he's a cishet white jewish man so it's always a treat when I talk about something like this #cause it started off about how I felt like my gender is a performance and I will use it to my advantage #I usually talk fairly neutrally and monotone so people find it uncanny when I change it up #especially if it's the way I talk to my family and the church folks that ask about me #Now that I'm on T and had top surgery I love fucking with ppl via my gender presentation #I like the chaos of not correcting ppl and watching them fight amongst themselves over what my gender is #My previous gender was Weird Little Girl #and now i'm Just Some Guy #I don't feel like I was always a guy I feel like my gender at the time was Weird Little Girl #and it changed over time but I loved the performance of being a weird little girl #I was not a girl I was specifically a WLG #And well I still know how to use my old performances even if I'm no longer a weird little girl #I consider myself a guy but not a man and a girlie but not a woman #my gender is whatever is funniest at the moment #My gender is whatever you project onto me. My gender is a mirror to your childhood trauma #anyways I kinda lost the plot but yea I can kinda still use the fundie baby voice but it sounds a lil off #cause I've been on T for over 3 years now #ex christian #religious trauma

[tricoufamily]

ilya's parents + ilya at different life stages

#nooo haha don't idolize your dead abusive father and constantly rationalize the things he did to you #his mom left them in the middle of the night and he woke up on his 7th birthday and she was gone #he was never close to her and he was always lashing out. he gutted a squirrel and put it on her pillow and that was it #she decided then he was a lost cause going to grow up to be his father and she wasn't going to take him with her :( #he still doesn't know where she is or if she's even alive. he really really hates her #look i know i'm covering her face but you get it right. it can stay unsaid? we can just acknowledge whats going on and where it's going? ok #eeesh. but yeah his dad died when ilya was 21 (he's 24) he was still living at home and now it's his house. he got his motorcycle too #ts4 #ts4 cas #the sims 4 #ilya #two-headed lamb

[demonbloodenthusiast]

91w deancas is so delusional cause they been making heart eyes at each other since day fucking one, calling the other sweatheart, thinking of kissing the other innocently just for the sake of the other being kissed, because they deserve that softness in the midst of all the chaos around them and the minute they actually get to it (motherfucking 200 pages in mind you) they try so hard to revert it back into something purely phisical with no emotions involved AND THEY KNOW THAT IT'S MORE BUT IF THEY BOTTLE IT UP AND IGNORE IT THEN ALL THE REVERENCE OF MOST OF THEIR LOOKS AND TOUCHES WILL JUST DISAPPEAR which is the epitome of the dilusional repressed gay way of doing anything

#shut up i'm feeling things again #like mind you i'm talking about shit up til chapter8 #THIS HAS BEEN ROMANTIC THIS WHOLE GODDAMN TIME THEY'RE JUST SO SCARED TO FEEL ANYTHING #like cas the repressed gay boyTM losing all self control for the first time cause of dean #and dean “just had a queer awakening caused by my CO and i'm too new to having gay thoughts to be ashamed” winchester ??? #it's a mess yall and i'm torn between being mad as hell and supporting each sorta shitty decision either of them makes #i wanna say mostly cas #but like as estabilished before #religous trauma blah blah repressed gay shit blah blah #you know how it is #i think i lost the train of thought somewhere along the way #ANYWAYSSS #i'm gonna be talking about 91w again constantly cause i'm plauged by thoughts #91w #destiel

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

don't let your eyes wander

#my art #art #utmv #horror #horror sans #blood tw #eyes tw #tw scopophobia #istg my computer was NOT cooperating with me at a l l today Dx #so so slow it was AGONIZING trying to edit this and having all progress lost just cause i moved my mouse a little too fast like!!! #man man man and i'm not even sure if i like the result as much as the previous versions aughhg PAIN #anyways i can't believe how little i draw this man when he's like. my third favorite skeleton ever!!! #seriously both canon AND fanon horrors are my favs he's so!!! interesting >:0 #that and i can get pretty experimental with the 'creepy' aspect of his design which is always fun >;)c #i mean blood shouldn't be as relaxing to draw as it is but going wild with textures and blurs and splatters is just too good to resist 😔 #anyways lemme know if i should add any more trigger warnings? just in case? i can't think of any more eye related fears hhh #thanks for all the support guys!! have a great day<3333

[watcher-ofthe-sky]

I feel like I am about to make some very bad decisions regarding my masters final year project.

#we got the topics list from the faculty yesterday afternoon and apparently everyone already ran to grab the professors for their supervision #meanwhile I your resident sloth and lost cause don't know wtf is she even interested in #so I'm just mailing profs at 6 am and choosing topics like russian roulette #me: this one sounds relatively easy I'll take that #me: this one looks like a nightmare based on a very brief google search..... I'll take that #with my luck I'm 95% sure that I'll get responses like sorry we have already taken students :) #this week is gonna be hell :D #sky speaks #personal

[thenecropolix]

Y'all I'm surprised no one has considered this other than the occasional age swap au but

Imagine a far into the future au with an elderly Raz where he's at his Nona's age alongside his friends

He would be the most chaotic peepaw ever

#is this depressing to think about in the context of his older family members #absolutely #but please consider #he would be a riot as an old man #never lost that spark of his #and therefore comes off as young at heart #I just know he'd be a fan favorite amongst children and teenagers #also #him looking out for any kids that appear troubled cause they remind him of himself when he was that age #this may or may not have been inspired by a tintin fan account where op drew tintin as a cute little old man #im just saying peepaw raz would be wholesome but also god help whoever is tasked with monitoring him #cause I can only imagine age wouldn't stop raz from pulling the most insane shit ever #do you guys see where I'm going with this #razputin aquato #psychonauts #the necropolix speaks

[4ce-of-2pades-inkwell]

Fanart for @inkwellphasmophobia!!!

I got really inspired by the Phasmophibia AU. Specifically, oddly enough, by the whole mental asylum part in particular. It would be Mugs, wouldn't it? (Seems like no matter what AU, the one consistent thing about him is that he's gonna snap eventually in some way.)

So I did a few sketches, which somehow ended up turning into an entire comic. (I am not going to confess how late I stayed awake working on this.) I didn't feel like taking the time to make a polished version, but I wanted to share it nonetheless, so you're going to have to deal with my messy scribbles and placeholder characters. I don't know how much of this will turn out to be canon, but hopefully it's cool and tragic anyway. (...Does this need trigger warnings?)

(The sketches on the right of this first image aren't panels of the comic, by the way, they're separate drawings. You can tell 'cause they're not in boxes.)

And somehow these two get in an argument:

All this fanart and not a single mention of ghosts.

#inkwell phasmophobia #phasmophobia AU #cuphead #mugman #bendy #I also had the idea that Mugs has the ability to speak in some kind of eldritch demon-like language #not necessarily possession but more like he's been changed or tainted by an interaction with SOMETHING while ghost hunting with the gang #and this is the cause of both his insanity and his more frequent speaking in that other language #sometimes he can't control when or what he says in the eldritch language (so who knows what he could be summoning amiright?) #sometimes he just chooses to and seems to enjoy speaking it #('cause he's sorta lost it) #and meanwhile Cups is trying to gently direct him away from it like “hey let's maybe NOT talk in the demonic tongue right now?” #if Mugs got enough control over his mind he could be the group's connection to supernatural magic and demonic stuff #because he understands it and can interact with it in a way other people can't (he's not very angsty about it--mostly more fascinated) #(because he's a ghost nerd) #man I'm coming up with a lot of stuff for an AU that Is Not Mine #sorry about that