#i like my dm to be an all knowing god

[pate-de-rolo]

Things I like about brennan lee mulligan’s dming (so far)

1. Letting players pick what kind of skill check to roll (eg. arcana, history, intelligence)

2. Explains what a player is feeling, rather than getting the player to describe it

3. Getting the players to describe places/locations

4. Giving information up the ‘steps’ of skill checks, starting with the lowest number

5. His Galdric snarl

#brennan lee mulligan #2 is just personal preference #i like my dm to be an all knowing god #I don’t ever know what my player is thinking that’s not my job lmao #what my player knows is none of my business #i do miss Matt’s voice effects. but maybe there will be more later #the whole kite bit was lovely though #critical role #d&d #dnd #critical role calamity #exandria unlimited #exu calamity #critical role exu

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[blujayonthewing]

#I've played with irl atheists and catholics and everything in between #but it rarely feels like faith is a real factor for anyone-- DM or player #outside of‚ again‚ divine spellcasters and Big Epic Plot Things #I mean there are a couple of 'RAAAHGH FUCK THE GODS >:C' edgy backstory types but #no one is just Normally Culturally Religious and it's WEIRD #like it's not even a matter of faith in dnd! the gods are LITERALLY OBJECTIVELY PROVABLY REAL #so what does that MEAN for the average person! how does it shape language? business? culture? #where are the people wearing holy symbols like amulets-- or the way modern christians very casually wear crosses? #blessings over meals? prayers before bed? burnt offerings? #and like I enjoy thinking about world and culture building but I know that's A Whole Thing but even just like... #it doesn't feel like anyone believes in gods at all except clerics and paladins #like they DO because they factually exist but in the same way I 'believe in' like. the president of france. #like yeah he exists and is important to some people but has no bearing on my life whatsoever #that's such a fucking weird approach to the DIVINE in a polytheist world where those gods are YOUR CULTURE'S GODS?? #I am bad at this myself but I'm not religious so it's harder for me to remember what Being Religious All The Time Casually is like lol #funny enough my character with the most intentionally religious background in this sense #is one of my ones who's ended up wrapped up in Big Plot God Things lmao #'aubree starts the campaign with a holy symbol of yondalla because of course she does why wouldn't she' #'oh okay well she's gonna get deeply and personally entangled with a bunch of death gods immediately' fdkjghkdf oh!! welp #you don't really pray to urogalan unless you're breaking ground for a new building or someone just died so it's STILL weird for her lol #but at least I had the framework there of 'oh yeah the gods exist and matter to me and my everyday life and culture' in general #about me #posts from twitter

[can-of-slorgs]

caw 🦅

#neopets #neotag #neoart #eyrie #mutant #vin doods #I can't beat the allegations that i doodle dnd creatures on a daily with this one huh #god i love mutants eyries so much i'm sorry i gavehim more draconic features but uGH; #what great colours lmao #I also gave inverted knees to the hooves cause i aint doing whatever neos doing #can you tell i have a thing for dnd and dragons in general im so sorry JAKLSDF #also in topic i've been so wanting to make a neo player's manual for so stupidly long its insane #might actually do it at one point #i had species and proficiencies and everything at one point i think its all gone lol #also for a fact that i'd be a me-thing for the most part #like i'd be the only one wanting it or playing according to it #my other friends none like neopets so yeah #god do i want to dm a neopian adventure i have tons planned lmao #but oh well #i'm super greatful for all positive commenta ad every like and reblog you guys ave given meeeee #i sound like a broken record but i swear i try to not leave this blog for long but i always read your tags and crack up to them sajhas #i know i've left a couple of you on read that actually wanted to know about my characters BUT IM SO SORRYYYY #my master's taking so long and everytime there's something new and have to rewrite and replan everthing everyday i hate it here #but i will do it #i know i will #both the lore writting and my thesis HASJKHASJS #anyways if you're still reading dont be afraid to shoot up a couple of messages! It might make this blog less dead

[antimony-medusa]

Okay so inspired by nothing in particular (it's inspired by reading the notes on the ace swag final poll, fun stuff in there), I have been thinking about being Cringe. Cause like, you enter a fandom, and usually, you find out shortly that somebody else hates that fandom. There is no fandom niche enough that it's not Weird to somebody, and there's no fandom mainstream enough that it's not Annoying to somebody else. And given the fact that some people do hatred recreationally, there's often going to be somebody mad enough about your fandom that they're going to go on diatribes about how your fandom is bad and actually harmful and destroying the fabric of civilization, etc. They're gonna pull out anything negative and blow it up until it's the size of the skyline and attack you for liking this negative thing.

Fun times, we've all seen it.

And the thing is, there's an impulse to have this happen and immediately find somebody else to point to and say, yeah, well, I might be weird, but at least I'm not THAT guy. I might read YA, but at least I'm not a Furry— those guys are sexual deviants! I might be into actual play podcasts, but at least I'm not into mcyt— those guys are all harmful and my guy is fine. I might be into danmei, but at least I'm not into bandom— rpf is so gross. I might be a furry, but at least I'm not into mainstream romance novels— senseless drivel aimed at middle class white women. Y'know. Immediately find someone to punch down on.

And boy do I understand why you want to do that, when people are pointing at you, but I don't actually think that it's helpful.

Cause like, every fandom has a logical train of thought and reasonable human impulses behind it. You might not share those impulses— I'm not a furry I don't think, I don't really get true crime— but that doesn't mean I can't have it explained to me by a very patient person in in the writer's workshop common room and go "oh, yeah, kinda pretending to be an animal, but you're gay about it, yeah, makes sense", or "oh yeah, morbid curiosity from the safety of your headphones, it's like a horror movie but real" and nod. Like there isn't a fandom or group out there that doesn't look weird from the outside, and there isn't a fandom or group that can't be explained if someone has thought about the human psyche enough.

And that isn't to say that there isn't sometimes salient critiques for what fandoms are doing or not doing— to grab the two examples above, I have heard people talking about issues with true crime reinforcing the current fucked up justice system, or bigotry at furry cons. But a) most of the time, there is already somebody inside that community that's fighting against those issues, and you just threw them under the bus with the problem they're trying to fix b) you don't usually know the nuances of the actual conversation and problems, you saw a couple callout posts. You saying "Yeah I'm a board game nerd but at least I don't play competitive trading card cames, those guys are doing nothing but feeding the capitalist machine" is not usually helpful towards fixing the ctg scene. It's just a cheap way to score points.

Like, I assure you that the YA scene is aware of the calcification of the genre into a tighter and tighter romantic form and their dependence on going big on tik-tok to sell enough to keep publishing. They know.

You specifically saying that your fandom is better cause it's not [problems you heard about other fandom having] is not actually going to make the person who's hating on you stop hating. They already decided that you're the person they're better than and that they're punching down on, you passing the punching down on to another fandom just makes more people sad on the internet, and potentially starts yet another chain of someone punching down at someone else. The wheel grinds on, everybody gets punched.

I guess this is just kinda turning into a "why hate on the internet, what good does that do" post, which is broader than I meant it to be. But like, there's a difference between thoughtful critique of problems (complicated to do fairly but very necessary) and finding someone new to curbstomp to make yourself feel better/morally superior (look, I'm writing this on a mcyt blog, we've all seen this happen, it does not increase the joy in the world).

Like in MCYT, we all decide to punch down on [other server we hate], or RPF, or people who write kidfic, or people who write e-rated fic/art, or people doing the popular trope of the moment, and sure, it lets you feel morally superior for the moment, at the cost of slapping the guy next to you. Haven't we had enough slapping the guy next to you? There but for the grace of god (got a fun idea/watched the wrong stream/ended up in the wrong brainstorming circle/got fixated on the wrong funny guy) goes I. You're not better than another group just because you saw a couple more callout posts (usually from people inside the community trying to fix things) about them.

We are all Cringe. There is nobody who's not Cringe. Don't say that you're not Cringe because someone else is more Cringe. Stop that.

#discourse #This is another thing where the public/private rule applies too I think #cause social media is public and what you do there is governed by different politeness rules #walking into your friend's dms and saying GOD I AM SO ANNOYED BY [other fandom] is a normal human impulse #posting that where other people can see that is potentially much more like shouting in the face of a random person #idk this is potentially something where me having a thousand followers is warping the perspective #cause I try to be really aware of the fact that who knows what people who see my posts are into #there's nobody I can throw under the bus and not have them see it #if you have eight followers all of which you know #you're much more effectively in a private space #idk #boy reading the tags on that ace swag poll was kinda a Oh Yeah They Really Hate Us moment #I forgot that cause I was just happy over here #but boy are we still an internet's favoured punching bag #and I just think making an effort to not continue to punching bag people might be good #fandom meta

[blitheringbongus]

Can we all agree that the new discord update is trash?

#pls it’s so impractical #like I wanna talk about my silly gay men with my husband without having to press more than one button to switch between rp servers #before you jus had to press one button jus thoughtlessly #and I know it’s not hard pressing more than one button but it’s annoying when all your concentration is on a conversation #it’s just #I don’t like it #also everything’s more blocky now #and looking at pinned messages in dms is hell #the blockyness makes it feel more cooperate and not like a chill zone #I don’t LIKE #HH #discord #discord problems #help #pls someone change this #please please please gods please #bingle bongle #txt #genuinely upset about this #it makes texting feel gross #WHY IS IT SO BLOCKY

[ryssbelle]

Doctor Who specials without context

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #the fourteenth doctor #donna noble #russell t davies #I’m not angry or ecstatic with how everything happened #BUT #im not upset #I’ve already rationalized it all in my head because to me it made sense! #im up for discussion about it in dms btw if anyone wants to explode about this with me lmao #all I know is what was in the episodes btw #I’m hearing stuff about things said in interviews #but if it’s not on screen I don’t acknowledge it mostly #I don’t take word of god (which is what it means for a writer to speak outside of the media) as canon stuff #like I don’t take it as word of god I guess lmao #it has to be in the episode or it doesn’t count

[lorephobic]

hiii grayyy what is saltburn. youre always talking about goddamn saltburn. Should i watch it

BÁN!!!!!! oh my god where do i even start. saltburn is a movie about how being gay in 2007 makes u insane. actually tho its uh. hm. no i think i got it. imagine being in college in 2007 and u meet the most effortlessly beautiful man in the world and he wants to take u home to his big fuck off castle for the summer and u want him so badly but u cant touch him and also mr brightside is playing on the radio. like wouldn’t it drive u a little bit insane.

anyway all of this to say that yes u should absolutely watch saltburn. it actually just came out on prime last night!! if u do watch it i hope u let urself get wrapped up in it and have as much fun w it as i have the last four times ive seen it LOL

#saltburn posting #asks #okay fair warning it definitely has a pretty extensive tw list so if u want me to go into details about that just dm me !!! #also actually so sorry to all of my mcyt friends who have had to see me nonstop saltburn posting for the last month LOL #i just rly dont know if any media will ever appeal to me more #toxic yaoi cycle of violence movie set in 2007 sounds honest to god like it was plucked straight from my brain #emerald fennell just gets me

[skeletalheartattack]

remembering a dream i had, where i was visiting a family member who was showing us around the new house they moved into, and at some point i was desperately trying to find a bathroom, but not to do my business or whatever - i was specifically looking for a bathroom that had a mirror.

so i'm going around this persons house, going from bathroom to bathroom, trying to find a mirror because i guess i wanted to make sure my hair looked good, and for some reason, not a single bathroom had a mirror. eventually in my search, i run into the woman who can only be described as either my aunt or a representation of my mother, and i'm like "hey listen, do you have a mirror anywhere?" and she looks at me and laughs, and she says "oh honey we don't have any mirrors, we use god's most important invention" and then proceeds to hand me her phone.

#dream posting #i was looking through some DMs to find some specific dreams i wrote down and this one popped back up in my memory #i know it's weird to refer to them as like. a representation of my mother/aunt. but like it wasn't really anyone i recognized #but they were like. part of my family. so it's hard to really say who its supposed to be #cause like in one moment they look like my mother. in another they were just kind of some woman #as for the house itself. it was nice. couldnt really explain it in such detail but it was spacious. had a fireplace or something. #like i could kinda map it out in my brain but like. its a dream house. its not gonna make perfect sense or line up at all #but yeah i re-read the dream and it made me laugh really hard remembering the punchline to the whole dream #gods most important invention. thats how she said it. or maybe gods most useful invention. one of those two #like yeah god made it in his image. or whatever. who cares.

[kulliare]

yippeeee the dices

#this dice collection is so pretty but i’m giving most of it to my friends… #ive been playing dnd or pathfinder with this group for literal years and i’ve like spent so much time with them LOL #and i’m finally seeing some of them this summer #so this is the gift. i still have to get a set for the dm but like i think i’ve already spent ~200 on the dice here so im like oh my god #but im like fuck it lmao they have given me so much happiness lol 😭 #also since im already typing i was listening to one of the celebs from my hometown and sometimes it hits me how strange it is #tht i am vaguely interested in this man even though i literally like saw him for 5 seconds #he is like so incredibly famous #i know like 90% of people experience this but it does annoy me so much that i treat famous ppl diff in my brain differently even tho ik #they just want to be treated like normal people lmao 😭 #i think its bc my brain goes ‘oh theyre so loved i wish that were me!’ even tho theyre not really experiencing love #w the masses of ppl online #i have a headache from all the plum wine i drank but plum wine is soooo tasty guys #idk what they put in it #probably plum but wow it is so good. lol 😭 #i think i will let this headache go away for a little and then go to bed. gn everyone 🐈🐈

[sunnykeysmash]

thinking about this discussion I had before FVR even came out, thinking about blends, thinking about "give me dong or give me death", about how it's both. thinking about both mac and dennis getting exactly what they want (mac's fantasy in saves the day, for mac to go away from dennis) but with a TWIST (for mac to realize there's nothing on the other side, for dennis to realize he needs mac). thinking about the pulse checking, thinking about the flatline.

thinking about my meta that I wrote before s15 even came out, about how we've been witnessing an impossible choice that's splitting dennis in two, thinking about "<3 or die" being the name of the salon in chop (and off with the head / just start over meta...), thinking about new beginnings, and meet cutes. thinking about rebirth, and baptisms.

#iasip #s16 spoilers #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #analysis #meta #do you all see where I'm heading? #thinking about dennis crying because mac FUCKING DIED. only for mac to come back and see him like that and. offering him a tissue! #the jesus christ parallel would be insane. literally dying for their sins? and resurrecting? bro im just SAYING. this is all SPECULATION #but to me it fits so well lol. #plus mac stopping believing in god because he died and there was nothing? bro thats like. very ripe ground. but also #picture this. DENNIS now believing. because he just witnessed a fucking miracle. maybe he even prayed. who knows #it would balance them..... it would certainly do something... #''we're merging the ideas'' oh you mean love and death? that what we are merging? beautiful. called that in s14 #sorry angrymac for leaking our dms 😭 in my defense this is just stuff *i* said so ur good dw

[sexynetra]

What if instead of finishing all my WIPS that I’m hoping to have out by the end of the year I started writing another Drabble about the fallout of a collapsing relationship and infidelity. Hm. What if 🤔 💭 ✍️

#thinking about my anarcia break up oneshot again #I saw a poll about cheating fics and went god. what if I did that again #pure angst no comfort #a couple that’s still together but they haven’t been a capital c couple for a long time #we’re dating but we don’t even recognize each other anymore #we’re both doing things we know hurt each other and we both know we should have ended this a long time ago and yet #also I was listening to that one TikTok ballerinas song and it’s so good she’s so good I love her and her music #anyways that song had the vibes im going for with this idea #anyways I miss writing angst #idk if y’all liked the breakup Drabble but I liked it and that’s what matters #I know Danielle was so mad at me for making Marcia a Cheater bur hey it was necessary for the story #anyways it’s 2:30 am and I need to go to sleep or finish writing my exchange fic and absolutely not start something new #anyways #would y’all be interested sound off in the replies or reblogs or tags or my dms whatever #Rachel rambles #writing #okay love you all mwah #also I posted this to my main by accident #and I had to painstakingly retype all these tags so if you don’t take the time to read them I’m jumping off my roof

[tasmanianstripes]

People need to practice minding their own damn business

Don't come into people's inboxes giving unsolicited advice or criticizing their personal stuff. Don't reblog somebody's posts saying how much you hate it and their opinions.

Don't like somebody's characterisation, AUs or the kind of art they post? It might even annoy you?

Okay, cool. Go make your own post. Block them. Be a little hater about it to your friends. It's good for your soul!

But don't be goddamn rude to people. Don't make it their problem.

"I don't like what this artist likes mah mah mah"

Here's a wild idea;

Artists...don't need to cater to you. You are not entitles to their work. Nobody on the internet should coddle you and post only stuff you like.

Shocker, I know.

#thylacines can talk #Yes this is about PK #When you like an antagonist people expect you to be a negative nancy 24/7 and put a disclaimer everytime you make something with them about #how much they suck as a person #Guess what! Having to shittalk your fave all the time to not risk being 'that kind of fan'...isnt fun. It's miserable even! #Anmoying as fuck too! Yes I know he did this unforgivable thing. I'm not an idiot. That's why I like PK. Fucker's got nuance #Is he a bad person? Absolutely. Will I talk about him being a bad person and the horrible things he did? Also yes. When I want to. It's #very fun to explore that part of the story and how it influenced their victims. Will I give you a fucking essay on why he's a bad person #everytime I want to post something funny or lighthearted about him? No. Piss off. #I cannot only focus on angst and heart-wrenching part of the story. I also like to make stuff of the lighthearted parts of my AUs. #And I don't feel like writing down an entire disclaimer and breakdown of how PK's and WL's redemption arcs went to justify it #Having to constantly put disclaimers to justify you liking a morally grey and bad characters is EXHAUSTING. Only being able to talk about #this character with someone when it proteins to how awful they are is EXHAUSTING. #YES they're bad people. But going into peoples dms or inbox or tags and talking to them about how ugly and bad and evil their fave is #exhausting to deal with and NOT fun. Like I. KNOW. LIKE LET ME LIKE A DEEPLY FLAWED NUANCED FUCKED UP CHARACTER IN PEACE WITHOUT HAVING TO #ALWAYS PUT A DISCLAIMER OUT THERE ABOUT HOW AWFUL THEY ARE. GOOD GOD. #It's especially annoying because I like characterisation of PK that is very morally grey. To me purely evil and not compassionate PK is #fun...in a short run. I much prefer a man whos riddled with guilt over what he did even if he believed it to be necessary evil and who dies #Because of his regret. I love the idea of a father who sacrificed his own children so that no parent had to lose their own. And the tragedy #of him deeply loving PV and still doing what he did. A good person who was faced with an impossible choice and committed unspeakable #cruelty for what he believed to be the greater good. A man who doesnt believe he's deserving of redemption not forgiveness and who doomed #himself. I like a nuanced morally grey PK with LAYERS. Treating him as a purely evil uncaring person who never loved his children sucks ALL #the fun out of him for me. And don't get me wrong I LOVE villains who are evil for evil's sake. I LOVE old school Disney villains who are #scumbags just because they can be and have a little bit a swag to it. But PK just. Isn't that kind of villain to me. #I don't even like calling him a villain. An antagonist? Maybe. A morally grey character that kicked off the entire story with his one act #of unspeakable cruelty? Yup. But I don't see him as the villain of HK. #Wow that was a long rant #Well I got that out of my system at least #I love the Pale King and I could talk for HOURS about why I love him as a character and about his actions. It's just tiring when I have to #do it to justify myself and my lighthearted content of him.

[blueiight]

Coming slowly to know his evil, or being catapulted into it ... was all the same. I wanted none of it finally. And, deserving nothing better, I closed up like a spider in the flame of a match. And even Armand who was my constant companion, and my only companion, existed at a great distance from me, beyond that veil which separated me from all living things, a veil which was a form of shroud. (IWTV, 1976)

#yn. #iwtv #tvc #armand #louis de pointe du lac #how u gone tell this story w him in the same room👀🫣 #AxL being together in the amc show verse has so many implications #what stage r we in the AxL relationship? i find it so fascinating. #all the hooplah on DM cuz white fans need a white face to insert in& im like did lou already bury armand in the st louis cemetery?… #no shade but im js if they kept a or l as white we would have more convos/speculative fiction on the nature of their dynamic #i fucking love it. lou terrified deathly of the fact that there is no maker sister wife dynamic w armand #meeting an entire vampire cult. knowing hes in charge of them. & he let u kill them all. whos to say ur not next? #a spider in the flame of the match… bait for a shark. the way lou frames himself here is fascinating #armand’s later descriptions fawning over how pitiful and morose and easy to abandon louis was #getting broke up w in audubon park cuz armand wanted to see if les would snitch on himself & spur lou into some emotion… #louis making up the part about lestat and the baby. my god💔💔💔💔 #ig this is an answer to one of my old anons who wondered if book lou harbored suspicions on a & his role in clauds death.. yea #i love how amc made all the retcons part of the question of memory itself & what is narrative #the hegemony & hierarchy of relatability - the white man as the conduit for a tale told thru a black man’s complex lense #s

[tellthemhowihopetheyshouted]

more in depth explanation ig, i dont feel like i can listen to especially poets without thinking about the whole paternity test analysis thing.

when i first listened i felt really awful and embarrassed and i couldn't quite articulate why

while im still trying to figure it out, a huge part of my feelings was (and still is) that the part of me that wants to theorize about songs and who they're about, and connect it to taylor's life and imagine what she wrote about is at odds with what i hear in the lyrics about creeps who want the best for me and etc

there are some songs im better at just vibing with and some songs that i just actively have to force myself not to be like "oh thats about x person and so they did this and she did this and..."

I'm trying, and if anyone has suggestions or things that work for them please send them to me, im new to this and to online fandoms in general. i feel so shitty but then there's part of me that still doesn't see harm in thinking "x song is about taylor and x person, so using what you know about them both lets picture this in your mind" and "oh [symbol 1] that must mean it's about [person 1], but wait now there's also [symbol 2] so it's about [person 1 and person 2] but wait does that mean person 2 could also be related to symbol 1?" all the while all of these people are real actual people.

#another thing is i caught myself thinking ''god i love you taylor'' and then ''she'll never meet you don't adress her in the second person #she doesn't know you pretend like shes a character from a book so you don't makeup a parasocial relationship'' #and i cant get it through my head that she's both a real person deserving of empathy and like an author or a person i really only know #through their work #because im stupid ig #so anyway im trying yo sort all this shit out and being online about taylor swift is really not helping lol #so i blocked every tag i could think of on most of my social medias #i might pop in on here from time to time but not for rebloging things because that feels like a minefield honestly #if anyone has suggestions probably ask box or dms is the best place to put them because i blocked the tags lol #i would really appreciate someone else's input on this and im totally willing to talk more about what my mindset is rn lol #thank you for reading through all this and have a good day #im gonna tag this with (some of) my blocked tags now so other people can see #poets #the tortured poets department #taylor swift #swifie #in shipping recovery #ttpd #tsttpd #taylor nation #taylornation #tortured poetry #tsttpdta #the anthology #the tortured poets department: the anthology

[im-still-a-robot]

Got so excited about a concept for my dnd character that it made me nauseous

#wacky watermelons #dnd #i thought to myself. woah what if eddie got possessed. thatd create such intresting dynamics #and then the force of a really interesting idea and the part of my brain that shuts down anything too out of possibility collided #and i got both light headed and nauseous like god was personally smiting me #which would honestly be deserved #but anyway. imagine #eddie. ball of nerves and self hate extraordinaire vs being forced to hurt the people he cares about #how do you deal with that? #how do you deal with that when all you can think is how selfish you sound when you bring it up? #how do you deal with that when the people you would seek comfort from now have reservations? #even if they know. it was still your face and your voice #anyway. this is probably not happening in campaign. but man do i love a good possession #ah fuck they did briefly possess ryke right? it was during a boss and for. a turn. #whatever. im going to try to mentally beam this to my dm like im reinventing magic #you guys will hear about it if it happens #hmu if you want to hear about the things actually happening to these fools. theres so much and i get so worked up