#i pray i find it again

[auadhdwildcards]

The day when the dopamine food stops dopamining is a very sad day.

#this just happened to me #i won't be able to eat this food for a long time #hopefully only for a year #then i forget it existed #i pray i find it again #and love it #cherish it #to then loose it again #this is like a goddam soap opera #the dopamine tragedy #adhd problems

[civetcider]

there is no where in my room with good lighting where you can't see it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#butch #lesbian #GRR GRR #that's a real pic of my hammocks #gotta at least move the fnaf plushies and the dollar store minion #i won the domo plush from a claw machine #once again praying a women finds this charming one day i am on my knees please #civetmemes #btw that strawberry plush is like lost media or something and i cant find the brand ANYWHERE online i even asked reddit #if you know what that lil anthro strawberry plush is please tell me i have had this bitch since i was a baby i just want to know

[blackkatdraws2]

I have a lot of leftover drawings in my gallery. [Blank Scripts AU]

[Content Warning: Images below contain Gore, Death, and Disturbing/Uncomfortable Imagery]

I find it a bit cute knowing they start out as crazy and then slowly settle into something calmer and relatively healthier after learning to adapt to each other's lust-turned-love. [Stanley did it first but hey :3]

#tsp blank scripts au #they love each other [genuinely] theyd rather die if theyre to go without each other by this point #hhmmm I hope the last few images arent too damning #These two go through a lot during the progression of their relationship #and I wanted to showcase that yknow? #theyre demented but theyre just perfect for each other kind of way #lovingly tearing each other apart and rebuilding each other to do it over and over again #repeating this dull process of endings over and over and finding ways to keep themselves entertained #this place was never even meant to be fun #but now that theyve gotten entangled with each other #they cant help but want to play around #even if its just for a little bit? #work can continue later right? #they love each other a little bit too much they actually need to be put in a separate cage #like a spider and a praying mantis #is it painful? yes. is it fun? also yes. do they like doing it only to each other and nobody else? YES. #their psych is genuinely so fun to explore and dissect #I had a lot of fun making these despite how deranged they look #something about them.... it drives both to do things they would never even consider doing to anybody else... but towards each other #you know what i mean? or am i just yapping nonsense again. #horror #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp #tspud #tsp au #tsp narrator #narrator tsp #stanley tsp #tsp stanley

[iarrelm]

An early morning conversation about tea got a little out of hand

#hazbin hotel #sir pentious #angel dust #charlie morningstar #vaggie hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #alastor hazbin hotel #my art #alastors face in the second to last drawing is my masterpiece i'll never draw something as funny ever again #i really needed a whole season of dumb shenanigans tbh #praying for a longer season 2 that includes the cast being stupid and best friends #i got this audio from youtube shorts but i looked up the source and apparently its from a tiktok by yokaidogma?? i think #the content is originally from a tumblr post that you can find if you search up 'tea tastes different if you put it in hot water' #this was my first time doing an animatic style thing it was fun #i havent done anything like this since i took computer graphics in high school like 3-4 years ago lmao #ok now that i've done a silly animatic it's time to try a serious one

[jfkisonthemoon]

IT'S FUCKIN SYCAMORE SUNDAY TIIIIIIIIME

HELL YEAH IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#yet another week of me making a meme last minute lets all pour one out for me folks #its okay its for good reasons for once lol ive been reading and hanging out with people almost constantly for the last couple of days #yet again hoping and praying i find time this week to replenish my stockpile. who knows if itll actually happen. #sycamore sunday #professor layton #professor layton spoilers

[hussyknee]

Bisan's video yesterday broke my heart entirely. Over the last two months this girl has become friend and family and the one of Gaza's brightest stars for people all over the world who follow her social media. She's the kind of person most of us only see as protagonists in books and shows; her force of will, determination, her insistence in finding the smallest hope (usually children and cats) and happiness among the ruins and terror have made millions fall in love with her. People like her and Hind Khaudary and Motaz makes you feel like things can still be okay as long as they're alive and fighting.

Yesterday, the bombs and massacres resumed. And reminded us once more than this is not a hero or a protagonist or beacon but a cold, scared, heart-broken girl who wants her life back desperately, even though everything she knows and loves is destroyed. I have never seen her so broken.

Please don't stop talking about Palestine. Don't give up on them, on her, on Motaz and Hind and Saleh. They're real people like you and me, going through an unimaginable horror, and we are the only hope and witness they have. We are all just drops in a vast ocean doing our best to change the current, but every drop is vital, and our only job is not to evaporate. If our friends in Gaza must survive, we can give them a reason to do so.

Bisan's Twitter

Bisan's Instagram

Bisan's TikTok

#my poor sweet girl. what i wouldn't give to be able to open my home to you #to send you help and supplies #to make this stop #i also cried when she said her cat had disappeared among the bombing #hope and pray she's alive and they'll find each other again #someone please transcribe the video for me #bisan owda #wizard bisan1 #gaza genocide #save gaza #ceasefire now #free palestine #war crimes #knee of huss #pray for palestine

[mcybree]

etho and bdubs if they were biomechanical robots tasked with solving the endless cycle of death and rebirth for eternity. yeah sorry man

these guys are under the cut bc they wouldnt thrive as iterators like etho and bdubs would. third life rain world au is real and it is coming for me in real life. we are PUTTING these bugs in the FUCKING MAZE!!!!!

#rain world #this is the most self indulgent thing ever I feel sick #but i also drank the stupid fucking sweet tea again so that might have somethi ng more to do with it #I never learn #grian #gtws #ethoslab #bdoubleo100 #bigbst4tz #IM SORRY FOR MAINTAGGING this is the only way to find people who might share this interest niche overlap. begging and praying rn #mine #brawings

[monarchisms]

【🐓🦷】

#ray narvaez jr #rooster teeth #roosterteeth #i wake up #i check ray's yt channel #i see that the mario kart vod was uploaded ~30 minutes ago #i spend like an hour scrubbing through the video to find where this bit started bc his vods are edited down #i redownload photoshop because i deleted it sometime in october #i'm in agony relearning how to make gifs #i eventually finish the gifs #(after 6 hours) #i upload them here and pray that they load #and then i dip again #e's gifs #anyways this was pretty funny

[coachbeards]

I AM NOT SAYING JANE WAS AT ALL RIGHT but if i saw my boyfriend hanging out w his boy best friend looking like a housewife…I’d have some concerns lmao

#When you explicitly tell your boyfriend you don’t trust him and his bff and then he does this #like it is so funny to me how much beard does Not seem to care abt repercussions #Ted lasso #coach beard #beard after being broken up w again bc he keeps going over to Ted’s flat even tho jane keeps telling him not to #she finds out he as a spare set of keys and beard is thrown out of her house #Also I’m joking i hate jane and i prayed for her downfall #Step dad and housewife material???

[dragonairice]

They should make dating apps for aroace people where we can find others to platonically be with either for QPPs or because we're being pressured to be married or want a relationship without romance / sex with someone who wants the same thing

#aroace #aromantic #asexual #anyway my future is threatening again because my parents want me to get married before I'm allowed to move out and #I need to find someone who's aroace and is willing to get platnoically married to me who is also conveniently muslim and uses he/him #and is around my age so we can get to know each other beforehand to see if the marriage is gonna work out so that in three years when #I'm out of uni I can introduce him to my parents and pray they say okay for the marriage #HA HA ANYWAY SORRY FOR THAT VENT GOODBYE #DragonairIce Rambles

[v-tired-queer]

THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'M GIVING UP ICE CREAM FOR LENT. THE LAST TIME.

#I WILL FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO GIVE UP NEXT YEAR #BUT THIS? NEVER AGAIN #i gave up my favorite food knowing it would be a big struggle and i'm proud of pushing through and not giving in but also: #i just want the fucking hot fudge and caramel sundae with whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles 🥺😭 #if my family thinks i'm waiting until Easter evening to have some they are W R O N G #it'll be 12:01 AM Easter morning and i will be praying prayers of thanks as i indulge #christian #lgbtqia+ christian #queer christian #side a christian #lent #lent 2024 #easter #easter 2024 #easter sunday #ice cream #cravings #tw caps lock #tw capital letters #tw christianity

[whentherewerebicycles]

wow ok lots of things got done today!! virtually all of them by my mom who is a champion and is doing all the baby prep things i can't do because my hands are horribly broken. she put together the crib and the dresser, bought under-the-bed organizers, helped me sort and put away the huge bags of baby clothes people have given me, and is now PAINTING the nursery (and yes it's yet another shade of green i will not be accepting questions or criticisms at this time thank u). anyway this place is so ready for a baby! cannot believe i have five or more weeks left to wait!!!!!! i was also decently productive and got a bunch of work tasks done, then switched gears and wrote a million thank you notes... 26 down, 5 to go!!!

#tomorrow i am working from home again i think #and only have one meeting... with [r] at the end of the day #i am getting a deep tissue massage in the morning where they are going to really work on my arms/wrists/hands... pray 4 me #last night was not the worst night i've had painwise just medium terrible but today was really rough during the day for some reason #but i honestly think that giving up hope of improvement has allowed me to cope better #now it's not about fixing it it's just about finding ways to endure it for five to uhh eighteen more weeks #my mom leaves tomorrow and i don't want her to go :((((

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany. #and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated

[teaandinanity]

Man, the thing about very twisty mountain roads is that sometimes you come around a bend and there's just an Unexpected Object In Your Fuckin' Lane, right there.

This happened to me THREE TIMES coming back from the grocery store.

The bicyclist was insane, speed limit is 55, there's fuckall visibility and apocalyptic grades that HAVE to make your whole entire leg want to fall off, lanes are narrow, there's no shoulder and nowhere to go if a car does decide 'fuck sharing the road'. The guy coming the other way who slowed down so I had to almost come to a stop to wait for him to pass before I could slide halfway into the other lane to go around said cyclist with actual clearance rather than running them over had me like 'sir why have you chosen to make my life harder and worse. FOOT OFF THE BRAKE. MOVE.' Cyclist was on my side of the road going my direction so I'm not sure what his damage was or if he was just choosing violence.

The turkey was cute but also I hope it moved because immediately after I saw it I saw a truck coming the other direction around yet another blind curve.

And then I came around a bend to the mail jeep half in the other lane and a goddamn hauler truck full of logs fully in MY lane coming towards me and I went,

'This is the universe telling me I should drive less and appreciate being alive more, huh.'

#I've only left to get groceries universe I gotta eat let me LIVE #I am never going to do the really twisty bits around my house at 55 even if that is the speed limit #the people who do that drive in the middle of the road #I have had near miss incidents more than once because they do not get OUT of the middle of the road very fast #so yeah I'm gonna keep taking those parts at under 45 thanks #the straightaways and less twisty parts yeah sure 55 is fine #but I really ideally want to be at a 'slam on your bakes and pray' speed when I may come around a corner and find a Thing #instead of a 'life was nice while it lasted' speed #because again there is NOWHERE TO GO #for fully half of this drive it's like. you leave the road and the ground is suddenly 30 feet down #or else you smash into a cliff

[cementcornfield]

From "maybe when I'm in the car my mama might put it on" to "my go-to karaoke song"

aka Ja'Marr is a huge Erykah Badu fan

#like yeah jaylen might be raving about her more but ja'marr brings her up in the first place!! #sorry for making content only i would care about- it will happen again #this would be better if i could find the clips of him singing her songs on stream!!! but i couldn't :( #praying he does it again at some point so i can get it #ja'marr chase

[savage-rhi]

.Magenta.

#in a nut shell... #my whole team betrayed me minus 2 #i was told and swore up and down that my absences related to disability were not an issue #come to find out that wasn't the case #there was resentment and everyone did a damn good job putting on an act and masking #i cannot begin to describe the kind of betrayal i am feeling #i believe in being transparent especially if you're part of a team of people who help others with mental health issues #i expressed many times that if my conditon caused inconvenience or problems then approach me and we can navigate around it together #i worked with these people for over 10 months and no one said a damn thing #i had no indication or inkling there was anything amiss even when i inquired before. #even my supervisor who was supportive and freely gave me and approved of time off lied to my face #and as a i handed in my belongings today everyone was ordered not to engage with me because on monday i utilized the chill space #aka the rage room after hours when the kids were gone because after getting interrogated by HR trauma from former work places came up #and with long covid stuff im still figuring out i needed a spot to vent #im not the only employee btw that used that room for personal raging everyone at some point has used it to either be contemplative #scream or toss punch and throw things so long as the kids are not on grounds we can do that #yet when i finally hit that point and want to decompress safely suddenly i am the dangerous monster #these people are supposed to be trauma informed #well trauma informed my ass #on a positive blessing i never have to work with these assholes ever again and i pray we never meet in public #its going to take a long time and a lot of healing before i think i will be able to trust people fully again #savage magenta #magenta is my vent word