#i was fuckin depressed

[adhdandcomics]

shout out to my folks with insomnia & depression & delayed sleep phase disorder & sleep apnea & disabilities & other sleep disorders diagnosed, undiagnosed, and just my plain old night owls & night shift workers!! we r so fucking cool & exist every day in a society not made for us at all. and NONE of us are lazy bums or bad people for staying up late & sleeping in till noon or two or whatever whenever you get up!! no matter what anyone says!! you’re incredible and i love you!!!

#being the positivity i need in the world #would i like to get up earlier and love my life? yes. but i can’t fuckin do that can i #i recognize the irony of posting this at 11:30 however i’m at work and fuckin tired #text #positivity #insomnia #depression #delayed sleep phase disorder #sleep apnea #also shout out to nightmare nation i hope we get good rest soon!!!!!

[padawansuggest]

Every day I wake up thankful that the fandom as whole looked at the ‘Masters and Apprentices don’t even live together in apartments at the temple’ canon and collectively went ‘oh that’s smelly’ and ignored it. I have seen a lot of shitty fics out there, and normally I can ignore things, click exit and move on with my life, but you know what I cannot ignore and don’t think I’ve ever actually found a fic where it happens???? Padawans living on their own. Those are babies. Let them sit in the kitchen and learn how to cook bad food with master and get back rubs when they have the stomach flu. Fuck off with that ‘they all live alone’ bullshit It’s Not Real.

#living alone is literally so depressing and isolating #I actively don’t think anyone should ever live alone #I in fact highly encourage communes irl and in fics #fuckin miss me with that bullshit they having sleepovers deal with it #star wars #the Jedi #obi wan kenobi #clone wars #anakin skywalker #ahsoka tano

[drawbauchery]

#charismatic-cannibal #art #danganronpa #bus au #kaito momota #ryoma hoshi #sometimes i can't believe i'm shipping him with the guy he fuckin punched just for crying #but look he's graduated to punching depression itself in the face #i've...upgraded him

[yashley]

#ygifs #ashley #laura #they cure my depression I don’t know what to fuckin say....... #ashley just saying her name and laura immediately appearing like hi this is mine!!!!!!

[bottlehawk]

imagine being as goth as rose lalonde and finding out that you had to wear orange for the rest of your life. and not just orange but orange and yellow and bright fucking. blue ballerina shoes. and that's what everyone in your new universe remembered you in. and commemorated your image as. forever. would lowkey kill myself

#rose lalonde #this is why she was depressed in the epilogues. #homestuck #bottlehawk text #suicidal mention #she got the short end of the stick when it came to colors jade's vibing being her furry self john is sporting that blue dave literally types #in red. but no. i have to be the. brightest thingd in the room. #same with dirk i mean he went with the eye bleeding magenta but R I fuckin P.

[dahliadrawthings]

i'm not sure i'm back but i try very hard to get over my artblock

say hi to minjo.

#wip #i did not forget the winner of the poll; my love minjo #but my new job is honestly killing me and all i want to do is sleep #my anxiety is over the moon and my depression is probably as worse as it was when was a teenager and this artblock isn't helping either #so yay for living! i fuckin hate it

[degenerateshinji]

waittttt babe come back let me explain this lore to u listen up

#saikechi #akesai #touma akechi #kusuo saiki #saiki x akechi #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k #sknpn #saiki kusuo no ψ nan #saiki k #saiki k fanart #fanart #my art #kusuke saiki #nobody ask why akechi's talking about stormbringer #hes big into bsd actually so🙄 #I LOVE drawing saiki with the most tired most depressed most done with everything most 'what a pain' expressions on his face #grr my shading style is fuckin going through it rn my bad #i need to like. write a fanfic about this scenario

[montymollusk]

“kids are so stupid these days, the ipad babies are ruining the world, ten year olds skip school and goes to sephora—“ do you have any idea what it’s been like to go to american public school within the last 15 years? can you blame a child for not wanting to spend 8 hours a day in a place where their safety and autonomy aren’t just not considered, but are blatantly denied?

mass shootings every day. funding being cut. school lunches— which were already the bare minimum in terms of nutrition— being removed. those alone would give anyone trauma, but even without those things the power structures inside of the average public school are designed to wring the individuality out of a child. (and that’s not even mentioning the way that neurodivergent kids are left out to dry by the school system, or how any marginalized kid can be tortured by their peers with no repercussions!) it’s designed to be miserable, and yet somehow people are surprised that kids don’t want to be there.

sandy hook happened in 2012, and nothing changed. uvalde ten years later, and still nothing. kids were forced back into overcrowded, unsanitary classrooms while covid was still killing thousands every day— most after having missed critical social development during lockdown, which there was no support for recovering from. children are being forced to see politicians debate the “ethics” of feeding them, letting them express their gender identity, allowing them to access accurate information about history as if their futures are just hypothetical. along with that is the social media boom, where marginalized people can create communities like never before, and those same kids are realizing that the systems they’ve been shoved into are broken. they’re being showed how awful the situation really is, and still completely powerless to change anything.

can you imagine having to go through all that and still pass your standardized fucking tests? my god, it’s a wonder that schools aren’t completely empty by now. we’re getting there though— i can’t count how many stories i’ve heard of kids dealing with truancy charges because of how many days of school they’ve “skipped” due to extreme anxiety or burnout. i’m one of them! i barely graduated in 2018, and the conditions were leagues better then!

people bitch about the “decline in intelligence” between generations, as if it’s the kids fault for the state of the world, as if this isn’t the inevitable conclusion for the public school system in this country. it feels deliberately ignorant— have you not watched the news recently? does it not evoke any empathy, does it not fill you with rage? how in the world could you pin the blame on kids here?

everyone says protect the children, and yet. fuckin sickening.

#mm says stuff #sorry for the rant i’m pissy about something i saw on twitter #people bitching about kids ‘skipping school’ because they were too anxious or depressed #like be fr right now #i BARELY graduated bcos of school shooting anxiety & bullying making me burn out so hard in high school #i can’t imagine how bad my sisters have it now. christ #have empathy for kids these days ™️ #they have it worse than you can fuckin imagine #school shooting mention

[synthshenanigans]

the fact there's a parallel universe out there where he actually named the channel "sneeb" instead of "chonny jash" terrifies me.

#like “man did you see sneebs upload today?” “aw yea it was good as hell i love sneebs voice” #“man sneebs song really hit me today it got me rlly emotional” #“damn sneeb rlly knows how to make a good melody” #“did you know sneebs album is a metaphor for depression?” like i do not want to live in that world that name is so unserious #like no one would EVER take you seriously #a joke name off of johnny cash is one thing but like....*sneeb* #i don't wanna be the me that talks about some guy named sneeb all day #i dont want on cover duty like your name was fuckin sneeb in my song man #i cant #also i almost typed sneeb snogs instead of sneeb songs #the evil chonny jash is sneeb #sneebs shitty sophisticated syllabus #its like 3am bro idk what im saying #chonny jash

[citrine-elephant]

thinking about chris and leon, on their own, being grumpy and miserable

but when they're around each other it's that chaotic kind of friendship where you're up at ungodly hours cackling over the stupidest shit bcuz you're sleep deprived

and then they're yelled at to shut the fuck up cuz other people are trying to sleep-

#chreon #resident evil shipping nonsense #it can be both platonic and romantic! #the single depressed braincells combine to cancel each other out #then it's one adhd braincell #all im thinking of is leon trying to get chris to lose his fuckin shit with each dumb oneliner #and thinking of claire teasing chris about how the two giggle with each other like they're dating #will also think of purely platonic bro cuddles #cant decide if i like to romantically ship them or just like them being very very close friends #leon sleeping on chris like the cat he is... #chris bear hugs #i am sleepy and pining for happiness lol

[soldier-poet-king]

Said fuck it I'm so depressed I'm gonna get the yellow couch. I love yellow. I need this. It's no more expensive than the other colours, it's just in backorder. I'll sit on the floor for a few months til it is available again idgaf.

#the duality of fran #IM SO DEPRESSED #YELLOW COUCH. YELLOW COUCH SAVE ME. SAVE ME YELLOW COUCH #anyway so yellow couch. sage green and terracotta coloured furniture #(plus neutral browns. im only repainting the really cheap shitty secondhand furniture #i have a few actually decent pieces from relatives thatll stay natural wood) #but yeah gonna think abt my yellow couch or else i might die. idk. SHITS BAD #also so fuckin stressed about [redacted work thing] that i am so afraid i fucked up

[doubledyke]

man courage the cowardly dog plushies are almost as fucked up looking (affectionate) as eene plushies

#im not really a plushie person but im so depressed i need a hug from that little pink dog 😔 i love him so much #there aren't a ton of licensed ones and the handmade ones are cute but are always really small #there was a gary the snail plush at a thrift store recently that i wanted but it had PLASTIC EYES..... and one of them was fuckin broken #i'd still love an eene plush but whatever i'll just have to make do with my eddy cube #my roommate saw him sitting on my bookshelf the other day and was like “...what the fuck is that” lmfaooooo he's so jealous of my swag

[crippleddetective]

who has ever said that in the history of ever. what is cruel about wanting our own fucking exclusive space without able-bodied people in it. for someone with blah blah i drink abled tears or whatever the fuck on your profile, you sure do a lot of abled bootlicking.

#cpunk #cripple punk #cripplepunk #this is fucking ridiculous #fuckin ‘anyway you fucking insane people’ are you serious #who has ever swid anything like that #ever #in this community #wanting an exclusive phys disabled only space isnt fucking ableist . go and make your own punk space if you care so much about this. #idc #just because mental illness/disability has physical symptoms does NOT make it a physical problem. #my boyfriend can be bedridden by his depression that doesn’t mean he’s literally physically incapable of moving #in those moments its a mental block not an actual physical block. its still mental #even if it affects him physically its still mental #ykwim #same goes for mental disabilities as a whole #which may i add i have A Multitude of so dont come cruing at me about being an exclusionist #i have Literal Brain Damage do not fucking try me #but. YKWIM #phoenixonwheels

[milkweedman]

More handspun linen blanket work. Feels super nice, even though theres lots of, idk what it would be called but bits of undesirable vm that ought to have been threshed out. When im finished ill give it multiple good beatings and thrashings that should soften it up, and then im hoping to dye it with some oregon grapes.

I actually have a whole ton of dyestuff ive been collecting in the freezer that i need to turn into dye, bc im moving very soon and i dont want to be bringing bags of frozen berries and pits and peels with me.

Also gonna go harvest this in a minute--its a horrifically overgrown patch of oregano, and i read a few days ago that you can get a dark, almost black dye out of the dried stems. And i dont even like oregano as a spice, so... just gonna get the stems.

#not sure what im gonna do about all my plants in the ground.... #digging up the sorrel and the thyme for sure #the lavender might just be too big and the bees love it so much #so i might have to leave it which depresses me deeply #whoever lives here next can have the fuckin oregano tho. my god. grew like mad #knitting #handspun yarn #gardening #natural dyeing #linen #flax spinning

[mqkoeyes]

advent children sefikura is better than sex. objectively

#sefikura #advent children #ff7 #“post-advent children” SIGN ME THE FUCK UP!!! #cloud wearing his ac outfit and everything #uygghhhh fuck #advent children has me in such a firm chokehold i can't escape #like yes sephiroth is back and he is here to fuck with cloud #literally and figuratively #mentally and physically #and cloud is fuckin depressed and sad and kinda going crazy #splendid #fuckkkkk that shit is my shit

[merry-the-cookie]

take off your mask this halloween if you dare… but you might find there are monsters hiding among men 🐺👻🧛🏻

#5sos #5 seconds of summer #artsos #calum hood #ashton irwin #luke hemmings #michael clifford #my art #ill come back to tag anything i forgot later i am. kaput #way more effort than warrants whats basically a shitpost tbh #the fact that these were so fuckin last minute as well despite the concept having been in my brain for months #thank u depression <3 #monster!sos au #monster!sos