#i was so excited to see their story animated

[llamagoddessofficial]

hello llama

i have been thinking and headcanoning about vampire bad sanses lately, so i was curious if you have any thoughts about or interest in vampires of the nightmare and crew variety? (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

"do i have interest in vampires", he asks

ok, i will share my extensive vampire brainrot. but in return..... you have to write that vampire fic.... oooOOooO look into my eyes you know you want to write it ooOoOooo 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

I very much like the idea of Nightmare's castle being Castlevania-style. Lots of spooky architecture, lots of ancient magical passages that haven't been seen in centuries.

Horror can be summed up in one word. Bloodlust. There's a constant hunger inside him he can't ever seem to fill, driving him almost to the point of madness. He is more beast than man. When he smells or tastes blood, he loses control of himself, becoming little more than a starving wild animal - his capability for slaughter is limited only by his appetite. So unless Nightmare requires it, he generally abstains from blood. He doesn't like losing himself so entirely.

Something about you makes him forget his hunger. Is it your voice? Your scent? He has no idea, but oh, it feels good to feel whole. When you're around it's as if he'll never be hungry again... he follows you like a dog, grinning intensely every time you look at him. This is one hound that can't be shaken.

Despite his 'condition', he finds a lot of solace in cooking. Nothing will give him the same drug-like rush as blood but human food is nonetheless warm and filling and distracts him momentarily from the emptiness. He enjoys the process of making it, too, doing something with his hands. Let him cook for you, please? Watching you eat brings him vicarious joy.

Dust's backstory is one of legend. Something resembling a story can be spun from the loose whispers. A vampire invaded his peaceful isolated village hundreds of years ago, intending to turn the helpless populace into enslaved vampires. Dust, the first to be bitten, turned and slaughtered them all himself - and despite being a vampire for barely a week, the equivalent of a stumbling newborn, he killed the centuries-old invading vampire in single combat.

No one's quite sure why he's joined Nightmare. Perhaps Nightmare was keen to take this uniquely violent creature under his wing, and Dust just didn't really care where the wind took him. Or perhaps he has some other motive, hidden beneath that silent face. Who knows.

... Dust might be quiet, but it's obvious he's fixated on you. Which is a big deal. This is a creature who hasn't mustered a second thought for anything but blood for decades; but somehow, you've excited him. He's very clearly interested in you, silently watching your every move, listening intently to every word you say. Too bad he's not much for conversation.

Killer's backstory, on the other hand, is shrouded entirely in mystery. No one knows where he came from, who he is, or what he's done. He simply appeared one day - right within the coveted inner circle of Nightmare himself. He's the Night King's most trusted weapon, and the closest thing he has to a friend.

Killer seems very clear about what he wants. He thinks you're adorable, and he says you'd make such a pretty vampire. He talks (at length) about how much he wants to bite you, and how if it were up to him you'd already be one of them. A lot of his flirting involves calling you things like sweet treat and honeyblood. However... despite all the taunting, all the talk of seeing you as food, Killer is the one in the castle who treats you with the most respect. The others seem to see you as an object, a cute toy, something to squish and own. Killer talks to you like you're a real person. You can't help but like him for it.

Nightmare's inferiority complex has driven him to declare himself the king of the vampires. No one contests - Nightmare is royalty by blood, and vampires place a lot of emphasis on blood. But even if he wasn't, Nightmare frequently murders those who won't bend the knee. Plenty of powerful vampires have fallen embarrassingly fast at his hand.

... Nightmare's goal is to make you agree to be his spouse. A pretty little human partner would be excellent for his image. It would not only demonstrate his incredible self control as such an ancient vampire (not to mention his control over his warriors), but it would also show that his power is so great he doesn't need to strike a political marriage with another powerful vampire. It might also convince some of the pesky rebellious human groups to settle down.

His pride means that he won't force you. Not yet, at least. He likes to think he can seduce you. He's a royal vampire, after all, and you're just a simple human - isn't it only a matter of time?

... But it seems like, as time goes on... he's the one falling.

#llamagines #whatever you do don't think about you accidentally cutting your finger and triggering horror's bloodlust #don't think about the other vampires rushing in and trying to restrain him in a panic. but even the three of them can't hold him back #don't picture him pinning you with his jaws wide open... #then don't imagine him freezing. tears beginning to fall out of his sockets as he draws you into his arms #dont think about him pressing his teeth against your throat but not biting #almost as if he wants to feel your pulse so he knows youre alive and he hasnt hurt you without realising #don't think about how he seems just as confused and scared as you are #ok thank you for not thinking abt that

[imogenisgod]

MAJOR EP C3 95 SPOILERS LOOK AWAY

Marisha, Matt, and Liam did such a good job. Marisha handling and rping for Laudna this episode was insanely good.

Her choices for Laudna where Laudnas mind is at right now made perfect sense. She believes she hasn’t lied, she is being gaslit, she is trying to protect those she loves, she is trying to protect Imogen. It was everything and so angsty and I choked the shit out of my stuffed animal while watching the whole thing.

It was absolutely even more heartbreaking when Imogen and her were on the roof. The repeating of i love you, asking if she’s still fun more than scary needing to know that what she’s doing didn’t ruin the one thing she is trying so very hard to protect. That love that’s also in Imogen making the poor girls heart shatter because she loves this woman but Laudna is sick not in an evil way, but a genuine sick way. An addiction way that neither of them or anyone knows how to control or help or aid in the slightest.

Matt’s voice syncing with Marisha was top notch! He did a great job and I think that entire scene will play in my head for awhile. From start to finish. Matt is an amazing story teller, amazing at balancing everything and going through the tension and making the angst so good. He genuinely has a brilliant mind. (The rest of the cats do to ofc)

Liam’s emotions as Orym were just as heartbreaking. I couldn’t help but understand him and also be mad at him. I am hella biased with how much I love Laudna, tho. I don’t think he was wrong, but at the same time I can see why it would upset Laudna of all people as well with or with your Delilah’s influence. But Orym was hurt so badly, he had his life shredded and torn apart because of this blade and reclaiming it for good, to fight against evil is a beautiful and growth filled thing to do.

What a brilliant fantastic episode! I genuinely think it’s one of my favorites in c3. It had a lot of things I’ve been waiting for, and things I didn’t even know I wanted. I cant wait for thé next episode, i am vibrating with excitement!

#critical role #critrole #bells hells #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #imogen temult #imodna #imogen and laudna #laudna cr #orym of the air ashari #c3e95 #laudna critical role #critrole spoilers

[tobiasdrake]

Have you read the Dragon Ball Super manga? You've stated in the past that you're more of a fan of the original manga than the anime adaptation, so I was curious what your thoughts are on the current continuation of Toriyama's original manga, seeing as how the manga had some Toriyama supervision and was based on his notes.

While I do prefer the manga to the anime, I will say that both versions of Dragon Ball Super are hit-or-miss. There are basically three creatives at work with DBS.

Toriyama, up until his passing, would write story notes and some individual plot points down and pass them off to Toei and to Toyotaro. Lotta To- names floating around Dragon Ball.

...he said with no sense of self-awareness at all.

But this is Toriyama twenty or thirty years later, so he's not exactly the same creator that wrote the original manga. His memory of his own work has drifted; For instance, while writing Battle of Gods, he forgot that Super Saiyan 2 even existed and thought SSJ3 was SSJ2.

It had been a long time for him. He only got back into Dragon Ball because Dragon Ball: Evolution pissed him off. Explaining in the 30th Anniversary Super History Book:

"Dragon Ball once became a thing of the past to me, but after that, I got angry about the live action movie, re-wrote an entire movie script, and now I'm complaining about the quality of the new TV anime, so it seems that DB has grown on me much that I can't leave it alone."

The movie script he rewrote was, of course, Battle of Gods.

Famously, after seeing Evolution, Toriyama basically marched into Toei to see what they were making, ripped up the script for Battle of Gods, and rewrote the whole thing. He was just. So. Incensed. By Hollywood's butchering of his work.

So, in a twisted way, we have Dragon Ball: Evolution to thank for the resurrection of the Dragon Ball brand. I know, it's so weird.

This was Toriyama's formal return to the world of Dragon Ball after decades of just writing little story bits here and there or designing a character or two. Though just writing story bits here or there is more or less what he settled back into with Super. Toriyama would write notes about what he wanted to happen and deliver them to Toei and to Toyotaro, and the two would separately interpret those notes into their own vision.

You can tell what's from Toriyama versus what's from Toei or Toyotaro based on what plot points end up being hit by both versions versus what's unique to one interpretation or the other.

So, this:

Gohan facing down the fused Kefla and sacrificing himself in a double KO to take her off the field? That's Toyotaro.

Super Saiyan Blue Kaio-ken? That's Toei.

Goku has never kissed Chi-Chi in 20+ years of marriage because he's aroace and they're basically playing house for keeps? That's Toriyama.

Android 17 being the key factor in winning the Tournament of Power because his Android energy can't be sensed the way ki can, that's something that came down from Toriyama. 17 pretends to self-destruct using the bomb he doesn't have anymore; The one Krillin once used Shenron to remove from him.

But Toei has 17 emerge for the fight with Jiren, so he can briefly join Goku and Frieza in fending Jiren off - before they tell him to fuck off because he's not supposed to be in this scene.

While Toyotaro has him remain hidden under his cloak of ki-sensing invisibility for a last-second surprise.

But like I said before: Writing Dragon Ball again after twenty years away out of spite towards a bad American production, Toriyama isn't the same creative he was when this was all fresh and new and exciting. He was just as prone to characterization slip-ups and questionable decision-making as Toei and Toyotaro are.

I mean. That was even happening in the original manga. Remember that time when any part of the Android arc honestly? Good times. Nobody's perfect.

So, like I said, with Super, it's really hit or miss on both sides. Sometimes Toriyama's collaborations with Toei give us the heartwarming and beautiful friendship relationship between Broly and his new pals Cheelai and Leemo.

Or this. Especially this.

Nothing in Dragon Ball has ever, EVER been as funny as when Goku and Vegeta made Frieza hold the line against Broly, a nemesis Frieza brought to Earth to kill Goku and Vegeta. Taking advantage of his berserker rage in the most comical and beautifully karmic way possible to buy them time to work out the Fusion Dance.

And sometimes they give us yet another version of the Gotenks failed fusion joke they need to flog like a dead horse every single time a Fusion takes place in any piece of media they have ever produced.

DO YOU REMEMBER THAT TIME DO YOU REMEMBER DO YOU FUCKING REMEMBER THAT TIME IT WAS SO FUNNY DO YOU REMEMBER IT

That is Fusion Reborn, Yo Son Goku and Friends Return, DBS: Broly, and DBS: Super Hero in order.

And for his part, sometimes Toriyama's collaborations with Toyotaro gives us Goku lighting the fuck up like Spirit Korra.

And sometimes it gives us Vegeta learning how to teleport from the Yardratians but then immediately swearing off ever using it again because... I guess the move has Goku's cooties on it or something.

"Vegeta, you can teleport!"

"No, I cannot! I demand divergent character evolution from this manga so I will forever forego ever learning the cool and useful techniques that you use, Kakarot. What do you mean my dialogue sounds like a fourth-wall breaking author screed?"

This is honestly one of my "favorite" things that ever happens in Super. Vegeta refuses to learn Ultra Instinct, the ultimate martial art of the gods taught by Whis, and demands another path to the same kind of power that does not exist.

Then Beerus, a character who has long been established as vastly inferior to Whis, is like "Wanna learn this other thing that's just as good as Whis's thing I swear?" and helps Vegeta learn a new art where he... *checks notes* ...lets his opponent punch him in the face without defending himself until he dies.

This is where you end up when your mission statement is to not do the things that actually work for the intelligent martial artist and instead do the opposite out of spite. You end up with a fighting style that's built around losing fights on purpose.

Toyotaro somehow manages to shill the hell out of Vegeta and downplay Goku while also making Vegeta look like the most useless idiot ever. Ultra Ego is the worst transformation in the history of Dragon Ball and I'm convinced that Beerus helped Vegeta develop this as a prank.

He's up there right now laughing his ass off.

So. Yeah. There's a lot to like but also a lot to not like about both versions of Super. It's very different from what the original manga is, and it has very different pluses and minuses between the two versions. But there are some gems to be found here.

And the biggest gem is this guy.

#dragon ball #dragon ball super #son goku #vegeta #broly

[floweroflaurelin]

🎶 The Crown…

Pix now wears the Crown… 🎶

—

The moment of recognition when that ancient and powerful thing deep in the catacombs… discovers the Crown.

#empires smp #pixlriffs #empires smp fanart #pixlriffs fanart #empires fanart #empires pixlriffs #empiresblr #floweroflaurelin art #mcyt fanart #mcyt #mcytblr #gif #animated #aha! by making that post about not having time to make fanart I tricked you all into not expecting any #thus freeing myself from the pressure of feeling like I have to get fanart done for major story beats #and allowing me to have the motivation to procrastinate my thesis and make stuff for fun instead! #anyway this is the same crown design I did AGES ago but it’s all tarnished now #I’m so excited to have it back the way everyone covets it is so good #I mean THEE historian sees it and instead of preserving it he puts it on his head and comments on how well it fits?? #he’s never had any interest in telling people what to do and then declares himself king and threatens those who disobey with ‘punishment’?? #everyone who sees it is driven to do anything in their power to get it for themselves? #what does the Crown want. what does it get out of this. it is so very much a cursed object and I love it

[akkivee]

the mood is still like this pic of reol, femme fatale’s writer, in between the chuuoku seiyuu btw lmao

#vee queued to fill the void #reol’s thing is praying hands emoji but i see that look in her eyes LOL #having a holy moment fr lol and yeah i feel the same opening up my pics to look at stage chuuoku lol #i am so curious how the stage is about to interpret chuuoku lol i saw one post in the wake of the drop #that reminisced on the 10th live and watching the three of them stand as one as the series antagonists #and hoping that despite them being the villains they won’t be depicted as sheer villains by the story #like the chuuoku women are not good people by any means (except nemu she’s trying her best lol) #but they’re still sympathetic people shaping a world against one that shaped them and it was very profound lol i don’t disagree #this is making me want to ramble about canon lol but i hope the stage crew puts in as much thought into who the chuuou ladies are #as they do the og divisions lol i’m kinda expecting something closer to late game otome and anime ichijiku lol #and as for nemu i hope she’s already free from her brainwashing lol #honobono inori and tsukuyomi might be narrative foils for our main three the possibilities are endless it’s so exciting lmao

[theunicornastronaut]

Okay, but would everyone prefer it if Netflix releases Wednesday on a weekly basis like I'm seeing them do with other shows?

Like, it would be so nice to discuss each episode and pick out clues and over-analyze and scream over character interactions. It'll make the fandom stronger, keep people coming BACK to Netflix for however many weeks, and promote the show because people keep talking about it.

Idk, maybe I'm just getting old but I would much prefer one episode at a time so I'm not pressured into binging it and missing a bunch of stuff a lot of people worked really hard on, just to participate in the fandom.

Has Netflix even specified how Wednesday's being released?

#wednesday #wednesday netflix #wednsday addams #wenclair #cause why not #wenclair is my home and i am curious #netflix is releasing dungeon meshi weekly #and it's so fun seeing the previews every week and actually getting to ENJOY the animation music and story #instead of rushing through to the end #anyway was just thinking about this cause of all the season 2 stuff #super excited about it

[starsandthorn]

yknow i was a little miffed when yoimiya got her second story quest but i can't even be mad that cyno's getting his. he's been around since manga days he deserves it

#personal stuff #delete later #like good for him. also who is that. i know a playable design when i see one #like we are FINALLY GETTING PERMANENT HERMANUBIS LORE. #ARLECCHINOOO. OH MY GODDD #I CANNOT BELIEVE SCYTHE ARLE REAL. i avoided looking at leaks for so long and her animations are SO nice wtf #her WING??? #OH MY GODDD??? SHE'S THE NEW WEEKLY BOSS??? #SHE LOOKS SO FUCKING COOL. HER WINGS #HEY WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE. FURINA OR NEUVILLETTE STORY QUEST 2 WHERE? #are they pushing stuff back. no dain quest last patch no archon or equivalent quest this patch :( #yes i am soo excited to see her lines about the other harbingers #still biting the bars of my cage why are there so many black white and red hyv characters coming out at the same time #STILL CANNOT BELIEVE WE'RE GOING TO REMURIA. RIPS AND TEARS #OH SHIT IT'S RELATED TO PETRICHOR. WE'RE GETTING THAT TOO. #wtf kitty event was foreshadowing. new talking cat #so we're not getting dornman port... :( #oh hey cool dvorak is coming back #new horn instrument!! it looks neat #ah. windtrace :/ i'm not one for co-op events i was hoping fr something else. good for you guys though #NATLAN CRUMBS WOOO #okay. overall looks like a neat update i'm looking forward to petrichor a lot. PLEASE say gourmet supremos. PLEASE. #i've been waiting so long to see them please let them come back... #also arlecchino looks cool as hell. #a little disappointed that no furina or neuvillette or dain quest but what can you do. #maybe we'll get a dain one next patch since we're getting remuria now? probably not but i can dream #checked the voice actors list under the trailer. oh hey we're seeing childe again

[wildflowercryptid]

wistfully thinking about my beloved delphox from my original x playthrough. if only you could've seen this, kuranosuke...

#i don't have him anymore unfortunately i traded him over to my brother for safekeeping #but he wasn't on any of his carts when i checked them so i guess he's gone 🥲 #and yes i named him after the princess jellyfish character i was very into the anime at the time #xy has a very special place in my heart the plot is a mess and doesn't flesh out or utilize its characters very well #but it's also the first game that i got very attached to my team and made me fall in love w/ the franchise #it's also got the best post-game storyline of the mainline games to me #i'm excited to see kalos again i can't wait to learn more about the game #also if it's set not too long after xy then we better see emma again my girl deserves some focus in the main story #it'd be so fun if we actually get to join the looker bureau and protect the city w/ emma i'd love that!! #mj.txt

[dent-de-leon]

wE'RE GONNA GET THE REVEAL OF MOLLY'S WHOLE BACKSTORY WITH LUCIEN ANIMATED! WE'LL GET "MY FIRST MEMORY, MY OLDEST MEMORY--IS DIRT IN MY FACE. UNDERGROUND." "I LIKE THIS PERSON--THIS PERSON, RIGHT NOW, IS A GOOD PERSON. IS A FINE PERSON. IS A HAPPY PERSON--"

FLASHBACKS OF MOLLY CRAWLING OUT OF THE GRAVE, ALONE AND REPEATING "EMPTY" OVER AND OVER. THE MOMENT WHEN HE ADMITS UNDER ZONE OF TRUTH, "I LEFT EVERY TOWN BETTER THAN I FOUND IT--"

Caleb still calling him Mollymauk Tealeaf, and Molly just being so grateful and unexpectedly relieved. The way he says so softly, "This was not how I expected this to go...thank you." Molly holding onto Yasha for comfort and thanking her too, so happy he wasn't abandoned--

#watching the lucien backstory reveal live was AMAZING and made me so excited about molly's story and just #knowing ill get to feel that away again and see it all animated for the first time #this moment when molly really became my favorite character and how he finds this comfort and freedom in forging a new identity-- #also the way we'll see him panic when he first hears the name lucien ;; fLASHBACKS OF BITS AND PIECES OF LUCIEN'S MEMORIES?? #DREAMS OF THE SOMNOVEM? JUST. THAT MOMENT WHEN MOLLY SAYS #'WHATEVER IT WAS IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD WHEN I--THE MOMENT WHEN SOMETHING CREEPS THROUGH...' #'I DONT LIKE IT. I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT--' what if...we get to see what that looks like. the moments when #he feels lucien's consciousness bleeding in-- #sorry every time i remember animated nein is happening i just get so excited to see my tief

[mazojo]

Oshi no ko can actually be so personal

#finalllyyyyy watching the first ep I know I know I am late #diD YALL SEE KANA DID YALL DID YALL SHE WAS THERE I SAW HER MY QUEENNNN #Oh and aqua was there too ig #THE ANIMATION IS SO GOOD BROOO EVEN THO I HAVE MY QUESTIONS ABOUT THE STORY I LOVED THE ANIMATION #me is excited #anime #oshi no ko #onk #manga

[cubedmango]

seiyuus confirming the anime is gonna have its own original scenes and change stuff from the manga lets Go!!! Ive Won Once Again!!!!!!!!!

#when adaptations do their own thing!!!!!!!!! >>>>>>> #and itll be esp good for the anime bc some parts of the manga esp the earlier volumes are. kinda not good #so rlly hoping they do the rd approach of having majorly the same overall story but also fixing things up where the manga wasnt super great #but ahhhh still its so exciting seeing these interviews and how the voice acting process goes too #tho i hope we get mor stuff on the animation part too i need to see the little guys moving #my post

[caluupin]

wow they really be drip marketing a bit more than usual lol, 4.7 got clorinde, sigewinne, and sethos.

I did hear that clorinde AND sigewinne are going to show up but I didn't really expect sethos along with them.

#caluutalks #I did hear that clorinde and sigewinne are going to be 5 stars. so I'm interested on whatever hoyo's cooking atm. #Also. since i didnt see hoyo's post about cyno's story quest details I'm taking it as his story quest being available in second phase. #which idm that much but still. I guess it helps with patch pacing n stuff #back to arlecchino! I am excited for 4.6 for her as well. she really REALLY rose up in the favorites department and I'll probs pull her #but when there's only like a few days before the sec phase. just cause. #either way #I'll be having fun. so maybe expect more genshin doodles n stuff. maybe #just from the teaser+animated short we know that she's just. that complex. she's thought provoking. I want to study her under a microscope. #anyways. brain stopped braining. If i have more arlecchino thought's I'll talk more or whatever. #welp! cya later my dear fellows

[gorgynei]

when i say i like m9 > vm i do NOT mean that in a "i think c2 is a better story than c1" way. c1 lives in my heart forever and ever and so does vox machina, i just find the character in c2 more personally compelling. campaign one is one of the most touching and emotional stories ive ever had the pleasure of watching. every time i think about the highs and lows, vax's late campaign stuff, perc'ahlia, bards requiem, the vestige hunting, vecna, vaxleth, the conclave, the briarwoods- its like. its so so so insanely good. c2 has some arcs i dont love, some villains i find a bit boring, and some boss battles i wasn't very invested in. campaign one does not. its home run after home run. AND it has a bittersweet ending. im sorry to c2 supremacists but. c1 is just unmatched. unmatched.

#i rewatched part of dalens closet (vax part) and well i cried. so ! vm feelings #also this is why i'm more excited to see m9 animated. vm already have a perfect story. m9 have a lot more to gain from letting their #story get tweaked and shuffled around #ramblings

[dredshirtroberts]

oh shit y'all.

i've done gotten invested in Gurren Lagann. we're like 19 episodes deep in this paint and i have been emotionally compromised by the silly mechs.

believe in the me.

#that believes in you #i was gonna say pray for me but that makes me actively uncomfortable so don't do that #but i figured the believe in me thing was fitting #gurren lagann #i don't know how deep this rabbit hole will go for me - but i have a drill so let's find out i GUESS #y'all i did not anticipate this being what happened to me in my 30s i thought i'd found all the anime i was going to be emotionally attache #to in my teens and HERE WE ARE I MISSED ONE I GUESS #i'm having a blast don't let my silly complaints fool you i like to be dramatically angry about things that delight me sometimes #the THEMES the MOTIFS the STORY IT'S TELLING #UGH #SO GOOD #i don't want to hear criticism about it because it's BEAUTIFUL and I LOVE IT #we're watching kill la kill when we get done with gurren lagann and i am SO EXCITED about that trigger knows my weaknesses #and it's goofy faces and tiddies while dealing with really deep subject matter in a ridiculous way #also apparently mechs? wasn't anticipating that one at all i am ambivalent about mechs in general #but BOY HOWDY DID I CRY WHEN DAI-GURREN HAD TO EXPLODE ITS SWORD OFF #anyway... where was i #oh yeah so anyway in case you haven't guessed yet this taking over my brain slowly but surely and i'm sure there will be at least one #attempt at fic in the future for me we'll see how it goes #in the meantime... #oh yeah fun fact #i fucking thought gurren lagann the mech was from gundam and so when i started recognizing it i went THAT'S WHERE IT'S FROM?? but in my hea #because i didn't actually watch gundam i was ambivalent about mechs as stated earlier but of the gundams that one was my favorite #AND IT'S NOT EVEN A GUNDAM I FEEL SLIGHTLY LIED TO BUT IN A GOOD WAY SOMEHOW??? #anyway we're having a super normal one over here don't mind me

[crimeronan]

i am so miserable these days it's unreal. let's hear it for the misery folks everyone give it up for the misery 👏👏👏

#i do nothing but sleep and then overeat out of stress and pain and then become more stressed and pained and sleep more #nothing excites me nothing is worth waking up for nothing makes me passionate or happy #i wake up every day after awful nightmares and the first thing i notice is the agony in my hips and it does not improve #i cry 2-3 times a week when i used to never cry at all while on my bipolar meds #i have stories i fall in love with (like the silt verses) but they only fleetingly hold my attention compared to the past #every time i flap about headcanons it's a little more desperate a little more transparently trying to escape my body #having more and more days where i simply play phone games all day because i'm in so much pain that #even merely scrolling tumblr or trying to watch tv / youtube makes me feel pukey #i need to see a doctor really bad aha. except theyre just going to say #you're fat and out of shape. stop eating everything and take a walk #completely disregarding that my hips are both subluxing with every goddamn step i take #it's fucking horrible. it's fucking horrible in here and if i was an animal they'd put me down out of kindness #unfortunately. i am a human being. #negative #disordered eating / #food / #i GUESS. #autoimmune tag

[primsycoldbottles]

guy who wants to watch cool movies but the cool movies dont give a shit about photosensitive people :/

#peach patter #this is abt the newest spiderverse #and eeaao but ive mostly gotten over that #i wanna watch it so bad . i know its absolutely an incredible story . and im excited others get to enjoy it #but damn i wish ppl werent praising atsvs animation to the heavens and higher when it very specifically Does Not care abt photosensitive pp #itsv was bad about this . i could barely watch it . but i keep seeing atsv gifs that are even worse than itsv was #idunno . just complaining . i wish intense flashing wasnt made so normal in movies for the sake of awe or fantastical viewing #or at least that flashing was reduced to the safe limit of flashes per second . or that faster flashes were in very short scenes #and i only get migraines triggered by flashing/eyestrain . people are going to experience seizures because no one is warning them-- #how bad/frequent the flashing is . people are going to FIND OUT for the first time they have epilepsy from this movie . its dangerous #and the movie gives no warning . itvs doesnt give warning either . if ur affected u just kinda have to hope u get warned beforehand #whatever sorry this is my bitching session . not gonna delete it but dont be weird okay ? okay <3